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Guns and depression by Beatrice Tootdale - Tue, 24 Apr 2018 14:39:45 EST ID:9eHG5dWu No.523598 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I have guns and depression and a handle of philips. Not a good combo. What do you guys do?
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Doris Bullyman - Wed, 25 Apr 2018 16:14:09 EST ID:dnsCEUvi No.523616 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I don't know what philips are nor do I have a gun, but I found playing sports helped me feel a bit better, although it does cost money. I'm sure you can find a social group or something though.

I found a group that plays badminton every week for $25 a year to cover cost of the courts and the racquets, and it's nice way to interact with people, especially since you're not talking to them if you may have trouble talking to people.
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Nicholas Geblingstone - Wed, 25 Apr 2018 17:20:31 EST ID:hjdKGFK5 No.523619 Ignore Report Quick Reply
get your guns drunk
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Alice Pallerfuck - Thu, 26 Apr 2018 03:02:31 EST ID:9eHG5dWu No.523625 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523616
doing alright. Philips is some cheap ass vodka. Got rid of the guns.
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Lydia Snodbury - Fri, 27 Apr 2018 19:58:15 EST ID:b5nJd570 No.523680 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523598
>depression+guns+alcohol
Last time I had that combo, I put the barrel of my rifle in my mouth and squeezed the trigger. I still don’t know why I didn’t shoot again. Sure, I’m not homeless anymore, but I’m not convinced it matters. I have nothing to do, nowhere to go. Boredom and not much else.

Living doesn’t have much value to me anymore. Is it the 5 years on the street? Brain damage from the bullet? Damage from the excessive amounts of alcohol over the years? Meh. No point in caring, there’s fuck-all I can do about it.
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Walter Sisslepet - Fri, 11 May 2018 03:38:05 EST ID:ZUyzq7Pe No.524023 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Go shooting you faggot. If you want to kill yourself use an exit bag. Don't contribute to statistics.


Started to hate children by Intricate Urology - Thu, 16 Nov 2017 03:21:33 EST ID:uDCgIcJL No.520066 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I've been working as a pediatrician for 5 years and enjoyed my job
but burned out at some point
due to too inhumane working-hours and not enough time to relax.

Then my parents got badly injured in a car-crash, both got bedridden and unfortunately died maybe a month later due to complications in their spines and internal organs.

I was devastated. Couldn't work anymore and needed 3 years to somehow recover.
I quit my nursery job because it took its toll on me
and tried to get a foot into IT-tech, but had zero luck.

At some point I got a call from a state-funded youth-office and they've been looking for social workers.
A good friend of mine suggested me!

So, yeah.
It started really great.
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Additional Bugs - Sun, 19 Nov 2017 05:25:49 EST ID:MvqmKnOi No.520139 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>520066
Dude, you could be me!

I started to hate my job nearly 6 years in, and I still don't know how I managed to cew through these fucking 6 years!

Same game: Administration, Teachers and superiors didn't give any fuck,
promised me to transfer me to a better job (social-worker for children with disabilities!) and it got worse every day.

I seriously burnt out
it started with shaky hands every time I went to work, migraine and stomach-pain,
went to the doc and pulled the emergency brakes.

Got sick-pay for two months now and I am using the time to find another job.

NO job is worth getting your brain fried for!
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Hedda Muckledock - Mon, 20 Nov 2017 08:42:36 EST ID:4lkoUUtn No.520176 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>520066
Doctors who work in research get paid well and have better schedules and less one on one patient involvement. The idea is to remain cold and clinical.
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Bees withBums - Sat, 10 Mar 2018 04:15:58 EST ID:USmZqwWc No.522733 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>520066
ChildFree by choice and happy with it!

Everyone I know who squeezed out a crotchfruit got a boring life with less money and less sparetime.
Not to mention how many relationships break up as soon as they have to raise their hellspawn!

So if anyone would come to me and pay me for keeping up with the maladjusted shit-kids from strangers
I would just refuse.
Must be the worst job ever.

I hope you'll get a job that satisfies you, OP!
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Cyril Bipperstock - Sat, 10 Mar 2018 10:27:01 EST ID:2cRqUGEL No.522740 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP, with your qualifications and your experience, you could easily get a similar job at a better place, or even a better job at a better place. Tough it out where you are, then give 'em the ol' middle finger when you leave

If you're worried about the kids themselves, the best thing to do is realise that this place was running before you started, and will continue to run when you leave
Maybe you're one of few competent people there, or despite the giant fucking chaos at work you truly want to help and care for the kids.
If so, good news you're a nice person! However there's always more kids that need help no matter where you go, and there's always new hires going to that place.

You can't work at your best if you stop caring, you can't help people and empathise if you're so numb that nothing feels like it matters. You should know that kids are actually really good at picking up on those vibes

At the very least, take a break. A long one. >>520139 has real good advice. Sick leave would be perfect and entirely justified for you. You can't fix everyone but there's broken kids no matter where you go in the world, so the upside is that you can literally go anywhere.

Honestly, I find the government funded facilities are always so terribly awful. The restrictions on money, the overworked staff, the worst cases of kids, it's just a soul crushing environment no matter what sector of staff you're in. I hope things turn around OP, helping kids medically and socially is such an important thing. You're awesome, you've just been brought down by the shit around you.
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Hermetic Arschbacken - Thu, 10 May 2018 04:36:59 EST ID:yvgeKCA4 No.524008 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>522733
so much this.


Suicide by Polly Bettingwell - Sun, 06 May 2018 12:31:17 EST ID:6XgTEwRR No.523881 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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To keep it brief I am in my 30's and have experienced a lot of good and bad. I suffer physically and by extension mentally. Looking for ways that are relatively painless and retain some dignity. The best solution I have seen is suffocation but even that sounds terrible. Travelling to a location that provides assisted suicide is a long process and expensive, so that is an option that requires an abundance of time. Anyone have an idea of what is possible?
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Simon Bardlock - Mon, 07 May 2018 19:41:15 EST ID:42wGzjUi No.523936 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523926
What a trooper.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9wsjroVlu8
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Wesley Worthingcocke - Wed, 09 May 2018 07:50:07 EST ID:LZcwMVpc No.523986 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523936
Why do I get the feeling that all the posts that contain nothing but a picture and a random youtube link (that no one clicks on anyway) are all the same person?
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Thomas Trotway - Thu, 10 May 2018 01:34:04 EST ID:XHfi7qC0 No.524005 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bipolar person here. Go to a psychiatrist and start taking meds at least you'll be stable enough to not kill yourself then you can start looking at long term management strategies.

If they won't give you meds tell them you'll fucking kill yourself and they'll comply lmao it fucking sucks being batshit crazy wish these cunts would stop experimenting with my mind. They think I don't know what they're doing but I do, fuck em
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Nell Worthingway - Thu, 10 May 2018 01:47:35 EST ID:42wGzjUi No.524006 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523986
Elementary, my dear Watson... we ARE all the same person.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3gRGMOhslq0
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Eliza Fembledock - Thu, 10 May 2018 07:14:05 EST ID:3A/9rSkO No.524011 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>524005
Gee, you sure sound stable for all the medicines you take. Honestly, suicide looks awfully preferable.


ULTRA-Introvert by Basil Benningson - Wed, 02 May 2018 03:02:06 EST ID:ZHxB44Gj No.523808 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm like SUPER introverted, I only leave my apartment for work or grocery shopping. How the fuck do I meet people, specifically a sexual partner? I've pretty much given up on online dating (still using it but its not gonna go anywhere) and just what the fuck do I do?

I looked on meetups and there's only some hiking groups and other bullshit. Also its a GROUP. I can't stand being in a group.

I'm not going to a bar, I don't even drink.

I mean where would I go if I wanted to meet myself? I got nothing.
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Cyril Drumblewater - Wed, 02 May 2018 12:52:50 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.523818 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523817

Yeah man we met irl, got progressively drunk and high throughout the day while walking around town going into exhibits etc. It was clear right off the bat that we were going to get along but i didn't expect the level of clickage to occur that did. Both sat there at the end of the day saying how nice it was to have met someone like minded. There's a lot of lifestyle, personality, interest and general vibe overlap that has only ever really occurred a few times in my life. Normally the girls were taken or were at that "whatever man" casual stage of their life. It's nice to have found one a few years later.

We are doing more stuff this weekend, chatting via text at the moment - she even left an "x" at the end.

Sorry my phrasing must have thrown you off the scent.
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Clara Hinnerwill - Wed, 02 May 2018 18:11:04 EST ID:aUdigX5R No.523821 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Go with a prostitute. They're used to "ultra-introverts". It'll at least ease you into social interactions and being naked in front of someone. Than, as many people here said, start an activity you like, or join some class or something. Once you're in a class or doing an activity you'll find there are some sort of protocolar conversations to start things off
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Betsy Brimmerwudge - Fri, 04 May 2018 16:22:24 EST ID:GNBLlvaL No.523863 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Get some uppers (coffee, adderall, cocaine) and go to a bar or other social setting, you will become very chatty and sociable.
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Awe !!vVWR8L52 - Fri, 04 May 2018 16:38:59 EST ID:hQScIyLB No.523864 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523808
As has been already mentioned you can employ teh internets. Otherwise you will have to hang in GROUPS so that you actually have a decent chance of meeting someone you like. Festivals and the like are really great because it is so normal to approach and talk with anyone in sight. Especially psychedelic festivals because more people are openminded and welcoming relatively speaking.

I have the same problem with drinking, sometimes I wish I drank so that there would be a point to hanging with drunk people and going to bars. Never went to a bar in my life :((

On the bright side not many people have hanged with the trees as much as I did. Fucking love the trees dude, put up a poster looking for people who like trees and go into the trees together to appreciate the weather and the trees. I'm rambling but hopefully it is of some use.
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Simon Sottingson - Wed, 09 May 2018 21:51:15 EST ID:fNXei5sY No.523999 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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That is not introversion, that is social anxiety.
>Master your fears, lest they master you-


i don't know by Beatrice Druttingkork - Sat, 10 Feb 2018 23:43:38 EST ID:Ytvfly7k No.522093 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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i used to be happy, i used to didn't care about anything except having fun

now i'm 24 and a miserable sack of shit with a perfectly fine live that wants to kill himself regardless

what went wrong
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Phineas Candersteg - Sun, 06 May 2018 06:56:12 EST ID:+Za00QQ9 No.523878 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523871
>tiny changeS are for losers
>some fact
>singular
You don't make one you jabroni. You make one after another. They won't all get rewritten. No one said dedicate your life.

You're currently dedicating your life to nothing. It's not it "might" be rewritten because your impact is zero. Your black and white all or nothing thinking is life poison. You die a death by a thousand papercuts because each one is small and you can't be bothered to stop it.
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Frederick Pimblestock - Sun, 06 May 2018 10:36:32 EST ID:glZ6cPk8 No.523880 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523871
dictators are good if you agree with them. problem is if you dont agree with them they'll still be dictators and you won't be able to do shit about it. exterminate jews? good. exterminate Angus Mezzlemuck? well you cant do shit about it. thats why we invented democracy.
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Beatrice Cheblingpan - Sun, 06 May 2018 20:47:45 EST ID:Ytvfly7k No.523907 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523878
>You're currently dedicating your life to nothing. It's not it "might" be rewritten because your impact is zero. Your black and white all or nothing thinking is life poison. You die a death by a thousand papercuts because each one is small and you can't be bothered to stop it.
i dedicate my life to things i enjoy doing. i'm not going to waste my time on people that don't want to change things for the positive, because life is too valuable for that. it's quite easy to stop caring about dumb shit if you just make your brain do it so.

>>523880
people are idiots that don't know what's good for them, democracy is a flawed concept by this standard
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Reuben Pebblehood - Wed, 09 May 2018 10:04:52 EST ID:nnJYM5B3 No.523990 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Join the Peace Corps. That's what I did when I was 24, and it changed my life; it led to grad school, introduced me to really interesting people, got me laid... I didn't fall back into soul destroying depression until I was 28. Now I'm 29 and trying to figure out how to make things good again...
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Cornelius Cammlekadge - Wed, 09 May 2018 12:45:20 EST ID:3A/9rSkO No.523992 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523907
People are idiots, therefore let's give one of those idiots all the power and hope nothing goes wrong.

W-wait we have advisers!!! and like, there's inheritance laws too!!! wait come back!!! NOT THE CONSTITUTION, NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


Friends pissed at me for extremely petty reasons by Eugene Wivinglock - Tue, 08 May 2018 12:49:27 EST ID:Cf+ZmOZs No.523959 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Okay so I'm one of those people who traditionally sends out cards for any occasion, so are my friends. I'm also very neat, tidy and economical, I pride myself on this. I haven't bought a single Christmas card in years, and yet I send them out every year, why? I tip ex over the messages in the cards I receive and write new ones, and send them out. Better than throwing away cards for no reason and paying good money for new ones, right? Besides, greetings cards are a rip-off.

So sometimes I might send the same card back to someone who sent me it, with a different greeting of course. Of course it's the message the counts, but damn, it came to a head when someone got pissy with me on his birthday. I sent him a card with a thoughtful message, and I got the same card back with my message tip-exed out with the reply "how about coming to see me for once or stop sending me the same fucking card I gave you for your Birthday two months ago, dick."

Fucking rude to say the least, I could just as well have sent him no card at all, and I see him once or twice a year. I always write something new at least. It's the thought that counts. This isn't the first time it's happened either, friends have cut me off for it. I mean if I send out a card, I expect one back, and stamps cost money.

Complete ingrates.
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Simon Banningdock - Wed, 09 May 2018 01:01:51 EST ID:IaTqRtaT No.523982 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523959

That's actually a really cool idea. If you kept up with it for years it would be a special card
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Phyllis Ceppernadging - Wed, 09 May 2018 07:26:58 EST ID:USUZpST+ No.523985 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sending it back with a new message is cool but you shouldn't tip-ex out the old message. That looks cheap. Leave the old messages in so it's like a diary of all the years you've kept in touch.
I really don't understand why you'd cover up the old message. That seems to defeat the point of having a traditional card.
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Fuck Pommlestodge - Wed, 09 May 2018 08:02:28 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.523987 Ignore Report Quick Reply
did you ever consider the possibility that by sending him the exact same birthday card HE SENT YOU not even 2 months ago back to him for his own birthday, you might have been sending him some kind of weird passive aggressive message by doing it?

i mean, it would be like one thing if you sent back a card somebody else sent you, but you sent back the very card he sent you. i mean did you fail to even consider the fact this might actually be confusing or upsetting to him? or that others aren't really able to appreciate your honestly kind of cheapass frugality and feel like you're being so ridiculously lazy by resending the bday card they sent you that you really don't care about them or value their friendship all that much?

i mean for one, they actually went out and spent the money on a new card to send you for your birthday, but you couldn't even bother to return that same favor and show of respect for them? what you did honestly comes off as something somebody would do when sending a card as a perfunctory gesture not to be a total dickhead to some family member you didn't really like or otherwise give much of a shit about and whose opinion you really couldn't give less of a shit about.

im not saying your habit you described or even what you did was wrong, i'm just asking legitimately if these thoughts were never even something you even considered. your actions seemed less than considerate of how they might perceive what you did or how they'd feel about it. which... if you aren't considerate of those things, is it really somebody you can truthfully say you consider a friend? or that you're treating with the proper respect due somebody you would consider a friend?

you're coming off as a an entitled whiny brat who is simply relying on the old platitude and popular notion that the thought is what actually counts in order to keep being a cheap mother fucker and excuse not showing your "friend" almost any respect at all
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Graham Chorringbog - Wed, 09 May 2018 08:41:22 EST ID:ho/3h6Hg No.523988 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523987

I could have just sent him no fucking card at all. Besides, when i go to see him I usually buy him a beer if I have to. Hell, last time I even brought two gram for us to share. And another thing, entitled? This same prick took me out to some expensive bistro for a meal, and expected me to pay. He didn't even socialise, he just kept giving me these weird hard stares and said "so how are you doing, man?" in an aggressive stand-offish manner. Most awkward, horrible meal ever, and he expected me to pay for it. We sat at the table with the waiter asking about the bill confused for a whole two minutes before he paid and stormed out. You do not take someone out to an expensive restaurant and expect them to pay. What kind of bad form is that?

Not only that, but I've paid for his meals before. Maybe not at such an expensive restaurant, but expensive enough. I bought he and his wife a blender as a wedding gift. I'm always generous, I help them out when they're in any kind of financial need, and I'm not well off myself.

So the cost of greeting cards, when I have to pay for things I actually need? Hell no. It's cardboard. I mean at least he was honest in his greeting card message, I appreciate that. I may try and be a bit more generous to them. I don't know.
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Angus Meckleshaw - Wed, 09 May 2018 09:53:31 EST ID:bsksBt5g No.523989 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523988
Oh haha, yeah fuck that guy.

Send it back with a new message


Accidentally matched with ex on tinder by Jenny Furrylock - Mon, 07 May 2018 22:54:41 EST ID:YmQCOQRU No.523940 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm in a tough situation. To give you the brief version:

>ex dumps me 3 years ago
>not much dating luck over the past 3 years, until literally this weekend
>went on date with a girl and we hit it off really well, I like her and we want to see each other again
>thinking of uninstalling tinder, see I got a new match
>its my ex from 3 years ago

Is it okay to talk to my ex if I'm not in a relationship with this new girl yet? I don't know what I'm doing. I was totally alone for 3 years, dozens of shit first dates. Now I get one awesome first date and my ex reappears. But would it be okay to see her once, just as friends? Talk over a beer or something. I actually don't fear getting emotions for my ex if I meet her. What I fear is, her getting emotions for me again. I'm not in a relationship with this new girl yet, all we did was hug at the end of the date.....would it be okay to see my ex just once?

My ex has BDP, divorced parents, a lot of male friends. Mostly negatives is what comes to my mind. But she was wild, so wild like an animal that needed to be tamed, an emotional BDP rollercoaster.

New girl is a bit goofy, anime nerd sort of girl which is great because I love anime. She's talks super fast and I can't understand her sometimes but I love it. She's also fit. I've never even banged a fit girl, my ex is a little overweight. Her parents are not divorced. Usually, those who have parents that are not divorced are more stable in relationships. My parents are still together too. The new girl seem more stable.....but honestly, a bit on the asperger spectrum possibly. I don't think I'm going to get those crazy rollercoaster

IDK what I'm even asking advice for here, I'm kind of just rambling. Caught me so off guard when she matched and messaged me on Tinder, didn't seem real. But this is what it is. What do you guys have as advice for all of this. Can I meet with my ex just once, if she wants to, and tell her I found someone? Or is that entirely shit in itself and something I shouldn't do? Or should I tell her I found someone but be clear I just want to talk as friends. What I miss most about my ex is that she was my bes…
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Jenny Furrylock - Mon, 07 May 2018 23:00:08 EST ID:YmQCOQRU No.523943 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523941
And honestly....the new girl, though we have anime in common, is kind of awkward. She's pretty and "logically" I tell myself she's great in all aspects. But I didn't feel a strong emotional draw to see her again, more of a logical, pragmatic. She didn't crush my heart on the first date like my ex did on our first date. So thats the other thing I'm concerned about. It's a battle of emotions here...

And maybe my ex does have BPD which is considered the worst disorder for anyone to have in terms of dating. But maybe she's matured in these 3 years, maybe thats why she liked me on tinder, maybe she's changed....
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Molly Bunman - Tue, 08 May 2018 00:15:28 EST ID:V2dFedtt No.523945 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523940
I admit I just skimmed this but I saw the part about the BPD ex girlfriend suddenly showing up again and I know enough to tell you just say no.
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Matilda Hibberchon - Tue, 08 May 2018 04:34:37 EST ID:fh5xuZgB No.523946 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I cut contact with my ex after my first date with my current girlfriend of four years. She kept contact with some manchild she'd been flirting with before we met who eventually tried to start some drama after a few weeks. I didn't get mad at him, I got mad at her. Basically told her I wasn't interested in being with her if she was going to allow that nonsense. She blocked him and that was that. We couldn't be happier now.

tl;dr exes complicate things. Don't bother.
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Esther Hecklekodging - Tue, 08 May 2018 05:52:11 EST ID:EAAVHfAI No.523947 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523946
Lol that's great
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Beatrice Dartman - Tue, 08 May 2018 10:08:39 EST ID:hjdKGFK5 No.523952 Ignore Report Quick Reply
cut that bitch OFFF
i don't get why people bother with exes, it's over, move the fuck on


How can I find a trip buddy? by Angus Pennerlet - Mon, 07 May 2018 00:10:10 EST ID:nPBve9sS No.523912 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I want to take some drugs to see if it will help with my suicidal depression and shit before I die or turn 30 and waste too much of my life.

But I need a buddy in case I get a bad trip. I don't want to go psychotic and commit suicide and shit. And I have enough serious deep problems to know that I might not handle some experiences properly and might have a bad trip.

However, I am a robot and have no friends.

How can I find a trip buddy?

Pic unrelated
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Hannah Cligglegold - Mon, 07 May 2018 01:36:31 EST ID:hjdKGFK5 No.523913 Ignore Report Quick Reply
don't do psys if you're in that mindset, set and setting really is everything
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Cornelius Cammlekadge - Wed, 09 May 2018 12:47:38 EST ID:3A/9rSkO No.523993 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523913
Might as well just not do drugs ever if you get sad at anything at all. Except the SSRIs, guy, you should pop those like candy. Don't touch the psychedelics, which have been PROVEN to correlate with LESS mental health conditions than the general pop, because I hear about muh acid casualities!!! SET AND SETTING! TIMOTHY LEARY!!

>mfw


I'm so lonely, please listen to me by Nell Mebblemire - Thu, 26 Apr 2018 01:11:14 EST ID:dVp8iHEG No.523623 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I was at the store earlier tonight, midnight. Getting groceries. Was feeling very alone. As I meandered around the aisles and got groceries, I noticed a stocking girl. I thought she was pretty. I kept shopping but then later on passed her on my way out, I stole a glance quickly, to really see what she looked like. Thicc, the way I like. Short, the way I like (I'm a short guy, so if I date I NEED to date a short girl, unless I find some sick fuck tallfag girl who has a shorty fetish), cute face, the way I like, even her hair I liked. Skin was clear. She mousily made room for me to come through, and we made eye contact when I smiled and said thankyou. She smiled, crooked teeth. Like pretty bad. But It doesn't bother me. We maintain eye contact for longer than would be just friendly, I got lost in her eyes for a second, and my heart skipped a beat. Then I broke away...what was I supposed to say? "You're pretty."? "Hey, I don't know you, but would you want to hang out some time?" I've tried all that honest shit before, it never works unless me and the stranger are both in a casual and shared situation like a party. But...I couldn't help but feel like something wasn't right as I checked out and went to my car.

I sat in my car for like 20 minutes, just thinking...distant...lonely. One of the thoughts that rolled through my head was a what if scenario...what if I went right back in there and told that girl I think she's beautiful and I want to get to know her better...but I didn't...my cowardice stopped me. My fear would have turned me into an awkward creepy pathetic stuttering mess if I had actually attempted it...I believe.

I don't know what I expect from anyone here. I hope and pray that there is someone out there who will write something that will help me greatly. I want to go talk to that girl...I'm so upset I'm starting to almost cry btw. I want to go talk to her...but I'm afraid. I'm so afraid that I'm not worthy of her, or anyones affection. And that they'll find out, find me out, and leave me alone...again.

I'm no virgin. I've had love, and I've had lust. Lots of lust. Not so m…
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Edward Fumblewire - Fri, 04 May 2018 02:43:56 EST ID:fh5xuZgB No.523849 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523848
I consider it with the same mindset I consider any game. It's fun, so I play it. It provides a nice middle ground between Morrowind and Skyrim, both of which I also find fun. Not sure why you're talking about cocks slipping in when you're the one so butthurt lol
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Thomas Blollyfuck - Fri, 04 May 2018 14:30:59 EST ID:dVp8iHEG No.523861 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well at least you're keeping my thread bumped I guess
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Edward Fumblewire - Fri, 04 May 2018 18:37:47 EST ID:fh5xuZgB No.523865 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523861
All my posts were NB sorry m8
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Nigel Sogglekutch - Sun, 06 May 2018 19:54:58 EST ID:TvQ5tBDC No.523894 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523865
Bump
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Graham Cenkinshaw - Tue, 15 May 2018 17:23:40 EST ID:fh5xuZgB No.524098 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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nice try u lil butthurt ass nigga lmao


Nowhere else really to put this. by OP - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 18:50:31 EST ID:UGWKazs4 No.523744 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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It's almost fukken ironic that there are so many forums.and help groups out there for parents of addicts, but not a single fucking one for the children of addicts.
Personally I'm far from perfect, I got run over when I was 17 and that pretty much destroyed my left knee which in turn wrecked my job aspirations of becoming a SCUBA instructor; something I was well on the way to doing and had been offered an internship from the guy who ran the local SCUBA centre, all I.needed to do was turn 18.
However cripples can't really teach SCUBA, I remember being in the hospital and having my mother confront me about how she had to take twice as much zopiclone "because I had to get run over".
I was left with chronic pain issues though every NHS doctor labelled me a drug seeker as I was young, despite having a massive.amount of damage done to my cruciate ligament and having a shattered knee, I would be lucky to get tramadol and even then the doctor wanted to see me weekly to basically berate me for not wanting to be in pain.
Eventually I found a cancer patient who basically gave me all of her oxies and when that didn't work I used poppy pods, eventually I ended up on methadone.

As for my mother (my father offer himself when I was a kid), everything was my fault and an excuse for her to drink and take benzos/numbers. I was diagnosed with severe osteoarthritis at 22 though due to being on methadone, doctors still refuse to prescribe pain meds.

About two years ago I realized my mother was now taking more than she was prescribed (which was essentially the max a doctor would give her; 3 7.5mg zopiclone tablets) by ordering from shady online pharmacies.
I tried to tell her sister but her sister called me a junkie, a liar and someone who was simply trying to ruin family relations, even when I sent pictures of the hundreds of pills that had came in my mother's name via the mail.
After I confronted my mother about it catching her ordering more despite the promises to the contrary she simply upped and left the house that was paid for under a dual lease, she took everything of value, trashed the place, moved in with her mother and eventually got a mortgage. Around this time I started drinking e…
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David Nirryville - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 18:55:52 EST ID:QV64JlJj No.523745 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Doctors are retards, man. Do Squatz and Deadlifts and maybe one day you can scuba. Reiki is worth a shot too if you're desperate.
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OP - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 19:21:57 EST ID:UGWKazs4 No.523746 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523745
It's not that I can't dive man, I could do that. However I'm far too much of a fucking cripple to be able to do all of the heavy lifting and other tough work to instruct, unless I paid with money I don't have to do the instructor training and even then I would be seen as damaged goods compared to other job candidates. I used to be able to pick up 2 25kg steel air tanks and hop onto an unsteady, slippery boat with them, now carrying one would seriously fuck with my ability to walk, as for hopping onto a RIB/Zodiac carrying one, I'd slip and smash my head in on the guard rail. Being on methadone a doctor would never likely even clear me for recreational diving meaning that if I just wanted to get a few dives in for fun I would have to lie on the little paper cobtracts and if my buddy somehow got injured; or worse, all the blame would likely land on me. Even if I had done everything right.
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Martha Pullywater - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 23:10:18 EST ID:C+6NY20y No.523750 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>the cruciate ligament (theres more than 1)
>shattered knee (cant shatter a joint)

first tip is to maybe actually make an effort to educate yourself on your own injuries

second, yes my mother is a drug and alcohol addict as well and has permanently scarred our relationship, though not as severely as it sounds like yours has. them's the breaks man just gotta keep on truckin swimmin and rollin rollin rollin rollin WHAT
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OP - Fri, 04 May 2018 02:57:21 EST ID:UGWKazs4 No.523850 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523750
Firstly my phone seems to autocorrect ligaments to ligament, I tore both my posterior and anterior cruciate ligaments (aka both cruciate ligaments), as for "shattered my knee" maybe I should have said that I extensively fractured my tibial plateau (lucky I caught that autocorrect or you'd be grilling me on the fact that I don't have a trivial plateau), I really figured that going into detail would be more of a talk for /med/ rather than /qq/.
I didn't even make the thread to complain about the fact that I'd injured my knee, I was just trying to get a bit of a backstory.


I'd really rather not by Jarvis Chinderkog - Mon, 30 Apr 2018 18:48:39 EST ID:NQaU57B/ No.523767 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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I'm gonna skip the history bit because I really don't think it's relevant;

>Me and girl are done
>Haven't spoken in months
>Texts me this morning

I just wanna ignore it, I've got zero desire to open this can of worms. Near as I can figure she's probably only hitting me up because something shitty happened and she doesn't wanna talk to me, she just wants someone to give her attention and throw her a pity party. 'Course I can't read her mind and it's been a long ass time, I have no idea why she's getting in touch with me now and to be honest I feel like I might be a little vindictive and bitter considering what I just wrote.

That said, I don't wanna be a petty cunt about it. Is it fucked up for me to just not answer? Like it's just the absolute most basic of courtesies to not ghost people.
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Basil Dobbleworth - Wed, 02 May 2018 08:58:50 EST ID:PY/Vniue No.523816 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523767
Ghosting is one thing, but I think it's reasonable not to reply to a text from an ex. Especially if you feel like answering would be an emotional imposition on your peace of mind. I think it's an exception to the etiquette though, normally I would agree that ignoring a text a little uncourteous.

If she's desperate and texts again you can always reply to tell her you'd rather not keep up a relationship with her.
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Clara Hinnerwill - Wed, 02 May 2018 18:18:28 EST ID:aUdigX5R No.523822 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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DICKS EVERYWHERE
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George Ballerworth - Wed, 02 May 2018 20:10:08 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.523825 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523767

We live in a digital age where people are able to contact us through weird and wonderful means that would not exist without social media or mobile phones.

I personally don’t feel an obligation to my inbox because I have had so many people do the same to me. At a certain point I quite enjoy the control and power I feel over my own life. Not everyone who wants to contact me is obliged a reply. It’s because of these fake connections like Facebook that people are even able to do so in the first place.

I like the peace that knowing you don’t have to reply to anything brings.
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Emma Blathershaw - Thu, 03 May 2018 01:47:10 EST ID:1kHuiVLo No.523827 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523767

Y
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Emma Blathershaw - Thu, 03 May 2018 01:59:43 EST ID:1kHuiVLo No.523828 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523825

You're right that it feels bad to be left by somebody. When feelings aren't reciprocated by another person there's nothing to be done. I've been there, and sometimes you're left wondering what you could have done differently. If you feel strongly about it, don't feel bad about reaching out, but prepared for it not going your way.

OP the right thing to do is to ignore her unless you want to restart the relationship. If that's what you want, of course go for it, but don't start texting niceties because it might lead them on if they are not very emotionally mature. If she actually calls rather than random texts for attention, then you have to do the old gentle let down.

You don't have any responsibility for this person, and reengaging them when that is not what you want is worse than the pity text.


playing above my league/women do opposite of what they say by Shit Gonningshit - Tue, 01 May 2018 13:13:22 EST ID:9Z0lRcqx No.523784 Ignore Report Reply Quick Reply
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Sup qq so I'm that guy with the pathological sexual insecurities/anxieties and social anxiety who was seeing the hot girl from tinder. Gonna vent about it this one last time sorry.... it was going well for almost a month and then she went on holiday to a certain Asian city state in the far east. Promise of sex when she got back was there. About a week after she left I got bad feeling when I was talking to her about an STD test, she talked as if she had no plans to see me despite us not talking directly about it. Later posts on facebook confirmed my suspicion.

When she got back, she didn't contact me despite always initiating conversation and inviting me over for sex. After a few days, I decided it was time to check, and asked her in the middle of the day. She responded 30 minutes later, saying she was seeing someone else (a local she met there) and wanted to 'see how it goes' with them. This was despite we were in a FWB arrangement where she said she absolutely would not want a relationship at this point in her life after a really bad breakup.

So the reason i'm venting is cos seeing her was pretty much my only human contact besides family, and it gave me a really nice place to stay in the town I wanna live in for 1-3 nights per week, a highly valuable asset. Plus, it actually went a very long way in destroying some of my long held insecurities that I'm terrible in bed and could never please a woman, or be accepted by one for the way I am. Now, it seems that effect has been reversed and I'm back to where I was. Why would she run off with the first guy who takes her fancy if I was satisfying her in bed? Why would she do that if she was happy having a sexual relationship with autist types? Was this predestined to happen very quickly from the beginning because she was objectively above my league? Does "I'm not ready for a relationship" really mean "you're not good enough for one"? etc etc

I feel pretty shit but I realise it was just a casual thing so I can't get too down about it. It's just... how do I maintain the optimistic feelings I got from this in the face of loss and seeming evidence that I'm not good enough to keep an attractive g…
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Ian Tootshit - Tue, 01 May 2018 17:44:15 EST ID:7oTdIRwW No.523789 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>523784
Maybe she had more in common with the other guy, or maybe she saw in him something she lacked in herself and wanted to expand about that. He might be living closer or be getting along greatly with her parents, she might have felt that while she enjoyed your company you wouldn't be compatible as a couple.

There are hundred possible reasons, and it's impossible for us and for you to discern why it didn't work. You immediately go for explanations like "Am I too autistic, am I too ugly or didn't I perform good enough in bed". It might be like that, but when you look at all the possible factors you realize that the odds that exactly your appearance or sexual prowess is problematic is unlikely and sort of rude, not in a mean-spirited way, but in the way that you assume that she is shallow and only go after looks, not contemplating her inner thoughts, motivations and rich emotional life.

It's a disservice to yourself to obsess over "I'm the problem" when the factors at play are almost eternal. You say that she was an important asset and a great tool to overcome your own anxieties, so it doesn't seem like you had to strong romantic notions towards the relationship, so I'd recommend moving on with your life and try to take the lessons you learned from your encounters into the future.
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Jarvis Fingerwell - Tue, 01 May 2018 18:35:17 EST ID:Wbtk0bF7 No.523794 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Mate this is one of those scenarios where you must not generalize. Her actions are her own, not every attractive woman's.

But anyway yeah of course she doesn't want to have a relationship with you. She was the sole redeeming feature in your life. You don't have any friends. You have crippling interpersonal issues. Not that she thought it. She might have just felt it.

But yeah she didn't necessarily lie to you. She was abroad having the time of her life and met a guy. She felt something. She didn't think, oh wait I have an autist at home that I told I wasn't looking for a relationship to. She just thought that she might give it a go with this guy she has chemistry with. It might seem inconsistent to you but it isn't.
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Jenny Fummerbare - Tue, 01 May 2018 22:37:04 EST ID:hjdKGFK5 No.523803 Ignore Report Quick Reply
he's better
go find another qt now that you're more confident, they will notice
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Thomas Branningforth - Wed, 02 May 2018 03:34:14 EST ID:tdcT9c4M No.523809 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Does "I'm not ready for a relationship" really mean "you're not good enough for one"? etc etc

No, you should take her at her word. She told you she didn't want to commit to you. I'm sure she enjoyed your company, but she warned you it was a casual relationship. It was only natural she would meet someone new on holiday. If you want a committed relationship, you should pursue women who feel the same, and believe them when they tell you otherwise.
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George Ballerworth - Wed, 02 May 2018 20:06:22 EST ID:yDKihQN5 No.523824 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523789

I respect the intelligence displayed in this post.


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