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>I had the worst relationship ending you could have imagined 2 years ago (hottest girl I ever dated, apparently beat the living shit out of me, tore my rotator cuff, broke my nose, two black eyes and a serious concussion, unconscious for 4 hours, I remember none of this) and I haven't dated since then.That's a pretty traumatic experience, whether you remember it or not. There are things I don't remember that are pretty traumatic.
I have had some pretty bad abuse at the hands of my ex, including broken bones (lots of ribs). I had wanted to be free of him for so long but was too afraid of dying to try leaving. I wish I could say more but it's too hard atm.
I shouldn't be talking about this but I had some vodka so yeah fuck it.
Anyway, I don't remember the incident that put my kneecap permanently out of place, just like, fucked up the shit holding it there or whatever, making it scrape against my bones and shit. Also my LCL got fucked up. Taping it and physical therapy has helped but, I still don't remember the hours around when it happened. Yet me remembering being at the desk, then struggling, then nothing, then crying on the bed hours later, with my knee fucked up. I was also covered in bruises the next day and fucking everything was sore, but my knee was outright painful and even giving out on me, and the pain continued for a long time after that, until I started physical therapy and started taping it.
You probably had head injury preventing you from remembering what happened, ofc - but remembering something or not, the after-effects can be pretty damaging to your mental health, and you had some pretty bad injuries. I think the actual after-effects of injuries are much worse to deal with, than the actual incident of the injury happening itself, in a lot of cases. So even though you don't remember, and even though it is pretty horrible to have memories of being injured like that, it's just as bad or worse to have all the memories of healing from that shit, in my experience.
I still am dealing with physical pain from my injuries, don't know about you.
It's natural to react to something crazy like having your ex beat the shit out of you, in the ways you have.
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