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should I tell my girlfriend about my opiate addiction? by Doris Gabberpag - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 22:37:19 EST ID:7kA/y/r6 No.519434 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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First off ive been using PST for about 6 months now, nobody but me knows I'm an addict, a couple of my friends know about my use, but not that I'm addicted. I don't plan on quitting anytime soon, but do plan on definitely reducing my use cuz of the current situation. I just feel so alone in this and I'd like someone to know so i can get support on reducing my intake and hopefully quitting someday.
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Dextrolord - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 14:02:22 EST ID:ymGVR82j No.519478 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Lol I never got the whole, I did something and feel bad now I wanna talk about it, but I'm probably very emotionally desensitized by now from a life of fuckery.

I say keep doin what you wanna do if it hasn't messed with your life for six months and if someone finds out just tell them it wasn't an issue before so why is it now?

But if you're overcome with guilt about your addiction stop it and feel better I guess
Martin Sockledurk - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 22:34:18 EST ID:7kA/y/r6 No.519483 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah I get that man, my thing is is I feel so alone about it all, I'm the only person who knows I'm addicted
Samuel Worthingville - Thu, 19 Oct 2017 12:12:42 EST ID:lIGmCb/T No.519516 Ignore Report Quick Reply
lying to your partner and keeping secrets from them is a sign of a healthy relationship

The fact that you care enough to lie and keep secrets is a good thing, in fact you should lie more. Pretend to have a really good job, if she finds out she will know how much you love her because she will see how eager you are to impress her.
Dextrolord - Sat, 21 Oct 2017 20:02:58 EST ID:ymGVR82j No.519555 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I felt like that too when I first started using needles. Eventually it got so bad I had to go to a detox clinic and then everyone one knew. It was a blessing in disguise tho I got the help I needed and found out who my true friends and family are. This was a little over a year ago

Now they all think I'm sober as a square and I am for the most part but I still like to get faded every so often on my old stuff like dxm and booze, I would blaze up if I wasn't on probation. I just got a new job and life is looking up so fuck it if they all wanna believe something that isn't true about me.

I forgot what my point was just do whatever you feel is right I guess
Betsy Bungerket - Sun, 22 Oct 2017 02:53:45 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.519559 Ignore Report Quick Reply
After 6 months of daily PST use, whether or not you're an "addict" you're definitely physically dependent.

>fucked libido due to opis

Yeah, they'll do that. Certainly doesn't add anything to a relationship.

Honestly OP, I was on the PST train for years about 1 year of that was towards the end of a 6 year relationship (go figure). Secrecy sucks, but having a GF who knows, accepts and fucking hates the fact that you're an addict also sucks. Maybe she'll be fine with it, who knows. It's very unlikely but not impossible.

Seriously man, just get off that shit. Opis gave me the testosterone levels of an elderly woman, no interest in sex, lost muscle, gained fat etc. It may well get to the point where the psychological effects of low T (depression, anxiety) are no longer outweighed by the good feels of being constantly opiated. Withdrawals get consistently worse in my experience, and 6 months in you're way less likely to experience PAWS than you will be further in to your habit.

The acute withdrawal stage is easy enough to pass off as an awful case of gastro, the post acute withdrawal effects can be harder to explain.

By the way, not everyone understands that having a healthy relationship doesn't mean that all of your other issues suddenly disappear, it can be taken personally like they're not "enough". Using opioids daily usually isn't suggestive of awesome mental health or a generally fulfilling life (it's not impossible that you just love getting fucked up, but every day?).
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Porn Addiction by Albert Crumblesan - Mon, 09 Oct 2017 16:21:56 EST ID:VlXGR1pf No.519267 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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On my first few steps on my road to becoming a well-rounded and centred individual I have done some digging and realised I have a porn addiction.

Here's how I realised:

>I watch porn, every day, same time, same place, multiple times a day
>I eagerly await the moment I can watch porn
>I imagine women at work in pornographic situations regularly
>I imagine myself in pornographic situations even more frequently
>I struggle to talk to and connect to women on a personal level, I don't view them as people to bond with and listen to like I do with men
>I can't see women as anything other than an object for sex and I have NO IDEA how to talk to them

Unfortunately I'm nothing like Don Jon (pic related) and I don't have a cool car and an appartment to feel good about. I live with my mother and brother and don't have a healthy social life.

I'd appreciate some help.
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Eliza Mommerfield - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 21:40:33 EST ID:RM0nUBdj No.519482 Ignore Report Quick Reply
““I might have herpes” is not a good conversation starter or confidence booster.

It’s like you didn’t even read the replies, you baka!
Clara Chonnerfadging - Wed, 18 Oct 2017 05:51:29 EST ID:g4/yby/C No.519489 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Haha, I was thinking what this looks to poor OP.

This is some good advice. It's unlikely you aren't just bad with women but also have a selective group of people you can approach and relate to. The internet filters and breaks down people into groups that are easy to find but creates a bit of an echo chamber; I don't doubt that more and more people will struggle to generally relate as we do this.

If that is a problem, start small by putting yourself out there. There's no wrong answer, you're just trying to find a social voice.
Charlotte Pollyfoot - Wed, 18 Oct 2017 06:21:23 EST ID:6P6u/bAq No.519491 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Striking up a conversation with a sexually attractive stranger is terrifying. Unfortunately there is no real foolproof method for talking to ladies. What I like to do is go somewhere far away where nobody knows who I am.

There's a densely populated city three towns over from where I live. I'll spend a few hours just trying to talk to random ladies on the street, in cafes or business parks. I haven't met anyone worthwhile but I have gotten used to talking to random women. Plus, the fact that almost every encounter is 100% cold makes it easier to just restart and try again if things don't go well. Optimal haircuts and clothing will vary depending on what type of woman you're trying to attract (different people like different haircuts/clothes) but across the board, you'll be surprised how many females respond positively to a combination of well-fitting clothes, good posture, a smile, eye contact, and a friendly wave. I am still an introvert though, and I find this practice incredibly tiring.

Free public events are a great (cheap) place to meet ladies with similar interests. I got a random woman to let me teach her how to mambo at a hispanic jazz festival.

The details of what you say, who you talk to, what you wear, where and when are up to you. It's like Robin Williams says in Dead Poets society "I want you to find your own walk right now. Your own way of striding, pacing. Any direction, anything you want. Whether it's proud or it's silly. Anything."

...But there are still some things that you should generally avoid:

>waiting around
From the moment a lady notices you looking at her, you have seconds to avoid creeping her out. Remain calm, establish eye contact, smile and wave. No sudden movements. If she smiles back, or even walks over and talks to you, GOOD! If she rolls here eyes, or looks away with fear and or shame on her face... don't worry about her too much.

After she knows you've acknowledged her existence, you don't have a whole lot of time to strike up a conversation with her without creeping her out. If you're at a loss for words, I've had moderate success with saying "Wattido?" as an icebreaker.
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Archie Ceddlewerk - Wed, 18 Oct 2017 15:53:30 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519495 Ignore Report Quick Reply

There you go, some real advice.


OP, sorry about the weebs, girls don't typically like weebs so their advice is null/void. That said, there's still some nuggets in here worth reading.

If you feel a prostitute is what you need though, it's common practice in some countries to fuck one, especially if you're a virgin, so it's not weird though I wouldn't brag about it. And never mention it to another girl, obviously.

Anywho, just like a dog has to be socialized to get along with other dogs and play with them, a man has to be socialized to get along with other people and play with them. So my method is read about it, learn body language, and practice. Socializing is like playing a musical instrument. You practice it, get decent, and learn your own style.
Henry Hirringwater - Sat, 21 Oct 2017 02:46:10 EST ID:oY2KBXa7 No.519544 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i haven't ejaculated in a month because i realized i had the same problem. life record, i'm 26. talking to women is MUCH easier now because i know i HAVE to do it if i'm trying to release semenz. haven't gotten laid yet though... good luck to us

Medication.. SSI/SSDI... Depersonalization/Derealization... Depression/Anxiety... Psychotic Fixation by Jarvis Duckville - Sun, 08 Oct 2017 13:06:18 EST ID:ehiQjzru No.519242 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've got a disability hearing coming up and I'm stressing out over it. I've been going through the process of getting on disability for the past two years and by the end of the year it will culminate.

I'm sorry I just need to talk. I've been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder with Psychotic Fixation, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Eating Disorder. The "Psychotic Fixation" is the result of chronic depersonilization/derealization symptoms and a persistent belief/feeling that reality is in someway false, as if it's a dream or simulation. I have a very real concern that other people aren't actually people because I can't verify their consciousnesses.

I have a disconnect and contempt for my body and humanity. I hate it. I hate this static form that I can't set to what I want. I hate that I can not exert control over reality according to my thoughts. I hate that I'm in a body that is going to grow od, fail, and die. I've realized that when my body starts falling apart, if I don't die suddenly, I'm probably going to be one of those old people that quietly commits suicide because I can't stand the thought of becoming decrepit, and dying a lingering death in a hospital bed in my own waste, hooked up to machines.

I've been involuntarily committed twice and voluntarily committed once in the past two years for suicidal thoughts, behavior, and planning. I've basically come to the conclusion that if I can't successfully get on disability I'm probably going to commit suicide within the next year because I can't stand the thought of living alone and working a dead end drudgery job with no prospects for the rest of my life.

My medications keep me stable, but I feel more depersonlized and disconnected from myself as if I'm not the real me when I'm medicated and I feel emotionally blunted. Other problems include anorgasmia and sexual dysfunction though I've never had a girlfriend or engaged in sex. On top of this, at times it feels like my meds are less effective and the only reason I'm taking them is to avoid discontinuation and to not get shit from my family or doctors.

A big thing I miss, that I can't do due to dangerous drug interactions with my meds, is tripping. The only thing I've tripped on two years is DPH and it was unsatisfying. I long for the spiritually uplifting feeling of a good drug trip. I felt my soul sing on one my last trips. I don't think I can adequately explain that to my doctors or family members. My father is Christian and sometimes talks about the religious feelings he gets from his faith, but the only time I've ever felt anything that could be called a religious experience is on hallucinogens and I want so badly to feel that again.

All the above points make me seriously consider quitting my meds, but I live with my mother. She would notice the change in behavior. My doctors at least test my lithium levels so they would know if I quit that and compliance with treatment is probably a condition of disability.

I have problems with anxiety, but my doctors stop prescribing me benzos because of the last incident that involved me being committed in which my doctor found out my latest suicidal plans involved overdosing on benzos and drowning myself. My mother hid what benzos I had left. Because of this I now have to suffer through anxiety and panic attacks with nothing but shitty herbal remedies. I'd use booze for anxiety, but I basically have no cash and my family treats me like an alcoholic ever since the one time I got a DUI back in 2013. I realize how stupid that was and that I fucked up, but I learned my lesson, I payed my dues for it and it won't happen again. I shouldn't be treated like I have problem, especially after they took away my anti-anxiety meds. Also I think it is incredibly fucked up that one can not speak frankly on certain things with a psychiatrist without risking being committed and having liberties taken away. Basically after being committed three times I've learned it's best not to mention certain things even if they are true.
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George Finkindale - Mon, 09 Oct 2017 11:36:44 EST ID:VizjRfBY No.519265 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm kind of like you, just not as extreme, it's not always good.
Awe' God !!vVWR8L52 - Mon, 09 Oct 2017 17:07:40 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.519273 Ignore Report Quick Reply
if you are ready to die it will be easy for you to decide who you are and what it;s gonna be and act in full faith of that even if it kills you. If the decision is solid the echoes will only affirm it and the echoes will fade and your new decision will be left standing. Don't think that you have to manipulate anything into being a certain way, all you have to do is chose who you are, everything else is just a reflection. I'd go for something light and easy and fun and exciting.
Clara Hoffingdune - Mon, 09 Oct 2017 22:26:41 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519278 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Lets assume everything around you is a simulation.

How would that affect your life?
Clara Hoffingdune - Mon, 09 Oct 2017 22:35:27 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519279 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Suffering from derealization now after a massive panic attack/episode. Chronic stress accumulation will do that to you. Actually demonstrating the visual disturbances; I didn't know I was capable of making myself show such physically debilitating symptoms.

Anywho, even if this world isn't real, I don't think that would change the way I live it/used to live it.

I can't identify with everything, but from what I understand, the only way to beat derealization is to let it hit you. Let your brain try to stabilize itself. Medication will only protract the inevitable; you have to face it. As far as suicide goes, I wouldn't do that. Shit gets too interesting in this world. We have a little orange guy as a president with no qualifications to be running the nation with the largest military in the world.

Disability might be tough to get, but there's no use in worrying about the outcome. Whatever happens will happen. You might get rejected because someone forgot to file some paperwork. You never know, and everything that can happen will happen. So just let it hit you and deal with it.

That's what I'm trying to do.

But I'm not in your situation. I'm just doing what I think is best for me.
James Sinningstane - Thu, 19 Oct 2017 14:29:01 EST ID:ehiQjzru No.519520 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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One quote that helps me get through my derealization:

"All we have to believe with is our senses: the tools we use to perceive the world, our sight, our touch, our memory. If they lie to us, then nothing can be trusted. And even if we do not believe, then still we cannot travel in any other way than the road our senses show us; and we must walk that road to the end." - American Gods, Chapter 6

And something positive, guys, my attorney managed to make a deal with the judge who was handling my case. In exchange for changing the date my disability started and losing about ten months of back pay the judge agreed to approve my claim without a hearing. I've still got more than two years worth of back pay with the changed date so I accepted the deal.

I'm still hoping to reach a point where I can be off my meds and trip once or twice a month again. Here's to hoping I can learn to handle myself off my medication.

Choose Your Abuser by RL Charlatan - Sat, 14 Oct 2017 22:15:53 EST ID:DlJv0rWW No.519406 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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My old daddy showed up. Flirtatious little emails to my private email accounts, plural.

He caught me at an exceptionally bad time.
My current GF and I have been having all kinds of ruptures, I'm between therapists, and I'm getting into pretty unhealthy patterns w/sleep etc.

I know he would love to meet my needs; particularly the ones that my partner is not meeting.

I'm so vulnerable rn, that it feels dangerous to engage with him, and suicidal to stay with her.

It's like, be treated like a dog, and have a fucking RIOT, or
be treated like a human CHILD, and get "BETTER"
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RL Charlatan - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 00:03:38 EST ID:DlJv0rWW No.519415 Ignore Report Quick Reply
that feels like the obvious thing to do, but as a charlatan, i only know how to mooch.
i've been so effectively up until now that i haven't had to learn the ins and outs of rooming with randos.
Martha Hurryham - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 01:51:29 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519437 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If you can't handle living on your own, you give whomever you're dependent on too much leverage and they'll be able to walk all over you.
Emma Shakeridge - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 13:19:14 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519446 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, people who want a healthy relationship with a whole human being will avoid you but people who want a victim will swarm you. Sort it out OP. It'll be harder in the short run even within a few months it won't be any worse and it'll be better long term, like a year or two down the line you'll be like "how did I live like that? this is awesome"
Matilda Fenkindon - Wed, 18 Oct 2017 05:51:56 EST ID:2ULIAVPs No.519490 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stop pretending you're the victim
Oliver Churringtedge - Mon, 23 Oct 2017 03:33:18 EST ID:YRVU//Uh No.519584 Ignore Report Quick Reply
nothing more attractive than an independant person who doesn't need anyone to make them happy.
cut the cunts out of your live, mastrubate, and be independant.

Heroin girl updates by Lydia Dresslewill - Thu, 28 Sep 2017 02:28:10 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.519050 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>Friend says she is in the hospital and needs someone to pick her up
>I comply and pick her up at 2am
>says she has to someone's house
>I comply
>we then get to her house and she wants to ravish me
>I comply once again and have sex with her
>we hang out for quite a while afterward and go on a walk
>she says she has to take her medicine and return to her house
>I use the bathroom for awhile and when I return her lips were completely blue and she was unresponsive
>I wake her sleeping mother and she grabs some narcan and sprays it into her nose, she immediately

If I left a few moments earlier or pulled a Walter White she would be dead right now. But she has been kicked out of her house for stealing, is wheelchair bound and is living homeless in the park,.
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Hamilton Brogglelock - Thu, 12 Oct 2017 21:38:54 EST ID:4I/hIj3s No.519354 Ignore Report Quick Reply
do some research into PTSD treatment with MDMA, she might literally be only a couple pills away from being totally fine
Hedda Clingerridge - Sat, 14 Oct 2017 09:39:32 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.519396 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>If she got adopted by another family she would have never picked up a drug habbit or smoking for that matter, nor would she have been raped.
How do you know that exactly?
Nell Dullerson - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 00:46:57 EST ID:/iGyFSfg No.519417 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>raped for the first time by staff when her parents had her committed to a psyche ward
>raped again by drug dealers after being thrown out
>picked up heroin addiction from her adopted brother,
He did all the same behavior
>she picked smoking from a religious gathering they sent her too
parents said nothing

>discouraged her from going to college
>denied multiple rapes

If she was picked up by a family like mine she would be a completely different person
Lydia Hagglefuck - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 03:14:48 EST ID:rYUPE/Vm No.519470 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I became close to an addict, ended up letting him live in my place for a few months, took care of him through multiple rehabs, jail a couple times, hospitals, etc. In many ways we were very good friends.

I always knew where he was and what he was doing, even when he tried to make up stories. Came to the point that I was the only person who would really put up with him.

One week I didn't hear from him for a couple days when he was supposed to be coming by my place. I ended up finding him at his apartment. Had to arrange the funeral and everything since his family couldn't/wouldn't.

Funny thing is, I knew that in many ways he was using me, but I really loved the guy and don't regret it at all. I'm not sure that taking her across country is a good idea-- you could easily end up using yourself if you're around that all day-- but by all means never feel bad about helping somebody you care for. Just go into it with your eyes open.
Clara Pittdale - Wed, 18 Oct 2017 02:09:31 EST ID:NCONf+22 No.519487 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Me use?
Phat chance! I duck drugs like the plague but I just want to see this person do better.
They told me that they don't want to leave the state they are in though.

Disintegrating by Sidney Fudgestock - Thu, 12 Oct 2017 09:51:17 EST ID:/xgCR/0/ No.519336 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have so many issues and existential feelings that I can't actually explain in any concise or coherent manner what advice it is that I actually require. Which is a problem.

I feel like I need to completely erase my past from my head but I can't. I need to completely reinvent myself but I'm too neurotic and have no options. I am 35 years old and I've utterly ruined my life. My personality traits are not optimal for living in this world to say the least.

I'm watching all my friends getting married and have kids and its hurting. I never wanted those things because I was an irresponsible manchild with social anxiety and his head in the clouds throughout my whole 20s. I have realised I will never be able to enjoy the latter half of my life without such security and all I have to aim for is minimum wage drudgery (thats IF I can even get a job). My sexual frustration is killing me and I feel like I could snap I'm so angry all the time. I keep breaking stuff.

I just wish there was someone who understood where I'm coming from, someone in the exact same situation. I have lost all faith in free will, I believe I am living out my destiny, as it was written a long time ago.

Apologies for the incoherent nature of this post. If anyone cares enough, you can ask me some questions.
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Emma Shakeridge - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 18:07:02 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519460 Ignore Report Quick Reply
For a lot of people it gets better. Especially from 19. You just learn to into life. If you completely stop trying you won't improve though. If you were 29 and like this guy I'd say "it's more likely to get worse than better" but odds are you'll get your shit together. Just don't stop fighting.
Awe' God !!vVWR8L52 - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 03:47:50 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.519473 Ignore Report Quick Reply
by stoping fighting is how you get your shit together. but yeah for me 19 was when things have started to improve rapidly. although i took very serious steps to heal and detox my body so I have a much more enjoyable machine now. Can;t help but wonder if that's not the very reason my life is so much better. Well i also let go of many beliefs that didn;t serve me...
Barnaby Lightham - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 12:39:32 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519476 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>stoping fighting is how you get your shit together
I suppose if you mean so you can hit rock bottom and bounce then maybe even that, that's not really true. But honestly all the time I just resigned myself to getting nothing from life was lost, it served no purpose, it didn't make me better. There is little I learned except that it had been a waste of time. If I hadn't needed to realise that I'd have been fine 5 years earlier.

I'm way out on the bell curve. At 19 almost everyone is still struggling to get their shit together.
Dextrolord - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 13:35:45 EST ID:ymGVR82j No.519477 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You remind me of my friend he's an all around good guy, just wigs out occasionally.

Just don't do meth that's when his shit started to get out of control

Sadly life is harder for some people than others I don't have really advice besides just try to accept your reality
Awe' God !!vVWR8L52 - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 16:01:52 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.519479 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I mean going with the flow, using the forces that are present to your advantage instead of thinking that there are things that have to be dominated to extract benefit or for some damage control reasons. If you let go of the struggle, the universe conspires on your and your desire's behalf. IMO

get some things off my chest by Ernest Dartstock - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 02:17:05 EST ID:s62wPwbe No.519438 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I want to die sometimes because I am a pussy. But regardless of that I have a burning desire to change the world and make it like heaven on earth. I sometimes feel so forsaken that everything I do turns to ash. I have lost touch with my friends and family. Every sentence has started with "I" because I am so ego driven, except for this one. And thank you all for listening because this is the only place where I can be honest with someone.
Basil Clegglekack - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 13:50:17 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.519448 Ignore Report Quick Reply
:( Hang in there bud
Charlotte Neblingfodge - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 13:54:46 EST ID:4I/hIj3s No.519449 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I also want to do something to make the world a better place but I just don't know what, I feel too weak and too small to be able to do much. At the time I am planning on doing a business course and hopefully be able to open my own company and use that money to do some good.
Henry Murdwell - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 22:36:46 EST ID:72fnU3DN No.519462 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Relax buddy, everybody wants to die sometimes, I'm sure even mighty kings, scholars and people that work out and eat healthy have moments where they are thinking "what the faack duuude I just wanna end this misery"

But things usually turn around. And it's okay to be ego-driven too, just don't be an asshole you know? If you can take care of yourself and be happy, you'll be in a better position to help others!

I hope that it helped getting things off your chest, and I'm sure that if you hit up an old friend or familymember you'll quickly notice that things haven't changed that much and that they are probably very happy to hear from you. Good luck, and remember to just relax!
Awe' God !!vVWR8L52 - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 03:43:29 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.519471 Ignore Report Quick Reply
yesterday i wanted to die as well. I dry fasted till i wanted to live again. broke the fast with juice. Today i feel more hope and a bit more power, but I'll probably continue to fast, cause it;s not yet satisfactory.

bully as an adult by Angus Hipperridge - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 21:59:13 EST ID:O7qq0Hj7 No.519433 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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im 28 i work at a large state facility.

rewind to about 2 years ago when i was trying to date this girl and we go to a party. its totally all guys but me and this girl. there is a this one guy i have not seen since high school and we get into discussion and hes trying to ask me all these questions and then he looks to my friend and says "I wanna hit ____ in the face with this beer but i dont" instantly the whole group of friends are like what? one of our friends escorts him outside and then another friends says maybe its best you leave which i do because this guys been drinking is 240 pounds of muscle and 6 for 2, veteran.

now at work and the first time i see this guy again i glare really hard at him and he does the same. i see this guy now and he works there, and he tries talking to my boss about my weed smoking in shade. hes also death stares at me when we cross paths.

I will not take this shit at 28, is there any legal recourse or should i go up to his boss and talk to him about his past actions. i called the police recently to ask about legsl advice and they said make a police report, this happened in another city so i feel its pointless

tldr 28, dude threatened me with a bottle and now contiues to try to harass me 2 years later at my job what do?
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Walter Shittinghall - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 14:23:15 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519452 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Jesus fuck. ITT: Confrontation aversion.

Alright, so he started the shit, and now you accidentally work with him.

Confront him like you already have been. Just ask him to step aside and tell him you're both adults and to leave the petty shit at home cause it doesn't belong in the workplace. I've gotten people fired for their petty behavior (towards me) at work, so that's how I handle that shit, but they were also fucking off and getting away with it.

Don't back down like a wuss or pretend the original conflict never happened. It doesn't seem like you were even considering it anyways, but that's a real pussy way to conduct yourself. Acknowledge the conflict happened and then agree to drop it.
Martha Hurryham - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 15:02:18 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519454 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You've obviously never dealt with bullies. Asking them to stop only encourages them and lets them know they're getting to you. He'll just call him a pussy bitch and continue just like he was before. The only thing that might work is going to your boss and getting him to step in but that's a much bigger bitch move than just ignoring it. If you ignore it and don't feed the fires of resentment, eventually they get bored and stop. If he escalates to something more concrete that interferes with OP's work then he can take it up with the boss, but until then, it's between the two of them. You can either keep squabbling and posturing like fucking morons forever or just move on with your life and worry about more important things. Confrontation is just not worth it in the long run. You don't just "win" the confrontation and it goes away. Things fester and worsen.
Walter Shittinghall - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 16:32:03 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519456 Ignore Report Quick Reply

The thing you didn't factor in was age. If the guy continues to act like a fuckface, then he probably has criminal tendencies, in which case it shouldn't take long to get him fired.

Confrontation is a part of life and dodging it doesn't make it go away. I'm not telling OP to run up and fight him, but bowing to him only reinforces his behavior. He needs to learn it's unacceptable behavior, otherwise he'll never change his tactics. I've dealt with bullying in highschool, and to a lesser extent in my professional life. I ignored it in high school and refused to give tinder to those flames. Until I stood up for myself and fist fought one of them after egging him on. After that, noone fucked with me.

I'm not recommending violence as a means to solve problems, but these particular types of people only understand one thing: pain. You need to show them that there are consequences for their actions. However with adults, I suggest that open communication, even confrontational communication, can be effective.

Don't threaten him, approach him, prove that you're man enough to face him. Tell him that hanging onto a grudge is gay as fuck, and ask him to drop it. Then, I dunno, get a beer with the guy. Show him there's no hard feelings on your end and that you just had a lovers quarrel.

Adult bullying is juvenile as fuck. That shit should stay in gradeschool where it belongs.
Basil Hacklenere - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 00:38:15 EST ID:4I/hIj3s No.519466 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Bad idea, if there's anything that bullies hate is displaying weakness, and being homosexual is still seen as an insult if you're one of those big Chad types. Calling him gay will only get OP's ass kicked

>Just ask him to step aside and tell him you're both adults and to leave the petty shit at home
woah yeah try using rational arguments against a bully, that works 100% of the time. Why wouldn't he stop when you present a strong argument that he can follow through? Oh that's right, he's a fucking bully so chances are he's dumb as fuck.

I remember when I had a guy bully me in high school, the easiest way to get him off my back was to just reply with something that he didn't understood, or to just establish some form of connection between the two of us. He would say "I don't like you, I think you're dumb" and I would reply "See, I was having just the same thoughts about you. We're not that different after all, you and me". This is much better than saying "YEAH YOU'RE A FUCKING IDIOT TOO". Bullies don't know how to deal with intelligence. They tend to be stupid, so if they find themselves in a position they don't understand, their brains just shut down and they give up

Unless OP is ready to get physical, I would suggest avoiding confrontation. Avoiding confrontation does not mean running away like a bitch, it means being smart enough to twist his brain so that he finds himself out of his regular bully mindset. Ways to do this:

1- pay attention to what he likes and try to imitate him subtly. Bringing him closer to you might work , bullies tend to focus more on the people they find the most different to them
2- redirect his attention somewhere else. If he's for instance making fun of the clothes you wear, ask him "so where do you shop then? why instead of complaining don't you give me some advice?" Obviously he's not going to become your BFF but asking the bully "why" usually stops them on their tracks. Why, indeed? The bully is not used to thinking, and they probably can't do two things at the same time.
3- Use psychology to toy with hi…
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Nicholas Murdson - Tue, 17 Oct 2017 03:02:01 EST ID:9aeUGuOI No.519469 Ignore Report Quick Reply
He sounds like a punk, you have a few options here.

A. Cut back on smoking weed, take it as a cue to work harder and get a better job than this. When he tries to go run and tell you can walk up sober and smelling like anything but weed and he'll look like a dipshit. Bosses don't want to deal with adult taddle tales, especially if they are demonstrably wrong, that shit is pathetic.

B. Wait until he's in an area by himself and come up behind him. Put the ball of your wrist against his throat and push your wrist down with your other hand and get him in a really good choke hold to the point he can't breathe. Make sure you have him good or you'll fuck it up. Wait until he starts squirming and can't breathe and tell him "I know you told on me you fucking bitch, do it again and I'll fuck you in the ass" then let him out of the choke hold, slide a finger down his butt crack as a power move then push him away and tell him he makes you sick. Works every time.

C. Pay a lawyer to take action against a guy who is gossiping about you at a job that won't even cover the cost of this litigation.

Choose your own adventure OP.

Things getting better, people seem more restless? by Edward Nuckletire - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 07:20:49 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.519420 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So, this is weird. Basically, my life has been going from shit, to pretty darn good. I'm getting into a bachelor program for computer sciences, I've lost 25 lbs., been off cigs cold turkey for 2 weeks, been succesfully dieting, and generally feeling like a happier person. And it took A LOT of effort to believe that it is possible to feel better. But to my friends, it seems to be making them, well, a little less happier around me.

Now, they aren't directing any of it at me. But the ones I especially notice it from are my friends girlfriends. They are always slamming them around me, or making personal statements to them that make me uncomfortable. And it always winds up tense...

My question to you guys, is talking about my recent accomplishments an asshole thing to do? Is it pissing people off in your opinions? Or is it simply their relationships, and none of my business to worry about? Because the big one is smoking. It never fails to send two couples I hang out with into an uncomfortable spite parade.
Lillian Crubberchere - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 08:26:44 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519421 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe they're shit people. Maybe not. Maybe your own self improvement is making these girls less content with their boyfriends maybe you need to talk about something else and they're fed up. Good friends will be happy for you. Sometimes people take a while to adjust though. People will tell someone "you're so thin" but it's never strangers, just people who knew you 100 pounds ago or whatever. And eventually they stop, it's just you. But it takes a while to get used to.

If you think it's a sore point then I wouldn't rub it in, consider their feelings. Bringing it up when it makes people miserable is a bit of an asshole thing to do if you know it does that. If they ask or bring it up then that's different. If people ask about life in general just say "college and the diet are still going okay" then go back to them. If they bring it up and start dissecting it they're the assholes.
Hugh Wickleway - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 10:29:31 EST ID:3qSLtzLv No.519423 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, don't talk about your accomplishments to your friends. Talk about common interests.

Good job on getting your life together.
Edward Nuckletire - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 11:22:36 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.519425 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well, I never broight it up to make others miserable. I guess it would be along the lines of, "man, this food tastes great now!", then 15 minutes later after she gets back from buying my buddy his pack, "I'm tired of the looks I get buying these disgusting things". And it never happened in front of me until I quit. I guess I just run my mouth because of how hard these things were to do. And I'm excited I am finally winning. I just didn't think of it as sort of rubbing their faces in it. It is probably also part due that I don't have any family, and no significant otger to talk to about anything. And I just rant to my close friends non-stop.
Edward Nuckletire - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 11:33:45 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.519426 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, I'll try to remain here with my conversations.

And thanks! Still a lot to do, but I have a clear path to follow now.
Emma Shakeridge - Mon, 16 Oct 2017 14:54:45 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519453 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, I don't think you're being intentionally insensitive, maybe you're not even being bad at all. I get it, I know how you feel but you need in a lot of ways but you probably need to be a little careful. It's natural to be proud of how it is. And to enjoy it. And you should absolutely enjoy that food but if it's winding people up it's just considerate to tone it down a little.

Though that example sounded more like she wanted your buddy to quit smoking. If you're showing your friends up that's going to make everyone miserable so I'd try to avoid it. Not necessarily because you were bad for what you did just because this is nice to your friends, you know?

by Charlotte Bungold - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 02:15:17 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.519418 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I got what you need...


i think i posted this in the wrong board at first i hope thisis the rite one by Eliza Deckleshaw - Sun, 15 Oct 2017 00:31:40 EST ID:QC7o/4hF No.519416 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So, I have bipolar II disorder and its gotten to the point where my life is in shambles. Unemployable, mind is mush, etc. The last few days I've been taking klonopin (Dr. prescribed) and with my other meds, because I was hitting a point where I couldn't take the stress anymore. I really feel like I can function in the world like this with this seroquel/klonopin combo The unfortunate part about that, is the addictive nature of klonopin. I'm certainly not trying to get physically addicted, and I have some ideas on how I will be able to medicate myself properly.

Daily, I take celexa and seroquel. The klonopin with the seroquel seemed to stop all paranoid/extreme/self-flaggelating thoughts when taken. The downside I noticed was increased aggressiveness (I was being way rude to people that were on my team, playing badly, in Overwatch)

I plan to use CBD and kratom on days where I am not using any klonpin, which would ideally be very rarely. CBD has been known to potentiate klonopin, so to lower the risk of addiction, lower doses can be used in conjuncrion with CBD.

I know of other herbs and compounds I want to use: Skullcap, Rose Hips, Green Tea, Chammomile, Kava Kava, Lemon Balm... I know there's a ton more

Can anyone suggest any potential tools I could have missed out on?

Any experience reports using these types of herbs/compounds for bipolar hypomania or just general anxiety in the past? Please share!!!

fuck should I do???? by Edwin Shittingman - Tue, 10 Oct 2017 17:26:04 EST ID:5cn1rjKV No.519294 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Fucking be me. Live in an extended stay hotel with my girlfriend(who is willing to be my fiance) and we dont have money to pay up tomorrow for the next week, so what is she going to do? Escorting apparently tonight. I'm so pissed and livid but at the same time I realize that these kids cant be homeless and she's just trying to look out and she's never done it before. I feel like I should just call my parents, get an uber called and go back home with all my shit when she's gone and the kids are asleep but at the sametime she's awesome, she's my bestfriend, she cooks, she cleans, and its my fault that she has to do this since Ive taken so long on finding a job.
Cyril Digglestone - Tue, 10 Oct 2017 20:27:42 EST ID:/SOdGi2D No.519297 Ignore Report Quick Reply
well after this you will get your arm cut off due to gangrenous infection as a result of your IV habit, your black friend will end up in prison, and your mom will be a shriveled old psych patient getting electroshock therapy. also your gf is going to do ASS TO ASS
Hugh Bredgespear - Wed, 11 Oct 2017 11:19:22 EST ID:n3pJg67O No.519312 Ignore Report Quick Reply
get a job you absolute stallion
Hamilton Brogglelock - Thu, 12 Oct 2017 21:18:11 EST ID:4I/hIj3s No.519350 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I would steal from people before I let my girlfriend fuck some other dude. Seriously. That's what a man should do, he should look after his wife and kids.


Be a man
Walter Snodson - Sat, 14 Oct 2017 01:44:33 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519385 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Man, I hope you're trolling.
Emma Dibbleladge - Sat, 14 Oct 2017 07:06:13 EST ID:FwheuJ8x No.519394 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So, she's out there sacrificing her dignity to put food on the kids' table while you're sitting in here complaining about it?

Why aren't you sucking dick through a glory hole to support her efforts, reduce her workload, and help her feel less self-conscious if shit has gotten that serious?

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