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- Tue, 07 Apr 2020 17:30:04 EST MazOBK2l No.407225
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hi /cd/, needed an anonymous place to vent. I'm a trans guy and ever since I started T a few months ago my libido has been overwhelming. I've fucked a bunch of new people (plus my long-term boyfriend) since January and it's not enough. I'm staying with friends right now and I have no private place to masturbate (I normally need to cum at least twice a day) and it's driving me crazy. It's hard for me to get my mind off of sex and get anything done. I don't want to do anything that my friends would be uncomfortable with but I can hardly control myself.

That plus I seem to be developing... inconvenient? tastes. I've always been a size king but none of my dildos feel filling enough anymore and I can't afford an even bigger one, nor an even more powerful vibrator. Non-con used to be a turn-off/trigger for me but lately I've been fantasizing more and more about being pinned down and fucked against my will until I'm crying and sore. my politics and my kinks are almost diametrically opposed, politically I want trans men to be viewed more or less the same as cis men and I despise straight chasers, but in bed I just want to be tied up and hurt and stretched and be called a pathetic fucktoy only useful for pleasuring cock.

I have no outlet right now. I'm coming home on Sunday where at least I'll be able to masturbate in peace but that feels like it's an eternity away, and thanks to covid it'll be months before I can arrange the gangbang of my dreams. but I don't want to pause T for any reason and I'm kind of getting off on the denial >_<
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Henry Bevinghall - Thu, 09 Apr 2020 09:44:33 EST g/Bx05E8 No.407229 Reply
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In my experience the initial horniness burst dies down eventually but it's like 3-6 month of random boners and cumming from being on the bus until then. In the meantime I would get your levels checked and potentially lower your dose if it's stressing you out. If you're doing a testosterone regimen that could be spread out more and every time you take a shot you get a burst of horny, try more frequent, smaller dosing.

Tbh penetrative masturbating might not be the worst thing if you plan on bottoming, because I'm 11 years into T and have zero problems with lubrication or PIV and that's in large part because I used it and didn't lose it. If it horrifies you and gives you dysphoria/post-fap regret I understand that too. Just distract yourself with other porn content and other masturbation styles that are also appealing. Get a hitachi, collect FTM specific masturbation sleeves, teach yourself to cum using only your mind.

The politics thing, abandon thy guilt if possible, everyone* faps to their trauma, whether it's abuse or systemic oppression. I masturbate to literal flashback content of being beaten and raped and half the cis gays I know have locker room bullying and straight guy fetishes because of their shitty high school experiences. It's not actually everyone but this is a pretty normal thing. If you want to deal with it in therapy, go for it, but you could also just roleplay that shit with a lot of aftercare.

*not literally everyone but a lot of motherfuckers

When you do have hookups later, use barriers, use PrEP if you're going to be a giant slut, use your head. Don't hurt anyone. Look at the pickup artists if you want to know what real, harmful sex addiction looks like. If you start sounding anything like that wrt valuing your sex partners as humans and not meat, seek some help. It's ok to be a slut but it is not okay to use people or risk anyone's safety including your own.
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Henry Bevinghall - Thu, 09 Apr 2020 09:45:50 EST g/Bx05E8 No.407230 Reply
>>407229
mm, correction. don't get your levels checked. you could still try dose lowering.
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James Nundledock - Thu, 09 Apr 2020 13:52:28 EST MazOBK2l No.407231 Reply
>>407229

lol thanks for the advice bro. yeah my levels are right where they should be, hopefully the teenage-boy libido will settle down eventually?? my sex drive was on the high side even before, though.

what with my kinks being what they are I am *very* serious about my and my partners' safety, physical and emotional, nothing to worry about there

anyway my friends and I all fucked and I feel better now
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Fuck Smallforth - Sat, 11 Apr 2020 05:47:13 EST g/Bx05E8 No.407236 Reply
>>407231
Oh, jolly good.

>Hopefully the teenage-boy libido will settle down eventually?? my sex drive was on the high side even before, though.

Yeah, I've found it really does. Sometimes if I've gone a long time without a shot for some reason and I start up again I get really horny again within a few days after. But for the most part it levels out, or you learn how to deal with it, or something. My sex drive was really high too--I was masturbating like 9 times a day even pre-T in high school, having sex multiple times a day.
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Charles Hishdock - Sat, 09 May 2020 05:39:01 EST 0Q1YnMAX No.407302 Reply
>>407231
hey, transwoman here, but before i transitioned (i.e. when i had a ton of t in me) i masturbated a few times a day normally. honestly when i was in college i would go to a one person bathroom on campus and masturbate during a class. i know guys go to the bathroom to jack off. people don't talk about it a lot, but i guarantee you, guys are jacking it all the goddamn time. it's probably less convenient for you, because cis guys can literally just head to the bathroom and jack it without any extra equipment or anything, and it doesn't sound like that would do it for you. but, i would say, when the urge strikes, make privacy, and get down and dirty.

these days i masturbate like two times a week on average so i don't have the same needs at all, but past me feels your pain.

also, ditto to what the other poster said. like, everybody masturbates to problematic stuff. i'm a very leftist person, but i personally think that pretty much any kind of play is kosher when it comes to sex, so long as everyone is consenting adults. i would not condone racism in any circumstance, except pornography and sex, as an example (not something i'm into but i'm just giving an example). it's total fantasy, so it's ok. i have masturbated to the thought of being enslaved and murdered before. so long as it's all in your head, or all between two or more consenting adults, you're all good, baby.
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Rebecca Snodforth - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 14:27:50 EST 7hJCOOod No.407380 Reply
>>407370
enjoy the router reset/VPN change

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