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Quit Heroin, trying to fill this void by Nicholas Brookwater - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 23:16:36 EST ID:uy3JDE2/ No.517085 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So, I'm going for my third vivitrol shot this upcoming weekend. However, after meeting being forced to kick dope at my house for 9 days, and then my old man administered the vivitrol shot(he's an MD). That same day, I got my keys back. I link up with my friend who felt bad for me because my ugly ass ex broke up with me on my 7th day sober. So she suggests that I meet her cousin who is 28 and just moved in with her and that she is very beautiful. Okay, so me and her cousin hit it off instantaneously. She thought I was funny, I got her number and she hit me up later that night to smoke a blunt with her. So, one day she just disappears off the fucking map even though we've chilled and have been slightly affectionate with eachother. She left her phone at her fucking Cousin's house when she decided to up and leave and no one heard from her for days. Che claims she moved in with "friends". So, anyways i'm just like fuck this bitch, she's 28 years old(im 23), and has 2 kids. I can do better however she has some amazing ass tits and is like a PRO at fucking. However, so I give her some space and say fuck it. I end up meeting this international grad student from Thailand and she's only been in the US for 2 years. Very religious, parents have a lot of money, super good type, etc. It only seems until I started posting photos of me and her on Facebook that the first girl came back to me trying to fuck. In the past 5 weeks or so we've been fucking occasionally(maybe once a week, maybe once every 2 weeks, maybe 4 times in 1 week. its random as fuck) COME TO FIND OUT she's staying with her ex-husband and has to pretend to be affectionate to him. So, me being the piece of shit I am, I've been cheating on the second girl with the first girl who I have more in common with, have more fun with, and all around have a better time with. She tells me her fallopian tubes are tied, I don't believe it and I pull out everytime(because fuck condoms, but also fuck babies). So I get invited over to her house for 3 nights in a row while her ex-husband is out of town and we were so drunk every time we fucked I busted inside her about 3 different times in a 36 hour period. So now I'm f…
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Nigel Nindlepit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 08:30:42 EST ID:f1qCqrLu No.517167 Ignore Report Quick Reply

So like did you own the plane or was it just some random plane?

You would think like they'd have like door locks on them or something....
Jack Bardman - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 16:13:25 EST ID:b1UFhFdv No.517176 Ignore Report Quick Reply

You'd be surprised. You're right that most of them do, but stealing a plane is a bit more difficult than a car so some older ones don't have locks on the door.
Archie Duvingdale - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 16:32:26 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.517177 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>a bit
Ebenezer Brabbleson - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 15:11:10 EST ID:BLJ2E9Y6 No.517201 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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> "I come from good stalk"
Martha Fallerhall - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 11:51:49 EST ID:Ob3Okyu7 No.517224 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah thats what it means either the best stalks only drop off the best babies

Borderline and medicine by James Cronkinnon - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 19:24:32 EST ID:vvs8GuSk No.517209 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm pretty sure I have a borderline personality. After reading a lot mostly, as I was once told on therapy (just talking therapy) it's not this. But I think it was a lie for the sake of the moment, so that I would not see myself as sick in any way. So I did that psychotherapy over a year ago for maybe twenty times once a week, cost me hell of a lot on money, and then I broke out because at some point I found a new girlfriend and it was very cool for maybe a month. So I felt I didn't need no therapy and I was already growing impatient with the talking not getting to any point. Then soon my new relationship got fucked up, obviously, and I'm stuck with it till now. I wish there was some reasonably healthy way to resolve this. This story keeps happening all over. I'm left with maybe 3-4 friends/acquaintances who would even talk to me from time to time, as most people have just left me behind. I am clinging to anyone available and at the same time somehow I always destroy the relationship sooner or later, maybe by the clinging itself. Probably my presence has always been a burden and the people I once knew (quite many actually) found better things to do

Anyway, to the point - DRUGS! There are some pharmaceuticals that people treat this kind of thing with, like SSRI, used as mood stabilizers. That would be cool to not fall into despair everyday. Do you think taking such medications has any point beside being cool for a while and fucked up afterwards? Anyone did it? Do you think I should go to a psychiatrist and ask for it, do they even prescribe to not-really-sick people like me? Or should I buy some kind of it on the internetz and take the risk of my unprofessional diagnosis based on dank knowledge from places like this?
Basil Subblebanks - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 05:46:13 EST ID:WUQZGMSw No.517219 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I get the impression that BPD is only really treatable by specific forms of therapy and that medication struggles to do more than blunt the edge a little.

You do need the right sort of therapy. I think "maybe 20 times a week" is either hyperbole or you had a therapist who just took your money though. Most effective therapy usually involves a heavy amount of "put this into practice" and doing appointments more than once or twice a week won't do anything. It takes time to change your ways of thinking and behavior.

If you can't knuckle down and stick at it then you're fucked. End of.
Polly Firrylork - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 07:29:15 EST ID:vvs8GuSk No.517220 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah I suppose it is must be more of a commitment than just talking about it once a week. So I've been doing yoga for about a year and a half, listening to Alan Watts, generally trying to chill out and get rid of this compulsive clinging - which I now think has a lot to do with the western egocentric way of perception. I get the theory all right but anything can break my peace of mind, then I push the people I know too hard, then they move away, then this proves the theory that anyone can betray me at any point, and so on. There is this circle of self-proving expectation that if something is all right for the moment then it must surely come to a vicious end pretty soon - and so it does.

That's why I thought of blunting it at all in the first place, it would help if there would be no tragic breakups for a while you know. I can't smoke weed all the time, I have hell of a lot to do to keep up, although this sure helps to forget about it. Alcohol is dangerous for me over a few beers, I usually get into some really bad mood and do something stupid. Then there is LSD which I take maybe twice a year, almost always alone, just a little like 100 μg, and then of course I understand it all for a few days, how wrong I was all the time and so on. Then I forget and it's back. So you know I need some more chill for the normal everyday life, to break the circle for a while. Try microdosing LSD? Dunno I don't have a lot left (and no one to ever get it from cause guess what I don't know ANY of the people anymore with whom I used to hang out for like 10 years)
Walter Cenningmit - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 08:51:44 EST ID:UjNuOR6B No.517221 Ignore Report Quick Reply
buy a sheet (100 hits) off the deep web for like 200
it's pathetically easy
dose one tab a week

Wahhhh by Charlotte Hankinhan - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 09:59:30 EST ID:lmLP6M2/ No.517093 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Wahh hwahhh wahhhh!!!! :'( :'(
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Caroline Blecklefuck - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:47:45 EST ID:xgR4zlzA No.517142 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Everyone, get in here
Oliver Nudgetet - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 23:49:35 EST ID:d92XJxk3 No.517154 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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420chan has the best pepes

Fuck Blebberfit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 19:28:06 EST ID:ihLa0/ry No.517180 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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But Mario Land 2,actually beating that guy was almost as good as being him for the next game, 8 year old me smashed that thing, all the treasures 10000 coins face on the moon
Wesley Nicklebanks - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 18:02:43 EST ID:lmLP6M2/ No.517204 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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What do you do when you got the blues by Phineas Blacklegold - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 00:18:37 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517124 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What the title says. What do you people do to cheer yourselves up?

Me, I drink, smoke, train on the park, write a diary and read somewhat depressing authors. What else can one do to keep oneself from life-draining depression?
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Phyllis Cullerbare - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 08:33:28 EST ID:gHcal0F0 No.517139 Ignore Report Quick Reply
accept it and try to keep myself busy. scribles or writing or whatever
Archie Cizzledudging - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 10:55:52 EST ID:A8VbsLWi No.517140 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Kill them. Kill all who try to steal your treasure. Kill all who are suspect. Curse them with death. Curse their generations to come!
Cyril Clongerbud - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:32:57 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.517141 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Listen to weird electronic Russian music. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxrqY4XgYuk

>read somewhat depressing authors.
Full fathom five thy father lies;
Of his bones are coral made;
Those are pearls that were his eyes:
Nothing of him that doth fade,
But doth suffer a sea-change
Into something rich and strange.
Sea-nymphs hourly ring his knell:
Hark! now I hear them—Ding-dong, bell.
George Buffingdock - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:22:05 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517145 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That sounds oddly russian
Jenny Docklenock - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 06:07:30 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517197 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Listen to a lot of music, study more of the shit I normally do or find new things to educate myself on, think about my problem for only a bit and instead then focus on my lifestyle and habits of decision making and trying to piece out exactly what's fucking me and constantly having that thought process running unconsciously on the back burner (feels like it primes me mentally for noticing effective ways to change things and being receptive of the type of archetypal themes that show up in stories/movies/tv shows and absorbing said themes and eventually unconsciously having my actions reflect them as time goes on and I continue to watch media of this type), maybe do so some art and shit.

Another person who isn't down with living by Lillian Blytheshit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 23:55:34 EST ID:lneTu0lm No.517182 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hi, I constantly want to die, I don't want to feel this way anymore. I can't afford psychological help, or the psychiastrist appointment to see if meds would be a good option, or probably the meds at all.
I want to change my perception of myself, be more social, and stop wallowing in my misery. It's really hard for me to talk about. I haven't confided in any friends that I want to kill myself. I don't know what to do in a society where I can go down the street and buy a gun for 150 or so but psychological treatment costs 6k a year. Everybody is so cold, and I'm starting to be socially anxious. I go to bed praying that I don't wake up.
I have a purpose though. I work in a school for kids with autism and trauma based issues. I have a small family, and I don't think they could take it if I died. So I remain alive, and I know a lot of people feel this way. I'm never going to kill myself as long as I have purpose.

But for fucks sake I just want to be a happy. How do I do it?
Isabella Borringkig - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 00:32:50 EST ID:9kDuEtyA No.517183 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Microdose shrooms everyday for a month, no depression ever again.
Lillian Blytheshit - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 00:46:29 EST ID:lneTu0lm No.517184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517183 shit I'm willing to try it
Ernest Gishfoot - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:08:46 EST ID:QLJoJ9VT No.517189 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You gotta take a look at your life. Why are you unhappy? What needs are going unfulfilled? You gotta be sincere, and honest with yourself. Then start making changes in your life. See what makes you happier. Keep doing those things, and repeat the process. Journaling helps, in my experience. You get to really understand yourself and you'll never forget it because you can go back see what was important. Build some mental toughness. Watch those motivational videos online. Read some motivational articles like bakadesuyo.com. Sometimes it's corny, but you gotta believe in something. Believe in yourself, and believe in your improvement. It can only get better if you're willing to believe it can.
Doris Muttingsat - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:14:37 EST ID:CFSPhP33 No.517190 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Some ppl say drugs, some ppl say motivational videos.

Set goals. Life is grey without em.

My brother is an alcoholic by Hugh Blackstone - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 16:55:27 EST ID:drlfOWUt No.517110 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How can I help my brother overcome his alcoholism? He's been drinking a lot recently, and he isn't trying to stop. I told him to try to replace alcohol with weed but he told me that he hates the effect of being high on weed.

My brother is really lazy and he is probably not going to want to do anything radical to overcome his alcoholism. What is the easiest way to overcome drug addiction?
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Reuben Dabberwater - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 22:28:00 EST ID:drlfOWUt No.517122 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Good luck with that.

What do I do to make my brother want to quit drinking? He is really stubborn and I think that there is a chance that he is going to die from alcoholism before he hits rock bottom.
Phineas Blacklegold - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 00:20:10 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517125 Ignore Report Quick Reply
if he doesn't want to quit there's no helping him really... maybe if you know what's causing the alcoholism in the first place try to help him solve that first?
Phineas Wushworth - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 03:15:13 EST ID:0HOTiew5 No.517135 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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you have to poison your brother with ricin
Fuck Blebberfit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 12:50:06 EST ID:ihLa0/ry No.517170 Ignore Report Quick Reply
There's a reason he drinks. Just replacing the thing with a thing won't help.

What's he trying to drown?
Fuck Blebberfit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 17:06:52 EST ID:ihLa0/ry No.517178 Ignore Report Quick Reply
But his liver won't matter because he'll still be a drug addict. If he's got latent schitzophrenia then you'd be giving him that. If you put him on illegals he's now in contact with a dealer and he's never going to slow down or stop drugs so at some point he'll find something worse or a dodgy dealer will push it on him. Alcohol killed my father I am not a fan of the stuff but you're basically just parroting "drugs r bad" instead of looking at the problem. He's mentally ill and that is what needs curing.

I'm bad with relationships and I don't know why. by Albert Cattingwater - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 19:46:31 EST ID:yPQegY8a No.517144 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I seem to get along well with my coworkers, and I don't really experience any personal/professional conflicts. I regularly have amiable interactions with the people I'm around a lot, but I never get past the "friendly acquaintance" stage of interaction with anybody. I have few friends, and we've been friends since middle school. We are good friends and hang out often, but I have other interests that aren't shared with them, yet I have no other friends that I can share those interests with.

I made zero friends during college, which disturbs me because of how many people say some of their best friends are from college. I simply went to class, did the work, and went home every day for four years. I worked well in groups, but never stayed in touch with classmates.

I'm 24 years old, and I have never been in a romantic relationship or had sex. The closest I've come was a few dates and makeout sessions with one girl when I was 19. Several times I have realized too late that a girl was interested, but I guess I'm bad at picking up on signals. I'm not exactly a cover model for Men's Health, but I'm not ugly either, and have been complimented on my looks before by complete strangers (though these are usually older women who are very forward).

Social anxiety definately plays a role, though I think I'm more functional than many people who seem to have more rewarding social and romantic lives; I've seen borderline catatonics with no personality that are married. I don't like pointing fingers at anyone else about my problems, but I don't understand what is so damning about my personality that I'm in this situation. I know I can't expect people to always come to me with plans to hang out, but it seems like I never get invited to do anything that isn't just a general invitation to everyone in the workplace. I would invite others to do things, but since I've never had friends to hang out with I don't really have any hobbies or good suggestions for things to do.

I've been to a therapist before, but it was a waste of time and money. She was literally printing things off of yahoo answers, and her suggestions for romance led to me …
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Archie Duvingdale - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:24:57 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.517146 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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George Buffingdock - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:39:31 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517147 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Well... you seem nice. The only thing I can think of is that you're taking too much of a passive stance. Like, what are you actively doing to meet new people and become friends with them? Join clubs and activities, talk to people, try to find things you have in common with them. If there's any event that you're interested in going, mention it. And I know this is general advice for almost every thread in here, but it really does help: you should work out. It will make you feel better, and make you more attractive.

> A general question would be how do I develop my personality and hobbies when I have nobody to share things with?
As I said before, join some kind of group or activity you're sort of interested in. There's almost nothing that you can't do in groups. Even writing, or meditating or running, I don't know. You can find a group for everything.

> In my romantic life, how do I broach the subject of my lack of experience without sounding like a pathetic loser?
Well... I was in a sort of similar situation, not that bad, but similar nonetheless, and I just didn't mention anything about it. A friend of mine had sex for the first time when he was 20, and didn't say anything until after they were done.
You don't have to say anything if you don't feel like it. You can lie a little if it makes you more comfortable/confident. And it doesn't (and probably shouldn't) be your first topic of conversation. You may crash against a wall on your first date(s), but you gotta learn sometime, and better sooner than later.
Besides, it seems like other than that you've got your shit together. You finished college, you got a job, you've got friends. If your only problem is that you haven't gotten laid that's not that much of a problem. You can say you didn't find someone you acutally liked, or that the opportunity never came up or whatever
Phyllis Snodman - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:43:38 EST ID:5y07sGwW No.517148 Ignore Report Quick Reply
The point of having interests is not simply to share them with others, your interests are meant to be for you to be interested in them. Spending time on them. Develop hobbies and interests, or throw yourself into your career/studies and friends and relationships will follow. It might not sound helpful but you need to just do what you need to do and don't worry about what everybody else is doing, or comparing yourself to them. When it comes to relationships, regret doing things rather than not doing things. That's how we grow.
Simon Cremmlestone - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 21:28:05 EST ID:yPQegY8a No.517149 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thanks for the response with practical advice. I think I'll start working out, it's something I've always been averse to, but I gotta try something.

>Join clubs and activities, talk to people, try to find things you have in common with them.
I go out and do stuff on occasion, but I'll ramp up my efforts and try to be better about following up when people mention some event they plan on going to.
As for the virginity thing, I guess I'll just play it by ear.

>throw yourself into your career/studies and friends and relationships will follow.
You're right, this doesn't sound helpful. The one thing I've done with my time is devoted to my studies, career, and my personal interests. This has done nothing for finding new friends or dates. I'm not trying to be a dick, but this is the kind of advice I've heard and followed for a long time and it really hasn't been productive to essentially "hope for the best". If this has been your strategy and it's worked for you than good on ya, but I don't think it counts as good general advice.
George Buffingdock - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 22:28:26 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517150 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I didn't meant on occasion. Rather join something where you have to go weekly and meet the same people over and over again. It may take a couple tries, but you'll eventually find a cool group who go out together and do stuff and whatnot.

Not just an 'on occasion' thing. Join something where you go once, twice, three times a week. Get used to seeing the same people over and over again. Do something where you're sort of forced to interact. I remember an ex (who got laid really often) told me every adult that starts taking acting classes as an adult does it to get laid. I started this year and haven't been lucky so far, but it's a pretty good bet. You have to be really close with women and like declare to her. It can get pretty intense. I still haven't gotten laid from it, but I'm keeping my hopes up

Shit parents by Nell Wagglefod - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 22:50:40 EST ID:RLopCwes No.517123 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Is it weird to leave home and never talk to your parents again? My parents give me a shit life and they never cared about me and only act like they do when it's convienant. They don't do shit but sit in their room and get drunk even my friends say how shit they are and not good parents. They ignore shit like when I need medical attention at a hospital and they just get drunk and ignore me and they never feed me and they treat me like shit and they'd rather buy cheap liquor then buy me something I need.
Phineas Blacklegold - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 00:26:34 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517126 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I talk to my father twice or three times a year. Mostly just for birthdays and holidays. And he wasn't all that bad to begin with, just kind of an asshole. i've got friends who haven't talked to their parents in years and they were less horrible than what you're describing.

I think you'll miss'em, but maybe is better to lose parents like that than to have them? It's certainly not weird. The world is filled with shitty people, and some of those happen to have kids.
Angus Lightdock - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 01:07:25 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.517128 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well you're friends aren't being supportive either when they do this they are most likely caustically being the center of attention by judging you for being sad or being a person who cries. Which as a person you probably stopped thinking that was healthy, I respect that.

Strange rapey situation with female friend by Molly Himblefetch - Mon, 19 Jun 2017 13:36:22 EST ID:+60HqRp0 No.516972 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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My friend admitted to me that she has fantasies about me raping her. She's not entirely comfortable with these fantasies but they're there all the time, even when she's having sex with her boyfriend - she's just thinking I could do better. She says she's always had a weird inner demon with regards to being choked and having rough sex that leaves her feeling used and abused, and she sees in me a sadistic horrible person who can do just that to her, someone who can be horrible to her and not care afterwards. Someone who, in her eyes, can just disregard her after using her.

I once told her half-jokingly nearly a year ago while we were drunk that I could rape her if I wanted to (dumb shock humor is our forte) and apparently that set her off about it ever since - finally, here was someone who could meet her fantasies and achieve them. She's been thinking about me like that ever since.

We tried talking about it, for quite a lengthy time, but she isn't sure why she has these thoughts or how to get rid of them. She just wants to feel like worthless trash undeserving of anyone's respect (I'm still not sure how I feel about her thinking of me as the right person to do that when we've been such close friends for such a long time. Strange how you're seen through the eyes of other people.). We spent probably close to two hours talking about this. So eventually I gave up on patience and decided to be a terrible person and listen to my own inner demon, that inner voice that says you should do bad things, and indulged her fantasies and leapt on her.

Despite token resistance, she was actually enjoying it (she admitted this to me afterwards), to a point. I was choking her, getting all touchy feely, had forced her legs apart. Then I start groping her tits and she immediately gives me her 'no' signal. Whenever we're drinking and doing dumb shit (hitting each other, burning each other with cigarettes, etc) and going too far, she'd claw my face as a way of saying 'stop', 'too far', 'nope'. As soon as I started getting a good handful of tit, she clawed my face and then levered me off her with her leg.

She later said that she did that bec…
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Henry Duckstone - Tue, 20 Jun 2017 20:17:48 EST ID:lXjUaJuo No.516999 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sounds like a pretty fucked up situation that little good will come from. But we all know that you're probably just gonna follow your dick anyway (let's be honest I probably would too). The only part of this that actually rubs me the wrong way is her boyfriend getting hurt by this, but I imagine if you were to tell him you'd lose any chance with your friend.

Anyway I guess my point is that this is a scenario that will probably not play out well for anyone involved and that you and your friend are both aware of that on some level, I guess that's part of what makes it so kinky too.
Hannah Creshhet - Thu, 22 Jun 2017 00:20:50 EST ID:E10J/1rQ No.517003 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>strange rapey situation with female friend
Awww yeah.
>My friend admitted to me that she has fantasies about me raping her.
>I'm such a sadistic fuck who gets off on "causing suffering to others around me in a variety of ways" that I stopped without question when she told me to and feel bad about hurting my friend
Ohhh, fuck you, you little pussy.
Angus Gurringshit - Thu, 22 Jun 2017 12:55:24 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.517010 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If she agrees on a safeword than it officially becomes her deciding to cheat on her boyfriend with his best friend. But it also puts it in a mental category of rape for her which is playing with fire if she later decides she wants to rationalize it as actual rape and not cheating.
Betsy Dickleshit - Thu, 22 Jun 2017 15:04:58 EST ID:0ZGYnx1f No.517015 Ignore Report Quick Reply
wait till she and her BF break up.

don't be a prick

You know why you didn't feel guilty? Because you still feel horny / desire. Once you have both done it all that will be left is guilt. Not worth it.
Nigel Brollerwin - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 19:22:43 EST ID:1/SIQzph No.517117 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Be a prick, fuck/rape her immediately!

Lonliness by Hugh Sashfoot - Sun, 25 Jun 2017 18:08:26 EST ID:RWMYdvNQ No.517072 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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hey guys a girl came into my life things got pretty serious over the years we were together but I had to end it, unfortunately she kind of sucked the life out of my life and now I have no friends and i'm not back at school until september so i have nothing to occupy my mind.

In the past i've been heavily into drugs and fortunately managed to stop that but now it feels like the urge is coming back since i'm so bored and have nobody to take my mind off her.

I'm not really making the thread for advice cause it's obvious what to do, i'm just making it cause 420chan is one of the few places I can get some semblance of social interaction and i wanted to hear about your stories, times that you've been in a similar situation.
Shit Shittingdock - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 13:09:49 EST ID:erhGJy4z No.517079 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Take our advice anyway. Get the fuck in shape. If you are not a fatass you have enough time to be ripped by the time you meet all the new girls in September. Lose a little fat gain a load of muscle or something.

You've just got to cope. I am lacking a replacement for my last girlfriend but I'm not about to be surrounded by single women my own age so fuck basically that was it. But hey, Amy guy posted a thread and it reminded me that it could be worse.
Shit Blanderwell - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 17:54:54 EST ID:RWMYdvNQ No.517098 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah I workout anyway, it really did help me move away from drugs and stopped my depression and that's kinda what led to me getting that girl in the first place.

I still work out and keep in shape and although it seems to make me happier it doesn't do as much as it once did, it has become a maintenance chore whereas when I first started years ago it was more fun cause you constantly saw new improvements.

Anyway that's getting off topic working out does help me but it's pretty much all i've got. Time to grit my teeth and bear it till september.
Alice Greenwater - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 18:49:42 EST ID:GoZz+UFM No.517099 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Time is probably the best way for it to all heal. Otherwise keep yourself distracted by learning about a new hobby, preparing for some goal you can achieve (a marathon, an open mic night, something that will give you a sense of accomplishment), or possibly finding more peace within yourself through meditation and soul-searching. While all this sounds pretty bogus - it definitely helps if you go at it honestly. It's hard to avoid those invasive thoughts sometimes, but at least trying to will help a shit ton. You don't want to be caught dwelling on the situation you're in.

There's plenty of other girls out there man, I like to fuck around on Tinder to re-affirm I'm attractive, not really intending on seeing any of them. But it helps my ego and self-image knowing girls find me attractive and it wasn't just "her".
Charles Summlebanks - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 00:24:42 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.517101 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's hard but nice to get friends in college.

I would suggest that being alone, is tough but there are many things about it to appreciate, that are great that you need to pace yourself(by your'e own timing) to have energy for when you have loniliness.

In other situations with many people you have to worry about what they want to do and when, you can't always get in the state of mind you like to get into for the things you love to do, that you need that state of mind to do.

Kind of like you get to really know you're life.

Solitude is very important. it's gonna give you quite the basis for memory attention focus. And the findings of reality.

But so is sociality. Both exist. And to some extent, what could be bugging you that you might be ethically dealing with is bitterness.

As in it could be taking longer for you to integrate a bitter world view as an exitant narrative about this situation. Because in a very agent way you are like i don't want to be bitter.

So when you get to the ideas creeping in that create conflict along your goal that you outline in logistical terms it's crazy.
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Hugh Worthingbury - Wed, 28 Jun 2017 16:26:44 EST ID:Po5ClFtn No.517109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
What is this chick wearing, what's the meme?

Suicidal/Homicidal Thoughts by Betsy Drurrywill - Sat, 24 Jun 2017 21:19:11 EST ID:Uc3v3vtk No.517053 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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TL;DR: Despite being completely happy, loving life, and loving others, I sometimes have random thoughts about hurting myself or others. Ongoing for several years. No diagnosis of any psychological disorders. Never even come close to hurting myself or others.

I first noticed this issue a few years ago. It mostly happens late at night, particularly when I'm falling asleep. It does occasionally happen other times though. The first instances were in my mid-20s, picturing jumping off the balcony. Imagining cutting my wrists in the bathtub. Thinking about taking a bunch of pills. Etc.

Then after watching the paranormal movies, I had nightmares of killing my loved ones. Then I had daydreams of the same scenario, again usually while falling asleep. I go through phases where it happens more than other times (I imagine it's due to stress or depression, but I'm not sure).

An ex once wanted to get a gun. I told them I just didn't want one, but part of me was just worried I would hurt myself or someone else. Basically any scenario involving a deadly weapon or situation, a thought might cross my mind. Usually suicidal, but occasional homicidal. It's not constant, but obviously it's bothering me.

I don't know what to think. Am I crazy, or are random terrible thoughts normal? I'm practically a pacifist, I love life, I'm generally happy and outgoing. I'm successful. What gives?

I have always struggled a little with self-esteem issues, trust issues, and mild bouts of depression/anxiety, but compared to the rest of my family, I've always felt like the normal one. (My mom is a mess, bipolar, depressed, anxiety, etc. but she was abused and had a fucked up childhood. My brother has anxiety and once tried to kill himself, but he just took a bunch of Tylenol so they say it was just a cry for help).

To be clear, I don't hear voices or anything like that. Just like mini-daydream type thoughts. And I always feel terrible and sad during/afterwards.

I have decent insurance, but if this isn't something to worry about I don't want it on my record. So is this normal? Should I be concerned and go see a psychiatrist?
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Jenny Duckfuck - Sun, 25 Jun 2017 06:14:59 EST ID:FwheuJ8x No.517061 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Chop some wood or something
Rebecca Bunnerstadge - Sun, 25 Jun 2017 16:20:10 EST ID:+dh3eEfF No.517071 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think what you're describing is pretty normal, as long as it doesn't get further than simple thoughts. If you start to get more of an urge type of thing you should probably seek help.
Barnaby Clenninglack - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 01:43:11 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.517076 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think what you are describing is head space. Why is it that when people took acid they did that. Or when you hallucinate you're body and to a certain extent a piece of logic rebels and acts practical. It's because you have thoughts that take up space or pay rent. And when extra effort is needed sometimes you yourself act even when stressed. Despite being under duress. When you are going to sleep that's you're mind saying i'm free. That it runs into terrors and abuse however imagined upon itself or others that you as a conscience detect as unhealthy. Is more stress for you to create.

I don't neccesarily think you need help any less than any person does. I think this is almost a physical need articulating itself in your concious ego about the belief we need help. you need a talk or self talk to understand you wouldn't do this. And whatever part of your thoughts that deals with horror and fear. Is almost literally an issue for depth psychology.

But it's somewhat the idea that the jungian psychology pointed out. It's additional work on your self.

It's not neccessarily your concious or rational psyche or the part of the water that became ice that made it out of the water that you can see in the light of day.

It pretty is a vivid extended terror from paranormal activity.

nightmares and night terrors are things you almost experience. And it's odd people don't talk about experiencing fear and the supportive way through that. BUt you are a thinking thing, i would suggest thinking through this, and try not to put yourself through distress. Unless you think there is some spirtual reason to go that is apart of this ineffable heart you are experiencing.
Augustus Fonkinhood - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 09:54:11 EST ID:Oc0QiVvJ No.517092 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>I'm practically a pacifist, I love life, I'm generally happy and outgoing. I'm successful. What gives?
When you consciously define yourself in manner that rejects "negativity" like this it often comes at the cost of self-deception or delusion. Everything else is denied so often that it grows like a cancer that seeks outlets to express itself where it cannot be denied- your dreams and the like, and it grows in intensity so that it cannot be ignored.

Aggression is usually a sign that you are desperate for change. Remember that "coping" is something that is fairly new, in the evolutionary sense. It is always a betrayal of either the part of our will we cannot manifest or the part of our will that another part of us is uncomfortable with manifesting, it's inherently dishonest, it's the superimposition of an external will over an internal one, although this is not necessarily a bad thing. This kind of "splitting", the unconditioned self versus the conditioned self, creates your own internal enemy (who you may come around to see as a friend), who is quietly oppressed and, therefore, fights as someone who is quietly oppressed, through terrorism and guerilla warfare.

I think what you need to do, instead of reinforcing this belief that you are a pacifist, that you love life, and that you're happy (all of which may be true, but seems a little too dutiful and socially accepted to be entirely true, no offense) in hopes that it will make your aggressive thoughts go away, is to think about what you hate, why you might be angry or why you would want to kill yourself or your family without recoiling from those thoughts. Those could also be symbols of a more generalized anger, and probably are, so a more generalized question might help, such as "what do you want to change?" Compared to many of our ancestors we spend our whole lives so locked down that we almost believe we cannot change anything without going through approved channels (an insult to the self who always seeks to act with or without approval). When you can see those reasons clearly, without having a reflexive impulse to withdraw from them, you can try to solve them from a more rational persp…
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Augustus Fonkinhood - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 10:08:51 EST ID:Oc0QiVvJ No.517094 Ignore Report Quick Reply
And if you want to approach the "what do you want to change?" question from a more positive angle, you could ask yourself "what would make you happy?" without coming from a position where you assume that you already are because you think it's "right" or you're afraid of being "unhealthy", or because you "should be" considering all of the things you "have" that others do not. Go to a place where you do not judge the answers to these questions. If you ask yourself "what would make you happy" and something that is morally questionable pops up, that's okay, you're now at a point where you can take the root desire and attempt to compromise with your morals, a kind of internal diplomacy, rather than deny that desire outright, or you can go deeper and dissect that desire (everything is made of smaller moving parts) so you can figure out why you have it and try to disassemble it from there.

You got some mind reunifying to do. Most people will dismiss these things as "normal" but normal does not exist, and if something is causing you pain, its supposed normalcy does not justify it.

Waves of madness by Jarvis Dreddlestat - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 13:20:01 EST ID:sA+NYDBw No.517080 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hey 420chan,
Havent posted for a while but i am hoping that someone can share some advice.
I am 23 yo male who has not accomplisehd to much in life. Most of my life has been party. Like the lyrics in ''Kazantip - Drugs''.
I am not by any means ugly or the kind of person who keeps sitting at home thinking no one likes me. I have a really REALLY pretty and smart girlfriend who is supportive and i ´have alot of people in my ''circle'', altough around 2-4 good friends i can rely on. I have IT education and have never been in a state where i dont have any money but that is only thanks to my dad.
At the moment i am looking for a job but for some reason i am in a deep depression. Finished military this summer (was there for 1 year, you have to go before the age of 27 here in Northern Europe) and i cant take the lifestyle anymore that i had. Everything feels like dead end. I dont want to see any of the people that i used to hang out with. I am quite sure that i have done parament damage to my mental health anyways so party party pary, work ,party ... seems so so pointless and bad for me.
I have 2 homes, one near the capital, other near seaside in the countryside. I cant stand the city life anymore. But at the countryside there are only low level jobs and i know i can do better than that. I want to get somewhere in my life not just hang out like most of the people around me.
At the moment i get these waves of depression or madness. At one point i can think that everything is up to me and i can change things and be happy than i feel like everything is pointless. I mean so pointless that i feel like the only thing important to me atm, my girlfriend, shouldnt be with me since i am such a failure and am jealous of everything and destroying this releationship ... But than again in like 1 sec period i can get hold of myself and everything is fine. I have constant headache because 1 sec is enough to change my mindset completely. And this can happen 3-6 times in a day.
I have had these kind of things whole my life.At the moment it is just peaking again. Could be because i have been abused many times or atleast i have tought so . I am that kind of guy who alot of girls like but alot of g…
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Shit Shittingdock - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 13:32:52 EST ID:erhGJy4z No.517081 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think you know a lot of what you need to solve.

I would also suggesting finding a career. Shop around a bit, try jobs. Try to find something that uses skills you like using, does something worthwhile and allows you to grow and progress. When you find it be prepared to put time in.

Your drug addiction is probably a coping mechanism. Just bear this in mind. It's not working properly AND it's stopping you actually fixing shit and seeing how bad things are. Be prepared for therapy (not necessarily meds but just learning to cope with your shit).

What do you actually enjoy aside from "Partying"?
Jarvis Dreddlestat - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 15:25:31 EST ID:sA+NYDBw No.517082 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That is one of my biggest issues. There arent any sports that i am interested in (Except maybe rally) but that takes huge amounts of money which i dont have.In the past did photography. Still have my nikon d3100 which i havent touched in 2 years.
My only real deep interest in life would be something physichs releated. I am sure we have free energy everywhere around us. Working for something similar etc. My dream would be to make a difference. Not to stay in the history books but to somehow help this place...
Shit Shittingdock - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 18:23:55 EST ID:erhGJy4z No.517083 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well I don't like sports but I exercise and enjoy walking. It sounds like you need to get a library book and start researching physics. Maybe trying to make a career of that.

Nothing wrong with shallow interests though as well, like music, cooking, art, drama or something else along those lines. Creating or just getting into. Arts need patrons.

Same goes with the physics too. If you're not a natural physicist you shouldn't stop learning about it, but you may make the best contribution possible by instead advocating it. Lobby for solar energy, or save money and research then invest in a viable new way of generating power. Find a career working supporting physicists maybe you're better cut out to be an engineer making the ideas real, or maybe nothing so mighty. Remember not everyone can be the guy to make the big difference. Take Hawking for example, if we didn't have the societal structure in place that we did, he'd have had to build a house and hunt for game instead of going learning to read or going to Cambridge. He'd have died within a few years without carers and people making food and everything from the people in the hospital carrying the tray to his bed, to the people who designed his wheelchair, fuck to the people who sell them their dinner you know?

What I'm saying is try to live your dream. It's great you have one. But if you can't live it don't lose heart, you can still work towards it. I mean we all work towards it indirectly as long as someone is doing it but go one better and do it directly. Use your talents to contribute in whatever the most positive way you can is. Strive towards it. First figure out your options and capabilities and then work at the most effective path you can take.
Cedric Cottingfere - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 02:18:01 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517088 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You remind me of myself when I was your age Jarvis.

I still have a bit of it in me, but it's been diminishing due to the situation I've found myself in.

I also want to make a difference, make the world a better place, be somebody noteworthy, influence my environment with my own hand and earn the respect of my peers. Look on my works ye mighty and despair!

Digressive quote, popped into my head.

Anyways, at my best I believe I can make the world bend to my knees and force progress through sheer will. I've had great success early on as a chemist in my field; progress made in 4 years that some never see in a decade. But where I'm at right now is at my worst, where I can see the paths and the ways to move forward towards and progress on them, but I'm afraid to make the wrong choice. I spend too much time deliberating on them, and I let that time slip away. The more time I let slip away, the more paths close to me, and my options grow fewer. And then I start to justify this behavior with existential futility; I'm going to die anyways, humanity will cease to exist long before the universe collapses in on itself, and existence is meaningless.

So I dunno, I think I'm depressed. I didn't have a drink today. That was a step in the right direction. I'm not going to drink this week and see how I feel. So far, I have more energy and I am coherent right now even though it is 1 AM. I will start exercising again tomorrow, and get start solving my problems.

Maybe I just need to feel like I'm in control of my life again. Maybe that's what you're lacking in your own?

By the way, I was abused at a young age as well. Nothing pedoish, just, abused. It took me a while to get my head on straight after leaving that mess, but I did it. What I want to say about that is, don't wear that abuse on your sleeve. It's not you. You make you, they don't.
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Betsy Blythestock - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 12:51:56 EST ID:UEiL/fUz No.517096 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well I was being slightly facetious/conceding that not all people see it that way.

Basically when I'm not at work I live for music.

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