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How do I Open Relationship! by Sophie Wepperkark - Sun, 12 Nov 2017 22:57:01 EST ID:8ZGXI+3c No.519975 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have a girlfriend. She's a lot younger, in her early 20s. Im in my early 30s. We met on a cuddle date and have since fallen in love. I always said I wanted to be open. Im her first relationship. She's an awesome girl! She said ok to being open because she really likes me, but she does not like it, and says she "does not enjoy thinking of me with another woman."

Most women consider me attractive. I'm good looking, tall, fit, white, educated, good career ect. The point is, a lot of girls get interested in me. I really like my girlfriend, but come on I want to me open so I can get with all these other girls. I was also in a committed relationship for most of my 20s so after I left that for the first time in my life now I get to sew my wild oats.

This girl I met at an event was 17 but lied and told me she was 18. She turns 18 for real on later this week and wanted me to take her out. I'm asking to see her ID. Just a dinner, and holding hands date. She's head over heels, and she's hot a fuck, and a giggly teenager. I want to hit it. It's really fucking nice to be my age and have a hot as fuck teen into you. Most guys never get this chance.

That said, I have a girlfriend and although we are open, I have not acted on it much. I know she will hate the idea of me waiting for a girl to turn 18 then start seeing her. So I tell my girlfriend before the date? Or only after I have sex with this 18 year old? Or just tell her after the hand holding date that I might fuck her soon? Do I need to tell her all since we are open?

This seems like a hot situation, and it kind of is, but this drama stuff caused me a lot of anxiety today. I dont think it's wrong if I fuck the teen, but I dont want my girlfriend to get upset. It's a weird situation that causes me stress.

How would you handle the situation if you were in my shoes?
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Isabella Trotlock - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 02:10:34 EST ID:ehiQjzru No.520371 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Go to circlejerk's r/polyamory. Look at how much drama being in an open relationship causes and how it can break a relationship and then how in denial those people are about it. Not that it can't work, but 9 times out of 10 it won't.
Walter Grimhall - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 06:14:59 EST ID:oXo9Ddud No.520374 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You sound grooooossss. No wonder you have to date young and stupid girls.
Rebecca Hagglenudge - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 12:01:47 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dude don't fuck up that girls first relationship. If you want to bang the teenager, leave your gf alone.
Ebenezer Mobbleled - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 06:49:18 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520408 Ignore Report Quick Reply
My name's op, and I'm a desperate faggot who has to fuck 18 y/o teens, because everyone my age can smell the bullshit.

Lol op, I cant stand bottom feeders like you, willing to manipulate teenies.
William Fevinggold - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 13:29:56 EST ID:/j1uSyoO No.520414 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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OP, I've been in a open relationship and the rule of thumb for the most part is that is a "no go", my man. A co-worker asked and I turned her down because I knew she liked me and I really enjoyed her company. We made out a couple of time out of drunken shenanigans, but I made it pretty clear to her that was as far as we we're going to go.

Needless to say she stopped talking to me for two weeks and we have remained good friends since almost a year now and she has stopped asking me for sex because I told her it will ruined the relationship and she will be the one to fall for me. We just remained friends till then now and I havent spoken to her in like 2 weeks because I've moved jobs and I kinda seeing someone, but we have gone out to eat like a couple of times the past month. Very rarely will both people say "this is just a open relationship" when in reatlity it isnt because you will start acting like a couple "or the person will" and you guys will talk like your dating. Terrible Idea OP, cant have it both ways. It either date her or just be friends.

My fucking sister selfishly fucked me over by Luz - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 23:43:22 EST ID:t/vP7t46 No.520366 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Started getting into monster hunter generations for real, made some friends then my fucking little sister was selfish and wanted me to not touch or change her mii's nickname on her nintendo ID. I bought her 3DS for 100 bucks because I stupidly threw away mine when I was manic. (I have bi polar disorder.) It sucks man. Now i have to grind and get my old equipment back. Was 33 hours in. FUCK.
Betsy Moddleshaw - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 00:20:36 EST ID:hzUsxH14 No.520367 Ignore Report Quick Reply
first world problems are a bitch
Clara Fanforth - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 04:13:10 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.520373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Get homebrew channel running (you don't even need CFW), get save manager, export save file, plug micro SD into PC, run MHgen save editor on your PC, get sweet gear, grind in a fraction of the time.
You can even delete hacked items by editing your save again once you're back to the same point you were at.

33hours is nothing as Monster Hunter goes
Alice Womblewater - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 08:57:33 EST ID:2xGeiN5Q No.520378 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have no idea how this is your sisters fault. You threw away your DS with the save file and now you’re blaming her? Seriously I don’t get it.

MH Generations is freaking awesome btw. I’ll help you do the Hub quests if you give me your friend code. Had a friend who broke so many of his 2ds consoles and started a new game every time, and it always seemed easier for him to get that gear back quicker each time.

Also my sister plays MH with me. Why don’t you buy a second DS and see if your sister will help you get your gear back?
Ebenezer Mobbleled - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 07:31:01 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520409 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Gotta learn to ask yourself when you get like that, "how many times have I done this stuff, and ACTUALLY felt better after?". Being Manic blows, yes. But you see what giving in gets you.

I'm addicted to controversial topics by John Fodgedotch - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 13:42:47 EST ID:RIZ0ityh No.520317 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I keep going into heated threads about controversial topics I know that'll make me feel like shit, even when it's obvious that it's a bait topic, and I participate in them anyway. I end up feeling bad but I legit can't stop myself. I keep trying to convince myself that I'm actually doing something good by trying to attempt to reason to people. I keep convincing myself that it's all about being "aware" or some stupid shit but it's all because I have some sort of sick attraction to the sort of thing being in heated debates does.

How do I stop myself?
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Caroline Bloblingsack - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 08:39:06 EST ID:N7bhoW87 No.520347 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Uh, I guess I can rest peacefully knowing out of all the stupid shit I've said on the internet, I've never actually threatened to rape anybody.
James Bettingsedge - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 11:42:37 EST ID:fFqdWlVJ No.520390 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>i told him i was gonna rape him
Phineas Blibbernitch - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 12:36:36 EST ID:esuyK5FE No.520391 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i remember when i was a young lad and i first booted up my uncles Quake game and played online. i was about 10 or so. i got completely destroyed in a 1v1 match, like 30-0, and the guy beating me would spam this keybind he had, "Do you like my hard cock in your ass?" that he spammed constantly throughout the match. i had never had anyone communicate to me in such a vulgar manner before. i got scared and turned off the game.
Frederick Brabblechire - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 13:09:28 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520392 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Sounds about right.

Me and my friends used to talk shit all day in Halo while we played. We even made up characters for ourselves just to make it that much shittier if you lost to us. Online gaming was better when you could talk shit on a mic.
Wesley Doffingspear - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 14:46:17 EST ID:hUsx1tbs No.520393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
get off the grid for a few days.

Complete sabatoge by BaccaratZ - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 19:22:31 EST ID:gzv+I5io No.520387 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Specifically looking for creative thoughts of ways to prank/sabatoge some assholes that can't quite let up. Obviously not technically but more to the tune of spam calls or glueing keyholes - just a little more involved.

I'm writing a small piece on political games and reaching for some metaphorical scenarios to convey a point.
James Debblemadge - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 08:24:08 EST ID:jQZ803QM No.520389 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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put a pingpong ball in his gas tank

Trying not to commit suicide (ideation) by Phineas Bucklemat - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 08:45:12 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520148 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So, to start, this isnt a thread about commiting suicide. Its more a question of how can I stop thinking about wanting to do it all the time.

Usually I can get by, and my crying fits were not very frequent. Outside of being miserable, I could get by. But I dont know how well Im going to do this year (holidays). Ever since I came back from the Army, people cant stand me (always anxious and hypervigilante in social settings), and there is literally no home for me here. I dont have family (lucky enough to be the one to find my mother and uncle dead), my wife cheated on me on deployment, and I have no family left (Dad commited suicide when I was 6, but he ran off when I was born).

I dont believe I should be alive, my crying fits have gotten so bad, I spend HOURS crying on and off uncontrollably. I dont see anymore point as I will NEVER get to have family of my own, and regular society is sick of dealing with people like me. My depression gets so bad I begin to feel exhausted and sick from how intense my thoughts are getting (like my mind ran a marathon and used energy from my entire body).

I just dont know what to do anymore... All I can think to do is fake it until I make it. I mean, they're giving me my Masters in Computer Sciences for free, I get to be alive when Ive seen SO many others dead, and die. But I cant find the gratitude in what I have as enough to outweigh the suicidal thoughts.

I desperately want to get better, but therapy and drugs dont work. Anyone have any luck in struggles in their life?

Any advice is greatly appreciated guys. Ive posted here before, and the only advice that seems to work comes from every one of you. I think because you guys arent scared to be frank and honest, and that helps a lot.
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Samuel Wozzlewin - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 06:48:02 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520346 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm sorry man. I wish I understood addiction enough to be able to offer advice that isn't some NA text book quote. That stuff is what got my uncle.
I know it's easier for me to try and make abrupt changes. Because I wont suffer withdrawals. And seeing what they put people through, I cant imagine what being in the drivers seat is like.

I know it's .0000001% an accurate comparison. But when I quit cigs, I had to fight the withdrawals by blaming the smokes they are their fault to begin with.

Hopefully one day we both find a way out of this total lack of value for ourselves. But right now for me it's like convincing myself the world is flat.

I think we can both beat this though. I know I dont know you. But you dont seem to not be kidding yourself about your situation. And I find people like that to be inherintly wise and mature.
Albert Buzzwell - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 12:13:46 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.520355 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Can't imagine how surreal

Oh, you can't... huh?

Well, it's New York. It was a Tuesday.

Too bad for them.

Samuel Wozzlewin - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 18:30:08 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520362 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No, because one minute it is New York, the next minute it's a fucking warzone. Especially for those who live there.
Beatrice Panderspear - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 07:44:34 EST ID:uFJ37hri No.520375 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well you are just now finding out that you attract what you are. I was always superficial because of my social anxiety and therefore none of my friends would talk about feelings or anything meaningful to me. I've always been the dude to get shitfaced with and when I stopped doing so they all left.
Mabe it's the same with you?

you NEED to be selfish to survive. I do the same and toss everything thats good for me away because I want to do this on my own and battle suicide without help but that hasn't worked for the last 10 years and probably will end badly if I don't start accepting help.

What does something for me is having some kind of aim/thing to work towards because small steps are the best way to trigger your reward system. dopamine rocks.
Lydia Clayshit - Wed, 29 Nov 2017 12:59:21 EST ID:7lISsexd No.520382 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dude, come to Armenia. Living here for a day you will start to love your previous life.

Shit parents by Clara Medgetit - Fri, 10 Nov 2017 13:05:54 EST ID:UZC9gHak No.519921 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I want to move and my parents won't let me what the fuck do I do? My parents won't do anything for me. I finally have money to support yaelf and shit and I want to move and my parents just won't take me to the airport to move across the country. Like I finally did everything and they are just fat lazy pieces of shit that won't do anything.

I can't fucking live with them I hate them so much. We live in the shittiest oldest crumbling house I've ever seen. I literally have nothing here it's such a small town I don't have a single friend. Today I woke up because my body won't fuck off and stop being thirsty and have to piss and my dad was in the bathroom (he literally lives in the bathroom he just shits ALL DAY literally he shits 40 hours a day so I had to go outside in the snow and piss do you fucking know what it's like to wake up with no sleep and have to go piss out in the freezing cold bare foot seeing your breath and shit.

They automatically assume I will fail and I have ok way to the airport without them and I have a cat too. I fucking hate them and I just want to leave and never speak to them again. I am no longer they're son. They want me to die in this small town cold and alone and poor like they are. I fucning hate them. They are my greatest enemies and I will not stop until they are dead or out of my life.
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Ebenezer Fullerhot - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 11:53:17 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520353 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah OP, I think it's about time you kill your parents.

Poison dinner with rat poison OP, then leave the house. Easy.
Ebenezer Fullerhot - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 12:04:18 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520354 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>I'm just gonna run in their room with an air horn and blow it and keep yelling airplane ticket and as soon as they try talking I'm just gonna wave around my air horn and skip around the house yelling air plane ticket air plane ticket

That's a great idea OP, but it would go smoother if you did it with a gun
Fucking Hudgewill - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 16:58:29 EST ID:esuyK5FE No.520359 Ignore Report Quick Reply

ricin. in the stevia.
Samuel Wozzlewin - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 18:27:35 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520361 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sodium Cyanide in a mist bottle.
Nell Dusslewat - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 19:48:48 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.520363 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Your problem is that your parents will not drive you to the airport. The solution is to pay someone else to do that. It is ridiculously easy to solve. Taxi services run literally everywhere that is connected to a road. Or you could just make a post on facebook or craigslist saying you need a ride to the airport and you'll pay anyone who can give you one. Surely you know someone with a car who likes money. It's just a matter of price, but we've heard all about these thousands you're making every month scamming people so that should be no problem.

I hate spanish music by Wesley Shittingwater - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 11:05:05 EST ID:0TCBOC2k No.520352 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I fucking hate spainish langauge, music and their influence on current media.
I wish to cum on the face of Decpasito singers and people who're listening to that shit, fuck them!
Call me a racist, but mexicans and the rest of latinos should drink a cum!
Sophie Bimmlehall - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 14:55:24 EST ID:hzUsxH14 No.520357 Ignore Report Quick Reply
puto gringo pendejo
chingate a tu hermana
Wesley Shittingwater - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 15:34:13 EST ID:0TCBOC2k No.520358 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Puto madre pendecho?
Clara Piddlegold - Tue, 05 Dec 2017 15:05:28 EST ID:sCrTtsfI No.520510 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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¿Porque OP? Español es una idioma hermosa.. adémas ahora esto hilo es un hilo Despacito

Not even spanish or latin though.

my mum and sleep deprivation by Nell Lightdock - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 09:19:13 EST ID:wJ9ph+MT No.520350 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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so i've come here because i just want to vent about my mum during my teen years, she was awful

so, my mum has a drink problem, which wouldn't be bad if her personality didn't entirely change after she had a drink. it really is like she has split personality disorder, my dad (who broke up with her during my childhood) said it's like seeing her turn into a 19 year old again, but personally I'd say it's more like seeing her turn into an incredibly spoiled 14 year old. her voice changes, and she basically just turns into an insufferable cunt. anyway, onto how it ruined my life.

she would drink a few times a week, literally every time she had a night off (unless she was too hungover from the day before) and she would get wrecked every time. this would happen on my school nights, mainly. so when i should have been getting a decent nights sleep, instead i had to go through hell (my doctor/psychiatrist compared it to torture when I told her about it, which i'd have to agree with). she would have someone over who was just as loud and obnoxious as her, so i'd have to put up with them shouting at eachother all night, and blasting music (this only stopped after a few years when the neighbours finally complained and we got a notice of possible eviction, they still shouted at eachother all night though). and even if i did manage to get to sleep through this, which i did sometimes, but usually only at like 4 in the morning due to sleep deprivation, not like 3 hours is enough sleep anyway. but even then, my mum would do this thing, which i have no idea why she did it, but she did anyway, probably simply because she likes goading people to the limit knowing that she's not gonna get hit because of having a vagina. anyway, she would *ensure* that i didn't get any sleep, despite all the noise, by knocking on my door and basically screaming "ANNOOOOON, ANNNOOOOOOON" in her horrible screechy drunk voice. banging on the door, and even trying to ram it open (it was locked, but she did this so often and so hard that the lock eventually snapped off the door). whenever i would actually get up and open the door though, i would ask her what she wanted, and every time it would be the s…
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Angus Tillingham - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 10:00:07 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.520351 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Should have slapped the shit out of her long ago to establish boundaries and let her know not to fuck with you. Too late now that you're an adult, you'll just have to move out if you haven't already.
Fucking Hudgewill - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 18:12:35 EST ID:esuyK5FE No.520360 Ignore Report Quick Reply
bawwwww whole life wooined fowever

Dad Moved in With Me by Nell Brebblechudging - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 21:57:28 EST ID:OvQiCpte No.520165 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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21 y/o

My dad moved in with me almost a year ago. I can move out and have been trying to. However I still have to set up my credit card and begin a credit score for an apartment. Which could take months. And i can't deal with roommates anymore.

My parents divorced 5 years ago for no real apparent reason or than, 'We don't love eachother anymore.' They wanted me and my younger brother to accept them seeing other partners. it seemed so shocking when they sat us down and told us. However in further recollection as I'm older there were definately signs that my dad was a stallion and pornography addict whom couldn't please his wife. Retreating to the downstairs bedroom to watch porn and sleep alone every night.

As a natural result I have an underlying resentment toward them, though I do my best to be respectful. I can't really help it.

And when I was 18 I moved out was living on my own with a roommate. This lasted a whole year and things we alright even though my budget was pretty tight.

However my dad called me up one day and offered for me to live in his rental property for $300 a month. It was an offer I couldn't refuse, I accepted the offer. A mistake.

At the start of 2017 he moved in with me because 'he was lonely and needed company.' I had to help roll out the red carpet for him. Atleast that's how it felt because before he moved i had the help renovate the entire thing while living in it. It really sucked. And me helping him move in took 17 hours of work.

Ever since he came here I don't feel at peace with this place anymore. We live in such close quarters I have no privacy. And the relationship I had with my dad has ceased to be what it was because I see him day in and day out, everyday. What used to be an embrace seeing him immediately became mundane, 'Oh it's you again.'
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Augustus Turveyfield - Fri, 24 Nov 2017 08:14:19 EST ID:jPpWgI0N No.520242 Ignore Report Quick Reply

How's it goin Sidney?
Cedric Chimmerwack - Sat, 25 Nov 2017 13:41:25 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520257 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Cedric Chimmerwack - Sat, 25 Nov 2017 13:42:46 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520258 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Whoa, no word filter? What happened?
Reuben Pickford - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 08:36:10 EST ID:esuyK5FE No.520315 Ignore Report Quick Reply

NEWS FLASH: they removed it a while ago
Walter Bluffingsat - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 19:04:03 EST ID:qnpf4h+M No.520332 Ignore Report Quick Reply

you forgot to say newsflash:

crimethinc by Barnaby Fablingkog - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 17:43:38 EST ID:bsw/540P No.520329 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I had some sort of mental event that allowed me to think more than one thing at a time. sometimes I sing and think complete sentences about something else at the same time, or have a completely different conversation at the same time i'm talking to my dad for example. anyway I asked quora about it and they insist it's impossible i am living proof. i figured i'd ask you guys because i suspect these kind of things are common with drug use but it is now permenant and i take medication to control it. i am the worst superhero ever and it's not a marketable skill
Ernest Pockgold - Tue, 28 Nov 2017 04:54:39 EST ID:h/1sxUpj No.520344 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Um, most people can run multiple trains of thought at once as far as I know. Thinking more than one thing at a time is the way I always remember things being...

I hate teenagers of current generation by Nicholas Smalldock - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 15:36:42 EST ID:ltaLLOGi No.520320 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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They all look like fags, emos and prostitutes
Fanny Sigglefuck - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 16:14:34 EST ID:XoO0SSVY No.520321 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>doesn't like prostitutes
maaaaan lemme tell you there's nothing better than my morning drive seeing all those jailbait thots shaking those tight 14 year old butts while walking to school
furiously fucking my girlfriend later in the day remembering this - who needs viagra? what a time to be alive
you just can't appreciate the good stuff you're pretty much a lost cause my dude sorry
Nicholas Smalldock - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 16:54:09 EST ID:ltaLLOGi No.520323 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You're a pervert pedophile
Nell Clayridge - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 17:31:40 EST ID:hzUsxH14 No.520328 Ignore Report Quick Reply
we h8 u 2

retardism by Augustus Humbledock - Sun, 26 Nov 2017 13:28:17 EST ID:4c5BNR6S No.520284 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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When you have unresolved issues with a parent who was really emotionally and physically abusive to you as a kid and just want to argue with them all day, what is that? Does anyone have advice to find a way out of this? I'll be in my room and get the strongest urge to go have a conversation but it always leads to a circular argument, every time, I know yet I still do it no matter what. It's like I enjoy that pain or however arguing over the same shitty things makes me feel, then the fake calm that's completely detached from the reality of our relationship, then the shouting again. It's really similar to self-harm or something, I get a weird sense of pleasure from it after the high. I crave and need the same level of chaos to hit me where I hold all the unresolved pain and I look for it everywhere.

I think it's a way of trying to either get rid of or match the pain I have inside of me from when I was being abused. I haven't gotten over the abuse. I'm still stuck there obviously. I just want to release it and resolve it and move on that way but this takes away all my power because it depends on someone else to work and never does. I end up just reliving it and wasting all my time in the same place. I think part of it is immaturity and an unwillingness to grow the fuck up now instead of relying on a parent to change everything. Like learned helplessness. I wish they'd just care about me. Everything was horrific and I still feel like the child who just wants to be taken care of instead of attacked. I have a massive hole where my self-worth should be and I'm trying to make them fill it up. I never felt capable of changing anything myself. I thought I was different from other people and somehow nothing I did would make a difference so I didn't try.

I'm motivated into our arguments by trying to stop the rejection from happening again I guess. I kind of feel like I just refuse to accept that it's already happened because I can't, so I want to change it only to be shown nothing will change this time, and that's why it repeats and repeats with no closure. I'm pathetically weak to this cycle and don't see a way out because it's been happening daily s…
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Matilda Coddleham - Sun, 26 Nov 2017 13:48:24 EST ID:JI9kO00V No.520286 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I relate so fucking much to this it hurts. I wont bore you with my long winded story. But I struggle with long bouts of loneliness, anger, and depression on a regular basis from this. And the only thing I really want to do about it, is going fuck my dad up. I know it will only cause pain. Yet I want it to hurt me. All the tragedy in my life, it made me feel that it was the only way to matter at all.

I learned that i suffer from I think they called it survivors syndrome or something, and a borderline personality disorder (cluster b). They dont know what exactly causes Borderline Personality Disorder, but it can usually be pretty common for adults who suffered abuse when they were younger. Now to add, I also struggle with issues from combat in the military. But a lot of these symptoms started shortly after my mother died.

I find socializing helps. But sadly OP, its still an everyday struggle for me.
Henry Norrylock - Mon, 27 Nov 2017 11:43:18 EST ID:kcNKXNrO No.520316 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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There is more of us like this huh, who would have thought hah.
I find myself in similar situations where I feel the need to argue with my dad. He was and still is an alcoholic that just brought misery to our lives.
I think we just want justice in a way that they admit they were wrong. Thats what im always hunting for and it never works, never. He cant do it and he is the source of all the problems. We could have been a nice family but nah, excuses to be an asshole were more important than the love of others which is so fucked up.
Its a viscous cycle as you said and if you stay in it it will eat you up.
The way I see it the only solution is to leave and cut off the ties. Some say its a cowardice move but whats the point? this life is way too short to carry the weight of some broken man who can't man up and admit his mistakes. Or something like that

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