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I'm scared: Mental Illness by Samuel Demmlenudge - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 09:39:54 EST ID:Vwtvkv4y No.521407 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I have the wherewithal to know that I am mentally ill on an intellectual level, but I'm so far gone that I no longer remember what it was like to be healthy.

Is anyone this mentally ill?

I'm fairly well educated, so my guess is that most people as sick as me aren't posting on a personal issues section of a drug-themed image board.

I don't know what the point of this thread is. Just tell me that I'm safe and that I'll be okay. You don't understand how scary this all is.
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Hannah Meshfuck - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:00:16 EST ID:eLRQSL1/ No.521408 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521407
Is this a real mental illness like schizophrenia or are you just "depressed"
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Samuel Demmlenudge - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:20:11 EST ID:Vwtvkv4y No.521409 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521408
Diagnosed major unipolar depression and GAD. Treatment for 10 years.

This feels different.

Lots of irrational thought processes. Stopped taking medications. Recent agoraphobia, irrational paranoia about being judged. Extremely sensitive towards how I present to strangers. Fearful of being judged crazy by passersby or strangers that I interact with.
This is probably way out of your ballpark.
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Graham Cruffington - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:20:49 EST ID:Lzfrqbba No.521410 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521407

the void
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awe' !!vVWR8L52 - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:45:32 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521411 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521407
we could try to soothe you baby, but it would actually be counter productive since the more you rely on the outside to make you feel good, the bigger the hole you dig for yourself.

You have to learn to soothe yourself. Say things like I'm good, it's gonna be alright, I love myself I see beauty in this world and don't worry even if you think that spells your death. You can do this baby.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=adV8-_hgL4g
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Sidney Dugglesturk - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 10:58:44 EST ID:VV6JHco/ No.521412 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521410
>>521411

The absolute state of /qq/. You guys are assholes
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Sidney Dugglesturk - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 11:03:25 EST ID:VV6JHco/ No.521414 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521411
Oh, and don't call me baby you condescending prick. What the fuck do you even do in your life that go around and troll on personal issues board?
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awe' !!vVWR8L52 - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 11:42:22 EST ID:B/1t3ZFg No.521415 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>521414
You chose to react this way to my loving message sir. Which is likely reflective of how you view yourself and the world in your everyday life. You might think that what you think is important but if you realized that it's your very thoughts and attitudes that make you miserable, you would give yourself a lot more love, because it doesn't matter if I am a prick or not, you would just think the thought that soothes you and gives you relief from tension.

It's all good sir. Meditation can be great to realize when you are punishing yourself. Just focus on white noise or something and if you feel relieved it means you were thinking stuff that's making you miserable, just stop, enjoy the silence a bit and then refocus in the direction that you wish once you've find your balance again. 15 minutes in the morning is amazing to make you more aware of your thoughts during the day. Please be nice to yourself dude, c-mon. Love you sir and let me tell you there is so much beauty in every place. Insane.
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Graham Cruffington - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 11:46:36 EST ID:Lzfrqbba No.521416 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521414

Try rubbing your eyeballs on things in order to better understand them.
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Cedric Turveyforth - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:15:50 EST ID:MKkw9wKC No.521417 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521415

I can't sing anymore. I need to be miserable for awhile, let me mourn. Meditation is a distraction that awareness never fixed, look at your 'image related'
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Cedric Turveyforth - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:20:38 EST ID:MKkw9wKC No.521418 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521416

Telling a de realized person to understand intuition is like convincing an insomniac to sleep
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Edwin Passleville - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:35:50 EST ID:LcucpSqc No.521419 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521418
>>521417
>>521416
Take your meds
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Cedric Turveyforth - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 12:37:55 EST ID:MKkw9wKC No.521420 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521419
lol shut up

I'm explaining to you that something went wrong. Something happened and I just don't feel like taking my meds anymore. If the meds were working, then I wouldn't have stopped taking them. This is new; I don't feel like taking them any more
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Barnaby Sivingnen - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 13:58:25 EST ID:aPyw/q90 No.521427 Ignore Report Quick Reply
OP here. Fuck it.

There is nothing wrong with me. I should take my medicine. Don't waste any energy on my bullshit.
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Lillian Bummleweg - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 15:14:52 EST ID:HV1KrY0T No.521430 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521420
Enjoy the hospital stay schizo
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Lydia Gesslelock - Fri, 12 Jan 2018 15:51:55 EST ID:+wQgw6FT No.521435 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521430
I'll fucking find you (jk) ill fucking find you and end you (jk) where do you live (jk) I have a masters degree do you think that I can't figure out how to find you (jk) do you think that I can't figure out where you live (jk)
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mr biglisworth - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 17:46:27 EST ID:i0LaCE4I No.523026 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521407
the best way to deal with paranoia is to turn it in to hysteria. and i hope for the love of god your a good person. stay true to you man even if you think the world is against you others will find a respect for you.
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mr biglisworth - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 17:50:33 EST ID:i0LaCE4I No.523027 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521430
self infliction wounds be the sins of man. just becuase we live in a society that allows this it breeds hate. you dont know if he's goin through a mid life crisis. just be lucky your brain is work for you. there isnt enough prudence in this senario.
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Wesley Gerringhood - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 23:24:05 EST ID:ZMDYtLUz No.523035 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521409
Smells like prodromal psychotic depression.
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Eugene Dibblestock - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 23:41:56 EST ID:wJavO91C No.523037 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've had a psychotic episode myself so I can sympathize with the hell that is having a head full of delusions and all that mindfuckery.

You should try to get some help.
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Martha Habblefit - Sun, 25 Mar 2018 14:57:48 EST ID:L2zUOjg4 No.523061 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>521420
then you probably need a bigger dose or different meds, call your doctor about it?
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Cedric Pabberhen - Mon, 26 Mar 2018 15:12:43 EST ID:ZMDYtLUz No.523071 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>523061
>I have no medical experience but I still control dosage for people online anyway xD

Maybe you should walk off a bridge. Not OP.
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Ernest Pizzleson - Mon, 26 Mar 2018 17:13:01 EST ID:2LD9LCjA No.523077 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>but I'm so far gone that I no longer remember what it was like to be healthy.
yup!
I've personally been a tranny in therapy for 1.5 years now. Took me a while to """"accept"""" myself, but I honestly cannot remember what life was like before I unironically obsessively wanted to cut my dick off 24/7.

i've solved this issue by dropping a few old friends and replacing my support network with other mentally ill trannies. it almost feels like a sort of absurd counterculture and helps me feel normal compared to being that one obsessive freak in a group of normies.

you're probably fine, lad. and don't be scared of asking a therapist for help, ignore the stigma of that action alone making you "mentally ill". i mean, before seeing myself as a tranny, i was already in therapy for anxiety things, so it honestly doesn't matter when you start.


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