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your daily schizo nonsense by Sidney Bunnerwater - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 09:55:52 EST ID:HEByDn6I No.515898 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have schizophrenia so it might be Im just babbling nonsense but I have a feeling my mum abused me sexually. Shortly before I got schizophrenic and before episodes I thought about my mum/family abusing me mentally and sexually. Usually I have a very good memory and most speculations I had in the past seemed to be true.

I think I remember her coming to my rum and manipulating my dick and making me unable to scream with her hand and fingering me (Im a guy).

How do I know its true? Do I really want to if its true?
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Martha Sizzleford - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 10:29:15 EST ID:rRMr7xq2 No.515899 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No, you don't want it to effect you. Just don't talk to your mum. There's a chance that this assumption is just a metaphor for something else, and it could be anything. Just don't talk to your mum for a while, assuming like this could be regret able someday, for you.
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Jenny Billingdale - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 12:27:53 EST ID:WE9U+Jii No.515901 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515899
Ugh, excuse me? I dont really get what youre saying. Wouldnt it be better if I talked to her about it? Anyway I cant, even if I wanted. Shes dead, suicide.

>metaphor for something
Sure? I was always convinced that delusions have nothing to do with actual observations in reality, but thats just my impression.
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Martha Sizzleford - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 12:38:34 EST ID:rRMr7xq2 No.515902 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It could be a metaphor for you jerking yourself off, and hiding it from your mother, like when you were a teenager.
Is your father still alive? Maybe he would know, or ask someone close to your mother.if you want to talk to your family, then this probably isn't true, and it's just a metaphor.
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James Sammleridge - Tue, 02 May 2017 12:02:20 EST ID:RWMYdvNQ No.515940 Ignore Report Quick Reply
> coming to my rum and manipulating my dick

Haha wot


Advice on a working mans drug by Not enough time - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 14:04:19 EST ID:ckgmRpNJ No.515842 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Currently I have left highschool and am working up to 5 days a week doing night shifts till 3am then wakeing up for my carpentry course and bus's at 5am so busy the time I get home I have an hours sleep max 2 if I end work earlier so I need advice on any drugs that can help me through sleep deprivation I can't quit my job because I am the only one in my household with steady income and I want to do the course to better my life so any advice is appreciated v.v
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Oliver Sebbleway - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 15:16:17 EST ID:M+WnTWTA No.515851 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515847
Also
> hour walk home
Get a bike
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Not enough time - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 15:49:24 EST ID:iHha+tjY No.515852 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515851
I am currently saveing for a bike at the moment and I am in able to cut hours from my course or my job as my course has set hours and my workplace is under staffed and I need this job to pay for rent and food ect
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Ernest Sackleham - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 02:57:43 EST ID:n88v0slF No.515860 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You will have to drop the carpentry course until you find a better job...
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Reuben Wabberman - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 03:46:10 EST ID:buDodtmC No.515889 Ignore Report Quick Reply
definitely talk to your instructor because that's probably the most insane schedule ive heard of.

try modafinil or adrafinil or armodafinil or CRL-40,941.
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Shit Pinkinstone - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 04:54:15 EST ID:FwheuJ8x No.515893 Ignore Report Quick Reply
In this case drugs will just burn you out quicker. It's also gonna be hard to save for that bike (or anything) when you're spending money on them. Aside from maybe a little something to relax on the weekend (if you can keep it to that) it'd probably be asking for trouble.

Getting such low amounts of sleep on a regular basis really takes a lot out of you in the long run.


always thirsty by trevparty - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 02:06:51 EST ID:Lghhiagl No.515858 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How am I supposed to maintain my great air of dignity around my girl when she, and only she, knows how much I, in at least one way resemble a chained dog.
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Martha Neckleshit - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 04:20:34 EST ID:zPu+Cn1i No.515862 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515858
Is that because you wanna fuck other girls?
How old are you? Is a monogamous relationship the right idea now? We find ourselves in that situation without conscious thought, but instead cultural conditioning.

Maybe you can find a vent for your sexuality? Some part physical exhaustion, and maybe renovate your sex-life?
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trevparty - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 00:24:56 EST ID:Lghhiagl No.515886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515862
Huh? No, I'm a one girl man -- It's not a problem either, I just mention it because women seem to hold the keys, and it's annoying that they always know what you want.


It's in the Past, bro, it's in the Past, LMFAO by Eugene Fingerpodge - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 09:32:54 EST ID:PYzoENVk No.515865 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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When you confront a person for a shitty thing they did, and you didn't have the awareness or the confidence to confront them about it, then you do years later and they go all "dude, it's all in the past, let it go, lol!" is that them just avoiding confrontation or am I somehow in the wrong?

I've been burned by tons of people in my life, either bullies or people I thought were friends, and when I turned 18 years old several years ago, I suddenly gained self-awareness, and got really angry at those people and myself for not doing anything about it. So, systematically, over a few years since I graduated high school, I've found a lot of people through social media, send them a message giving them a piece of my mind for how shitty they were, and they respond with various results.

>Ignore me
>Give themselves convenient amnesia and tell me they have no idea what I'm talking about
>Cave in and apologize
>Humble down and admit they were wrong
>The whole "it's in the past, bro, it's in the past!

Some of them give me peaceful closure knowing that they apologized or regretted what they did, other give me a small satisfaction knowing that they are still shitty people who acted cowardly when given the hard truth.

People outsides of these situations tell me to let things go and that I take shit too personally, but I feel like it's wrong that I should make myself the bad guy and allow the real shitheads to not get any kind of comeuppance (despite how minor).

Whenever I confide in friends or family about shitty things that happened to me as a kid, at a job or anywhere from six months to years ago, people tell me that I need to "let go" or "not take things personally." It's fucked up, and it makes me feel like I'm some kind of bad guy just because I'm angry about something.
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Polly Sonnerwuck - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 15:03:17 EST ID:I19uay1O No.515873 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515870
People online especially the chans aren't gonna react as you would want them to. You are divulging in matters of the heart in which you were hurt. This equates to being a "depressed beta nerd" who can't let anything go. l
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Blackie-Chan - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 15:05:38 EST ID:YSgLqHnY No.515874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515865
I forgive, but I don't forget.
I'm nice to people not only because its the right thing to do, but because if I'm a prick for shitty reasons, they might remember it and hold it against me. Alternatively, I can be nice to someone and they think I'm a prick regardless, but I've learned to recognize those people and avoid them whenever possible.
I recently confronted my dad about some shit my stepmom said to me years ago and he said he doesn't even remember it happening. Its not even like it was wildly insignificant either; it was on his birthday and involved his wife and son. I honestly think he was bullshitting me since, when confronting him, I laid out his possible responses and told him why they were all shitty and he decided to feign ignorance (a response I didn't lay out because, "who would feign ignorance to avoid conflict via TEXT MESSAGE?").
Part of me feels like holding it against him but since my dad and stepmom both have moved past it and stopped treating me like shit, I kinda believe that they don't remember it...they're both pushing 60, something that happened 5 years ago might as well have happened 10. Either way, I can move past it, but I consider it "a permanent stain on their record of moral/ethical behavior".
If its affecting you more than necessary (which is pretty much "not at all") I would try to make peace with it and move on with your life, if not for their sake, for yours. Holding grudges and whatnot takes a toll on your mental health, and besides....you have other things to worry about now.
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Frederick Crenningnuck - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 16:24:04 EST ID:rRMr7xq2 No.515875 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You're angry because you wouldn't do the same thing. Everyone is as good or bad as their actions. You can take satisfaction in that.
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Oliver Sablingstock - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 01:53:13 EST ID:jBrsMkU0 No.515877 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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We all get angry about shit like this OP, or at least I certainly do, but I think "just let go" is pretty solid advice. It might not be satisfying or validating, but what other options do you have? Of course actually letting go is very difficult, but I think it's a better choice than dwelling on it and agonizing even more over the same event.
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Nigel Buzzwell - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 03:08:04 EST ID:buDodtmC No.515880 Ignore Report Quick Reply
the only thing worse than thinking about shitty things other people have done to you is thinking about shitty things youve done to other people. and telling them about their problems and harping on it is about the least helpful thing you could do.

getting caught up in the past has literally zero logical benefits. the past is meant to be something to learn from.


Garbage tier relationship skills by Isabella Goodstone - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 21:52:33 EST ID:9NtHW6ws No.515824 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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27 male here. Never had a relationship go longer than about 4 months. Very rarely anything close to what can be called 'healthy'. I have a ton of insecurities, despite being decent looking enough to have people interested in me and keep them around for 1-3 months before i fuck it up by weirding them out. Almost every time I start seeing a girl i end up obsessing over her past. Usually about the size of her previous partners and how i size up. And other features, attractiveness, etc. I think its just this weird unhealthy obsession with dick size and sex that comes from watching way too much porn growing up. Im an average size and slightly above average circumference so I really shouldnt even be worried but this still happens everytime.

This doesnt have much to do with me currently but my parents were super dysfunctional growing up, didnt care for each other, said mean shit about each other, fought and bickered constantly. So i have no semblance of what a healthy relationship looks like. And i know this is no excuse for my behavior especially now that im closing in on 30, but i know it has a big impact on who i am. the girl ive been seeing left tonight mid hanging out because i was asking about her past again tonight. and i come to the realization i have some kind of a problem.

Anyone else think like this or am I just completely fucked in the head and on the course towards forever a spider monkey's butt? I feel like I may need to come to terms with the fact that I am kind of a shitty person. Its shitty of me to berate someone about their past, right? When I should be focusing on the present moment and trying to enjoy it. Why can I just not think of this at the time? Am I just taking people for granted? Is there a book I can read on being better at relationships and all this shit or something?? Am I fucked up for obsessing about penis size? i think i just dont appreciate people, or respect them. idk
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Isabella Goodstone - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 22:00:01 EST ID:9NtHW6ws No.515825 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fucking spider monkey butt is not what i meant. I meant im worried i'm not going to meet someone i can be with.
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Graham Murdbury - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 00:50:40 EST ID:pCPQRsXK No.515829 Ignore Report Quick Reply
well berating in terms of asking about, and berating in terms of heavy handed judgement are two different things.

Perhaps she left because she was being cold, and that's something people do to be fashionable at the moment.

Remember your notion of happiness while simulatenously know that your parents and others experienced things like this in the world of companionship and didn't blame themsleves, but wrote it into the idea of what can be out there in the world of romance and love.

Hence how popular songs while usually about being estastic about finding love, detail they are the one or the difference in that broad catalogue of perhaps noxious worlds.
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Doris Surrychut - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 09:52:46 EST ID:rh+w5v63 No.515834 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515829


I would ask and then I think she felt judged and started to feel insecure about her body. She left because I was being weird asking about a bunch of her previous partners sizes and then I brought up again this threesome that she had that she didn't like to talk about. But she never says hey I don't want to talk about that don't bring it up. It's like she lets the conversation go to see how far I will go and then gets mad at me for talking about it.


She called me later in the night drunk to tell me she had never been with someone so insecure about their penis size and that if she wanted to she could get better sex with someone else. That really hurt but I'm not sure if she was saying that to hurt me or what. And she kept going on and on basically saying I needed to 'man up'. Which I probably do... idk. Things went pretty crazy pretty quickly so I think it's probably coming to a close soon but I know I still have a lot to work on.


I'm not sure what you're trying to say with the latter half of your post. My parents are both really dysfunctional people. I think it's good to desire to have a healthy relationship. Idk where I'm going w this. Maybe I just need a therapist
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Augustus Fuckingstone - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 18:59:49 EST ID:AurREd88 No.515854 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Why compare other partners to yourself? She's not with those partners, she's with you, she chose to be with you, you don't need to feel as though you're proving yourself

Stop comparing bro
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Oliver Hicklestetch - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 22:17:22 EST ID:l/XMc9BX No.515855 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515834
Neither one of you weren't being invasive to each other's respect and boundaries I suspect you went there in a mood to open up or share insecurities and she as a weary person in wounds mostly ethical hopes the other subject will control themselves. While you want to the other person to confirm or say so you can no and won't hurt.

But neither one of you kept it normal and despite being completely negative she treated you as an experience that was entirely superlative in its hyperbole.

I'll tell you this much you weren't really berating her if you were also bringing up you're insecurities you're mostly playing a paper to her rock. She was robably didn't want you to probe but you ended up probing yourself which seems like you are entirely being honest but perhaps different from what she would expect which is honest dating.

Bad would be getting in a relationship with her not knowing then finding out then getting insecure trust me I did that. It isn't really as much that they have been with others and that intimidates you it's more like when you notice what they don't tell you and you are not sure how they feel about you and the disparity in how much you are sharing and they are prevents and earnest notion of a harmony between trust, timing, empathy, and intimacy.


I think I'm broken by Oliver Sullerstane - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 14:06:13 EST ID:kS27PxfH No.515780 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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After a string of past relationships that went bad, I identified the common factor, me.
I've been set up on a few dates and tried going on various dating sites but I just can't find it in me to feel any hope about the prospect of building a relationship with someone. They're increasingly an alien species, there's no common ground. I'm rapidly approaching my thirties and the dating pool is dwindling with it but even the few girls who do seem to like me, some of them really lovely people, I just push away. I'm lonely but it seems impossible that this will ever change.
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Ebenezer Drushkure - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 17:06:58 EST ID:6kAPrX3q No.515790 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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im like you but 21. trying to work on myself before looking for a S/O is what ive decided to focus on.
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Charlotte Sussleson - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 17:49:10 EST ID:USUZpST+ No.515853 Ignore Report Quick Reply
ok thanks for the support. I'll just carry on. I have the cat at least.


Not even sure if this is a bad thing by Cedric Billinghall - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 18:32:45 EST ID:iXl3cRAo No.515743 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I am a competitive powerlifter and trainer that works as a physical therapist on the side.

My main focus is training and competing in powerlifting.

The butt of the joke is, I have body dysmorphia. People say Im strong. People say Im big and lean. I can't actualize any results. I feel nothing.
I win a competition and lock out a 600 lb deadlift. There is someone still stronger than me out there. Even if it was the heaviest deadlift in the world I would still fear someone encroaching on me and that I will be beat.

Pros
>I push myself harder
>I never stop working

Cons
>Low self-esteem
>vulnurability
>every accomplishment doesn't make me satisfied. ever.
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Eugene Mizzlehire - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 13:12:25 EST ID:lzwSTMPh No.515816 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515743
I can't help but wonder if you want to be the best because you need to feel unassailable. That if you can be beaten others will put you down. Or maybe that you just don't see the inherent value we all have. People are rebelling about the whole "everyone is special" thing but the point is everyone is special because they are a chunk of meat with feelings not because they're all going to succeed in everything they do.

Our place in the world is not to have unique features but be a unique combination of common to uncommon features at best.

A question for you OP, how do others treat you? Are you accepted? do you have a lot of friends? A worthwhile relationship with someone of the same/opposite sex who is a good person? Or do these things general find themselves absent in your life?
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Wesley Clazzlewetch - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 12:24:36 EST ID:iXl3cRAo No.515837 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515816
My goal is to become the strongest version of me, and win.

This is partly because I train people for a living - so my career's reputation is apart of my performance in a way, and both are inherent to my identity.

From a career standpoint, I am fair, and charge a fair price (I teach people to lift solo in 3 months and then only charge them 95/mo for routine, diet, and they can lift 4x/month in my gym)

I also lift and excel past 99% of the industry because most of them are hacks

but I have also won a competition before

I did the best in my age/weight at a competition, got first and had the medal on my neck

It was the best high I ever had
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Wesley Clazzlewetch - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 12:29:37 EST ID:iXl3cRAo No.515838 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515816
> how do others treat you?
I am an orphan and never made many friends.
Peers in my field are two types
  1. they know what they are doing, have an education and experience and respect me.
  2. They are hacks and people who make up random exercises and charge people ludicrous prices for it and talk shit on me. Unfortionately this is 99% of the community.

>Are you accepted? By the educated and competent.
>do you have a lot of friends?
No, I have a handful of really good friends.

>A worthwhile relationship with someone of the same/opposite sex who is a good person?
I am married

>Or do these things general find themselves absent in your life?
I've learned that to be the best and use the best methods, you will go against the status quo. To put it shortly, the industry is mostly people who claim "functional training" and "muscle confusion" which is basically bullshit ways to justify never using structured programming, technique, or do anything challenging beyond burpees. I rent gym space in a gym full of people who couldn't tell a low bar squat from a front squat let alone teach someone how to do it. So I walk in being 10 years younger than the average bloke in there, lift more than they ever will and have females repping what the male clients lift. I keep to myself but they definitely try and make my life worse. Im trying to find another environment
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Cyril Drenkinbut - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 13:04:41 EST ID:4khQC8MC No.515839 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515838
Well, I wondered if it was past or current baggage but it does sound like your current life is not worsening your problems. I mean it's good. A shitty gym atmosphere is probably the worst. I'm not a fitness person by trade and I'm probably pretty awful but no one is there putting anyone else down. I wish certain people could be a bit more careful dropping the weights sometimes. When you can feel the floor shaking under you, that's unnerving. But such an environment probably isn't super well equipped.

It does sound like you're confident and full of yourself. Again like the questions before not a put down unto itself. So maybe it really is just the unconditional love you're missing.

All that said you could be a lot worse and a lot of people would envy you. I frequently tell people that suffering and problems are relative here and you are a some sort of super concentrated example where your life is pretty good but you consider it a problem. But then that is your problem as you know.

I don't think I can say anything useful to you really. It was worth taking a guess and letting you disprove it though I think.
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Wesley Clazzlewetch - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 13:07:23 EST ID:iXl3cRAo No.515841 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515839
I know I am good and trying my hardest, which is the most of my ability that can demand.

I can know objectively that I have a class I (third tier) total, which puts me in the 40th percentile.

I want to be in the top 10th percentile at least though.


Oh boy do I like Killing Nazis by BJBlazkowicz - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 23:35:01 EST ID:zBv2A0kk No.515826 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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OK so, lately I've been Enjoying shooting games quite a bit lately, when do you stop playing?

I've never lost grip on reality before, but lately I've found myself a little trigger happy when it came to popping virtual nazis, it just gives a better feeling than mowing down endless Russians. ..is it because I found a fixated hate on nazis as a whole, evil creature versus just enjoying killing virtual people?

Am I just taking out stress on my Ps4? It's really weird how smoking a J and "becoming" this person in this game relieves me of my petty internal struggles just long enough for me to reboot.
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MegasXLR - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 23:39:14 EST ID:E0s4RZkZ No.515827 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515826
Settle down there sonny Jim.

Go have a cup of water.

You are high af
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Doris Puttingbury - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 11:35:06 EST ID:1ZYzHvtl No.515836 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515826
Enjoy it. Because there will come a day when you can't even force yourself to place vidya anymore because it is all so benign and burnt out.

After ~8k hours of gaming in my life. I can't do it anymore.
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Cyril Drenkinbut - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 13:06:35 EST ID:4khQC8MC No.515840 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515836
If you do too much of anything and not enough of other things anything will burn you out.


Easy way by David Gandlefod - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 00:31:32 EST ID:SQ4gAn/I No.515828 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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He keeps me alive.

My promises are almost fulfilled

I can finally kill myself soon

I don't want to aabandon him though.

17 years he has been with me

I wonder if he will be enough in the coming months
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Frederick Dommlelet - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 04:48:30 EST ID:zPu+Cn1i No.515831 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515828
Are you talking about your cat?
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Ernest Hengerson - Thu, 27 Apr 2017 10:59:08 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.515835 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Oh my god. Such a mystery. So intriguing. Wat a cliffhunger.


Been thinking by Fucking Fummlepan - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 05:36:24 EST ID:xt7E7Y9e No.515762 Locked Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I want to kill myself. Please do not try to convince me otherwise or comment unless you want to help. So far explosions look like the most painless / effective way. How do I make them / find out where to make them / buy them? Or is there a better method?
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William Brimbleham - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 10:27:54 EST ID:Ps7vhoAq No.515771 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515762
Well, to be honest, explosives aren't really the best. They are harder to obtain and generally fail. I doubt the seriousness of this graph.

A shotgun to the head though is plenty potent. Just don't shoot the big grey mass and shoot the brainstem. The brain is a bunch of useless shit like memories and all. The brainstem is highly fragile and will shut off all communications and consciousness immediately. It will literally be as physically painless as possible. You won't hear the gunshot you'll be instantly dead.

>Brainstem
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Augustus Bennerchadge - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 12:51:41 EST ID:jPpWgI0N No.515775 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515771
The OP is silly. jolly african-american didn't even find out about exit bags yet. Babbies first foray down the suicide rabbit hole.
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Jack Hallerlun - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 13:28:50 EST ID:Gtrn9hV4 No.515777 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How do I buy explosions

dont worry guys i dont think the op is competent enough to do anything we need to worry about
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Nathaniel Dullerlut - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 18:13:33 EST ID:FwheuJ8x No.515793 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sorry OP but this isn't /sh/ so I'm not telling you how to become a suicide bomber.
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Martha Honeyworth - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 20:31:43 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.515798 Ignore Report Quick Reply
watch neon genesis evangelion


I Look Like An Arab by Hamilton Hoddlefark - Sun, 23 Apr 2017 00:59:27 EST ID:w+XXs7My No.515678 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I look like an Arab I am a product of 250 years of on off racemixing. My Dad is Italian-French and Black so he looks like a Iraqi-Jew. My mom is French/Black and looks like a dark Mexican or something. People misidentify me as Indian,Brazilian,Arabic, North African, etc. Depending on how I wear my hair or how dark I am.

This wasn't a problem growing up; before I entered Public School.

But in recent years my city has a lot of immigration from Muslim Countries and Europe. I swear the racist Eurotrash at my school literally thinks that I'm from the Middle East and that I'm some kind of foreigner. It's really disheartening and it's like a problem because they think that they can be nasty to me because of this.

It's also a problem because the cops also think I'm a Muzzie. In fact I used to work at 7/11 that's how advanced the problem it is.
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Nell Grimgold - Sun, 23 Apr 2017 14:15:10 EST ID:583UPQsG No.515703 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515678
Now you feel the alienation that a lot of foreigners feel.
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Hamilton Hoddlefark - Sun, 23 Apr 2017 14:54:19 EST ID:w+XXs7My No.515704 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515703
Except the foreigners have more money.
In fact even the thugs drive around my city in Maseratis with big rims.
Russians,Koreans, Persians, Pakis, Mexicans, Thugs they all have more than I do.
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Charles Suddlechirk - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 18:22:34 EST ID:s+dE+qb3 No.515742 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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  1. try not to tan in the summer, and wear a lot of sunscreen (good advice for anyone)
  2. wear your hair in a way that doesn't make it too frizzy or poofy or wiry but also not some weird flat shit that Muhammad would be rocking either. Keep up with the hygiene and you're also probably much better off keeping your face clean; a mustache will make you look like some sort of pajeet or luiz and a beard will make you look like some sort of generic militant sandnigger. Keep your eyebrows from unibrowing or becoming too thick, and if you really wanna go one step further, lighten your hair up with lemon juice and sun or heat. GooGle that shit to see what i mean. stay trendy with whatever fashions that your white buddies are into, etc

tldr you can't win too much but there are ways to adjust; most importantly though is to not be some sort of weird quiet kid. Speak with your perfect native accent to show that you're ONE OF US and just act like a native dude like you really are. remember that the one benefit here is that you can get in good with minorities, at least.

at the end of the day just remember that the real niggas won't be up your ass about this shit; people who get to know you for a day will realize you're not some sort of refugee or 2015 immigrant or something. also, if you brush up and get good at the pussy game, white bitches will find you exotic

-darkskin italian
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Emma Hecklecocke - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 19:49:34 EST ID:Gtrn9hV4 No.515745 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515742

>how to deplete your vitamin D levels: the post
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Phineas Lightdale - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 19:05:07 EST ID:w+XXs7My No.515795 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515742
I live on the same latitude as Morocco so I'm going to be brown. But I definitely work on my appearance as much as I can. Hair/Facial hair, clean clothes. I don't speak like a goon and I try to be respectful.


Quieting the internal monologue by Edward Gabblededge - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:40:42 EST ID:rNN7/CPM No.515721 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I am 26. My internal monologue is extremely self critical to the point of it being crippling. I overthink everything and sometimes feel like I'm going to worry myself to death, that everything is hopeless. I over-analyse every action of people towards me as being negative and can only pick on myself for my negative actions, whilst simultaneously criticising positive actions for not being good enough. I am my own worst enemy and there is seemingly no escape from it. There have been moments in my past where I've been into various drugs (namely LSD) to such a level that I almost felt like I'd externalized the internal monologue and was at risk of giving myself schizophrenia.

My only respite from this stupid voice is dissociatives and alcohol. Ketamine is expensive here in Australia, MXE isn't really available anymore, and I can recognise the terrible effects that alcohol has on my health in the long-term. I don't drink huge quantities but I do drink practically every night, typically a 6-pack or a bottle of wine. Once every 2 weeks or so a bottle of spirits. When I drink it seems to put the voice to sleep or at least slow it down/turn down the volume so that it's bearable/ignorable. Of course, besides the effects of physical health, it's not exactly practical to spend the rest of my life in a state of inebriation, contrary to what /hooch/ might think.

What alternate options would you suggest? Benzos, perhaps? Or maybe seeing a psych? I've heard good things about CBT and would be interested in anyone else's experiences with it.

I just want to shut this thing up or at least get it in control. It's talking all day in my head constantly without interruption, a constant barrage of criticism. Sometimes I almost feel like it's another personality that wants to take over and be me. I'm terrified of the idea of spending the rest of my life with this thing rattling around in my brain shitting all over everything I do or say or think.

I don't want to die but in my worst moments I have honestly contemplated suicide just to get some god damn peace and quiet. It's like having the world's worst and most malicious backseat driver in your brain.

tl;dr the …
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David Blatherwater - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 11:51:13 EST ID:ngLYHpR4 No.515726 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dear OP,
It sounds like you've got a healthy mind. Being extremely self-critical is important. Be critical of yourself. Improve yourself constantly.
Do not fear these criticisms, fear not working on the things you criticize yourself for.
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James Pickdale - Mon, 24 Apr 2017 21:18:06 EST ID:FcwZX0yP No.515749 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515721

Meditation

Not that bullshit quiet the mind and maintain concentration bullshit. Relax the body, take a step back from yourself. Don't try to quiet the thoughts...just watch them with no attachment, like you would watch a river flow. Focus on your breathing if you have to, it keeps the monkey brain busy. Keep doing this everyday, for seconds, for minutes, for hours if you have to. Eventually thoughts become just that, thoughts, they're only noise unless you decide to grasp them and focus your attention onto them.

Qigong breathing exercises help foster this state of mind.
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Frederick Fibblenun - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 02:04:59 EST ID:pCPQRsXK No.515755 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i suggest through the rhyme at the end. You were once a creative trail blazer and had inspirations and aspirations who used humor as a bridge between all uncomfortabilties and contradictions and to highlight positive ones. As you got older you realized just how much academia starts from a negative critical point of view that is just that close to our heads. Learning and growing did push you this far, because it actually is told from a dial within self criticisms but we would probably have a hard time pointing out exactly where it is in a model of phenomenology.

The man in the glass is no ass, but rather a bottom. The same one in mid summer nights dream. He actually stars within the play within a play. And he actually is a great actor. However he is literally a worker. He isn't supposed to be able to act in a play in the kingdom that takes center stage away from everything else.

Usually we are telling tales of a concept within a concept that we are looking at from the outside, hence the man in the glass, hence inception. The reason it gets all crazy is. You actually are also the man within. You come from that guy through a concept that's within a concept.

That's several layers of chicanery you manage. That in heidegarian terms is "toward" you're own language thus making you seem the part of an ass or a clown. The language we get that puts him in a glass, is along or idle. This is the interpretation that gives ambiguity.

Now as a living being you naturally have both thus making your self critical inner monologue quite upset at you for not being able to get along both quite ineffable and quite directly. That's not unheard of, it's un ontologically certified in a very rational scientific world. That gap in ontology is understood or wove together by you through your own special creativity. That in a more worried category no one one intrude upon. Thus respect for individuality being created by the individual we often say "these are his own demons."

Meaning they are your own unresolved matters of ambitions and satisfactions that come from the one who lived it.

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Ernest Deblingwog - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 03:29:51 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.515757 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515749

>bullshit bullshit bullshit

>my way is right everyone else is wrong
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Simon Clenderwill - Tue, 25 Apr 2017 18:19:18 EST ID:tldOIKN9 No.515794 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515721
Try xanax


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