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Self love/respect by Graham Purringture - Tue, 19 Dec 2017 17:42:28 EST ID:/+I8bvyS No.520736 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How do you get it? How do you actively encourage yourself and reinforce the true and attractive aspects of yourself? I've realized this was never solidified in me. I feel "below" most people and sometimes I find it akward to have conversations and eye contact even with my friends (fear of saying the wrong thing and getting made fun of, most likely). I feel weak even though I am good looking and very talented. How do I not give a fuck? How do learn to appreciate myself so I can confidently navigate the social and dating world? Also grew up with a very strict father that probably had some play in this.
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John Blubblemidge - Sun, 31 Dec 2017 11:03:49 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.521017 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Especially take care not to care whether others get upset by you not doing what they want you to do. It's a loop anyway, you want to be loved and you give yourself so little love that you are willing to please people just to feel some of it from them, but it's never satisfactory. Love them as much as you can, but follow your own guidance this will in turn make you feel more self love and thus make you more capable of loving others and in the end benefit all parties the most.
Archie Dudgeridge - Sun, 31 Dec 2017 14:20:07 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.521022 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Most people get it by deluding themselves into thinking higher of themselves than they actually deserve.
John Worthingville - Mon, 01 Jan 2018 13:11:46 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521048 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How do you actively encourage yourself and reinforce the true and attractive aspects of yourself

I smoke weed and I'm like "fuck I'm the best"
Cornelius Firringchudge - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 14:06:20 EST ID:EZqlXnFB No.521489 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Thank you for your wise words
Dextrolord - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 20:15:59 EST ID:xmLJIsps No.521492 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I really like this gonna start doin that

few questions about a girl im seeing by Sidney Blackville - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 08:31:07 EST ID:26NpYx+j No.521479 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm dating this girl and we haven't been beyond kissing, and she's not very responsive/enthusiastic even then. I asked her about it and she said 'past experiences' meant she was a bit wary/reticent about things like that, but it doesnt mean she doesnt fancy me back. I've never really met a girl like that and was just wondering if any anons with experience could help me understand the best way to move us towards a conventional relationship (and i sincerely mean that, I'm not just trying to get past her defenses to fuck her I want to be with her) while still not making her uncomfortable and shit, you know what I mean? Also she does a lot of coke, I don't know if that's relevant but I've heard about heavy coke using girls getting frigid? Any help/advice you can offer's greatly appreciated, thanks
Augustus Hubberham - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 14:35:38 EST ID:YeKAEOKH No.521490 Ignore Report Quick Reply
The coke might not make her frigid, it might be that they come from the same trauma. Only cokehead I knew was not particularly frigid, she was pretty crazy and her life was... well I think it was a total mess a few years before but she's gradually worked on it. Hot as fuck and quite sweet though.

Odds are she's been through some bad shit, it's not a dealbreaker but combined with heavy drug use it's something that should have you on alert for worse signs I say this because it might, and MIGHT indicate she's not handling her baggage very well. We all accumulate bullshit but some people try to at least keep it in order, orthers just run away and get worse. If it's going slowly though that's good because you've got plenty of time to see how she is otherwise. On the other hand it may all be completely unrelated. This is nothing more than an elevated risk without context but you know her better than I.

Anyway if she doesn't then just take it slowly. I've dealt with shy/reticent girls before. Take it slowly, let them do a lot of the escalating unless it starts to get silly. If she knocks you back then take it in your stride. Make her feel safe to say "no" and she'll feel safe to say "yes". This sort of approach is a good way to bore most girls to tears or whatever but as long as you're not completely stalled for ages it's fine.

If it does appear to just stall for date after date then I'd probably talk to her about that. I mean if all else fails and you've been seeing each other quite a while asking how to progress to a relationship in slightly better terms will either work or it's a lost cause. But maybe as a last resort.

Going on 26 by Archie Penderham - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 20:08:06 EST ID:oOQyCzbT No.521388 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>going on 26
>live in a building that also has businesses
>live in the middle of nowhere, cost of living is cheap, make $20 an hour which is more than most people I know including many who have graduated college
>30 grand in debt. Get paid $600 a week, barely can keep up with bills
>big Dreams but they’re in the planning process and barely feasible right now
>under watch at work because I fucked a machine big Time this week. Could get fired on a whim.
>no girlfriends in this state.
>always think about getting in good shape but never follow through, don’t know where to start, aimlessly scroll through YouTube fitness and /fit/, etc
>come home after a long hard day at work
>24 year old roommate is suicidal, refuses to try pot or anything, just more and more meds that make him more suicidal
>he’s a Twitter sadboi
>being around him is fucking draining. But afraid he will kill him self if I move out, have found suicide notes before, makes references to killing himself if I don’t live with him
>hear my extremely hot flirty 20 year old neighbor getting fucked next door
>so drained, can’t bring myself to do anything but lay down for a nap
>as my vision slowly fades, I see this across room sitting on a chair
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Jenny Penninghall - Sat, 13 Jan 2018 09:10:40 EST ID:9cRQ1bGM No.521443 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>30 grand in debt. Get paid $600 a week, barely can keep up with bills
Look for another job now specifically one that will hand you more hours
>always think about getting in good shape but never follow through, don’t know where to start, aimlessly scroll through YouTube fitness and /fit/, etc
buy gym membership, do SS for 6 months
>24 year old roommate is suicidal, refuses to try pot or anything, just more and more meds that make him more suicidal
he ain't your kid

move out, reduce costs, get money nigga, get fit
Phineas Sullerford - Sat, 13 Jan 2018 15:58:30 EST ID:aUdigX5R No.521447 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You don't need a perfect routine to start training. Just go outside and walk/run a bit, then do like 50 push ups and 50 abs every day. Within one month you'll have better knowledge of your own body and movements and everything you read will start making more sense. From there you can advance to better, more advanced routines. I started training doing literally one hundred push ups everyday. It's a really shitty excercise, but it got me motivated and after that I started training more and better.
Also, I'd consider paying for training. It really isn't the same having someone who prepares your routines specially for you, and watches you over while you train, and puts pressure on you everyday. My entire life I've trained on my own, through videos and stuff. Only last year did I hire a personal trainer (he trains acrobats and dancers) and it's pretty great. It really is worth the money, at least do it a couple months till you get the discipline and knowledge.
Matilda Washtuck - Sat, 13 Jan 2018 19:39:54 EST ID:lXjUaJuo No.521449 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Shut up and just do it already.
Nigel Grandway - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 06:58:27 EST ID:A8SckZiH No.521474 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You are the funniest shit poster on the site. I hope you never make it to the city so that I can come back and laugh at you every few months or so
Edwin Niblingway - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 11:12:06 EST ID:hJOAGUjw No.521487 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I can relate, our lives are very different yet the feelings you describe are very similar, also going on 26, had no idea the world and my life would look like this at this point, not even overly negative or positive, just something i don't feel like i could have ever predicted or prepared for you know what i mean?

dont know if i need advice just dying by Esther Greenville - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 18:35:00 EST ID:+eu7fILs No.521255 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>born in cold desolate rural poor area
>i mean this area is the poorest of the poor like the ghetto of detroit is better than this
>poorest rural area in america which is REALLY fucking poor
>everyone here just has rusty shit like bikes and tractors sitting in uncut fields in the woods that they worship and treat like precious artifacts
>everyone around me is so fucking poor its rediculous people beg for shit everywhere and theres mentally ill people that just sit in gas stations and mcdonalds all day
>like really fucking poor you dont even understand how poor they are people here take cans back just trying to get their next fix of alcohol
>every single person here (except me im a super genius) has 0 dollars and 0 cents in their bank account at any given time
>im not just talking people my age i mean the parents and adults even
>everyone is just shooting up perscription pills and running around fighting each other trying to get their next cheap high every day
>i literally see 13 year olds running around drug dens in yoga pants smoking cigarettes full of convicted sex offenders and i see moms and parents shooting up in front of their infant children and doing other drugs
>literally nothing to do but get drunk
>i mean man it is SO fucking poor like i mean people driving around beater 20 year old cars and rusted out trucks with no exhaust is literally all i see and tractors and horse buggies going up and down the road 24/7 no one has a fucking cent or worthwhile possession to their name
>literally every sinlge person here no matter their income cost of living or anything live so far under the poverty line you would think they were like pink africans in the snow

anyway onto the point of the story..
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Barnaby Nazzlestack - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 05:39:08 EST ID:Ug/rWGNb No.521375 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Exactly mate. If you can see past some fat rolls or stretch marks to some big ol titties, a big ass and a good personality, well them how do you expect them to see past your arrogance and insecurity tied up in a whole ball of angst?

Fatties still have pink puss and cuddles sonny jim.
James Babberwater - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 06:02:28 EST ID:bRThzT1d No.521377 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Look my girlfriend is fat so I get what you're saying - if she lost weight or if I could transfer her brain into the body of a hot woman that would make the relationship ideal. 99% of men (the ones without a bbw fetish) will admit this so I get why people choose hot shitty women over nice fatties. I made a different choice with different upsides/downsides, so what?
Barnaby Nazzlestack - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 09:57:10 EST ID:Ug/rWGNb No.521378 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I just get annoyed with people who chose to be unhappy. You know that things could be better but have chosen to make the best of it. Some of these guys don't even try to get a little piece of happiness with another human being on their own pay grade and wonder why they have no real human connections, all the while spouting dehumanizing garbage.

So I just have to say occasionally, you guys shoot yourselves in the head everyday you believe that bullshit man. Like you lost something you never had in the first place.
Fanny Fuvingwater - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 10:17:44 EST ID:FtvyGwvP No.521379 Ignore Report Quick Reply

yeah, that sounds a lot like a byproduct of watching too much porn (I'm not anti-porn or nofap whatsoever for the record).

Most women have blemishes, stretch marks, rolls etc. Not just "fat" women either, especially beyond the age of 30. Doesn't stop them being hot, believe me.
Ian Claystock - Sat, 13 Jan 2018 08:47:31 EST ID:UZC9gHak No.521441 Ignore Report Quick Reply
how do i move to the city im trying so hard im always looking at apartments emailing people and shit i just wanna LEAVE im not white trash

I'm scared: Mental Illness by Samuel Demmlenudge - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 09:39:54 EST ID:Vwtvkv4y No.521407 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have the wherewithal to know that I am mentally ill on an intellectual level, but I'm so far gone that I no longer remember what it was like to be healthy.

Is anyone this mentally ill?

I'm fairly well educated, so my guess is that most people as sick as me aren't posting on a personal issues section of a drug-themed image board.

I don't know what the point of this thread is. Just tell me that I'm safe and that I'll be okay. You don't understand how scary this all is.
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Edwin Passleville - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:35:50 EST ID:LcucpSqc No.521419 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Take your meds
Cedric Turveyforth - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:37:55 EST ID:MKkw9wKC No.521420 Ignore Report Quick Reply
lol shut up

I'm explaining to you that something went wrong. Something happened and I just don't feel like taking my meds anymore. If the meds were working, then I wouldn't have stopped taking them. This is new; I don't feel like taking them any more
Barnaby Sivingnen - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 13:58:25 EST ID:aPyw/q90 No.521427 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here. Fuck it.

There is nothing wrong with me. I should take my medicine. Don't waste any energy on my bullshit.
Lillian Bummleweg - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 15:14:52 EST ID:HV1KrY0T No.521430 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Enjoy the hospital stay schizo
Lydia Gesslelock - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 15:51:55 EST ID:+wQgw6FT No.521435 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'll fucking find you (jk) ill fucking find you and end you (jk) where do you live (jk) I have a masters degree do you think that I can't figure out how to find you (jk) do you think that I can't figure out where you live (jk)

best way to find someone at this point by Basil Worthinglock - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 22:43:53 EST ID:K18D88qO No.521392 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'll try to make this as concise as possible but I won't succeed. I spent most of my teenage years with a lot of personal issues and I've spent young adulthood thus far working through these problems and while it's been difficult and I'll always be a little fucked I've made unimaginable strides except when it comes to dating. I've never been in the game and never had a chance to get the life experience that everyone else has. I don't think this bars me from ever having a meaningful intimate relationship like some people in my situation do, but I really just don't know where to start.

When I was younger I never went out with anyone because I couldn't understand why anyone would want to be with me so I was skeptical of anyone showing me affection (as one can imagine, "so and so likes you talk to them" ... "what? who said what? haha get lost" type bullying didn't really help with this). At this point though, I do have a sense of self-worth and my problem is that I genuinely have no idea how the courtship works in this day and age, and rather than end up like the stereotypical "creep" who oversteps boundaries I chose to not risk it and focus on school, friends, etc. which as I said I really did make a lot of improvement and except in this area I'm at least as socially competent as your average person.

Turning 21 recently (and another life event that's not really important and would take too long to describe the significance of) made me realize the time really is now, not because I think there's some "deadline" but because I can't stand to wait any longer, I need to share my life with someone.

Obviously online dating would probably be the best for someone like me but there are so many sites and most of them seem to cater towards people just looking for casual hook-ups, which I'm not particularly interested in. I'm not interested in a platonic relationship in any sense but sexual aspect isn't as important to me as finding someone I really connect with. I could really care less about appearance (to a reasonable extent) or gender.

Really at this point A. common interests and B. drug use are my on…
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Walter Blackbury - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:43:23 EST ID:/HuDbwTC No.521422 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have no idea why my ids different but I think it's pretty clear no one would impersonate me

Augustus Werrystone - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 13:28:03 EST ID:7IGW3+Ip No.521424 Ignore Report Quick Reply

NO your logic is terribad. you can only make a female friend through another male? i hate to use neckbeard chan terms but that truly is a "beta" mentality. believe it or not it's exceptionally easy to make female friends. just smile and be nice. transcending the cakefart is sometimes very difficult, but again you shouldnt be looking to other males as a bridge for this
Walter Blackbury - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 14:16:15 EST ID:/HuDbwTC No.521428 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I kinda thought the same thing, thanks for the input. I hate people that project like I'm about to do but honestly it sounds like his strategy for meeting men lmao.
Matilda Cluckletare - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 14:35:30 EST ID:aUdigX5R No.521429 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I agree. My female friends always hook me up with their friends.
James Bennerhall - Sun, 14 Jan 2018 08:58:06 EST ID:I3Iy9lXv No.521484 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Are there any dating sites for people who aren't just looking for sex?

Someone should start a site.. a SECULAR site.. where when you join you pledge that you will not have sex with anyone within 3 months of meeting them IRL for the first time. That would cut through so much bullshit, you'd both know that if the other person was just looking for sex they'd be on Tinder.

how to best support someone with depression by Shitting Duckfuck - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 16:20:15 EST ID:hGe/07/f No.521314 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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sup guys

im dating a depressed individual. She's had her heart broken recently and lives in an unstable and sometimes violent environment. She can't really go onto having a relationship right now but that's fine with me. I'd like to help her recover from this at least a little bit until she can move out to somewhere more stable and recover fully. at this point she is numb to almost all emotion but sadness, which breaks my heart. Does anyone here have a similar experience and can give me some kind of direction so i can support her correctly and effectively? If anyone needs more info to draw a conclusion I'll supply it as long as it doesn't reveal any personal stuff
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James Clovingfire - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 05:33:58 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.521373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>what is with people posting youtube links as responses?

It's just one dude who replies to basically every thread.

>how dare you suggest living a healthier life might be beneficial

A healthy lifestyle has beneficial effects on mood for everyone, but it's particularly important for people with depression. I ignored this advice for years and would get annoyed with people who suggested exercise etc, I always thought they didn't get it.
However over the years I've come to realise that lifestyle actually makes a real impact, sleeping patterns especially. I still take antidepressants, but they're not enough on their own.

Doing some serious cardio 3+ times a week has beneficial effects on mood too, endorphin release and hormone regulation are the major factors. If you're male then some lifting is a good idea too, as it increases testosterone levels (so does cardio, but less so) and low testosterone has a strong association with depression and anxiety.

Being overweight, unfit, dehydrated and sleep deprived rarely makes people happier.
Sophie Geggleman - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 14:47:52 EST ID:HV1KrY0T No.521383 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How dare you suggest this generic advice is extremely generic and obvious to all involved?!?!?

Nice rant nb

>hurr eating healthy makes you healthy!
Sophie Geggleman - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 14:50:05 EST ID:HV1KrY0T No.521384 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>hurr exercise makes you fit! you should exercise more, anon!

It's like talking to my fucking mom.
Emma Wellerwill - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 17:22:59 EST ID:mOcDdlwU No.521386 Ignore Report Quick Reply

i hear criticism but not suggestions
awe' !!vVWR8L52 - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 18:53:59 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521387 Ignore Report Quick Reply
well you may want to proceed by going with the flow by soothesaying yourself hey look there is so much evidence showing how universe supports me in what I chose to be. For the reason that i just chose so for the kicks as opposed to the kicks of assuming things ain't going right.

Reality by Eiriel. - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 23:57:43 EST ID:paCoL1NN No.521367 Locked Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've been dosing ENTIRELY way too much datura. Like I eat some every day and the trip just never ends. I just ate more. I"M A MONSTER WHAT DO I DO.
I saw dead bodies and demons on the way to the tree datura for harvest.
dead bodies and demons

I don't know how many days I've been eating datura in a row. The last time things were like this, I was on datura for like I don't know.
And this musician is the only thing that makes me feel human anymore.
And, her.

I don't want to lose my soul. I want a wife and children but I'm plagued by these dark beings that materialize in the dark. The voices fight for my attention against this girl that I really like. I smoke seed sometimes, which temporarily reverses the effects of the datura.

I don't know, I love the smell of the flowers and they tell me, "Just one bite."
This is like a reflection in the middle of datura binging. Sometimes I think I'm in hell, and people's eyes go black, like they have a demon.
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Ian Blatherfoot - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 00:22:15 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521369 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Datura is a jealous plant and it will eventually destroy you. Take my advice and stop using it.
Polly Buddlelen - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 00:24:27 EST ID:q0rzTCGF No.521370 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Eiriel huh? I don't believe you. Nobody on deliriants makes sense and references to shit from 5 years ago.
Awe !!vVWR8L52 - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 04:04:45 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521371 Ignore Report Quick Reply
> I love the smell of the flowers
I'd love to have your predicament.

So what's the song or the artist?

>Glory be to the Dark Prince.
Eiriel. - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 04:26:15 EST ID:paCoL1NN No.521372 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I want him OUT of my head.
His fucking song about jumping. And forgetting that person before you hit the ground.
Everyone fucking loves him. No one gives a shit about my music.

I'm finally not on Datura. I guess that's progress.
Cedric Senningsig - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 15:36:27 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521385 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>I want him OUT of my head.


I feel like I'm really boring by Esther Willystock - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 13:05:06 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.521278 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Idk people just don't seem to really enjoy talking to me RIP.
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Ebenezer Fanman - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 23:02:07 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.521296 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've got a lot of friends and we enjoy chilling with eachother, but I find when I'm talking with someone I could be entertaining them more.

I think this dude hits it best. I don't feel like I talk about the most interesting things and I feel like my delivery is flat
Samuel Heshway - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 03:43:23 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521301 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Well, this is the problem...

Do you want lots of friends? Or... do you want to be entertaining?

Nell Bleckleshit - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 12:01:16 EST ID:7IGW3+Ip No.521308 Ignore Report Quick Reply
most people are utter fail at active listening and while you are talking they are anxiously awaiting their turn to spew words. 80% of the time it is the fault of others for not having the courtesy to hear and contemplate your words.
Awe - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 13:00:15 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.521310 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fuck courtesy, it's curiosity that makes the difference.
Eliza Dripperlock - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 14:19:34 EST ID:7IGW3+Ip No.521382 Ignore Report Quick Reply

you are right. the curiosity of what the other person has to say.

That girl agian by Reuben Bibblewed - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 17:08:23 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.520866 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I came home for vacation and I ran into that girl again
>she asks me to take her to get her meds and set up a bank account
>she cannot set one up because she doesn't have a id because her license ran out 8 years ago (she is 28) and she never renewed it, also she would have to go thru the driving process again.
>she bawwed and said she wanted to wash her hands clean of life

>A few days later it's xmas eve,
>she wants me to drive her to the slummy part of the county and to borrow 30 bucks
>she practically begs me for an hour and tells me how much pain she is in and how getting medicine from this one store will ale her
>she acts suspiciously the whole way there
>she wants me to drive the back way
>she wants me to get money out in the gas station in the home town
>says she is going to a store to get something, but doesn't want me to in or near the parking lot for some reason and wait for her at the end of the street
>I comply and she doesn't show up for 10 minutes
> I get worried and go out
> I still don't see her and it's been an hour
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Cedric Sapperchare - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 12:00:08 EST ID:LZcwMVpc No.521222 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I wouldn't say he caused it but I think it's safe to say he played a part in it
Fucking Mobberdale - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 11:16:38 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.521346 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Racked with guilt, I am not sure how this could have played out differently
What if I stayed?
What if I refused to give her money?

How would this have played out differently?
Would she have lived for another 60 years?
Or would she have died,
she had Rhabdomyolysis, dialysis,sciatica, panic disorder, PTSD,Bipolar Disorder, and schizophrenia.

I know she was bad news, but she needed me.
I feel so alone, I even made the mistake of trying to call her earlier.
Edward Croshset - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 06:01:21 EST ID:3qsH2oYZ No.521376 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Ding dong the witch is dead, which old witch, OP's witch.

Good riddance OP you took one bullet and lived to tell the tale. You should be happy.
Jarvis Cringerstone - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 02:14:09 EST ID:lXjUaJuo No.521404 Ignore Report Quick Reply
She didn't need you dude; that's just what you've been telling yourself to justify staying aboard the sinking ship. If you hadn't been offering yourself up for her to use she simply would have found another sucker. Don't dwell on these questions either. It wasn't going to play out any different because she didn't want to get better.
You need to realise how badly you goofed by letting your dick do the thinking here, while you convinced yourself that you were acting the saint in the process. You only really cared about saving her so that she'd be indebted to you and she only cared about scoring her next hit. I probably sound like a dick but I feel I'm speaking at least a modicum of truth here.
Lillian Blackstock - Sat, 13 Jan 2018 20:52:05 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.521453 Ignore Report Quick Reply
With the speed of onset of IV heroin she probably redosed after you left. You can't be constantly watching someone with a narcan kit, people make their own bad decisions.

Vent by Nicholas Dobblefudge - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 21:54:43 EST ID:ZNhfmEVc No.521172 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>start an NSA situation with a girl early 2017
>we eventually start seeing each other more, fucking frequently
>couple of months ago tells me that I'm growing on her & that she has feelings for me
>I tell her how I feel and that I enjoy seeing her
>tells me that she's seeing other guys but would soon like to become exclusive
>can feel my feelings for her getting stronger for her every time I see her, going from seeing her once a week to staying there 3 or 4 nights a week
>tells me that she wants to build a life with me & that I'm exactly what she looks for
Fast forward to NYE party that we attended
>drinking with some old friends that are mutual friends between us
>"Hey, come inside, I need to talk to you"
>so, i've been thinking about it and I don't want a relationship. I didn't mean any of the things I said to you, I was in the moment and didn't want to upset you
>I look at her blankly and say 'I don't think you have any idea how much you have just hurt me'
>Continuously asks me why I'm not talking to her for the rest of the night
>Say nothing, and give a blank face whenever she speaks to me
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Eliza Beddledock - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 12:18:17 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521274 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Fucking her could be nice, but I'd thank her instead for showing you in a visceral way that love should be self-sufficient. Such freedom and joy in unconditional love, such a sweet thing.
Doris Croffingpet - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 12:49:57 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521309 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't think trauma alone makes you schitzophrenic but it can contribute if you've got a predisposition. It's not the most common cause with bipolar but that does happen.

Anyway don't change your plans and stuff. But when rageing just consider that your brother and father are probably self medicating their own problems and handling them badly rather than just dicks for the sake of it I'm not sure if the perspective will change much but maybe it will grant you a little more patience to endure until you can get out for a shot and not being them. Good luck.
Thomas Sommlebury - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 02:30:30 EST ID:ZNhfmEVc No.521337 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here. Thanks for the kind words, everyone. I know what to do now - It wasn't easy but it's over.
Fucking Mobberdale - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 11:41:44 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.521348 Ignore Report Quick Reply
just curious, how old are you and her?
Walter Nicklefuck - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 12:57:34 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521351 Ignore Report Quick Reply
He definitely had mental issues and passed them to you and your brother. I'm not saying forgive him, just remember that he wasn't only an abusive asshole but a troubled man. Society failed you all. Remember that your decisions are what make you different, and choose wisely.

Good luck and I hope your life improves soon.

When you love a woman you love yourself by John Worthingville - Sun, 31 Dec 2017 22:50:19 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521032 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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There's part of you in every girl you love. That's why you love them. Because they resonate with your own personality.

So of course you miss people when they're gone, but that is only because they have taken a part of you. You need to regain that by growing that part again, you can do it alone or you can find a new girl to help you.

Oneitis is basically yourself asking for re-growth. Understand that and use every heart break as an opportunity to grow stronger.
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Edwin Sondlehall - Tue, 02 Jan 2018 10:43:34 EST ID:AOtWvoxi No.521083 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Cause you don't have the cool accent brah
James Pubblebury - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 10:32:38 EST ID:jK0eVQFY No.521126 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i dont agree. nobody defines you as a person. sure, some traits of hers might resonate with your personality, you may even feel that you are connected on a higher level or something like that, but when it is over, she does not take shit "away" from you. it stays. nobody defines you as a person. you are yours and ultimately nobody elses.
Clara Dazzlefore - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 13:39:50 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521131 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Eliza Smallwill - Fri, 05 Jan 2018 14:15:50 EST ID:GXxoT3hK No.521200 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Fr, op just being all creative & poetic & heartfelt n shit.
Polly Crammlesture - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 20:56:19 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521326 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Maybe I wasn't clear. In fact it is as you said, they don't "take" anything from you, but that is the impression you get. I just want to let's say share my little insight inspired on what little I know about emotions and missing people you loved.

For example, maybe you used to take long walks on the beach with a person you loved. Then you break up , or they leave, and you no longer enjoy walking on the beach. Why? You are still the same person, but somehow it feels like those things are no longer possible, you can't walk on the beach again with her, so you feel like you can't walk on the beach EVER AGAIN. But the beach still exists, you still like it, so why not just do it on your own?

I believe that we all have inside all the people that we have loved, and all the things that we miss from them. When you miss a loved one, you miss the activities or feelings that you were engaged on when they were present. It's like losing a friend who spoke a foreign language with you. You don't lose the ability to speak the language, but you feel like you can no longer speak it with anybody else. Even alone.

Until you find a new language partner and then you move on.

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