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I've had some similar experiences, but only one that was distinctly alien and not sleep paralysis/hallucinatory phenomena, as I have come to be able to discern between visuals, more solid hallucinations and actual living presences, and one began in the early hours of the morning, as either a warning or indication scorched into my awareness, that simply read "UFO!" Out of caution, I did not go to the window to check, but simply lay and observed the direction of the window, the curtains still closed, and as I did so there came into my vision a complete blackness, not a soft darkness, or even pitch blackness, but a complete blackness, and not empty either, but hard as if it was an actual dark energy, and a grey, ovular head and skinny beck, an almost morphing indefinable grey in between greys, or a multitude of tones, with shapes for eyes and a mouth, visible from the torso upwards, and yet this being although a definite presence, felt more like a conduit, or honer, for this dark energy, as if like a mask through which it communicates, as it observed me and its' eyes narrowed into piercing slits, and as they did so the blackness seemed harder and colder, and seemed to penetrate me and paralyse me and shrink my life force, and put me under, while some part of me was still able to observe, but only so that this very thing became my observation. Scared and overwhlemed at this point, I sort of went into a default state and it left, either unwilling or unable to go further. I actually didn't feel bad afterwards, or scared, though the weirdness lingered, I felt rather relieved, and even normal in the good sense again, as if my being had fought off something.
Given the paralysing effect it had on me I can see how such a being would be able to abduct people in the manner that abductions occur, in which abductees find themselves unable to move and become separated from their bodies, if these things can channel this blackness to freeze someone, or if alternatively the blackness uses these things as a tool in order to do so. Although the experiences speaks to a certain malevolence, I am not entirely sure that these beings are entirely malevolent, and speculate that they are either working for other beings (Reptilian beings are often described in abduction cases), or that despite seemingly being of a collective, and all looking the same in appearance save for greatly varying size (indicating possible shapeshifting ability) they possess some modicum of individuality, and serve different purposes, as although this particular one seemed menacing, I've had other encounters with these beings in which they seemed curious and inquisitive, which might have been a deliberate facade to make me feel more comfortable with the intrusion, as despite their presence they didn't seem to be able to abduct me at all, and some accounts even suggest a sense of humour, despite the popular notion that they are indifferent, emotionless, cold and purely technological and scientific/logical. Whether or not they are aliens or of some spiritual plane is unknown, but several things suggest a shapeshifting ability to me, for one, the variations in size, secondly, despite the distinct grey alien appearance, this being appeared to be wearing some kind of old lady disguise, as it had a handbag, and curled hair, and an old lady outfit, and it's stature also suggested the attempt at an old lady appearance, which suggests the intention of appearing innocuous/inert, to those who might not be able to see the alien, which also suggest hidden and possibly bad intent.
Accounts of abduction seem to indicate that asking God for help can outright end an unwanted abduction or intrusion, if such a thing could ever be considered desirable, which damnably suggests that these beings might be demonic or something, though not conclusively. I have read other abduction accounts that show that people who are regular abductees, assuming they aren't making it all up, can grow used to the experience and even learn to commune with these aliens and learn from them. Abduction seems to affect most people negatively, and yet from accounts it seems that they wouldn't know or understand our intense fear in these situations as it is alien to them, they simply don't know fear in the way that we do, so they don't understand the effect their intrusion has on people's mental well-being. Although that particular encounter felt real, there are others that might stem from suggestibility and imagination on my part, owing to my ingrained memory of the experience which could lend hallucination or out-of-control fantasy the sense of a living presence. The experience has some things in common with my sleep paralysis experiences, which suggest to me that what happens during sleep paralysis might also happen during abduction, and be part of the abduction process, as I've felt shooting electrical surges and vibrations during sleep paralysis.
I know also the weakness and vibration you felt, the weight, from apparent paranormal experiences and as for the sense of something artificial, whatever plane this comes from has a certain virtuality, or plasticity, or artifice to it. Also look into Men In Black, apparently menacing, cold, and artificial looking/feeling humans who show up after certain UFO encounters and strange occurrences to threaten and intimidate people into silence, and have an effect on people not unlike what I described earlier from my encounter with the grey. Given the Grey's apparent ability to disguise, though not to me, they could be of the same kind. I believe I encountered a grey, or something not dissimilar, or possibly the same Grey I encountered recently, either that or it might just have been an old lady, save for strangely black eyes that gave me the same kind of feeling I experienced more recently, though not so severe. The ability to take on a pseudo-human form makes me think that the men in black might be greys attempting to take humanoid form. These encounters are unlike anything I've experienced on drugs, and yet drugs might also be facilitate such an encounter, for in 1917 I believe, Aleister Crowley encountered, or somehow summoned, while under the influence of mescaline and other psychoactives, an entity called a LAM, which he then sketched, which looks like a Grey alien attempting to take on Humanoid form, and it's not unheard of for people to have experiences like alien abduction on DMT, psilocin and LSD and any psychedelic.