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Medical Help? by Edward Chabblelare - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 01:02:14 EST ID:33tDF11U No.522826 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Anyone know what this may be? Appeared awhile ago, its a bit squishy to touch but doesn't have any pain. No Medical..
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Phoebe Dartwater - Mon, 19 Mar 2018 03:51:10 EST ID:42wGzjUi No.522884 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Esther Maffingworth - Mon, 19 Mar 2018 21:41:38 EST ID:42wGzjUi No.522898 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Thomas Pitthall - Mon, 19 Mar 2018 21:48:36 EST ID:WivHpoVG No.522899 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Is that your knee? Squishy how? Is it lumpy? Do you have stiffness? What are the contributing factors? How long is a while?

So many questions where the answers should of been in the OP to begin with. You suck OP.
Esther Maffingworth - Tue, 20 Mar 2018 05:49:52 EST ID:42wGzjUi No.522917 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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It's like a "mini-you".
Rebecca Claydale - Tue, 20 Mar 2018 16:07:43 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.522930 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'd pound that booty

Moving by Eugene Greenstock - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 20:09:01 EST ID:mKLF8TfC No.522821 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I really really want to move. I am really sick of my hometown, I don't want to act like I'm better than where I come from, but it's time for me to make my own way, and the challenge of the big city seems so thrilling.

But I can't get a job. My degree is is full BA spec, it got me a decent job here but it's difficult to make a case as to why someone should hire me and wait for me to relocate (well it has been so far anway).

Can I get some advice about moving and moving on? I've saved up heaps of money and I want to move for the experience not any job. I am thinking about taking a different job like in a warehouse or something to get me there. I just really feel like shit that nothing is coming to fruition.

How did you guys move? What challenges were there? Any success stories? My parents are very supportive but they have me convinced that taking a low rung job will destine me for lower-classdom my entire life.
Sidney Bloddlehut - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 23:50:57 EST ID:xZCNc04+ No.522823 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Decent job
>Saved heaps of money

What do you do for work? Curious.

If you have a source of income and are net+ and adding to your savings, the next challenge to moving is psychological. People in big cities have adapted to being psychopaths and trust no one by default for their own safety, so join a club, painting, climbing, hiking, a church group even to meet genuine people who will introduce you to more genuine people.

Pack light to keep your freedom to shuffle if you're uncomfortable, and use airbnb to scope out new places. You can cut airbnb out (saving 100$+ per mo) and sign a contract once you're comfortable with the place.
George Seckledit - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 07:09:44 EST ID:9TiDIgvM No.522829 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just an entry level govt. position. I did Political Science but no honours or anything.

I think I am well past the psychological barrier. I want to go, I dream about it every day. I guess I am just wondering if it's stupid to pick up a shitty job in the meantime. I feel like moving is the next step that I need to take to grow, but I could be wrong, is it really such a big deal, would the risk of getting a low paying job to tide me over actually be worth it?
Ian Sungerspear - Tue, 20 Mar 2018 01:30:22 EST ID:xZCNc04+ No.522908 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yes, it's worth it to get the fuck out and get a shitty job. If you have savings it should be even more relevant, since you can be more comfortable and confident knowing that you have a financial cushion if in case anything happens.

Sorry man, you got fucked in the ass and given a BA in return. That means out of college you either rent seek (gov) or start shoveling shit. Keep your eyes open & stay light to take advantage of new work opportunities. Right now you have your foot barely on the first rung of the job ladder, hustle and bounce around until you've secured your spot.

The good news is that, if you're strong willed and youthful you can work with your hands and earn a decent wage. Whatever you do, don't idle. If you worked instead for the last 4 years where would you be now? Debt less, experienced, and some savings. second best time is now

Seriously close to ending a relationship two months in by Cedric Buffinghall - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 14:05:27 EST ID:eOVAQpDG No.522866 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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For what I consider to be understandable reasons based off the fact that each time it happens my trust for her lowers. I am dating a Co worker. I know the potential horror of doing so but this one in particular seemed different. She did lose her virginity to me.

Right after we started dating the manager, found out she had a boyfriend, but we agreed that we wouldn't reveal it to anyone. I could tell her was trying to flirt with her and she would do it right in front of me. I'd get upset with her and we'd talk about it. She would act like it wasn't happenin but it seems like we've had an instance where there would be flirtatious behavior going on aND she would get defensive about it every time instead of fixing the problem.

The boss is married to a woman in another state with two kids. I know what he's doing and he surely knows I am her boyfriend at this point.

I just so happen to walk upon them and she didn't know I was around. She was crouched down next to him with a smile on her face. She saw me and her face changed immediately. I ignored her for the rest of the day because I didn't want to say anything I would regret.

We talked about it and fucked for two hours after she promised it wouldn't happen again and she finally acknowledged that it was going on when before she wouldnt. At this point I don't know. This boss I don't like him not only because he flirts with my girlfriend but he is an asshole so that makes it worse.

What do you think? I see that as an indicator that I can't trust her. I see a lot of people staying in shit relationships and noticing red flags and when something happens they are shocked.

What should I do?
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Molly Hingerworth - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 15:43:08 EST ID:ScMqfiUh No.522877 Ignore Report Quick Reply

>One of the times I first confronted her about it I was sure it would stop. The next time we work together I notice she got a little too close and he called her out on it. Then she literally presses herself upon him and says "no this is getting in your space" and was laughing about it. This happened in front of me. The flirting and one and personal conversations have continued to happen.

Oh you should have said this before. Yeah she's a nasty little slag and clearly doesn't respect you. She will probably cheat on you with this guy (if he is even willing, it sounds like she is more up for it than he is), it doesn't sound like she has even one tenth of the self-control needed to remain faithful to you in this scenario. It sounds like you want to dump her right now, so go ahead and do it. Explain you demand a higher standard of respect from your partners and explain what this means.
Polly Pitthall - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 17:13:20 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.522878 Ignore Report Quick Reply

You get good ones and bad ones.

This is a bad one. That's just bad behaviour. Some people just prey on and exploit weakness. This same chick is capable is a lot bro.
Caroline Doshnodge - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 20:18:14 EST ID:eOVAQpDG No.522880 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I'm not gonna dump her right now. I'm giving it another month before it does end though because I honestly don't believe I can trust her anymore.
Shitting Bliffingkack - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 23:23:45 EST ID:IaTqRtaT No.522881 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Congratulations OP you ruined your job to have sex for a few months when you could've kept your job normal and still had sex for a few months with any other girl but a coworker.

I'd start looking for a new job if I were you.
Clara Blackshit - Mon, 19 Mar 2018 00:20:28 EST ID:C+6NY20y No.522882 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP you have embarked on Mister Boner's Wild Ride. The ride never ends. The only solution is to date another female coworker. You have to play the stronger hand.

Managing Bipolar Disorder by Nigel Duckshit - Tue, 13 Mar 2018 06:13:15 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522787 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Hey /qq/. I've been diagnosed with BPD/Manic depression as a child, and again as an adult. I have had 10+ traumatic experiences in my childhood alone, which they called compounding trauma I believe (he said it matters a lot in developmental years).

Adult Trauma is bad too. But in both regards, I've really been able to move on with my life. But my BPD has seemingly gotten better when it comes to breaking my shit (haven't hit a wall or broken my stuff in over 4 months), and worse when it comes to those bad moments. Best I can explain is this:
>Be sitting in class (college student).
>Happy, enjoying lecture (I LOVE school)
>See woman that slightly reminds me of another that always plays mind games, and always looks to put me in my place.
>"Oh my God I am a pathetic piece of shit", "god sure wasted resources on you"
>Literally only want to die, nothing else. Life gets pointless and hopeless.
>This infuriates me. I don't want to die. I'm lucky as it is to just have it.
>Begin various forms of self deprecating and self loathing
>Ends after either minutes or days.

I have a lot of social problems as well when it comes to attention seeking behavior. But I've been having good luck controlling it.

It's those crashes that really wreck me though. I can physically feel hoplesness. To me, it feels like a blanket of numb with an haze of terror and anxiety.
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Polly Cunkinridge - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 19:47:20 EST ID:pMKk6f4f No.522839 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Borderlines are horrible at spotting symptoms in anybody so I'm not surprised.

Current consensus is that borderlines share genetic etiology with the affective but not the interpersonal symptoms of biplolar disorder i.e. the mood swings come from the same source more or less but the way the individual reacts to them is quite different, usually as a result of severe childhood trauma leading to deleterious attachment patterns in adulthood. Both share noted symptoms of impulsivity and affective liability (it is a myth to assume most bipolars go through complete intraepisodic recovery and neurological testing demonstrates noted task-related/affective impairment even during so-called 'euthymia'!!!), dissociation, pronounced social anxiety, and tendency toward psychoticism or schizotypal traits.

Episodic length is not as big a factor as you'd think. There are noted bipolars who ultradian (hours to days) cycle, as well as the diagnosis of cyclothymia which does not specify an episodic length requirement at all but only requires that non-episodic mood cycling be present at a chronic course for at least six months. This can very easily develop major depression and thus bipolar 2 later in life. Couple that with the above symptoms, and the fact that 100, yes, 100 fucking % of borderlines qualify for major depression, and it's not hard to see to see how normies conflate the two. You take a bipolar 2 (note: probably 2-3x as common as bipolar 1s. There is a lot of evidence to indicate cyclothymia is underdiagnosed and may run 5+% of the gen pop) who mostly goes through shitty fleeting mixed episodes compared to the multiweek psychotic orgies 1s go through and major depression with noted intraepisodic mood liability and impulsiveness with a borderline who pretty much presents the exact same way, it's hard even for a trained psych to distinguish the two. The DSM has been criticized for being too obtuse with its length requirements in the past, but in truth this is simply the consequence for having labels that don't match where the genes line up. Thus many so-called different conditions share similar genetic profiles and because of that mismatch overlap in symptoms will always …
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Fuck Bligglebanks - Sat, 17 Mar 2018 04:57:03 EST ID:tiBuSQx/ No.522844 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Okay, fair enough about variable episode length, mixed states, etc. Personally, hearing descriptions of mixed states, hypomania, etc, it does not seem like my own experience. Perhaps I haven't heard from enough people with bipolar. and the misdiagnoses I'm speaking of are anecdotal, and from providers who genuinely made them in one session based on not much info.

>Borderlines are horrible at spotting symptoms
I don't know where this is from--maybe you mean the empathy thing? Idk, I think I have about as good a chance as the next goof
Fuck Bligglebanks - Sat, 17 Mar 2018 04:58:32 EST ID:tiBuSQx/ No.522845 Ignore Report Quick Reply
*at noticing anything.
Basil Gonningdedging - Sat, 17 Mar 2018 20:16:00 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522856 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here. So reading the conversation thus far. I have questions.
So I've been diagnosed with both bipolar and borderline BPD at various times in a hospital setting.
I feel a lot of empathy for other people. To the point I get used and mistreated a lot. Not going to sit here and act like an angel. I've said and done shitty things. But I've never used someone to my benefit.
This is why I believe the borderline BPD (cluster B) diagnosis was a bit off.

My past is FUCKED. Not like I have a record or anything. But my entire family scapegoats and ostricizes me. They can't see the concept of family past their pride, and need to feel better than other people.

I hate that, and have told them so (in a fucked up yet truthful way). Basically, I have no family by means of association anymore.

It's making me angry. I'm alone. But I'm not weak.

I know I can beat this shit and be a better person for myself, and others like me. Just... I don't know if it is how I act, otlr look. But nobody takes me seriously. I'm avoided, unincluded, and manipulated.

This makes me very angry. I know I look scary from all the combat scars. But I do my best to treat people with respect. And have a genuine interest to meet other people, and hear their takes on life.
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Albert Billinghood - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 04:33:52 EST ID:ZMDYtLUz No.523013 Ignore Report Quick Reply
All mental illness colors life in such a way to cloud sound judgement, even simple anxiety. Borderlines contrary to popular belief do not have a deficit in emotional empathy, not even severe cases like Dahmer (though deranged in numerous other manners, he did obviously feel sorry for what he did). They have deficit in cognitive empathy like someone with autism spectrum disorder. This is not the same thing, and many people make such a mistake with autism spectrum cases as well. Cognitive empathy is raw perspective taking. It's the ability to "inhabit" the shoes of other people or other animals. Splitting, black and white thinking, is a common reaction to cases when cognitive empathy is in deficit. People who cannot appreciate the nuance that goes into another's eyes cannot see beyond black and white. Autists (and schizoid personalities) simply retreat into their own and develop complex obsessions or rich fantasy worlds, whilst borderlines express themselves impulsively and oftentimes violently. Both are reactions to severe cognitive empathy deficit and the splitting it produces, they are merely different paths taken at the same starting point, with the idea that one is 'biological' and one is 'psychosocial' (though this is proving not as true as they wish as we continue to unravel the genetic etiology of PD and how they relate to DSM Axis I disorders).

Thus, while a normie may be bad at spotting mental illness, the already mentally ill are even worse at it, and often become prey for other mentally ill as a result. Severe cognitive empathy deficit makes it even harder to come to accurate conclusions about matters of human personality. It also makes treatment compliance difficult, for building a rapport is limited in such cases and the chance of transference or countertransference is high. That said, borderlines are still easier to treat than any other personality disorder. Another reason I suspect there is significant bipolar genetic interplay in borderline personality. A personality disorder, a disorder of the fundamental tenants a person is built off of from the ground up, should never be easy to treat. All other personality disorders have treatment rates of…
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Is tinder worth it? by Ebenezer Gaffinghidge - Sun, 25 Feb 2018 20:38:43 EST ID:VfdAO0Sb No.522522 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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What have peoples general experience been with using tinder?
I go to uni in a fairly big city and am considering downloading the app. I'm not really sure that I'm into random hook ups with people I dont know.. Not saying I'm looking for a long-term relationship through this app, but it seems kind of awkward connecting with someone only under the pretense of sex and not knowing alot about them.

I'm not too much of a turbo autist where its not like I don't talk with girls and network IRL, but turning that type of interaction into something more intimate has been slow and kind of random.
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Lillian Tootman - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 17:14:05 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522811 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm completely out of the loop with online dating but asking friends to take good photos of you for tinder just seems weird to me.

Glad you're having success though, keep on keeping on man.
Charles Funderforth - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 11:17:34 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522817 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It was merely that she's a photographer. I dunno why it's weird though. Sex isn't a new concept.
Sidney Bloddlehut - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 00:01:19 EST ID:xZCNc04+ No.522825 Ignore Report Quick Reply

if you want to feel reduced to a dopamine seeking rat whos self esteem is directly tied to others approval of his looks who also fantasizes about getting an std tinder is right for you bud
Cyril Bucklewat - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 23:07:30 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.522841 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Meh let me get the vicarious thrill a hunt without actually hunting. Tinder is fun to see what sort of girls quantifiably found you attractive.
Phoebe Brablingforth - Sat, 17 Mar 2018 03:23:39 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522842 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You just have to not be a dumbass and look out for the ones gaming you

I have literally no social skills by Nicholas Cruffingstig - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 16:59:23 EST ID:oK5Vp0/i No.522820 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I am 21yrs old. I have no social skills. I've become increasingly isolated. I work at a restaurant and have worked in restaurants since 15. I've always been awkward but in the last few years either my social skills have gotten worse or maybe I've just grown too old for my poor social ability to be overlooked.
I had friends through most of high school (I went to 4 different schools)but I always switched from group to group. I did have a few close groups but they all fell apart. II used LSD and many other psychedelics very often, almost always alone. I would often spend months alone without going out, followed by brief periods of intense social activity. I didn't enjoy socializing exactly, but I felt capable of doing it. Towards my senior year I began drinking heavily and using amphetamines to help socialize, I wouldn't even go to class without killing a bottle first, and I'd keep drinking all day.
I went to collge for a semester and managed okay there as well, I spent the first few weeks without making any friends but I eventually had a close group of 3 friends and I'd spent all my time with them. Other than them, I pretty much talked to no one. During that time i became extremely dependent on Xanax and ultimately got suspended due to not controlling my drug use.
I was homeless for a while and lived in some really bad circumstances, I'm only just recovering now. I'm in a community college now and have a place to stay, but my social skills have taken a permanent dive. At work customers seem vexed and uncomfortable from just talking to me for a few seconds. I alienate myself from complete strangers within a few moments. I don't make facial expressions and every moment of socializing feels completely conscious, not natural at all. When I make eye contact with people they get really uncomfortable and their eyes start watering, so I completely avoid eye contact. When I smile it's either held too long or too short. I creep people out. My coworkers hate me, my manager tolerates me only because he's aware of my situation and feels bad for me.
Outside of work, I spend all my time alone. I mostly sit in my room studying math all day or playing guitar, or reading books.…
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Sidney Bloddlehut - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 23:57:25 EST ID:xZCNc04+ No.522824 Ignore Report Quick Reply

More than anything hire a serious PT for them to coach you into weight lifting so that you don't feel so goddamn gassed all and depressed of the time. Learn about nutrition and how it effects your mental state. Stop doing drugs for a while

Use meetup.com to find a cheap hobby like swimming, hiking, painting and go to it religiously. Just dont creep anyone out and they'll probably be okay with you tagging along.

don't find another crutch like a gf/enabler or another drug. get healthy and save some money every month
Archie Clenkinnere - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 10:48:02 EST ID:N/uJd9MT No.522832 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>When I make eye contact with people they get really uncomfortable and their eyes start watering, so I completely avoid eye contact. When I smile it's either held too long or too short. I creep people out. My coworkers hate me, my manager tolerates me only because he's aware of my situation and feels bad for me.

Any chance at least some of this is in your head? I mean unless you have some hideous deformity or are horrifically ugly other people don't often get repulsed by simple eye contact or an occasional awkward smile. It also doesn't seem to help that you basing all of your current social skills on such a small and potentially shitty pool of people like people you're forced to work with. And I agree with what the above poster said that I don't think drugs are the answer here. Sitting in your room taking drugs and thinking of how things can get better is a whole lot easier than actually putting yourself out there and making things better for yourself.
Cyril Pallybat - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 11:59:24 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522834 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP at 21 you're still pretty much a kid, you've got years left to work on this so don't write yourself off.

My advice is to work on yourself more, and i call it work because it will take effort. The standard advice applies, you should start working out, start finding new places to go and interact with like minded people and say yes to more social situations you find yourself invited to.

You're asking about using drugs to "cure" you; if you're introverted this might actually work. It kind of worked for me, I abused stimulants for a while and became much more extroverted when sober. I guess the logic was "If i can act so friendly and outgoing when under the influence and everyone likes me, then I can go ahead and start being more outgoing when sober".

However this plan could go horribly wrong, results are not guaranteed and i had other positive things going on in my life at that time which may have also helped me. The decision to do this is up to you.

Slight side note which may not apply to you, meaningful human interactions kind of require you to share a part of yourself and if you're got nothing good going on on the inside your interactions / connections with others will be poor.

What the fuck is wrong with me by Lillian Tootman - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 08:11:34 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522799 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I often engage in risky unprotected sex with anyone I can, often people I do not like and/or people i have just met. I hate and disgust myself.

Sometimes i'll take stimulants (anything, but mostly speed) so I can have even dirtier fuck sessions. Those ones are the most regretful ones.

How can i change this behaviour and why the fuck do i feel the need to fuck everyone interested in me without any consideration on how much i actually like that person.

I know a lot of people might think this is a non issue but I'm getting pretty depressed about my lack of self control.
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Matilda Murdway - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 10:34:58 EST ID:ln0VV+R6 No.522806 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Although the last person i fucked was just some random I met when walking my dog, we both got really drunk as fuck and then fucked at hers.
damn OP I thought you were gay but you're talking about fucking women this entire time? teach me your secrets
Lillian Tootman - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 12:23:52 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522807 Ignore Report Quick Reply
she was a 5/10 and already a little drunk and so was I (it was late evening last friday). I just said hello then I dunno the convo just went on about dogs and then music or w/e and i was walking my dog the same direction so we kept talking and walking. I got her number and then she invited me to hers.

She was pretty forward so that helped.

It's easier to go with the ones you dont find sexually attractive but are still bangable.

I dunno guys im pretty socialy awkward so i can't really give you many tips, they just seem to like my odd style.
Shitting Sishdock - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 13:22:21 EST ID:ZkJ8QGZ8 No.522808 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Yeah I'd be careful OP, you don't want to fuck some random girl that has a crazy ex-boyfriend that she still talks to or some shit like that.
Lillian Tootman - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 13:48:39 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522809 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I just smoked a joint for the first time in ages and i was thinking maybe I feel this guilt and shame about fucking people i dont like because I'm just doing it to feel some kind of connection.

I thought it was a fairly physical thing but to be honest im pretty depressed and lonely in general.

Anyway to the guys looking for advice, good luck when you're running through your next nobstacle course.
Clara Bleddlewell - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 11:03:14 EST ID:YcXR0vcD No.522833 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I think you're right that this is a symptom of a deeper issue. When I'm smoking too often, or browsing dank memes too long, it's usually because I'm trying to escape something else. You should probably do some more introspection and figure out what it is you're trying to run from. Maybe stay away from psychoactive substances for a while and think about what's broken in your life that you need to fix. Hang out with some real people, work on yourself etc. Good luck bro

Overcoming a stealth addiction by Fuck Cuvinggold - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 13:40:47 EST ID:Mg6DKMIm No.522188 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I sneak every chance I get. Sneak into social gatherings, sneak out again, last week I tried to get into the office through an air duct, and had to crawl back out again when I couldn't get out of the vent into the supply closet. Even when there's no reason to sneak I step quietly to try attract as little attention as possible. I've even gone as far as leaving items around to draw someone's attention away. A couple of months ago I was even questioned by police for behaving in a suspicious manner. I think this may stem from my love of MGS and other stealth games. It's just more fun to sneak in than to just walk in the door, in ever scenario.
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George Gemmercocke - Thu, 22 Feb 2018 18:55:16 EST ID:m7uFHDSy No.522476 Ignore Report Quick Reply

the fuck you talking bout
Eugene Blackshaw - Fri, 23 Feb 2018 23:06:45 EST ID:ZMDYtLUz No.522492 Ignore Report Quick Reply
"I cover it up with MGS meme so it's not real"
"lool can you see my crippling mental issues through all this?"

The answer is yes. Seek help OP.
Graham Snodridge - Wed, 28 Feb 2018 18:59:13 EST ID:/7QPTQb1 No.522586 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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chosen one, yes that you. you will never win against this impulse because fate needs you.

your senior will contact you and take you to our dojo. our master is dying but he says it will be alright if you start your real training.

we are not ninja, not monks, no bullshit. see you soon.
Fuck Haggledale - Thu, 01 Mar 2018 17:59:20 EST ID:1BTGZysI No.522606 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Try to remember some of the basics of CQC.
Fanny Cruvingwater - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 02:16:47 EST ID:C+6NY20y No.522827 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>OP: I'll get to work on that thread.
>1 month later

I may have just pulled the greatest internet prank of all time. by Charlotte Gobberhodge - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 23:40:30 EST ID:oOQyCzbT No.522812 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>popular dubstep artist rapes women
>I post inappropriate comments regarding my thoughts on the subject
>get banned from edm group immediately
>whiny leftists and male feminists start posting it on other groups and tagging me
>start messaging my parents
>some background: my dad used to be the manager at an athletic club in town, got fired about 10 years ago. I fucking hate this place since they fired my dad
>random internet page incorrectly says Iā€™m the general manager of this place
>male feminists find this, start leaving bad yelp reviews saying the general manager is pro rape and has access to the showers, start leaving google reviews and Facebook reviews
>I kek as they destroy the reputation of a local business that I hate

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Phyllis Bullerwell - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 06:50:27 EST ID:dhjvSXwP No.522816 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If this is you winning at life, well..... yeah you need to move out of your well, Pepe.
Jack Fanhood - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 13:36:52 EST ID:jF725BWz No.522818 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Sadly, i can recognize myself in your, uhmn, glee. Regardless, shouldn't this be on /b/ ?
Graham Hecklewell - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 14:43:52 EST ID:N3j2U2Sn No.522819 Ignore Report Quick Reply

lol, sounds like you're still going to die alone, OP. That was hella edgy tho.
David Pattingdale - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 22:59:01 EST ID:IaTqRtaT No.522822 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Man I'm really sad about the whole ordeal. Saw him live around a month ago on the tour and had an amazing time. What sucks is regardless of the circumstances, he's been totally isolated from his friends and fans because of it.

Wish I could tell him some of us fans still love him. Not defending what he may have done by any means, just sad to see an artist I listen to daily devastated like this online. I feel bad for the guy...
Clara Fanbanks - Fri, 16 Mar 2018 14:59:07 EST ID:iqWz3nTS No.522836 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i sense op is in great pain and is very bitter, let him have his sad little moment

I feel depressed and suicidal by Ian Suffingridge - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 00:20:28 EST ID:/v/fnY4O No.522774 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Do anti-depressants actually work?
Isabella Buzzstone - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 01:24:07 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522775 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well, really depends on you. And what is causing your symptoms. I personally just excercise and find it to be more than enough. Others need some help from meds to get into a good upswing and eventually taper off them.

Talk to your doc. Be open and honest, and spend time focusing on what you'd like to do. Try new hobbies you've found curious.
Ernest Sishson - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 14:24:14 EST ID:Z/Qe3Jqu No.522776 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I took them for a while. They worked, but made my dick stop working. I would only take them if you're close to killing yourself.
Sophie Gambleshit - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 20:43:54 EST ID:mglcrdsN No.522780 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Different results for different individuals. Prozac allows me to go outside. On 40mg. Killed my penis for 4 days. After that, all fine. But I have a very high libido. So, it varies.
Ernest Pammlehedging - Thu, 15 Mar 2018 00:16:08 EST ID:oUrIvMnN No.522813 Ignore Report Quick Reply
For me Fluoxetine(Prozac) stopped me becoming as anxious and stressed during very depressive episodes. I wouldn't say I'm less depressed, but I feel like I can handle my emotions a little easier now, which in tandem with general life-improvements makes life feel less like I'm stuck in quicksand. I started taking it in August, in case you're curious.

Can't stop going in circles by Eliza Bardville - Tue, 06 Mar 2018 19:54:27 EST ID:s6wzr2Bg No.522684 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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So I've been dealing with anxiety/depression for some time and after my last session with my therapist of many years we are considering putting me on medication.
This comes after I had a complete anxiety attack on my way to her office today. I don't want to go on medication as I see it as a defeat.

I had prided myself on not needing meds (despite being a big stoner and weekend drinker). My father and brother are both on anti-depressants and I always considered myself stronger than that.

Some background: My childhood was pretty fucked up. My mom had borderline personality disorder and was a big alchoholic and took drugs like valium. This got worse over the years until her inevitable death where I was the one to discover the body.

Despite this I have been able to lead a somewhat decent life. I exercise, eat healthy and even lived abroad for a year teaching English.
Due to a series of layoffs at my job I have moved back in with my dad and I guess the depressing atmosphere has just gotten to me, but I really feel like my career and dreams have just vanished.

Whenever I get like this I end up getting baked all day, doing nothing and living in fantasyland. I have a dream of creating a successful animated show but I never do anything new for it. I end up paralysed with anxiety if I even consider picking up my pencils again. With that comes anxiety about health, sex, friends, everything under the sun and I just want it to stop.

My first light consideration of suicide came last week, but my therapist assures me that I am not in danger yet.
I don't want to go on medication, it almost feels like a pride thing. I mean, I have gotten pretty far considering my trauma, perhaps if I continue exercising and go to some drawing classes I can regain my spark I had back in college. I dunno.
I want that fire I had then. I was so inspired and brave, now I feel like nothing.
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David Hecklelet - Sun, 11 Mar 2018 16:32:22 EST ID:dhjvSXwP No.522766 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So..... what's it going to take for you not to shoot up that high school, psychoflake?
Isabella Buzzstone - Sun, 11 Mar 2018 23:24:11 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522772 Ignore Report Quick Reply
What are you so insecure about in real life? Do you feel everyone around you is incompetent? I get a sense of social exclusion off of you.
Isabella Buzzstone - Sun, 11 Mar 2018 23:25:51 EST ID:TUgPV7Lr No.522773 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sorry, this was meant for >>522751
David Dellerfield - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 22:27:55 EST ID:lyfsSDpA No.522784 Ignore Report Quick Reply
"always considered myself stronger than that"
Protip: youre not, you have the same genes as them, genes are everything, the sooner you figure that out the better.

if you want to get better, the one thing you can do, i mean number one thing you can do.
Ive been depressed my whole life and at 27 years old and two decades of trying things
an auto-immune paleo diet, taking your diet VERY seriously, is the number one thing that will make you a happier individual
histamine intolerance, salivylate intolerance, look them up and then practice your new diet religiously

Jenny Decklelock - Tue, 13 Mar 2018 13:06:21 EST ID:iqWz3nTS No.522789 Ignore Report Quick Reply
meds don't make you weak, and going on them doesn't mean staying on them forever if you don't want to

Be all you can be, don't let fear of meds hold you back if you know they'll help

So to prove that, did by Caroline Dellyfoot - Mon, 12 Mar 2018 17:26:44 EST ID:mpM+8L21 No.522779 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I was afraid so sure of being racist, was I, so then for sure I decided to prove it wasn't. So went I to the grocery shop, in which to ask questions, but aside from that, a - some black dudes, and white men, arguing, so the shop owner, I went arguin home to the the kettle where it was and plugged it in to show them . Bulled it up to full hettle, hot kettle of water went to the grocery shop and white men and black arguing, poured it over white dude, proving that I am not a racist...good guy, so to speak, so then the shop keeper, what a move he made, called the police. Then that was it. So I poured a kettle over, I think (?) the qhite guy, to prove it, and the police proved me arrested me, but proove. What do i now?
Lillian Tootman - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 08:27:35 EST ID:CxCtCvYn No.522801 Ignore Report Quick Reply
> What do i now?

Please write a book

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