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nonononono by Barnaby Dridgewater - Sun, 07 May 2017 02:56:27 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516042 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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no no no no no
i am a broken person, and eveyrthing that i do reflect my particular brokenness
i ccannot let anybody see my pain, that is pure anguish to me, even worse than merely existing
no life is not worth it because life is pain for me
life is my own crippled mess
i cannot take the pity
there is no healing, only God can heal me
and i don't see him doing anything any more
life is simply not worth it
i am not needed, and so this pain is not necessary
i can die
life is not worth it because my life is pain

there is no real happiness for me because i am shattered
the closest is drugs which make me think i'm whole
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Charlotte Turveygold - Sun, 07 May 2017 18:45:52 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516059 Ignore Report Quick Reply
yes, but who is saying that? thoughts in your head. and dont try getting them out of there, they will stay. just do your thing, dont focus on the bad stuff up there.
Being human is also just a concept if you think about it. you think "a proper human wouldnt do this or that", but thats just an opinion. you ARE human and YOU define what being human means in your case.

I want to kill myself since I was abot 16 years old, 26 now and stll rocking. no friends, but I'm doing my thing. do yours!
John Chennerbanks - Sun, 07 May 2017 19:55:54 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.516060 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Humanity is a dying concept. Just be a cyborg, or like trans-plant or trans-animal or something. No need to be an boring old human being. I'm serious btw.

Just do stuff and try to find stuff you actually enjoy, doesn't matter if it's humanlike or not (rejection can be tough though, but it seems you can't feel that much worse than you're currently feeling, so who cares)
Ian Nengermadge - Sun, 07 May 2017 20:38:36 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516063 Ignore Report Quick Reply
no man i'm not proposing some arbitrary construction
what i'm doing is simply not enough to live an enjoyable life
my problem is basically neon genesis evangelion, if you've seen that
my room is barren
life has been terrible since 14, i'm almost 25

i care because i'm in agony
i've got a little thing i enjoy but i don't put myself fully into it
i'm constitutionally incapable it seems
Ian Nengermadge - Mon, 08 May 2017 18:36:07 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516088 Ignore Report Quick Reply
two words my friends
bear entering
David Lightshaw - Wed, 10 May 2017 05:45:14 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516115 Ignore Report Quick Reply
keep telling yourself that you are worthless and soon your own mantra becomes truth. works the other way round too, but people are too stuck to their thoughts..

You've got things you enjoy and keep yourself from enjoying them, what the fuck. stop whining on here and get your shit together

Need some by Oliver Mupperforth - Tue, 09 May 2017 16:28:20 EST ID:RR99y/7V No.516105 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Well no longer apart of the party scene and it's been too long since I last had sex

I use to get laid all the time back when I use to drink now a days I absolutely get no pussy what so ever.

It's been too long, I need to find myself a woman but man I no longer have a social life all I do is work play games browse the internet.

Don't want to be that guy asking you guys advice but damn I came to the conclusion that I no longer have "game" I have trouble holding or initiating a conversation with a chick.

At the end of the day I think I'm just darn lonely and need some good old relationship action.

Pretty hard finding a woman right now/ a relationship, been feeling quite low lately due to this problem and can't seem to find a solution.

And no I ain't going back to the party scene I'm done with that life I just want a normal life with a intimate relationship.

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Jarvis Fullytore - Tue, 09 May 2017 17:16:10 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516107 Ignore Report Quick Reply
google coach corey wayne
he's good with this thing
David Lightshaw - Wed, 10 May 2017 05:37:59 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516114 Ignore Report Quick Reply
start doing shit other than being on the internet and your relationship will come soon. sitting at home, just playing games won't get you new things to talk about(unless she's a lowlife aswell).
for me, people looking for relationships without having hobbies of their own always seem desperate, shallow. you just want to fill the void, not have a partner in crime to do the stuff you enjoy with. I mean, you don't have to do everything together but getting a relationship because you are lonely won't work out for both of you.

so get out there, grab a few new hobbies(I would recommend everything involving movement, try learning handstands or other calisthenics, stuff you can do without equipment) you wanted to try for a while and you will feel fresh again. trying out new things is one of the hardest things in life but extremely rewarding because your brain learns to adapt to new circumstances.

Once you're out there, doing things you love you radiate confidence and maybe the right person steps into your radiation ;)

Just my opinion, i wish you all the best!

i none of you give a shit and many of you probably feel the same way by Martha Dosslebeg - Tue, 09 May 2017 08:19:18 EST ID:m3A9kNFz No.516097 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i don't enjoy anything. i hate my boyfriend. i can barely tolerate my friends. talking to my family is irritating, all of this despite the love i have for these people. when i am alone i just hate myself, i spend a lot of time verbally abusing myself and contemplating suicide. i quit hard drugs in an effort to make this stop but its been a month since i did anything like that and nothing has improved. i cant even enjoy masturbating or sex anymore and the thing that can make me cum is fucked up rape porn that makes me hate myself even more. i can't even pay attention to jack shit. just doing something as simple as drinking a soda, i will end up misplacing the soda and having to walk around looking for it a few times. i can hardly hold a conversation, and when i do its not fun anyway. if this doesn't improve soon i think i'm just gonna start railing pills again or kill myself, possibly both. at least when i was getting gacked all the time i was at least happy sometimes. i just feel impatient all the time right now.
Polly Geckleman - Tue, 09 May 2017 12:48:21 EST ID:Z1gpt7qH No.516100 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Drugs sometimes cause problems, but sometimes they just let you run from the problems.

Maybe you should deal with the problems because you have textbook depression symptoms right there. Poor self esteem, lack of self acceptance.

Not taking drugs is a good first step, you can see that you're unhappy (and you always were) but now you have to keep going. Sorry but you've got to actually do some stuff to improve. All that money you're not snorting up your nose, spend it on therapy, a reasonable diet and sleep. Try to practice some form of self improvement, if you just sit around and seethe then of course it's going to be hard to like yourself, you are demonstrating very little value.

PTSD chick, wanna help but I'm a piece of a shit so idk by Hamilton Bittingspear - Mon, 08 May 2017 21:26:55 EST ID:SpBxx243 No.516091 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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so I met this chick a while back, real cool, intelligent, beautiful but she got issues

I knew through a long time homie that I used to snort molly and sell grams with all the time. I have stolen this homie's girls before and he seemed generally okay with it so I did it again.

Except this time I found out "homie" was all abusive and shit (according to the girl, who I believe, but like, I wasn't there). Evidently he tried to finger her in her sleep, she took that as pretty much rape cause I mean yeah, and she's been hella PTSD ever since.

Like honestly I had thought about tryna get this chick to suck my dick before I had heard about all this shit, but I set it aside, fresher, non "homie hopper" chicks to be had. But she hit me up all suicidal and shit and so I went to her to get her to not kill herself. Without me really asking, she sorta just like puts my hand on her vagina has me finger her and later sucks my dick. I confront the old former friend about his creepy shit, he gets mad I'm siding with her over him, he don't wanna talk to me no more. Damn shame, he had good connections.

Anyway 2 months have gone by since all that shit and I've just been like dating this chick but she don't want me seein other women and she don't really wanna fuck or suck my dick often cause she's kinda PTSD cause this dude who was basically my trimmer had harrassed her so much. Like IDK at first I felt like it was my responsibility to show this chick a good time with all the money I made of her psycho trimmer ex boyfriend, but now I ran out of his money to spend and I just don't know what to do about this girl.

Like I feel petty as hell, but I didn't wake up one day thinking "hey, I wanna be in a committed, no sex relationship". I get the world has bigger things in play than me getting my rocks off but she don't even like if I vanish off in the bathroom taking long showers and shit, cause her ex was a chronic masturbator and it reminds her of him.

So we've parted ways for a while, she was like living off my hustle at my farm cause she's got no job. The first thing I had to do was bust a nut, just like, so I'll be able to go t…
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Jarvis Fullytore - Mon, 08 May 2017 23:08:52 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516092 Ignore Report Quick Reply
listen up little nigga and listen good
you see she got issues aight ya feel me??
that's ok nothin you can do so dont worry bout it
but you are two people and peeps got needs little nigga.
say it with me again one more time james brown style
so ok ok ok hold up ayoo
youre wit dis chick but you dont want it
and youre like oooooo 420chan help me wat do i doooooo
nigga take a coldshower cause this ones gonna hurt
Jarvis Fullytore - Mon, 08 May 2017 23:39:52 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516093 Ignore Report Quick Reply
also you must enter the bear as much as you are able to without emotionally involving her
Frederick Fuckingway - Tue, 09 May 2017 14:12:43 EST ID:oCaB9mbm No.516101 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That person is not ready or able to be in a relationship, she needs a friend, a boyfriend is the last thing she needs and the fact she doesn't realize that is even more a sign that she is messed up.

So you have three choices

  1. Figure out a way to do some kind of astral projection which allows the two of you to fuck without actually touching each other
2.. Learn to be her friend and not have any romantic or sexual feelings towards her whatever
3. Move on and dig someone else

JK, you only have one option

>> move on and dig someone else

Too Many Questions And I Cant Think And No One Wants To Give Me Answers by Alice Mocklestack - Sun, 07 May 2017 17:53:29 EST ID:6cV3Umjs No.516056 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Have you ever smoked so much dope that now you feel like everyone is laughing and you can't remember if they told a joke or if maybe they asked you a question and you didn't know what was going on and looked confused and now they are all laughing about it and you cant leave the room because it would be awkward? Im stuck in a room right now and I can't tell if everyone is high or if I am the highest person and everyone decided to laugh at the same time and I keep looking around the room and no one is telling me what just happened. I can look at this girl because she is pretty hot but I looked at her for too long and now she looks angry at me and I cant tell if she is laughing or if she wants me to ask her a question because I was staring at her with the same look for a long time. Yes I think she is cool because she talked earlier and she said her favorite show was Dexter and I think my favorite show is dexter too. So I know we can be good friends and probably date her for a long time but I wish she would stop laughing so I could ask her questions and try to get food with her because Im getting hungry too. I think the door is locked because someones mom was banging on the door yelling about move our car out of the driveway but everyone laughed at the same time and ignored it. So please help because I cant feel comfortable in this room and it smells too much in here to stand in it any more unless I take a nap but then that girl might leave and eat food without me.
Charlotte Turveygold - Sun, 07 May 2017 18:39:59 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516058 Ignore Report Quick Reply
whoa, just talk to your friends, they will help you! you dun smoked too much my friend
Ian Nengermadge - Mon, 08 May 2017 18:35:25 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516087 Ignore Report Quick Reply
it sounds like you need a bear to enter, friend
entering bears is a good thing
many things are clear once the bear has been entered repeatedly with a sneeze of dick milcc at the end
like that bob marley song
people don't know that seeing clearly after the rain is gone was actually about the post-bearentering clarity that bear entering provides
it is in our very dna
to enter bears is as yahweh intended

I have no earthly business feeling this lonely and depressed by John Girringwill - Fri, 05 May 2017 07:04:38 EST ID:lH41fUJ+ No.516008 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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25 years old, white male, zero marketable skills or education, living in California earning meager income of 1400 a month well below poverty level for my area. Living in shitty trailer with my beautiful girlfriend with two awesome dogs. I have a great group of friends who help me and care for me more than I could expect anyone to. No drugs or drink for the most part, smoke a whole lot of dank reefer.

I feel totally isolated despite regularly hanging out with friends and seeing my girlfriend every day. Some days I feel so miserable I don't get out of bed. I drive Uber because I haven't been able to maintain a decent job long enough to earn a reasonably healthy income. So I get paid 20-25/hr to drive around highly privileged mostly belligerently drunk college students for about 4-5 hours a pop through the weekend.They ooze confidence and direction, as if their entire life is a chartered cruise ship. Totally carefree and happy, at least ostensibly 90% of them fit this description. I fully envy them.

I could never manage to afford living expenses and school simultaneously. So here I am at an age where most of my peers have graduated college and started on their careers. My every day is uncertainty. I don't make enough money to even rent an apartment, even if I did the landlord class in my area have colluded to make sure nobody with a big dog can find a home. So I am stuck in this shitty trailer with shitty options, mostly coerced into continuing despite the lugubrious mindstate I find myself in by threat of true homelessness and destitution.

So I've got quite a bit of baggage dragging me down, I hate to call my dogs baggage they are more like my babies. But in a very real sense they prevent me from moving forward. I was born into a poor family who don't have the means to offer a support net and I have entered adulthood as ungracefully as you might expect of someone with not a single dollar in backing. I guess I am happier than I was a few years ago, marginally happier. But I need something to work toward, I need a goal that I can at least hope to elevate my life into something reasonable, something worth waking up to and jumping into 5th gear for. I am so tired of the anxiety and the …
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Nell Dindlefot - Sun, 07 May 2017 06:34:33 EST ID:woG0eFIY No.516046 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I appreciate your responses guys. I don't think it will help much, I already play guitar and have a rich hobby life growing various plants and Cannabis. I'll probably kms someday if I don't find a way to etch out a middle class existence, living in the US there is no recourse for me unless I get the right money. I'm in one of the most expensive locations on the planet in terms of living expenses, living poor the rest of my life is not an option for me. I would rather die of a self inflicted gunshot wound than to die slow from colon cancer after a life of eating processed poor people food. I am probably going to break up with my girl, she deserves someone with resources and privilege. She is beautiful and could easily find a comfortable existence with someone else, she constantly has superior males trying to woo her anyways, superior in terms of their position in life at least.
Charlotte Habberdock - Sun, 07 May 2017 18:14:55 EST ID:C2LZTezo No.516057 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Maybe be an organic farmer? Also stop listing to people telling you need money to be happy, they are just trying to sell you something. All you need is plants, dogs, and a partner. Go position yourself to have more plants and more dogs, not the other way around.

I'll help get you started: https://www.google.com/search?q=how+t+be+an+organix+farmwe&oq=how+t+be+an+organix+farmwe&aqs=chrome..69i57j0l2.5447j0j7&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#q=how+to+be+an+organic+farmer
Clara Sicklechurk - Mon, 08 May 2017 02:36:30 EST ID:zPu+Cn1i No.516067 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>516057 is onto it, OP. I think you would benefit from pulling your head out of the space you're in. To speak of either killing yourself or dying from impoverished living shows that you're not seeing the bigger picture. Look at the things that are good in your life and that give you drive. They can be focused on more. What is your cannabis use like? Do you feel getting high can hinder you at times?

I don't know what your relationship is like now but your girl is most likely with you because she loves you. Those 'superior' types have nothing on your love and respect for her. A good woman expects this before any sort of financial security. If you want to feel worthy, show her your love with genuine written notes, listening and asking questions about her life.

Have faith in yourself, make a goal/s, such as:
>Better employment
>Research for a healthier (and affordable) diet

Whatever you aim for, remember that even the attempt is 'grist to the mill' and give yourself some credit for trying. It might not seem like much but just posting a thread here can be seen as motivation for change.
Emma Bebberputch - Mon, 08 May 2017 16:40:10 EST ID:4AJfsGdA No.516078 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah the people who don't see how pointless and meaningless life is are just too busy being distracted by... Life. There is no point to this. Sure seems a little less of a chore when you make a lot of money and get to do pretty much whatever you feel like whenever, but it's still pointless.

Have you looked in to Buddhism? Just kidding. You'll make it in the end. We all do.
Nigel Gushstet - Mon, 08 May 2017 18:20:37 EST ID:LwsZRsYx No.516084 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Life is objectively pointless but that means if we say life's purpose is whatever the fuck we're doing there's no objective wrongness either. If there is no right then wrong is irrelevant too.

I'd love to help OP but even the original post made it clear, his posting here was pointless. He just wants someone to affirm him because he's just feeling a bit of self doubt about giving up.

Stupor by William Fubberforth - Wed, 03 May 2017 20:12:28 EST ID:W3jQSvM2 No.515961 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't post a lot here but here it goes
What do people live for? I personally don't know because I'm about to lose my home and I've got nowhere to take refuge for a while. This isn't the only thing, I have a problem with alcohol but it's not a huge problem (I know what you're about to say about that but still), I'm a high school drop out but I'm attending night school (I don't know how you guys over the pond call it but I'm European) so I could finally graduate and get a proper job. Today I contacted my best friend but tldr it turns out he isn't really the best friend, contacted my former crush I haven't heard of, told me she has been thinking about me the most of all people she knew in HS but the next thing she asked me was to buy us a drink because she's right now penniless even though she has a job or otherwise we can't meet, had to broke in my own house just because I lost my fucking keys, lost my driving license because of DUI and that shit costs a really lot over here and curfew cops stopped me because I look suspicious. All that happened this night except for the driving license thing, it might seem like I'm overreacting and acting irrational and childish but there have been a lot of factors during my life making me just stop everything and no one will ever notice and care I'm gone, I feel like I'm reaching boiling point. I've came to realisation that everyone just cares about no one but themselves, it's just the way it is, eat or be eaten.
I've read A LOT about people trying to do it and changing their mind, the world is your oyster, yadda yadda, I just don't buy it. The world ain't no oyster, there's nothing to discover except people won't try to help you because you're unlike them. Someone told me I'm going to meet someone like me and I should just stop having such thoughts but I'm tired of being stuck in this stupor aimlessly wandering around. I just don't know what to do and I'm dangerously close to the edge, I feel so ashamed of being myself.
I'm ranting here. Maybe someone can understand the way I feel, maybe not. I don't know, maybe I'm being a drama queen but I …
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Albert Sullertodging - Sat, 06 May 2017 01:16:36 EST ID:W1UqMAnl No.516025 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Jenny Smallway - Sat, 06 May 2017 01:59:38 EST ID:FwheuJ8x No.516026 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's also pay to play, pay to win, imbalanced, the devs don't listen to player feedback, and the DLC is horse armor.
Henry Hockleforth - Sat, 06 May 2017 16:53:26 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.516037 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Where can I buy the horse armor?
Shitting Lightwater - Sat, 06 May 2017 23:32:43 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.516040 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You're not even important enough to buy the horse armour.
Betsy Goshlatch - Sun, 07 May 2017 11:53:58 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.516053 Ignore Report Quick Reply

What if we're all the NPCs and, like, Donald Trump is the gamer. Like Roy or something.

Losing interest in someone because of her friends by Thomas Bluttingsutch - Tue, 02 May 2017 20:24:19 EST ID:YiYF7NX3 No.515944 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So the story is basically this, i was going to a restaurant with some friends after College, a friend of a friend saw i was going, and called a friend of him,a girl who always was staring at me when she saw me.
She went and tried talking mostly to me, we started talking on Facebook and stuff.
We can keep a good talk, she wanted me to play Fire Emblem for the 3DS, so she was talking to someone i didn't see who it was at first, but when i went near i realized it was my ex girlfriend, i knew she had friends who i didn't like but not her, my ex was probably the worst person in my life, and i still feel realmente angry about some stuff she did, thing is i played it cool at the time but now thinking, i can't stop feeling disgust for the girl, even through she doesn't have nothing to do with it, i just feel like i lost all interest in her, and i know this is imature but i cant shake it off.
I feel like returning the game and never talking to her again, but i don'tudo know if i should do this.
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Phineas Migglenark - Fri, 05 May 2017 12:53:03 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516021 Ignore Report Quick Reply
you are clinging to the things your ex did to you and now, because you can't let that go and forgive her even though it is behind you, you're gonna send off the next person because of this? seems kind of childish, but you're drinking so i'm not going to keep guessing on your mental state..
next she shows interest but is clearly shy, which can easily be worked out if you talk a few more times, but because of that you're gonne let go? not saying you need to run after her but you seem really immature and just want the positive side of a relationship.
you will not find a perfect match with a nice and perfect relationship, there is always something to work out. if not, you are probably in a shallow relationship or really, really lucky. anyway, relationships exist to make children or grow(read: work on your personality because you get challenged daily) together with someone you like.
now step up, look into your heart and if you want to be with her do it, if not stop wasting her time.
Phineas Migglenark - Fri, 05 May 2017 12:56:37 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516022 Ignore Report Quick Reply
well, i realize that my idea of a relationship might not be the same for everyone but still: looking for someone without trouble gets you shallow and inevitably more troublesome relationships I think.
Albert Sullertodging - Fri, 05 May 2017 22:51:33 EST ID:W1UqMAnl No.516024 Ignore Report Quick Reply

avoid that shitshow man. I say ghost her or jut say you aren't interested
Archie Blatherfoot - Sat, 06 May 2017 08:52:14 EST ID:gXEOxC68 No.516030 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Samuel Broddlesog - Sat, 06 May 2017 09:46:07 EST ID:Gtrn9hV4 No.516032 Ignore Report Quick Reply
just be honest man, its always worked for me. just straight up tell her there's no way you could get closer to her as long as she is still friends with your ex and that circle. if asking her to leave that circle is unreasonable, like that's her main circle or her only friends, then simply move on. obviously if your stories are true you have the green light to fuck but i would advise laying this on the table first. i think part of becoming a mature adult man is having restraint and sometimes not fucking a girl if you know it will have bad consequences

FUck life by Henry Curringstock - Thu, 04 May 2017 21:48:20 EST ID:I2FTZEKQ No.516002 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've never been this committed to abandoning all my friends, family and acquaintances before. Once I get a new job that can support my bills I'm going to try to vanish. Basically all but commit suicide. The only problem is that people know where I live but hopefully I can sell this house and move out of state in a couple years.

It's been a little longer than a month since i've talked to any of my friends, I speak with my family as little as possible and my relationship with my girlfriend sucks.

None of it's worth the trouble.

Recently deleted all my social media and online profiles in the hopes that people will just forget me.
Ian Fidgetet - Fri, 05 May 2017 05:38:36 EST ID:PVqP3Gt/ No.516007 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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hey, why are you wanting to disappear? I'll read whatever you write and reply. I've felt the same way before but my job situation doesn't really allow for that sort of dramatic shift.
Henry Curringstock - Fri, 05 May 2017 07:53:31 EST ID:I2FTZEKQ No.516011 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm a drain and a burden on all that are around me.

Can't hold down a job, always have to end up relying on others for shit. Can't be happy; constant downer to loved ones, can never explain myself or convey anything deeper than base observations without getting frustrated and embarrassed. Stopped even trying to open up about anything. I've lost all rapport with my family and friends over the past 5 or 6 years because of constant life altering bullshit every year. I feel beyond drained and i can't find a foothold in life without stumbling face first into the next easily avoidable bullshit. I'm an emotional dead weight to my girlfriend not to mention being a frequent financial burden. I'm a joke, liability and embarrassment to every generation of friend group i've ever had. Can't have fun with anything anymore without sharp guilt about my wasted pathetic life that everyone that knows me is aware of. Not talented enough in anything that interests me to do anything and even if I was I don't have the confidence or brain power to complete it. Constantly shifting the blame all the while ultimately blaming myself for everything that's ever gone wrong in my life. Consistent and reliable failure on all things important, life changing or helpful.
I'm like a walking miasma of shame and disgust that people secretly get high off of when they discuss my existence in private, gloating over my inability to be a normal human being. All i'm good for is a life lesson and a low water mark. I have nothing to contribute and no framework to even try. Disappearing is easier than suicide on everyone around me. I don't have enough money to pay for a funeral and that would be the ultimate fucking insult in the world to make people pay for one because i'm too much of an idiot to manage my shit.
Esther Bocklesot - Fri, 05 May 2017 08:25:14 EST ID:WQQAASfX No.516012 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Are you me? That's exactly what I've been doing for the past 3 years.
Everything changed after I lost my mom though, now I've been trying to get back in the fold with everyone but to be honest it's been depressing me even more to talk to people again. So I'm in a very big conflict within myself on what to do from here.
Emma Padgewill - Sat, 06 May 2017 02:33:55 EST ID:PVqP3Gt/ No.516027 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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have you tried not giving a shit?

like, what makes you happy? even the littlest thing? what if you just did that all the time?

a lot of people these days struggle with existence because there's no real challenge, and they can't really find happiness.

I dunno, I guess sometimes you have to really not give a shit and just do what you think is right.

do you believe in morality?

have you asked one of your friends to tell you why they appreciate you?

why does your GF stick around? and don't just say because she has no other options, there's probably some part of her that really likes some part of you. ask her what that part is.
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Matilda Blendlepare - Sun, 07 May 2017 05:23:15 EST ID:I2FTZEKQ No.516044 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Thanks for the reply, man.

I read your post, i just don't know how to respond fully right now.

I guess i'm taking my relationships for granted if i'm so willing to throw them all away. but validation or confirmation from others can only get me so far if i'm still the same slug as I was before. I dunno, I feel less awful today but i still agree with everything I said when I was whining about everything. Even if everyone is fine with me being a joke and a burden i'm still the busted clown smearing grease paint all over the place.

I guess i'm just going to try to hold it all together for a while longer and hopefully things will start getting better.

Apprenticeship by Cyril Sissleham - Thu, 04 May 2017 09:41:10 EST ID:vKvaev27 No.515979 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I started an apprenticeship as a machinist a little over a month ago. I work 3rd shift and make $14.50 an hour.

They started me out on the surface grinder...Okay. This is extremely fucking dangerous. Like, theres a giant wheel and im grinding shit thats being held on a 25 lb vise. If I go to low, that vise goes flying. If that vise hits me, i'm dead.

So far I've: Blew up 2 surface grinder wheels ($400 each), did about $5000 worth of damage to a machine, and sent some shit flying that broke the guard off a different machine. I've gotten bitched at by my boss numerous times. He's threatened to fire me if I break anymore shit.

I'm not as worried about getting fired as I am of getting seriously injured or dying. Every day the dude training me says shit like "That surface grinder will rip your hand off just you watch" and " These machines are no joke theyre unforgiving and they'll fuck you up"

"You'll lose an eye easily. I've seen it happen."
"I saw a guy get killed by one of these machines once. He was pronounced dead in the ambulance but thats not true. The second the thing hit him his eyes rolled in back of his head. I had to scoop his brains up off the floor"

Shit like this.

Obviously im scared fucking shitless. I'm debating looking for a new job and have already started a bit, I got an interview for tomorrow as a carpenter apprentice. But I feel like these people are just going to get completely angry that I quit after fucking up a bunch of their shit, and im afraid that everyone I know is going to look down on me.

What should I do?
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Phineas Fanninghune - Thu, 04 May 2017 11:37:51 EST ID:C9GUdLvq No.515982 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Quit. Make other decisions after the fact. 15 an hour isn't worth it. If you got comfortable it's even more dangerous and now you have no peace of mind, lose lose. Get out of there before something happens to your health. Good luck.
Basil Chunningshaw - Thu, 04 May 2017 11:53:19 EST ID:RWMYdvNQ No.515983 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>going to get completely angry that I quit after fucking up a bunch of their shit
OP you need to make decisions for yourself, they're a company and they can get over it.
>"You'll lose an eye easily. I've seen it happen."
>"I saw a guy get killed by one of these machines once

I'm sure they keep reminding you of this cause if they didn't you might be a bit too relaxed using obviously dangerous equipment.
Phyllis Tillingdale - Thu, 04 May 2017 13:14:21 EST ID:UrDCyu5q No.515986 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If you hate it, find a new job while you look.

Maybe they also have pretty robust health and safety and are just trying to keep you on your feet, maybe they don't. Maybe they're testing your nerve because you keep breaking shit.

Though that said the damage you did to the machine is meaningless. If that machine turns $500 of raw materials and $500 of labour, overheads and shit into $2500 every day then it's probably acceptable wear and tear.

I mean it probably isn't. But it could be.
Caroline Bingerhood - Thu, 04 May 2017 14:03:35 EST ID:VkYjj6a7 No.515988 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fuck them, your life is worth more than their profit

at the very least, to you, your life is worth more than their profits
Cyril Sissleham - Thu, 04 May 2017 18:40:57 EST ID:vKvaev27 No.516000 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I can't just up and quit, im on probation and need to be employed, i also have many bills and responsibilities

Drug for anger control by Peter Parker - Wed, 03 May 2017 21:01:42 EST ID:LxOKRzSL No.515965 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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First of all: weed is out of question.
Second: If you think this belongs to another board please point that out.

Hi, fellas

Some background:

I have some anger issues mostly related to past issues (bad relationships, bad relatives, awful education, lack of money, etc).

  • I went to therapy and that helped me a lot but sadly I don't have the money nor the time to go to session.

  • I can't vent my anger nor forget it because I can't count on my friends. I talk to them via chat about silly, nonsense and serious things hoping they can reciprocate with anything (Facebook, Whatsapp) to only get short answers and most of the time I think they're spacing out or looking some slut FB profile... and of course tried to arrange a meeting in my house, in their place or somewhere but they won't budge. So I stopped, and said: Fuck it. (I have 26, they have the same age also)

  • I do exercise (running). I write fiction (I take classes). I don't smoke anything also no booze, wine, vodka or whatever.
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Alice Harrylore - Thu, 04 May 2017 01:12:32 EST ID:NUH8HlTU No.515969 Ignore Report Quick Reply
A martial art
Reuben Blythewill - Thu, 04 May 2017 01:54:59 EST ID:vPXIYoJk No.515970 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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This may sound like hippie bullshit, but meditation definitely helped me, im definitely not "stable" and mentally healthy, but i definitely say um much better now.
Also helped me quitting cigs and abusing drugs.
Edward Pecklestock - Thu, 04 May 2017 14:22:03 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.515991 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Drugs are going to exacerbate the problem for the most part. When I was a teenager and able to smoke weed, I found it fixed the issue. It's about the only option, drug wise, that I would actually consider a viable option.

Personally I got stuck self-medicating with and getting pretty mentally addicted to dissociatives in part for this very pursuit. I've had anger issues since I was a child (would beat up friends at times when I was very young until my dad taught me some discipline lest he fuck my shit up for acting like an out of control little cunt). Up until recently I wasn't able to find a way to effectively manage them outside of drug use.

So, I found with dissociatives, for up to a day or two after taking one, any depression, discontentment, and my anger issues would be gone. What was even better was that after I had a concussion and some emotional turmoil that followed that for a few years, I found that I had lost connection with my emotions and they became very hollow caricatures of what they used to be. While still high on a dissociative, I felt emotions again like I used to, which in turn make me feel like a human being again.

What I wound up learning over time though is that my usage was contributing to my anger issues in the long run. Not only did I lose my old coping mechanisms that I had before using the drug as a response to everything, but they were having much more of a negative effect on my mood after those 2 or 3 days that followed a trip. Until I had taken a break for well over 5 months, I hadn't been able to realize that they were having a long term effect of rebound depression and fits of aggression and anger.

It's for this reason I don't find drug usage (other than maybe marijuana) a viable method of controlling your anger at all. It's actively detrimental to that pursuit.

man wtf should I reach out or not? by Eugene Fuvingtork - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 03:06:06 EST ID:Jx+MZZuh No.515802 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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It's almost be a year since my ex and I broke up. We didn't break up on good terms at all really. We have talked since then but only about a mutual friend that had passed away. I found out she had been lying about some things from the friend and it has left a sore taste in my mouth. The worst part of it all has been my inability to move on and heal from the emotional pain she left me in but here I am wanting to reach out to her.

She isn't a bad person to say, just a single mom with her own, selfish albeit reasonable, motivated goals. We got along really well, it felt as if we were gonna last for awhile. Stupid shit kept happening. People in our lives that didn't want us to be together. Her baby daddy hates me. Her dad hates me because I'm black. My brother was jealous And had a hand in running her off.

I don't know but this girl was something special. She was one of those girls I could just talk to for hours and there's not many girls I even want to be around for that long. We'd get high, fuck, listen to music, go on nature walks and do it all over again. It's just not the same. I try to get other girls to do those thibgs and they flake or they don't smoke weed.

as I type this pitiful paragraph I'm sure she has moved on to different dicks. one of her main reasons her baby daddy and her had split was because she wanted to sleep around. Her and I got into an argument over something my brother did. He started telling and story I wasn't interested in talking about at the time. I interrupted him and she just snapped on me and told me I teat people badly. The story he was telling was personal and he just goes "let me tell it!!!" and that's when I started to get buggered off by the whole thing and probably was an asshole. The fact she took up for him after that really annoyed me ever when I explained to her this is something he was doing on purpose.

Our first date together he was there my ex gf just so happened to walk in and I started laughing. The girl didn't know what I was laughing about and I wasn't going to tell her that my ex gf was in thete. My brother started to and I quickly stopped him. See what I m…
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Caroline Gidgeforth - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 06:54:15 EST ID:9vn86lM+ No.515805 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Sounds like you need closure OP, theres no harm in talking to her, just dont expect anything, but it will give you closure none the less, just make sure you talk in absolutes and dont beat around the bush, you either want to be in or out, no more skirting around stalking her on fbook etc or whatever you're doing.
Eugene Fuvingtork - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 09:53:16 EST ID:Jx+MZZuh No.515808 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have been stalking her but to be fair she has probably been stalking me too. She actually saw a status I had posted about her and blocked me then she unblocked me around valentine's day. I'm still unblocked. I don't know I want to talk to her but I'm not sure how to go about it. she will probably reject me again and I'll just end up wishing I never tried to contact her.
Eugene Mizzlehire - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 12:43:57 EST ID:lzwSTMPh No.515815 Ignore Report Quick Reply
My experience is that closure comes from within.
Jack Fashham - Thu, 04 May 2017 02:47:36 EST ID:p489bJ/X No.515971 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Did u reach out op report back and tell us how it goes lmao
Jenny Croffingbadge - Thu, 04 May 2017 02:47:45 EST ID:zgZoXdVb No.515972 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Did u reach out op report back and tell us how it goes lmao

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