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Might have posted about this here, i dont remember. Either ways, shit has changed by Eugene Fuckingfoot - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 17:03:48 EST ID:vKvaev27 No.512264 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>used to buy weed from this girl like 6 years ago
>Dont talk for a few years
>3 years ago, see her make FB status asking if anyone wants to go to this bluegrass show
>not into bluegrass but hungover, still kinda drunk, reply saying i'll go
>end up going and having a blast
>Talk to her on and off after this, start to like her
>I'm basically a drug addict at this point that can barely pay rent
>never say anything to her, end up not talking for a few years, clean my life up a bit
>End up hitting her up when I'm really trashed around thanksgiving
>I tell her that I liked her but never said anything b/c my life was a wreck and I didnt want to drag her down with me
>She tells me all this shit about how after we talked regularly she dated this dude for a few years who treated her like shit and she developed this eating disorder because of him and got really sick and still struggles with it daily but isn't as bad as she did before
>Say a bunch of other weird drunk ass shit to her i probably shouldnt have
>We awkwardly talk a few times since this, always initiated by me
>I find out recently the same bluegrass show is coming here in a few months and tell her that if she goes to hit me up and I'll meet up with her
>She says its definitely possible and asks when and where
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Hamilton Charringforth - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 18:16:04 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.512268 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Life is a no-bullshit game. People play it like it is, but it's not.
If you really like this girl, consider just going sober, or with maybe a drink or two. You don't need to be wasted to talk to her and if you did need to be would you consider it to be a healthy situation?

Somebody extremely memeworthy once said that alcohol is a crutch that makes you feel comfortable when something is wrong, and so because of this it stops a part of you from growing.

That being said: go for it man. You got nothing to lose. Good luck.
Eugene Fuckingfoot - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 18:20:05 EST ID:vKvaev27 No.512269 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I never intended to get wasted anyways. I live about an hour away from the show and I have a strict no drunk driving rule for myself after being in the car twice for friends receiving DUIs.

I wouldn't even be smoking, i'm on probation now.
Lillian Drinningbury - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 23:44:11 EST ID:f3p2z4Lf No.512277 Ignore Report Quick Reply
just go, its only awkward if u make it awkward
Polly Bluffingway - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 09:39:34 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.512300 Ignore Report Quick Reply
well then little nigga, i misread the situation
i'm sure youll be fine my littlest of niggas

Help with girls by Jarvis Fonninglock - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 17:44:33 EST ID:ZzcX8xJa No.512267 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So for the last few months I've been dating this chick who's got a boyfriend. We both developed feelings for each other but she made it clear she's not gonna leave him. Sex's amazing and we already bought a lot of sex toys but at the same time I'd like to have more, like a real relationship where I could really build something like she's doing with her boyfriend.

I've been banging other girls when she's busy with her but she's my primary girl, and I'm her secondary. She kind of gets pissed when I fuck other chicks but can't complain much since she bangs her boyfriend and I already made myself clear that my offer for a legitimate relationship with her is not valid anymore.

I might add that while most people would have problems with doing what I'm doing, I don't feel like I owe her boyfriend nothing so I sleep with a clear conscience... but now I'm considering to do something shitty, which's getting a primary girlfriend while still keeping her on the side. Is that more shitty than cheating?
Martha Bardhall - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 21:13:38 EST ID:nCn8IU/N No.512270 Ignore Report Quick Reply
D A N K D R E A M S - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 01:03:03 EST ID:QIycI9eo No.512283 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I cant tell if you're trolling or not.

Chick sounds like a bitch.
Does the other dude know about you?
She doesnt want you banging other girls?
Dude, just fuck these chicks until you find someone you can be with.

Also, you're breaking bro code. Not cool.

Jay b, is that you?
Eugene Blatherford - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 06:55:07 EST ID:s7oi+8P7 No.512289 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Dammit why can't people just stop being pussies, own their jealousy feelings, fucking count to ten and take a breath, and just be admit you're all polyamorous sluts. There's books about it to help.

Seriously everybody just needs to fuck it out. I cheated on my partner a while ago while they were on vacation. There was lots of jealousy, anger, hurt, sadness etc and we processed about it a bunch like lesbians. (seriously, like weeks. We even saw a couple's counselor)

But then my partner fucked somebody else about it while they were still on vacation (who've they've had a crush on for a while). And when they got back my partner and the person *I* fucked also hooked up. And now we're all having group sex and it's hot as fuck.
Nigel Honeyspear - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 07:03:07 EST ID:IpccH+D5 No.512290 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>everyone just be like me already

go away

Advice please!! by Shitting Grimshit - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 20:00:59 EST ID:H+txdJqn No.512223 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hey /qq/ I need some advice. I'm reaching out to you anonymously and with at most honesty. I'm doing this because I can't talk to anyone in my personal life about this due to both loyalty and embarrassment. I don't know where else to turn. So here goes.

My boyfriend and I have been in a dom/sub relationship for three years. I am very submissive to him. He is 45 and I am 23. We are very attracted to each other and have a great sex life. He tells me that he loves me and I believe him. We both work from home and are extremely close literally spend all of our time together. He is a beautiful person despite one thing that is tearing us apart.

He has an anger problem. On a regular basis, he gets in my face, and screams really fucked up things to me that I know he does not mean. He does not beat or hit me but in the past he has lost his temper and kicked, pushed, shoved and thrown things at me, whatever is in reach whether its a pillow or a chair. There have been times when he has gotten completely out of control, he slammed my head against a wall while I was sleeping for no reason other than because I was sleeping. He even pushed me out of a car into the road, in the snow and left me there. I don't think that he means to do these things or if he can even control himself because when these things happen it never has anything to with me. I do nothing to provoke him. I do not lie to, cheat or disobey him and I am considered to be very attractive. When he acts this way it hurts my feelings so badly because I love him so much and I do not understand why he is this way and I do not know how to help him. He refuses to discuss or even entertain the idea that he might be bi polar or anything of that sort. He is extremely intelligent so when I try to suggest that there might be something deeper going on here he becomes defensive, offended, insulted and angry. I don't know what to do. I have so many questions. How could he do this to me? Does he even realize how much I'm hurting inside because of this? Would you consider this to be an abusive relationship? If so does he have the ability to truly change and if so, will he? HOW DO I HELP HIM?
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Edwin Smalllock - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 11:10:05 EST ID:wNGajp34 No.512255 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You remind me of the guy who was here like 6-7 months ago going on about how they were worried about getting murdered but "m-muh cosmic love connection"
Diaboli - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 14:20:08 EST ID:j+LFzuip No.512258 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Seems to me like most of the people who I've replied nailed all the pertinent stuff, so I'll just say this:

As some one who is into bdsm and is a Dom, the behaviour that your partner is displaying is completely unacceptable. Matter of fact it is behaviour/people like him that give the bdsm community a bad name. He IS being physically abusive to you AND emotionally abusive. The things he is doing are NOT acceptable for any kind of realistic healthy relationship, even within the confines of a bdsm relationship.

As a Dom he should cherish you. Despite popular opinion submissives have all the control in a Dom/Sub relationship. There should be agreed upon standards and he should be grateful that you are able to allow him to be himself with you in a sexual way that would be deemed "perverted" by a majority of society.

The bottom line is that if he truly cares for you he wouldn't treat you the way he does, sounds to me like he is a Sociopath as mentioned by a previous poster.

He isn't being a Dom to you because he loves cherishing you, protecting you and exerting his will aggressively in the bedroom. He likes controlling you, abusing you, and power.
Sophie Nongersit - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 14:34:08 EST ID:xorMz/zL No.512259 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I will also add, this problem is bigger then you and him.

Going from your post, if he hasn't raped and/or murdered someone in the past, he definitely might in the future, and if you really think he is smart, he could definitely get away with it once or twice. Are you seriously committed to staying with this guy for the rest of your life? What happens when he pushes his next GF out of a moving car and she breaks her neck or gets hit by traffic? What if one day he loses control and beats you to death.

Even if you don't care about yourself, what about the women before/after you. Next time he hits you, take a picture, call the police. Don't worry about where you will stay or what you'll do for money, this is much bigger then you.
Cedric Pockwell - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 16:41:14 EST ID:bFS3nwYK No.512263 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Alice Trotstone - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 03:49:14 EST ID:BiDcYnVS No.512286 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Gtfo, you know you got to. He cares about himself more than how it effects you, yes it's abusive, gtfo because you know you need to. It's really that simple, you are less important to him than controlling himself (anger justified or not), it's demonstrated in his actions. Leave and don't look back.

Bad habits / Good habits by Albert Clagglecocke - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 17:20:39 EST ID:HrwTH8ua No.512219 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hello /QQ/

What are successful ways to get rid of bad habits and create good habits instead?

Thank you.
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Edwin Drudgestick - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 18:54:52 EST ID:JUprR8qj No.512221 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ebenezer Goblingdetch - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 19:40:45 EST ID:9vn86lM+ No.512222 Ignore Report Quick Reply

By slowly phasing out the old habit in exchange for the new habit. You cant break a habit instantly, a habit is a habit for a reason, you need to be consciously aware of your habit and do something else.

IE if you bite your nails you need to realise you're biting your nails and replace it with something else.
Alice Mubblenin - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 17:04:55 EST ID:1bqnojef No.512238 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this is what has worked for me. anytime you have a major life change, like a new job moving or graduating from school, tack on as many other changes to yourself as you can. your body's going to have to adapt and get used to a new scheduale anyways. so you might as well make as many positive changes as possible. I quit weed, alchohol and smoking this way.
Shitting Sappernure - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 14:45:06 EST ID:SvrL9OfC No.512260 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Recognizing bad habits, deciding you don't want to keep falling into said bad habits, and establishing neutral or good habits in place of them. It's as difficult as training yourself to do something on a regular basis.

I used to cuss people out in my head and shit all over what I thought of what they were doing or looked like, and it caused me to be an always angry/grouchy/rage-prone faggot. I recognized this was part of my anger problem and decided whenever I start shitting all over people in my mind, that I'm going to stop myself and think about something else. After like 3 months I changed my thought patterns and I no longer cuss people out or hate them for no reason as soon as I see them. I don't have nearly the same anger issues either. As a matter of fact, my capability for empathy has gone up quite a bit. It's not really much harder than that nigga, it just requires a bit of discipline.
Shitting Sappernure - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 14:47:20 EST ID:SvrL9OfC No.512261 Ignore Report Quick Reply
The change in capability for empathy took more like a year. I was able to put myself in people's shoes more after that 3 month period, but I didn't actually "feel" anything toward other people. I merely provided an explanation for their behavior. Now I actually feel something (not a ton, but I'm actually pretty averse to saying unnecessarily mean shit or hurting people, etc.).

I have no friends to talk to this about. by Clara Mimbledock - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 19:13:27 EST ID:qVEkuNpV No.512240 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I moved to a new city about a year ago. I've pretty much have just been working and not really doing anything outside of it because I don't no anyone. I'm basically fine with this I'm fine being alone for the most part. Anyways, it's been a particularly stressful week at work and long story short me and a female coworker decided to meet for drinks the next day.

So we did and it was a lot of fun at first. We both got drunk and we danced for like 2 hours straight. It seemed like she was really into it, we were getting really intimate. It all seemed like it was going great, but then her ex showed up and was generally just shitting things up. She got even more drunk and there was a lot of more bullshit.

So the next day she says she doesn't really remember anything other than all the bullshit with her ex. Even though we were having a good time before she got black out drunk. Anyways I don't really have anyone to talk to this about and I can't stop thinking about it because there's nothing else going on in my life.

She says she doesn't remember much from that night, but when I started asking questions she basically remembers everything except the part where we were dancing for like 4 hours and having fun. So i don't know I feel like she is lying to me. Why, though. Not really much of a problem compared to some of the shit on here, but oddly like it would have gotten locked if I posted it on /b/.
Hamilton Charringforth - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 19:43:59 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.512241 Ignore Report Quick Reply
little nigga i think u gota relaxx
Hedda Clorrynore - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 20:15:35 EST ID:RgY6R+Pm No.512242 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Don't worry about posting it here man, it's good to just write shit out and get peoples feedback on it.

Basically though, don't worry about it.
>we were getting really intimate.
If this means that you were kissing and stuff then I would take her saying she doesn't remember it as an indication she thought it was a mistake. It doesn't sound like that was the case though and if you were just dancing and shit I wouldn't overthink the fact it got blacked out.
Clara Mimbledock - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 21:00:08 EST ID:qVEkuNpV No.512243 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>It doesn't sound like that was the case
You are correct, we weren't kissing or anything else, but we were getting real close out there you know.

I think I'm just tripping because this is like the first genuine human interaction I've had outside of work in like 6 months and now it feels like it didn't happen at all.

I'm going to ask her out again regardless. I'll try to make it more memorable next time I guess.
Eliza Pickstone - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 09:03:32 EST ID:39dbZE+p No.512252 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Hope youre doing alright OP,
Sounds pretty fucked up, if the girl was having a good time with you its because she likes you man, if she doesnt like you, theres not much you can do about it.
Just play it cool man,

Easy way to ask her out again now, are you gonna get that drunk next time i take you out?
Martha Fishford - Mon, 09 Jan 2017 10:06:05 EST ID:5Wtawf5H No.512253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Be weary of people who havent gotten over their ex. Part of them still is attached and will cheat on you, the other part wants to be renewed.

Only when enough time has passed will a person be ready again and well this requires a strong person which this. Girl is. Obviously not

Job interview by Nigel Crarringnirk - Sun, 25 Dec 2016 05:29:59 EST ID:pCPQRsXK No.511910 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Posted on pss for about three years now. I haven't been as regular since october 2015. I got a job. ANd i worked that job for about eight months but then i quit. See the unique detail i needed to fill with the job was coming into conflict because of the job. I couldn't really schedule my days and i technically did get paided "luckily" but was booked or scheduled in a pernicious fashion.

Being that guy that filled in slots and never inherited the seniority of the template he was working for without need to maintain it in a contentious fashion.

Not with other workers but with actual scheduling and having plans follow through and what not. The idea that was promised in the contract. A part time job.

What really happened was I worked full time for part time pay because it's walmart and they don't have to count it if they do one week on and one week off.

But you notice that the contract and days available line is immediatley blurred after two weeks. First it's people quit then it seems chosen, that your not even working with anyone else and doing your job by yourself. Then you work with the same expectation, then you need a day off but they always ask that you switch it with someone else, and bring you in on a day with six people working on the very day they say they need you.

Only too realize it's for the last three hours of your shift only, while one manager tries to get you a morning shift schedule by his own concern which often involves character,hygiene, intellectual, and drug based stereotypes surrounding his perception of your situation. But cannot because he also has higher ups.

But after quitting i realized this feeling still can follow me around to job interviews. I had some trouble with them before my last job, but only with two different stations. The real trick was actually getting the interview. Now i find it far easier to get the interview but i've had eleven different ones. With many of the positions staying open, despite posting help wanted ads and bringing in others.

One lady even accepted me as an employee but after i completed the employment packet sent by the company i called her waiting for a response and she hired someone else, with a story about it being two weeks since we had spoken when it had been for days.
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Fanny Sackleherk - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 10:17:42 EST ID:9B6U+M4D No.512214 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>that your not even...
>Only too realize...

lmao you are very smart OP. inb4 "b-but english is my second language". No it's not.
Phoebe Giblinglock - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 03:01:02 EST ID:pCPQRsXK No.512229 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If you notice you wrote paided do you then say to yourself quietly that you are not allowed to write pernicious without accusing yourself of pretense or do you reserve this talk for others.

Projecting the poser onto others, without imposing this onto yourself.

Seems like if you believed this etiquette and actually practiced it by yourself like you do in this group you would only be pretending to be stupid, because you think it's pretentious to think you are smart. Meaning you would be pretentious at all times. by deciding to pick an easier word out Based on what exactly.

I picked a difficult word because it was difficult in me. Because in part the actions of people accusing me of things like this. And because of exploring this theme this result is no longer coincidence and this detail is contingent.
Polly Heffingcocke - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 05:26:07 EST ID:su8mrVQS No.512231 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Frederick Honnerbury - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 09:59:09 EST ID:9B6U+M4D No.512236 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Damn OP, I usually don't say this but you're one hell of a fag
Priscilla Tootridge - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 23:18:37 EST ID:pCPQRsXK No.512244 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Didn't you just say that assuming you communicate in the last post.

I guess i humbly suggest people have used that meaning enough for it not to matter if you rarely use it in your personal substance.

seeking advise on how to deal with pedophiles who have new victims by ducks - Thu, 04 Aug 2016 04:52:58 EST ID:tO3X5PkM No.506949 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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My uncle molested me when I was a kid. First he groomed me which was cool cause y'know, gaining someones trust feels good. Then he started to watch me shower and go to the toilet. Then he started to force me and touch me. When I told about it my family told me I was lying and I made it up. I typed up my memory of what happened for catharsis. TL;DR first though cause this isn't just about me.

My pedophile uncle Bazza fucked me up, and my family told me I was lying when I told them. Now he is best bros with my nephew and I'm terrified that if I do nothing, he'll molest my nephew. But I'm also terrified that I could cause my pedophile uncle Bazza to become threatening and violent to my nephew (like he did to me) if I talk about it because my family spent my whole life telling me I made it up. My psychologist says I need to talk to my Nephews father about this and gauge his response. Part of me is afraid my family was right; that I made it up, that I'll make things bad for trying to fix them.
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Ernest Dommleway - Wed, 02 Nov 2016 17:21:51 EST ID:Zpw1Sc9w No.510410 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think >>510258 has the right idea, my wife has been struggling with this for years, you should consider trying a different psychologist, and you definitely need to be seeing a psychiatrist for your paranoia, a medication will definitely help with curing your issues and making daily life easier.
keep in mind that sometimes it'll get worse before it gets better, if you keep up with your daily routine you should be fine.

So to sum it up, see a different therapist, see if another one will be better, and get a psychiatrist and get scripped some meds for the paranoia.
Good lock, and keep us posted! We will gladly help you out with any questions you might have or fears that need answering to.
ducks - Sun, 01 Jan 2017 20:22:17 EST ID:GC6hexUw No.512034 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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OP here, just using this thread to vent again.

Christmas came and went, bringing its' usual shitstorm of depression and anxiety. This year it was much worse than usual, this year fucking sucked. My mum did her usual game of trying to trick me into going to visit my grandparents and my shitbag uncle who still lives with them. When she realised there was no way I was going, she went to her usual passive aggressive ways of being mad that I didn't do what she wanted. She's your best friend like a dog licking your feet cause you have food, right up until you don't do what she wants then she's vindictive and shameless.

I was invited to xmas lunch with my mums' twin sister (mother of the dude I confided in about what happened in the hope that it would protect his kids from my fears the same thing was happening to them). I felt like I had no choice but to go, stupid first world problem, in hindsight I'm ashamed and angry I let it upset me so bad. All that kept running through my head was my cousin saying "you better not be lying about this, OP, cause if you are, I'll fucking kill you, I promise you, you better not be fucking lying about this shit man, cause I swear I will fucking kill you if you are". (translation: Regardless of whether you're telling the truth, I'll kill you if anything convinces me you're lying.)

I tapered off my meds. I stopped seeing my psychologist. I lost trust in them. Their words, their actions, my paranoia, I dunno, I knew it was stupid, but I just felt they were making everything worse. And for what? To what benefit? I sure as fuck can't see it.

Taking my meds gave me a ton of negative side effects, I couldn't see the positives; when I talked about the side effects to my doctor, he tried to make out that putting on 35kg in 1-2 months was perfectly normal, "When you experience less depression, the symptoms of depression start to fade, one of those is appetite. You're gaining weight because you're less depressed." No cunt, one of the side effects of mirtazapine is weight gain. I know it, he knows it, the internet knows it, that's not the problem. Him lying to my face, I don't care for that shit, he lost my trust.
I found that if I accidentally missed a day, or was late taking my sertraline, I was guaranteed 3 days of intense suicidal idealisation and the complete inability to feel anything but negative emotions. At least before when I had my depressive episodes, they didn't last this long, this predictably, and I could still find mild solace occasionally. Those 3 day withdrawals were torture, there was nothing that would pass that storm, nothing would even alleviate them. I'd fallen into the very substance dependence that made me terrified to even try antidepressants in the first place. And when I talked to my doctor about the side effects of the other meds, he fed me lies, so I fucked that cunt off.

My psychologist at my last appointment told me to tell my boss/teacher in explicit detail about what happened to me. Like, this letter, the only thing it left out was everyone but mine, hers, and my boss/teachers name. I dutifully went to do this because I'm stupid. My boss read the first line of the letter she typed up and printed out for him to read, then stopped. He asked me if I was absolutely certain I needed him to read it. I hesitated and he said "how about we don't read it just yet. If something bad happens to a student, there is no need for a doctor to go into specific detail, all they have to do is say "something significant enough to affect this students ability to study for roughly this period of time has happened" and that's enough."
This unsettled me greatly. I lost faith in my psychologist. I felt paranoid and ashamed about how much of the letter my boss read before he realised he didn't want to know any more. Before we gave him the letter, she organised a follow up appointment to discuss what happened with the letter, but I didn't go. What if she had no idea what she was doing? What if she just wanted to destroy my uncle, regardless of the damage it did to me? After all, I just called her business at random cause I was desperate and terrified because a few days earlier, I'd attempted suicide and failed.

I haven't been to work all december. I told myself it normally gets like this around xmas, it would pass and I'd survive. But it didn't. Now it's over I don't feel any better. I'm throwing away an opportunity I wanted since I was a little kid and spent the last 3 years working for. I've gotten more and more paranoid people are watching me, laughing at me, talking to themselves that they can't wait to see how far I fall. I know these paranoid episodes are in my head, but they fucking stink. They're happening for longer, they're more intense and I still have no clue how to even minimise them so all I can do is try calm down, be patient and wait till they pass.
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Matilda Seddlewell - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 10:57:56 EST ID:um6uM6Y+ No.512215 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Hey OP, I'm no pychologist but personally speaking, childhood trauma isn't something that you can just simply cure. Things like confronting somebody or sharing it with others wont make things magicaly dissapear. It will always be there in that deep corner of your mind, even if you were to solve the root cause, that looming feeling of dread will still be there.

Don't just do what everybody else tells you to, you gotta find your own way to cope. Drawing or meditation can let you forget for a while, and certain substances can suppress your negative emotions too, even if they aren't viable in the long term. Try going somewhere different if you can, somewhere you wont be reminded of them and try to reorganize your mental state. I also STRONGLY suggest you remove the things that remind you of this from your life if possible. Your family members, xmas, family gatherings at your grandparents house, etc.

And about your parents reaction to all this, I think you should know that THEY are clearly in the wrong here. Honestly it's such a typical reaction from a stubborn aussie, refusing to hear you out and outright ignoring the problem untill it gets worse. Anyway, I think you should instead focus on improving your mental state and insuring your nephews safety first, and then tackling the problem with your family later, when you are more stable and relaxed.

I wish I could do more than just scratch a post off on some anonymous message board, but words of advice is the only thing I can give.
Albert Brishwater - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 17:08:48 EST ID:9Sj9yKnw No.512217 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I think you need to seriously consider dropping all toxic family members. All the people who vehemently worked against you disclosing your trauma are doing no good for your life. If you are not already financially independent, you should give that some serious consideration. It might mean you have to quit school, but your wellbeing is much more important.

As far as your nephew goes, you cannot let his situation consume you with guilt. It might sound defeatist; however, you can't save him if you don't save yourself first. You have done all you can. Talk to his parents more often. The stubbornness of a person can have a positive effect; a stubborn person tends to know how to recognize perseverance. If you continue put up a genuine effort to warn your nephew's parents, It will keep their guard up. Bring them to a therapy session even.

I'm not a therapist whatsoever. I'm just a guy trying to help you, a man in an unenviable position.

I wish you luck. Stay strong.
Alice Mubblenin - Sun, 08 Jan 2017 17:24:40 EST ID:1bqnojef No.512239 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this my friend. toxic relationships awful. the only thing you can do is leave trying to help only continues the cycle.

Anxiety and Lack of Motivation by Steve Fuddy-Duddy - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 16:15:24 EST ID:FO3wrxBb No.512197 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm at the point where I have a bunch of important deadlines for college and internships but the motivation to go through with all of it is really low.

I'm not contacting people because I'm worried that I've waited too long to contact them, or that they'll think I'm dumb because I waited until the last minute before an important deadline or whatever.

I'm gonna try and force out some communication but I need to find a way to make some long term changes.

Thinking of getting one of those lamps that treats seasonal depression and seeing if that works.
Ebenezer Deshpadge - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 16:26:11 EST ID:Svgtf+UD No.512198 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I live in Alaska and I think getting a SAD lamp to cure your current issues is like a bandaid on a broken bone.
lay off the drugs a bit maaaan
Phyllis Marrypock - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 17:14:26 EST ID:ehhnNOgT No.512199 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Why is your motivation low? What are your long term goals in life? Does the stuff you're doing not advance you towards any of them?
Lydia Tootfuck - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 01:34:55 EST ID:YqLZri7D No.512207 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So yeah a lamp might help but also get some help for the psychological aspects
Steve Fuddy-Duddy - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 17:17:48 EST ID:FO3wrxBb No.512218 Ignore Report Quick Reply
A part of it is that some of the things I'm applying for are back-up options that I don't want to pursue like different grad schools and career paths. What I actually want to do has a deadline that's probably 6 months away.

I also have a tendency to make a big deal out of little things, put them off because they seem overwhelming, and then get to them at the last minute.

I need to go out and get a new desk lamp anyway, so I'll see if a SAD lamp comes in a reasonable price. Wouldn't hurt to try it.

At some point I want to see a therapist but my schedule, health insurance issues, and other medical conditions make that less immediate than I'd like. Might actually try using all that stress as a reason to make an appointment

No real friends by John Grimfoot - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 18:07:55 EST ID:zOfwhgti No.512164 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't have any real friends at all. Well there are at least 2-3 "real" friends like people that I can talk to for hours about anything. Other than that I don't understand this phenomenon where people tell others that they don't have any friends like it's an insult. Friends as it is are hard to come by in this day and age, "real" friends more so.

What the hell is a "real" friend supposed to be anyway and why are there all these categories that we group our relationships into like they are really all that quantifiable considering how quickly people come and go into your life. I'm lucky that I have two friends in my life that I've known for more than two years currently. One I've known eight years and the other is going on five. They are awesome people.

The reason I made this thread is because I heard that insult a lot "Everyone knows you don't have any real friends". It kind of annoys me in the sense that, listen to yourself you ignorant motherfucker, what is it that you have to makes those people want to be your friends? Oh yeah you're a drug dealer. Thats why you have friends.
John Bullerlock - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 18:15:51 EST ID:hhQhcuad No.512167 Ignore Report Quick Reply
A "real" friend is one that is not a made up story.

People have all sorts of friends and all sorts of labels, some people have tonnes of "best friends" and some have tonnes of "friends" they barely know. But you know what matters about friends.

Are you happy with the ones you have? Do you have enough?

If the answer is yes then it doesn't matter what anyone else says. Just laugh if they try to accuse you of being friendless because it's clearly a lame cheap shot stab in the dark insult.

One could argue that friends who barely know you, wouldn't miss you if you were gone or who would sell you out are not "real" friends I guess. But it doesn't matter. Are you happy with your friends? It's no one's business except you and your friends.
Cedric Turveyworth - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 18:20:17 EST ID:PP6wg+TW No.512168 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>I don't have any real friends at all. Well there are at least 2-3
People don't normally have more than 2-3 close friends. In your life, there will only be 6-7 individuals that make up your true circle. Those will consist of your parents, your 2-3 friends, your significant other, and your kids.

Everyone else you meet lies outside that circle. That's the way it is for everyone.
Debbie Downer - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 06:25:17 EST ID:STF3ejnn No.512213 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I believe they refer to "social" friends, sort of the people you meet in clubs and you know they exist, like facebook friends which you just have for the sake of having, but you really don't care about them.

How do I get help? by Nell Snodhall - Wed, 04 Jan 2017 17:11:52 EST ID:rwBgp9sw No.512134 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Depression, the really bad kind.

Do I just call a psychiatrist from my health insurance carrier's website and t make an appointment? Should I go see a GP first? Do I need to hurt myself so they take me seriously? Am I wasting my time?
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Phineas Pumblemat - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 22:51:34 EST ID:S2VQz0+A No.512180 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Referencing past to justify present.

Just let go of the idea that the past defines your present bro. Fine u spent every waking moment till this second as whatever it was I just read. But just suck it up, fugetttaabboowwtt it and live ur life with a clean slate. By now there must be no helping you for such an aimlessly childhood embedded life story.
Wesley Blarringtodge - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 02:07:38 EST ID:SvrL9OfC No.512183 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Random fits of crying from a young age that can't be explained are an enormous red flag for something like bipolar or something else really serious. The way you get the hook up with a psychiatrist or psychologist is to go see a counselor and tell them you need a recommendation to a psychiatrist for an issue. They'll probably give you some kind of questionnaire to fill out and have you describe the best story of things so far.

From there, the counselor will give you their opinion and give you the official recommendation. They might have someone they'd specifically prefer to send you to, but it really depends on your financial situation and insurance who you go to. Once you pick who, you can make an appointment with the psychiatrist or psychologist you chose and say you've got a recommendation from a counselor, etc. Then you go to the appt, probably take the exact same or some variation of the same questionnaire, repeat all the same stuff about your problems, etc. From there the train is rolling and you can receive an official diagnosis.
Wesley Blarringtodge - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 02:09:05 EST ID:SvrL9OfC No.512184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i have no idea how the word "best" got in there when i said "best story of things so far", sheeiiit
Sophie Dubberhood - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 18:08:52 EST ID:OQywja9k No.512203 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Be wary of anti-depressants. I took Celexa for 6 months and stopped taking it a year ago because i felt emotionally numb and my dick didn't work. It took another 2 months for my dick to work after I stopped taking it, and I'm more depressed now than I was before I started taking it. I've had especially bad bouts with suicidal thoughts lately and can't help but suspect that celexa contributes to it.
Debbie Downer - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 06:23:38 EST ID:STF3ejnn No.512212 Ignore Report Quick Reply
In contrast, I took Paxil for 1 or 2 years, felt awesome and had a blast. It also made my dick numb but that was great because I could have sex for a long time and sometimes I didn't even cum, which was great because I'm somehow convinced that it is a waste of some form of spiritual energy, so I don't like ejaculation but sex is amazing.

things rnt looking 2 gutt by Sidney Fankinridge - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 17:25:09 EST ID:Iu2FMeOV No.512155 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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so basically im 21, i got arrested for drugs, had my room raided and am going to court and my family is on the verge of kicking me out. too many times ive promised to do good or stop getting high only to end up fucking up again. this might be the last straw, my dad lets me stay but my older sister and mom are the breadwinners/ have more say in the matter. i dont know what to do, im afraid of what's going to go down in my trial, afraid of being homelesss and on my own because im a nonfunctioning social retard. i dont even really wanna talk to anyone i know irl about it so that's why im posting here. i dont know, anything advice or general positive vibes?? i really might just end up killing myself
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Doris Blunkinman - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 18:51:55 EST ID:DEgtejJD No.512172 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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that is the thing, im not really sure how to go about finding a place on my own and having a budget or something. maybe if i really tried i could i pull it off but i basically rely on xanax to even get motivated/not be afraid of the world which also in turns me going a litttle too hard on it and getting myself in well, these bad situations. i also live in california and rent is pretty high here so i dont know really but im just having a hard time being a responsible adult. thank you for the court advice, it is my first time getting wrapped and it's a misdemeanor so i dont think it will be too bad. only thing is i was super barred when they interrogated me and i sort of incriminated myself

anyway thank you all it is really nice to even have a place to share my troubles

i dont know if i dropping acid right now would make things better or worse but itd most likely be a bad trip altho i feel im an experienced enough tripper to be able to enjoy the trip even when things are bad in my life (kind of like a euphoric, hopeful boost, give life another chance)
Doris Turveywater - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 08:07:48 EST ID:WCiWyIpM No.512186 Ignore Report Quick Reply
do you?

god pepe really is dead. no don't drop acid you goose
Martin Mopperworth - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 15:22:30 EST ID:Iu2FMeOV No.512195 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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ok i wont but it really is uncanny how accurate it is to my life hehe, have a pic of JLH instead

love u guys

i think im just going to straight up ask my mom if she wants me to leave when I get the chance, theyve been avoiding me/busy with work. (also i think theyre a bit afraid of me since i get a bit aggressive on xans, in my defense my mom slapped me first whilel i was barred tf out and i didnt even really hit her i just kind of pushed her down or something like that i dont know im horrible and deserved it) which really sucks because i use to be a PLUR af person. i shudve just kept smoking weed all day, atleast then i was docile. altho then i was too lazy and never able to do anything with my life

also seeing a psychiatrist literally the day before the court hearing. i wish i couldve gotten an appointment earlier (it was right before holidays when i made app) so i guess they didnt really have space/time for me until now. atleast maybe then i wouldnt have messed things up but i dont know what good does dwelling on the what ifs do
Barnaby Niggledock - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 17:43:45 EST ID:5JYKa3yb No.512201 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Do you have any relatives that you are somewhat close to? If so, move to them to leave behind your current environment and focus on getting sober from pills with the help of a local doctor. If you think you could do so at home, then that's nice, but I'm guessing you have a plug nearby.
It's easier if you DON'T have a plug nearby.

Don't take acid, stop doing a surplus of drugs and start doing some growing up. Being lazy and docile isn't a good thing and drugs do that, the real unadulturated world can be a living hell if you don't start to take steps to make life enjoyable while sober. Also, ruminating on shit isn't good, but that'll stop after a while and be filled with pride when you finally accomplish something in your life.

Or maybe you'll always think back to what a dickhead you were, but would you rather think about what a dickhead you were in your teens, or would you think back on what a complete fucking degenerate you grew up to be since you never quit popping pills? Because most of us fucks up one time or another, lucky for us we fucked up somewhat early so we still have a chance to live a long and fulfilling life. A little trouble with the law won't fuck up the rest of your life, most likely it won't have any other affect than creating a bit of ruckus the next year or so and creating some extra expenses for a little while.

I'm where you are at man, been sober for half a year now, it hasn't really gotten that much better, I still have periods where I'm depressed and anxious, I don't have any of my old friends any longer and shit sucks. BUT, I have regained the trust of my parents, I have a good relationship with my family, I almost took a driving license until the feds said I had to go on bloodtest for a year before they'd let me and I might start educating myself soon.

It's been the shittiest year of my life in many ways, but, I no longer have to push drugs to keep my shitty lifestyle, I no longer have being high and getting food as my only things to do in my life, I have gained hobbies which I enjoy greatly when I am able to motivate myself and I have gained an ambition to no longer confirm my existence by being in a shitty environment based on being fucked up.

It's a long and shitty road my friend, but if you wanna catch a glimpse of the world from top of the mountain you'll actually have to expect getting soar feet. But when you're at the top, sitting down will feel so incredibly much better and hopefully you'll want to keep going upwards instead kicking rocks at the bottom.

I hope this is somewhat encouraging and somewhat discouraging, you would really hit a brick wall if anybody gave you the impression it was going to be easy. But I truly believe that it's going to be worth it in the end.
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Fanny Drebberhune - Sat, 07 Jan 2017 14:25:48 EST ID:/tsqJUh9 No.512216 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>i feel im an experienced enough tripper to be able to enjoy the trip even when things are bad in my life
"I am so addicted I can enjoy the escapism of non-physically-addictive life-introspection-feels drugs despite the overwhelming reality of my situation."
That is the saddest thing I've seen in a while. It's so real. OP drugs should be the icing on an already-functioning existence. I would definitely have a bad trip if I were in your shoes. Put away the suicidal pepes, work more, support yourself, then have fun with your surplus.

job by bobby - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 10:16:30 EST ID:JBe2YHvu No.512188 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I dont know how to handle things at work right now
Maybe some of you know what i shoud do
Actually im a normal guy with a familiy two children a dog and a 2 fishs.
Recently I got promotet in my comany and i got in a new section of my company (i live in Brasil so here everything is a bit old and old fashioned)
At my new position i got to know that we make experiments on dogs with our products (in brasil the Goverment givs zeroooo Fucks bout animals) its not like im a naturtard but Belive me or not when i nstarted in my new postion at work my dog started to look with eyes full of sorrow at me and it dosent let me pet it anymore
igot really stressed and my wife is thinks i have an affair or something cause im so strange...
so guys what shoud i do cause i cant just quit my job i need that money (my wife does not work)
Sophie Peckleford - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 12:29:12 EST ID:gjpsVbfG No.512190 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Volunteer your dog to be experimented on, that way you can get rid of the dog and cope with your cognitive dissonance in one fell swoop, embracing your role as a mad animal scientist. With your new found self confidence and joy in your day to day evil activities, your wife will find you a new man. Soon you will have a reinvigorated sex life, and your male pattern baldness will be stopped in its tracks. Good luck OP.
Phoebe Widgehuck - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 14:06:37 EST ID:OMrNONpW No.512191 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i think that if you get inclinations like that, you should honour them.
only you know what that means to you.

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