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>Gender (trans woman, trans man, non-binary, etc)Trans woman
>Age you started transition22
>Age you started doing drugs16
>Preferred class of drugs (psychedelics, benzos, opiates, etc)Psychs
>Favorite specific drug(s)Dmt with lsd a very close second
>Least favorite drugsOpiates
>Do you feel your drug use has helped you explore/connect with your gender?Yes, very much- it's helpful in exploring and coming to terms with it
>If you started drugs before transition, did your drug use help you realize you were trans?Yes, at first I would trip on lsd and comment on how gender neutral I felt, male friends who tripped with me would comment that they felt manly and so I started exploring my gender more seriously.
>Has your drug use helped alleviate dysphoria? Which drugs?Mdma, although I haven't done it since I started transition. I still have some, maybe I should... Psychs help me get outside the confines of my gender, which helps dysphoria.
>Do you think your drug use is tied to you being trans (including as a way of coping w/ transphobia)?Yes, very much. It helps me see myself how I am, and be less judgemental about it. Haven't experienced much transphobic violence, except a few "trans!"s here and there and of course the requisite transphobia from Mom and Dad,
>Do you prefer to do drugs with a friend/friends or alone?Alone, or with my partner... Mostly alone tho I've tripped a couple hundred times alone on lsd especially while I was figuring out my gender
>Would you prefer to do drugs with cis or trans people (or do you have no preference)?Trans but honestly it's nice to let cis people have a little window into my trans life, and I haven't tripped with other trans people yet besides my partner (nb) so it's more of an idea at this point.
>Are you comfortable with your level of drug use?Yes, I've slowed down a lot and I work a lot more so I have less time to trip, so if anything I could stand to do more drugs
>Anything else you'd like to add related to trans people and drugs (trip report with trans feels, observations about others' use, etc.) ?I cried when I realized I was trans during a trip, it just all sunk in to me. I've done less drugs since I started transitioning, for a lot of reasons. I don't know how useful my experiences will be to your theory, since I haven't really tried diss, dxm is on my "to try" list along with quite a few rare 2cx's, a couple rare tryptamines, etc. I really prefer psychs, I disassociate enough on my own and it isn't fun. But yes drugs have helped me come to terms with my gender and also see past the bullshit of gender roles, I get misgendered now about half the time because I don't wear a ton of makeup, I guess you could say I'm boy mode but really I just don't give a fuck and wear what's comfortable/do what's easy. Hormones are the best drug I've ever taken. I went from feeling suicidal from dysphoria to a super bright sunny person. Tripping now is a lot more fun and easy, it's not like I have to do all this work on myself anymore.