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50mg zaleplon mundanestential crisis fuck you fuck me by mexxed !cDJp28xb8w!!CLeaAsfK - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 13:24:41 EST ID:U0vRG2V5 No.515399 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I hate you. All of you. And everything this site represents. Not in general, but to me personally. Don't take it personally. This isn't about you, it's about me and it's about me hating you while hating myself on 50mg zaleplon after being clean for like 2+ years impulsively taking it because my fiancee had another fucking autistic meltdown tantrum whatever you wanna call it. And is now in the psych ward.

Just hear me out, I'm 50mg of zaplon (Sonata), listening to Ecstasphere, and I have no idea what I;m doing. Why was this a good idea? Don't worry, it wasn't, I just want to get to sleep since it is 6 hours past my bedtime and I have an appointment tonight. OH IT'S A BLOG LETS ALL SHITPOST MEME ARROWS COMING THROUGH


The're fucking with her meds. Dopamax won't change, can't change, they help the migraines. The 24 hour long ones that never ever go away. In Prozac, out Paxil plus Buspar. Sure whatever. Two weeks later where the fuck did you get all those marks and scars on your arm?!

I've been picking.

It's getting worse.

Now back to Prozac, no more Buspar. Instead Trileptal. In additional to the Dopamax. Question mark?

It's getting worse. It's getting much, much worse.
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mexxed !cDJp28xb8w!!CLeaAsfK - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 18:04:28 EST ID:U0vRG2V5 No.515465 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515459
I dunno if I feel "superior", though I'm sure I come across as contemptuous of just about everyone, and that includes myself. Often I put myself first, maybe it's self-centered, maybe it's part of avoiding dealing with others, maybe it's a legitimate way of prioritizing one's life; but ultimately I think very lowly of myself, and I don't think I'm better than most people. I know I'm smarter than most people. Or rather, I know my IQ is significantly higher than most people's, for what that's worth, but all that means is I'm better at recognizing patterns and understanding abstract concepts. It means I'm different, that I think differently than most people, and so it's one reason I can't relate to most people. Dissociatives made me operate on a "dumber" level, more short-sighted, only focusing on one thing at a time and feeling one emotion at a time, so it made it easier to receive the surface-level shit that constitutes daily interaction with people.

You're right that it's all the same processes and mechanisms, just expressed differently based on class and culture. I didn't find anyone in Trenton who I could sit down and have a long, involved discussion with, without it veering off into weird anecdotes, conspiracy theories, or general misunderstandings. Everyone was poorly educated, most people solved their problems with shouting and fighting, and generally venting at each other. I suppose the term "genuine" is misleading here. What I really appreciated about it was that it's more immediate and direct. It was *easier*. And people weren't engaging in long-term mind games to embellish their public image, most social interactions were forgotten two minutes later. In a middle class setting I find myself getting caught up in obsessive thinking. The same neurotic, obsessive thinking that most of my neighbors are probably doing too. I have to put up extra layers of bullshit because I don't have any positive traits, and it's exhausting. I find myself worrying about bullshit like did I park my car too close to my neighbor's car and does that make her uncomfortable? When I smiled and wav…
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Martin Fuckingford - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 18:34:52 EST ID:bAj8skhr No.515466 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515465
Sorry, when I said you were delusional about yourself I forgot to type the word "not". You are not delusional because you realise you're just like everyone else. You're in the sort of misanthrope who doesn't think "everyone else is stupid just not me".
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mexxed !cDJp28xb8w!!CLeaAsfK - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 20:22:15 EST ID:U0vRG2V5 No.515468 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515466
I see, that makes more sense now. Yeah, I really don't think I'm any better. As I said above I might act like it in public, and it might seep out as I speak in private, but it's more of a defense mechanism, an unconscious attempt to avoid embarrassment and other unpleasant thoughts. Unfortunately, I think most people are at least emotionally competent enough to see through that. Maybe I'm wrong. I don't like to play guessing games over how smart or how perceptive people are, I just assume people can see through me or are going to judge me regardless, and then sometimes they prove me wrong. Guilty until proven innocent.

I *used* to think I was better than other people, but I quickly grew out of that after high school. That was more of a rebellious teenager thing than anything. It's easy to believe a lot of wrong things when you're a kid, because you simply haven't seen enough of the world, experienced enough, or dealt with enough people. You've got a very small frame of reference, and it works the same way the other way around where very depressed kids who think very lowly of themselves go and off themselves because their small world isn't treating them well at the moment, and if they'd had one more distraction or one more word of encouragement, they might have been able to tough it out and start an adult life of much more "interesting" mental illness.
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Nathaniel Trotshaw - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 20:25:56 EST ID:zbKXnohS No.515469 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515465
Get an animal. Cleaning up shit every day makes you reassess your place in the world.
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mexxed !cDJp28xb8w!!CLeaAsfK - Sat, 15 Apr 2017 02:56:39 EST ID:U0vRG2V5 No.515482 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515469
Okay this I really would never do. I thoroughly dislike keeping pets, it doesn't do anything for me. I'm likely to neglect them. I grew up with a dog and later a cat, my fiancee had ferrets, rats, geckos, and anoles, and currently has two snakes. I've tolerated these but I just don't really get it. And anyway with my fiancee's worsening symptoms lately I've felt like I've been cleaning up shit every day, metaphorically.


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お問い合わせは
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Cyril Sockleman - Sun, 14 May 2017 15:25:32 EST ID:7fS20WCT No.516234 Ignore Report Quick Reply
bh


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I think I have a hex by James Trotbanks - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 00:20:20 EST ID:rRMr7xq2 No.515411 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Is it possible to reverse the bad luck that just doesn't seem to go away?

I was born in New York City, lived in the Upper East Side with my drunken mom, failed stock broker Dad, and a former female advertising exec, who was born in 1913, but she died when I was 10, in 2000.

I went to a boarding school for bad kids, studied photography but never learned any life skills, such as love for myself because everyone was verbally abusive.we would hang out in Greenwich Village and fuck around sometimes.

When I graduated, in 2009, I moved to Florida to go to film school, which I completed in 2013. Still, I had to learn how to survive, such as cleanliness and consideration through humiliation. Like I didn't know how to take care of an apartment, people had to show me and I feel bad.

Then I moved to Hollywood to work for a promoter, who at one point had to teach me how to unclog a toilet. I left after a few years for Vermont. LA is very expensive. I stayed at this no tell motel called the Retan, but sometimes I slept in WeHo park, sometimes I'd turn up WeHo, lol.

Anyway, I now live in Vermont, work out of a public access chanel, I have 80 followers on instagram, can not sell a single print on the etsy link to my store, and the public access chanel could care less if I show up and seem reluctant to help me with the editing, when I am there.

Is it possible that I'm cursed? That no matter how good I am at something, I just won't surpass beginner? Is someone angry at me? Am I being haunted by a ghost? Are all my strengths actually bad things? Can anyone relate at all?
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Lydia Dromblestone - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 13:10:03 EST ID:2DYHN+3R No.515424 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515411
curses and hexes aren't real. magical thinking is appealing but ultimately just leads you away from the real problem.
why do you sound so ashamed of not knowing basic cleanliness and hygene? if you didn't learn those things at home, then somebody had to teach you. most kids i know who move out go through a period of living in filth before they get their shit together.
and don't feel bad about going to art school, education is important and art is necessary.
you sound stressed by your current circumstances, though. do you have any goals or hobbies that you enjoy? you could start saving for a vacation if that's what you're into.
you live in vermont, do you like the outdoors? try going hiking or camping on the weekends. maybe take mushrooms in the woods. do you like fishing? have you ever tried?
you sound a little like you're giving up on your own happiness. but you get out of life what you put into it. there is no higher power dictating your circumstances; just yourself.
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John Greenstock - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 19:20:05 EST ID:tldOIKN9 No.515467 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515411
Stop trying to blame shit on spooks. We are all products of our enviroments. The key is to change your enviroment. Just today I read some bitch's facebook post. She said she sold everything she had and rented out her apartment. All of her possesions fit inside a 30kg backpack. No keys, no nothing. She's in Russia now or something. Ask yourself what you want in life. There can be several answers to this. Then figure out the best way to achieve it. Nothing will happen over night. You have to dedicate yourself to yourself and it will sure as fuck be hard, bro. You'll die one day. It might be tomorrow in an accident it might be in 40 years. Either way life's a bitch and then you die, that's why we get high!


financial shit fuckin with my love life by Cedric Lightspear - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 11:45:11 EST ID:p328CkaU No.515454 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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so i'm renting a room with my girlfriend. i wait tables and support both of us because she doesn't work. Won't work. She gets fired every few months from shitty jobs that get progressively shittier and pay progressively less, and I support both of us. I don't fucking care for that at all. The only things I want to take 100% care of are my houseplants and my fishtank. She won't apply for anything because her 'resume isn't ready'. It's been months she's been working on her resume. I finally get her to apply to a local Carrabba's where she'll have to eat shit but be able to make a living wage I worked there a while back, it turns steady volume and it's taken her 20 hours AND COUNTING to finish the application. This shit is pushing us apart and she knows it. We've discussed it. She gets whiny and starts talking down to herself whenever I bring up work and it's making me crazy. She NEEDS money because now it's gotten to the point where I'm paying off HER debts, making her rent payments, buying her food, weed, and it's looking like I'll be taking care of all the money when we move next month poor timing, but one of our room mates is a thief and a druggo so we gotta go . I'm starting to feel really resentful, since I can't break up with her over it because she'll end up homeless or something--she refuses to take care of herself. I care for her a lot and we've been together for a few years but this shit can't continue. It's gotten to the point where I'll bring up her getting work and she ends up storming off in tears. It leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.
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Beatrice Fennerfoot - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 12:06:24 EST ID:75sBUhBz No.515456 Ignore Report Quick Reply
What does she do all day then?
If you're enabling her to have a free ride and then complaining about it, there's not much we can do about it.

20 hours to finish one (1) job application sounds like either procrastination or laziness. Not having a resume ready means either that she has poor planning skills, or she feels that it's not necessary for her to work.

She's your girlfriend, you live with her, and you are the one who knows if she's capable of pulling through her issues. Is the relationship worth it?
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Cedric Lightspear - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 12:20:02 EST ID:p328CkaU No.515457 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515456
She sells her used panties to weirdos on the internet all day. brings in like 150 a month. sometimes she works on a local food truck. I don't know, man. The way she talks and behaves makes me think she's developed anxiety over working a steady job [and getting fired again]. I don't know how to stop enabling her without torching the whole relationship.
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Martin Fuckingford - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 12:57:38 EST ID:bAj8skhr No.515458 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515457
Speaking as someone who was unemployed for ages she probably has developed that anxiety. I was sending in job apps but I didn't want anyone to accept them after the first couple of months. In the end though I forced myself to overcome it because I had to. I failed a few times while I had savings but the moment I had to overcome it I just had to.

But I just had to suck it up, force myself and I also had to need it. I had to have a reason. The anxiety of losing all the progress I got while unemployed as a person did it for me.

Your girlfriend probably needs to know this is upsetting you. I'm not saying sanctions or blackmail, no yelling, no insults, just telling her that you feel this is unfair. She needs to feel that actually she can't just cry and go home. But at the same time if you deliver an ultimatum it's gg. So you've got to convey to her that you find this unfair and unacceptable and are unhappy and make sure she understands without telling her off or abusing her. Then one of two things happens. She wants to improve because she cares about you or she doesn't want to improve because she is a selfish bitch. When people say no ultimatums I think the important thing is that there is an ultimatum but only you get to hear it. She doesn't know anything except that you feel this has to change and you feel unfair and hard done by and you have to fight as hard as you can to encourage her to pull through. If that's not enough then you've drawn a line and you wont keep saying "oh no I can see she's trying" when she's not improved in years.

Anyway my point is. Make it clear. If she doesn't give a fuck dump her. Maybe instead of smoking your money she should get therapy. That's the third option.
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Simon Gosslepag - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 13:27:05 EST ID:ivgDi1vU No.515460 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515454

If your sister was financially supporting a guy who couldn't hold down a job what would you say to her? HEll, if your GIRLFRIEND was in the situation you are now, what would you say to her? You would say "You deserve better" or "You are not responsible for other people's happiness. I know you love this person but their life is fucked and they are dragging you down with them" You should be saving money for your future, not helping someone get by when they aren't trying.

Now, she is probably not trying because she is going through something awful. But you aren't a psychiatrist, you can't make someone happy while they make you miserable.
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Cedric Clozzlelot - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 14:33:55 EST ID:2c08/Cs/ No.515462 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515457
How does one get into the used panties business? Do skid marks and vaginal goo fetch a higher premium??


Currentlywithout a a means to go out and at a proverbial rock bottom by Rebecca Deblingwure - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 07:04:24 EST ID:9aH9/ci+ No.515452 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>became homeless in January after living in a care Home
>had to move in internet less house with mother and her younger kid
>I have no friends nothing to do aside from go on iPad dongle internet atm

I feel like I'm going insane , the buses are sparse today as is good Friday and younger sister is being fucking annoying with my detestable gibs me dat mother.what can I do right now? I wish I had friends to visit (thanks to years of incompatibility with autism and social anxiety )or another means to go out . Even the library is shut today , I really wish I could turn back time and tell myself that things would get this worse.
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Beatrice Fennerfoot - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 11:56:33 EST ID:75sBUhBz No.515455 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Hello friend, let me teach you a spell!
The past has already happened and it can't be changed, but we do have the ability to set the course for the future!
Giving in to social anxiety protects you from bad experiences with people, but will also keep you from having good experiences with people. A double edged sword!
So here's the spell! From this point onward, you are in the now, the present! You should find a small charm or pendant or other type of symbol and use it to remind you of this spell! You're here, right now! Don't get distracted!
If your life is like a bookshelf and it's empty, let's find some hobbies and fun things to put on your empty shelves!
And once you fill your life with enough things that you enjoy, people are not far behind!


Here is a good one by Emma Sullernare - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 22:32:35 EST ID:qgSlhkvl No.515409 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I had a kid with a girl awhile back.
She cheated and got with one of my friends and had two kids with him.
It has been over three years since our breakup now and idek how long since her and the other dude split.
Well he isnt handling it well and called DCF saying some shit about how we use to beat my son who I only just recently have even been able to see much.
Anyway I guess he is getting an MRI to check for skull damage or some shit.
Obviously I would never beat my own kid and I think its crazy how he can even say that when it has been years since I lived with my boy.
The question is, because I know what a low down piece of shit he is and my kid used to live in his house, what if he did something to my boy only he could know about and is now trying to pass blame? Besides me wanting to kill the motherfucker, what would happen if something came up in the scan?
I barely even understand what is going on right now.
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John Lightdock - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 17:01:20 EST ID:tDogmvzg No.515440 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If it really came down to any legal resolution, which it probably wouldn't, he'd never get away with trying to claim that you did it (assuming anything actually happened) when he's been the one who's actually been around the kid and you haven't at all. I'm sure you're fine.
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Molly Goodford - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 20:25:54 EST ID:qgSlhkvl No.515447 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515440
im more worried about them finding something and making sure he goes down for it.
I dont want anyone messing with my kid ya know?


Coping with severe and permanent sexual dysfunction by Wesley Pessleworth - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 14:47:38 EST ID:SkKdT5RW No.515429 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I won't get into the specifics but I'm male, early twenties, and I have lifelong sexual problems that started when I was 15. I cannot get a full erection, I can only get a semi in very specific circumstances and it disappears instantly. With Cialis I can get a harder erection that might work for sex, but it also goes quickly, and it's also smaller than my dick used to be when it worked which makes me worry it's going to keep shrinking forever. It looks physically normal, but stays flaccid. I don't really have a libido anymore either, but I wish I did.

Anyway it's horrible. I've been in situations where there's mutual attraction but I have to turn girls down because of this. The lack of sex I'm resigned to, but I'm scared I will never have a relationship in my life (I never have so far and I'm a virgin). It also fucks with my self-esteem constantly.

Help.
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Charles Buttingchuck - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 15:03:17 EST ID:JjS09sqw No.515436 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515429

Find a girl with low libido, and when you want a kid take a bunch of Cialis

Go to a different doctor
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Wesley Pessleworth - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 15:17:44 EST ID:SkKdT5RW No.515437 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515436
Going to a different doctor would not work, there really is NO known treatment or cure anywhere. It is a very rare problem. There's forums dedicated to it with a few thousand members, and I'm among the most severely affected even there.
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Nell Bankinman - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 15:19:03 EST ID:Wt8UMMMt No.515438 Ignore Report Quick Reply
if you live in Arizona check out Summit Male Medical, i hear their fucking ads on the radio all day every day. otherwise look for some sort of penis specialty clinic
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David Sockleson - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 17:22:56 EST ID:jPpWgI0N No.515443 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515429
I just got an idea OP. ANAL is FOR YOU. You don't even need to be hard to orgasm from anal OP. It takes practice though, and a strong manly will to get over societies gift of "guilt", but it might work.
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Shit Bomblebuck - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 19:51:18 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.515446 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Can you get horny and orgasm? If you can then all you need is an understanding partner who isn't into penetration. That's really not that hard to find dude, lots of women fit the profile. If you can't and/or you have negligible libido, then you might as well start thinking of yourself as asexual and seek other asexual people. They're rarer but not so rare you're fucked forever.


worried by Samuel Crossleshaw - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 14:07:17 EST ID:o17OU1gQ No.515337 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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my girl friend is a little crazy
we've been together for a year now
when it's good, it's great. i can easily imagine spending the rest of my life with her.
but when it's bad..
she's said bipolar runs in her family, maybe it's just that. but it seems worse than that. a few days ago when she was in the midst of an episode she looked up at me wierdly calculatedly and said "i feel like an ape. i feel like you hate me." and when i gave her a look of disbelief, she quickly smiled and said, "i know you love me though". that really, really unsettled me. this was after she woke up feeling bad and cried for hours, i finally convinced her to get dressed and i took her out to lunch cuz usually when she gets like this she won't eat which only makes it worse.
she's said before when she feels bad that she feels like i hate her but she never pushes the point when i tell her i love her. this last time was so wierd tho and she seemed so convinced that i worry maybe she's starting to get psychotic breaks? where she feels like i'm a threat to her
i've been cutting her a lot of slack with her emotional problems cuz i got problems too, i'm dealing with ptsd and it's getting better every day. i understand having bad days.
also another thing, she gets overwhelmed easily which can lead to yelling or crying or blaming me. for instance if there's loud music playing and a phone rings loudly, or if she had a stressful morning at work and i wasn't able to meet her for lunch and there were too many people where she eats lunch, she won't eat and that makes it worse, etc. and of course this all has the potential to be way worse if she's drinking.
two or three months ago she was pretty drunk and i was telling a story about an old friend of mine and i confused her for my friend (i have a terrible memory) and she lost it on me, telling me i don't care about her, etc. we were with friends so she waited till we got home for it to get really bad. she yelled and screamed at me for hours. easily enough time to sober up. at one point i was so scared and mad about what she was saying that i was literally shaking, she was yelling and getting closer to me and acting aggressive. i tried walking away but she followed me.
anyways the next morning she was super apologetic and bought me breakfast. she promised she would get help. which is the only reason i'm still here. but she hasn't yet.
of course it's more complicated than that, first she had to get a job to afford therapy. i signed her up for medicaid and she got her card in the mail. but she still hasn't talked to anyone.
and like once a week or every two weeks when it gets bad she says she wants to dissappear or die.
i know how much mental illness sucks and i want to be there for her cuz i love her to death.
but i don't know how long i should wait fir hr to get help. all my friends think i should probably leave her. she doesnt trust me to go out with them, i mean she says she does but if i go out with them without her she has a melt down, and she won't go out with me and them cuz she doesn't like them, she thinks they disrespect her.
i feel like all this could be fixed with a lotta love and therapy but she hasn't talked to anyone. i feel like maybe she's stringing me on about it. i can't talk to her about it cuz she gets defensive. but she has told me she's scared to talk to someone, which i totally understand.
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Ernest Brookway - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 15:21:38 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.515342 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515337
Someone in her family having bipolar increases the likelihood rather dramatically. My uncle has bipolar and I've got an ADHD diagnosis but bipolar has always been left on the table because there are significant levels of overlap between the two. Don't personally believe I do, but it sounds a lot like your girlfriend really may. Do you notice actual cycles to her behavior? You haven't really explicitly stated if that's the case. It could possibly be some other personality disorder as well.

The whole recurring delusion of you hating her and her feeling like an ape could be part of a psychotic break, but I'd take my saying so with a large grain of salt. Psychosis during a manic or mixed episode can involve a lot of strange things that are hard to identify unless it's glaringly obvious. I'm taking the ape comment to be her referring to her looks and otherwise simply stating that she can't believe in the possibility of you feeling anything but hate for her. That's not really too far out there as far as ideas go, it could be more of a reflection of her depressed state than of psychosis.

I would definitely find some way to get her to seek help. I don't know if there's something you can work out where you go with her or what, but even if you two weren't in a relationship, she needs help. This isn't a sustainable lifestyle for her, there's no way she could function as an indepedent adult. I hope something gets worked out and she winds up stabilizing. My uncle has been pretty out there all my life, going on and off medications and things. There have been several times he's spoken with my dad on the phone and told him he knows the family hates him and that my mom never wants us to see him, even though none of that is true. Reminded me of what your girlfriend was saying. As a result of not sticking with treatment consistently, he's had a pretty turbulent life. I wouldn't want that for anybody, so I hope you guys work something out.
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Eliza Sesslebury - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 18:43:59 EST ID:b6NWvqxD No.515353 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515342
It's kind of hard to say if it cycles. She does have depressive episodes and then manic episodes, but they mix together confusingly and happen really quick. Like, she gets off work on a sunny day and feels great and decides to do a million things and see a million people and have a drink and forgets to eat, and suddenly at the end of the day she crashes and cries for hours and says insane things like "you don't love me, you haven't been trying" and when I reassure her that I love her and I've been trying to hold her and take care of her she says that she knows those things are crazy but she feels them.
Either the depressed part where she says she wants to die or the manic part where she tries to do too much and tires herself out, can happen at any time, or even kind of at the same time. Either way whichever one is happening she won't eat or sleep, which only makes it worse.

When she aknowledges that the thing she's thinking is crazy, that's something that at first gave me hope, if she knows something is illogical then she can logically fight it. But she seems incapable of that. Now it's something that worries me. If I feel an illogical surge of jealousy, I evaluate it, feel it, and let it go, recognizing it's a nonsensical feeling. But these things for her are so real, it's like she actually can't tell which is reality, because they still affect her so much. Like, if she really trusted me and knew that I am not going to cheat on her if I go out for a night with my friends, why would it cause meltdowns when I even just bring up the idea? She says stuff like "I know that's crazy, but that's how I feel" a lot and it's starting to worry me. Like... if she knows it's crazy...... I'm starting to think she maybe doesn't know what's crazy and what's not.

Any tips for how to encourage her to get therapy? I've tried telling her positive stories about how a psychologist helped me with my PTSD symptoms, and I've offered to go with her.
But every time I bring it up she says stuff like "you don't think I'm doing enough to get better" or "I'm reading a lot online about …
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Barnaby Greenfuck - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 04:28:24 EST ID:CMJjVefm No.515368 Ignore Report Quick Reply
my mom has bipolar and all this shit really hits close to home. though I don't think she's worried about my dad cheating or anyone thinking she's an ape. most of the other stuff is spot on. to be honest, if she was just an acquaintance and not someone who raised and cared for me, I would cut her from my life immediately but probably still feel bad about it. She did do pretty well when she was talking to her therapist, but when she stopped seeing him things got bad again. if your girlfriend finds a good one it could be a lot of help. but I also wouldn't hold it against you to dump her. It's the simplest option to preserve your emotional well being. don't let her suck away your happiness, but if she's willing to seek and accept help and try to get better, then support her.
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Lydia Dromblestone - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 13:33:09 EST ID:2DYHN+3R No.515425 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>515368
thanks for the reply. at this point i'm hoping it's bipolar because at least then it's not psychosis.
i got invited to a dnd group meeting this friday for the first time, i'm super excited i've always wanted to tabletop and my girl knows this. anyways so i tell her and she falls apart.
when she stopped crying / sulking she explained that she feels really bad. that hearing that made her feel insecure, controlling, angry. like she felt like telling me i couldn't go.
hearing that honestly freaked me out cuz that's unnacceptable in a partner! if she was acting out those feelings i would leave her ass so fast, controlling is no bueno
but she was aware of it and fighting it so that's good right?
i honestly don't know any more
sometimes she can't step away and analyze those feels, sometimes she just lashes out
and it's been months since that shitty night and she still hasn't even called someone


Unrequited love by Augustus Dullyfore - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 08:18:41 EST ID:SkKdT5RW No.515376 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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No point going into the specifics but I was really close friends with a girl for nearly a year and yesterday I told her that I wanted to go on a date with her and she rejected me so I told her we had to go our separate ways because I couldn't handle being friends with her anymore. We parted on very bad terms, hard feelings on both sides and I think the bridge is well and truly burned.

I'm 21, no other close friends at all, nothing else in my life, and I've never had a girlfriend. I just want to know how to stop the pain.
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Wesley Mattinghall - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 12:51:27 EST ID:bAj8skhr No.515380 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515377
Looking after yourself, good diet, good sleep, exercise always helps with everything.

It rarely solves anything that isn't "I'm not taking care of myself" but it always helps.

Time helps but so does working on your life. I don't mean getting swole or whatever. I mean the friendship and other things lacking in your life. Time flies if you're busy so OP should get busy working on those things. Easier said than done but it'll help. It also means you won't have all your eggs in one basket, will be more attractive and if your entire life isn't one girl might even be able to stay friends after she rejects you.

You've got a lot of work ahead of you OP but it's a lot of room for improvement that is well within your ability to achieve.
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Betsy Pockville - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 13:34:41 EST ID:n2nAOgk8 No.515381 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515377
best answer. time heals all wounds .
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Caroline Pubbercherk - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 14:42:01 EST ID:UrQwPY3E No.515403 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515376
If you're going to just lay in bed, at least lay in bed and think hard on all those memories shared with her. To the very last detail. I think you kind of... wear down those memories, and eventually after some time of feeling like absolute shit, you can actually get up and do something.

Changing your habits or starting something new also makes it easier.
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William Bunfuck - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 12:51:07 EST ID:/X9QnBJ+ No.515423 Ignore Report Quick Reply
about to turn 27 and im still in the same boat you are in OP, wish i had answers myself
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Edwin Shittingdock - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 18:21:36 EST ID:2c08/Cs/ No.515444 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515423
Turning 27 and still ronery af :((


Bastard General by Fucking Bittingwater - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 20:22:24 EST ID:iXl3cRAo No.515408 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anyone here have absolutely nobody to get your back or support you?

My family was abusive, left them for good and even when I came back they still don't see what they did was wrong, apologize or even attempt to be a decent person.

That being said, living on your own at 22 is tough as shit and the constant anxiety of having enough for rent, food, and gas is fucking nerve wracking.

Thankfully Im well enough in life that I don't have to.

Now they want back into my life once my sister figured out I have it big.

Tell me your bastard family stories. Because, fuck those fucking assholes.
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Emma Sullernare - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 22:42:49 EST ID:qgSlhkvl No.515410 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515408
I know your feels man. I really do.
I wont add my stories though just because there are too many of them and I dont like to talk bad about people even if they deserve it.
Keep doing you though man. Remember its your life, you dont owe anyone anything to live it
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James Trotbanks - Thu, 13 Apr 2017 00:23:36 EST ID:rRMr7xq2 No.515412 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dude! You have it big, you don't need to talk to them. Don't worry about them. People might be coming out of the woods because you're young and successful,

Block em!


How to act normal by Edward Wambleshit - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 16:31:39 EST ID:idI3VRUZ No.515347 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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thats all I want to know is how to be normal
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Hannah Claydock - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 18:01:15 EST ID:AkBTpOns No.515351 Ignore Report Quick Reply
"normal" is a flawed, nebulous, and misleading concept

aim for "socially adjusted" instead

you can become better socially adjusted with difficulty over time by making social efforts, stepping out of your comfort zone, having a job (or some kind of occupation which keeps you around at least several people who arent friends or family) and basically interacting with people and trying not to critique or disparage yourself by overthinking things you may have done less-than-perfectly in a social setting
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Isabella Hollerwotch - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 20:44:05 EST ID:2c08/Cs/ No.515359 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Fuck being normal, just be yourself.

Rather be weird than boring
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Jarvis Chandlestock - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 05:02:52 EST ID:34xwTbAU No.515370 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You don't need to be normal at all my friend. Me and my friends, and all of their friends, are a bunch of fucking weirdos who would be considered as such by most common folk of society. Yet it's not a problem because we have each other, we have our own interests and activities and perspectives, etc. There is a social circle for everyone.

What I'm guessing is, that you need to work on your social skills, pick up a hobby and maybe hit the gym if you're fat and/or ugly.
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Wesley Mattinghall - Tue, 11 Apr 2017 13:34:58 EST ID:bAj8skhr No.515382 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>515351
I just want to say I like this post. Normal is a really stupid concept and most people have hidden depths of weirdness or are abnormally (lol) shallow.

But seriously, it's not about conforming to an imagined perception of what other people are based on purely on your subjective experience of what they try to project moulded by media and society and expectations (both your perception and their actions). They're all wondering when they're going to be found out, hiding what a mess they are or whatever too. Just focus on functioning productively and enjoyably with them, if you're nice, helpful and competent everyone will be receptive to you and give you the benefit of the doubt as long as you don't do something to actively alienate them. I'm not very good at that but I know it's not my weirdness, it's just my shyness that holds me back.

I know sometimes it's not like that but if you're not in school and are somewhere with a judgmental atmosphere your problem is that you are spending time there. I've heard a lot of shit about workplaces which are awful here for example, but they're almost always retail or burger flipping. Occasionally they're not but usually those stories are about a single rotten egg.
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Ernest Blytheman - Wed, 12 Apr 2017 14:39:28 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.515402 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just obsess about being normal and ask strangers on a drug-based imageboard for advice on how to act that way, I'm sure that's how all the normal people do it. You already seem pretty normal to me, good job so far!


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