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Not at all, I'm not trying to be negative about it, but there is a point at which it becomes incredibly toxic, and to keep on doing it with any sort of regularity causes more and more harm, often behind the scenes or in small ways at first.
It wasn't my intent to moralize in any way and I apologize if my post came across that way, but at the same time, it is very very easy to slip further and further when you have been taking dph for a long time.
In my own case I took it for years, every week like clockwork, usually along with dxm. If I had said to myself back then, what I just said to you in my earlier post, believe me, I would have responded quite the same way you did, and I totally understand your position.
The thing is, dph is toxic in high doses and will quickly begin to alter your mind state even when not on it. Just like how there is the rarely followed "one week per plateau" rule with dxm (you are supposed to go one week without dxm for every plateau you reach in a trip), there isn't even any similar rule with dph because it would be far too long to even be viable.
If you are binging now, but want to stop, going back to spacing your doses out would take a lot of willpower, but it's certainly doable, there just aren't really any tricks to help with it. You could do something dramatic like throwing your stash away, but they're so cheap that it doesn't have any weight to do that.
It does me no good to be condescending, I've lost clients, apartments back in the day, vehicles and respect during my dph times, every step of the way, if anyone told me ANYTHING about stopping, I would tell them that I was fine and just needed to slow it down, but hppd is not something you can fix by just slowing down once you have it, and it can really, honestly cause serious issues as you get older.
I'm not any better than you in any way, I just see you near the same cliff I fell off of over and over, so please forgive me if my words chafe.
I have two close friends that do dph and BOTH of them have tried to do exactly what you're doing, go from frequent binges to just spacing out usage. Both of them failed at that, and now when I ask them how they are doing with managing it, they get evasive and defensive, or just really sad, so I just don't talk to them about it. Hopefully you can forgive me, I hate seeing that happen to anyone.