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Sad by Isabella Trotlock - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 05:21:18 EST ID:UZC9gHak No.519773 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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WHat do I do if one of my family members is gross? I'm pretty sure someone in my house has foot fungus or something because I keep smelling nasty as fuck feet everywhere now like even the towels and shit around is getting that disgusting smell stuck to it

I mean I could give them some fungus cream but problem. They are fucking lazy as fuck plus I'd feel so rude bringing it up.
Graham Grandridge - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 21:27:37 EST ID:V7JGOwDJ No.519789 Ignore Report Quick Reply
if you can't tell who it is, it's you
Caroline Saffingford - Fri, 03 Nov 2017 08:20:50 EST ID:LZcwMVpc No.519796 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Move out

I am a horrible person. by Graham Buzzstone - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 04:01:04 EST ID:jPpWgI0N No.519772 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Berate me. I deserve it and it will make me better. I am a selfish, self centered, manipulative, dishonest person. I am lazy. I am spiteful. I am vengeful. I have a deep and powerful rage.

And worst of all, I let all those qualities overshadow my good ones and win over. That's my greatest sin of all. Give me the rough business.
Phoebe Fuckingstone - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 07:59:55 EST ID:uNm7ViEe No.519775 Ignore Report Quick Reply

i love you op i hope you feel better soon :)
Reuben Packlefure - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 08:25:05 EST ID:T3h0qR5w No.519776 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm a horrible person too, op. I lied, cheated, completely disregarded the feelings of others for the sake of my own deluded desires. I changed four years ago, but who I was still haunts me, and sometimes those memories crush me so hard that I feel like I don't deserve to be alive.
Barnaby Ginnerwirk - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 10:19:00 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.519778 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, I get the self hatred thing too. Just go do something. Helps me feel better.
Jack Pickhall - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 18:39:02 EST ID:vGIlTYVx No.519785 Ignore Report Quick Reply
More specifically, do something that you know you should be doing or is the other correct and responsible thing to do. Most if not all of any of my problems with myself stem from neglecting to act on these matters anytime I become aware of their existence. Taking care of and doing that stuff makes you less shitty by your own personal standards, or at least it's progress to correcting one of the shitty things about you.
Jack Pickhall - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 18:40:12 EST ID:vGIlTYVx No.519786 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Of is the otherwise* correct

I'm kind of a fuck-up by Jarvis Nummleshaw - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 03:55:57 EST ID:1hCzdlLz No.519756 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm kind of a fuck-up, in that I've been a super-nerd for all of my life, I let it get me down, and then I go into a deep depression and my shit falls apart. I'm literally at the top of my field right now, and I can just see the collapse starting based on my life dissatisfaction.

I bring being a nerd into every single relationship, even the ones who think that my nerdy self is kind of cool. I don't know how to get along with people or get to know people, and it makes me remote, distant, and seemingly unfriendly. Moreover, I can be defensive and correspondingly mean.

So, how do I get over it? Do I ever get over it?
Oliver Firryfure - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 04:21:45 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.519758 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Reuben Subbernare - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 14:23:16 EST ID:msCTwZ8F No.519761 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That you define yourself as this one dimensional character is part of it. It's a large part of who you are but it's just one aspect. You have values and things you aspire to. I think that if you see yourself as this person you limit yourself and reinforce this image. It does you a disservice.

I'm a nerd too, but I'm also a gentle giant, a thinker, a baker, a music lover, I am given to passion about certain things, I am someone who believes that it's not fucking up that makes you a shit but it's not trying to not fuck up. I am more than that but that's already way too much indulgence.

Think about who you are, try to make sure you're reinforcing your own identity as a complex person. No one is a label, at worst we're all a unique combination of individually common or uncommon features.

The rest is practice. Try to do things you wish you'd do more often. Getting to know people is asking them questions and listening to answers. It's mostly practice though. Just try to consider their feelings or giving them a share of the conversation, food, space, respect or whatever. You may have to learn to relax or appologise if you cross the line though. I'm surrounded by people who could identify as nerds all the time but being mean to others is probably the only real problem you've got.

Finally, stop second guessing yourself. If you do end up perfectly conforming to the nerd type then if it's an accident it's just you. Do you. At the end of the day you want to attract people who like you for you and if people don't like that you can repel them. Just try to be the best you that you can.

Assburgers by Fucking Mebberdot - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 23:07:08 EST ID:El2NorQ8 No.519737 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Im not in the spectrum according the doctors, so I use the memeword "assburgers" to describe my issue. Ever since I was a child I've had trouble with fitting in, and conveying my emotions to people, even the ones I truly care about.
I remember countless times from 6yo all the way to adulthood where my own mother would cry and scream at me, begging me to show some sort of emotion. I always failed at fulfilling her request. It made me incredibly sad, still does to this day, but I guess Im just incapable to show or tell that to anyone irl.
Also retrospectively I think the kids bullying me across my childhood also were provoked by my apparent lack of visible emotions. Thei did heinous acts, and only now, over a decade later, at 24 years old, I finally understand they were also trying to get me to show some kind of emotion, just like my mom.

Now in present day, my wife is threatening with divorce for this same reason. She says I don't show affection and love enough, she calls me a robot. The words hurt me deeply, I just don't show it with my face and tone of voice. It doesnt seem to matter _what_ I say, everyone only seems to pay attention to _how_ I say it.
Even though I had the inclination to not show my feelings since I was born, I also had a violent and cruel stepfather when I was young, and he thought me to keep my feelings even more enclosed than I had before that.

In reality I am very emotional. I get angry about everything from politics to fictional stories, I write poems and song lyrics, I even cry but only when I'm alone; I can't shed a tear if I know someone is looking.

I just remembered a thing my highschool crush said. "You are much more likable when you are drunk" she said. I drink and do drugs because that seems to be when I can best relate with other people around me. I dont want it to be like this, because things are going apart really fast at this rate, either my body gets destroied from all these drugs, or all my relationships die because of my inanity. Please, is there anything to help me express myself more irl?
"I want to be a real boy" - Pinocchio
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Frederick Billingbanks - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 10:58:44 EST ID:t165pRuF No.519742 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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i agree, it is pretty normal
i remember during a young kid i used to idolize my much older brother alot, and he was a very mellow customer so i ended up trying really hard to not show emotion to just come off like a cool "i dont give a fuck" person
i obsessed with that for along time and into my early teen years. fuckin strange right?
OP you seem normal mane. Like everyday people normal dude. You should consider believing that. The divorce sounds like its for the best dog, im jealous of you on that. I wish I was single are you kidding me? At the end of the day the only person who you gotta make happy is you.
Tony Montana - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 10:59:29 EST ID:7gSbY4gD No.519743 Ignore Report Quick Reply
First thing that I can say to you is that stop calling yourself assburger or anything alike that creates a cartoon image of yourself.

>Im not in the spectrum according the doctors

Good. More reason not to.

I think some people are meant for others in every aspect of life (from neighbours to our soulmates) and I think some of the people who you are with are not for you, were not "buit" for you... and... you don't have to click, bond or adjust yourself to these people. And I think is good to be in good terms with yourself first, then I think you can search people for you or even the people who are for you would find you.

You don't sound like a bad person, an assburger, a piece of shit or anything.

> Also retrospectively I think the kids bullying me across my childhood also were provoked by my apparent lack of visible emotions. Thei did heinous acts, and only now, over a decade later, at 24 years old, I finally understand they were also trying to get me to show some kind of emotion, just like my mom.

Man... a kid is capable of being mean, a bad human being, a dick, a moron, a crazy person and you would never know if it was because they were trying to get something of emotion out of you. Man... that's not it. Maybe was your nose, posture, your grades, peer pressure to do these heinous acts.

Having said this focus on the person you are now and not the person you were in the past and people of the past that told you who you are.
Graham Cravingham - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 13:57:43 EST ID:ysF1QJtW No.519744 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Look into releasing unconscious emotional processes
Wesley Cimmernug - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 04:03:11 EST ID:UpK4tonn No.519757 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's late so I'll keep this brief, but honestly you're only a few steps farther than me. I really don't feel any emotion for people, though I can get very attached to things, particularly my possessions. Only time I sort of cried in recent years was when I had to give up a car to the insurance auction after an accident; it was the first car that I owned outright and I felt like I was putting a dog down. (Good music and beautiful architecture can also strike a chord.)

Couple of pointers OP:
^Lack of emotion can be a blessing. I can get more done professionally (sometimes personally as well) because I don't stop to care about much at all.
^Similarly, I can't tell you how much it has helped me that I'm nearly impossible to piss off. You can let me have it, at high volume, in person, and I couldn't care less. When you're done we'll just move along.
^Personal relationships come hard. Women, all of them, need attention and praise, and lots of gifts on birthdays or whatever. None of this comes naturally to me at all. I value my marriage, so at some point I just taught myself to fake it through a bare minimum of emotional stuff to make things work. My wife and I get along great 90% of the time, and I just try to shuffle through when she expects me to react (negatively or positively) to her situation.
^I'll tell you one area where things changed was having kids. I never really got why it's such a big deal if kids get abused or whatever, but once we had kids it's a whole different world, and all of a sudden you understand how precious they are.

I don't really have time to pontificate about how I got here, though I think it's 50-50 nature/nurture. You're luckier than you realize, and if you can just fake a couple compliments and birthday gifts, you'll be fine. Don't be afraid to tell your wife that emotion comes hard and you'd like her to communicate about when she needs support instead of just getting mad.

Drunk dude trying to look like less of a moron after losing his dog. Nothing to do with you.

Shoot OP, I just remembered that i had wanted to pick up a chair from down the alley before it…
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Eliza Podgelack - Thu, 02 Nov 2017 00:43:52 EST ID:o3vIoRWZ No.519769 Ignore Report Quick Reply

would u cut parents off by Fanny Ginderforth - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 10:12:58 EST ID:+eu7fILs No.519694 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Would u cut ur parents off if u were me. They brought me to the shit country poor as fuck. I'm in the middle of nowhere my house leaks when it's rains in the winter I wake up with ice in my room. They pretty much just trapped me in shit poverty and if it wasn't for me being a super genius I'd be completely fucked because I make thousands of dollars now.

I just wanna move to the big city and leave them to die in the same shit house they made me suffer in
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Oliver Piblingwill - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 20:02:11 EST ID:ivmR6uBz No.519729 Ignore Report Quick Reply

do you have a single friend with a car?
Matilda Claygold - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 14:31:11 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519746 Ignore Report Quick Reply
1) save money. Like a deposit plus a couple of grand
2) look for a house somewhere else
3) buy the place, get utilities connected and move
4) there is a ride, you just need money and a reliable contact. Maybe you just need to hire a taxi and pay the out of area. Call the company explain you have the money. Get a van, whatever. You just might have to save A LOT of money. It might be hundreds of dollars but so fucking what? You can move out so that's like a month's rent and bills. Make sure the cat is allowed.

The thing about money is anything is possible. Just don't risk getting ripped off. It'll cost a bit more and take a bit more time but it's better than being $300 down and stranded.
Edward Tillinggold - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 15:33:59 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519748 Ignore Report Quick Reply
There is always a taxi, it will just be more expensive.
Matilda Claygold - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 15:56:55 EST ID:WozaXgtK No.519749 Ignore Report Quick Reply
One more thing research this shit before you do it.

In the end OP, you are your own jailor. You can escape, the question now is will you do it or will you put your efforts into explaining why you can't?

it would confirm a theory I have about you. I'm hoping that actually my theory is right but that you actually sort your shit and become happy too.
Nicholas Pecklefield - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 22:13:09 EST ID:Hmt+ddKl No.519752 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Can't you take your cat with you? If you have money, then you must have access to transportation. Just DO IT.

Dealing with AVPD by Rebecca Sunnerworth - Wed, 25 Oct 2017 18:49:12 EST ID:eH7FoqZP No.519635 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Does anyone else here have Avoidant Personality Disorder? Are any of you in 'remission' sort of speak? If so, how'd you do it?
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Graham Wombletidge - Sat, 28 Oct 2017 21:41:21 EST ID:7Ye4lt3c No.519683 Ignore Report Quick Reply
This is childhood trauma, you can still get better just by going outside and talking to a stranger for at least 5 minutes every day.
Caroline Billingfoot - Sat, 28 Oct 2017 21:57:48 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519686 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah, the worst part is preemptively killing friendships out of fear of being rejected. I hate myself for doing it and I know I need to fight back against that fear primarily. It makes no sense to ensure the outcome that you are most afraid of (being alone) and yet I do it anyway. It is our curse.

I think you can get the kind of relationships you want if you keep struggling though, we both can. I have to hold on to that hope. I become discouraged and depressed when I start to believe that no matter what I do I will never be able to overcome my insecurities and anxieties and be close to someone, but I know where that line of thinking leads and I try to combat it because I know it's not true, there is always hope. Good luck in your struggles my friend.
Caroline Dartfuck - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 17:14:10 EST ID:Svgtf+UD No.519726 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I recently wanted to make a thread about this, funny you made one about AVPD.

I don't think I'm in remission these days but rather hit some kind of plateau. This is a good outcome still because it's much more easy to handle than a few years ago and in comparison to those days this feels like a haven. When seeking help I was told this was more something to reduce but not eliminate entirely.

The first step I suppose was identifying the circumstances that led to being this way. A behavioral therapist can be really helpful in mapping out life experiences. This probably reads like empty motivational fluff but being fully aware of the sources of your avoidant conditioning are mandatory to be able to steer your mind and emotions in a better direction. At least for me this was tremendously helpful. Before getting to navigate my memories these issues felt like such a murky pond of impulses but now it's an organized graph of cause and effect.

But from >>519677 it sounds like you're in touch with that. But if I'm wrong and you don't have a clean understanding of what messages you received as a kid, you should start there.

The biggest thing was finding a relationship which felt impossible before attaining it. For most of our first year together I just wanted to bask in all this affection and intimate human interaction, I felt so starved for so long and suddenly I was attending a never ending feast. Slowly I developed such trust(and unhealthy dependence, separate issue though) that all of those intense insecure thoughts simply didn't exist being around him. I never went back through our conversations cringing at myself or worrying about what should or shouldn't have been said, I never felt embarrassed or even considered the possibility of his rejection. This was huge for the fact that it seemed to dull and sooth all of these issues.

That seems like a massive hill to get over though. Before him I worked a graveyard shift job and spent all of my freetime in my room, scared to even go to the kitchen or bathroom if my roommate was in the living room. Sometimes I would devise ways to go pee in my room and empty it out my window simply because she had guests over and the thought of walking past them was petrifying. Living there it was hard to function because I was this frightened rodent the entire time, but the graveyard shift made it feel like living alone 90% of the time.

So much forcing and going out of my comfort zone went into meeting him. No offense intended but it's probably a more difficult hill in your position purely based on social expectations. It's hard for a tranny to find romantic options but at least when a date finally happened it lacked the "you gotta be confident bro" aspect.

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Simon Hobblepere - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 14:28:41 EST ID:qNSdqNw5 No.519745 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think I used to have it before but it seems like I'm more in the schizoid side. I think you just care less and less with time, and I actually like it this way.
Simon Hobblepere - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 14:34:39 EST ID:qNSdqNw5 No.519747 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Go talk to your HS friend you dumbo and explain to him your situation. If he stil wants to talk to you is because he cares. It is not HS anymore, he has very probably matured. Do it. DO IT!

My parents are possessed by demons by Beatrice Brommerpog - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 13:27:33 EST ID:UZC9gHak No.519718 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I know my parents are demons and it's driving me nuts. They time everything bad. I mean EVERYTHINF and BAD like down to a t.

After being rudely awakened by them I go downstairs because I have shit to do. I always have shit to do. I can't even sleep for a day I always have time stuff around their shit schedule and these small town hours.

This is like the 5th time it's happened this week. My ass hole is about to explode because of how bad I have to shit and my dad just charges right for the bathroom and takes it over and starts shifting. This happens EVERY TIME I HAVE TO SHIT.

One time I ran out of my room to take a shit and my mom wakes up from a dead silence and opens her door right as I have to shit and I'm walking down the stairs and don't even make it 3 steps before she says she has to use the bathroom. Like wtf bitch it really has to be this one minute time frame.

Every time I fap. Every time. Every single time. They come around the corner interrupt make a bunch of noise walk back and forth past my room. I just want them to fuck off. I don't care if they have to die or if I haveto pay but they need to fucking go somewhere. I'm trying so fucking hard to get the fuck away from them as far as I possibly can it's literally all I think about.

I would literally pay them $100 if they would just go away from a day.
Edward Tillinggold - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 21:35:28 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519734 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So move out. Problem solved.
Jenny Wezzlefidging - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 21:49:18 EST ID:JRyWjjSX No.519736 Ignore Report Quick Reply

The best option. Unless op is an 18 yo senior
Oliver Piblingwill - Tue, 31 Oct 2017 10:07:19 EST ID:ivmR6uBz No.519741 Ignore Report Quick Reply
you expect me to show pity or empathy when you are a little baby suckling off mommy and daddy? least you don't got bills, kid. hope you can move about before 30

Addicted to mortification? by Nathaniel Druvingshit - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 20:49:08 EST ID:V7JGOwDJ No.519732 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I seem to unconsciously engineer situations in which I will be acutely embarrassed; when I have already done something embarrassing my immediate instinct is to massively escalate the situation into an existential terror-inducing hellscape.

I used to think this was a side effect of substance abuse, and admittedly it has always happened more with the addition of drugs (especially alcohol but also stimulants, benzos), but I've been drinking/drugging a lot less and yet it still seems to be there at the core of things while sober. (maybe just revealed more with lowered inhibitions?)

For example, when I have a drunken argument, I quickly abandon any thread of reasoning and just say stupid shit that makes me sound like an asshole, not in the mistaken belief that I'm winning, but as like an automatic self-sabotage thing because in a weird way I get a buzz off the embarrassment/social suicide feeling? Like, I want to make myself look as bad as possible as a kind of fuck you to the concept of wanting to look good.

It's a weird trend that I'm only really noticing now, and I wonder if anyone can relate.
Edward Tillinggold - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 21:47:41 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.519735 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sounds like you may be a self-undoing masochist as defined by Theodore Millon
>Is “wrecked by success”; experiences “victory through defeat”; gratified by personal misfortunes, failures, humiliations, and ordeals; eschews best interests; chooses to be victimized, ruined, disgraced.

I don't know what to tell you because I'm basically the opposite as I have a deathly fear of being embarrassed and avoid it at all costs so I can't really relate, sorry.

ISTP by Ian Pandlechire - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 23:45:45 EST ID:PMkO/Z8a No.519708 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I was never a big believer in MBTI, but one of my friends was getting into it recently and I found myself looking at the memes and having a good chuckle. What really caught me off guard is that ISTP seems to be widely regarded as one of the least desirable personality types (pic related), and the one time that I took an official Myers Briggs test (I was in college and career counseling gave me it as part of a battery of tests), I got ISTP as my result. I scored almost exactly in the middle of the Extrovert/Introvert continuum but was to the extremes on the S/T/P parts.

I feel like whenever I see threads about MBTI, INTJ seems to come up a lot. Has anyone taken the test and scored as ISTP? In your opinion, is it really 'suicide tier'? Some of the stuff in the memes rings true for me, but I find it amusing that ISTP is supposed to be as bad/dysfunctional as INFP.
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Charles Hebberhall - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 05:17:33 EST ID:i632blqC No.519714 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't remember ever taking a meyers-briggs test, and always thought they were taken too seriously, but for whatever reason your post made me want to see what I'd score.
I was surprised, kind of, but I got an INFP today.
Describes me pretty well though.
Eliza Sindlespear - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 13:27:47 EST ID:CfonqoA0 No.519719 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Eugene Clayridge - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 16:41:30 EST ID:ZLhcWDoX No.519722 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Fake and lame
Molly Hedgemet - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 18:39:14 EST ID:jBDvFoJz No.519728 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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meyers-briggs tests have been critically discarded by a huge number of psychometrists for over 30 years now. The organization that sells the rights to schools and universities to run the test for their students just so happens to have funded almost 50 percent of the studies done on the effectiveness of the personality test. There is money involved, I would be highly suspicious of self-ascribing a personality type from this sort of test.
Emma Bubberpidge - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 20:19:52 EST ID:S3kHOxGg No.519730 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've gotten several different resulrs from that site.

How can I get mental health disability in America? by Caroline Sackleded - Sat, 28 Oct 2017 16:29:20 EST ID:FPD5kQT8 No.519680 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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My (rich) parents are finally taking me back after a couple years on the streets and are willing to pay for therapy. They still haven't accepted the idea that I'm unemployable (rather than merely lazy) but said they'd help with rent for a year.

So basically I have a year to start receiving welfare benefits. I tried getting a job for years but my parents kicked me out. I haven't exactly been bolstering my resume living on the streets and I have a much more substantial criminal record, so if I couldn't even get a mcjob before I obviously can't get one now.

Unfortunately I've read that it's pretty hard to get mental health disability in America. Do you really need a lawyer in addition to documented untreatable mental health problems (which I already have)? Has anyone successfully done this before? I have pretty much everything but schizophrenia plus a history of violence and getting fired. I think my odds are pretty good but the internet has been saying otherwise because I'm a white male from wealthy parents.
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Priscilla Sattingmirk - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 17:05:00 EST ID:37djlT33 No.519700 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Yeah go ahead and be a retard and tell your physician you wanna go mass murder people if you dont get a free check every month.

You'll be better off doing that trust me fam

Actually just go kill them first and maybe then they will diagnose you as mentally ill. Then you can receive your welfare check inside of jail.
Ernest Brookwell - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 17:12:44 EST ID:93IlhelY No.519701 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Op again.

Thanks for the advice. I will lie to my therapist then and not tell them about my violent urges. I honestly did not know if that was in my best interest. Should l approach this from a more depressed/anxious perspective in your opinion? I have autism too and struggle to make conversation with people.
Jenny Feshfield - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 03:16:49 EST ID:37djlT33 No.519711 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Depression and anxiety might get you antidepressants(SSRI's) and benzodiazepines but I'm not sure it will do anything to help you with getting a welfare check.

If your serious about your quest I would look around google for examples of what other people have done to qualify for welfare.

Honestly your better off making up some bullshit if it's passable than trying to act on those violent urges.

And remember we all think those types of shit but the person who goes ahead and acts on those impulses is the one who will pay with years in the slammer.

I don't want you going away for a long time Op

I apologize for my harsh words. I hope you find help or figure out a way to get along in life.

Godspeed random internet brother.
Oliver Micklekadging - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 03:26:00 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.519712 Ignore Report Quick Reply
How old are you, buddy?
Jenny Duckstone - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 13:56:08 EST ID:FPD5kQT8 No.519720 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Not harsh at all! I don't want to kill anyone most of the time. It's pretty much only when I'm employed. Thats why I know precisely what my trigger is. I'm just not one of tthose people who can function in society, but I only would commit suicide after killing someone else. Naturally been looking on Google but I haven't found much other than get a lawyer and be prepared to go at this hard for at least 2 years.

Gonna turn 30 next month

Need to vent by Jack Feppershit - Sun, 22 Oct 2017 03:25:54 EST ID:h99WlKHO No.519560 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So i'm twenty three. I was in my car earlier tonight, after a night of bartending at a new job that i've started, and i started thinking about my life and how I got here.

i forget a shit load of fucking things until i bring myself to stop and think and recall them or something in my daily life signals a memory. at times, i feel like many different people at once. I feel that im incapable of change and that i will always return to the man that i am now - daily cocaine use, daily drinking, daily smoking, pushing myself hard. i make my life more difficult for no reason whatsoever.

does anyone else feel this? i know they do i only want them to tell me. I'm self destructive. i have a good job, i get paid good money, i got myself out of a terrible situation and life is good and i have this raging fucking urge to fuck myself up in the stupidest ways.

i'm angry, yet i'm not. i'm sad, yet i'm not. i dont find anything worth looking forward to, and i dont think that's a bad thing, it just is, and the indifference is painful sometimes. i only want a fucking hug man, and someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay and that i'm not a bad man.

i've gotten to where i am without hurting anyone intentionally. i don't like the man i am when i am constantly fucking doing coke and drinking. i want to be clean again and i feel that im trapped in a cycle because the total emptiness of everything kills me and i have to do something to fucking fight it knowing that i'm going to lose going into it.
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Nigel Carryfoot - Wed, 25 Oct 2017 07:39:45 EST ID:kcVbo4Uy No.519627 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Jesus christ who's that girl? She's as close as perfect as possible, although it could be because of the bra. I'd need the name and/or more photos, in order to confirm the perfection one way or another. Also to beat it like a beast.
Polly Manderken - Wed, 25 Oct 2017 13:12:50 EST ID:VNZRIbJT No.519632 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't come here to get turned on! Since were here, name? Also name of big boob girl everyone talking about. Are they one in the same?
Ian Pandlechire - Mon, 30 Oct 2017 01:17:04 EST ID:PMkO/Z8a No.519709 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Serenity now... insanity later.
Ian Sennerpere - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 06:22:30 EST ID:t165pRuF No.519759 Ignore Report Quick Reply
the girl in the .gif file with the ass is one of the camilla sisters (twins) famous colombian models and they are fucking delicious
no bump you filthy animals
Ian Sennerpere - Wed, 01 Nov 2017 06:23:53 EST ID:t165pRuF No.519760 Ignore Report Quick Reply
sorry i actually meant
the DAVALOS sisters

I can't stay positive, I can't imagine change by Thomas Blytheshaw - Tue, 24 Oct 2017 14:28:35 EST ID:EW1SwjL/ No.519616 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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No matter what, I just can't stay positive for any period of time. Its always been this way.

I am very fucking neurotic. The slightest things can ruin my day and have me questioning whether I should even stay alive. I am stuck in the past and can't seem to move on, I'm still badly missing my ex even though its been years. I stalk her IG and it breaks my heart, Its compulsive behaviour and fucking pathetic but I hate change.

I've never stuck at anything, never acheived anything or followed through my whole life. I sometimes get motivated and vow to change with the absolute best of intentions. But time and time again I have failed and so now I simply expect to fail that I don't really try at all. I am so used to losing motivation and giving up that I can't ever imagine being able to change even though I want to so badly.

I'm hooked on porn and wanking and cant stop. I waste weeks, months at a time doing nothing. I expect the worst in life, it never ends and I'm so tired of being so pessimistic and sad.

Is this a self-esteem issue? What causes such deep rooted negativity and fear. Even though I know I have nothing to lose and everything to gain, I can still barely get anything done. And I'm not depressed either, I sleep like a baby and eat just fine. I just know what to do, hence why I would desperately post on a chan board for advice

tl;dr - how the fuck do you become a positive person after a lifetime of negativity, failure and years of built up regret?
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Alice Nablingsuck - Thu, 26 Oct 2017 12:27:09 EST ID:lIGmCb/T No.519649 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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This sucks OP, I'm sorry that it is causing you so much stress. It sounds like you are in a bad place.

Maybe just go with it? There's a book called "Happiness for people who can't stand positive thinking" that might help, it goes through a few ideas and philosophies that mesh easily with people who are naturally pessimistic, you can then pick one of those if it sounds appealing and get more into it.
Phoebe Sovingfud - Thu, 26 Oct 2017 19:19:43 EST ID:a0EoQjH4 No.519659 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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This video is highly helpful in respect to your reality. Watch it. There's nothing wrong with you.


Awe' God !!vVWR8L52 - Sat, 28 Oct 2017 20:57:18 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.519681 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fast and ride out the anger all the while accepting yourself as much as able. simple as that
Ian Gannerkudging - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 15:59:21 EST ID:9ySjx6M5 No.519697 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm going to tell you what I tell myself what I get into that mood: Is either this or suicide. I doubt you really want to kill yourself because you are still here looking for answers. I was at the border of suicide a few times but never did it, obviously. It seems like you already choosed to live so better get good at it.
Nathaniel Chemmlesack - Sun, 29 Oct 2017 16:10:15 EST ID:jWKMyhYX No.519698 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Is either this or suicide. Do you want to die? Then do it. I doubt you actually want to die because if you really wanted to: 1) You would had already done it. 2) You wouldnt be searching for answers and advide here.
Do whatever you can to get functional and working to some kind of goal, whatever the fuck you want, pills, psychotherapy, etc., whatever works for you. No one owes you anything neither do you owe anything to anyone. I like literature and music and I try to mold my life based to those two things. If you like anime do whatever you can to get yourself the time to enjoy anime the most time you can.
If you are clinically depressed nothing will make sense and everything will be a spiral of 0 energy and dispair, pills fix that to a certain point.
Change comes regardless you want it or not, the only thing you control is what you do about that.
tl;dr: stop bitching and do whatever
also eat healthy, stop watching porn, do not smoke weed and lift weights. this helps 90% of people, try it and if it doesnt work dont do it and keep searching for something that works.
bye, good luck

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