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Hi Seedy

- Sat, 25 Feb 2017 18:06:23 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402386
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A pointless thread.

Is anyone who was posting between 2009 to 2013 around? How are you doing? If not that's okay.

I used to come here everyday after highschool when I was a teenager and I found this board really pleasant. I would come home and smoke a bowl and read pages and pages of the never ending discussion about hormones, clothing, triumph and sorrow.

It was nice because seedy cuties taught me so much, they taught me how to manage my difficult hair and about makeup and passing. I was pretty fat as well and the tough love culture here convinced me to become skinny right before coming of age. I grew up in a smallish redneck town with 34,000 people and couldn't have learned any of it without /cd/, and while everyone acted bleak and with a stark honesty you were mostly all pretty nice people. When I finally moved in early 2012 to the big city and started taking hormones it was a wonderful feeling to finally be one of those /cd/ posters who popped skittles and posted in passing threads.

I stopped counting so constantly but in a few months I hit 5 years on hormones. It's weird that all of the faces from back then will all be in their late 20s or early 30s now, I'm 24 myself. Being a trans is weird, my life has gone in a direction I never thought it would.

Although it slowed down some when that lgbt board came out on a different imageboard, it's nice to see this place hasn't changed much.
Walter Nebberridge - Sat, 25 Feb 2017 20:52:01 EST spvcLEDE No.402387 Reply
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I was around for 2012/13ish, kinda stayed here. It was just after trips got banned I think. I posted abot 2-3 photos ever though so eh even if I posted my face it wouldn't be recognisable.
Yeah not much has changed really. People are giving slightly more sound advice than "GO TAKE HORMONES NOW GO GO GO TIME IS TICKING" to anyone with the slightest hint of trans-ness, which is nice. Idk if that's the influence of elder cuties or an aspect of people having more general knowledge of it all before even discovering trans imageboards.
This board is trash, don't get me wrong, it's absolute fucking garbage, but out of all the ones I've encountered at least this place is (brutally) honest. It's a family. It's an abusive and mean family, but family nonetheless.

The one thing to stay completely in stasis is the trolls. Like it's kinda sad, I would have thought they'd start getting more creative by now but they literally reel off the same responses that you woulda got about 5 years ago. They're part of the furniture tho so whatever.
Edward Blackforth - Sat, 25 Feb 2017 22:34:57 EST 2IbZEiEJ No.402388 Reply
I came here a long time ago (maybe my middle teen years) and learned a lot. I didn't start transition till years later but it was nice to be able to learn from/talk to people about it.

Thanks /cd/.
Charlotte Goodfuck - Sat, 25 Feb 2017 22:51:47 EST TWi13boB No.402390 Reply
I started posting in 2012
So far I'm 4 years on HRT, have head forehead and trachea FFS, am 3 weeks post yeson and have suporn booked for February 2018.
Living in Dubbo is the biggest obstacle in my life now, and as much as I hate the town, I'm happy that trans related problems aren't at the forefront of my life anymore
Isabella Blackwell - Sat, 25 Feb 2017 23:18:55 EST 4XYeM9NR No.402392 Reply

I'm doing like ... total shit.

I actually had a local trans support group though, with which I never clicked yet never felt alienated from. But I couldn't keep going there and replaced it with a neat nerdy local group.

I'm missing that ... missing what? Not the old lively seedy, I'm pretty sure? Dunno.
James Tillingspear - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 00:49:56 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402393 Reply
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> People are giving slightly more sound advice than "GO TAKE HORMONES NOW GO GO GO TIME IS TICKING" to anyone with the slightest hint of trans-ness, which is nice. Idk if that's the influence of elder cuties or an aspect of people having more general knowledge of it all before even discovering trans imageboards.

Yeah. It's good because there were many people who posted threads about detransitioning and quitting hormones almost a year into them. That must be awkward.


Wow it sounds like you made it pretty far.


I felt that way with a trans support group too. Mostly because almost everyone was middle aged.

>I'm doing like ... total shit.

What's giving you a hard time?
James Tillingspear - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 01:09:48 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402394 Reply
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Maybe I will get banned for mentioning this, but it's another reason I'm fond of /cd/:

3 years ago I saw someone asking about ordering hormones to where they lived and that inhouse denied them even though they lived in the United States(Alaska), and was wondering if anyone knew how to get hormones to where she lived.

She ended up living in the same city I do and we posted back and forth all night. Months later we exchanged phonenumbers (on a different website) and eventually met up at the gay bar. It was a really fun time and we went back to her house and smoked weed while she played piano.

We started hanging out every Saturday night when she got off work and did whatever, I'm mostly a shutin so she became my best friend really quickly. We eventually became a couple and are still together :3

We might break up because we're actually both not really interested in girls. They've been the best years of my life though.
Isabella Blackwell - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 01:22:17 EST 4XYeM9NR No.402396 Reply
My support group was not "creepy" at all though. It seemed awfully nice actually. Still, I had to get over it, cause I had to grow up and get over it, you know...

Uhhh, *sigh* ... okay ... ummm, I had replaced it with a LUG. Which I guess was kind of awkward because I'm not a programmer or anything. But that seemed like a very good change.

But I ended up being unable to keep going there for a set of reasons. That would be a solid presumption about what's eating at me.
James Tillingspear - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 01:26:11 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402397 Reply
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>The one thing to stay completely in stasis is the trolls. Like it's kinda sad, I would have thought they'd start getting more creative by now but they literally reel off the same responses that you woulda got about 5 years ago. They're part of the furniture tho so whatever.

It's funny, everyone has grown a thick skin and their tactics never evolved. Or if they do use an evolved tactic it's likely they're a closeted trans if they managed to have such a deep understanding of trans stuff.

Oh well, they are a lot of fun in their own way.

no bump for double post.
Cedric Cubblebanks - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 08:26:09 EST LkSx64PR No.402402 Reply
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I used to hang out here 7/24 between 2012 and 2014, first came across the board much before that but I was a butthurt denier back than so seeing these cuties posting timelines and feeling good about their looks was painful for me.

I will have to admit thou this board helped me to accept myself and go forward with this transition shit. I was spending my time here and other trans places (even hon's place *shrug*) like 7/24 when I first started hormones. I was a 300 pound hairy basement dweller back than, I trained like shit and lost half of that weight and started putting my life back together.

I left this place a couple of times after getting butthurt by the comments when I posted a pic and people made fun of me and told me to commit sudoku. It wasnt because I wanted the carebear treatment and hated this place, it was because I was suicidal back than and did not want to harm myself further and stuff.

4 years of HRT, 3 suicide attempts that ended up in the ward, lots of benzos later I think I am actually fine now. Left FFS and SRS after me, legally changed every single document and managed to keep 96% of my family, friends and accomplices. I do pass in the street and my social life is much better even thou I havent even had to opportunity to use my new parts despite being 2 years post-op.

The major problem I have right now is that I am still stuck in a third world country and the economy is a mess, I dont even need to work to continue my life but most of my friends escaped to safer places in the world. Bad economy coupled with the refugees and ISIS bombings make social life difficult for everyone here and people opt to stay indoors out of fear.

It is kinda ironic thou, 4 years ago I looked like a pathetic obese beta and couldnt enjoy life because of it, today I am finally myself but cant enjoy it because there is no social life left to enjoy in my city. I could leave this country and everything I have right now to legally settle in SF but everyone tells me that leaving one failed state for another is beyond stupid especially in the trump era. Maybe I should get a boob job with the money I saved since hrt boobs are a lie.
Eliza Sucklefoot - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 08:26:10 EST W33OzG35 No.402403 Reply

Ive been here since forever. im old and grey now in my late 20's, i was on the bus the other day and some high school kids were talking about dabbing, i was shocked until one of them said "you cant dab to bob marley" then i was like (in my head) wtf, dabbing to bob marley is amazing and then googled it when i got home and its like a dance move or something not related to weed.

im doing great.
Glad to hear you're doing great and up to 5 years! grats! im sure the people who helped you figure things out would be happy to hear you're doing great.

I feel like we as a board have grown over the years.
Edward Blackforth - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 11:30:40 EST 2IbZEiEJ No.402404 Reply
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>>402388 here
Reading everyone's posts have made me feel sentimental so I feel like saying a bit more.

Between the ages of 13-15 I started looking all over the internet for information about transition, self-medding, etc. And I found this place and would stay up late on weekday nights reading and posting here, among other trans things like a certain comic called "Trans-e Generation" or something. I wonder if anyone remembers it. It wasn't super well drawn but I would read it for hours on end and browse this board.

I ended up suppressing my trans feelings until 21 when I started living by myself and then started transitioning. I'm 24 now.

This board and the users here have had a special place in my heart ever since back then.

So to everyone, thank you. I hope you're enjoying your lives.

Pic related, a screenshot from 2008. I guess I was 15 at the time. I took it because the ^_^ matched with the image posted underneath.
Walter Nebberridge - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 16:48:01 EST spvcLEDE No.402406 Reply
best lie to come from the old days
>your boobs will grow one cup size smaller than your mum's

so many sad cuties thinking they'd get e cups because their mum was stacked.
James Tillingspear - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 18:54:04 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402408 Reply
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Congrats on getting SRS. I can't imagine how nice that must feel.

>I was a 300 pound hairy basement dweller back than, I trained like shit and lost half of that weight and started putting my life back together.

It's funny how many people this is true for, good work.

>4 years of HRT, 3 suicide attempts that ended up in the ward, lots of benzos later I think I am actually fine now. Left FFS and SRS after me, legally changed every single document and managed to keep 96% of my family, friends and accomplices.

That's rough. I attempted suicide in 2013 but never started benzos or anything, I think I need something like that sometimes but for now everything is going okay.

>The major problem I have right now is that I am still stuck in a third world country

Which country? If you don't mind being asked.


>Ive been here since forever. im old and grey now in my late 20's, i was on the bus the other day and some high school kids were talking about dabbing, i was shocked until one of them said "you cant dab to bob marley" then i was like (in my head) wtf, dabbing to bob marley is amazing and then googled it when i got home and its like a dance move or something not related to weed.

That's hilarious, I've never heard of a dab dance move either.

Are your hairs actually going grey? Mine are starting to get more noticeable but I'm too much of a hippy to dye it.

>I feel like we as a board have grown over the years.

Definitely. A lot less drama it seems.


Guess we're the same age then ^_^

> a certain comic called "Trans-e Generation" or something. I wonder if anyone remembers it.

I might remember it if I see it, I'll search a bit for it today and report back.

>This board and the users here have had a special place in my heart ever since back then.

>So to everyone, thank you. I hope you're enjoying your lives.

Same to you. I've been feeling sentimental as well.


If only it were true. lol
Eliza Coblingnit - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 19:50:57 EST LkSx64PR No.402409 Reply


>That's rough. I attempted suicide in 2013 but never started benzos or anything, I think I need something like that sometimes but for now everything is going okay.

I am still surprised that I did not get addicted to anything in the long run during the process. Those three suicide attempts were spread over the process too.

The first one was just before I decided to transition, the second one was during the limbo where I was on HRT for a year but still stuck on boymode because I was afraid to go out even part time and was not happy with the changes. The third one was a month after SRS where I was in severe physical pain, was popping tramadol like candy and was swimming in E (was around preggo levels) because my doctor was too stupid to readjust my dose after SRS. People around me were also shit, they were treating this as something temporary before SRS and were basically humoring my "phase", SRS is what made them realize that this was serious.

>Which country? If you don't mind being asked.

good old turkey which is an early adopter of this ongoing madness. When I first decided to transition I was able to afford literally everything for around half of my families savings. The local currency lost so much value in the process that if I started a year earlier I would have afforded a boobjob and vocal surgery with the same amount of money, If I started a year later than I would have been forced to decided between SRS and FFS. I consider myself lucky for getting these things done since I always made my priorities as FFS > SRS > vocal > boobs.

I was getting around 910$ from securities in 2013 without lifting my finger, right now that income is around 420$. I do really want to leave this shithole behind but I cant see a decent way out at the moment. Leaving a financially secure life behind for an adventure in the US is really not attractive right now thanks to the ongoing global shitstorm. I am really tired from this whole transition thing and want to take it easy for a while I guess.

>Ive been here since forever. im old and grey now in my late 20's,

haha the same is going for me since I just broke the 30's barrier this year. Its not "that" bad. Hair dye is your friend. The funny thing is my complexion was fucked up when I was obese because of a damaged liver ever since I was a teen. My skin recovered after 2 years and I went back to my natural pale complexion (it is NW15 in M.A.C. for you makeup savvy types) and my natural black hair made me look like a ghost because of it. I finally settled on dark auburn and people do think that it is my natural hair because it matches my skin tone now.

The funny thing is I always dreamed about getting crazy highlights or trying unnatural colors before I switched fulltime and now I dont even want to try another hair color especially something flashy like red or pink. I guess I am a boring adult now
Simon Wepperlock - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 22:52:08 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402412 Reply
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>good old turkey which is an early adopter of this ongoing madness. When I first decided to transition I was able to afford literally everything for around half of my families savings. The local currency lost so much value in the process that if I started a year earlier I would have afforded a boobjob and vocal surgery with the same amount of money, If I started a year later than I would have been forced to decided between SRS and FFS. I consider myself lucky for getting these things done since I always made my priorities as FFS > SRS > vocal > boobs.

Damn. It must feel really good to have all that behind you. If you could leave Turkey where would you move? How large of breast implants do you think you'll go for?

I think I'll have enough saved for SRS in my 30s hopefully. I'm also considering taking out a giant student loan to pay for it.

>. Its not "that" bad. Hair dye is your friend.

> and my natural black hair made me look like a ghost because of it.

Haha. I am also pale with black hair, mostly in winter.

>The funny thing is I always dreamed about getting crazy highlights or trying unnatural colors before I switched fulltime and now I dont even want to try another hair color especially something flashy like red or pink. I guess I am a boring adult now

It's comfy getting boring.

Right before I transitioned I was a bit of a twink and at a time had a fohawk(I think that's what they were called) and a tongue ring. I feel retarded for it today, I dress very plainly and wear a lot of grey and black.
Simon Wepperlock - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 22:54:03 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402413 Reply
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I should have said, if you -had- to leave Turkey*

No bump for double post
Charles Blivingdock - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 23:15:32 EST P8V3XXND No.402415 Reply
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When was the sticky thread image "/cd/" made from spiro/estro/progesterone packets? The one before the one which just had the attached as its image? It's been a long ass time regardless.

Is this a 'where are they now?' thing? If you remember the ID "dBsEWked" (or something similar, gimme a break, no trip, static ip) Heyo~

On and off mones for 5 years now (started at 20), kinda setlling for being a feminine male, whilst still saving hardcore for FFS w/ spiegel, need about £15k more so about a year, (I'd have had it now if not for Heroin and/or just ditching the idea altogether multiple times and pissing money up the wall, also TY Brexit for making it cost like 20% more xoxo)

I don't really know which way I want to go anyway, therapists never butted heads or challenged what I said, just ticked boxes.. which really isn't what I need, nigga you gotta weedle it out and help me get to the base of this and work from there, argue with me or something because I've been left with as much doubt I had when I started to do something so final anyways.

Enough of my rambling,

Flutterguy? That Brit girl named Jennifer who looked cis and has a fishtank (KWPgshy or some shit, L)? Lydia/phryne(75JU*****)? Haru? Uhglie? Where the fucks Kayla these days? There are way too many people or me to remember at 4am ;_;

Charles Blivingdock - Sun, 26 Feb 2017 23:26:59 EST P8V3XXND No.402416 Reply

OH and that ftm mtf couple who were adorable. Adam and.. someone whose name I don't remember (sorry!)
Reuben Hemblechore - Mon, 27 Feb 2017 07:48:42 EST DJmNYahS No.402421 Reply
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i found 420chan around 2012. it has shown me a lot. I was just a confused little boi back then

>4 years HRT
>post op FFS
>post op VFS

no bf or gf yet.. but hey, ive gotten shit done since finding out about this place YEARS ago. I rarely post anymore here, but yeah, idk, ta-da.
Eliza Coblingnit - Mon, 27 Feb 2017 10:47:54 EST LkSx64PR No.402423 Reply
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>Damn. It must feel really good to have all that behind you.

it really is, its also quite relaxing to live without any life destroying secrets and stuff. In this part of the world people also dont give a shit about your trans status when you are post-op. No bathroom dramas or shit.

>How large of breast implants do you think you'll go for?

I am currently an A and it is really small considering my athletic frame at 5'8", I just lie about being a swimmer from early age and it fits quite well. I would like to have a nice rack which would be around D to DD but I have settled on just going up to a decent C lately. Stylewise always thought about being a hot redhead or the outgoing playful type but one misconception about this whole business is it doesnt change who you are inside. I am still the same dork that wastes away time with RPG's and jeans and basic tee's are still the center of my wardrobe. I tried to be more feminine but even with makeup I just cant carry anything more than the no makeup makeup look. It just feels weird. Most of the clothes that I got during the process went down to storage since they just dont suit me.

>I think I'll have enough saved for SRS in my 30s hopefully. I'm also considering taking out a giant student loan to pay for it.

Maybe that would be a bad idea but I really do get the sense of urgency now that I am through with it. Wasting a fortune on cosmetic surgeries in this economy seems dumb on paper to most people but for some of us it means finally taking back out lives. When I started at 26 I was damn set on finishing everything by 30 so I wouldnt end up as a wizard but things did not work that way I still need to work on the voice and finally eliminate the boobs from the checklist but times are though for me and I dont think that they would impact anything by this stage. Good luck!

>If you could leave Turkey where would you move?

Any english speaking country would be fine with US being at the bottom after UK in my list but sadly I dont have the luxury to chose. People in charge dont give a shit about your personal reasons anymore, I am a non-muslim minoritt in this country yet I still get the same treatment when I apply for a short term travel visa because I was just unlucky to be born in a country with a muslim majority. It just adds more salt since I am basically stuck in the middle in this issue too. man or woman, east or west, left or right doesnt matter, you always get screwed if you were unfortunate enough to be stuck in the middle.

>Haha. I am also pale with black hair, mostly in winter.

I feel the pain, every single girl in here fuss about their complexion and literally everyone bitches about their skin tone yet life is harder for girls with pale skin when it comes to fashion.

> I dress very plainly and wear a lot of grey and black.

haha yep, apart from black and grey you have a limited choice with this complexion. deep blue tones, deep red, deep purple and dark beige with the occasional khaki and thats about it. I do love pastel tones but they just make me look sick if I dont go crazy with the bronzer and I do hate spending an hour contouring just so I can wear a different color. At least blacks look good even without makeup and I do love going out without wasting precious time.

Back in the old days I would have argued with myself but growing up has this chilling effect on the person which makes you grow a thick skin and dont give any shit about what other people think. I did my time as a catty teenager in the first 2 years of HRT and no more. the second puberty is over so dear hormones please let me live my life in peace now :)
Doris Tootway - Mon, 06 Mar 2017 07:31:03 EST PaLPsuqu No.402473 Reply
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im the detransitioned guy, i also was here alot back then, i was like 19? or 20? whatever, anyways if anyone has had ffs and wants to detransition its possible, just linking the thread where i gave alot of answers for the detransitioners who are too scared.

pic related me to proof that its me and not some tard who just wants ppl to detransition.
Akumadio - Mon, 06 Mar 2017 13:59:29 EST Pyh6kalD No.402478 Reply
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I've been here for years. I started transition 7 years ago. Never looked back.
Jenny Parringson - Mon, 06 Mar 2017 22:44:53 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402482 Reply
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Sometimes cellphone photos do that to me and I have to rotate them before posting. Maybe it was something like that.

Nice picture, looks like everything worked out.
Betsy Forryhood - Thu, 09 Mar 2017 18:40:52 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402506 Reply

It's very silly and fitting for such a good game.


That's how it seems to go unfortunately.
Betsy Clarringlock - Thu, 30 Mar 2017 08:15:49 EST fX+Pbavo No.402762 Reply
i remember the name, but can't place a face
> That Brit girl named Jennifer who looked cis and has a fishtank (KWPgshy or some shit, L)? Lydia/phryne(75JU*****)?
i think i know her, if we're thinking of the same person, she's still funny as hell
i saw her on circlejerk once I think?
i remember her. i saw her once on lgbt some time back
>Where the fucks Kayla these days?
trolling people in the trans threads on /lgbt/

i was never a named person, always anon, /cd/ was a blessing to me when i found it back in '09 since now it gave me all the info i needed to transition......but i wasn't actually able to start hormones until fucking 2014

Some other people I've thought of over the years; Blonde-chan, Ren, Len, The girl who transitioned after having gynocomastia as a teenger and having her teen man boobs removed, she went by ???-trap
a fuck ton of faces i dont have names for, I see folks on circlejerk and /lgbt/ here and there
Ghengis Dong - Fri, 31 Mar 2017 03:56:04 EST m0Roazyj No.402769 Reply
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You and I may be the onlt ones ITT from back as far as '09

I have posted on maybe 4-5 occasions since then, mostly just to argue with who I thought were particularly stuck-up bitches that accused everyone of being some 'hun' from Susan's Place and just generally being toxic. I remember using a lot of photos from the (then recent) Arab Spring back in '10

At least there's no more Kayla drama?

Does anyone remember Cursive?
Ghengis Dong - Fri, 31 Mar 2017 03:57:21 EST m0Roazyj No.402770 Reply
lol, btw pic isn't me. It's from an old "hun" hate thread
Augustus Billingshit - Fri, 31 Mar 2017 04:15:53 EST W33OzG35 No.402773 Reply

I used to love the old hun hate threads, people would go scouring for pictures from lp and susans.

Its actually quite heart warming to see how far the term hun/hon has spread dont you think?
Ghengis Dong - Fri, 31 Mar 2017 05:33:15 EST m0Roazyj No.402774 Reply
There is no shortage of really awful people, at most I pity people like pic in >>402769

Do you believe that 'hun' is specific to 420Chan?
IvankaTrump !ko.NY2bIZc - Sat, 01 Apr 2017 03:54:45 EST W33OzG35 No.402782 Reply
you mean exclusive? no, but 420chan originated the usage of it as a derogatory term. you were here for it yeah?
Augustus Guddlekin - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 03:34:00 EST TL5zjnhr No.402788 Reply
my guess is saying "hon" sarcastically amongst cuties has existed for a long time on the internet. you must be 19
Fuck Fondlecocke - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 04:16:15 EST W33OzG35 No.402789 Reply

your guess? great guessing. you must be 19.

Do you seriously not know the origin story of the word hon and why it refers to the type of trans that goes on lauras playground?

Back in the day, waay before caitlyn jenner way before circlejerks transgender subs and before 4chins had a /lgbt/ board, people on lauras playground used to call each other "hun/hon" all the time, ie. "it'll be alright hun!" "oh hon, <words of encouragment>".

"So why do they all call each other hun?"
"Because thats what they are."

Well they consistently use the word hun/hon because they deemed it to be feminine, they came off as trying to act like women rather than being women, it was like a performance for them, like for example saying anybody who hasnt had SRS isnt a transsexual and just really old outdated ways of thinking and so the word became associated with that kind of transwoman, a woman is who more so acting like a woman rather than being a woman.

Which is how hon became a derogatory term meaning "old unpassable trans" ie "a person who posts on lauras playground".
Molly Gottinghedge - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 16:28:13 EST R4fvVv+2 No.402792 Reply
I never had a trip and was always anon, but I used to come here quite a lot before and during the time that trips were banned, before /lgbt/ existed. Mostly commented on passing threads and tried to help out there. I'm 30 now and still haven't transitioned.

This was the first trans community that I checked out and that I could sort of identify with because you weren't twice my age. I heard about this board on krautchan and the decision to seek it out was the point of no return for me. I knew it would be the point of no return before I even started looking, but I did it anyway. This board has always been 99% mtf, but at the time you did not chase away ftms as soon as they mentioned that. I liked it a lot here, and I wish /lgbt/ did not exist since it slowed down so much since.
Charles Pollerwick - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 18:06:27 EST WIMBg/Jo No.402793 Reply
I've been here since 2008 :|
Off and on over the years, this is still the best transition-related space on the entire internet. The only people I remember by name from then are Ren, Spooky and Ryo. I live with a manchild chaser bf that I met through this board back before exchanging personal details was banned. I never legally transitioned and still am semi-closeted despite being on hrt for like a decade. So, still living the gender nightmare. Tbh if I hadn't gotten orchiectomy I would probably just do a full detransition, I'm 30 now and feeling too old to deal with the gender confusion stuff anymore. Choosing to pursue the transition stuff rather than try to somehow get over it was probably the worst decision I've ever made, or at least that's how it feels some days. I too remember the meme of growing one cup less less than your mom and close family members. So many memes, you really got me with all that, internet.
Francesca_Prometheus_Franco !5q1mB/AY7A - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 18:24:50 EST 01YqdSkd No.402794 Reply
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>Off and on over the years, this is still the best transition-related space on the entire internet.
I'd hate to agree with you but it is.
This is also a very sad reality.

>I live with a manchild chaser bf that I met through this board back before exchanging personal details was banned.
Lucky you. At least you're not alone in the inhospitable world.

>I never legally transitioned and still am semi-closeted despite being on hrt for like a decade. So, still living the gender nightmare.
How is that on a daily basis?

>Tbh if I hadn't gotten orchiectomy I would probably just do a full detransition.
Why don't you still get male privilege and enjoy feeling femme?

>I'm 30 now and feeling too old to deal with the gender confusion stuff anymore. Choosing to pursue the transition stuff rather than try to somehow get over it was probably the worst decision I've ever made, or at least that's how it feels some days.
Why would you want to get over being trans. I mean please elaborate on what you would have done instead? Couldn't "getting over it" just lead to you repressing these feelings and just caused you to transition when you're 40 or 50 and becoming an old unpassable hon?

Just asking because sometimes it just seems like whatever I attempt is met with futility and hatred.
Archie Gonkinladging - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 19:26:59 EST dCsYDITA No.402795 Reply
Hi OP. Lurker. Can't remember ever posting. I sought out trans people, surrounded myself with them for a time, and have dated many trans girls. It only hit me last year that I am indeed, myself, trans. I only accepted it this year. My gender is male, I have male genitalia, and I enjoy who I am, I don't want to change my physical body much. I just want to lose weight and get in good shape for a girly boi. Also makeup and clothes and stuff. I don't want to pass, I don't even want to present as female. I just want to dress up for fun in the privacy of my own home or out at gay clubs where that sort of thing won't get me targeted.
Edwin Snodcocke - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 20:48:23 EST zJL/CCu8 No.402796 Reply
I've been here since 2009!

I joined the military, married my female best friend, got to of the military and transitioned, still married and super happy (so glad my partner is queer). Transitioned and not out as anything but gay married to my partner. Thank science for ffs, changed my life.
Walter Sebbledale - Sun, 02 Apr 2017 21:22:33 EST 01YqdSkd No.402797 Reply
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That's sort of extremely cool an Ex-military ftm and an ex-military mtf married to each other. Sounds like the next Transamerica. Pitch your script to the studios before I do.
Ghengis Dong - Mon, 03 Apr 2017 17:43:42 EST 1oACUh3X No.402802 Reply
It was here that I first was exposed to the hun phenomenon but I simply never assumed the term was unique to here. I never actually browsed Laura's Playground but saw caps here.

I've met IRL plenty of terrifying and truly awful old 'huns'. But sometimes online there becomes this toxic culture that is basically young women acting "tru-trans" and just indulging in their own form of transphobia by ridiculing non-passing and older trans-people IMO

Referring to people as 'hun' is more a generational/regional gap than some kind of instant AGP signifier (though they aren't mutually exclusive)

Just my two cents.
Augustus Pizzlestone - Thu, 06 Apr 2017 03:36:38 EST W33OzG35 No.402812 Reply

i havent called anybody a hon for ages.

Ive been called tru-trans lots of times and i dunno, i just want people to think about the decisions they are making, if people think my story makes me a "true transsexual" then i suppose i thank them for thinking of me more legitimate than themselves.
ive met too many transgirls who bought into living as a "stealth" trans or the idea that society would accept them as a cis woman.

this shit breaks everyone eventually and if you dont have a good reason for doing it you're just going to break. More people detransition than you know, some public and some just stop.
Nell Bardshaw - Fri, 07 Apr 2017 13:37:59 EST e9mjG9U5 No.402814 Reply
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Interesting. What did you do in the military, were you doing your transition stuff before they stopped banning cuties from it?
Reuben Nasslechadge - Fri, 07 Apr 2017 16:51:26 EST BcJ5HZsN No.402819 Reply
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Somewhere between 2009 and 2013 I smoked a fuckload of salvia, and got some serious existential terrors.

So inbetween shifting between razor thin and razor sharp dimensional rips, I decided to ask /psy/ for help. Help to get out of the salvia hell I was trapped in.
Turns out, I posted in a random thread in /cd/ instead or some shit. I dunno. I remember after sobering up trying to find my thread on /psy/ and I couldn't find it, and then I just used my browser history, and discovered I posted it here.
Does anyone remember that? I vaguely remember people misunderstanding my post like someone was having a mental breakdown or some shit.

I dunno if that really happened, maybe that was a salvia hallucination too, and I never touched my computer.

I don't really post here, unless I see an interesting sentence pop by in Active Discussions. You fucks need to do more drugs for fucks sake.
Jarvis Crevingchirk - Fri, 07 Apr 2017 22:26:00 EST FIYKFzLL No.402822 Reply
I was in high school around that time and had just found out what transsexuality was, just came back for the first time since then. If I knew how I would turn out idk if I'd have tried being trans even, but I probably would've been worse off not trying.

I ended up getting hormones prescribed and still take them 4 years later, but I've never gotten to the point where I pass so I'm androgynous boymode in public. I rarely go out of the house though, I ended up neet and depressed and now I smoke weed a lot, occasionally I take LSD but it never helped me like people say it has helped them, if anything I felt more existential dread trying to think through things on it so I just kind of enjoy everything being trippy and abstract instead. I also had to ride a police car 3 hours into a trip which was entertaining.

Now I'm just trying to be less lonely and find someone who can relate to me to be my bf/gf/whatever. I have no friends left at all anymore since I came out as trans, the constant isolation is honestly mental torture and I've already been put in a mental hospital twice for wanting to kill myself.

>Ask transdoctors to join a support group for cuties
>They never send me to one even though they say there is one
>Try to find one on some LGBT website
>Everyone but me is 40+

I've improved a lot on cooking and playing guitar though!
Cyril Munkinstock - Fri, 07 Apr 2017 23:08:56 EST W33OzG35 No.402823 Reply

Still androgynous after 4 years?
"still dont pass"
Do you need someone to help push you out of the closet? whats the point in transitioning if you're still living as a guy?
Cyril Munkinstock - Sat, 08 Apr 2017 06:12:01 EST W33OzG35 No.402825 Reply

There are lots of other drugs that can make you feel better, are you on estrogen? you could just take an anti-androgen rather than taking estrogen and an anti-androgen.

i dont even know why you came out as trans, because you're not even transitioning you're just taking a pill and letting it hold you back. The point of transition although on the surface is to transition between the sexes, its supposed to help you get on with your life and move on with your life it seems to have just complicated it more for you and given you something to blame for all your faults. Transitioning is supposed to help you to stop living two lives and allow you to be yourself.

Maybe you need to re-assess where you're headed with this, all your problems are your problems, its not because you're a trans and its not because you dont pass its because you're waiting for this to fix you rather than fixing yourself.

4 years, its time to take a leap off the deep end, you cant just sit around dipping your toes in the water thinking you're swimming. four years of your life waiting, waiting for what? your life isnt going to begin when you pass or when you get ffs or srs or whatever, its already begun, times ticking away, every time the sun rises and sets thats more time you will never be able to retrieve.

Dont make excuses, live your life. holy shit im going to say it again, four years and you're still living as a guy and presenting as an "androgynous guy" and when asked why you're transitioning its because of how testosterone makes you feel?

I dunno, as i said, re-assess why you're doing this because 4 years and you're still living as a guy. I dont think you have gender dysphoria. i think you've been mistaken in your diagnosis and please, if you wish to discuss this and or tell me more about your story so i can push you in either direction go ahead.
Lillian Blellyhack - Sun, 09 Apr 2017 02:28:43 EST IyN+xLru No.402828 Reply
I lurked intermittently since 2010 or 2011. Came to /cd/ to be jealous of people who passed (seemingly easily). I'm going to transition ASAP when I become more independent but I don't know if I'll ever pass. I'm depressed to the point that doing things like shaving my body and practicing a feminine voice is hard (as well as other basic tasks like showering).
Lydia Bevingsack - Sun, 09 Apr 2017 03:43:21 EST W33OzG35 No.402829 Reply

>basic tasks like showering

Go talk to a psychologist ASAP. fuck transitioning, you seem to have really bad depression. you need to find help, talk to someone close to you, tell them you need to see a psychologist ASAP and ask them to make sure you go. Otherwise talk to a hospital about having a bit of a stay in the mental health facilities there.
Archie Brashkedge - Sun, 09 Apr 2017 06:46:18 EST VWgQ7NA8 No.402830 Reply
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I used to come here everyday between 2012-2013, and i started transitioning in 2012. I had to live with some rather.. unaccepting people for a year, and lost all my progress with breasts. My partner just left me today and im feeling really down, saw this thread, and figured, fuck it.
I need a boost /cd/
Preop tgirl, on estrogen, no AA, no surgeries. too fucking poor :C
Tell me im pretty?
Lillian Blellyhack - Sun, 09 Apr 2017 14:04:41 EST IyN+xLru No.402834 Reply
I've been seeing a psychologist recently, actually, we've had two sessions now. Maybe I should get on antidepressants.
Jack Naffingnene - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 00:06:19 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.402844 Reply
yeah if you have pretty small tits and stop HRT they just shrink. mine have several times so far when i stopped.
James Fibblehod - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 00:27:05 EST VWgQ7NA8 No.402845 Reply
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Yeah, especially in the 25+ age, im 24 but started hormones 4 years ago. Got just past A cup and then lived with skinheads. they just thought i was a hippy, hah. Yeah lost alot of progress over that year, from 23-24, including muscle/fat distribution. The older you get, the more testosterone fucks with you. :C

Boymode pic from when i was living with them
James Fibblehod - Mon, 10 Apr 2017 02:07:21 EST VWgQ7NA8 No.402846 Reply
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Also, thankyou so much. i havent had a compliment in over a year. Shits getting real dark in my life atm. I really needed that.
so sincerely thank you.
Rebecca Warrybanks - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 07:47:25 EST VYzyLTLx No.402899 Reply
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was def a regular back then. i started lurking here probably in like 2007 or something, then started posting under a trip, im guessing around the begining of 2011.

just found this ancient timeline i made from way back then... hella embarrasing now tbh
Charles Criffingfut - Fri, 14 Apr 2017 08:13:57 EST W33OzG35 No.402900 Reply

I remember you kind of! how's everything going? did your dreams come true?
Jack Fadgeman - Sat, 15 Apr 2017 19:16:29 EST 7M7ivOEW No.402910 Reply
doing a lot better but dating is fucking nearly impossible to navigate. I've yet to get a girlfriend or have sex. a lot of people are cool with me being trans but I've had a lot of depression and anxiety issues that have made things more complicated as well

also stealth so fuck yall and your desire to see what I look like now
Martin Dimmerstore - Sun, 16 Apr 2017 06:16:25 EST d3tbpeTf No.402912 Reply
I've lurked here since college in like 2008, it was because of this site I started hormones from inhouse in 2011 or 2012. Last few years are a blur... I pass now and work a crap job at a grocery store, only two people know I am trans cause I don't think they will tell anyone.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:30:46 EST fkWEr28b No.402957 Reply
I probably didn't come here until 2014 and I am happy for that because it looks like you guys had a real strong cult thing going on here? I probably would have got sucked in rather than think through things myself. Probably would have thought I was some kind of special insider as well and therefore deserved to successfully transition.

So for you older seedy people when did you realize that transition was kind of a lie and that you were looking at it through the false lens of a computer monitor and missing the reality that daylight and a stroll down a street or standing next to a real woman will give you?

>Being a trans is weird, my life has gone in a direction I never thought it would.

Ya its weird because you don't pass, so you do in fact live as a trans. Thats also I am sure why your life has taken some kind of "weird" turn, its because you cut off all the more legitimate paths and lifestyles by transitioning into... something, but not a woman.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:32:40 EST fkWEr28b No.402958 Reply

ha ha, its a funny realization when you finally understand that 99% of people who say this are lying to prop up their bruised self esteem and extensive lack of value that find themselves with in real life
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:34:35 EST fkWEr28b No.402959 Reply
>I pass now
>I make sure to live like a hermit so I never have to test how I pass
>I ignore all the clues and evidence that would lead one to think I didn't pass
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:40:27 EST fkWEr28b No.402960 Reply
>but out of all the ones I've encountered at least this place is (brutally) honest. It's a family. It's an abusive and mean family, but family nonetheless.

Ha ha that is just the lie yall tell yourselves to make the compliments and "you pass" sound more real to you. No trans spaces are EVER "brutal" or "realist" they are all cheerleading factories that obscure your perspective, just like jihadis perspectives are obscured after 10 months of hunking down with ISIS


here is a nice song that doesn't really apply to most transsexuals because they already are broken down and people aren't really watching because no one cares
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:42:25 EST fkWEr28b No.402961 Reply
>two years post-op
>"pass in the street"

What does "pass in the street" mean? Oh ya. Nvm I already know lmao
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:46:36 EST fkWEr28b No.402962 Reply
Your story makes me the saddest in this thread. Why did you get an orchi. I am face palming at your decisions...

The one cup mean is PERFECT example of trans delusion that gets propagated through the internet and spreads like wildfire which is again why the BEST advice to give young transitioners is to believe the OPPOSITE of everything "golden rule" in the trans community
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:48:26 EST fkWEr28b No.402963 Reply
ya you need to just get buttfucked by some big strong men who pretend you are a girl and get it out of your system, don't ruin your life lmao
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:55:58 EST fkWEr28b No.402966 Reply
i think you need to except that you are a man and find the virtue and pleasure in living as a man, you sound like you are literally wasting away. It sounds very sad
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:57:33 EST fkWEr28b No.402967 Reply
you are pretty in the sense of a hyperfeminine man. Unfortunately that doesn't give you much value in our society
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 04:59:44 EST fkWEr28b No.402968 Reply
this shit makes me sad to see and I see so much of it all over the place. Passing is a meme. You are falling for a computer generated virtual reality of other peoples projections. Those people you think passed don't actually pass. You sound extremely mentally ill and have no business trying to move your body from one sex to the other
Oliver Sorryshit - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:07:01 EST W33OzG35 No.402969 Reply

i was going to say "skullperson?" then i realised its you craniumgirl! how are you travelling these days?

I wouldnt say it was cultish i would just say that there has been an evolution as more and more younger transwomen actually transition and realise they arent going to be cis. There was this kind of idea that if you transition when you're in your late teens-mid 20's you're going to pass and hey here have 3 timelines of people who transitioned and look great! that could be you too! and as people got lulled into this sense they realised the sad truth, that you can look as good as those people in timelines, with fresh makeup, hair straight from the salon and perfect lighting.

So it has evolved and it will take some time for other trans people to catch up, i mean its still worth a shot but there needs to be a setting of correct expectations that you are in fact a trans and there is no male>ciswoman transition. People need to also focus on the mentality rather than the physicality, if you go chasing beauty through transition you're definetly barking up the wrong tree. The main issue with communicating these ideas is its too easy to put people in a "she's just a bitch" basket rather than trying to figure out if there is substance behind the words.

Anyways! if you want to talk lets talk! im pretty keen to find out what you've been upto.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:17:48 EST fkWEr28b No.402970 Reply
I have to say these are all good points and I don't find myself disagreeing with any of them. One of the main reasons transition has been so intolerable to myself and to some of my friends as well, was due to our false expectations we had when we went into it. A complete lack of understanding of the limitations and a complete rejection of any life that wasn't normal. People like myself that have a certain sense of pride, entitlement and demand for self respect simply crack under the pressure of transition where all of that is torn away. I sort of snuck out the back door and will be fine, but I often worry about my friend, she has no way out (I'm not even sure she would take it like I did if she did) but shes post op in all ways and really stick in life and watching her deteriorate is stressful. Shes an extremely intelligent person and it makes it impossible for her to bury her head in the sand and develop delusional perspectives of herself that so many hons and other less intelligent people are able to do to get through the day (not that those people don't ever crack, they often due, sometimes spectacularly).

The only thing is that the mentality that you must have to be HAPPY is that of a drag queen. So its disingenuous to say you need to have the right "mentality" because what the reader sees with that, is to mentally perceive of yourself and be comfortable with a female identity. And that is not the mentality that leads to a sustainable transition because you won't be treated as female, so you will be treated as a drag queen. Hope that makes sense.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:23:41 EST fkWEr28b No.402971 Reply
Detransitioning does feel a little like going back in time. In that way it is interesting. All these "things" you start to notice that oyu haven't noticed in years, not only the physical but the mental as well. Suddenly the horizon is much more open, much less scary. Libido changes and sexuality as well are pretty radical. I always felt people who said hrt made them more androphilic were full of shit, but I feel hormones maybe do have some effect on sexuality that isn't just psychological. Still its probably mostly psychological.

I basically feel like I am 19 again, but in a good kind of vital way. I surprisingly have no regrets over lost time or anything like that. I guess because I already invested a lot of contemplation about "missed time" during my transition and I have kind of matured past that feeling now. Its just not important anymore whatsoever.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:40:01 EST fkWEr28b No.402973 Reply
can you tell me how your gynocomastia surgery went? One thing I am very frustrated about is that I feel I developed more breast tissue than the average transsexual and yet I'm the one who decides to go back, ugh such bad luck. I wish I had only gotten misquito bite AAs
Oliver Sorryshit - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:52:45 EST W33OzG35 No.402974 Reply
>The only thing is that the mentality that you must have to be HAPPY is that of a drag queen

Not quite, a drag queen dresses up for performance, trans people should have a trans mentality about them, hons are basically drag queens. they are performing a role, the mentality one should have is that of being yourself, that you arent running away from the person you are, that if you have no interest in makeup, dont forcibly develop and interest in makeup just to satiate your "need" to be a woman.

i hope that makes sense.


>Suddenly the horizon is much more open, much less scary
This is beautiful. reading this makes me incredibly happy :) go you!

>hormones androphillic
Yeah ive been curious about this myself, care to go into more detail about what you've found?

>surprisingly have no regrets over lost time or anything like that
This too makes me very happy to hear, you know some people dwell on the idea that they "lost all this time from transitioning" but lets be honest here, you didnt waste your time even if you thought you did, you wanted to do something, you seen a shot and you took it and good on you, i mean it wasnt for you in the end, but what you did must be incredibly formative to how you now see the world, how easy it is for people to get lulled into a lifestyle though what is essentially advertising.

So again i am so happy for you that you are happy, i'd love to hear/read anything else you have to say/write if you have the energy to do so.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 05:57:33 EST fkWEr28b No.402975 Reply
your story is incredibly interesting. I wonder how similar our thinking patterns and personalities are. I notice your face is fairly esthetic, despite all the surgeries. I know one thing that makes me feel good about detransing is that I get to be handsome again.

One of the things I am most excited about is getting my chest fixed and being able to rock a sexy beach look again. soon..

I think it would have been much better had I been born 6 ft+ I don't think I would have spent as much time transitioning. Althought maybe it would have backfired and I would be one of these hons that never does it but obsesses over the "waht if".

Thats one reason I have hardly any regrets. I really, honestly, think its something I "needed" to do. Because if I never did I would never have fully understood it and without fully understanding transition and its physical limitations I wouldn't be able to so easily give it up and decide it was a poor path
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 06:12:06 EST fkWEr28b No.402977 Reply
Sure fair enough. Drag queen I guess is a bit too cynical. Look I agree a trans person can be happy, I think maybe your mentality is most healthy. You really need to "accept" yourself. The problem is that it means you must accept how others treat you, which is shit.

Well ok, the sexuality and romance is one of the BIG things that was a really big positive from transitioning. On testosterone, my sexuality is kind of confused. I am drawn viscerally to dicks and various psuedohomosexual erotic things, but again its kind of confused. There is a strong desire for visual porn stimulation as well in ways that when I get those experiences in real life leave me feeling very little. So porn =/= real life, which most people know. But the problem is that on T I find a lot of different visual things erotic, I kind of have to force myself away from rampant meaningless visual stimulation usually from porn in order to cultivate my more natural inclinations and desires, and things that I would actually be able to build a normal relationship from.

On estrogen, my sexuality was much less confused. I liked men, masculine men and that was all I wanted. A nice strong guy to do everything to me. And its was coupled and intensified by feeling as though I was a feminine to a mans masculine. I felt those two attarctive forces keenly. And it was very natural to my mind. THis allowed me to feel romance as well.

The problem I think, is that I am mostly homosexual, but that I am much more drawn to traditional masculine x feminine relationships and archetypes, like in my core. And it basically prevents me from really feeling in love with a man, when I am also a man. I mean I can feel affection and sometimes I can enjoy sex, but its not as natural for me as when I felt I was a feminine to a guys masculine.

Also estrogen lowered my libido. Testosterone I find more feminine things erotic as well, even though I am still predominantly attracted to men. I also have a strong social bias to bias to being straight. I am extremely jealous of straight people. And it makes me less enthused to be in a gay relationship and less interested in gay love. I feel a lot more like some downlow black guy, even though I don't have any social pressures keeping me downlow. I just idolize straight people and want to be seen that way, I guess.

Its going to be a struggle. But I think it would help to explore more. And try different things.
skullperson - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 06:22:07 EST fkWEr28b No.402978 Reply
> lulled into a lifestyle though what is essentially advertising
Ya this is true. Its a bit disturbing, what I see going in places like circlejerk. I mostly avoid them now, because I literally find myself just face palming and it makes me depressed how ignorant they all are about these decisions that will have radical consequences to their lives. But I guess I wasn't SO different back then (I was more skeptical than the average trans back then even though).

The problem is that I don't feel this experience really applies to much else in life. Even though I don't "regret" the lost time, I still acknowledge I am kind of behind in a lot of ways, cause I just wasnted generating the same experiences that my peers have been. Mainly due to insecurity and social reclusiveness. If I hadn't had my bf and a few good friends I really would have been depressed, but they made the difference. Its so hard to make friends when you aren't "normal" unless you seek out equally messed up people which I wasn't interested in doing.
Augustus Pollyway - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 07:37:12 EST fX+Pbavo No.402983 Reply

your face looks vaguely familiar, yeah
oh, i totally remember you, i've seen your updated timelines on circlejerk or something I think.

>you guess

nah kayla moved to /lgbt/ where she trolls the mtfg threads.
supposedly she's on hormones and has been for like two years, got an orchie, and has a boyfriend.
I dont believe any of that except the being on hormones part.
they still love posting their dick all over the place...

> Ren, Spooky and Ryo
oh, Spooky i've seen on other places across the net, tranchan, and /di/, i think she had come back here not too long ago also?
Ryo i saw her somewhere, a few months ago, i wanna say circlejerk, or maybe i happened across her twitter or some shit. iirc she had stopped HRT and then started again or something, I forget exactly
Cyril Homblewater - Wed, 19 Apr 2017 10:14:05 EST 3fgzw7lE No.402986 Reply
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Good times OP. I was mostly on seedy between 2009-2011, ausfaggin' with Dani, Nils and Pheebs when I lived in Sydney. I remember starting and feeling I'd joined the club, but it must've been a year or two later when all the irc and trip hammering went down and everybody disappeared. Still have Shadowtrap and Nils in my fb feed so haven't lost touch altogether but it's only on the odd occasion I lurk here or circlejerk that I've seen the old trips.

As for where-are-we-now, doing pretty well. Married last year, went part time with work and am back at uni by distance for postgrad. Living up around the Cape in a poly household with another partner and a couple, and we're all kinky as fuck which makes for glorious shenanigans. Plenty of photos of me in rope floating about the interwebs if you know where to look. A couple of friends and I host a lively queer chicks drinks night, a peer rope sesh and an under 35s kink munch once each month. Enjoying building the communities here. Still kicking about on dirtbikes and my old Virago 1100.

Not much more to tick off re. transition goals. Been 7 years hrt now and hardly think about it now. Ended up a cup size over my mum (a solid C which suits me plenty - thanks Dad!) and not fussed with srs or ffs. Probably will go to Yeson someday and semi-stealth after that but I'm more queer than anything so I don't think I'll ever be that bothered to hide. Tbh it'd just be great to date more guys and nailing voice would open that up more for me. Other than that I'm pretty sweet until kids, which is probably another 4-5 years away. Life is lookin' all G.
Ian Drellerspear - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 01:35:45 EST e9mjG9U5 No.403002 Reply
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>Ya its weird because you don't pass, so you do in fact live as a trans. Thats also I am sure why your life has taken some kind of "weird" turn, its because you cut off all the more legitimate paths and lifestyles by transitioning into... something, but not a woman.

I guess chaotic was the right word, but weird fits too and the quotation marks of yours are a pretentious display. You're right though, it resulted in me losing my family which wouldn't have happened otherwise. Otherwise no, the world is my oyster and I'm working towards settling down. In fact the trans consequences resulted in me surpassing my spoiled man child friends in making something of adulthood. You probably won't be convinced because our lives have to have gone like your shitty life in your mind.

It's fun seeing you project your failed trans agitation, you probably harm yourself better than any banter could. Please keep going you realistic freethinker you.
skullperson - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 02:32:21 EST fkWEr28b No.403003 Reply
cause they will have a weird trans as a father and will be confused... and you both probably have lots of mental illness which is why you have orgies and other dysfuction sexual experiences.
skullperson - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 02:39:18 EST fkWEr28b No.403004 Reply
My life didn't go shity though, for example I am about to go on a caribbean cruise with my bf where I will get very tan and very drunk on unlimited drinks. I know it seems like projection, but its actually just that I am very opinionated. I am not jealous of anyone in this thread.

Ya I am trolling a bit, but I believe the things I say.

I don't normally tear into cuties much anymore, but theres something about a bunch of people giving a false image of their lives in order to circlejerk and wax nostalgic about transition that is annoying. Yall are still better than the tards over on leddit though, I just can't participate in that group because I am banned immediately for daring to question the zeitgeist.
skullperson - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 02:46:23 EST fkWEr28b No.403006 Reply
I will be honest and say there are potentially certain transsexuals that MAYBE could make me jealous and certain... lifestyles that they have access to that might make me jealous. But... honestly i have yet to really bump into a trans girl like that. It seems like every trans girl that seems to have a good life, when you peel it back a little, its mostly a thin veneer and in fact they struggle with passing, with relationships, with jobs, with self esteem ect. But again, I am open to the fact that there are some girls that I would be like "oh damn, I'd rather have her life than mine". But idk I haven't seen to many people like that. Even young ttransitioners like Jazz struggle with passing. I can't say that I would prefer to have their lives, I really can't.
Archie Trotgold - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 08:08:14 EST fX+Pbavo No.403009 Reply
i'm glad to hear that you're doing well
I had a crush on Dani for a bit, actually kek
George Ceblinglan - Thu, 20 Apr 2017 18:04:06 EST d3tbpeTf No.403013 Reply
Not sure if you are saying I live as a hermit, but I work at a fucking grocery store, and it's one of those ones that caters to the poorer folks. Every customer I help and talk with use she without me saying anything, I don't recall the last time I heard sir, not that I would ever care if they did. And I am talking about the two people are told at work, who have no reason to lie to me said they didn't know.
Nathaniel Fenderhood - Fri, 21 Apr 2017 00:13:49 EST fkWEr28b No.403015 Reply
Again you are really ignorant about what it takes to pass and you are very naive believing that people gendering you female means you pass or that they didn't realize you were a trans. The vast majority of people do not want to get in conflict with some crazy trans and will happily acquiesce to their pronoun wishes. Thats why you have so many morons on leddit that think they pass and then one day some asshole laughs at them and calls them a man in a dress and they look around "huh, but how can this be!? Everyones gendered me female for months!" (they also ignore the people that gender them nothing and DO NOT treat them like females but will not go out of their way to point out that they are male either)
Nathaniel Fenderhood - Fri, 21 Apr 2017 00:15:21 EST fkWEr28b No.403016 Reply
For example, I'm in health school, we are TAUGHT to respect cuties lmao. Im sure we have had some trans girls come into their clinic and the doctor referred to them with female pronouns and never let on that they new they were a man, and those people probably walked out thinking they passed. Just an example.
Archie Brushhore - Fri, 21 Apr 2017 02:46:50 EST DBSRsRfo No.403017 Reply
I started posting a little around 2012/2013 looking for some advice.

Thanks to /cd/ I figured out how to self med, I found the resources I needed to help me with my voice, learned about all the little things that helped with passing. Honesty that pushed me in the right direction, helped me get to where I am today.

25 years old, 5 years on whoremones, I pass very well. Compared to my old depressed life prior to transition things are pretty damn awesome and I owe much of it to /cd/.
Molly Crodgefuck - Sat, 22 Apr 2017 01:55:50 EST d3tbpeTf No.403026 Reply
I don't know, I am pretty paranoid. I've heard some pretty transphobic shit from my coworkers, I feel like if they knew they wouldn't be talking so freely. I put myself in situations to see what happens, heck I even went to a Trump rally and used the bathroom, no one said anything or did that thing where they awkwardly stop talking that I've seen people do around some of my friends. I've had people at work ask for tampons or if I am on my period cause, "we always work together, I thought we would be in sync." I have had my older coworker ask if I was pregnant when I was sick which she says to fucking everyone. Heck, when I got my job the secretary was going through my paperwork, saw I had a previous name that was male and asked why I put that there, she seemed surprised when I said I was trans, I really try not to mention it. I've just been in a lot of situations and people don't seem to know. Also, when I was going to the doctor, the nurse that helps before the doctor always asks, "When was the last time you had your period?" and I always say, "Oh, I'm transgender it should be marked on my paperwork." they usually look for a minute, apologize, and say they didn't see that and the mood is just weird after that. I mean, you can tell me if that is standard practices, cause honestly, it is just weird every time.
Molly Crodgefuck - Sat, 22 Apr 2017 01:59:41 EST d3tbpeTf No.403027 Reply
Oh, one really funny time was when I was walking into Walmart. There was a guy collecting signatures for a bathroom bill and he asked me if I wanted to sign the bill. I feel like something would have happened there, or if he knew he would have misgendered me at least.
Doris Fanlock - Sun, 23 Apr 2017 12:03:35 EST Gcw0ciaM No.403036 Reply
I came here in 2011-2012 and lurked around. I started self medding and then i was caught and my parents told me i had to do it the "proper way". The psych told me not to self med and i listened, which wasted about 3 years. After that was finishing highschool and doing uni, I've been self medding properly for the last year, i think im good now.
Ebenezer Wubberdale - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 11:11:38 EST 7M7ivOEW No.403054 Reply
what the fuck is up with this one asshole's posts making up half of the thread here
Sophie Huzzleway - Wed, 26 Apr 2017 19:35:14 EST W33OzG35 No.403056 Reply

Do you mean skullperson? he is a detransitioned trans who did so because at best he could be a pretty trans but never look cis, ive tried and im sure other people have tried to convince him that being a pretty trans is okay but he didnt have any of it, so now he comes back periodically to say things to people for whatever reason, to make them "wake up and realise" or something?
Beatrice Ferryway - Fri, 28 Apr 2017 19:54:26 EST ugOkAMbD No.403067 Reply
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I really related to this but I live in america and have never experienced being over weight quite the opposite I was borderline anorexic still am. San Francisco is a great place to meet people and be social don't worry about what trump says. The federal Government has very little power when comparing to state laws. I too used to post on here back in "ye olden days" before this whole trans media boom started back in 2012. I focused so much so on my transition inwardly that outwardly my social life went to shit. I'm currently 24 and struggle to find a job due to how insane i let my anxiety overtake me. Now I am working on becoming more social and confident because I do pass but in my head it's similar to that pic you posted. I think mine is more evident.

Anyways it's crazy how meta it is to find others like me who go through the same exact feelings. I hope you all well and maybe we should connect on like discord or something. /Cd/ was a great place; one of the only harsh but true realities of the situation; the only other sites at the time were shit like susans playground full of hons. Now all the (I can't believe i'm using this word) kids these days have all the relevant information right at their fingertips so easily accessible and full of acceptance. They will never realize and go through those feelings we all felt at the time. That sense of foreboding dread if you will pass or not and whether you should just end it all or forever cope with being a hon.

I think the thing to realize though is that this overall is a good thing, no one should have to go through that hell. And the silver lining is that people in our generation that are trans don't have to face eternal hondom either atleast not as much as previous generations especially if you can pass starting HRT a bit late like 19 and come out with that knowledge. I sure as hell did. I think the reason why we all had that rush to get on HRT as soon as possible is because we all knew we would end up that way if we didn't start now! Especially being in the 17-19 age group wise at the time that definitely was and is your last chance at passing before hondom. Thanks CD for being that one site with all the relevant information and in a sense you saved me from suicide and gave me a chance at a fulfilling and happy life.

Also it's crazy how as you get older your brain matures more and you just see clarity and value moreso than you did as an edgy emo teen. Going through my image meme folder of all this pics i saved across all the image boards i visit really fucking shows that and holy shit maybe internet memes are actually going to some how become what the scientific meme is dude i think im just high on life right now.
Sidney Sobbernuck - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 02:10:53 EST OYQ4+z0N No.403071 Reply
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>I stopped counting so constantly but in a few months I hit 5 years on hormones. It's weird that all of the faces from back then will all be in their late 20s or early 30s now, I'm 24 myself. Being a trans is weird, my life has gone in a direction I never thought it would.
>It's weird that all of the faces from back then will all be in their late 20s or early 30s now
I didn't transition.
Sidney Sobbernuck - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 02:59:26 EST OYQ4+z0N No.403073 Reply
It was never that or suicide, so I always thought it was safer not to.
Sidney Sobbernuck - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 03:25:57 EST OYQ4+z0N No.403075 Reply
I thought transition was only for a last resort and otherwise it wouldn't be worth it.
Sidney Sobbernuck - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 03:50:38 EST OYQ4+z0N No.403077 Reply
Every month I feel closer but I still think to myself that I'll be able to cope better as I am, and every day is worse results. I probably never had a chance to be the girl I wanted to be, let alone now.
Jarvis Pittwill - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 04:40:14 EST Z0eyhx7y No.403078 Reply

have you tried talking to a psychologist?

Honestly at the end of the day you didnt transition, which does say a lot about your circumstances, but just go talk to a psychologist regardless.
Akumadio - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 05:06:12 EST 9Gt1izXp No.403079 Reply
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I concure. It seems like there's a larger issue here.
Akumadio - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 05:35:36 EST 9Gt1izXp No.403080 Reply
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Also, I'd rather spend my life as an ugly woman than a guy. My opinion.
Edwin Duckman - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 07:45:01 EST CJvvzhhF No.403082 Reply
lulz i was here back in 08. did things pretty textbook and got passable, changed my paperwork, got an orchi. This place was actually really helpful (if you could weed through the trolls); way better than shit like transexual dot org (?) or susansplace or whatever i remember finding back then.
Sidney Sobbernuck - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 10:58:17 EST OYQ4+z0N No.403083 Reply
I haven't talked to anyone except anonymous strangers online. I don't trust them to have any insight into what I should do.

>which does say a lot about your circumstances,
What do you mean? I could have come out or looked for therapy or self-medded, I didn't.


I tell myself I wouldn't or at least that I wouldn't rather spend my life as a non-passing obvious trans than a guy. I can't know for sure how I'd feel.
James Porrybanks - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 19:13:42 EST ylx+WHG9 No.403086 Reply
>I didn't.

Exactly, well i was going to say "because you didnt seek help it means that you werent really trans and knew this" but you just seem to be comfortable how things are, i just hope you're living a full and happy life.
Alice Bushspear - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 19:49:04 EST WwdHI0dq No.403087 Reply
>That Brit girl named Jennifer who looked cis and has a fishtank
Hey that's me
Phoebe Bunridge - Sat, 29 Apr 2017 21:49:58 EST WwdHI0dq No.403092 Reply
What's weird is this is the first time I've been back here in like 3-4 years, can't believe people here still remember me, I didn't really post that much.

It feels like I've lived a lifetime since last visiting here, some things haven't changed though, still have the fish tank in my flat.
Martha Clammerstock - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 02:27:15 EST /VXST/RU No.403099 Reply
What would they be able to tell me?

I thought I would be happier without having to go through transition. My life isn't full and I can be happy sometimes, but thinking about relationships or reading about women or transition is dysphoric.
Sophie Cemblehall - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 05:23:15 EST 3fgzw7lE No.403103 Reply

Go talk to a psychologist. What will they be able to tell you? who knows! we arent psychologists. But you clearly need assistance.
Stop trying to do everything by yourself and let a trained professional help you.
Akumadio - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 06:39:24 EST pZL7vF6o No.403104 Reply
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Everyone has to ask for help sometimes. No trolling. Seek assistance. I was referred to my doctor's through a homeless clinic. I have always had a job and good insurance but it was only possible to find a doctor in this manner. Call public assistance reference numbers ask them for doctor's that specialized in gender. You might make a million calls but when you finally set that appointment you will already start to feel relieved. If you need to talk to someone, do it. I never turn away anyone needing know they're not alone. Peace be with you.
craniumgirl - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 11:26:09 EST 31r/BKcO No.403107 Reply
Omg you realiZe girls never ask each other for tampons right? God how do you guys transition for like 5 years and not know this shit. If a girl EVER asks you for a tampon it's because she knows you are a trans and is trying to be inclusive towards you and show she is accepting. Seriously girls rarely ever ask each other for tampons. Its that kind of cliched shit that should alert you to the the fact that you do not pass.

Who am I kidding though I'm just bitter, I don't actually know anything right? Lmao
craniumgirl - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 11:27:57 EST 31r/BKcO No.403108 Reply
Its just a fact that too many members of this community are delusional when it comes to their own estimation of their passing ability. P
craniumgirl - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 11:32:42 EST 31r/BKcO No.403109 Reply
This is the biggest delusion you people tell yourselves. You aren't spending life as an "ugly woman" you are spending life as a crossdressing man, period. BecaUSE that's how virtually everyone sees you. cuties aren't "ugly women". They are cuties. With unique trans looks that come from having a male skeleton that are seen nowhere in the female population.

Again you can be a pretty trans but don't pretend you are a woman to anyone but randoms on the street who aren't paying attention.
craniumgirl - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 11:36:08 EST 31r/BKcO No.403110 Reply
You could try to transition to get it out of your system. Just realiZe it will be an expensive and time consuming process and all those "doubts" you have about its success are absolutely the likely outcome. Maybe you should try though. Its kind of pathetic to obsess about something for years and never explore it. Just have a backup plan. Don't be like these morons who jump into transition and then go "oh no my life sucks now better kill myself so others will pity my poor trans life and cause I feel worthless cause society has given me a net worth of zero"
Lillian Heckledeg - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 14:22:51 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403111 Reply
this is pretty much what is happening with me right now
felt like this for years, figured why not ill give it a shot
watching boobs grow and my face still looks manly and im about to hit the abort button on this dream lol
Cornelius Brivingford - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 16:48:27 EST V7oILe9r No.403119 Reply
>face still looks manly and im about to hit the abort button on this dream lol
Don't you know it's the man face that makes all the chasers hot under the collar?

Anyway what have you done in regards to transition besides HRT? Because there are plenty of ciswomen with man face, that are considered attractive.
Lillian Heckledeg - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 17:58:17 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403123 Reply
i havent really done anything but hrt. its been 5 months. ive grown my hair out though and it definitely helps

wish i could just be happy being a feminine boy tho
Lillian Heckledeg - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 18:04:05 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403124 Reply
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pic for ref nb

obviously i need to do eyebrows too.

idk i just feel kinda fucking ridiculous... but the HRT gives me peace of mind
Lillian Heckledeg - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 18:18:56 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403125 Reply
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some pix are better than others

but id probably need FFS to pass even if i stay on hrt
Cornelius Brivingford - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 18:45:27 EST V7oILe9r No.403126 Reply
It's your clothes/hair.
Lillian Heckledeg - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 18:54:24 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403127 Reply
can you help?

in the summer i have a job lined up and will be able to get new clothes and stuff
Shit Blunnersedge - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 21:08:05 EST 2k54T+z6 No.403128 Reply
>can you help?

No,I'm not doing much better myself, I still have a beard. Though I'd say you should try to browse through magazines and find your niche. Your clothes are one thing your hair has to be appropriate for your job and the like.
Shit Blunnersedge - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 21:32:10 EST 2k54T+z6 No.403130 Reply
As an American I prefer it spelled with an s.
Akumadio - Sun, 30 Apr 2017 23:22:54 EST egFVM7X1 No.403131 Reply
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Goto a Goodwill just start going through racks. Try stuff on. Get you a bunch of stuff at a time in cart and go for it. It's trial and error. Most people in retail will gladly help as well. My basics are
bra and panties always buy new cuz that shit is gross. Just find a cut that fits your body, I'd suggest staying away from boyshort cut as in my experience they don't hold stuff in place.

tank top/undershirts long sleeves for winter and tank tops because almost everything is see through and eventually they hide inappropriate cleavage when worn under a nice blouse.

pants/slacks. Just trial and error untill you find your sizes this is why Goodwill is nice as there are so many brands and sizes.

Skirts rarely wear them but when I do it's always noticable. Match skirts just like you match your pants. IE: does it look good does it flow does it fit

Shoes this is also a toss up for some people a larger size becomes troublesome. Personally a wear a women's 10 to 11 and I squeak by on the large side of production made shoes.

Dresses just look for ones that fit and look cute. Personally dress shopping is a breeze for me as I've already discovered my own style.

Hair, find a bunch of styles you like that are possible with your hair length and type and just ask a stylist at a salon. These women are typically very helpful.

Accessories, my ex used them way more then I do. I typically wear a few rings and pearl earrings. In special occasions I wear necklaces and more not often.

Any other questions, you can find me by googling my username.
Hannah Wenningbut - Mon, 01 May 2017 01:01:38 EST lDVjgBtj No.403133 Reply
I'd like help but I don't trust any of them to be able to say anything I don't know. I've seen trained professionals before for unrelated things and they didn't help.

>You aren't spending life as an "ugly woman" you are spending life as a crossdressing man, period.
This is what really scares me. I'd like to be a pretty girl but maybe a less attractive one would be ok. But being a crossdressing man is just pointless. I'm that right now, except when I leave the house I can look normal.

>all those "doubts" you have about its success are absolutely the likely outcome.
I don't want to be an ugly trans.

>Its kind of pathetic to obsess about something for years and never explore it. Just have a backup plan.
I can explore it somewhat without transition. What backup plan could help being stuck as an unpassing trans/man with tits?
Shit Blunnersedge - Mon, 01 May 2017 02:40:04 EST 2k54T+z6 No.403135 Reply
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>Goto a Goodwill just start going through racks.
Goodwill is fucking disgusting everything I saw there was extremely nasty.

>I'd like help but I don't trust any of them to be able to say anything I don't know. I've seen trained professionals before for unrelated things and they didn't help.
Psychology is evil I don't trust them. They're worse than any lawyer.

>fuck what they think.
This all day.

pic related;psychology is evil
Akumadio - Mon, 01 May 2017 03:23:00 EST egFVM7X1 No.403136 Reply
There are more then 1 goodwill. You are just making excuses now.
Ian Hundlebat - Mon, 01 May 2017 09:24:08 EST W33OzG35 No.403138 Reply

>I'd like help but I don't trust any of them to be able to say anything I don't know

Are you fucking serious? since when were you a doctor? when did you attain your phd in psychology? do you seriously think psychologists cant tell you something you cant hear?

you know what your issue is? you cant let people help you, you need to fix everything by yourself which then leads to you incorrectly self diagnosing yourself.

wake up to yourself, go talk to a psychologist and talk to them, you've seen them before and they didnt help because you didnt LET THEM help you, because you are a strong willed person who knows what your real issues are and pfft why am i paying this person to listen to me? i could just go on the internet for free!

you need to understand that you need help, first and foremost, realise this, second of all you need to go see a psychologist and even if you cant trust them just go in and say "i have trust issues" they will happily take your money until you're able to talk to them forreeal, you can speed up this process by just telling them whats going on, its not like they are asking for your pin number, or your facebook password, its not like they are planning to rob you of all your possessions (which im sure are incredibly valuable).

i actually had a post written before this one with a whole but about about how i think you're just starved for attention and are using this as a guise for people to give you the attention you desire, it was much longer than this but i thought i'd still add the basic idea.

Go see a psychologist already.
Ian Nenkinspear - Mon, 01 May 2017 15:08:05 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403140 Reply
can you help me figure out if IM just doing this trans stuff for attention? i mean i highly doubt it cause im 5 months into hrt and liking the changes ive seen in my personality and face and such...
Ian Hundlebat - Mon, 01 May 2017 18:37:57 EST W33OzG35 No.403143 Reply

you obviously are i mean look at you! want me to make a post about you and everything, gosh so attention starved! i feel like even replying is feeding your desires, i think ill need to say you more to help you along with this, i mean i dont know you at all and i was talking more about the "i need help but cant do anything because excuses" attention rather than "im going to alter myself physically so people give me attention" at the end of the day only you know why you're doing things and you're either ignoring them or being coy.

Honestly though, no, i am unable to help you because i am unable to help anybody because i am just a person on the internet, i could be the illuminati for all you know. But i cant be illuminati because everyone knows that illuminati posts have the word triangle snuck in there somewhere.
Polly Brunderturk - Mon, 08 May 2017 02:38:01 EST 7GcmGvNd No.403171 Reply
yes I came here in middle of 2012 when I first found out transition was a legit thing/ also was able to admit to myself that I needed to do something about "I wish I was a girl" thing. there was a huge mental barrier that even one of my closest friends transitioning did not break down - before 2012, doing anything was something that literally could not enter my mind, as much as I felt the need and danced around it (instead, it was shit like prayer in childhood, hope for random alien magic or santa, etc)

Was near 25, started HRT in 2013, fulltime 18 months later, passed w/out issue, FFS in 2015, SRS in 2016, that was it. Have job, have house, tfw no gf, have friends. Everything past srs is vanity, and I have no problem admitting I am vain. I never posted any pictures and never will, I don't need any validation from the internet but I understand that some people do.

I visit here every once in a long time just to see how things are going.
Jequin - Mon, 08 May 2017 14:50:51 EST /TEmsdwi No.403173 Reply
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Fuck I can finally post somewhere. So I came here six years ago as I was in massive confusion about my self and genitalia, and masturbated a lot because I was extremely scared of everything and everyone, but most importantly myself and figured I could realise something if I kept doing it. After going through every fetish imaginable at the time I kept coming back to transgender porn and realised I was self inserting myself as the one receiving and started to look at myself in the mirror long and hard. After two years on hrt, with loving supportive parents who dont know what sort of future I will make for myself, it really questions as to why I was even born and why I cant let go of my past and completely forget and ignore everything related to as such because, 7 years ago, when I turned 19, I was made anew, a baby in a neanderthal of an autist. So thank you father, for threatening to disown me for wearing a dress when we all as a ''happy'', family, way back when in China and not talking about it instead like a normal fucking person. Maybe I can forgive you some dauy, but most importantly forgive myself..
cranium - Mon, 08 May 2017 22:18:20 EST fkWEr28b No.403177 Reply

psychologist will all tell you that you are trans and the ones you don't you will whine about and then go looking for one that validates you. psychologists are JOKES. They are losers that partied in college and now are trying to scam people out of money by giving them advice that ANYONE can give
cranium - Mon, 08 May 2017 23:51:10 EST fkWEr28b No.403178 Reply
you won't pass with all the ffs in the world. Your skull is far to male shaped and its clearly quite large and not petite
cranium - Tue, 09 May 2017 00:01:09 EST fkWEr28b No.403179 Reply
>never posted pictures never will
thats cause you don't really pass. if you looked like a girl why not post a pic? its not like anyone can troll you with it. afterall you look like a normal girl right?
Ebenezer Worthingshaw - Tue, 09 May 2017 02:20:45 EST W33OzG35 No.403190 Reply

you're wrong about this one and quite frankly im shocked that you think this way, i thought we already agreed that the correct path to transition was to see a psychologist who pushes back on your identity and tests your identity rather than waving you in.

i honestly think you're equating your experience with a psychologist or you have collated ideas from cuties on the internet about their experience and saying its all psychologists.

Yeah cuties whine about psychologists who push back and so they should, theres nothing wrong with whining infact it shows you that their psychologist is good.

But you dont help when you tell people that psychologists are jokes because they just end up disregarding psychologists and self med because "pfft what do psychologists know they are dumb idiot jokes, i know better than them", you're actually being counter productive, unless your goal is to create more fodder for you to project your insecurities upon.
Shit Poshforth - Tue, 09 May 2017 11:57:01 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403193 Reply
im sorry that whatever has happened in your life has made you such a bitter soul, and i hope things improve.
Shit Poshforth - Tue, 09 May 2017 11:59:25 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403194 Reply
nb: who's the real freak here, innocent people doing what makes them happy in life, or a toxic, sad individual who projects their own failure and fatalist attitude on those innocents.
cranium - Tue, 09 May 2017 13:48:57 EST 5pjVliFx No.403195 Reply
sorry that my estimation came off like an attack. Its not meant to be an attack. I am telling you the stark truth. Your skull is very male shaped. You won't pass. Getting a brow shave and a chin resection is not going to change more than 10% of your face. There are many many many things FFS cannot alter and those things end up mattering just as much as our jaw angles and chin heights and brow bossing and noses (the only things ffs is good for)
ylhcsd - Thu, 11 May 2017 11:03:50 EST rnZSN525 No.403215 Reply
>or a toxic, sad individual who projects their own failure and fatalist attitude on those innocents.

you're doing just that w/ this comment lmao
Charlotte Gisslemot - Thu, 11 May 2017 13:28:46 EST 9Z+nhH7v No.403216 Reply
well not really. my attitude is more disappointed that this person is going out of their way to dishearten people and suit their own petty agendas fighting people who're just trying to be happy. :p
Betsy Murdbury - Sun, 14 May 2017 00:56:32 EST 8QZZRZO7 No.403233 Reply
Yeah, I used to look in here in senior year of HS and then through college. People were always nice to me even though I'm kind of a weirdo (crossdressing FtM, basically). I'm glad this board is still here.
George Pinkinman - Sun, 14 May 2017 04:09:37 EST 9qbVoAPJ No.403235 Reply
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Uh oh, have I got a wild reminiscence case for y'all!

Anyone remember "Half Jack"?! The DID case?

I'm kind of expecting to turn out like that. There's just too much stuff out there that underscores the normality and respectability of such a development, in spite of old ignorant convictions that it's outrageous. But that just might be a momentary perception, maybe tomorrow there'll be assurance that such an additional complication will be inconceivable.
Simon Trotgold - Mon, 15 May 2017 21:17:06 EST RCzfnkG6 No.403242 Reply
Ok is the cup size thing really not true? It worked for me, I got Cs and my mom had Ds
Cyril Shittingworth - Mon, 15 May 2017 23:26:36 EST W33OzG35 No.403243 Reply

of course its not true. if you began eating a bucket of kfc everyday eventually your breasts would be bigger than your mothers breasts.

There are lots of different factors which determine breast size and "one size smaller than your mothers" is not one of them.
Phoebe Fanshit - Tue, 16 May 2017 01:54:49 EST svVXbimu No.403244 Reply
>eating a bucket of kfc everyday eventually your breasts would be bigger than your mothers breasts.

But that would be nasty. Imagine the discussing greasy oily skin you would have. Not to mention how nasty you would smell. Your asshole and taint would be fucking apocalypse tier.
Cyril Shittingworth - Tue, 16 May 2017 03:48:25 EST W33OzG35 No.403247 Reply

but if you rub your butthole after eating kfc you wont need to lubricate.
Emma Blatherham - Fri, 19 May 2017 00:03:32 EST 6gXw9DaV No.403273 Reply
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I'm very similar to this person

but I think I am close to finally deciding to see a psychologist and try to get on hormones.

Is 23 years old too old to start doing this?

I also have pectus excavatum, will this be likee a major issue?

I don't want to make a new thread so I figure I would just post these small questions here.
Phyllis Fendlewill - Fri, 19 May 2017 02:16:00 EST W33OzG35 No.403275 Reply
your psychologist should discuss all the issues and potential complications that comes with transition, if they are reluctant to do this then you should find someone else.

Is 23 too old? no? there are people who start transition at 40-50-60.

in regards to your pectus expelliarmus thing, do you think its going to be an issue?

you need to have the correct expectations set for you on the potential outcome, why are you doing this? what do you want from this? have you been to a trans support group lately/ever? have you considered it?
Samuel Gavingchune - Fri, 19 May 2017 21:30:47 EST 6gXw9DaV No.403283 Reply
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It's just like a dent in my chest and I feel like it would be especially fucking weird if I try to transition.

what benefits from transitioning earlier am I going to miss out on and which am I getting from not doing it later? idkk how much of a doom clock this is

I think my depersonalization+derealization+depression going on seven years now isn't going away because it's to do with my gender and body dysphoria. I have been avoiding this whole aspect of my life because I am afraid, but it's turning out to be something I can't ignore or I feel like I will never be able to live properly.
Lydia Pingernad - Fri, 19 May 2017 23:56:10 EST W33OzG35 No.403285 Reply
you'll probably never get the go-ahead to transition, but that shouldnt stop you from discussing this with a psychologist.

miss out? honestly, dont think like that, dont give into the FOMO being trans is not a fidget spinner, transitioning is a medical treatment for people with gender dysphoria, the best place to start transition is with a sound mind.
you dont know how many people rush into transition thinking that they are losing their chances at passing only to end up not passing anyway and then they go "but muh skull is too big! why did i do this?" "I only wanted to pass as a cisgirl i dont want to be a trans!"

This is why you should talk to a psychologist, discuss your issue with gender and why you think you're a woman, but again you have other issues which are likely causing a false positive, im not saying people with underlying mental health issues can tbe cuties, but this is a lifelong decision you're potentially making, if i were you i'd want to make sure that what im doing/done is the right thing and wasnt cause by other mental health issues.

Anyways, i hope that has helped you out. seriously go talk to a psychologist ASAP and discuss your issues and he 100% honest with them. Again, if i were you i'd consider going to a trans support group even if its once or twice.
Graham Chussleworth - Mon, 22 May 2017 16:13:15 EST /WIMbYxD No.403316 Reply
You can transition at 40-50 and have a delusion of passing.
Thomas Duckshaw - Tue, 23 May 2017 09:11:14 EST W33OzG35 No.403319 Reply

Transition when you're 40? kids and divorce and all that? i dunno its not optimal if you ask me, its definitely a possibility though, just don't be one of those 50 year old cuties who acts like shes in her 20's.
Augustus Gozzleville - Tue, 23 May 2017 16:06:01 EST 6HPg2fb7 No.403320 Reply
I probably just need to store my sperm and call it a day.
William Fodgepetch - Wed, 24 May 2017 13:55:10 EST 4Eh7eXWP No.403331 Reply
Yeah that's not going to be me.
Simon Giblingshit - Sat, 27 May 2017 08:21:35 EST 8QZZRZO7 No.403351 Reply
Wait, why would PE be a problem? I have PE and I'm biologically female.
Kathrin - Sun, 28 May 2017 08:35:11 EST qXqid2w7 No.403355 Reply
Yeah, I used to be here a lot in 2011/2012 when I smoked a lot of herbs. Im diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia now but the thought of being a girl still haunts me sometimes.
On top of that I dont really have money for mones, I only have 200 euros a month in a western country. My body changed a lot, my beard got more, I got really hairy and fat and due to anti-psychotic medication, its really hard to lose weight.
Oliver Nushwell - Sun, 28 May 2017 13:50:24 EST Bmuzzlts No.403356 Reply
If you only drink water and tea you're granteed to loose weight. Just by doing that alone over time you should be less fat.
kathrin - Sun, 28 May 2017 14:43:42 EST nNjgw8N4 No.403357 Reply
Ive given up on losing weight. Ive given up on girl stuff and trying to transition, everyone has talked me out of that. Now Im just sitting there smoking 3 packs of fags a day and doing nothing.
Edward Neblingridge - Sun, 28 May 2017 19:37:26 EST /WIMbYxD No.403358 Reply
Any fatter and people wont even tell what gender you are.
Not important - Sun, 28 May 2017 19:50:11 EST 9qj1l60a No.403360 Reply
Oh my gosh ... took the time to read this thread ... So much bs ... Anyhow, been here 5 years ago . Got my first moans from India 10x to this board... and got the courage to start my transition ... aliso 10x to this board.
I'm 1 year post op and having a nice job (not very well paid but at least gave me a loan for my SRS). Need FFS a little bit (planning that for next year ... for the moment I'm sick and tired of hospitals and morphine) so I can be ok with myself but passing well and having normal interactions with ppl. And by normal I mean being treated and mistreated just like any other woman ...
Now, the thing is that I know some people around me know and they don't ask/talk because they are nice or afraid to get me angry (even if I'm never angry) But my life is just so nice when aligned body and soul that it doesn't bother me at all(like it did before SRS) My surgery was for me the real thing that made me be peaceful , for real.
And to be honest I just feel like any other woman. I don't feel trans or whatever. And it seems that nobody calls me something else either ... So I guess it's important how you define yourself , cause that's what people around will treat you.. And of course anyone here can call me whatever as it have the same effect as if you'd call me a tree or ... anything else :) Just don't care
For my shoulders my trick is that I do a lot of fitness ... so at the gym I'm that chick with muscles (even if in reality I don't really have but I did so many squats that my legs and ass are quite proportional with my shoulders and it makes a more f
So yeah that's my story. Today I came by this forum first time in like 2years :) Funny to see this thread
Molly Berringtire - Mon, 21 Aug 2017 04:00:31 EST W33OzG35 No.403908 Reply

its at bumfuck nowhere just past woop woop, thats where.
Simon Cremblekone - Mon, 21 Aug 2017 09:36:54 EST /WIMbYxD No.403909 Reply
This board use to be filled with fem camwhore twinks. Now it is filled with fatties. Whatever happened to the good ol times?
Nathaniel Figglehan - Tue, 22 Aug 2017 04:11:29 EST +UCQLacm No.403910 Reply

you cant stay a fem camwhore forever! you can resist chocolate cake all you want, but its gonna getcha one way or another so why resist? why resist when you can indulge on chocolate cake now?
Ebenezer Coblingfitch - Wed, 23 Aug 2017 01:33:01 EST AAHTSRDm No.403911 Reply
Andorgony is beautiful but it does not fix the dysphoria
Fanny Fepperson - Thu, 21 Dec 2017 19:37:11 EST Zeasw2Ke No.404530 Reply
seedy made me repress from 2010 to 2016 because
"oh AGPs just a fetish, you don't need hormones or anything, just stop fapping you pervert, it'll go away"
Alice Serringkick - Fri, 22 Dec 2017 00:42:56 EST 2MZ+/S9J No.404531 Reply
I deliberately ignored most trans shit while teenaged because I didn't want to connect what I was experiencing with the label. It was too scary, too much to take in. Wish I had been stronger now.
Fucking Dizzlemack - Sat, 23 Dec 2017 02:03:15 EST 9Zfxj7UL No.404533 Reply
i was around back then but only really lurked.
this board, and in particular that sticky, helped me transition as young as i did.

i still like to pop in here a couple times a year to see whats up :)
Martha Mabblefine - Sat, 23 Dec 2017 02:03:31 EST InIEc0r0 No.404534 Reply
i was around back then but only really lurked.
this board, and in particular that sticky, helped me transition as young as i did.

i still like to pop in here a couple times a year to see whats up :)
polymorph !uKEFW4r7WU - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 08:03:55 EST y5A/s8av No.404544 Reply
checking in on the place from years ago. This place hasn't changed a fucking bit, still remember my tripcode and everything.>>402386
polymorph !uKEFW4r7WU - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 08:07:06 EST y5A/s8av No.404545 Reply
also 10 years of HRT, an orchi, 8 years of full stealth and no regrets. NB
Polly Clayfoot - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 08:44:36 EST N74q7O82 No.404546 Reply
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oh hey there poly

I stop in every couple years to see what's new, it's weird cause this is basically a site in stasis. Like, nothing has changed in the 8 years since I was here on a regular basis. I kinda like it even if I don't know anyone here anymore.

>get off my lawn you darn kids
polymorph !uKEFW4r7WU - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 08:51:56 EST y5A/s8av No.404547 Reply
honestly, i'm really happy it's stayed the same. So much of the rest of the net has gotten fucked, it's nice to know that the jenk memes are the same as they were 10 years ago.

tough shit, she's with me
Dani !dFqjde5SGE - Wed, 27 Dec 2017 08:52:56 EST y5A/s8av No.404548 Reply

Oh, howdy, Dani here. Definitely remember your face but can't place a name.

>I had a crush on Dani for a bit, actually kek.

What, who this?
Ian Churrychodge - Thu, 04 Jan 2018 15:20:30 EST +xO3I+le No.404593 Reply
Only came here to lurk back when trans wasn't included in the board topic
David Pickwater - Wed, 17 Jan 2018 17:11:07 EST KWBctyqZ No.404672 Reply
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Hey there friends! I want to ask is it possible to become girly without hormones? I want to be a cute fem boy but dont want to use hormones
Polly Dickleham - Sat, 20 Jan 2018 00:40:30 EST gI5t4oPs No.404684 Reply
Just decided to peek back in from 2010/2011

No, its bad this place hasn't changed. Still the shitty self-pitying cesspit that it always was.
Lillian Sigglechane - Sun, 21 Jan 2018 02:42:28 EST Y0damQhI No.404694 Reply
this thread is depressing
Hamilton Brushstock - Mon, 22 Jan 2018 01:05:30 EST I11qiGXD No.404698 Reply
i used to come her back in 2013, its crazy how dysphoric this place would make me feel before transitioning
Oliver Pezzlefuck - Fri, 26 Jan 2018 21:58:40 EST 2q8qS0Er No.404725 Reply
How do you not get dysphoric walking around irl knowing you have a males bone structure?
Rebecca Settingson - Sat, 27 Jan 2018 23:39:10 EST SUN/3soV No.404731 Reply
Posted here back when I was 17, maybe when I was 16. I’m 22 now.

Suporn super soon but I feel that recently any energy towards transition has sort of died.
I was super sure of myself for 5 years on HRT, thinking it was the right thing to do, and was pumped for SRS when I payed for it a year ago, but I’m not so sure anymore and I worry that I’ll regret it and want to detranstion. While it prevents me from having sexual relationships,maybe I don’t hate my penis as much as I though, I dunno.
It’s even weirder that despite this, I feel awful about every masculine feature that I have, when I look in the mirror and have any visible facial hair or feel like any facial feature is still manly I just feel awful about it.

So I’m kind of teeter tottering in uncertainty.
Alice Murdshaw - Sun, 28 Jan 2018 02:38:27 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.404732 Reply

My advice is dont proceed until you are 100% sure. Seriously you're 22 and making decions that will impact the remainder of your life. Yes SRS is incredibly important but if you are considering detransition even if its in the back of your mind then maybe you need to think about it a little more.

Its a big thing srs, i mean you can get your tits cut off but you will never have a functioning penis again, be 100% and i dont mean just pump yourself i mean be no question about it of course im getting srs sure.
Rebecca Nimmlebanks - Sat, 03 Feb 2018 00:49:45 EST nk6GyidO No.404767 Reply
>It's just like a dent in my chest and I feel like it would be especially fucking weird if I try to transition.
Cis girls get pectus excavatum too, it's an ugly people thing not a trans thing
It might become less visible after growing tits though
Fucking Sittingnit - Fri, 09 Feb 2018 01:58:14 EST hLjgjSKb No.404785 Reply
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I’m in thaiand, so no good photos, but just woke up from srs
Reuben Gavingstug - Sat, 10 Feb 2018 11:38:12 EST 7r+pN92k No.404789 Reply
Damn, I don't come here at all anymore and mostly post on a certain other lgbt board, but this is actually exactly the period I was active.
Been on hormones for 7, going on 8 years, I'm 26 years old now. SRS several years back as well. Lot has changed in that period, went from a depressed dysphoric shutin and basically failing all my classes to pursuing a graduate degree in a field I love and basically functioning as a person and having friends and shit.

Seems a bit ridiculous to say but I basically owe it all to this place. You all helped me get started, deal with all of my transition related shit, and just made it a comfy place to hang out. Nice to see some of you are still alive and doing well.
Edward Grandshit - Sat, 10 Feb 2018 14:49:41 EST 8u+Fj6+a No.404790 Reply
Beautiful eyes.
Sadly I live at the opposite end of the world
Esther Senderbury - Fri, 23 Feb 2018 05:08:25 EST RtsONRiU No.404857 Reply
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wow, I do actually happen to be around. Today is my first time back since then. I was here from 2007ish -2011 when I started hormones. I have been on hormones almost 7 years now 😱
I'm also from a small town of similar size and this place really helped me a ton and gave me the confidence to actually pursue transitioning, and I even found out my best friend was trans too by meeting her again here lol.

About 2 years after hormones and transitioning and passing, I moved to the big city and got in deep with the furry community here and have a big friendo group who are always supportive and love hooking up.

Stay tasty my friends, there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
loves-j - Tue, 13 Mar 2018 13:10:47 EST KPFeTyVY No.404898 Reply
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I just wanted to say I really enjoyed reading through this - minus the one hateful person, I feel sorry for them.

Even though I wasn't part of this community a very close friend of mine was, at least I'm pretty sure, and I could relate to so many things that were said.

I transitioned back in 2011/12 before all mainstream attention.

It was really, really hard then to be taken seriously by doctors or get any kind of help through them...

I don't know what to say except that I miss my friend, she looks amazing now and I'm so happy for her.

I looked amazing at the height of my transition and now just kind of live between genders (unwanted). Only good news recently was that I'm finally being followed after doing this all on my own for half a decade. It's a huge load off my shoulders. Turns out my level of test was way too high for being on anti-androgens.

I keep thinking about my friend and I want to talk to her, but I'm afraid of what would happen. Still don't like 420, so I guess I'm not 420-friendly at all : <

At the same time, I don't want to change her, she's inside the most beautiful person I've ever met along with my ex. Very soft and accepting.

Well, this was nothing. Good luck to everyone.
Isabella Tillingspear - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 14:40:01 EST 4luarcnP No.404906 Reply
chilling tale my friend. This post is almost exactly a year old now.. you still show up? Curious for an update and more details, very interesting stuff
Rebecca Medgeridge - Wed, 14 Mar 2018 14:49:22 EST 7OtaApWR No.404907 Reply
I used to lurk a lot around 2012/13. /cd/ was my first introduction to trans stuff and I was 20 at the time. I remember reading through the board and thinking how similar people's stories were to the stuff in my head that i'd never managed to make sense of before. Never really posted anything though.

I then spent about 2 years being waiting around for the nhs before starting hrt in 2015. I think my 3 year mark is this month sometime actually?

I guess I'm doing ok? it took me about a year and a half of hrt before I came out properly then about 6 months after that I took a job offer and moved away from all my friends/support.

I don't really pass so these days I'm in some weird limbo of more or less being treated as a guy but my documents say female, it kinda sucks and my mental health isn't in a great place.
I feel a bit too burned out to really bother with the things that might help my transition at this point. But I'm seeing a therapist, slowly trying to make new friends and generally pick up on transition. I'm saving for SRS on the assumption that sooner or later my brain will unfuck itself and I'll actually care about it again. (but if it doesn't at least I'll have ~£15k saved i guess)

Even at my worst I'm still doing better than pre-hrt I think, so maybe I'll get there one day.
I haven't been on /cd/ in ages but its nice to be back.
Jack Wannerstire - Sun, 18 Mar 2018 09:58:13 EST ot5iYEyk No.404914 Reply
just popped by since 2014
i was here from 2006-2014

this place is cooked.
trayanise !rU8mq5Ca7M - Fri, 23 Mar 2018 18:06:11 EST 74bBUcOm No.404927 Reply
Anyone remember me? I barely do.
After the harpies intensified after the feempocalypse, i stopped coming to /cd/ all that often. Binging on /del/ and /opi/ helped draw me off. I also got tired of making an ass of myself and feeling like an outsider in a place that used to feel comfy and right. Ended up homeless for a while... had to stop hrt as a result. Shit got worse and worse, and I eventually ate a bullet to try to stop being homeless.

It worked, but not as intended. Eye, ear, and brain damage, but I’m back on hrt (2 0.1/d climara and 100mg spiro), engaged to my ftm partner, and not homeless anymore.

Drop acid, find yourself. It works.
Emma Crushweck - Sat, 24 Mar 2018 04:45:10 EST 2MZ+/S9J No.404929 Reply
Think you're problem is being semi-closeted. Can't live two lives at once, you only strip yourself of opportunities you could have had living a whole life. Don't think it'll go away by dropping the hormones either. Unless you feel comfortable being 100% male or you transition to 100% female, the sense of "foot on both sides of the door" won't ever go away.

This is why I discourage people from delaying social transition.
Sophie Ceblingbury - Mon, 26 Mar 2018 17:21:04 EST GImP3n/C No.404941 Reply
Hey I was here about 2012-2013

I'm not doing good at all.
I almost started hormones back then (I had just graduated high school) but got overwhelmed at the possibility of never passing or having kids.
I still haven't transitioned, I have less money than I did then, I dropped out of college, and now have more hair on me.
I'm 23 now. Kind of wish I started hormones then but a part of me is sort of glad I didnt. I'm thinking about saving money to bank my sperm.

This board back then was very doom and gloom from what I remember. I haven't been here in a while and check it out kind of sporadically.
Emma Blabblespear - Wed, 04 Apr 2018 22:17:18 EST Hqnux5FF No.404989 Reply
First found this site in 2012, what a relief, laura's playground really turned me off of the prospect of transitioning. You guys convinced me and gave me information to start self medding, there were a few bumps in the road, but I haven't looked back since. I was 20 back then. I was a little more active up until 2014, now i just stop by once in a while.

Since 2012, I've gotten a girlfriend, moved to another country to be with her, and work in public facing jobs. I pass most of the time, old people sometimes get it wrong but thats because of my "dyke-y" appearance and personality. I used to think I didn't have a chance, that passing was just a dumb pipe dream, it took a long time but I eventually reached a point that I'm quite happy with.

And it really all started with /seedy/
Henry Fanhall - Tue, 10 Apr 2018 20:10:05 EST yRqmGcxs No.405007 Reply
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Yup. Here's me then (18) and me now (27).

by the way, I'm DFAB with...mmm...moderate pectus excavatum. It certainly does happen, although I ended up having it from a genetic condition. I barely noticed how extensive it was until I had my tits removed, so if you grow them, it might end up covering it up.
Nigel Mingerfoot - Tue, 10 Apr 2018 20:31:33 EST epK/iVsY No.405008 Reply
This was the first real place on the internet I ever found any real trans information. That was when I was 15, so fuck, I was here in like 2007.

Still never started transition though, 11 years later. Too fucking crazy and too much of a history of suicide for it to ever be a possibility probably, so I'm resigned to being closeted until I inevitably pull the trigger.

Nice having an anonymous support group though.
William Clecklehall - Tue, 10 Apr 2018 23:01:12 EST Jt2EK7wn No.405009 Reply
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You don't need a gatekeeper to self-medicate.
Edwin Sindleman - Wed, 11 Apr 2018 06:35:40 EST pC1GbMNM No.405012 Reply
you don't have to break up with someone you love just because you're not interested in them sexually anymore

you can have more than one romantic partner
Edwin Sindleman - Wed, 11 Apr 2018 07:11:32 EST pC1GbMNM No.405015 Reply
god why don't bitter old men like you just leave everyone else alone

I've literally seen female friends do this shit before, it's not common but it happens

idk what hellhole you live in but jesus you need a change in scenery or something
Henry Fanhall - Wed, 11 Apr 2018 09:24:12 EST yRqmGcxs No.405019 Reply
That’s absolutely not true. I was raised as a girl and girls ask each other for period supplies. It’s not some kind of cutesy sitcom shit; people just forget to bring tampons everywhere.
Nigel Mingerfoot - Wed, 11 Apr 2018 16:48:18 EST epK/iVsY No.405023 Reply
It's not so much that I need it to be sanctioned by a gatekeeper, it's that I know myself well enough to know I'd get depressed, stop taking the pills, and permanently fuck myself up even further.
Basil Turveylock - Thu, 12 Apr 2018 05:43:48 EST 2NNnUuXC No.405030 Reply
I used to post around, 2011 to 2014 but stopped as I got bored of the Chan's, and this June marks 7 years HRT for me, and I kinda just went stealth and focused on getting other aspects sorted.
Polly Bardway - Thu, 12 Apr 2018 19:27:57 EST Jt2EK7wn No.405034 Reply
I feel you. So what's the way forward for you?
Maybe if you take the transition off of the table, if that's not going to work out, is there a life you could live as a man that you could stomach? Might not be healthy, but better than suicide I suppose.
Kayla !!Yitm7rXS - Wed, 25 Apr 2018 14:30:55 EST 1HA4Tga6 No.405147 Reply
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Can't believe that people still remember me after 4 years of not posting.
Long story short is that I've been on hrt for 3 years solid and I live stealth girlmode on my own in a new area. I had a serious bf for almost 2 years but 3 months ago he cheated on me and left me in a very very shitty way and that sent me in a spiral of dick craving and I've been a slut and had sex with 14 different men in these 3 months single, have a new bf now and things are calmed
Ebenezer Macklefield - Wed, 25 Apr 2018 17:32:24 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405148 Reply

we dont remember you in a good way Kayla. Us remembering you insnt a good thing, your name has become synonymous with bad-ass motorbike riders who cant transition because they are too bad-ass.
Kayla !!Yitm7rXS - Wed, 25 Apr 2018 23:25:08 EST 1HA4Tga6 No.405151 Reply
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Yeah how I acted was insane lol, I paid the price. At least I'm happy now and living as a girl, shit I'm legally female now, even had my birth certificate changed to female
Basil Hoshway - Thu, 26 Apr 2018 05:39:57 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405153 Reply

"acted". Congrats though! im glad you finally came to understand what we were telling you the whole time.

Our transgender agenda worked in the end.
Kayla !!Yitm7rXS - Thu, 26 Apr 2018 11:43:19 EST 1HA4Tga6 No.405154 Reply
Yes the lessons learned on this very board shaped my future. I'm just happy it all worked out for me in the end. Still reeling over the loss of my bf but I got having a ton of sex under my belt and my new bf is hella comfy.
Nell Sinkinstock - Sat, 28 Apr 2018 11:07:23 EST IWQ8cYmQ No.405160 Reply
you're so pretty now holy shit

i'm so happy you went through with it you just seemed so sad when you were living that life
Samuel Bindlehick - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 22:20:34 EST nL5oaOqk No.405172 Reply
>Our transgender agenda worked in the end.
I was on the board back when Kayla was. I wasn't transitioning then and I'm not transitioning now. I wish I was a pretty as she is now.
Kayla !!Yitm7rXS - Sun, 29 Apr 2018 23:07:35 EST 1HA4Tga6 No.405173 Reply
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Jesus bro if I did it you could have done it, I started off as the manliest man ever

Also posting here because fuck the future always being down
Priscilla Gemmerwell - Mon, 30 Apr 2018 04:36:52 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405174 Reply

Dont think like this.

Its not about being pretty. its about doing what is right for you, you're obviously not trans if you are happy not transitioning.

The thing with kayla was is she knew she was trans, she just needed a shove into it because she had built up a pretty robust mask which has been reinforced by everyone around her.

It doesnt matter how she looks, aslong as she is happy and fulfilled thats all that counts. Looks and youth fade, before you know it you've gone grey and all that really matters is that you look back fondly.

Just keep the future where it belongs kayla.
Esther Shittingcocke - Mon, 30 Apr 2018 20:13:48 EST nL5oaOqk No.405176 Reply
But what if I fail? It's not like you didn't start way earlier than me.

I'm not happy not transitioning, but I could be even less happy transitioning.

It is about being pretty because I want to be pretty. If I passed but wasn't pretty, would I still have dysphoria? Maybe. If I didn't even pass? For sure.

I do know I'm trans but transition might make me no more happy and fulfilled. I don't know if I'll look back fondly whatever I do.
Kayla !!Yitm7rXS - Mon, 30 Apr 2018 23:38:24 EST NA5r+Y+V No.405179 Reply
You can lament over not being a hot Brazilian trans till the end of your life or you could get real and be true to yourself, regardless how you turn out. I found being true to myself trumps anything else in terms of how well I feel.
Phyllis Shakebury - Wed, 02 May 2018 11:40:13 EST DJMnN8vh No.405192 Reply
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I could probably become somewhat like a Brazilian trans if I worked at it a bit. But I would not get all those fucking implants or sell my ass on camera. Im not much of a voyeur.
Emma Geblingmut - Sat, 12 May 2018 20:12:12 EST PJToacUa No.405256 Reply
Ironic that this thread is here. I just recently came back for advice and help. At the moment I am just lurking to get a feel for it as it is now.

Honestly my life has been hell and shit, the only positive of which is that I was able to get on hormones but not much else. Long, long story behind all of that.

I was curious though, if I was to post a different thread with a picture of myself, could I get advice on how to advance in certain areas? (like hair, where to get clothing, makeup tips?)

I feel like my transition has stalled now not because of lack of funds or location, but because I'm terrified without much in the way of knowledge.
Fucking Dizzlefuck - Wed, 16 May 2018 01:22:27 EST B3ig1KLf No.405262 Reply
I was here around then and before, mostly lurked though. This place is really toxic and kind of unhealthy even though it taught me a lot of important shit about hormones and so forth. I've been on them for about 5 years. Life is pretty good, have a good relationship with a girlfriend and my depression is under control. I got cancer which obviously sucked but it's in remission, the experience kinda made life seem more valuable.

While it's true that lots of trans sites are hugboxes and give people false expectations, this place is like a hatebox, you're best off stepping away from the computer for a bit and not absorbing the various neuroses of different trans communities. I think the focus on passing is really misplaced, because even when you pass you'll be paranoid and think the kind of insecure shit that people posted in this thread. That being said it does make life significantly easier. I think more people should focus on their voice, that doesn't get conveyed through shit like passing threads and it seems to play a huge role in how people gender you. IME the online resources for this were not good, so I went to a speech therapist and got a good voice in less than a year of work. I have heard the surgical options in South Korea are good now too for voice stuff for those who can afford it.

Anyway just kind of rambling. I pass even with a shaved head and although I was somewhat lucky genetically I don't think I started out much more feminine than the average person. But that's like, not what it's about? My lifelong dysphoria started subsiding long before I started passing, and ultimately y'all really need to stop giving so much of a shit what other people think. I know that's easier said than done but the risk of violence is blown way out of proportion for most cuties, unless you're in the middle of nowhere surrounded by rednecks your risk probably isn't much higher than anyone else, so like, just stop giving a shit and try to live your life. It's a cliche but being yourself is what's important.

Anyway there's my weird rant, love yourself and smoke weed everyday
Jenny Snodshaw - Sat, 26 May 2018 02:02:50 EST Jt2EK7wn No.405278 Reply
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Yeah, necropost one of the old threads, I'll give you my hot take on your face.
Clara Blackwell - Mon, 09 Jul 2018 17:45:54 EST cv7LXUeD No.405451 Reply
lmfao. transitioned into a weirdo, lost my mind, and developed prodromal schizophrenia and now i live in a poly sexhouse where i wear nazi suits and cut people to cum. don't do this!
Clara Blackwell - Mon, 09 Jul 2018 17:56:57 EST cv7LXUeD No.405452 Reply
the idea of hyperfeminine man is less desirable than a woman is some extremely susan's playground shit. it's beyond ideal to hit masculine androgyny.
Clara Blackwell - Mon, 09 Jul 2018 18:04:16 EST cv7LXUeD No.405453 Reply
oh, man, not not looking a woman. do you look at fashion models at all? people with like zero adherence to secondary sexual characteristics? the most fuckable people in our society? all being a woman is, anyway, is realizing how much of a trap femininity is. all you really need is heavy weight loss.
Clara Blackwell - Mon, 09 Jul 2018 18:12:13 EST cv7LXUeD No.405454 Reply
damn dude, that's really interesting. tell me more about the kinds of fags that have problems.

please no one in this thread take advice from the anxiety guy who thinks the beach is a real big trip for him.
Priscilla Hebbleworth - Mon, 09 Jul 2018 19:47:24 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405455 Reply

You're responding to comments that are atleast 2 months old.
Rebecca Shittingfield - Tue, 10 Jul 2018 04:57:00 EST prwK8SgU No.405456 Reply
you doing ok, keep being honest like you are

I finally saw a psychologist today who has a lot of experience with trans people
I dont know where things will go. Im still caught between the sense of urgency/ticking clock and if remaining male will be more fulfilling. It took 3 big leaps to contact a friend of a friend, call a clinic and schedule the therapy session. I waited for no reason. It was just my fear and uncertainty. Its so hard because you want to justify all your internal conflict by transitioning, why else should we live with such a burden. This is important, give it the time and effort it deserves. Dont get too caught up in daily affairs and ignore the big picture anon

bless your soul
Ian Mangernut - Mon, 30 Jul 2018 21:36:50 EST WvIznnMi No.405561 Reply
I first came to /cd/ around 2010. This was one of the first sites I visited learning being trans was a thing. That was in my early 20's. Too late in life for me. I had wished to be a girl since I was a kid but had been ashamed and felt guilty for a long time. I thought it was an impossibility and fantasy; the only things I found online were fictional stories. So it was amazing to find /cd/ and learn all about passing, hormones, everything. Too bad I didn't have any money to self-med.

I remember the DIY threads, DIY orchi threads, passing, the "you'll get one cup smaller than your closest female relatives," the show your boob growth threads that were like "wow, HRT can do that?" (...it didn't for me), and everythig else. The trolls, the assholes, the great and nice people, judgements, critiques, advice, etc.

I mostly lurked and only posted a few times. I stopped coming probably around 2013 and only came by once or twice over the years.

I wasn't be able to start HRT until my mid-late 20's, delayed further by unwilling healthcare providers, gatekeepers, and a gatekeepery endo's conservative approach. So... long story short, a crappy life, a missed-out-on life, and a transition that has pretty much flopped along with having passed that 30 year mark, I know I'll be bidding the world adieu sooner than later.

I remember you. For whatever reason I'll probably always remember a certain post you made where you had said you were in a doctor's office and when leaving a woman called your attention and asked you about your height.

Kinda remember you.

And you.

Kayla? Holy crap. I'm envious. I was only witness to some of the drama, so it dulled, but still nuts to see you now. HRT was kind.
Esther Trotfuck - Sat, 01 Sep 2018 12:05:21 EST ICUauw6A No.405639 Reply
This is my first time back since like 2013/14. Used to visit all the time when I was in high school and transitioning. After 5+ years of hormones and going stealth i tend to avoid anything trans related tbh.

Is Kayla still a meme here? xD
Cyril Dibberwill - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 01:35:27 EST 7ZnVBrg0 No.405670 Reply
Does anyone remember a tripfag called 'Starbuck'? How did she turn out?
Doris Bradgelock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 20:54:27 EST mlQxIcx5 No.405680 Reply

Do you have any plans to kind of "start" over and become a normal person again?
Doris Bradgelock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 21:00:30 EST mlQxIcx5 No.405681 Reply
>i pass with a shaved head

I bet you pass much less with long hair. You are rocking the andro femboy and thinking people going *uh whatis that, guy girl? probably a trans, ok be polite* "Hello ma'am!".
Doris Bradgelock - Fri, 07 Sep 2018 21:05:07 EST mlQxIcx5 No.405682 Reply
You know just because horny men want to play with a trans doesn't mean you pass...
James Buzzfield - Fri, 21 Sep 2018 20:53:02 EST 5L2APvoE No.405720 Reply
I used to lurk here a bit back in those times.

Only just hatched like a month ago and damn, was this place always this truscum?

y'all some gatekeepin ass bitches lmao
Oliver Snodbury - Sat, 22 Sep 2018 22:45:45 EST qFM5wa3O No.405722 Reply
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I used to come here in high school as well... I told myself I just liked cuties I wasn't one myself... The only one that really stuck out to me, that I remember, from back then was dark trap. I chose to do drugs and hide. I started at 27 because of how cowardly I was. I'm 28 now. I'm a hooker just like she was. Though I thought she was prettier than me. She used to joke about delivering pizzas and I remember it making me feel dumb it took me a second to figure out what she meant. She let me on a few of her Webcam chats with other cuties even though I was just a weird kid no one liked.

I hope she's still alive. I regret I am.
Phoebe Pingerdock - Thu, 27 Sep 2018 23:41:26 EST 8O6ECNEY No.405735 Reply
>I don't really know which way I want to go anyway, therapists never butted heads or challenged what I said, just ticked boxes.. which really isn't what I need, nigga you gotta weedle it out and help me get to the base of this and work from there, argue with me or something because I've been left with as much doubt I had when I started to do something so final anyways.

ayy I had to go to rehab for an eating disorder. Eating disorder therapists will 100% blast your ass and call out your shit. It was a weirdly good experience in some ways.
Phoebe Pingerdock - Fri, 28 Sep 2018 00:14:55 EST 8O6ECNEY No.405736 Reply
> missing the reality that daylight and a stroll down a street or standing next to a real woman will give you?

I stand next to real women all the time because I have friends lmao
Samuel Nammerbury - Sat, 06 Oct 2018 11:50:08 EST 37s8QSlz No.405751 Reply
Fuck, I used to come here back in 2011-2012. Genuinely didn't expect to see the place still alive and kicking.
Starting self-medding thanks to advice here around then but stopped after a year or so because I'm retarded. Now I've come crawling back years later and my shit's all fucked.
Nice to see the people that succeeded though.
Lydia Clollerdidging - Sun, 07 Oct 2018 23:53:04 EST Lv2wVjEl No.405755 Reply

recently hatched t-girl here. You guys have been the lighthouse guiding me through the fog,
Ian Pavingwune - Mon, 08 Oct 2018 22:17:00 EST csI2XN14 No.405757 Reply
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i used to lurk back in 2008, never posted. now im two years into transitioning and feel like ive wasted my life. I remember all the good / terrible self medication advice, all the chop off your balls bs. It was a good atmosphere tho, things feel so much more dark and serious these days I really dislike it.

HRT and transitioning hasnt stopped the dysphoria at all but its more managable i guess, I feel much more suicidal now than I did back then at 17.
Ernest Subberlig - Tue, 09 Oct 2018 18:24:35 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405758 Reply

Just a quick one. Dysphoria never really goes away, HRT etc just alleviates it, it doesnt cure you of it.

Just make sure you keep in contact with your therapist or psychologist and or have a good support base outside of the internet.

i cant really offer much in the way of your suicidal tendencies as thats your own road that you need to go down to realise how silly killing yourself is.

all the best, feel better soon.
Archie Tootfoot - Thu, 11 Oct 2018 17:45:48 EST p+pKKuTn No.405762 Reply
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I never come here anymore but did just today. I started coming to /CD/ on a regular basis 2007-2008ish. Was in therapy for a few years after going to the doctor for stomach pains repeatedly. Ended up referring me to a therapist for anxiety and that therapist referred me to a gender specialist since I had been a regular weekend transvestite for most of my life. /cd/ helped a lot back in those days understand what transitioning was and stuff. Gave up therapy without transitioning up until now. Life just took a turn for crazy and it keeps getting more surreal. Just got myself a new therapist I start next week.
Martha Hocklemare - Fri, 12 Oct 2018 23:53:42 EST dswLcPdU No.405764 Reply
I used to post often in high school, so 2008. I remember getting post 1000. Since then, I haven't checked 420chan in years.

I moved out my small town, fully transitioned, married a handsome marine and we've been happy ever since. I'm almost 30 now.

I said a lot of hurtful things on here I regret, I was mean-spirited and spiteful of everyone. My father knew two trans women at work, they were both older transitioners, and he would take out his disgust on me. He'd yell, scream and hit me, and tell me I'd live a lonely life. So hun hate was a natural outlet, I felt they delegitimized everything I was.

I used to post with the name Eriee. Sorry to anyone I've hurt, you're beautiful and deserving of love. <3
Archie Crirryville - Sat, 13 Oct 2018 21:21:44 EST pAvJxPWh No.405765 Reply
I've been here since 2012. Male whose never transitioned because I am straight and I hate guys. I had sex for the first time at 23 last year several times with a different women. I was horrible at it and it wasn't that pleasant. I had trouble keeping it up.
I gave up on people and just decided to spend my life, living alone and genetically engineering plants.
Fucking Crisslechore - Sat, 13 Oct 2018 23:45:38 EST dswLcPdU No.405766 Reply

Some couples just don't click sexually, and that's a-okay. Try your luck with someone else, don't give up hope. Take things slow. Botany is awesome, but it's no replacement for a fulfilling relationship.
Wesley Mishnidging - Sun, 14 Oct 2018 02:53:25 EST Mh9Cu0qP No.405767 Reply

im sorry but thats like trying something you've never done before, sucking at it and then going "ahh well atleast i tired, now ill just never try anything new again, oh well."
Henry Pozzlecocke - Sun, 21 Oct 2018 17:28:49 EST /uaUshba No.405785 Reply
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Nah I totally thought that too, I'm too drunk to explain it right now but basically, even with paranoia applied it ain't that... "you had to be there" sort of thing... People are not polite to cuties here, if they even know what a trans is. I'm sure things are quite different if you are in some sort of large city or San Francisco or some shit like that.

Pic unrelated

Love you all, unlimited love and kisses to every channer trans
Barnaby Grimdale - Mon, 12 Nov 2018 19:21:12 EST I83PrSFT No.405838 Reply
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First posted on here in ~2008. I was already 25 by that time, though, and had already started to transition and then stopped @ ~20. I think... not transitioning, like I have/had valid reasons for it, but maybe I was overly concerned with being the most passable person ever. But... sometimes when you're in a bad spot in life, it's just a bad spot.

I play poker a lot these days, and in poker you find yourself in situations where you are forced to make a big call or fold, and sometimes you'll be right and sometimes wrong, but overall it's kind of a wash. I think that transitioning, for me, was somewhat like that, maybe? I never wanted to be trans, or to be a girl. I'm really tall for a guy. I don't have a skill set that guarantees I will get a job no matter what I look like (e.g. an talented engineer). But on the other end, being non-transitioned is kind of like being invisible. It's also a problem with friendships, because, I think even if you don't come out to your friends, you still are who you are. I think the cognitive dissonance between who I am and how I look has always given me grief. It's kind of like I'm lying. Obviously I don't date.

I totally relate - it's lucky you're on hrt.
Esther Drunkinwater - Tue, 13 Nov 2018 07:25:11 EST f007IYQ5 No.405841 Reply
I was semi-active around the period of 2011-2013ish. By semi-active, I was more of a evenings lurker and occasionally made comments. probably the only few pics i posted here were in the passing threads at that time. I was a bit older than the usual demographics of the board , I was mid 20's then. Additionally, at that time, the was an intense hun-hating fuelling the seedy board, so I tried to keep off the witch-hunt.

A lot of things changed for me. Things that i prioritised before became zilch and did things that I promised that I would never do.

Got my srs done around 2013 end, followed by an intense 1 year of recuperating. Had to come out again, as a lesbian. (More about that later)

I changed my career path, (due to some transition related issue). Couldn't change my university certifications , so decided to learn a new skill. Got certified, took a job, pissed my employer, dumped the job for a better paying one. Dumped that one as well for a bigger offer. Now I am earning closer (its catching up) to what I would have earned if I continued in my chosen career.

Also got marrried like 1.5 years ago. Strangely when I started my transition around 2010, i vow, if i ever get married, to wear the bridal gown. Strange turn of events, we both ended up wearing a tuxedo for our wedding.

We have been offered to join poly and to open our relationship, but we both decided it isn't for us. Not unexpected but we did loose a bit of our queer friends circle.

As a strange turn of events, I was saving up for ffs but as our daily life proceeded, we ended up using that fund for IVF planning. We tried to go for adoption but my shrink visit for mones was used against it.

Not a mental illness but you did visit a shrink for 3 years we will hold it against you kind of bureaucracy shit.

Surprisingly, after i transitioned a few other people I went to univ with came out. One was my good friend. He came out as a FTM and is a school teacher. I saw even parents supporting him and overall acceptance gradually increased here to an extent that in our locality there is now a youth Transsupport group where I have seen parents dropping this teens. I did a chaperoning once and obviously did a poor job of it. But that is the extent of my interaction I have with the transcommunity.

In the Online, I think the trolls are still using whatever means they get. Part of the reason, I pretty much stopped all online transpaces. As for seedy, way back it used to exclusively either for do I pass type post, or dick everywhere stuff and occasionally, great advices by fellow transitioners. Now i see that it has a few political and social discussions.
Emma Pevingbury - Mon, 19 Nov 2018 02:18:21 EST HNVrQFzm No.405848 Reply
this forum gives me nostalgia for 8 or so years ago.
a simpler time, just researching trans stuff on the internet because it was interesting, not because it was me.

I miss my naive self
Shitting Sammerfuck - Tue, 20 Nov 2018 10:27:28 EST ot5iYEyk No.405849 Reply
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5 months post op from suporn

used to come here 2005-2014

this place was the worst
Betsy Sundleford - Sat, 08 Dec 2018 14:23:43 EST akSdwSHh No.405877 Reply
I haven't been on here in forever. I was usually a the future kiddie but /cd/ was around forever and I remember all the great guides and cheat sheets I pulled from here.

O transitioned around 18 now I am 23. I feel more androgynous then I would hope but its ok I look like a sexy hipster.

Now the hard thing is community. I get into leftist/sjw bullshit but non of them come from the same background.

I just got a good programming job though ( lol stereotype) and now at least I won't die on the street.
Betsy Sundleford - Sat, 08 Dec 2018 14:47:09 EST akSdwSHh No.405879 Reply
ohh shit i remember you you are still so hot.

low key inspiration btw
Ernest Nuvingbanks - Fri, 14 Dec 2018 01:00:19 EST 6NsqQujX No.405908 Reply
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I used to lurk here a lot back in 2010-2012 when i was around 17 years old, i remember seeing everyone's timelines and feeling really inspired and just in awe of the possibility of transition. I was on and off self-med for a few years because I was financially dependent on my parents and really scared to come out and finally transitioned last year and have been on legit HRT for a year and a half now. I'm kinda sad this place slowed down after /lgbt/ came around. I lurked there for a few months early in transition but it really is so much more of a toxic environment compared to what this board used to be, even though i stopped coming here at some point.

i remember you guys!!! i thought both of you were really cool
Nigel Bedgemet - Sun, 24 Feb 2019 07:22:09 EST l35goPOM No.405909 Reply
It's kind of sad and terrible to me how left twitter people I know don't understand my background on places like chans and Dramatica and shit. Although I met one because of goofy ED-sphere related drama bullshit and he understands so I can at least have an avenue to vent about that.
George Dablingnire - Sun, 03 Mar 2019 00:35:09 EST sIsv1zC3 No.405915 Reply
yeah i think just like... this may sound dumb but 'gender hacking' to be more androgynous without the obsessive, life-consuming need to pass, especially for people who probably won't, is like a better middle ground than full blown 'trans girl.' i think the push for this is toxic and creates ruined lives in cases where it could just be a super femm boy who wants to be treated more like a woman sexually and romantically by other men

lots of trans girls end up dating other trans girls or even women.. so it seems something is off
nainy - Sat, 16 Mar 2019 04:00:33 EST UcBjfoqY No.405937 Reply
I dip in here now and then as this channel was a major part of my life from 2006 to 2012 or so. I guess I'm looking out to see the names of people I remember and I hope they're doing well.

Anyone remember Nainy? I was on here sporadically but I spent a bit of time on the IRC.

Anonymiss, Bec, Dani, Nils, Pheobe the IRC and others were a big help to me at the time. I wish I could remember the names of the rest of you. You were all a huge help to me. I'd love to reconnect somehow.

Nowadays I'm living my life as male, but I enjoy the fact that I still look somewhat androgynous. I'm depressed and just getting my day to day. I wish I had transitioned when I was 18. Now thinking back I remember getting a credit card so I could start ordering online to get 'mones. I don't know where all those years went.
I guess I like being being queer and not immediately gendered at first glance. Fucked if I know what that means but that's where I am.
Angus Cennerdale - Sat, 16 Mar 2019 14:03:05 EST m7s/4eCg No.405938 Reply
Fuck off and be an enby blob on Twatter then. Nobody is stopping you. You won't stop me from fighting for my rights either. Eat shit.
Edward Dunninghod - Tue, 19 Mar 2019 16:11:03 EST 5YTfRQdK No.405942 Reply
Hey all, im Plume and ive met so many messed up peoples coming out to me as trans recently( they were just messed up in their brain ), and had close friends in the lgbt that chastised me from the community that I just dont give a shit about people anymore. This trendy trans community and everyone that supports ill medical decisions can eat shit and die. Appart from that im doing fine.

I swear im gonna get shit on someday because those enthusiasm flossing man childs are so many, we wont get respect anymore.>>405915
Eliza Shittingspear - Tue, 19 Mar 2019 21:17:40 EST s7u6A/59 No.405943 Reply
>you're all mentally ill freaks
>im totally different from any typical christfag tho
Funny how people with no backbone bow to what the right tells them they are.
Barnaby Crashhat - Tue, 19 Mar 2019 22:10:27 EST 5YTfRQdK No.405946 Reply
What does that have to do with politics, I dont even live in the US. Theres this crowd mentality going on right now where everyone dont call out ill individuals and Ive grown by experience to disagree with it. Takes no backbone to agree with everyone. I stand my ground fine and dont make my life about being trans.
Cornelius Drublingpone - Fri, 22 Mar 2019 02:38:10 EST CQEcIdEU No.405952 Reply
>i-im just being more nonconformist than you by conforming you mentally ill freaks
Why are you even on this site? Skeletonchan is that way, go join up with whatever particular nationality 8sub you are so you can whine about us degenerates in a circlejerk to your heart's content.
Reuben Pucklemock - Tue, 26 Mar 2019 07:37:34 EST SvWOeeOJ No.405960 Reply

Hello! I was an early user on 420chan, and now I'm back just as of today.

Glad to see nazis haven't ruined this corner of the internet.
Nell Shakeville - Wed, 03 Apr 2019 02:01:38 EST BKEweg8H No.405968 Reply
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Crazy. I was too and I happened back in here on a whim looking for wallpapers and remembered this board. I was on around those years from a teeny farm town of barely over 1000 people. 3 years on hrt now
Charlotte Noppersud - Fri, 12 Apr 2019 09:11:40 EST oCl5H7Ig No.405977 Reply
Posted around that time, good to see some of us are still around.
Life’s been going great actually; finally been able to be stealth 24/7 and not doing too bad career wise. It’s been a long. Long. LONG. Road since ordering stuff on in-house to basically being able to barge into any trans care place and be like “I’ve been on this shit almost ten years, gimme.”
Priscilla Blatherhall - Sun, 14 Apr 2019 21:34:46 EST bBNOYBrN No.405996 Reply
its 10 years since 2019
Eugene Bravingkark - Mon, 15 Apr 2019 22:21:23 EST LM/ao+Sc No.406010 Reply
My last post on /CD/ was in 2012. I made a post right before I got on the plane for boot camp and everyone was like "you're gonna regret it" and I did. I finished boot camp but told them I was trans and they booted me out. I got on HRT after I got home but quit in 2013. I got back on 2015 and have been ever since. I'm four years HRT and stealth now. Todays my first checking /CD/ since then.
Rebecca Sidgefuck - Sat, 20 Apr 2019 02:38:20 EST 7Qh9Wa7C No.406025 Reply
cuntboy here

How much is tiddy removal (double masc with nips, but maybe not cause i wanna have "x" tats where my nips are) without insurance n who can do it without all that letter of recommendation bullshit?
Jarvis Hablingshaw - Mon, 22 Apr 2019 04:26:08 EST iipDH9ps No.406027 Reply
Expect to pay anywhere from $3,000 - $12,000 if you are in the USA and depending on which region you are in (higher cost of living and more populous areas expect to pay more...)

It's worth it to find the best surgeon you can find to help you get the most natural look possible post surgery without scars or other obvious signs you had some work done.

I paid $7500 for my surgery and I'm very pleased.
David Simblestedging - Tue, 30 Apr 2019 21:27:56 EST oXWUkhoT No.406069 Reply
I don't think anyone will remember me, but I used to post under the name Blu and used to complain about how spiegel botched my ffs.

I'm doing well these days. Got a decent job as a biology researcher and married a nerd chaser from the the future soc board. He calls me a guy all the time, but it's okay because I get to tell him he's gay. We love each other very much.

I did get a really nice breast augmentation done last year so that kind of balances out that my face didn't turn out the greatest. I live stealth in a new city halfway across the country and have a good amount of friends, whereas I never had any before except for when I was in elementary school. Overall I have to say that finding 420chan and being persuaded to get on hormones before my body masculinized any further was the best decision of my life. I'm happy to see the rest of you who were around back then generally doing well for yourselves as well.
Ian Suddleham - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 22:33:44 EST YJDyAQug No.406231 Reply
Whelp. Found 420chan in 2009. Discovered /cd/ and realized I wanted to be a girl since I was 5, and browsed here telling myself it was just a fetish.

10 years later I still want to be a women but just haven't done anything about it. Came out to one close friend. Someone else straight up asked if I was trans once. Besides that, I'm just trying to cope.

29 now, so I guess I might as well ride my manhood to the grave. (Uh... phrasing?)
Priscilla Hoshshit - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 23:55:33 EST osA1MrQo No.406234 Reply
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I came here in 2011-2014 ish
I dont remember much becauase I was on dissos a lot
doin pretty good, camslutting it up
David Mocklebanks - Mon, 01 Jul 2019 21:10:04 EST knJXRYST No.406240 Reply
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I came here a lot in 2007-2011, This is actually the first time I've been on this site in probably 5-6 years. I was researching which darknet market is still up and remembered about this place. Pic related its probably one of the first pictures I saved off of this forum.
Henry Dartwater - Tue, 02 Jul 2019 07:04:12 EST wlpotp+Q No.406241 Reply
why doesn't your "husband" like cis women?

Probably your mind is fucked up by porn and all your unrealistic masturbation fantasies you generate by living an isolated life
You don't understand how passing works and that it is contextual.
You sound like an angry nerdy "queer" (ie. unnattractive) man
lmao so many "stealth" people here. I guess when your ego needs you to be "stealth" then you become "stealth". After all youve been on hrt for 4 years right? You have to be stealth EVENTUALLY
George Siddlegold - Wed, 24 Jul 2019 06:18:52 EST JoKQc8md No.406289 Reply
I remember you (or your ex-gf) from irc for another chan. Whatever happened to you? Are you still alive? I've wondered about you since you left. I hope you're doing better.
catbus - Sun, 28 Jul 2019 18:53:13 EST LJULIlJy No.406309 Reply
Yes I remember too, from #/int/, I forget the handle but I'm sure it started with an r. Fuck that was a long time ago now. I am so old
TÜRK - Sun, 04 Aug 2019 13:33:46 EST utpQPXtx No.406335 Reply
malmısın çek git ülkeden aQ hakkaten 3 gram beyin yok tıravestilerde

gel evlen benle gidelim beraber ben çalışıp sana bakarım karım ol

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