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Don't want to start a fresh thread, so I guess I'll bump this as it's the last nutmeg realated one...
This quarantine I did nutmeg again after 1,5 years since the last time I tried to eat it. On 17th of March I consumed around 12grams. Unlike my past times, I crushed the nuts into small pill-sized swallowable pieces and ate as much as I could, chasing them with water. It was awfully underwhelming, as I only ate so much and poor absorbtion in the gut was caused by the large size of the chunks (compared to shredded nut material). Light short term memory and cognitive impairments were notable, but not much else besides that. My usual visual snow was intensified a bit and my night vision was quite bad. Can't say that I felt high, at least not the majority of the time. Can't remember much cottonmouth either. It was a pretty chill day regardless.
Today, 3rd of April, I purchased nutmeg mace (see pic), which is an orangeish thing that covers the nut as it grows. I found it to be much more paletable, it's tase is smilair to the nuts', but it's not quite as potent. It being more chewy and soft made it much easier to eat. I'd chew on them for a bit before swallowing, and smaller amounts were even swallowablw without additional water!!
According to exactly one entry I found on Erowid yesterday (maybe Bluelight, but most likely Erowid), mace is twice as potent as the nuts. I consumed 10g of mace and the intensity was comparable to 20g of nuts from where I used to buy them a few years ago. It seemed to hit a bit faster and peak around 4-6 hours after consumption (compared to ~9 hour on nuts). Due to the earlier peak, I may have started coming down into the plateau earlier as well. Other than that, it's a standard nutmeg experience.
I played some vidya, read Dostoevsky, went out for a walk in the forset in the evening. Nature seemed very beautiful and much more alive than in the past months. I thought about my past for a while and the emotional impact of thoughts seemed to be intensified compared to my sober self. It was a great experience, although I did fell a bit more anxiety than I would in the past. Occasionally I'd feel a bit nervous and uncomfortable, thinking about what I should be doing in the given moment. I'm probably just getting old or am more burnt out than I'd like to be for my age.
I still have 40g of this stuff, but I told myself I won't touch it for at least a month. Untill the 13th of March I spent one day short of 22 weeks sober (onyl drugs I consumed were tobacco, tea, coffee and very occasional caffeine pills). Being intoxicated again... is good and bad I guess. I don't feel as comfortable as I used to, but the anxiety is manageable. Just more empirical evidence that I shouldn't go ham on consumption of psychoactives again.
Peace out, stay safe y'all