we had cops come to our house once and since then ive never been able to answer the door. i have bad anxiety when i see cops. when i hear someone knock or ring the doorbell i get scared and shake. i put on socks an sort of creep my way to a window i can look out to see if i can see anyone. what is up with me?

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Sophie Singershaw - Sat, 25 May 2013 18:58:26 EST ID:VCTYFueh No.396829 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369522706473.jpg -(89462 B, 555x526) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Yeah, that's what the police do, whether intentionally or unintentionally. They cause sort of an instinctual fear because they can fuck your day up so bad. If you have drugs in the house or whatever, and cops come knocking at the door, it's a completely natural response to be afraid. And then if somebody else knocks at the door a month later, and you wonder if it's the cops, that's completely natural paranoia. The cops and indeed the whole legal system have this way of fucking up the lives of normal people who aren't doing anything to hurt anyone else, and that makes them very dangerous and frightening. Nothing is up with you, that's just normal. pic is mfw my friend got a ride home in an ambulance and I was in my room on my mushrooms with weed all over the place...I thought we were fucked.

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Matilda Hoddlested - Sat, 25 May 2013 19:57:12 EST ID:7UvknPX7 No.396840 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369526232132.jpg -(69718 B, 400x346) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. be glad it's just the cops. People used to have mafia grunts knocking at their doors. If they didn't comply with their demands, they would get hurt very badly, oh yes. Thank goodness we live in a safe, secure society now.

I've recently found that when I am not with other people (specifically friends and not family) that I get anywhere from kinda to very anxious. My heart starts beating fast, sometimes I feel nauseous and I get fidgety. I feel really unsafe unless theres someone around I know I can talk to. I don't feel like that with my family because they're pretty religious and its hard to relate to them/expose candid details of my life to them.

It doesn't always happen but it happens more often than not, usually if anything shitty has gone on. I have a lot of trouble going to sleep because of it. I get this paralyzing fear and I just lay awake with my eyes open and shit.

Is this a real disorder, like should I go to a doctor? Or am I just being a giant baby man?

I've always been shy and only had one relationship with a girl. I have terrible social anxiety and keep reading these damn PUA books and shit, for some reason I'm scared and depressed that I have to become someone I'm not in order for women to like me. Like be deceptive and shit. I don't really know what I'm trying to say. Keep thinking about stupid shit like cakefarts and crap too.

Help me /qq/.

>>	Simon Cerryville - Sat, 25 May 2013 19:41:37 EST ID:/5dl8l+6 No.396836 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369525297476.jpg -(43952 B, 362x378) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >reading PUA books

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Jack Brinkinbury - Sat, 25 May 2013 19:42:33 EST ID:hI7yPGqL No.396837 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369525353496.jpg -(33066 B, 375x500) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >>396835 OP here, I mean is all this pickup and PUA shit really the way to go? Or is it about "get out there idiot, you'll develop your own 'game'" in time. nb cuz just adding to OP

I met a girl online almost a year ago, we played games together. We chat it up all the time and we have even seen eachother on webcam quite a bit. I dont consider myself very good looking, asymmetrical face and slightly chubby. This girl is fucking banging though, Amazing curves, gorgeous face, slim but not hollywood-esque, overall a fantastic woman. We met up for the first time at a convention up north. We are in the hotel room and she fucking strips infront of me. She is completely casual about it, no sexual advances or anything. We only had a single bed and she starts cuddling. We were practically spooning at this point. This entire time I have been sweating balls trying to play it all confident and cool. I have no fucking idea what I'm doing, never had a girlfriend or even been laid before. Last night she slept nude and cuddled real close while we watched a movie.
I dont think I'm very attractive and fucking miles out of her league. Is this just some european shit that appearently everyone everywhere else is comfortable with?

>>	David Shakewell - Sat, 25 May 2013 18:43:12 EST ID:/arpCKiO No.396824 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369521792907.jpg -(16259 B, 344x259) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Huh?

>>	Nathaniel Bardgold - Sat, 25 May 2013 18:58:08 EST ID:XyR8L2dy No.396828 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369522688290.gif -(1096232 B, 200x171) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Uh?

If you have any experiences with using Anti-depressants, please post them here.

It's being recommended to me I should take them, and I want to inform my decision more.

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Hamilton Pabbershaw - Sat, 25 May 2013 18:59:40 EST ID:ly82fYL/ No.396830 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369522780272.jpg -(36459 B, 250x170) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >>396778 was on them for half a year. small amount 10mg. >forget them when i go to calgary for a week. >have mild seizures and became sensitive to light. felt like i was dying at my worst point. >will never try the quick fix of drugs again. time to eat healthy,workout and get out in the sun.

I'm not sure if I'm gay, I've had lots of girlfriends but always had trouble keeping it up during sex. I occasionally fap to dicks and seem to enjoy it more than regular porn. However I always feel like shit after fapping to gay porn. I feel like I'll never get married and have a family some day. I've never been with a guy before and most of them I don't find attractive, though I do find male bodies attractive. Maybe I'm just bi-sexual? It's all just very distressing for me, since I don't really find vaginas attractive but do find dicks to be.
Not sure what to do.

So are there still girls out there that are lonely, kind of awkward, still sort of cute though, without much experience in sex? You know, the type you who gets obsessed with you because you're the only one whose ever given her attention, and threatens to kill herself if you leave her? I love that kind of girl, so much fun. Lately all I'm finding among females are hard nosed bitches who all have their own personal fan club. They're fun too, just not as much fun.

Nothing is fun at all to me anymore, I just got back from my friend's house and we smoked a buncha weed and boxed and watched some show about giant snakes, and his gf brought us frappacuinos, but it was boring so I left. And when I see like people on tv going to the beach and stuff it looks fun but I took my little cousins the other day and it was boring, and I go alone sometimes because none of my friends like the beach and when I go alone I don't even wanna go in the water and I don't know how to skimboard or anything and you can't surf here unless it's storming. Nothing in life is fun unless I'm drunk, when I'm drunk that's when I'm at the epitome of having fun, it's full of laughter and I come out of my shell and start talking to everybody. But I can't drink every day obviously that's not good and it doesn't feel good to do so either, also my mother thinks i'm an alcoholic because I drink booze and spend extra money on good booze.

I have a big problem, and some of you might say I'm just a lazy ass, but I think it's more than that.

I work online, making websites and such. All things good until around January or when I took a little break that extended until now, for months.. I want to get back working but everytime I try I find myself excuses like I;m hungry, tired, or better watch some movie, or go out etc.

Not only that, but I feel like something is stopping me to start again as if I'm cursed or something. I don't understand why I can't just do it already; some people would say that I need a slap on the face to wake up and maybe that's what I need, but I really come to the conclusion that something is wrong in my head..

Hope that besides 10 trolls, I wil find 1 helpful reply...

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Hedda Bushshaw - Sat, 25 May 2013 18:34:57 EST ID:c2YrJPfL No.396821 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369521297454.jpg -(74697 B, 460x647) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >>396819 This. >>396818 It's never that easy for some to "just do it". That's one of the most half-assed pieces of advice right alongside "be yourself". OP, do you smoke a lot of weed or do some kind of substance? My vice is weed and cigarettes for the moment. When I'm not high, everything flows better, but I use it as an escape...

Until a couple years ago I used to go to goa/psy parties about every second weekend and it was the most fun and happy part of my life. I was able to juggle heavy drug use on weekends and a well-paying fulltime job on weekdays for almost a decade. Then various factors (borderline/bipolar girlfriend who I couldn't bring to parties but I had hope that she would "get better" with enouth attention and care, new floor manager who hated me, too much alcohol, ...) made me drop out of both lifes.

I stopped going to parties and eventually quit my job because I started to hate it and back then it was only supposed to be in between jobs for maybe some months and get my life back on track but fast forward I told my girl to fuck off because she was messing up my life too much (she was responsible for my landlord kicking me out amongst other things, worst of them probably being that one time she beat me up so hard during one of her agressive episodes that I was in hospital for a week and lucky to not be paraphlegic after a spine injury), started drinking heavily to compensate for loneliness, got kicked out of the next appartment because I started to become depressive and didn't open my mail and pay bills for months because fuck the system attitude. After that I moved back in with my parents who are somewhat supportive and came to terms with the fact that their oldest son who started out so promising is now living like a vegetable in the attic. It probably helps that my father's best friend was an alcoholic as well, living with his mom for many decades so the situation is not that alienating.

Well anyways, I've discovered this small party where they are going to play oldschool psy and it's flying under the rader and illegal just like in the good old days. I feel very tempted to go there but chances are I won't know anybody there after being out of the loop for so long. Maybe some of my old friends will show up but might look down on me having become a fat unkempt drunkard over the years. Maybe it will be a great back to the roots experience and kickstart my life again. Maybe there won't be any party if the cops show up and shut it down before I arrive. My rational mind tells me to n…

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It's been really bugging me, /qq/. When I was younger (I had depersonalization and derealization) I knew I felt like absolute shit, but I didn't know why. I desperately wanted someone to talk to, but "Guys, I feel weird again today and I don't like it" isn't really great for getting things off your chest, y'know?

So, in place of being able to talk about what was directly impacting me, I made up some shit about my past so I would be able to at least get out the emotions and frustration I was feeling. It was some Fight Club type shit, it was legitimately therapeutic for me to be able to cry and vent and actually be able to have them understand how I felt (even if it wasn't because of the same reason, I picked situations that would make someone feel like I did) for once.

Am I a scumbag, guys? I've been feeling really bad about it lately.

Hey QQ...

I've been through a lot with my current girlfriend. I love her, I give her almost all my time, I love her smile, and the way she cooks for me. I love the way she tells her friends about me and the way she runs up and hugs me when I get home from work. I love a lot of things about her. She's really a great girl...but she has this other side...she was abused as a child and she can get these anxiety/anger "mood swings. Anyways; she verbally abused me a LOT in the first 2 years of our relationship. Three times physically.

For a long time I never let anything get to me, I was a very tough guy and a lot of people used to tell me that. But recently I look back at a lot of the things I have done with my life and I am quite ashamed of them. I'm ashamed at the way I treated people, I'm ashamed at how I spent my time, I'm completely ashamed that I didn't finish high school (dropped out after 10th grade).

Anyways a mix of regret and my girlfriend verbally abusing me, my confidence is quite low most of the time. Sometimes, when I'm not around things that remind me of her, or remind me of my youth, I get back into my old groove. But this doesn't happen too often when she's around. She reminds me of her amazing childhood often, brags about how great the area she comes from is, how rich the culture was, how beautiful the area was, how many guys she used to sleep around with (I cried the first time she told me this, not in front of her; It was weird...after she fell asleep I just sat there watching king of the hill for about an hour and then starting sobbing like a baby) and stuff like that.

Once I found her messaging the boyfriend who took her virginity in highschool...It really hit home for me. Thinking about some little shithead taking advantage of my girl. He cheated on her, he didn't care about her at all. None of her exes did, but she still "cares" about them...this really shouldn't bother me, but it does. Anyway it upset me that they talked but whatever. Then I STUPIDLY went through all her facebook pictures. My god...it's like her whole life was documented on there! It was quite interesting to look at; I cried at parts..not because I w…

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Wesley Clipperpuck - Sat, 25 May 2013 05:01:03 EST ID:Pz0lFJgz No.396732 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369472463500.jpg -(621133 B, 1152x1536) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >my confidence is quite low most of the time. >I've gotten a lot sexier since I've been with this girl; and I feel like almost all of her friends think I'm hot/the best boyfriend material ever You sound like a conceded ass...But if she abused you just leave her sorry ass.

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Phineas Sendlewell - Sat, 25 May 2013 15:20:24 EST ID:5aV/k3S2 No.396795 Ignore Report Quick Reply 1369509624766.jpg -(8047 B, 214x285) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >>396731 Been in your shoes before. Thought the girl I was with was the "one" for me. She was verbally and mentally abusive to me. Dumped her ass after she bloodied my nose and started "living it up" and had a damn good time. But! I've gotten back into a serious relationship now and it just makes me miss the "living it up" days. pic not related.