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I feel like I'm really boring by Esther Willystock - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 13:05:06 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.521278 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Idk people just don't seem to really enjoy talking to me RIP.
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Ebenezer Fanman - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 23:02:07 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.521296 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've got a lot of friends and we enjoy chilling with eachother, but I find when I'm talking with someone I could be entertaining them more.

I think this dude hits it best. I don't feel like I talk about the most interesting things and I feel like my delivery is flat
Samuel Heshway - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 03:43:23 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521301 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Well, this is the problem...

Do you want lots of friends? Or... do you want to be entertaining?

Nell Bleckleshit - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 12:01:16 EST ID:7IGW3+Ip No.521308 Ignore Report Quick Reply
most people are utter fail at active listening and while you are talking they are anxiously awaiting their turn to spew words. 80% of the time it is the fault of others for not having the courtesy to hear and contemplate your words.
Awe - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 13:00:15 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.521310 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fuck courtesy, it's curiosity that makes the difference.
Eliza Dripperlock - Thu, 11 Jan 2018 14:19:34 EST ID:7IGW3+Ip No.521382 Ignore Report Quick Reply

you are right. the curiosity of what the other person has to say.

Vent by Nicholas Dobblefudge - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 21:54:43 EST ID:ZNhfmEVc No.521172 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>start an NSA situation with a girl early 2017
>we eventually start seeing each other more, fucking frequently
>couple of months ago tells me that I'm growing on her & that she has feelings for me
>I tell her how I feel and that I enjoy seeing her
>tells me that she's seeing other guys but would soon like to become exclusive
>can feel my feelings for her getting stronger for her every time I see her, going from seeing her once a week to staying there 3 or 4 nights a week
>tells me that she wants to build a life with me & that I'm exactly what she looks for
Fast forward to NYE party that we attended
>drinking with some old friends that are mutual friends between us
>"Hey, come inside, I need to talk to you"
>so, i've been thinking about it and I don't want a relationship. I didn't mean any of the things I said to you, I was in the moment and didn't want to upset you
>I look at her blankly and say 'I don't think you have any idea how much you have just hurt me'
>Continuously asks me why I'm not talking to her for the rest of the night
>Say nothing, and give a blank face whenever she speaks to me
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Eliza Beddledock - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 12:18:17 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521274 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Fucking her could be nice, but I'd thank her instead for showing you in a visceral way that love should be self-sufficient. Such freedom and joy in unconditional love, such a sweet thing.
Doris Croffingpet - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 12:49:57 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521309 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't think trauma alone makes you schitzophrenic but it can contribute if you've got a predisposition. It's not the most common cause with bipolar but that does happen.

Anyway don't change your plans and stuff. But when rageing just consider that your brother and father are probably self medicating their own problems and handling them badly rather than just dicks for the sake of it I'm not sure if the perspective will change much but maybe it will grant you a little more patience to endure until you can get out for a shot and not being them. Good luck.
Thomas Sommlebury - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 02:30:30 EST ID:ZNhfmEVc No.521337 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here. Thanks for the kind words, everyone. I know what to do now - It wasn't easy but it's over.
Fucking Mobberdale - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 11:41:44 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.521348 Ignore Report Quick Reply
just curious, how old are you and her?
Walter Nicklefuck - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 12:57:34 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521351 Ignore Report Quick Reply
He definitely had mental issues and passed them to you and your brother. I'm not saying forgive him, just remember that he wasn't only an abusive asshole but a troubled man. Society failed you all. Remember that your decisions are what make you different, and choose wisely.

Good luck and I hope your life improves soon.

When you love a woman you love yourself by John Worthingville - Sun, 31 Dec 2017 22:50:19 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521032 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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There's part of you in every girl you love. That's why you love them. Because they resonate with your own personality.

So of course you miss people when they're gone, but that is only because they have taken a part of you. You need to regain that by growing that part again, you can do it alone or you can find a new girl to help you.

Oneitis is basically yourself asking for re-growth. Understand that and use every heart break as an opportunity to grow stronger.
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Edwin Sondlehall - Tue, 02 Jan 2018 10:43:34 EST ID:AOtWvoxi No.521083 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Cause you don't have the cool accent brah
James Pubblebury - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 10:32:38 EST ID:jK0eVQFY No.521126 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i dont agree. nobody defines you as a person. sure, some traits of hers might resonate with your personality, you may even feel that you are connected on a higher level or something like that, but when it is over, she does not take shit "away" from you. it stays. nobody defines you as a person. you are yours and ultimately nobody elses.
Clara Dazzlefore - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 13:39:50 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521131 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Eliza Smallwill - Fri, 05 Jan 2018 14:15:50 EST ID:GXxoT3hK No.521200 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Fr, op just being all creative & poetic & heartfelt n shit.
Polly Crammlesture - Tue, 09 Jan 2018 20:56:19 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521326 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Maybe I wasn't clear. In fact it is as you said, they don't "take" anything from you, but that is the impression you get. I just want to let's say share my little insight inspired on what little I know about emotions and missing people you loved.

For example, maybe you used to take long walks on the beach with a person you loved. Then you break up , or they leave, and you no longer enjoy walking on the beach. Why? You are still the same person, but somehow it feels like those things are no longer possible, you can't walk on the beach again with her, so you feel like you can't walk on the beach EVER AGAIN. But the beach still exists, you still like it, so why not just do it on your own?

I believe that we all have inside all the people that we have loved, and all the things that we miss from them. When you miss a loved one, you miss the activities or feelings that you were engaged on when they were present. It's like losing a friend who spoke a foreign language with you. You don't lose the ability to speak the language, but you feel like you can no longer speak it with anybody else. Even alone.

Until you find a new language partner and then you move on.

Ah fuck where to begin by John Blerringgold - Mon, 01 Jan 2018 03:36:50 EST ID:UGWKazs4 No.521035 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>Be ex Heroin user
>Friend calls over
>I go to bathroom, methadone makes it near impossible to shit
>I hear his phone ring off hook
>Call out his name
>No reply
>Go downstairs, he's fucking blue on my living room floor, he also had/has an addiction to H
>Call emts
>Run out and get my emergency dose of naloxone (an opiate antidote)
>He's going cold and grey
>Inject naloxone into his thigh
>Keep doing CPR while waiting on EMTs
>Finally save this guy's life, one minute late and he would have died
>EMTs treat me like shit because someone ODed there
>Treat overdose victim worse
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Martha Greenforth - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 15:11:29 EST ID:mxbc77jD No.521286 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Take solace in the fact that the lying hellbound will be eaten alive by eternal fire until the very end of time like all False Prophets.
James Bonningson - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 15:33:35 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521287 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Yeah, Yoohooshua, Yehawshua, Yo-Yo Ma... whatever.

James Bonningson - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 15:58:52 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521289 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Cedric Hublingfud - Wed, 10 Jan 2018 17:27:55 EST ID:LcucpSqc No.521358 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Continue laughing at your future damnation. You won't in the end.

God is the only judge.
Frederick Fommerlane - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 03:58:53 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.521405 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, even admitted here >>521399 that he never graduated so if the working in a hospital bit is true then it's as a janitor, orderly or in admin.
Oh and living in your mum's house at 28, top stuff.

Mental Issues by Sage - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 23:02:48 EST ID:n9Jnw/uX No.521233 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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ITT: Mental Issues, experiences, stories

>be me
>be 27 years old
>feel more paranoid than usual for a couple of weeks
>hear voices outside talking about how they would rape and kill me
>drink booze all night to keep calm
>listen to the voices and not moving an inch, scared to death thinking its all real
>stay like that till day break, call a friend to get some weed, canthandlethis.jpg
>be awake for four days straight
>smoke some pot to calm down
>anxiety rises, voices get louder, fuckthis.gif
>voices talk about a girl that cakefarted me, how they are going to pay her and my little brother a visit soon
> suddenly hear a chainsaw like noise, think its a threat and that they are coming soon
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Esther Fallerlock - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 09:20:29 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521243 Ignore Report Quick Reply
While this seems like a silly comment, hearing voices and shit being amplified by smoking pot is a sign it's making it worse. It's been a while since I've seen
>I used to hear voices when I smoked pot
>I kept smoking pot
>Now I hear them all the time
Posted here but it's a risk. If your symptoms are made worse by taking the drug don't. You should avoid most substances unfortunately. Shit sucks but it's better than going crazier faster. Drugs are fun but they're not the only sort of good thing in life and you shouldn't reduce your ability to enjoy the others (and increase your misery) just for drugs.
Wesley Shakeman - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 12:22:59 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.521245 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Man, I really hope this shit isn't starting to happen to me. The last time I smoked a lot with no tolerance I heard a voice saying "hello" over and over again coming from the direction of my neighbor's house. I don't understand why my neighbor would be standing on their porch saying hello over and over again. Maybe they just saw me blow the smoke out the window and were trying to get my attention or something. God I hope that's it, psychosis doesn't sound like fun.
Nigel Ninnerdit - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 15:57:00 EST ID:bZqVw0Q5 No.521248 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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We all hear voices...

What kind of voices are you hearing? Is it a positive voice, or a negative voice? If it's negative... maybe there's something you can change, so that you can feel better about yourself. Maybe you can be a positive voice for others struggling with similar problems. Drugs are fun... but family and friends are good too! Perhaps it's time to change... find a new voice to listen to, and to BE.
James Bonningson - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 02:29:16 EST ID:cG0vV5OZ No.521264 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>hear voices outside talking about how they would rape and kill me
>listen to the voices and not moving an inch, scared to death thinking its all real
>they are going to pay her and my little brother a visit soon
>hear a chainsaw like noise
>voices keep calling my name, telling me that I could pay in blood to get out of this
>get stiched up and sent to mental ward

Eliza Beddledock - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 12:39:53 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521277 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Well you have to know your drugs man. I've been in a tight spot once in my life where I would have very abstract existential anxiety doom feeling and weed would make it bearable, but everyone knows voices get louder on weed, what the duck were you thinking?

BTW voices are fine. At least it's lifelike and organic where as synths are just machines and if those start tormenting you - look out.

Dancemania in 2000´s by My Program in TV - Mon, 01 Jan 2018 09:05:08 EST ID:EGeDG0Fv No.521041 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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This show explains good skills of dancing in the lights of year.

Welcome to see and heard it:
James Blatherwell - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 16:05:49 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521249 Ignore Report Quick Reply
very good moves

Became a random dickhead while fucked up on NYE by Jack Broblingdale - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 07:05:32 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.521122 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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On NYE I went to a flat party that was exclusively for the homies and a few girlfriends of the homies. I drank a lot, did some coke, did some MDMA - so my memory does blip in and out after a certain time, maybe 4am.

I seemed to have a good, albeit wrecked time. The party went on till the next day and around 2pm I was pulled aside by 2 of my friends to be disciplined under the guise of going outside for a smoke. I was making very cunty, backhanded remarks and being very obviously rude to 2 people at the party. 1 of them was a guy I know well but don't talk to much outside of parties, the other a girlfriend of a friend of mine. The comments I was making had cunt like qualities at best - very aimed, specific and obviously rude/hostile. It was clear I had singled these people out at some point during the party and began being a dick.

At this point I'm shocked and the confrontation sobers me up, apologizing but unable to remember doing it or be able to justify why I was doing it. I was really drunk and full of drugs at the time too, so giving a coherent answer wasn't really happening either. I'd pretty much blanked the entire thing and couldn't shine any light on my motivation.

The reaction to my apology wasn't going down well, which I can understand. Guy acts like dick, gets called on it, says sorry but won't say why he did it or what it's about. The people I insulted and the nature of the comments was equally disorientating for me - they definitely had not done anything to warrant it, whatsoever. Which means at some point during the night, I just started to switch on them.

The girlfriend was kind about it and accepted I fucked up. The other guy was very angry, we had a bit of a back and forth where he didn't really wanna hear anything I had to offer up. I spent the next 3 hours there saying not very much and just kinda lost in my head. Wondering what the fuck I did and why I did.

Ultimately, this is the first time I've done something of this nature while drunk. Usually I'm worried about oversharing or getting depressed while out partying. But being a dick to my friends and their girlfriends, unprovoked? That's fresh territory and not a great marker …
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Rebecca Porrystone - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 07:09:12 EST ID:USUZpST+ No.521123 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'd take that as a sign to ease up on the drugs and drink.
Apologise to the guy (in person) too, tell him what you just told us.
Clara Sirrytet - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 19:58:24 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.521169 Ignore Report Quick Reply
less coke and booze and more MDMA.
Betsy Nollytud - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 20:52:02 EST ID:f4vEq2nO No.521231 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I hate people who get offended because some drunkard is spouting bs so god damned much
almost as much as people who pull you aside at a party to give you shit because you're throwing around some bantz
I would have bailed literally the instant they started lecturing me
fucking cunts
Emma Crungernan - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 10:41:10 EST ID:v8HcdOFS No.521244 Ignore Report Quick Reply

This might come as a shocker to you, but people who act like assholes are called assholes precisely because the overwhelming majority of people don't like it when you act like an asshole, especially if it's unprovoked and regardless of whether you're drunk or not. This is living-in-literally-any-society 101.

I once brought a friend to a party, and for some reason he started making me the butt of his jokes constantly (even though he knew nobody there and I knew everybody) - I got kind of pissed off, and everyone else seemed weirded out. Needless to say, he didn't exactly give off a good impression based on the feedback I got from the others the day after. Yeah he was drunk on liquor, but people are still going to remember him as that drunk asshole at that party that time, you know?

As for OP, you behaved like a dick but you do recognize that it was dickish behaviour, so I'd say you're fine. Maybe apologize to the guy sober, just to try to clean the slate. I've done something similar at a party once and while I know that I'd never do something like that sober, I also realize that some of them will always remember me as that asshole, which is natural. It's the price we pay for acting like assholes.

I don't sweat it anymore, and instead focus on it never happening again. And for 5 years and counting, it still hasn't.
Esther Fallerlock - Sun, 07 Jan 2018 12:37:15 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521246 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, everyone fucks up when they're drunk. if you're not new, if it's not your first impression with everyone there or you didn't completely blow it most sensible people will give you a chance. They'll pull you up on it and forgive you provided you take it on board and don't resume repeating it. Everyone else is out to have fun and if you ruin that you don't get a free pass to ruin several nights because "you're throwing around bantz". If you're so drunk you don't remember it you were out of control. I briefly had a friend who would get blackout drunk easily but functioned extremely well. After a few weeks it became apparent that this was the case. She couldn't remember any of our conversations because she was an alcoholic and couldn't do social sober. So I stopped bothering. It just felt so pointless making an effort. Being blackout drunk is dumb.

Some people act like that all the time. Fuck them. They can fuck off. If someone you know for a while overdoes it and upsets people then yes, pull them up on it. If OP delivers an apology and makes good on it then he should be fine if his friends are worth having. He just needs to tell them what he told us, he doesn't know what he did but he's sorry and doesn't understand why he'd pick on them. They'll probably appreciate hearing that he doesn't secretly harbour anything. Then he needs to not do so many drugs in one go and stay in control.

girl problem by Angus Fanson - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 03:09:33 EST ID:45sWs9FC No.521214 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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hi /qq/
A few days ago I got on tinder (for the first time in years) and matched some girls. One of them was really cute and we start chatting. She sent some pics and we're set to hookup on Tuesday. I don't really care though. It feels like the fun part is over.

I have the same problem with another girl I met recently. We hit it off, I put the idea in her head to abandon plans with some guy shes known for years, she sent nudes, and now I don't care.

This is really starting to bother me. I love the chase so much but as soon as it's over, I get bored. I mean I literally stop feeling all the enthusiasm and fun the moment I've sealed the deal.

This has fucked up my ability to keep girls I actually care about. I've let some great women slip past me over the years because I do this. I legitimately get angry at these girls sometimes when they continue reaching out to me. I try to apologize later, but the damage is done most of the time.

I can't stay monogamous and I get uncomfortable with intimacy. Kissing, cuddling, sex, ect. just disengage me so much.

I want a real relationship and a family and all that. I really do. But despite all my efforts, I always fall back to my old habits of gaming girls. I recently went a few months without doing this because I was determined to make things work with this lovely asian girl I met, but it was absolutely miserable after the first few weeks. So now I've betrayed her, pulled a different girl out of a potential relationship with a decent guy, and now I'm hooking up with another girl. Shit I've already hit up some other girls on tinder. I don't know why. It feels involuntary - like I occasionally catch myself in the act and have to steer my brain back on track.

I don't even feel guilty about any of this. The asian girls grandmother died recently and I tried so hard to console her and be there for her, but I've pretty much blown her off all day today and opted for the cute tinder girl.
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Charles Fudgewater - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 05:44:04 EST ID:SdNupqun No.521215 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I can relate to most everything you said. Obviously it sounds like sociopathy, but you seem to care about some things, also I'm not a mental health specialist.

Personally I have emotions, but they're very shallow and I can turn them off at will with ease. Thing is I used to be a pretty emotional kid, my mom left my pops for another man when I was like 6 and then psychologically abused me, I was bullied in school, etc. Without going into detail, to learn to cope with all of this I developed this I don't care attitude, which at first was fake, but now in my mid 20's it's definitely fully formed. Personally I found it to be liberating, because I don't take feelings from other people anymore and I feel like I'm being me.
As for women, I found that I love when they're very into me and I just leaved them, I guess it's some metaphorical revenge for my mother, whatever.
To be honest, I'm just rambling and I re-read your post and I see that your issues are quite different, you seem to genuinely not care, I don't see why you would bother with guilt and all of that, just be who you are, it's liberating. It's not like you're breaking laws or anything
Esther Lightfield - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 08:41:09 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.521219 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Things like manipulative behavior, being easily bored, an addictive personality, dislike of intimacy, pursuit of many sexual partners, deficient conscience, few friends of the same sex, and bursts of anger over nothing are all traits of cluster B personality disorders. You sound closest to the Amorous Narcissist defined by Theodore Million thusly:
>Sexually seductive, enticing, beguiling, tantalizing; glib and clever; disinclined to real intimacy; indulges hedonistic desires; bewitches and inveigles others; pathological lying and swindling. Tends to have many affairs, often with exotic partners.
They're poorly differentiated though, there's a lot of overlap between categories and few people fit into any one category perfectly.

There's no cure, so just keep being you I guess. It might be a good idea to let girls you're getting involved with know what kind of a person you are from the start though. If they know you're not going to commit to them and they still go ahead with it, that's on them. Most probably think that there's a chance for an actual relationship though and end up being crushed when you discard them like trash.
Angus Fanson - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 12:50:54 EST ID:45sWs9FC No.521223 Ignore Report Quick Reply
been reading about NPD all morning. Yeah. That's me.
God what a fucking hideous way to exist.

I've been thinking about my childhood and how it relates. Dad was distant and cold and only ever addressed me when he was angry at me. Mom overcompensated with love and praise and toys and all that.
My older sister was the successful straight A student with weird compelling interests and a unique personality. Used to look up to her a lot but she was always really nasty and mean spirited with me.

I can roughly see how these things might have caused some damage.

I should be seeing my doctor on Monday to get a consultation to see a psychiatrist. Kind of rambling here but I really want to get everything straight in my head before I see a specialist. I have a really bad habit of lying and steering conversations without even realizing it; maybe typing out my thoughts here will help mitigate that.

I think I feel some guilt over what I've done to these girls over the years. I feel really icky at least. I used to overcompensate for this by obsessing over politics and social justice issues, but I realized over a year ago that I didn't care as much as I pretended to. I just wanted people to think I was a good person.

I dunno. I've just had this sinister feeling for a while now. I have nightmares of being murdered, or my family members telling me they actually hate me. I feel completely fucking evil. I can't even remember a time when I genuinely connected with somebody. I'm always steering the conversations and keeping distance between myself and others. I have such hateful mean-spirited thoughts swirling in my head all the time.
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Martha Greenforth - Mon, 08 Jan 2018 15:55:06 EST ID:mxbc77jD No.521288 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>I can't stay monogamous and I get uncomfortable with intimacy. Kissing, cuddling, sex, ect. just disengage me so much.

You're just autistic. Quit e-diagnosing yourself with harder and edgier labels. It takes involuntary commitment or criminal trials to solidly diagnose PD.

People love to paraphraise Wikipedia on this but they ignore the fact that all PDs by the DSM must meet a series of standardized criteria in order to be considered at all - and that's before any discussion of *what* PD you have in specific.

The very fact you demonstrate enough concern about your behavior to come onto here and admit what you did was wrong and it distresses you is a very strong argument against any PD diagnosis. PDs almost never present themselves. They get forced into treatment by the judge's gavel. That's called lack of insight, and it is one of the core criteria behind most PD.

We all fuck up, do self-centered things, and not care about someone else's feelings from time to time. It is the very fact that we can recognize this behavior - and work to change it - that separates us from the severe PD.

Intrusive thoughts when masturbating. by Oliver Honkinhood - Fri, 29 Dec 2017 11:47:16 EST ID:Hh7HAsrV No.520927 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've had this problem that has gotten worse in recent months where I get intrusive images when masturbating. Like my grandparents or men I know. They don't turn me on they just ruin masturbating for me. I've tried everything, trying to ignore them, trying to block them out but nothing works. Now I don't look forward to masturbating because I know I'll be disturbed by these images. It's a bit like the game (I just lost it) when you try not to think about something it gets worse. Any advice on how to stop these thoughts?
Eliza Honeyhood - Fri, 29 Dec 2017 15:20:27 EST ID:YIFwAWat No.520935 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Any advice on how to stop these thoughts?

I got some advice from my ass. You gotta not stop them but replace them, in other words, just let them appear as a annoying visitor that has nothing to do with you.
Caroline Smallwill - Fri, 29 Dec 2017 20:14:05 EST ID:NMtb1y2m No.520943 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Best way to get rid of intrusive thoughts is to accept them. Just go "thanks mind" and go back to thinking about sexy shit and Jack to completion
Molly Blundlehood - Sat, 30 Dec 2017 09:20:03 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.520959 Ignore Report Quick Reply
stop resisting it, don't immediately jump to the conclusion that it ain't sexy, instead look for sexy in the particular hand you are dealt with at the moment and you will automatically shift your attention to the right focus.

godspeed op
Edwin Gipperfuck - Sun, 31 Dec 2017 05:36:12 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.521003 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Learn the fundamentals of meditation. You don't really have to meditate, but it trains you in a way that might help. The basic premise is to learn how to clear/silence your mind by practicing letting any thoughts that come up go as they pop up.

Trying not to think of something only accomplishes making you think about that thing. Passively observe that thoughts you don't want have come up and simply go back to silencing your mind by letting the thoughts pass like a fish swimming in a stream. The fish can stick around or it can continue downstream. Or perhaps a better way to conceptualize it is like water rolling off a duck's back.

Basically just realize your conscious thought patterns are like a stream and that there is a flow and rhythm to them. I don't know if you ever played in band or orchestra in highschool or anything, but like how it's better to never play a note than to play it too late or dwell on it because it interrupts the flow of the music you're playing in your mind or even out loud, the way you have to let that missed note go is the way you have to let your thoughts go.
Graham Crurringchut - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 07:21:32 EST ID:/nosVCly No.521218 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thanks! These all helped and I am having happy fap again!

Cuntbag at work by Beatrice Chevingled - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 15:48:31 EST ID:GqBWCvaL No.521135 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So there's a day shift and a night shift where I work. During the day, there is a woman who intentionally walks around and makes trouble for people, and apparently doesn't do her job very well. It's far from just me she picks on, but I've passively retaliated before so she takes extra special effort to fuck with me. She sends emails to my boss complaining about various aspects of my job - mind you, she isn't my boss, but she knows who to email to cause problems for me.

The boss directly above me laughs it off, he knows the score... But HIS boss is ridiculous and pretty much he hates the night shift and will always side with the day shift.

I'm getting real sick of this lady actively trying to get me fired. She always chooses something different to complain about, and this most recent time has chosen to straight up lie to get me a phone call.

I want to fucking ruin this ladies life without physically harming her, or circumventing the law. She doesn't work directly with the public, or I'd have my friends complain to her boss or something. I can't believe this person I have seen 2 or 3 times in my whole life is going out of her way to try to have me fired. I'm beyond disgusted.
Henry Gissleshit - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 18:35:19 EST ID:Wb85zBYx No.521141 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Why not have everyone else complain about the shit she does? Or bring it to your boss/hr that you feel harassed?
Doris Turveystock - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 01:35:46 EST ID:ncp/wImi No.521157 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Document everything you do. Take photos, get witnesses, write stuff down with dates. That way when you get dragged up for the next complaint you have evidence.
Ian Wazzlechudge - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 00:06:53 EST ID:GqBWCvaL No.521210 Ignore Report Quick Reply

It seems like although she is a pain in the ass to the daytime hour employees she isn't a determining factor in their job security, like she is for the night time employees.

My boss is well aware that I am feeling harassed, but unfortunately HIS boss is a new guy, and widely in favor of the daytime staff over the night time staff...we are pretty important TBH, as we have proven to be responsible and have passed all state required background scans. Our potential replacements are probably fuck ups who may not pass these scans.

Fortunately my boss' boss took a cruise around the building and observed that this lady is absolutely nuts. I'm hopeful he recognizes this as a cry wolf situation.

That said, I'd still like to low key ruin this bitches life, if anyone has some suggestions that won't simultaneously get me fired. I considered kidnapping her kids but thats impractical and I'm drunk af.
Charles Fudgewater - Sat, 06 Jan 2018 06:15:02 EST ID:SdNupqun No.521217 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You posted the same thing in /psy/

What the fuck?

How often do you think about the difference between being sober and being drug affected? by Barnaby Blossledock - Tue, 02 Jan 2018 23:36:31 EST ID:qOMObJz1 No.521115 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I think about it every time I do a drug, because I have anxiety and other disorders.

I'm always trying to level my mood out, so to speak. Figure out life etc.
George Hurringhood - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 23:58:40 EST ID:LHEQv9IX No.521180 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I do think about it. I wish I didn't. I just want to enjoy my high. Prolly just need to smoke with other people more often, so I have something to distract me from anxious thoughts.
Ernest Brarringbury - Fri, 05 Jan 2018 11:42:16 EST ID:ROGlj1oY No.521195 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i think a lot of people do drugs and just don't do shit but think so they get stuck mentally

do something you enjoy and distracts you from the struggles of real life
Cornelius Hoffinglock - Fri, 05 Jan 2018 12:16:41 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521196 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think about it every day. Drugs are great, vacuum is probably even greater. Talk about clarity. Grabbing the bull by the horns.

I'm having difficulty believing there are any decent women not in relationships by Fucking Greenridge - Sat, 30 Dec 2017 21:43:22 EST ID:THKYnNtc No.520991 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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The good ones are taken. If a woman is single that's a red flag, it's easier for them to get laid anyway. Met a girl a few weeks ago we hung out once and I found out she was a single mom so I kind of paused on furthering it because I stopped doing the single mom thing after too many bad experiences dating single mothers. In tried and true fashion. The snake eventually reared it's ugly head and it's scaly armor. Asked her to hang out but she said that she couldn't pay (I bought her drinks last time so this was a red flag for sure). Said that she was getting paid tommorow so we could wait til then. I agreed that we should just wait til she had money because I wasn't gonna pay for her this time. Tommorow came and she never got back to me or told me she still wanted to hang out so I got my answer on what she wanted from me.

Fucking off from women for awhile til I sort my own life &self out. Suggest the lot of you do it as well. These women out here are soul suckers. I am NOT a god damn atm.
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Matilda Cheddlenure - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 18:14:24 EST ID:IOxG/ldg No.521140 Ignore Report Quick Reply
How could I when I've only been in three "real" relationships. All of which didn't last longer than a few months. In the gap between them I just have had hook ups. The girls will sleep with me for awhile and move onto another guy.

One of them I fucked last year I wanted to date but she didn't want to date me. She kinda strung me along and kept sleeping with me and the entire time I thought we would fall into some relationship but the truth was she just didn't want that with me.

What's funny is that I had a friend basically spell it out for me and I didn't see it. She told me she had just gotten out of a relationship (which was true) and needed some time. She was just letting me down easy and didn't want to tell me out right she didn't she me romatically.

Anyway so she came back last summer and asked me if I wanted to be friends. Nothing really ever came of it. She didn't really try to be my friend and acknowledged that she didn't. She eventually started dating a guy and quit talking to me again without saying anythjng.

I have depression from years of loneliness and being single. I figured that chasing validation From women I'd what lead and it times I just say no thank you. Life is pretty rough and I feel like a lot of women just see men as atms or like a purse to show around and impress people. Theirs no getting to know you as a person. It's your all about social currency and that's no mating ritual friend. That's just society.
Barnaby Chuffingteg - Wed, 03 Jan 2018 19:19:39 EST ID:TWMUuPtc No.521143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Life is pretty rough and I feel like a lot of women just see men as atms or like a purse to show around and impress people. Theirs no getting to know you as a person. It's your all about social currency and that's no mating ritual friend. That's just society.

You're right, but the inverse is also true for women. Not that it really helps you but just for perspective this isn't really a gendered issue. I mean, it is, but you get what I'm saying; some people are shitty people and we all have to deal with it regardless of what we're packing.

Anyway, the only advice I have is to learn to be comfortable being completely alone. Not because there are no good women but because waiting for someone decent is better than dating the kinds of people you've described. Obviously YMMV and shit but I've turned down women because our "relationship" would've been ugly and cheap. I think the whole hook-up / casual dating scene is cancerous and creates deeply unhappy people.
Ebenezer Pickbanks - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 08:34:19 EST ID:t/5thURS No.521160 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah I feel like society deems the single man worthless. We're just not good enough for anyone. There's been studies that show the top 20% of men are the ones that get women. So that's a lot of average below average males that will be single the rest of their lives.

There's no lowering your standards. Because even your average looks aren't good enough for the fat ass you met online. It's bleak. It's depressing and dark. It's supposed to be because you've had the wool pulled over your eyes for so long and people telling you its not the way it is but they're lying to you. More and more men are waking up to how society REALLY works and dating is not in favor of the man. As you said being comfortable with you is the way.
Eliza Bucklestick - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 21:55:55 EST ID:TWMUuPtc No.521173 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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It's not really society's fault. At least they're not doing it maliciously, anyway. Just like everything else we've had hardwired into our biology for the past god knows how many thousands of years, it's not going away overnight. Men are expendable. Single men doubly so. We don't carry the kids, we don't feed newborns, et al.

>There's been studies that show the top 20% of men are the ones that get women. So that's a lot of average below average males that will be single the rest of their lives.
On a similar note, hypergamy is totally unnecessary these days but also not going away any time soon. Men tend to date across or down when it comes to social standing / wealth and women generally only go up.

>More and more men are waking up to how society REALLY works and dating is not in favor of the man.
It'll balance out. Guys are dropping out of dealing with chicks at a pretty alarming rate and even in the worst case scenario where nothing changes, eventually the shoe will be on the other foot because dudes just won't want anything to do with them and ladies will be the ones having to work and do all this shit to attract a man. Your guess is as good as mine as to when, but in the grand scheme it's really not a big deal.
Augustus Nuttingtutch - Fri, 05 Jan 2018 05:42:59 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.521189 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>There's been studies that show the top 20% of men are the ones that get women

I'm pretty sure they say that those 20% sleep with most women, they obviously don't stay with them all - the numbers simply don't work. So if you can get over not being able to plant a flag and scream 'first' it's far from impossible to find someone.

I'm also pretty sure that statistic is from Tinder where most people are just looking for casual hookups, so how applicable it is to the world at large is another question. Bitterness isn't the most attractive quality.

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