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I'm Dying Inside by Wesley Croddleridge - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 22:51:41 EST ID:CoVq6P+g No.517151 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Life is a bizarre mixture of hell and purgatory.
There is no such place as heaven.
And God is really Satan.
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Fucking Caddlespear - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 14:14:50 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517227 Ignore Report Quick Reply
And just to be clear, it isn't the fact that you said that you personally believe we're just a result of chance and that we have enough intelligence to question ourselves that I said what I did. The reason I said it is specifically because you said you find it reassuring and thus preferential to other world views. Believing this itself isn't inherently wrong or damaging/limiting, but your motivation for believing it (as with anything) absolutely can be.
Basil Gorryway - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 14:55:17 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517228 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I always thought of it as an eternal dreamless slumber.

Your final reward for living this life is peace and freedom from your suffering.
Fucking Caddlespear - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 15:13:29 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517229 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Rewards are for the living. If that's your perspective on things then you're approaching death like you'll somehow still be around. I know it's pretty hard not to since we can't work outside our realm of experience, but anyone that tries to conceptualize death in this manner must do so realizing that what they come to believe about death is entirely a rationalization meant to allay their fears and anxiety about it.

Your belief that it's a final reward and that it's ultimate peace and freedom (again, concepts that only apply to and can be experienced by living) is just a way to avoid having to think critically enough about the concept of death and non-existence that it elicits strong emotional reactions in response. It could just as easily be believed that life is hell and eternal suffering and that dying is the cherry on top of the cosmic joke because after all that suffering you cease to exist without ever having known anything like a paradise or whatever. Even then, this is just a belief somebody would have to distance themselves enough from the concept of themselves dying that they avoid having any real feelings emerge about its real inevitability, but doing so in a more negative light.
Fucking Goodwell - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 21:23:44 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517241 Ignore Report Quick Reply

When I say peace or slumber, I mean them as words to attempt to describe nothingness.

Using my words as literal translations does not work in the context that I have used these words.

So again, the words I have used in those two sentences are not to be interpreted in it's literal form, as that would suggest the concept of being aware of being dead, which would be physically impossible.
Edward Mabbleshaw - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 20:10:10 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517275 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I realize that, but there's something to be said on the unconscious level about the words and analogy you chose to describe it with. I was commenting more on that, I didn't think you literally saw it as a reward or anything. In this way, how you choose to conceptualize and perceive death as a phenomenon speaks as loudly about your beliefs as your words do.

General bitching by Simon Coddlemid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 03:08:53 EST ID:auz5lTJl No.517263 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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23yo femanon here.
I used to suffer horribly from cptsd from incestual rape and whatnot.. only recently after reporting my rapist have I been able to shake off most of my illness and be calmer. I feel like I fucked up a lot of friendships over the years and I'm having a hard time making up for it. People I've known for years are ghosting me and I'm not sure why. I can't find a person who is emotionally available to date. I can't find anyone to fuck. I used to be hot but i gained some weight and now I'm 210lbs, so I suppose that's why no one wants me. Hopefully my social life looks up soon because shit is depressing me.
I wish I could make amends with all the people I fucked up friendships with, and I wish I knew why people who I care about are ghosting me left and right
Molly Bleblingmig - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 12:57:48 EST ID:uCFR9p1r No.517266 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe lose weight?

If you think that causes part of your problem you should. You write as though the extra weight is a permanent fact now which of course it isn't.
Fucking Chammerhid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:04:57 EST ID:+HblyHsI No.517267 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have not been through anything like the level of shit you have. But I've had to start over.

Well it's hard to know why people are dropping you. Maybe they weren't good friends and the new healthier you isn't so easy to exploit or whatever. Maybe you're the victim of some smearing, maybe people recoil in horror and just can't deal or maybe they're just getting on with their lives and you're (needfully) going in a different direction to the rest of them. Sometimes a new start isn't all bad though.

Short and medium term goals should be your own healthy. Don't worry about relationships for a little while. Take a few weeks, months even years if that's what it takes. Being alone is horrible but being in a broken relationship is worse. Going by life expectancy happiness etc.

So anyway I'd look at 4 areas of your life. Work out what you wish each one way. What you can actually achieve and work at achieving it. Unfortunately you're probably going to have to eat shit a bit longer (metaphorically) to get ahead but it'll be worth it. Do all 4 at the same time. When they're all progressing steadily and all at an acceptable level you can start looking for love. Physical health alone would cut it for fucking but I'd say get your head straight a bit because otherwise you may hurt you or the other person or things might go wrong.

So, mental health. Are you undergoing therapy with a therapist you can trust? Is your life stable? Are your habits conductive to wellbeing etc. Note if you're still only somewhat recovered a lot of people who want a healthy relationship will be wary of you, whereas bad people are like sharks smelling blood in the water. Friends are a bit more forgiving but it's still an issue.

Social life. Seems like time to make new friends. Branch out. Women's value often hinges far too much on their looks (I'd trade that for my situation as a man where it's just how much self worth I project real or otherwise but it's still shit) but you can play the game. Right now you can probably talk to a lot of guys without them insta trying to bang you. You can talk to girls without being a threatening rival. Go to several new areas, don't latch on to one group initially and don't take failure personally, people can be closed off sometimes. If you start losing weight you can change your game once you've got a solid friendbase. Even when you find a group never stop being open to the odd new friend or group. (I should take that wisdom a bit more often tbh)

Physical health. Do you want to lose that weight again? If not you should still eat well (lots of veg, some fruit, ensure you're getting your protein etc), sleep well, hydrate properly and exercise. If you want to be "hot" again doubly so for all of them.
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Fucking Chammerhid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:06:17 EST ID:+HblyHsI No.517268 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Actually in fairness I've not been through the level of shit you have but actually maybe it's more than a little like it. Definitely endured and pulled through much less than you're currently working through though.
Clara Burryworth - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 15:47:32 EST ID:C2LZTezo No.517272 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You think about getting a dog? Too many benifits to list.
Simon Coddlemid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 16:25:20 EST ID:auz5lTJl No.517273 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here... these are some really great responses. I was almost expecting to be roasted by you guys but I'm glad you didn't.
I relapse with losing weight all the time but I will always give it another try. And YES to whoever said maybe those friends are threatened by change, I definitely am getting that vibe from some people. As if they liked me better suicidal than bubbly all the time.
There is some great advice here and it was comforting to read so thank you all.
And also yes- I have a dog and a cat! My animals have always helped me in many ways.

Homeless, becoming insane, thinking about serial killing by misterperson - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 21:21:55 EST ID:+fZIEOFo No.517249 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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About 6 months ago I lost (quit) my job because I seriously give no fucks about my life at all, I can't stand working, and because nobody gives a shit about me. And it scares and bothers the shit out of me. Standing there, having to serve people all day, for barely any money to survive...I can't do it. So fucking anxious and depressed that I just was to afraid to keep working. It's like I'm a deer in headlights, and I've just been standing still until I let my life and my money and everything slide away. I don't have any family or friends, I don't really have anything. Even when I did, I haven't really felt like I've been a stable living situation for at least a decade.

So, for the past 6 months, I've been homeless, getting by on the free services provided. I get food, I get sleep. I don't care about much else, but being around people all the time is starting to really get to me. I've seen people more motivated than I use the services, get their lives back together and get out. I can't do that. I don't have the support or motivation to do that. And to top it off I'm mixed in with people who are fucked up like me in different ways, people who are fucked up on drugs, people who are mentally wayyy fucking out there, and I feel like all this shit is rubbing off on me.

Every day, I usually just sit around on my laptop doing whatever, or sit outside smoking weed. And doing this for so long, the past 6 months, I feel changed. Like I've forgotten what it's like to be a normal person with goals, and a routine. Being outside, when all you can do is watch people walk around everywhere, and watching people just walk through the grids of the city like robots, every day, everything just starts to look more and more like one big machine, it freaks me the fuck out. This is gonna sound stupid, it's just an example--what am I supposed to think when there are people too afraid to cross the street before the signal changes, when there's obviously no cars? People just standing there, at the crosswalk, doing nothing, I see it like 10-20 times a day. Standing there like fucking zombies. Yeah, it's kinda stupid. That's just one example. But nowad…
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Ian Blythefield - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 23:32:33 EST ID:wBw7AiXU No.517250 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sounds like you need nature. The city has made you foul, unhappy, and vengeful. The city is a fast-paced life and there are barely real life connections because everyone is too busy. I know how you feel. I suggest finding a simpler way of life where you are not as much as inclined to compete with other people. Find a better location with lush forests/or natural parks. Forget what you have accomplished compared to others. It will only make you angrier. But, the truth is, and this sounds so cliche, there are people in worst situations than you. You could be in a worst country, where you don't even get the sufficient food or water. You could be entangled in dangerous environments like Brazil where torture and murder is frequent. People out there in the world are really struggling to live. What drives a man insane cannot be said the same for the people who live under real oppression. You seem like you are depressed and bored. Figure out a way to savor what you have compared to others below you and not above you. Again, it seems like you are just disgusted with the current people around you. Rise above and create your own rules, standards, and obligations.
Life is not a race with each other. You are the only spectator of your own life, so don't watch anybody's else. Do you understand? Create your own path. Just as long you're not hurting anybody else. Do you how much prison sucks? It is basically like a jungle with jaguars in every corner. It is a survival game in prison. You have no freedom and your cell mates will be crazy unhinged bonafide killers. Now, tell me, does your life still suck?
Edwin Snodridge - Tue, 04 Jul 2017 01:20:49 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Alone in a sea of people.

I'm trying to put myself in your shoes, and I can relate in some ways, but my rock bottom isn't as low as yours. That's a pretty unfortunate situation.

I can't give you emotional advice, more like a suggested treatment: talk to people and connect with them. Pull aside one of the NPCs and have a real conversation, something meaningful. They're real people with goals and aspirations, and if it seems like they don't care, it's nature and nurture. Check out the monkeysphere. We live in a capitalistic society and the majority of us have a physical limit to the amount of people we are capable of caring about.

But the people we do care about, we actually care for and feel deeply for. Humans are social creatures, youself included. We need social interaction to be fully functioning. So I recommend you go against your current nature, do not auto-ostracize yourself, and talk with people; create the bonds that you lack to get back on your feet and achieve your own fulfillment.

Seems to me that when you create that net that you've always felt you were lacking, that everything else will fall into place.
misterperson - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 02:23:35 EST ID:US0L11/E No.517262 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I like the sense you guys make. I can't get out of the city at the moment (I'm literally stuck downtown) but the past couple days I decided to take your advice about the nature, I took the train out of the city to this park, this huuuge park just outside the city limits. Went there the past two days, just found a place to sit and sat. Climbed up a tree, carved my initials into it to mark I'd been there. Being there, felt like all the noise was turned off. After a few hours...I went back into the city, and whatever I was feeling before wasn't as strong. Still there, but not as strong.

So, the next day, I talked to a person, I was able to. Dude I didn't even know, never saw before, new kid using the same services as I. He could barely speak much English but I could talk with him well enough. Explained to him what a cruise ship was, that I went on a cruise. First time I'd felt any sense of normalcy in a while.

Thank you guys for your words, I really needed a bump in the right direction. Gonna keep at this, maybe post again later.
William Snodbury - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:12:29 EST ID:7jDtVpaU No.517269 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's your personal right to think about the world, other people, and yourself anyway that you want to. However, you have no right to harm anyone, don't hurt anyone, come on. I think that if you can feel that there is a wrongness in world then you know the difference between right and wrong and you shouldn't think about hurting other people. Sincerely, I understand how you feel. If you decide that you don't want to do life anymore I believe that every person has a right to take their own life because it's their own, but you have no right to hurt another person.

I Hate: by Fuck Giblingsatch - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 03:17:29 EST ID:Iqnf1OJQ No.517162 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Fat Old jolly african-american Masons and Fat Old Pale Albino Snow jolly african-american Masons.

May the void open and devour them in the maw of oblivion:
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
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Thomas Bongerham - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:54:50 EST ID:lTQeAqit No.517193 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Literally I'm so fucking smart.
it's unbelivable how great I'm going to be.
It's going to be so great believe me.
You're all a bunch of assholes.
I'll grab you by the pussy and won't let go.
Fake reports fake news by a bunch of bad hombre Mexican Cops here.
Build the wall and build it high.
Send all back.
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 22:06:33 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517211 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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America has many enemies does it need another?
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 22:28:16 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517213 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You have no case.
Barnaby Drallyson - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 05:42:58 EST ID:Nke0Lf0c No.517217 Ignore Report Quick Reply
420chan? haha thats your case?
Oliver Sonnerford - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 02:57:17 EST ID:pjQ207T5 No.517247 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>February 3–12, 2013?
Guess that was my fuck up.
If it wasn't for me you wouldn't know who he was(is) today.

I Hate by Fuck Giblingsatch - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 03:14:39 EST ID:Iqnf1OJQ No.517161 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Fat Old jolly african-american Masons and Fat Old Pale Albino Snow jolly african-american Masons.

May the void open and devour them in the maw of oblivion:
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
Damnatio Memoriae
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Thomas Bongerham - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:46:14 EST ID:lTQeAqit No.517192 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Since 420chan is a bitchass honeypot like every other chan.
I'm going to say that there is no chargeable offense for this post.
There are no explicit threats made.
Just angry banter.
You can psychoanalyze me all you want but I don't give a fuck.
You're can't diagnose someone who isn't your patient.
It's unethical and bad practice in psychology.
RE;the Goldwater Rule
The best part about this is you don't know if I'm kidding or if I'm completely serious.
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 22:10:12 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517212 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Are you going let me live in peace?
I prefer peace over war.
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 22:28:50 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517214 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You have no evidence.
Barnaby Drallyson - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 05:43:53 EST ID:Nke0Lf0c No.517218 Ignore Report Quick Reply
420chan? You're going to throw that at me?
Oliver Sonnerford - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 02:54:07 EST ID:pjQ207T5 No.517246 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Is that Christopher Dorner?
Fuck Christopher Dorner.

plz help by going crazy - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 16:40:09 EST ID:9c403Pp8 No.517235 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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> 30 year old Korean mtf
> disowned by family & friends
> can't reveal past job experiences in boy mode
> can't come out at work in boy mode
> can't get close or let anyone know.
> looking to live in another city
> money and mental health issues
> constantly high can't get sober cuz of dysphoria
> not sure if I will pass

I don't even know why I bother waking up.
Walter Honninglirk - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 20:21:54 EST ID:5y07sGwW No.517238 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fuck passing, just be yourself
Graham Crallerstone - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 21:21:55 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517239 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe you should look for other social circuits. I hang around places where nobody would give a fuck if you're a boy or a girl or trans or cis or high or not (well maybe the latest if you can't do your job right). Start looking for jobs at pubs or editorial work or I dunno, somewhere where on top of all your problems you arent being stigmatized. At least until you get better and stronger.

And yes, fuck passing. Nobody will a shit about you being male or female if you are a nice, kind person. Well, nobody that matters anyway.
Graham Crallerstone - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 21:22:36 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517240 Ignore Report Quick Reply
nobody will give a shit* sorry nb

Don't give a fuck about anything besides my dog by Nathaniel Lightville - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 01:06:26 EST ID:dZUBWcWW No.517127 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I find it pretty sad that I would've killed myself a long time ago if I didnt care so much about leaving my dog behind. I think about doing it all the time and the only thing that stops me is thinking about him feeling like I left him ( He has separation anxiety hella bad and I doubt he would understand that I was dead) and what would happen to him after I was gone. I love him to death but I also resent the fact that he is the reason that I can't bring myself to put an end to this fucking misery. I'll probably get over it one day and do it anyways but I fucking hate that I can't just get it over with and save myself the grief.
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David Mankinchon - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:33:03 EST ID:oBGKxzuP No.517191 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well thanks man, I appreciate it. I'm glad I'm not dead too. (Although I've always been very curious about what happens when you die and I kinda look forward to actually finding out when I do end up kicking the bucket) I tried going down to mental health a while ago and was practically begging for help (with my mental health problems) and all they seemed to hear was the fact that I was an IV meth user at the time and they just threw me some packets for 12 step programs and kicked me out the door. It wasnt really the drugs that was the problem, it was the underlying depression and repressed memories of my childhood that I was trying to selfmedicate so I would feel better. I don't think those people understand that kind of stuff because all they have done is read about it in books and then call themselves an expert on the subject. Maybe now that I have a job I can go somewhere and get some actual help although I will probably have to do some saving first.
Jenny Docklenock - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 05:22:34 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517194 Ignore Report Quick Reply
*****This gonna be a long one and I'm gonna have to break it up into parts, but I'm coming from a pretty genuine place here and I feel like it should be worth reading*****

This isn't that uncommon of a phenomenon really, at least when talking about it in a general sense where the reason you don't kill yourself is mostly if not almost entirely because some person or animal that's dependent on you (even if just emotionally), The only difference is most people don't ever talk about it with anybody.

I've been in the same position myself, but I couldn't even rationalize it being something I was doing out of legitimate empathy or whatever. I was mentally fucked for a good 8 or 9 years after a concussion and my only real reason (at least I convinced myself of this, honestly I think this is a case where your motivations for or against doing something carry a lot more unconscious influence than we can readily accept--I'll explain what I mean in the next paragraph). My reasons for living simply consisted of thinking I would definitely kind of being a dick with causing all the aftermath with my family (which I don't actually give a shit about, at least not on an emotional level) and that there would always be a chance to do it later, and just living another day like normal on its own (separate from all the other shit that happened beyond the that day that adds up to be a lot more) really wasn't so difficult that I couldn't do it.

However, I think you're more afraid to die than you might be consciously aware of. I'm not saying that you're purposefully being self-deceptive, that's important to note. I've been okay and accepting of death for a long time now, but it's just as possible and probably even likely that I'm just as afraid or uncertain of it as I've ever been. By taking thoughtful steps toward exposing yourself to things and modifying your behavior and emotional reactions to things things you can train yourself to essentially get the frontal lobe to inhibit the emotional signals that originate deeper in the brain. What you can't do, however, is actually keeping those brain regions/structures from continuing to react like th…
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Jenny Docklenock - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 05:23:20 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517195 Ignore Report Quick Reply
In other less stim'd out words, consciously you may be certain that you're not only unafraid of death but that you long for it and maybe even need it, but that doesn't mean a major part of you doesn't still feel all the expected feelings one would expect from being confronted with their possible non-existence. Proto-humans and any animals we might consider ancestors that possessed consciousness have been aware of and most fearful of death for millions and millions of years, these feelings aren't something you can just think away using logic (or think away, period), You may have adapted and exercised enough control over yourself to no longer experience anxiety from the mere mention or contemplation of death, but you've really only learned to desensitize yourself to its discussion and contemplation specifically.

That being said, when you actually encounter a situation where death is not only a strong possibility but a likelihood, you'll probably experience that fear again. You might try to rationalize it away by somehow almost paradoxically believing that the circumstances you're in aren't satisfactory enough for you to just give up at that moment. Examples are stuff like not wanting to die in a fire or drown--if you really wanted to die then what would it matter that you suffered as you were dying? Consequences are only relevant to the living. If you can be choosy with how you die, chances are you don't actually want to literally die (which would be evident by the fact you're still thinking of things from the perspective of existing and want to avoid suffering or send messages to people or society with your death). Part of this is stopping yourself from going through to committing suicide because you "don't want to hurt others" or "abandon those who need you". You ought to know implicitly, on some level, that these are just convenient excuses to avoid the cognitive dissonance that comes from longing for death but being terrified of it and not existing.

What you really want is an escape, and as the years have gone by, the escapes you've been relying on not only aren't working but are even causing your suffering to grow. The despera…
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Phineas Fishpadge - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 16:13:06 EST ID:0HOTiew5 No.517202 Ignore Report Quick Reply

keep this memory with you as you go through life. the next time you feel hopeless and dejected, you can cognitively tell yourself "wait, there was another time i felt hopeless and dejected, to the point i was totally going to kill myself, but then things surprisingly improved enough i was ok with life. this will probably happen again."
Shitting Mussletutch - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 15:39:53 EST ID:uYRpuiGJ No.517231 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dogs don't live that long mate. Just try and get your live together until he dies.
Maybe you'll get your shit sorted in those 5 more years or whatever and end up not killing yourself.
And if you dont get shit sorted before he dies you can still kill yourself.

Its win/win

Quit Heroin, trying to fill this void by Nicholas Brookwater - Mon, 26 Jun 2017 23:16:36 EST ID:uy3JDE2/ No.517085 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So, I'm going for my third vivitrol shot this upcoming weekend. However, after meeting being forced to kick dope at my house for 9 days, and then my old man administered the vivitrol shot(he's an MD). That same day, I got my keys back. I link up with my friend who felt bad for me because my ugly ass ex broke up with me on my 7th day sober. So she suggests that I meet her cousin who is 28 and just moved in with her and that she is very beautiful. Okay, so me and her cousin hit it off instantaneously. She thought I was funny, I got her number and she hit me up later that night to smoke a blunt with her. So, one day she just disappears off the fucking map even though we've chilled and have been slightly affectionate with eachother. She left her phone at her fucking Cousin's house when she decided to up and leave and no one heard from her for days. Che claims she moved in with "friends". So, anyways i'm just like fuck this bitch, she's 28 years old(im 23), and has 2 kids. I can do better however she has some amazing ass tits and is like a PRO at fucking. However, so I give her some space and say fuck it. I end up meeting this international grad student from Thailand and she's only been in the US for 2 years. Very religious, parents have a lot of money, super good type, etc. It only seems until I started posting photos of me and her on Facebook that the first girl came back to me trying to fuck. In the past 5 weeks or so we've been fucking occasionally(maybe once a week, maybe once every 2 weeks, maybe 4 times in 1 week. its random as fuck) COME TO FIND OUT she's staying with her ex-husband and has to pretend to be affectionate to him. So, me being the piece of shit I am, I've been cheating on the second girl with the first girl who I have more in common with, have more fun with, and all around have a better time with. She tells me her fallopian tubes are tied, I don't believe it and I pull out everytime(because fuck condoms, but also fuck babies). So I get invited over to her house for 3 nights in a row while her ex-husband is out of town and we were so drunk every time we fucked I busted inside her about 3 different times in a 36 hour period. So now I'm f…
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Nigel Nindlepit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 08:30:42 EST ID:f1qCqrLu No.517167 Ignore Report Quick Reply

So like did you own the plane or was it just some random plane?

You would think like they'd have like door locks on them or something....
Jack Bardman - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 16:13:25 EST ID:b1UFhFdv No.517176 Ignore Report Quick Reply

You'd be surprised. You're right that most of them do, but stealing a plane is a bit more difficult than a car so some older ones don't have locks on the door.
Archie Duvingdale - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 16:32:26 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.517177 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>a bit
Ebenezer Brabbleson - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 15:11:10 EST ID:BLJ2E9Y6 No.517201 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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> "I come from good stalk"
Martha Fallerhall - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 11:51:49 EST ID:Ob3Okyu7 No.517224 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah thats what it means either the best stalks only drop off the best babies

Borderline and medicine by James Cronkinnon - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 19:24:32 EST ID:vvs8GuSk No.517209 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I'm pretty sure I have a borderline personality. After reading a lot mostly, as I was once told on therapy (just talking therapy) it's not this. But I think it was a lie for the sake of the moment, so that I would not see myself as sick in any way. So I did that psychotherapy over a year ago for maybe twenty times once a week, cost me hell of a lot on money, and then I broke out because at some point I found a new girlfriend and it was very cool for maybe a month. So I felt I didn't need no therapy and I was already growing impatient with the talking not getting to any point. Then soon my new relationship got fucked up, obviously, and I'm stuck with it till now. I wish there was some reasonably healthy way to resolve this. This story keeps happening all over. I'm left with maybe 3-4 friends/acquaintances who would even talk to me from time to time, as most people have just left me behind. I am clinging to anyone available and at the same time somehow I always destroy the relationship sooner or later, maybe by the clinging itself. Probably my presence has always been a burden and the people I once knew (quite many actually) found better things to do

Anyway, to the point - DRUGS! There are some pharmaceuticals that people treat this kind of thing with, like SSRI, used as mood stabilizers. That would be cool to not fall into despair everyday. Do you think taking such medications has any point beside being cool for a while and fucked up afterwards? Anyone did it? Do you think I should go to a psychiatrist and ask for it, do they even prescribe to not-really-sick people like me? Or should I buy some kind of it on the internetz and take the risk of my unprofessional diagnosis based on dank knowledge from places like this?
Basil Subblebanks - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 05:46:13 EST ID:WUQZGMSw No.517219 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I get the impression that BPD is only really treatable by specific forms of therapy and that medication struggles to do more than blunt the edge a little.

You do need the right sort of therapy. I think "maybe 20 times a week" is either hyperbole or you had a therapist who just took your money though. Most effective therapy usually involves a heavy amount of "put this into practice" and doing appointments more than once or twice a week won't do anything. It takes time to change your ways of thinking and behavior.

If you can't knuckle down and stick at it then you're fucked. End of.
Polly Firrylork - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 07:29:15 EST ID:vvs8GuSk No.517220 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah I suppose it is must be more of a commitment than just talking about it once a week. So I've been doing yoga for about a year and a half, listening to Alan Watts, generally trying to chill out and get rid of this compulsive clinging - which I now think has a lot to do with the western egocentric way of perception. I get the theory all right but anything can break my peace of mind, then I push the people I know too hard, then they move away, then this proves the theory that anyone can betray me at any point, and so on. There is this circle of self-proving expectation that if something is all right for the moment then it must surely come to a vicious end pretty soon - and so it does.

That's why I thought of blunting it at all in the first place, it would help if there would be no tragic breakups for a while you know. I can't smoke weed all the time, I have hell of a lot to do to keep up, although this sure helps to forget about it. Alcohol is dangerous for me over a few beers, I usually get into some really bad mood and do something stupid. Then there is LSD which I take maybe twice a year, almost always alone, just a little like 100 μg, and then of course I understand it all for a few days, how wrong I was all the time and so on. Then I forget and it's back. So you know I need some more chill for the normal everyday life, to break the circle for a while. Try microdosing LSD? Dunno I don't have a lot left (and no one to ever get it from cause guess what I don't know ANY of the people anymore with whom I used to hang out for like 10 years)
Walter Cenningmit - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 08:51:44 EST ID:UjNuOR6B No.517221 Ignore Report Quick Reply
buy a sheet (100 hits) off the deep web for like 200
it's pathetically easy
dose one tab a week

Wahhhh by Charlotte Hankinhan - Tue, 27 Jun 2017 09:59:30 EST ID:lmLP6M2/ No.517093 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Wahh hwahhh wahhhh!!!! :'( :'(
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Caroline Blecklefuck - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:47:45 EST ID:xgR4zlzA No.517142 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Everyone, get in here
Oliver Nudgetet - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 23:49:35 EST ID:d92XJxk3 No.517154 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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420chan has the best pepes

Fuck Blebberfit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 19:28:06 EST ID:ihLa0/ry No.517180 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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But Mario Land 2,actually beating that guy was almost as good as being him for the next game, 8 year old me smashed that thing, all the treasures 10000 coins face on the moon
Wesley Nicklebanks - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 18:02:43 EST ID:lmLP6M2/ No.517204 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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What do you do when you got the blues by Phineas Blacklegold - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 00:18:37 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517124 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What the title says. What do you people do to cheer yourselves up?

Me, I drink, smoke, train on the park, write a diary and read somewhat depressing authors. What else can one do to keep oneself from life-draining depression?
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Phyllis Cullerbare - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 08:33:28 EST ID:gHcal0F0 No.517139 Ignore Report Quick Reply
accept it and try to keep myself busy. scribles or writing or whatever
Archie Cizzledudging - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 10:55:52 EST ID:A8VbsLWi No.517140 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Kill them. Kill all who try to steal your treasure. Kill all who are suspect. Curse them with death. Curse their generations to come!
Cyril Clongerbud - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 12:32:57 EST ID:gu/lq3ms No.517141 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Listen to weird electronic Russian music. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxrqY4XgYuk

>read somewhat depressing authors.
Full fathom five thy father lies;
Of his bones are coral made;
Those are pearls that were his eyes:
Nothing of him that doth fade,
But doth suffer a sea-change
Into something rich and strange.
Sea-nymphs hourly ring his knell:
Hark! now I hear them—Ding-dong, bell.
George Buffingdock - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:22:05 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.517145 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That sounds oddly russian
Jenny Docklenock - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 06:07:30 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517197 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Listen to a lot of music, study more of the shit I normally do or find new things to educate myself on, think about my problem for only a bit and instead then focus on my lifestyle and habits of decision making and trying to piece out exactly what's fucking me and constantly having that thought process running unconsciously on the back burner (feels like it primes me mentally for noticing effective ways to change things and being receptive of the type of archetypal themes that show up in stories/movies/tv shows and absorbing said themes and eventually unconsciously having my actions reflect them as time goes on and I continue to watch media of this type), maybe do so some art and shit.

Another person who isn't down with living by Lillian Blytheshit - Fri, 30 Jun 2017 23:55:34 EST ID:lneTu0lm No.517182 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hi, I constantly want to die, I don't want to feel this way anymore. I can't afford psychological help, or the psychiastrist appointment to see if meds would be a good option, or probably the meds at all.
I want to change my perception of myself, be more social, and stop wallowing in my misery. It's really hard for me to talk about. I haven't confided in any friends that I want to kill myself. I don't know what to do in a society where I can go down the street and buy a gun for 150 or so but psychological treatment costs 6k a year. Everybody is so cold, and I'm starting to be socially anxious. I go to bed praying that I don't wake up.
I have a purpose though. I work in a school for kids with autism and trauma based issues. I have a small family, and I don't think they could take it if I died. So I remain alive, and I know a lot of people feel this way. I'm never going to kill myself as long as I have purpose.

But for fucks sake I just want to be a happy. How do I do it?
Isabella Borringkig - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 00:32:50 EST ID:9kDuEtyA No.517183 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Microdose shrooms everyday for a month, no depression ever again.
Lillian Blytheshit - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 00:46:29 EST ID:lneTu0lm No.517184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517183 shit I'm willing to try it
Ernest Gishfoot - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:08:46 EST ID:QLJoJ9VT No.517189 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You gotta take a look at your life. Why are you unhappy? What needs are going unfulfilled? You gotta be sincere, and honest with yourself. Then start making changes in your life. See what makes you happier. Keep doing those things, and repeat the process. Journaling helps, in my experience. You get to really understand yourself and you'll never forget it because you can go back see what was important. Build some mental toughness. Watch those motivational videos online. Read some motivational articles like bakadesuyo.com. Sometimes it's corny, but you gotta believe in something. Believe in yourself, and believe in your improvement. It can only get better if you're willing to believe it can.
Doris Muttingsat - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 02:14:37 EST ID:CFSPhP33 No.517190 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Some ppl say drugs, some ppl say motivational videos.

Set goals. Life is grey without em.

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