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- Tue, 25 Jan 2022 05:20:48 EST o13vSroK No.152943
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Xi'an Lockdown's Over, Get your yard time in!

Just downed 6mg Clonazepam and drank 2 bottles of grapefruit juice.

Now having a McDonald's Big Mac and a large fry (something I almost never eat these days) to celebrate freedom. Right. The. FUCK ON.

Happy Chinese New Year y'all (on the 1 Feb)
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High Strung - Tue, 25 Jan 2022 20:41:18 EST o13vSroK No.152948 Reply
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Woke up, popped 6mg Clonazepam, popped a few energy drinks, now enjoying some Yunnan puerh tea and some homemade bao buns on a slushy, rainy day.
Get on my level
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m - Wed, 26 Jan 2022 15:41:36 EST eNlWrddF No.152953 Reply
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>>152943
~130ug LSD about 10 hours ago
Recently:

3mg pharma xanax
200mg gabapentin
4mg subbed bupe
0.1mg clonidine


Wow feels sleepy man

I'm so hungry I could eat for two
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High Strung - Wed, 26 Jan 2022 19:45:35 EST o13vSroK No.152954 Reply
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>4mg Clonazepam
2 cups of jasmine tea
2 cups of coffee

My now-ex is coming over this morning to collect her stuff. She and I are on civil terms but she's also mentally ill (no seriously she has schizophrenia) so she can become volatile on a moment's notice, so I need to be a bit doped up with the apartment complex police emergency number on hand... on the rare chance she pulls a yandere.
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High Strung - Thu, 27 Jan 2022 07:10:42 EST c0FvP+GY No.152955 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam
-10mg Melatonin

Today went a lot better than expected. Good night.
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m - Thu, 27 Jan 2022 20:22:59 EST 0mb8Ovo0 No.152957 Reply
>>152953
Benzos: the remix

1.75mg pharma xanax
Red wine

Watching star trek: enterprise
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High Strung - Fri, 28 Jan 2022 00:26:47 EST o13vSroK No.152958 Reply
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Just got back from Chinese New Year shopping, now enjoying:
>5mg Clonazpeam
-bottle of grapefruit juice
-cup of coffee

I'm thinkin' some Beijing roast duck for dinner, dunno.... it's snowing pretty hard though.
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m - Fri, 28 Jan 2022 16:26:20 EST G+wBcmoD No.152960 Reply
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>>152943
2.5mg pharma xanax
Another one

P.S. I see my gf in 9 days and at least her body is worth being fucking insane. Idk if I'll take her to Asia after the mental illness-tier shit she pulled last night, but I reckon just one week makes the juice worth the squeeze.

Is it so hard to ask for a significant other that isn't bat shit insane???
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Alice Sollerspear - Sat, 29 Jan 2022 02:03:53 EST Vu0UbyBI No.152961 Reply
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>>152960
you lose approx. one sanity per unit point of hotness
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High Strung - Sat, 29 Jan 2022 08:13:20 EST mCU9k1Ox No.152962 Reply
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>6mg Clonazepam
-1 bottle of grapefruit juice
-a heaping feast of Pakistani food after an option Sufi fast today

>>152960
I feel you man, my Chinese girlfriend is diagnosed with Schizophrenia-NOS and it looked like for a while we were going to break up. But we just went to our first few post-lockdown couples counseling sessions this past week, and we're already seeing some BIG breakthroughs! (And yes, she is on antipsychotics that she takes regularly) She's also going to get tested for enthusiasm here soon to see if that might help.

NGL though, schizo Asian pussy hits different.
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hello - Sat, 29 Jan 2022 11:32:35 EST RsEu5UTW No.152964 Reply
>>152962
Despite the social stigma, antipsychotics functionally only affect the d-12 receptors. From first hand experience I can say they feel like psychedelics evil counterpart. where everything psychedelic is creative and colorful, antipsychotics feel like complete black & white view of the world around you. I wouldn't be surprised if the pineal gland is less active when taking antipsychotics. They feel like a light, temporary, lobotomy at high doses. I don't know why they are so often prescribed though considering that they don't prevent you from being a schizo or being violent, unless you're injected with haldol and pass out from it.

Really though, I assume it's just social stigma from your peers when they hear the word schizophrenia. What a joke of a diagnosis.
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High Strung - Sat, 29 Jan 2022 20:28:06 EST mCU9k1Ox No.152971 Reply
>2mg Clonazepam morning dose

>>152964
She is on what's called a "typical antipsychotic" (as opposed to an atypical), and one that is pretty mild called Perphenazine. Atypical antipsychotics, such as Thorazine, Risperdal, Geodon, etc. are the ones that tend to cause flattened emotions, slurred speech, etc. She can hold down a teaching job well enough, although she's definitely an oddball.

Our main problem is we live in an East Asian society, where mental illness is seen as a grave dishonor on the family and causes a loss of "face" for those around the person with mental illness, as if it's a personal failing on the part of the parents and grandparents that their child is sick. (This can also apply to physical illnesses as well)
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Benzzzzzzzz - Sun, 30 Jan 2022 20:43:38 EST Ff06Zzho No.152974 Reply
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Bwb on 30mg diazepam.
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High Strung - Mon, 31 Jan 2022 06:14:29 EST toSdmHpN No.152976 Reply
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>3mg Clonazepam
-A pot of freshly-opened puerh tea

Got the fireworks show from my outside balcony, gonna be watching the CCTV Spring Festival Gala in 45 minutes, and eating tiger cake. Got the dumplings for tomorrow prepped in the fridge.....

新年快乐! 虎年快乐!
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Nathaniel Pickville - Mon, 31 Jan 2022 06:26:52 EST WJJP6Wwk No.152977 Reply
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>nothing
shit sux
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Lillian Pullerlock - Mon, 31 Jan 2022 15:32:40 EST rOXY2vD0 No.152978 Reply
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>>152943
2mg of diazapam and a bunch of kratom, wish i had more valium and a nicee batch of kava
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High Strung - Mon, 31 Jan 2022 21:48:56 EST Et5pg6Sm No.152979 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam
-grapefruit juice

Been going kinda hog wild on my script the past few days after a few weeks of being without it, I better chill out.
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m - Tue, 01 Feb 2022 07:13:57 EST sv3op7G6 No.152980 Reply
>>152943

1.75mg pharma xanax
3mg bupe
200mg gabapentin
2 servings red wine
2 light beets

I've been taking GABAergics too often lately; 2mg-ish doses are losing their effectiveness. I'm only supposed to take about 7.5mg pharma xanax a month.
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Martha Clapperhit - Wed, 02 Feb 2022 12:26:15 EST 67VuAAFX No.152982 Reply
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I really love my life right now!
4mg lorazepam
300mg pregabalin
20mg zolpidem
...and 600mg of codeine for extra fun 'cause I'm a big boy.
... have 118 2mg lorazepams and 118 10mg zolpidems left.
It doesn't get any better than this.
Who here likes zolpidem or ambien as the yanks call it?
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Thomas Dubblecocke - Thu, 03 Feb 2022 02:58:59 EST 7dEcppKz No.152983 Reply
>>152982
how the fuck are you not dead
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Frederick Suvingnure - Thu, 03 Feb 2022 10:24:23 EST 67VuAAFX No.152984 Reply
>>152983 I dunno but i'm riding something i can'd describe rightnow and it feel very good. four 20mg zolpidem.
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Nicholas Nunningmun - Fri, 04 Feb 2022 03:36:00 EST 4D3xIwXf No.152986 Reply
>>152984
I wish I could abuse ambien without getting a headache or feeling sick when it wears off. sounds awesome.
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Dextrolord - Sat, 05 Feb 2022 11:50:54 EST T9fi4pmI No.152989 Reply
>>152986
Ooooooooofffphphpdpfpgnsia,d.... ohhhh zolpidem.,.... we had a good handful of strange times together... but now It doesn't really do much but make me sick at recreational doses...

I used to love hanging out with all the phantom people and seeing the incredible vistas forming in the edge of my bedroom... and don't even get me started about mixing them with opiods...

But now its mostly a headache and annoying dizziness and no fun effects at all anymore, one of the few things that truly lost its magic for me.....

I have heard good things about other z drugs but I have other stuff going on rn and I'd rather get me some mescaline or ghb anyways
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Benzzzzzzzz - Mon, 14 Feb 2022 02:24:05 EST 9RSlrlXp No.153013 Reply
>>152943
This is more of a /other bump when I look at the substances I took but here it is: 3.75mg zopiclone, 20mg cinolazepam, 12.5mg baclofen, 200mg trimebutine, 10mg buspirone, roughly 40mg DXM and 5mg melatonin.
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Alice Peddlepat - Sun, 20 Feb 2022 10:50:17 EST vS+LKGwk No.153027 Reply
Kinda winging it today with 10mg diazepam, 3.75mg zopiclone, 400mg gabapentin and a catnip extract. Cause I feeling shitty earlier but now it's so much better. BWB.
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Doris Bennerhall - Sun, 20 Feb 2022 15:27:00 EST J71rAies No.153028 Reply
> 40mg Diazepam
And I finally told my dad what I think of him.
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High Strung - Mon, 21 Feb 2022 23:44:09 EST wtug3nyt No.153033 Reply
REFILL DAY, FUCKERS

4mg Clonazepam. Enjoying some mapo dofu (spicy tofu) over fried rice and literally just vibing to some good music

>>153028
Right on! My dad's a fucking violent psychopath (literally, my dad's nickname is "Ted" like Ted Bundy) who is the reason I'm so traumatized that I have to take benzos for my CPTSD. Telling him to never contact me again was one of the best feelings of my life.
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Edward Clemmerfield - Tue, 22 Feb 2022 15:55:59 EST neneijBs No.153034 Reply
There's this guy at work; everyone calls him "Mr. Benzo". Long story short, last Monday this dude comes up to me literally stumbling while I'm on my lunch break, and hands me 4 Xanax bars and 8 1mg Ativan tablets inside a Pokemon trading card sleeve. My boss was right in back of me on the phone but didn't see what transpired because he was facing the other way. I almost choked on a whole cherry tomato and started coughing wildly; I managed to quickly pocket the materials, got up and simultaneously pushed him away from the area while patting him on the back, struggling to tell him I would "get him back after work" as I kept trying to clear my throat and gasp for air. As soon as he left the room my boss hangs up the call, turns to me and yells, "What the hell?". I had accidentally knocked over my salad onto the floor trying to avoid getting both our asses fired thanks to this jackass reciever handing out drugs to me in plain sight. Going to avoid this guy like plaque now. Not trying to lose my job right now, I have it so good by it being so close to my home.

Bumping on 2mg Xan and an Ati, while hitting some premium $70 cannabis oil cartridge and editing my AMV. Cheers fellas.
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High Strung - Tue, 22 Feb 2022 21:15:00 EST wtug3nyt No.153035 Reply
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>>153034
What's the song and anime for the AMV? I miss the golden age of AMV's (1995-2010)....

Anyways, I'm enjoying a 4mg Clonazepam more on a one of my last day of actually working from home administering online-only classes. Next week I'll be back to 100% offline in-classroom classes. Which is okay tbh, I've been getting born.

Breakfast: jianbing and puerh tea with the English and Spanish editions of Mao's Little Red book
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High Strung - Thu, 24 Feb 2022 00:15:49 EST h6afJ9SS No.153038 Reply
>5mg Clonazepam
-white grapefruit juice
-Monster Zero

Just got into a car accident. I wasn't driving, I was taking a taxi from my apartment complex to my Chinese lessons school after a successful day of morning lectures.

1/3 of the way there, my taxi driver carelessly swerved and hit the driver door of a service van. 3 other cars fenderbender'ed into the situation. Unfortunately, everyone but me refused to keep a cool head and everyone got out of their cars hootin' and hollerin' at each other in the local provincial dialect. I tried to get the taxi driver to pull over to the side so he could call dispatch and get me another cab so I could get to class, but he was completely in beast mode on the van guy (despite cabbie being the one totally at fault).

I eventually had to call a comrade to come pick me up because nobody involved- cabbie, van guy, the barely-dented commuter salarymen- at the scene would even acknowledge my existence, they were just too busy going apeshit on each other.

My back and lower leg muscles hurt like shit too. The moment I got home I knew that some Clonazepam was just what the doctor ordered. Some people, I tell you!
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High Strung - Thu, 24 Feb 2022 01:10:56 EST h6afJ9SS No.153039 Reply
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>>153038

Nevermind, I'm taking 2mg more of Clonazepam... just finally sat down and am watching via Chinese and Russian TV live updates on the Russian invasion into Ukraine. As someone who lived in Russia for a significant amount of time a decade ago and who grew up with Ukrainian neighbors, this stuff has me all jittery.

Fuck this shit, at this point let's just get benz'ed and bring the USSR back.....
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High Strung - Thu, 24 Feb 2022 18:55:44 EST vysaI47q No.153042 Reply
>2mg Clonazepam
-a pot of puerh tea

Friday vibes y'all, don't have to go into work until 2:00pm so I'm good there.
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High Strung - Sat, 26 Feb 2022 07:14:52 EST wtug3nyt No.153046 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam
-15mg Melatonin
-jujube-infused herbal tea

Listening to J.S. Bach's "Goldberg Variations" (played by Glenn Gould) at 8:15pm while my partner dozes off by my side in bed.
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Phoebe Neckleford - Mon, 28 Feb 2022 13:59:28 EST ECWMXCGV No.153056 Reply
>>153035
Mr. High Strung, it is an honor. The AMV in question is actually two-fold; "Evangelion" (final 2 Rebuild films) set to Latin Pop and "Shingeki no Kyojin" (first 3 seasons) set to Tex-Mex Country. It's a wild choice but believe me, they are both coming together nicely. As they are my first AMVs ever, I am going the extra mile and putting in a substantial amount of effort into polishing them both; I do not want to disappoint. That stuff aside, I am sorry to hear you went through that stressful car accident. I know I'd have my nerves wrecked if I ended up stranded by myself in unfamiliar territory while physically hurt. Here's to your speedy recovery and better health+fortunes down the road. I'll bump with my own reserve stash of Clonazepam; cheers.

>6mg Kpins
>low temp DemonBerry Fields dabs

Oh fuuu I'm feeling the Kpins already, Forgot how strongf they are. lol Mondays
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High Strung - Tue, 01 Mar 2022 02:59:20 EST AxR3dS9/ No.153059 Reply
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>2.5mg Clonazepam
-grapefruit juice
-longjing green tea

>>153056
That sounds fucking lit, dude. Like I said, growing up a weeb back in the late-90's early-00's was great because I saw some amazing AMV's. An old head like me would be ecstatic to see a "renaissance" of sorts happen....

As for the car accident, like I said, it wasn't too bad. The road it happened on was not too far from my house so having a comrade of mine pick me up was easy-peasy. I wasn't even really injured, just some pulled muscles. I felt fine after a day of rest.

On an unrelated note, check out the dope new teapot I got. Love sippin' on a fresh brew while melting into a K-pin cloud....
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Murraytone Gorgenschlamen - Tue, 01 Mar 2022 17:33:04 EST jSxweMvN No.153061 Reply
>>153056
Goddamnit. I am on 5mg of clonazepam. Someone always manages to one up me. LOL. JK. But not really. But kind of. But anyways. I'm just thinking. Clonazepam is the best. and clonazolam? Interesting, never tried it. I'm a K-Pin freak man, I need that shit like water. It just makes me my unfiltered self. The filter of anxiety and writer's block and everything that's become wrong with me over the years.... that veil... it's instantly lifted by this benzo. God bless the benzos bro, fuck Jordan Peterson. Lmao balloon puppet surgery WTF?
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Cyril Chodgefudging - Tue, 01 Mar 2022 22:30:55 EST jmFkM8Pp No.153062 Reply
Man, I feel like benzos are ruining my life
Actually I can be pretty assured they are
The problem is I bought 100mg of clam stupidly after feeling bored of alpraz (I think these powders are a bit cut but idk how much) but god damn I just feel so exhausted all the time. I probably have about 5mg on clam left using about 1mg a day recently (was using 4x that + earlier) but I have white a bit of Valium and alpraz coming soon.

I’m just so worried that I’m gonna lose my job for underperforming (wfh so no one can see me looking out of it) and even more worried about withdrawals even with the Valium and Xanax.

Idk fuck, I’m just freaking out here
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High Strung - Wed, 02 Mar 2022 04:42:52 EST AxR3dS9/ No.153063 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam
-5mg Melatonin
-grapefruit juice

Listening to the new Birthday Massacre album, Fascination, and then gonna listen to David Bowie's Low. The life of a teacher requires benzos and good music at the end of the day.
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Benzzzzzzzz - Thu, 03 Mar 2022 01:34:44 EST qgAElwm/ No.153066 Reply
>>152943
Bwb on 9mg bromazepam. I watched this movie called No Exit and it was pretty good.
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High Strung - Thu, 03 Mar 2022 05:28:26 EST AxR3dS9/ No.153071 Reply
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>6mg Clonazepam
-grapefruit juice
-local green tea

Eating some "gungun mian" (straw noodles), a local Shaanxi specialty to cure the benzo munchies while texting with my bae. It was a LONG ASS day of academia, my dogs are barkin' from standing up in front of all those students lecturing then running around the campus going from faculty meeting to faculty meeting or dropping off paperwork for a panel discussion proposal.

I don't know how more college professors and high school teachers aren't benzo addicts, I swear.
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Brain - Fri, 04 Mar 2022 08:54:27 EST WNR7aPTU No.153075 Reply
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>>152943
Bumping on 5mg diazepam, 100mg XR morph, 20mg vyvanse

Been awhile, wassup folks
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Isabella Herringfield - Fri, 04 Mar 2022 13:58:10 EST RQWiGk6Z No.153076 Reply
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Just re-up'd, f e e l a n f i n e

>BWB
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High Strung - Fri, 04 Mar 2022 18:37:22 EST AxR3dS9/ No.153078 Reply
Waking up this Saturday morning to 2mg of Clonazepam
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Brain - Sat, 05 Mar 2022 20:45:31 EST 3D8Sb10f No.153080 Reply
>>152943
Woke up this morning too 20mg vyvanse/15mg Dexedrine and 10mg diazepam

Just boof’d a8mg dilly after an amazing days
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Nathaniel Doffingham - Sun, 06 Mar 2022 13:47:48 EST d0fZfMZp No.153084 Reply
Will I feel 900mg of gabapentin with a tall can?
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Nathaniel Doffingham - Sun, 06 Mar 2022 17:55:01 EST d0fZfMZp No.153088 Reply
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>>153084
Kind of felt buzzed for a hour took another 600mg about 30 min ago gonna take another 600 since most doses on erowid are 2000mg+
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High Strung - Mon, 07 Mar 2022 07:26:40 EST AxR3dS9/ No.153089 Reply
2mg Clonazepam after a long day of running errands, hitting the gym again for the first time since post-lockdown, and working on the first pieces of my upcoming podcast.
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Edward Fuckingworth - Tue, 08 Mar 2022 00:11:31 EST yP5dJE+j No.153093 Reply
fuck me can i just sleep
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Benzzzzzzzz - Sat, 12 Mar 2022 22:02:37 EST j66JuXG0 No.153106 Reply
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>>152943
BWB on 3mg bromazepam and 15mg zopicline. Everything is flowy and soft.
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Benzzzzzzzz - Thu, 17 Mar 2022 22:13:40 EST M+81utMG No.153114 Reply
BWB on 9mg bromazepam. Music sounds so good.
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m - Mon, 21 Mar 2022 01:15:09 EST +ngdniX5 No.153118 Reply
>>152943
BWB

my newish gf took 1mg pharma xanax (she wants to start posting soon lol)

for me:
1mg pharma xanax
6 servings booze
delta 8 distillate
3mg bupe plugged
100mcg clonidine
50mg hydroxyzine
half of a remeron mirtazapine idk dosage

time for bed
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Alice Dunkinstock - Tue, 22 Mar 2022 04:32:51 EST xNLauevU No.153121 Reply
>>152989
I loved mixing zolpidem with alcohol everyday. It was so dreamy, but I started getting really sick once I ran out. Shit is not non-addictive.
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Martin Chinnerlut - Tue, 22 Mar 2022 05:13:00 EST LThtYi+r No.153122 Reply
>>152989

I never hallucinated on zolpidem the few times I had it (I guess I never took enough) but I love zopiclone. No hallucinations for me but it has a real trippy euphoric almost pseudo-psychedelic component to it.

I love a good 20 to 30 mg dose with a single can of cider (or some sweet girly alcoholic drink) to sip on for that metallic taste. I also mixed it with large doses of psychedelics as well. Always a fucking blast. (terrible advice all around, though, but we're junkies, what can you do)
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The guy from Benz - Thu, 24 Mar 2022 22:53:48 EST TsM8q082 No.153124 Reply
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>>152943
Bwb on 75mg pregabalin, 6mg bromazepam, 12.5mg baclofen and 200mg trimebutine. Nice mild buzz tonight.
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Brain - Sat, 26 Mar 2022 01:16:22 EST Hw8J7Zxy No.153127 Reply
>>152943
100mg XR morph, 200mg morph boofed, 20mg temazepam, 7.5mg ambien, 29mg baclofen, cyclobenzaprine
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Sophie Smallbury - Sat, 26 Mar 2022 17:31:55 EST rDbf+uzP No.153128 Reply
>>153035
you are so based, i cannot even find words. This combination of being drug addict, living in china and working there and reading communist literature. I hope i will gonna make it too and get a job as programmer in china or HK or something. Stay strong and based comrade!
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Sophie Smallbury - Sat, 26 Mar 2022 17:36:22 EST rDbf+uzP No.153129 Reply
I was gonna to do some LSD today because its my last free week from job, but its already late and i dont quite feel like it (yesterday i did some strong weed and my i had tooth and spine pains through most of trip, today my head is hurting a bit, some sort of pulsating feeling hard to describe). So probably i am just gonna read marx and maybe do some 1mg of alpra + some booze
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Sophie Smallbury - Sat, 26 Mar 2022 17:41:59 EST rDbf+uzP No.153130 Reply
>>153063
why are you taking melatonin (and in such large dose too), if you want to listen to music? Isnt this stuff strictly for sleeping? Low is great album btw
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Nigel Cezzleridge - Sun, 27 Mar 2022 00:28:21 EST lFFN0Qrx No.153131 Reply
>>153130
Ime melatonin has zero recreational value, it blocks certain parts of dopamine in differamt parts of the brain ive heard so music enhancement or any level of euphoria is a strange cognitive effect for melatonin
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High Strung - Mon, 28 Mar 2022 00:10:09 EST b9wvFwfz No.153134 Reply
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Refill Day! Means I don't have to conserve, so I can actually benz again.

Pic of my pickup from the pharmacy. 2mg Clonazepam going under my tongue right now

>>153129
Which work by Marx? A few months back I went back over The German Ideology for funsies.
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Eugene Gamblemitch - Mon, 28 Mar 2022 00:23:36 EST zAZF5wff No.153135 Reply
>>153131
Lol, bump on 5mg melatonin and 3.75mg zopiclone plus a bunch of other shit mixed in.
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High Strung - Mon, 28 Mar 2022 04:20:02 EST b9wvFwfz No.153136 Reply
Reupping with 2mg Clonazepam before my noodles arrive (陕西棍棍面). My girlfriend is starting to hint that she's wanting to break up with me, and this time I think she means it. "We need to meet in person day after tomorrow and talk in a public setting where no one can hear us so we can have a long talk." Yeah, not a good sign.... on the same note though, I'm kinda hoping she DOES because I'm getting tired of the hysterical, histrionic cycle of breaking up and getting back together that the past 4 months have been.

>>153130
>>153131
Oh, I was in the middle of getting ready for bed at that point when I posted that. I was going to listen to that single album then hit the lights.
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High Strung - Tue, 29 Mar 2022 00:00:55 EST b9wvFwfz No.153137 Reply
Finished my morning classes. No office hours on Tuesday. No lessons plans to be made..... boss told me to take the rest of the day off after 11:45am hit.

6mg Clonazepam before a lunch of leftover local noodles and blended fruit juices. Now it's time to take a nap which listening to Inner Mongolian and Dongxiang (Mongolian Muslim) folk singing on my couch. After my nap I might catch the subway and grab some American comfort food from McDonald's....
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High Strung - Tue, 29 Mar 2022 18:31:51 EST b9wvFwfz No.153139 Reply
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Got word at bedtime last night that I don't have to teach today, Friday, Monday, or Tuesday (Thursday I have to go to a cultural event for the Qingming Tomb Festival, but only for 45 minutes). Sooooo.... you know what THAT means.

Woke up with morning at 5:00AM and I decided it would be good to go visit some Buddhist and Taoist temples on the outskirts of my city. But first,
>4mg Clonazepam on an empty stomach

before a hefty breakfast in a local village.... A Shangdong-style jianbing and a phat-ass halal baozi bun with a tall White Monster Zero? Now we talkin'!
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Tue, 29 Mar 2022 19:27:12 EST R676V0Cu No.153140 Reply
>1.5mg clonazepam
>10 balcofen
>400mg gabapentin
>some .4 or so carfent party powder
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High Strung - Wed, 30 Mar 2022 03:39:28 EST b9wvFwfz No.153142 Reply
4mg Clonazepam after a long day of sightseeing and some really good Beijing roast duck for lunch.

Gonna pop another 2mg with some grapefruit juice here in a second, since I ordered pizza and I'd love to get that benzo flavor to my durian pizza.

Life's good for tonight I guess????
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Doris Hudgehood - Wed, 30 Mar 2022 12:19:16 EST rDbf+uzP No.153146 Reply
How large dose of xanax should i do if i want it to be actually fun? I have no tollerance btw, and its pharma xanax. I did .75-1mg and it just made me sleepy and confused
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Doris Hudgehood - Wed, 30 Mar 2022 12:51:34 EST rDbf+uzP No.153147 Reply
>>153134
Capital vol 1, i finished chapter on division of labour and now starting chapter on modern machinery. Whats The German Ideology about? Also dont you find reading on clonz more difficult than sober?
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Brain - Wed, 30 Mar 2022 22:04:45 EST Hw8J7Zxy No.153148 Reply
>>152943
Oh the up's and down's of life

>5mg diazepam 2mg ativan 200mg morph boof'd 20mg temazepam 10mg cyclobenzaprine bammpp
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High Strung - Thu, 31 Mar 2022 06:33:42 EST b9wvFwfz No.153149 Reply
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7mg Clonazepam + grapefruit juice

....after a long day of Chinese lessons and shopping. Now just watching The Daily Life of the Immortal King S2 and enjoying some local noodles

>>153136 ended up going much better than expected. Partner and I came to good understanding. Let's hope it sticks for now. I told you guys: schizophrenic Azn pussy hits different
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Thants !IZgeXR9w82 - Thu, 31 Mar 2022 14:30:36 EST ZBjME5Lg No.153150 Reply
>2.5 clonazepam
>10mg balcofen
>0.2 clonazepam
>15mg zopiclone
>2.5 points of brown fetty

Gonna be feelin bretty gud
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Benzzzzzzzz - Thu, 31 Mar 2022 22:55:53 EST 2khAI/pm No.153151 Reply
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>>153150
Bwb on 9mg bromazepam and 12.5mg baclofen. Good combo.
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High Strung - Fri, 01 Apr 2022 08:32:50 EST b9wvFwfz No.153152 Reply
>>153147 Cool! Okay, not-so-hot take: Capital Vol. I is actually pretty easy once you get past the first 3 chapters. The first 3 chapters seem like Hegelian gobbledegook, but then in Ch. 4 fiiiiinally Karl goes "Okay, here's what I meant by all that!" LOL!

Are you reading it alongside David Harvey's or Louis Althusser's study guides? Or the editions with Ernest Mandel's introductions? Those are all indispensible. I wouldn't have been able to read any of the 3 Capitals if it wasn't for Harvey, Althusser, and Mandel.


....Anyways, right now I'm on 6mg Clonazepam and sippin' on some of my special homemade jujube date tea. My Qingmingjie (Tomb Sweeping Festival) holiday is going great.
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Hugh Sockleworth - Fri, 01 Apr 2022 15:17:15 EST rDbf+uzP No.153154 Reply
>>153152
no, i dont use any study guides. Similiar to you i found first few chapters quite abstract and not very interesting, just pilling on definitions and whats difference between C----M----C and M-----C------M, but then chapters about working day, manufacture and division of labour and his cynical takes about women and children working themselves to death in early industrialism and his cyting of porkies trying to rationalize all it - it all started to be very interesting. I would like to make a change. I contacted local anarchist group, asking what are they plans
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Brain - Sun, 03 Apr 2022 23:42:34 EST jFcXgqrX No.153162 Reply
>>152943
morph dexadrine diazepam ativan temazepam cyclobenzaprine baclofen yeeet
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High Strung - Mon, 04 Apr 2022 03:38:18 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153165 Reply
>4.5mg Clonazepam

Well, after going back and forth across the past few months, my girlfriend finally packed her shit from my crib and left for the final time. I'm gonna miss her but yeah, I just couldn't take her incessant mental health crises and paranoid delusions anymore. I hope someday her treatment improves, but until that day I just can't be with her.

At least I still got benzos to stave away the tears....
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Archie Gozzlestodging - Tue, 05 Apr 2022 01:53:21 EST bBnh4QPO No.153166 Reply
>>152943
Bwb on 3mg bromazepam + one another European benzo + 7.5mg zopiclone + a shit ton of wine. Actually the reason I take these substances is to counter the shitty effects of alcohol which are affecting me a lot.
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Archie Gozzlestodging - Tue, 05 Apr 2022 01:53:43 EST bBnh4QPO No.153167 Reply
>>152943
Bwb on 3mg bromazepam + one another European benzo + 7.5mg zopiclone + a shit ton of wine. Actually the reason I take these substances is to counter the shitty effects of alcohol which are affecting me a lot.>>152943
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High Strung - Wed, 06 Apr 2022 04:32:44 EST lc5rd1LH No.153170 Reply
>4mg Clonazepam

Exhausted after a long day of teaching, but still feel relieved to have that yandere-ass bitch gone from my life.

A wise man once said: "I've seen what zero pussy does to a motherfucker, but I've also seen what pussy does to a motherfucker, and it's just as bad."
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Nigel Giffingchot - Thu, 14 Apr 2022 13:47:56 EST 57SVPJ8a No.153190 Reply
.5mg Clonazepam
weed and THC edibles
coffee
white kratom
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Betsy Hummerhedge - Thu, 21 Apr 2022 19:34:30 EST /kfrN9Yd No.153198 Reply
>>152943
Bwb on 20mg diazepam, half a zopiclone pill and some amount of Dxm syrup that is acting funny
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Polly Blittingstock - Fri, 22 Apr 2022 17:25:59 EST BD5OL+ie No.153206 Reply
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got a question i was wondering if somebody could help answer for me, cheers in advance

been a heavy drug user since age 16 but i've pretty heavily cut back recently in which drugs i'm happy to do anymore (i've never done meth or pcp but i've pretty much tried most of the other non-obscure drugs there are), so it's been a while since i've done any drugs except from basically sticking to diazepam/temazepam and some amphetamine &pregabalin on occasion, but i've also suffered some seizures and my memory's been affected because of it so i'm having trouble trying to recall the slight differences between different benzos.

since i've not been doing any other drugs i've lost a lot of my old connections however an old mate got in touch and i've just got myself a bunch of morphine, some diazepam, clonazepam and alprazolam, and some grapefruit juice and antihistamines ofc

my question is can anybody give me a brief rundown on the slight differences between the benzos i've got, as in which of the three are more euphoric/last longer/which you personally prefer etc, i'd appreciate it a lot since as i said i'm having trouble with remembering from my previous experiences from the seizures, thanks guys

atm i just IV'd 80mg of morphine, and i've taken 20mg diazepam, 2mg clonazepam and 1mg alprazolam orally to start with for now and want to know which benzos would feel the best to do more of over the other ones i have rn
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Polly Blittingstock - Fri, 22 Apr 2022 17:33:44 EST BD5OL+ie No.153207 Reply
>>153198
does dxm syrup interact with benzos?
also does green tea interact too as i've seen a few people ITT mention green tea alongside grapefruit juice
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Betsy Gellymot - Sun, 24 Apr 2022 17:51:35 EST /kfrN9Yd No.153213 Reply
>>153207
I don't think it interacts with benzos, I just get bad effects from Dxm if I don't take a benzo with it.

Anyway bwb on 20mg diazepam, 20mg omeprazol which does potentiate benzos a bit and 0.5mg clonazepam.
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High Strung - Mon, 25 Apr 2022 03:56:26 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153214 Reply
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REFILL DAY

6mg Clonazepam, will take another 2mg later with dinner. Life's good right now.
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High Strung - Tue, 26 Apr 2022 06:16:45 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153218 Reply
4mg Clonazepam after a long day of traveling through the Chinese countryside and having some fun with some local middle school kids at a rural junior high school. I'll start teaching them every Tuesday afternoon.... But I've been working since 8:15am today so I am ready to BENZZZZ
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High Strung - Wed, 27 Apr 2022 09:05:11 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153221 Reply
6mg Clonazepam

I have an upset stomach so it's kinda throwing off my benzo buzz though..... but eh, I guess it's better than nothing? I dunno, I think the Beijing duck + kim chi + omelette + fried rice bento I had for lunch didn't agree with me. A good night's sleep might be able to help though.....
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High Strung - Fri, 29 Apr 2022 00:32:28 EST jULIidZQ No.153229 Reply
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/benz/下午好

Today was a half day before a weeklong holiday (May Day/International Workers Day... which is like Christmas for Communists lol), so I just popped 4mg Clonazepam and 2000mg Valerian root before ordering a car to go get some tacos with some Chinese friends at one of the better expat hangouts here in Xi'an.
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High Strung - Sat, 30 Apr 2022 23:23:08 EST jULIidZQ No.153238 Reply
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Currently on 4mg Clonazepam and just kinda rambling around the city taking in the beauty of Chinese spring on International Workers Day.

5.1快乐, 同志们
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m - Sun, 01 May 2022 02:56:35 EST G+wBcmoD No.153239 Reply
>>152943
3mg pressed xanax

I've been taking benzos basically everyday the last week...oops
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William Mankinhood - Sun, 01 May 2022 19:40:22 EST 2zHdpymv No.153242 Reply
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>>152943
BWB on 10mg diazepam, 25mg codeine and 0.5mg clonazepam.
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m - Mon, 02 May 2022 01:06:54 EST reWk6S9t No.153245 Reply
>>152943
2.25mg pressed xanax, but there's no way in hell these bars are even close to evenly dosed. This one was less than half as bitter as the last one. I just need to make a volumetric solution, but I've been too lazy and not cared because #1 I'm on bupe so if there's fent cross contamination I won't even likely notice, and #2 benzos alone can't really kill (I've never felt even close to CNS OD from bupe+ high dose benzos, not even from multiple mg cLam).

Oh yeah also

Earlier today

>15mg meth and 3mg bupe plugged
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High Strung - Mon, 02 May 2022 01:45:19 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153246 Reply
3mg Clonazepam
2000mg Valerian
Grapefruit juice

I've really come to appreciate using valerian from local TCM pharmacies as a way to potentate my benzo buzz. Definitely give it a try if you haven't!!!!
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High Strung - Fri, 06 May 2022 05:37:52 EST 3Qjtf5Gx No.153253 Reply
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4mg Clonazepam
500mg Valerian
Grapefruit juice

Gonna be having Shanghai-style xiaolongbao beef dumplings, real Sichuan kung pao chicken, bok choy, and steamed rice today.... one of my favorite weekend bachelor meals.

Also GAH it is BLAZING HOT here.... central Shaanxi is a BITCH once May hits.
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Beatrice Nicklewill - Sat, 07 May 2022 00:26:00 EST p0q0i+54 No.153256 Reply
>>153253
i got 10x valerian powdered extract i plan to start using since im omw to detox off kratom/opiates. what form you taking it in?
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Beatrice Nicklewill - Sat, 07 May 2022 00:48:20 EST p0q0i+54 No.153257 Reply
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oh nice just realized since im going to rehab its a perfect time to take
1mg clonaz
25mg dph
6g kratom
D8THC vape

really not going to be doing benzos after this detox either even though im not addicted to them only opis. my family decided to bring 15mg on the trip so its time to indulge a little. havent done more then .5mg in a day in a while, took .5mg about 13 hours ago also.
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Beatrice Nicklewill - Sat, 07 May 2022 02:39:32 EST p0q0i+54 No.153259 Reply
>>153257
+.5mg clonaz and more D8VAPE, if i really cant sleep i may go smoke cigar outside
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Alice Claywater - Sat, 07 May 2022 21:37:20 EST T3/77+/j No.153264 Reply
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1.5mg clonazepam
50mg DPH
bunch of mg of D8THC gummies throughout the day
bunch of caffeine throughout the day
D8 vape all day
kratom all day + another 8g now
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Eliza Badgegold - Sun, 08 May 2022 10:36:55 EST 5dnGTKR4 No.153267 Reply
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DICKS EVERYWHERE
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Emma Clottingford - Wed, 11 May 2022 18:01:59 EST BXGckUv/ No.153270 Reply
I can't have fun while drunk without benzos but every time I take benzos there's a large risk that instead of getting the nice party mood, I start thinking about times when people wronged me and I just accepted it and I think about how I should have handled it.
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Nathaniel Gellyforth - Mon, 16 May 2022 10:34:33 EST L0ijfur9 No.153278 Reply
2mg alprazolam.
1200mg gabapentin.
some kind of 20% vol. raspberry liqueur.

Let's se where this go.

BWB
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John Pingerham - Wed, 18 May 2022 15:41:00 EST +1IFCN3O No.153287 Reply
>>153278
OMG, alprozolam with about....12x800mg gabapentins is heavenly
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Edwin Dunkinmadge - Wed, 18 May 2022 16:52:08 EST vb1vyPwf No.153288 Reply
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>>153287
ye it's not bad, not so great with frequent doses I basically dose gaba a week every 3 months & my tolerance is still wayyy too high

holding out til script day, fk all this anxiety, bwb nevertheless
+sour diesel
+high extract kratom
  • .5mg alpraz
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High Strung - Mon, 23 May 2022 00:39:21 EST rtDhNZzc No.153291 Reply
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Refill Day got me back in the groove. Popping 2mg Clonazepam just to take the edge off the insanity of my workload these days. Thankfully things will stabilize by Thursday. Being a college professor AND a part-time high school teacher while learning Mandarin 2x a week is no cakewalk and leaves my nerves quite jagged each day.
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High Strung - Mon, 23 May 2022 08:32:01 EST rtDhNZzc No.153292 Reply
>>153291
8mg more of Clonazepam + 2000mg Valerian + white grapefruit juice. GOD BLESS.

Just got out of a Zoom job interview for a more prestigious university, and then my ex called me up to bitch me out, thankfully I stood my ground and didn't take her bait so she hung up on me.

Lots of stress coming at me, but at least tonight I'll sleep like a rock.....
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High Strung - Thu, 26 May 2022 05:06:23 EST rtDhNZzc No.153294 Reply
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>>153292

NEVER MIND, GOT THE JOB AT THE NEW UNIVERSITY. PROFESSOR AND RESEARCH FELLOW. TIME TO ORDER MCDONALD'S AND DO A BUNCH OF BENZOS

Currently on 4mg Clonazepam to celebrate, gonna take maybe 4mg after dinner too
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Jack Blesslewurk - Fri, 27 May 2022 08:08:53 EST /B70+wnm No.153297 Reply
>>152943
BWB on 12mg bromazepam plus a lot of beer. It's not a strong dose but why do I feel and act like I'm on ecstasy? There's sleep deprivation involved too so I am just gonna go to sleep.
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High Strung - Sat, 28 May 2022 07:30:28 EST QXtQb2d7 No.153299 Reply
3mg Clonazepam
Laying on the couch watch Netflix and YouTube with a mild cold on a Saturday night.

Having a cold always sucks, but benzos always makes things a WEE bit more tolerable.
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Fanny Droblingridge - Sat, 28 May 2022 15:03:15 EST eagALLeH No.153300 Reply
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relapsed recently and took 5mg alprazolam last night

been 24hrs now

Trying to stay distracted and going to tidy up the rest of my room after an episode of frasier as a reward break
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Fanny Droblingridge - Sat, 28 May 2022 18:41:44 EST eagALLeH No.153301 Reply
>>153300
im a failure

I took 5mg again, don't have that many left to fuck about.
Sorry for the bad vibe post, i feel a s ense of ease and relaxation and like i had a bad thought a few mins ago, looke dup and i'd honestly forgotten it :)

God bless you all i've been posting here for ages but never with a trip or anything but I check the diso, opi, benz, psy, stim and random high bored

I'm going ot try and reply to some people's posts and help them tomorrow but god bless you guys
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High Strung - Sun, 29 May 2022 04:23:44 EST QXtQb2d7 No.153302 Reply
Another 3mg Clonazepam kinda day. Drinking a nice concoction of TCM herbs to soothe the sore throat. Supposedly also acts as a mild muscle relaxant too!
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Doris Gavingsadge - Sun, 29 May 2022 22:40:39 EST DMHU7yn0 No.153303 Reply
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>>153301
honestly mane I've been reaching out to my brother / family in general for help w that shit, you'd be surprised at ppls willingness to help you if you're straight with them & yourself

when I first got my 2mg/day alpraz script I had my fam hold onto most of it bc I'd trip or do some shit where I'd end up taking 30-40mg in a night shit I did this recently even it's not easy going from picking up 3-600 bars at a time to using your benz script as needed & not to fuck up with it it Can be a lot to ask of someone for sure though, you have to be chill about hitting them up for more pills all the time & makes you more responsible for shit ime

i believ in u bb
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Clara Suzzlewater - Mon, 30 May 2022 11:17:21 EST eagALLeH No.153304 Reply
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>>153303
>I'd trip or do some shit where I'd end up taking 30-40mg in a night
Man i know that feel, it's why i'm avoiding taking anything psychedelic so i don't end up tying benz in with it too

Taking dex for ADHD doesnt help when you're trying to stay off benzos but I've been on it so long i feel like i need it to function (and i end up not functioning very well on it anyway lol)
suicide ruined my life i wish i was a stronger stoic but I don't feel very strong
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Alice Fankinshit - Mon, 30 May 2022 12:23:33 EST zQAwVZ2W No.153305 Reply
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>>153304
I hadn't taken lsd in 4y or so, it was an amazing trip & I never needed alpraz (in the past panic disorder gave me some bad trips) but it felt more like an old friend

Just fucked up & wanted to push it as far as it could go drinking the end of this vial with 700~ mg dph awful awful idea, decent trip but it's incredibly toxic on the body do not recommend with at least 30mg alpraz & a quarter or so of bud melting face for 2 days

while the result of ruminating trauma is overall good/healthy misusing shit delusionally can't be ignored, going the end of each month with less than 1mg/day isn't chill further negating the wholesome aspect of good /psy/ use

I'd like to just tell my doctor/pharmacy if I can pick up 2 weeks at a time instead of 30 days to help prevent this but admitting weakness can make you blacklisted from a script or ineligible for disability

/rant
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Clara Suzzlewater - Mon, 30 May 2022 12:33:33 EST eagALLeH No.153306 Reply
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>>153305
Oh man you took DPH with the LSD? I've never done that before - but yeah it's interesting how sometimes you can be plesently surprised by psychedelic and feel xen in your mind :)

>I'd like to just tell my doctor/pharmacy if I can pick up 2 weeks at a time instead of 30 days to help prevent this but admitting weakness can make you blacklisted from a script or ineligible for disability
Hmmm yeah it's one of those situations where you can't really move incase things fall apart like a house of cards, what is your pattern like vs how much you are prescribed?
Here they don't prescribe benzos like that, though I was prescribed diazepam 5mg 3x/day for over a month and although reletively speaking that's not insane and a guaranteed addiction - in hindsight i realise the timing didn't help me deal with trauma and when it suddenly stopped I just thought "oh shit i'm getting worse" though I don't blame them for my problem, i do wish I had said "no thank you" tbh i'm scared i've ruined my life with benzos because that was 5 years ago, i've only got 6mg of alprazolam left and i'm hoping to save it incase i really need it and make it the last i ever have (lmao)

To be honest I'm thinking of maybe switching to /opi/ - though neither codeine, dihydracodeine or tramadol have ever made me feel relaxed (just decent painkillers) - oxycodone feels absolutely lovely and is like a very mild MDMA even when you smoke a cigarette. Though there's lots of fentanyl pills out there i'm thinking who cares, surely it's better than BZP dependence?
Here is a pic of a lazy ponderer
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Alice Fankinshit - Mon, 30 May 2022 12:34:17 EST zQAwVZ2W No.153307 Reply
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the struggle is real, I would honestly suggest planning a trip to clear your head I got some depressing news from my doctor & was dealing w suicidal thoughts the past month -mind you they aren't the kind I'd ever act on, moreso intrusive & disconcerting to have popping in your head randomly but the trip really helped work through some heavy shit, not "cured" tho at least a years worth of therapy in 2 days

trick is set/setting & leaving yourself a set amount of drugs in the house nb
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Alice Fankinshit - Mon, 30 May 2022 12:43:05 EST zQAwVZ2W No.153308 Reply
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>>153306
Having done opi / stim / Benz/ del / psy all very heavily (no iv but lol you can still fuck up hotrailing meth & heroin) Benz is definitely one of the scariest as far as wds, though having panic disorder meth takes the cake easily

I had a 120mg oxy 150mg tram script that I turned down eventually bc holy shit gl not fucking up on that + kpins + temazepam + neurontin

I hate the need for benz it's awful but it let's me function without constantly feeling like I'm being chased by bears who were never really my friends anyway
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Clara Suzzlewater - Mon, 30 May 2022 12:51:23 EST eagALLeH No.153309 Reply
>>153308
>I hate the need for benz it's awful but it let's me function without constantly feeling like I'm being chased by bears who were never really my friends anyway
Good analogy, like a sneaky trap.

I'm glad you had a good trip though, I've found shrooms actually gave me a "perspective" over my life about 2yrs ago and it was towards the second half, I really hope the best for your health friend.
i'm sticking to pregabalin maybe if you can get that it will help some?
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High Strung - Tue, 31 May 2022 04:52:20 EST W50ULgvX No.153311 Reply
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>>153309
Damn that IS a good analogy. Trauma's a bitch, ain't it?


That being said, I'm on a nice buzz of 3.5mg Clonazepam a little celebration of me getting officially inducted into the Royal Asiatic Society (alongside my previous new position at Northwest University I mentioned in >>153294), which is like.... some top-level commendations. Check out their website and you can see I just got into one of the hottest clubs in East Asian Studies: http://www.royalasiaticsociety.org.cn/
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Mr bond - Tue, 31 May 2022 14:07:59 EST xNLauevU No.153312 Reply
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Does this stuff have any effect? I wish I could get 1-4 or GBL, but ravers and Gen X had all the fun, while old sour boomers decided to ban both where I am.

1,3-Butanediol (R 1,3 Butanediol) has become available as a commercial product for human consumption as an ethanol-free alcohol,[3] and a dietary ketone supplement.
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m - Wed, 01 Jun 2022 05:13:15 EST G+wBcmoD No.153313 Reply
>>153312
All I can say is that I did try GVL once (yes, I spelled that correctly) and it 100% wasn't worth it. It tasted like floor cleaner + varnish combo, gave me the worst headache ever, and the effects (though decent, like a weird benzo+low tier barbiturate combo) only lasted a few hours, maybe 4-5 at the very most. I forget the dosage, but two doses about a week apart was enough for me. The headaches were absolutely brutal.

Perhaps real GBL/GHB or the other OGs are totally different. But that was my only experience with that family of GABAergics and I wasn't impressed.

>Bump

>17.5mg ice plugged upon waking
>another 7.5mg ice + 3mg bupe plugged later afternoon
>finished the night off with ~3.5 servings booze via mix drink

Recently ran out of all my flualp and began my rapid taper off of the remaining street "alprazolam," since I only have ~5 bars left out of the original 50 "xanax" "3mg" ones and 20 "1.5mg flualp ones.

>Bump ~20% of one alp "bar" volumetrically dosed

For the record, there's no way these alp bars are actually a full 3mg or 3mg equivalence. I can tell because I've gone head to head with real pharma xanax. 1 "bar" (all volumetrically dosed so it's always equal) + 1.5mg pharma xanax was WAY, WAY more potent than 2 "bars."

I think these bars have no more than ~1mg alp equivalent in them, possibly even less. And that's super, super depressing because they came from one of the top 3-5ish pressed bar vendors on one of the top two DNMs.

What's even more depressing is I'm 100% convinced they intentionally add some sort of mystery ingredient that functions as a strong chemical bitterant to trick users into thinking they're super strong. The bitterness isn't quite the same as real pharma alp and the taste lingers MUCH longer than normal alp or even bona fide flualp for that matter.

It's extremely difficult to find "pure" powdered RC benzos anymore (even just say ~60%+ pure, let alone 90-95%+ purity like the old golden clearnet days).

Now I can't even trust them to give me bars that have at least say 2mg pharma xanax, 1mg flualp, 4mg etizolam, or some equivalent combination of the three (and without including RC benzos that just aren't worth the risk from regular use, e.g. cLam or both Flubros)...

...EVEN THOUGH at ~$1/bar that's the equivalent of ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS per gram of flualp, $500/g pharma xanax, or $250/g pure etizolam. Somehow even that much isn't enough? What the fuck is going on?

Back in like 2017, you could get 2g of say 95%+ pure etizolam powder for ~$90-130 shipped, or 1g for $60-80 shipped, all on the clearnet with a prepaid card if you wanted. Man what the fuck happened?

I can't wait to be in Thailand in about 6 weeks. I'll just pharmacy hunt with my old empty Ativan bottle until one of them caves and sells me a 90ct bottle of real Valium 10s to cover my for a month or two. After that, I'll be in Cambodoa where real 1mg xanax and real Valium 10s are de facto under the counter.

Fuck the US bar scene and good riddance. I'm lucky I'm on daily subutex, so if they had any fent in them, I would have never even noticed.

I never thought I'd see the day where getting ~85-95% pure d-meth is infinitely easier than ~85-95%+ pure, say, alp, etiz, or flualp (I don't even prefer flualp, but it's at least not seemingly as dangerous/possibly damaging as cLam) powder. It's so fucked. Selling actual 3mg of alp for $1 each is already a HUGE markup of what, ~$333/g? Thats ~$666/g for flualp at half the dosage.

How the FUCK is that not enough incentive not to fuck the customers? Are customers seriously this braindead/clueless not to notice?
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Esther Drallykedging - Wed, 08 Jun 2022 01:51:26 EST Ub8vwnKw No.153321 Reply
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1mg clonazepam
weed
tea
coffee
cigar
noribogaine
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Rebecca Bleshnan - Sun, 12 Jun 2022 10:07:55 EST 9e/8XeRB No.153327 Reply
not sure if this is appropriate for /benz/ or belongs in other /board/ but wondering about other /benz/o addict views on muscle relaxants. while i don't find them as euphoric as /benz/os, i do find them to be a nice, although slightly lacking, substitute and better than nothing (especially when trying to balance or come down from /stim/s) alternative to ease any withdrawal symptoms. i've read a my fair share of reports of muscle relaxants like flexiril/robaxin/soma/etc. to have little to no 'recreational value' but i personally disagree and find this to be the case. similarly, many don't find /benz/os to be 'recreational;' although, to a lesser degree. granted, fexleril and robaxin are not as enjoyable as somas but i still find them enjoyable and especially beneficial to balance a multi-day /stim/ binge. anyone else who get significant euphoria from benzos enjoy muscle relaxants outside of somas (which appeal to most and are my favorite in this class as well)?
with that said, feel free to praise soma and mention other muscle relaxants as i'm excited to see my family and restore hyrule
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Shitting Drurringstitch - Fri, 17 Jun 2022 13:55:23 EST yzkZt7+M No.153348 Reply
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scrip dayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

aw ye. we full cozy now
>2mg alpraz
>will add another 2mg after work

stay safe / vibin y'all
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High Strung - Sun, 19 Jun 2022 23:43:14 EST 7BNHiR7J No.153360 Reply
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Hey folks, I'm still around! Refill Day is here. Will be perfect for taking the edge off this week where I have to administer and grade final exams, and then I'm hopping on a train to spend 2 weeks in the Gobi Desert along what used to be the Silk Road. Made sure to stock up on reserve K-pins so I can sleep better on those soft-sleeper bunkbeds on the overnight trains through the remote deserts.....

Until then, 4mg Clonazepam will do me just fine.
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High Strung - Mon, 20 Jun 2022 23:32:33 EST /sPQp/Af No.153361 Reply
>>153360

Just halfway through final exams.... decided to give myself a treat and buy a pack of Haomao luxury smokes to go with my lunchtime 3mg Clonazepam since I'm clocked out the rest of the day. Good way to reward myself after a crazy-ass morning.

3 more days until summer vacation. Woo
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Lydia Blindleford - Thu, 23 Jun 2022 20:59:07 EST C7Z6G6Xu No.153362 Reply
>>153348
Do you have the 2mg bars, or are you dosing up to 2mg?

Just wondering because I wanted to ask how long it took you to get up to the 2mg bars if that's what you have.

I finally got scripted alpraz and im at least scripted 1mg footballs, but at the lowest dose of 30 per month.

needless to say I run out pretty fast.
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High Strung - Fri, 24 Jun 2022 00:58:47 EST /sPQp/Af No.153363 Reply
>>153361
Just finished administering my final exams. Gotta grade them and enter them into the system next week, but for THIS Friday? I'm glad to have 3.5mg Clonazepam in my belly and a Chungwa cigarette dangling from my lips while I watch anime.

Gonna spend the rest of the afternoon curled up in my ice-cold home office until it's time to go out to dinner with some colleagues at 6:00pm.
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High Strung - Sun, 26 Jun 2022 01:35:08 EST wcvTWrmW No.153364 Reply
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2.5mg Clonazepam
Pot of puerh tea

First weekend of summer vacation's going alright, I suppose. Hopefully going swimming with my partner tomorrow.
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High Strung - Mon, 27 Jun 2022 02:29:19 EST wcvTWrmW No.153365 Reply
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The lone bumper here again, on a hot summer northwestern China day....

5mg Clonazepam
500mg valerian
Grapefruit juice
Tieguanyin green tea
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Nell Fibbleridge - Tue, 28 Jun 2022 13:00:39 EST B/LyNXzU No.153366 Reply
>>153365
you make clonazepam look bad

can't wait until july 1st to get my 120 pill refill
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Nell Fibbleridge - Tue, 28 Jun 2022 13:05:52 EST B/LyNXzU No.153367 Reply
>>153365
dude holy shit fucking you're spinning me out right now. Clonazepam is not supposed to be a long term medication. Typically, only people diagnosed with aspergers/a*tism are prescribed benzodiazepines long term, by doctors who are too lazy to do anything else. I know this because I have cousins who are on the spectrum. There's no way that you are getting the help that you need. Holy shit.
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High Strung - Wed, 29 Jun 2022 01:03:32 EST QXtQb2d7 No.153368 Reply
>>153367
I've been prescribed Klonopin, Depakote, and Lamictal as my Bipolar Disorder + C-PTSD + GAD cocktail for well over a decade now (Depakote and Lamictal for 22 years, Klonopin for 10 years), over the course of several psychiatrists over multiple countries. I have yet to have a psychiatrist or primary care physician who feels the need to take me off Klonopin.

Every shrink I've ever had just kinda says "If it ain't broke, don't fix it." Soooo... take it up with my physician(s), not with me.

....and with that, I'm going to take a 2mg-under-the-tongue afternoon nap.
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Hugh Clabberway - Sat, 02 Jul 2022 12:47:14 EST B/LyNXzU No.153370 Reply
>>153368
Did you just take a benzodiazepine-induced nap? How many times do you do this per month? As a fellow Bipolar Depression and GAD sufferer, how exactly is this sustainable over a decade without noticeably impacting your cognitive abilities? You're apparently older than me by at least half a decade. You have some kind of traumatic disorder that I've not experienced. Yet, you've been able to relocate yourself across multiple countries, a dream of mine, and you've been able to find work and live a productive healthy life with every move, I assume. It sounds like you've reached your full potential and currently live a very charmed life. Can you fill me in on the secret to your existence? I too was born gifted. What kept you from shaving 20 IQ points off your working memory instead of just 10? Or, if I allowed you to explain your life to me, would I look down upon you? Do I need to accomplish more than you do in order to be fulfilled?
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Thomas Charryman - Sun, 03 Jul 2022 01:08:51 EST EkrHtpDl No.153371 Reply
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>>153367
yeah I was on 2mg / day for several years til recently (switched to alpraz 2mg) major depressive disorder, panic disorder etc
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High Strung - Sun, 03 Jul 2022 08:32:32 EST QXtQb2d7 No.153376 Reply
>2mg Clonazepam for bedtime

>>153370
Such a nap isn't a sustained habit. In fact I don't remember the last time I've done such, other than after perhaps a panic attack

> Can you fill me in on the secret to your existence?

Honestly I don't know. I should be dead from drug addiction, suicide, or having been murdered by my psychopathic father years ago. But somehow here I am, living abroad, being a published author in my field and teaching at one of the top universities in East Asia. I wish I could tell you my "secret" but frankly I don't know.

>if I allowed you to explain your life to me, would I look down upon you?

I don't think you would, but /benz/ is not the place for a comprehensive autobiography of High Strung.

>Do I need to accomplish more than you do in order to be fulfilled?

I'm really not sure what you mean here. I don't think we should quantify/qualify "accomplishments" or "achievements" too much. I know people who don't even have their high school diplomas who make more money than me and are very fulfilled, and I applaud their achievements. I don't envy them nor do I look down upon them. Whatever makes you happy and helps you contribute to this big beautiful universe, man.

Look, I'm not trying to start a pissing contest here. I just know what my doctors have prescribed me, I can get up and go to work each day and be constantly praised for my contributions to it. I still have to take medicine to keep that true, and without my Clonazepam I still have nightmares and flashbacks about my upbringing, but like my current psychiatrist says: "If it's not broke... don't fix it."

SLAYER to you, brother.

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