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passing by William Gimmerlat - Sun, 13 Mar 2016 21:02:25 EST ID:1fdAawx+ No.397695 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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holy shit
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Alice Mungerwill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 13:10:03 EST ID:biSFtgyF No.398791 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Severely underweight
5 pounds underweight tyvm

>thinks people in normal weight ranges are fatasses
fatass detected
Cedric Secklewill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 13:14:40 EST ID:Oh0/lbVW No.398792 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think it was burt's bees or whatever lol, nothing particularly cute just a tint and a bit of shine since chapstick, goes away pretty quickly, I agree though gotta be careful with lip stuff(basically why whenever I do use something I always end up trying to wipe off most of it to get it to a point I think it's okay), I've always read go for dramatic eyes or dramatic lips but not both so there's that too lol.

It's you!! =D and with the same thingy too cool lol

I will say I've been on the thin to too thin side a lot and early on especially and I quickly become dissatisfied sometimes with how fat can go on but really having some more is definitely helpful to me, I could probably look like y'all too for the most part I mean I have small boobs that whne I do dip back down to really skin are almost just puffy coney nipples ha tmi, anyway, and there's things but I've definitely come to realize having some is helpful. The little patches on my thighs that create the illusion of hips helps, notice it in my face some. But yeah I honestly have a hard time keeping it on, between like forgetting to eat or just not wanting to sometimes and when I actually stick to exercise or do a lot of like work outside tbh, if I don't like stuff my face I'll lose weight. Like eating just healthy foods is hard to maintain it on, I need like fats and stuff with lots of calories haha. I eat terrible at times but sometiems that's just to get enough calories because you know greasy cheesy things do have them >_> lol. Also when I was tripping more too that would suppress my appetite etc so for stims, and I use weed to help with that too honestly, all the time, I like just can't eat that much in the morning and stuff you know. Ah pretty far off track haha I'll let this go but yeah some is helpful, it helps my butt too and maybe makes a spot or two of like cellulite or whatever more noticeable which used to bother me but again see that it's more helpful and also seeing/realizing pretty much literally everyone has some haha. Well idk but a lot =P But I do overall liek to stay thin and don't necessarily mind small boobs, I t…
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Cedric Secklewill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 13:15:29 EST ID:Oh0/lbVW No.398793 Ignore Report Quick Reply
also in case you didn't know like 6'1" so I got ya on lanky haha =P
Anhny - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 14:06:49 EST ID:ANhnyAXt No.398796 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Cool numbers or whatever, but what about hormone levels?

>sorry I'm not a fat ass I guess?
Don't you have medium size in murica? Just bones or endless grease?
Alice Mungerwill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 15:35:09 EST ID:biSFtgyF No.398800 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I havn't been tested in a while but they were normal last I checked (with slightly high estro), T was like 10 or 20 whatevers and estro was like 300-400 whatevers

>Don't you have medium size in murica? Just bones or endless grease?
I call it medium-fatass

Hey Curly, guess who's back by Anhny - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 07:00:00 EST ID:ANhnyAXt No.398781 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm back. Not much happened during those few months while I was gone.
But I got cheek fillers, it was really cool experience, loved it and next time I'll get better filler and more and also do my lips.(No pic yet, since weather is too hot, not good for doing proper make up).
Spent those few months without internet to avoid media tax, that's how I got those fillers. Now, back at the old place for a month or so.
Also remember I told that my mom said she's going to help with ffs cost, well she wasn't lying. Has some savings left after house renovation. So now I'm looking where I could get brow bossing and rhino somewhere not far from EU(trips are costly) for the cost of somewhere around 10K USD. Know of any places were I could get info on that? I'll probably do separate thread on that if I get no answers.

Same applies to anyone else who reads this: if you know of any places where I can get up to date info on ffs, post it.
Edward Hussleshit - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 10:48:14 EST ID:662jTmJ4 No.398785 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bart, pretty much. He's good, and only one that could be in that price range.
Cedric Secklewill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 13:23:20 EST ID:Oh0/lbVW No.398794 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Omg!! That's so awesome to hear I'm so happy for you! ^_^ Ahh seriously yay. I totally saw you in the other thread before I got to this and said something haha.

How was the time without internet? =P I've been on less and back and forth etc ofc

Ahh I'm so excited for you! So you're saying that's not a picture with the cheek fillers? Still gorgeous anyway ofc =P And yay that you're back and stuff too, it's been interesting I guess haha, chill enough lol. Not much has happened for me personally except probably closer to getting another job and pretty much tend to be on the side of yeah ffs though still have nice times that make me wonder how hard I should push to the detriment of my enjoyment of life as it is you know, that came out weird but yeah, so basically I'm in the same spot XD

Anyway yay!!! =D
Anhny - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 14:15:58 EST ID:ANhnyAXt No.398797 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thanks, is there any way to see their actual price ranges? Paying 50EU just for proposal is steep.
Anhny - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 14:27:54 EST ID:ANhnyAXt No.398798 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How was the time without internet?
It was uncomfortable and boring, so I got a bunch of books from pessimistic philosophers and now am even tougher cookie at pulling people down.
>Ahh I'm so excited for you! So you're saying that's not a picture with the cheek fillers?
No, but I don't know if they will be that visible in pics since I only had 1ml, that's only 0,5ml for each cheek, but they definitely make jawline look less square, also for the first few days when fillers where settling in I looked really awesome- fierce cheekbones.
I think you should try fillers to see how you feel about doing stuff to your face and also hear the sound when needle hits your bone, it's very satisfying.
Cedric Secklewill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 14:57:13 EST ID:Oh0/lbVW No.398799 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>It was uncomfortable and boring, so I got a bunch of books from pessimistic philosophers and now am even tougher cookie at pulling people down.
hahaha amazing
I was in a pretty rough place but I bounced back super hard as usual and I'm sure I'll keep bouncing lol
silly philosophers =P

Where were you without internet? like could you go outside in natureeeeeeeeeeeee lol P

>I think you should try fillers to see how you feel about doing stuff to your face and also hear the sound when needle hits your bone, it's very satisfying.
omg lol if you say so! I'm not really sure if I need to do something just to see, or maybe not at this point? plus I heard like one bad story about them so I'm scurred of it =P my cheeks look a bit better with some weight but meh. Maybe I feel like it's one thing to remove bone in a permanent way vs putting something into your body like that? Like it's temporary you say basically?You didn't say that actually, hmm idk thoguh, I know my cheeks can be a bit hollow and it would help surely realistically but yeah scurred/worried I guess, I'll just try to save up for ffs, I am more decided on it than before anyway

REGRET by David Blecklelat - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 18:16:35 EST ID:L88pgVNK No.398745 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Come on, there are some of you out there. 4 years of hormones here and feel like failed tranny. Age catching up with me now I look even more masculine.

Who else regretting/dissappointed? Really feel lied to with all those pretty girl timelines and I'm sitting here with fake tits, shit face shit skin shit hair, wide shoulders. Ah well I should've known better
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Phyllis Cliddlesack - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 03:03:10 EST ID:nJ2eGLQP No.398780 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I thought I was in your boat but then I switched to cypro and lost a bunch of weight and now I am a QT femboy and enjoying my body a shit load. Didn't transition but to be honest I think I prefer it like this.
Penisia Honstein - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 10:35:14 EST ID:ALQzzdGS No.398783 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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How can you "look even more masculine" when you are "4 years of hormones"? Something doesn't add up, famallah.
Edward Bunforth - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 12:32:00 EST ID:DQO8KEvY No.398788 Ignore Report Quick Reply
as you age, you lose fat from your face and your features sharpen

thats why older women look so masculine
Penisia Honstein - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 12:52:11 EST ID:ALQzzdGS No.398790 Ignore Report Quick Reply
At what age? Is OP 50 or something?
Thomas Shakeham - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 19:20:23 EST ID:sPJhIdOb No.398801 Ignore Report Quick Reply

older women look masculine due to menopause where their bodies stop producing estrogen.... just FYI

That thing where a new person comes on and writes their lifestory by Nathaniel Chinninggold - Thu, 23 Jun 2016 15:03:58 EST ID:++Ch09Bf No.398757 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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That thing where a new person comes on and writes their lifestory. feel free to skip this if you're not fascinated about a random person you never met. also pervert scum so welcome to skip if you hate those people.

Nearing the end of high school I guess I role played as a woman a bunch in a cybersex porn chat. tried on sisters panties and skirt at some point.

I didn't make any friends during college, was very isolated and depressed. Spent most of my time claiming to be a girl on IRC where people were mostly assholes to me but at least they sometimes thought I was a girl. Escape from reality?

[some gross stuff here] Loads of self harming every day, between classes, kind of like an addiction, got on antidepressants at some point. Not sure if that was before or after I "came out". Had a suicide attempt but they just made my stomach hurt a lot. Dad shouted at me while I was still suffering from it. Tried to tell me it was because he cares about me after.

Spent a lot of time with some great people on a trans support group online (which has since vanished). Got excited about how i might fix my life and social isolation by transitioning. Took the bus home and "came out" at some point during dinner, sister said are you sure you're not just gay. Dad called me 'psychotic' and limited my internet access. Very little/no support but I understand it could have been so much worse and is for others.

I tried to go to gender therapy thing by myself anyway. Around age 17/18 I think? 16 seems too young. GID therapist kinda scared me off saying I had to cross dress for 1 year before hormones (NHS rules) and telling me about how i'd have to use womens toilets. Oh and that I'd have to explain I was a tranny to every one of my uni teachers and they could refuse to tech me - what the hell was that? Was too scared too go back or order clothes or do much anything other than remove hair so I slowly tried to supress it and ignore it again.

Spent a year or two just kind of stuck to my computer doing nothing, mental health getting worse. Increasingly angry at the people I lived around. Unable to cope with them. Went back to academia and had a terrible time. Got more dysphoria and started self harming again. Met a wonderful girl online that I'm still with.

She is female attracted and I moved out of my parents (to transition) and was trying to see the GID doctor again but i was very nervous about it and tried to tell her about that but she took as I didn't want to transition and freaked out, that made it too hard on me and I didn't manage to go to the appointment. Delayed more.. still havent even put together a female outfit.
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Nigel Billylutch - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 05:14:57 EST ID:sPJhIdOb No.398771 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I mean just to further this here is some stuff i cobbled together havent proofread it and mostly just having fun.

Some studies have been made on lab rats and the like on the increase of Dopamine from ingestion of Estrogen (specically 17β-estradiol).
Dopamine is a compound present in the body which acts as a neuro transmitter effecting things like adreneline (oxfords dictionary) with Professer Andrew Scull quoting a research done by Arvid Carlsson that Dopamine can be therapeutic (Scull. 2014).

Research performed by Emily Jacobs and Mark D'Esposito published in the journal of neuroscience (2011) stated that "In animals, 17β-estradiol (the major estrogen in most mammals, referred to henceforth as estradiol) has been shown to enhance DA (Dopamine) activity" however heavily stating that no human trials have yet been performed, Further studies documented in Brain Research (2010) tested to see how estrogen effects Dopamine and seratonin in ovariectomized rats with results showing that "In OVX + E (ovariectomized plus estradiol implant) rats, dopamine transfer density was significantly higher" than in other ovariectomized rats without an estradiol implant.
A study published in the European Journal of Pharmacology detailed studies on the effects of estrogen on dopamine in ovariextomized animals with results again showing that there was a positive correlation between the rate (μM/s) of (estrogen) uptake and dopamine concentration (Thompson and Certain. 2005) Another study by Dr Thompson this time With Dr Robert Moss in 1994 observed that 15 minutes after being infused with 17β-estradiol the ovariectomized male rats showed significantly higher (Dopamine) than control values.

So the effects of estrogen effecting dopamine are being studied as we speak and so far by the studies done on rats show that estrogen does effect dopamine, which does effect mood in a positive light.
I think its important to remember that estrogen is a chemical like any other and can effect you in ways which may seem implausible, which is why these studies are being done. Its okay to scoff and say "preposterious" because the only information we have right now are performed on rats and there have been no human studies which i could find.

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Lillian Shittinghall - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 09:01:15 EST ID:++Ch09Bf No.398772 Ignore Report Quick Reply
terrible indulgent post from someone who thinks who mistakenly thinks they're incredibly helpful
Hannah Deffingworth - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 10:09:30 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398774 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>youre supposed to jump at the chance of being a woman, its not supposed to scare you off. This throws up red flags to therapists and gatekeepers alike in their mind they have given you a chance to be a woman and you rejected it.

realistically though that's pretty shitty and considering other things lol.

Hey op sucks that things have been so confusing and stuff, and difficult, life is like that. I wouldn't say that transition will necessarily help your social life but it could, when I started I was like yes okay now I can go and be me or however and stuff(I possibly took it as a bit of a challenge lol, oh along with the idea of begin to dress androgynously until I can tip the scale at that point to being gendered female then I'd be good to go I thought lol) and I started hanging out more, because I got a job too, and people at job invited me to hang out, some house party things here and there a bar here or there, before they even knew(though I think they thought I was gay at that point lol) and made lots of friends which was a debatable decision at that point though maybe better because I was like optimistic then and as things got better it was good but then I started seeing limitations or even backsliding in how well I thought I was doing and constantly lost hope that things would get better and I'm having to come to other places about it all and working on it and stuff cuz I've been pretty hermity for a bit now but yeah, it's all good, ups and downs are always a thing. I mostly like what has happened and just lament it not being a little more perfect ofc, perfectly passing lol. So use it as motivation to get out! if you do it. Then yeah it could help, and you might have to sorta force yourself to when you get going anyway. Also maybe like classes or a job or whatever can be nice places to do things/meet people that are just like open pit bar/party where it's like okay how do we relate, cuz there'll be an activity to talk and relate over, possibly an interest of yours or new interest anyway. I guess some of this is advice is useful whether or not you decide to transition, though mostly written as if you did I guess.

Also Imma say there are plenty as far as I can tell of people that transitioned that have or had/"had" sexual things about it and it's worked out for them however, as in they enjoy it, or it seems more normal, or it just woks for them however! So idk, if you want validation or not then that's up to you, it's life, like the one we get and it's hard but idk, making decisions based on fear always seemed lame but I realize that is just a phrase as much as literally everything! But still maybe lol. But also at times there are real things to consider and maybe one could choose a better something with considerations, I mean obviously at times what we want to do isn't the best necessarily but that's usually like going back to a shitty relationship or addictive drugs or food hahaha. Anyway idk.

So as far as blaming friends too I made them and I've willfully let most of my contact with them which was realistically not much just being active on fb and I haven't gone to thinks so most have died off and I'd say I only have a few friends I see rarely so that's just saying again it can depend, probably on you to a large degree of course but you know, there's life and then you, it's like interactive or whatever, not just you or it hardly ever but you can control only what you do so yeah.

I'd generally say that being trans sucks though I guess that depends too on various things and I don't feel so bad atm so it's like ehh but other times I'm like ughghg;hawbvuozra fuck everything so ymmv, you never knwo how things will go, well, I guess a few things might not get smaller, body-wise, but yeah.
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Cornelius Trotford - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 13:35:08 EST ID:GTTzkPa+ No.398778 Ignore Report Quick Reply

It's like your entire stream of consciousness gets uploaded to this board periodically, it's amazing
Cedric Secklewill - Sat, 25 Jun 2016 13:24:29 EST ID:Oh0/lbVW No.398795 Ignore Report Quick Reply
/annoying but accurate lol

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post a Picture
Fuck Nonnerbotch - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 23:10:05 EST ID:sPJhIdOb No.398687 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Why would you post a picture of yourself literally covering everything up except your lips?
Jenny Meblinghon - Sun, 19 Jun 2016 13:49:50 EST ID:tGX2WlZY No.398715 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm 19 and still live with my parents (unfortunately) and I'm on my parents insurance as well. I want to go see a therapist so I can transition but am afraid my parents will find out and will kick me out right away. Anyway my question is will my parents be able to see my prescription for HRT once I get it on the insurance bill? If so is there a way around it? I have Anther bluecross blueshield.
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Jarvis Lighthood - Tue, 21 Jun 2016 23:09:50 EST ID:ONfyKInb No.398737 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stop the drugs and transition already before last destroys your mind completely
Phineas Hevingdidge - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 14:54:43 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398741 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stream of conscious? It's easier for one and possibly most of all and this is some anonymous board anddd idk I like it? less pretentious maybe? Also yes drugs and stuff maybe one could say not that I couldn't do something equally as like that without them haha. Not eating enough can have me going too, like being "fasted." And stuff lol.

ouch though to be expected lol

Y'all must be new here or something? You commented on the other thread I posted in lol I am transitioning/have transitioned. Like coming up on 4 years or something, many ups and downs lol. I know you like used it to delay transition you say supposedly and try to enjoy being a man butt I'm not doing that haha.
Phineas Hevingdidge - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 14:57:50 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398742 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If y'all want me to tone it down and make it more easily digestible and socially acceptable thennnn idk I'm sorry I can't guarantee that, not even sure if I'm gonna try really. Unless you do engage me in a discussion and it seems necessary/helpful enough maybe then lol.
Phineas Hevingdidge - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 15:09:05 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398743 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Omg I just finally re-read that and that ain't shit haha compared to some things I do, though it is pretty sloppy, I had a lot of ideas stewing in my head for a while that came out there, about how to live life, or things, or how it works for people, or whatever lol. And yes it's easier than organizing it to a more understandable way and I don't care enough to most of the time lol. I just wanted to get it out of my head I think haha. So many things to consider, you know =P
Thomas Clemblesan - Thu, 23 Jun 2016 11:44:23 EST ID:bVOhqQ+5 No.398754 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>It's obscenely disrespectful to your parents to want to transition under their nose.


This kind of mentality will trap you for life, and I do mean yours; their deaths will not free you from it.

future identity crissis by Caroline Smallhall - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 02:41:50 EST ID:PxPF2jFN No.398679 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I recently became very close to MTF. Gender was never really something I spent much time on until I started hanging out with her. I have always desired to be a woman, but not to the extent to identify as trans. I more so have human dysphoria rather than gender. As I've done more research into the trans community I've come across many posts about middle aged men having a crisis over that fact that they are to old, fat, and bald, to be able to act on the trans desires they've felt most of their life. With a ridiculous amount of body hair and baritone voice I've never really thought it feasible to be trans and I'm ok with that. It is concerning though to think 15 - 20 (If I l live that long) years down the line I'll end being another faggot crying about how they wish they played out their desires. I keep in touch with my feminine side, most people that spend time with me realize I am more of a feminine mindset, but I want to hear your opinion on the matter.
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Hamilton Pepperman - Mon, 20 Jun 2016 12:24:10 EST ID:ONfyKInb No.398731 Ignore Report Quick Reply

epic rambling continues unabated
Martin Shittingshit - Mon, 20 Jun 2016 12:33:52 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398732 Ignore Report Quick Reply
normally when I end up typing so much I need to break it into more than one post I just choose random places but that had a perfect place typed into it already because I thought I should make a new paragraph or whatever and it was cool =P
Jarvis Lighthood - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 13:06:43 EST ID:ONfyKInb No.398738 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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No more, stop addling your brain with psychedelics
Archie Blackway - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 13:56:58 EST ID:9KnmQH5g No.398739 Ignore Report Quick Reply
you're so fucked up you make fucked up people look bad, kill yourself.
Phineas Hevingdidge - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 14:48:08 EST ID:Y5SzC1IJ No.398740 Ignore Report Quick Reply
did something happen? lol

omg are you okay

Did you mean I make fucked up people look good though? Or were fucked up people like making progress or something =P

never ever by Archie Pittfield - Fri, 10 Jun 2016 13:54:58 EST ID:YycAq8/G No.398604 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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you'll never be 'one of the girls'

lol soz lol soz

at least not while you have a penis :/
just the way it is!!!

fuck man i get panic attacks in bathrooms and feel like i have stokholm syndrome from all the terf shit i have read saying i am invading womens born womens spaces.

i had a girl over last night who stayed in my bed as a freind because she trusts me and we cuddled and snuggled a bit in the morning, very intimate but also just freinds. the whole time i felt like i was doing something so very wrong, i felt shame and guilt and i felt fucked up because i have so much conditioning which was telling me 'shes into you' - 'thats a move that shows shes interested in me" but i wasnt interested in her at all and i just wished this part of my brain didnt exist due to years of trying to think like a guy? i just wanted to relax and sleep!
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Fuck Nonnerbotch - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 23:14:50 EST ID:sPJhIdOb No.398689 Ignore Report Quick Reply

if you too think girls dont cuddle and sleep in the same bed as their friends, then you are very very wrong.
Albert Poddlefield - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 00:50:35 EST ID:YycAq8/G No.398692 Ignore Report Quick Reply
yeah its pretty telling really
Fanny Gissleham - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 02:05:53 EST ID:xxBXP/re No.398699 Ignore Report Quick Reply
give me a break, adult women sleeping and cuddling in the same bed? even if friends, this simply doesn't happen.
Fuck Nonnerbotch - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 05:08:55 EST ID:sPJhIdOb No.398702 Ignore Report Quick Reply

College/university students.

Does happen. Trust me, i was as shocked as you to begin with, but it happens all the time.
Alice Druvingstadge - Sun, 19 Jun 2016 21:42:43 EST ID:uMxYoCPw No.398723 Ignore Report Quick Reply
yep! napps, cuddle, snuggles, sleep.

she came over again the other night and it was very intimate with no sexual stuff at all. we just studied together and when it was time for sleep we lay together in embrace, again no touching, at least maybe if she wanted me to i didnt because i didnt want to and i didnt want to make it awkward.

Not all girls do this - its like nudity, some girls dont mind getting changes in front of others and some do??
Its also like sleepovers and pillow fights? like that kind of stuff does actually happen but its not sexual?

i say this as someone who has lived with cis girls under 25 for the last 2 years.
everyones different though its really how comfortable and secure the person feels with their body.
like i have a freind who ALWAYS has her eyeliner on, she must do it when she goes to the bathroom in the morning i guess.

CHilDirty Mexican naughty ex-army sissy by Doris Mallyville - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 10:15:42 EST ID:8WQ8L1ZO No.398704 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Masturbate to me.. Drop your blanks to a fat naughty mentally ill Mexican army veteran revived at the age of 15 by Swedish doctors.
Sauce it cum or ban.
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what do by Priscilla Finninghug - Sun, 01 May 2016 23:18:37 EST ID:uZjB8WIm No.398177 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I went to like a gymnastics gym today like I've been meaning to for a while! It was cool, they were having like an opening but I wanted to try to get over the fear of doing a backflip like in general that is why a gym like that is good and I totally tried like 4 and didn't land like I was all crouched and touched with my hands but I totally just went for it and I think the little bit of cactus did help but anyway I need to be able to tuck better

tuck better

oh no
I'm never going to be able to talk about it or someone talk to me about it with a straight face

I would like to think
but more like slightly horrified lol

maybe it won't come up so much
I should work on my tuck
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Edward Wondlefuck - Sat, 28 May 2016 10:35:42 EST ID:1trzOojR No.398455 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've tried that tape method, and it's a bitch to find medical tape that wide (unless you pay a stupidly high price compared to thinner tapes) and it really doesn't work well.

I tape up about once every month or two, sometimes more often depending on dysphoria. I did do a drawing of my technique but it was like a shitty 10 minute drawing that wasn't the best and it's on my old computer so might be lost to the world.
ofc you need to be as clean shaven as possible
start by pushing balls in inguinal canal, then folding the scrotum over, keeping the skin tight (tight enough to hold balls in place). Tape diagonally down towards center of body. You want the tape to first go underneath the penis. Tape enough so nothing is gonna pop out, then push penis down. You might want to wrap a small piece of tissue around the tip, especially if circumcised as I imagine removing would be painful, but tbh I usually don't. Start with a few horizontal placements at the tip (leaving a small gap so you can still pee) and work up to the base, then do lots of diagonal pieces, and a couple horizontal underneath your new clit to secure it better.

You always want to ideally have both ends of the tape on skin, as opposed to on a layer of tape. Once taped as flat as possible I also like to line the edges so there's less chance of a loose piece catching. Don't tape on to your legs, you want complete movement of them without it feeling like it's pulling. Having too much over the butt does the same.

Peeing is a little more difficult but should still be possible. I've taped tight enough that I couldn't pee before and that was super uncomfortable and had to immediately remove it. To remove, plenty of water is good, a bit of lube is better. You don't want to be wearing the tape for more than 24 hours. Seriously, just don't. I've left it on for 2 days before and taking it off showed rashes and it was painfully itchy for days. I'd recommend less than 12h tbh.

It's great though. I kinda have to restrict myself because I like doing it too much and my skin would be awful and painful if I did it every single day. I can have someone go down on me while I&…
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Caroline Snodstock - Sun, 29 May 2016 22:52:58 EST ID:4RBfZzd0 No.398461 Ignore Report Quick Reply
hmm, okay, so when you fold the scrotum over where did you fold it and which way?

that method sounds absolutely amazing though so i'm gonna have to try it; and someone being able to go down on you while taped???????? holy shit, i need that.

and yeah, i've never even seen tape that wide for sale, so it's gotta be pretty costly

oh no, my testicles are out of the way, in fact, i dont even have to push them into the inguinal canal much of the time now; they just stay there unless i'm in a very hot shower or bath
Eugene Sammleridge - Mon, 30 May 2016 05:22:07 EST ID:1trzOojR No.398463 Ignore Report Quick Reply
just sorta fold it over itself so it's as flat as possible. I push up the balls then fold down on the scrotum part. You can do each side separately as I think one big fold might not work as well, but it's best to tuck both sides then hold it all with your hands before taping. Prepping by tearing off strips of tape first is handy so you're not having to wrestle with picking off tape from a roll, gettig the right length and tearing it all with one hand
Polly Sundermadging - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 10:26:36 EST ID:liUakt9e No.398681 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So you tape the scrotum to your perenium ?
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Transgenderism and Gender Dsyphoria by Eugene Drurrycocke - Fri, 03 Jun 2016 08:46:59 EST ID:xYsIvlCq No.398503 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Is it possible to be trans and not have gender dysphoria? I just know I am a girl, but I don't have any desire to go through a second puberty, inverting my dick, taking voice lessons, doing tons of other surgery, and still never truly becoming a CIS woman.

Gender dysmorphia seems like a horrible mental disease (not trying to be mean to anyone, it sucks having suicidal thoughts, depression and a desire to self mutilate) and I would just rather stay in a man's body than to be some sort of half woman that chasers go after, and CIS men would probably dump unless they're chasers, which are disgusting.

I might be speaking to the wrong crowd though since most of you guys do want to transition, will call me non 'true-trans' or are in the process of it. I've told people about me, and they just call me gay, I imagine if I took female hormones I'd just end up liking guys because hormones and chemicals changes a person.

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Alice Gungerdock - Sun, 12 Jun 2016 14:31:20 EST ID:Clvwtn6d No.398637 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Honestly, I don't know who you're agreeing with. Though, I'm starting to think you're agreeing with OP.

>but if not that then like really what - what aspect of your life do you feel the need to be recognized as female???
The physical aspect? That's really the important part, and closely tied with social dysphoria.

>also while generally people who are trans have dyshoria, just because you are trans doesnt mean you are female? like you identify with femme stuff? or women? so what? congrats - you have empathy? what do you actually want???
This is the part which confuses me, in if you're agreeing with OP, or me.

Yes, I don't know what OP is meaning he knows he's a girl about.
Liking femme stuff doesn't mean you feel female, or agreeing with women doesn't mean you feel female. It's just that, congratulations, you feel empathy.

But then, if you're not agreeing with me, I'm guessing you're just as clueless as the cis people who pretend to be trans on tumblr are.
Dysphoria comes in basically 2 categories
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William Borryhood - Mon, 13 Jun 2016 01:29:28 EST ID:YycAq8/G No.398648 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i was agreeing with you but i think your response was helpful for the OP too but they probably wont take it in.

and i agree with what you are said here - personally, to me.

my reasons for being trans arent like 'reasons' i just slot better into the gender binary as female on a social and sexual level so its very tribal for me. I dont know why and i fought against it for 15 years, i even tried to condition myself into manhood while on acid, always looking for validation and a sense or feeling that YES i am manly, masculine, yes i feel good about this! and while i enjoyed the priviliges and i had my moments, i hated it, i hated testosterone, i hated being seen as a man, i hated the way men spoke to me, i hated the way women perceived me, i hated the way I spoke to everyone.

I studied neurology and psychology for years hoping i could reason my way out of it, i tried to agree with terfs, i tried to see it from their perspective and then i tried to argue and after years and years of this i found myself sitting on some steps in my garden at 3 am with the simple truth that i am what i am.

When i started hrt it was like i regained my powerful sense of emotions, both in myself and others. 2 years later my whole approach to life is radically different; i am happy, i have friends, a loving partner who makes me pancakes in the morning, i go to school and i get scholarships for getting good grades.

I REALLY wanted to grow tall, to have my shoulders broaden, my jawline and for my brow to grow! i wanted my voice to get deep and ragged so i could be like COOL and edgy! but i would get in the shower when i was waking up and look down at my hands, now large and bony and i would hate them! they werent slim and cute anymore and i felt so horrendous. they are still slender but they lost that femininity, and then the rest of me did too and i watched my body change i slowly realised : actually, no i dont like this, i dont like any of this. and then i had to confront a whole reality that i was projecting.

and i did try to make it a sex thing and a physical thing but when i finally let myself keep the wig and dress on i looked in the mirror and i saw a person i could have been i knew i had to at least explore it, give it a chance and then 3 years later here we are :/ most of my freinds are female and people see me and identify me as female and identify with womanhood to a deep degree, but i also identify with the trans discourse in that i see transmen as having vaginas and periods to be a fact which really opens up the way we should refer to gender and sex etc. but ALSO i have had genital dysphoria since i first started having sexual thoughts, which i tried to repress etc etc same old story tbh
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Thomas Clushham - Tue, 14 Jun 2016 13:53:15 EST ID:1uMKuhFS No.398659 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here, its scary how similar my situation is with yours, including the psychology and the acid trip. i am afraid of being in between worlds instead of being comfortably unhappy, as I have known no other way.

What do you think of yourself now? Are you happy with your current place in life? I already dress pretty fem like a gay guy (I will never have that rugged manly look either sadly) so maybe I am already in the state where I just won't really belong with society anyway.
Phyllis Femblecocke - Tue, 14 Jun 2016 20:04:49 EST ID:YycAq8/G No.398660 Ignore Report Quick Reply
maybe on paper and im sure you can relate but tbh its allot more and i left the sexual aspect pretty early on because its very sexist and the whole 'feminizing the male' being a sexual fetish is misogynistic and gross.

Honestly i am better now but i still have the same problems in a sense except i am approaching them with more maturity with respect to others.

i dont think its bad being between worlds, seems like you have an issue there - transitioning wont solve that. I think you need to resolve that. We are all somewhere between anyway, especially trans people - just a fact of the gig sorry.

like you can be totally passing and you still wont have a period or get pregnant or you wont be able to have a dick is ftm. See what imsaying? our society is so gendered, getting married and raising children is still seen as the core experience of womanhood so you wont even get away from that in this society. Most of my freinds are not keen on children but my best freind is very heternormative, a few of them are actually! they have manly boyfriends who they want to get a house and have kids in :) and i love them for it, and i will be there whenever they need me.
But try as i might when the time comes i will not be able to relate. and thats my problem! breaks my heart but there you go.

i think you shouldnt say "im a woman now" , i think you should just explore and see where you end up. maybe the hrt will summon all the girl feelings inside you and you will explode into a girl and maybe not! everyone responds to this very differently - i just found that i very much connected with fem stuff and that my manerisms are more femme than andro - i have a bunch of male conditioning though, like completley useless stuff like thinking a girl is attracted to me because she is touching me even though i am not interested.
Phoebe Smallshit - Thu, 16 Jun 2016 20:35:10 EST ID:LjO3v8GI No.398671 Ignore Report Quick Reply

No, but, yes!

it's so simple how you resolve this... get gender dysphoria! You don't have to actually, transition, just dive into a fair dose of that stuff, develop a taste for it, clear your head, and acquire gender dysphoria. Then, simply invoke willpower, a determination not to transition, not to complicate your life like that, to avoid it by any means necessary.

And so, that way, boom, you'll have the whole intolerable contradiction in your head dealt with!

7-mo post-op w/ McGinn, any questions? by Matilda Tootdale - Sat, 04 Jun 2016 19:59:31 EST ID:XOQbt0nc No.398527 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Sup seedy, it's just what the subject says, in November I had SRS with McGinn, I'm 7 months out, and I want to offer to answer any questions you might have. Another anon had a thread at the time, she had her surgery a week after mine, I was hanging out in that thread too (sup kawaii vuvu mgcinn class of '15 anon bro).

I'll run through some common stuff just to put it out there. And run through my experience after.

I'm pretty much healed now, had silver nitrate to burn off granulation tissue (tissue that tries really hard to heal but can't get it right), it's still a bit funky down there (a little bit of discharge + mild but gross smell). I've been able to orgasm normally since 5 weeks after which is a little more quickly than average. It takes about the same amount of time as with penis, is the exact same feeling, but I enjoy it more because it's not a penis. No, I don't have much/ any feeling inside my vagina; everything sexy is clitoral. But I'm happy with that. Depth is about 5.5" which is consistent with her estimate based on full penis size. I haven't dated anyone and don't like dick anyway, so I can't give experience with sex.

Appearance-wise I am happy. I'd say 100% happy, and there are things that I'd change to make me 110% happy. There are some weird extra folds along the incisions, scars are a bit much (but will fade) the entrance is a little asymmetrical, I don't have enough fat in the labia, no labia minora (not that I like beef curtains; I mean the minora that runs along the opening and converges to hood the clitoris), there's a bit more of a 'hump' created by the clitoris than I'd like... like a lot of things, I am pretty much content thinking that these are all just normal woman insecurities and desires (like having an awesome butt or naturally gorgeous hair or not having cellulite or what the fuck ever).

The cost is interesting. I have an unbelievable friend who straight-up offered to lend me whatever I needed. Though she doesn't have plans for SRS herself as far as I know, she is trans and is super sympathetic to the whole situation. I wish I could have paid on my own, and I hate borrowing money, but surgery was something we both knew was an absolute necessity for me to move ahead in life.

In addition, my insurance plan (in Illinois - I think there are special laws about this) agreed to cover it. I didn't have to fight for them to say it was medically necessary, but I did a lot of calling back and forth in the months leading up to surgery to get everything in place with them. McGinn doesn't work with insurance directly (they DO talk to your insurance provider and set everything up as a courtesy) so you have to pay upfront and get reimbursed. Even with their agreement, I still had to stay on top of my insurance company to get the right amount back. At first they somehow 'forgot' about the waiver I got to cover McGinn at the in-network rate. Luckily I had a rough idea of what they really owed, so I immediately filed an appeal. Just yesterday, nearly 7 months after the surgery, I got the letter agreeing to pay at the correct rate (appeal was approved). I'm still waiting on that exact number and the check. I can't wait to pay my friend back a bunch more. Not the full amount borrowed but a good portion.

Now mentally, transition fucked me up because I was finishing school and looking for a job in a rough industry dominated by freelance in your first couple years. I've always had depression and anxiety, so when I lost the structure of school after graduating, I fell apart. I transitioned socially (one day just switched), passed fine (I had been on HRT 18 months), did legal changes 2 months later, did some minor FFS, but it wasn't until SRS that I felt DONE and WHOLE (hole, lolololol) again. Now I feel like I'm myself again. I still have depression, but I'm dealing with it instead of wallowing in it and not getting help. Mostly I feel like a normal fucking person. Yeah I'm still a weirdo and have a "unique" personality or whatever, but overall I'm normal.

I finally got a full-time salaried job in my field, it doesn't pay great but I like the people and the work. I don't think anyone would think I'm trans (it's an artsy field with weirdos in it anyway). Knowing I had a month of SRS recovery/ minimum mobility ahead of me held me back when it came to seeking work, and also I got lucky in getting this job. Still, I consider SRS the factor that finally wrapped shit up and got my life together again. As someone who really needed it, having it done is amazing.
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Edward Turveyshit - Tue, 14 Jun 2016 10:46:56 EST ID:1trzOojR No.398658 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I think you guys have probably convinced me to actually go back to the GIC and go NHS. I don't think saving up is a potential goal any time soon. I was proud of myself for saving up £400 over the space of 5 months and job prospects aren't really that high atm. I dunno, I hear practically nothing from the UK side of things regarding surgery (and I don't have any trans friends) and there are very few pictures so all I know is what I've heard. I'll do more research and idk maybe it might be an option.
Maybe I'll be overwhelmed with happiness from it, maybe I'll kill myself less than a year after, probably better than stagnating for many years never getting anywhere in this horrible funk I've been in forever
Snow - Wed, 15 Jun 2016 05:36:58 EST ID:ikKOO2ZV No.398661 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Those are all good points, and thanks for clearing up the "inversion" thing. Feel free to post pictures when/if you're ready, they're always helpful for expanding my expectations.
Jack Greengold - Wed, 15 Jun 2016 12:42:10 EST ID:tGX2WlZY No.398662 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Isn't it more anatomically homologous to have the scrotal skin lining the vagina instead though? And that is what is done in the non-inversion techniques right?
Eliza Pavingdutch - Wed, 15 Jun 2016 18:09:59 EST ID:NPckS8QO No.398664 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not really. We don't really have anything homologous to vagina mucosa, scrotal skin is more homologous to labia skin than anything else. Which is one thing that's also pretty good with having penile-skin lined vagina is that the surgeon then has the scrotal skin to make labia majora with.
Nicholas Hudgepidge - Thu, 16 Jun 2016 09:12:15 EST ID:1trzOojR No.398668 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Buccal cells found in the inside of the mouth are indistinguishable even under a microscope. It's a shame buccal cell technology is so terrible atm and it causes you to be constantly wet but imo it's gonna be the future once they can regulate it a bit more.

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