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How the fuck do I avoid killing myself? by Rebecca Diggletet - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 01:34:38 EST ID:nmwUyTqV No.516804 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've got PTSD, possibly (probably) autism, chronic and debilitating suicidal depression and anxiety
I'm a 24 year old trans women (with crippling dysphoria that makes me want to die)

I have been transitioning for five years, since I was 19. It is one of the only things that makes life bearable. I actually pass really well, but the fact that I'm trans at all makes me want to kill myself

I was in 2 very abusive relationships back-to-back that drained me of all my money and left me traumatized and hospitalized for over a month

been recovering for a little over a year now.

i am deeply in debt and i have been crashing at a friend's for like $100 a month bc I am broke. I can't find a real job, so I just work taking care of my 89 year old grandpa who has dementia. i wanted to spend more time with him after my Grandma recently passed away (never lost someone close to me before)

I moved out last year because my two older alcoholic sisters had on separate occasions gotten drunk and attacked/beaten me. I got too afraid to stay around it and moved out. I am constantly feeling guilty and like a burden to my friends who let me live with them. however, my Grandfather is a painter and he gave me a painting (which he has never done for his grandkids)-- point is it was worth like over $10,000 and I asked my roommates to keep it safely in storage, due to the fact that I live in the basement where the wood stove that was in use all Winter is, and I didn't want it to get smoke damage. They left the door to the closet it was stored in open, and their cat got in and scratched up the painting

I have been in a relationship since October. I'm deeply in love but she is also very mentally ill (bipolar, ptsd, depression). I have been with her through an episode where I was able to convince her to do partial hospitalization and drove her to the hospital often
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Nigel Fedgefoot - Tue, 13 Jun 2017 09:49:20 EST ID:AkBTpOns No.516883 Ignore Report Quick Reply
which ready-made little prepackage platitudinous sentiment-in-a-can did you get that one out of?

upon reaching full-awareness and sentience noone *deserves* fucking anything. you need to give in as much as you get out. We are in a constant debt - with exceptions in each - to the planet, parents, loved ones, and every life force we extinguish.

man do people even think when they say stuff like this. Is that all this board is to you? a little circle-tug of insipid thoughtless falsities?
Fuck Fuckingcocke - Tue, 13 Jun 2017 12:24:29 EST ID:0F+jm0xo No.516884 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I respectfully disagree -- deserving something is totally different than feeling entitled to it.
Cornelius Fanworth - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 02:08:20 EST ID:80efJqSX No.516895 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>noone *deserves* fucking anything
>We are in a constant debt

I'm somewhat confused as to how these two concept reconcile.
Hedda Shakeman - Fri, 16 Jun 2017 17:15:42 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.516930 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think you're arguing semantics here; it's pretty clear to me that's what he meant. I'll agree his choice of words was rather poor, though.
Hannah Creshhet - Thu, 22 Jun 2017 00:33:48 EST ID:E10J/1rQ No.517004 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>We are in a constant debt [...] to the planet
man do people even think when they say stuff like this. Is that all this board is to you? a little circle-tug of insipid thoughtless falsities?

stuck on a difficult girl by Alice Lightwater - Fri, 16 Jun 2017 14:47:28 EST ID:26NpYx+j No.516928 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've got 3 girls I could go for at the moment but two of them are just really boring and I know I'm only convincing myself they're tolerable because im in a dry spell, plus one's really fat so there's no way she could be anything other than a bag drainer. However, atm I adore a cute ginger whose addicted to coke and suicidal, but she makes me feel happy shes the only girl i actually listen to when they're talking because i care about what she thinks rather than just nodding and agreeing my way to an orgasm, but she stops replying for days at a time, shes attempted suicide recently, and is just difficult in general but something about her mesmerizes me. Should I follow my heart with her or is there some way I can just break out of it and settle for one of the two chubbier boring ones? I know I sound like a self destructive idiot because I am but I've never met a girl who I relate to like her, abandonment, drug addiction, anger and all the rest we're a perfect fit, and i just dont know how to get her with me properly she has a coke dealer bf shes seeing me behind his back but i want her like I'd marry her im fucked on valium oxy and k atm so im rambling but its all the truth, just would like advice or another perspective
Nigel Dartdale - Sun, 18 Jun 2017 15:13:46 EST ID:dOHCS57m No.516954 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Get therapy. Sort your shit out. Don't pick any of the above girls. One you're not attracted to, one you're not interested in and one is clearly a really fucking bad idea and you will make both your lives worse if you enter a relationship. Be not a drug addicted mess, have some self respect. Keep fucking the other two as long as they don't think that there's any potential for a relationship there.

What you wanted to hear was "follow your heart" but you posted this thread because you already know that's a fucking awful idea.

though if you don't listen how do you know the other girls don't have a lot to say?

but more seriously you are a bit of a wreck, sort your shit while you still can and see how your taste in girls changes

Good luck.

Need help by Ebenezer Clavingkut - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 16:40:04 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516909 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I used to be like everyone else. I used to be perfectly fine but now I'm fucked up. I'm constantly thinking about my future relationships and every time I see a girl doing porn/being treated like a slut/assaulted anything like that I think about it being my future wife or daughter or something.

It's sketching me the fuck out I can't go a second without thinking like that. Its fucking with my sex drive and thoughts and making me really unable to have sex I'm either way too turned on or completely asexual.

I can't stop this I just want to go back to normal. I've been gaining weight, haven't dated in years, have weird fucked up thought, anxiety attacks, cutting off social contact. I'm really fucked. Every time I hear about a girl having sex or something I think it's happening to my soul mate or future wife or whatever.

Anxiety,Anti-Social,Agoraphobic and In Trouble by Fanny Hevingpig - Tue, 06 Jun 2017 01:19:04 EST ID:w+XXs7My No.516735 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I just quit my second job in a month I can barely work it's a combination of being stuck in restaurant jobs. And generally being unable to tolerate difficult people. It's not so much the customers but co-workers who are all around assholes. Also I'm in college and I'm doing semi-well, I'm getting my GPA up and all that. However I'm finding it impossible to balance the two.

In addition to both I suffer from anxiety, agoraphobia and am slightly schizoaffective. Also I am a problem drinker who tries to quit but always fails because drinking numbs the pain and helps me ignore the problems I have. The only way I can even function at an 8 hour job is to be on a cocktail of pharmaceutical medication to relax me and caffeine to keep me moving. I could probably do a desk job but I'm not qualified.
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Cornelius Fanworth - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 02:29:19 EST ID:80efJqSX No.516896 Ignore Report Quick Reply

LaVeyan Satanism is Existentialism For Dummies.
Emma Barringbanks - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 03:18:52 EST ID:jPpWgI0N No.516897 Ignore Report Quick Reply
LaVeyan satanists have a higher propensity for Obesity or anorexic level malnourishment. I've met quite a few. And theyre all neckbeards.
Cornelius Fanworth - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 03:22:44 EST ID:80efJqSX No.516898 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Anyone who was only a "Satanist" in their teens is probably now an existentialist.
Anyone who was also a "Satanist" in their twenties is now definitely a neckbeard.
Matilda Blytheworth - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 14:15:03 EST ID:VPGsPa+H No.516906 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I work in a kitchen and I'm getting out because of anxiety too.
Esther Simmertotch - Wed, 14 Jun 2017 14:27:09 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.516907 Ignore Report Quick Reply
pretty common new story here on pss.

I did the same a couple months back. And there was another guy last week.

Listen to me here. There is nothing wrong with you. It seriously isn't you.

This situation comes about when you take the relationship idea of is it me or them. And decide you. You can't really do that with the world.

Your fears are fine to have, and i also became "schizo" in reality that was a strange phase, but those voices weren't actually all voices it was more me becoming aware again.

Like think of it as a situational focus, or a self conciousness. Like sometime it seems out there sometimes its inside. it's the same kind of self conciousness you experience when you are embarrased or have a pimple. You think people are looking at you, you almost experience that throughout the day.

It's kind of like that but it will help you with studying, because it's what allows you to slow down information, and focus.

I know now your anxiety, agoraphobia and schizoaffective are upsetting you, but get out of the situation you find unattenable and study. You will find those functions go back into there "mandela" or harmony.
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Horrible things you've done by Matilda Summlegold - Wed, 24 May 2017 19:58:11 EST ID:93CaNbi5 No.516461 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I want to hear about the most despicable, unpardonable things you've ever done.
Stuff like sharing your ex's naked photos online, stealing from relatives or friends, destroying someone's property etc., etc. I think this is the best place for a thread like this.
I once spat on a public phone when I was a teenager. Another time I threw a rock at a neighbor's window because his dog was barking (he kinda deserved it though, that dog never stopped barking at night).
Mine are quite tame but I want to see how low you went for whatever reason or for no reason at all. I want to see how low the human species can get.
Maybe sharing it here will make you feel better :). And don't worry, it's all in the past.
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Sidney Bringerdork - Tue, 06 Jun 2017 14:34:31 EST ID:yHakyxjU No.516743 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Broke into a house once and put their silverware handles up my butt and stole their booze. I didn't take the silverware with me when I left.
Beatrice Clettingpune - Tue, 06 Jun 2017 14:45:56 EST ID:FD8XxSd/ No.516744 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I really want to be completely honest in this thread but I don't know if I can even bring myself to write out some of the shit I've done. When I was younger (12-14) I'd light fires with my friends and we'd throw rocks at cars. Boredom and immaturity I guess. I've always been horrible to my brother and I regret a lot of the stuff I've done to him. He really gets on my nerves a lot of the time and i can't control my temper.
I've done a lot worse, I've stolen from my family and friends to buy drugs, this is what I fucking despise myself for. There's more but I dunno if I want to post them yet.
James Duckham - Wed, 07 Jun 2017 19:45:38 EST ID:VtF1pc2e No.516780 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Love is bullshit my nigga...

Always something wrong...
Ernest Bellerwire - Wed, 07 Jun 2017 22:59:47 EST ID:tDYfPpq4 No.516781 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not to be "that guy" but when you steal from big companies, it just hits the lowest level guys working there. Company sees theft or as they call it "shrink" and then they cut costs. Usually hours. That means for 100 dollars of stolen merchandise, 500 is justified in cuts to hours across the store for the month to offset the cost. In addition, and most importantly, the cuts in hours usually leaves us understaffed and then that makes customers far more irate and pissy.

>As for me
I can't remember all of it that I probably should feel guilty for. I rarely can feel any emotions let alone long term guilt so if you don't feel guilty about it, you kinda forget it. But we'll see what happens. I've not done anything too bad I don't think.

>Got into a fist fight at like 7 with a teachers daughter. She was like 10 and I got a bloody nose but ended up kicking her 2-3 times as hard as I could. No remorse whatsoever but everyone told me I was a horrible person despite this cunt being like twice my size. "I should have known she was flirting." hurr I'm fucking 7 nigga
>Led on 3 different girls at once around like 13. Slightly flirted with them and split up their super strong friendship and then left the school a few weeks after they hated each other.
>Didn't spend enough time with my dogs that have died. I will always feel bad about my doggies. This is the biggest regret by far. Nothing even compares.
>I've never really been close to my mother and I've done shit solely out of apathy or unconcern that people always had chastised me for. After having my parents spend 50k on my education and supporting me into my mid 20's, I left in the middle of the night without so much as a goodbye. I just left a note saying that it was time for me to move onto better places. I took one of the dogs with me and haven't been back since or had any contact. I "ran away" before and saw what mayhem I caused when I returned. I can't imagine what they think of me. They probably despise me given how much trouble they went through to have me, support me and tolerate my complete inability for compassion towards humans. Overall, they are probably emotionally damaged and possibly divorced after that strain or maybe even dead. I honestly don't know. And aside from the other puppers I left, I don't feel much longing even though I have no major reason to dislike my family.
>I've been told I'm a "catch" by several people but apparently I'm an asshole for not at least making some girl happy. And for not having kids as well. In reality, I'm just a charismatic snake without well developed senses of emotions.
>I've manipulated people often and used to frequently pit people against each other or piss them off just from boredom. Everyone eventually turns on you in the end.
>Every 5 years or so I vanish into the night essentially. Leaving with a trace. Friends, jobs, etc. I just leave them all behind and move on from a vague feeling of entrapment or stagnation. I did this with social media dozens of times with Steam and Xbox Live lol.
>I was in fights all through childhood which is apparently bad but revenge is sweet. Someone starts shit, you should be able to end it. call me edgy idgaf
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Hamilton Follerwug - Tue, 13 Jun 2017 19:05:19 EST ID:ba0OdFm+ No.516886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>...put their silverware handles up my butt ...

Lol, what?

Long by Nigel Pitthood - Wed, 07 Jun 2017 08:31:27 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516763 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>have shit poverty parents
>my whole spare room that I sleep in smells like mold and mildew because we have poverty widows from the 1700s
>can't even sleep there because it's so fucking bad it literally smells like plastic and mildew when the sun hits it
>have this crazy old lady neighbor
>can't sleep in my original room cause it's close to the road
>every single fucking day she lets her stupid fucking dog out at the morning likebefore the sun is even up and late at night every single day
>at the mercy of when she decides to fuck off which is never they literally sleep outside for hours and hours every day and freak the fuck out on everything that walks by
>if I sleep in the room without mold in it I have to get woken up by her dogs every single day every couple hours
>literally her dog just sits facing my house going "so so so so so so so toy rourpu rou ap ap ap ap ao"
>then the retard starts howling like a fire whistle
>"houuuuuuuuuuuuu houuuuuuuuuuuu houuuuuuuuuu" for ten minutes almost
>then they let it go and it attacks the dogs next door and then there's 4 dogs chasing each other through a fence and I just hear "rrrrrourourpurajriaprnaifbsroirprorurouroshdofirororuroriuroruroruanfocuekdi" until they decide to fuck off
>look it up this violates every single code of the towns rules
>that dog even comes up on my porch and tries to attack my cats
>I report it HUNDREDS of times to the dog warden
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Nicholas Namblebury - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 16:59:53 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516827 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Why would I go anywhere but a place with drugs and money plus the city has hot chicks fuck smelly old hippies.
Phoebe Sallyshit - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 18:21:12 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.516830 Ignore Report Quick Reply
you've made the horribly bone headed mistake, of not knowing anything about how to communicate to dogs, and engaging the dog.

Basically two things. One that is ninety percent of us, two you get the dog to behave by not also acting like a dog in territorial dispute.
Doris Pockgold - Sat, 10 Jun 2017 05:20:04 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516833 Ignore Report Quick Reply
The things just a crazy retard I really think I have to do this shit just to sleep
Lydia Billingshit - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 14:20:55 EST ID:e1ptL1WV No.516868 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I know I just got out of this situation with a park that is outside of my house and my own dog. We as people do not realize how far a dog is willling to go on our emotional behalf. The moment before you say I can't take it anymore a dog is aware but it barks afterwards. It's that moment where you keep getting caught in the loop that is the key even though because of the no sleep it's something you need from the universe not something you owe it. Until you consider you and it's something you are owed. You have to incrementally way through this madness as this sensitive dog deals with separation anxiety. If you watch other dogs play together long enough and how people are responding to your "discomforts" but not the ones you're thinking you'll slowly remember this wacky world.
Clara Wedgedale - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 21:45:12 EST ID:pso6apAS No.516876 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Look at how you're relating to the situation, if you can't change things after trying, try to learn to accept that most things are out of your control, and focus on changing the things that you can, for the better?

Or Idk, start disco dancing your problems away during the hours the dogs are most active or something man, anything's gotta be better than the way things are, and a heck of a lot better than shooting the dog.

Move to la by Hugh Billinggold - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 12:26:08 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516855 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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How do I do the impossible and move to la from a small town? I want to get a job over the summer and sell drugs and I'm trying to cut back on weed which is my major expense. When I get there i wanna take any full time job I can probably a factory or some shit and work on becoming a security guard and I want to sell weed and maybe other drugs there too.
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Charlotte Wopperlerk - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 19:47:39 EST ID:0HOTiew5 No.516873 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>Volunteers who spread out across Los Angeles County counted about 58,790 homeless people, a 23 percent increase from a year earlier, according to report released Wednesday that found homelessness jumped among veterans and young people.

LA is a fucking shithole worsening year by year. Remember that movie with Matt Damon where he's in the future and all the rich people live on a space station and LA is a hive of filthy overpopulated wretches? That's a 100% accurate forecast for the future of LA.
Cedric Brillerpeg - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 21:06:05 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
How do you bitch about living in la
Fuck Charringworth - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 21:25:13 EST ID:J6KyYR1G No.516875 Ignore Report Quick Reply
the only people who can live in LA are rich men, young people with rich parents, or girls/guys that rent their pussies/buttholes to those rich men.

you're gonna have to get a sugar daddy OP
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 23:54:39 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517215 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Dude seriously move somewhere else.
Ian Clondlespear - Sat, 01 Jul 2017 23:56:30 EST ID:e2eFAYeX No.517216 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Don't move here just don't.

BED BUGS by Eliza Clellywell - Tue, 16 May 2017 07:08:30 EST ID:n1yNxChx No.516278 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Guys what the fuck do I do? I found a first stage little FUCKER that just took a blood meal. Early infestation. GOD DAMNIT I DON'T WANNA DEAL WITH THIS SHIT
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Fuck Gummleford - Sat, 20 May 2017 01:23:17 EST ID:a0x1Sq/U No.516355 Ignore Report Quick Reply
um gas doesnt kill them... the pest controll would have had you wash anything fabric, then heated all of the rooms in your place up with heaters. heat is the only thing that can kill them reliably
Nell Blatherfoot - Sat, 20 May 2017 02:51:09 EST ID:Awn2BIsC No.516356 Ignore Report Quick Reply

you fucking idiot there are hundreds of eggs hidden that will hatch ones the poison fades. i was not joking when i said bleach or fire.
Hugh Ganderhod - Sat, 20 May 2017 08:16:59 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.516363 Ignore Report Quick Reply
ok you need to get laid really badly
it's a residual poison
i was just making a holocaust joke ffs
Hugh Ganderhod - Sat, 20 May 2017 08:52:54 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.516364 Ignore Report Quick Reply
also i washed all clothes bedding etc etc i got a professional just relax nigga god damn
Nell Habberwill - Mon, 12 Jun 2017 11:21:22 EST ID:lGUn1ddV No.516867 Ignore Report Quick Reply
burn down house

Hell by Nicholas Namblebury - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 03:17:43 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516808 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What do I do if I automatically give off an energy that makes people hate me? Every single person here hates me and I have one kid who lives here who literally screams like a toddler playing video games and throws the paddle against walls and he treats everyone like shit and he always talks about how he's a virgin and wants to rape chicks yet people like him more even the fucking girls!!!

Everyone here assumes I have no friends like if I say I did something with a friend they're like "wow you have a friend" and people always ask what I do assuming I'll say just laying around in bed so they can laugh at me until they find out I love a more eventful life than them.

Does this have something to do with being in a hicktown?
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Nicholas Femmlestack - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 14:39:23 EST ID:qDgNA3C6 No.516822 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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There is a chance people don't like you because you suck. Maybe you don't though, I dunno. We don't know you so the only advice I can offer is to try to be the best version of yourself I guess
Nicholas Namblebury - Fri, 09 Jun 2017 16:34:48 EST ID:RLopCwes No.516825 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm scared. Even though I can beat them up I feel like they're gonna sucker punch and grab my hair and punch me in the dick and shit.
Lydia Brodgewure - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 02:00:20 EST ID:omX2BDyl No.516845 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You probably just lost the genetic lottery.
If the genes for the shape of your face are bad then you're going to be disliked, sad but true.
Doris Pettingman - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 05:25:14 EST ID:xcyp5+5p No.516847 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not to the extent you'll make no friends. If you're obsessed with how ugly you are on top of that though, your vileness will seep from your very core and poison everything.
Fuck Blizzleshit - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 22:21:43 EST ID:buDodtmC No.516862 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this, when you think badly of yourself it tends to seep out of your pores and people think badly of you as a result.

which makes it a royal pain in theass to stop feeling bad about yourself wwhen everyone starts feeling bad about you as well.

living inna hicktown cant help because you probably arent gooing to find folks with stuff in common.

My life is kinda fucked by Cedric Blerringlodge - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 11:25:53 EST ID:lhTGOSgv No.516854 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hey /qq/, I never post on this board because despite the massive amount of daily problems I face I generally am stubbornly happy and removed from my own issues. I have a job, I have a very wonderful relationship, I have good friends, I'm not very rich, and I'm currently "homeless".

Lately though I've run into massive depression because I feel like I can't get out of my current situation.

>To begin let's start at the beginning.
I was raised with a pretty abusive mother and an absent father. I lived with my mother up until I think about either 20 or 21 when I was dating a person who is a very close friend of mine to this day and she was spying on me skyping with them. This started my current journey of nomadicism floating from place to place. Each situation was temporary or someone ended up pulling some crazy shit and fucking me over.

I am a drug abuser, but up until now the absolute worst thing in bad decision making in my life has been getting involved in relationships with shitty people. Especially my last relationship which took me to the other side of the country and really was spirit breaking hell for me, but it also helped me find my current girlfriend and helped me save the life of a friend. I've been through an unbelievable amount of crazy fucked up shit in the past 3 years. A brief addiction to Clonazolam, living with a junkie who stole my shit, two of my close friends dying ( one from OD another from suicide ), two of my own non-fatal OD's, and to hell and back.

>My current situation
After my last roommate literally tried to stab me I ended up back to the worst place possible for me. My mothers house, only I'm not really even allowed in the house due to her crazy boyfriend and the belief I am a junkie because I was open enough to actually stupidly tell my parents I've done IV meth and heroin. So I live in the garage basically and I have been for the past month or two. I've kept my job and make about 600-800 a month, but I just can't find a place to stay. I've realized a bit late that I need to start saving. In the past I've always made ends meet one way or another. I had my cake and ate it too. I have a few options that I managed to find to get out of this mess. My best option is my friends dad who I bought crack for a couple times ( I know what you're thinking already ) and his son. The guy works construction and makes good enough money combined with my income we could afford a decent place. My second option is a house renter and junkie whos gonna have a place available on my next paycheck. My third option is my friend Nate who might want to get a place with me and works at UPS.

I really need to get out of this garage, not only is just a shitty unideal place to live, my mom is totally wearing me down. I really for the first time in my life have had suicidal thoughts. I'd never follow them ever, I have dreams, I'm way too stubborn to die, and I need to be with my girlfriend. I keep getting told I need to get two jobs and my current job is a "job thats not enough" and work myself to death, fuck that. I can manage to get by just fine if I can find a decent place to rent. I do plan to go back to college for bartending or massage therapy or maybe even IT as its the only things I can see myself doing besides being a psychiatrist or a writer like I dream of doing.

I just need to get into a place with my girlfriend, I love her so much. She is trans like me and just the sweetest thing in the world. She wants to be a cam girl which I'm totally down with. Her holding me is the only time I've ever felt truly loved by someone. It makes me actually not want to do all the crazy drugs I do so much even tho we both do crazy drugs.
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Cedric Blerringlodge - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 15:47:54 EST ID:lhTGOSgv No.516858 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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and make meff right?
Isabella Crosslelod - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 17:38:56 EST ID:LVLZpkrK No.516859 Ignore Report Quick Reply

No, live in it ya dingus.

Affairs and open relationships by Jack Hockletadge - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 08:23:57 EST ID:ZzcX8xJa No.516848 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>best friend's boyfriend of a long time had always been a bit jealous of me
>eventually having an affair with her
>vacations in another country with her and her friend
>fucked her friend there
>she told him we went on vacations together and he didn't like it
>arguments ensued between them
>she told him that I only had sex with her friend there
>technically true
>this took a toll on her relationship, though, and their relationship started to fall from here
>we didn't break things off and maintained our secret relationship
>meet every weekend
>for over a year
>feelings start to appear
>we tell that we love each other
>she got jealous at me when I fucked another girl
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Doris Pettingman - Sun, 11 Jun 2017 09:18:50 EST ID:xcyp5+5p No.516850 Ignore Report Quick Reply
On one hand maybe she always wanted an open relationship.

On the other she has cheated (as in broken trust), been dishonest, led 2 guys on at once, had no respect for her boyfriend or you for most of your relationships.

If you just want to fuck her sometimes then fine. But you'll never just be more than just someone she fucks no matter how she says it. Open relationships are fine but you have feelings, you're still going to want there to be some rules and she won't stick to them. I don't think either of you have the emotional capability to make such an arrangement between the two of you work.

I would say get therapy or whatever (counselling? you don't need pills but you do need to better understand your baggage and how to cope and to improve your self worth) work on yourself be a better person. Instead of disrespecting yourself start loving yourself. Which means forcing yourself to improve for your own happiness.

Talking to girl by Sophie Fibblepeck - Sat, 10 Jun 2017 17:44:20 EST ID:/ODgdoDQ No.516839 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hi /qq/, nothing heavy, just need a little advice. I started talking to a girl and she's really chill. We have a couple things in common but I kind of ran out of things to say to her today. I literally blanked out staring at her message.

I have a crippling dependency on amphetamines and they make it almost impossible to interact with people properly. All of the subtle feelings that drive natural conversation are kind of obliterated by the amp brain.
I also think she's really pretty, so I'm overly aware of what I'm typing.

I dunno. What are your thoughts /qq/? She seems really sweet and I don't wanna lose her interest because my strung out brain can't converse organically.
Rebecca Classlestudging - Sat, 10 Jun 2017 19:31:34 EST ID:WHNQAMHb No.516840 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If she likes you then she'll be the one to talk. Your social retardation might actually benefit you as it would make you seem less interested which in turn would make her more interested. Never make the mistake of being upfront, man.

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