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fuuuuck by Emma Bebberville - Sat, 25 Aug 2018 20:40:49 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526350 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i think i missed out on my life
i'm 26 and don't have hope
i've probably been too high for too long
idk i just wanted to live but depression and shit killed my youth. i couldn't get out of bed, i had too much pain and i just wanted to die for too long
there's a kind of lion king like scenario i think could happen, i see a lot of opportunity right now, but i can't see very far ahead. i don't know if i will be ok. i want to build a dream but i think i will die. i've been deeply wounded by my past, i'm gonna die soon if i don't figure out this life purpose shit. i need to not be a loser fast or i will die.
i need to figure out what i can do here. i feel like it's not too late yet but i'm gonna fumble the ball. i'll probably make a thread here when i commit suicide. will buy a gun give last words
i will die before i live a conventional life. i want to get face tats like peep and get lost in that beauty. envelop me into the eternal and take me out of this life
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Augustus Fullyhod - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 23:37:44 EST ID:Q1HFcsAq No.526506 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Thanks for speaking to truth man, i needed to hear that right now. im 23 years old and married with children, spending my days drinking wine and smoking weed just watching my sons grow up and feeling guilty that im no better than my dad. at least he had the decency to drink himself to death away from everybody. Working everyday just too fall further into debt is truly soul crushing.
Jenny Finderlitch - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 02:49:17 EST ID:k4mRlrdA No.526539 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I get where you are man, but yeah, obviously daily drinking and weed will exacerbate your depression and drain your bank account.
Cyril Pengerchut - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 14:03:43 EST ID:CrliaKl9 No.526549 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You know what OP? The time you put into writing your post; you wasted valuable time. The time you spent looking at this post; you wasted valuable time. What are you doing for fucks sake? Get out there and live fucking life, you're still relatively young; you have no time to waste. Stop complaining about what you haven't done, it'll only lead to more suffering. Just go and LIVE LIFE!

No fucking ifs or buts, this week; go out and live life, cause fucking anarchy. Do whatever. Live it.
Charlotte Doshnack - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 14:37:39 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526550 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Dr. Squires: “You have any idea what I would give to be you again, not you specifically, but me at your age doesn’t get any better.”

Luke Shapiro: “Tell me it’s not true”

Dr. Squires: “Fucking living, It’s great, living. Get your heart broken, find yourself face down in the gutter, get your balls sucked, make a real mess of a life.”
Caroline Dorringhock - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 19:22:11 EST ID:K+JHX4kL No.526555 Ignore Report Quick Reply
When I was 24 I met what I felt was the love of my life. She was 20 and she was in love with a guy who was 30. All he did was play the guitar in Barcelona and dream of building his own farm.

So please OP don't lose hope, you could have a qt falling in love with you in 3 to 4 years if you just learned to play the guitar. That fucking easy

Struggling to deal with girlfriend's fetish by Doris Goodwill - Tue, 14 Aug 2018 17:57:58 EST ID:RdJtcLxF No.526119 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I started seriously dating this girl about two months ago, after we met up a lot through a mutual friend, and things were going great, really well, she's gorgeous, kind, funny, and slightly strange, I had always noticed that about her, but then sometimes I got this smell off her.

It was really off-putting, but other than that the sex was great, until one night, recently, she revealed her damn fetish to me, and frankly I don't want our relationship ruined, but it really sickened me, and made me actually sick, and she says she wants to do it, and it'd be awkward if I knew she was into that and just kept up the sex as normal, but one night she revealed her fetish to me, and I felt sick because I already am not that into seafood, but she had bits of dead and slightly decaying octupus and squid glued all over her with some temporary adhesive. She said she payed top dollar from a local fish market for it, but I wasn't taking it, I just couldn't even begin to think of going down on that. She also had fucking fish heads in her hair, actually tied into her hairdo, and a bit of squid dangling out of her vagina. It wouldn't have made much difference it were clean, but it was really rotten smelling and she was swarming with a couple of flies, and I just..like I can't look at her and get that image out of my head, it's like it's mentally fucking with me.

Thing is, I want to be open minded, and I still like her, it's just that it's really sort of off-putting. She has a freezer full of squid and octopus and bits of fish and shrimp, and it's just really weird to even think of her doing it while I'm not looking. I don't know if I can go down on her again. I mean thing is, I don't think it would work going back to a non-sexual relationship now because of this. I don't know what to do. I can't move forward with the relationship now, it's ground it to a halt. It's like I can't even see her like I did before, it's getting in the way of everything.

I need advice on ways to proceed. I like her, but...the squid, I just can't, it's like finding out she has a shit fetish, but this is even worse somehow.
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Lydia Pipperwitch - Sun, 19 Aug 2018 03:23:12 EST ID:d0yIZUZa No.526260 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Blowfly girl was a blog and she still updates various pages every few years if you go looking for them.
Ebenezer Nebberwere - Sun, 19 Aug 2018 03:54:27 EST ID:BWixFWfs No.526261 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah bro bitch on blogger
Beatrice Gicklestone - Sun, 19 Aug 2018 05:38:46 EST ID:oEmJazXS No.526262 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dear Diary,
Today i found out that girls can be pretty gross too.
Phoebe Nadgewell - Sun, 19 Aug 2018 06:47:36 EST ID:Om/gGBzM No.526263 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well I stand semi corrected. Still probably fiction though.
Esther Fungerhick - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 16:51:03 EST ID:K9TuRsSb No.526551 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Is she a weab?

Trouble with relationships by Beatrice Blallydock - Mon, 03 Sep 2018 22:34:42 EST ID:PwNoStIJ No.526534 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hi friends, google has not been that helpful with this so I hope you can offer me some advice.

I get a fair amount of matches on tinder and I remember having some women approach me in the past (mostly when I was an autistic teenger, pic related). The problem is, I have a very hard time keeping interest in these girls after I start talking to them. It might very well be a anxiety problem, but I think that I have a problem connecting with people in general.
>TDRL: Anxiety or something else is stopping me from having a relationship

Any advice is appreciated and I hope you all the best.
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Walter Hacklewodging - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 01:22:51 EST ID:ROV6S8rz No.526538 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You have trouble keeping them interested or have trouble finding interest in them?

For the first one keep trying.

For the second, acknowledge that you don't know them yet and that people can surprise you. Tinder text exchanges arent representative of a person, more their style and game. Also acknowledge that it'll take time to become interested in anyone.

You might be finding excuses not to try to pander to your anxiety.
Charlotte Doshnack - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 08:33:49 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526540 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You should evaluate on a case by case basis. It might not be that you are incapable of connection with people - just with this person.

I have very little interest in giving my energy to women in even very mild forms, if I find them boring / irrevant. The thing about having a ton of matches on tinder is that it’s not useful for finding a quality connection.

Try tailoring your pictures and bio to target the type of women you would be interested in meeting. Assuming you are a nerd, this would mean mentioning shit like anime, gaming, sushi, metal etc and wearing clothes which drop cultural markers about such things.
Nigel Wabberstock - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 12:14:46 EST ID:vnSf6+Hd No.526544 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Nope, I'm new here. Stick around in the thread and we both might learn something about this.
> You have trouble keeping them interested or have trouble finding interest in them?
It dosen't bother me that random people on tinder don't seem interested in me, that just seems to be part of the game. It does bother me that I give up once I start to message them. It's a mix of thinking that it'll be a waste of time (since it's only lead to one unsatisfying date so far), and anxiety. A few years ago depression sabotaged my first attempt at a gf but I'm pretty sure that I've conquered that obstacle.
Charlotte Doshnack - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 13:22:10 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526545 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Sounds predominantly like an anxiety reflex. Low self esteem, poor processing of potential outcomes and remnants of depression also look like factors from here. Deal with that stuff through youtube, self reflection and eh, going out and doing shit about it.

You can do this bro. Message these chicks dude, have an open mind - allow the transient nature of Tinder dating to make you feel like just another face in the crowd. This empowers you, your past experiences are done, you don't have any ghosts following you into this new room, the more time you spend out there in the jungle, the more you realize how little you can base off pre-existing experiences.

You will always be presented with a unique situation, a unique person and a unique outcome.

Just overcome that flash of "bawww nooooo i'd rather sit inside and be comfortable and safe and warm" feeling that sparks up whenever something challenging comes up. Once you've beaten that messaging block, there will be new foes. Enjoy the game brother.
Cyril Pengerchut - Tue, 04 Sep 2018 13:55:47 EST ID:CrliaKl9 No.526548 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I can kind of relate to you anon, the problem is quite far from the same; but maybe it'll help you or something...

ATM i'm kinda with a girl, we have made out and stuff. She is hot as fuck and when you look at me you'd never think she'd ever want to be with (i'm not ugly or anything; just there are better looking) but she is, it's a blessing. Anyhow, i don't quite feel that i like her; but yet we still see each other because i may never get a chance ever again.

I've never experienced truly love, since im a virgin i kind of want to loose my virginity asap, because what if i never get a chance again, especially with a girl this hot? And after the deed has been done, slowly put her out of my life; and then really try to hit on the girl im really interested.

I probably need mental help.

How to help someone with low self esteem by Charles Drablingtadge - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 22:42:18 EST ID:1+yo65Y/ No.526491 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How can you try and cheer up someone who thinks so little of themselves?
I've been spending lots of time with this girl over the past 3 months, basically spent the past 3 days hanging out all the time. She's INSANELY pretty but has such low self confidence that she'll get upset if anyone compliments her because "I know other people think that but I don't think that about myself so it makes me hate myself more".

I don't want to put too much pressure on myself to be the one to cheer her up, but she's a great person and we've become good friends, I think she's very lonely where she is right now and doesn't have many friends in this area.

I spoke to her and asked how I could help and she just said to treat her like a person, which I guess is what I've been doing. But I really just want some kind of golden combination of words that I can say that will fix things, but I guess that isn't really how humans operate.
Nigel Gellyhere - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 07:03:22 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526496 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Most problems have to be worn down and picked at until some well time statement becomes the culmination of the previous points and they all fall into place.

Or they don't. Also focus on things she has full control over and is entirely the result of her efforts. Her choice of clothing, her taste in music, if she does something kind or decent that most people wouldn't. Don't be too heavy handed either. Cool top, good choice of albums, that's a thing you'd have wussed out on and felt bad about.

What do you admire about this girl aside from her face?
Ian Fanwill - Mon, 03 Sep 2018 08:21:44 EST ID:you1GmBN No.526511 Ignore Report Quick Reply
She's just very different from everyone else I've met. It's like, if anyone I knew were to not exist, they would be replaced by someone very similar to them. But with her she's a truly unique person in the whole configuration, maybe that sounds like a weird way of saying it though. Her art is very good and she's a very genuine person. I think she's very trusting, kind, and in a weird way she's kind of endearingly self centred, maybe that's just my infatuation with her speaking though.
Clara Crunnerfield - Mon, 03 Sep 2018 13:04:10 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526513 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well if you want to cheer herself up you need to ensure it's from a pure place. If she is into you then it's fine but if she's not and you are cheering her up but she knows you want to jump her it will negate a lot of your shit.

However if she's funny about her appearance try other avenues, the art. You can't just compliment her outlook but when she does something her, sometimes it's got to be possible to indicate approval without patronising her. Otherwise just demonstrate her value. Actions speak louder than words. Make her feel like she matters sometimes.
Hamilton Serringdure - Mon, 03 Sep 2018 14:39:30 EST ID:vYe3Po+d No.526517 Ignore Report Quick Reply
draw her as beautiful as possible and give it to her

LSD to help my friend? by Nathaniel Blasslestock - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 05:42:27 EST ID:rZAfZP+s No.526440 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have a friend who has been clinically depressed since her teenage years, she is 21 now. She is suicidal almost every day and struggles even with her antidepressant medication and regular therapy. I try to help her and talk to her every day, but I fear that she might kill herself sooner or later. Just today she was taken to a hospital because of a panic attack.

My question is, should she take LSD? She has never done any drugs before but is open to it. She would have to stop her medication for a week or so. Im asking because LSD has done a lot to cure my own depression. I understand that this is not a good set/setting but Im just wondering about opinions. Also any tips on helping someone like her is appreciated.
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Henry Hombleridge - Fri, 31 Aug 2018 12:10:16 EST ID:ehhnNOgT No.526464 Ignore Report Quick Reply
better shrooms than lsd. You never know what you're getting with LSD.
Alice Smalllock - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 06:56:34 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526473 Ignore Report Quick Reply
There's been experimental proof that they help as part of therapy and with guidance from an appropriate counsellor. Plenty of people go crazier taking psychedelics or any other drugs. 420chan has the full range of outcomes for almost every drug knocking around. I think the take home is that the approach and person taking them is important. Taking mushrooms or LSD would be a huge risk. It might work but OP should ensure they mitigate that risk and increase the odds of a good outcome by researching and understanding what they're about to do with their friend's FRAGILE FUCKING SANITY.
Nigel Garringdot - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 09:32:27 EST ID:rZAfZP+s No.526474 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah I'm worried about how stopping her medication would effect her in the first place, I'm not going to encourage her yet as it truly is very risky for her.

And to be fair, I think if someone is interested in the psychedelic experience should at least try it. You are judging LSD like its heroin or some shit.
Samuel Pidgewill - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 20:58:46 EST ID:K+JHX4kL No.526488 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Don't start directly with LSD. If she's depressed she needs to first understand why is she depressed. Weed is good for this and it won't fuck you up if you start bringing back shitty memories or just feeling negative. Weed is very uplifting (unless you smoke a lot)

If weed is not enough then try mushrooms, but make sure that she does some relaxing exercises first, some meditation or affirmations, maybe some role play about freaking out and learning how to control herself.

Then if mushrooms don't work you can try LSD. But for depression I would suggest weed->shrooms->lsd
Nigel Gellyhere - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 07:22:43 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526497 Ignore Report Quick Reply
SSRIs will basically stop LSD and mushrooms working. So depending what meds she's on they may be wasted anyway.

Also it depends what the cause of her problems are. Therapy might imply there's trauma but it might not. It might just be a counselor helping her manage her symptoms and maintain coping mechanisms. If she just has a brain chemical imbalance (which happens) then none of this shit will help and all she can do is medicate to take the edge off and do therapy to increase her strength to carry the weight of her problems with. It may also just be shitty therapy and the wrong approach. One of my friends was depressed until nearly 30, then he started a new SSRI and used the boost it gave him to get a new therapist who helped and make a few other changes. He's stopped beating himself up about being him and started just doing things he enjoyed without worrying about if this made him a loser and it's good.

I am spoilering the below just to emphasise that I don't expect miracles but I do have one bit of advice that might give reliable if subtle results.

Also this will ABSOLUTELY NOT CURE HER. BUT. Make sure she's sleeping well (or trying) eating well and exercising regularly. These will not cure her (they can cure mild depression) but they will make her feel slightly better and are worth doing. A healthy lifestyle just makes everything that little bit better and easier and as a result does have slight but material mental health benefits. If she's struggling every little bit will help and conversely a poor lifestyle does deepen depression. If you want to help her, then help her with her meals and take her out for walks or even a bit of cardio or lifting. It'll be good for you too so you both win. What will give you the best results depends on the time you have to spare and what she does and is capable of. Also you might make this mutually beneficial so she'll feel much less guilty, maybe even good about it if your own lifestyle currently has room to improve.

Experience with getting help/medications by Eugene Cresslehall - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 13:09:42 EST ID:SrLhDcSV No.526480 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I feel pretty bad, guys. But I don't know whether or not I should be writing here.
There's some part of me that cries for help, and another part that tells me to avoid.
But still, hundreds/thoursands of people with real problems and depression... my problems are not real problems. My mother just got in without calling and saw me crying, and this angers me.
I have a psychiatrist appointment in three weeks... I don't think will commit suicide before then... but the psychiatrist was known/colleage 4 yearsa go and I won't feel comfortable.
I feel really bad... I'm actually not sure my mind is working properly. I'm exagerating. but I'm still not sure I'm not... I'm very confused.
Eugene Cresslehall - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 13:23:54 EST ID:SrLhDcSV No.526481 Ignore Report Quick Reply
don't take me seriously
I feel better after I wrote about it and cried
I was being over-emotional about irrelevant issues. I'm emotionally very weak.
Samuel Pidgewill - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 21:08:01 EST ID:K+JHX4kL No.526489 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No need to apologize for feeling bad. We all feel bad for one reason or another, that's how we end up in this board.

If you don't feel comfortable with the psychiatrist you got then it's gonna be a waste of time. Try it once anyway, maybe you have some preconceived idea of how's it gonna be and it might end up being the complete opposite

There are no "small" issues. For you something as petty as seeing a dead ant might cause an anxiety attack. It's the size of the pain in your chest that counts.

What exactly makes you sad? Your job? Have no friends? What if you could wish to make 3 significant changes in your life, what kind of things would you wish for?
Martin Creddletudge - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 03:25:45 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526493 Ignore Report Quick Reply
trauma stays with you but you can release it
Cedric Fankintat - Sun, 02 Sep 2018 06:22:52 EST ID:SrLhDcSV No.526495 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thank you.
I dont know. Im crying again. I hate being melodramatic.
I feel if I tell others about what bothers me I will be judged.
Im sorry about this. Im writing here because I need some relief and maybe attention, but I don't seek relief properly.

Kill Me by George Waffingput - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 11:29:35 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526445 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I am only attracted to women who are circling the drain in a wild party ride of destroying their own life. Every female I try to engage in a relationship with fits this pattern. Why am I such a fool? I see my mistakes and do them again.
Reuben Nebblehone - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 12:14:54 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526447 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe it’s because like attracts like, or at least something relevant.

These chicks are like heroin mate because they introduce chaos, excitement etc when the going is good.
George Waffingput - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 15:25:15 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526451 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I don't know if my brain will ever defeat my dick. My latest girl left me for heroin binges. Hurts, man. She was recovering. But what did I expect honestly? Relapse is the word, boys and girls. Relapse.
Phineas Fumblesere - Fri, 31 Aug 2018 13:00:04 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526465 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Girls like that don't make up the majority. OP isn't just attracted to good looking girls, he's attracted to a set of signals be they behavioral, style or outlook.

Sometimes you've just got to stop writing off women who don't fit the view you're looking for and give them a chance. I'm not saying date someone you have nothing in common with though. Just try actually getting to know them. Realise that there's a whole bunch of ways for someone to be a decent person.

As others have said, it's also possible his own state scares off a lot of decent ones and attracts the weird ones. Maybe the aesthetic and manner he likes isn't owned universally by hot messes but the ones with a chance at life see OP and just NOPE while the ones who are fucked find him extra attractive. Relationships are a 2 way street.
Beatrice Bremmerwater - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 13:47:34 EST ID:cBYQH4Mo No.526482 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Maybe you guys are right. I do party a lot and talk about partying a lot. I guess I'm just an ape lacking in any speck of self-awareness like so many people. Tonight I have a date with a girl who I think is only into drinking and weed... but I'm still sad over my last wild child. I just don't know why I'm so thick skulled on this issue.

I have severe mental problems and don't know what to do by Nathaniel Turveyville - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 21:28:57 EST ID:CzsIkqaR No.526376 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I can't connect with any other human being. I don't know what I'm doing any more. I've asked for help dozens of times over nearly a decade from many different people and places, and I've never found an answer. I don't have family or friends. I could die and nobody would notice for weeks. I don't really take much joy from anything.
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Ernest Pudgefield - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 09:42:57 EST ID:vYe3Po+d No.526427 Ignore Report Quick Reply
^^^^^ you're both cancer and shouldn't use the internet
Fuck Trothall - Fri, 31 Aug 2018 02:02:58 EST ID:wcqQCL4Z No.526458 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Right, you both fuckin' suck

OP don't kill yourself
Oliver Sablingfidging - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 11:07:08 EST ID:HUUepmZy No.526476 Ignore Report Quick Reply
that's icky
Eugene Cresslehall - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 12:42:44 EST ID:SrLhDcSV No.526479 Ignore Report Quick Reply
nice, op
The only reason I don't KMS is because I love my parents and I don't want them to suffer.
I wish I had real problems and no family around me, so that I could end it all happily. My suffering won't make you feel better. I know what I would tell to you, but I don't tell it to myself.
' God !!Bwteoy2D - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 14:44:14 EST ID:1t+J+EG9 No.526483 Ignore Report Quick Reply
seconded nb

Neurological condition? Always on full alert. by Alice Brockleheck - Mon, 20 Aug 2018 16:17:23 EST ID:Nps4ltow No.526271 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I feel like I'm always restless and on full alert. I can't sit still, I can't relax, I walk faster than other people, I notice things before everyone else, I have to pace myself when socializing to not either speak too much and too quickly or to sit completely silent. I have essential tremors (my hands shake when I try to hold them still), moderate to severe insomnia, and concentration issues. I'm often worried and cautious for reasons that I logically can see makes no sense, it's like it just pops up in my head and I have to reason it away.

Much of this I've had for as long as I can remember, my room was always a huge mess and I never finished projects I started since at least 10. I also had the tremors back then. I was diagnosed with ADHD in adult age, which symptome-wise seemed to hit the nail on the head. Amphetamines helped me with school but not anything else (rather made it temporarily worse).

I've been thinking about it for a while and came to the conclusion that I likely have some kind of neurological condition. Like I have an overproduction of adrenaline or something. I want to find out if anyone recognizes these symptoms and can give me some pointers on what condition it might be and how it might be alleviated, if possible. Taking a pill or doing some kind of medical procedure that makes me able to relax, focus, and just become a calm and normally functioning human would be very interesting, potentially it could increase my life quality hugely.

I rarely drink, smoke weed maybe once a month. Other than that I use low (2.5-7.5mg / day) doses of dexamphetamine on occasion when I need it for school. Maybe seven days in total per month. No other medicines, no allergies, and my diet is pretty healthy. My life is largely happy and fulfilling, I don't suffer from any depression or anxiety and I work out and do sports several times a week.

Any help greatly appreciated!
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Ernest Chimblehall - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 13:18:51 EST ID:Nps4ltow No.526429 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Thanks for your responses. I've never really considered anxiety but it might be so. The conflict is that my life is good now and I'm happy or at least content almost all of the time, so anxiety doesn't seem to fit for an explaination.

My life used to be chaotic, lots of drugs and depression and acute anxiety, as well as no future, unemployment, isolation etc. But I started to turn it around 4-5 years ago and the last two years or so have been mostly sober and largely without anxiety/depression/isolation.The last one year in particular has been great as I've started university and had a sense of worth and purpose, as well as something stimulating and meaningful to do in the days and daily social interaction with good non-junkie people. Drug use the last year has been limited to the occasional joint maybe once a month with a friend.

I've always thought of anxiety as something you can tell that you have, something acute. That's how it's been before. Can anxiety be something more subconcious and lingering? If so, how long does it take to get rid of it? I can't really say that these symptoms have gotten noticably weaker the last year. And also, I've had these issues since I was a kid and that was before all of the drugs and depression etc. On the other hand I grew up in a kind of dysfunctional family (alcoholism) so that might be the root of it all.

Seeking medical help would be difficult because (public) healthcare in my country sucks. I'm sure they would say something like "you're in uni, you're not depressed or anxious, you don't have any problems with daily life, there's nothing wrong bye". Can't afford private counseling.

Anyone know of any exercises or methods to deal with it?
Nell Bunningbanks - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 14:55:09 EST ID:y1QPhs6D No.526430 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Sorm Plorgson Syndrome
Martin Hebbertack - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 23:11:04 EST ID:YBNFgFst No.526437 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Anxiety can definitely go unnoticed. Take me. I was having anxiety attacks, avoiding situations left and right, missing milestones etc. all through my youth and that was completely normal for me. Whenever I felt nervous I bailed on a situation. So by the time I was in university having a nervous breakdown I hadn't realized that all of my life I had been crippled by anxiety. It was normal to be tense and afraid you see and my avoidant behavior was too good so I wasn't bothered by it until the hammer came down and it was do or die. And die it was.

You talk about having too much adrenaline. Anxiety is when your fight or flight reflex kicks in at inappropriate times and releases adrenaline. Ding ding ding.

Anxiety isn't intense feelings of doom all if the time. It can be subtle. It's being hyper aware to seek out threats.

As for how to minimize it, well you have your exercise down pat which is a major one for baseline agitation. Meditation, yoga, nature, sobriety etc. also help. You sound like you already have the CBT approach down where you challenge illogical thoughts with reason and evidence which is awesome.

The main thing though is exposure. The more time you spend in uncomfortable situations, the less anxious you will be. It goes away with time and comes back with neglect. That's it man. Anxiety is for life. Embrace and tap into your heightened nervous system.
David Bezzlebure - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 07:15:56 EST ID:2VHGSexR No.526443 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah the seeking out threats all the time is so true. Found this condition called hypervigilance and it describes me perfectly. Constantly seeking out threats.

Another thing I though about was my anxiety issues when taking my perscribed dexamphetamine. I think that it could be because of my underlying anxiety rather than being a direct effect of the pills. I used to hate social situations when medicated because of the sense of bad pacing and saying odd things/talking weirdly, so using it for anytime other than shutting myself in and studying would be avoided at all costs. But then again back 10+ years ago I used to do speed with friends and strangers and had no such issues.

Anyone got some experience with using ADHD CS-meds for everyday life and/or social situations with non-druggies?
' God !!Bwteoy2D - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 15:17:12 EST ID:1t+J+EG9 No.526450 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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loled multiple times

A thought occurs by Frederick Semmerdudging - Tue, 28 Aug 2018 18:53:45 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526409 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I think that I don't try because I don't believe that I can do it. So for me to keep a schedule or do things that don't involve getting high is pointless in feeling
What can I do? How can I believe that I can win? I want to make something in this world. I "think" I know, but I don't do it. Maybe, however, I'm just being lazy as fuck
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Fucking Buzzson - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 16:04:40 EST ID:BgYDrKs0 No.526432 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, i think i'm about where you're at. i need a more organized way of living. i've come across enough information that i can do it. i just need to.. actually do it. i've got everything i need. now i need to start. to do that i need courage. as i said it's hard to do that
sometimes courage is not feeling like a lion having his moment in the sun, but rather a certain resourcefulness that comes from living in a gutter, and staying alive and making at least one more decisiontoward your goal
Rebecca Billingridge - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 17:03:36 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.526433 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Fail upwards brother. There is always some small act of defiance to your shittiness that you can take. You might not have done the 1 hour workout, got up late and spent the day in a depressed haze. But right before bed, you managed to sort your socks and do 4 lazy push ups. You still did something, you still did something.
' God !!Bwteoy2D - Wed, 29 Aug 2018 17:56:07 EST ID:1t+J+EG9 No.526434 Ignore Report Quick Reply
belief equals action.

why do you care, just do what you think you are able to and do it for your own enjoyment or whatever it is that you want out of life.
Thomas Follyshaw - Thu, 30 Aug 2018 10:31:05 EST ID:vYe3Po+d No.526444 Ignore Report Quick Reply
same here OP
i'm a lazy motherfucker and i'm only getting older
Alice Smalllock - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 19:43:27 EST ID:X1WDhwYW No.526487 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's not just courage. You're thinking "I just need to step up" but sometimes you need to step the tasks down.

I mean even years later there's days when you have to make yourself revise a page at a time, do a workout 3 minutes at a time or even tidying the flat one work surface at a time. Most of the time you won't be like that, but my point is that the real trick isn't being able to do a huge task in one but being able to make it as little as it needs to be to do it.

Start with baby steps. Do a few little things one at a time. Success breeds self esteem breeds success. Don't be afraid to take tiny victories and just build up. The key is being steady and consistent.

But that said consistent doesn't mean "Never fail" it means when you fail you get back on the horse. That losing 140 pounds thing? That's 1000 calories deficit a day for a year with 3 months of 500/day either side of it. Some days I got stoned and ate a whole box of cereal, so I said "fuck" and didn't keep things I didn't intend to eat around the house. But I also got back on the diet. That box of cereal wrote off the day's deficit and the next one and reduced the next day. But if I'd gone "well I fucked up, might as well go nuts" i could have lost weeks and weeks of progress. Those fuckups didn't even show up in the long run because I made sure I walked that extra mile and so on the next week or so.

What do i do? by Hugh Drullershaw - Sat, 25 Aug 2018 09:20:10 EST ID:XXWfsfKR No.526341 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Give me advise:

My sisters try to rape me and my gf is half dead and I'm extremely depressed.

My parents hate me

One of my sisters is trying to sell me.

My other sister has been raping and molesting me since i was 5.
John Bunnerchet - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 00:40:04 EST ID:/B3STLHy No.526365 Ignore Report Quick Reply
How are you
Molly Bronderhood - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 08:03:01 EST ID:wJavO91C No.526366 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Get as far away from all of them as possible and cut contact.

It's not your fault you were subjected to that shit. I'm pretty sure a lot of domestic violence shelters would take you in. Go to or call a local rape crisis center and ask them for help. They can help you from there.
Molly Bronderhood - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 08:05:40 EST ID:wJavO91C No.526367 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Going to add: I was sexually abused as a child, by my father.
Also experienced some really horrible shit in my adulthood. I have PTSD from that shit but I'm working on it.

If you want any specific types of advice I'd be glad to help if I can.
Barnaby Bruckledale - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 10:51:01 EST ID:USegjpbZ No.526369 Ignore Report Quick Reply

How would I know if I’m cracking up? by Phineas Hendledock - Sun, 26 Aug 2018 04:01:04 EST ID:jD3D6TzE No.526354 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Does anyone here have a psychotic disorder? Is there any way to tell if I’m developing one? I have other mental health problems that can lead to some auditory and thinking weirdness but I don’t know the signs of...going mad basically. I’m a little concerned because of how much stress I’m under and also family history
Ebenezer Pazzlecocke - Sun, 26 Aug 2018 14:08:39 EST ID:HUUepmZy No.526357 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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If you think you're going insane, you probably aren't. At least not until you brainwash yourself into being insane because you think you're insane.

If you were actually crazy, you'd have problems with literally everyone else and think it's their fault. Whether it be their perceptions of reality, their judgments of you, or them calling you crazy. You still would only be briefly aware of being crazy once in a while.
' God !!vVWR8L52 - Sun, 26 Aug 2018 14:44:32 EST ID:cnUt34or No.526358 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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The label is only warranted by those that can no longer function in life or in society. I had periods when i was madder than a lot of people in the looney bins and managed to function and no one really noticed anything too far out of the ordinary. But what was happening inside the head was way out of the ordinary. So as long as you assess that you are still able to function you are not mad and if you see yourself dangerously close to it, just take time off in nature and relax, catch up on sleep, walk, breathe air, relax give it some time and you will feel a lot more yourself.

There is also another kind of madness and you get there by worrying that you will. It's analogous to death. The more you are afraid of it the less life you end up having.
Barnaby Bruckledale - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 11:00:09 EST ID:USegjpbZ No.526372 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That's disgusting )=
' God !!vVWR8L52 - Mon, 27 Aug 2018 11:14:18 EST ID:XGM5gCjT No.526373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It'll set you free through.

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