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Bump While Benz'd (BWB): Blackouts, Brown-outs, Medicinal Successes, and Collective Amnesia, Pt. IX

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!KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 02 Dec 2019 07:02:45 EST wsOFceLF No.147800
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The old thread is not only no longer bumping, but is also out of date (Summer is long gone for those of us north of the equator). Several posters over the past couple of years have really stressed the importance of harm reduction and tapering guides to be pinned to the top of the board, but I have never seen any harm reduction thread pinned to the top of /benz/. As such, post when you're on benzos, have benzo or GABAergic questions not deemed suitable for their own thread(s), and whatever else you can conceive of when discussing benzodiazepines and their related drugs.

I would be remiss not to mention this thread, and board, are home to discussions of not only benzodiazepines, but also barbiturates, thienodiazepines (e.g. etizolam), RC benzos, gabapentin, pregabalin, Soma (carisoprodol), GHB and related analogues, phenibut, and other GABAergic drugs.

For the sake of safety, refer to the Ashton Manual for dosage conversions, medically advised tapering schedules, and other benzo-related facts (e.g. half-life, active metabolites, etc.). The Ashton Manual is essentially the benzo bible: https://benzo.org.uk/manual/index.htm

Medically safe rapid tapers involve a 10% dosage reduction per week or even per month. A modified version of this taper is to reduce dosages by a maximum of 10% per week (or month) until reaching 20% of the initial daily dosage. Upon reaching 20% of the original dosage, a person can then taper by 5% per week (or month) until their taper is complete. The main goal of tapering is to continue decreasing doses or at least remain at the same dosage for an extra few weeks or months rather than increase dosage. Tapering is a long and potentially deadly process with horrid withdrawal symptoms that can be mitigated by following medical guidelines and sticking to empirically reviewed taper schedules. Harvard University published a succinct, yet informative piece regarding CDC- and FDA-related guidelines for opioid tapering, which can be utilized for tapering benzos: https://www.health.harvard.edu/blog/undoing-the-harm-tapering-down-from-high-dose-opioids-2019051016622

BWB: 30mg diazepam, 20mg hydrocodone, 150mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, and a glass of wine. I'm about to take 10mg zolpidem and pass out.
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Phineas Clayville - Mon, 02 Dec 2019 20:04:08 EST 86LjTa31 No.147802 Reply
>>147800

Not much at all but it's a /benz/o so

>2mg lorazepam

I relapsed hard on the opioids last week and really craving some right fucking now, but trying to get my tolerance down a bit. Hopefully *some* kind of drug rides me over, hence the lorazepam
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 01:28:51 EST wsOFceLF No.147812 Reply
>>147800
By total accident I became rather benz'd after my morning class, but before my research lab meeting in the early afternoon. Shit, I arrived home and slept for 6 hours after dinner. i never nap.
This morning's combo of 20mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, 5mg hydrocodone, 50mg hydroxyzine, and drinking grapefruit juice daily must have caught up with my ass.

Taking another round of cyclobenzaprine, hydrocodone, and hydroxyzine now!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 07:26:31 EST wsOFceLF No.147819 Reply
>>147800
Grand daily total, my dudes.

40mg diazepam, 40mg hydrocodone (I think?), 40mg cyclobenzaprine, 1.5mg alprazolam, 150mg hydroxyzine, two glasses of wine, and a 1 fl.oz. shot of imported coconut rum. I feel fucking dandy as I am scoring WAIS-IV protocol for tomorrow (cognitive testing aka IQ testing) for class.
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Martha Tootham - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 07:51:51 EST cPeAbnkX No.147823 Reply
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>>147819
Dont know what that exsm is but good luck
Its unironically nice to hear folk on this bored doing well and also reassuring that someone else can stick in at school or whatever

I am starting my full time.profession in january and very anxious about either brainfog from my pregab/valium use, or withdrawl and anxiety about having a seozure from wds. Also supposed to start venlafaxine but ive just look lookin at th3 box
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dr. m - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 09:49:00 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147826 Reply
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>>147800
Well, I got a pack of ~700mg etiz, ~100mg+ 4-aco-dmt, ~50-100mg dpt, and maybe ~250mg 4f-mph. I don't have a scale as my living arrangements are really shitty and I'm moving to Asia in 6 weeks. I have no PG either to make volumetric solutions.

The 4f-mph was solid functional stim, but the whole "start with 10mg it's super strong" was total bullshit with my d-amph tolerance, even after a month without any. I ended up using like ~250mg rectally within 3-4 days. So I don't see how that's really all that affordable.


Anyways, first night I did a super, super conservative tooth pick "lick" but just the very bottom, and basically felt nothing. Then the next day I said fuck it and did several, maybe up to ~15-25mg etizolam total LOL. Shame on me!

Anyways, here's the kicker...I'm 99% convinced I consumed ALL of the 4-aco-dmt, ontop of two 125ug LSD tabs, as well as ALL of the DPT! I'm so pissed dude. I doubt I'll ever get to "try" DPT again the rest of my life.

Anyways, to ensure I don't almost totally fuck my life up again, I dissolved the remaining ~670-690mg etizolam in a bottle of 680ml 75.5% everclear, so it's basically 1mg/ml.

The only downside is there's no possible way I can smuggle it into Asia now lol, but that's probably for the best. I might just hide it in the atttic and scribble "POISON: NOT A JOKE: CONTAINS DEADLY DRUGS XANAX 0.5mg/ml" on the front with a scrapie in case anyone ever finds it.

Regardless, idk what the fuck is up with this etizolam, but it's not how I remember etizolam feeling. It's delusions of sobriety to the max. Maybe I'm not as anxious as I was years ago?

Anyways

>BWB/BWN/soon BWS
>2mg etizolam/4mg nasal bupe/d-amph once pharmacy opens in like 30-60 minutes
>60mg oral d-amph, about to top it up with 30mg rectal d-amph+4mg bupe

Anyone know anything about the benzo scene in Vietnam? I'm wondering if they're OTC like they are in Cambodia and somewhat Laos.
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John Gankinspear - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 19:33:57 EST vj34L+JL No.147831 Reply
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45mg temazeapam + a bowl of weed is just starting to set in, leave tomorrow to stay with friends from uni for a couple weeks, which will be great because I've only gotten to see them weekends here and there since I dropped out, got 27 more temmies to last me the week including giving some out/selling them, probably going to try to cop a lot of ecstasy while I'm there, listening to Madchester and a lot of other stuff i've done a lot of X to to put myself more in the mood for it, doesn't take a lot of convincing

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CQLAhNlbfQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gp6Wc9IQ1w0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dj3p9CI9QGE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UVwLhV1oY1c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lOy-VnJAFqw
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 05 Dec 2019 05:05:20 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147836 Reply
>>147823
The protocol I was scoring is the Weschler Adult Intelligence Scale (WAIS-IV). It is commonly given in a battery of tests to determine a person's I.Q.
In my course, my cohort is tasked with administering, scoring, and interpreting the results of these cognitive tests. So, we have to know the tests and manuals inside and out as well as being able to properly interpret results. Thanks for the well wishes! Really, the process is more tedious than difficult but ultimately enjoyable.

>Also reassuring that someone else can stick in at school
I have two degrees and am currently in doctoral studies. Several other long-term posters have bachelor's and even master's degrees. High Strung was in a PhD program as well.

>Starting my full time profession... very anxious about either brainfog
I can see where you're coming from. Brain fog is no joke and explaining the feeling to others who have not experienced it can be rather challenging. Best of luck with your new career endeavor. I truly hope you enjoy your profession.

nb
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Beatrice Dartspear - Thu, 05 Dec 2019 06:40:09 EST cPeAbnkX No.147837 Reply
>>147826
Interesting, let us know how you do on the test.
Do you benz for self-medicating or just to chill? Sometimes i think using them to chill is possibly safer than self medicating as when you self medicate it leaves the possibility of it never ending. I have a bachelors in science too as a paramedic and started on benzos when i was prescribed them 3yrs ago for a loved one's suicide.
I'm hoping to never touch benzos again now that i've started on venlafaxine but I swear it's been making me feel more anxious and uncomfy since starting it, benzos are not a solution but sometimes its so hard to move on.
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High Strung - Thu, 05 Dec 2019 19:02:42 EST /Jw4qVap No.147839 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
>1mg Alprazolam

Pizza delivery on the way. Trying to find someone in the area who has MDMA so I can do one last roll before quitting all psychedelics for good, but MDMA plugs are notoriously elusive and/or flaky.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 06 Dec 2019 00:57:33 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147843 Reply
>>147800
40mg diazepam, 20mg hydrocodone, 1mg alprazolam, 75mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 8 fl.oz. 100% grapefruit juice, a 12 fl.oz. 10.4% quad ale beeer, and 3 x 5 fl.oz. 13% wine. I think I might have a fourth and final glass of wine then take 10mg zolpidem if I still cannot sleep.

I wish I had some higher strength opiates, moderate uppers, and a nice bottle of single malt Scotch. Hopefully over holiday break I can procure some IR oxycodone 30mg tablets.
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Cyril Gazzleshit - Fri, 06 Dec 2019 14:35:02 EST 86LjTa31 No.147849 Reply
>40mg diazepam

Might take some suboxone and kratom later, maybe hit up the plug too. Got 3 days off and I'm feeling like a fiend
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High Strung - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 02:37:25 EST /Jw4qVap No.147852 Reply
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Total consumption today:
>7mg Clonazepam
(3 around 5pm, 4 around 2am)
>1.5mg Alprazolam
(at 2am)
-Pot of decaf English breakfast that I'm sippin' on right now

Refill Day. Have literally nothing to do tomorrow or Sunday except pick up the crib, so being still awake at 2:30am (and probably waking up at noon tomorrow) ain't shit. In my bed room, wrapped in a blanket, drinking tea, admiring the Xmas tree, and reading reading about the Shining Path of Peru because... I fuckin' can. Hope everyone else is feeling as laid back as I am.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 03:52:36 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147853 Reply
Hours before: 200mg cimetidine and 30mg DXM

Throughout the day, but mostly now: 40mg diazepam, 2mg alprazolam, 40mg cyclobenzaprine, 35mg hydrocodone, 100mg hydroxyzine, and a slow but study intake of beer (some 22 oz. dry Japanese bomber at a sushi joint) and pints of Mexican honey imperial lager (8.5% ABV).
After a bit I’ll probably drink this weird ass rum barrel aged imperial stout (10.8% ABV) and take one or two 10mg zolpidem.

>>147852
Fuck yeah, dude. Chill hard! This cold weather used to bum me out, but now I just put on a flannel shirt, make tea, and post up reading/watching movies.
I’m psyched as shit for winter break. There are several books I’ve wanted to get to since moving.

>Xmas tree
Do you still celebrate? I know you aren’t at your crib at the moment, but didn’t know if you still celebrated Christmas due to differing religious ideologies.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 05:37:30 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147855 Reply
>>147853
Sipping sleepytime tea (black berry + other vitamin laden fruits) and high ABV imperial stouts.
Add on 10mg diazepam, another 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and I am now staggering 400mg tramadol.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 06:07:59 EST z6tklF4p No.147856 Reply
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>>147800
Would have posted on/OPI/ but they've gotten kind of shitty with me over stash pics... Plus this pic is mostly benzos anyway. BWB + BWN my good people. They yellow and green caps are 5mg Librium, the red and blue are 30mg Temazepam and thebonebred and pink one a 15, there are also 3 Valium 10mg, a 10mg Mogodon, half mg Clonazepam, and a mg of Ativan.
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High Strung - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 06:45:24 EST /Jw4qVap No.147857 Reply
>>147853
Oh, didn't you pick up on the fact that I'm saying from Thanksgiving to New Year's with my mom and sisters? I don't leave for China until Jan 6!

While yes many Muslim theologians claim that Christmas is idolatry/polytheism, many others say that American Christmas is has become so secularized now that you can basically celebrating without committing idolatry against the Prophet Jesus (pbuh). And the Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said that the greatest thing you can do in the material world is spend time with your mother, so.... there you go.

I'm taking 3mg more Clonazepam and heading back to bed. I literally have nothing to do tomorrow except to do the dishes and call my ex-roommate so he can ship me something I forgot when I moved out, and he told me not to call him until tonight. So I can literally sleep, watch movies in bed, jerk off, and benz all Saturday. Woot.

Tomorrow I'm gonna smoke and eat some edibles one very last time with a buddy out in the wilderness. A farewell to arms, a farewell to cannabis... Oh well, at least the holidays are going well.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 06:52:03 EST z6tklF4p No.147858 Reply
>>147796
>Temazepam and thebonebred*

And the red and pink pills are 15mg Temazepam
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guardian_angel !LhwrleQFRU!!fAsQkk7h - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 08:20:31 EST tr3aPklk No.147861 Reply
On 40mg of diazepam and a coupe of silver haze spliffs.

Feeling good, waiting for my older brothers choir concert to start.

SLAYER
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High Strung - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 14:30:59 EST /Jw4qVap No.147865 Reply
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-Woke up at 1:00pm cuz I I have nothing (NOTHING) to do this weekend
-Threw on my sweatpants, sweatshirts, and a bed robe and head to McDonalds
-Get home, start gnoshin' down
>4mg Clonazepam
>0.5mg Alprazolam
-2 tall Monster White energy drinks

It's a good day to chill and just space out to the Christmas tree and chat with my friends in China. Hope everyone stays laid back today.
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McKush - Sat, 07 Dec 2019 22:58:01 EST fs5aF+hM No.147867 Reply
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>>147800
It turns out (900mg) gabapentin plus (260mg) Dxm feels like a better version of alcohol. I can't type. Yup, definitely no sleep tonight until the morning.

Dr. katz idk what the point is in taking that amount of hydroxyzine and cyclobenzaprine. I guess the cyclobenzaprine sedative effects go away after awhile.
Also, everyone on /weed is crazy. I actually feel very drunk-like.
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High Strung - Sun, 08 Dec 2019 00:17:22 EST /Jw4qVap No.147868 Reply
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>>147867
Indeed! As a fellow academic, benzo enthusiast, and love of cannabis, I am always flabbergasted as to how Dr. Katz is able to function in every day life while taking that many drugs multiple times a day. Having a wife, a day job, having excellent grades in school.... with a drug intake like that, I'd be completely HURR DURR DURR 24/7.

Anyways, I'm wrapping getting ready for bed around midnight with:
>4mg Clonazepam

-Vita Coco extra large bottle to watch it (and my other psych meds) down
-Tang Dynasty Chinese classic muisc ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWPS0AZKUeo ) if you wanna give it a spin
-In my robe and wrapped in a blanket reading a good book about the Chinese Civil War.

Perfect way to end an uneventful Saturday night.
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dr. m - Mon, 09 Dec 2019 01:15:55 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147873 Reply
>>147800
Been hard on the etizolam train for I believe 8 days now, consuming between ~2-8mg or so of etizolam per day depending, averaging around 4-5mg, not counting the single night of eyeballing like a mentally defective person and taking probably like 20-30mg+.

Unfortunately I have a UA coming up in a few days more than 2 weeks from now, so tonight is the last night of "large" doses, and only allowing myself a maximum of ~1-2mg etiz the next 2 days or so only if I actually get some sort of withdrawal effects. I need to pass this UA no matter what, and I wouldn't be surprised whatsoever if this company tests for etizolam. They test for fucking everything.

Even though it's not listed as one of the primaries+metabolites to check for, I just can't risk it.

>BWB approx 4.5-5mg etizolam
>1.5 glasses of wine
>60mg oral d-amph this morning and another 30mg rectal d-amph this afternoon
>4mg rectal bupe

Good news is I've found someone who can permanently commandeer my bottle of 151 that still has over 500mg of volumetrically dosed etizolam in it, and at a reasonable price too. Having any more than like ~10-30mg of this stuff around without an extensive lockout safe is just plain stupid.

>>147868
Depending on where you'll be in China, we should be only a few hours max apart by train within a month or two. I'm surprised you haven't joined us in the Discord.
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dr. m - Mon, 09 Dec 2019 02:55:44 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147875 Reply
>>147874
Dude what? Doing subutex/suboxone every damn day nasally just doesn't work, it destroys your nose entirely, and without getting into too much personal info, I have something to do with my mouth that results in way, way more than average salivation, so basically I get probably half or less as much out of sublingual bupe as the average person (more like 1/3 as much).

I only plug amph when I'm plugging bupe anyways in the same rig, typically if it's a redose or past noon so that the duration is a bit shorter so I can actually go to bed.

If bupe was orally efficient, I wouldn't need to fuck with any of that shit. Snorting ruins your lungs too.

I'll stick with my splitting up of sometimes nasal, sometimes rectal bupe man, thanks. As much as 12mg sublingual bupe was making me WD within ~20 hours, yet just 3-4mg rectal/nasal bupe and I'm right as rain. Now that I add a-l-c and chitosan to my rectal and nasal solutions as well, the BA is just absurdly superior.
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Reuben Sidgeham - Mon, 09 Dec 2019 18:47:46 EST EX73QyG+ No.147876 Reply
300mg lyrica

Will be kicking in soon. Going to have a good time.
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George Fuckinglock - Mon, 09 Dec 2019 19:50:47 EST EX73QyG+ No.147877 Reply
>>147876
Took another 75mg of lyrica. Up to 375mg now and I feel fantastic!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 10 Dec 2019 02:01:51 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147878 Reply
I'll bump, but I'm not really benz'd or nodding.
Diazepam, hydrocoodone, cyclobenzaprine, a pint of 8% Mexican mango lager, a shot of rum, and I'm brewing up a caffeinated blueberry/kombucha tea combo. It's finals' week, so I'm hitting the books/papers hard AF.

>>147874
>>147875
Personally, I put boofing up there with IV/IM administration. People are going to use whatever method with the highest BA and is the most utilitarian in nature. While I've never boof'd, iV'd, or IM'd any drug I don't necessarily look down upon it.
Different strokes for different folks.

>>147867
Both meds are taken as needed, which is fairly often. Both drugs are taken for their indicated purposes, and yes, the sedation does eventually wear off from cyclobenzaprine after a while. I used the drug for years and would still start to nod off after a few hours of being on 5mg to 10mg. Tolerance is a bitch though and outside of Soma (carisoprodol), I am not really sure which muscle relaxants are worth my time. Baclofen has a heap of side-effects I'm not comfortable with.

>what the point is
Reduction of muscle spasms/pain and reducing itchiness caused by opiates.

>>147868
Ah shit, big thanks, High Strung. Living how I do, you know, being in the middle of it all feels so normal. Then I talk to others briefly about my legal medicinal usage of drugs and they're fucking floored. During my master's studies I had a professor call me out and have a mini-intervention with administration. Admins didn't care as they knew of my medical history and I wasn't having any problems with my coursework, research, therapy clients, peers, or faculty. It was more so "Hey, if you need help let us know. But you seem fine."
But yeah, having a wife, health family/social life, keeping my grades up, etc. with my drug intake isn't always as bad as it seems. Idk. I don't want to ramble, but life really isn't that bad. We all need or want different medications/drugs for various ailments. One of these days I'll chomp down and hop on the medical weed train, but for right now (and the last decade), I'm comfortable where I'm at.
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George Fuckinglock - Tue, 10 Dec 2019 05:47:10 EST EX73QyG+ No.147880 Reply
Woke up an hour ago and I'm still feeling high from the lyrica I took last night. Damn I love this shit!

Bumpity bumping bumo!
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Blinkey Bill - Wed, 11 Dec 2019 00:04:30 EST JJWXzvnU No.147884 Reply
>>147826
Dont know about Vietnam my guy but in the philipinnes which is decidedly anti narcotic I just had to pay for a drs app and i got lyrica 300mg caps and 2mg kpins. I would say pay for a drs appointment.
Also it was the only way i could use infornt of my traditional catholic finacee at the time. good times , fucking military police every where early 2018 Negros
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High Strung - Wed, 11 Dec 2019 21:22:18 EST /Jw4qVap No.147889 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>3 bowls of Orange Kush
>5mg Melatonin

Today was a damn fine day. Went mountain climbing, then hiking on the trails around the mountain, then went and looked at the Christmas lights in the area while smoking some loud. Now it's time for 10th century Christmas chant on my Sennheiser HD650's, some manga, then bedtime. Hell yeah willie
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dr. m - Wed, 11 Dec 2019 21:43:03 EST Rt3E2wAH No.147890 Reply
>>147878
Do you truly feel like boofing deserves to be compared to IV/IM administration? It's basically nasal administration, but using a less sensitive, much higher surface area, blood vessel-dense mucus membrane, without absolutely any of the injection-related organ and cardiovascular damage. I don't personally think that's a fair comparison. Scientifically speaking, it's basically snorting stuff via your ass, lmao.
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David Clundlekick - Wed, 11 Dec 2019 22:09:07 EST 86LjTa31 No.147891 Reply
>30mg addderall
>4mg lorazepam

after about a week long opioid binge. I literally cannot stay sober
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 12 Dec 2019 02:27:26 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147892 Reply
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My dear, beloved fellow trips and anons,

This week is my first week of doctoral level finals. Yesterday, I told my wife I refuse to go through these sober (none of the finals are tests of immediate, semantic, or long-term memory recall outside of a final I had today regarding the interpretation of a battery of cognitive tests with result explanations, interpretations, and patient/client recommendations).

This afternoon: 10mg diazepam, 5mg hydrocodone, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 4mg ondansetron (I also might have taken 10mg cyclobenzaprine, but I do not remember).

8 hours ago: ingested a pint of U.S. domestic beer
1 hour ago: 15mg diazepam, 15mg hydrocodone, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and 75mg hydroxyzine ingested. I also had a pint of 5% U.S. domestic beer (I'm going cheap and weak since I'm on a shit fucking ton of Rx meds).
Now: A third pint of U.S. domestic beer. Also, I just brewed up a strong cup of ginger green tea, which probably has somewhere between 15mg and 30mg caffeine (two bags were brewed).
I picked up a six pack of this insane A Clockwork Orange inspired milk stout (8% ABV) this evening. I plan to have one or two throughout the night, but still be able to drive myself to campus to hand in my final by noon tomorrow (or, later on today Dec. 12th).

Sorry for the ramble. I'm uh, really feeling fantastic for the first time in a few weeks.

Pic related

>>147890
When I say "up there" I more so mean with the ritualization and preparation of the drug in addition to the often higher BA compared to oral, sublingual, buccal, and intranasal/insufflation ROAs. IV/IM usage without question has the most negative physical impact and highest level of physical dependency with administration/use. But, I know insufflation in itself is horrible for the sinuses, can lead to a deviated septum, lung problems, and other health ailments.
I do not want to seem like I am shitting all over boofing, no pun intended, but it is a more hardcore route to many experienced and naive drug users compared to oral/sublingual/bucal and intranasal administration. I would prefer boofing over IV/IM simply due to cardiovascular an organ damage, as well as collapsed veins and the like, but snorting stuff up the butt is definitely viewed as more "weird" and hardcore than every other method but IV/IM'ing unless you're with a crowd of people who prefer to stick needles in their veins and muscles rather than have prepped rectal solutions, which occurs but still blows my mind.
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High Strung - Thu, 12 Dec 2019 12:28:57 EST /Jw4qVap No.147894 Reply
>3mg Clonazepam
>1mg Alprazolam

Listening to an absolutely riveting, comprehensive (albeit utterly heartbreaking) 4-part podcast series about the Jon Benet Ramsey murder case while WeChatting with an old friend from my last trip to China who wants to "spend a weekend" with me when I get to Xian in January. She's quite the cutie. Mmm mmm mm.

>>147892
CONGRATS, KATZ! I'm rootin' for you, broseph! If I can do a thesis-turned-book while baked and benzed, I'm sure you can do it too!
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High Strung - Fri, 13 Dec 2019 18:49:46 EST /Jw4qVap No.147907 Reply
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Total load of today:
>4mg Clonazepam
>0.5mg Alprazolam

Now enjoying benzo-munchies-satiating pizza and continuing the Jon Benet Ramsey documentary podcast I mentioned earlier. I know I shouldn't be listening to these bad vibes like this.... but I'm utterly captivated.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 14 Dec 2019 04:02:17 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147909 Reply
Finals are done! Holy shit. I picked up a few boxes of nitrous oxide (98 whippets total) and binged them after completing my finals today. My wife was pissed when she arrived home and saw several boxes, charges, and a dispenser by me. Oh well. We'll talk about it tomorrow.

Much earlier: 7.5mg hydrocodone, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, a few beers, 98 nitrous chargers, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 10mg diazepam

Now: 5mg hydrocodone, 50mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 15mg diazepam, and fat mugs of sleepytime tea.

Finally, I got around to picking up Kate Bush's Hounds of Love after 13+ years of meaning to give the entire album a listen. Currently making my way through side A.

>>147894
Major thanks, High Strung! I appreciate the well wishes and confidence.
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Alice Chubberhall - Sat, 14 Dec 2019 06:55:43 EST RbGq1s9o No.147914 Reply
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>>147909
Holy shit man. Be easy. I know you're a smart dude but that level seems nuts even to me and I'm a dumb addict. 20mg cyclobenzaprine and you could even operate a charger without falling asleep is wild. Regardless of the flexeril, mixing opiates and benzos is not good news and I know you know that.

You're a great content creator on here and we'll miss you if you ever stop posting. Be careful man. The levels you're pushing yourself into are hard to bounce back from.
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Archie Picklepodging - Sat, 14 Dec 2019 23:42:55 EST 86LjTa31 No.147922 Reply
>>147800
>4mg bupe
>20mg diazepam
>1/4 of a 25mg thc edible
>120mg propranolol

I'm a rave kid and missed out on one tonight because my fucking dumbass was asleep... my boys were calling me trying to wake me up and everything and I just couldn't for some reason, and on top of that I had some awful dreams and my girlfriend is out of town. Feeling super fucking bummed out and sad, just want to get fucked up.

Have a good one guys.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 01:48:41 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147923 Reply
20mg diazepam, 20mg hydrocodone, 125mg hydroxyzine, 40mg cyclobenzaprine, and wine. The wife and I are sipping on a 2014 pinot noir while semi-binge watching the Netflix series “Unbelievable.” Finna have a couple beers in bit and maybe more benzos.

>>147922
Are you in the U.S., U.K., or Europe? And how old are you? I haven’t been to a legit rave in almost a decade. Raves became nearly non-existent in their traditional form between the late 2000s and early 2010s.

I’m buzzed, benz’d, and feeling myself —- so, I hope this doesn’t across as hostile. Your posts reminds me of teenage ravers.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 01:53:44 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147924 Reply
>>147914
Sorry for the scare. Truthfully, I do not want to worry anyone on here or in my family, academic, and social circles. I’ve been post-taper for around 3.5 months with PRN benzo usage and predominantly opiate usage.
I will be careful and maintain a decently level head with this shit. It’s easy to get caught up and such experiences become normalized.

If or when I completely stop taking drugs there’s a slim chance i wouldn’t still post up on some of my favorite boards. /benz/ has been a tremendous community for me over the years.

nb
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Archie Picklepodging - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 03:07:22 EST 86LjTa31 No.147925 Reply
>>147923

No offense taken, I get that lol. I'm from the U.S. and just recently started to raves in October and have just fallen in love. It was always a dream of mine to go to a "underground rave", a la illegal warehouse gathering or something, but I don't think those are a thing anymore.

I'm 23. Just really attached to my good friends and like I said, love raves and the whole vibe of it. I'm also a huge bitch when I miss out on things and get sad way too easily.
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Ebenezer Finderhood - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 03:46:50 EST cPeAbnkX No.147926 Reply
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>>147924
>If or when I completely stop taking drugs there’s a slim chance i wouldn’t still post up on some of my favorite boards. /benz/ has been a tremendous community for me over the years.
Just to echo this sentiment, it's been informative and supportive for me too and I'm hoping not to use benzos again however I will continue with my pregabalin prescription and still come here, also i've noticed your posts too Katz you helped me a few times cheers.
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High Strung - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 21:22:29 EST /Jw4qVap No.147934 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
>4mg Alprazolam
-5mg Melatonin
-Pot of chamomile-lavender tea

Have had an atrocious mental health day. As you can see I'm a little more benz'ed up than usual because the whole day has had been me wanting to simultaneously run a triathalon, do 1000 jumping jacks, scratch my skin off, cry my eyes out, and kill myself by overdosing on pills before garroting myself via a rope + plastic bag. I had to basically sedate myself all day and lay on the couch with family regularly checking in on me to make sure I wasn't going to hurt myself. Now I feel absolutely fine, I don't know what the fuck came over me!

Here's a picture of something that makes life worth living: my cat sleeping under the Christmas tree. It's like a Baroque painting.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 02:05:51 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147936 Reply
>>147934
Holy fuck, dude. I am really glad you shared, but this post has me worried. Are you good? I mean, actually okay besides being benz’d right now?

If you want to talk, there’s a link to the 420chan Discord at the top of the page. My handle is the same on there as here. If not, I totally understand. Here’s hoping your holiday season and outlook improve. Hang in there!

nb due to no benzos today
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High Strung - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 17:58:26 EST /Jw4qVap No.147940 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>4mg Alprazolam

A freak accident occurred where my sister's doctor double-filled her Alprazolam prescription with no extra charge so now we have like.... 60mg extra of Xanax to get us through the holidays. Needless to say, since all 3 of us siblings are benzheads, we're QUITE happy campers!

>>147936
Indeed brother, I don't.... I don't know what came over me. Bipolar Disorder II + GAD + PTSD is just one of those things, man. Well, I know what set it off, a friend of mine wrote a post of Facebook saying that he thinks people should have the right to commit suicide because it's their life and we should respect their decision, and suddenly my whole head was like "WELL SHIT HE'S RIGHT, IF I HAVE THE RIGHT TO KILL MYSELF, WHY NOT EXERCISE THAT RIGHT? IT'S MY LIFE! FUCK HAVING A SUCCESSFUL CAREER AND ALL THESE PEOPLE WHO CARE ABOUT ME" and that's when it all went downhill and had to dope myself tf up to not go through with it. Benzodiazepines are addictive and dangerous things, but they have staved off many a suicide attempt for me.

I'll hit you up on the Discord sometime soon so we don't have to blogpost back and forth all the time.
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Emma Hanninggold - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 18:19:21 EST YrsCejDu No.147941 Reply
5mg clonazepam about an hour ago

making some good food and enjoying a cigarette. completed my normal yoga routine and some meditation.

if i'm being honest i really don't like taking benzos because i've been physiologically addicted to them before, to a small degree, and it was pretty annoying coming off of. once in a while though i like to indulge and take a big unnecessary dose. a brain vacation of sorts.
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High Strung - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 20:32:29 EST /Jw4qVap No.147942 Reply
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Topping off the night with
>2mg Clonazepam
-5mg melatonin
-some lavender supplement

Some low-fat eggnog and listening to C.H. Graun's Christmas Oratorio. (Graun was a pupil of Bach's so this is chill af) Classical music and benzos are the best together on a chilly holiday evening.
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Alice Susslefuck - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 20:41:09 EST H5sgW35M No.147943 Reply
Giant ass panic attack disappeared
1 millie gam of ativan
It feels like i took 20 millie gams
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Graham Ficklewick - Tue, 17 Dec 2019 19:23:14 EST EX73QyG+ No.147946 Reply
Just got my kpin script filled.

Took 2.5mg clonazepam. Feeling chill as a motherfucker!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 18 Dec 2019 07:07:52 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147948 Reply
>>147800
Woke up to a nice, moderate panic attack. Quickly, I downed 5mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 5mg cyclobenzaprine, 25mg hydroxyzine, and 2.5mg hydrocodone.

My main academics have essentially wrapped up for the next month outside of practicum site applications and ongoing research, so I'm hyped as hell to do nothing but research and chill for the next handful of weeks.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 18 Dec 2019 07:16:44 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147949 Reply
>>147948
Holy shit. Fat ass update. All of my grades are in, and despite taking SIX FUCKING DOCTORAL CLASSES on top of major interpersonal family issues, my GPA is not completely shot. Shit'll be good for a minute.

Preemptively, but I'm placing it here. Here's a celebratory bump! Happy holidays and best wishes to everyone. I anticipate a nice combo of 20-30mg diazepam, 20-30mg hydrocodone, eating a grapefruit before and after dosing as well as 30mg DXM to keep my tolerance low, 20-40mg cyclobenzaprine, 100-150mg hydroxyzine, and a heavy seasonal stout are in order. Peace and love and all that hippy bullshit.
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Graham Ficklewick - Wed, 18 Dec 2019 14:34:33 EST EX73QyG+ No.147950 Reply
Took 2mg of clonazepam. Feeling quite chilled out
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Fucking Bebbertut - Wed, 18 Dec 2019 16:48:48 EST ZjKrFgGR No.147951 Reply
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>>147800
There was a thread like 3 weeks ago where I was talking with some fellow Brits about going to try and get myself a Diazepam prescription. Didn't work. I got a repeat prescription Tramadol, so I can't complain. I remember saying I'd tell you how it went down but like I mentioned, IDK which thread it was. So if you're out there, there you go bro.

pic related is some of the alleged 3mg presses I have. They're allegedly 3mg each so I like to take 1/3rd multiple times throgughout the day. I'll probably mix a few 300mg Gabapentins along side the multiple doses. I haven't blacked out but I do go on autopilot and may say something a little daft but it's never been obvious I was high. Hope you're all having a good one.
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Graham Ficklewick - Wed, 18 Dec 2019 18:44:05 EST EX73QyG+ No.147952 Reply
3.5mg clonazepam

Feeling good and chill; very laid back. Can't wait for my methadone to get here.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 19 Dec 2019 06:53:53 EST 6fGmZV4r No.147956 Reply
>>147800
Grapefruit (eaten), 15mg hydrocodone, 20mg diazepam, 0.5mg alprazolam, 75mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and a glass of wine. I might have a Moscow mule or milk stout in a minute, but I really can't drink like I used to.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Thu, 19 Dec 2019 13:01:45 EST hQYeohWD No.147960 Reply
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>>147951

Huh interesting I picked up 3 of the fake 2mg white bars and 2 of the green ones just like you have except I'm all the way in Midwestern Canada. My green bars look identical. I remember yesterday I took two of the whites to start... Got a very mild feeling from it so I decided to take the last white one (the white bars looked like they've been slowly disintegrating in my buddies pocket all day but the green ones were better pressed and more solid and survived the same pocket
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Matilda Wallyshit - Thu, 19 Dec 2019 22:33:49 EST adoMiWwT No.147961 Reply
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didn't take my morning dose, so now i'm having 1.5mg klonopin along with a bit of red vein kratom
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Edward Dipperdock - Fri, 20 Dec 2019 12:22:18 EST ZjKrFgGR No.147963 Reply
>>147960
Damn son, they do look identical. How do they break? Mine break very nicely with no crumbling either.

I bought 300 of them and only 9 arrived broken/chipped. They're very solid presses for sure and boy do they slap. Very interesting to see that in Canada. Wondering if it's from the same source.
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James Gevingstock - Sat, 21 Dec 2019 07:53:44 EST NL0qcp1B No.147973 Reply
>>147800
That book by helen ashton is bollox. When i was taking diclazepam and stopped i had mad troubles. My drug worker shunned the book off like i was asking him to read chil porn. No drug places do the detox the way the manual says they should.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 21 Dec 2019 15:30:50 EST 8g+QgZXk No.147975 Reply
>>147973
Isn’t this more of an issue with physician attitudes towards and procedures for tapering benzos rather than any problem with the Ashton Manual itself? Most of the problems people have with benzo cessation, when prescribed, are due to the fact of far too many doctors lacking formal training and knowledge of proper tapering techniques. Just because detox centers, procedures, and professionals aren’t privy to using Dr. Ashton’s guidelines doesn't equate to the guidelines being shit.

>When I was taking diclazepam and stopped
Well, diclazepam is an RC benzo so medical professionals more often than not will have zero clue what the drug is. Too, the medical community already has a bias against legally sanctioned benzo usage, but especially when people are using non-prescribed and non-FDA approved drugs. Even if you had a script for lorazepam and wanted a proper detox you would have to really fight for it in addition to possibly switching doctors multiple times until finding one willing and able to adequately taper benzos.

nb - no benzos today
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High Strung - Sat, 21 Dec 2019 23:13:59 EST /Jw4qVap No.147976 Reply
3mg Alprazolam

Falling asleep to This Mortal Coil like a good oldgoth
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dr. m - Sat, 21 Dec 2019 23:19:37 EST UOwPxq3y No.147977 Reply
>>147800
BWB

>50 oral d-amph this morning + 25mg plugged d-amph just after noone
>4mg plugged buprenorphine alongside said 25mg d-amph
>coming down, ~11 hours since last stim dose
>roughly ~6-7mg oral etizolam, might add 0.5-1mg etizolam solution to my last rectal bupe dose of the day primarily to sterilize my equipment since I don't have any other everclear around

First etiz dose in I want to say maybe 2 weeks, maybe more. Feels good, and I can definitely feel it, but I'm confident that if I had taken ~3-3.5mg pharma xanax instead, I'd be under the table right now.

Regardless, I'm feeling great, and honestly I'm considering a late night pseudo-speedball of maybe ~30mg d-amph IR and 8mg bupe IR+pinch of a-l-c+sprinkle of NAC, ontop of the rather high etizolam dose, for some comfy tv watching until 2-3:30am.

Yeah I'll go with that. I love ya benz, but not too often. You're not as forgiving as booze in terms of tolerance.
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Cornelius Lightson - Mon, 23 Dec 2019 01:39:42 EST zWM3ezjc No.147983 Reply
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>>147800
Scored 6mg xanax by the skin of my teeth a litte after noon today. Took 1mg around 2pm followed by a small dab, which was my lasy point of shatter, then went into work from 3-11pm.
Scored an eighth of some more shatter and a couple suboxone from coworker/drinking buddy while at work (i'm a ex dope fien tht kicked thru boxone then weined off so now wen i take a strip i get i nice light buzz).
After i clocked off i took another 1mg xanax before leaving the parking lot, got home 10mins later cuz traffic is fucking awesome at 11pm on sundays. I threw 4mgs suboxone under my tongue & took a shower follwed by some more shatter and a light dinner cus im refusing to give into the munchies lol.
Bump while Benz'd, Opi'd-ish , & Baked. Sorry for the rant, just love waking up with no drugs and ending the day with three different ones and little cash left over
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 24 Dec 2019 22:13:36 EST /xCHYmXq No.147989 Reply
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35mg diazepam, 2mg alprazolam, 25mg hydrocodone, 125mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, and 4 x 6fl.oz. glasses of wine. I took 20mg DXM before opiates this morning to help with my tolerance. Swag, swag. More booze needs to be added, imported rum, of course. A childhood friend of mine, who my wife and I are visiting for the holidays, has a bunch of high quality bud/dabs and benzos --- also has a script from clonazepam. Finna pop another 0.5mg to 2mg alprazolam, 10mg hydrocodone, 100mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and 20mg diazepam. Possible clonazepam (not actual) bump later.
Potential total: 55mg diazepam, 4mg alprazolam, 35mg hydrocodone, 225mg hydroxyzine, 50mg cyclobenzaprine, __mg clonazepam, and several bottles of wine and shots of imported white rum.

>>147983
d-d-damn, I am kissing styrofoam. Shout out and R.I.P. to Le Peep.
Drugs will probably be the beginning, or at least a catalyst, of my demise. Fuck it.
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Hamilton Hurringkat - Wed, 25 Dec 2019 01:04:43 EST GrRQ2D/D No.147990 Reply
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>>147831
god damn Bez looks so fucked up in that lmao, like the platonic ideal of being absolutely destroyed
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Lillian Hambletare - Wed, 25 Dec 2019 04:15:27 EST sQE9jZdW No.147991 Reply
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took 1mg klonopin 6 hours ago. got a panic attack for the first time in months and got convinced i was going to seize out. freaking out, i took 1.5mg more around 4 hours ago. i am not supposed to do that, and i don't plan on repeating this anytime soon. but i enjoy the relief. goodnight.
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Nathaniel Gimmerkut - Wed, 25 Dec 2019 12:03:19 EST ZTL1N5Hn No.147993 Reply
>>147991
I had a decent Dr and was prescribed as needed. So k-pins were a bit more, as needed. No issue, really. Taking a bit more. If one were boxed in to taking as ascribed, exclusively, they are controlled by the drug.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Wed, 25 Dec 2019 13:44:47 EST wRfL43X9 No.147994 Reply
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The best Christmas' are the ones you never remembering. Merry Christmas /Benz/ love u guize. Valium, Ativan, Lectopam, Temaz, Clonaz, Mogadon, and a 10mg Dex to keep me from falling asleep.probably throw a few Baileys and coffee in there even though this may be the only day this year I attempted to drink
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Lillian Cevingforth - Thu, 26 Dec 2019 03:34:52 EST qA9VnOH6 No.148001 Reply
long time lurker, first time poster

currently on: 2mg xanax (like 3 hrs ago), a 40oz, 7g Red Bali Kratom, 2 lines coke.
Planning to stay up for a few lines taking lines and crash after a bit with a few xans.
love this community, hopefully one day I'll be an active and contributing part of it
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Lillian Cevingforth - Thu, 26 Dec 2019 07:43:16 EST qA9VnOH6 No.148002 Reply
>>148001
bump, 4mg xans kicking in hopefully ill be able to sleep soon lmao
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Walter Pessleten - Thu, 26 Dec 2019 20:18:12 EST XEooMNwD No.148006 Reply
>>147994
i would not kick the Mogadon in between. Just a thought.
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Walter Pessleten - Thu, 26 Dec 2019 21:03:13 EST XEooMNwD No.148007 Reply
>>147994
The bottom to the left look like tuinal. But they aren't.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 27 Dec 2019 22:09:03 EST wRfL43X9 No.148012 Reply
>>148006
spaced it out over the 24th and 25th. On the 24th I took 330mg of Kadian (morphine) and 100mg Methadone + 6mg Lecotpam, 20mg Valium, 1mg Ativan, the .5 of clonaz, and maybe between 15 to 20mg Temaz. It was a Kristmas Kadian and a Merry Mogodon. I took the other mg of Ativan, the 10mg mogodon, and the ~45mg of temaz Christmas day.

>>148007
I wish those temaz were tuinal.. Do they even make that stuff anymore? Closest i've ever found was fiorinal which I honestly found to be kind of dumb with some shit side effects. Again sadly, was born in the wrong time.

Anyway BWB + BW(kinda)N took 12mg Clonaz, 10mg Librium, 200mg of Kadian and 70mg methadone.. feelin' well enough. Missed two days at the Kadian clinic (think methadone clinic) and they cut my dose down 40% since I used to be on 550mg. Have to wait until Sunday before the start titrating me back up so I've been going out of my head buying up all the opis and benzos I can get a hold of. I'm sure my clinic will understand when my urine screen comes up positive for literally every marketable benzo available in Canada lol.
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Jarvis Clummershit - Sun, 29 Dec 2019 06:43:39 EST ZjKrFgGR No.148015 Reply
>>147800
Took a couple of UK pressed Valium (so in all likeliness just Etizolam). I've heard these ones are 0.5mg so I took probably 1.5mg + a 300mg gabapentin within 3 hours or so just so I didn't black out and had the best sleep I've had in a while. Totally KO'ed after I took a dab and my head hit the pillow. Feeling nice and refreshed today, going to not touch the benzos for a while because I wanna drink like an animal on NYE. Cheers, hope you're all good <3
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 02:00:19 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148018 Reply
>>147800
45mg hydrocodone, 400mg cimetidine (for potentiation), 90mg DXM (opiate tolerance maintenance), 150mg hydroxyzine, 75mg DPH, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 2mg clonazepam, 20mg diazepam, and 2mg alprazolam. A nice milk stout sounds nice, but I don't want to die.

BWB /// BWN
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Beatrice Blatherridge - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 15:30:28 EST OVxL0V9L No.148022 Reply
>>147800
I got some "etizolam" but it's making my tongue numb and tastes bitter still definitely a benzo but idk what it is it looks like coke
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Beatrice Blatherridge - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 15:40:41 EST OVxL0V9L No.148023 Reply
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100mg etizolam
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 23:53:26 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148025 Reply
>>147800
Calm before the storm: 8% imperial cold pressed coffee stout and two glasses of tea.

55mg diazepam, 80-150mg hydrocodone CWE (mostly fine, but I spilt and filtered some of the yield as well as giving my wife a few sips... no, moderate to high benzo doses and CWE do not mix well), 3mg alprazolam, 100mg hydroxyzine, 40mg cyclobenzaprine, around 60-75mg DXM throughout the day (for cough and tolerance maintenance), two x 16 fl. oz. cold pressed coffee stouts (8% ABV), a Moscow mule (1.5 fl. oz., ginger beer, a dash of line juice, and a few dashes of aloe drank), and LOTS of tea. Finna take some DPH, another 10mg hydrocodone, and 10-20mg cyclobenzaprine.
Peace and love in the new year. I will be PISSED as FUCK if I wake up in the hospital.
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Shitting Dovinglock - Wed, 01 Jan 2020 00:28:10 EST SPjm0Fzz No.148026 Reply
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BWB! Ringing in the new year on 3mg xanax, ~half g of shatter, and 1.5g's coke.

Spread out the xanax today over 6ish hours cus i had a bad experience last week on xmas eve while celebrating with my girlfriends family. I downed 7mgs xanax spread thru a 6hr period and had several drinks and a couple small dabs within the same time frame. My girlfriend said i had 6 shots and 2 beers, I was blackout forsure but i dnt think it was that many drinks cus my tolly is super low to both benz and alcohol so that much in that time frame would have put me to sleep standing up.
I was slurring a slight bit but her family chalked it up to the eggnog. I saw her family a few days later and they treated me totally normal and politely.

But the next day, xmas day, i was so hungover from the xans and the booze. I had to celebrate with my family so i went over at 10am (hazy af) to exchange presents with my mom before everyone else got there. I puked twice while sitting around the tree trading present with my poor mom. I passed out on the couch till my family got there at 2
My fam could all tell i was sick as a dog. I hung out with them for 6 hours cus i figured they're my family, i hardly see them, i can suffer through for a few hours. I had to go to the bathroom to puke like evry hour cus all my family drinks and the smell of liquor was killing my stomach. Luckily they believed i was just hungover from the night before

Sorry for the rant
TL;DR be careful mixing xans and alcohol, i was lucky to have a shitty experience and not a life threatening one
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Shitting Hingertare - Wed, 01 Jan 2020 20:04:21 EST EX73QyG+ No.148027 Reply
1500mg gabapentin

Feeling good mofugga!
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Shitting Hingertare - Wed, 01 Jan 2020 22:34:46 EST EX73QyG+ No.148029 Reply
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>>148027
Took another 300mg gabapentin. Feeling fantastic and feeling great!

Bumpity bump
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Fiend !!1C9jE+w+ - Thu, 02 Jan 2020 14:15:37 EST GT4DTsCx No.148031 Reply
>>147800
As usual on New Years I did too much Molly (in addition to L and K), and as usual now I have to deal with Molly comedown.

As coping mechanism:
> 20mg Diazepam
> 1200mg Gabapentin (or maybe 1500?) slow dosed
> Sweepsies of whatever Ketamine I can find

Don't feel great, but don't feel like dying.
BW on Gabanergics.
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High Strung - Thu, 02 Jan 2020 23:29:57 EST /Jw4qVap No.148033 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam and a cup of hot chocolate

Fuckin' fuck, shouldn't have watched the news before bed. Refill Day tomorrow thank fuck.
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James Worthingforth - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 00:06:03 EST XiHqRv0i No.148034 Reply
anyone else just not mind some of the things they say on benzos? i have pretty bad social anxiety and it really helps me actually say the things i want to to my friends that i'm too shy to say even though i know they really care about me, and some times my apparent aloofness comes of as indifference towards them and it breaks my heart and it's so good to actually put these heartfelt messages to people i care about, and most times i get pretty positive responses even though there's not enough benzos in the world to totally kill my anxiety after I send those messages, i'm getting better at it but i wish i could be this way all the time, and I think with therapy I really am but it's still so good to let it out and keep in touch with people, i get so lonely sometimes

and also, i think it helps me too to cut through a lot of the self-loathing i get from the depression side of my bipolar and really accept myself and i get in this headspace where i can actually process things and usually those realizations stick, albeit with a lot less salience

this might sound crazy but has there ever been a thing like MDMA psychotherapy where you get a heavy dose of anxiolytics and just go through it? when ever I take a bar before the DBT group sessions I go to 3 times a week for BD and GAD that I can really open up and also listen to peoples struggles and relate to them
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High Strung - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 01:18:44 EST /Jw4qVap No.148035 Reply
>>148033
Reupping with 2mg Alprazolam with some chamomile tea too, yaaaay.
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High Strung - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 13:10:42 EST /Jw4qVap No.148039 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>1mg Alprazolam

>>148034
It's a double-edged sword. Benzos definitely help me- a person with Bipolar Disorder II- let down my defenses and help me feel less self-conscious about certain conversations, but I'm seen some people become raging assholes on benzos because it causes them to lack restraint about what they saying.

For example, my ex was briefly on benzos for a while and her doctor eventually took her off because she had absolutely NO filter when she was on them and would just say the snottiest, shittiest, meanest things to me, her friends, and her parents. Said shit that made her mom cry. Absolutely did not give a fuck about what she said or did.

So yeah, be careful with how many benzos you take, cuz you might get verbal diarrhea and end up in a foot-in-mouth situation.
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James Worthingforth - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 14:41:09 EST XiHqRv0i No.148040 Reply
>>148039
i get that on alc but no other gabaergics, it's the other way around with them
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High Strung - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 18:21:37 EST /Jw4qVap No.148041 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
>0.5mg Alprazolam

Just swung by the pharmacy to pick up my refill and it feels so good. Now I'm heading out to get some damn good sushi at the best Japanese restaurant this side of town to counteract the inevitable benzo munchies.

Hmmm, what benzo do y'all think causes the most intense benzo munchies?...
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Oliver Parrymack - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 18:48:00 EST Hh+025Al No.148042 Reply
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>>147800
BWB on 1,75mg of a Schooln diazepam analog - Phenazepam.
I'm staying at home for the week, nothing to do except hash and benzos, I'm long gone from doing opioids in general, Tramadol was my drug of choice. Eventually I developed some tolerance etc. and that lead to me trying to IV Methadone and nodding off almost unconscious. I don't touch opioids ever since, only doing Gabapentin and smoking hash, sometimes taking a benzo or DPH to sleep.
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High Strung - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 22:08:41 EST /Jw4qVap No.148045 Reply
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>>148041

Damn good sushi, now I'm enjoying my refilled scrip...

Upon opening my pills, I popped 2mg more of the above Clonazepam, bringing me to a total of
>6mg Clonazepam
-2 Monster energy drinks

Planning to stay up until 3:00am or so because I have jack shit to do tomorrow except shoot out an email to the Chinese embassy (which will be closed), since it's gonna be thunderstorming all fucking day. Gonna continue to benz out while making That green curry and taking notes about Sufi dervish Quran commentary. So if I end up sleeping to noon or 1pm I will miss absolutely nothing. Woot.

Man do I miss weed, but alas, at least Clonazepam and Alprazolan are still legal and easy to score in China.
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High Strung - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 02:15:15 EST /Jw4qVap No.148047 Reply
>>148045
Okay, last bump of the night at 2:15am.... not that I have anything to do tomorrow except write up an email that can wait until 8:00pm... If I sleep until 1pm tomorrow it's not gonna mean shit.

So we at:
>6mg more Clonazepam
>7mg Melatonin
-a big bottle of Vita Coco coconut water

Reading some medieval Quranic commentary and looking over Crusader maps of the Holy Land for funsies. Woohoo, Middle Ages fun. Also wrapped up in a new comfy throw blanket that compliments the benzo high absolutely perfectly. I *highly* recommend benzos and a blanket on a cold, stormy night.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 03:28:55 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148050 Reply
>>148042
45mg hydrocodone (CWE’d), 30mg diazepam, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 50mg DPH.

>>148045
>>148047
Much love, my guy. Sleep in and enjoy that ish.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 04:54:08 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148051 Reply
>>148050
Add on 100mg Seroquel IR, 3mg eszopiclone, and 50mg tapentadol IR.
There is the potential I may take another 3 to 6mg eszopiclone and more Seroquel IR, but we will see. Until then, sipping red wine and consider life.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 06:48:57 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148052 Reply
>>148051
Shit. All of the aforementioned drugs plus an unknown muscle relaxer. And, boofed 30mg morphine sulfate. Boofing is NOT a fun experience whatsoever, but it went well for the first time. I’m high as shit and feel a nod coming on.
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High Strung - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 09:49:47 EST /Jw4qVap No.148054 Reply
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Ended up stayin up till 6am watching Netflix with mom after sending the last of my documents for my China work visa. And yes, I woke up fit as a fiddle after 2.5 hours of sleep and a fuckton of Clonazepam.

Now waking up with up 4mg of Clonazepam, an energy drink, and some grapefruit juice. Might go back to bed, Might not, depends on how I ride this out and if the book I'm reading is exciting enough. 2mg extra will certainly be in the cards this evening, maybe some muscle relaxers. I dunno, we'll see how I feel.
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High Strung - Sat, 04 Jan 2020 13:02:57 EST /Jw4qVap No.148055 Reply
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>7mg Clonazepam
-Ice white chocolate mocha from Starbucks
-Maybe an energy drink if I still need to balance out drowsiness from the Clonazepam

Woke up at noon at binge-watching a British crime drama and reading more medieval Arab theological and alchemic texts until 6am. Now about to kill off some Bosnian halal meat pies (thank you, Muslim Bosnian ex-mother in law, for introducing me to Yugoslav food). Benzo munchies straight from Bosnia woot woot.
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Benzofury !tnQXN4zrOI - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 00:45:23 EST JcTSiBNX No.148058 Reply
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>>147800

Got 30mg hydros coming to me with my weed tomorrow, so I'm just relaxing off 6mgkpin tonight, some weed, and about 400mg caffeine.>>147800
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Beatrice Gendlebick - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 10:26:14 EST aYSxG+kj No.148059 Reply
>>147800
I injected pregabalin. No rush. All hits pretty quick and strong tho. Really dumb I won’t do it again. I’ve put worse shit in my veins tho for sure
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High Strung - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 11:42:16 EST /Jw4qVap No.148060 Reply
>>148055
5mg Clonazepam
3 cups of coffee to keep alert and not too DERP DERP DERP and concentrate on/retain what I'm reading about.

Overall, a good (if rather biased) book about the Peruvian Civil War of 1980-2000 (or, if you're nitpicky, 1980-present). I'll be home alone the rest of the day and I'm only 2 more away from China so I'm feeling great.

Benzo munchies might kick in soon and I might need some Bosnian burek to throw in the over. Goddamn Clonazepam munchies!
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Beatrice Gendlebick - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 13:44:30 EST aYSxG+kj No.148061 Reply
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>>148059
then I did it twice more (600mg) and just popped 6 x 300mg (1800mg) pills. This should be a fun evening. Also yes diazepam 10mg.
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Augustus Sabbershit - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 17:25:13 EST EX73QyG+ No.148062 Reply
1800mg gabapentin and an energy drink. Watching the witcher and damn is that the best show since game of thrones!? It reminds me so much of elder scrolls.
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High Strung - Sun, 05 Jan 2020 22:47:56 EST /Jw4qVap No.148063 Reply
>8g Clonazepam

I need to slow down, I had some good pizza but now I'm totally incoherent. Time for some melatnonin to top off being bezn'ed out and go have into a cometose sleep.

Time to hit the lights. Good night kids.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 06 Jan 2020 01:18:32 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148064 Reply
>>148063
Easy there! 8mg is a monster dose. Be safe and make good decisions.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 06 Jan 2020 01:20:33 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148065 Reply
>>148064
Accidentally submitted:
30mg diazepam, 25mg hydrocodone, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 75mg DPH, booze, and 200mg cimetidine. I might try to CWE 15-25mg hydrocodone real quick or take another 20-30mg diazepam. Not sure. I just took the pills, so time is of the essence. Happy 2020, everyone.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 06 Jan 2020 01:32:06 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148066 Reply
>>148065
add on another 20mg diazepam, 10mg hydrocodone, and 10mg cyclobenzaprine. Depending on how itchy I get I'll take 50mg hydroxyzine in the next 2 to 5 hours.

nb for recent bump
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 06 Jan 2020 02:51:28 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148067 Reply
>>148066
Add on 8mg tizanidine, 2mg clonazepam, 15mg morphine ER, and more booze.

nb
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Hannah Sirrylet - Mon, 06 Jan 2020 08:11:05 EST YEjaOXE6 No.148068 Reply
>>147800
1mg lorazepam. Feels relaxing, but did fuck all to help me sleep on my red eye flight. Whatever drugs those people who can sleep upright are on...I want them.

Going to be drinking coffee all day to fight the sleep deprivation I guess.
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Polly Turveyworth - Wed, 08 Jan 2020 06:23:59 EST 86LjTa31 No.148078 Reply
>>148068
>lorazepam
>1mg

lmao fucking amateur, also it's not a drug for sleeping retard
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Jenny Funningmire - Fri, 10 Jan 2020 21:11:38 EST EX73QyG+ No.148084 Reply
Took 300mg lyrica. Feeling quite good.
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Fuck Sannershit - Sun, 12 Jan 2020 13:13:52 EST aYSxG+kj No.148087 Reply
>>147800
So I think I took around 150mg of MSJ blues and just took 70mg of real deal 5mgs. My tolerance is through the roof. I don’t seem to get any positive effects any more. I can take 10-20mg a day to stop withdrawal but I can’t get high any more. To be honest I’m just trying to wipe myself from existence due to a hangover after a relapse but it’s not working. I just feel drowsy. I wish I had not discovered pregabalin recently cos I could sure go for that but then I’ll just be dependent on that and Valium 5 years down the line. But god the pregabs are so much better. Honestly wouldn’t mind some heroin despite it fucking my life up every time - but hey, maybe I’m not cut out for the hard life.
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(Hey boys and girls is this your frisbee?) - Mon, 13 Jan 2020 00:41:00 EST rFpXtJkl No.148088 Reply
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>>147800
70434803 #2300A.D.

Heh.... nothing
>_♩♢ 𝓪𝐦𝓪𝐘ÃⓚάŞα яᗴ𝕥乇 Ⓢ𝕆đ𝐀𝐭ⓣα кOđ𝕆𝓶o ŜĦō𝐊ōⓖⓤ几 𝔴𝔞, я𝓎ōѕнI几 𝔤à ι𝓴Ҝ𝕒ή s𝓗ι𝔱𝒶, 𝐧є𝐍я乇𝕚 𝓷ι tⒺ𝐤Iѕᕼ𝐈丅𝕒 𝓼𝓔ƗᎶ€η 𝕆 𝒿i𝔰𝕤𝒽I ᵈᗴҜιnA𝓲 kⓞᵗ𝔬 ℕⓘ 𝔨𝐢𝐈𝓝 𝐬Ữŕ𝐔, 𝓴卂ᗪ𝓸 𝔫𝕆 נI𝓀𝐎 Č卄ūŞʰⒾⓝ-Tᗴ𝓚𝔦𝓓Ẹ ⓜίןยҜⓤ𝓷𝔞 ⓚō𝓭ō 几Ⓘ үỖt𝕋𝑒 𝕋𝐨𝐤ᑌςнō∂𝔷ỮKε 𝓻ARⒺ𝕄ᵃร𝔲. Ỗ𝐘α ⓝ𝐨 𝐊𝔼ᑎ𝔢ภ 𝑜 𝒽Ꭵ𝓴Ⓘ𝐎𝓀όs𝕦 𝕞𝓸NĐα𝔦 ᑎⓄ Ќō๔ō 𝐧๏ ōK𝕦 山𝐀, 𝕋ᵉᵏ丨ⓈEţˢ𝕌 ℕƗ 𝐫ⓘк𝐚ⓘ S𝓐 я𝐄𝕋乇 ⓘ𝓇𝐮 𝓎ō ⓝ𝐢, Ⓝ𝕖𝔱𝔸ᵇⒶя𝑒 𝔱σ Ŵà ᗰ𝓾𝓚ⓐήЌ𝑒𝐢D𝓔𝔰υ. 🐊🐯
User is currently banned from all boards
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Sidney Dummerbury - Wed, 15 Jan 2020 20:48:57 EST EX73QyG+ No.148098 Reply
3mg clonazepam after a month t break

Feeling great tonight!
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Sidney Dummerbury - Thu, 16 Jan 2020 13:03:43 EST EX73QyG+ No.148102 Reply
2.5mg clonazepam

Feeling good on this lovely and sunny day :)
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Sidney Dummerbury - Thu, 16 Jan 2020 15:32:18 EST EX73QyG+ No.148104 Reply
  • 3mg clonazepam
  • 1200mg gabapentin

Feeling really fucking good. Let the train keep rolling!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 16 Jan 2020 16:18:06 EST uwQGTehz No.148105 Reply
>>147800
Finally, after 1.5 months with minimal benzos I finally have that shit up and going.
10mg diazepam this morning and yesterday morning. God damn, PRN usagefeels good. Also, I found a pressed bar in a sweater pocket the other day. No clue how it got there or how long it had been chilling. I’ll probably take it this weekend or save it for emergencies.
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Sidney Dummerbury - Thu, 16 Jan 2020 16:23:16 EST EX73QyG+ No.148106 Reply
>>148104
Up to 1500mg gabapentin. Should be feeling it soon. Going to have a gand ol' time today :)
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Doris Fuckingstock - Fri, 17 Jan 2020 07:37:33 EST EX73QyG+ No.148109 Reply
  • 1.5mg clonazepam
  • 1500mg gabapentin

Feeling great this morning!
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Hamilton Shakeman - Fri, 17 Jan 2020 16:53:39 EST 2nDr+FD+ No.148110 Reply
Ate 20mg of diazepam and I kind of regret it. I always forget how bad of a mood benzos put me in if I don't have weed or opiates to mix with it. Just turns all my anxiety into rage and hatred if I don't have something euphoric to balance it out. I used to love benzos, but now it's always a bad time if I do them without other drugs.
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Eliza Siddleback - Fri, 17 Jan 2020 23:11:17 EST 4HCo1Vnc No.148111 Reply
>>148110
Take a lower dose? Same thing happens to me with too much diazepam. it is a depressant
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Simon Pumblefield - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 08:08:51 EST PusCqQ1j No.148112 Reply
Just got a script for Hydroxyzine to counteract the itching I get from another medication and also allergies. I don't visit this board often, so I'm trying to figure out why so many of you are taking it with benzos. Is it just a potentiator? Google isn't helping me out here, I've been searching for the last half hour and am seeing many mixed answers. Thanks for any answers.
Anyway, just got off work and downed
>90mg temazpam
would the inclusion of some hydroxyzine help out? thank you benzed bros
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Cornelius Donderville - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 14:47:13 EST EX73QyG+ No.148113 Reply
1500mg gabapentin

Its kicking in now. Ah what a fine saturday afternoon.
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Cornelius Donderville - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 15:41:54 EST EX73QyG+ No.148114 Reply
>>148113
Took another 300mg. Up to 1800mg now. Feeling great!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 16:56:53 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148115 Reply
Diazepam, hydrocodone, hydroxyzine, cyclobenzaprine, and a saké bomb.
I might take 2mg alprazolam later with a glass of wine or a nice stout.
BUMP!

>>148112
Synergy, yes. Potentiation, no.
I take hydroxyzine with opioids, but it is a great antihistamine on its own. A good deal of Western doctors prescribe hydroxyzine as an anxiety medication.
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Shit Bogglelare - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 18:43:25 EST 86LjTa31 No.148116 Reply
>45mg Adderall IR
>20mg diazepam
>3mg suboxone

What a day this was..
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Simon Fuckingwell - Sat, 18 Jan 2020 21:06:59 EST VSM1fhal No.148119 Reply
Dumb qustion about cross-tolerance, I've always had a high tolerance for just about everything from ibuprofen to booze.

I'm on an ssrn and take amitryptyline occasionally at nights to sleep, been prescribed alprolozam, lorazepam, and diazepam at different points in the past (never together though) and recently got re-scripted for diazepam. I use them in certain general anxiety (diagnosed) situations as needed and sometimes on weekends i'll do 20-30mg without anything else because just being that relaxed is an amazing feeling in a life otherwise filled with anxiety and dread

My new doc seemed skeptical about even giving me a script of 20 10mg tablets (no refills) and I have no idea how to explain that even from a baseline tolerance after going long periods with 0 benzo use I need at least 10-15mg for anxiolytic effectiveness without red-flagging myself as showing drug-seeking behavior

also took 30mgs of valium about 5 mins ago so BWB I guess
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 06:49:54 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148120 Reply
>>148119
Pre-benzo and full-on opioid crackdowns, i had zero problems with raising my dosage. Statements like “it feels like a similar dosage from the past,” was always a sure fire way, with an established Rx history. Since opioids have seen extensive monitoring programs, sadly /benz/ might be up your alley.
Most physicians in Western nations want a client to choose between being on one or more controlled drugs classes: EITHER GABAergics or gabapentin/pregabalin. While a decent amount of postes and non-posters alike, many people intentionally have children while taking Benzos.

> ...*welp!” You known arbitrary religious rules. The continuance of dissociative knowledge, amongst writing style, are horrid. Unless I myself let alone a seasoned poster have their own idiosyncratic habits.

>my new doc...
Unfortunately but too true is that this practice becomes more pertinent and standardize in many U.S. court proceedings.
Keep your head up, but also try to mourn a fucking loss!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 06:53:24 EST 6fGmZV4r No.148121 Reply
>>147800
More diazepam, hydrocodone IR, cyclobenzaprine, hydroxyzine, DPH, and a drink of the alcoholic sauce every few hours.
Just woke up from a hard slip. What then? -I finished my mug of hot tea and a bunch of water. Finna take a 2mg alprazolam bar. Afterwards, maybe another beer?
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Jenny Trotson - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 11:48:14 EST DxNo2ehe No.148123 Reply
Had a pretty shitty week, my grandma's condition crashed radically and the Alzheimer/Lung-cancer finally got the best of her. Well, atleast now she's not in pain anymore. Plus I'd be so happy to get to live 79years like her.
But anyway, just got out of sauna. Popped 30mg of oxazepam + 1mg alprazolam. Maybe going to the store to get a pint and a pack of cigarettes. Have a good one everybody!
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Augustus Blazzleson - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 19:02:35 EST EX73QyG+ No.148127 Reply
  • 1500mg gabapentin
  • 20mg methadone

Feeling great today :)
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Frederick Fumblenirk - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 20:30:45 EST 86LjTa31 No.148128 Reply
>>148126

Yeah, you're pretty retarded with your drug usage ngl
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sun, 19 Jan 2020 23:34:55 EST RjSjORn8 No.148129 Reply
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Despite eating 16mg in .5mg Clonaz I got wayy comfy (had a shot of dope too) but I didn't seem to lose any memory. Anyway here's my stash pic from the past three days. I don't really take the gabs. They are mostly just picture filler. Same with the 2mg and 8mg Suboxone.
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Charles Murdbanks - Thu, 23 Jan 2020 20:16:28 EST EX73QyG+ No.148158 Reply
  • 300mg lyrica

Feeling good tonight. Jamming to some oldschool tiesto and watching his gelredome 2004 concert vid. Damn I wish I was there.
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Gimme Benzos - Thu, 23 Jan 2020 21:38:28 EST fs5aF+hM No.148160 Reply
>>147800
I was very existed about getting some pregabalin and I finally got my hands on some 75mg pills so I took some and I'm, well, disappointed. I took 150mg initially then another 150mg about 3 hours later and it just feels like the world's worst stimulant, just somewhat better than caffeine. Have I been duped? Is pregabalin worse than gabapentin? Gabapentin is weak (feels more like a supplement) but I can enjoy it and use it. I did take 600mg of gabapentin last night for sleep (before I had the pregabalin) so maybe there's cross tolerance but I didn't get any pleasurable effects from the pregabalin.
I hope this is what I call a First Dose Response where I get a bad effect almost every time I try a new substance but the second time it works perfectly so I'm gonna try it again tomorrow or the day after. Also I took 300mg gabapentin about an hour ago because I was bored of the pregabalin effects and I feel so much better now.
The truth is I have to find some real benzos soon, fuck this gabapentinoid bullshit crap that doesn't do shit. I'll have to buy RC benzos if I don't find another option.
I have a couple of questions though. Does pregabalin require the doses to be staggered or is it better to take it all at once?
Can you snort this stuff (the pills are small so not much powder) or does that just leave a bitter taste at at the back of your mouth?
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 24 Jan 2020 18:03:40 EST eKhsO2nY No.148166 Reply
>>147800
10mg diazepam, 10mg hydrocodone, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 25mg hydroxyzine, a few cups of vanilla chai black tea, and a couple of beers. I'm keeping shit light for the sake of studying/research.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 24 Jan 2020 19:11:56 EST xp8iSnhs No.148167 Reply
>>147963
They are very hit and miss, same with the yellows and whites. They don't compare to even a .5 Clonazepam in my opinion yet kids will shell out big bucks just to say they take them. Fucking Rap fads... I remember when fake lean was a big thing here a while back too.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 24 Jan 2020 19:20:00 EST xp8iSnhs No.148168 Reply
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>>148167
Also bump on 4x .5mg Clonazepam, a 5mg Librium, and a 30mg Temazepam. Top that off with my 20mg a day increasing Kadian dosage at 510mg I'll almost be feeling alright. Really need to take a step back from the benzodiazepines though.. been taking massive amounts recently. Thankfully I have a decent stash of librium to help me come down and I still get scripted 2x 5mg libs a day until this coming Wednesday when I get knocked down to one a day... Ugh not looking forward to whatever withdrawal awaits me post acute or otherwise.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 24 Jan 2020 20:20:18 EST eN5lKnlb No.148169 Reply
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>>148168
Fuck yeah just scored 12 v5s for trading 6 T4s fuck I love the open air.nb
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Isabella Bingerwure - Fri, 24 Jan 2020 23:10:36 EST EX73QyG+ No.148173 Reply
  • 375mg lyrica
  • 20mg methadone

This was very much needed. Everything I'm going through right now is too much for me. Glad I can get the fuck away from reality for a few hours and do it over and over again until I start getting therapy for my issues next week. Fuck!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 25 Jan 2020 15:51:22 EST eKhsO2nY No.148174 Reply
>>147800
20mg hydrocodone, 10mg diazepam, 2mg alprazolam, 50mg hydroxyzine, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, and some beers.
Research and homework are planned for the entirety of the weekend.
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Graham Bunman - Sat, 25 Jan 2020 16:09:37 EST ZjKrFgGR No.148175 Reply
>>147800
3rd night in a row taking Etizolam befoe bed. Just figured I'd post here for accountability. I really like Etizolam but the idea of having a seizure scares the shit out of me
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 25 Jan 2020 17:47:19 EST eKhsO2nY No.148176 Reply
>>148174
Add on 20mg diazepam, 10mg hydrocodone, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, and 25mg hydroxyzine. Also, more beers!
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Edwin Dingerfut - Sat, 25 Jan 2020 23:53:09 EST EX73QyG+ No.148179 Reply
  • 1800mg gabapentin
  • 10mg methadone

Feeling great! Jamming to some oldschool lil Wayne. He was a beast back in the 2000s!
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Betsy Punnerdine - Sun, 26 Jan 2020 09:53:41 EST ZjKrFgGR No.148181 Reply
>>148175
Ended up taking 3mg and a gabapentin but I'm done now for a couple weeks I think.
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Edwin Dingerfut - Sun, 26 Jan 2020 17:22:19 EST EX73QyG+ No.148182 Reply
  • 1500mg gabapentin
  • 10mg methadone

Just starting to feel it. Now, going to Starbucks to get me some good java. Mmmm...
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 26 Jan 2020 19:44:37 EST eKhsO2nY No.148184 Reply
>>148183
Starbucks' coffee is decent, but definitely overpriced and overrated. I would not call it bad, but it certainly is not good coffee.

nb for coffee discussion
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sun, 26 Jan 2020 20:46:53 EST wRfL43X9 No.148185 Reply
Trying to wean off the benzos. Took 130mg of Temaz yesterday with a 2mg Clonaz, today I took 50mg of temaz and a shot of fentadope.. The benz taper begins... Time to keep stacking the Librium because it will be the only thing that'll save me. I think I have about 90mg saved up now. It's a great /benz/ maintenance drug but is fucking useless if you want to catch a buzz. I also find a dose of ~15mg will keep the benz WD away for at least 48 hrs
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Charles Duckwater - Mon, 27 Jan 2020 14:41:48 EST nArzPbh0 No.148187 Reply
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Holy shit i apparently blacked out into silent hill last night, i have ZERO god damn recollection of being whereever the fuck this is what the fuck i dont even remember going for a walk i thought i just went to sleep

Apparenly i wasnt tired lmao
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Charles Duckwater - Mon, 27 Jan 2020 14:47:11 EST nArzPbh0 No.148189 Reply
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>>148188
At lwast i recognize where this one is lol

Wait. A minute. No i dont actually, i had a grand old fucking time didn i?
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Charles Duckwater - Mon, 27 Jan 2020 15:05:53 EST nArzPbh0 No.148190 Reply
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Ok so this one i took earlier in the day is telling me i mustve went somewhere in the Eastern Bloc or some shit god damn it

This one >>148187 genuinely scares me to look at

All of these feel like that Rock Bottom episode of Spongebob lmao, its gotta be with in walking distance from where i live FUCK i wish i had location on, this one is stamped 6pm the first one is 1am
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Gimme Benzos - Mon, 27 Jan 2020 18:19:32 EST fs5aF+hM No.148191 Reply
>>148190
Wow, the first picture looks like something out of Outlast. Did you take a bunch of Zolpidem or something?
This never happened to me even when I was combining benzos with a lot of alcohol.
>>148160 Anyway here's a bump on 150mg of pregabalin. I made it work, it is a bit better than gabapentin and longer lasting and I feel like it does accumulate. It also gives more of a mental high whereas gabapentin is mostly a body high. I had an amazing time Saturday on 525mg, then I had 450mg Sunday which was already meh after just one day but very relaxing and only 150mg today.
Maybe I'll take 75 mg tomorrow and I'm gonna stop for awhile. I think I prefer gabapentin to be honest and I trust it a lot more then pregabalin.
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Jarvis Grimson - Tue, 28 Jan 2020 03:42:07 EST XiHqRv0i No.148195 Reply
>>148191
Loads of temazepam will also do that, some benzos are a lot more amnesic than average, not to mention weird RCs with insane half-lifes and microgram doses
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 29 Jan 2020 00:05:07 EST eKhsO2nY No.148203 Reply
>>147800
10mg diazepam, 15mg hydrocodone, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 30mg cyclobenzaprine. I've also had a black lager (5% ABV), an oatmeal stout (6.9% ABV), and dark Scotch ale (6.1% ABV). I think it's time for another beer and brewing up some seasonal herbal tea as I work on research and stats homework.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 29 Jan 2020 02:04:20 EST eKhsO2nY No.148205 Reply
>>148203
More benzos, booze, and hydrocodone. I’m catching a slight nod, which I was not expecting.
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Phoebe Dracklebanks - Wed, 29 Jan 2020 18:28:16 EST VSM1fhal No.148206 Reply
I have to take like 2- 2.5 bars of alprolozam to feel anything good, and at least 1mg for anxiolytic for effectiveness. I dont even use it or other benzos regularly. I just have such a high cross tolerance because ive been a heavy drinker for most of my adult life and I guess whatever other genetic factors there are.

I have no idea how to explain this to my doctor without it just registering as drug seeking behavior. The antidepressants I'm on and the amitryptyline for my insomnia I feel are helping but there just isn't anything like xanax or valium for certain situations and the 10 1mg tabs oer scripts im being kept on just ins't cutting it, which feeds into greater anxiety and vicious cycle and all that.

Does anyone else have this feel? I'm going to see a legit psychiatrist and psychotherapist next month, I'm scared to be honest but I'm sure they'll try to steer me away from benzos in general and other than grass there's few things that make certain days worth living
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Rebecca Hittingsat - Thu, 30 Jan 2020 04:53:51 EST psHCv1x2 No.148207 Reply
Fuck yeah got money today, on 3mg clonazepam and 1mg buprenorphine. Feel like a real human being again, time to get errands done.
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Ian Depperfield - Thu, 30 Jan 2020 15:51:18 EST 86bjiiz4 No.148208 Reply
>30mg Adderall
for early work day and

>20mg diazepam
>20mg baclofen
for the start of 3 day weekend

Trying baclofen again, last time I did it it didn't really do anything but I need to take a small opi break so I'm looking for new things to try. Might take some gabapentin later but I don't want to fry my GABA receptors again/as bad
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Jenny Siggleshaw - Thu, 30 Jan 2020 16:25:09 EST 86LjTa31 No.148209 Reply
>>148208

Damn, I'm uh, already kinda feeling it. I took a long break from benzos aside from the occasional 10mg Valium when I really needed it, but cut down my consumption significantly. I wish I still had my Clonazepam script too, I miss melting them under my tongue and just having different benzos on hand. Scared to ask my doctor about it though, as she said she doesn't want me on two different benzos when I asked for Xanax. Maybe I'll prod at it a little next time I see her.

Anyways, another 20mg baclofen. Might munch on a couple more if nothing happens. nb for rambling
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Barnaby Brookcocke - Fri, 31 Jan 2020 05:39:59 EST ZjKrFgGR No.148213 Reply
>>147800
took 8mg Alpraz throughout the day yesterday, in the span of 12-13 hours in 1mg increments. Felt pretty good and woke up feeling pretty relaxed today. Made a daft mistake and started messaging some girl I hit and quit a month back. She really seemed into me and although I didn't lead her on or anything I felt bad and had to apologise. She wants me to come round and see her... >.>

Not a habitual user but everytime I use Xanax I end up messgaing wahmen
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Barnaby Brookcocke - Fri, 31 Jan 2020 07:58:36 EST ZjKrFgGR No.148214 Reply
>>148213
Just re-read some of themessages and I may have said yes to maybe working on a slow relationship. Fuck. She's a decent lass but she's kinda manly and it feels weird -- I like feminine grills :(

nb for double post
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 31 Jan 2020 22:16:23 EST eKhsO2nY No.148217 Reply
>>147800
25mg hydrocodone, 30mg diazepam, 125mg hydroxyzine, 25mg cyclobenzaprine, and beers
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Eliza Trotstock - Sat, 01 Feb 2020 00:14:16 EST bOg1JPbz No.148218 Reply
>>147800
Haven't visited this site in years, but fuck man, it's good to see that you're still alive Dr. Katz.

I used to always post about clam, but I had to quit it to be a functional human being. Now I'm back on the benz with etizolam, but it's so much more functional than clam.
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Alice Buzzhood - Sat, 01 Feb 2020 08:23:06 EST yX31XPV4 No.148221 Reply
Does Xanax goes good with phenibut?
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Reuben Pickforth - Sun, 02 Feb 2020 02:05:41 EST XiHqRv0i No.148222 Reply
are benzos also proper agonists? i thought they were only positive allosteric modulators but some things I'm reading refer to at least certain ones as "GABA agonists", do they probably just mean "GABAergic" or are some/all benzodiazepines GABA agonists in addition to being PAMs
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 02 Feb 2020 17:13:51 EST eKhsO2nY No.148223 Reply
10mg diazepam, 40mg hydrocodone, 100mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg DPH, and regional/seasonal beers.

Housework and homework has been nearly constant today. In a bit I will chill with my lady. While I may not have lived in either region, the wife and I are watching the Super Bowl tonight.
LET'S GO CHIEFS!

>>148218
Major thanks honestly. I am alive and well, actually. I am still in graduate school, albeit earning a higher degree than before (Ph.D.) and had married last year.
Living and Thriving > Striving and Trying
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Betsy Hurringfure - Sun, 02 Feb 2020 23:24:50 EST 67AQX5GP No.148224 Reply
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>1.5mg Klonopin
>20mg Ambien
>50mg Atarax
>600mg gabapentin
>bottle of Merlot wine
> 20mg Ritalin LA and green tea to counter some of the sedation

Not taken all at once, but over the course of an afternoon while listening to my vinyl backlog with me laying back on my recliner with a sleep mask on. Chill
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Chan - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 02:36:28 EST 3ROscyMT No.148225 Reply
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>>148222
They are Positive Allosteric Modulators as they modulate the amount of Ca2+ (Calcium cation's) sending signals in the brain. They are GABAa agonists as they bind to GABA & its sub-unit(s). Hopefully that answers your question.


Been off /benz/, so no posting here. I could see myself getting benz'd off 4+mg Diazepam. The benefits of a successful taper and low tolerance.
Hope everyone is enjoying life & if not every moment going forward in the space-time continuum enjoyment can appear, remember that.

nb.
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Phineas Snodstock - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 13:34:37 EST GrRQ2D/D No.148227 Reply
>>148225
So they bind to GABAa receptors wherein they act as PAMs but don't directly stimulate the receptors the way GABA itself does?
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High Strung - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 14:21:57 EST /Jw4qVap No.148228 Reply
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Hey folks, still alive! Refill Day came today. Was off the radar because I was a dumb ass and gobbled a bunch of my meds down early. Haven't done that since I was on alprazolam, I don't know what the ever living fuck got into me. Ah well, it's in the past.

>4mg Clonazepam
-Vita Coco water

Enjoying an interesting book called "Suicide in the Middle Ages" by Alexander Murray. At 1,000 pages, it's more than you'd ever want to know about such a strange, niche topic.
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Chan - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 16:02:41 EST 3ROscyMT No.148229 Reply
>>148227
Yes, I believe that is correct. On the subject of stimulation, I may be wrong here (Haven't done this pharmacology stuff in a long time) but in the synapses of the neurons where the neurotransmitters do their thing, there is something called voltage gating. Essentially synapses and everything else in the brain works of electricity & higher levels of metals such as Ca2+, Mg2+ allow for "greater flow" & therefore effect from various neurotransmitters which are affected by the intake of external stimuli.
Sorry if this is a bit rambly but hopefully it's some useful information.

>>148228
>it's more than you'd ever want to know about such a strange, niche topic.
It does seem a wildly specific subject to write about. Good to see your back on the radar, HS.

nb.
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Fanny Gonningheck - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 18:28:30 EST TyB8kThN No.148231 Reply
800μg Clonazolam to not think about my ex-girlfriend and hopefully catch some sleep without sleeping in. Got only 4 hours damn. But feeling really chill.
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Nigel Minnerworth - Mon, 03 Feb 2020 22:17:05 EST uUKUbiHH No.148232 Reply
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Picked up some shitty bars, I got a new 60mg clonaz script today but I doubt they'll let me fill it for another 16 days. Went to a psychiatrist finally after a 7month wait & I'm out of my previous script already.. What's the ramifications of calling in an early script? I am going through a ton of bs rn w. work moving gf panic attacks etc, I won't rant about, but being out of town & my sketchy ass aunt stealing it is the alternative to just being honest about going through a 30day script in 13

Any adv appreciated. Also they put me on mirtazipine. Better than trazadone & seroquel if I remember but still meh.. not sure how to approach telling them my dose is just too low with the severity of panic attacks I have. It just seems like they'd cut me off just for thinking I'd need a higher dose

Tx in adv
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Walter Cracklelod - Tue, 04 Feb 2020 01:16:14 EST 86LjTa31 No.148234 Reply
>>147800

Got in my first ever accident, police said they were at fault (which I knew, illegal out-of-country driver's license and they literally turned into me as I was passing them, they were in a big ass tree cutting truck). Damage is mostly cosmetic although they literally ripped a fucking hole in my door.

I'm so scared insurance will total the vehicle, I love the thing, I'm also stressed the fuck out because I've never had to do this before and don't know what I'm doing.

>30mg diazepam
>2mg ER Xanax

then I passed out, considering staying up but taking some Suboxone to calm down again, if I fall asleep I fall asleep and if I don't I'll take a couple Adderalls to get shit done
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High Strung - Tue, 04 Feb 2020 06:58:42 EST /Jw4qVap No.148236 Reply
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Good morning, /benz/.

It's 5 min until 7:00am and after 2 nights of being unable to sleep due to lack of Clonazepam, I was able to sleep from 8pm-6:30am when Fajr prayer alarm went off.

Now I'm on:
>4mg Clonazepam
-Large cup of coffee

Probably gonna make some waffles and have another huge cup of coffee, recite some Quran for a few hours, and work on my Mandarin. Was supposed to fly out to Xian this week but, alas, the coronavirus has put that on hold because the school I'm gonna be working for will be closed until the 14th so they can work on booking my tickets and working on finding my apartment. But.... so it goes. At least I have benzos to keep me from having a panic attack over it.

Damn coronavirus!
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Fucking Gellerlot - Tue, 04 Feb 2020 22:58:23 EST 86LjTa31 No.148243 Reply
>1mg lorazepam

I am BEYOND stressed and starting to getting deeply suicidal-ly depressed again. Falling back into that fucking hole I thought I was working so hard to climb out of but I just want to fucking give up on everything.

I am FIENDING for strong opiates or opioids but of course none of my contacts are responding. I always make time and go out of my way for them, but the one time I'm practically begging for help it's fuck me I guess. I want oxy, soma, methadone, fucking barbs if they still exist, fucking anything cause Suboxone aint cutting it right now.

Fuck it, I'll fucking OD on the shit if I ever get any, I don't care. This year has just been a huge fuck you to me and everyone I know. I just want off this fucking ride. I tried so hard to better myself, fuck it, I'm gonna relapse, and hopefully die doing so.
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High Strung - Wed, 05 Feb 2020 02:51:41 EST /Jw4qVap No.148245 Reply
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>>148243
Nah bruh, lemme tell you, I was that was with speed at one point, and I had a friend who was a heroin addict at her very worse. Now she's an RN, a mother, and an all-around amazing person. Total 180 in life. If she can make it, so can you.

I've attempted suicide more than I care to admit, and just remember: "Tomorrow could be 'the day' that things turn around." And it's amazing how true that can be.

Anyways, I woke up at 2:00am after passing out at 8:00pm from a long day of packing up moving to China and being on the phone with the embassy getting updates on the coronavirus today all day long.

3mg Clonazepam
A big pot of lavender chamomile tea

....and listening to the rain fall against my window.
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Brainiac - Wed, 05 Feb 2020 22:29:09 EST g0myAlft No.148251 Reply
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BWB on 225 mg of pregabalin (sort of). I should've done 300mg, that seems to be the lowest dose that does something for me but I still feel it though.
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High Strung - Thu, 06 Feb 2020 04:51:42 EST /Jw4qVap No.148252 Reply
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Woke up at 2:00am sick as a dog, think I have the flu, which is weird cuz I got my flu shot. Or maybe I just have a really bad Man Cold (tm).

Either way, I'm cooped up on the couch with 3mg Clonazepam, a bag of Halls cough drops, a big bottle of ibuprofen, a water bottle of Essentia, and a pot of oolong tea from Henan Province. Have the windows open to listen to the intense thunderstorm too.

I mean, I'm sick, but I guess I could be worse. At least I'm benzed.
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Charles Grandville - Thu, 06 Feb 2020 10:12:02 EST Z0TQMOzL No.148253 Reply
About to walk into my Public Speeking class on 1.5mgs xanax, my daily 8mg suboxone, and a goodmorning dab. This is why god made xanax
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High Strung - Thu, 06 Feb 2020 19:38:59 EST /Jw4qVap No.148255 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>1.5mg Alprazolam
>A half a pill of some Adderall (not sure the dosage, one of those little blue ones)
>A cone of OG Kush that a neighbor let me tap on.

Burrito delivery on the way so I can have something to nosh down on while I continue to read about the Middle Ages. I've reached fucking enthusiasm levels about this stuff lol
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Fucking Fozzlecocke - Thu, 06 Feb 2020 21:32:59 EST EX73QyG+ No.148256 Reply
300mg lyrica

Damn I'm feeling great!!
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 07 Feb 2020 00:01:01 EST lNGodp+F No.148257 Reply
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BWB took 20mg Librium earlier in the day and just scored 5 6mg Lectopam (30mg), mixed in with a shot of potent fentadope got me feeling good. Nice benzo buzz but also enough OPI to feel like I'm functioning normally.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 07 Feb 2020 01:58:43 EST eKhsO2nY No.148259 Reply
From earlier today: 30mg diazepam, 20mg hydrocodone, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 125mg hydroxyzine, 25mg DPH, and three low ABV beers
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Reuben Wadgebury - Fri, 07 Feb 2020 12:57:49 EST DxNo2ehe No.148260 Reply
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It was a long week at work. Finally able to chill. Bought a few good wheat ales, popped 1mg of alprazolam on top of the 3mg's of buprenorphine which I've took throughout the day. Now watching local Finnish rap podcast and chilling like a king.

Have a great one fellas. Cheers from the cold North!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 07 Feb 2020 21:10:14 EST eKhsO2nY No.148261 Reply
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>>147800
Had I not bought my wife some premature Valentine’s Day items I would have bought a bottle of whiskey. I haven’t bought a bottle in well over 9 months and haven’t even drank any in over 6 months. My fucking wife was being a cunt and I was beyond irritated, so we mutually decided while on the way to a high end restaurant to cancel the reservations and head back. Fucking shit sucks.
Alas, 20mg hydrocodone, 20mg diazepam, 100mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 25mg DPH, and beers (specifically, an imperial Belgian stout at 10% ABV and a java porter at 9% ABV).
I’m getting drunk as fuck tonight. I wish I had some stronger opiates... or at least /opi/ without APAP. CWE is fine and all, but I’m not in a position to take 50-60mg hydrocodone with my upcoming UA. My levels would be FUCKED.
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High Strung - Fri, 07 Feb 2020 22:21:10 EST /Jw4qVap No.148262 Reply
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Still sick, didn't sleep a wink last night. I'm talking 24 hours no sleeo. Time to load up on 4mg Clonazepam and some NyQuil cuz it's time to go into a nice long coma. Staying up for an entire day probably set me back with recovery too.

See you on the other side, /benz/. Pic completely unrelated, just me being an insufferable weeaboo as usual....
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 08 Feb 2020 07:27:58 EST eKhsO2nY No.148263 Reply
>>148261
Woke up in the middle of the night.... time to drink and catch a solid nod.
20mg hydrocodone CWE’d, 20mg diazepam, 10mg Cyclobenzaprine, 50mg hydroxyzine, 50mg DPH, and two high ABV stout are on deck.
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High Strung - Sat, 08 Feb 2020 09:44:00 EST /Jw4qVap No.148264 Reply
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Woke up, looked out the window, and what do you know, a mighty February snow has begun to fall.

Time for 2mg Clonazepam to make the experience even more soothing.
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Charlotte Brondleton - Sat, 08 Feb 2020 11:01:59 EST EX73QyG+ No.148265 Reply
Just got home from the gym. Popped 300mg lyrica. It's a bright and sunny day outside and I'm making the most of it.
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Brainiac - Sat, 08 Feb 2020 21:40:35 EST fs5aF+hM No.148267 Reply
>>148259
I took two zolpidem pills after drinking and reality doesn't flollow the norm amymore Everything is messed up. Why am I in a desert when I'm in a room.
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Beatrice Brinderwutch - Mon, 10 Feb 2020 14:08:25 EST BaxCiKHC No.148271 Reply
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SO ive been drinking very much for the past few months/ years(with off times)

for the past three months i wake up at all hours of the night and day to kill the bad bodyloads that come when i dont drink, and ive been forced to get buzzed (on enough alcohol to make a non drinker drunk) before each and every workday, suffering towards the ends of each shift from dehydration and nausea and anxiety.

today i make the first steps in buying a gram of alprazolam. i plan to put it in a [REDACTED] and take 0,5 to 1.0 milliigram doses whenever i feel a not-drinking bodyload, along with a yet to be determined daily maintenance regiment.

wish me luck * will possibly end up dying/ getting fired*
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Simon Brengerwill - Mon, 10 Feb 2020 18:28:29 EST Jg0qvSwk No.148273 Reply
It's a rainy monday got home from work about an hour ago made a nice hot cup of tea, ate a bar and am smoking a few bowls now, feeling alright might take another half later tonight. Now to enjoy the few hours I have before bed and another week of the grind.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Mon, 10 Feb 2020 21:19:10 EST 9LD3AqTO No.148274 Reply
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Fuck posting on /OPI/
Dr.Katz would understand
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Mon, 10 Feb 2020 22:32:43 EST 9LD3AqTO No.148276 Reply
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>>148275
Forgot my pic lol. NB +50mg methadone 650mg Kadian
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High Strung - Tue, 11 Feb 2020 20:48:24 EST /Jw4qVap No.148277 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam
>2.5mg Oxycodone

Bedridden because of a massive hemorrhoid that's so painful that I've had to borrow some Percocet from my sister. Coronavirus still has me grounded from flying out to my new job. Life kinda blows right now but at least I'm benz'ed and noddin' with a good book in bed. Pic related, what I'm reading.
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Graham Gindlefon - Wed, 12 Feb 2020 00:46:58 EST 7eVUah6R No.148278 Reply
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Getting off the train after a 10 yearish habit.

.5mg alprazolam as part of my taper.
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dr. m - Wed, 12 Feb 2020 02:06:07 EST kLIsmDPR No.148279 Reply
>>148277
I know right, like WTF? I basically can't go to Vietnam or Malaysia, particularly Vietnam and arguably Singapore, because as far as I know, they're still allowing non-mainlander Chinese people in, and the people I know already there are saying it's basically wearing masks 24/7, with everyone acting like it's only a matter of time until it's endemic in the area, and I fear the westerners/more wealth Asians will head to Bangkok for treatment if they get sick in Vietnam/Cambodia/Malaysia/from China itself, and an asymptomatic Brittish superspsreader just caught it in Singapore during a convention, managed to infect like 3-4 french ppl while visiting france, and a few more ppl on the way home.

I wouldn't care except for the fact I'm not super healthy right now for several reasons. My family has already said they're going to lose their shit worrying about me if I go. If it was just a vacation I'd go now, but to get a 6-9 month minimum gig in the region right now is just not reliable.

I hope you can shift gears, pick a different country, and go, because otherwise you'll seriously end up waiting like ~3-6 months IMO. Malaysia isn't a bad choice, Cambodia has the easiest work visa opening, and Vietnam pays relatively well on the ground. At least it's much safer than China.

In other news, I blew through ~700-730mg of etiz within idk maybe 5-7 weeks or so, wasn't really paying attention, maybe 12 weeks. I've been doing a shoddy ass fast taper over the last week. Took ~2-3mg tonight, with maybe another 1-2mg left. I was taking ~5-8mg/day for a while, but quickly required like 15mg to get pseudo-recreational effects, so I just stabilized at ~4-8mg/day for a while.

Hopefully I'm somehow halfway okay this week, because I wasn't really financially planning to order anything else. My 1g of diclaz that was supposedly from India has been delayed, and I'm now ~99% sure it's of Chinese origin, and is being held up because of the corona virus.
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Simon Pumblefield - Thu, 13 Feb 2020 03:21:08 EST PusCqQ1j No.148287 Reply
refill day today
>90mg temazepam
feeling good, tems are second only to xanax in my book. Wish I could get of that but I have no local hookup and don't' want any underdosed/fent shit from the internet.
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Lindsey Payne - Fri, 14 Feb 2020 01:55:10 EST PusCqQ1j No.148292 Reply
my stash right now. a bunch of 75mg pregabalin, some 30mg tems and some 1mg kpins. life is goood
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Isabella Honeydale - Fri, 14 Feb 2020 02:23:41 EST 86LjTa31 No.148294 Reply
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>30mg-ish Adderall through out the day
>10mg diazepam
>60mg baclofen

Been so beyond fucking stressed with my car being wrecked and dealing with insurance. I dont want it totaled, I love the thing, and the fact that it may be a possibilty pisses me off and stresses me out so much.

Idk if I'll be sleeping tonight. Might keep up the Addy binge, might take some suboxone. Dunno
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Samuel - Tue, 18 Feb 2020 16:20:29 EST hf1UJHqj No.148329 Reply
Is there such a thing like the Ashton manual for gabapentinoids or do you guys have tapering advice?
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Beatrice Blythewell - Tue, 18 Feb 2020 21:03:36 EST bOg1JPbz No.148334 Reply
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>>147800
10 mg etizolam. I feel fucking great.I feel fucking great.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 19 Feb 2020 02:37:46 EST Hw4s73/L No.148339 Reply
20mg hydrocodone, 25mg cyclobenzaprine, 25mg diazepam, 125mg hydroxyzine, and various teas (Constant Comments - Green Tea version, Sleep Time OG, and pomegranate Sleepy Time tea). I'm chillin'.
I've been away for a hot minute, but I've still been on my bullshit. Love you, /benz/ bros.

>>148329
See the OP. Which drug ins specific are you needing a tapering schedule for?
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Emma Hirringham - Wed, 19 Feb 2020 05:09:53 EST VZTPSrVN No.148340 Reply
>>147800
Been 4 days since I last touched any benzos. Going to binge Etizolam today with some gabapentin and some weed prolly. I'm gonna cook something monsterous. I'm thinking oven pizzas, burgers, bacon, etc. Gonna be lit. Will post whatever creation I make here.
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Henry Clushfadge - Wed, 19 Feb 2020 22:10:30 EST h9QGia5R No.148348 Reply
Have any of you had phenobarbital my boy threw a couple in for some reason
User is currently banned from all boards
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Henry Clushfadge - Wed, 19 Feb 2020 22:11:42 EST h9QGia5R No.148349 Reply
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>>148348
Forgot pic
User is currently banned from all boards
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m - Wed, 19 Feb 2020 22:38:57 EST kLIsmDPR No.148350 Reply
>>148349
All I can say is be fucking careful, and don't fucking mix these if you've used benzos recently, or tend to use benzos or any other downer regularly. This shit can seriously be 2+2=7 when mixed with benzos or alcohol. One of the two (benzos and barbs) increases the length the ion channel is open, and the other increases the speed in which molecules pass through the channel itself. They potentiate each other in a way that's 10x more sensitive than say booze + benzos.

There's a reason barbituates are generally unavailable outside the hospital in the US apart from arguably low dose butalbital, a rather weak barbituate, and even then it's compounded with caffeine and sometimes other drugs to at least partially reduce risk/use in intentional overdoses or recreational use.

The only benzo I've ever consumed outside of the hospital was butalbital, and although I likely treaded "too" carefully in that case (took just 2 pills, then a week later 2 pills + 2mg etizolam, and after another week I tried 2 pills + 3-4mg etizolam + 2 beers), the alternative isn't always positive. I didn't find out until later than butalbital is the runt of the litter so to speak.

nb because I've been clean of benzos for at least a week now, maybe longer. It took way longer for symptoms to start than I had expected. It was probably ~3-5 days before feeling serious rebound anxiety from taking ~4-6mg of etizolam/day for the last 2 or 3 weeks, having taken an average of around ~10mg/day when counting all days of use.

That being said, taking the equivalent of 5mg xanax/day for ~60-70 days usually would result in worse symptoms than this. Maybe tapering rapidly down to 4mg/day for at least 2-3 days before dropping approximately 1mg/day made it more bearable than cold turkey.

In the future, I'll hopefully do my best to keep use at 6mg/day or less, more like 4-5mg. Anything more than that was nothing but diminished returns.
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Brain - Thu, 20 Feb 2020 15:11:22 EST +sCYsltw No.148360 Reply
>>147800
Havent lurked in months, hope ya'll are doing well.

Finally down from 3mg clonazepam daily, by the end of March i'll be finished my taper. Currently at 1mg for another week or so. Don't really know if i'll be able to function though, shits been rough but at least i got a proper taper.

Love how we got another brain alias
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 20 Feb 2020 22:36:31 EST Hw4s73/L No.148369 Reply
30mg diazepam, 27.5mg hydrocodone, 200mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg DPH, and a glass of wine after a long ass, but productive, day.

>>148350
I second this. Phenobarbital is a classic, well-known barbiturate. It’s a nifty drug, but I didn’t get the experience I had hoped out of the four or five times I took the drug. However, the drug was great in combos—but don’t combo this drug!!!
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 21 Feb 2020 18:33:37 EST 9Ctav54s No.148374 Reply
>>147800
Mmmmmm 10 Lectopam 3mg down the hatch. Fuck my tolerance is huge and use excessive
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 21 Feb 2020 19:59:24 EST Hw4s73/L No.148375 Reply
42.5mg hydrocodone IR, 20mg diazepam, 175mg hydroxyzine, 40mg Cyclobenzaprine, three moderately caffeinated cups of tea, and three glasses of wine. Said drugs were taken in two doses throughout the day. Happily, I accomplished a fair amount of schoolwork, research, and house cleaning today. Psyched as fuck for the weekend.
Lots of love, /benz/

>>148360
My dude! Congrats on your final stages of tapering.
How have you been?

>>148374
Whoaaa. I had to look Lectopam up. Very ace! I’ve always wanted to take bromazepam. 30mg bromazepam is a pretty major amount. Shit, posters from Canada and Europe touted bromazepam as being more recreational and functionally therapeutic compared to alprazolam.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 22 Feb 2020 18:53:55 EST EXo6hIOr No.148381 Reply
>>148375
I compare a 3mg Lectopam to a 5mg Valium. The nuances were more pronounced when I had a lower tolerance but Valium was euphoric AF back then too in it own way. Now the only way I can get a decent high from benzodiazepines is by mixing Clonazepam or nitrazepam with other lesser opiates. Personally hate the .25 or .5mg Canadian xanax... That and any Ativan that isn't a 2mg and those seem rare. Temazepam is really popular here and of every idiot who isn't connected to DNM is paying whatever the dealer asks for those nigged out pressed bars. You can see what 6mg Lectopams look like in the BWN I think. Anyway, it may be 4pm here but I'm just waking up. Cup o coffee and these badboys to start my day 10x 1mg Clonaz and 4x Valium 5mg and yes those other bottles are long empty.
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Thomas Bardfield - Sun, 23 Feb 2020 00:38:22 EST 86LjTa31 No.148384 Reply
Holy fuck I'm fiending for some opioids. I really didn't want to, but I guess I'm gonna take some Valium to try and curb those cravings and get some sleep tonight.

I usually trade my Valium for Suboxone, hence me not wanting to use it as I should... fuck it, I'm gonna start selling my Adderall again. I'm a benz and opi person, stims aren't worth it.
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Thomas Bardfield - Sun, 23 Feb 2020 00:53:34 EST 86LjTa31 No.148385 Reply
>>148384

>10mg diazepam

Theres literally no way it's kicking in right now, especially on a full stomach, but I just got a little wave of calm and contentment wash over me, like, it's gonna be fine for now, those cravings will subside for now. I really am a fucking piece of shit. I cannot stay sober. I have to be on SOMETHING all the time. Anything, except weed, that trips me out. I'm constantly craving something, 24/7 it's always in the back of my head. I have to be on scripts of some sort. I want this to stop, but at the same time, I dont. Nothing else helps me and comforts me like drugs do.

nb for bitching post
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Priscilla Dreffingson - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 13:22:26 EST XiHqRv0i No.148403 Reply
dubiously related to /benz/ but does anyone have a good regiment for tapering off of lamotrigine? I've been on it for a few years now, 200mg, and 1. I'm ready to get off and 2. I just moved and there's no way I can find a doctor for the next few months (doctor shortage in my town, no means of transportation to get one out of town), I know if I ran out suddenly and went to A&E/urgent care they would do something for me because it's a very dangerous withdrawal but I can't really afford the bill, I have 25 200mg tablets and one refill of 35 left, is that enough?
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m - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 20:05:37 EST gRVjhKoI No.148407 Reply
>>148403
That's not enough. You need to go to an urgent care clinic and beg them to write you a minimum of like 3-6 months of your medication.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 21:03:42 EST Hw4s73/L No.148410 Reply
>>147800
30mg diazepam, 30mg hydrocodone, 100mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, and sipping on some red wine. My wife and I are collabing on some dank homemade pork hibachi. Shit’s lit!
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Emma Trotstone - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 22:39:38 EST XiHqRv0i No.148414 Reply
>>148407
damn for real? I lost my insurance when I had to move (apartment I lived in burned down), I'd have to see how much it is

last time I went to an urgent care with a similar issue (ran out of an SSRI back when I was on them years ago before I developed/knew I had bipolar) and they refused to write a script saying it was a non-lethal withdrawal, that I'd just feel "like I had a cold" for a couple weeks

what kind of regiment would you suggest? if push came to shove and it was more affordable what could I use instead? I'd imagine that a gabapentinoid like phenibut or pregablin which are VGSC blockers like lamictal is would be a closer match, but I'm not trying to get dependent on either of those things, and you have the double whammy of them being GABAergic and VGSC blockers. Something straight GABErgic like valium or xanax I could probably control. I'm an alcoholic so alcohol is out of the question, but my problem was only ever with drinking really
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m - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 22:54:01 EST gRVjhKoI No.148415 Reply
>>148414
My suggestion is to not make things complicated and risky by switching your medication. The fact you're an alcoholic makes this even more important, as your drinking makes seizures so much more likely. Just lie to them that you've been cut off before and it resulted in say two really bad seizures, one in which you fell and hit your head on concrete. Also mention you're a recovering alcoholic, and that when you run out of your meds, it makes you feel like you need to drink more than ever before. Make it sound like you don't drink now, but that you'll start up again if your meds run out.

No competent doctor would just tell you "it'll feel like a cold" if you told them it caused you to have seizures over and over again, and two bad ones.

You've got to tell them what they need/want to hear, like I said above. And if they write you a script, don't just smile and be submissive, hoping it's a good script. Be direct and ask if it's the same dosage as before, and for how long. If it's for just a month, beg them for 3 months worth, telling them you're not insured, don't have the money or the local social connections to see a psychiatrist if you ever did have the money, and that if nobody will help you out, that you'll be forced to buy xanax bars on the street to prevent the seizures "like last time."
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Emma Trotstone - Mon, 24 Feb 2020 23:10:38 EST XiHqRv0i No.148416 Reply
>>148415
oh i think you misunderstood me, when I said "I can't drink because I'm an alcoholic" I meant that I can't because I have the disease of alcoholism, not that I am currently drinking. I've been 4 months sober at this point

thing is I've never had a seizure in my adult life (had a couple as a baby/toddler), the lamictal is for bipolar, and I'm worried about those symptoms coming back, hell honestly I'm only worried about depression coming back, I never minded mania as I experience, it's only ever gotten commitment levels of out of control twice, but the depression has put me up several times

I think I will just bite the bullet and pay the 75 bucks and see what they can do for me

it's really weird the conflicting reports online, some people say you can stop cold turkey, other people say you'll die, I feel the truth is somewhere in the middle
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Tue, 25 Feb 2020 08:36:30 EST Zd1Onwes No.148420 Reply
Took 6 10mg Valium around noon, bought 20 Clonazepam 1mg, two Valium 5s and a 15mg Temazepam (took the Temaz around 8pm). It's been 18 hours since I took the 60mg valium and I just now took the two 5mg Valium as well 5mg Clonazepam. Man my tolerance is so high this is really just pointless and dangerous. Ended up shooting about .4 of fentadope over the course of noon and now and am smoking weed to try and sleep. My fucking retard of a dealer (who sadly has the best shit I can find which is actually always fat and always super potent) kept my friend and I waiting in the stairwell of his apartment for almost 3 hours while he kept his phone off and would pop by every hour or so to explain why it was all taking so long. Only after I have been up til 4am (much to the dismay of my friend) I decide it's over and time to fuck off and just call it a loss, my buddy literally just about cried the fucking pussy lol. Anyway it's not until I get 5 blocks away does my guy turn on his phone and tell me to come back. He hooked it up decently fat and we were only two blocks from the safe injection site so we figured we'd use their services since by then it was nearing 5am and we knew it would be dead. Got on of my two points of down in me and it gave me the vigor to march 15 km home with my friend through deserted streets. Fuck what a piss off fuck around. I hate when good dealers turn shit and lose respect for your time.

Gotta find a way to wean myself down off the buffet of different benzos I take. I have about 80mg Librium but I know that's not enough and I only get one 5mg Lib a day. Benzos have really crept up on me in a bad way and I am really worried about what may happen. Gotta get some self control and taper.. even though it's hard when it's a seller's market where I buy my benzos and availability can range from only Ativan 1mg one day to mass amounts of Nitrazepam, Temazepam, and Clonazepam on others....I've heard benzos actually go for pretty cheap in my area. A friend told me a Valium 10 sells for $5 on Main and Hastings in Vancouver.

>If you buy your benzos from diverted scripts what do you guys usually pay I'm curious?
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Hamilton Drenkinman - Tue, 25 Feb 2020 09:49:57 EST 86LjTa31 No.148421 Reply
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>>148415

>saying you'll be forced to buy xanax off the streets because you're desperate

Yeah idk bout this one chief. I was prescribed some terrible shitty extended release Xanax when I really needed bars and I told my psychiatrist I took 6 in a day cause I was feeling so panic-y and bad. They literally didnt do anything, I didnt black out, didnt feel anything the next day. Thought he would see how desperate I was and how much I really needed some stronger stuff. He was absolutely shocked and took that script away from me immediately (no big loss except I couldnt sell the shit anymore).

Still trying to figure out how to get legitimate bars without losing my diazepam script.
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m - Tue, 25 Feb 2020 11:01:41 EST gRVjhKoI No.148423 Reply
>>148421
I understand your response, and though it's definitely controversial, remember we're talking about xanax use to stop seizures specifically, nothing else.
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m - Tue, 25 Feb 2020 11:02:45 EST gRVjhKoI No.148424 Reply
>>148416
I know you haven't had a seizure. I am just telling you what the doctor needs to hear so he/she takes your situation seriously.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Thu, 27 Feb 2020 04:08:20 EST UdOjsO79 No.148428 Reply
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BWB + BWB

Took 13 3mg Lectopam, 5 5mg Valium, 3 1mg Ativan, and 10mg Olanzapine.
Also did close to.3 of some fire fentadope. Pic related. About to do that shot that's in the rig. I've been an absolute pig when it comes to benzodiazepines these past few months (partly because my best friend always splits whatever he buys with me even though I tell him he doesn't have to.. he takes stupid high doses of benzodiazepines vas well). You know you're in deep when 15mg of clonazepam doesn't lead to becoming dangerously blacked out. So with pic related I'm going to begin to taper myself. I get scripted a single 5mg Librium a day (those green and yellow, green/black) so I'm going to save those until I completely run out of benzos. Sure if my buddy wants to give me some for free I will take them but not en mass and continue to taper.

Anyone know what the deal is with benzos combined with Olanzapine? I can takev20mg valium and a 10mg Olanzapine and it blacks me the fuck out in a dangerous way. What's with that combo and why does it make benzos drastically stronger in my experience.

Pic related - the shot of dope Imma bout to do
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Jack Cendlestadging - Thu, 27 Feb 2020 23:52:40 EST yP5dJE+j No.148430 Reply
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haha im back on the gabapentin my dudes
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Ian Wubberhood - Fri, 28 Feb 2020 01:38:57 EST onz9OFNz No.148431 Reply
>>147800
7mg etiz and some booze hit the sweetspot where im nearly blackout but not quite
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 28 Feb 2020 19:23:55 EST Hw4s73/L No.148432 Reply
>>147800
40mg diazepam, 45mg hydrocodone chewed up, several moderately high ABV stouts, 150mg hydroxyzine, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, and 50mg DPH.

Life is going well. Love you all!
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Fiend !!1C9jE+w+ - Fri, 28 Feb 2020 22:49:21 EST r56ADW+0 No.148435 Reply
>>148432
It's funny cause I associate Hydroxyzine with detox which I'm doing right now. After 5 years of daily benzo script I'm deciding to finally kick it so I can enjoy it PRN.

Down to only 3.75mg Diazepam, but with the help of 600mg Gabapentin and 100mg Hydroxyzine Imma sleep well enough. It's kinda weird to enjoy backwards drugs.
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Ketman - Sat, 29 Feb 2020 23:03:28 EST fs5aF+hM No.148439 Reply
High on 150mg Pregabalin and 10mg Zolpidem, first time combo. I really should go to sleep but it's so trippy and I wanna enjoy it. Everything is wavy and the letters dance around. It kinda feels like when I was a child and I had too much "taste test" of my father 's home distilled alcohol.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 01 Mar 2020 05:06:59 EST Hw4s73/L No.148444 Reply
>>147800
40mg diazepam, 22.5mg diazepam, 40mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg cyclobenaprine (planning to take 25mg to 75mg depending on how I feel), and some booze (two glasses of wine, two homemade margaritas, and half of an imperial rusian stout I did NOT finish last night.
>STAY SAFE, ALL YOU DREAMERS AND CREAMERS!
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Cedric Fiblingwell - Mon, 02 Mar 2020 15:43:20 EST VZTPSrVN No.148446 Reply
>>147800
Was supposed to take a 30 day break but caved in after 3 days. Fuck. 6mg pressed xanax. Probably Flualp because I still feel retarded and it's been 24 hours. Took 300mg Gabapentin to chill. Maybe I'll have one more tomorrow night, then I'll go CT for 30 days hopefully. Gonna give my pills to someone I trust lol.
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High Strung - Mon, 02 Mar 2020 19:29:23 EST /Jw4qVap No.148448 Reply
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Another Refill Day is upon us, huzzah huzzah.

4mg Clonazepam with a pot of peppermint tea and some Chinese chicken dumplings. Now wrapped up in a blanket watching Santa Clarita Diet. In other news, I'll be in Xian by the 20th of this month so we're clear for takeoff- woot!
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Beatrice Nimmlefoot - Tue, 03 Mar 2020 17:57:16 EST zWM3ezjc No.148451 Reply
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Bump while benz'd! Took 1.5mg Xanax this morning before my speech class cus I had to give a speech counting for a quarter of my grade and I've been stressing about it for weeks now. Went straight to the pharmacy after class and picked up my script for suboxone.
Came home, ate a quick salad, slept for an hour, woke up still drowsy and didn't really want to go to work so I decided, 'fuck it, I'm no calling no showing'.
Which means I lost another dead-end restaurant cook job but who gives a fuck, I've got so much experience/good references in cooking and retail that if I send out maybe 5-10 applications I get a new job in less than two weeks.
Besides I need to be focusing on getting my degree in paralegal studies, cus that's a job that would actually make decent money (not to mention benefits) and be worth keeping, plus I have a major test tomorrow in my law class that I now have more time to study for. I'll just coast off student loans till the end of the semester, then decide if I wanna work again or take out a larger loan next semester.
Anyways took another 1mg Xanax and a fat rip of some decent shatter about half an hour ago to help ease my anxiety over quitting another job. BWB!
Sorry for the rant, just trying to justify quitting another job to myself.

Also, totally off topic, but what's with these pressed bars that are not even colored like regular prescription bars? Just recently i saw blue bars in real life, and I read online they make prescription blue bars, but in my 10ish years of taking xans ive never seen bars that weren't white, green, or yellow, but that could just be coincidence.
Then I started seeing red bars and black bars online, then I just a few days ago I saw black bars irl. Wtf? Are drug dealers just getting lazier and not even bothering to get the proper colored dye's anymore? Or is it supposed to be some kind of branding thing?
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High Strung - Tue, 03 Mar 2020 20:17:19 EST /Jw4qVap No.148453 Reply
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>5mg Clonazepam
>200mg Valerian
4 cups of coffee

Currently sipping on my last cuppa joe and feeling so chill. Also diddling around with my new Chinese phone to get it all set up so that it's functional and as secure as possible from the Chinese spooks when I arrive. Thank fuck for benzos to keep me from being nervous as fuck about the fact that I'm almost 2 weeks away from leaving.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Tue, 03 Mar 2020 22:49:37 EST RNz6E6H6 No.148454 Reply
Nice .15 shot of fentadope with two Temazepam 30s and 4 .5mg Ativans about weo hours ago. Actually got 90mg Temaz but saved a 30mg Temazepam for my buddy who always helps me out.. call it tribute. Later had some drunk Indian guy trade 7 1mg Ativan for a little over 3/4 a pack of 5$ smokes. Took two and have two to my buddy. Not necessarily tapering but I am +1 5mg Librium and 4 1mg Ativan so since I'm planning on weaning myself off once my 5mg librium a day prescription ends (either this month or next) but it's soon. Seems kinda strange because I am very honest about my high benzodiazepine use with my doctor so I wonder if he's just going to make me face the music or if he's going to do something like put me down to a single dose of 2mg valium for a few months or only give me like 4 Librium a week. Who knows.
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Augustus Semblechet - Wed, 04 Mar 2020 02:53:43 EST XiHqRv0i No.148456 Reply
>>148451
it's to let people know that they're counterfeit, after a certain point you seek them out because they always have a shitton more alp than pharma bars and you don't really care if there's RC benzos or fent in them you just want to forget that you're a person for a while
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dr. m - Wed, 04 Mar 2020 15:08:37 EST gRVjhKoI No.148459 Reply
>>148451
Seeing as your bars have probably the worst pressing job I've ever seen in my life, it's possible the bar maker realized how garbage the press was and decided it wasn't even worth it to try to get the color just right. That being said, since the press is so shit, I'd bet money they don't contain real alp. If they taste like xanax it's most definitely at least partially flualp, and if they're tasteless, it's less certain than bitter ones being flualp or alp, but I'd still assume they contain etizolam, though the harder hitting RC benzos are cheaper per dose, so it could easily be cLam or flubroLam. Either bitter or tasteless ones could always contain diclaz, but it's equipotent to etiz (both are roughly half as strong as xanax, whereas flualp is 2-3x potent and cLam ~4-5.5x as potent as xanax, so they're much cheaper to press).

IF your press didn't suck total ass, then I'd theorize that improperly colored bars are a combo of branding, pseudo-ethical stances about counterfeiting and OD risk, or surmising that they contain way over 2mg alp equivalent and the uncommon color is a reminder of the "brand's" typical potency levels.

I've never had any interest in making fake bars, but if I had to do so, I'd personally make them either 2, 3, or 4mg alp equivalent (most likely 2mg equivalent for safety reasons) using a 4:1 or 8:1 mixture of etizolam:flualprazolam depending on whether or not 8:1 is as bitter as a normal bar. 4:1 is roughly 50/50 etiz:flualp potency split.

That being said, I'd refuse to use a binder color that mimics a genuine xanax bar. Consumers deserve to know that they aren't the real thing. The only way I'd feel morally okay with using genuine looking bar filler is if I actually used real alp and only at doses of 1.8-2.2mg per bar over 98-99% of the time. Since that's very difficult to achieve, using red, purple, black etc. colored binder (though I wouldn't prefer black) would be the ethical choice.

I'd have zero problem buying a fake bar sold as real if it genuinely contained 4mg etizolam +/- 10%. It would kind of suck to get 100% flualp bars, but I do understand that consumers expect it to taste like xanax. That's why something like 2mg etiz and 0.33-0.5mg flualp per purple bar would be optimal.

My question is, why hasn't anyone made a custom press shaped just like a xanax bar that says the letters E T I Z or I guess F L A P with one letter on each quarter section, with a 4 or 4mg stamped on the back? That's the most ethical choice.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Wed, 04 Mar 2020 17:31:34 EST DMP8lMV0 No.148462 Reply
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Couple shots of some potent fentadope also managed to smuggle out roughly 350mg of Kadian beads from the clinic. Took a 15 mg Temazepam before the dope and took the two Xannies I got a new hour later. Apparently they contain etizolam and the last time I took two they got me noticeably high. Never really fucked with etiz so it's a new experience compared to my usual benzo cocktail. Pic related
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Matilda Closhham - Wed, 04 Mar 2020 19:39:52 EST CHYSHXHE No.148463 Reply
  • 1500mg gabapentin
  • 10mg methadone

Feeling good. Wish I had some xannies or kpins to make a nice cocktail. But, this is good for now. Might take some tramadol later I dont know yet we will see.
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Lydia Binninglire - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 00:19:52 EST 38YyXnwq No.148465 Reply
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>>147800
0.5mg of alprazolam. I personally never had seen these pills (pic related). I had seen their bigger brother the B707s but these are new to me. And I just got my prescription for 60 Lorazepam 1mg tables. Things are looking good this month.
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Fiend !!1C9jE+w+ - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 01:49:06 EST FkfrU7gx No.148467 Reply
2 weeks from today I will be off (daily) benzos!!! Down to 2.5mg Diazepam 2x/day. Really look forward to being off the stuff. I love /benz/ and will continue to use them, but I'm so glad I won't be chained to the pharmacy at threat of seizure or death anymore.

Tonight I got 600mg Gabapentin, 100mg Hydroxyzine, and 6.25mg Zolpidem XR. Hitting the weed hard obviously. Still not quite comfy, but I'm as close as I can reasonably expect to be.
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Kim Il Sung - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 07:31:07 EST c3/O+cEl No.148469 Reply
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i havent posted on here in like 2 years, god damn!
i missed ya'll.

>2mg Clonazepam
>1mg Bupe (because i ran myself short again fuck mE)
> a bowl of Michigan weeeed
> a Mr. Vapor Blueberry Menthol thats dying

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh BWB ahhhhhhhhhhhh

might take some choline + phenylpiracetam later tonight for graveyard shift +.+
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Lydia Branninglodge - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 09:00:23 EST cH8tad2r No.148470 Reply
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>>148469
okay AMP UP
>4mg clonazepam
>2mg bupe (rectal)
>2 bowls weed

chillin fat until the corner store opens to get my daily CRACK stick AKA Mr. Vapor.

I'm thinkin strawberry lemonade ice this time.
and it's only 8:59am
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High Strung - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 09:56:57 EST /Jw4qVap No.148472 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
-4 cups of coffee
-Steak n' eggs for breakfast

Work visa should be in my hands in 4 business days, then I can book my flight. Meanwhile, I'm feelin' comfortably numb while watching the rain on my window.

Whadduppppp
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Lindsey Payne - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 10:50:44 EST PusCqQ1j No.148475 Reply
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40mg ambien
2mg etiz
1mg of these custom bars I made (I do not sell)
time bwb in the bed
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Lindsey Payne - Thu, 05 Mar 2020 10:53:39 EST PusCqQ1j No.148476 Reply
40mg ambien
2mg etiz
1mg of these custom bars I made (I do not sell)
time bwb in the bed

shit wont let me post my stash oh well
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Molly Bibberman - Fri, 06 Mar 2020 00:39:17 EST KX+w8WBQ No.148484 Reply
Can you taper off of phenibut using multiple doses per day or should you just use it once a day?
I'm not sure where my current tolerance is but I started dividing doses up. For example I took 50mg x4 today for 200mg total. The problem is that when I take those 50mg, which you think wouldn't do shit, I get really fucking sleepy during the peak. Then, when the effects wear off and not even an hour later I'm anxious, I'm having WDs. I don't know where my tolerance is right now but I'm assuming the frequent dosing is fucking me up.
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Fucking Smallridge - Sat, 07 Mar 2020 01:08:52 EST 2JL0N6Tp No.148492 Reply
>>148484
Try to take it once/day. It has a long enough half life.
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Reuben Blytheson - Sat, 07 Mar 2020 15:18:28 EST VZTPSrVN No.148494 Reply
>>147800
Going to Amsterdam soon. Won't be able to take Benzos, and I don't think I want to source them there either. I'm not dependant so I see this as a nice enforced break. Have been avoiding taking any for the last couple of days just to make sure I'll be fine without them, and now I know I will be. Alprazolam, Etizolam, and Gabapentin are my poisons.

Will just bang whores, smoke weed, drink some alcohol, and smoke some cigarettes, should be alright.
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High Strung - Sat, 07 Mar 2020 16:55:34 EST /Jw4qVap No.148495 Reply
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>3.5mg Clonazepam

Currently a nice pot of oolong tea. Listening to The Birthday Massacre and finishing up Philip Ziegler's "The Black Death 1346-1352." My Chinese work visa comes tomorrow and I can finally book my flight out of here.

Until then, benzos and tea.
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Wesley Fuckingdale - Sat, 07 Mar 2020 20:50:00 EST YoK85Drq No.148497 Reply
  • 500mg tramadol
  • 2100mg gabapentin spaced out over the past few hours

Feeling mighty fucking good tonight. Listening to some psytrance and smoking cigs. What a nice way to spend the weekend.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 09 Mar 2020 03:45:22 EST Hw4s73/L No.148502 Reply
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>>147800
50mg cyclobenzaprine, 40mg diazepam, 45mg hydrocodone, 150mg DPH, 200mg hydroxyzine, and a glass of wine (not all at the same time and the antihistamines are somewhat preemptive).
In place of booze, at least more often than not over the past week or so, I’ve gotten into flavored seltzers and sparkling water (classic non-alcohol containing ones). Although I do still drink a little now and again, my body/wallet/wife/life are thanking me for decreasing intake. A good seltzer or sparkling water is cheaper than beer and scratches the itch to drink something other than water 24/7.

Christ, I’m rambling and feeling all of the drugs. Itching is coming on HARD, so the antihistamine are on deck for consumption.

Be safe everyone. 🖤
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High Strung - Mon, 09 Mar 2020 13:55:44 EST /Jw4qVap No.148503 Reply
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>3.5mg Clonazepam
>1mg Alprazolam
-A piping hot pot of oolong tea

My Chinese work visa and teaching license came in the mail today, and I booked my flight. I have to spend a couple of days in quarantine when I get there but they said as long as I pass a checkup I'll be fine and that the worst is over in the city I'll be in.

I haven't lived in China in 5 years so it's gonna be interesting to go back, and it's easy to get benzos from bordering nations supposedly. Yay.
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m - Mon, 09 Mar 2020 21:48:00 EST gRVjhKoI No.148505 Reply
>>148503
Yeah dude, after what's all happened today in the US, I'm booking an immediate flight to either Malaysia or Vietnam, as it's no longer IF but WHEN as to the federal US gov't will institute massive quarantine measures, which if they don't outright block/ban international exit travel, demand for such flights will plummet so heavily that most or nearly all of the plane routes I'm interested in will be cut to save money.

If there's massive quarantines, they will also prohibit most/all gathering places, e.g. schools, all non-essential stores and possibly even essential stores, church/religious services, bars/restaurants, and more. Airports might close entirely if arrival of non-permanent legal residents or citizens are forbidden, not to mention if all domestic travel is stopped.

That sounds like a great time for employment prospects, right?

I can't believe how delusional most Americans seem to be. It's almost like they genuinely think American Exceptionalism is not a myth, and we're somehow magically protected from having to make tough decisions, like locking down entire cities, counties, or states. Why do they think countries like Italy, both Koreas, Japan, HK, Macau, mainland China, etc. have to institute massive quarantines, yet America would never even possibly consider needing such things?
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Fanny Bollerwet - Tue, 10 Mar 2020 14:04:03 EST 86LjTa31 No.148507 Reply
Had a fucking breakdown at work today and left. Fuck em. Im the only motherfucker that fucking does the job correctly and shows any initiative. I'm the only one always on time and never calls in. Unlike my fucking shitty ass coworkers. And I'm fucking supposed to be part time.

Fuck it. Unsure if I have a job now, but I don't give a fuck. I'll show up tomorrow and see what happens. I was getting sick of this fucking dead end ass shit anyways.

>30mg diazepam
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Tue, 10 Mar 2020 20:15:17 EST lZ4cD8xF No.148508 Reply
BWB trying to wean off the benzos but I bought ten 1mg Clonazepam without a second thought. Anyone of the elderly addicts selling their scripts have started get cut back or cut off so they've been increasingly rare in my circle. You just have tonbebat the right place at the right time which makes things difficult most days. There's still and abundance usually but I'm not in that tight with the all the old native ladies, I just have a few that might middle man for me.

Anyway sold a bunch of Kadian and bought some down, did half of it, ran into the guy with the Clonaz, ate four on the bus ride home and did my other half bag of down and smoked a j of some high grade bud. Pic related
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Jarvis Buttingpork - Wed, 11 Mar 2020 21:58:00 EST XtU6NF5/ No.148513 Reply
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What's a good lorazepam dose? it's all i have right now
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m - Thu, 12 Mar 2020 13:32:39 EST gRVjhKoI No.148520 Reply
>>148513
1mg lorazepam is supposedly equal to 0.5mg pharma xanax, so xanax is 2x as strong, but for recreation it's more like 3-4.5x stronger than lorazepam. So you'll need to figure out your pharma xanax equivalent dosage x3 and take that much lorazepam. Just know it lasts much longer and is generally way more mild. My doc prescribes solely ativan to non-epileptics for a reason; he seems them as not really abusable, especially in tiny fucking insultingly weak 0.5mg lorazepam tablets.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 12 Mar 2020 15:10:36 EST Hw4s73/L No.148522 Reply
Hitting the benzos and opiates a little bit less hard this past week than the last couple of weeks. Here's hoping to save up a little in case pharmacies close down in the next few weeks. Research, English black tea, diazepam, hydrocodone, and the other usual ish.

A fuckton of U.S. public and private universities are moving their entire education programs to online learning only for at least the next month.
Legitimately, I plan to stock up on all my scripts and chill for a solid month. Everyone is freaking the fuck out whereas others are ambivalent.

Stay safe, folks.

>>148520
This advice is near dangerous. Would you be able to provide a citation or link indicating the recreational equivalents?
Yes, lorazepam is only half as potent as alprazolam—the Ashton Manual and other online sources are in universal agreement about this, but where are you coming up with the "3-4.5x stronger" for recreation figure? Anecdotally, I've had benzo naive friends who blackout on 2mg alprazolam, but report the recreation from 2mg lorazepam to be greater than 1mg alprazolam, which I know is the converse of what is typically espoused.

Everyone reacts differently to drugs, but there's no way in hell I would tell someone to take 3mg to 4.5mg lorazepam (or diclazepam) as an equivalent to 1mg lorazepam. I do agree lorazepam has less abuse potential than other well known benzos, but some people do legitimately love the drug and abuse the piss out of it. Again, anecdotally, people I have met who prefer lorazepam to alprazolam usually enjoy other weaker benzos (i.e. diazepam and chlordiazepoxide) and low dosages of clonazepam. Yes, people prefer alprazolam and clonazepam to lorazepam, so I am not arguing against this widely held sentiment.

Just saying.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 12 Mar 2020 18:07:21 EST Hw4s73/L No.148526 Reply
>>148522
55mg diazepam (sublingual), 30mg hydrocodone (chewed up), 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 50mg hydroxyzine, and a peach-pear La Croix.
House cleaning, laundry, and research all day. I might have a glass of wine later. Idk. I’m really trying to drink less and less each week.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 13 Mar 2020 00:33:19 EST Hw4s73/L No.148534 Reply
>>148526
Lots of grapefruit juice and antacids. A bunch of chamomile and two glasses of tea since the last bump.
Now: 30mg hydrocodone, 40mg diazepam, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 75mg hydroxyzine, and sipping on a grapefruit seltzer along with grapefruit juice.

If this post ends in an odd number I will take an odd number of 0.5mg alprazolam tablets, an even number of tablets if it ends in an even number, and 3mg alprazolam if the post ends in zero... let’s see!

I’ve decided to watch Lil Peep’s “Everybody’s Everything” for the second time. I nodded off on hydrocodone and diazepam a few days back, so I only watched the first half.
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Brainiac Man - Fri, 13 Mar 2020 00:35:34 EST fs5aF+hM No.148535 Reply
Bump on 375mg pregabalin in multiple doses. I swear I enjoy gabapentin more than pregabalin, this shit pregab just gave me a headache tonight but its stimulant phase is finally over though which is good. However you have to have good gabapentin, the last gabapentin pills I had were absolute trash. But at least pregabalin is better for sleep than gabapentin.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 14 Mar 2020 00:20:37 EST Hw4s73/L No.148548 Reply
>>147800
Spooky Friday the 13th bump:
20mg diazepam, 10mg cyclobenzaprine, & booze
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 14 Mar 2020 20:40:18 EST Hw4s73/L No.148550 Reply
>>148548
God fucking damn, boards are slower than elder males' piss streams with prostate issues and opioid addictions.[

I have not kept count, so diazepam, cyclobenzaprine, hydrocodone, hydroxyzine, lots of black/green/decaf teas, and a couple glasses of "Benz'd Fellow" red wine.
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m - Sun, 15 Mar 2020 04:59:10 EST gNIXakDo No.148551 Reply
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>>148522

There isn't literature on recreational equivalents, lol. I agree that for benzos naive people that lorazepam is nearly half as strong as xanax, and when I was scripted some for wisdom tooth removal, something like 0.5-1mg before bed and 0.5-1mg in the morning had we downright fucked up (I think 1mg tablets), but my experience the last year or two has been doses of like 2mg lorazepam being infinitely less recreational than 1mg xanax. I did tell him the potency equivalency, so anything above 2:1 is at his own risk.

Maybe I'm just biased towards what I have by far the most experience with, xanax IR and etizolam, but seriously none of the medium or long lasting Rx benzos have hit the spot for me. Valium was only enjoyable at doses of like 40-50mg minimum, even when just ~1.5mg xanax would have been nice, and for fuck sake it takes like 1.5-3 hours for the goddamn valium to even kick in, and by then I'm tired as fuck. Even then, unless I combined valium with at least ~600mg gabapentin and/or 2 maybe 2.5 servings of booze, it was definitely lackluster.

Valium was leagues better than lorazepam though. I wish I could try clonazepam, but for some reason in my part of the state, most doctors seems to know better and only script kpins to epileptics.

>it's been over 4-5 weeks since I half way CTed from about 700mg worth of etizolam, taking 10mg/day for 30-50+ days and rapid tapering down to 4-6mg/day before CT

There wasn't any real WD symptoms, if so they were indistinguishable from rebound anxiety, and only really lasted about 5-10 days, and another 4-5 days of lingering effects. I want benzos so fucking bad, and not even very often, just about twice a week when it's 4:15AM and I cant sleep. Unfortunately my doc won't even script me like 15x1mg lorazepam every 3 months anymore, nor will he even do like 15-20 lunesta tablets every 3 months for insomnia. Clearly, ordering something like 700mg etizolam again would be a poor choice in my situation, but actual pills are so much more expensive. 700mg etiz only costed me like $30-40 or something dumb, and it seems SO much more forgiving on tolerance/WD than xanax, diclaz, flualp, cLam etc.

Goddamn I miss benzos. 10 days from now, I get drug tested again, so obviously no way I can use any now besides possibly diclaz/lorazepam lmao. Problem is I've tested positive at least once this year for lorazepam, and my doc seems suspicious since my last lorazepam script was maybe 20x0.5mg tablets in like Fall of 2018.

Anyone else had experience with those Japanese benzos? After that one guy loved them so much, I've been considering giving them a go for something new.

No shame bump on bupe, long worn off benzedrex (3mo d-amph script ran out), 2.5 glasses of wine, 50mg hydroxyzine, and 200ug clonidine. Benzos, I knew thee well.

Anyone else order etizolam even though it's way more illegal in your state than xanax? >Fuck the police lol
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Nathaniel Blackford - Sat, 21 Mar 2020 07:58:47 EST DxNo2ehe No.148583 Reply
2mg of Clonazepam, 1mg of alprazolam, 2mg's of buprenorphine & 0.5l can of good Finnish wheat ale. Plus a lipful of snus (kinda like your US dip/chewing tobacco) but a lot stronger.
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Nicholas Pickforth - Sat, 21 Mar 2020 18:25:51 EST e5MGtDU6 No.148588 Reply
  • 2mg clonazepam
  • 20mg methadone

It's been 4 months since I've taken kpins. Feeling hella good!
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Nathaniel Ginningcocke - Sun, 22 Mar 2020 00:44:20 EST zBXn39eu No.148592 Reply
>>147800
Scored some xanax tonight is it safe to scrape off some of the tab and bomb it on my tongue?
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 22 Mar 2020 14:00:31 EST FIs+k9om No.148594 Reply
>>148592
Probably not North America. Some Aussie dude was talking about spending $10+ on bars. Idk if they were even pharma bars. Another poster said pressed bars went from $3-$5 and pharma was $7-$10+. People were willing to pay a few years back when the streets were flooded with every RC benzo and/or fent analogue under the Sun.
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Walter Pannernere - Sun, 22 Mar 2020 18:35:03 EST FNqL9JZX No.148597 Reply
  • 3mg clonazepam
  • 20mg methadone

Feeling good today boys! Havent touched benzos in 4 months and I'm feeling really good on top of mixing it with an opiate. Hope you all have a good day!
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Fuck Bluggletare - Mon, 23 Mar 2020 04:05:36 EST 0tSDscC7 No.148599 Reply
  • 30mg methadone
  • 1.5mg clonazepam

What a nice way to start off the day :)
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Basil Pillernodge - Mon, 23 Mar 2020 08:04:11 EST PWtfvjUf No.148600 Reply
Woke upon hour ago. Took 1.5mg clonazepam and I feel mighty fine this morning. I just love benzos <3
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 23 Mar 2020 10:12:49 EST eKhsO2nY No.148601 Reply
For weeks, I have consumed 5-8 fl. oz. of 100% grapefruit juice on a daily basis at the same time each day. A couple of times per week I will take 5mg to 20mg DXM at maximum to offset opioid tolerance. I agree with the literature regarding the build up of a CYP3A4 inhibitor as being superior for potentiation rather than sporadic use.

Diazepam, hydrocodone, cyclobenzaprine, and hydroxyzine. Now, a cup of Earl Gray Sweatshirt tea time get through the morning.

>>147800
Since I’m arguably a terrible person who takes pleasure and finds entertainment in television shows about 600+ lb. Americans and Freak Eaters, there has always been a phrase I have had loathed. “It’s like crack to me,” “It’s better than crack,” and other variations of the equivalent or better than crack cocaine really rub me the wrong way.
A woman addicted to cheesy potatoes on Freaky Eaters (TLC) in the U.S. states cheese covered potatoes are like crack, she’s gotta have it.
A few years back my dad used the phrase when talking about a coconut and almond mixture, which admittedly was good. I told him I thought crack was better than coconuts and almonds, which set off an entire disappointed discussion ending with me revealing I have never used crack. Shocking, I know.
Crack is like crack. Nitrous is justifiably called “hippy crack.” Any short lived high can be comparable to the addictive properties of powder cocaine or crack rocks. With this said, I must ask:
>Assuming dairy and animals can be taken out of the equation, would you rather give up eating cheese (acts upon mu opioid receptors) or chocolate (dopamine)? If we’re going the crack route I would assume dopamine, but many people who pursue a vegan diet have difficulty going without cheese — not chocolate.
I had this conversation with a colleague a few weeks back. I’d go for chocolate, but I don’t like cocaine much at all. Same with stimulants as a whole.
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Oliver Sungerfug - Mon, 23 Mar 2020 19:35:43 EST TMyM8rO9 No.148607 Reply
Took 3.5mg clonazepam. Enjoying the ride :)
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Edward Murringhall - Tue, 24 Mar 2020 13:56:46 EST ZhhYmbmD No.148612 Reply
Took 2mg clonazepam

Feeling relaxed as I'm listening to some good music. Today is a good day.
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Edward Murringhall - Tue, 24 Mar 2020 18:14:43 EST ZhhYmbmD No.148614 Reply
Took 4.5mg clonazepam

Feeling fucked up at the moment :)
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Cedric Cimmlefield - Wed, 25 Mar 2020 08:25:12 EST WEWsFklv No.148618 Reply
Took 3mg clonazepam today after waking up. Feeling really relaxed and ate a good breakfast. Might take more later idk.
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Doris Gellerhood - Wed, 25 Mar 2020 19:01:28 EST d1a1+jcM No.148622 Reply
3.5 clonazepam taken a while ago. Starting to feel good :)
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 27 Mar 2020 22:29:25 EST FIs+k9om No.148637 Reply
55mg diazepam, 30mg hydrocodone, 30mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, a bit of booze (1 glass of wine, 1 pint of beer), 100% grapefruit juice, and 20mg DXM beforehand. Plus, I’ve had grapefruit juice in my system for a hot minute. Anytime I take a moderate hydrocodone dosage I will take up to 20mg DXM.

Other hydrocodone dosages this week: 45mg, 60mg, and so forth
Other diazepam doses this week: 0mg to 70mg

For years I have prepped for quarantine/doomsday by stocking goods. I hope the BasedGod hears my prayers.

>>148636
Congrats!!!! I’m really proud of you, bud. So dope. Here’s a post to encourage strength, knowledge, learning, and chill vibes.
How are you liking the area?
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High Strung - Sat, 28 Mar 2020 01:11:52 EST 8rVj0M3M No.148638 Reply
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>>148637
>4mg Clonazepam

Well I'm in lock down in a hotel room (am not allowed to leave the room but I get full complimentary room service) so I haven't been able to go sightseeing yet, but I've been to Xi'an before and I loved it. I'm in a district I've visited before so when I look out the window of my hotel I have a rough idea of where I am.

Just finished today's lessons with my first round of kids, hence why I'm benzing now. They are PRECIOUS and the TA who sat in on my class was absolutely astounded at how I took to the (online) classroom. I think I've found my place in the world.

Hoooo boy though, I am gonna miss marijuana and psychedelics. My sister said she might be able to score some during Christmas when I fly back home, but until then, my English-speaking psychiatrist will be my chill-pill dealer.
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dr. m - Sat, 28 Mar 2020 09:05:05 EST gRVjhKoI No.148639 Reply
>>148638
Yeah, your only real choice is to try sneaking some lsd tabs over from the states, but if you do so I advise it to be a one time thing, and that you don't bring any back.

So tl;dr, I didn't get approved for my Burmese visa because of Corona, and now have to wait indefinitely. I'm PISSED. The good news is I just had my piss test, which I only have every 3 months, so I've got 250+ 8mg bupe tablets and 500-800 10mg d-amph tablets on the way next week. I can also consume cannabis, benzos etc. for the next 2 months if I want, though I dont have any and would have to pay local prices for convenience (e.g. ~$40 for like 2.5-3g "8th" that's only 12-16% THC, 10 fake xanax "bars" for $40-60, etc.), and I dont really have the budget for that stuff right now.

Anyone want to guess how long this dumb pandemic is going to take until other countries let us in again? It won't surprise me if we're locked in until July/August.
Fuuuuuuck.

I'm debating finding a country, any country at this point, that will let me in so that I can spend ~14 days there and hopefully be exempt from the US restrictions. I hadn't budgeted for that, but it looks like it's my only option.

Nb since no benzos, yet. If I'm stuck here, I might order another 500/750mg/1g of etizolam.
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m - Sat, 28 Mar 2020 10:12:45 EST gRVjhKoI No.148640 Reply
>>148639
Correction: visa was "approved" but the number I called said that my visa is no longer valid??? And my flight has already been declined and refunded. What a goddamn mess.
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Brainiac - Sat, 28 Mar 2020 17:36:54 EST fs5aF+hM No.148641 Reply
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Last night I took 450mg of actual Lyrica pregabalin (in three stages) and let me tell you it was so much better than the Zentiva generic crap that I had before and which was also almost expired. The difference is day and night, the Lyrica was more psychedelic, kicked in quicker, didn't give me a headache like the genetic did, it was longer lasting and less stimulant, overall so much more pleasant. I had some wine too and I slept for 11 hours, lmao. I'm still a bit high so to speak from the doses last night which was so many hours ago.
I dosed another 150mg pregabalin awhile ago and it's just kicking in so bump on that.
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High Strung - Sat, 28 Mar 2020 21:36:17 EST P87PGSLq No.148645 Reply
>1mg Clonazepam

Ready for the kiddos. Such sweet children, so glad to have them.

>>148640
Yeah mate, it's bad. I got into China mere days before they stopped accepting foreign nationals into PRC borders. To use some old-school imageboard speak: in b4 the lock. Best of luck, this might take a while.....
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DTMO - Sun, 29 Mar 2020 04:27:13 EST FbyTPVHx No.148648 Reply
>>148641
Because I'm contrary: I've never found a difference between brand name Lyrica and generics (Lyzal and I think another one). It seems to be primarily a Seppo problem this lack of bioequivalence between brands.
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Hamilton Turveywell - Sun, 29 Mar 2020 06:03:31 EST kUv4Zlj6 No.148649 Reply
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dat ambien

im gonna eat sunchips and play the burning crusade

pic is my face when corona
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 02 Apr 2020 01:27:43 EST FIs+k9om No.148663 Reply
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>>147800
Frankly Mr. Shankly, I haven’t kept exact numbers on some of the drugs consumed.
1) 130mg diazepam in three doses (10mg then 50mg then 20mg then 50mg)
2) 50mg+ hydrocodone
3) 75mg hydroxyzine with plans to take up to 150mg at most
4) 50mg cyclobenzaprine taken in two doses
5) booze — a pint of a 7.7% 16.9 fl. oz. German beer. The company opened in 1030 C.E./A.D. And, two 5 fl. oz. of 13.5% red wine
6) Tea: green plus orange rind, black English teatime, Earl Gray, and chamomile. I’m a tea fiend
7) Bought two 12 packs of sparkling water (coconut and watermelon flavors) and a mango limeade seltzer. DANK!

I’m lit as fuck, watching a somewhat obscure Joy Division biopic. There’s a bit of a nod here and there (I should mention taking 10mg DXM earlier), but I’m ultra fucking relaxed.

COVID-19, wars, hatred, self-loathing, disgust with the planet, etc. all fade away as I drift into a state of bliss.

BioPIC not related
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James Lightford - Thu, 02 Apr 2020 05:16:53 EST aIogu+NU No.148666 Reply
2.5mg xanax
Haven't had any xanax in over a year. I take daily diazepam but only 5-7.5mg/day.
Gonna chill the fuck out
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Chan - Fri, 03 Apr 2020 21:09:39 EST ujZowM7N No.148668 Reply
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>>147800
>30mg Methylpehnidate
>20mg Propanolol
>16mg Codiene
>6mg Diazepam

Didn't know where else to post but here. Should I take more or regret taking less? Quite an interesting time to be alive. How be unto all?

All is the same, despite a change
Lonely and without comfort
Will this always be the way
Surely one will come forth
Until that day, I will waste away
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Sophie Blallersene - Sat, 04 Apr 2020 13:40:53 EST SsiIde5T No.148671 Reply
Had some miniscule bumps of alprazolam powder, feeling kinda relaxed. Is that stuff still available? I remember I got 500mg for $65, this will last me a lifetime.
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dr. mario - Sat, 04 Apr 2020 20:48:37 EST gRVjhKoI No.148674 Reply
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>>147800
Fuck this site lost my post

>~5mg bupe subbed throughout the day
>pissed my 500+ 10mg d-amph script is fucked up and my doc hasn't fixed it since WEDNESDAY
>cleaning some old keep sakes up, deciding which shitty stuff my ex-wife dumped on me to throw away and which to keep
>by the grace of God discover ~30x10mg Cambodian valium

Just popped 30mg and subbed 20mg for a total of 50mg valium boys! It's been 7 weeks since I had any benzo, which was an etizolam binge. What a pleasant surprise!

Here's to at least a week's worth of valium! I might trade some for ativan if my ativan guy will give a better ratio than 1mg ativan per 10mg valium. I've never had valium+ativan combo, and only had valium+xanax maybe once or twice.

Valium is super fucking uncommon in my area/circle in Florida, with absolutely everyone I know being switched to ativan except for two people, one gets xanax IR and one gets xanax XR, so this truly is a treat.

BWB bitches! I also found some 100mg tramadol IR, 200mg tramadol XR, 30mg APAP-free codeine, and a few 60mg APAP-free dhc, but there's no way I'm WDing off bupe to relapse on such shitty opioids. However, perhaps a combo of codeine+ dhc would go nicely with some flake opium/PPT.
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Cornelius Coddletot - Sat, 04 Apr 2020 21:35:08 EST BGH46ohv No.148675 Reply
>>148674
Fuck yea valium. Ill take a 5mg right now. Took care of business. Now to relax, eat good food and play dos2 with my gf and friend.
Personally I wouldn't trade any diazepam for lorazepam but for whatever reason I've never enjoyed loraz.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 05 Apr 2020 17:30:32 EST FIs+k9om No.148680 Reply
>>148675
Most people find lorazepam to be the least recreational compared to alprazolam, clonazepam, and diazepam.
Dr. Mario has said in prior posts how underwhelming or unenjoyable diazepam is.
Your opinion is with the majority. 9/10 people would rather take diazepam than to take/trade/buy lorazepam.
Fuck lorazepam.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 05 Apr 2020 17:34:00 EST FIs+k9om No.148681 Reply
>>148680
Also, I’ve had a major bender on diazepam, alprazolam, hydrocodone, hydroxyzine, cyclobenzaprine, beer/wine, and Earl Gray tea (to stay awake during heavy diazepam usage).
Over the last two weeks I’ve ingested 0mg diazepam to 50mg diazepam (5 times or so), 80mg diazepam, and 100mg to 130mg diazepam a few times as well. Highest dosage of alprazolam on this bender was just 3mg. All pills taken in one go, of course.

nb
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m - Mon, 06 Apr 2020 01:13:32 EST gRVjhKoI No.148688 Reply
>>148680
Yeah, I only mentioned swapping for lorazepam if it means getting a better rate in terms of equipotency, like if I can get 2mg lorazepam per 10mg diazepam.

The muscle relaxation was alright, but it wasn't drowsy enough for me to fall asleep...weird. Maybe my tolerance is still fucked 7 weeks later.

Regardless, I'm going to try to respect valium's stupid long half-life and wait another week before dosing again.
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Archie Fendlehall - Tue, 07 Apr 2020 19:53:31 EST 7/316tRr No.148694 Reply
1500mg gabapentin
400mg tramadol

Havent done gabapentin in over a month. High as fuck and the tramadol compliments it. Stay high friends!
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Brainiac - Wed, 08 Apr 2020 22:02:37 EST fs5aF+hM No.148695 Reply
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900 mg gabapentin and smoked some weed that's too strong for how little it takes to get me incredibly high (not sure if it's 100% natural). Good combo, plus another 300mg gabapentin coming later.
Picture is what I found on a CD of my sister's IT school project from 2013. Weird.
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Oliver Collerfutch - Wed, 08 Apr 2020 22:25:21 EST Et/bhmha No.148696 Reply
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A coupe monsters, 10 mg of diazepam, 2 mg of clonazepam, and wrap the night up with a cheeseburger and 15 mg of zolpidem.

party on wayne
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m - Fri, 10 Apr 2020 23:29:53 EST gRVjhKoI No.148700 Reply
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>>147800

BWB

>bump 4mg bupe + 40mg d-amph plugged many many hours ago long crashed
>just downed ~3 servings of red wine and 1 light beer
>sublingual 20mg valium

time to lay in bed and chillax. Aww yesss I love benzos

Gonna order some jap ones and more etizolam again. I can't leave to teach for Burma for probably like 6 months for all I fucking know, maybe a year, so why does it even matter if I get benzo dependent if I'll have all the time in the world to taper off and be miserable again?

That's future me's problem though. Cheers
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 11 Apr 2020 00:16:01 EST /xCHYmXq No.148701 Reply
45mg hydrocodone, 40mg diazepam, 6 beers throughout the day, 20mg DXM, 35mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, and white grapefruit juice throughout the day.
>FEELS SO GOD DAMN snazzy
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sat, 11 Apr 2020 01:34:47 EST /xCHYmXq No.148703 Reply
>>147800
Another 40mg diazepam and drinkin’ on Stella Artois
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Sun, 12 Apr 2020 21:07:46 EST /xCHYmXq No.148719 Reply
3,600mg gabapentin + 10mg diazepam + 7.5mg hydrocodone + tequila yesterday
I went hard on some La Croix sparkling water, too.
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Augustus Denningdale - Sun, 12 Apr 2020 21:11:46 EST xz/xac1o No.148720 Reply
>>147800
>brownouts
is that when you shit your pants because you're so fucked up on concoctions of drugs that steal your soul and kill your brain and leave you in a comatose state for several hours?

cause if it is thats hilarious
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Simon Craddleson - Sun, 12 Apr 2020 23:47:44 EST f9QhBSVU No.148721 Reply
>>148719
La Croix water. We used to see flavored water. It was nice.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Tue, 14 Apr 2020 03:48:40 EST /xCHYmXq No.148725 Reply
Earlier: 900mg gabapentin (staggered as 300mg every 45 min.), 22.5mg hydrocodone, two shots of tequila, 20mg diazepam, 25mg hydroxyzine, 15mg Cyclobenzaprine, and two beers.

Now: 30mg hydrocodone (chewed up), 40mg diazepam, 15mg cyclobenzaprine, 25mg hydroxyzine, and I plan to have another beer. Oh, and I’m finna sip on that cold seltzer shit.
I had a dream once. My ex-girlfriend and I were eating picnic baskets and exhibiting odd behaviour while recording analogue music and dissing on digital formats.

>>148720
It’s a reference to the state explained in It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia. A blackout is the complete loss of memory due to intoxication. A brown our is the experience of forgetting bits and pieces during intoxication, but not entirely remembering or forgetting everything.
A brownout is basically a mild blackout, or a partial blackout.
But, I do know of friends, classmates, and even some posters (mostly anons) who would piss themselves and even ruin mattresses due to being so incapacitated on benzos.
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m - Tue, 14 Apr 2020 23:33:36 EST gRVjhKoI No.148731 Reply
>>147800
bump while all the valium and booze and bupe

gonna take a break from this site, as I've got no real reason to participate these days

stay safe beautiful people
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Eugene Clockleledge - Wed, 15 Apr 2020 16:30:35 EST VZTPSrVN No.148736 Reply
>>147800
Took two fake 10mg diazepams, which turned out to be 0.5mg Etizolam each. So I really took 1mg Etizolam. A little guilty because this was my first dose in 7 days and 20 hours (yes I track it lol) and my second dose in 13 days. It's cool though, tomorrow I may have some rebound insomnia / anxiety but I'm sure the guilt I felt after taking these needlessly will help me abstain for a nice streak. Preferably 14 days. Gonna smoke a little weed, maybe add a 300mg gabapentin to the mix, and just sleep like a baby. Hope you're all well and not too down with the situation we're in. I visit this board every day for the banter and pillporn and memes, and I'd be happy to talk if you want to.

Cheers <3
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Kim Il Sung - Wed, 15 Apr 2020 17:18:45 EST c3/O+cEl No.148737 Reply
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>>147800
1g of Mushrooms
2mg clonazepam
10mg diazepam
shit tons of weed
shit tons of nitrous

im cozy
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Wesley Mazzleworth - Wed, 15 Apr 2020 23:00:27 EST tc/oZkP9 No.148739 Reply
>>148736
lol, I took 10 mg of etiz rn and 3 mg just a couple hours ago.
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Wesley Mazzleworth - Wed, 15 Apr 2020 23:45:00 EST tc/oZkP9 No.148740 Reply
Ah, I feel so good. I am definitely content with this quarantine. Just benz and chill.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Wed, 15 Apr 2020 23:55:53 EST /xCHYmXq No.148741 Reply
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>>147800
2,700mg gabapentin (staggering as we speak), 15mg cyclobenzaprine, and 22.5mg hydrocodone along with a couple beers.
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Shitting Tillingville - Thu, 16 Apr 2020 03:54:17 EST VZTPSrVN No.148742 Reply
>>148739
Damn 10mg etiz would have me blacked out for two days lol. Becareful my dude <3
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Wesley Mazzleworth - Thu, 16 Apr 2020 04:49:11 EST tc/oZkP9 No.148743 Reply
>>148742
Yeah, i'm pretty fucked up rn. 30 mg rn. Got adderal to wake me up in the morning for work. I have a fucked tolerance and gotta take 1 mg every 6 hours during work so I don't go insane. My life is pretty shitty rn with this covid shit, and I just want to forget shit, just like when I did Clonazolam.
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Shitting Tillingville - Thu, 16 Apr 2020 16:06:26 EST VZTPSrVN No.148749 Reply
>>148744
Fair play mate just glad you can handle your shit. I woke up this morning slurring a little after 14 hours sleep with the help of a bit of weed and 1mg etizolam haha tolerance has dropped quite a bit and it's nice. I've been trying to dose no more than once a week for the past 3 weeks ish after I blacked out and only remembered taking 3 of the 9 etizolam (4.5mg total) and 0 of the 5 gabapentins i took (1500mg). Woke up the next morning slurring all my words felt pretty guilty lol
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Esther Clucklechod - Thu, 16 Apr 2020 20:01:24 EST 5PsAVSF4 No.148752 Reply
>>148749
Yeah I got like 4 hours of sleep after staying up till 5 am all benzed out, woke up, took an addy, went to work, and all was good.
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Martha Nuzzletack - Fri, 17 Apr 2020 06:09:55 EST VZTPSrVN No.148756 Reply
>>148752
Mirin'

Never tried Addy or any amphetamines (except for MDMA). They're something I'd like to experience for sure but I don't like the idea of being up all night, Coke seems like the better (for lack of a better term they're all shit for you) option just more expensive.

Once the lockdown in the UK is over I'm gonna get my roll on hard haha
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Ian Greenville - Fri, 17 Apr 2020 10:55:21 EST RNBDRYpt No.148759 Reply
>>147800

does bodyweight effect the recreational dose of benzos?
as in would 4mg xanax effect someone more if they weight 150lbs than someone who weighs 200lbs?
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 17 Apr 2020 22:32:11 EST L3GjZ/YV No.148762 Reply
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Aunties Temazepam and Ativan refill day! Pic related +some points of down since the dope connect lives right beside her pharmacy.
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Brainiac - Sat, 18 Apr 2020 20:01:08 EST fs5aF+hM No.148764 Reply
450mg good pregabalin generic in three doses. Gonna do a lot more tomorrow because it's Sunday.
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Archie Grandfield - Sun, 19 Apr 2020 16:49:13 EST XJD59p9b No.148768 Reply
Took 1.5mg clonazepam earlier. Just took another 1mg. Feeling really relaxed and my anxiety is gone. Bow it's time to sit back and relax and listen to some good ol' trance.
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Shit Bibberspear - Sun, 19 Apr 2020 21:37:32 EST bOg1JPbz No.148769 Reply
>>147800
10 mg etizolam, with 8mg taken a few hours ago, and 50 mg of hydroxyzine. Getting sleepy.
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Nicholas Packleham - Mon, 20 Apr 2020 15:25:49 EST VZTPSrVN No.148779 Reply
>>147800
>>147800
1mg etizolam followed by another 1mg etizolam 2 hours later and 2 hours before I go to bed. Been a nice mellow 420 and 5 days since my last dose. So i don't feel very guilty about it. Going to try and take a 14 day break from Benzos but I usually lose motivation around day 7-10 because it seems like a good enough time has passed to avoid getting dependant. Today I just felt like treating myself. IDK
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Emma Hobberwater - Mon, 20 Apr 2020 20:44:03 EST k5Bl4OTJ No.148781 Reply
  • 1mg clonazepam
  • 550mg dph

What a nice combo this is :)

Might take more clonazepam later.
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Emma Hobberwater - Mon, 20 Apr 2020 21:41:53 EST k5Bl4OTJ No.148783 Reply
Took 2mg clonazepam and 650mg dph. What a nice feeling and not giving a fuck.
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Hannah Hoffingbuck - Mon, 20 Apr 2020 22:41:26 EST jQbn0ZK6 No.148784 Reply
20 mg etizolam over the last few hours
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Barnaby Dungerhitch - Mon, 20 Apr 2020 23:34:25 EST LePIFGhb No.148785 Reply
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>>147800
4mg clonazepam, 1mg alprazolam

I feel lighter than air and, briefly, life is beautiful
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Ebenezer Hasslepick - Tue, 21 Apr 2020 20:38:51 EST uN2aZMlx No.148790 Reply
  • 2mg clonazepam
  • 600mg dph

Feeling great!
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Nathaniel Trotstone - Tue, 21 Apr 2020 22:21:18 EST bOg1JPbz No.148792 Reply
>>147800
high dose etizolam (18 mg)
50 mg hydroxizine
high dose kratom (UK dose, probably like 15 mg or something)
1000 mg of kava
3000 mg gaba
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Ebenezer Hasslepick - Wed, 22 Apr 2020 00:45:28 EST uN2aZMlx No.148793 Reply
Took another 150mg of dph and took 1mg more of clonazepam. Feel good bros!
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Shit Bimblewotch - Wed, 22 Apr 2020 01:49:02 EST zBXn39eu No.148795 Reply
>>148794
Wait so benzos and alc together don't equal certain death?
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Alice Broppernitch - Wed, 22 Apr 2020 17:59:32 EST sIuI1TCp No.148797 Reply
  • 6mg clonazepam
,,- 500mg dph

Felling chilled out and relaxed
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Phoebe Dreffingkack - Thu, 23 Apr 2020 17:28:04 EST hOCogCie No.148807 Reply
  • 1500mg gabapentin
  • 2mg clonazepam

Feeling good brothers and sisters! Hope you all are enjoying being high and fucked up because I am.
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Thomas Fissledale - Thu, 23 Apr 2020 20:59:24 EST pUi5/hmj No.148808 Reply
>>148807
Took 1800mg gabapentin and took 1.5mg clonazepam. Fucked up right now and it feels good :)
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Samuel Criddleville - Fri, 24 Apr 2020 14:28:22 EST hT1q5Y1A No.148811 Reply
>>148807
>1600mg gabapentin /day
>2mg clonaz /day

Are they giving us all the same scripts or what
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Lillian Smallford - Fri, 24 Apr 2020 15:12:08 EST OEwx9c2Q No.148813 Reply
>>148811
Lol just maybe. Love that combo. Too bad im out of clonazepam.

But, I just took 20mg methadone and 1500mg gabapentin. Here's to a good weekend!
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 02 May 2020 04:16:11 EST twQJksvD No.148830 Reply
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Wow. Two fakes pressed hunks + 8mg Clonaz + 3mg Ativan 7hr ago and about .3 of some mediocre fentadope. fucking throwed AF... My benzo tolerance dropped massively over the the last three weeks except for the very odd 5mg librium every 4 or 5 days.
Can feel the blackout is upon me, especially knowing that when I'm in this state all my opi cravings and whatnot are seemingly non existent. Recently came in to a bunch of 2mg Clonaz and have a chance at 15 30mg Temaz and some one mg Ativan tomorrow. Might try and use it to kick fent with all of it. Who knows. Quarantine experiment.

Pic not related
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Brainiac - Sun, 03 May 2020 20:24:57 EST /C1wlBXu No.148838 Reply
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>>147800
I went through sleep this morning and woke up feeling like shit but pregabalin saved my day. A total of 750mg dosed throughout the afternoon and evening is nothing crazy but it was very nice on a low tolerance and in contrast with how I felt when I woke up. It definitely hits stronger when I'm a bit sleep deprived. It even gave me some interesting CEVs, and some mild OEVs at some point. Sleep awaits cause I need to recover.
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Isabella Blytheridge - Tue, 05 May 2020 18:41:08 EST 86bjiiz4 No.148848 Reply
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>>147800
>30mg adderall
>10mg diazepam
>3mg bupe will probably take more

Overall anxious as fuck and just feel like shit. Woke up incredibly early and couldnt go back to sleep. Found out some faggot stole 6 of my adderall pills at a party I went to (my fault for leaving free drugs around ig). Found out I way overpaid for some heroin. My order of oxycodone still isnt here after like 3 weeks. Doc is playing hardball with my scripts. And we only have 2 people at work (including me) when we usually have 4-5 so shit is hectic. And overall just anxious and worried about my disability claims and insurance and all that shit.

/end blogpost

(Heres a reminder to grab your valium and other scripts before the end of the day too, myself, you fucking retard.)
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Osterbach - Sun, 10 May 2020 05:07:23 EST zvgiEJFt No.148874 Reply
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>>147800
Wish I could enjoy my xanny high without falling inevitably falling asleep in my computer chair.
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Martha Blillytatch - Sun, 10 May 2020 13:16:26 EST 86bjiiz4 No.148878 Reply
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>>147800

>30mg diazepam

Overthinking af today. This girl last night fucking poured her heart out to me last night but it was nothing but a coke fueled spiel of bullshit and I don't believe it. Then I got pity-invited over to the guys house because apparently she said i was doing bad alone when i didnt say anything about that.

Got drunk and drunk texted her some dumb shit that I'm embarrassed by now. Whatever tho. I dont care. I just wanna get high. Get high and die. fuck it
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Doris Sengerworth - Sun, 10 May 2020 14:39:09 EST RNBDRYpt No.148879 Reply
>>147800
5mg xanax
40mg diazapam

Was feeling pretty good. Shame I haven't got the type of money to use that in all go rregularly

Took today 1mg xan 40mg diazapam didn't feel much
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Simon Gennerfuck - Tue, 12 May 2020 04:53:03 EST kUv4Zlj6 No.148889 Reply
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ketamine addict here. ran out of ketamine so i took some klonopin and edibles and now im just chillin. fuck man, i ran out of cigarettes.
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Nathaniel Smallwell - Tue, 12 May 2020 05:16:23 EST pXJ3WTG/ No.148890 Reply
>>147800
I've been taking 0.2-0.4mg flualprazolam every day for a couple months now. Pretty functional, only problem I've had is groggy in the morning sometimes. I'm not sure why its not referenced more as one of the better functional RC dissos for anxoety and frequent use
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High Strung - Tue, 12 May 2020 05:40:38 EST vJg9ooXH No.148891 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
(in brand new tiny, plain white, no-markings breath mint look)

你好, 来自 西安 中国!!!

Sorry for the disappearance y'all, but: #1 I've been settling into my new life with my new high-paying job and resident alien and labor permits (essentially a step below a green card) while teach my DARLING and AMAZING little students who I've falled entirely in love with. #2 I have not had access to benzos due to some state-owned health insurance paperwork, but today that was taken care off and now I'm sitting in my high-rise studio flat enjoying some Sichuan spicy brisket and shiitake mushroom hotpot and some pot stickers

.....Clonazepam in the PRC is strangely nondescript. A 2mg pill looks like a very small breath mint, like Altoid minis. You'd have no idea they were prescription pills if you weren't told what they were. I'll take some pictures.

Just a word to the wise: the Chinese healthcare system is a bummer. Super cheap, My MRI today was UD$50 compared to $2000 back home and my copay for my physical checkup with my primary caregiver was US$0.75 (YES) and my first round of physical therapy for my back for According to a South African expat I know here and his Syrian boyfriend, Cuba, Vietnam, Venezuela, Iran, and in some (SOME) fields of medicine even North Korea are better. So.... yeah. You win some you lose some. But I get health insurance and stuff like GP checkups and bloodwork are sometimes less thant US$5.

>My Clonezapam was 14RMB (US$1.75 for 40 pills).

It's my first night with benzos in a month, and it's my night off, and I can't be happierful Hope everyone is welll.

-----
Okay pic related: it's a street art somebody did of an ancient terracotta warrior getting slizzard on handmade marketplace rum and fresh-squeezed organic traditional Chinese fruits. Not my kinda thing but I appreciated the art and bought them a large box of loose-lease tea from Tibet.....



What's happening in the states? Are you golks okay? I'm so sorry.
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Fanny Sedgehodge - Tue, 12 May 2020 21:22:17 EST XiHqRv0i No.148897 Reply
why the fuck do all the dumb medicine facts websites say that lamotrigine withdrawal is "rare"? that seems dangerously wrong, I've missed 3 days of doses and this is almost phenibut withdrawal territory. Flushing, sweating, shaking like a motherfucker, my muscles aren't actually where I think they are, completely incapable of playing bass like I do for a few hours every fucking day, shivering typing this, my body can't decide if it's hot or cold, beat red splotchy cheeks, jaw clenching

hopefully I can get some more tomorrow, i called the pharmacy today but they never texted and closed before i realized it, they had to fax a new doctor for my script, doctor would obviously say yes because he knows i need this stuff to function but he wasn't expecting it because i didn't call him first so i hope he gets it holy shit i can't type, how can this be rare?! how can people stop taking an anticonvulsant after years and be a-ok? I've only taken this shit for a year and a half and every day i miss a dose is hell, this is unrealistic next level though

I really, really, really didn't want to lapse but i just now ate like half a bar worth of bar dust my friend gave me and am drinking some pinot tryna not have a seizure over here
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Simon Drettinglock - Tue, 12 May 2020 23:37:45 EST aw6SIa2F No.148898 Reply
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>>148897
Look up Steven Johnson's syndrome. It's the reason they taper people up on Lamictal afaik. It's not common, but it can involve rashes and it can potentially be very serious and do permanent damage such as cause retinal scaring and I don't even know what all else. So if you think you're dealing with such a reaction don't just sit around and wait, go find some more info at least and try to get a hold of your doctor preferably, or the pharmacist
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Chan - Wed, 13 May 2020 01:54:27 EST 7oGxJJad No.148899 Reply
>>148891
Sounds like everything has settled into place for you HS. Happy to hear it's all worked out after what seems like forever.
Xi'an, Chengdu, Chongqing, Sichuan province in general is amazing. Wish all the best going forward and may it be forever prosperous.

NB: However anxiety has been higher than normal so after a taper down to 0mg Diazepam. These days 10mg hit's nicely but I don't know if it's BWB worthy. Just a nice break.
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High Strung - Wed, 13 May 2020 08:16:04 EST ZDF4JWC2 No.148900 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam

Benzo munchies be hittin' different with Shaanxi cuisine.

Wish I could find weed around here.... I mean, I know it's here but I'm not an idiot and don't wanna get deported and have my entire career ruined over a bit of wacky-tobackky.

You win some you lost some
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Jenny Fuckingstock - Wed, 13 May 2020 20:36:36 EST V6fXx7Ce No.148906 Reply
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>>148898
>>148897
Holy shit thank god a 6 months supply, word to the wise if anyone here is on it or planning to be, don't fucking stop w/o tapering, ESPECIALLY if you're taking it for benzo withdrawal/seizures, lucky me also has bipolar, this is my mono therapy for life, i had to get a ride to the pharmacy cause it wasnt even safe for me to drive and damn near had a seizure in line, started getting that ripped out of my skin feeling, took a double dose right there at the drinking fountain in front of everyone like a true junky and with-in 15 min i started feeling better

As scary as this shit was, i still love it as a drug, it gave me my life back, just sucks it seems very hard to come off of
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Clara Brebblehitch - Thu, 14 May 2020 06:42:57 EST aw6SIa2F No.148907 Reply
>>148906
Glad to hear you got some. A lot of those meds have a lot of troubles that the doctor won't tell you about, sometimes it seems what it breaks is worse than what it fixes. Lamictal is a good one to be on though despite that one bullshit issue.

Since it isn't controlled, you may be able to buy up to a 90 day supply from from an online overseas pharmacy without a prescription.

It would be nice to have around and probably very cheap.
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Jenny Fuckingstock - Thu, 14 May 2020 14:59:12 EST V6fXx7Ce No.148908 Reply
>>148762
So does she know you do that or are you just stealing from your aunt? I cant fucking talk i did that shit all the time when i was in it, i even would do some shit where id swap out my moms valium with my hydroxyzine (she had it for breakthrough anxiety not daily use i didnt throw her into w/d, that would be beyond the pail even for me then) and shit like that
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Jenny Fuckingstock - Thu, 14 May 2020 15:02:05 EST V6fXx7Ce No.148909 Reply
>>148907
Yeah im probably gonna hoard a shit ton at this point, i already do that for a couple other uncontrolled medications i know for a fact ill be on for the rest of my life but they arent for mental health, well not directly, i think the same place i get that has lamictal as well
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Samuel Fucklewill - Thu, 14 May 2020 19:02:51 EST drXTBcjz No.148911 Reply
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Have just taken 4.5mg clonazepam

Hopefully sleep will ensure after an hour

hmm, wondering if i should just stick to using this in place of xanax from now on as a choice
hm
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High Strung - Fri, 15 May 2020 01:30:58 EST uMfAgQG2 No.148912 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam

Just another day. Beautiful afternoon though and no lessons until 7:30pm.
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Hannah Grimhall - Fri, 15 May 2020 02:05:23 EST kUv4Zlj6 No.148913 Reply
benzos and gaba lmaoooo
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High Strung - Sat, 16 May 2020 10:14:06 EST 1eP0bf5M No.148915 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
-cup of tea

Listening to classical music and reading Tang Dynasty poetry. Good way to end the night.

Get to work from home tomorrow and might get a few extra paid days off too. Sounds like a good time to benz one of those days, eh?
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Brainiac - Sat, 16 May 2020 23:48:14 EST UFL8Wka6 No.148916 Reply
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>>147800
600mg pregabalin and 800mg gabapentin throughout the night and a beer and some wine earlier that kinda ruined the experience initially cause alcohol sucks. I'm feeling really nice now, this pregabalin takes forever to kick in and then sneaks up on you.
I also discovered that grapefruit, taken after pregabalin has reached peak, prolongs and potentiates the effects but grapefruit before pregabalin or gabapentin makes them not work properly making their effects much weaker.
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Martha Hepperbury - Sun, 17 May 2020 11:40:43 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148919 Reply
1.5mg clonazepam taken an hour ago. Love feeling benzd out and a bit sedated. What a nice feeling.
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Alice Chuddlechurk - Mon, 18 May 2020 15:34:05 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148924 Reply
Took 1.5mg clonazepam earlier. Feeling good and I'm still on the come up. I feel like jelly at this point lol
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Thomas Goodfoot - Mon, 18 May 2020 18:28:24 EST 8RHOt18i No.148926 Reply
just picked up 10 pressed gg249 bars that smack (Good press too) and a half gram of some FIRE heroin.

I have a drug test in 13 todays. Do you all think i'll be alright if i stop after tonight?
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Alice Chuddlechurk - Mon, 18 May 2020 19:05:59 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148928 Reply
3mg clonazepam taken throughout the day. This benzo is finally making me feel good. Just sitting here benzd out my mind listening to electronic music. Feels good man :)
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High Strung - Tue, 19 May 2020 03:04:52 EST uMfAgQG2 No.148930 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam

Had a nice date with a very nice woman last night, hope it goes somewhere because she'd like to see me again.

But now I'm just benzing and watching Bordertown on Netflix while eating a chicken sandwich (a little expat comfort food). Love me some Nordic noir.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Tue, 19 May 2020 03:50:15 EST ossOESYn No.148931 Reply
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BWB on some Aussie apl bars. Took 3 and a half, plus 7.5mg zopiclone,15mg Dexedrine, some good bud and about .8g of some of the best ketamine I've ever done.. gonna iv it.

Pic related. Dunno how I scored Aussie Alp in Canadaland but it's fkn amazing. Pic related
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Shitting Pittwell - Tue, 19 May 2020 17:59:45 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148943 Reply
  • 20mg hydrocodone
  • 1.5mg clonazepam

Feeling good today. Feel relaxed and so laid back. Love this feeling and combining benzos and opiates.
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Shitting Pittwell - Tue, 19 May 2020 18:26:53 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148944 Reply
>>148943
Took another 1.5mg clonazepam. So that's 3mg altogether. Hope I get fucked up because this day sucked.
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Shitting Pittwell - Tue, 19 May 2020 19:33:56 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148945 Reply
Up to 5mg clonazepam now. Time to get benzd out of my fucking mind!
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drvgvlaHelsinki - Wed, 20 May 2020 16:59:25 EST l3qvCCgk No.148946 Reply
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>>147800
Just had amazing kinky sex with wifey. Then I went to grab my syringe which just had another shot of 1ml/10mg diazepam solution intravenously. Second one for the day. And yes, my Estonian friend has a prescription to these bottles in Estonia. So straight up pharmastuff. Today he came back to Finland and sold me 2ml/20mg of this stuff, and damn it makes me mellow. Also done a few mg's of buprenorphine and 0.3g of good speed. So now I'm trying to slowly and peacefully land with no comedown. Maybe watch a little bit of anime or something. Stay mellow & Safe mates!
Greetings from Finland
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Henry Surryridge - Wed, 20 May 2020 23:12:33 EST VqPdIHSi No.148947 Reply
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>>148946
welp, I dun did it

went through my whole 60mg kpin script in 10 days so I decided it was most assuredly time to call my doctor and tell him it wasn't working to get a different script, the 90mg of loraz isn't as good as the kpins imho but damn it feels good to cheat the system eeeever so slightly

that said I really have about given up on real treatment for my anxiety / panic attacks, nothing short of two scripts alongside CBT would really work long term & that's very difficult to come by

In a perfect world, I'd say 2mg clonaz per day & like 11 bars for when it gets bad (believe you me, it does, as many of you know I am sure)
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Thu, 21 May 2020 00:44:21 EST I+yhAnuL No.148948 Reply
>>148931
Anyone else have experience with Kalma (the Australian Xanax bars)? I swear they beat the shit out of any Alp I've ever tried.
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DTMO - Thu, 21 May 2020 03:19:10 EST rydVB5b2 No.148950 Reply
>>148948
I do, but not many other brands really. Our laws governing generics are pretty strict and I've never noticed much variation amongst generic medications and 'brand name'.
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Chan - Thu, 21 May 2020 04:22:33 EST gbVFK9P2 No.148954 Reply
>>148948
I imagine it's because of having a small amount of binders and always 2mg Alprazolam, while obviously be pharma-tier. I am unsure about other places but at least in the states with all the different Alprazolam brands they are allowed to do what they want when it comes to binders and having a 1.96-2.04 style of dosing for 2mg bars. That's my best guess.
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Polly Drennerman - Thu, 21 May 2020 06:26:08 EST RNBDRYpt No.148955 Reply
does higher body weight = higher recreational benzo dose?
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Edward Dinderpane - Thu, 21 May 2020 19:20:13 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148957 Reply
Took 1800mg gabapentin

Feeling good tonight fellow benzo lovers! I took 40mg methadone too. Feeling this combo a lot! Lovely combination.
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Phoebe Smalllock - Thu, 21 May 2020 21:51:32 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148958 Reply
>>148957
Took another 300mgcso now I'm up to 2100mg. Feeling great
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Phoebe Smalllock - Fri, 22 May 2020 09:09:22 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148963 Reply
Took 1800mg gabapentin upon waking up. Feeling the onset kick in. Good day this is.
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Phoebe Smalllock - Fri, 22 May 2020 18:38:55 EST KdA//Zk6 No.148983 Reply
Took 1800mg gabapentin and took 20mg methadone. Feeling fucking fantastic folks!
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Matilda Sisslebut - Sat, 23 May 2020 01:51:27 EST Dgh6Eyw/ No.148988 Reply
>>148983
You might want to take breaks instead of daily use. Tolerance builds quickly.
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Doris Pondleforth - Sat, 23 May 2020 18:47:49 EST IxkUjjyH No.148989 Reply
Relaspinnnn fuck me I hadnt touched this shit in years heres to it 3mg kpin stupid amount of weed Nd cigs
Life is suffering anyways at least not beimb sober makes ne forget that sometimes
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Simon Bunway - Sat, 23 May 2020 20:19:30 EST 4AR7MhpB No.148990 Reply
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Back to this board after four years.

On my way to doctor shop for some Valium and Temazepam.

Wish me luck.
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Brainiac - Sat, 23 May 2020 21:36:39 EST M1Y6NGqP No.148991 Reply
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>>148955
I mean logic says so. From what I've read around here weight seems to matter quite a bit.

Anyway bump on 1200mg gabapentin. It's Saturday night and it was time for some mood lift.
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Sophie Druddlekene - Sun, 24 May 2020 13:59:00 EST IxkUjjyH No.148994 Reply
>>148989
I woke up with way less kpins than I planned on, somehow aquired alcohol in the night and a little blip of memory I was walking home with my drinks having one at 3am when a group of 8 guys started heckeling me and catcalling me. I'm dude but long hair skinny body type, just kept walking and ignoring because I would have been defenseless as fuck
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Cedric Drarringson - Sun, 24 May 2020 20:14:22 EST 55ySySTQ No.148998 Reply
>>148997
This stuff is either a joke, or my tolerance is through the roof.
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Cedric Drarringson - Sun, 24 May 2020 22:47:50 EST 55ySySTQ No.149003 Reply
>>149001
Seems like it. At about 100 mg and am just uncoordinated and forgetful. Also dropping shit. I do have a tolerance, but it's from 4 months of moderate use.
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Cedric Drarringson - Sun, 24 May 2020 23:00:39 EST 55ySySTQ No.149004 Reply
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>>148999
Indeed, this is probably the case. 42 mg in evening, 48 mg 9 minutes ago, 90mg in total. Not that fucked up, just completely uncoordinated and no short term memory. I think I'll just play vidya and see what happens. Liver will take awhile to metabolize this.
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High Strung - Tue, 26 May 2020 08:03:27 EST wLVM6/r5 No.149016 Reply
>6mg Clonazepam

Long day at the hospital for physical therapy and a looooong day tomorrow with the students. Need this brief respite.
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Beatrice Crabblelock - Tue, 26 May 2020 12:26:43 EST 5XzaM6w2 No.149018 Reply
>>149005
Well, still alive. Quitting benzos now. That was not fun. Gonna just go through a week long taper.
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Reuben Sinderbanks - Tue, 26 May 2020 14:57:27 EST VZTPSrVN No.149021 Reply
>>147800
Took a good 25 day break from all benzos. The last week I've dosed 3 times. Currently on 1mg Etiz as it doesn't rape my tolerance like these Flu/Alp presses. I think they're Alp but being in England you can't be too sure. Feel nice and chill. May pop another 1mg and then call it quits for another 30 days. Seizures terrify me but I like popping benzos so this seems to be a good middleground. Space out my doses in an over the top fashion, but indulge sometimes.

Cheers lads.

Haven't bothered popping my usual 300mg/600mg gabapentin like I normally do when I take Etiz just because I don't want to wake up hazy/foggy tomorrow.
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lol - Tue, 26 May 2020 16:46:38 EST xQEqVS9+ No.149022 Reply
>>149018
Did you get in trouble or anything? Going by your post plus the amount you took it seems like classic delusions of sobriety, used to happen to me all the time with clonazolam,
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Phineas Pabberbury - Tue, 26 May 2020 19:01:06 EST Jg0qvSwk No.149023 Reply
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Ate my usual bar after work but recently picked up 40 10mg percs so added in 20mg of oxy plus the usual bowl here and there. will probably eat more as the night goes on considering I have off tomorrow with this staggered work week they have us on. Does anyone else hate the fact that they're addicted to benzos? Ive been down this road before years ago with OC 80s and heroin, not fent shit, and ended up in rehab twice and a mens sober living home for almost 2 years.

Ive been taking xanax everyday for over a year probably longer and I'm getting tired of it always being scared to run out and die. Problem is I always have some, I have around 80 real bars and around 20 real 10mg percs right now, in about 2 weeks I drive the guy I get them from to his pharmacy and pay for his script of 120 bars and 90 10mg Vicodin's in cash of which I get plenty of. That's not counting the ones he sells me when he needs cash or when his friend gets his script and I buy 40 percs and 10 more bars. Think its time to get off this ride like they say "I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired " but bump for now cause I'm buzzed and later cause I'll be fucked up and nodding out later tonight.
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High Strung - Wed, 27 May 2020 11:26:47 EST /BAp/7/1 No.149029 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam

and some Chinese classical music and compendium of Hui (Chinese Muslim) folk tales after a long day of lesson planning at school. A cigarette and a cup of tea are helping too. Don't need to be up until noon tomorrow either so might as well take in this little moment of chill.
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Caroline Femmernutch - Wed, 27 May 2020 14:37:07 EST VZTPSrVN No.149031 Reply
>>149021
kekd

24 hours later, popped another 1mg.

No more until July honest h-haha
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Beatrice Wungersudge - Thu, 28 May 2020 07:03:40 EST klJE5lZy No.149034 Reply
>>147800
10mg Diazepam and 3 grams of Pregabalin. That's right, 3 grams.
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John Greenfoot - Thu, 28 May 2020 11:18:56 EST VZTPSrVN No.149036 Reply
>>149031
Had a fun time I guess. Talked to some girl I like, tried watching that SpaceX launch but it never happened, and looked for the ISS too but the sky was too cloudy. Felt relaxed and super chill the entire time, and munched a load of food.

No Benzos til July. I can do this !
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Brainiac - Sat, 30 May 2020 21:21:23 EST ynxAjV0N No.149047 Reply
>>149034
Damn, it makes my dose feel shameful.
But I'm feeling great on 300mg (three hundred) pregabalin and 1 litre beer that I had a few hours ago, then a bit of grain alcohol, and I also took 10mg zolpidem just about 30 minutes ago. I can feel the zolpidem spreading through my body so I gotta finish this post quickly. Feels euphoric as fuck! And I'm super horny after a few days of low sex drive. Zolpidem gives me acne, that's what I hate about it but it does feel good in combination with other stuff.
Holy shit, it's kicking in!
I'm flying through my room. Music sounds crazy.
I almost lost my post.
It's already quite trippy.
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Hyades - Sun, 31 May 2020 00:37:55 EST MzGCqtV1 No.149048 Reply
>>147802
People take flexaril? As for recreation? I take em for mild discomfort. I never experienced an intoxicated feeling from them.
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James Ballercocke - Sun, 31 May 2020 10:28:59 EST 86LjTa31 No.149050 Reply
>>149048

My post had literally nothing to do with Flexeril you fucking retard.
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Nathaniel Drinnerwill - Mon, 01 Jun 2020 11:05:43 EST pyW3FyIZ No.149052 Reply
>2mg ativan

Benzos aren't my very favorite, but they're all I have today. Cheers.
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High Strung - Tue, 02 Jun 2020 03:47:37 EST PSma3DWS No.149054 Reply
>5mg Clonazepam

NEGATIVES OF CHINESE PHARMACEUTICAL SYSTEM:
-They will only give you a week's worth of medicine no matter what, so I have to go get my meds refilled every damn Tuesday.

POSITIVES OF CHINESE PHARMACEUTICAL SYSTEM:
-Because of this, my doctor gives me a few extra doses "just in case" each week, so I get a good deal more pills monthly that I would back home. So.... yeah, at least there's that.
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Frederick Grandhood - Tue, 02 Jun 2020 14:24:14 EST BGH46ohv No.149055 Reply
>>149054
What's the opiate scene like? Do people get any rx opiates, or just opioids?
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Shitting Soddledock - Thu, 04 Jun 2020 23:23:29 EST kBIoR3+b No.149068 Reply
10:00am - 1.25mg Lorazepam
12:00pm - 0.25mg Clonazolam
2:00pm - 0.25mg Clonazolam
4:00pm - 1mg Clonazepam
6:30pm - 1mg Clonazepam

Benzin like a champ!!
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 05 Jun 2020 14:27:32 EST /xCHYmXq No.149072 Reply
>>147800
10mg diazepam + 5mg oxycodone + 7.5mg hydrocodone + 30mg codeine + 20mg cyclobenzaprine + 75mg hydroxyzine

Just wrapped a presentation for a national psychology conference.
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Polly Gengermud - Fri, 05 Jun 2020 19:40:03 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149075 Reply
  • 2100mg gabapentin
  • 30mg methadone

Feeling good tonight
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 05 Jun 2020 21:58:24 EST +WLT94gS No.149077 Reply
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Mmmm lucky find at the cold cop. Hadn't been down in months since covid and wasn't seeing any faces I recognized until this little old native elder who I used to play slots with at the casino approached me with some Lecto 6's. 10 pills for 20$ is a decent deal. On par with Val 10's for $2. Bromazepam always had a good euphoric profile imo. Pic related
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 04:27:55 EST +WLT94gS No.149078 Reply
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>>149077
Holy shit add another 10 1mg lorazepam to the stash and I'm going to be feeling Betty fukn comfy. 36mg of bromazepam and ~4 mg Ativan over past six hours. Got weed, got fight. Life is good.
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High Strung - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 07:35:12 EST wf86aWzd No.149080 Reply
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>>149077 Nice find, mate

6mg Clonazepam, a cigarette, some bubble tea, and some Dead Can Dance after a long day of dealing with some seriously rambunctious tykes, and had to stay an extra hour and a half to deal with some parents.

Love my job but it definitely justifies my new doctor's generous supply of benzos.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 08:04:00 EST +WLT94gS No.149081 Reply
>>149080
Apparently Lectopam isn't commonly prescribed in the states.. a two mg can would be a like 6nm
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 08:08:22 EST +WLT94gS No.149082 Reply
>>149081
Wow I'm Benz'd lol a 2mg alp is just as good if not better than bromazepam. They both feel amazing imo. Shit I'm on 6 right now hehe
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Nigel Drizzlestone - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 13:13:05 EST SozWZtpk No.149083 Reply
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>>147800
Long term user. I have a large stash and I wish to see if it's possible to get back those original feelings of benzo magic. Currently have 18 10mg diazepam pills resting in my mouth. Should hopefully kick in soon. I hope to experience intense relaxation but I'll probably just feel a little weird. I'm not sure it's possible to get anything other than maintenance from these drugs at this point - not that i'd want to at dozens of pills a pop. Just an experiment. Hopefully I wont feel suicidal in 30 minutes tho?
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Simon Funderdotch - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 13:13:50 EST AFXs96r0 No.149084 Reply
Have a question on ordering rcs in the states, how essential is it to buy in bitcoin? Is it really that sketch to pay on a card

Just got a bunch of .25 alprazolam bwb
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 19:09:06 EST Cxhmtlnt No.149089 Reply
>>149081
Wow I'm Benz'd lol. A 6mg Lecto would be like a 2mg Xan or a 10mg Val imo.nb
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Brainiac - Sat, 06 Jun 2020 20:43:59 EST pu+atDuy No.149090 Reply
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>>149047
My attempt to extract the active constituents of Nutmeg failed as it didn't have much of an effect (they're all volatile probably). I'm feeling pretty good on 1200mg gabapentin and 500mg lemon balm extract though, plus some alcohol.
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Fucking Shakefield - Sun, 07 Jun 2020 02:50:09 EST IxkUjjyH No.149093 Reply
klonopin all day(lost count tbh I'd guess 2.5-3mg today), Guinness to start the night then I progressed into vodka lemonades with more kpin, got too fuarrrked and took some adderall, idk if i took 2 i thin i did but i cant remember but prolly 60mg
plenty of weed
fuck life
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High Strung - Sun, 07 Jun 2020 07:00:56 EST wf86aWzd No.149094 Reply
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>6mg Clonazepam

Holy fucking shitballs what a workweek. Talk about a baptism of fire. No going out for me tonight, just getting fucked up on Clonazepam, eating pizza, and watching anime. Haven't eaten American food in a while so pizza just feels so wholesome right now with the benzo munchies.
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John Tootbury - Sun, 07 Jun 2020 20:46:14 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149095 Reply
2400mg gabapentin

Might throw in some dph. Has anyone done that combo before?
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Mon, 08 Jun 2020 03:45:11 EST 0OccvuNK No.149099 Reply
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Bump on:
3:30pm: + 1 & a1/2 2mg Clonaz + 2 1mg ativan
12:30am + 10mg Dexedrine, 1+ 1/2 6mg Lectopam, 1 +1/2 2mg Clonazepam, +2 1mg Ativan. Time to drift off into bliss. Hopefully the damph I chewed will keep me from passing out and enjoying the ride. Might have to take another dex. God I live a mild stim with my benzos.... Jokes on me though I binged out yesterday and ate 6 6mg Lectopam, with another 10mg dex, 3 maybe 4 Clonaz 2mg and another 1 maybe 2 30mg Temazepam... Lost my bank card and ID and less than 100$ but I'm obviously still chapped. Girlfriend is pissed too..

I need to stop having these extreme benzo lapses where I lose days at at time. Who knew so much damage could be done by you to yourself in 30 hours
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Mon, 08 Jun 2020 04:11:21 EST 0OccvuNK No.149100 Reply
>>149095
How do people get this benzoesque high from gabapentin. I save hundreds of 400mg gabs and even if I take a high dose like 1.5-2 grams I don't feel shit. I have some phenibut all capped up but since gabapentin never did fuck all I don't have the will to take it.
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Acidrop !PMVEMG/nYI!!vVWR8L52 - Mon, 08 Jun 2020 15:07:19 EST prFK8dRR No.149104 Reply
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>>147800
Took a yellow xanny bar(no idea what's in it but its deff a benz) half this morning, half just now. Also took my daily suboxone dose earlier which is 10 mg plugged. Been smoking lots of dabs. Off work, doing some stuff around the house. Took my dog on a decently long walk this morning after taking my half bar. Its been a pretty good day. Have a good and safe day everyone! Good to be back after a long absence from benzo use.

Pic is my hi fi setup, nothing special.
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Nigel Cinnerspear - Tue, 09 Jun 2020 20:13:24 EST AFXs96r0 No.149109 Reply
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As someone with a 90k mg / month script I'd compare it to more of a floaty sim/opi high than benz

That said it's very unique

>>149082
Would a king lad answer my question on this? Was about to pay on a card, is it really so sketch if I've never done it before? You'd think people wouldn't have the time to go through every order esp. if it's a "legal" rc
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Fuck Bracklebanks - Wed, 10 Jun 2020 05:30:04 EST SozWZtpk No.149113 Reply
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>>149100
Try pregabalin bro. I have no response to gabapentin but pregabalin works. It is basically the only gaba drug that does anything now.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Thu, 11 Jun 2020 02:37:27 EST /xCHYmXq No.149114 Reply
30mg hydrocodone, 20mg diazepam, 1mg clonazepam, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, and 100% white grapefruit juice

Posted up and chillin’ hard.

>>149100
Low to moderate dosages always felt more sedating to me. Moderate-high to high doses without a tolerance become a strange mix of sedation, stimulation, concentration, and mild psychedelic-like effects.
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Chan - Thu, 11 Jun 2020 08:00:05 EST kmbqqLC5 No.149115 Reply
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>>147800
Feeling stressed, A good combo got me feeling good though.
I know these doses seem wonky for a BWB but I've gotten my tolerance nearly as low as it can go, so it do be feeling good. Thanks to people on this board for the support, bless.
>10mg Propanolol
>10mg Methylphenidate
>5mg Diazepam (2mg Earlier)
>0.2g of see attached pic
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Polly Bresslegold - Thu, 11 Jun 2020 08:37:52 EST SozWZtpk No.149116 Reply
>>149115
I took 300mg of diazepam and I feel nothing. I think I done fucked up.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Fri, 12 Jun 2020 05:11:59 EST /xCHYmXq No.149120 Reply
>>147800
A childhood friend and I had the chance to kick it today. We got faded.

20mg DXM, 8 fl. oz. 100% grapefruit juice, 60mg hydrocodone, 20mg diazepam, 200mg hydroxyzine, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 600mg NAC, and 60 x 8g bulbs of nitrous oxide.
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Kim Il Sung - Fri, 12 Jun 2020 10:44:58 EST z0lkMAG7 No.149123 Reply
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>>147800
sup benzbros!
bumping on
>3mg clonazepam
>1.5mg buprenorphine (rectal)
>cannabis
>nicotine

yeah light day just early mornin youtube chillin
BWB
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Brainiac - Sat, 13 Jun 2020 00:31:40 EST yhWslfyP No.149130 Reply
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>>149090
Bump on 300mg gabapentin, 220mg phenobarbital and 1 gram of aspirin because the leaflet says it potentiates barbiturates. I don't know if the aspirin did anything but it feels ok after all.
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hello - Sat, 13 Jun 2020 19:05:15 EST 4AR7MhpB No.149135 Reply
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>>147800

used to go out and party on benzos

now all i do is just rot away and watch anime

feelsgoodthough
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m - Sun, 14 Jun 2020 00:15:45 EST U5YgnJq6 No.149137 Reply
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>>149120
Did you ever end up finding a source for pure WGFJ? There's loads of them. To answer your question from months/years ago, yes it was always the generic brand of the store itself, never a third party brand.

Sorry I was really manic with you late last year with the often ~90-200mg+ d-amph/day and ~4-10mg etizolam/day, all after Q's passing, my fall out with nodson, etc. Know my intentions were always genuinely positive. It was more me knowing you couldn't afford various supplements, so I was just going to share my own.

I respect that you want to keep our social realm firmly and solely planted within the boards. I just wish you had expressed your thoughts bluntly and privately is all.

Hope all is well with you and your wife.

bump
>4.5mg lorazepam + 100mg hydroxyzine
>4mg plugged + 2mg subbed bupe
>totally crashed/worn off 20mg d-amph oral and 10mg plugged earlier
>maybe 5-6 beers but don't feel drunk because I'm a speed fiend
>debating more lorazepam or booze but trying to limit myself to 5mg tops, 2.5mg xanax equiv, and already had 4.5mg, so why bother resdosing 0.5mg lol

Man is ativan losing stream for me HARD. Lorazepam is supposedly roughly equipotent to etizolam, yet I've taken as much as like ~6-8mg dosages in the past with only moderately light to moderate acute tolerance (avg. usage once a week at most long term), and I swear it's less impairing than even 1.5-2.5mg xanax.

8mg etizolam used to get me totally FUCKED UP, and it was accurate volumetric dosing from 3+ year old product back during the golden era of US domestic clear net bulk etizolam ordering (so the product was definitely legitimate). Even 5mg had me significantly buzzed before I was using near-daily binge.

Here I am, taking 4.5mg lorazepam that's supposedly = to 4.5mg etiz, and seriously it's like 2mg etiz maximum.

My theory is ativan isn't particularly sedating/ physically impairing/physical muscle relaxation, and my daily stim use basically nullifies ativan's effects.

What are your thoughts? My "plan" is to acquire a different pharma grade benzo in the rotation (finally out of Cambodian xanax and valium...only have both cambodian lorazepam and locally sourced pharma lorazepam left, with no IRL sources but mystery street bars and more pharma ativan) to see how my tolerance is doing since starting casual lorazepam usage. The ~2.5-3+ month wait after stopping etizolam binge CT seemed to be enough T break for around 1mg xanax + 20mg diazepam to feel as good if not better than ~3-4mg etizolam at the start of my etizolam binge.

Did you or anyone else happen to keep track of the names of those Japanese benzos? I want to make sure I order the enjoyable one. The pharmacy he used was pretty obvious, but I haven't had time to make an order until now.
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lol - Sun, 14 Jun 2020 04:06:06 EST BqpvRW4y No.149138 Reply
>>149137
Flutazolam is one of right?
Its major active metabolite is n-desalkylflurazepam, also known as norflurazepam, which is also a principal metabolite of flurazepam

Hearing that got me interested since flurazepam is the rarest benzo ive tried and i had a blast with it until my friend kicked benzos. Cant believe he had a script for that shit still.
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High Strung - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 01:53:43 EST dgyjGJqV No.149147 Reply
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>2mg Clonazepam

Enjoying some tea and watching the rain on my window. It's my day off and a massive typhoon and swept up from the South China Sea, so it's gonna rain heavily for 3 days. Today was Refill Day so I'm literally just gonna spend the next 36 hours getting benzofied, snacking on some Uyghur food, and watching Netflix or anime. Expect some more bumps from me across the evening, shiggity shwa
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High Strung - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 10:13:22 EST dgyjGJqV No.149148 Reply
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>>149147
>6mg Clonazepam redose
-1 large Red Bull
-pack o' smokes

Done with Mandarin class for the night, the rain has started back up. Time to put on some records and stay up late listening to good music and binge-reading the old Akira manga. I feel the subject matter is pertinent to our time, and the art is gorgeous. Perfect soothing evening when the GABA goodness is hittin' the brain.
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Brain - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 13:45:12 EST XNzbXQoI No.149149 Reply
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>>147800
>2mg etizolam

I was 75 days clean but I had enough, feels bad man.
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Brain - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 13:50:15 EST XNzbXQoI No.149150 Reply
>>149149
Should note that I had no desire to come back to this shit, the PAWS just got to me.

NB
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Matilda Cluddletit - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 19:09:35 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149151 Reply
Took 1.5mg clonazepam for the first time in a month. I have no tolerance and I feel relaxed and am in total bliss.
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High Strung - Mon, 15 Jun 2020 20:37:29 EST b3sDyhSA No.149153 Reply
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The rain continues to pound. So I got myself a stockpile of snacks, energy drinks, tea, graphic novels, smokes, and Clonazepam

>4mg Clonazepam

and some good music too
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Nell Worthinglock - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 08:11:39 EST Q5THi1Bb No.149154 Reply
>>149153
I THINK MY FRIENDS SAID STICK IT IN THE BACK OF HIS HEAD NB
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High Strung - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 08:56:02 EST b3sDyhSA No.149155 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam re-dosage

Yeesh, I went way overboard today with the benzos.... total of 8mg Clonazepam..... but then again my new psychiatrist gives me far more tablets than I need per month now for some reason, and I had nothing to do today, and I didn't mix them with any other drugs except caffeine/taurine. Back to being a good boy tomorrow as the new workweek begins. I'm shocked I'm able to even type this coherently.

Good night folks, stay comfy and chill.

>>149154 Ha ha, you get it! Their new album "Diamonds" is gorgeous, pick it up if you have a chance.
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Dextrolord - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 17:36:15 EST mmnM7dPE No.149157 Reply
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>>147800
long live the BWB'd!!!! I can only partake occasionally due to health reasons but today .... hehe

2mg kpin
84mg methadone
lots of weed

feelin grooveeey and chillz
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Martin Tootson - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 17:44:19 EST 86LjTa31 No.149158 Reply
>>147800

>20mg diazepam
>6mg lorazepam

I'm quoted I should get my oxycodone around the 21st. All I crave these days is dope.

Nothing else helps. I have no future and the only thing keeping me going is the pursuit of getting high. I plan on trying to OD and if that doesn't work I'll just shoot myself. Or take a shitload and then shoot myself. Idk. I feel like this month or next is it for me. Depends when my dope gets here. Unless a fucking miracle happens.
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Matilda Fickledock - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 20:31:35 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149159 Reply
Took 3mg clonazepam. Feeling relaxed and my body feels like jello. Love listening to psytrance when I'm fucked up.
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Matilda Fickledock - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 21:46:23 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149160 Reply
Took another 1.5mg clonazepam which adds up to 4.5mg along with drinking a few beers. Feeling great!
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Chan - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 07:12:11 EST z8RVKSwe No.149162 Reply
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>>149158
>10mg Methylphenidate
>10mg Propanolol
>5mg Diazepam  
>0.2g of オチャ 
         
          
I wish I had someone to nice too. Anyone know where nice is be? I'm sad and empty.
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Chan - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 07:23:22 EST z8RVKSwe No.149163 Reply
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>>149162
If all you want to do is get high. May I propose a solution in hope it may help.
Change your life to make that possible. Plan it out.
If opiates is you flavour. Move out to a cabin and grow your own opium, become
self sufficient, grow your own food, live off the land.
Will it be darn well difficult and the beginning? Yes.
Prepare with the right equipment, Print infographics that may help you.
How to build a cabin, a fire, catch a fish etc.

This may or may not help but when I was at the end, This was the thought. (-minus the substances).

rinahamu - ヒーロー feat.4s4ki,KOTONOHOUSE
Shout out CY8ER & You'll melt more
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lol - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 08:13:02 EST xQEqVS9+ No.149164 Reply
>>149158
>>149162

I hope you guys feel better. Felt that way most of my life until i got on methadone and stopped getting high. Still feel that way every now then. Its hard but forever is a very long time so i keep trying to make it work instead of commiting to the void.
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High Strung - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 10:28:19 EST lCgZfCZR No.149165 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam

Long day at the school. Students were great, but the spike of COVID cases in Beijing have all of us here in Xi'an on-edge. Escalation of security on campus grounds. Need that benzo goodness to keep a cool head.
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Matilda Fickledock - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 17:59:56 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149166 Reply
  • 4.5mg clonazepam
  • 30mg methadone

Feels good. Will take more kpins later when nighttime comes.
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Matilda Fickledock - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 19:15:35 EST KdA//Zk6 No.149167 Reply
Took another 2mg clonazepam. Adds up to 6.5mg. Feeling fantastic and chilled out. I never knew benzos were this great.
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High Strung - Thu, 18 Jun 2020 10:57:39 EST 79AtKrYQ No.149173 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
-bubble tea
-a couple of Zhongwa cigarettes

Another long day with a happy benzo ending.
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Esther Sarringfoot - Fri, 19 Jun 2020 08:40:51 EST b/E7Ki7q No.149176 Reply
>>147800
30mg diazepam a day for the past 2 days. 20mg diazepam with some Nabob Colombian summit coffee (DELICOUS) just got my 105mg methadone.
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High Strung - Fri, 19 Jun 2020 10:41:32 EST PSma3DWS No.149177 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam

Exhausted. Dazed. My bedtime benzos are what motivate me through my nightly commute.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Fri, 19 Jun 2020 19:56:11 EST LPqgpdxC No.149180 Reply
BWB: 5x 1mg Ativan + a 30mg Temazepam

Got 3x 30mg Temaz in the stash for later days...
Bordering on blackouts
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High Strung - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 03:42:53 EST mREg4cQh No.149185 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
-Haomao cigs
-bubble tea

Unit assessment tests and placement tests all day long. I love my kids, but today was a real doozy. Time to get benzed, turn off my brain, and watch anime in my boxers until I fall asleep on the couch.
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Brain - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 03:54:49 EST XNzbXQoI No.149186 Reply
>>149185
I know it's been awhile, but I hope you're doing well these days.
Cheers
nb
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High Strung - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 07:05:04 EST GkukQWyo No.149187 Reply
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Another 1mg Clonazepam that I found on the floor. Huh. How fortuitous.

>>149186
Hey Brain! Puttin' my work in hard, but I love my life here in China and I love my students. Working 40 hours a week plus taking Chinese classes has me busy, but I can lay my head down each night with a smile knowing I've done a good job. My book is selling well too both online and in the 5 indie bookstores it's being sold in.

How have you been? Inshallah you're doing okay.
>>149186
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Doris Bigglespear - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 13:31:22 EST 1MxqU0om No.149194 Reply
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>>147800
6mg Alprazolam, 20mg Targiniq and some wine. Feeling kinda depressed to be spending midsommar alone at home doing drugs, but fuck it. Feelin slow, low and amazing ;))
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High Strung - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 06:45:43 EST GkukQWyo No.149201 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam

like clockwork. Gonna take 2mg more in an hour or so. My weekend begins.

>>149194
Oh crap, I forgot about Midsommar. My grandma is Swedish and so I need to give her a ring to wish her well.
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Brain - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 21:32:59 EST XNzbXQoI No.149210 Reply
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>>149187
Last time I was browsing, China was a distant thought, congrats! Hope things keep improving. How hard was it to acquire a benzos script in China?

>8mg Etiz

Gotta take a break before I get physically addicted once again.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 21:41:32 EST Olv9gtMu No.149211 Reply
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Bamp
pic related. DN pressed bars. Apparently the greens and yellows are really hot and are actual alp (even though they only mildly take of it) and the whites are etiz or cLam... Just popped two greens so we'll find out..

Will report back later if I'm not totally zoned
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James Merringhood - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 23:14:37 EST 7eVUah6R No.149215 Reply
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2 whiskey colas, two glasses of red wine, 3 glasses of champagne
.5 mg xanax early in the day, 1.5mg xanax later, 2mg ativan, still hitting the vape.

born to black out

speed boat dope 666
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 03:09:07 EST /xCHYmXq No.149218 Reply
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>>614404
20mg diazepam, 37.5mg hydrocodone, 10mg DXM, grapefruit juice throughout the day, 20mg cyclobenzaprine, 100mg hydroxyzine, and some oddly high quality coke.
I had roughly the same combo a week back, but with a few homies and roughly 120 bulbs of nitrous oxide.
Currently nursing a grapefruit juice + 3 fl. oz. tequila mixed drink.

>>149173
HS, this pic made me laugh harder than it should have. Thanks for the laugh, dude!
How have you enjoyed the adjustment to SE/East Asia?

>>149137
>I just wish you had expressed your thoughts bluntly and privately is all.
Mario, I am going to try to make my statements as kind, yet direct as possible. I expressed my thoughts on at least a couple of occasions in which I directly told you “no” regarding specific things I’d rather not mention on here. Furthermore, you do realize you started asking me invasive, drug specific questions for chipping in on an order of some RC or other chemical with quasi-legal status via /opi/, right? And, this was after I had already politely, but clearly declined your other offers.

>Sorry I was really manic with you late last year...
If this was a single event then we wouldn’t even talk about this. My departure from the 420chan Discord was directly due to your continual attempts to wrangle me into deals, send me a massive amount of messages—almost all of which you would answer or respond to your own rants rather than anything I stated, and apologize a few times a week for problems related to substance abuse. Also, I don’t think I even created a new account until this year. Late last year didn’t involve any discussion between us outside of /benz/ and /opi/.

>You couldn’t afford various supplements, so I was just going to share my own.
Okay, right, but this isn’t the case. I denied wanting any involvement with group buys. I’m not in a place mentally, socially, or academically/occupational you to risk a group buy with a person I had been warned of multiple times for scams.
When I did contact you about needing Narcan or other safety measures, the offer evaporated.
If you didn’t want any of these statements to be semi-public on 420chan then you should have never started soliciting deals/buys after I had privately denied, blocked your account, and eventually deleted my account. Stop playing the victim while simultaneously acting like some kind of hero who just wants to lend a helping hand.

>Nodson
Dude, I’m not even going to get into this. A couple of other posters contacted me via Discord when I was still on. Neither side has any information even somewhat congruent. Nodson isn’t alive to tell his side, so I would prefer to leave the guy out of discussions or even catch wind of someone using his death as an excuse for their drug abuse and associated behavior.

>Hope all is well with you and your wife.
Thank you. All is well. Summer has been a blast. I hope you’re well, Mario. Actually, I really hope you are well and stay as well as possible.
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High Strung - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 04:20:24 EST P1xEgiDx No.149219 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam

A rainy, boring day here in Xian, but that's okay, I needed the calm.
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 05:53:53 EST xY+1lsdT No.149220 Reply
Toot moot too much. Never thought bars going get this good
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High Strung - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 10:03:25 EST pGcg1E+Z No.149223 Reply
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Just re-upped 5mg more Clonazepam. 9mg total, yeah, that's bad, but I still have 40mg left and I don't have to be up until noon and even then it's just to go to the Shaanxi History Museum, no real responsibilities tomorrow. Also mini-celebration because I just got interviewed on a Muslim podcast where we talked about my conversion and a candid, frank, but non-judgmental conversation about Muslims who engage in substance use/abuse, be it drinking alcohol or using illegal drugs or abuse prescription drugs like benzos. I'm lined up for 2 more Islamic podcast interviews, both dealing with the same 2 issues.

>>149218
Good to hear you're doing well, Katz. I'm still highly enjoying life in China, the pay is good, the food is even better, and even with the slight culture shock (mainly the language barrier, but that's narrowing because I've been taking weekly Chinese lessons) I don't foresee myself leaving anytime soon.
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Dr. Katz !KqgSR25gAQ - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 17:17:45 EST /xCHYmXq No.149226 Reply
>>149218
>Nodson
My apologies, everyone. Nodson is still alive. Accidentally, I meant to talk about Q’s passing and Nodson’s alleged harassment as separate posts.

>>149222
Sorry, lol. My post accidentally merged two distinct topics. Nodson is still alive. Q did pass a couple of years ago. I am terribly sorry for the mixtape, lol.
Also, referring to you as “lol” comes off as my posts ending with me laughing. I by no means want anyone to think I am laughing or being facetious with my post.

>>149223
Perfecto. With all of the COVID-19 breakouts I was a bit worried about your move to China. Whenever I hop on /benz/ you always seem to be eating a dank ass meal and living a happy life. Enjoy your time abroad! During the end of my doc program or for post-doc studies I am giving heavy deliberation into studying and applying to a few research universities in South America.

nb - no benzos
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m - Mon, 22 Jun 2020 23:07:12 EST U5YgnJq6 No.149228 Reply
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>>149226

Yeah I get it, several people just don't like me period and think I'm full of shit for various reasons. I can understand why to some extent. Sometimes I get absurdly forward and lack any real inhibition, whilst trusting people too much (not you, just in general). It doesn't help that the two dudes who made the biggest stink have either died or disappeared. I don't blame you for minimizing any risk possible. Unfortunately, doxing and other negative shit is more common in these places than I ever realized. Clearly, there are not many positive results between a network of manic+benzed out people, barred out+heavy IV disso and opi users, combined with significant mental health problems inherent in almost everyone involved.

If I were you, I wouldn't trust me either based on my past manic rants. Shit sucks. Just don't assume any sense of "victimization" comes without some self-awareness. I understand that I've done a piss poor job with many of my social relationships related to this site, even drive by black swan labeling by Nodson aside.

I assume it's way beyond the point by now, but if you need a totally free Narcan kit, let me know. I mean it, really. If you can't be arsed to deal with privacy risks associated with me, then tracey on leddit can hook you up for free. It would be great if I could turn back time and unfuck a lot of the stuff I've ruined, but then I'd be missing the important step of acceptance for where I've ended up in life (largely by my own devices).

In fact, it would be I guess helpful if you just took the OD kit, since I'm basically giving away everything I have in the states before I go. But if you truly can't look at the kit and wonder if I'm some crack job with nefarious intent and the vials are just water of something (again not passive agressively shit talking you, just being sincere), then tracey on leddit would be your best bet.

nb because ultimately drama post. It/I wasn't always this way...you remember, I largely "lost the plot" mentally. It's only been better the last few months, part of which I spent not visiting here. Who would want to voluntarily join up with a group of psych patients when you're a better fit to be their psychologist and not a patient? It's only logical.
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DTMO - Wed, 24 Jun 2020 11:56:46 EST 7oozDYTT No.149239 Reply
>>149149
Don't beat yourself up about it too much, you still spent 75/76 days sober. The numbers are ultimately meaningless if the end result is the same.
PAWS is a bitch.
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Albert Crobbermet - Thu, 25 Jun 2020 14:45:36 EST Q5THi1Bb No.149248 Reply
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>>149228
Fuck nodson, the sites way better off without him, I'll take stim lion over that guy, hell I'll take the big H over him.

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this helps staff resolve issues quicker.