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Managing? Sure. I'm 27. I'm alive. I have a family and we are all close and love one another. My mind is sharper than ever because I was actually able to find the motivation to discover the roots of my depression and anxiety I suffered from for years through DXM as of last year. My body feels fine. My personality is back to being how it was before depression and anxiety. I may be without a job and rarely have money to buy things, but that's OK. I'm a minimalist. I have everything I need already, and I don't desire or require much for happiness. If I really need or want something, I'll find a way to acquire it. I can make money when needed.
I'm not jobless and without money because of DXM, though. I just haven't wanted a job since quitting my last one in 2015 after working it for 6 years, and I lost my car in 2013 also, so.. I don't have a social life anymore either, as my circle of friends faded and grew apart around age 22. I'm an introvert, though.. so I'm fine with spending my time at home doing mundane things. I'm happy with that. I still get out occasionally, and all of those people are the same way to extents. So, it's fine. They get it. And yes, I live with my folks and younger brother, but I don't mind. They don't either. We're all antisocial, simple country folk. I've no reason or desire to move away from my family, and they don't want me to either. This town and this land that we own is home. An apartment in a city full of noise is not. Me and my family are just the kind of family that remain close together, even when we're distancing ourselves.
My health? It's fine. I've gotten checkups yearly, and aside from a vitamin D deficiency once last year, I've been fine. My brain doesn't feel damaged at all. I take all the vitamins and supplements I need to give back to my body what I may take away from it while tripping, too. I have even worked on cleansing my pineal gland for the past 2 years not so much just for spirituality, but just for balance and clarity of mind.. as that is one of it's functions. I eat healthy enough. My body feels fine. As for my usage, I started using it again last year around May after not using but maybe 4 times since 2009, and since this January I have tapered down my use from multiple times a week, to a few times a month or few months. The only bad experiences I had were the 3 times I tripped while sleep deprived. Other than that, I've never had a bad experience. I have even tripped around my family on as much as 800mg and they don't notice anything. I'm already a bit of a quirky personality, so I really don't act different at all.
I may not be managing in terms of being useful in society, but I'm managing in terms of personal stability lol. Life is great.