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Should I stay or should I go by Phoebe Fummlefuck - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 12:22:05 EST ID:LmXFRxpK No.526590 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've been a huge player and an emotionally unavailable with loads of girls I've fucked for years. Plenty of girls who weren't catches, some who I wondered how the fuck I got so lucky, feminine girls, career cunts, etc. It's been all over.

For a change I've tried to make a conscious effort to at least get to know and date a girl exclusively and not keep her at arms length (which I NEVER do, can't get your heart broken with one foot out the door), and dating her is a relief. Its incredibly relaxing talking and just lounging around with her, the interactions we have are genuine (from my POV, I might just be getting played but whatever), we've got some similar values and things in common where we can understand each other, she's feminine etc.

But on paper she kind of sucks. She's chubby, she lives with her parents (mid 20s), currently unemployed, has a college degree but isnt doing much with it and is still in the "what do I want to do with my life" phase, and now she's going through a phase of dying her hair in odd colors like a fucking SJW as a grown woman. She's close to being a female neckbeard.

Funny enough I am the polar opposite of all of these things and I'm doubting what I actually see in her.

I adore this person but Im incredibly hesitant about introducing her to my friends, family, taking her to company events and friends' weddings etc.

Im being shitty I know but what do? Should I break up with her and try and find someone who I can actually take outside but sacrifice the emotional fulfillment?

I'm tired of emotionally investing in people that aren't related to me. If this falls through I might just throw in the towel and have non-serious flings for as long as I can.
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Lillian Chuddleworth - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 09:03:03 EST ID:HUUepmZy No.526631 Ignore Report Quick Reply
chill fam I was just shitposting.

it was all an elaborate ruse to get him to stop talking to some slutty chubby tumblrina.
Phoebe Fummlefuck - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 16:41:51 EST ID:+Dxwg5ZQ No.526637 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>slutty chubby tumblrina.

Oddly enough normal Stacy-type girls aren't interesting or attractive to me at all. I'm not necessarily chasing sluts but Ill admit I've always meshed well with more "outlier" personalities, probably because I'm fucked up a little myself.

This is why I never commit and just see multiple fuck buddies at a time. I know I like a little weird in my girls, but those same girls are going to be the worst LTR partners ever.

My #1 fear is waking up every morning next to someone I detest, and am bored of, and who makes me think "any of these other girls would be better than her fuck this"

I guess I really am a mess.
Sidney Blesslepadge - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 22:45:43 EST ID:Je6TlL8J No.526643 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So on one side you're afraid of what everyone will think of you if you dated a weird chick that you were into, but you also couldn't trust her cuz she might break your little heart.

And on the other hand you're terrified of settling down with a boring normal.

Stop being a boy. Figure what you want and put your emotional comfort to the side. Go get your happiness.
Sophie Divingwater - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 02:21:57 EST ID:1jbaRQWU No.526645 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>This is why I never commit and just see multiple fuck buddies at a time. I know I like a little weird in my girls, but those same girls are going to be the worst LTR partners ever
doesn't every guy do this though. choose if you care more about being comfortable with someone or fucking someone
George Gazzlelut - Thu, 13 Sep 2018 16:27:19 EST ID:aFmtyOVE No.526666 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Yeah, like THAT’LL work...

Just kidding please do this; it’s the only sensible and constructive post so far.

Reaching out for help by Martha Pupperwell - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 18:26:37 EST ID:8NHm0WuK No.526552 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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TL;DR I've reach out and asked for help but nobody seems to care.

I'm in a bad situation. I have extreme anxiety and panic. It's ruining my life. I apply for jobs but people are put off by my anxiety so I don't get hired even though I'm a good programmer. I have previous work experience and an online portfolio and a lot of websites and apps that I've made. I am a college student but I am concerned about dropping out due to my mental health issues. If I drop out, I'll become homeless again, because my family hates me. I have to stay in all my classes this semester to keep getting financial aid. If I don't, I'm done. I also do some freelance programming and tech stuff but it's not a lot of money. I still pay taxes but I barely make any money at all.

I have emailed and called and spoken with numerous people, but so far, nothing helpful has happened as a result. He said he could help me apply for medicaid, but it's been months and he still hasn't done anything. I have seen someone at my university's disability office and they don't really help much. I made an appointment to see a counselor, but you have to get an intake appointment before it can start, and that won't be until next week. Then, it takes weeks after the intake appointment before you can see anyone, and even then, all it is is taking to someone in a room about your feelings or something. Last time I had a counselor, I asked if they could help me find employment. All they did was tell me to use Indeed. But no place I've applied for will hire me, even though they lie and say they accept people with disabilities (which they don't). Counselors are great at lying and saying they'll help. They're great at taking your money and offering the false promise of help. But that's it.

But here's the problem: all these things are taking months and months and months, but if I can't deal with life in the present, I can't deal with my classes. I skip classes because I panic in these big lecture halls. I haven't always been like this, but I'm getting worse. So it literally doesn't even matter if people say they can help me in 2-3 weeks or later since I can't even function today or this week. I made a website for someone today but I'm skipping my classes because I'm too anxious to go to them and I'll probably be dropped from my classes soon. Getting dropped from my classes means I'll lose financial aid, lose the ability to stay in college, and then I won't be able to stay in university housing anymore, and I don't have anyone else I can stay with, so I'll be homeless.

I attempted to go to an urgent care place, but the waiting room was small and crowded and it made me nervous, so I left before the wait was up (and it would have cost me like $200 anyway). I try to call doctors but they don't get back to me because I don't have health insurance, so that limits me to expensive and mediocre "urgent care" clinics which are bad, but accept cash. But I hate the waiting room in the one near me. There was another time when I went to an urgent care clinic for insomnia and extreme anxiety and the nurse was very rude and told me that I shouldn't have even come in, and that place actually charged me $600 even though they didn't do anything. I have tried to contest the charge but it's wrecking my credit score.

I have emailed a counselor at my university, but he just sent me a PDF about anxiety, which doesn't really change anything. Just some basic bullshit. It's easier said than done to take advice. I went to a sliding scale place, and they spent most of the time talking about money, and my next appointment will be a continued evaluation where I have to prove that I don't make much money, and it seems agonizingly slow. Multiple weeks before you can ever have a help session, and they already said they don't do medication either. So what's going to happen? I'm going to talk to someone in a room for like 45 minutes? A successful person who has a job and no mental health issues is gonna lecture me or tell me their survivorship bias bullshit? Yeah, that's totally gonna solve all my problems. Not.

I went to my university's health clinic and all they did was say I probably have "anxious depression" and gave me a referral to a doctor I can't afford to see. I have emailed my professors and told them about my issues, because at the beginning of the semester they all give the bullshit spiel about how "if you have any disabilities and need any accommodations, let us know" but in reality they don't do anything except give you the option of having extra time on tests, which doesn't change anything.

All these people pretend to help, but at the end of the day, nothing is different. I still have debilitating mental illness, despite practically begging people for help, and making my issues very clear. I'm drowning in student loan debt but they still don't give a shit about helping me even though I'm gonna be working to pay off their debt for decades to come. You'd think university staff would attempt to help, considering that if I don't get help I'll drop out and they won't get more money for me being there for future semesters, but nobody seems to give a shit.
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Polly Passlespear - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 22:56:04 EST ID:otb8nGf1 No.526560 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Try to work on your anxiety though, what exactly are you afraid of?
Why are you even on this board?
Just work on anxiety. Just stop being poor. Just be better. Wow! Thanks, I'm cured! It's that simple!
Martin Sillerfedge - Wed, 05 Sep 2018 01:22:21 EST ID:Rfd7vXy2 No.526561 Ignore Report Quick Reply

It sounds like you're feeling frustrated trying to deal with all these bureaucratic types. I know anxiety makes this seem like a dire emergency, but these things take time, and persistence. It sounds like you're being proactive about getting help, so I'd say you're probably going to be ok in the long run. Panic disorders suck, but they won't kill you, and they can be cured.

Your short term goal should be to relax. As you know, excessive anxiety makes it hard to function. I bet you are super fucking tense. Go home, lay on the floor with your screen, go on youtube, find some yoga video with a cute girl, and spend an hour relaxing every muscle in your body. Eat a healthy meal. Get a meditation app. Figure out how to calm your body down, so you can function more easily.

Long term, you have to stop fearing anxiety. The cause of panic attacks is a runaway cascade of anxiety. As you associate different triggers with anxiety, such as a big classroom, a crowded waiting room, or what have you, they elicit fear of a panic attack, which further increases anxiety, thus making a panic attack inevitable. But if you can go into a room knowing that you might feel anxious or even have a panic attack, and stay there, you won't be as fearful, and the odds of panicking decrease. Fear and avoidance feeds anxiety, while courage and exposure vanquish it.

It may seem hopeless, but there are resources out there that can help you. Whatever you do, don't give up hope. I hope your intake appointment goes well and you find a good counselor. Good luck.
James Pimmernedging - Wed, 05 Sep 2018 04:39:29 EST ID:Je6TlL8J No.526563 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah try Cognitive Behaviour Therapy. It helped me out in uni, but then again I went to a free group for it. Still if you do the work you will see improvements. But you'll have to get your hands dirty. Here's a pdf for a free workbook I found with google.

James Pimmernedging - Wed, 05 Sep 2018 04:42:25 EST ID:Je6TlL8J No.526564 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Fucker. 2nd try
Oliver Bunfuck - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 14:59:23 EST ID:GKMBdUki No.526653 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thats a tough situation alright, i was in a similar one.

I cant offer much advice other than it can get better and not to give up.

idk why but i need a place to vent by Sophie Divingwater - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 00:52:46 EST ID:1jbaRQWU No.526644 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>be me
>be a retard
>get a useless university degree
>not accepted into any followup education that could actually make it useful
>can't go back to university and do more things in order to get accepted because prices go up by 5x once you graduate lmao
>already about 50k down the hole
>no job prospects
>no future
i mean i worked hard for this thinking it would get me somewhere. if i have to go get another shit job to sustain myself for another year before i get another chance at being rejected for everything i'd rather kill myself. so sick of trying but things not working out. i told myself i would never be depressed again, but i can't keep this shit up anymore. i just want out
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Esther Bunshit - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 11:52:08 EST ID:huj7hNcx No.526647 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No one is going hire you to your dream job for the get-go, youre a regular like everyone else, you dont have status or connections. I started some shitty fucking jobs until I found what wanted from my degree, and it took a good 4 years. Shit takes time and your arguement is "Well I worked hard for my degree, please give me job": Doesnt work that you fucking nerd.
Fucking Gamblegold - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 12:56:38 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526648 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Even if you abandon your degree's career trajectory you have a piece of paper that says "this human being has a been at least passable at doing what they need to and having some intellect" and if it's not a shit university or grade it also says "they actually had enough talent/effort to add up to "a lot" of one of them" and if you got a great degree it says "actually, the had a lot of both."

It's not great but it helps you with jobs more than not a degree. If you go to a university that needs good grades to even get in and get a good result, even an art degree will open doors. Not as many as you'd like.

So I graduated 11 years ago and the way I understand it, my degree was worth a few points in the application stage despite being not massively relevant or even a very good grade or university. I've been told as much. I struggled with a lot of shit though and the actual stuff I learned has come in quite useful in the career I accidentally ended up doing. Your degree will have taught you something useful. It won't give you a magic career but as others have said it will make the process of eating shit and working your way into something you like or love that pays well or enough a lot quicker and easier.
Cyril Grimson - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 14:01:40 EST ID:dIXCRzdj No.526649 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Better put more of your chips on yourself and a little less on the bullshit that others are selling to you.
Jarvis Gengerworth - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 14:25:22 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526650 Ignore Report Quick Reply
haha thanks. good post, i needed this
Polly Brenningbanks - Wed, 12 Sep 2018 14:46:43 EST ID:ehhnNOgT No.526651 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Having a degree is always better than not having a degree and opens you up to a lot of jobs even if they have nothing to do with your degree. Keep your chin up, you'll find something and get out from under this debt eventually.

Death or glory by Emma Bebberville - Sat, 25 Aug 2018 20:15:27 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526349 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anybody ever worry if it's too late to live an inspired life? Is there a wave that we can miss? I feel like I may want to commit suicide if that's the case
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Cornelius Singerbock - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 16:54:01 EST ID:ux+4Rp+2 No.526579 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Oliver Shittinglock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 13:56:17 EST ID:QvLOWJrn No.526592 Ignore Report Quick Reply
keep sucking peterson and rogan's smegma encrusted uncut cocks
Ebenezer Worthingbury - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 03:23:46 EST ID:dVp8iHEG No.526603 Ignore Report Quick Reply
cut vs uncut thread GO
Lydia Sinnerfuck - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 10:38:35 EST ID:huj7hNcx No.526632 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I listened to both of these fuckers for a while, and I at point I understood their narative. Peterson although he promotes self improvement and get out there and be someone, is a closeted racist, homophob but I get him about those gay dudes that are rude and loud and want to change wording that I dont agree with. Rogan, is a openly republican semi white power sympathizer, with a hardcore republican views.
Charlotte Fivingwell - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 11:29:59 EST ID:cM+TFQKr No.526633 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I agree with this post. nothing's more rewarding in life than seeing your son grow up well. if I managed raised my kids in such a way that they don't crave constant attention and approval from strangers, I'd be pretty fucking proud of myself.

How to get my doctor to give me the real stuff? by Isabella Blasslebury - Wed, 05 Sep 2018 14:48:29 EST ID:bK0aJXA7 No.526566 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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My doctor does not like me, i think no doctor likes me. When I'm there at the clinic, they probably judge me on my poor appearance which comes with my lack of sleep and poverty as i have no job. Sometimes I go three days without any sleep but mostly it's just a little more than a day. I feel like a big part of my life is very much effected by my lack of sleep, i feel very hopeless about getting anything for it. All of the doctors will probably press me to share uncomfortable information about my life and tgen just tell me the usual crap ideas that don't work, makes me kinda mad and vengeful.
KLEZ.fml !!cEQLOiCj - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 23:12:41 EST ID:qQblv7hA No.526600 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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That lack of sleep is making you buggy, friend. I'll assume the "crap ideas that don't work" are social programs, and you don't follow through on them. As for pressing for information, yeah, that's necessary to diagnose. Sorry they can't just read your mind.

The reality is they don't care. They're impartial. They only care if you're a threat or not. You're getting buggy to the point where you might be considered a threat. Perhaps you should consider meeting them halfway? They're not gonna be able to help you if you perceive them as a threat due to delusion or paranoia. Which is what's really going on here.

You don't sound like so much of a basket case that you're beyond helping, but continue down the path you're on and you'll get there.
Wesley Claygold - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 16:57:32 EST ID:uwlI1oKd No.526609 Ignore Report Quick Reply

What? I'm not on meth! I think I just exaggerated, it's really just recently that I stayed uo for three days, it's not a regular thing but more than 24hr is common. I just don't know what it is exactly about sleep, but it just doesn't appeal to even though I feel desperately tired. It's like I can't delay gratification even for the most basic reasons, it's always one more look at that or more vaping and then more music followed by a snack or something. I'm not in a manic state either, and I'm not this much impulsive to others things, I'd say it's unfair to call me impulsive but I would understand why some people might get that impression. Anyway bottom line is, no meth, but thanks for that serious warning.
Samuel Himmlekudge - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 00:58:57 EST ID:VdEcaqxk No.526629 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Your appearance is everything. Fix that shit immediately.
Edward Sickletine - Tue, 11 Sep 2018 08:12:24 EST ID:uwlI1oKd No.526630 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Yeh but what do you mean though? I stopped drinking and lost a shit ton of weight, i switched to vaping and now I'm kicking soda. When it comes to fashion and grooming, i have no clue what the fuck I'm doing. If it were up to me, we'd all look like monks

Venting by Nicholas Sanderson - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 23:16:37 EST ID:ItB85RQy No.526613 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have good days and bad days. Today is a bad day and i feel like venting. I haven't really been the same since the summer of 2017. Up until then I had been moonlighting as a male escort for around 5 years. Had never really had a bad experience. I ended up meeting a trans escort that i wanted to start a sort of partnership with. She had a massage table, etc and I liked her a lot, so i thought maybe we could do good working out some sort of business partnerships and maybe the customers would eat it up. When I showed up to discuss the matter, she had already put a lot of thought into the matter and long story short had a very manipulative conversation with me that seemed benign at first but ended up being pretty sinister. In a nutshell she wanted to feminize me and more or less pimp me out. After i realized those were her intentions i called my ride to pick me up. She said she was a witch and was had put a curse on my phone and a curse on me and i wouldn't be able to reach my ride ya da ya da ya da. After a ton of attempts i finally did reach him and he agreed to come get me. She then threatened to shoot me if i didn't immediately leave. She lived in the middle of the hood so i just braved it out and stayed inside until he showed up and then I left.

I had one of my good friends living with me at the time. It was nice to have someone there to watch my back and also be waiting with a bat in case anyone decided to try to run off without paying. One day not long after i was in the middle of a session and i thought i heard my front door open. When the session concluded i checked with my friend who was hid out in a back room if he had heard it as well. He said no, but he had heard a walkie talkie. I just overlooked it and thought nothing of it. A few weeks after the witch incident a client came over for the first time and immediately struck me the wrong way. He seemed to know more about me than he should and was just generally shady. I asked my friend his opinion of him he said he seemed like a normal dude. But something in my gut just told me something was off with the dude. My friend ended up moving for a work opportunity. I went with shady dude to his place. When we got back to my house late that nig…
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Angus Snoddale - Sun, 09 Sep 2018 01:50:22 EST ID:WqllIIED No.526615 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You were given the gift of life and you waste it being a male prostitute sheeit nigga
Sidney Blungertirk - Mon, 10 Sep 2018 11:22:14 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526622 Ignore Report Quick Reply

man's gotta eat.
Isabella Senningsitch - Mon, 10 Sep 2018 17:32:21 EST ID:dVp8iHEG No.526623 Ignore Report Quick Reply
man's gotta eat my cum when i'm a fat bear daddy with a fat wallet and a stinky dick even though I just washed it?

Putting Life Off by Alice Shittingwill - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 13:56:00 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526607 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How do I stop putting my life off? How do I want to get off my fat ass and do stuff?
Alice Shittingwill - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 15:00:04 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526608 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm ashamed at how little I've done with myself. I don't want to waste my life.
Augustus Hillerman - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 17:29:54 EST ID:VMfqUXtx No.526610 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Today is today. Tomorrow is never. Don't "do it tomorrow." Start now, even if it's not perfect. You don't need to finish all in one go. But whatever you've been putting off, start today. No excuses.
Cornelius Fozzleshit - Sat, 08 Sep 2018 20:23:47 EST ID:Je6TlL8J No.526612 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah you're not in control so stop trying to be in control. Do you understand? You need to build external pressures that will shape your future and get your ass moving.

Go cry to your mum about how depressed you are and how you need to be ridden. Go sign up for some crazy course where you will be required to socialize. That kind of thing. Where the future you is roped into things he cant escape from.

Avoidance is much worse than facing life. It's a painful slow death. So set up some hurdles. I want you to ruin the future you's tranquility entirely.

going outside by Alice Claylock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 14:48:36 EST ID:3DJiiPdH No.526594 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i haven't been outside in 3yrs (no social contact w anyone) shall i go for a walk tonight? i'm anxious can someone say something to encourage me. thanks
Angus Wuzzleford - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 17:07:52 EST ID:yyGqr9Gw No.526595 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You might be self-conscious and care about the way you look, but the truth is that everybody else has too much shit going on in their lives to care. People won't even remember that you were out in public, and that's a good thing. So don't worry about it.
Clara Worthingworth - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 18:25:34 EST ID:vYe3Po+d No.526596 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i do it everyday while smoking a joint
Angus is right, people are way too self centered to care about you
Frederick Benderway - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 19:11:40 EST ID:IGacNWIZ No.526597 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Go to your nearest mirror right now.

Stand in front of it and repeat after me..



Caroline Bipperwill - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 20:26:58 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526598 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah being in public and doing nothing particular is basically a cloak of invisibility.

You may linger in their consciousness for a second max. Even the sexiest women I've ever seen quickly leave my mind within a few seconds.
Hannah Dovingridge - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 22:15:37 EST ID:4zGRX33c No.526599 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Wow yes!! Get the heak out! Just breathing air outside would do you good. I couldn't image a day not at least Stepping outside. AWW you poor thing. Go outside for an hour tomorrow, just breath and smile- 😊

I don't know how to love people. by Nigel Blackway - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 09:44:40 EST ID:y1QPhs6D No.526584 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I feel like I'd just be better off alone. I can't do relationships the way you're supposed to and trying to force it only stresses her out and spirals me into a bout of semi-serious self-loathing. For as long as I can remember I've felt like I was worthless and a burden on everyone around me. Growing up I was legitimately terrified of letting my parents out of my sight at places like the zoo because to me the possibility of them just up and deciding to leave me there was a very real thing.

I've felt apart from everyone and everything for my entire life. I'm a permanent outsider, I don't think the way they think and I don't feel the way they feel and I don't think those gaps can ever be bridged. I've been sure suicide was an inevitability for me since I was ~11. We were in the car and it was one of those eureka moments, it just made perfect sense. It seemed so obvious and true, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

The idea of letting someone in and showing them what I am and them loving me regardless has been the only thing I've ever cared about. Other kids wanted to be firefighters and astronauts, I wanted to be a stay at home dad. The only ambition I have ever had was to love and be loved. The problem is that I just have a fundamentally different view of relationships than anyone else I've ever met. I don't enjoy physical contact, it just makes me uncomfortable. I won't try to hold your hand, I won't try to kiss you, I won't try to put my arm around you. I don't mind doing it if it's important to the person I'm with but if you want any of those things you need to either initiate it or tell me, not hint, that you want me to do it. Same deal with sex, the physical aspect is whatever. I could do without it. If it matters to them I'll go until they finish and then we can stop.

To me a relationship just isn't physical. The emotional and mental connection is the only thing that matters. Physically having someone is less than worthless but to everyone else it's an inextricable part of what a relationship is.

People make me nervous, I don't understand them and it took me 24 years to realize that mayb…
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Priscilla Madgestadging - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 11:15:35 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526587 Ignore Report Quick Reply

As a result of actively identifying as an outsider with an inability to connect or associate, you instinctively choose to behave/relate in a way which would always allow you to be the outlier. Without this, your whole reality would crash.

Your post outlines how, since you were 11 you have been began molding and idolising a suicidal, disconnected identity that lingers longingly for love.

A lot of your physical intimacy issues will just stem from being a socially awkward and insecure guy who never really learnt the flow of expressing yourself physically, because your schoolyard persona was never given the room to have that.

TBH man this isn't really a situation you can just shake off overnight. Neither is it a situation that you should do nothing about. Handle your business, man. I'm sorry, cause I get it, in it's own right half this shit is like my own. I'm not above the fact you've gotten to this point, I can feel sorry for it. But you posted here and crying for you isn't gonna help you move forward.

Change or don't. Relax a bit, stop thinking so much about it, loosen up, fake it till you make it. If you've never known what it's like to be a livlier, happier, more socialable, relatable person - then you are gonna have to take notes and monkey see, monkey do. Fuck knows dude. It's that or a date with a train. Make your choice and see it through.
Nigel Blackway - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 14:08:13 EST ID:y1QPhs6D No.526593 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thanks man. That was oddly accurate.

I was doing great like a month and a half ago, happiest I'd ever been. Then I saw this girl for a couple of weeks and that's a story unto itself but since she broke it off it's just been up and down.

I don't think it's about her, I wasn't really into her physically or personality wise. Only went out with her because I was single and figured why not? Unsurprisingly I haven't had many relationships and naturally I was an awkward fuck and I think the whole thing just tilted the fuck outta me. I was feeling good, felt like I had life under control for once and then when we stopped just hanging out and started dating I sperged the fuck out.

Every day I feel a little bit more like I did before the shit with her so I think I'll be alright. Thanks again man, sometimes you just need someone to give you a smack and tell you to pull your head out of your ass.

RANT by Shitting Mittingworth - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 04:07:03 EST ID:ZHxB44Gj No.526571 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>Save up and move to new city
>Savings running out and still no job in are I want
>Lower standards for job by a lot
>Only job I could land is 2nd shift (and even that I have to get a family member to beg them to give me a job)
>All the things I enjoy doing happen while I'm at work
>Been at this shit for 5 fucking months and only 2 interviews that went nowhere

The biggest joke of it all is the "bonus" they give for working the BEST FUCKING HOURS OF THE DAY. $0.75 GODDAMN CENTS. "Hey thanks for giving up your social life and ability to date anyone, have some pocket change."

Goddamn I rarely get girls to talk to me and as soon as I mention I work evenings they're fucking GONE.

And then I can't even tell a potential employer I'm available immediately cus I gotta play nice and give a 2 weeks notice because of the family member working there I don't want to get burned.
Although I finally found one place that has a proper thing on their app today.
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Martha Bluckletag - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 04:15:42 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526572 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Unless there is some sort of legal / financial penalty written into the contract, I say just bail without notice if a better paying, better hours job does come up. It sounds like your situation won’t get any better unless you arm yourself with the maximum potential to do so. Fuck the family member, they should understand.
Beatrice Shakeville - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 05:18:59 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526573 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Archie Dimmlestone - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 21:41:24 EST ID:/dEZm7Qz No.526581 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I recommend you work at a commission based sales job, no experience required but it's difficult
James Fizzlegold - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 02:40:24 EST ID:ZHxB44Gj No.526583 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Aint' bout to fuck over the guy I need to help me fix my truck in any way.

>Dealing with people

The only two things I absolutely cannot do for a job:
>Dealing with customers
>Driving. Including being required to drive to different places for work(Like if I was a roofer and going to a different house every day), I don't mean just like being a driver. I'm not a good driver, I learn my path to and from work and stick to it. Don't change it up on me!
Lydia Chingerben - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 12:18:11 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526589 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe talk to this guy? If he's really a close person he'll understand your situation,can you trust him? If so the answer is clear. Make sure he understands how grateful you are for all he's done, that you wouldn't be where you are without him but need to build on the break he gave you.

If you're literally not willing to do anything then what can you do?

I'm filled with hatred and generally dissatisfied by Rebecca Fuckingstone - Mon, 03 Sep 2018 16:08:48 EST ID:dwxJXzd4 No.526519 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What do I do? I can't trust anyone else. I avoid other people and relationships on principle. I don't have anyone to talk to, and I can't imagine anyone actually caring about any of my problems. I couldn't imagine having a connection with friends or family the way other people do, all mine are dead. What do I do?
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Martha Bluckletag - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 10:13:03 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526575 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>"But nothing excites me man, so a change wouldn't work"

How does the idea that this could be a "self fulfilling prophecy" make you feel?

Does the accuracy of these statements get undermined by being "filled with hatred and generally dissatisfied" when you made them?

You might just be depressed and bored of trying.
Nell Blomblebot - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 10:30:37 EST ID:KH8fuQ2A No.526576 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I find that I am back to serenity when i understand that the hatred itself is the issue and not what it is addressed to.
Phyllis Bumblehood - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 14:20:35 EST ID:IBtardIs No.526578 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That's the retard who accuses/projects BPD onto everyone. Just ignore him. It's a common BPD trait to see BPD everywhere due to their own difficulties assigning boundaries.
Rebecca Crezzleheg - Thu, 06 Sep 2018 20:53:29 EST ID:N8SnPlnn No.526580 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Literally my first time posting about that here. It's also not characterized by difficulty assigning boundaries, but by a perceived lack of safety.
Oliver Shittinglock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 13:55:17 EST ID:QvLOWJrn No.526591 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Lying is also a noted facet of the borderline personality. Learn to heal yourself before you learn to heal others.

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Guys and gals I need your help.

I'm a simple guy 27 years old, I live in Kiev, Ukraine. Single. Work as a GP in a district clinic.

There are two girls I have recently hooked up.
One of them is a brunette, lean, pretty, long legs. 27 year-old virgin. She comes from a decent family, had just 1 boyfriend which she didn't love.
She is very traditional, can cook borschtch, a bit chary on petting and stuff, but that's understandable. She is the kind of girl you merry and have kids with. She isn't that fun or interesting (even though she is a doctor too), kinda too into her own superstitions, but really decent and nice person.

The second one being 18-year old hottie, not virgin, blonde, medical student. She is a lot of fun, she gets all things that I love, but first one doesn't. Like computer games or youtube or english. She likes me a lot too and has very big breasts for her hight. She told that she'd like to have a boyfriend that is older. And she cooks too.

The thing is, couple of days before I got into a quarrel with a first girl over her stubbornes and not willing to do... stuff with me (she even said 'before marriage' words) and I immediately fall into arms of the second misstress. She turned out to be cool and interesting too, even more! But then the first one came arround an told that she reconcidered her ways and we can do stuff, but a bit later. And we did some petting which wasn't allowed earlier.

So now I am here, stuck between two girls who (to some degree) like me, the first one even more then ever. And I like them too... both of them. And I can't seem to make a decission.
The first one represent my grown-up married future, the second - my bachelor past which I wasn't getting much being a medical student. And she is an interesting person too. whichever I let go, I'll regret and miss. The choice is huge, so please help me. I will really listen to your advice.
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Angus Gondlewater - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 21:30:47 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526502 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm not going to judge you, I don't care to and I don't have the energy for it. I think the dichotomy you find yourself in is the "fun" life verses the "stable" life. Both have their advantages, and both can be done so wrong such that

My honest opinion is that you should pick either 2 or nothing. I don't know 1, you might know her well. It sounds to me like 1 wants you to be something that you're not. She wants someone who will love her honestly. But she is beguiled by your charms. I'm sure she also likes your standing in the world. You do not treat her well, let us be clear. You will tire of her, and in fact you already tire of her. She has her problems and you have yours.

I think there is potential for positive growth with 2. You seem to click with her in a way that you don't with 1, a better way. Now, 18 is a child, whereas 27 is a grown woman. I feel like you are less mature than 1. 1 wants you to be a king, but you are still a prince. The child, however, is more becoming to who you are, and represents a great potential for both of you. You are the care-taker of your domain. Most relationships now are partnerships; yours will be more unequal, as it will depend on you being a good caretaker.

I think you shouldn't pick either of them if you are going to hurt them, or abuse them. I am of the opinion that, deep down, people tend to know that they are doing something wrong. I think you are a conscious and smart enough person to know the difference between helping and hurting people. Even if you aren't abusing her, the next pitfall that people fall into is being an overly controlling. It is best that people be gently guided, given the freedom to make of themselves what they will, but also needing to be told to cut out behavior that is not acceptable. One cannot let one's self be abused, as anybody can potentially be made to abuse others, sometimes without even knowing. This is the proper temperance that is needed, in my opinion, to create the best possible life, given the circumstances.

In summation, I think this kind of relationship with 2 is natural to you.
I think that nothing good will come of pursuing a relationship with 1. I suggest you turn her down gently, because you are fully aware that she likes you. Take care not to let her get dashed on the rocks of life.

Can you tell me what Kiev and Ukraine is like? I've dreamed about going there ever since I was a teenager.
Do you mind if I ask you a few questions?

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Angus Gondlewater - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 21:33:07 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526503 Ignore Report Quick Reply
One last thing, please do not fuck 1 if you don't love her. That will hurt her
Eliza Chasslewill - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 23:45:16 EST ID:1Sy6jFKw No.526507 Ignore Report Quick Reply
This. The doctor is probably just baiting you into marriage and will never have sex with you again.
Lillian Fommerbury - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 22:13:19 EST ID:t0KhKNIC No.526559 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Please ask any questions you want. I'm OP.

Still haven't made a decission, it is so hard that I'm up at 5 am.
I made out with 1 yesterday and reserved 2 for today.
I just can't break up with people, because I have been dumped many times and I know how painful that is. I can't cause such pain even for their own good (and I'm a doctor).
The thing is, maybe I'm doing math wrong? Maybe 1 will be good in the long run, she is such a rare girl to find... or am I just fooling myself? Jeez...my head hurts.

Kiev is great this time of a year. It's nice and sunny, everybody wears sandals and stuff...
Samuel Punninghitch - Wed, 05 Sep 2018 15:54:57 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526568 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>I have been dumped many times and I know how painful that is
Just imagine if that girl strung it out for years while you could have been finding someone better. That's way more fucked up.

Imagine if it was 5 years and she didn't put out lol.

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