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Should I stop reading the news? by Augustus Soffingfoot - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 17:25:12 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.520560 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Every day I read many news articles about a wide range of topics, mostly political though. Every day I read something that makes me angry and depressed at the state of the world. I feel like as long as I keep reading and understand what is going on, it gives me the opportunity to fight back some day. If I stop, then I won't know what is going on or why I should care. It feels like giving in to all the evil in the world.

Is this stupid? Should I just stop reading about things which only indirectly affect me but cause me great emotional distress?
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Nicholas Buffingfuck - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 19:17:14 EST ID:o3vIoRWZ No.520575 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Fuck off purist. You're on 420chan.
We love our poisons here.
Augustus Brimbledale - Sun, 10 Dec 2017 04:04:30 EST ID:P+MXBxNl No.520585 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I disagree with all this shit. The news is mostly a depressing display of human stupidity and that won’t be fixed any time soon. People are good much more often then not but they also have an incredible capacity for dehumanizing each other and being extremely fearful, foolish and greedy. There’s no reason to take this all on your shoulders, it’s not your fault and you won’t change anyone’s mind. In a few hundred years we’ll be wiser and more compassionate but unfortunately we’re born into this point of history where technology and toxic commercialism has grown too fast and we weren’t ready for it and an entire generation is growing up with mental illness as a result while inequality is the highest it’s ever been in human history.

Just be sad for others and yourself that we’re so foolish and try and live a decent life in this brief time we have and definitely don’t look at the fucking news.
Walter Fuckingman - Sun, 10 Dec 2017 12:48:56 EST ID:TWMUuPtc No.520592 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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The "news" is cancer. If you absolutely must read it, you need to bear in mind that they only talk about the worst possible shit and that's a fraction of what actually happened that day. Pick any date and read the headlines, you'd think it was the end of the fuckin' world.

If it bleeds it leads, mi amigo.
Frederick Bettingwadging - Sun, 10 Dec 2017 13:38:26 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520593 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I stopped reading the news a long time ago.

All it does is piss me off.
Hugh Greenshit - Mon, 11 Dec 2017 00:32:08 EST ID:hzUsxH14 No.520602 Ignore Report Quick Reply
are you comparing political news with drugs?
we don't want your refugee ass here

Need some advice. by Henry Suttingkire - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 17:43:22 EST ID:1YUapzB/ No.520570 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't like video games anymore and I don't know what to do with my life.

I've built myself up as "that guy who plays video games all day". and only recently started to realize I don't even like games anymore. I only ever touch them out of habit and barely even that.

What the fuck am I supposed to do now? I don't have any friends or the social prowess to get any, not that it would do me much good because I just have no idea what to even do.
Albert Honeygold - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 18:46:35 EST ID:lC2OSmvU No.520572 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Then try to make some friends. Try
Nell Bardfuck - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 22:52:30 EST ID:KVxB7y4L No.520577 Ignore Report Quick Reply
what were the last few games you got a lot of enjoyment out of?

i recently installed sim city 4 and it was fun for 2 hours or so but it got complicated balancing the budget and i got too bored to pursue it further
Augustus Brimbledale - Sun, 10 Dec 2017 03:51:23 EST ID:P+MXBxNl No.520584 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Isn’t op’s post kind of fucking beautiful? Like in an existential way, it’s kind of haunting. I’d even go as far as to say it’s like looking at good art.

Its such a perfect summing up of the absurdity of the human condition.

Anyway, op, the answer is simple, just try things until you find something you like, community college is a decent way to get a taste for various vocations without paying a whole lot of money, and keep an open mind, you never know what kind of random shit you’ll wind up enjoying and getting into.

Living on my own by Martha Blivingwill - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 20:31:36 EST ID:oOQyCzbT No.520563 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Im 25, ive had 3 apartments and about 8 roommates over the past 7 years. Its always been a shitty roommate relationship, when I was younger it was always cramped. I've lived in my current place for going on 3 years. Its had its ups and downs but for the most part ive hated it. I live with a roommate.

The roommate is kinda miserable, hes an old friend. He doesnt drink or smoke and I do which has caused some friction, especially with drinking, because the only night I had off was saturday for a very long time and he works at 6 am sunday mornings. He also is constantly completely negative, depressed, borderline suicidal, and has been since I lived here. He constantly projects his negativity. We've been the only people living here, we dont have additional roommates. On the plus side hes consistent with paying bills on time. I always end up paying the bills though and have forever, also he does this shit like signs us up to shovel for the landlord and then never shovels and claims that he "does enough around the house." He works 35 hours a week and goes to school for 15 and claims its overwhelming and makes him want to kill himself and shit like that.

So now he wants me to move to the city with him. First of all, an old roommate of mine wants to move with us, I would be fine with this (this is the only roommate ive had that I got along with). But he doesn't want to live with this guy. So I've been trying to slowly convince him but he isn't for it.

I got in an argument with him today and told him that if his lifestyle makes him miserable and suicidal constantly he needs to straighten out his priorities. He claims that he'll be happy when he graduates, hes going into a field where there are zero jobs or opportunities and he thinks hes going to get a job.

I've been thinking since about ditching him and the other possible roommate altogether and getting a 1 bedroom in the city. I'd have to kinda live in the hood but not too bad, my brothers lived in the area for years and has never had any issues. My roommate is going to flip the fuck out if i tell him this. He may fuck with me hard and/or kill himself. I would be moving a few months before he graduates, it would be…
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George Woffingfot - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 02:06:29 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520564 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I did roomates for a long time.. until i didnt. It is awesome not having roomates. You do what you want, when you want, in your own space. You can walk around your space with your shit hangin out and nobody's there to give a shit.

Only weird thing about it is the safety thing. Sometimes it's weird being the inly person in a home. I got some guns after i accidentally made 'friends' with a sociopath. But that was a bit unique. Your safety is reliant on you when you live on your own. I got a little paranoid.

But other than that, owning your own place is the shit.
Martha Blivingwill - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 02:27:42 EST ID:oOQyCzbT No.520565 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I dont know what I'm gonna tell my current roommate, He's gonna take it very personally and be emo as shit about it, he also may try to do shit to me to prevent me from moving, i'm leaving at a very difficult point in his life (he's lived on his own for 3 years and works and goes to school every day but hasn't figured out how to mentally handle adult life yet) and I feel like this will be very bad and hard for him
Eliza Ginningdale - Sat, 09 Dec 2017 07:19:10 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.520566 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You've got to live your life and he's got to live his. If he flips out then so be it, that's his problem, not yours. Once you've moved away you might feel guilty for a week or two but you'll soon forget all about it and move on with your life. Make sure you have your new place set up and ready to move into before you even tell him, it will make things easier.

Save money and Stay Off the Internet. by Basil Wisslehall - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 18:36:29 EST ID:OCwtUy6R No.520561 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Is the internet for recreational and social purposes a waste of time? I think so, there is so much time I waste to cancel out any productive time I have. Its really becoming a problem and I think Im just going to quit. Im also working but its honestly not enough and Im just kind of spinning my wheels.

Dunno who I am + How to act by Cornelius Gimblestock - Thu, 30 Nov 2017 23:19:04 EST ID:DSLNfNuc No.520401 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I believe I'm averagely smart (i.e. I'm okay) but I realized early on that playing dumb and aloof was a lot easier for me to get liked by other people. People found me funny. I liked that. I don't know if it was healthy for my confidence though.

I'm 29 now and have no idea who I am nor how to adapt. I don't want to switch between roles constantly either. I have to think about my self-esteem.

I also feel unable to grow up into adult-mode so that's probably why it's easier for me to put on a mask and hide my insecurities and act (probably) quite childishly.

I'm gonna stop writing because exposing how mentally fucked up I really am would take too much time. I got bipolarity, social anxiety disorder, etc.

Thanks for reading. I'm kinda lost and have no sense of self, really. Truly no sense of self. I don't know who I am. Feelsbad.

Any tips?
Ernest Bedgefure - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 00:57:46 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520404 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I dunno, you didn't give too much info so it's hard to pick a place to start.

I used to dumb myself down to fit in too. Used to drink/smoke weed to party hard with people I wouldn't normally hang out with. It's a blast, don't get me wrong. But probably not healthy.

29 too by the way. Maybe you should spend some time finding yourself. Like, try to figure out what your values are, where you want to be in life, who you want to be emotionally/physically. Like really pin it down before you figure out where your path should lead.

Me time and such. Set aside a day at least to reflect on it.
Graham Tillingshaw - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 02:53:11 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.520405 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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You're Jackie Chan.

I'm your father.

Graham Tillingshaw - Fri, 01 Dec 2017 14:58:25 EST ID:F6BBbLXR No.520416 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Eliza Hicklelock - Sat, 02 Dec 2017 13:25:53 EST ID:di1zMxxB No.520431 Ignore Report Quick Reply
There's a comic i love called the invisibles and there's a scene i remember that is very relevant to OPs problem. I'll try to paraphrase.

A character is teaching a class and he has a nice chair next to him. He asks the class to describe the chair. You can talk about the craftsmanship, the wood, the tree it once was, you can argue if its truly a different form now that it's been carved from a tree into a chair, you can talk about it in the historical context of other chairs in human history or you can talk about artistically and try and describe the "soul" of the chair. Then the character breaks the chair and continues to ask if the chair is still there or in the past and the intricate differences now that its been broken.

Etc etc, then he asks where in all this description is the essential chair? Try to describe all the chair is and you can list millions of things, we cant even come close to really, truly describing a chair or truly knowing it and yet we say with certainty that you can ever know something as incredibly complicated as a person like ourselves.

We cant even know a chair but we dare to suggest its even remotely possible to know ourselves.
Try to describe all that you are and then understand the logical falliacy in that very sentence.
The point is you cant ever know yourself. We're as complicated as a literal universe and if that's not enough we change, constantly from moment to moment. No one knows who they are and that's ok. True sense of self or other is impossible. There's no "self" that can be described or grasped that doesn't shift or becomes something else. This is what true Buddhists and people like Schopenhauer mean where they say there is no "self" and people often misunderstand it as the obviously untrue idea that individuals dont exist.
Albert Fuddlewill - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 10:08:09 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.520558 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>breakthrough on dmt
>come back to earth
>notice what you feel
>that's you OP

most likely it's gonna be some lame shit like peace or serenity, but I'm cool with that because It's so filling. If you just stop thinking for a sec there is always some underlying feeling like this, just realize that that is very potent stuff and that even the tip of the iceberg is enough to satisfy you fully (it's the real deal the You afterall) so whenever something is less than the way you;d like it just sip on the sweet nectar of you.

How to decrease your sexdrive? by Caroline Drirryfuck - Sun, 26 Nov 2017 13:04:56 EST ID:irYaPPec No.520283 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm in a 3 year relationship now. When we first started, we had sex a lot. Morning and evening at least.

Then this turned into daily sex, then once every 2 days, now sometimes we skip 2 days, even 3..

Not because of me though, if it were up to me we'd wake up by fucking & fuck before sleeping. But her sexdrive just went down a lot over the years ... Apparently this is pretty normal in relationships, but mine is just as high as ever.

But I don't want to force her to be more sexual than she feels like being. so I'm basically looking for way to kill my own libido. Does anyone have any tips?

So far all I can find is that eating tofu instead of meat helps and that exercising either increases, or decreases sexual urges. It seems like there are 100's of way to increase libido, but when you want to decrease it nobody seems to have answers..
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Angus Dartbanks - Sat, 02 Dec 2017 12:01:34 EST ID:5mr627pH No.520428 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You have to masturbate in secret? that sucks. me and bf might have less sex than you two but at least we tell each other when we're going to masturbate and invite each other to join in. Why would I be hurt that he looks at videos of pretty girls? I mean, unless those girls are looking at a picture of me and laughing at how ugly I am.. but that's very niche, I'm not sure he can afford that
Eliza Hicklelock - Sat, 02 Dec 2017 12:57:59 EST ID:di1zMxxB No.520429 Ignore Report Quick Reply
As with any mental thing, trying to brute force a feeling one way or the other doesn't work and usually has the opposite effect.

Just except that in a relationship your sex drives are never going to line up properly. It'll probably taper off on its own naturally and fluctuate randomly, just leave it alone and jerk off when you have to.

Nothing wrong with this, people have incredibly unrealistic expectations about libido where they think something is wrong if they aren't having attentive passionate sex every single day.
Dildo Senpai - Sat, 02 Dec 2017 17:56:34 EST ID:qEzlyloc No.520436 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Maybe she's tired from you, and thinking about other mens?
Dildo Senpai - Sat, 02 Dec 2017 18:06:00 EST ID:qEzlyloc No.520437 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Try to bring something new to your sexual fantasy, BDSM, Anal sex, DP with dildo(fucking her pussy while putting Dildo inside of her anus), footjob, boobjob, acting like a dirty plumber, jerking your dick with her hair, doing a treesome with a tranny....
Albert Fuddlewill - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 10:02:18 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.520557 Ignore Report Quick Reply
fasting if you can handle the avalanche of emotions that comes with the package.

placeholder for interesting subject by Esther Moblingspear - Mon, 04 Dec 2017 23:36:05 EST ID:0clEr60T No.520489 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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>male, near 30yo
>kissless virgin
>borderline hermit throughout my entire life, never learned how to "hit on women"
>never been into social networks

I've tried dating sites very briefly before giving up due to the fact that there are hardly any women from my country online, and the ones that I find are lesbians or looking for a millionaire with a 40 inch dick.

Think I should try Twitter or something? with a pseudonym or my actual info? how honest should I be about being a lonely weirdo?
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Nicholas Buzzbury - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 17:45:38 EST ID:je5zTw44 No.520529 Ignore Report Quick Reply
He's wrong about being a loner but you're probably not lacking in social skills. Carrying off a negative angry person without everyone avoiding you is not something a lot of people can ever hope to do. You risk being some combination of joyless, whiny or just edgy for the sake of it.

The right friends will mean you meet more people and you will meet on better terms because if their friend considers you a friend most of the time that's a good sign. People will be more receptive to you in general. The best bet is to befriend girls, though you need enough emotional maturity to not handle rejection or disinterest and genuinely be friends. You should have that by 30 and if not then you definitely need to socialise more.

But yeah, of course it's not necessary to have friends. It'll probably help OP and even if it doesn't no one ever asks "what if I made my life so much better for nothing?" with any sincerity.
Matilda Brookwater - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 20:45:46 EST ID:0clEr60T No.520532 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I actually like that argument and it gives me something to work with; even if I can't be social and all that shit, at least I can try to learn it or fake it, plus, it's not directly learning to pick up women or whatever but rather it's just learning a skill that might indirectly lead to women, which I find much less daunting.

Thank you Emma, I'll work on being more social... whatever that implies...
Phoebe Nickledock - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 20:53:39 EST ID:MZPRwEGN No.520533 Ignore Report Quick Reply
A hooker. Just spring for something in the 300- 400 dollar range idk what happened to you last time but finding reputable pros isn't hard and you will get laid. Your first time is Bullshit for most people. I was 24 and the girl I banged was a devil wshipper who did cocaine nothing to brag about but i have zero regrets. The stigma around pros is bullshit and if i had the money i would of just done it
Ebenezer Tootstone - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 23:08:57 EST ID:o9AXpHQ8 No.520539 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Tinder is for straight up "let's meet so I can stick my dick in your holes", right?
Not necessarily. It's more for finding people to go on dates with, which often ends up in a cheeky root, depending on what the person's looking for.

Doesn't hurt to try it out, as long as you're clear about your intentions. Just don't present yourself as a massive autist and you'll be fine. Put up some nice photos, and provide some brief information about yourself.
Esther Henderchine - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 21:04:08 EST ID:0clEr60T No.520554 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I'll give it a shot once I've gained some confidence.

fuck all this bullshit by Walter Hecklewutch - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 01:06:37 EST ID:c7k1hDPc No.520542 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't have a personality or know who I am. I'm very quiet and just fulfill peoples expections when prodded to speak or respond. I was a NEET for almost a year and have just started working again in the past few months. I'm not respexted as an adult despite supporting myself. My self esteem is extremely low. I was bullied in school as a kid and hated both myself and the bullies in a very real, concrete way. Now my feelings are wishy-washy Nothing about what I do is experessive, and since losing interest in vidya and writing when I was 16, I have no hobbies. I feel invisible, doomed to wander a seemingly endless cloud of thick, uncomfortable unease. This feeling is so hard to describe. I have no one I can talk to.
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Doris Summlenare - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 14:44:22 EST ID:hRBYIF6G No.520550 Ignore Report Quick Reply
"I don't do anything interesting"
"Isn't that interesting guys??????!?!?!?!?"

Find something that interests you preferably outside your comfort zone.
Albert Crinningfoot - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 16:03:24 EST ID:pXUKLru+ No.520551 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I was there once. You might just have really bad depression like I did. Or have a burst of empathy and self awareness that comes with it.

It sucks but you can get out of it. I don't know how I did though.
Jarvis Henningmig - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 16:18:09 EST ID:Vw0mYPnD No.520552 Ignore Report Quick Reply
sounds like someone needs to do a little rectal exploring
Augustus Soffingfoot - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 20:52:37 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.520553 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I bet his problem is that he's not bored enough.

OP, stop using anything that requires an electronic screen. No internet, no video games, no TV. Internet is by far the most important of these to abstain from as the constant seeking behavior is hell on your reward pathways. Do this for at least three weeks. You will get so bored that you will start to do something and the lack of super stimulating content will reset your brain and make it so you actually enjoy doing it. It will take a while for this to happen, dopamine receptors upregulate pretty quickly, but it still takes a week or two before you'll start to notice any improvement and maybe a month tops to fully get back to normal.
Phineas Fuckingham - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 23:17:11 EST ID:lC2OSmvU No.520555 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You sound like me.

You're like water. You can fill any shape that will hold you. Or really any role designated by the people around you. Take advantage if this and throw yourself into new environments. Join a class doing something entirely different and stick at it. Therapy will be a boon too if you can get a psychologist that you can trust. If you have decent healthcare in your country, you can get that subsidized as you have a mental illness most likely.

Also work on your appearance. The more attractive you are the more positively you will be received. The new attention will spin you out and you'll lose more of your self identity, but then you'll find it again, tempered in time.

As for the past, work it. Slide out the drawers of your memory and reorganize them until they aren't painful to the touch. Use the wisdom of your years. Your abusers were children, at the whims of their temperament and circumstance. Same as you. There is no closure or justice, as these people no longer exist in the same configuration as when they hurt you. It's a sad sad thought to first grasp, as all the anger of your childhood will turn against yourself, but that will fade too.

You are not hollow. You're just a man, scattered and afraid. Like everyone else.

Justifying by Eugene Pillyway - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 04:13:07 EST ID:RLper1nr No.520137 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I think an outside opinion would help me best at this. I cannot rattle out the thought that me being here is some kind of a mistake. Mostly in the sense that reasoning obtaining a life worth living on some basic level would have suffering to a minimum. I do not mean just life events but being able to perceive everyday actions as well.

I guess it has been hard to fully explain. If every thought and action you committed felt wrong at your very core and were constantly in capable of feeling any lasting positive emotions, would you want to continue on? I feel like I have exhausted nearly all possible methods of altering these thought patterns but in the end this is me.

I would attempt to turn to others for support, really anyone. Family, friends, intimate ones.. No one can aid me with communal/intimate support to alleviate these thoughts. If anything, seeking out others to talk to makes me feel more alienated.

Anyone experiencing similar thoughts has more justification for being upset than I do. I mean, other people have experienced life events that bring mine to be at best a shadow of in comparison. Or, I encounter people who do not seem to perceive themselves negatively and even are capable of expressing compassion to their self. I do not know why I am writing this. Maybe I just need to see it out of my head.
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Betsy Harringfuck - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 11:36:03 EST ID:VRfnTuq2 No.520150 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I used to believe in God, when I stopped I felt like my life had no meaning, it sucked, then I realized that is there isn't anyone or anything to give things meaning or significance, I have every right to believe I give my own life meaning, significance, and purpose. Now I believe that all life has value, it just does. Understand we're all in this thing together, and you, me, the guy or girl who cuts your hair, and whoever are all equally meaningless and equally meaningful. It's totally okay and you can enjoy your life. I think you should because it's all we've got. It is what you make it, and you control your own path. That's pretty cool in my opinion and now I feel that if something or someone else determined my value that would actually be kind of bad. Go out and try to get what, persist and keep you head up and looking forward. Why does there need to be a why for us to be important?
Walter Nudgeforth - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 14:45:04 EST ID:6OmeeR23 No.520153 Ignore Report Quick Reply
If there's no higher form of value there's nothing that means yours might have equals but there is none higher. If nothing matters then it doesn't matter if you're wrong about this. We do have certain characteristics and drive that give us pleasure but this includes the wellbeing of others and life is not always a zero sum game so that does not mean you have to be a shit to be happy. In fact I suspect on the whole mutually beneficial engagements with people willing to engage in the same is generally going to work out best for you.

I agree with you in short. Though no one cuts my hair really. Not sure how relevant this is to OP's problem though. OP is clearly depressed but perhaps among other things. I'm not sure this as much about purpose as some sort of pattern of thought where they impose or have imposed on them this feeling of wrongness like impostor syndrome for existing. It's also possible that OP is really great and suffers from a level of self awareness that is both exceptionally high and not balanced by an awareness of how others are by comparison or even with that is so caught up in the negativity they cannot see that the world has continued to turn thus far and amazing things have actually happened despite that.
Emma Smallstock - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 15:57:32 EST ID:8+Df40Ju No.520154 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Esther Figgledock - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 09:35:46 EST ID:RLper1nr No.520547 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I had to take a break after I wrote this post after realizing life just had my wound up at the time. I guess I had to come back to realizing external influences are only that and I am solely responsible for creating my own mood. Part of that is what brings me down I guess too. Which is not to make a pity party for myself, I just seem to naturally devolve into that state.

I suppose to who suggested the impostor syndrome would not be far off. Or, at least, I have felt that a lot of what defines that can be contained within my own perceptions of self. These past few years have just been really off. A few near death experiences over the past two years have just left me feeling out of place to everyone around me.

All these shitty thoughts have been around for way longer but combined, everything just feels like a constant assault and I have no where to turn to. I pursued medication and counseling in various forms but if anything all the negative aspects will at times interplay and amplify more often than the benefits of attaining self-awareness. Things will be fine for me in the end, I have just been worried since pushing myself into uncomfortable situations used to bring me some shade of happiness. I still want to be spontaneous and revel novel moments in life. These past few years have just left me disconnected with experience and emotion. This all feels dramatic just writing it out but I think I could benefit from coming back to this later on.

Drugs + Fapping by Emma Wamblekick - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 23:08:40 EST ID:F2el3/yf No.520538 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I got rid of all my adderall and porn over half a year ago. But every once in a while I get these insane urges to take tons of adderall (and/or coke) and fap to porn for hours and hours on end. It's obviously unhealthy physically, mentally, for my dick (I have had erection issues because of it), wastes my time etc... But in the back of my mind right now I want to download 300 gigs of porn and go buy some meth (which I've never done). I'm practically salivating.
Any advice/help?
Jarvis Henningmig - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 08:42:47 EST ID:Vw0mYPnD No.520546 Ignore Report Quick Reply
lol being a mammal sucks i just wanna fuck and do drugs
Clara Sunderstone - Fri, 08 Dec 2017 16:58:58 EST ID:ZMDYtLUz No.520559 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It never goes away. You just get better at learning how to control it.

fuck all this bullshit by Walter Hecklewutch - Thu, 07 Dec 2017 01:06:37 EST ID:c7k1hDPc No.520541 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I don't have a personality or know who I am. I'm very quiet and just fulfill peoples expections when prodded to speak or respond. I was a NEET for almost a year and have just started working again in the past few months. I'm not respexted as an adult despite supporting myself. My self esteem is extremely low. I was bullied in school as a kid and hated both myself and the bullies in a very real, concrete way. Now my feelings are wishy-washy Nothing about what I do is experessive, and since losing interest in vidya and writing when I was 16, I have no hobbies. I feel invisible, doomed to wander a seemingly endless cloud of thick, uncomfortable unease. This feeling is so hard to describe. I have no one I can talk to.

Love in the modern age by SadBoi - Sun, 03 Dec 2017 17:23:22 EST ID:4b12YWtF No.520457 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Basically met this girl at school. Adored her from the very start. We developed into really close friends/ druggie buddies throughout this last semester. This friendship then developed into a really powerful romantic feeling on my behalf. Couldn't stop thinking about her, and she occupied a lot of my time and energy. We became romantic as and would hookup, just cuddling primarily but in a reserved manner. She told me however that she is asexual and has a hard time feeling emotions romantically. I loved her though and it did not deter me that she couldn't reciprocate. Had strong urge to tell her that I love her but hold off until a break. I knew I would regret not having told her before break but I did not know exactly why.

Then we get back from break and I saw she was really drained and tired. She said her break had not gone that well. She told me that she had relapsed on heroin over the break and that she is considering dropping out of school. That shit killed me. I see myself contemplating so much of what I thought about this semester and feeling like the only thing that mattered to me this semester is her. Yet at the same time she doesn't feel the same towards me at all. Stuck in a shitty romantic place with caring far, far too much about her to leave but feeling shitty because I know that she probably will never be able to give me the love or care I need to feel okay about myself. This is my first time really being with someone who is not good for me and it feels uber confusing. This is bringing on a depression of sorts. Things are losing their meaning for me and it seems like my life is slipping away from me. Feeling lost and I give my full trust the 420-chan community can help.
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John Mullynurk - Tue, 05 Dec 2017 17:05:11 EST ID:Vw0mYPnD No.520514 Ignore Report Quick Reply
plot twist: this is the same faggot who has been with junkie homeless girl and made about 20 threads about it. this thread is a flashback to how it all started
Fanny Saffinghatch - Tue, 05 Dec 2017 17:20:29 EST ID:NMuziCQh No.520515 Ignore Report Quick Reply
LoL, this dude is a nice writer, he should actually write stories in litherature thread, a gay stoty is probably his beat genre
Edwin Blennernon - Tue, 05 Dec 2017 19:40:14 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.520519 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Fuck off with your tough guy bullshit. The only felony you ever committed was probably coke possession. But hey, I can answer this for you:

>Is she worth it, bro? Is she worth the potential felony charges? Is she worth going through all the effort to get this bitch to stop?

No. She's some bitch who sat on his dick and is a self described 'asexual' heroine addict. If he wants to help her he should stick her in rehab. Everyone is accountable for their own actions and "her fate lol" is none of his responsibility.

But hey, we agree on one thing: his dick should be nowhere near her. Last thing you wanna do is knock up a junkie. Then he has to deal with her bullshit forever.


Your post name was Jack Grandridge. But yeah, that sounds pretty dumb.
SadBoi - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 18:43:11 EST ID:4b12YWtF No.520530 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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After living with this decision on my mind for a while I have decided to attempt to cut her out of my life entirely. This whole expirence made it clear and blatant that no matter how much care or love I give to this girl that it wont be a satisfying or rewarding experience for me. It would be a fucking project to take on fixing her life, especially while mine is currently falling apart. Things would be different if she did actually fill me up and make me my best self, but she doesn't at all. She just makes me anxious, pathetic, and weak. I would like to thank those who did hear me out on my issues, means a lot to know there is a community to be heard if it is even for a little bit. What I have to do, and wish to do these next couple of weeks is become a better version of myself. I am tired of being this half-baked person I have who cares nothing about himself. I think I need to be okay not seeking affirmation in other people too, especially in manners that are self-destructive and downright idiotic. Yeah, it's a fucked up world and I think that this is a soul that I cannot save. I don't think it is fair to me or helpful to her to even try to at this point. She has to face this and I have plenty to face on my own. Maybe when I am in a different space things could change, but for now I just have to cut her out of my mind and out of my immediate life because she really has had too much of a negative impact on me. I picked up all of her habits minus opiates. Now I have to learn to shed this skin I have encased myself in and metamorphose into something that will take me far away from where I am. Only know that I will feel the, "What If" of this for a while. That is something I can live with far easier.
Ebenezer Tootstone - Wed, 06 Dec 2017 22:44:08 EST ID:o9AXpHQ8 No.520537 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Very wise and mature decision, OP.

>Only know that I will feel the, "What If" of this for a while.
Absolutely. You're caught up on this person and this whole experience, but eventually those thoughts about what could've been will simply dissipate, and slip out of your consciousness.

You've got your whole life ahead of you, man.
Live it for yourself, and stop depending on other people.

I feel like most of us know how it is to want to help the people around them who live in desperation, especially romantic interests — requited or otherwise — but >>520483 puts it best:
>You aren't going to help someone who wont help themselves.

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