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I've never used DXM to that extent, so I don't know what my advice is worth, but one side of this equation is chemical. Maybe you're trying a taper with DXM (which I guess I don't recommend, as they usually have poor success rates). If not, you might consider taking some things regularly for a little while - whether that means three good meals a day and vitamins/supplements, nootropics, or some other drug you're using as a crutch/anti-addiction measure. I feel a little odd mentioning the last one, but some people (I'm thinking of opiate addics especially) have found that necessary.
I'm not that conversant with the biochemistry behind it anymore, but if you've been taking DXM often, your personal chemistry is going to be messed up now that you've stopped. For instance, DXM and DXO block serotonin/norepinephrine reuptake; until your body adjusts, having less of those floating around is going to make you feel like shit. There are things you might take to speed up your body's adaptation.
Might help to stay away from the places you tripped at. Probably your room is a big one, and I'm sure you don't feel like leaving it atm, so maybe that's not so helpful right now. If you really want to quit, though, at some point it will help to avoid places and situations you'd associate with DXM.
I'm stressing chemistry and just doing right by yourself (showers, meals, walking around as much as you can take it), but as you say, you're still going to have to deal with it for a little while. If you're like I was at one point, you were using DXM to help deal with depression, so maybe there's an underlying issue you have to consider.
Aside from that, just try to be a supportive friend to yourself. Try to deal with whatever responsibilites you might have so you can devote a lot of time to resting and dealing with this. Find a place that at least feels peaceful and relaxing to you and spend time there. Get outside some when you can (even if it's four in the morning. Sometimes nights are better for this kind of thing, anyway). If there's anything you think you can find halfway interesting (books, computer games, etc), pick out some that seem worthwhile and spend time that way. In one way, this is like trying to recover from any illness. You feel terrible, and you're just trying to pass time.
If you have some money, consider looking into a float tank. Your town might have one or two of those places nearby. A float tank is a sensory deprivation chamber that can give you some of the peace and detachment of NMDA antagonists. Last time I looked, I think it was something like $30 an hour (discounts usually offered for introductory floats, though, and surprisingly cheap all-night sessions, as those are not popular hours). Hell, go for SCUBA at some point if you've got money to burn. I think most people at /dis/ would be a good fit for that.
Just try to find whatever arrangement makes you least uncomfortable all day, somewhere you can spend most of your time. If you have to work right now... that's hard, and I'm sorry.
If you think about making it through the week, that can look really big and miserable and hopeless. So try to make it through the day. If that's too much, try to get through the next hour, or the next ten minutes if you have to. You can always make it another ten minutes. If you have really good friends that you trust, just having them in the room can really help. Find something good to drink - water, tea, soda, etc - keep it at hand, and try to sip.
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