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With tolerance comes the lessening of the PERCEPTION of dysphoria and physical effects. The first time I took DPH, it felt like 10lbs weights were tied to my ankles and wrists.. I'm sure many of you could relate to that feeling. However, the more I began to experiment with DPH, the less heavy I felt and more I began to notice tingling, numb skin, an "out of place" feeling which makes it hard to know what to do with your hands. The air began to provide resistance as opposed to weights being tied to my limbs, the air felt like it was made of water rather than carrying buckets of water on my limbs. The feelings are distinct. It can go either way, like jjx said, this is simply my perception: I don't experience the heaviness like I used to, it has been replaced by a hot + tingling numbness on the skin and an "out of place" feeling where the air provides resistance to your movements.
As for dysphoria.. well, I never really used to feel dysphoria, the first couple of times I used DPH. I would feel uncomfortable, strange as fuck, to be certain.. but never really downright BAD. Then, for a few years, taking any amount of DPH would evoke a sickening sense of malaise, the anxiety was suffocating, "I NEED TO ABORT THIS TRIP" and trying to induce vomiting, the self loathing and depressive symptoms.. ugh. When I dose DPH lately, however, I've returned to simply feeling "out of place," without any anxiety or depressive symptoms, no dysphoria, just feeling uncomfortable and strange as all hell while generally being able to enjoy the hallucinations with peace of mind. My attitude about the drug has changed dramatically and many times, over the years, and I believe that this has a marked effect on how you feel in the throes of a diphenhydramine experience. ie the crushing dysphoria came about once I was hospitalized twice for 1g DPH trips, after that I could NEVER enjoy myself.. but the crushing dysphoria has subsided now that I'm relatively in control of my life, have had good experiences with DPH and changed my attitude from "this will mess up my emotional/social life and send me to the ER" to "this will mess me up for tonight but I'll have crazy ass…
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