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Is it natural to feel "gross" after such a shitty lay? by Isabella Dublingville - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 16:21:39 EST ID:pQ7DH+oR No.517340 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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About a week ago I met a person (friend of a friend who had heard about me, people told her I was a really nice person with a flair for the sensual) for sex after some correspondence over Facebook.

Now, *on her way to my apartment*, she called me up and said "I have to warn you, the pictures that I showed you were from a year ago before I started steroids for my medical condition [which I know she had].... so I have gained a little weight and have had some other changes to my body...."

No problem, I said to her and thought to myself. I'm cool with some thickness, even if it's not my ideal figure, and I'm kinda a plump guy myself.

She knocked on my door and I'm greeted by someone who looked very, *very* different from the person I saw in the pictures. Different (and unflattering) hairstyle, MORBIDLY obese, pizza face, horrible fashion sense, and unkempt fingernails and toenails. Sadly, by this time, it's past the point of no return: she started wigging out about body image issues and dysphoria and started having a panic attack. If I didn't fuck her, she was gonna seriously lose her shit.

The sex was terrible. She got off hard, myself, on the other hand, was unable to get off because I found her so repulsive. The only way I could even stay hard was closing my eyes and imagine I was with someone else.

I found an excuse to get her to leave. I ran into the bathroom and vomited the moment she left my place cuz I felt so nasty. For three or four days afterward I felt like scratching my skin off, I felt so uncomfortable in my body, I felt so nasty and dirty. I couldn't beat off until the past couple of days and even then only to hentai, real-life women borderline repulse me.

Surely someone else here has had a "coyote ugly" moment in their lives, but is it unusual to feel uncomfortable with their body and to have low self-confidence for a few days after a bad sexual experience, even if it was consensual (albeit had an element of deception)? I mean, I've had a few shitty one-night stands in my time, but I can't even look at an attractive person and feel anything.

Any idea on some meditations, mental exercises, etc. to "get my groove back&qu…
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Simon Bledgebeck - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 11:50:28 EST ID:zbKXnohS No.517379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517377
Also considering the fact that most of the ranching sector uses GMO soy for animal feed these days... lele

Enjoy your future gyne meat eater.
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Henry Denninghall - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 12:41:19 EST ID:+P7ZZ0uX No.517380 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517379

enjoy your current gyne and general lack of nutrition, vegan
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Sidney Crankinwut - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 12:57:04 EST ID:iKPa+Mgz No.517381 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Remember OP.

You're better than these guys and their shitty argument. You could have fucked the same girl while she was dead and I'd have more respect for you than these guys. As I said, this shit is in your head and here's a chance to feel good about yourself.
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Barnaby Fangold - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 13:52:29 EST ID:DxITP73h No.517385 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517377
>none of this shit has anything to do with hormones
Why lie, anon? Look its fine bro, nobody has a problem with you being a vegan faggot, just dont lie and misrepresent.
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/8875519
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Eugene Hudgedale - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 20:20:54 EST ID:7fC8LtQw No.517393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Any idea on some meditations, mental exercises, etc. to "get my groove back"

Just find a girl that you genuinely like and have sex with her.

Also next time you order a pizza and you get pasta just refuse to pay for it. Know what I mean? If the girl was a whale then you should have just been polite and told her you were not interested. She complains? Fuck her! Not like that! I mean to hell with her, just tell her she wasn't honest with you and you feel betrayed or something. Just LIE MOTHERFUCKER


Dealing with bad breakup by Martin Drenkinfuck - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 03:10:33 EST ID:5zKOrrot No.517264 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I don't really have anyone else, my GF who was also my best friend just left me and I don't know how to deal with it. I would always talk to her about personal issues and now she's gone. I guess I'm both venting and asking for advice, you guys have always done right by me in the past and helped me out with everything from medical issues to what videogames to buy. I don't come to 420 every day but whenever I have a serious issue you're my first port of call.

We've been together for 6 years, I was in a bad way emotionally when I met her, and my home life and living situation still isn't great. In fact I had just come out of another bad relationship where someone I was very invested in cheated on me, and she helped me through that and made me feel like I had some value again, made me feel confident and secure. I had issues with trust and jealousy initially due to my prior relationship, but through a lot of toil and self-reflection I overcame them, and we had almost no arguments in the time we've been together.

I live with her for several months out of the year, her parents have always treated me like their own family, better than my own ever did, and that always meant a lot to me. I won't go as far as to say that my parents are abusive, it's not like that, but they don't like me and they hate having me around. I can't trust them and I can't confide in them, I'm not comfortable being emotional around them and I can't go to them for help. My extended family lives in another country and I've not interacted with them in a decade.

I've been staying with her for a week, and she was cold and distant, taking every opportunity she could to get away from me and chat with some new friend she had made online, even breaking out the laptop when we were in bed together. I'm not proud of it, but I snooped on her chat logs and my suspicions were confirmed, her interactions with this 'friend' were romantic. I got mad, we argued for days which is unusual for us, she insisted that this person was just a friend. Eventually we settled on her having a three hour period per day where she could chat with this person no questions asked, and I'd go entertain myself. I overheard them flirting one night, eavesdropped for the better part of an hour to be sure of what I was hearing, and gave her an ultimatum.

I didn't even forbid her from speaking to this person, or ask her to do anything drastic, I merely asked for her to tone down their interactions to a platonic level. Long story short she chose this person over me, someone she has only known for a couple of months and has never even met, and I'm completely blindsided. I would never have imagined that she would do this to me, knowing her as well as I do, and her knowing my past history with cheating, it's like she was replaced with an evil twin and I can't process why she's behaving this way.

I had everything invested in her, I have no real friends beside her, none that I can ask for help or confide in. Her family is great and they were kind of my surrogates, her dad plays Warhammer with me when my biological dad trashed all my models at home, her grandma brings me baked goods whenever she visits, nobody in my life had ever treated me with such kindness before.

So not only am I breaking up with her and losing my best friend, the only person who really understood me, but I'm severed from her family too. I had my whole life planned out with her, and now I have nothing, no friends, no family, no future. I'm basically a giant child, I don't even know how to cook for myself, she always used to do that for me.

Was I wrong to trust her? For six years we had a perfect relationship, but in the long game the same thing happened to me again. Everyone betrays my trust, the people who are supposed to look out for me just hurt me deeper. How can I go out into the world and find someone else when the legs have been cut out from under me and I'm back to square one? Suspicious, jealous, mistrustful, who would ever want me now? Is it selfish to ask someone to deal with my hangups? I've not eaten more than a couple of bags of chips in days, I just feel sick all the time and I have no appetite, I feel like everything tastes bad and all the color has drained out of the world like I'm looking at it through sepia-toned glasses. I cried it out and I've said everything I wanted to say to her, I have no regrets because I've always tried to be a model boyfriend and I gave it my all, I couldn't have done anything differently.
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Eugene Worthingwater - Thu, 06 Jul 2017 13:37:03 EST ID:l4nIOYHb No.517284 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517280
Another perspective can be useful. I don't think it's too late to start over, I posted in that girl's thread that I started over at 25 and it was not in earnest, I wasted a lot of time. You may need to move somewhere with more friends or you may have to accept a wider variety of friends. People who choose to be in buttfuck nowhere have that in common.

As a functional adult partners may or may not come for you. As a man my experience is you've got to go get them but you won't scare them off as badly.

But the thing about building a whole decent life that stands on it's own but it's isolated is this really: You never ask "what if I made my life better for nothing?".
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Charlotte Clangerdock - Thu, 06 Jul 2017 19:16:30 EST ID:7fC8LtQw No.517289 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It seems like your problem is that basically you're not interesting enough , or you don't do enough things to get other people interested in your life.

>I had everything invested in her, I have no real friends beside her, none that I can ask for help or confide in

Ideally your girlfriend should also not be your best friend, that should be someone else. I think with gfs there always has to be a certain level of attraction which is kept by staying distant, you don't want to be too open with your girl, there are some things girl just don't find attractive and you don't want the woman who you want to be turned on having some bad memories of seeing you crying like a baby or being pathetic in front of other people.

I would try to make some male friends first, people that you can hang out with, I don't really know how to make friends tho , I'm in the same situation. I want to get new people into my life but I just don't know how to actually accomplish that
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Nathaniel Hodgeshit - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 13:37:17 EST ID:wXldPDDM No.517311 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I believe that the relationship was over before she started chatting with this person, because pixels couldn't challenge a healthy relationship. It was very wrong of her not to break up with you when she realized she had the potential to have romantic feelings for someone else. Either that or cut off contact with the person and try to fix the existing relationship.

But either way, it is over.

People change a lot in 6 years, and the person who fell in love with you might not be the person she is any more, that does not say anything about you and your value as a person or how loveable you are.

I think generally it is a bad idea not to have any friends outside of your partner, so next time don't do that, but you didn't deserve to have this happen to you.

I know you'll get over this and find someone new (even if you don't want to yet, that's normal). Do what you need to do to feel better without hurting yourself, you'll get through it, don't allow the trauma to negatively affect how you see yourself.
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Angus Clonningmetch - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 04:14:34 EST ID:5zKOrrot No.517369 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Your comments have helped me a lot guys, thanks for taking the time.
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Jenny Blackstone - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 14:39:55 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.517387 Ignore Report Quick Reply
remember what you were doing before the break up.

Main point i have to contribute.

Remember what you were doing before the break up.

Your emotions can cause you problems and things for you to go through, while trying to accomplish your projects and desires. But even though you're depression or existential confusion may be ramped up by this event.

It's other people and satisfying bonds of service, family, and obligation that disrupt your trajectory.

If you can continue searching while individually alone, while the waves may come, you won't have to worry about problems of a social nature.

In that way your heart balances itself out.

it tooke me a little longer to do this. But yes it's kind of like the song november rain. Even friends do seem out to harm you. But it's because you are in another place. They are carrying similar tendency's that you knew before, but the ground around you is different, because it's your own semiotic field or gestalt.
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How by Wesley Brundlestone - Thu, 06 Jul 2017 15:02:35 EST ID:RLopCwes No.517285 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How would someone in their 20s move to a big city? It's fucking bull shit that it's like 900/mo 1200/mo 1000/mo just for rooms in someone's apartment. It's like you literally either need college or to be born or handed it to be there you can't just go as a normal young person. You have to already be old and have a pension and worked 35 years just to move there and buy a small house and that's even if you're lucky enough to make a lot of money which isn't possible anyway so it's impossible.
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Graham Clemmerfuck - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 01:33:03 EST ID:s+dE+qb3 No.517304 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You can't afford it cause the city is full of people with actual careers who are willing to pay that much money to live a small commute away from their places of work. I'm sorry that you want to have your cake and eat it too by moving to a big city and living right in the thick of it but essentially everyone would like that.

Sorry, OP. Get a better job
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Edwin Blarringdock - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 23:22:24 EST ID:zEfIIAj+ No.517331 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517285
Yeah, it's a bad time for regular folks in the cities because the rich and those with expendable income have returned from their 1950-1990s exodus to the suburbs. But I've lived in the two biggest cities in the country and you definitely can live there if you are poor. There are of course some relatively affordable areas (600 for a room in a 2br) in the city but they are either quite distant from the center or they are in or around the ghetto.
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Nell Blipperbark - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 09:24:32 EST ID:YFAHpk5A No.517334 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just go and move into a vacant. They don't ask to see the deed when you call the utility company, they just hook it up and send you a bill. I doubt you would be charged with burglary but you could be charged with breaking and entering and trespassing which are misdemeanors, and considering it's a vacant you'd probably be let off with a small fine at worst if you're caught. The chances that you would be caught are low though. Most vacants have been boarded up for years and no one is ever going to buy them. Check tax records to see if you can find out who owns a place before moving in. If you can't figure it out, try sending a piece of mail to the house with "DO NOT FORWARD – ADDRESS CORRECTION REQUESTED" written on it. The post office will send it back to you with the forwarding address written on it. Ideally you will find a property that's in a no man's land of ownership, like if someone died and left no heir. The state is supposed to step in and sell the property if this happens, but sometimes houses slip through the cracks. Most of the houses are owned by banks though. These are possibly okay, but there is always the risk that the bank will find a buyer. Lonely old people with no family who have moved into nursing homes is also a good option. Most of the time they will never move back into the house. If they die and someone comes looking at the house, you can claim to be a friend who had permission to live in the house. Since the old fart is dead, no one can dispute your claim. If you've been living in the house for a while, you can get ownership rights this way.
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Emma Gishmire - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 13:25:17 EST ID:VkYjj6a7 No.517356 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517334
I've heard this too. Especially in Florida you can come to own a house this way.

How did you learn about it? I never heard all the specifics.
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Nathaniel Muvingpit - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 14:11:35 EST ID:UjNuOR6B No.517386 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517334
holy shit thats genius but also feels so risky


Primary perception by Lenny Hyde - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 00:03:20 EST ID:YO1I3QYT No.517318 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What is the source of man's desire to be part of something highest, to feel commonality with it?
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Matilda Sablingfoot - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 02:11:50 EST ID:cXQ8/9Oo No.517348 Ignore Report Quick Reply
We strive to be like archetypes.
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Archie Dartfoot - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 06:50:14 EST ID:WgtAHvnK No.517350 Ignore Report Quick Reply
herd instinct
faggotry
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Eliza Hevinglot - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 12:17:57 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517354 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Self fulfillment through the recognition of your peers
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Shitting Sullydock - Tue, 11 Jul 2017 16:12:11 EST ID:uYRpuiGJ No.517364 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stems from loyalty to ones tribe where the survival of your lineage would depend on fighting for your in-group till death if needed. We don't have tribes anymore so we attach a retarded version of that feeling to ideologies or sports teams or music genres.
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Ian Gozzlebury - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 09:12:05 EST ID:zzgztlb9 No.517373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Some people also have an intuitive perception of loyalty/fairness that cannot be transcribed into language.


Is my home cursed or is it something more? by Angus Honeyforth - Wed, 12 Jul 2017 01:14:09 EST ID:SPpwuYvJ No.517367 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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It seems as though this house is trying to keep me here in place.
I lived here since 2004, lett for college and other events, but something keeps trying to pull me back here.
I keep getting amazing opportunities and some dumb shit happens

>2015
>dream game studio calls
>take their instructions for six months
>when it comes times to take the test I pass
> I get rejected because someone who worked at capcom in the past appleid
>I will get the next open position, but the US studio downs six months later

>2016
>Get offered job great job in overseas n at a party
>Get the interview, it's in Japanese but I muster my way through it
>They tell me they would have hired me right away if I wasn't nervous with speaking japanese
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depth therapy trauma borderline psychosis #allthatjazz by Ian Gonningfield - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 14:59:30 EST ID:iyUDEqG0 No.517199 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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about two weeks ago I had a psychosis I think where I wanted to kill myself because I felt I am hunted by agents and I am trapped in a reality where I have to kill myself in order to become free.
Now I am in a clinic where I have to stay 2 month in the "psychosomatic" department doing once a week depth therapy, namely talking about the trauma happed in my childhood. (Like child molesting parents)
My problem is, that I feel highly manipulated by the psychiatrist the way they talk and move their bodies, the way they control the communication, their understanding what I need etc.
For example they ask a general question, I answer it by interpreting it for me, the psychiatrist says: classic misunderstanding! You only understand what you want to understand. Now I wonder, why giving me the option understanding it how I want it in the first place and using my trust against me?

There is also another doctor who wants me to "lose" and "stop fighting".
But I feel they are trying to break me.
I don't feel they deserve my shit. And I feel I cannot trust a manipulative system, regardless of how much it is supposed to help me.

I am afraid of this method. Also I feel its a bit sexual tensioned, like the doctor is excited when I give him some fight. The other doctor would like to "chastise" me.
I really don't know if this setting is right for me. I need therapy, thats for sure. But I am hell of afraid of letting them break me. Makes it sense? Should this happen??? what is your opinion on it?
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Fucking Caddlespear - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 15:57:46 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517233 Ignore Report Quick Reply
One last thing about your anxiety of being "broken" by them. I hear things like this pretty commonly, actually. Are you saying you're afraid of them somehow screwing you up, or are you for whatever wanting to cling to being the way you are because if you feel you were different you'd no longer be yourself?

If it's the latter, why do you feel this way? Is the way you are now not a major part of why you are seeing psychiatrists? The pointing of going is to change. If you're scared you'll lose some intrinsic part of yourself, let me ask you this: have you ever become anyone else during the course of your life? On the off chance you might say yes, surely it was a traumatic experience, right? Do you honestly believe seeing a psychiatrist could somehow be traumatic for you? Otherwise, there's no danger of losing yourself then.

But my larger point really is that you are no longer who you were when you were 5 years old, or 10 years old, or any age other than very recently. You cannot become somebody else by changing, you are yourself. You will always be yourself, and who you are may need to change, but ultimately it is okay to be yourself. If you do change and don't like it, all that has to happen is that you aim to change again in the direction you want to go.
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Shitting Mussletutch - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 16:05:11 EST ID:uYRpuiGJ No.517234 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I also was hospitalized in a closed facility and was in there with legit full on crazies after a psychotic episode (induced by an epic drug-binge)
I came to the conclusion that the whole industry is a scam. They don't really give a fuck about patients at all and just milk the insurance companies.
Its a situation with fucked up incentives: the longer people stay in such a mental ward, the more money those fuckers make so its not the most profitable to actually help people.

I ended up leaving way before they wanted me to and sorted my shit out on my own and stopped taking the antypsychotics they had me on, which they wanted me to take for the rest of my life which would have randered me a zombie permanently.

Also they seriously fucked me over by adding notes to my medical history that arent even true. For instance they put in there that im a H-addict which I never was. I was a stim-junkie.
I tried to make them remove it later on but they went:
"Well anon, when you were brought, appently you were listing drugs." (When I got there I was in psychotic state after XY days awake. Also told them Im hitler and shit.)
"But sir I'm not an opi addict, never was"
"But somebody thought you were when you arrived so you mustve been lol"

Now even when I go to they dentist everybody thinks Im a hardcore schizophrenic madman on copious amounts of drugs and they get weird about me and think Im drug seeking and shit.
(In my country theres a central register every doctor can access)
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Frederick Songerson - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 18:52:40 EST ID:2cRqUGEL No.517237 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517199
>My problem is, that I feel highly manipulated by the psychiatrist the way they talk and move their bodies, the way they control the communication, their understanding what I need etc.
>Also I feel its a bit sexual tensioned, like the doctor is excited when I give him some fight.

these lines make me suspicious the psychosis part might have not fully gone from your thinking. Over-analysing body movements, thinking there's hidden subtexts, and especially thinking something is sexually charged, is classic psychosis symptoms

You might just be purely overthinking all this. These psychiatrists are there to do a job. They might potentially be a little shitty at their job, but they're essentially going through the motions and trying to help in the way they see fit and the way they were told to deal with patients based on company policy and their training. What's happening to you has happened exactly the same with every other patient they've had through those doors.

It's (hopefully) not that they don't care, but unless they're an incredibly shitty person, they're not going to spend the time and the effort to try to manipulate you personally. In the kindest possible way, you're not that important, especially as it's only a 2 month stint. They're giving you the crash-course in psychotherapy, so just deal with it for now, and you'll be out of their hair in a short period of time.

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>I don't feel they deserve my shit.
please don't feel like that. That's their job. They literally listen to sob stories for a living. You have the right to tell them as much or as little as you want, but telling more helps more. They've heard worse, they've dealt with violent, horrible people, they've listened and talked and helped a hundred cases like you. There should be no fear that you're "putting your troubles" on them, because if they did that with every single case the weight of the world would have broken their back by now. It's impossible to not take home some of what a client said, but if they've been in this line of business for a while, they've built up a degree of separation from their work …
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Isabella Sazzleshit - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 11:37:06 EST ID:7DDxZ7RQ No.517336 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Thank you. I am relieved that I can still trust someone and I am not alone.

>>517234
the ward is very happy reducing medication or supporting as much as possible without meds. I feel lucky they did not put me on medication with my psychosis.

I figured out that the fear of being manipulated is part of the problem and that even if it breaks me, I would risk it.

>>517232
>tell them
I completely agree. This advice very much helped me to also relieve the stress. Also the note, that I am hyper aware. There is a lot of trust I have in your words. Thank you.


>>517237
yeah, the fact that they had hundreds of me made me relieved that I am indeed not that special and standardized healing might also work for me. Surely it means that there are exceptions, but seeing that my fears alone are common I have hope too :)
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Jack Billingham - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 15:52:13 EST ID:uCFR9p1r No.517339 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517336
Ah fuck they broke him.


NEET, 30 year old by Eliza Sicklewill - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 14:40:21 EST ID:+T25PjJj No.517312 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I go out every now and then and I don't really feel I'm heard.
I think of a few things, they buzz over my head like passing clouds, and I feel like telling it to someone, but then I realize... noone cares.
I feel like maybe if I wrote down complex stories and work on my diction and flow, maybe people would listen to me.

Or maybe if I got a job, i dunno.
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Augustus Cingerwotch - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 08:38:54 EST ID:uYRpuiGJ No.517323 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517319
dont do this OP, unless you have read up on shit all day every day for months or you will lose money.
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Hannah Simmerwetch - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 15:39:51 EST ID:buDodtmC No.517327 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517317
lol its nice to read about another person here who sucks at tying shoes. i learned how to do it at only a little bit late but i never tied them cause i hated it and sucked at it, and still absolutely suck at it.'

are you actively looking for jobs that arent just at a bar or restaurant? if you dont want one of those jobs, the first thing you should be doing is looking around for others for when they do pop up.

>>517319
i got into trading cryptocurrency recently and i can tell you its terrible advice. whats good advice is to read up on it and buy like 50 dollars of it, and put more in bit by bit once you start learning about the field more.
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Jack Turveyshit - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 17:18:37 EST ID:wJWwXGAC No.517328 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517323
Bullshit. Bitcoin regularly fluxuates at a steady rythom. Stable on weekends, drop monday morning, climb at night. People are buying after work and you can watch the schedule. It regularly rises and falls by 500$ and that means you can net $400 daily after transaction fees, with just one coin.
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David Pittingman - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 08:30:26 EST ID:+T25PjJj No.517332 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>517319

>the best part is you don't have to deal with anyone face to face or even hear their voice.

But that's a problem for me.
I get anxious with people sure, but I don't have social anxiety. I'm just a shut-in with nothing to add, talk, i'm hardly fun, or very interesting. But I do want to be around people. Because i'm a vapid, socially-needy person.

As for your sugestion, I haven't got the first clue how to work with stocks, or cryptocurrency. Neither do I have that much money saved. I'm also not north-american, I feel that might influence things a bit.

>>517327

>lol its nice to read about another person here who sucks at tying shoes

"There are dozens of us!"
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Nell Blipperbark - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 08:58:58 EST ID:YFAHpk5A No.517333 Ignore Report Quick Reply
The only reason to get a job is to support yourself and your social life. If you're being supported somehow and you don't have a social life, then there's zero reason to get a job, it will just make your life worse. More stress, more anxiety, but where's the payoff if you don't get to use the money you earn to unwind with friends? You can only buy so many video games and fleshlights--in the end, material items are worthless without people to enjoy them with.


My engagment is falling apart...and I honestly...well I do... by Caroline Cirringhood - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 04:12:21 EST ID:Xd3G/gMB No.517321 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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know where to begin. My fiancee suffers from Schizoeffective disorder, but she does not take meds for it. She threatened to kill herself three times in the past week, and I was going to call the police, but who are they going to believe? I recorded some of it on my phone, but it's grainy, and while that's not quality, I think my fiancee would be dumb enough (no offense, an expression) to admit it was her, and that she threatened to jump from our Apartment complex, then later asked where I keep my knife collection, and I asked "Why?" "So I can slit my wrists"

I don't generally like the Police already, even less so when they are creeping and crawling around your house, and more so when SJWs and Feminists rule the world. Even though I have a huge scratch on my neck and chest.

I'm just trying to get her to go to a Therapist. Just one visit. If she doesn't like it, then ok. But I know she has issues, and she needs to be medicated to keep them under control.

I even said I would go in with her if it makes her more comfortable.

I take meds for Social Anxiety, Generalized Anxiety; am I some freak? Part is if she is suffering from schizo-effective or full blown schizophrenia she is going to need medication.

Fuck salt.

Advice?
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Esther Bluckleforth - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 09:12:46 EST ID:iKPa+Mgz No.517324 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517321
One visit won't help much, you need to shop around for a good therapist, one you jive with. Therapy is in your head so if you don't engage it won't work. If you aren't even willing to give it a serious try it will also fail.

If she won't help herself maybe you shouldn't marry her. You can't go on like this for the rest of your life. Something has to change.
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Sophie Mubblestitch - Sun, 09 Jul 2017 15:37:00 EST ID:TX3Ezud6 No.517326 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517324
Seconding this. Getting married to somebody who'd rather put you through shit than deal with their problems is laying the foundation for a fucked up divorce where she'll try to rip everything she possibly can from you, under the justification that you're harming her by leaving her, because of how much she'll have harmed you by then. Or if she finds somebody else and she just wants to show you how little you meant to her, and spend all the divorce money on a barrel of lube and tequila.

Don't let an unstable raving mad pussy end your lifes entire comfort.

Also, of personal experience, if she's still immature by about 20 years old she'll either stay at that level or just regress and become more childish and careless the deeper she falls into mental unhealth. You may want to do the "good" thing and stay around, help her, but you'll only help her find more ways to harm you if she does not agree to seek real help. You need to be firm with her, she needs to understand. You will not be able to stay with her if she does not get better, because she is hurting you.
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Thomas Gangerchere - Mon, 10 Jul 2017 12:51:30 EST ID:iKPa+Mgz No.517337 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517326
I'd give them a bit longer than 20 but there's usually some sign of growing up in most people within a year or two of that if they've got the potential to ever grow the fuck up. I mean I'd say I spun my wheels a good 5 or 6 years but I'd definitely become a bit better as a person between 17 and 20.

I'd suggest talking to a couple of friends about this before you do anything. Make sure they're ones who will keep quiet but also are mature enough to not instantly turn on her until she does something malicious. She sounds like she might lie to people when shit splits up and aside from people being blinded by pussy some people may be reluctant to hear your story if she is creative enough. Make sure the people you care about know enough to be cynical when she approaches them.

The more I read this the more I wonder if OP is in an abusive relationship. Suicide threats, being physically assaulted, whether the relationship has full blown gone that way yet or not she is already acting in that fashion. It will do if it doesn't change.


FRUSTRATION by Hedda Surrybanks - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 10:16:52 EST ID:mz/+IBsA No.517305 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Im feeling psychotic today.

Like I want to beat a random stranger down a dark alley and steal their shit. Life is just frustrating, things break, you dont have money for repairs. Fines, taxes, people and noise everywhere....makes you like YOU WANNA KILL!
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Ian Blummlefut - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 11:19:15 EST ID:iKPa+Mgz No.517308 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517305
That's not psychotic. Angry as fuck. Mad as hell. Furious. But psychotic is when you don't know what's real. Before you go do something you regret, because you know acting on your anger will not improve things if you do it blindly consider two things. One if the action will just make things worse. Two, then take a moment of silence for the people who are actually psychotic. Lurk here a week or two and you'll see someone who's lost touch with reality. Life can be a shit but at least know there's idiots everywhere.

Also it sounds like you need to move to the country.
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Hedda Surrybanks - Sat, 08 Jul 2017 11:27:29 EST ID:mz/+IBsA No.517309 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517308
thanks for letting me know Im not a psycho


I'm Dying Inside by Wesley Croddleridge - Thu, 29 Jun 2017 22:51:41 EST ID:CoVq6P+g No.517151 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Life is a bizarre mixture of hell and purgatory.
There is no such place as heaven.
And God is really Satan.
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Fucking Caddlespear - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 14:14:50 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517227 Ignore Report Quick Reply
And just to be clear, it isn't the fact that you said that you personally believe we're just a result of chance and that we have enough intelligence to question ourselves that I said what I did. The reason I said it is specifically because you said you find it reassuring and thus preferential to other world views. Believing this itself isn't inherently wrong or damaging/limiting, but your motivation for believing it (as with anything) absolutely can be.
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Basil Gorryway - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 14:55:17 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517228 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517223

I always thought of it as an eternal dreamless slumber.

Your final reward for living this life is peace and freedom from your suffering.
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Fucking Caddlespear - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 15:13:29 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517229 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517228
Rewards are for the living. If that's your perspective on things then you're approaching death like you'll somehow still be around. I know it's pretty hard not to since we can't work outside our realm of experience, but anyone that tries to conceptualize death in this manner must do so realizing that what they come to believe about death is entirely a rationalization meant to allay their fears and anxiety about it.

Your belief that it's a final reward and that it's ultimate peace and freedom (again, concepts that only apply to and can be experienced by living) is just a way to avoid having to think critically enough about the concept of death and non-existence that it elicits strong emotional reactions in response. It could just as easily be believed that life is hell and eternal suffering and that dying is the cherry on top of the cosmic joke because after all that suffering you cease to exist without ever having known anything like a paradise or whatever. Even then, this is just a belief somebody would have to distance themselves enough from the concept of themselves dying that they avoid having any real feelings emerge about its real inevitability, but doing so in a more negative light.
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Fucking Goodwell - Sun, 02 Jul 2017 21:23:44 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517241 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517229

When I say peace or slumber, I mean them as words to attempt to describe nothingness.

Using my words as literal translations does not work in the context that I have used these words.

So again, the words I have used in those two sentences are not to be interpreted in it's literal form, as that would suggest the concept of being aware of being dead, which would be physically impossible.
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Edward Mabbleshaw - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 20:10:10 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.517275 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517241
I realize that, but there's something to be said on the unconscious level about the words and analogy you chose to describe it with. I was commenting more on that, I didn't think you literally saw it as a reward or anything. In this way, how you choose to conceptualize and perceive death as a phenomenon speaks as loudly about your beliefs as your words do.


General bitching by Simon Coddlemid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 03:08:53 EST ID:auz5lTJl No.517263 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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23yo femanon here.
I used to suffer horribly from cptsd from incestual rape and whatnot.. only recently after reporting my rapist have I been able to shake off most of my illness and be calmer. I feel like I fucked up a lot of friendships over the years and I'm having a hard time making up for it. People I've known for years are ghosting me and I'm not sure why. I can't find a person who is emotionally available to date. I can't find anyone to fuck. I used to be hot but i gained some weight and now I'm 210lbs, so I suppose that's why no one wants me. Hopefully my social life looks up soon because shit is depressing me.
I wish I could make amends with all the people I fucked up friendships with, and I wish I knew why people who I care about are ghosting me left and right
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Molly Bleblingmig - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 12:57:48 EST ID:uCFR9p1r No.517266 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517263
Maybe lose weight?

If you think that causes part of your problem you should. You write as though the extra weight is a permanent fact now which of course it isn't.
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Fucking Chammerhid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:04:57 EST ID:+HblyHsI No.517267 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517263
I have not been through anything like the level of shit you have. But I've had to start over.

Well it's hard to know why people are dropping you. Maybe they weren't good friends and the new healthier you isn't so easy to exploit or whatever. Maybe you're the victim of some smearing, maybe people recoil in horror and just can't deal or maybe they're just getting on with their lives and you're (needfully) going in a different direction to the rest of them. Sometimes a new start isn't all bad though.

Short and medium term goals should be your own healthy. Don't worry about relationships for a little while. Take a few weeks, months even years if that's what it takes. Being alone is horrible but being in a broken relationship is worse. Going by life expectancy happiness etc.

So anyway I'd look at 4 areas of your life. Work out what you wish each one way. What you can actually achieve and work at achieving it. Unfortunately you're probably going to have to eat shit a bit longer (metaphorically) to get ahead but it'll be worth it. Do all 4 at the same time. When they're all progressing steadily and all at an acceptable level you can start looking for love. Physical health alone would cut it for fucking but I'd say get your head straight a bit because otherwise you may hurt you or the other person or things might go wrong.

So, mental health. Are you undergoing therapy with a therapist you can trust? Is your life stable? Are your habits conductive to wellbeing etc. Note if you're still only somewhat recovered a lot of people who want a healthy relationship will be wary of you, whereas bad people are like sharks smelling blood in the water. Friends are a bit more forgiving but it's still an issue.

Social life. Seems like time to make new friends. Branch out. Women's value often hinges far too much on their looks (I'd trade that for my situation as a man where it's just how much self worth I project real or otherwise but it's still shit) but you can play the game. Right now you can probably talk to a lot of guys without them insta trying to bang you. You can talk to girls without being a threatening rival. Go to several new areas, don't latch on to one group initially and don't take failure personally, people can be closed off sometimes. If you start losing weight you can change your game once you've got a solid friendbase. Even when you find a group never stop being open to the odd new friend or group. (I should take that wisdom a bit more often tbh)

Physical health. Do you want to lose that weight again? If not you should still eat well (lots of veg, some fruit, ensure you're getting your protein etc), sleep well, hydrate properly and exercise. If you want to be "hot" again doubly so for all of them.
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Fucking Chammerhid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:06:17 EST ID:+HblyHsI No.517268 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517267
Actually in fairness I've not been through the level of shit you have but actually maybe it's more than a little like it. Definitely endured and pulled through much less than you're currently working through though.
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Clara Burryworth - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 15:47:32 EST ID:C2LZTezo No.517272 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You think about getting a dog? Too many benifits to list.
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Simon Coddlemid - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 16:25:20 EST ID:auz5lTJl No.517273 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here... these are some really great responses. I was almost expecting to be roasted by you guys but I'm glad you didn't.
I relapse with losing weight all the time but I will always give it another try. And YES to whoever said maybe those friends are threatened by change, I definitely am getting that vibe from some people. As if they liked me better suicidal than bubbly all the time.
There is some great advice here and it was comforting to read so thank you all.
And also yes- I have a dog and a cat! My animals have always helped me in many ways.


Homeless, becoming insane, thinking about serial killing by misterperson - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 21:21:55 EST ID:+fZIEOFo No.517249 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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About 6 months ago I lost (quit) my job because I seriously give no fucks about my life at all, I can't stand working, and because nobody gives a shit about me. And it scares and bothers the shit out of me. Standing there, having to serve people all day, for barely any money to survive...I can't do it. So fucking anxious and depressed that I just was to afraid to keep working. It's like I'm a deer in headlights, and I've just been standing still until I let my life and my money and everything slide away. I don't have any family or friends, I don't really have anything. Even when I did, I haven't really felt like I've been a stable living situation for at least a decade.

So, for the past 6 months, I've been homeless, getting by on the free services provided. I get food, I get sleep. I don't care about much else, but being around people all the time is starting to really get to me. I've seen people more motivated than I use the services, get their lives back together and get out. I can't do that. I don't have the support or motivation to do that. And to top it off I'm mixed in with people who are fucked up like me in different ways, people who are fucked up on drugs, people who are mentally wayyy fucking out there, and I feel like all this shit is rubbing off on me.

Every day, I usually just sit around on my laptop doing whatever, or sit outside smoking weed. And doing this for so long, the past 6 months, I feel changed. Like I've forgotten what it's like to be a normal person with goals, and a routine. Being outside, when all you can do is watch people walk around everywhere, and watching people just walk through the grids of the city like robots, every day, everything just starts to look more and more like one big machine, it freaks me the fuck out. This is gonna sound stupid, it's just an example--what am I supposed to think when there are people too afraid to cross the street before the signal changes, when there's obviously no cars? People just standing there, at the crosswalk, doing nothing, I see it like 10-20 times a day. Standing there like fucking zombies. Yeah, it's kinda stupid. That's just one example. But nowad…
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Ian Blythefield - Mon, 03 Jul 2017 23:32:33 EST ID:wBw7AiXU No.517250 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sounds like you need nature. The city has made you foul, unhappy, and vengeful. The city is a fast-paced life and there are barely real life connections because everyone is too busy. I know how you feel. I suggest finding a simpler way of life where you are not as much as inclined to compete with other people. Find a better location with lush forests/or natural parks. Forget what you have accomplished compared to others. It will only make you angrier. But, the truth is, and this sounds so cliche, there are people in worst situations than you. You could be in a worst country, where you don't even get the sufficient food or water. You could be entangled in dangerous environments like Brazil where torture and murder is frequent. People out there in the world are really struggling to live. What drives a man insane cannot be said the same for the people who live under real oppression. You seem like you are depressed and bored. Figure out a way to savor what you have compared to others below you and not above you. Again, it seems like you are just disgusted with the current people around you. Rise above and create your own rules, standards, and obligations.
Life is not a race with each other. You are the only spectator of your own life, so don't watch anybody's else. Do you understand? Create your own path. Just as long you're not hurting anybody else. Do you how much prison sucks? It is basically like a jungle with jaguars in every corner. It is a survival game in prison. You have no freedom and your cell mates will be crazy unhinged bonafide killers. Now, tell me, does your life still suck?
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Edwin Snodridge - Tue, 04 Jul 2017 01:20:49 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.517253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Alone in a sea of people.

I'm trying to put myself in your shoes, and I can relate in some ways, but my rock bottom isn't as low as yours. That's a pretty unfortunate situation.

I can't give you emotional advice, more like a suggested treatment: talk to people and connect with them. Pull aside one of the NPCs and have a real conversation, something meaningful. They're real people with goals and aspirations, and if it seems like they don't care, it's nature and nurture. Check out the monkeysphere. We live in a capitalistic society and the majority of us have a physical limit to the amount of people we are capable of caring about.

But the people we do care about, we actually care for and feel deeply for. Humans are social creatures, youself included. We need social interaction to be fully functioning. So I recommend you go against your current nature, do not auto-ostracize yourself, and talk with people; create the bonds that you lack to get back on your feet and achieve your own fulfillment.

Seems to me that when you create that net that you've always felt you were lacking, that everything else will fall into place.
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misterperson - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 02:23:35 EST ID:US0L11/E No.517262 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>517250
>>517253
I like the sense you guys make. I can't get out of the city at the moment (I'm literally stuck downtown) but the past couple days I decided to take your advice about the nature, I took the train out of the city to this park, this huuuge park just outside the city limits. Went there the past two days, just found a place to sit and sat. Climbed up a tree, carved my initials into it to mark I'd been there. Being there, felt like all the noise was turned off. After a few hours...I went back into the city, and whatever I was feeling before wasn't as strong. Still there, but not as strong.

So, the next day, I talked to a person, I was able to. Dude I didn't even know, never saw before, new kid using the same services as I. He could barely speak much English but I could talk with him well enough. Explained to him what a cruise ship was, that I went on a cruise. First time I'd felt any sense of normalcy in a while.

Thank you guys for your words, I really needed a bump in the right direction. Gonna keep at this, maybe post again later.
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William Snodbury - Wed, 05 Jul 2017 13:12:29 EST ID:7jDtVpaU No.517269 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's your personal right to think about the world, other people, and yourself anyway that you want to. However, you have no right to harm anyone, don't hurt anyone, come on. I think that if you can feel that there is a wrongness in world then you know the difference between right and wrong and you shouldn't think about hurting other people. Sincerely, I understand how you feel. If you decide that you don't want to do life anymore I believe that every person has a right to take their own life because it's their own, but you have no right to hurt another person.


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