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/benz/ and /psy/ - what do you think? by Wesley Binkinshaw - Sun, 16 Jul 2017 09:24:53 EST ID:rVF6pFBu No.136223 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i know that people mainly use benzos and psychedelics together when they need to stop a bad trip, but I was wondering if benzos and psychedelics make for a good combination on its own. I've read that it can reduce the mental part of a trip, but does it reduce visuals as well?
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Brain - Sun, 16 Jul 2017 15:37:55 EST ID:hOmWV+4Y No.136230 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136223
I've tried it once and honestly it wasn't fun. I did kill the mental to an extent but I got no visuals at all. It really fucked me up mentally for the majority of the trip. It's hard for me to explain because psy's put you in that introspective mental state.

Anyways I wouldn't recommend it. Hell, someone might even post they had a fucking blast. Everyone's different
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Nigel Horryshaw - Mon, 17 Jul 2017 20:15:52 EST ID:ejRvuaTg No.136257 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I tried taking etizolam right before a trip once to see what happened and it honestly barely even effected me. The only noticeable result was worse memory.
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Dr. Katz - Tue, 18 Jul 2017 15:51:36 EST ID:DmZpK76S No.136272 Ignore Report Quick Reply
In my opinion, the combination is EXCELLENT. Something more sedating such as mushrooms would need a lower dosage of your benzo of choice. But something like LSD could still have a mild to moderate dosage without diminishing many of the effects of the trips. Then you have the classical 2C-Xs that are hit/miss with benzos depending on your chemical choice. Psychedelics like DMT don't mix well with benzos unless you're having a harsh/confusing comedown that leads to a freakout.

I've known people throughout high school and college who've said claims such as: benzos completely stop the trip, benzos destroy ALL headspace, and benzos even diminish ALL OEVs/CEVs/auditory hallucinations.
I've also met plenty of people who won't trip unless they have benzos on them and/or already ingested.

In my experience, unless you're dosing ridiculous amounts of benzos + booze then you aren't really going to have that much of a diminished trip. The only effects that have ever been diminished for me were the headspace/introspection, but this was barely noticeable. In fact, the headspace had a bit more clarity allowing me to think while the visual/auditory component were consisten with the same dosage of LSD without benzodiazepines involved. Cognitive issues can appear and decreased memory of the trip are possible as well.

A lot of this is assuming that you aren't taking 1 gram of mushrooms or 50ug of LSD. Moderate to high dosages of psychedelics and benzos can certainly pair well. Low dosages of both substances could be positive for a more social event (i.e. a concert/festival), but much of what I'm discussing would be from a standpoint of "I took a shitload of psychedelics and won't be able to leave the house for several hours." The mindfuck that many experience on higher dosages of psychedelics is much less pronounced when on benzos.

>I recommend this, but know your dosages of both substances prior to trying
>Too high of a dosage of a benzodiazepine + a psychedelic could lead to a train wreck of an experience


Clonazepam not working or too high an expectation? by Nathaniel Gannergold - Mon, 17 Jul 2017 18:11:55 EST ID:F/3q7gjJ No.136253 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hi. I traded some weed for klonopin ones and I've been messing with them the past couple of days. I looked online that a heavy dosage for someone with no tolerance is 1-2 mg or +2 mg. I didn't wanna blackout so at first I took just a milligram. Didn't feel anything.

Next time I took two milligrams and this time I noticed my legs went limp. I had a hard time walking back to my apartment. Psychonautwiki listed all kinds of subjective effects like sedation, relaxation, loss of motor control, amnesia, euphoria, but I experienced only sedation. My limbs were like spaghetti, but otherwise I could swear I was sober.

Third time I took 3 mg which was a bad idea. At first I felt like something was about to happen. I was somewhat giddy but not euphoric and the feeling was extremely subtle. I had to focus on being high to experience it. I got a bit bummed out because even after a strong dose I felt like sober plus a loss of a couple of IQ points and a sudden muscle atropy disease. So I took another mg and drank a beer. I remember feeling a tad more buzzed from the beer than usual but nothing spectacular. I stayed at home and browsed stupid memes. Next thing I know it's the day after and I have no recollection of the past 12-16 hours. Apparently I slept and somehow managed to smudge my sheets in chocolate (thank god it really was chocolate. I almost flipped when I saw my bed).

Is this what clonazepam is like? Nothing spectacular until you take a blackout dose? Combining it with weed made me feel super sleepy and it kinda ruined the high. I'd rather drink syrup and smoke. Does clonazepam work against a bad acid trip?
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Nathaniel Gannergold - Mon, 17 Jul 2017 18:17:08 EST ID:F/3q7gjJ No.136254 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I should probably mention that I don't take any other medications or drugs besides weed and an occasional beer. I'm a tall man but I weight less than your girlfriend.
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Sophia !0R/XnN1IK. - Mon, 17 Jul 2017 18:57:20 EST ID:MPRjicNh No.136255 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You, my friend, don't have bad enough anxiety.
That's my best guess. When I was 19 and young and happy, a friend gave me Klonopin and told me how awesome it was.
Yeah. I took 4 pills (yellow, so I think I took 2mg total) and drank a few beers and I just felt the beers. Friend sold me a bottle so I took 8 one day. NOTHING.

5 Years later and 2mg of Klonopin relieves my eternal pain (lol). The relief from the crippling anxiety I suffer from IS the high.
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Nathaniel Gannergold - Mon, 17 Jul 2017 19:15:43 EST ID:F/3q7gjJ No.136256 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>136255
Well fuck, man. I guess I'm lucky I'm not anxious enough to get the actual therapeutical relieve from this. Still sucks. I should've kept the weed.


Finding a source by Oliver Bunham - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 00:34:06 EST ID:UUGF6Jw9 No.136003 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Usually use etiz but I wanna try xanax problem is I don't know anyone who has it and was jus wondering how you guys source yours?
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TinyTrip !5pb17tfZto - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 17:21:57 EST ID:SZZZFDIZ No.136115 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136084
Ain't gonna happen (sourcing = ban hammer) and I'll just let you know that the TRADITIONAL semi organized individuals from T.O expanded and flooded fent - etiz into my old region. Long story short the obvious outsiders were arrested with shitloads of pills and cash after people started dying.
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Lillian Blenkinfodge - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 20:10:04 EST ID:MkAhr4sB No.136116 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136115
Xanax is good for chilling, I have epilepsy, it helps with social anxiety too, haven't had any for a few weeks
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Phyllis Dumblebury - Sun, 16 Jul 2017 18:44:17 EST ID:fUl1nt8O No.136233 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136217
google, not being a smartass, but google
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Sophia !0R/XnN1IK. - Sun, 16 Jul 2017 18:48:50 EST ID:Qt9s+RoO No.136234 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>136217
Check Feddit, they have multiple subreddits about drugs and sources
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Sophia !0R/XnN1IK. - Sun, 16 Jul 2017 23:43:26 EST ID:MPRjicNh No.136242 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Tbh though I wouldn't buy Xanax unless it's from a trusted friend with a prescription. Too many asshats making presses with Etizolam and fentanyl and god knows what else in there. I won't take any pills unless they're from a trusted source.

Tldr; Buy etiz instead.


Local Etiz by Nigel Wigglebury - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 18:22:51 EST ID:fUl1nt8O No.136211 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Something weird just happened! I went to pick up my etiz from my box but it was closed (I didn't know their hours). So I was like FUCK, I guess I'll go buy some nootropics, and when I went in there, there was a sign that said "We no longer sell Etizolam". So I was like FUCK again, because I could've been getting it locally in emergencies like today. Still got some calm nootropic.

Then I had a small panic attack cause my first day of work is on Monday and I need my medication. Luckily I dug into my stuff and found some more etiz.

Anyway, obviously I won't tell you where I went, but has anyone seen etiz being sold locally? As great as that is, I feel like it's only going to make it outlawed faster. I thought they were a legit nootropic place, but seeing they sold etiz makes me see their hypocricy in their "vision". Someone either cracked down on them, or they were getting bad reports of people getting too fucked up or something. I didn't want to ask. Plus the person at the front wasn't the owner.
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Dr. Katz - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 19:22:42 EST ID:LNlHBoqv No.136212 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136211
I've never seen etizolam sold anywhere in person/a local shop.
I can't imagine how high the markup of prices compared to web-sourced powder or even web-sourced pellets would be.
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Nell Bellybury - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 19:31:37 EST ID:aV/7mHIl No.136213 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Was able to buy it locally in the UK until 2014. About 90p per 1mg pellet when buying 5, a bit cheaper if buying quantities like 20 or more
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Phyllis Dumblebury - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 21:14:07 EST ID:fUl1nt8O No.136215 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136212
Yeah it'd be interesting to know what their prices were. Their nootropics are also overpriced compared to online. That's all I can say without giving too much info though (sadly).


BenzoFury Thread by Nell Chanderway - Thu, 13 Jul 2017 16:45:28 EST ID:GpMxL1pa No.136183 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hey guys This is the new 6-APBenzo Fury Thread, please discuss it and everything you know about it/ all your experiences rolled into one post, but try to teach everyone else about it too and try to come back and answer everyones questions and also give updates about how Benzo Fury has affected your life And Don't give away sources but please tell me and everyone else if it is easy to get by just typing google and is it around $50/gram?

I had my first experience with Benzo Fury two days ago and my second experience with it yesterday. I have to say it feels much like etizolam mixed with ambien and maybe a touch of MDPV and maybe some 25p NBOMe. I would do it again today but I have to watch my moms dog and I'd rather not snort anything with him around because that is always awkward ha. So please re-read the OP and tell me everything that comes into your mind and please be a positive attitude and please remember we are all friends here so please be chill and post pictures that you think remind you of what you remember about every Benzo Furan trip you have ever had.
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Dr. Katz - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 09:49:39 EST ID:QNVJkgJ7 No.136194 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136193
exactly

I've seen this thread on a /psy/ and and couple other boards over the past year or two.
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Emma Dartfoot - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 01:34:54 EST ID:1/Dg7nv+ No.136206 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>136183
nb
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Edwin Fabberman - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 16:42:36 EST ID:GpMxL1pa No.136209 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136183
No no no everyone in this thread you guys don't know what you are talking about, Please only reply if you have some experiences with benzo fury you want to share with us and then we can talk about it and then this thread will finally be back on track.

Benzo fury is one of the craziest benzos you can take but at the same time I feel like it is my favorite benzodiazepine. Has anyone ever used it for help with panic attacks or anxiety attacts or general anxiety or everyday anxiety and how does that affect your life and would you say it is a good idea to take it everyday if it is for therapeutic reasons? I have been taking benzo fury just about every day and it has made my life very therapeutic and I enjoy everything now and I hope this will be a long term fix can anyone attest to that?

Now please share your experiences and only if you have taken benzo fury and we are not discussing any other benzos in this thread because that's why I made my own thread thank you.
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Nell Bellybury - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 19:33:10 EST ID:aV/7mHIl No.136214 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136209
6-APB isn't a benzodiazepine
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Eliza Femmerdale - Sat, 15 Jul 2017 22:49:21 EST ID:K4DwwT9K No.136218 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136209
>made my life very therapeutic

Well played Edwin.
Nb


How do you guys get your xanax? by Lillian Goshshit - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 14:11:29 EST ID:cHOebEdk No.136022 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have several drug dealers and none of them can get me prescription medication like xanax. How can I get xanax? How do you guys get it?
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asuka - Thu, 13 Jul 2017 00:09:28 EST ID:rSk8JXOp No.136174 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136135
lol im thinking of a specific video of someone pressing bars actually lmao, most people selling are resellers and that goes for everyone except for a small few who actually seem to have an idea of what they're doing. beyond that it's people who buy in bulk and break down the quantity for resale, no skill needed beyond sales. meanwhile it seems like pressed bars are getting better and better to the point where they're near exact replicas of pharm bars

I'm sure it's happened or that some people have made fent bars in intentional large numbers but the thing is that I doubt it's too common, since again alp is so cheap and likely obtained through similar channels so it's only gonna be people who really don't get it making fent bars. although you're right, crosscontamination is entirely possible if someone is pressing both fent blues and pressed bars.

>>136141

I mean, everything has fent in it now is the problem, it gets mixed up or cut into just about anything that can be cut, i think ive heard of fent coke and shit.

>>136158

If you can get them out of the bottle, that's probably best. But like, a lot of street dealers are going to have decent stuff. i mean i'm rambling at this point whatever
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Dr. Katz - Thu, 13 Jul 2017 00:53:21 EST ID:LNlHBoqv No.136178 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136174
I can't disclose much, but I have viewed a couple videos of individuals with pill presses that showed off their "op."
and yes, they're essentially pharma grade in appearance and function

nb
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Phyllis Wivingmag - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 03:33:59 EST ID:6nQLmNOE No.136189 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't. I ran into it once. I took 0.5mg with a minor-negligible tolerance to benzodiazapines due to anxiety brought on by an (anticipated but still alarming) high fever and confusion due to a combination of amphetamine and MDMA. I wanted to investigate just how likely an adverse event was when taking "ecstasy," and with a friend on the phone had a hot cup of herbal tea in hopes of replicating the thermogenesis brought on by dancing and the typical behaviours engaged in by consumers. This worked too well, as my body very suddenly lost control of it's thermostat. This went unnoticed, and within a short time, I was suddenly stricken with confusion and disorientation (which, in said confusion, I failed to associate with the hot liquid residing in my belly). At this point, I reflexively took the entire 0.5mg despite being cautioned of its potency, seeking a total obliteration of anxiety so that I might think clearly. Being prescribed clonazepam and having read of it's potency being comparable to that of alprazolam, I thought little of this decision.

I stripped naked, opened the window and set my fan on maximum, successfully bringing my body temp down within minutes. I assured my friend on the phone that I was now alright, and we said goodnight.

I was taking a moment to have an orgasm before finding some means of enjoying what remained of the MDMA experience, when the alprazolam finally hit me. My thoughts seemed to rather jarringly lose all inhibitions and I went to some places I have never returned to since. Despite my consumption of two stimulating substances (though real MDMA is actually quite relaxing and akin to a drunken relaxation, it will still cause prolonged wakefulness) and the fact I experienced less fatigue following climax due to tolerance, I was overcome with an overriding and urgent need to lay the fuck down and pass out. I think I managed one important nightly chore, my recollection of it lost to the abyss, before collapsing in bed and falling asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

This, like many things, was a one-time opportunity as despite it's unrivalled efficacy as a treatment for occasional insomnia I experience, my doctor refuses to prescribe, citing th…
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Phyllis Wivingmag - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 03:41:24 EST ID:6nQLmNOE No.136190 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136189
The alprazolam was a gift from the same individual I acquired the MDMA from, them being a friend and knowing of my love for being a connoisseur of substances the xanax was free of charge. I saw it come out of a bottle from a pharmacy, so it was the strength I report (I read the label).

You know, some of the best things in life are things that come free.
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Ebenezer Crusslenure - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 14:25:16 EST ID:eFYD5COy No.136198 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I used to live in an Asian country where you get cop over the counter from the right pharmacy if the pharmacist was cool, my local was an old dude running his own shop who would sell me Valiums, Xanax, Codeine even.

Since I got home, DNM.


thanks benzos by Lydia Sumbledock - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 00:47:49 EST ID:78yAH+eG No.136186 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Does xanax sometimes make you feel really depressed like suicidal depressed? asking for a friend.
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Basil Surryten - Fri, 14 Jul 2017 01:14:15 EST ID:2zZUZKZP No.136187 Ignore Report Quick Reply
personally yes but i feel xanax is the only one that seems to do that for me. i really hte xanax to be honest. has cause waaaay more trouble than good. i'm on klonopin now and it helps with my GAD without the shit side effects


Anyone not get SERIOUS benzo withdrawals? by High Strung - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 10:15:48 EST ID:c3BRZaHC No.136153 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Maybe I've asked this before but like.... here we go?

How many other people on /benz/ don't flip their shit when they don't have their benzos? I was on Xanax from Dec 2012-Feb 2014 and have been on Klonopin from Feb 2014-present. When I abuse my K-pins by gobbling them up, my withdrawals seem to be rather minimal compared to others

I hear/read stories of people having seizures, vomiting, cold sweats, body aches, feeling disoriented.... but I've had none of those happen to me. Sure, I'll be a little more.... high strung, paranoid incertain incidents, and suffer from insomnia unless I have some heavy doses of melatonin or some incida weed to smoke. Sometimes I'll have a crying fit or have a panic attack, but marijuana or CBD oil seems to kill that shit quick.

Anyone else like that? Why? Because so many fellow benzo addicts/prescribed patients tell me "God DAMN I wish I were you, if I went as long as you do without benzos I'd have a seizure and die!!!" (Note that I often disappear from the BWB thread for weeks on end)

Just wondering.
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Dr. Katz - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 12:09:18 EST ID:b3J78vCJ No.136160 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136153
Your usage pattern is one of the key components. If you stretched your usage out and took benzos every single day for months on end then things would be a different story entirely. However, you seem to have found a way to use clonazepam (and sometimes alprazolam) without any major withdrawal symptoms.

This month marks 5 years since I was first RX'd benzos.
I've never gone through full blown withdrawal, but I have had side effects from discontinuing or switching fast acting benzos.
The day after alprazolam I'm much more anxious, prone to panic, and have harsher insomnia. When I was on lorazepam + clonazepam I became agoraphobic and nauseous whether or not I took the lorazepam. I hate lorazepam.

The past 9+ months have been the best for my benzo usage. Diazepam has been what I always needed in a benzo. I only take diazepam a few days a week, so I always have more than half of my script at the end of the month. And then I have a PRN script for alprazolam. I'll go days and days without taking either. And sometimes I'll take up to 3-4 days a week consecutively or with a day or two break. Hell, my tolerance dropped too. I can get benz'd AF off of my daily allotment (30mg diazepam + 1.5mg alprazolam) since my usage drastically dropped last fall.
>Increased anxiety and insomnia are the only noticeable problems.


is gabapentin withdrawal as bad as benzo withdrawal? by Sidney Chumblesut - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 04:14:49 EST ID:wUF78CjV No.136150 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have just read a lot of people saying they think gabapentin withdrawl is almost as bad as benzo withdrawal. Sometimes though I wonder if people just blame everything on their drug withdrawal and go apeshit about it when in reality it becomes largely psycho-somatic (not that it isn't real but that it is basically produced by anxiety). Do you think this is true? Is gabapentin withdrawal anything like benzo withdrawal?
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Reuben Shakeville - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 04:40:18 EST ID:FW7P9c7Y No.136151 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Idk about benzo withdrawl, but I don't like to be without my Gabapentin. Im on 1.800mg a day and 10mg of suboxone a day


Fixing My Shit by Loots - Tue, 04 Jul 2017 02:01:55 EST ID:dkHfCfz0 No.136032 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Going to rehab soon, for alcohol. Have some pretty good anxiety to begin with. Shake a little all the time, avoid people at all times, couldn't pass speech class in high school because I had panic attacks on stage every time I tried to give speech, took SSRI's for about a year because I knew I would just abuse benzos if I got 'em.
Think I can get them to give me benzos? Or, what do to get them? I'm quitting opiates, booze and other shit. Now I really need something to control this shit. It's been years. I want a life.
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John Cedgebidging - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 22:30:39 EST ID:vV7YJBvz No.136118 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136032
If you have anxiety, alcohol isn't the way to go. It's too short lasting, and it punishes those who indulge in it, which is why it's legal to begin with. Society doesn't want people to be controlling their own emotions artificially without severe consequences.

Benzos are great. They're love, they're life, at least for me.

But they probably won't give you them, and if you're just gonna bitch about your dependence on them if you do get on them, then don't get them in the first place. You'll just be another person contributing to the bad reputation benzos get.
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TinyTrip !5pb17tfZto - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 16:59:37 EST ID:SZZZFDIZ No.136143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136032
Did ssri's remotely work for you?

If so I'd avoid benzodiazepines. I mean neither is healthy, but atleast your sertraline wd won't kill you.

Also, benzodiazepines are commonly prescribed for alcoholics to prevent seizures and minimize the negative affects of wd.

Other than the acute medical usage like that, I'm not sure many docs would hand over benzos without relatively close supervision.


My mind is torture. Benzos made it stop. Now I can't do them. Help me, /benz/. by Samuel Dindershaw - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 23:11:21 EST ID:o/XfG+R4 No.136119 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I am a person who can't get his head to shut up. I always overthink things and feel like I am separated from the outside world due to this veil of thought I live in. Life for me is not fun. It requires me to be apathetic just to even get through it. If I'm in an unfamiliar situation, I feel light-headed, disoriented, and depersonalized, and sometimes even nauseous. If I'm not, then I just feel mentally overstimulated, often to the point where I become irritable and unpredictable.

After graduating high school, I decided that I wasn't going to suffer anymore. I assumed that weed would help, as your stereotypical weed smoker always seemed so chill, but I guess I was wrong. It just made me more anxious when around others, and the smell it created was something I couldn't have living in an apartment. Eventually, I took to the internet for answers, did research on various kinds of drugs, their effects, legality, etc, and eventually decided to order some clonazolam.

For me, doing c-lam just made me feel like this giant mental load was lifted off my back. I was a bit sedated, but super relaxed. Honestly, it just made me the person I wanted to be. I didn't overthink things like I always do, I just enjoyed life, had fun, and appreciated life. My fears vanished, and I felt like I was able to appreciate everything. Unfortunately, it also fucked with my memory, but honestly, I'd trade an anxiety-ridden life of shitty memories for a benzed life of little memories at all any day.

Unfortunately, due to a new job I have that requires drug tests, it's been months since I've been on clam, but i still have dreams about being back on it, as it was the closest I've ever been to feeling happy and content. Before I ever did benzos, I was an unstable, unhappy individual who'd go through bouts of paranoia. I'd take being dependent on a drug any day over having to live in this shitty mind state that I'm naturally prone to. I don't have friends, nor a supportive family, but at least on c-lam I was content with that, and I was able to talk to people I knew from the past without being so inhibited that I make an ass out of myself around others only to involuntarily dwell on it…
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Brian - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 00:14:01 EST ID:hOmWV+4Y No.136121 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>136119
Well honestly OP I can relate pretty well. My head never shuts up and i overthink things like crazy, also feel like my mind and body work differently

> in an unfamiliar situation, I feel light-headed, disoriented, and depersonalized, and sometimes even nauseous. If I'm not, then I just feel mentally overstimulated, often to the point where I become irritable and unpredictable.

This too to a certain extent. I don't know why you didn't try dclaz or etiz before going balls to the wall with clam. Dlcaz would of been great for your situation IME.

> I was able to talk to people I knew from the past without being so inhibited that I make an ass out of myself around others only to involuntarily dwell on it for months afterwards.

The feels...

I can say that with benzos you are damned if you do and damned if you don't. Its a tough decision but the goal in my opinion is should use benzos as an aid and do not use benzos everyday. Have you inspected your atmosphere/diet?

Hope all is well OP. But honestly It doesn't seem to get better. Ride never ends
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Dr. Katz - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 13:53:33 EST ID:f0bIr5i5 No.136131 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136119
Since you've already been on an SSRI and gone through therapy you can always refuse future SSRI/SNRI suggestions. If the meds didn't work then you need to advocate for yourself. Also, after you're 18 years old doctors are more apt to prescribing you benzos. But! You may have to go through the rounds of off-label anxiolytics before getting a benzo. Then again, perhaps not.

I've been on benzos since age 18 in the summer of 2012. My quality of life has been positively impacted in numerous ways. My doctors perceive my accomplishments as high achieving, so I'm able to have more wiggle room than someone with less ambition (again, according to what doctors have mentioned). I don't come off as a drug abuser and I always make sure to look my best for appointments.

If you really want RX benzos, they are not that difficult to obtain a script for.

Meditation plus therapy has the best possible outcome than simply meds or therapy alone.


Don't see a point in living anymore by Shit Hevingnire - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 16:17:42 EST ID:MPRjicNh No.135951 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't know if it's the benzos, or the Cymbalta my doctor prescribed me on while talking my ritalin and tramadol away. I'm too tired to do anything. I have a chronic pain condition and.chronic fatigue. There's no way I can support myself
Getting disability (in America) takes years. I can't suffer that long. Just cant do it anymore. I just want to go peacefully.

Tldr: Don't fuck with benzos hardcore. They fuck with you so hard.
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Dr. Katz - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 00:55:52 EST ID:k/pXB1ov No.136005 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been drinking most of the day at my girl's place for a cookout.
Just got home...
20mg zaleplon sufflated, 20mg extended-release Adderall crushed and taken orally, 20mg diazepam, and 0.5mg alprazolam in a 5 min span. Some bud and scotch now, too.
>>135991
I haven't listened to the tape in YEARS, but the image applied.
I'm a major fan of Macadelic, Watching Movies with the Sound Off, Faces, and GOD AM. Faces is my favorite by miles! I listen to that tape in full 3+ days a week.
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Dr. Katz - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 00:56:23 EST ID:k/pXB1ov No.136006 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136005
Too ducked and fucked

nb
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TinyTrip !5pb17tfZto - Thu, 06 Jul 2017 16:16:09 EST ID:SZZZFDIZ No.136072 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>135984
Honestly I wish I had an answer on how to deal with crippling fatigue but my only respite has been more or less playing doctor with myself and I can't in good conscious recommend that.

As less acute answer, I did find some relief in identifying unnecessary medication contributing to my fatigue and spoke with my specialist armed with knowledge.

Best of luck, and keep your head as high as you can. Sometimes doctors need alot of repeated emphasis to understand the impact of side effects/symptoms.
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Lydia Drallerfit - Thu, 06 Jul 2017 17:28:15 EST ID:K4DwwT9K No.136077 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>135951
How long have you been on Cymbalta OP? SSRI/SNRIs can make depressive symptoms worse when you first start on them. They often take 2-6 weeks to have beneficial effects in my experience.
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Bombastus Werrywag - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 12:15:31 EST ID:8D2FjSPN No.136130 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>136072
>honestly I wish I had an answer on how to deal with [x] but my only respite has been more or less playing doctor with myself and I can't in good conscious recommend that.
SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAME


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