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Got played by a heroin addict gang member. by Cornelius Cillyfudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 00:35:31 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522175 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Hey /qq it's been a while. I just need to vent. I posted this on circlejerk but have gotten no replies. I think people think I'm trolling. But hopefully here I can get some conversation or comfort.

It's a dumb story. It all starts with my childhood best

I had a best friend for 10 years on and off. We were best friends when we were really young before anything bad ever happened so that's why I have stayed by her side and trusted her ignorantly throughout what I'm about to tell you.

She dropped out of school in 10th grade and started doing heroin. That's when things got really bad. I ended the friendship several times due to her drug use and her sleeping with my boyfriend(s) over the years. I kept accepting her back into my life because she would claim to be sober and say how she always loves me and needs me.
Surprise! She's never been sober and she has never loved or needed me. She has severe bipolar disorder and doesn't love anything deep down.

She ended up getting married to a heroin addict and having a son. This son became my godson. I met him in the NICU where he stayed for 6 weeks due to methadone addiction.

I cared for him for 2.5 years before the bff showed me once and for all that she is not sober and doesn't plan on it. I am, was, her only sober friend. She likes to only be around other addicts and known pedophiles.

She is now an escort and has a pimp who tells her who to service.

I started dating the dad because him and I had a lot in common and she encouraged us to date. It was going well for a few months until he told me they actually weren't divorced, only seperated and that they have no plans to sign the divorce papers because he didn't want to go through all the legal fees. So I broke up with him.

4 months later, meaning 3 weeks ago, I missed him so much that I asked him to meet me at a bar. We had a great time and clearly missed each other a lot. Long story short. He only lied and gaslighted me for the last 3 weeks.

He told me he's a member of the Blood gang and that's why he always wears bandanas around his neck. For status. He told me he is a swinger and part of a swingers group. He's tried to pressure me to join said group and have 3somes. He has tried to guilt trip me and manipulate me into staying by dropping these details slowly and then using his son/my godson as emotional leverage. He says he's my godson so I owe him a relationship. Btw, he's not legally my godson. Its just a game. I try to tell him that but he knows it's good leverage either way to get me to go soft on these ridiculous stories he tells me.

So we had a great night last night until it was time to have sex. The sex was terrible. He was completely naked other than his bandana. He only laid there and wanted to be serviced by me. I couldn't hardly get him off so I knew something was wrong. After he passed out, I decided to go snooping through his phone. I saw all I needed to see within 20 seconds. I saw he made plans for the next day (meaning tonight) with another girl who was calling him babe and wanting sex and cuddles. He told her he is at work (he wasn't, he was with me) and that he was free tomorrow night.

I then saw him texting with his wife and they are planning on moving in together in 2 weeks. She was also complaining about not having been dosed that day.

I believe he is still on heroin too.

I went to wake him up, and told him to get the fuck out of my house. He did.

He has not felt any remorse. He is a gang member who can and does fuck other women literally every day. This is what he told me despite having telling me he loves me and that I'm the best girl for him thus far.

I recieved all this information over a period of 3 days.

I feel like a used tissue he threw out. I don't feel like me. I feel like a whore. I feel like a fool.
I don't see me getting another boyfriend for a long time. I tried to find someone to have sex with tonight (which I NEVER do) just so I can be touched by a different man with a kind heart and feel like I'm washing away the old degrading sex I had last night.

Instead I'm home alone.

I don't feel okay at all. I feel like such a fool.
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Samuel Worrydine - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 01:07:24 EST ID:IaTqRtaT No.522176 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175
Your life sucks lately. Not much to say other than quit spending your time around shitty people but what can you really do?
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Cornelius Cillyfudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 01:12:42 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522177 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522176
They're the only shitty people I really had in my life. I clung to it because she was my childhood best friend.

But I'm fucking done for good with all 3 of them. Haven't spoken to her in a year or seen the kid in a year.
Officially done with heroin gangbanger dad as of yesterday.
I don't ever see me getting involved with people like that again.

I'm also done being a pussy. I will listen to my gut from now on; it's never wrong
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Fanny Sankinridge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 02:02:17 EST ID:WJG/J3r6 No.522178 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I've dealt with hard drug addicts, and I've dealt with manipulators, and I've dealt with the middle slice of that venn diagram too. My advice is not to be so hard on yourself: it's not your fault you were taken in by a manipulator, it's what they do. It's certainly no indicator of your own worth or moral fiber, and if you say "I should have known!" just know that while caution is a fine trait, I think it's equally important that people are willing to be vulnerable to try and evince the good in other people. It's part of compassion, and it's laudable, and rarer than it ought to be. You're important, and seemingly a good person. Don't lose that and keep your chin up. :)

Pic unrelated.
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Nell Biffingstork - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 02:06:43 EST ID:8D47oOiy No.522179 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522177


HEAR FUCKING HEAR
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Cornelius Cillyfudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 03:10:57 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522181 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522178
Op here. Oh man thank you for this. I have PTSD and paranoia is a side effect. So I tried to ignore my gut thinking it was maybe PTSD but I also stayed around long enough to allow vulnerability and get a good idea of what was happening, plus really get proof that he was fucking around there at the end. I guess I did leave at the right time. Thanks for that.
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Wesley Blackdale - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 06:49:09 EST ID:COAX7aNZ No.522182 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522181
OP maybe I'm wrong but aside from your feelings have you lost much? If not then you got away. As the other guy said you do have to put yourself out there a little. There's a point where either because of your gut or because you notice familiar patterns you should become cautious, but that's not the same as pulling out. As soon as you're either sure they're bad or you're sure that even if they aren't bad they're bad for you you can duck out, but if you're limiting your exposure and taking it slowly you're at less risk.

It's all practice. Intuition is when you have some experience in something and without consciously processing the cues you're picking up you recognise them and match current events with the experience. It's not mutually exclusive with being able to say "I can see these things and it means this" but requires less experience. I guess intuitive people pick up and apply patterns well so they have an inkling what's going on where someone who relies purely on process and logic they are cognizant of require more specific experience to do so

I hope you never get to the latter stage with these sort of people.
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Wesley Blackdale - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 06:50:51 EST ID:COAX7aNZ No.522183 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522182
Oh, one other thing.

Having said all that we should remember that sometimes it's okay to disregard the warnings. For example I'm not entirely sure your story is real but what's the actual misery I suffer by writing a genuine reply? In that case my own intuition warns me, I consider it and push on. You have to consider the risks though. I'm waiting for my socks to dry anyway you know and if I do help you in any way then that's great
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Nigel Fanworth - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 13:45:33 EST ID:ROGlj1oY No.522189 Ignore Report Quick Reply
heh well that was alarmingly dumb, it's amazing how women fall for this shit...
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Cornelius Cillyfudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 15:00:56 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522192 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522182
Op here.
I didn't really lose anything but I got a bad hit to my ego and felt like an idiot for spending so much time on these people. I just have to get over it.
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Nathaniel Pecklewudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 15:42:48 EST ID:/G73Oz2W No.522195 Ignore Report Quick Reply
wow, these people are out of your life now and youre not dead, drug addicted or pregnant, YES
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Cornelius Cillyfudge - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 16:14:46 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522199 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522195
Good point
Touche salesman.
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Augustus Wallerhall - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 21:00:29 EST ID:WEiGJLMT No.522202 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175
Holy shit you're a moron.
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Betsy Hublingdot - Tue, 13 Feb 2018 21:03:31 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522203 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522202
No one cares
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Hugh Brebberkon - Wed, 14 Feb 2018 05:03:48 EST ID:DWaLMotX No.522221 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175
I got a drinking problem but I can safely say you shouldn't trust anyone with hardcore addiction issues. I'm not trying to be pretentious but people on Heroin and Meth are going to give you nothing but trouble.
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Phineas Fellyridge - Wed, 14 Feb 2018 19:04:27 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.522247 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175

You should give the man another chance OP.

I bet he'll do right by you next time. Besides, why the hell would you let your godson go like that? You owe his dad a relationship. So next time you wanna open your mouth about this shit, stuff his dick in it.
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Clara Cidgesane - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 03:14:25 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522252 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522247
I just got laid by someone awesome so fuck your harassment. I don't even care. You sound more miserable than I am rn. Good job
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Matilda Wattingshit - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 03:45:16 EST ID:1twTBPo0 No.522253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>522252
>I feel like a whore.
so, to not feel like one:
>I tried to find someone to have sex with tonight
no wonder circlejerk didn't respond. you gotta be high 24/7 to not think you're trolling
>>522175
>I just got laid by someone awesome
based on the OP you make the impression of someone who is a really good at judging people's character.
hope he's not a crip member lol
I really hope for you're sake that you're a troll and not a real person
anyway thanks for the laugh and good feels
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Clara Cidgesane - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 06:16:10 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522257 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522253
Don't careeeee
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Betsy Pickhall - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 07:23:44 EST ID:COAX7aNZ No.522258 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522257
OP at first I thought you had a good snarky attitude but now you're just reacting to every dumb post. "I got laid" is a good comeback. It establishes that you're a worthwhile person because only decent people get laid. It's not like you can be a heroin addicted child neglecting piece of garbage and repeatedly fuck a chick while lying to her face. Nope. It's not like utter human garbage gets laid on the regular.

The fact you're here having this dumb mud slinging match, before we even consider your replies is a sign that you've not fully assimilated the lessons you've learned. Like how to let go. You have to win everything, save every moron, have every failed relationship work and that's going to scare off guys with honest intentions but not ones who want an easy mark.
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Shitting Babblespear - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 10:21:09 EST ID:ROGlj1oY No.522263 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522252
well no wonder you feel like shit if you jump on dicks everytime you feel like shit...
was he as "awesome" as the blood member? lol
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Lydia Doshlatch - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 11:10:04 EST ID:TNGxHAKH No.522265 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>522175
>boohoohoo I fucked my best friend's baby-daddy who I knew was a scumbag and an asshole and a heroin junkie and a literal pimp and the sex wasn't good one time and now I feel like a whore!
This is why we're all going MGTOW.
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Clara Cidgesane - Thu, 15 Feb 2018 17:25:49 EST ID:Km7nxoPl No.522277 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522258
I needed to get laid by someone who wasnt a pos and wanted to actually touch me back. I wamted to be reminded physically who I am after fucking a horrible person who made me feel like an object. I never get laid because I am actually usually terrified of unemotional sex due to my ptsd. I am proud that I was able to overcome that like a normal person. I got laid by a friend of mine who is nothing like the people in my original post because like I said, I know no one else like them. I got laid and I needed it. It was a one time thing to help me feel like I can be physical with someone right now who isnt trash. Now I'm not getting on here again because i DID learn something from this post, and I'm over it. I feel way better than i did a few days ago when this post was made and I don't need to see random people on 420chan harass me over shit they know nothing about.

But the first few replies on this post did help me. So thank you to those anons. I quickly learned those people aren't shit. Im onto a new phase in my life.

Have fun laughing and calling me names for whatever reason because I wont be seeing it.

Later again /qq
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Jack Seddlenurk - Fri, 16 Feb 2018 02:30:11 EST ID:ROGlj1oY No.522289 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522277
>i am proud that I was able to overcome that like a normal person

heh this is such a weird logic...
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Augustus Wemmlegold - Fri, 16 Feb 2018 16:29:25 EST ID:0PJ7z1R+ No.522300 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522277

Here's the moral of the story for you:

>You play with shitty people, you get shitty prizes.
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Matilda Bablingsudge - Fri, 16 Feb 2018 22:35:43 EST ID:TNGxHAKH No.522307 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>522277
>I never get laid
>am literally a pimp's whore
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Ebenezer Senkindock - Fri, 16 Feb 2018 23:44:33 EST ID:ApD5b+Tp No.522308 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522265
>fuck pimps
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Sidney Hunderfield - Sat, 17 Feb 2018 06:12:08 EST ID:jAXGvxDa No.522317 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175
> He was completely naked other than his bandana.

rofl
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Ernest Gugglelad - Sat, 17 Feb 2018 08:15:19 EST ID:qjsN1w3c No.522320 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>522175
This has to be a troll. This is the definition of a trashy dumb hoe but she's trying to claim she's better than this other trashy dumb hoe she knows by saying she's sober (on a fucking website dedicated to drug use). It's like it's designed to piss off the people here.
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Matilda Bablingsudge - Sat, 17 Feb 2018 09:10:22 EST ID:TNGxHAKH No.522323 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>522320
Given my centuries of extensive shitposting on imageboards, my internal heuristic algorithm tells me this is the real deal If not, bravo troll. Bravo.


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