h is a never-ending spiral of addiction
just smoke weed, man
if you get that anxiety that causes you to think of h then just smoak it off
switch from H to weed and then (if you wanna) get off the weed too

stay clean brah, im clean 1months from weed and already feeling better

Don't give up on your wife, OP. You married her for a reason.

Don't you dare to give up anon.
Don't.

>>19969
First time coming to this side of 420chan but your testimony made me feel the need to post. 3 months is a long time and a huge accomplishment; you should really be proud of yourself.

Although I can't relate completely with this addiction, I understand your feelings of loss, confusion and frustration. Your 2nd sentence really hit home for me; that's heartbreaking. I'm really sorry to hear that man.

Henry Feddleshaw offered some great insights I completely agree with about having clear-cut goals that will bring structure back into your life again. However I also understand that when you're in your most defeated state, it can be overwhelming and just as easily dismissible.

My advice to you is to just start slow - find something new you can enjoy doing. Whether it's trying out a new sport, instrument, working out, an art such as drawing or painting, or really any unorthodox/unusual hobby, it can be anything. You would be surprised at how good it feels to throw all of your emotions--frustrations--into something and see the beauty that can manifest from it. I think right now the most important thing is finding something new and positive in your life that can bring you hope, and from there get out there and connect with people who share the same hobbies/interests as you.

Losing friends will never be easy. But there are new ones waiting to be made out there. As dark, bleak and hopeless life can seem, it gets better if you're willing to move forward and look for it.

I hope even if just a little bit, this helps you out OP. You can get through this. I'm sincerely praying for you my friend.

just have a boring night, tomorrow would be much nicer because of it

>>20627
At my house we drank a beer, smoked a bowl, and then I brought out the MXE. I took another knife-tip full and let Mark decide his own dose, knowing full-well his proclivity to being kind of a moocher. I really value MXE so when he took out a bigger pile than me I felt a little twinge of aggravation, despite being on drugs and happy to see him. But I held my tongue because when it came down to it, my old friend enjoying himself was more valuable to me than five dollars’ worth of a designer drug there was no shortage of on the internet. We eagerly anticipated the drug’s effects with our sublingual cavities full of slowly dissolving crystals.

After we could use our tongues again we returned to our conversation. I forgot what we were talking about, but the important detail for this story is that he informed me he couldn’t vote. My first response to this was to ask him if it was because he was a felon. He was not; he can’t vote because he’s not a US citizen. He had been born in Africa, and was still using a green card. I had forgotten one of the first things he generally tells people about himself. Instead of moving on with the conversation, I accused him of lying to me in the past. A foolish move on my part I truly have no justification for. After some awkward apologies, he claimed to have started tripping hard and asked to go lay on my couch. Dejected, I let him.

Ten minutes later and still not a peep from him. I asked him how he was feeling, but he didn’t respond. He seemed to be asleep. I figured he was just sulking, and trying to check out of this experience by pretending to be tripping balls with his eyes closed. I sure as hell wasn’t incapacitated. I wanted to chat more. I wanted to go for another walk. But he wouldn’t even nod in acknowledgement. I felt pretty bad at this point, and I asked him point blank if he wanted to leave. I told him I totally understood if he was having a bad time. Still, no response. I poke him a little bit. To my surprise, he didn’t swat me away, he held up his hands like he wanted me to pick him up. I thought he was just making me carry his dead weight around to spite me. However, I felt like I deserved some punishment for my earlier faux pas, so I obliged. Whe…

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>>20628
Heartbeats. A little fast, but normal nonetheless. I told him he would be fine. His heart seemed to slow down, although that might have just been an illusion due to my own internal mood change. A few minutes later he moved. A few minutes after that he tried to stand up. He could talk again too. He wanted to go outside. I opened the front door and he stood there, like a fickle cat. I ended up pulling him to the chairs on the patio, but he refused the chairs and insisted on sitting on the ground. I sat with him. My neighbors must have known something was up. Another 30 minutes later and he decided he wanted to leave, a reasonable request. So I called my brother. No answer. I sent a text. No response. I called the other two people in my phonebook. Still nothing. I asked Mark to call some people himself. We went through half his phonebook, but every single person either couldn’t do it for some reason or simply didn’t pick up. This was a painful demonstration of just how powerless and unpopular we both were. The most humiliating for me was the call of an old mutual friend, Will.

Mark called Will and told him he was at this dude’s house. Will knew who I was. Me and Will had separate adventures once upon a time. But Mark either intentionally or merely because he was on drugs didn’t mention who I was. Mark could still barely communicate so he handed the phone to me. Will clearly recognized my voice. Neither of us said a greeting. I just gave him a clear explanation of the situation. We tried to ignore who we were at that moment. The melancholy was palpable when Will told me he didn’t have a car. There was nothing any of us could do. Mark was having such a horrible time with me that he had to get away and he couldn’t. We were trapped in this uncomfortable scenario.

He kept on asking what I gave him. He thought I had poisoned him or something, presumably as vengeance related to my earlier confession. He also tried to demand the rest of my MXE, so his friend could test it. It should go without saying that I did not let that happen. He tried to walk down the street, but I wouldn’t let him go alone even though he seemed to be afraid of me at this point. I told him I would walk him to a late-night bus-s…

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Well I read this whole thing, and I have a reply, but I have to go, so I will be replying soon. In the mean time, don't beat your own ass over it man. He had a fucked up time on MXE, and I've had friends have bad reactions to MXE as well... And I gave it to them. There's a lot of guilt that goes with the whole fucked up deal, but you gotta remember, it's not your fault that he reacted the way he did. Also, you never put a gun to his head and said, "Do this drug with me".

heres the deal, if you dont smoke....a bowl should clear in anywhere from 3-9 days. 6 or 7 on average. everytime you smoke you add more thc metabolites to your fat cells. im on probation so i learned a lot about this shit....you kind of have to. i took two rips of super dank on a sat night. pissed clean on a tuesday. im 27, 6'5'' and 270 lbs. so im no small dude. yall will be fine, just no more.

I'm gonna bump this thread.

Got a drug test the 19th. Been smoking for three days straight now after a t-break Height is 5,7 and my weight is around 90lbs. Am i gonna be clean by then.

>>20530
bumping again

Bumping this thread because why should I make a new thread?

5'6" 230 smoke once a week, not a lot at a time either.
Smoked a one-hitter on Wednesday, can I pass a test on Monday?

Bump as well.

I'm 180 lbs, 6'4'' ( I know) -last smoked April 5

I have a drug test SOMETIME before May 02 (I can pick the date)

I smoked rather frequently before I quit though.. I have pretty low body fat so if I sweat a lot, drink fuckloads of water I should be good..


Does anyone have any pointers of Vitamins/Suppliments to take during this time frame to accelerate the process?

>>20689
It's also worth mentioning that I do sweat a decent amount when I exercise. I also sweat TREMENDOUSLY when I sleep.
That is becoming a problem on its own, but that's pretty small compared to what I'm facing now. Hopefully it will be useful in helping me pass my drug test, but as a result I haven't been getting good nights of sleep. Will that make a difference?

I don't wanna lie or be a debbie downer, but I'mma be a debbie downer. You're probably screwed. That doesn't mean don't try, but be prepared for the worst. It took me an actual month and a half before I could pass an at home test my folks make me do, however up to that point my blood was made of honey oil, I'm also a chub and don't excercise much. I've heard of people passing in 5 days, but they work for it.

Also, if you dilute your sample by drinking a lotta water before you pee, you might get an extra day or two, which could be vital, just don't do it a second time or they'll know something is up.

Good luck man! If anyone can do it, it sounds like someone with your body type can.

BUT PLEASE BE SAFE ABOUT IT! Drowning your organs is a legitimate thing that happens to a lot of people who try to do body cleanses, and overexertion can kill you! Stay hydrated but stay safe!

yea nothing wrong with having some benzos on hand, could totally save ones ass

if somebody gets shakes and such, read up on withdrawl from alcohol, it can be far more hazardous than most would understand, one could seek urgent care center before hand and ask if they would help for future reference, to get some benzos, librium is decent

Yeah, I feel you. My addiction wasn't nearly as bad, nor as physical, but I smoked weed for four years and stopped cold recently. I've been getting gradually more and more depressed, which is usually when I'd smoke a few bowls and zone out. If I grab a coffee I stop panicking about not getting high, I feel happier and ready to go. However, be careful, caffeine is addicting too. As silly as it sounds, take a break every once and a while so you can reset your tolerance and not get too stuck on it.

But yeah, you're not alone brother.

do the same thing you did last time, but take B vitamins. they make your pee yellow.

>>20632
that sounds like some fucked up logic. "Your pee is TOO clean, we can't hire you." I mean i understand what they are saying, it just pisses me of to have to jump through these hoops.

>>20692
-pisses me off-

Next time google it, but your fine. from what Ive heard its only in your system a day or two

>>20624 those drinks are just gimmicks get b12 and creatine don't eat fatty foods a d exercise for a solid week. Then stop eating healthy eat cheeseburgers lots of them but still don't smoke that's important. The new fat is clean and it covers up the old thc fat i suppose. Then take the b12 vitsmins, drink lots of water before the test and take creatine the night before

>>20625 eat cheeseburgers for five days* and if you don't have 10
Days to get "clean" then you should learn to plan ahead better because a magical drink at the head shop won't save you from a lab test

save yourself 30 on a dumb drink. get a shit load of creatine monohydrate and b-vitamins for 1/3 the price. drink it daily, do lots of cardio and eat the cheeseburgers. also water, creatine is a water retainer, so drink loooots of water. thank me later.