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BWB: Chill Vibes for Summer 2019, Pt. 1

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!KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 15:53:53 EST I6YS7H0F No.146252
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Fellow posters, the previous BWB is no longer bumping. As such, here is the next installment of the thread dedicated to being on benzos, bumping while benz’d, and other benzodiazepine-related topics and questions.

20mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, and 100mg tramadol to kick shit off!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 21:40:36 EST ATVCbyJc No.146254 Reply
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>>146252
0.25mg alprazolam an hour after making the thread.

Another 10mg diazepam, 100mg DPH, 50mg tramadol, booze, and another 0.5mg alprazolam.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 23:20:23 EST I6YS7H0F No.146255 Reply
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>>146254
Add on: sushi, half a bottle of white wine, 8 fl.oz. 9.1% alcohol Russian imperial stout, 10mg diazepam, 2mg alprazolam, and 40mg d-amphetamine (Adderall XR, this is the third or fourth time I’ve taken the drug in my life).
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High Strung - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 23:40:07 EST VPU/mRFL No.146256 Reply
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Greetings, salutations, as-salaamu alaykum, etc. /benz/ buddies!

I'm just winding down before bed with a bowl of dank, 4mg Clonazepam, and a podcast. Have a job interview tomorrow for teaching English in China for 1 year and Russia for another year after that. Wish me luck y'all, I'm excited but I might need 0.5mg or so of my K-pins to take the edge off!

(I'm hoping to apply to teach in the same province I stayed a summer in.... fingers crossed!)
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 03:32:48 EST I6YS7H0F No.146260 Reply
More stimulants, booze, benzos, and PKs.

>>146256
Crossed fingers
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Chan - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 04:02:50 EST aG1vvsnf No.146261 Reply
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>>146252
>5mg + 15mg = 20mg Diazepam
>2.5 Standard Drinks (Lager)

Might add 10mg Methylphenidate or 10mg Diazepam. Slowly coming to the conclusion it might be PTSD not Anxiety disorders. Hopefully the chill vibes arrive.

>>146255
Always curious about the DPH when I see your posts. Increased sedation or something else?

>>146256
加油 брaт!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 04:14:07 EST I6YS7H0F No.146263 Reply
More shit to bump: 0.5mg alprazolam, 10mg diazepam, and 3 x 12 fl. oz. domestic 5.0% beers. Outside of tramadol, I would really like to receive a script of hydrocodone or oxycodone at the end of July from my pain management doctor. In the meantime I am just taking fucking trams. FUCK MY LIFE!!! Back pain is a bitch and a half.

>>146261
DPH is for the opioid/opiate itch, but also to increase sedation from the combo of opis plus benzos and booze.
So yes, increased sedation and decreased itchiness with DPH or hydroxyzine. Win-win, yeah?

nb
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Chan - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 04:52:40 EST aG1vvsnf No.146265 Reply
>>146263
>10mg Methylphenidate
>10mg Diazepam
>10mg Propanolol

Let the good times roll.

Win-Win it seems. Didn't know Tramadol gave an itch like codeine or oxycodone like opiates.

nb
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 04:57:37 EST I6YS7H0F No.146266 Reply
>>146265
Personally, tramadol gives a much harsher itch than hdyros, oxys, etc. in terms of commonly Rx'd opiates.

nb
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Phoebe Cemmerchedging - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 12:48:19 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146269 Reply
>20mg diazepam

May take more soon since I get my script refilled tomorrow. Get really /benz/'d tonight, we'll see
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Wesley Shakehall - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 09:29:59 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146288 Reply
Refill day, so

>40mg diazepam
>120 propanolol

Of my last script. Hopefully it'll chill me out for work . Have a good day y'all
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Wesley Shakehall - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 13:46:45 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146289 Reply
>>146288
lmoa diazepam is on backorder at the pharmacy I use so I can't get my script I'm about to fucking lose it

I need to switch pharms cause shit like this always fucking happens with this one fuck them. nb
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 14:20:06 EST I6YS7H0F No.146290 Reply
10mg diazepam plus 5mg cyclobenzaprine

>>146289
I went to a major U.S. pharmacy who almost always fucked up my generic preferences. Instead of the Mylan diazepam, which was the default, I wanted Teva. Despite this, I waited over two full weeks to receive my Teva diazepam script. Another time I just went with Mylan, but the tablets didn’t feel like 10mg. Rather, closer to 5mg and with less of a duration. Then I switched to a different major U.S. pharmacy and eventually their entire supply of alll Teva generics was swapped to Mylan to reduce cost and increase profits. None of this was told to a single customer and they didn’t allow script transfers to other pharmacies until the medication ran out of refills. Nowadays, I make damn sure I’m not going to get fucked over by changing pharmacies. Best of luck, Wesley. I’m about to move several states away in 3 weeks, so navigating a new areas pharmacies can be difficult.
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Doris Gedgeshit - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 15:24:21 EST evddYoO7 No.146292 Reply
>>146290
For 5mg tablets, do you recommend Teva>Mylan? (assuming teva makes 5mgs)
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guardian_angel !LhwrleQFRU!!fAsQkk7h - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 15:51:03 EST +mL8xtUH No.146293 Reply
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20mg omeprazol and 1mg of alpra and a coctail spliff. Probably gonna follow with another 1mg of alpra and more weed. Really feeling tha summer rn
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Matilda Chellerfoot - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 21:16:25 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146295 Reply
>>146292

Teva does make 5mg. From what I understand Teva is one of the better generic manufacturers, but Katz would provide a more concrete answer.

Added a few shots of whiskey to the 40mg diazepam and finally feeling somewhat calmer than earlier when I was almost panic attack mode. nb
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High Strung - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 21:19:47 EST VPU/mRFL No.146296 Reply
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>>146256
Well folks, I got the job in China! On Monday evening, I'll be given a choice of 3 cities where they can station me as a teacher. Celebrating with:
>6mg Clonazepam
>1 thick blunt of Lemon Kush
-large Red Bull

Going out with some friends for dim sum in Chinatown in a bit. Holy fuck are the munchies gonna be murderous tonight.....
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 01:09:12 EST 620q2vJg No.146300 Reply
Daily total: 40mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 100mg tramadol, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and 125mg DPH

>>146295
I’m on it!

>>146292
Teva makes diazepam in all three dosages: 2mg, 5mg, and 10mg
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John Fuckingforth - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 05:28:40 EST esdbvg0e No.146302 Reply
3mg clonazepam and about 5 beers
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High Strung - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 19:17:08 EST VPU/mRFL No.146305 Reply
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>>146252
>3mg Clonazepam
>1 fat joint of kush

Now splurging on buffalo wings and a chocolate shake. Also realizing I'm gonna miss weed so much when I leave for China :(

Pic unrelated
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dr. m - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 21:55:08 EST ehbFaOGo No.146306 Reply
>>146252

>1mg pharma alprazolam
>200mg gabapentin
>3 glasses of wine
>prepping a plugged shot of 80mg adderall IR + 16mg bupe right now (normally only do 4mg bupe)

Still struggling with my divorce, as I finally was reaching the early stages of Acceptance but it comes and goes, and can often be triggered. I don't even feel romantically attached to her most the time; I just miss my best friend and family member.

Today I was surprised because her sister's bachelorette party started- and it's occuring ~3 months before the wedding. My ex wife was fed up with my depression related to BPD, and she never understood or she refused to accept that the way she enabled me to stagnate, as well as how the majority of her actions/inaction functioned as a negative feedback loop between the two of us.

It's been 6 months already, she was dating and buying ultra kinky shit and lingerie more explicit than anything we ever did in 8 years on MY amazon account within 3 days of me leaving, most likely (90% chance it was at least 2 guys besides her current bf) hooked up with between 2-5 days within just 9-10 days after my departure, and it appears she first started talking to her current bf of 5-6 whole months (he MOVED IN within 1 month- what the FUCK) within a grand total of ~20 days after I left the house maximum, maybe sooner.

This was all months before the divorce was even finalized.

Anyways, bump because I wasn't prepared to see social media posts of her sister's bachelorette party, as when we were nearing the end, I remember telling her that I'll never ever be there for your sister or brother's weddings, baby showers, gender reveal parties, or anything else. I mentioned that the closest I'll ever be to even remotely appearing linked to my former "tribe" will be the unlikely chance she dies before me and I go to her funeral, during which my ex-in laws will definitely scream at me. I'm still very close to both the sibling in laws. Also I'm so dense I didn't even put 2 and 2 together and recognize my ex wife is the Maid of Honor, as her sister was our Maid of Honor.

I knew back in 2018 she'd be divorced and end up MOH and I secretly was always worried it would break her heart to have to both cry for joy for her sister and cry for sadness over losing her marriage, but the joke's on me because my replacement model is fucking 35 (I'm 26 she's 27), obviously more mature being 11 years older, not an addict, not mentally ill, and oh yeah, not mentally fucking ill. So she'll stay with him no matter how imperfect he is because it's like being a 5/10 and going to a bar with a hoard of 2/10 friends- your shitty/ugly ass friends makes you seem like a rock star. This dude has it made. My friends and I already have a $160 betting pool started up as to when the new bf will propose and whether she'll accept. Meanwhile her libido has increased by a conservative 50-fold increase (minimum daily vs 2-3x/month) when she was beyond vanilla with me.


So I'm sitting here literally laughing that I fucked up so hard over the years that it got to the point that the love of my life already has someone more concerned that she will cheat during the party than I do, because the difference is moot to me. It's not a fun laugh; It's one of those "haha yeah so funny..." (in my head: accidentally dropping the bullet in the diswasher that one drunken night last fall and not being able to find it sure as hell hasn't paid off yet, even after traveling the world, and neither has getting sober. I really hope they do, because multiple years of these types of feelings with BPD just isn't going to work for me), "...haha wow that poor guy lol the tables have turned..."

I wish I had been told by her in January that she was in an exclusive relationship to help me progress beyond denial and bargaining stages of grief. Instead I worried about how she was handling loneliness, and other emotions expendetures to where my mentall health stagnated for 1/4 of an entire year, possible even for 5 months, when come to find out she hasn't been lonely one single day in 2019 and was purchasing crazy BDSM kink shit online days before I left the moment she was confident it would arrive a day after I was erased from her life. Oh yeah, and then talking to me off/on for 2 months not telling me going out with friends is actually codeword for I'm going to do some kinky painal with that enema I just bought for the fourth time this week...bye! And yes, I've banged 4 different girls already, two european two asian, with two being hotter than she was when we were together. Get this: She's legit lost like 40lb+ in 5-6 months and looks better than she did 10 years ago. Fuck my life

I am worried that xanax is going to become a staple for me again when I'm supposed to be "clean" (aka no non-bupe opioids, no high dose benzo abuse, no getting piss drunk, etc.) The worst part is she's not even mad at me and hasn't been for like months. Even worse, she's apathetic and emotionally divorced me over 1-1.5yr before I moved out without even communicating with me to fix it. You'd think that knowing the chance we will ever get back together is a total and complete 0% would help, but then it feels like 8 years of my life wasted.
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Samuel Sundlecocke - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 22:45:54 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146308 Reply
>>146306

Instead of making an obnoxiously long spoiler tagged post just post that shit to /qq/ dude christ
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dr. m - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 23:15:14 EST ehbFaOGo No.146309 Reply
>>146308

isn't that basically what benz is 20% of the time? Anyways, I took a lot more drugs than that. So yeah, sorry mate.
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Samuel Sundlecocke - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 23:44:50 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146310 Reply
>>146309

Wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't SPOILER!SPOILER!SPOILER!SPOILER!SPOILER! the entire fucking post
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 16:36:04 EST I6YS7H0F No.146313 Reply
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10mg diazepam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and 50mg DPH for now. I might take a 50mg tramadol if this back pain doesn’t subside.

>>146309
Don’t apologize, Dr. Mario. I would honestly estimate a good 10-15% or more posters end up sharing personal details about their life. However, long-term posters are definitely posting more intimate (but non-identifying info) and lengthy information. I’ll read through your OP later today and please know you have the full support of nearly the entire board.
>Don’t apologize for being vulnerable and needing to discuss things with others
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Polly Cubblelock - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 16:47:48 EST evddYoO7 No.146314 Reply
>>146306
chad up bro. women are expendable whores. sadly reality. your idealized projection romantic whatever is just narcissistic masturbation. maybe you could have spent those 8 years better, knowing you would break up, but you learned and experienced stuff regardless. make the best of it, dont wallow. I used to be bipolar2 and got really emotional and pitiful over a long breakup. now that im not bipolar, looking back its so easy to see how i just played myself. i took a lot of my physical and mental pain and conflated it with relationship break up, it was easy to blame all my suffering on that. i dont know if bpd=borderline or bipolar, hopefully not the former since bpd people seem fucked, sorry bpds.
regardless, just know you're just mentally masturbating, creating some booo hoo fetish youre playing out. All those little details, she doesnt give a shit, no one else gives a shit, who cares if she cries or not. the only thing you can do to show up her up or make her feel bad or stupid or whatever, is to truly not give a fuck and get your shit together. abandon your stallion ideals, set a goal and focus on self improvement. Personally mine is figuring how to own something of a farm and live off it. From being homeless and very sick years ago to my current life, my progress is very satisfying and hopeful.

almost all women go whoring and anorexic when they leave a long relationship. no surprise. dont abuse drugs, you know thats retarded waste of time and brain. youre smart enough to do something great, long as you dont troll yourslef mentally.
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dr. m - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 23:35:23 EST ehbFaOGo No.146315 Reply
>>146314

>bump 100mg gabapentin
>0.5mg xanax
>2.5 glasses of wine
>debating between a bupe or bupe+addy shot

I am nothing like a narcicist, my libido is nonexistent, and I have BPD. Do you even know what borderline peronality disorder is?

Oh, I'm reading through your whole post now. I understand your general sentiment. Not sure if I mentioned in my shit post, but there was a triggering event and I'm far from established in terms of knowing and successfully using coping skills that aren't drugs.

If I wasn't bpd (bpd should typically stand for borderline personality disorder), it would be all fine. I got my grad degree and everything was fine. Then in the week or two my BPD came to life, everything changed. Please understand how my rational logic brain, at least when allowed times of clarity, recognizes she's a conditional loving selfish fuck who never put her marriage anywhere near the top of her priority list and either have no fucking idea what she was doing or was too stubborn/heartless/prideful/immature to lift her spouse up when he couldn't do so himself.

If my mom hadn't done exactly that for my step-dad during a very different but similar result psychologically wise, he'd have probably killed him, or at the very least they would have divorced. I married a woman who wasn't ready for the job description. I totally was, before I got fucking sick.

Understand that if it wasn't for this stupid fucking step 8 of Narcotics Anonymous, I wouldn't even still be having these problems (getting triggered, etc.). But nooooo, I'm supposed to make amends no matter how much they don't deserve it.

BPD don't write stuff like that for attention, or validation. At least I truly don't. Also I don't get the spoiler hate...was I supposed to just full take a full on verbal diarrhea dump on the page with no concern for those that aren't interested in the songs that my quartet of tiny sad violins happen to be playing at that time?

I feel fine today. I felt fine for over a week before that. In fact, the week before that was amazing, total mania phase but without psychosis or dysfunction. It was awesome; I got so much accomplished.

I guess it would be easier to distract myself if I had my own house, hadn't lost almost all my friends, and be dealing with PAWS all the time. I can't afford therapy anymore (thanks Florida for not expanding Medicaid when you don't even fucking foot the bill, retards) because I have no healthcare at all.

The closest thing I have is shitposting on here. Sorry I didn't know qq was an actual board...never needed something like that until recently.
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Brain - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 00:32:28 EST qM27bOms No.146316 Reply
>>146315
It's all good Maro. Everyone vents here once in awhile. Not like you made a bunch of threads. Just block mario if you got issues with his posts

>too much eitz
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Beatrice Snoddale - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 03:48:55 EST evddYoO7 No.146318 Reply
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>>146315
>>146315
>0.75mg etiz rn
>900mg phenibut earlier
>16mg bupe earlier

I didn't mean narcissism, like NPD, i mean like Freud's definition. Like all of our intellectualization, thoughts, all of our interfacing with reality, is narcissism. A "narcissist" or NPD means someone pathologically addicted to some form of narcissistic supply. We're all have lots of narcissism, it is how we think and relate with the outside world. We know ourselves and we project it on everything else, more or less...
I can really relate to having a gf that is not ready for the hard times, even if you're there for her hard times. I think a lot of that comes to immaturity and youth. Plenty of younger women can and will make the effort to work through hard times (and thus they're probably not single lol). For the other women, usually age forces them to change. American women in particular so conditioned to milk their youth.
re spoilers, i believe they meant having multiple spoilers, vs one big spoiler

>>146317
Glad my reply helped.
I learned a lot from this site: "Malignant Self-love" http://samvak.trip0d.com/ though a lot of links 404, maybe since the author wants to sell his book or ye olde Trip0d is slipping into the void. Maybe read it through an archive. My mother is a pathological narcissist so it really helped me to understand. There are a lot of great psychology sites on tripod and weebly. Better than the typical "webmd"/modern psychology crap, which is all around coddling the patients ego and creating a long term patient/customer. I mean, all of modern marketing and mass media control is based on Freud's ideas, they can't be that wrong... see: "The Century of the Self"
Learning about psychology/psychotherapy taught me so much about mindfulness, which was so useful when i was insane with bipolar. And in my opinion, most or all cases of bipolar are a side effect of physical disease, as are many/most mental disorders.
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Betsy Fucklewill - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 12:21:24 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146323 Reply
Well, my diazepam is still on fucking backorder, but at least I could get my clonazepam refilled at a different pharmacy. Kinda missed this benzo, let's see how it is now that I haven't taken it in a month or two
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 17:51:13 EST I6YS7H0F No.146328 Reply
Refill day!
20mg diazepam + 1mg alprazolam + 10mg cyclobenzaprine so far.

>>146323
How the hell are you getting both diazepam and clonazepam? My psych's only medicine refusal outright was prescribing me diazepam and clonazepam at the same time with the rationale that I would be too sedated to do much of anything all day. While I have taken both, and actually did after switching from clonazepam to diazepam about 3 years ago, the combo is rather sedating. Great combo, but it is not very functional IMHO.
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Betsy Fucklewill - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 18:13:46 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146329 Reply
>>146328

Different prescriptions from different doctors. This was my last refill on the clonazepam though, I doubt I'll get another prescription written for it. I'm going to try though lol.

I could ask you the same on how you have diazepam and alprazolam! My psych and GP refuses to give me alpra while on any other kind of benzo. It's annoying as hell.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 22:33:15 EST I6YS7H0F No.146331 Reply
Daily total: 40mg diazepam, 1.5mg alprazolam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and booze.

>>146329
I take diazepam 3x/day for agoraphobia (primarily), social anxiety disorder, and generalized anxiety disorder. Alprazolam is for panic disorder (1/2 to 1 x 0.5mg up to 2x/day PRN)
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Graham Magglestidge - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 22:58:46 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146332 Reply
>>146331

My condolences on your conditions, Katz. I am also diagnosed with SAD, GAD and panic disorder (first two since middle school) and still they refuse to give me alpra or any fast acting benzo. I just don't get it. nb
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Chan - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 00:49:06 EST aG1vvsnf No.146337 Reply
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>>146252
>20mg Diazepam

Anyone able to tell me if Clonazepam would be more helpful with making the body more relaxed and not so "butterfly-ish". I can handle the mental aspect but my body is making me feel ill with this GAD, SAD, PD, PTSD etc.
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Zeak - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 03:27:52 EST p5prkNg5 No.146342 Reply
>>146252
I am back. Though never completely left. Ive still been lurking here snd there and still rocking xans along with some clam going around heave pressed but I'm not conpmaining got littwraly 7 or more random ppl on social media tryna flex that shit
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Graham Magglestidge - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 05:24:33 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146344 Reply
>>146252
>2mg clonazepam

To start off this early morning. Have drinks with my all female coworkers later tonight, should be fun, hopefully. Definitely will be taking more kpins before then.
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High Strung - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 10:40:49 EST VPU/mRFL No.146349 Reply
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Ayyyy time to wake, bake, and benz cuz I have the day off
>4mg Clonazepam
>3 bowls of kush
-1 pot of English breakfast tea
Gonna make a cup of coffee too.

Mixed news on the teaching in China front. The company I was working for said that they can't find me a suitable position in any parts of China, but they referred me to another company they are in cooperation with that actually has schools not just in East Asia but in the Arab Gulf States and the former USSR. This service also has job postings for things like teaching History/Social Studies/etc. IN ENGLISH rather than simply teaching English. When Allah/life/the universe closes one door, He/it opens up another, as they say. Still taking some Clonazepam and smoking some weed to suppress the obvious disappointment though....


>>146315
SLAYER and d'uas your way bro. I didn't know you had BPD. As someone with bipolar disorder with PTSD that causes split thinking and fear of abandonment, I empathize deeply with people with BPD. I actually was one of my BPD friend's strongest advocates, with the one who pushed her to seek and continue treatment, was her sponsor when she was getting sober from heroin, helped her with applying for jobs and school.... Now she's married, has a stepson, and is a medical assistant at a drug rehab center that specializes in people who have serious mental illness. She calls me her guardian angel lol.

It CAN get better, brother. Trust me, if a smackhead stripper prostitute crust punk girl can become a GOOD mom and have a high-paying job helping out other mentally ill addicts, you will be fine. Keep your head up insha'Allah.

>>146342
Hey Zeak! Hope you're staying blessed and positive. Let ol' High Strung know how you're doing.
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bb - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 16:57:21 EST mqFR9JAF No.146350 Reply
>>146349
lol im about to finish my bachelor in secondary education, what a waste. get head choppped UAE
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Graham Magglestidge - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 17:53:19 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146351 Reply
>4mg clonazepam

For a total of 6mg today and whaddya know, they work again! I was having trouble with them for the longest time, but after a couple months off of them they have me pretty chill now
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 04 Jul 2019 01:47:15 EST I6YS7H0F No.146365 Reply
>>146252
Throughout the day I have had 25mg diazepam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg trazodone, and a tall cup of chamomile tea.
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Brain - Thu, 04 Jul 2019 21:19:28 EST qM27bOms No.146383 Reply
>>146252
>12mg etiz 1mg clonazepam

I've taken about half a gram of etiz in the last 2 months, its actually quite sad. Glad it aint flualp tho. Gotta taper sooooooon
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 05 Jul 2019 15:31:23 EST I6YS7H0F No.146418 Reply
>>146252
20mg diazepam, 6 beers, and 10mg cyclobenzaprine yesterday

Now: 10mg diazepam and 0.5mg alprazolam
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Brain - Fri, 05 Jul 2019 19:29:06 EST qM27bOms No.146419 Reply
>>146252
12mg etiz /1mh clonazepam

Everyones at each other's throats ahaha
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 05 Jul 2019 22:07:34 EST I6YS7H0F No.146422 Reply
Another 10mg diazepam and 0.5mg alprazolam

>>146419
What the absolute shit is happening with all these anons bitching and flexing their prescriptions on each other?
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Ernest Duckstone - Sun, 07 Jul 2019 11:27:57 EST 5yRLQ0N9 No.146432 Reply
22.5mg zopiclone cus im out of kpins
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Archie Gezzleham - Sun, 07 Jul 2019 16:12:51 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146435 Reply
>>146252

>4mg clonazepam

Maybe more soon. I just want to do some fucking drugs, man. But in fucking broke
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Archie Gezzleham - Sun, 07 Jul 2019 17:10:23 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146436 Reply
>>146435

>8mg clonazepam

I believe this was the dose I took during my last suicide attempt, back when I had 0 tolerance. I remember because I had .5s and took 16 of them. Blacked out in the bathtub and got sent to the psych ward. Shit times. Unfortunately it's almost impossible to overdose on benzos.

Crazy how tolerance be like that. Only up from here, probably. nb
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 08 Jul 2019 00:39:50 EST I6YS7H0F No.146441 Reply
20mg diazepam, 5mg cyclobenzaprine, and 25mg DPH. I’m about to take 50mg trazodone and 10-20mg zaleplon if I don’t start feeling sleepy soon.

>>146436
Damn, dude. 8mg is nowhere near an amount I would consider, at least in isolation medically, to be a dangerous dosage. High? -yes. Inducing death? -not so much.
But, the good news is you are alive and well.
Keep looking at the bright side of life. Make positive changes.
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Hugh Fuckingdale - Mon, 08 Jul 2019 05:03:53 EST yP5dJE+j No.146443 Reply
ambien and about to smoke a joint i just rolled. today was a pretty good day. spent a lot of time practicing piano. really been enjoying it since i've gotten started with it a few weeks ago. drugs and learning musical instruments are a great combination. but then again, i've always been extremely fond of learning, so maybe it's just me.
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Shit Fiffingshaw - Mon, 08 Jul 2019 07:22:45 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146444 Reply
>>146441

Eh, maybe it was 16 milligrams. Don't remember much of that night. 14 and 16 are significant numbers to me.

Anyways, that was 2 years ago nd I'm still getting fucking bills in mail from it. Sometimes I feel like I need to get help in the psych ward again to protect myself but it fucking scares me that I'm still fucking getting bills. Its bullshit we cant get emergency hospital stays without STILL getting fucked two years later.

I'm done with my qq esque post. Sorry about that. nb
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Brain - Mon, 08 Jul 2019 12:23:34 EST GEEMVTrJ No.146446 Reply
>>146444
So I gotta say, flualp has really ruined my appreciation for clonazepam/etiz. Etiz just ain't the same it used to be, I can't binge anymore. I reach a brick wall where no matter how much I take the delusions of sobriety just take over.

Clonazepam I just take apn and try not to abuse that. Although I can have some fun if I take a bunch.

Flualp is king compared to flam, clam, flunitrazolam, pryazolm, lorazepam and diazepam. I understand these are not fair comparisons really.

Anyway I touching flualp. Dope isn't even that fiendish too me.

8mg etiz/2mg etoz
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Ebenezer Sillerlire - Mon, 08 Jul 2019 18:45:39 EST Nmgs3Dw/ No.146447 Reply
>>146446
Yep it's a killer. I used to love it, really strong, good all around benzo, avalaible at every rc shop in good price, with next day delivery. Only bad thing about it, shit wipes your memory clean even if you don't black out. Nowadays people buy them and get some fucked up pills where one contains 0.01mg, the other 1.00 or more. Shit is wild and that's why I got back to pharmaceutical benzos.
Bump on bupe, clonazepam and beers.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 09 Jul 2019 04:00:34 EST I6YS7H0F No.146450 Reply
Daily total: 20mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 50mg tramadol, 25mg DPH, and 10mg cyclobenzaprine. Moving is a fucking drag especially in the middle of a self-taper. However, I do have a new pain management doctor who I plan to see at the end of the month.

>>146444
Healthcare is fucked. Unless you live in a country with much higher than average quality of life then bills, medication costs, insurance, etc. are absolutely hell.
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Edward Honeyhall - Wed, 10 Jul 2019 01:10:05 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146459 Reply
>20mg diazepam
>50mg trazadone

My sleep schedule is fucked. Figured the trazadone would make me at least a little tired but nope. What to do on this long lonesome night?
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Edward Honeyhall - Wed, 10 Jul 2019 01:36:21 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146460 Reply
>>146459
Eh, fuck it

>2mg suboxone

This will hopefully help me sleep and put my mind at ease. nb
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 11 Jul 2019 00:32:15 EST I6YS7H0F No.146461 Reply
>>146252
I have been remaining steady at 20mg diazepam per day for about 4 days. I’ll drop down to 17.5mg/day next week.
>20mg diazepam, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg tramadol, and 50mg DPH
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High Strung - Thu, 11 Jul 2019 11:51:04 EST Ga2Bnto7 No.146463 Reply
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Mmmm Refill Day, takin' the pain away.

Chillin' in the university library on 3mg Clonazepam after picking up from the student pharmacy.

Life's kinda shitty right now. I got this new job as a receptionist for this lady's small freelancing business, turns out she's been cutting me fraudulent checks so I'm out of a job and a couple hundred dollars in the hole until the fraud dept of my bank can finish investigating it. So THAT happened. At least I got hired by another school, so come December I'll be posting from Beijing or its outskirts.

Doctor's gonna look up and see if they have benzos over there though. Chinese are pretty stringent with any drug you can potentially get high off of because of the historical precedent of opium's effects on their society. It's a strange collective trauma that they're still recovering from. It's gonna suck not being able to get weed or psychedelics there, but that alas.
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Ebenezer Drazzlesit - Thu, 11 Jul 2019 21:17:28 EST m+iV6ddK No.146466 Reply
I have a 10mg in a 2ml midazolam injection and according to an online equivalent benzo calculator, it's equal to about to 2.5-5 mg of alprazolam.

If I IV this, will I just blackout? I can take 5 mg of alprazolam without blacking out but midazolam is sometimes used in medicine for preoperative amnesia. And is there any sort of rush from IVing benzos?
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High Strung - Thu, 11 Jul 2019 23:13:41 EST QUUlk64z No.146467 Reply
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8mg Clonazepam because I fucking can tonight. It's Refill Day and I've experienced 72 hours of bordliner traumantic bullshit. Also 2 long, fat Raw joints of Orange Kush to keep chillaxness going on. After a day (week?) of one horrible things leading to another, II need Clonazepam on full-blast for one single night, blaze too fatties of kush that are possibly a waste of weed for the amount of smoking but whatevz, this is the first time in ages for me smoking and benzing simultaneously in 2 weeks so I have the right to take the edge of the bullshit I've been through.....

listening 16th century Celtic Catholic chant and the oldest surviving Highland clansmen troubadour music of the 12th century at the moment. Making me feel I feel like I'm in another world

Pic only slightly related, Shetland is a psrt of Scotland with sone of eeriy past.

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Jenny Pittfoot - Thu, 11 Jul 2019 23:58:56 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146468 Reply
>>146467
How the hell do you take cloncazepam every day and still get a buzz from it?
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Frederick Gushwetch - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 01:48:35 EST iF8Mj3ri No.146470 Reply
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According to this alprazolam drug sheet: https://www.accessdata.fda.gov/drugsatfda_docs/label/2011/018276s045lbl.pdf

"Cimetidine—Coadministration of cimetidine increased the maximum plasma concentration of
alprazolam by 86%, decreased clearance by 42%, and increased half-life by 16%. "

Anyone here have any anecdotes that Cimetidine will actually to increase the duration or strength of alprazolam?
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Ernest Mangerridge - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 02:31:10 EST DCQYbN7N No.146471 Reply
>>146470
Not sure about it, but grapefruit juice is worth trying too. It made my alprazolam last a bit longer. Not much though, so I ended up switching to clonazepam.
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Frederick Gushwetch - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 03:02:26 EST iF8Mj3ri No.146473 Reply
>>146471
Grapefruit works the same way by inhibiting cyp3a4 which is the important enzyme for most benzos. Grapefruit it a weaker inhibitor than cimetidine tho. The problem i see with cimetidine is the rare (0.1–0.2%) side effect of gynecomastia in men (growing man tits), but only in long-term use. Ketoconazole is even better but can cause liver issues.
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High Strung - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 07:25:40 EST QUUlk64z No.146474 Reply
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It's a 4mg Clonazepam + 2 joints of Orange Kush morning. Then I guess it's time grab a bagel with egg, cheese, and halal beef bacon and Red Bull from across the bodega across the street. Hell yeah got them MUNCHIES

>>146468 Honestly I have no clue. Also when I run out of Clonazepam early I don't have any withdrawal symptoms (other than panic attacks, obvz). Been on the stuff since 2013 and never had a seizure or heart problems. Dunno how I'm blessed with it but whatever lol
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Jenny Pittfoot - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 13:24:33 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146475 Reply
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>>146252

>6mg clonazepam

Got me feeling pretty good. Got accepted into local university's technical program, but I have to do an entrance test apparently. I'm brand spanking new to this whole college thing so I'm anxious about that, but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. Right now, applying for federal grants since I'm broke and don't want to be broke-er, but it may come down to me paying out of pocket. Oh well.

Have a good day, ya'll.
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Martha Sendlelick - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 18:36:38 EST Ob+lchrU No.146476 Reply
My retarded friend made an etizolam solution for vaping. Are people really vaping benzos now lol
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High Strung - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 18:45:14 EST QUUlk64z No.146477 Reply
>>146476
>3mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of Orange Kush

Okay, I think I'm good on both the weed and benzos for the evening. Waiting for Cantonese food to arrive to finish off a meh kinda day.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 20:28:22 EST 45eWW5OX No.146480 Reply
15mg diazepam (morning dosage of 10mg and an afternoon dosage of 5mg) plus 0.5mg alprazolam. I’ll take my last 5mg dosage of diazepam in around 2-3 hours as well as a 10mg cyclobenzaprine and 50mg tramadol.

>>146476
I’ve read about people vaping etizolam and alprazolam for several years now. Over the last 3 or so years I saw posts off/on about people vaping clonazolam and ending up in a major blackout for days at a time.
Smoking and vaping benzos is very harsh on the lungs. Based on bioavailability, just taking the solution orally is going to be a much better idea than vaporizing it.
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Chan - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 22:57:52 EST vPHlfLts No.146484 Reply
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>10mg Diazepam

How long you have binded to me, making me so ever care free
Alas as you will come to see that the end will close for thee
Now too decouple that hold and be free
Diazepam is no longer for thee, I long to face the anxiety.

So happy to want too and be tapering off Diazepam. Will miss the BWB though.
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Ebenezer Fuckingwill - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 23:45:08 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146485 Reply
man im not trying to knock anyone script or act all cool but how do you people feel anything from like 10mg diazapam
im scripted 90 10mg valiums along with 90 2mg klonopins a month
i just dont get it. what does this low dose benzo even do? seems rather pointless unless stricly going for anixotltic effects, but this is a board to get /benz/d not anxiety relief
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Ebenezer Fuckingwill - Fri, 12 Jul 2019 23:53:36 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146486 Reply
>>146485
and just for example im on 4mg kpins, 20mg valiums, 8mg bupe(through a nasal spray, i put the needle down few months ago), and just drank 2 beers
yea i feel buzzed but my doses look crazy compared to *****most**** of the ones here
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Chan - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 05:07:02 EST vPHlfLts No.146505 Reply
>>146486
>90 10mg valiums along with 90 2mg klonopins
>4mg kpins, 20mg valiums, 8mg bupe

I understand you, don't worry. 20mg Diazepam daily is the highest I've been scripted. So compared your doses you can probably see why I can feel effects. 4mg Clonazepam + 20mg Diazepam = roughly 60-80mg Diazepam so if your taking that daily your tolerence will have gone through the roof considering they are the long lasting RX benzodiazepines. Then adding alcohol on top of that. Your GABA receptors are not happy with you. I still don't get the code of ethics in the US (Guessing your from there judging by the RX's). In most countries docs/psychs would lose their license for that amount unless it was extra ordinary circumstances. Props on putting down the needle.

I'm probably going to post at low doses. I just like the people here and once I'm off Diazepam I probably won't be /benz/ing it up.

nb
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Hedda Surrysig - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 06:31:10 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146507 Reply
>>146485

10mg diazepam and 2mg clonazepam are not "low doses".

And it's not pointless. They're great for anti anxiety purposes. Don't come in here and tell us what this board is for when you "dont even know what they do"
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Ian Brippertetch - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 07:49:48 EST gT4EAF0b No.146508 Reply
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>>146505
I meant no disrespect at all
I'm mostly an /opi/ guy just with badass benzo scripts and was wondering what people do with these low doses.
>>146507
I know the biochem retard I was just wondering why not everyone here goes for real psychoactive doses
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Ebenezer Fuckingwill - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 10:16:14 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146509 Reply
>>146507
oh and to add i know my scripts are not low doses, wht i was saying was i dont understand why people looking for strong psychoactive effects take such low doses like .5mg ativan lol
regardless BWB 2mg kpin, 10valium, 4mg bupe, 1600mg gabapentin
just starting off the morning, about to go get a miller lite tallboy
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Reuben Pickwater - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 11:03:27 EST uSZ2pfyv No.146512 Reply
>>146508
Benzos aren't very recreational like other drugs. The euphoria I get is from anxiety relief itself. And I get delusions of sobriety on higher doses, so less is more for me.
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Martha Feffingham - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 12:25:13 EST 84C92G1d No.146514 Reply
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>1mg Klonopin
>300mg gabapentin
>10mg Adderall

On a side note, do any of you guys know if a muscle relaxer meant for spasms like cyclobenzaprine will help with post-workout muscle soreness at all?
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 16:35:04 EST I6YS7H0F No.146515 Reply
10mg diazepam and 50mg tramadol this morning.
I’ll take 5mg diazepam in an hour or so.

>>146514
Yes, actually. Cyclobenzaprine can be rather sedating, so only a 5mg or 10mg dosage will have you set for around 6-8 hours. But, drink plenty of water and always stretch to help with soreness. I wouldn’t recommend taking a prescription muscle relaxer on the regular for muscle soreness due to working out.
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High Strung - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 16:37:31 EST QUUlk64z No.146516 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam

Gonna swing by a friend's house for dinner and then go home and get straight into bed, real talk
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Hannah Hurryfield - Sat, 13 Jul 2019 23:37:51 EST uUBAfplR No.146519 Reply
An RC vendor sent me WAY more flualprazolam powder than I ordered. I thought I was scammed but I tested a dose and it was legit.

Now the vendor is sending angry emails demanding I pay for the extra weight. The difference is much more than I am wiling to pay. Is this some type of scam? What's the worst that can happen if I ignore them?
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Ian Furrylock - Sun, 14 Jul 2019 04:37:30 EST DCQYbN7N No.146522 Reply
>>146519
Ignore that moron. I had exactly opposite situation, I payed too much but dude just sent me more molly, rounded it up to nice 50g. There are vendors who are serious about their business and care about relations with buyer and then there are cheap ass bastards like that one. Tell him to fuck off and look for another source.
Posts like yours really make want to buy some flualp but I just can't. Too many blackouts and stupid shit I've done while on it.

Bump on 2mg clonazepam and heroin. Beautiful morning.
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Fuck Sipperbon - Sun, 14 Jul 2019 13:44:46 EST bczjMUoS No.146525 Reply
4mg kpin
20mg valium
3 beers
8mg bupe
And about to roll up a blunt
Happy sunday!
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Betsy Pickway - Sun, 14 Jul 2019 22:20:32 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146530 Reply
>>146252
>4mg clonazepam under the tongue

Unfortunately I just ate, I hope it still calms me down. Might take more later.
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High Strung - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 02:34:03 EST QUUlk64z No.146531 Reply
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5mg Clonazepam
2 joints NYC Diesel
1 pot of tea

No work tomorrow so I'm staying up nice and late working on my Mandarin tones until the benz takes me to sleep. Wooooord up. Everyone else seems to be on the right cocktail of getting fucked up tonight, good to see.
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Chan - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 04:30:23 EST iaOxol77 No.146532 Reply
>>146531
Neat trick, if you didn't know. Pronounce 'c' by blowing through your bottom teeth. It won't sound right at first but it will make sense. Also looking up pictures of where people place there tongues for each tone and sound would be quite helpful.

If your jaw doesn't hurt after an hour of practicing Mandarin your doing it wrong (jk). It moves your jaw and tongue completely differently compared too English. If you don't mind me asking which province are you off too?

Also no /benz/. Can't think of a good combo yet so nb...for now.
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Frederick Shakeshit - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 04:52:31 EST QUUlk64z No.146533 Reply
>>146532 NB cuz no change in /benz/ dosage

But yes.... my textbook "Integrated Chinese" has a decent guy how to shape your mouth/tongue on certain syllables and tones. Very helpful

I'll be off to Beijing, so Standard Mandarin is exactly what I'm looking for. (I've been to Beijing, FANTASTIC city)
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Isabella Norringfidge - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 15:46:03 EST Et/bhmha No.146536 Reply
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>>146252
15 mg of zolpidem and 1 mg of clonazepam

a nice chill buzz for sure
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 19:44:31 EST I6YS7H0F No.146540 Reply
>>146252
My self-taper is going as planned. I’m down to 17.5mg diazepam/day already as today marks week 5 tapering down from 30mg diazepam per day.
>10mg this morning, 2.5mg this afternoon, and 5mg is planned for tonight.
I’ll do this for another week then I’ll stop the mid-day/afternoon dosage. I know the Ashton Manual advises breaking up the lowest dosage of the day (which, is the second of TID) by taking the dosage and dividing it into half, which is evenly added onto morning and night. But, I’m giving strong debate to adding my afternoon dosage to my night dosage or just stopping the afternoon dosage of 2.5mg altogether next week. Either way, I’ll be down to 15mg/day between two doses either next Monday or two weeks from today.
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High Strung - Mon, 15 Jul 2019 20:27:28 EST QUUlk64z No.146541 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of Orange Kush

Trying to wind down with bud n' benzos, podcasts, and a crossword puzzle. Hope everyone else is as relaxed as I am.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 16 Jul 2019 13:10:47 EST qw8emaV1 No.146555 Reply
>>146252
You already know: 10mg diazepam and 5mg cyclobenzaprine as soon as I woke up. My cat may have broken his leg last night, so my wife and I are trying to see what’s medically going on now.
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High Strung - Tue, 16 Jul 2019 18:41:28 EST QUUlk64z No.146558 Reply
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3mg Clonazepam
1 bowl of Sour Diesel

Working on my Chinese character radicals while nice and cozy.
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Benzofury !DmIYq/V7hg - Tue, 16 Jul 2019 22:02:24 EST JcTSiBNX No.146559 Reply
>>146252


Same dumb bullshit, 2mg kpin. Been pulling top 15's in global simulation racing games... specifically Rally ones. Shit's fun.

Oh and some super lemon haze. yeehaw
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Ernest Hevingwill - Wed, 17 Jul 2019 07:32:45 EST 5yRLQ0N9 No.146563 Reply
>>146252 unknown amount of etizo lam and some sour dizzle (not deisel)
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High Strung - Wed, 17 Jul 2019 12:33:19 EST QUUlk64z No.146564 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>1 bowl Sour Diesel
-tall iced coffee

Good way to start the day. Night shift tonight, yes, but it's only 3 hours cuz we're still working on getting our network back up. So yeah, it's gonna be a good afternoon.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 17 Jul 2019 20:03:43 EST 620q2vJg No.146567 Reply
12.5mg diazepam, 50mg tramadol, 15mg cyclobenzaprine, and 0.5mg alprazolam today.
5mg diazepam is scheduled for tonight before bed.

>>146566
I don’t know about HS, but I’ve never had to take a drug test for any job. Shit, my last internship was over the course of two semesters at a major local mental health outpatient facility.
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Charles Winningchid - Wed, 17 Jul 2019 22:44:55 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146569 Reply
>2mg clonazepam
>10mg dxm
>1 pill acepromazine, unknown mg

Let's see if I die tonight
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Hedda Clenderhood - Wed, 17 Jul 2019 23:23:25 EST sQE9jZdW No.146570 Reply
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just took 1mg clonazepam. wish i could take more. so sad today.
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Charles Winningchid - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 12:10:21 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146584 Reply
>>146252
>20mg diazepam
>2mg lorazepam

I feel like fucking shit today. Hoping this'll take the edge off..
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David Gangerspear - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 17:05:50 EST gfeF25A/ No.146586 Reply
Cant wait to get my gabapentin script and my clonazepam script this weekend. Going to have a good time 😁💊
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Frederick Napperwater - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 22:39:38 EST ywOcSlJ1 No.146588 Reply
>>146586
Is gabapentin remotely recreational or why do you want it? :S
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Hannah Hoblingnotch - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 23:00:02 EST gfeF25A/ No.146589 Reply
>>146588
You can get high from gabapentin. I do it often and it makes me feel great. Try it sometime.
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High Strung - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 23:03:38 EST QUUlk64z No.146590 Reply
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3mg Clonazepam and 1 bowl of green to salute to our fallen homies at KyoAni. Shit was sad, yo.

>>146566
I've never had to take a drug test, strangely enough. Also the New York State forbids drug tests except for certain jobs like construction and assembly factories or some shit. Also I've never been convicted of any drug possession (I was charged once, but the judge dismissed the case).
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Frederick Napperwater - Thu, 18 Jul 2019 23:23:11 EST ywOcSlJ1 No.146591 Reply
>>146589
holy shit. i think i have an entire bottle somewhere. ill research but how many mg? i have zero benzo tolerance right now. ive seized before tho
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Nigel Begglespear - Fri, 19 Jul 2019 21:56:12 EST gfeF25A/ No.146600 Reply
>>146591
So, how did the gabapentin do for you?

Took 30mg oxycodone and 1200mg gabapentin and I feel good!
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Phyllis Cheshfare - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 03:59:54 EST aGoxOYhA No.146603 Reply
>>146252
Back from a nice vacation for a week. Did a ton of coke and had crazy amounts of fun.

Bumping 8mg etiz from earlier. Was going to bed but decided to rail 80-100mg of methylphenidate and smoke weed. Time for another 4mg etiz/trazadone and maybe 50mg of dph if i can't sleep
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Ebenezer Genderridge - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 14:44:11 EST GR63YG1T No.146606 Reply
Took 2mg clonazepam after 2 months of not taking it. No tolerance now and I'm fucked up! This is turning out to be a good weekend 💊💊😛😊
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High Strung - Sat, 20 Jul 2019 17:24:16 EST QUUlk64z No.146607 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>2 fat ones of OG Kush

Heat index is 103F here in Brooklyn right now. I feel like I'm in Dog Day Afternoon or Do the Right Thing lol ATTICA ATTICA
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Basil Snodhood - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 00:15:38 EST gfeF25A/ No.146609 Reply
  • 1.5mg clonazepam
  • 10mg methadone
  • 1500mg gabapentin
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Basil Snodhood - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 09:14:16 EST gfeF25A/ No.146610 Reply
Just got done working out and just took 1.5mg clonazepam.
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Phyllis Pittstone - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 20:32:36 EST gfeF25A/ No.146611 Reply
Took 1800mg gabapentin and about to take 1mg clonazepam.

How well do benzos mix with gabapentin?
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Phyllis Pittstone - Sun, 21 Jul 2019 21:52:51 EST gfeF25A/ No.146612 Reply
So the gabapentin has kicked in along with the 1mg clonazepam I took. Feeling great!!

Bump!
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Matilda Blackdock - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 12:54:57 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146614 Reply
>40mg diazepam
>6mg clonazepam


The anxiety is strong today. Hopefully my buddy comes through with some bars I bought.
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Charles Bleshwatch - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 15:11:28 EST tmwbn/yJ No.146615 Reply
Took 1mg clonazepam. Will take more later tonight after I'm done with the gym.
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High Strung - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 15:46:53 EST QUUlk64z No.146616 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>1 fatty of OG straight to the face

Feels idgaf man

Weed and benzos are the only thing giving me, ironically, any motivation to go to work today. It's only a 3-hour shift, yeah, but it's the 1-hour trek all the way from east Brooklyn to midtown Manhattan. Also need to take the edge off the
the shady shit I'm suspecting my landlord is up to.
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Wesley Dridgehone - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 21:14:17 EST gfeF25A/ No.146618 Reply
Took 3mg clonazepam and hard 2 energy drinks. Flying high people!!
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High Strung - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 23:09:35 EST QUUlk64z No.146620 Reply
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>>146619 I bet you are, brother!

2mg Clonazepam
1mg Alprazolam
2 bowls of OG Kush

Now doing a crossword puzzle in my underwear and listening to Scottish Gregorian chant while smoking that second bowl.... Talk about laid-back, eh? Here have some Kill La Kill
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Edward Wovingshaw - Mon, 22 Jul 2019 23:16:05 EST e/gghaDS No.146621 Reply
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>0.5mg clonazepam
>600mg gabapentin staggered
>240mg DXM Hbr
>50mg DPH
>over half a fifth of vodka

Arguably this post could belong in /hooch/ and /dis/ too, but I just like hanging around you /benz/ guys. I'm simultaneously raping the fuck out of both my GABA-a and NMDA receptors, but who gives a flying fuck? The disinhibition is worth it, even if the relief is just temporary
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Sophie Nicklewill - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 10:32:38 EST wtYglXZ0 No.146623 Reply
>>146252, fark.
100mg Temazepam, 6mg Clonaz
Wish I had some trammys
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Cedric Blythelock - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 21:21:35 EST gfeF25A/ No.146631 Reply
Took 2mg clonazepam after I got done working out. Ahhh feels good 😏💊💊
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Eliza Naffingshit - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 22:23:49 EST EUPBETzR No.146632 Reply
Is it possible that Clonazepam can be laced? One of my coworkers just randomly gave me one wrapped in a piece of paper because we talked about not getting sleep and shit. He's an alright guy overall but he's known to be on heroin as well. Im tempted to take it but im a little skeptical about it.
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dr. m - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 22:29:20 EST ehbFaOGo No.146633 Reply
>>146632

It's possible in theory but extremely, extremely unlikely to the point it's not even considerable. The only benzo that's remotely commonly pressed/faked are Xanax and only the 2mg bars.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 22:43:20 EST 7L1yxvG5 No.146634 Reply
This week’s taper: 10mg diazepam in the morning and 5mg diazepam at night.

My wife and I went to a wine bar/pizza joint for dinner. Good shit! Two glasses of wine, a beer, and now a 10mg cyclobenzaprine. Likely, I’ll have another beer and maybe 50mg tramadol later.
This week I’m meeting with a new pain management doctor. I am deeply hoping to get a proper opioid and get the fuck off of tramadol. Yes, I know tramadol can be used for recreation when staggered. But, the drug is barely better than NSAIDs for actual pain in prescribed dosages.

>>146632
I second what Mario said. Alprazolam (Xanax) is the undisputed most commonly pressed/faked benzo. While someone could create a counterfeit clonazepam pill, which is typically the name brand Roche tablets, most individuals are never going to come across counterfeit pressed generic clonazepam. Too, unless buying in non-Rx amounts there is a low likelihood of ever finding fake brand name Klonopin (clonazepam) pills in the streets.

>clonazepam isn’t in as high of demand, so it will have less fake pills going around than alprazolam
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Cedric Blythelock - Tue, 23 Jul 2019 23:06:18 EST gfeF25A/ No.146635 Reply
Took 3mg clonazepam and 1800mg gabapentin. Good night :)
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Reuben Pushford - Wed, 24 Jul 2019 21:45:19 EST gfeF25A/ No.146640 Reply
>>146639
2100mg gabapentin now. Starting to feel it. Going to have a fun time 😁😁💊💊
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Beatrice Hacklecocke - Thu, 25 Jul 2019 03:28:55 EST l8nPF/nR No.146641 Reply
I'm in love with BDO and Lyrica, but the withdrawals from BDO are terrifying and my doctor is being stingy with the dose. I said 300, he said 150, then prescribed 100. I only get like 4 good highs out of this shit. And then I have to wait 30 days! And then I can't decide whether to get high on Lyrica or use it to deal with the BDO withdrawals. This sucks, I don't wanna die of a seizure but all the drugs I love the most I can't get.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 25 Jul 2019 23:01:18 EST Bi1PPIp4 No.146650 Reply
>>146252
Diazepam: 10mg this morning and 5mg later tonight.
Tonight: 2mg alprazolam and 250mg tramadol over the span of two hours. Plus, I have had a couple beers and two glasses of scotch.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 25 Jul 2019 23:45:52 EST Bi1PPIp4 No.146654 Reply
>>146650
Add an another 0.25mg alprazolam (2 doses) and 5mg diazepam for today’s late night. Unpacking boxes blows dick. So, it is time for another beer and glass of Scotch.
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Esther Hottingshit - Fri, 26 Jul 2019 09:22:16 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146657 Reply
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>>146252
>1500 gabapentin and and 10 mg diazepam last night
>2mg clonazepam today

Had an episode and almost offed myself last night, and now my blood pressure is 164/120 so I just feel like shit. Yay. Seeing doc today at least. Hopefully he'll take me off this hell of an anti depressant. They never work. I miss my adderall. That was the only thing that works, so far.
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Jenny Brucklelork - Sat, 27 Jul 2019 11:45:33 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146683 Reply
No bumps in almost 2 days? Dan

>2mg alprazolam

Bar didn't really have a taste I dont think, hopefully it at least has some kind of benzo and isn't just fucking baking powder or something
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ogtucker - Sat, 27 Jul 2019 22:46:32 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146690 Reply
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8mg syblingual klonopin after going low on my rx benzos past few days, along with 4mg nasal bupe and 2400mg gabapentin'
bbwb
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 28 Jul 2019 22:44:07 EST qkzTPNFj No.146696 Reply
>>146252
10mg diazepam this morning and 5mg diazepam later tonight. I’m about to take a 10mg cyclobenzaprine and 50mg tramadol. My back hurts like piss.

Tomorrow I’ll drop down to 7.5mg diazepam in the morning and continue 5mg diazepam at night.
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Henry Sittingput - Sun, 28 Jul 2019 23:08:38 EST gfeF25A/ No.146698 Reply
20mg methadone
2400mg gabapentin
50mg CBD

Feeling great!
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Jack Goodson - Mon, 29 Jul 2019 07:49:54 EST zhGg9WjS No.146699 Reply
>>146252
nnnnewtag here barely conscious
i got 0,5mg xan took a whole tablet and few more
20mg diazeoam
then woke up took few more zans
please don't doxx and call 911. They're notorious for abuse and trauma and all that christ stallion conversion shit iin this shithole. i came out of there with a trauma.
i just want to sleep and not feel a single thing they're money hungry sadistic jews

extremities cold, overall im shivering, im nauseous
trouble walking
Feeling apathetic numb but so pained it burns it's excruciating

sorry if posting wrong place, im so out of it

what stuff should I take to just sleep and feel nothing

no hard street drugs, don't have them

im not scared of dying, im scared of being strapped up
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Clara Crabbertine - Tue, 30 Jul 2019 04:32:39 EST 86bjiiz4 No.146714 Reply
>2mg bar
>900mg gabapentin

I swear these bars are pressed because this one hit me like a tank. Went to sleep and still feeling it. I ain't complaining though
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 30 Jul 2019 14:05:45 EST qkzTPNFj No.146717 Reply
Another week of tapering off of diazepam.
7.5mg diazepam this morning and 5mg diazepam planned this evening.

>>146699
Drugs, at least benzodiazepines, are not a long-term solution for plethora of mental health ailments. Please, seek therapy and try to better yourself. Most people do not deserve to feel persistent psychological pain.
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ogtucker - Tue, 30 Jul 2019 21:52:41 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146719 Reply
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12mg klonopin(6x2)
2 beers
2400 mg gabapentindasin spaced out 400 every 15-20gggminutes
bout to go smoke a few cigaretes
oh and 4mg bupe
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Brain - Wed, 31 Jul 2019 00:11:31 EST hRCZYPsx No.146720 Reply
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4mg etiz/2mg clonazepam/30mg codeine
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 01 Aug 2019 00:57:01 EST qkzTPNFj No.146727 Reply
>>146252
Daily taper of diazepam (7.5mg morning and 5mg night) plus 100mg tramadol, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 1mg alprazolam, and booze.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 02 Aug 2019 23:44:06 EST qkzTPNFj No.146738 Reply
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>>146252
Standard taper: 7.5mg diazepam in the morning and 5mg at night
On top: 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg tramadol, and an old fashioned with sushi
I’m about to crack open a beer and am considering taking 0.5mg alprazolam and another 50mg tramadol.
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Jenny Cobblechedging - Sat, 03 Aug 2019 10:50:49 EST 5yRLQ0N9 No.146741 Reply
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>>146252
2.5mg clonqzepam 70mg baclofen 150mg codiene 100mg doxylamine (just a guess on the last 2 i did a cwe on 24 mersyndol)
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guardian_angel !LhwrleQFRU!!fAsQkk7h - Sat, 03 Aug 2019 16:41:25 EST myttqd/6 No.146742 Reply
1mg alpra before lunch, been a pretty hectic day so I'm winding down rn with another 1mg alpra and some hashish.
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Rebecca Drammleshit - Mon, 05 Aug 2019 10:23:50 EST +uU6dIV/ No.146750 Reply
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7mg of clonazepam from the homie, and indica + sativa out the bong to add onto the effects. Late Registration and might bump a little K before running my errands for the day.
fucking tolerance is embarrassing, and I genuinely haven't had problems with abusing benzos in a long time. It was always the only drug I ever had a problem with, and for 6~ months while dealing with panic attacks for the first time in my life. It would now probably take me 12-15mg of clonazepam to be really Feeling It Mr Krabs™. This was all off scripts, too, so let this be a lesson in avoiding abuse even if simply for your tolerance + money.
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dr. m - Mon, 05 Aug 2019 23:54:05 EST jdd9Y02i No.146758 Reply
>>146252

>1.25mg alprazolam
>15mg cyclobenzaprine
>one screwdriver and one vodka cranberry
>3mg subutex snorted and like 2/5ths of a benzedrex inhaler like 12hr ago

Bump for comfy melt me away dreams pls.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 06 Aug 2019 11:34:45 EST qkzTPNFj No.146759 Reply
>>146252
Taper update: 5mg diazepam in the morning and 5mg diazepam at night this week. Without a doubt, this dosage drop is the second most difficult of the tapering process for me. Getting down from 3x/day to 2x/day was the hardest decrease by far. Now, slowly reducing my morning dosage has proved to be a bit more challenging than anticipated but is still manageable.

>Yesterday
10mg diazepam split into a morning and night dosage, 100mg tramadol, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 0.5mg alprazolam, and 50mg DPH. Too, i started up PT yesterday with plans to attend 2x/week. PT, as costly and time consuming as it is, has always been helpful.

>Today
5mg diazepam this morning and PT exercises.
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Chan - Tue, 06 Aug 2019 17:55:46 EST ejPfWOTR No.146764 Reply
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>>146759
Best wishes with the taper. Currently doing a taper of 20mg Diazepam (2x10mg). Doing the ultra-slow and steady Ashton manual. 1mg every 2 weeks. Then hopefully clean. Can't wait to get off them even if it's going to be difficult. Dao De Jing (Tao Te Ching) by Lao Zi is very helpful.

>15mg Diazepam
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dr. m - Tue, 06 Aug 2019 21:20:37 EST jdd9Y02i No.146765 Reply
>>146252

>0.75mg pharma Xanax
>15mg cyclobenzaprine
>three beers
>200mg gabapentin
>crashing off ~100mg benzedrex+ 20mg oral adderall IR
>dosing some sublingual subutex soon

Wish I had more Xanax but I didn't bring much on vacation. When I get home I can try mixing Xanax and valium together. Thankfully I can't take Xanax for ~3 out of every 10 weeks, and Valium for ~6ish out of every 10 weeks due to regular drug tests that I can't use fake urine on. It really forces me to not become dependent.
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Oliver Farryfuck - Wed, 07 Aug 2019 00:50:45 EST mWMNXMDl No.146766 Reply
>>146252
Just got me 90 clonazKpins, and add'l 90 alpaccaLam today. Had my prescribed opis and other miscellaneous epilepsy meds. Sipping the GFJ and a shot of scotch for elevation of effect. Was out of meds last 3 days so BWB
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 07 Aug 2019 14:28:54 EST qkzTPNFj No.146770 Reply
5mg diazepam and 10mg cyclobenzaprine

>>146764
Thank you, Chan. Best of luck with your taper as well!
The 1mg decrease every week to every other week, as per the Ashton Manual, typically has a lot of success and offers the greatest ease into tapering.

Personally, I’ve been on a personally modified rapid taper since the middle of June. I was at 30mg diazepam per day (10mg 3x/day). And, I started decreasing by 2.5mg per week with flexibility in allowing a dosage reduction to last two weeks (a nod to the Ashton Manual) as it is better to plateau for a short period rather than increase the dosage. Plus, without wanting to fuck with titration the smallest I can split 10mg diazepam tablets is into quarters, which is close enough to 10% of the original dosage reduction for me.

However, I have run into a bit of a dilemma. I don’t plan on stopping benzos completely. Rather, I want to safely discontinue daily usage, which started around last September to October. After tapering I would like to get back to PRN diazepam usage as I never had problems in the last 7 years being prescribed benzos if I only used them 2-3x/week. Maybe getting back on clonazepam could help since there aren’t active metabolites that last days on end.
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dr. m - Wed, 07 Aug 2019 20:08:24 EST jdd9Y02i No.146773 Reply
>>146765

>1.75mg pharma Xanax
>15mg cyclobenzaprine
>100ug clonidine
>300mg gabapentin
>8mg plugged subutex earlier today cuz I'm on vacation
>20mg adderall and ~50mg benzedrex this morning
>4-5 servings of alcohol over the last 2-3 hours

Feels good but wish it felt better man. I might hit up a local bar within walking distance tonight. A few days ago I tripped on 165ug of DNM LSD while my half cousin (one if my parents cousins but around my age) took only 110ug. She had an good time and so did I...really helped us bond better. Surprisingly a bunch of repressed shit didn't come to the surface, so I guess I'm processing and getting over some of what's been dragging me down and holding me back for several years?

Also cheers to only dosing Prozac once a week as directed on-label. It only weakened my LSD trip by maybe 10% max.
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Chan - Wed, 07 Aug 2019 20:59:02 EST ejPfWOTR No.146774 Reply
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>>146770
>15mg Diazepam earlier
>20mg Methylphenidate earlier

>20mg Methylphenidate

Concerta has caused so many problems basically doesn't even feel like Methylphenidate. So running some of my own tests to see if I can find solutions to its problems (20mgx3 today then compare with normal dosage regime tomorrow of concerta). All is going good so far. Pretty much narrowed it down to being Concerta and not the 101 other things.

Speaking to your last paragraph completely agree. I am hoping to completely stop daily usage. PRN is fine. Pretty much agree with the change in -azepam's. I'm probably going to look at small PRN of Lorazepam similar to your PRN plans.

Best wish's to all
May your problems melt
Best time to see it all
May all your love be felt
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High Strung - Thu, 08 Aug 2019 13:15:13 EST QUUlk64z No.146780 Reply
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kicks in door

Yes, reports of my death are greatly exaggerated. But, yea verily, it is Refill Day. Sorry about not being around folks, I went wayyyy too hog wild on my last refill and July was a pretty awful month for me.

But now I have 3mg Clonazepam in me, I'm helping my publisher take orders for shipping of my book (it's already in 3 bookstores: one in Paris, one in London, and one in Pittsburgh), and I'm working on Dragon Con plans with my friends.... So I can at least say things are chillaxified for now!
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High Strung - Thu, 08 Aug 2019 13:18:19 EST QUUlk64z No.146781 Reply
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>>146764
Good luck Chan! Also yes, keep to the Dao De Jing: hands-down my favorite sacred text other than the Quran. It's one of the most comforting and helpful works that has grounded me in many dark times in my life.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 08 Aug 2019 20:30:09 EST qkzTPNFj No.146782 Reply
5mg diazepam (this morning), 20mg cyclobenzaprine (10mg this morning and 10mg now), 50mg Nucynta (tapentadol hcl), and 0.75mg alprazolam (0.5mg this afternoon and 0.25mg now).

>Nucynta
Anyone ever try this opioid? The little research I have done indicates the drug is stronger than tramadol and has much less of an effect on serotonin, but was also created by the Ultram (tramadol) manufacturer. Multiple physicians and both pharmacists I spoke with talked to me about not combining the drug with tramadol hcl, which I still have a script of, and being careful with the drug and benzos. Literally, three fucking health professionals explained the increased chance of death via respiratory failure.
The drug has only been on the market since around 2008, so my pain doc fucked me. No generics exist yet as the patent is still active. Shit was $85 for 20 x 50mg tablets.

>>146774
I do not think having a PRN benzo is inherently a problem, but it can decrease one's progress in therapy. As we all know, "as needed" can quickly become frequent or even daily usage. Are you self-tapering or tapering with medical assistance?

Currently, I still have a PRN 0.5mg alprazolam script on top of 10mg diazepam (TID). In the future I would not mind only having one benzo as needed, but I also would not be upset to still have a diazepam and alprazolam script with lower quantities.

>>146780
Holy shit! I did not realize your book was being sold yet. Right fucking on, HS! The last I remember had been your mentioning publication happening, which is amazing in itself. Keep up the good work, my dude.
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Martin Puffingtutch - Thu, 08 Aug 2019 21:20:18 EST s4Q1l+Ky No.146783 Reply
>>146782
>nucynta
It's a love it or hate it drug. You have to plug it for it to be any good. If you boof 200mg you'll get pretty high with a low tolerance, but it's trash if you have a huge opiate tolerance. I was getting the indian generic 100mg ones for only 30c a pill, I wouldn't even have filled that script for 85 fucking dollars. That's more than I was even selling those things for. It is way better than tram imo, but it's only good rectally with a low tolerance. It's got some seratonin feel for sure sure and is almost a little bit trippy in higher doses.

>bump on 10mg valium, 3 grams gabapentin
Not enough to be actually high, but this fucktarded bitch doctor I saw cause my regular one was booked gave me 2mg diazepams! What kinda bullshit script is that? I'm gonna have to sort that out cause my life is so fucking bad right now I need something to cope with the panic attacks when I can't afford alcohol or opiates.
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High Strung - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 00:04:15 EST QUUlk64z No.146785 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam
>2 joints of Orange Kush
Pretty fucked up right now

Winding down with a jigsaw puzzle and some Medieval English choral music.
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Chan - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 06:08:24 EST SwhkyqKd No.146786 Reply
>>146781
Thank you High Strung. I do remember a fair while back you mentioned something to do with publication. Didn't realize it was a book, I thought it was a journal piece. Congratulations!

>>146782
"self-tapering" I'm doing the taper and just get given the meds. Thankfully I have pretty strong willpower bestowed upon me. I'm hoping not to need any after the taper. I think whatever works for the individual, works for the individual. You sound like you have solid plan in place. Best wishes again.

nb
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High Strung - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 10:19:43 EST QUUlk64z No.146787 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>1 bowl of dat Orange Kush
>3 cups of coffee

>>146786
Thank you so much, chan! I really wish I could post the link of the website where you can order my book, but alas, not necessarily good to put up my name and face on a drug-themed image board. I was just given notice this morning that Housman's Books in London, Le Point du Jour Books in Paris, and The Big Idea Bookstore in Pittsburgh will be carrying my book within the next few months. Someone in Warsaw, Poland has already ordered a dozen copies. I'm amazed at how quickly it's blown up in a matter of weeks. Life ain't perfect, but at least I have THAT and benzodiazepines.
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Brain - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 13:29:02 EST iZnLXzc0 No.146788 Reply
>>146252
>.5 clonazepam/4mg etiz

Sucks I got caught up on the etiz again these last couple months. After kicking flualp I was doing good until the end of May. Now I gotta taper down off the etiz and deal with the hellish rebound anxiety and w/d symptoms.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 18:58:38 EST qkzTPNFj No.146802 Reply
I had two epidural steroid shots earlier this afternoon. God damn, hopefully it helps.
5mg diazepam earlier, 50mg tramadol + 10mg cyclobenzaprine 3 hours ago, and 50mg tapentadol + 25mg DPH now.

>>146788
Shit, Brain. Etizolam withdrawal is no joke. When you do decide to taper, maybe try diclazepam again.

>>146786
Best of luck, Chan. You seem to know exactly what to do for your taper.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 19:21:08 EST qkzTPNFj No.146803 Reply
>>146802
Add on 10mg diazepam. Yeah, I know I’ve tapered down to 10mg total each day, but I do not care about sticking with my taper today.
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High Strung - Fri, 09 Aug 2019 23:06:54 EST QUUlk64z No.146805 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam

Time for that bedtime dose of comfy. Sleep well, fam.
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Lydia Govingford - Sat, 10 Aug 2019 13:02:45 EST 86LjTa31 No.146806 Reply
>>146252
Last night
>ketamine nasal spray 20mg
>10mg diazepam
>5mg adderall
>a blunt

Was a fun night. Reconnected with good friends because things were left on bad terms, but everything's good now.
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High Strung - Sat, 10 Aug 2019 19:18:54 EST 2wI4+0Hf No.146807 Reply
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Took an Adderall today that a friend gifted to me so I could work on some writing and Mandarin practice. Then came the comedown....

>3mg Clonazepam
to take the edge off and bring about some righteous benzo munchies for tonight's Eid al-Adha Eve potluck. Productive day turning into a chill and joyous evening!

Pic slightly related: it's a pic of Soviet Muslims doing salah on Eid in Moscow, 1952.
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High Strung - Sat, 10 Aug 2019 23:18:50 EST QUUlk64z No.146808 Reply
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Okay, last bump of the night.... just had to show you what I came home to discover.... I come home to find a tiny food bowl, a tiny water bowl, and a big bag of kitty litter right outside my roommate's bedroom door.

I walk into my bedroom, pop my 2mg Clonazepam.....

....and am greeted by this little critter, kneading her paws into my folded laundry on my bed, and running at breakneck speed all around my room. She's a frisky little thing!
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High Strung - Sun, 11 Aug 2019 17:47:11 EST QUUlk64z No.146818 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam after a 4-hour nap after a great Eid al-Adha celebration in Washington Square Park. Now time to binge watch Derry Girls in my pajamas while fuggin' benzed.
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Edward Dartbury - Sun, 11 Aug 2019 18:45:29 EST 7eVUah6R No.146819 Reply
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>>146252
2.5mg Alprazolam about 2 hours ago.

I kind of want to redose or pop some hydromorphone and kick my pity party up a notch.
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Wesley Pickhall - Sun, 11 Aug 2019 21:24:19 EST 7eVUah6R No.146821 Reply
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>>146819

Added another mg of alprazolam, popped 4 mg of hydromorphone, been drinking.
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Reuben Susslestidge - Mon, 12 Aug 2019 20:27:32 EST gfeF25A/ No.146829 Reply
Get my gabapentin filled on Thursday and my kpins this weekend. Cant wait to get fucked up at the end of the week.

Nb
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High Strung - Mon, 12 Aug 2019 22:40:09 EST QUUlk64z No.146830 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam

Just another quiet evening of podcasts and crossword puzzles in bed. Comfy af
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Martin Dartdale - Tue, 13 Aug 2019 21:25:16 EST oAR/090J No.146853 Reply
  • 30mg hydrocodone
  • 2mg clonazepam
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High Strung - Tue, 13 Aug 2019 22:10:52 EST QUUlk64z No.146854 Reply
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>2.5mg Clonazepam

Had a shitty day. Nothing bad happened per se it's just some things that have been hanging over my head really finally hit me mentally. Thankfully benzos will allow me to at least sleep on the matter.
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High Strung - Wed, 14 Aug 2019 17:28:12 EST QUUlk64z No.146857 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
>1mg Alprazolam
>2 bowls of Orange Kush

Now I'm watching a crime documentary on Netflix ("Abducted in Plain Sight") while listening to the rain on my windows, eating pizza, and drinking some homemade lemonade that I whipped up yesterday. Perfect way to end a hectic, exhausting, stressful day....
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Basil Wedgewell - Wed, 14 Aug 2019 22:29:41 EST gfeF25A/ No.146858 Reply
Scoring some kpins from my dude tomorrow. Cant wait to get my hands on that shit and I'm getting my gabapentin tomorrow too. Going to be a good day :)

Nb
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Oliver Middleson - Wed, 14 Aug 2019 23:47:19 EST 7eVUah6R No.146859 Reply
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2.5mg alprazolam and Scotch on the rocks.

We're all gonna make it. I think.
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ogtucker - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 12:59:21 EST CQ8cFDHL No.146866 Reply
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holy fuck i have no idea what happened last night, all i know is gtom 4pm-3am I did ashitloadd of IR adderal pills, ate 8-10mg klonopin, then around 1, i shot a 10mg ambien, i have that noted on my pc at 1:10, then at 1:50 i shot another 10mg of ambien
went to bed around like 4 according to evertyhing i can find
i have a bag from 7/11 at 230am which means i went there on 90-120mg of IR adderall,10mg kpins, and 20mg iv ambien
holy fuck
i get 2 of these bitches a day along with 10mg ambiens at night, 30mg ir 2x, 10mg 1x. brand new script as of yesrerday. alot better than just a 70mg vyvanse rofl
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Clara Tootfuck - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 20:29:34 EST gfeF25A/ No.146868 Reply
  • 2mg clonazepam
  • 900mg gabapentin
  • 10mg methadone

Feeling great tonight!
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Isabella Publinglock - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 21:53:31 EST pdzPidCr No.146871 Reply
>>146869

Lol, you went from great to good from taking more - what happened?

Also what is recreational gabapentin like? Some of the patients I care for are prescribed the medication and seem to like it, been curious for a while but also avoid pain medication in general so won't be trying it.
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Clara Tootfuck - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 23:02:27 EST gfeF25A/ No.146872 Reply
>>146871

Lol I shouldve said that I feel fucking fantastic!

Gabapentin being taken recreationally gives you a nice body high. As far as mentally goes it gives me that IDGAF attitude. Like nothing matters no matter what people say if theyre being assholes for whatever reaaon. It generally makes you gove no fucks.

Mixing gabapentin with benzos makes things even better. It clears your mind and puts you in a good mood. Like nothing matters. All your stress and worries goes away. It's a great feeling.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 03:45:03 EST Q12VQ11N No.146875 Reply
Cross post from /opi/:
Well, I took an opioid for the first time in 48 hours tonight.
Daily total: 7.5mg diazepam (5mg morning and 2.5mg at night — taper), 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and 50mg tapentadol IR. As well, I had a single beer, 2 oz. Scotch, and a double shot of vodka with an aloe drink.
My back is feeling somewhat better after the two steroid shots last Friday, but I am still in major pain. PT, both during session and the at home exercises, have minor pain relief.

>Goal
Attempt to receive stronger muscle relaxer (dosage or drug, which would be Soma AFAIK), receive a better PK than tapentadol hcl, or manage pain better without opioids.

>>146872
Gabapentin and pregabalin have a great deal of synergy with benzos.
Watch out for blackouts!
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High Strung - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 16:39:12 EST QUUlk64z No.146876 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of Sour Diesel
-A strong cup o' joe

Gonna spend the rest of the night smoking weed, binge-watching Mindhunter season 2 on Netflix, and will probably re-up on the Clonazepam later, so will bump later. Hope everyone has a good Friday afternoon/evening everyone!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 17:10:38 EST qkzTPNFj No.146877 Reply
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>>146252
Despite courses not starting until August 26th and meetings not beginning until August 19th, my advisor asked me to edit a 45-page chapter for an upcoming publication. I have zero clue how the author, who is not my research advisor, wrote up such a large passage and cannot competently write a paper in APA format. What the fuck is this shit, folks? Amateur hour, but I am trying to put in my dues ASAP to leave a decent impression on faculty.

Throughout the day: 5mg diazepam (standard morning taper dosage), 1mg alprazolam, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg tapentadol hcl, a 5% beer, and 3.75g red vein kratom. I'll see how I feel in about 3 hours and take another 50mg tapentadol accordingly.
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Polly Seppercocke - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 17:37:06 EST 86LjTa31 No.146878 Reply
>>146877

Are you trying to kick benzos for good, Katz? Just curious, and why, if you dont mind me asking.

nb
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High Strung - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 20:11:48 EST QUUlk64z No.146880 Reply
Re-upping >>146876
Adding:
>1.5mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of Diesel

Now eating a burger and continuing my binge of Mindhunter

>>146877
Dude, what the fuck, Katz, that's some bullshit. They work us academics like mules these days, I tell you. So glad I'm leaving academia.

Also good luck with the taper there. Don't abandon us too quickly though ;)
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Brain - Fri, 16 Aug 2019 23:01:07 EST qM27bOms No.146882 Reply
>>146252
>5.5mg mg of clonazepam /30 mg codeine earlier this morning

Not benz related but

Just dropped my last 125ug of ald52/ 60ug of 1plsd if the tad was laid equally (doubtful)
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Yo - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 13:47:22 EST fs5aF+hM No.146886 Reply
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>>146252
Unfortunately I have no benzos and I really miss them but here's a bump on 900 mg of Gabapentin. It does have some gabaergic activity. I took 300mg every 70 minutes or so. I do enjoy it especially I was feeling like shit before I went and bought these. I wonder if they would help me with a job interview that I feel unusually anxious about. It's kind of a shot in the dark.
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High Strung - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 15:20:12 EST QUUlk64z No.146889 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>2 fat jays of xxxxx
-1 Red Bull

Weed man dropped off a quarter of kind after a long day of errands and quick run to the office. Now I'm listening to Nine Inch Nails and Volbeat records on my HD650's and letting the THC + benzo mix kick in. <3 <3 <3
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Nicholas Sussleson - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 17:27:10 EST gfeF25A/ No.146891 Reply
Waiting for my kpins to get here from my dude. Tomorrow I get my kpin script filled. Oh buddy I cant wait!

Nb yet
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 14:21:38 EST qkzTPNFj No.146902 Reply
5mg diazepam this morning with 2.5mg scheduled for tonight. Tomorrow I plan to drop down to 2.5mg in the morning and continue 2.5mg at night. I will give myself some grace and consider staying at 5mg in the morning plus 2.5mg at night for another week, but this will only increase the time tapering. Either way, there is no sense in rushing the taper.

>>146880
Mindhunter is bomb. My wife and I binge watched the first season in maybe three sessions in early 2018.

>leaving academia
Whoa! Leaving or completing your doctorate? I know you mentioned teaching in East Asia a little bit back.
Man, I’m just starting up doctoral studies but I have a strong feeling I will enjoy my program.

>good luck with the taper
Massive thank you. I started using diazepam daily around September 2018. The taper is self-induced and a hybrid of the Ashton Manual and the 10% rapid reduction per week taper schedules.
My taper started in mid June after my honeymoon. I should be done with the taper in the next three weeks.
I just want to get back to more infrequent usage around 2-3x/week, which I had no issue with for over 6 years. Long-term, I wouldn’t mind have two different benzos for PRN use,
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Lydia Foddleforth - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 14:47:02 EST gfeF25A/ No.146903 Reply
>>146891
Got my script!

Just took 2mg clonazepam and I feel good.
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David Bonderbut - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 18:09:56 EST QUUlk64z No.146904 Reply
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>2.5mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of OG
-nachos with coco water

>>146902 I'm quitting academia altogether. It's fallen apart, man. But I have the resources and a job offer in Beijing. Just read this article: https://www.chronicle.com/interactives/2019-03-27-childress

Even my advisor is quitting academia to go work for a Czech cultural consulting firm after this upcoming semester. Soooo.... overseas I go. At least I got 1 book and 1 journal article under my belt before I hung up the towel.
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Phineas Gammersure - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 21:07:55 EST gfeF25A/ No.146906 Reply
Took 3.5mg clonazepam and drinking a monster energy drink.

Feeling good tonight!
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Phineas Gammersure - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 01:47:26 EST gfeF25A/ No.146907 Reply
Took 1500mg gabapentin

Will take some clonazepam later after the gaba kicks in.
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Phineas Gammersure - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 16:47:55 EST gfeF25A/ No.146910 Reply
Took 1.5mg clonazepam

Should be feeling it soon
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Brain - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 22:08:32 EST qM27bOms No.146911 Reply
>>146252
4 days clean of etiz and I just broke it with a good total of 12mg over the day today.
Will probably pile on more later. Depressing ass night
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High Strung - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 22:35:01 EST QUUlk64z No.146912 Reply
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>1.5mg Clonazepam
>1 fat cone of kush

Not much on the benzo front tonight but sufficient enough. Gonna smoke some more weed in 45 or so. Currently watching the new season of The Terror and I am LOVING it!
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Ernest Dizzleman - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 01:17:45 EST gfeF25A/ No.146913 Reply
2.5mg clonazepam
10mg methadone

Been a hard day.
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William Clungerbanks - Wed, 21 Aug 2019 00:51:56 EST gfeF25A/ No.146916 Reply
2mg clonazepam
50mg promethazine
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High Strung - Wed, 21 Aug 2019 15:25:26 EST /NXX0bfT No.146918 Reply
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2.5 Clonazepam
half a bowl of kush

It's been a rough day for me. It really has been

Woke up, fell down a short flight of stairs and fucked up my calf, so I'm hobbling around.
Had to write 2 stressful, super-serious emails concerning my leaving academia.
Considering calling out of work cuz commuting on the subway with a fucked-up leg doesn't sound fun.


I needed a quick minty pick-me-up.....
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Brain - Wed, 21 Aug 2019 19:25:58 EST qM27bOms No.146919 Reply
>>146252
Had a shitty day as the resf of the folks here tonight.

>16mg etiz
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 21 Aug 2019 19:42:13 EST Q12VQ11N No.146920 Reply
This morning: 15mg diazepam and 50mg tapentadol hcl
Two hours ago: 0.5mg alprazolam and 10mg cyclobenzaprine after a 7.5 hour day of orientation to doctoral studies in counseling psychology
Now: 10mg diazepam, a beer, and editing a chapter for my advisor

>Taper
I am saying fuck my taper today!

>>146904
Bruh, god damn. You're not kidding. I had my doctoral orientation for counseling psychology today. The department chair had a discussion with us regarding APA accreditation, and I guess NYU and Columbia University had decades long issues due to low graduation and less than involved faculty.
The article you posted, while rather stark and indicative of the pitfalls of education, was rather depressing to read before starting up the semester and a new program!

A book and journal article are more than a solid run. Hopefully your next life path will be more fulfilling.

>>146919
>>146918
Takes benzos in the spirit of fellow posters' less than ideal day
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 21 Aug 2019 23:50:34 EST Q12VQ11N No.146921 Reply
>>146920
Add on 10mg diazepam, 50mg tapentadol hcl, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 0.5mg alprazolam, and some booze

>Today's total: 35mg diazepam, 1mg alprazolam, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and 100mg tapentadol hcl
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High Strung - Thu, 22 Aug 2019 13:50:16 EST /NXX0bfT No.146924 Reply
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Starting the afternoon with 2mg Clonazepam.

Life is still kinda sucky today. My leg is much better but I'm trying to be gentle with it. I woke up at 11:30am today because I could barely sleep from the pain and the fact that it was so hot in the house last night. A friend who is supposed to be staying with me for DragonCon is being avoidant when we need to be tying up the final loose ends one week before the con. Etc....


Another day, another benzo to numb the stress. Wish I had some weed, maybe I can trade a $5 bill for a bowl or two from my roomie tonight....
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High Strung - Thu, 22 Aug 2019 15:43:34 EST /NXX0bfT No.146925 Reply
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>>146924
Rebumping for 1mg extra of Clonazepam. I just found out ANOTHER fucking friend died on me. That's 3 since April.

R.I.P. John, you were a legend and you had a long, wonderful life. Kicking it with Lou Reed and Jerry Garcia, helping out the Black Panthers and American Indian Movement in the 60s, being at the DNC riots in '68, being at Standing Rock 2 years ago.... You were a hero to all of us young folks. See you on the other side, bruh.
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High Strung - Sat, 24 Aug 2019 22:04:41 EST /NXX0bfT No.146946 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam

Got a new job and got a new article on Soviet-Palestinian diplomatic relations published today in a journal of leftist history and theory. It was a double super win.
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Brain - Mon, 26 Aug 2019 03:10:59 EST qM27bOms No.146957 Reply
>>146252
7mg clonazepam today

Rough times ahead. Wish i was younger again where everyone wanted free tattoos so i could practice like i used too. That ship's sailed.
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Milhouse - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 15:58:49 EST e982bwhe No.146976 Reply
>>146252
Just downed a football and a half about an hour ago, getting ready to smoke a bowl of some lemon kush. Been over a year since i've gotten anything better than gabapentin so im enjoying the fuck out of this. If i would have known i was gettin xans today i would have waited to take my daily suboxone dose and then really gottin fucked up. Oh well, there's always tomorrow! Bump while benz'd mothafucka's!
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Martin Chabblenitch - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 22:33:44 EST 86LjTa31 No.146978 Reply
>>146252
>20mg diazepam
>50mg trazodone

Woke up late afternoon due to ketamine treatments always knocking me out, hopefully I'll get some sleep tonight.
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Lillian Goodbury - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 06:14:59 EST 19MDl74n No.146981 Reply
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Just bought benzos for the first time in years. 15x1mg alprazolam. I wish to quit drinking and ease the first few days with these. Anything I should be worried to? How much to take a day? I just popped 1mg and probably will take one more in later today if needed.
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Brain - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 14:55:15 EST qM27bOms No.146983 Reply
>>146981
Did you get legit pharma pills or pressed bars? You could be taking RCs and not even knowing it. I wouldn't go for a second if your already doing okay. I'm too benzd to write more but check out >>146579
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Martin Chabblenitch - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 14:56:54 EST 86LjTa31 No.146984 Reply
>>146983

I doubt anybody are making pressed 1mgs, but I guess you never know.
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Brain - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 22:24:23 EST qM27bOms No.146987 Reply
>>146252
3 shots of vodka / 8mg etiz / 20mg Vyvanse

Reading some good ol' Robert Whitaker
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 01:09:14 EST qkzTPNFj No.146988 Reply
25mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 50mg tapentadol hcl IR, and chamomile tea.
Today is another "fuck the taper" kind of days. Once I fully taper down in the next two/three weeks (daily dosage is 2.5mg diazepam morning and 2.5mg at night) then I plan to get back to using my allotted dosage of 10mg 3x/day up to 3 days a week. Doctoral studies are much too stressful to not use benzos for specific classes, presentations, etc.

>>146984
Several years ago in the mid-2010s there was actually a moderate market for pressed 1mg alprazolam. The most common was the Pfizer/Upjohn name brand, but I think a couple of other brands (e.g. Sandoz) were also being pressed.
As a whole 0.25mg and 0.5mg alprazolam are the least likely to be counterfeited/pressed.

>>146986
Ordering blister pack parts, assembling them, and adding in a pill at home is actually legal. Theoretically, someone could source the box and blister but only have pills with little to no active ingredient you want to buy. Guides are all over the internet.
Fake blister packs are definitely a problem, but much less so than the random assortment of pressed bars of alprazolam.
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Brain - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 03:13:49 EST qM27bOms No.146997 Reply
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>>146252
I found the proper way of agitating a pg of ethonol solution.

Bumping 2mg com
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Walter Goodbanks - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 11:28:56 EST azfbPERw No.146998 Reply
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Just tried xanax for the first time with the boys.
Went about as well as you expected pic related.
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Samuel Pullersteck - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 16:12:21 EST 7eVUah6R No.146999 Reply
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>>146998

Welcome to every day, I advise you not to proceed.
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High Strung - Tue, 03 Sep 2019 09:59:41 EST Q4hCZGNu No.147007 Reply
2mg Clonazepam with coffee on my first day back from DragonCon. Shit was lit, fam.
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Albert Blittingfuck - Tue, 03 Sep 2019 22:35:38 EST aisiVZm1 No.147009 Reply
Sup /benz/, you don't know me by ID, but I stopped using benzos and opis back in 2016 because I was homeless and everything sucked and I was about to drop out of college. Now I'm still kinda homeless but I have had a steady job for 3 years that I enjoy, I graduated college, and I payed off most of my credit card too.

I haven't posted here in a year or two, and I haven't touched a benzo in three. As I remember, the biggest things to watch out for with benzos is that you'll forget everything, lose weeks or months of your life, and do things you regret. All that acknowledged, I'm thinking about getting some benzos again, for old time's sake. The thing is, I can't just go on to the same RC sites I used back then, and for all I know, etiz, clam, and flubber are illegal now. I'm just going to read some threads and find out for myself, so Idk why I wrote this all out as a preface to asking for information, but hey give me a break- I quit benzos and opis but I'm not completely sober.
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Phoebe Gaddletuck - Wed, 04 Sep 2019 00:38:58 EST 9V8lxzzs No.147013 Reply
>>146252
I'm out of Lectopams (bromazepam) 6's...and of Restoril 30's, so 30mg valium and 60mg generic oxy bamp.

Bromazepam for people in the US, it's as anxiolytic as Xanax but lasts 6-8 hours, dunno why it made it in Canada but not in the US, it was released in the early 80's up here. It's what keeps the GAD in check best. Valium is fine but I have to take 25mg minimum to feel it after having a script since 2011.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 04 Sep 2019 02:32:51 EST qkzTPNFj No.147015 Reply
I officially dropped down to 2.5mg diazepam each morning as of September 2nd. Outside of possibly staying at this penultimate dosage drop for an extra week I should be off of daily usage beginning September 9th or 16th. Either way, this taper has been a bit more successful than anticipated and I am ready as fuck to get back to PRN usage. At this point in life I do not really see any reason to quit benzos entirely.

>147009
Clonazolam, flubromazolam, and flubromazepam are not yet scheduled in the U.S.
Etizolam is outlawed in certain states in the U.S., so clearnet vendors will not ship to those states.
If you stopped using benzos and opioids 3 years ago then it probably is not in your best interest to start back up with heavy duty, hyper-potent benzos (i.e. clonazolam or flubromazolam). Stay cautious.
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Phoebe Gaddletuck - Wed, 04 Sep 2019 05:54:35 EST 9V8lxzzs No.147018 Reply
>>147009
There's plenty of US only stores that sell benzos. Diclazepam even, which I would recommend if you're putting your toe in the benzo pool from hell, it's mild enough but quite effective. Maybe US vendors have flubromazolam/flunitrazolam/etizolam/nitrazolam etc. I wish I could help, so I could get a commission out of it heh, I'm not risking an order from Europe again, either the sites I tried the few last times that didn't make it past the border cos of customs is that those stores sell stuff that's illegal in Canada too, so they get noticed. I'll wait until the CD's and vinyl and other stuff I get from overseas doesn't spend time in Customs, it's easy to know when it's gone through it, even when untracked. Next year I'll see if I'm on some sort of list, I'll make an order with insurance in case it doesn't make it, no more of those no reships or just one reship only if you use an incredibly expensive shipping method like where I was getting my c-lam on blotter, I'll know then if it's customs looking for that sender or looking through my mail more than the average person. I could contest because of a license I have, (I can handle Schedule III, IV, V, VI materials legally), but it's not like I even want to correspond with them at all, rather pretend I don't care and count my lucky stars I got 3 benzo scripts, 2 from my psych and one from my GP who do not know I see each other. My body, my temple, I should be able to put anything I want in it, period. Seems like they got bored at customs since weed is legal, cops, lawyers, crown prosecutors etc. lost a good revenue stream with that, coupled with the fake opioid crisis (there was always dirty H, it's just nobody gave a fuck non MSM in the past), legalize H, use it as a painkiller, it's not as strong as some fucking opioid meds we already have, orally, but it would be likely better than taking hydromorph orally, which always did nothing to me, up to 10mg IR, with HydromorphContins, made to last over 12 hours, I only feel the artificially stretched effects with the 18mg ones minimum, even when I was an occasional user only, eating a 18, 24 or 30 was such waste, but it worked, not like eating a 12mg and get a high but when you expect it to get stronger, it just stagnates and goes away very quickly.

I'm drifting out of topic, I'll smoke this cig and then hit the hay.
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Chan - Wed, 04 Sep 2019 17:54:17 EST Jlot+jMU No.147019 Reply
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>>146252
>10mg Diazepam
>10mg Propanolol
>20mg methylphenidate
>Small to moderate intake of 3,4,7-TriMethylXanthine (This is what makes the thesis posts happen.)

Small taper update, on the road to 0mg Diazepam. Methylphenidate has some great anxiolytic effects for myself. Not going to bump not even getting even close to BWB but I like that.

I've seen your Progress Dr. Katz seems all is going well. I've managed to resist "fugg it days" thankfully but they were definitely there. Diazepam's half-life lends it to being fine with those sort of days. Best of luck reaching your intended dosage regime. If you don't mind me asking? Are you still doing doctoral work or are you in the field now and is it all going well?

For me at least at this point of time I've got to teach myself college level chemistry/pharmacology more so pharmacology myself. Not smart enough for college's to let me in to their programs. Albeit if you got an interest in a subject makes 1000x easier to learn it. So far I'm matching first year from self-study, so yay me.

nb.
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Clara Finningseck - Wed, 04 Sep 2019 19:52:47 EST qCwoBzWk No.147023 Reply
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>>146252
Been very disciplined for a while but had some trouble sleeping the past few nights so thought "fuck it", 30mg diaz under the tongue 10mg down the hatch (I usually dose 10mg daily, been on benz daily for 4 years now...) and it's kicking in. It's the relief from the anxiety that gives me the 'high', like catching a nice deep breath, or slowly resting into a warm bath. Sometimes, you don't even know you were tense or anxious in certain ways until the drug has kicked in. For me, it's noticing things like releasing clenched fists and relaxing my jaw that define the experience.

In my quest to quit I'm moving down to 7.5mg daily after this, I've got a nice long term supply of pharma 5mg pills in so I can taper reasonably accurately down to 2.5mg. I'd love some 2mg pharma pills but nobody sells them as most people just wanna get high or use benzos for comedowns, and 2mg pharma isn't economical in the illicit market; I've fallen into a self-medicating situation and developed a serious dependence, the market isn't really designed for me.

Honestly, I would stay on benzos for the rest of my life, but I've noticed problems with my motor function (or more accurately, others have commented) and also problems with mixing up words, slurred speech, and memory. Considering how my life has turned around and I need to focus on academic work it makes sense for me to quit, despite the difficulty involved. Also, the idea of dementia setting in at a young age just isn't that appealing, despite being suicidal most of the time.

BWB and spreading SLAYER.
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John Greenwill - Thu, 05 Sep 2019 17:57:31 EST 86LjTa31 No.147028 Reply
>30mg diazepam

Took like 2-3mg suboxone yesterday and have a drug screen Monday coming up for a new job... kinda worried if I'll pop. And if I do, if it'll show up if I apply for other jobs. I guess we'll see...
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Henry Soffingworth - Fri, 06 Sep 2019 00:30:08 EST xdwZ/1Ye No.147029 Reply
100mg promethazine
10mg methadone
50mg lyrica

Had a shitty day. Feel better now.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 07 Sep 2019 01:17:06 EST qkzTPNFj No.147033 Reply
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Morning taper: 2.5mg diazepam
Pain meds over 3 doses following another round of cortisone shots in my lower lumbar yesterday: 30mg cyclobenzaprine and 150mg tapentadol hcl (IR) [I also took 75mg DPH]
Currently: 200mg tramadol (staggered), 10mg diazepam (to avoid any potential for seizure with ingesting two opioids known for their potential to induce seizures past 400mg/day), and I am brewing up some chamomile tea while studying on this late Friday night [also another 25mg DPH injested].

Later: 10mg diazepam and 1mg alprazolam planned with my last/highest tramadol dose.

My wife and I had yet another falling out during a weekly date night. She thought it was a good idea to start raising her voice, wagging her finger in my face, and belittling me for ordering a cheap meal at a German beer garden since she was paying for dinner. I still ate like a king, but it's whatever. I tried to talk, listen, recognize my tone of voice, and genuinely try to understand why I was upsetting my wife. The fight continued back at home and I just do not have the physical or mental energy to have another weekend long fight. There's only so much I can do until I have to politely walk away and do something more conducive to my mental health. I do not see my marriage working out if my wife and I continue to have problems with the smallest shit. Fuck, the entire thing is unfortunate.
/rant over/

Pic related - September 7th is the anniversary of Mac Miller's death. R.I.P. Mac.

>>146878
My bad for the 3 week belated reply. Life has been hectic as shit, Anon. The goal is to get back to moderate dosing rather than to completely stay off of benzodiazepines indefinitely. For nearly a year now I have been dosing 10mg diazepam 3x/day. Ideally, I would get back to only using when in particularly anxious periods of academic duties (i.e. during speeches, standard discussions, etc.). I was using benzos for 6 years until I started dosing more than 5 days per week on a consistent basis.

>>147019
Chan, it is great hearing about your progress with tapering. Keep up the good work! Seriously, tapering is a big deal and any amount of progress deserves at least some appreciation and consideration.

Thank you for the well wishes. I appreciate it.

I completed my master's degree this past May and formally started doctoral studies two and a half weeks ago. However, I have been active in my research advisor's lab for nearly a month, which is not a problem by any means. Because my master's degree is in counseling and my doctoral program is in counseling psychology a major portion of my master's courses (16 courses worth 48 graduate credit hours) are transferring for my degree. The current plan is to have two to three years of on campus course work, two years of offsite practicum with concurrent courses, a full year to write my dissertation (but, I will begin work on my dissertation around late Spring 2020 or early Summer 2020), and a year of offsite internship. My doctoral program ranges from 4 to 6 years with most students completing their degree around 4.5 or 5 years even when entering with a master's degree.

>Not smart enough for colleges
Eh, I do not like the terminology of "smart" because of how bullshit it can be. Telling someone they're smart rather than praising their actual accomplishments gives a false sense of inner importance and pride for not actually doing anything. Stay positive, but realistic. If you want to complete a college degree, have the motivation to work your ass off, and enjoy what you are learning then you'll be golden.

>Albeit if you got an interest in a subject makes 1000x easier to learn it
Precisely! What would intrinsically motivate someone to study something they hate outside of familiar, societal, and relational expectations?
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Brain - Sat, 07 Sep 2019 01:28:03 EST qM27bOms No.147034 Reply
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>>146252
R.I.P. Larry Fisherman

Will forever miss you bro. Can't believe its been a year. Can't really say I'm disappointed with how you went out. Life is a bitch

>6mg clonazepam, 3 shots of vodka, 30mg codeine 2mg clonazepam 25mg dph
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Jenny Billingwill - Sun, 08 Sep 2019 20:12:07 EST XkqVCTFO No.147042 Reply
20mg methadone
125mg lyrica

Feeling good, really good. Love being high and listening to psytrance at night :)
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Lillian Bungold - Mon, 09 Sep 2019 02:15:42 EST adoMiWwT No.147047 Reply
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had a few pills left over from my last script, so i took them today to help unwind between getting off work and getting ready for the school week.
>1.5mg clonazepam. dabs
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 09 Sep 2019 02:42:05 EST qkzTPNFj No.147048 Reply
>>146252
Currently on the last, althought somewhat elongated, bit of my taper at 2.5mg diazepam. Currently: 2.5mg diazepam every other day is the plan for at least a week until I feel ready to 100% hop off.
Today thought: 20mg diazepam + 5 beers all at once

yeah, I am using nearly my Rx daily dosage at the end of this taper, but I didn't take any diazepam yesterday. All in all, I am not concerned.
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Phoebe Grandstock - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 21:28:23 EST sgH80cUy No.147067 Reply
  • 1 xanax bar
  • 10mg methadone
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High Strung - Tue, 10 Sep 2019 21:33:31 EST /NXX0bfT No.147068 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam
2 bowls of Purple Kush

Just what the fucking doctor ORDERED, bitches.
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James Shittinglock - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 05:33:22 EST 9V8lxzzs No.147076 Reply
>>147068
15mg bromazepam and today I cleaned up the house, had a day off and was bored, and I found some Mogadons, something only people with seizures can get here now, 6 10's that were under a pile of boxes, but in a corner so they weren't crushed. Now how they ended up there, no fucking idea hah. I'll be good until late in the day.
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High Strung - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 14:03:24 EST /NXX0bfT No.147080 Reply
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Morning prescribed dose of 2mg Clonazepam and the small amount of wee I have left

Gonna need to curb the anxiety of my first evening at my new bakery job. It's only a 5-hour shift but my new manager warned me it's the busiest location of all their locations in the entirety of NYC with the shittiest customers (mostly entitled-ass city hall bureaucrats and insufferable lawyers from the city court) so I decided some benzos were in order to get me through the dinner rush. Wish me luck, soldiers.
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Ian Trotwell - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 15:34:13 EST qCwoBzWk No.147082 Reply
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>>147075
I am about to start my taper from a 10mg per day jump-off point. I used to take Diazepam sporadically at doses between 10mg to 50mg along with multiple xanax bars and constant alcohol intake. I've come a long way. I have nearly defeated my alcohol problem, and now consistently dose 10mg a day to avoid anxiety and withdrawal.

I've managed to source a supply of legit good brand pharma (5mg tabs) for the taper. I know they're real because they've been tested, and are from a trusted source; though amusingly, the most convincing thing is the taste of the pills crunched up or sublingual - I've had such a history of abuse with benzos that I have a well developed pallet for pills.

Currently got two dissolving under my tongue right now and they're kicking in nicely.
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Caroline Fublingkedge - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 21:22:05 EST sgH80cUy No.147086 Reply
Copping some bars from my dude in the morning. Cant wait to get my hands on that shit.

Nb
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High Strung - Wed, 11 Sep 2019 22:23:42 EST /NXX0bfT No.147087 Reply
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>4.5mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls Purple Kush
-half a pot of coffee

Don't need to be awake until 1:00pm tomorrow so like.... why not kick back with some benzos and coffee and watch Evil Dead?
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Henry Lightforth - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 09:09:16 EST pC5uF9LP No.147091 Reply
>>147086
Copped some bars earlier.

Took 2mg alprazolam. Feeling good and my anxiety is gone. Will take more later throughout the day.
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High Strung - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 09:45:45 EST /NXX0bfT No.147092 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
-half a pot of coffee after a big-ass breakfast

No work today and it might rain all day so it's a great day to sit around in my boxers, watching horror movies, and be nice and comfy.
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Caroline Fublingkedge - Thu, 12 Sep 2019 19:00:29 EST sgH80cUy No.147102 Reply
Took a bar earlier. Feeling quite nice :)
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 02:23:29 EST qkzTPNFj No.147108 Reply
>>146252
This morning: 10mg diazepam + 10mg cyclobenzaprine

Tonight: 10mg diazepam + 10mg cyclobenzaprine + 50mg tapentadol hcl + 2 beers + chamomile tea

My taper is essentially done, so I plan to move back to PRN usage during the middle of each week when I am in class. So far so good!
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High Strung - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 22:35:56 EST /NXX0bfT No.147116 Reply
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>2.5mg Clonazepam

Reading a graphic novel and listening to a podcast in bed until I fall asleep. Damn I feel good.
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Jenny Clacklegold - Fri, 13 Sep 2019 22:45:46 EST twWwX5ey No.147117 Reply
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just took 2mg etiz. must be 9 months since I last used. I missed this feeling.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 01:36:12 EST qkzTPNFj No.147121 Reply
>>146252
>Benzos
>Opi
>Homework
>Relational stress with my wife
Sometimes talking through a problem does not work. Sometimes our best efforts fall flat. But, maladaptive coping mechanisms being fully recognized, I still have benzos... and opioids. And so 10mg diazepam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg tapentadol, 50mg DPH, 5g red vein kratom tea(the last of a 30g bag I bought in mid-summer), and some chamomile tea.
Keeping things nice and light is probably for the best, but another 10mg diazepam may come into the picture later. Let's hope not.

I hope everyone enjoys their weekend.
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William Ficklestore - Sat, 14 Sep 2019 20:58:20 EST sgH80cUy No.147135 Reply
2mg xanax

Feeling quite jolly and feeling good.
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Chan - Sun, 15 Sep 2019 03:54:51 EST Jlot+jMU No.147138 Reply
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>7.5mg Diazepam, 5mg Diazepam
>20mg, 20mg, 10mg Methylphenidate IR
>100mg Caffiene
>10mg Propanolol

Decided to taper myself down to 12.5mg somehow my script was still at 15mg for the week but I was supposed to drop myself down to 14mg. Decided mind as well half 'em and just go down to 12.5mg. Thought I mind as well say hello to the BWB crowd.

nb. (Bump When Tapering)
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High Strung - Sun, 15 Sep 2019 17:41:08 EST /NXX0bfT No.147143 Reply
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2.5mg Clonazepam
A half a pot of coffee

Wish I had some weed but I don't get paid until tomorrow night. A good night to watch horror movies and listen to paranormal podacasts while benz-chilled
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Charlotte Brinnerbidging - Sun, 15 Sep 2019 20:04:23 EST 7eVUah6R No.147149 Reply
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2.5mg alprazolam to unwind.

We're all gonna make it.
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Brain - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 15:36:33 EST qM27bOms No.147152 Reply
>>146252
So this summer was quite a legitimate blur, I've gone through 4g of etiz. I don't even bump anymore due to my masive intake. I could blog post more but this ain't the place

>1mg Clonazepam
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Priscilla Papperman - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 17:20:45 EST f+xKYOK8 No.147156 Reply
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Buddy hooked it up with 7mg Ativan, I'm the type with a real issue having my whole script gone in ten days when it's sposed to last me 30. I'm sure nobody here can relate to that whatsoever!

Anyways 3mg down the hatch, hopefully I won't wake up with the other 4mg gone
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Fanny Punkinstock - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 20:03:08 EST sgH80cUy No.147159 Reply
2mg xanax
10mg methadone
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Charlotte Hizzleput - Mon, 16 Sep 2019 23:09:26 EST FW7P9c7Y No.147163 Reply
>>146252
4 mg Xanax, 6mg left for tommorow. Then to get another 5 bars when I am going clubbing on Thursday.
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Brain - Tue, 17 Sep 2019 01:12:06 EST 59V7wtYW No.147171 Reply
>>146252
>>146252
So im being a retard and tooth picking etiz due to my scale breaking. I know this is dumb as fuck but I need my etiz. Hope i can kick this by oct. I take full responsibility for this foolishness. Also had some cpam earlier so,

>3mg clonazepam
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Ernest Ficklestone - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 08:14:00 EST 6ZgknHcz No.147174 Reply
>>147171
Dissolve all eti in vodka or pg
Dose small amounts of liquid
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Hugh Daddlehood - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 15:19:20 EST GbTTwaYV No.147178 Reply
Just picked up my Alpraz, 1mg x 90, and my Kpins, also 1mg x 90. Bumping off 12mg Alpra, 12mg clonazePAM, 10mg M-Done, 10mg Hydrocodone... Elapsed TS +90min.. Feelin' Tha Chill friends.. Had no chill a few hours ago and now have chill to spare. Enjoy your day fuckers :)
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Oliver Wirringkudging - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 16:55:31 EST sgH80cUy No.147180 Reply
Getting my kpin script filled today. Cant wait to get these fuckers and get fucked up!
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Oliver Wirringkudging - Wed, 18 Sep 2019 19:57:58 EST sgH80cUy No.147181 Reply
>>147180
Got my script filled.

Took 2mg clonazepam. I'm feeling fucking fantastic!
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Phoebe Wacklelet - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 00:39:54 EST sgH80cUy No.147183 Reply
3mg clonazepam
10mg methadone

Feeling good and chilled out
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Phoebe Wacklelet - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 08:00:58 EST sgH80cUy No.147185 Reply
1500mg gabapentin
2.5mg clonazepam
10mg methadone

Feeling good today. Smoking cigs too which makes the high much better.
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Phoebe Dindlehall - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 16:10:28 EST iLlEpcOH No.147189 Reply
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Got me some temmies, 60 for $150 which imo is a great deal

Took 45mg about 15 min ago and im starting to get very comfy

best benzo imo, haven't tried triaz tho thats supposed to be as good also, but this beats the shit out of alprazolam, clonazepam, diazepam, lorazepam, etizolam, midazolam, and bromazepam which are the ones ive tried
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Phoebe Dindlehall - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 16:11:37 EST iLlEpcOH No.147190 Reply
>>147189
GOD DAMN IT there isnt any rhyme or reason to when it does that, sometimes horizontal pictures do it, sometimes vertically ones do it, how do you prevent this?
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Augustus Surrybury - Thu, 19 Sep 2019 20:14:20 EST sgH80cUy No.147191 Reply
1800mg gabapentin
10mg methadone
2.5mg clonazepam

Feel good
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Chan - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 04:22:45 EST DPA8sSzN No.147193 Reply
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>>146252
>20mg Methylphenidate IR
>5mg Diazepam
>2.5 Standard Drinks (Lager)

Intoxicated by an infatuation
Prolific in writing because of inebriation
Lager and Diazepam, a mutual understanding
I've lost the feeling, now regain the feeling that felt same
Any stronger narcotic than pure love to heal this pain.

nb. just in case
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Phyllis Dacklechot - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 05:39:03 EST iLlEpcOH No.147194 Reply
fuck i ended up taking too many temmies and now i got distracted and it's 6 hours later and i gotta go to work in 5 hours so now my only option is to pop some more temmies and some adderal and get there absolutely PINGING but I'm in customer service so it's all good as long as I'm not slurring my speech level which I don't think I will cause of the speed I'm about about to be the best damn shoe salesperson in that store that day

plus it's only a 7 hour shift and I got more to take when I get back to hopefully actually catch some sleep WOOOO this is the life
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Augustus Surrybury - Fri, 20 Sep 2019 19:43:09 EST sgH80cUy No.147203 Reply
3mg clonazepam feeling good

Have a good weekend fam!
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Henry Hurringwut - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 15:02:37 EST sgH80cUy No.147216 Reply
4mg clonazepam
1200mg gabapentin
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 21 Sep 2019 19:26:06 EST qkzTPNFj No.147217 Reply
>>146252
My taper wrapped up last week, but uh... I’m getting benz’d for the first time in a long ass time.
40mg diazepam, 75mg tapentadol HCL, 50mg DPH, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and 4mg ondansetron.

BWB
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David Dupperpare - Sun, 22 Sep 2019 20:54:57 EST 7eVUah6R No.147218 Reply
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>>146252

Probably got a new job doing what I actually want.

Fucking pumped.

Popped 3mg alprazolam and 25mg DPH to see how potentiating it is.

Kinda feeling like I'm almost catching a nod now.

I hope everyone's having a lovely time.
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lol - Mon, 23 Sep 2019 11:35:22 EST mC81D8BW No.147220 Reply
how xan can i take for the first time
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Nell Greenwill - Mon, 23 Sep 2019 21:24:04 EST sgH80cUy No.147224 Reply
1500mg gabapentin taken an hour ago. Starting to feel nice 😁😁
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 24 Sep 2019 00:57:01 EST qkzTPNFj No.147225 Reply
>>146252
Today my pain doc and staff put me in a bit of a dilemma: Get off of one of the benzos I am on in favor of my potent opioids OR continue on the benzos I have and take what I can get. Despite telling the staff I self-tapered off of diazepam they want a doctor to confirm the dosage change and change my script accordingly.

Long story short, I picked up 90 x 50mg tramadol and 60 x 50mg hydroxyzine today. I will likely talk with someone in medication management about lowering my benzo dosages especially since I already tapered off of diazepam. So I am looking at getting half of my current diazepam dosage and possibly eliminating my alprazolam script in favor of getting on a better opioid (likely hydrocodone, oxycodone, or morphine ER based on the doctor's prescribing history).

>Does anyone have a suggestion?
I really do not want to take /opi/ daily for an extended period of time, but I do not want to give up all of my benzos either!

Today's intake: 50mg tapentadol IR, 50mg tramadol, 100mg hydroxyzine, and 4mg ondansetron. I'm currently sipping tea and reading about the history of modern psychology for my Intro to Counseling Psychology course.

nb - I did not take benzos today.
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Ebenezer Nebberbock - Tue, 24 Sep 2019 03:47:41 EST 5X1v1hBN No.147227 Reply
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>>146252
1mg alprazolam a while ago. 1mg more for sleep. Got to wake up and be a wage slave soon.
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drunk guy !goJWO3MxIo - Sat, 28 Sep 2019 10:59:27 EST ojH75DJ1 No.147255 Reply
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>>146252
too muc speed valium, too much valium, cannabis, wine and beer furck my health
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Walter Shittinghood - Sat, 28 Sep 2019 13:34:39 EST I7XBpIHt No.147260 Reply
hey friends. i've been really worried about ods lately. Here's all of the drugs I may be on, although its usually never all at the same time.

.5mg Klonopin EOD*
1mg Xanax as needed. Usually only once ED or EOD*

  • Tapering w/ doctor right now. Down from 4mg Klonopin ED.

Kratom (3-4 g)
Phenibut (500mg-1g)
Effexor (SNRI, 225mg ED)
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 28 Sep 2019 19:43:20 EST qkzTPNFj No.147265 Reply
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>>146252
20mg diazepam, 250mg tramadol (staggered), 5mg cyclobenzaprine, and 50mg hydroxyzine down the hatch. Some chamomile tea and 4mg ondansetron are next on the menu. Afterwards, I’ll probably get some food. I don’t feel much like cooking.

Today has been action packed with: fighting with my wife, laundry, and plenty of homework.

Pic related. Anyone else fuck with JPEGMAFIA? His new album is damn good, and holy hell is the project a lot to unpack.
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Frederick Lightcocke - Mon, 30 Sep 2019 19:55:03 EST fX/T3W+q No.147279 Reply
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>>147265
Ayy Dr. Katz has good taste! JPEGMAFIA is sick.

~5mg Etizolam and Hindu Kush with a little lavender, smoked in a hot tub. Fuckin A
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Isabella Honeyspear - Mon, 30 Sep 2019 23:16:36 EST iJoqoCK1 No.147281 Reply
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Late night bumping with 4 mg clonazepam, feeling pretty good but some tolerance is definitely building up (could also be the cigs, I'm smoking like crazy). Gotta take a longer break after this, I went from 2 mg to 4 in 3 weeks taking benzos 1-2 times a week. grabbing something to drink from the store that opens in an hour.
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Shit Sottinghidge - Mon, 30 Sep 2019 23:38:01 EST sgH80cUy No.147282 Reply
  • 250mg lyrica
  • 15mg oxy

I feel good tonight! Jamming to some armin van buuren and trance music in general. Got that warm and fuzzy feeling all around me :)
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Augustus Bribblekuck - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 02:45:39 EST f+xKYOK8 No.147286 Reply
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>>147282
5mg Clonazepam, 1lb wash of FTL, 300mg dissos, nicotine

My kinda night my fair-weathered friends. A lotta people take for granted the community here however small or toxic but yet here I am, still posting in times good or bad all these many years later

SLAYER comrades. Take er' easy, tread light, keep your eyes on right ahead & you'll be alright come the end no matter how bleak.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 03:49:03 EST qkzTPNFj No.147291 Reply
Cross post from /opi/:
I am slowly becoming convinced my pain doctor's staff are fucking with me. A receptionist I spoke with earlier this week continued to tell me to look into CDC guidelines regarding co-prescription of benzodiazepines and opioids. Regardless, I was told i need to get off of benzos with hydroxyzine and/or non-benzodiazepine meds for anxiety from a psychiatrist. Total cunt.

Daily total: 10mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, and 100mg tramadol

I finally caved and decided to pick up some polyethylene glycol 3550 (MiraLAX) and some 100mg docuset sodium (Colace) to hopefully relieve the shit baby growing inside of me. Taking /opi/ 4-5+ days per week wrecks the bowels. Kava tea and extra strength sleepy time tea are brewing up now.

>>147279
Thank you, thank you. I am definitely bummed for not buying tickets day one, but it's all good. Some other young person will probably enjoy the show more than my wife and I would. Peggy's definitely making the music he wants to make.
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Cedric Sussletock - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 04:38:39 EST sgH80cUy No.147292 Reply
  • 30mg methadone
  • 300mg lyrica

Blasted!
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Doris Brookwater - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 10:49:42 EST UBtkLJjD No.147295 Reply
does anyone notice any potency using cimetidine with alprazolam? Looked up some studies on pubmed and found conflicting information. defiantly increaes half-life but that doesn’t always mean longer duration of action. not all said it increases peak plasma levels. how much cimetidine do you usually take and how long before dosing?
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Archie Trotford - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 17:49:24 EST y76zclO7 No.147296 Reply
Is phenobarbital feels like benzo?
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Cedric Sussletock - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 19:44:09 EST sgH80cUy No.147297 Reply
Took 250mg lyrica earlier. Feeling it starting to hit me. Going to have a good time tonight!
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Hugh Lighthood - Wed, 02 Oct 2019 23:22:18 EST /5mmxNtK No.147298 Reply
>>147296
barbs are a lot nore recreational than benzos. the closet thing youll find still on the market is soma
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dr. m - Thu, 03 Oct 2019 00:39:51 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147299 Reply
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>>146252

Trying valium again for the "first" time in the sense that I'm not on loads on amphetamine, nitrous, booze, and asian hookers lol! Haven't taken any benzos for I want to say ~4-6 weeks apart from a single 0.5mg xanax dose that was pretty much 1 week ago on the dot.

>200mg gabapentin
>three glasses of wine + a blue moon beer
>crushed up 10mg valium and chugged down with said beer
>residual adderall and of course subutex in my system, like always

Can't wait for this shit to hit man. It's Cambodian valium, and I don't have much of it left, so it's only possible to spare 10mg right now. No more pharma xanax I'm afraid, and it looks like I might be cut off from my pharma 0.5mg peach tablet source for good :'(. I'll miss you you peachy colored cunts. You were there the same day I found that 5-8 year old expired bottle of vicodin and bottle of percocet, but unlike the painkillers, you always seemed to have unlimited prescriptions no matter how few or many I ate from your bottle.

Cheers to xanax for the memories (or lack thereof), and thanks for valium in the hopes I actually feel it for the first time when I'm not sweating my nuts off hiking 5-10+ miles per day (I really thought the valium was a dud back then, even after taking like 3-5 of them).

Hopefully this changes my mind about valium. Before, I thought it was a total bitch compared to xanax. Xanax is probably my "favorite" benzo besides triazolam (#1), midazolam (#2 if non-IV, #1 if IVed), and cLam (#3 cuz the WDs aren't worth the euphoria high, even more euphoric than triazolam/midazolam, but it doesn't have any rush)...honorable mention for #etizolam because he was already a steady guy in my life when nobody else was, including myself.

Looks like I need to work on ordering some benzos/RZ benzos. Why the FUCK did they ban etizolam in my state but not clonazoLam, flubromazoLam, flubromazePam, flualprazolam, etc. etc. Shit makes no sense!!!
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Hedda Clogglelock - Thu, 03 Oct 2019 13:34:14 EST iLlEpcOH No.147304 Reply
Found a ton of tems and bars that I apparently stashed away on a week long blackout

I really seriously thought I was done for a while after that but I mean I'm not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth, come on, took 30mg temazepam + 2mg of alprazolam to kick things off

>I have tried some crazy things, abusing my body to a quick end, but I'll never never never never do it again, I said I'll never never never never do it again, the Roche rumble, oooh Roche rumble!
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Betsy Shittingbury - Thu, 03 Oct 2019 20:48:11 EST hEVtwGrL No.147305 Reply
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Bumping on 2mg lorazepam, 0.5mg clonazepam, 600mg gabapentin, and a
completely irresponsible amount of vodka

It'll be a miracle if I can even remember typing this tomorrow morning
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David Buzzforth - Fri, 04 Oct 2019 16:10:21 EST YAL3VFR9 No.147313 Reply
>>147304
On 60mg temazepam and 4mg alp now, listening to I Am The Resurrection by the Stone Roses, huffing some nangs and shooting jager bombs. Life is good (at this exact moment if you ignore the brevity of this little slice if happiness)

Went to work mostly blacked the other day (again in alp and tem) after saying id never get blacked out again after the tine I put 500 from a head/sex shop on an emergency CC

apparently I came out to a lot of coworkers and bought a couple pairs of traditionally girl shoes like the galaxy converse and a pair of the Nike bellas, because fuck it if a shoe looks sick it looks sick, girls shop in guys all the fime, problem is im a women's 12 so its harder to find stuff

Its weird, instead of that normal "fuck what have I done" feeling after a black out, I'm legitimately glad i did that, well I mean because it went well. I assume, they all seemed pretty interested at the time and I immediately felt closer to everyone, especially the girls, when I walked in one of them was like "Heeeey <naaaaame>" and in general everyone is nice to me know

Lesson: blackouts can be beneficial for forcing anxious neurotic people like me forward, probably not the healthiest way of doing it but still

Man i love benzos.... gotta not loove them too much tho. Probably like a couple daye in a row in a bender once every one or two months
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David Buzzforth - Fri, 04 Oct 2019 16:27:48 EST YAL3VFR9 No.147314 Reply
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>>147313
I should mention that i work at a shoe store if it wasnt implied i guess

Also and i digress, i dont get how these are "girl" shoes, I mean shoes are shoes anyone can wear whatever, but not giving a shit about this sort of thing has made me completely incapable of figuring out what we're "supposed" to wear
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David Buzzforth - Fri, 04 Oct 2019 16:33:21 EST YAL3VFR9 No.147315 Reply
>>147314
I mean these ones I kind of understand, but even then I just don't get. Working in women's is way more interesting, way cooler designs, better colors, the only things that match it in mens imo are vans and converse (both unisex), some sperrys (again pretty unisex brand outside of lase style) and the Air Max Axises with a decent schemes like the orange-yellow blend or the blue chrome

Who the fuck buys a solid color shoe anyway?
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Reuben Cickleford - Fri, 04 Oct 2019 21:34:55 EST tp4pMcs2 No.147319 Reply
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>>147316
This is sad news, especially since I never got to try Hexen and have really liked the RC stims I've tried. I loved the game too.

As far as Etiz goes, it's rough that it's soon to be gone but my state made it illegal recently, so this is more of a nail in the coffin for the Etizolam in America as a whole. I got lucky as shit and ordered 120mls of a 10mg-1ml volumetric vial right before my state made it illegal. I'll dose around .10ml once a week and usually when I know I've got a rough shift ahead or when I know I've got to be cool as a cucumber and can't let things get to me. (Having it on board as a trip aborter is really nice too.)

Based on my calculations as well as my usage rate I'll have this for 23 years. If it holds up to the winds of time, however, is still to be determined.
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Martha Dartham - Sat, 05 Oct 2019 02:22:08 EST xEXceJCJ No.147323 Reply
>>147319
>I never got to try Hexen
I tried it a few times, only thing I remeber is all the negative side effects of stimulants. Pretty sad about Etizolam, DOC and Flualprazolam. At least clonazolam will stilll be around.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 06 Oct 2019 00:50:46 EST qkzTPNFj No.147332 Reply
Earlier: 10mg diazepam + 1mg alprazolam + booze

Now: 20mg diazepam + 50mg hydroxyzine + 400mg tramadol - staggered over 2 hours

>>147316
Shit, I was never the biggest etizolam user but god damn it. I do NOT want etizolam to be scheduled in the U.S. Etizolam has a great benefit of being medicine in yet another country.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 06 Oct 2019 04:54:45 EST qkzTPNFj No.147334 Reply
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>>147332
Add on: 10mg diazepam, 1mg alprazolam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and a couple beers.
My wife is asleep, but I’m half debating on taking 50-100mg tapentadol or 20-40mg d-amphetamine XR (Adderall XR). The tapentadal is my Rx and the Adderall XR is her script.
Either way, she was PISSED when she found out I was taking 8 x 50mg tramadol due to fear of me dying in my sleep. Which, I’m more worried about seizures, hence the extra benzo intake.

Plus, I just had a three hour conversation in the middle of the night between my mom, dad, and brother as my brother was driving drunk and is suicidal. Fuckin hell, dudes.
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Clara Puffingtag - Sun, 06 Oct 2019 14:01:15 EST 8lLVGuPS No.147335 Reply
>>147323
Hexen sucks ass, literally any stim RC or not is better. And yeah I tried different batches, ROAs, combos, doses - it still sucked.
I feel for you guys, in my country eti is also illegal since last summer but you can easily order it from rc shops that send it from countries where it's legal. It's really nice but I always preffered pharma products.

Cross post bump, 50ug naltrexone, 30mg dxm, 20mg diazepam and 1000mg of tramadol. Feeling fine as fuck and getting some paperwork for my job done ahead of deadline.
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High Strung - Tue, 08 Oct 2019 19:37:32 EST /NXX0bfT No.147339 Reply
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>8mg Clonazepam for a Refill Day binge
>1 blueberry-flavored blunt of Blueberry
-Coco Vita coconut water
-a hearty bowl of nose-clearing 4-alarm chili
-a Nation of Islam bean pie for dessert later on after a spliff of some more Blueberry
-a shitty indie horror flick

This is how you spend a good night off.
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Nigel Turveybanks - Wed, 09 Oct 2019 09:18:48 EST /NXX0bfT No.147341 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam for wake-n-benzo
>2 bowls of Blueberry for wake-and-bake
-2 large Red Bulls
-Deli-made bagel and coffee
-Depressive-suicidal black metal in my Sennheiser H50 headphones

Life kinda sucks right now but I mean, if only for the morning-tide, I can feel in charge of this chilly, overcast day.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 09 Oct 2019 23:52:26 EST qkzTPNFj No.147348 Reply
Throughout the day: 20mg diazepam, 100mg tramadol, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, and 4mg ondansetron
Midterms are fucking bananas.

>>147341
>2 large Red Bulls
Between the energy drinks and drinking up to a pot of coffee as per your posts, I have zero idea how you aren't completely geeked on caffeine. Even with caffeine usage to combat benzo sedation there's a lot of caffeine going on. Is this a result of tolerance or a necessity for maintaining a decent benzo high without passing out?
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High Strung - Thu, 10 Oct 2019 12:19:41 EST /NXX0bfT No.147353 Reply
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>5mg Clonazepam
>4 blowls of Blueberry
-2 small Red Bulls

>>147348
Yeah yesterday I realized I took too much Clonazepam so I tried to compensate. Little did I realize the drowsiness wasn't just the drowsiness..... I get to work and I'm sick as a dog!

So now I'm cooped up in bed with a nasty cold (maybe mild flu considered I have a fever).

Oh, N.B.: I don't drink a pot of COFFEE a day, I drinka pot of TEA every day. My grandfather was British soooooo....
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Ebenezer Chegglestudge - Fri, 11 Oct 2019 01:15:42 EST EX73QyG+ No.147355 Reply
  • 250mg lyrica

Blasted in another dimension! Tripping a bit and feel like I'm walking on air. Love this euphoria that I'm experiencing right now. Benzos and benzo like drugs is the best!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 11 Oct 2019 02:34:39 EST wsOFceLF No.147357 Reply
Daily total: 40mg diazepam, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg tramadol, and 75mg hydroxyzine
Now with my weekend starting I plan to take no more benzos until Tuesday morning. Well, the plan is to not take them unless it’s for school or actual panic symptoms.

>>147353
Holy fuck. English Breakfast and Earl Grey, right? I must have confused your posts with real life people who slam a pot or two of coffee on the daily.
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High Strung - Fri, 11 Oct 2019 06:57:55 EST /NXX0bfT No.147358 Reply
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It's a good morning and I'm still recovering for a mild flu (or just a really bad cold) so 4mg Clonazepam, 0.5mg Alprazolam, 2 bowls of Blueberry, a small Red Bull, and a huge bottle of Essentia to keep hydrated is a sufficient breakfast for a bedridden kinda day.

Pic related, what I'm listening to as the sun rises.

>>147357 LOL yeah he introduced me to a ton of teas as a kid, but Fortnum & Mason Earl Grey was his afternoon go-to so afternoons at Grandma and Grandpa's house mean F&M Earl Grey.
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Polly Nimbleford - Sat, 12 Oct 2019 07:07:26 EST /zieo9cN No.147363 Reply
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>>146252
Beend a year since i Found some benzos bought a guys whole 0.5 clonazpam script! 0.5mg after getting up, took a dab, got some coffee ready. it's a nice overcast foggy Scotian weather. Took my 100mg methadone and another .5mg. might take another .5 later don't want to get to on the nod so hard i can't roll my own smokes or smoke erb
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High Strung - Sat, 12 Oct 2019 22:57:00 EST /NXX0bfT No.147373 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>2 joints of OG
-4 ibuprofen

Got off work 45 minutes early after a busy Saturday night. Phew boy did I need that indica + benzodiazepine cocktail. Time for a horror movie and a bagel.
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dr. m - Sun, 13 Oct 2019 19:58:26 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147377 Reply
>>146252

Had 1mg pharma alprazolam last night with 100mg gabapentin and 10mg cyclobenzaprine. It was alright, but unfortunately I had drank 2-3 glasses of wine a few hours beforehand, and that appeared to make the xanax less effective.
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dr. m - Sun, 13 Oct 2019 22:20:14 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147379 Reply
>>147377
bump

>0.75mg pharma xanax, 100mg gabapentin, ~2.5 glasses of wine, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 0.1mg clonidine, and 50mg hydroxyzine

Feels alright I suppose, though dosing two nights in a row is arguably a poor use of limited drugs. That was pretty much the rest of my pharma xanax. My stash of cambodian valiums is extremely small. Etizolam will be Schedule I nationally banned within the next ~30-90 days for sure. It looks like I'll need to order a boat load of etizolam powder or pellets (likely powder) before it disappears forever, it ends up being hundreds of dollars per gram.

You will be missed, miss etizolam. You were always there when I needed you, kind of like the "light side" version of xanax, with pharma xanax being the "dark side." Flualprazolam was interesting to experiment with in limited quantities, but I'd be lying if I said I'm really going to miss it when it's also banned within ~30-90 days. It was a tolerance destroyer.

Stock up on your shit now guys. They'll be going after diclazepam one of these days, and phenazepam isn't that easy or cheap to source anymore. Some day we'll only have access to cLam/FlubroLam/FlubroPam.
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High Strung - Mon, 14 Oct 2019 11:13:48 EST /NXX0bfT No.147381 Reply
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>1.5mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls of OG

Columbus Day wakeup
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Graham Serrywill - Mon, 14 Oct 2019 22:12:20 EST EX73QyG+ No.147388 Reply
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Took 1200mg gabapentin. I'm fucking blasted and I feel so out of body and feel like I'm walking on air. Also, I have this IDGAF attitude and I feel so much more vocal and easygoing. Gaba like drugs are the best anti depressant for me and I love it!!

Bump bros and girls!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 02:16:26 EST pDyRe7aP No.147391 Reply
>>146252
Belated post from this weekend: 3mg alprazolam, 40mg diazepam (might have been has high as 60mg), 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and 50mg hydroxyzine along with a couple of drinks.
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Walter Clussledale - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 11:38:14 EST kjIsT/KT No.147399 Reply
>>147381
Ahhh... YES!! FINALLY.! Got my Alpraz refilled after 2 wks of chasing down doc for a refill and now feeling like the first time I began using it. Feeling a total 180 ° instantly after5 days of suffering for half a month of suffering this feeling. What a relief
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Chan - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 18:42:06 EST f3EIIuyY No.147401 Reply
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>>146252
Long time no post. Thought I would stop in with a nb. How is everyone? Trying to decide weather to take 1mg or 2mg Diazepam when I drop my taper again today or tomorrow. Any thoughts?

>4mg Diazepam
>20mg Methylphenidate IR

Soft sleep for a long day, let the those diazepines take the anxiety away.
A chill night for those with fright may the mellowness be felt with a a dose of a pharmaceutical pelt.

nb.
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Simon Dunningchuck - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 22:21:47 EST EX73QyG+ No.147405 Reply
Took 900mg gabapentin tonight and I'm feeling pretty good.

I'm getting my clonazepam refilled on Friday. Man I xant wait to get my hands on those!
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High Strung - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 22:58:05 EST /NXX0bfT No.147406 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
>2 bowls OG Kush

Now time to pop a couple of aspirin and hit the hay cuz my back is killin' me.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 16 Oct 2019 00:58:13 EST wsOFceLF No.147407 Reply
10mg diazepam, 50mg tramadol, and 50mg hydroxyzine for a 2+ hour class facilitation on major historical milestones in social psychological change this morning. My class had a fantastic discussion and today was much more in depth and rewarding than previous discussion-based courses.

50mg tramadol and 10mg cyclobenzaprine 4 hours ago.

50mg tramadol, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg hydroxyzine now. Likely, I'll take 10-20mg zaleplon and/or 10mg diazepam soon.

>>147401
I'd say go for the 2mg drop, but if you end up doing this be sure not to increase your dosage back to 4mg. Commit to either the 3mg dosage or 2mg dosage. But, I trust you know what you're doing with a thoughtful, slow, controlled taper.

Man, my doctoral program is FUCKING SAVAGE. Married life has its ups and downs. All in all, I'm happy.

How about you, Chan? What's good?
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Chan - Wed, 16 Oct 2019 05:15:39 EST f3EIIuyY No.147408 Reply
>>147407
>major historical milestones in social psychological change
I imagine this could be an extremely interesting topic to discuss, If you have the knowledge (Unfortunately I do not). Happy to hear it went well. Discussion based courses that lack any merit-able discussion I would imagine can be quite boring, no?

I've ended up going for the 2mg drop. Wanting to finish up this taper quickly, haven't had any WD symptoms because it is a taper as you described. They wanted me on a 1:1 replica of the Ashton manual taper, that's extremely slow though after the drop from 15mg to 12.5mg then to 10mg I pretty much feel like I'm taking sugar pills. Thankfully they trust me so they don't mind if I speed it up. Hoping to go 6mg to 0mg within a month. In essay mode a bit so apologies. It was interesting to see after the 20mg - 10mg drop that I became aware of the invisible wall that Diazepam had put up.

Glad to hear your happy overall, I can only imagine doctoral level studies while also having to do everything else in life, must be a lot of work but you seem to have the gusto to make it happen. So best wishes on completing your doctorate and hopefully married life has nothing but ups for you and your spouse.

Not much is good in relative terms but then again got to be grateful for what you have. Sunshine is only a day away, so I shouldn't dwell on a sky of grey. So always got that to look forward too. C'est la vie.
nb. sorry for the essay.
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Molly Pockford - Wed, 16 Oct 2019 22:12:40 EST EX73QyG+ No.147425 Reply
1500mg gabapentin

Feeling good tonight!
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David Dockledale - Thu, 17 Oct 2019 06:40:53 EST /zieo9cN No.147427 Reply
>>147407
Yuo're still posting about? how do you manage to balance these two lives? Your wife or schoolmates never noticed your slower speech etc?
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Reuben Blatherhall - Thu, 17 Oct 2019 11:09:33 EST c0naBhCl No.147428 Reply
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Pack arrived today, so I took a few mg of etiz after being sober almost all week. Been going through a heavy depression, so fuck it if self-medication can keep me sane. Also got diclaz I'm saving for tapering. And a handful of flualp's should come tomorrow. Drinking my coffee and enjoying a nice breakfast. I love the wave of normalcy that comes over me; like I feel more motivated now.

Unrelated: being a gay man is so difficult when you have a personality disorder that nobody understands. So tried of having every prospective date realize I'm someone they can't handle (when most times they're bipolar, anyway.)

I'm rambling.. Have a great day, y'all! Much love
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High Strung - Thu, 17 Oct 2019 23:36:10 EST /NXX0bfT No.147439 Reply
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2.5mg Clonazepam
1 joint of OG Kush
1 bowl Gorilla Glue

Now enjoying a goofy horror movie after work with a hot cup of squash soup on a chilly October evening.

Today was good, got another job offer to teach "business English" to Chinese commuters in either northern Beijing or Tianjin.... Still think I'm going with the original job offer teaching kids in central Beijing, but I'm gonna go forward with a second interview with them.
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Fuck Pimmerwotch - Fri, 18 Oct 2019 01:34:26 EST BKnPzaRX No.147440 Reply
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Hey everyone, new here
1g lyrica (high tolerance) I had 2mg clon before work, took another .5 just now a few hours later after the lyrica kicked in because I heard lyrica and benzos fuck you up so I'm trying to be careful because I've never had both at the same time

Pic related, me in about 3 hours minus the alcohol, never been a big drinker

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