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I've had lots of dreams where I have killed people. They occur at a rate of about maybe 6 a year or so. Sometimes the killing is part of what I need to do (killed a group a group of people trying to shoot a bunch of people), sometimes it winds up happening as part of the drama (had a random dream a long time ago where somebody was killing people and eventually I was in my room and knew somebody was going to come through the door, so I grabbed a pillow--the person that came through was my dad, and he thrust the knife which i blocked with the pillow, twisted to wrench it out of his hands, and then I took the knife and stabbed him in the back as he tried to tackle me and i wound up kinda psuedohugging him and he apologized saying he didn't have a choice), but most of the time it is just me and another person, and they are bound up in some way. Once, a (then) schoolmate had his hands tied so that he was standing and his arms formed a T, where each hand was tied to parts of a thick metal clothes line. In dreams like this, I am compelled, by some unknown force, to kill the person--even though technically I don't really want to. I don't feel anything toward them, like regret or anything like that... just kinda "well, this is the way it has to be". Then, in this particular one, I had to stab him to death, and every time I've had a dream like this, it takes a ridiculous number of attacks to kill the person. I had to stab him a good 50 times before he died. In another one I had to beat someone to death with a baseball bat, and it took a similarly long time, had a few more with knives, etc.
I've also had a lot of overly violent dreams in general. One I viewed from the third person the entire time, and a Korean guy had to recover a girl under threat for some Korean mob boss, and when he got her, they planned to escape while at a densely populated bar or something. A Korean gangster guy came after the guy who was supposed to deliver the girl from behind with a chain saw, but someone stood up behind the guy who was about to get attacked and had the chain saw go through the back of his head and out through his face. Also had a rather strange dream where I had to play a game of sorts where doors open and unlock, and I had to solve the puzzle of unlocking all the doors at once using the right combo of unlocks or something. There were large glass window panes that let you see into each room, and there was a sort of set of tracks that wove in between rooms where, at the beginning of the track, was a midget strapped to a chair with his mouth gagged, and at the end of the track after looping through some rooms, there was a massive saw that was going to cut the midget in half. The game was set up so that you were supposed to save the midget, but there were like two other people in the rooms with me and like half way through we honestly agreed not to give a shit about the midget. Lol.
So, if you feel weird, don't. People have weird dreams, that's just about the gist of it. They don't really say all that much about your personality, other than the fact that you have weird dreams. You can't control what happens in them unless it's a lucid dream, and even then, half the time you don't have very good control anyway.