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BWS by Sophie Cerringchure - Fri, 19 Apr 2013 03:08:25 EST ID:cLmtTVud No.20893 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Bump while sober. Didn't see any thread of this kind in here and thought it could be of some help for those trying to quit.

I'm not quitting but just taking a pause from weed. Haven't really smoked in 10 days (not counting those 4 hits I tooks from a friends spliff at a party while drunk)

>tell your reasons and how long it's been.

I just want weed to be more like a treat and not a everyday normal thing. After the pose I'm gonna lower my smoking to about once or twice a week.

pic not related
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Edwin Brookham - Fri, 03 May 2013 20:27:22 EST ID:w5ZSMocU No.21333 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>21162
update (hope you guys are doing alright as well) used 40mg of my stim Rx for classes this week. still no opi, had a single pack of cigs (lasted all of a day) ... usually I smoke like crazy but eh not this time, nor did I drink myself stupid, take xanax or hutt stuff my face. after that pack of cigs nothing- just a lot of off-kilter writing
11 days/30
>>21171
I think weed does increase your imagination but also stunts or inhibits dreams (pretty sure ambien does too) so when they do come back the adjustments your brain made in response (lower levels of a neurotransmitter = greater numbers of receptors is the key in this case I believe) it makes those dreams return with so much greater intensity
>>21229
that sounds like what I went through the first couple of days too, but the soreness is... odd. definitely worth checking out; /opi/ will probably tell you to come here but this board gets so much less traffic
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Charlotte Dorrynat - Fri, 03 May 2013 22:15:44 EST ID:yzRUXwMp No.21335 Ignore Report Quick Reply
trying to take a year off alcohol. I'm sober...

I don't really think 420chan is the best place to hang out, since /detox/ seems to be 80% people asking how to pass drug tests while still using.

circlejerk is a decent place, they have subs like /r/stopdrinking and /r/leaves etc.
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Isabella Clommerman - Sun, 05 May 2013 11:11:35 EST ID:ri0LEz7G No.21357 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21346
After one week you start to get your mental sharpness back. After 2 weeks you're already over it, and after one month is like nothing ever happened.
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Nell Sadgebire - Sun, 05 May 2013 14:20:34 EST ID:DE+ba5Ei No.21359 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21346
Replace old hobbie with new ones. Read good books and watch good movies, hang out with old friends. Work out maybe, even if its just light it will make you feel good.
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Snickle Fritz - Sun, 05 May 2013 15:15:06 EST ID:pSZMqeq4 No.21360 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893

2 weeks today abstaining from weed. day 2 of no cigarettes. The marijuana was quit so I could find a fucking job (UGH) and the cigarettes were something I've been trying to quit for years. I turn 22 in a couple days which means that I'll have been a smoker for 5 years. I don't need the false temporary relief that comes with a cigarette. Also, a HUGE wake-up call was yesterday morning when I woke up at 6 AM gasping and choking on phlegm, tar, and god knows what the fuck else. That's NEVER happened. I attribute it to the fact of quitting smoking both at the same time. But it really woke me up (literally and figuratively), not being able to breathe. Also , I rather enjoy the freedom from Nicotine, and I actually enjoy the clear-headedness from my T-break! I plan on smoking pot again, but only at the end of the night before bed. And not daily, if possible.
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Lydia Crobbleshit - Sun, 05 May 2013 16:45:43 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.21361 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bumpin while sober

What do you guys do to keep your mind off drugs?
I'm trying to quit drinking, weed, and drugs. I'm 18 and still live at home, and whenever i'm home alone all I can think about is taking some liquor or just anything I can get like taking my moms cigs, or looking through cabinets for pills.
I'm depressed and have ADHD so i'm finding it really fucking hard to entertain myself.
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Nathaniel Chunnershit - Sun, 05 May 2013 17:29:53 EST ID:+s8fxAZr No.21362 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day three of full blown heroin withdrawl, cold turkey after a year and 2 months of daily use (of opiates in general, heroin mostly for this last month). I spent the last 2 nights kicking and thrashing and swearing and crying on the couch because I couldn't sleep, even with 100 mg of seroquel. My whole body hurts so bad...down to the bones. I'm cold under blankets and it's 70+ degrees out. No alcohol, no clonidine, no benzos...nothing to make it better. It's fucking unbearable.

I seriously want to die. I'm doing this because I need to get my head on straight and start actually accomplishing shit before I lose my girlfriend, my apartment and everything else I even remotely value in life.
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Martha Bricklefure - Sun, 05 May 2013 17:55:09 EST ID:68dRq3tl No.21365 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21362

10 months clean to the day from opiates here. I kicked a couple year long IV heroin habit cold turkey at my parents house last July. I had clonidine, seroquel, hydroxyzine, and ambien for comfort meds, but no comfort was provided. At all. It sucked for like 2 weeks and it slowly got better. My advice is to just stick it out because it will get better very soon if you're on day 3. trust me, i've kicked many times. Good luck man and I truly feel for ya.
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Phineas Gottingson - Sun, 05 May 2013 20:12:08 EST ID:tUDlTmfe No.21366 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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literally an 18 yr old senior, living with parents, dad found my pipe and baggy. I guess it was for the best, he didn't tell anyone else and just dissapointed and worried I'd follow the path of one of my cousins that got addicted to coke and heroin. so I could probably continue to smoke, just be more discreet about it (I got lazy hence how he found it) but I thought that a period of absolute sobriety (I mean 100%, I stopped drinking soda and coffee) could do me some good, at least until summer starts and I have less obligations at school, and I could smoke some weed every once in a blue moon, sort of a treat. but at this point I'm just rambling, so to wrap things up, bump while sober.
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Fuck Pickstone - Fri, 10 May 2013 09:33:18 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.21442 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
BWS
it's been 6 days.
let me tell you, if you are like I was and your friends pretty much just do drugs or drink for fun it's pretty hard to quit. I tried to quit for a while it was really hard, but since now I have a friend in my group who is also quitting it's a lot easier. No pressure to drink or anything cause I can just chill with him, and when your sober around a bunch of fucked up people it can be pretty fun being smart lol. Not saying to take advantage of your friends, but my friend was so high/drunk that he gave me 15 dollars to drive to the gas station 1 mile away to buy him a bag of chips and said keep the change, he didn't even remember in the morning lmao.
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Hugh Didgecocke - Thu, 16 May 2013 01:23:55 EST ID:ZwDridft No.21547 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm two and a half months sober. I was using ketamine almost daily, mdma every week and meth every weekend as well, and was starting to get hooked on benzos. I've been doing pretty well, I've removed myself from my drug using friends and I'm working out heaps. I am smoking lots of ciggies though, but I guess it's better than doing stupid amounts of k every night.
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Jack Croshmack - Sat, 18 May 2013 02:35:33 EST ID:QuosQ1hj No.21566 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Sober as fuck BWS!

im just taking a break from my everyday smoking, get that tolerance down and remain clear headed for my exams in a month so i had my last sesh yesterday. I have a mate who is stopping with me so i don't have as much temptation for it.

Gonna try and use this sober time productively like work out, eat healthier, get back my motivation and just experience life sober for a change.
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Thomas Drinderford - Sun, 19 May 2013 23:48:59 EST ID:aGaTBvOy No.21575 Ignore Report Quick Reply
aww shit bws. ive cut back on my nicotine habit, started at 14? 21 now and ive cut down from a pack a day to a couple black and milds. i know not much better but its working, slowly. also day 3 of no weed, stopped because im broke, and it sucks going from everyday multiple times a day to sober. it sucks.

i think ill reduce my mj intake to maybe just nightly or every other day instead of 24/7 blaze it.

i get paid friday, and i should start 2 new jobs this week so i can feel better about myself having money and a good work schedule...
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Rebecca Dinnerfoot - Mon, 20 May 2013 10:08:32 EST ID:CQ0KL2OP No.21576 Ignore Report Quick Reply
on a tolerance break for two weeks, 13 days in now, and tomorrow evening i will be smoking, listening to Helios and watching the sun setting. ah, i relax even from thinking about it.
have been working out for the time too plus a diet , lost 3 kg. would this make any noticeable difference in smoking?
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Fanny Finnerkure - Wed, 22 May 2013 17:23:15 EST ID:4Grcy4wk No.21610 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Out of nowhere, several people with computer problems have asked for my help. They hook me up with joints and shit. Makes it hard to be sober for any 24 hour period because of my shitty willpower. Seems that even if I don't buy it it gets in my face. I know I can just say no, but goddamn they were well-rolled and smelled delicious.
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Esther Bonnerfod - Fri, 24 May 2013 18:50:41 EST ID:7LkjVvnx No.21635 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>21630
Good luck !
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Nicholas Heddlecocke - Sun, 26 May 2013 14:35:33 EST ID:TzEb6vRz No.21650 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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may we all succeed in our endeavors, and may the eternal sun shine upon us all!
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Angus Trotbanks - Sun, 26 May 2013 23:46:15 EST ID:dOj06f4W No.21656 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21229 you'll get over it pretty soon, if you tapper off it's not too bad, you don't get major withdraws, i'm currtley on a sub taper, i got like a week left till i'm done, and i'm kind of excited to be clean haha
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Jarvis Brondlehudge - Mon, 27 May 2013 01:50:26 EST ID:PnUh4Pur No.21657 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this is like when i would bump a BWN thread because i was about to go get high.

I shot up my last one less than an hour ago, rehab tomorrow, 2-3 weeks, then fucking life again.

i started painting warhammer as a fun hobby again, if anyone's into tabletop gaming or modelling, it's pretty perfect for one or both.

but i'm also looking for more things to get into, so if anyone has a good suggestion to counter mine it'd be good. Another good one for people like us who've spent 2+ years under a rock is look into Game Of Thrones, I'm sure that if you started reading the first book after your last shot, by the time you were finished the series it's be the end of withdrawals.

Bump while sober is a really great idea- and people should be upbeat, prove that you and I can be very happy sober. It should be sustained.
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Nigger Clettinghall - Wed, 29 May 2013 15:06:41 EST ID:ROltQPH5 No.21698 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21692

I hear ya brother

I have cut my weed intake down to only weekends, and from wednesdays I start to get impatient
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Nathaniel Smallman - Wed, 29 May 2013 15:18:13 EST ID:aw0Kqw2g No.21699 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21698
I'm a drinker, but no matter what the substance, we all have similar hurdles.
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Betsy Dimmerstone - Thu, 30 May 2013 17:29:22 EST ID:ebC9vVq0 No.21720 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>21630
And after several failed attempts, I am currently on day 2 of no alcohol. It's a start.
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Phoebe Blorryson - Mon, 03 Jun 2013 12:09:38 EST ID:81IblUDM No.21749 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21743
Does poppy tea actually work?
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Samuel Hellercocke - Tue, 04 Jun 2013 13:05:29 EST ID:Iibk3uOW No.21756 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Going into a detox station in Iceland (Vogur) next Monday for six weeks because I got thrown out from home for smoking weed two months ago. I aint got no money, owe a shitload to the wrong people and have been staying at guesthouses for the last two months, almost living on the street if I hadn't gotten a loan from a mate. Even had to stay three nights at the police station in a cell there without anything but a bench and a blanket last month. Basically a guy that smokes weed 3-4 times a week and speed every month. Reply to this if you're trying to quit in Iceland!
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Martin Niggerman - Tue, 04 Jun 2013 17:09:11 EST ID:lPHAo0Pr No.21764 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Trying to find a job. Vigorous exercise and lots of water, fruit and antioxidants for two weeks. I hope I'm clean by now
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Jenny Wingerchid - Wed, 05 Jun 2013 23:23:50 EST ID:QQYWsUZy No.21770 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21751
I'm trying to kick dope too, I've been strung out a little over a year now. Suboxone helps a ton.
I've been trying to "quit" for months but would indulge occasionally, just recently I decided to stop because I'm always stressed about being broke when even using once a week would take half of my paycheck.
I don't think at this time in my life I can use opiates without getting addicted, too much stress.
Every emotion has to be met with brown, I need to learn to stop being a pussy and remember how I would cope with shit before, instead of just using.
Still smoke weed though...

I hope you guys are doing well.
Don't relapse.
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sinister !1yH/qSM.uA - Thu, 06 Jun 2013 17:41:42 EST ID:7u1udPOU No.21774 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Medicated detox hurr, day 7 off morphine. Not that the clonidine, seroquel and valium gave me a second of relief. Those fucking legs man. But today I won't use drugs, even if my conscious thoughts say that's bullshit, I'm surrendered to the fact that thinking and NEEDing to use is just my retard mid brain bombarding my frontal lobe with glutamate because it's convinced shooting up is essential for my survival. Tru fax. Enjoy sobriety , life, again brothers
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Nell Driblingham - Thu, 06 Jun 2013 19:28:24 EST ID:vTp8OZR7 No.21775 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Another day without booze. Kept busy. Reading the Hitchiker's guide to the galaxy. Going to buy Sleeping Dogs tomorrow. Hope I can beat the psychological cravings when they come knocking though.
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Nell Craddleman - Sat, 08 Jun 2013 13:44:46 EST ID:7xycY3/O No.21790 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21775
Had 2 beers but stopping there. Getting drunk isn't worth it. Not worth the hangover, not worth the calories. It's hard to stop once I've started though. Will keep you updated on what happens.
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Nell Craddleman - Sat, 08 Jun 2013 13:48:30 EST ID:7xycY3/O No.21791 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21778
Shit man. You must be strong to come off something so hard. Hope you're feeling better bro.
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zach erm I mean dave - Sun, 09 Jun 2013 16:20:15 EST ID:cknYghzh No.21796 Ignore Report Quick Reply
so I'm sober again for lack of decent drugs
but I want to do something with my life other than this
I think that must be the trick, doing something with your life.
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sinister !1yH/qSM.uA - Wed, 12 Jun 2013 02:14:43 EST ID:g2XFK3YR No.21826 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21778
Check out the thread about people's experience on opi at the moment, the tldr is that unless you're avery special snowflake, you can be happy clean and off all meds. They've done so many trials with clinically depressed addicts that showed getting clean almost evaporated nine out of ten of their mental illness , and that even in those who are still depressed after6months, gentle exercise routines were a lot more effective than any meds.

still sober here, na meetings make it impossible to use if you go every day. An hour aday too much? Well, then iguess the4hours waiting for your dealer was abreeze.
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Archie Sinderdare - Wed, 12 Jun 2013 13:11:43 EST ID:ebC9vVq0 No.21831 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>21720
well last week didn't really pan out but this week i am currently on day 4 of complete sobriety. feels good. the first couple days without alcohol were the hardest, felt so pissed off. starting to feel good about having willpower though.
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dave - Sat, 15 Jun 2013 12:48:30 EST ID:cknYghzh No.21854 Ignore Report Quick Reply
it's all good, I've been able to smoke less weed since I stopped buying lots of the stuff, now just when I chill at my friends house.
I've been working as a bartender and somehow not really drinking either.
Things are on the up & up for me, so long as I maintain focus and integrity.
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Gravelander !5eQC79TCrs - Tue, 18 Jun 2013 16:18:56 EST ID:GR4FQs33 No.21886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21873
what a great post - keep going on, this is the way.

and yeah, it's really just for today - this was a great day for me, I wish you all the best guys.

I'm being sober from everything till months and it's going better and better.
... and I've never imagined that I'll ever be healed of depressions - but you can't imagine all the good things that will come to you when staying sober for each fucking day.

fuck yeah!
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Luxinbuts, Fuxinsluts - Thu, 20 Jun 2013 12:14:16 EST ID:ofCtoo95 No.21895 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS fosho!

Recovering from years of poly-drug use, mainly concentrated in IV Opiate (heroin, pills, etc) use, hallucinogens, and occasional stimulants.

I have about a week of complete sobriety, though in an essence, it extends far beyond that. I've used MXE or Ketamine 3 times since deciding to make drastic changes in my life (typically one night every 30 days). I have about 10 weeks of abstinence from heroin, and followed suit with /benz/, /weed/, /mdma/, /hooch/, /stim/, and /psy/.

I know it's shiesty to try and boast a sober-length when there has been some drug use, but I am extremely proud of the progress I HAVE made, and seem to continue making. I work two jobs (which I've never done....hell, drugs were my career for the past couple of years), regularly go to the gym (very therapeutic and has helped with my opinions on self-image, and given optimism in attaining desired goals), have taken the time to do some daily reading and meditation and attend 12-step meetings when I have extra time in my day. I think I try to stay attached to Ketamine because it's always been such a peculiar and unpredictable drug, and interesting for my personality. I do notice if it counter-acts my interests in maintaining my current routine, so that's helped me not use it much more frequently.

Anyways, I'm sober today, and I do enjoy the clarity, and I think that's mostly what sobriety is anyway. Unadulterated self, free of influence through substance. Rationality outweighing the irrationality. Getting more and more aware of how much easier it is to attain that without any drug use at all, and how easy it can be just NOT to use drugs. Feelsgoodman
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Rooster - Sun, 23 Jun 2013 22:30:54 EST ID:eqBGUjfx No.21932 Ignore Report Quick Reply
127 days. That is all.
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Angus Lightstone - Mon, 24 Jun 2013 01:13:08 EST ID:cknYghzh No.21933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I am sober.
~Peace
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Faggy Fenningham - Wed, 26 Jun 2013 16:48:12 EST ID:Zw75P9xW No.21969 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21875

Here again, with bad news.

I just can't stay sober, I can't take it anymore. Last night I had a ketamine binge and now I'm on it again. I hate myself.
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Jarvis Pamblebid - Thu, 27 Jun 2013 21:26:55 EST ID:TIssdkaJ No.21979 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21969
Relax man. We've all relapsed. Probably everyone here. Hating yourself is exactly the way to get yourself hooked. Fuck your beautiful ex and anyone who 's ever given you shit. You don't owe anything to anyone. You're doing this for yourself and because you simply can and want to do this. Just start over, It'll be easier this time around.
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Edwin Pemmlestick - Tue, 02 Jul 2013 17:23:11 EST ID:NbWm0308 No.22023 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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it's been less than 45 minutes and i'm already craving

fuck this shit man
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Oliver Sattingpon - Tue, 02 Jul 2013 21:43:31 EST ID:xRWjFRtA No.22024 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893

I haven't smoked weed since June 16 because I have to pass a piss test for a job. I just got the email that I have to take the test within three days so I just gave myself an at home drug test. Results are pictured. I can't wait to smoke weed tomorrow!!!
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Charles Wimmlestit - Wed, 03 Jul 2013 03:40:27 EST ID:WrZelnSc No.22029 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22024
Unless it's a sensitive job, refuse jobs that test. My opinion.
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Charles Wimmlestit - Wed, 03 Jul 2013 04:48:27 EST ID:WrZelnSc No.22033 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22023
delete picture,
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Phineas Sengerbat - Sat, 06 Jul 2013 14:29:08 EST ID:LviQJWXm No.22060 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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bamp
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Ebenezer Wishforth - Tue, 16 Jul 2013 13:47:04 EST ID:R8jniG2l No.22150 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've reached a critical point in my life and I need to drop all my addictions. This is going to be hell.

Also, bumping a good thread.
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Molly Pingerfadge - Tue, 16 Jul 2013 19:13:51 EST ID:+eyG5EVg No.22152 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm trying to get a job so I've been off about a month and a half now. Last night I bought some for a friend I haven't seen in a while. I was drunk, and she was smoking some sweet shit in front of me, and I didn't cave in! Fuckin' tore me apart not to do it, though.

mfw she kept offering me hits
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Nigel Pivingway - Wed, 17 Jul 2013 00:22:30 EST ID:MxWjvuGW No.22154 Ignore Report Quick Reply
sober of everything since late May. feels good, i like being able to say that I've been clean for that long of a time. I remember before I had ever taken anything, I was always a little bit proud to of never done anything and having stayed clean. But I think it was a good learning experience for me honestly. Got to try drugs I've always wanted to try, got to see things in different perspectives and I feel that while doing such things aren't always looked up to by society, I flew under the radar and was never caught by anyone I didn't do it with. I feel its time to get clean now, I have a gf now, going to college soon, its time to reclaim my life and find a way to get away from my problems without the use of drugs. I feel I never fully will considering I'm schizophrenic, so it basically makes it nearly impossible to live a truly normal life, hopefully I can soon find a new crutch that isn't self-destructive. Sorry, I feel this might be related to the whole BWS thread, maybe its not and I'm just going on and on. But hey, speaking out about things is a part of staying healthier, right?

tl;dr good luck for all of you on your road to recovery, better times are ahead
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Augustus Hingerhitch - Wed, 17 Jul 2013 23:01:56 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22164 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS
Quitting alcohol, weed, porn, and any other drugs. because my life is shit. Severe anxiety, no emotions, constant mind fog, depersonalization, no interests other than drugs, and just feel stupid.

Anyone else quitting psychological addictions, how long before you start feeling any better? Or start thinking clearly, or notice any kind of changes? Because right now I've been trying to quit for a while but always end up relapsing within a week because I just feel like shit the whole time.
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Ernest Smallfield - Thu, 18 Jul 2013 18:58:56 EST ID:za8LSzvF No.22174 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22164
you sound like me.

Quitting cannabis, mdma, mushrooms, acid. Used to take all of em all the time.

Got so jaded about life I turned the whole world against me. Just cut all my old drug ties and am looking forward to new beginnings.
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Betsy Sibberhood - Thu, 18 Jul 2013 20:04:30 EST ID:za8LSzvF No.22175 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22174
2 days clean off weed, about a month since my last trip, and 2 months since I rolled.

I'm already feeling much more clear headed than I was, though I'm still very self-conscious and alienated from everything. I've left my old friend group because I was causing so much harm to them....
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James Pittfoot - Mon, 19 Aug 2013 15:53:12 EST ID:A23WpzOG No.22419 Ignore Report Quick Reply
4th day in detox. Taking a break from /dis/, /hooch/, /stim/, /psy/ and /weed/, trying to get a job and some kind of stable life. I hope I can achieve something, otherwise I'll just have another proof for my shitty personality, but I already managed to do some paperwork and stuff...we'll see
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Fuck Bebberspear - Mon, 19 Aug 2013 21:07:42 EST ID:hGcfhLCE No.22424 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Reading through these posts, I feel so jealous. I don't think I'm a full blown alcoholic but I'm on my way. Like, when I have to I don't freak out about abstaining but I would greatly prefer not to abstain if possible. I'm one fuck up away from a full blown problem.

When I read the stuff you guys write, I think "Damn, I would not want to have five days sober. What shitty days those would be."

Yay psychological addiction.
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Samuel Grandwater - Tue, 20 Aug 2013 06:35:00 EST ID:a0kJ+sRv No.22426 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22173
I'm on my second day of cold Turkey iv heroin withdrawal, what can you suggest to do to fill the time when I'm not sleeping or using and craving fucking hard? I want to beat this and have wanted to for the longest time, it's just getting through this I have the hardest time with.
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Samuel Hinningshit - Thu, 22 Aug 2013 15:36:33 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22443 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS
Sober 4 days. Quitting everything because of extreme anxiety and depersonalization. Basically my mind runs in circles all day everyday about pointless shit, like convincing myself I have schizophrenia or autism. I still think I might have aspergers, but then again I didn't really have any problem with my life before I was getting drunk or high or watching porn all day. Whatever. Doing a full mental reboot, no mind altering anything, and cutting back Internet.
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Caroline Dodgeman - Sun, 25 Aug 2013 08:14:05 EST ID:2SvuiPl3 No.22458 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS (Sort of)

First time ever here, no weed for about two weeks. Except since Friday night, when I got to so bored I tried smoking some resin scraped from the inside of my bongs stem.
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Basil Bunderchock - Mon, 26 Aug 2013 07:46:10 EST ID:0occxAwH No.22465 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm on day 2 of an indefinite t-break. Just until I feel like smoking again!
I feel like I have become attached to weed and I don't like that. I spend most of my wages on drugs, leaving no money for everything else. I lost a gram of weed the other night on my way home and I was so pissed off at myself for a half hour or so and then I realised...

It's a gram of plant matter. The fuck am I crying about? So I started a t-break. Wish me luck
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Z.O.O. !TXMF.b2teU - Mon, 26 Aug 2013 11:08:22 EST ID:hg/ooGbf No.22466 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ugh... Day two on an indefinite hiatus from heroin... I start school today but I feel like HELL... I have ONE Subutex that I've broken up into 8 pieces, so far I've needed to snort maybe 3 of those pieces, and I still feel pretty shitty. Slept like shit last night, waking up with the cold, stale sweat in my bed and covering my body... I am so fucking sick of my mind doing the whole "should I or shouldn't I?"...

I did really well for a while, I was clean for like, a month and two weeks, then I relapsed, then had 5 days, then relapsed, then I was on the shit again for another two weeks... So I guess I'm not really going through THAT bad of WD because I had only used for a couple weeks. And I can't technically say I'm "clean" because I do have a tiny bit of Subutex BARELY holding me and keeping me physically well enough to go function at school today... Wish me luck, fuckin a, I certainly need it...
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Dave !N5MvbCntdE - Mon, 26 Aug 2013 17:58:14 EST ID:TEdtJTPN No.22472 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sober today, mostly because I have no weed or other decent drugs.
Apathy is keeping me from seeing a dealer right now
Which I suppose is better than being motivated and strung out,,,
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Edward Cuggleworth - Tue, 27 Aug 2013 08:48:55 EST ID:Oj9YzrjD No.22477 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS.

I know it's only weed but I definitely feel like I'm getting a mental addiction to it from smoking daily, like I feel like I fucking need to smoke before bed or even in the day which sucks dick and it's also fucking with my head a little (crazy brain fog and confusion). I'm thinking a month or 2 will do the trick, can anyone confirm this? I've also been drinking a lot recently so I'm going to try and jump off the booze wagon for a bit too, probably for the same amount of time with weed. In this time I'll also be stopping MDMA and cough syrup guzzlin', the MDMA i can easily stop for a month or 2, but the cough syrup has been turning into more of a weekly thing and I really don't want that. Essentially I don't want to feel the need to get fucked up anymore, it's taking away from what I truely enjoy in life. So yeah, a small break to all of these things so I can go back to them with a different perspective. Best of luck y'all.
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Petty White - Tue, 27 Aug 2013 12:04:28 EST ID:3dxbmPEn No.22478 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Been smoking every single day, all day for the past month or so, and it's been nice. The issue that I've been having is when I realized that I was running low, I would be upset and annoyed. Like, not like punching holes in the wall upset, but just bummed that I couldn't get high anymore. And realizing that I gave a shit that much of running out of weed really really scared me. I want to take at least a month off, because not only do I need to reset my priorities, but if I take a month and give it at least a month, I will be in sync to smoke the day I go to Rock The Bells.

So, today is my first day, and I can't get it off of my mind. My fiance plans to pick up a quarter or an eighth today and I figure that if I can hold out until that eighth or quarter is gone, without smoking any of it, I can get through anything.

And who knows, if it goes well enough, I can do the ultimate goal early, which was going to be that the first day I smoke in 2014 would be 4/20.

Thank you for not making me feel alone in this. Good luck to you guys.

BWS
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Rebecca Mattingmin - Tue, 27 Aug 2013 16:12:08 EST ID:32G3zzL4 No.22483 Ignore Report Quick Reply
13 Days sober, goes pretty good right til now
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Samuel Shakefield - Thu, 29 Aug 2013 03:15:12 EST ID:AGPOHW5D No.22492 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Haven't smoked in weeks cause no money, no job
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Nell Blinkinwill - Sun, 01 Sep 2013 21:47:29 EST ID:NWGICUIN No.22514 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I am sober from a 3 month poppy seed tea binge. Tomorrows day 7 and I'm hoping for more than an hour of sleep tonight. Not looking forward to PAWS for the next few months.
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Molly Bunhood - Mon, 02 Sep 2013 03:33:55 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22515 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS (this is a great thread btw)
Been sober 6 days now. Quitting because of psychological addiction to getting high. I don't have a regular substance (although alcohol is probably the biggest one), I just always feel the need to take whatever drugs i can get my hands on. Mostly quitting because drugs are all I know now. I literally have no other interests anymore. I realized my life is completely centered around drugs, all my friends are just smoking or drinking buddies. It's almost like I'm not addicted to the feeling they give me, more like I just don't know what to do without drugs because they've been like a hobby to me for so long that I don't remember what people even do in their spare time. I've been trying to quit for a while now but I wasn't taking it seriously (I'd make it two days and say "I'll just have one drink to help me relax" then I end up saying after I drank it "well, I already broke my streak, might as well go all out" then I'll get really drunk and ill rationalize anything in my head. "I'm already drunk, might as well smoke some weed"), now I think I'm finally determined enough to quit long enough to gain some perspective. During the week it's pretty easy, I feel like shit cause I sleep like shit and my anxiety is through the roof at school, but I'm too preoccupied to worry about drugs. It's weekends that are rough. This is the first weekend I've made it through sober in I don't even know how long, it was tough because every time I've tried to quit I've never made it through a weekend, but now I think my mind is starting to accept that I'm serious this time. I hung out with two friends and they smoked weed all night and kept offering hits, and I was tempted, but I actually said no and after I felt really proud of myself. I feel like this is the beginning of an entirely new me, because everything about who I have been has been centered around me saying yes to the drugs. I'm not scared of quitting anymore.
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Reuben Dopperlen - Wed, 04 Sep 2013 13:24:53 EST ID:BYFOFDl4 No.22531 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I want a job with a railroad comps need. In on day 3 and everything is bland and meh.. maybe thee money will be worth my TMJ pain and boredom...
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Hannah Charringbanks - Sat, 14 Sep 2013 01:34:55 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22618 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS.
Been sober for 4 hours. I realized today how fucking destructive my drug habits are. Over the past 3 years (mostly this past year) I have successfully destroyed every relationship with anyone. The "friends" I have now I have literally never hung out with sober except when waiting for a dealer. 3 years ago I had a ton of friends, some close friends, and even some girlfriends. Now I have no one. Today has been a wake up call that I need to get serious about my efforts to quit and quit everything. Just looking back on my attempts at quitting and I feel like a fucking idiot. I tried to quit weed, started taking Molly and shrooms and drinking more. Tried to quit drinking and smoking weed, I pick up smoking cigs using adderall and taking kratom daily. I need to stop fucking bullshitting myself. No pills, weed, alcohol, legal highs, fucking nothing until I have a life again.
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Samuel Pittshit - Thu, 19 Sep 2013 19:07:50 EST ID:lIhCpTAZ No.22661 Ignore Report Quick Reply
you know what really sucks? relapsing right before you get your 2 year coin
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The Phramacologist - Thu, 19 Sep 2013 21:02:34 EST ID:7jOPgDB9 No.22662 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I stay sober because I work in the health field now. It kind of sucks because weed really helped me cope with my gastritis, but I'm getting by just fine otherwise.
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Phineas Devingmere - Sat, 21 Sep 2013 04:09:11 EST ID:jCt5SQwV No.22670 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22666
i know that feel bro . been fighting with this habbit since forever ;/
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Nigger Claygold - Mon, 23 Sep 2013 10:38:55 EST ID:yzRUXwMp No.22691 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22688
My sister told me. She had been taking care of my dad who was bedridden. One of his medications was hydrocodone and she's been taking some of his for at least a year.
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Lydia Chashridge - Tue, 24 Sep 2013 11:10:05 EST ID:9R8taImU No.22697 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>22695
Congratz, man! My best friend from highschool is now 2 months sober from H, you can do it!

I'm now 2 weeks sober from anything (weed, alcohol, hallucinogens; my vices) and enjoying my new hobbies so far. I'm still chilling with all the same friends because I didn't go the "elitist born-again holier-tha-thou" route and ditch buds for straight edge friends, but would like to maintain my sobriety indefinitely (I have underlying mental illness which drugs bring out.)

HOLLA AT MY OTHER SOBER 420CHANNERS! I FUCKING LOVE THIS IMAGEBOARD NO MATTER WHAT! BWS!!!
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Frederick Gaggleford - Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:26:38 EST ID:cz2PBO4e No.22698 Ignore Report Quick Reply
2 days have gone by with no illegal drugs. went to a methadone clinic and they took me in... started me off with 20mg and going to taper down to 10mg.

big wake up call for me now. going back to being sober and living life again. i want out and am not going back!

BWS!
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Sophie Drillykudge - Wed, 25 Sep 2013 11:36:05 EST ID:nhRPOgxu No.22705 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>22673

It's funny you mention Easy Way, I have the book, at it was what got me to stop smoking for two months. Perhaps I should give it an honest re-read. Sadly, I had that Just One Cigarette moment, and it spiraled me back to where I was.

It's been 11 days now, and somehow I've made it this far. Still get cravings now and then. Had massive allergies, but now they're gone and the cough is back. Hoping it goes away soon.
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Priscilla Pickdale - Sat, 28 Sep 2013 07:24:13 EST ID:i/FDkFJG No.22716 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22419
here
45 Days clean now. easy peasy.
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Jack Crodgeluck - Sat, 28 Sep 2013 15:28:22 EST ID:S5CuwKYK No.22718 Ignore Report Quick Reply
for me its easy to quit weed or alcohol , but how in the fuck youre supposed to quit nicotine? its like i tryed so many times , but got back to it eventually , longest was 2months . when im back to it i just start to smoke even more then before... 23year old loser
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Walter Moblingbudge - Sat, 28 Sep 2013 18:14:19 EST ID:Cnm0HN7w No.22721 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i smoke rarely compared to most of the people here, mostly because i live in country that is like a cave when it comes to getting decent stuff around here.
its either really low quality weed which almost don't qualify or spice.
times when i can get real weed i treasure as fuck even tho i forget all the trip and nice feels the next day, at least i know i fucking tripped as i wanted to with full immersion and that's the way i smoke my stuff, even spice.
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Phineas Cinderstune - Sun, 29 Sep 2013 16:21:46 EST ID:H50/e3VW No.22726 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I can't do this anymore. I can't do any chemicals at all. After a particularly bad LSA trip, where my soul was revealed, I saw that drugs and alcohol make me into a monster. No more.
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Hedda Sucklehall - Sun, 29 Sep 2013 18:43:40 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22728 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS
havent smoked weed in 24 days, haven't drank in 10 days.
i'm happy cause i've made it this far but i'm just so fucking bored. i don't know what the fuck to do with myself. all i do is play video games all day cause i don't know what i want to do. like i just want to do something, but i don't know what. i can't really hang out with my friends cause all they do is smoke weed. i mean i'm starting to get some motivation back but no direction at all. i don't even know what music i like or how i want my hair cut. im staying optimistic though, because i am starting to feel better. hopefully this boredom and loss of direction is just a phase.
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David Miblingsire - Tue, 01 Oct 2013 23:46:28 EST ID:dCxv0mJY No.22744 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No job
No car
No money
No friends
College drop out, been heavy drinker for 12-13 years, tried most drugs, but alcohol is easiest one to abuse, I can't afford to drink but always end up drinking some how.
Spending all my money on booze isn't working out so going to try being sober, max 1-2 beers a day.
Last few beers was Sunday, going to aim for 6 weeks sober, longest I ever done was 7 days.
Exercise helps.
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ASSHOLE JUNKIE - Thu, 03 Oct 2013 15:23:25 EST ID:nUMOI2UY No.22756 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22747

bump while stoned
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Thomas Nurringford - Sat, 05 Oct 2013 16:04:02 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22769 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bumping while sober. I'm up to 30 days without weed, and I haven't drank in 21 days.
Now I'm going to quit porn too. Quitting the drink and the smoke was difficult at first difficult but now is pretty easy, porn is going to be a fucking challenge.
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Lydia Biddledale - Sat, 05 Oct 2013 17:32:17 EST ID:2W8PwlBr No.22772 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
Ive smoked for about 4 years now. Since starting to smoke ive been becoming more and more reclusive. Ive always had social anxiety and though weed was helping it, but now im that stereotypical stoner that sits inside and plays video games and watches tv all day. Figured it was time for me to get out into the world and find myself a girl. Live life, you know?

The last few weeks Ive been making some initial changes to get me going. I cut back from 3 blunts a day to 1 hit a night. Drinking shit tons of water, and going to the gym every 2-3 days. Last night I finished what I had left and did a detox. Im feeling great, but cant stop pissing/shitting.

Also I had a DWI a few years back. I need to get sober so I can get my license back anyways so it all works out.

I'm doing this just for my own health and well being. If anyone wants to know if this (pic related) will allow you to pass a drug test, I can go buy a test later tonight
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Alice Hocklelore - Sat, 05 Oct 2013 17:53:46 EST ID:nD5qla/3 No.22773 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Taking my first step of a 1 month goal from using /dis/.

I need to man up and face the real world for a change.
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question dude - Mon, 07 Oct 2013 05:42:54 EST ID:mwO51+pA No.22785 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22773

can you tell me about addiction from /dis/?
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Basil Gopperhut - Tue, 08 Oct 2013 23:25:52 EST ID:1iob10+o No.22800 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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BWS stay strong everyone!! we're all here for you
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Henry Crubberridge - Sat, 12 Oct 2013 08:22:45 EST ID:LABlc81f No.22820 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22716
60 Days. Feeling rather shitty, a good friend died. Not going to drink.
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Beatrice Fundermog - Sat, 12 Oct 2013 15:58:27 EST ID:68dRq3tl No.22822 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Two weeks without weed today. My cousin who usually supplies me didn't answer his phone one night after work, so I just said fuck it i'll just stop. Haven't smoked since. I don't get drug tested or anything and I already have a job, just figured I'd give it a break because I was smoking way too much weed. No real desire to go back. We'll see what happens in these next couple weeks. BWS brothers!
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ASSHOLE JUNKIE - Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:04:23 EST ID:3hKc1rgG No.22829 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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SOBER AGAIN SINCE 3 DAYS

kind of something, he?
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Shit Grandfuck - Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:44:39 EST ID:8CmXIUui No.22830 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 months, Mexico sucks
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Walter Goodworth - Mon, 14 Oct 2013 16:40:25 EST ID:Bh+vnAVk No.22838 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Ended my two week break from weed about 4 days ago. Probably gonna smoke a bunch for the next couple weeks/months though. Trying to get my stoner phase out of the way before I go to college, been out of school for almost two years working and getting stoned. Feels bad man.jpg
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Martha Gocklesene - Fri, 18 Oct 2013 18:14:51 EST ID:+nEbbDgv No.22867 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>22816
Hey detox, I'm back after a week for an update.
Since stopping smoking weed my life has completely changed in so many ways. It turns out that I have bipolar type II disorder, and that smoking weed all those years was stopping me from being hypomanic. I used to have PTSD, but through MDMA and LSD use I overcame those problems, so now being hypomanic isn't a bad thing.

In the last week I've had god tier intelligence, creativity, confidence, empathy and social skills, and it's just an amazing feel. Almost like I'm waking up for the first time in my life. It's as though after 21 years of being afraid of doing things, I can now do them all, and it's just fucking joyous. Now that I have ownership over the fact I have bipolar I can get treatment and not feel any shame about any of my problems.

Thanks a lot whoever started this thread because it definitely gave me the courage I needed to finally stop smoking weed. SLAYER
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Edwin Fallerhidge - Fri, 18 Oct 2013 21:31:53 EST ID:1iob10+o No.22869 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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quitting tobacco right now, i quit weed about 3 weeks ago... but this is much worse its all psychological as it takes all my willpower not to smoke.

GOD this is fucked up, the craving thing is the worst part really.. i am not irritable or aggressive or had any headaches, ive ate well tonight and really should have no trouble sleeping just. the cravings are fucking awful.
Do i want to FEEL better? or do i want to GET better. i know i NEED to GET better not just smoke to FEEL better because thats how cigs work,
you smoke, then you justify smoking because you think it makes you feel better, so you continue to smoke all the time, then when you want to stop your bodys all fucked up,
its impossible to concentrate or enjoy anything, im nearing the 12th hour right now which is a landmark for sure..
feel good about that... The only thing i can do to take my mind off it is exercise (ive been on 3 or 4 walks today)

Whenever im at home just hanging out my mind is like oh youre at home you should smoke and relax... i just keep telling myself fuck that and try to forget about it...
but what also makes me feel shitty is how if i did smoke i would have to go through the hell that is withdraw again and its just hard to tell

I know i cant exercise forever because i am also diabetic and if i exercise too much my sugar will get lower and i dont want it to get too low while im sleeping tonight. I know if i can make it to sleep tonight without smoking tomroow should be alot better and i hope the cravings will go away or seriously diminish my tomorrow because fuck this alot right now. All my friends are busy, so this is just me myself and I dealing with this.

>I wish ALL of you BWS people the best and know that things will get better
>don't stop believing, i care and believe in each and every one you. youre all very strong people and you will only become stronger through this actualization.
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Isabella Gonningpere - Sat, 19 Oct 2013 00:38:17 EST ID:oaY/f+Fu No.22870 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22805

I'm back! Still sober, and it still sucks. I'm on week three now. The temptation to pick up a quarter of some stinky greed bud is fucking insane, and frankly I don't even know what's stopping me at this point.
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Edward Donnerford - Sun, 20 Oct 2013 12:05:04 EST ID:nhRPOgxu No.22872 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22705

Hey all, me again.

So, I gave in and failed. i've been back to smoking at the same level I was before.

Every time I fail quitting, I learn something critical about myself, and I feel like I am one step closer to actually quitting.

Here's the thing; the only thing that will help me quit smoking is putting in the effort to quit smoking. I give up too easily. It's just too easy, and when I get started, it's hard to stop.

I have this sense of finality whenever I quit smoking. Then I go against this finalistic mindset and decide to just have one, and then I'm back before I know it.

Sometimes while I'm smoking, I remember how stupid it is, put it out, and go do something else. Whenever I buy a pack, I think I have to smoke it all to avoid wasting and to savor the "last time". It never turns out that way.

I realize that if I really want to quit smoking, I have to search myself further, and evaluate what compels me to smoke so much.

I'm going to try once again soon, and I'll make sure to keep you all posted.

Remember, even if you fail, just get up again. Just keep getting up.

お前達を信じている。毎日、頑張ってよ。未来僕に、信じている。幸せにいつも行け!
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Wesley Dartway - Sun, 20 Oct 2013 12:57:17 EST ID:/kXI++Bv No.22873 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Today is my 200th day quitting cigarettes!
I smoked my first cigarette 11 years ago when I was 11 years old. I'm pretty damn proud of myself. I read Allen Carr's Easy Way and it really helped get me into the right frame of mind.
Unfortunately I'm still medicated to the gills although I'm working with my doctors to decrease what I can decrease so I've crossed the event horizon back into full blown depression apparently.
Trying to do a fast today as well.
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Esther Blackridge - Mon, 21 Oct 2013 15:52:17 EST ID:1iob10+o No.22877 Ignore Report Quick Reply
im back.>>22869
It is now Day 4 quitting cigs and the cravings have NOT gone away, they just keep coming back... I just keep thinking to myself if i smoke, everything will go back to the way it use to be and everything will be okay and youll be happy and everything will be alright.... BUT ITS NOT TRUE!!
These are the lies i have been feeding myself the whole time i was smoking, oh its "time" to smoke so i would go smoke. oh hey lets have a smoke, lets make up an excuse to smoke, oh im going to class, oh i just got back from class oh i just finished eating...

it just sucks not feeling like yourself at all. Recently ive been irritable and id almost give anything just to go back to being happy again but i told myself 110% that im not smoking again. i know that im SICK right now... im ADDICTED and that IS a sickness... THE ONLY way to get better is to not smoke.
I had been smoking for 6 years straight, all day everyday, use to smoke weed too untill a couple of weeks ago i quit, this gave me alot of confidence and made me happy...

Exercise,music, 420chan, food and sleep are the main things that keep me from relapsing.
If the cravings are bad i will put on some music and go for a walk, once i get back i notice the feeling of exercise has takes the place of my cravings.

Its just so hard right now, i know theres only one way out of this and its to stop.... That has been my main motivation behind all of this.
Also smoking is a false reward system and ive just been lying to myself, instead of "feeling better" im really just making myself more sick...

i just want to go back to normal but there is no normal to go back to, i have to keep moving forward untill i dont crave anymore..
just wish the cravings would go away but the only thing that will make them is time.
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Whitey Degglenodging - Mon, 21 Oct 2013 19:00:09 EST ID:2g0jUfFi No.22878 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Feels clean man

Weed is good in small doses and not everyday...2 days and counting...i wanna stop being such a bum and get more life
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Charles Benkinham - Wed, 23 Oct 2013 11:29:44 EST ID:nhRPOgxu No.22885 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>22872

Greetings,

So, to continue with my ongoing posts;

It feels like an eternity has passed, even though it has only been three days. Since my last post, I've made it a point to make smoking a meditation of sorts. To be completely aware when I smoked instead of doing it without much thought. Every cigarette felt like the first one again; horrible, painful, and un-satisfying. I felt worse after I smoked, rather than better. I also realized I smoked half a pack a day regularly.

While searching for more meditation techniques involving smoking, I stumbled across a "hypnosis" cession video on Youtube, and decided to give it a shot. I have done guided meditations before, and I viewed this video in the same way.

It was horribly distracting. Perhaps I wasn't relaxed enough for it to work, but constantly hearing "You are a non-smoker" over and over made my mind shout to counter the statement, that I am a smoker, and that this whole things was ridiculous.

So I went out for a smoke. I began smoking mindfully once again, but then my mind wandered away. Suddenly, I found myself in a dark room, with the only light consisting of two candles slightly illuminating a hooded figure. I realized that I was in a ritual, and this ritual was for my first and last cigarette, because I somehow realized that when totally absorbed in a moment, each both the first and the last for some reason. I was told to continue smoking the one I was smoking, and to feel the smoke burning my lungs and the tar in my throat. I coughed. I haven't actually coughed smoking since my early smoking times. Then I came to the understanding that this is what smoking is, nothing more, and nothing less.

After this, I put out my cigarette and threw away the rest of the box, something I've had trouble doing in the past.

My next journey begins here. I feel like I have no need to smoke, as perhaps I finally understand it.

I hope this seed of confidence grows and grows to that whenever I have a desire to smoke, I can remember that I already understand smoking, and can move on to other things to learn and understand.


Best of luck my BWS friends, I'm sure I'll be back to keep you all posted, or if nothing else, to remind myself of how I felt before, and how I'm feeling now.


It's all up to you, no one lives forever.
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Luxinbuts, Fuxinsluts - Wed, 23 Oct 2013 12:50:24 EST ID:ofCtoo95 No.22886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Almost 7 months without Opiates, Weed, And other habitual drugs! I do drink alcohol on occasion now (usually only on weekends if at all), and will occasionally eat some shrooms or smoke some DMT, and I've done some Ketamine a few times as well, though I haven't done any /dis/ in about a month. Overall, dramatic improvements.
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Luxinbuts, Fuxinsluts - Wed, 23 Oct 2013 12:50:57 EST ID:ofCtoo95 No.22887 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22886

Also, quit smoking cigarettes as well, which that is a crazy big accomplishment considering how stressful my job gets sometimes.
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Nicholas Nondleville - Sat, 26 Oct 2013 09:33:33 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22904 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been wanting to quit for a while. Last night showed me it's time to quit right fucking now before I die. I drove drunk and high last night, all I remember is one second being on the road and then the next I'm not. I was doing about 50mph. Thankfully all that happened was I popped my tire and bent the rim. But if there had been a street pole there I would probably be dead, or if there was a person there they would probably be dead... I'm fucking dangerously irresponsible. I'm quitting drinking right now. And never am going to drive while intoxicated or get in a car with someone who is again.
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Esther Blundlelock - Thu, 31 Oct 2013 19:13:14 EST ID:1iob10+o No.22933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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i came back to detox its been 3 weeks no weed 2 weeks for cigs.

guys i know quitting is one of the hardest things to do, you have justified smoking for so long but thats the thing

you GAVE yourself a reason to smoke right?
you need to justify a reason NOT to smoke and keep telling yourself that.!!

remember even if its been a few hours without smoking just think
>damn ive got this far, there's no going back
believe in yourself.

i know you guys can do it. its different for everyone but after i got over the physical stuff i really felt alot better and ive been riding the sober train ever sense.

its all good friends just keep sticking with your plan and never let go of the light. fucking the world WANTS to control you and make you smoke and drink coffee and ect. dont let the world tell you what to do because its YOUR life and it will always be YOUR life and your'e in control guys no one else!

i believe in you guys. pic related
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Priscilla Drizzlefetch - Sat, 02 Nov 2013 09:47:45 EST ID:STmjuJqj No.22943 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22820
80 Days clean. Woop woop!
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Jack Binderlotch - Sat, 02 Nov 2013 20:03:00 EST ID:6fxkWlkf No.22945 Ignore Report Quick Reply
a little over 4 months as of yesterday
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Nell Chugglegold - Sat, 02 Nov 2013 23:13:38 EST ID:wz9MoXxC No.22946 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
5 weeks motherfucker.

No weed, no booze, no cigarettes, no hard dergs.

Helps that I recently got me a fine piece of ass who helps me by fucking away the cravings.
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Albert Clayshit - Mon, 04 Nov 2013 12:58:25 EST ID:iw2bZFUc No.22950 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 6 since last Heroin shot. Before that I hasn't used in 3 weeks. Feeling pretty good, had a life changing acid trip and haven't done anything since.
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Rebecca Buzzstock - Mon, 04 Nov 2013 13:05:08 EST ID:XtYPGRMd No.22951 Ignore Report Quick Reply
not sober...I drink booze and smoke pot...

lately I drink and every morning after I shit blood like crazy...

dont have health insurance...

how do you become sober when you're always around it?

I feel trapped
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Caroline Gigglemere - Mon, 04 Nov 2013 20:30:32 EST ID:AwxjL65N No.22955 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>22951
> its like looking in to a mirror.

I can relate.

It's just chemicals altering your moods, man. Just chemicals.
http://youtu.be/5VeIL7juFE0

The more I learn about why my mood and behavior have been altered, I feel better, cause it's just my chemistry.
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Cedric Podgebury - Tue, 05 Nov 2013 18:23:03 EST ID:GjzB2I7e No.22966 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 weeks off the hooch. I used to drink several 40s a week and jack. No hangovers and no trouble is a plus is great, but the boredom and the craving for a buzz is hard to surpass. Been smoking Malboros (started a few months back), but it's less addictive and psychologically damaging to me than alcohol. Going up state to see a friend soon. Should keep my mind occupied at least.
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lawlercaust !CBDMr8zxnk - Wed, 06 Nov 2013 22:02:01 EST ID:0nttx22A No.22984 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
>2.5 months since last heroin
>3 weeks since last meth
>5 days since last weed

Am I an addict?
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ASSHOLE JUNKIE - Thu, 07 Nov 2013 06:02:27 EST ID:TsCkVMOF No.22993 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22984

of course, enjoy it.
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Sophie Blovingmire - Mon, 11 Nov 2013 05:46:48 EST ID:AaTUmlvV No.23020 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23017

You gotta want something where cessation of your drug use will get you it.
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Charles Panningmore - Wed, 13 Nov 2013 15:40:45 EST ID:zxonphKH No.23041 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>23017

3 days in and I had to have a drink, I feel so horrible and there's so much bullshit going on, I just couldn't deal. I put my bottle somewhere inconvenient though, as to stop myself from getting more.
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Augustus Nerrymuck - Fri, 15 Nov 2013 09:48:53 EST ID:0Ncj143y No.23057 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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BWS
started smoking weed 3 years ago, been doing it erryday for 2. been sober for about 3 days now. i never considered weed to be a drug, due to it's harmlessness, and i also never considered myself a drug addict.

but i was, and i guess still am. i would prioritize getting high over all other things. it made me anti-social, and sort of apathetic. but the worst part is all my money was going to bud.

the thing that made me stop was i almost got arrested a few days ago for shop lifting. i just went in to stopnshop to take some lighters, not anything out of the ordinary. but i got caught. the dude said that i could either call my parents or the cops would come.

at this point i knew i was royally fucked, and i called my dad. he picked me up and was SUPER disappointed. this made me feel like shit, so i went home and got rid of my bowl and grinder.

i just wish weed was more accepted in my family, because i wouldn't have to be sneaky about it and constantly lie. not sure why i'm still writing, but i'm trying to make it for atleast a month. will update
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Martha Suggleham - Sun, 17 Nov 2013 12:25:54 EST ID:zxonphKH No.23108 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>23041

Round 2, day 2. Pretty sure I'd w/ding, and its horrible.
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Terror Incognito - Mon, 18 Nov 2013 15:46:25 EST ID:i3H4t1Jp No.23140 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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gonna smoke a cigarette while drinking coffee. Bored as fuck. Whatever man.

BWS
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Eugene Buttingfodge - Wed, 20 Nov 2013 12:48:26 EST ID:jVG+KQsU No.23174 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22966
8 weeks. Fuck. It's hard (boredom gets to me). I'm tempted to buy some booze. God, I need that buzz.
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Name - Thu, 21 Nov 2013 02:53:54 EST ID:ov21+L9E No.23183 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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11 days. had 13 months, and decided to start smoking pot, then started sniffing dope, got kicked out of the sober house, and went on a serious 3 day run, going through about 50 mgs of klonopin, and 40 of ativan, and about 5 bundles. thank god i didn't go back to the needle. fuck that shit, maybe i can smoke weed in the future, but i'm gonna give myself several years before i try again. relapse fucking sucks.
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Cyril Blackwill - Sat, 23 Nov 2013 11:49:56 EST ID:VJ4wrsj+ No.23222 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
Massive alco here day two of not drinking after five weeks of daily annihilation.
Fuck I hate having the shakes!!!
But actually got "real" sleep last night and fuck it felt so good!!!
BWS
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Polly Poddlelock - Sun, 24 Nov 2013 01:48:45 EST ID:1iob10+o No.23230 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>23222
>>23222
sometimes when i smoked too much weed, i would get shakes followed by a fever and then throw up, but this is back when i smoked weed all day and all night till i couldnt smoke anymore. i cut that out tho. Shakes are the wooooooooorst!

Alcohol is a bitch and a half to kick, dont hurt yourself. Depending how much and how long you have drank quitting cold turkey can lead to some unfortunate withdrawal symptoms.
Sounds like you on Day 2 and feeling alright, sleep is important and exercise, even talking a walk around the block once or twice a day or a longer walk can really benefit you.
i believe in you buddy you got this.
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GuitarShot !eLvie020Kg - Mon, 25 Nov 2013 22:30:40 EST ID:3OIbkkzj No.23269 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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9 days sober here. Career alcoholic looking to retire.
This year I've only drank 3 times. Last year, I used to drink 4-5 times a week when money was available, but I decided to call it quits.

Pic is related; I've always thought that I needed to know how to control my drinking and smoking to have fun, but it brought only despair, misery and failure.
It's time to cease thinking like adults and acting as children to start acting like an adult and thinking like a child. It makes the impossible plausible and, with some effort, a reality.

Keep trying folks. :)
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Hamilton Wobberchick - Fri, 29 Nov 2013 20:35:30 EST ID:s+CH03R9 No.23344 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23342
I broke my faggot brothers nose for pinching off a bag of weed. When he stole meth from me I sold his TV, iPhone, and punched him in the fucking balls 15 times as he slept. Well he was awake for 14 of them


You damn well can blame them. And should. My tweaker customers know I'll burn their houses down if they try to steal from me. The only thing a junkie understands is force. They've been coddled by mommy their entire life or are sociopaths.


I've been hooked on 540mg of oxy daily and 2g of uncut shard daily, quit both with out stealing when desperate once. Cant afford your habit?


Suck up the fucking wds or start selling dope. Theives need their faces broken in before they learn. The pain you'll inflict on them has to be so far worse than what they will experience from withdrawals or working 20 hours to earn the shit they're taking
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Hamilton Wobberchick - Sat, 30 Nov 2013 09:55:33 EST ID:s+CH03R9 No.23359 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23348
You're a pussy who lets people steal from them. Fucking little fuccboi
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Clara Simblelen - Sat, 30 Nov 2013 16:38:07 EST ID:swmZz7KO No.23364 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23359
Nobody has stolen from me. What are you talking about?
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Reuben Crugglestock - Fri, 13 Dec 2013 17:04:07 EST ID:ZV02uWfG No.23751 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23666
>cut out porn
Why am I seeing this a lot lately? What's the big deal about cutting out porn?
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Jarvis Smallwill - Tue, 24 Dec 2013 03:36:35 EST ID:DkfFTnGp No.23792 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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sober as fuck here, eating some hamburger helper and drinking a glass of water :/
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Z.O.O. !TXMF.b2teU - Sun, 29 Dec 2013 17:38:50 EST ID:yM4LLEzm No.23822 Ignore Report Quick Reply
9 Days clean and sober... Again... The depression and boredom from quitting heroin is almost unbearable at times... But I have to believe that I am doing this for a much bigger purpose.
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Phineas Drollystone - Mon, 30 Dec 2013 10:56:55 EST ID:w3TEirrw No.23829 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ok guys, spice addict for almost three years. I've gone through 3 days of sweating, restlessness, irritability, and horrible cravings. But I woke up this morning feeling awesome. I have finally kicked my.habit!
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Cornelius Fallywet - Fri, 03 Jan 2014 17:29:11 EST ID:drckfRBK No.23848 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Haven't touched alcohol or any other drugs in a week and today decided to quit smoking cigarettes as well. In a damn fine mood so far
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Henry Fedgewill - Sun, 05 Jan 2014 18:49:13 EST ID:FXYbD5iE No.23865 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23861
First get over this I'm destined to be a drug addict forever bullshit. You are in control of your destiny, stop the self pity spoof and take control of your life. You like to get fucking high? That's your choice and you are the sole source of sovereignty in your life remember that.
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Jack Lightham - Sun, 05 Jan 2014 18:57:59 EST ID:gBGZuDTU No.23867 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23866
you can do that in college too if you have an easy major (ie. any liberal arts)
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Hannah Blackwell - Wed, 08 Jan 2014 08:54:31 EST ID:w3TEirrw No.23891 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Today is the 2 week mark after giving up a 20 dollar a day, 2.5 year spice addiction. I had turned myself into a zombie. Withdrawals were terrible but now I'm clean off of everything but caffeine. Don't give in friends, you have the.willpower to do it. I have an ok job and the 280 bucks I've saved since quitting is all the motivation I need. I'm 20, I've decided today that I am going to save up to buy a condo and become a homeowner by 25. They're 102 k. Wish me luck! And sobriety is awesome! Allahu Akbar!
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Edward Bronkinbat - Wed, 08 Jan 2014 20:22:33 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.23899 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have a question for anyone who has quit before. How long until you start to feel better? I'm getting in emotional fights with my parents where I'm not even feeling any emotion, I honestly feel like killing myself sometimes. But I'm pretty sure it's mostly due to my alcohol and drug problem. I think I will be able to quit if I know it's going to get better, but I need to know some kind of time estimate. Cause I've quit booze for 30 days, but during them I was using Molly and weed more, and the most I've quit everything completely is like 3 days probably cause I just feel like nothing is happening. I mean I just need some kind of time estimate cause "it will get better eventually" just doesn't sink into my head. I just got into a fight with my mom, and I feel fucking terrible, at the end of the argument she left to the store but she's been gone for an hour now. I wish I could cry, but all I feel like doing is drinking. So fuck it, going to get fucking wasted tonight, let this all blow over, and start being sober tomorrow. God dammit, I fucking hate my self.
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Fucking Goodville - Tue, 14 Jan 2014 02:49:41 EST ID:w3TEirrw No.23922 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>23891 here
Just want to put out a PSA here guys, spice addiction is no fucking joke. I' m nearing 3 weeks without and still going strong, today i was really tempted to buy a bag but i fought the urge and decided to come home and throw away all my paraphernalia, old bags, etc. It wasn't until i gathered them all up till i realized how bad i had gotten. This is maybe 3 months worth of bags, each and every one of them cost $25. There are over 100 here, enough to buy a fucking car. I will repeat, stay away from spice, it can and will ruin your life. Pic very, very related.
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Frederick Duckstone - Sun, 19 Jan 2014 17:30:05 EST ID:fI1K5OgC No.23956 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23945

gotta get that job
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Doris Dendlehon - Fri, 24 Jan 2014 17:17:48 EST ID:FbU6iyir No.23980 Ignore Report Quick Reply
163 days. Drinking a beer, right now...well
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Archie Duckledock - Tue, 18 Feb 2014 20:12:39 EST ID:hRpx0G6X No.24151 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23999
don't be upset but what the fuck is wrong with you? 1/4 of an ounce over 2 weeks? if you smoke like a gram a day you can start thinking you might have a problem. if not get on with your life.
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Archie Nemmlegold - Wed, 19 Feb 2014 05:53:07 EST ID:145tpULG No.24172 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm going to use this thread to motivate myself to quit a new opi addiction I've given myself. It's not too bad yet and I want it to stay that way. So I'll be stopping in here from time to time. Wish me luck.
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Lydia Gozzletene - Wed, 19 Feb 2014 07:54:01 EST ID:Rn7lNxfH No.24176 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23945
Retarded pic.
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Walter Niggerlock - Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:54:13 EST ID:2VGbRANf No.24184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I've been telling myself to get off pot for years now. I actually just had another "wake up call" the other day about how it's actually been years that I've been smoking weed every day, all day. I don't even know who I really am without the weed. I've had glimpses with minor T-breaks, but I've never been consistent. I really need to be sober for at least a month. So many signs have been pointing towards that path. It's just been strangely difficult to quit smoking weed. It usually takes me 24 hours of no smoke to be mostly over the craving. That 24 hours tends to be my slip-up period. I haven't gone more than a day without smoking in years. When I did, I felt great. But I do realize it's been a long ass time. My brain is gonna be fucked if I don't get my shit together. My life is gonna be fucked. Weed is gentle in a way, but it's deceiving. It effects like every aspect of my existence. In good ways and bad ways. I'm just not even sure who my sober self is, or how it thinks and handles life.

I need some serious motivation or some kind of plan to get off weed. Also, cigarettes. Somehow, tobacco is easier to not smoke because it doesn't get me high. But, I will end up wanting that ONE cigarette. Then it turns into two and three. But the weed. I can't be high all the time. I can't get high once or else I will start smoking like a chimney again. I haven't done shit with my life and I need to do shit with my life and I need to make friends and accomplish shit. Been fed up with this lifestyle, even though it's easy to be lazy and sleep all the time. I fucking love sleeeeep. I don't want to give that up hahaha.

Wish me luck. I'm going to try to quit weed again soon.
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Phineas Famblebick - Fri, 21 Feb 2014 20:38:02 EST ID:145tpULG No.24200 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24172
full two days so far. feeling sleepless but otherwise okay.
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Clara Blinningwater - Sat, 22 Feb 2014 19:00:43 EST ID:EQUF9b2l No.24204 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Smoked weed every single day for 2.5 years here. It doesn't help that I started smoking 2.5 years ago, too. I loved weed like no other drug that I've ever tried (no problem abstaining from booze and opis), but it got to the point where I did just enough to fulfill my minimum obligations (go to work, always do the bare minimum for schoolwork just before it's due, etc.) and was constantly high otherwise. Easy $150/month went to my weed habit and it got to the point where I'd have to do literally everything high or else I couldn't bring myself to do it. Drove under the influence every single day and was generally just a cancer on society's ass. I'd love to be able to function while high again, but I don't know if I can. It's only been a week and a few days without weed and it already feels like a hellish eternity.

Good luck, all.
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Eugene Blapperspear - Wed, 26 Feb 2014 06:22:48 EST ID:JLZvnKF4 No.24237 Ignore Report Quick Reply
On day three and really wishing I could get high right now. Stay strong bros and hoes
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Hedonism Bot 00x2 - Wed, 26 Feb 2014 13:21:00 EST ID:C803msDq No.24241 Ignore Report Quick Reply
ONE DAY BITCHES GOJN MENTAL MIGHT STAB A HOE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK
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Henry Blatherwell - Thu, 27 Feb 2014 17:27:02 EST ID:UJJWW7XC No.24247 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I was good with no cigarettes for 9 days until my roommate offered to me last night after I'd taken my zopiclone for bed. I took one drag, and today

FUUUUUUUUCK I AM SO FUCKING MAD FOR NO DAMN REASON JESUS HOLY SHIT. I HAVE ENTERTAINED THOUGHTS OF ASSAULT SO MANY TIMES TODAY FML

FUCK cigarettes, man. GAAAWWWD dammit. This is absolutely uncharacteristic of me. Should I smoke weed? I've not been smoking weed because I want my tolerance down so I can keep the magic (was a daily smoker for a year before taking a T-break and LOVING it)

Should I /weed/? Should I /dis/? I am really scared of myself right now
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Walter Drunnerkudging - Fri, 28 Feb 2014 04:50:28 EST ID:Pj29i+V8 No.24253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24247

Could quit cigs by snoking. I have done it.

Take two hits when wanting to smoke tobacco, go for a walk and or do a project.

Think ahead of other items at the time..
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Beatrice Wuddlelock - Mon, 03 Mar 2014 18:38:17 EST ID:URsMLZJ5 No.24276 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24273
I'm sorry guys dude i kill the bws with my downer comments about overdosing?
But for real guys, drugs are overrated. A lot of druggies could benefit a lot from going a few weeks without anything, just so they can remember what its like to have a clear head. Sober heroin addict for 3 full months as of yesterday. I haven't felt this good and happy in like 10 years. I have my life back.
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fAclb - Tue, 04 Mar 2014 15:42:41 EST ID:ZuB3+gaN No.24287 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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loved drugs more than myself, rehabs, multiple arrests, still look at possible jail time, 30+ days clean, now im in a 12 step program was getting high literally all day every day mostly on psychedelics and dxm, then of course when those werent around i found some kind of thing to get me high. The consequences where so damn much and no matter what rules i gave myself to regulate my usage i always found a way to get around them and get high so yup. bws lol
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Cornelius Dogglewill - Wed, 05 Mar 2014 14:01:28 EST ID:URsMLZJ5 No.24297 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24287
Me and this guy are two addicts in a pod. I went through all the same shit, even the jail shit. Crazy, its line you're reading my story but with a different DOC, even the 12 step thing, i love AA. Not much of a fan of NA.
>> No kidding dude. Cigarettes are soo addictive, and they form amazingly strong habits, which is the real hard part. I was able to quit heroin and subutex, but quitting cigarettes is much harder
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Nell Claystock - Thu, 06 Mar 2014 15:03:44 EST ID:LgaOhSlw No.24300 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 2 of no smoking weed to help curb my marijuana addiction.

Shit sucks, I just want to get high
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Reuben Dishtit - Sat, 15 Mar 2014 00:52:46 EST ID:uUIKo+A2 No.24373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I took a Delieriant the other day.

That was a wake up call if I ever needed one, much needed.
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George Pellyson - Sat, 15 Mar 2014 02:59:50 EST ID:O/nFYZxq No.24374 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24322
I know those feels.
6 months sober with AA after 10 years of madness, one day at a time :)
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Doris Dabblesare - Sun, 16 Mar 2014 00:31:43 EST ID:u7wYTB7Y No.24379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
Three months sober, I think, and although it's not perfect, I've never felt more stable in my life.
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Reuben Drashhodge - Sat, 22 Mar 2014 08:05:35 EST ID:knKJ5nGu No.24410 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24379
more or less same as this
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Barnaby Smallstock - Sat, 22 Mar 2014 16:09:26 EST ID:m9zdtzWx No.24417 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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6 days till i get tested. that will make it 50 days without the herb.

Drinking has gone on though.

mfw i put in a fat nug topped with kief and smoke with a good friend

then turn around and buy an ounce and finally start buying shit ive wanted and move the fuck out


After all the bad vibes. the struggle is almost over.

SLAYER.
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The Dude !fGacv5cTa6 - Mon, 24 Mar 2014 06:21:52 EST ID:+ZZbv9bU No.24433 Ignore Report Quick Reply
SOBER AS FUCK MOTHERFUCKERS FUCK YEAH.

^Is the opposite to how I actually feel. I definitely have issues. Haven't smoked since friday morning (monday morning now) and fuck do I want to smoke. I bought Titanfall to distract me but then I remembered that new Walking Dead is out, and I always smoke up and watch WD on monday mornings... But I haven't got any weed and don't plan to get any until friday after next. I almost feel like just saving it until I have weed...
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Priscilla Poshpeck - Tue, 25 Mar 2014 21:26:47 EST ID:KvVubVt9 No.24451 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
24 hours in, with another 14 to go til I have my drug test in the morning. Luckily its just an oral mouth swab, so I'll be good. Kinda enjoying the sobriety, but the anxiety is also coming back. Looking forward to cheefin' on a fat bowl of blue dream after scoring this job.
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James Drinkinforth - Tue, 25 Mar 2014 22:05:54 EST ID:5nuAMAWA No.24455 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bought a sack of weed and split it into 5 little bags and said id smoke one a day to make the sack last at least 5 days. 48 hours later its gone BWS
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Charles Fabbleway - Thu, 10 Apr 2014 00:25:58 EST ID:mWDxZ39i No.24558 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24552
Good luck if you are seeking to stay off for a while or especially for ever.
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Shitting Blythegold - Tue, 15 Apr 2014 19:28:35 EST ID:V9FX2ta/ No.24617 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Going on day 9 no pot
Its a bit easier compared to the first few days. I just wish I could smoke some pot
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Thomas Hucklefield - Wed, 16 Apr 2014 11:50:07 EST ID:u7wYTB7Y No.24625 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24616
You're right. As much as I hate to say it, I think the only way I could ever truly free myself from the cycle is free myself from the people.

Sometimes, it sucks to get older.
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Thomas Tootwill - Sun, 20 Apr 2014 12:35:08 EST ID:dCxv0mJY No.24637 Ignore Report Quick Reply
today is my seventh day sober, sick of being a alcoholic, spending all my money on booze and not eating.
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Archie Govingkot - Tue, 22 Apr 2014 23:01:35 EST ID:nDekbm3H No.24651 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober for the past 6 months, save for tonight, because of the mandatory drug test for my college's athletics department (Last one of year was on 4/21).
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Hedda Nobblewell - Wed, 23 Apr 2014 01:35:46 EST ID:R0l3JDxy No.24652 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober from weed since the 18th of this month to join the military. It's probably for the best, I knew I'd have to stop some time, it just crept up on me sooner than I thought it would.

Anyone else in a similar situation?
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Clara Chorringkun - Wed, 23 Apr 2014 01:46:47 EST ID:SX75Fafl No.24653 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm at about a year and three months sober. I quit because my IV drug habit (primarily heroin, some meth) got way out of control, my friends started dying and I got septic arthritis, which almost killed my ass. Had to move back in with my grandparents. I'm just waiting out my grandparents and parents dying so I can go back down my path of self-destruction and follow it to its logical conclusion guilt-free. Life definitely got better when I got sober, but at this point I'm just living for other people. Maybe I'll find some reason to live other than out of some weird sense obligation. Who knows.
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Betsy Surryman - Wed, 23 Apr 2014 16:07:38 EST ID:KXYwEh/D No.24661 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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2 weeks since I quit weed and tobacco.
The weed had to go because I just wasn't enjoying it any more.
When the paranoia outweighed the pleasure and the panic attacks set in I decided it was time to leave it behind.
I had some good times with Mary Jane and I'll miss not being able to get high like I did when I first started but I know deep down that I had to quit it.

The cigarettes went for a variety of reasons.
The main one was a worrying pain in my chest.
Turning 30 might have something to do with it. Becoming aware of my own mortality.

I used the Allen Carr method to stop smoking cigs and I'm still amazed at how easy I found it.
I'd been smoking for over half my life and spent the last ten years as a 20 a day man.(30-40 a day during bad times)
I read that book and stopped over night with no fucks given.
If you want to stop smoking then google yourself a pdf of this book, keep smoking as you normally would, and read it.
I wish somebody had put me onto it a fucking decade ago.
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Ian Blannerbanks - Fri, 25 Apr 2014 01:59:34 EST ID:+N+CdtMd No.24666 Ignore Report Quick Reply
On day 3 of no weed. I was a daily smoker for the past few years, give or take a day here or there. Lost my job a few weeks ago, took a couple weeks to chill and enjoy some me time, now I'm cleaning my system out for when I (hopefully) find another job.

Dealing with the usual side effects: hard time sleeping, appetite thrown out of whack, slight depression/mood swings, but nothing I haven't dealt with before. Moreover, I know it's good for me because I was basically high all the time. I'd smoke before work, on my lunch break, and on my drive home from work. Then I'd smoke all night at home. I was beginning to feel like I was just constantly in a zombie-like state, like my tolerance had topped out and instead I was just getting sedatingly stoned so I could zone out to video games. I was feeling like I was just passing time away without doing anything productive.

I love the bud, and I do plan on smoking again when I'm able, but I feel as if I want and need to find a better balance with it and my daily life. Considering taking up meditation and limiting my intake so that it's more of a introspective tool and a treat to reward progress or work completed, instead of something I'm constantly taking in like water.
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Hugh Wurrybanks - Sat, 26 Apr 2014 14:20:08 EST ID:3kr0Bgwd No.24674 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24658
5th day without smoking
The worst symtoms, like insomnia and nightly sweating, have pretty much completely disappeared. However, life keeps being boring as fuck without weed. I nearly convinced myself that smoking one single joint during the weekend would be cool, but then I realized that I really didn't want to break my streak before even finishing a whole week. So now I'm sitting here, bored as fuck.
On the up side, I've had some pretty cool dreams. I didn't even realize before that smoking bud made me not remember my dreams.
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Hugh Wabblebury - Mon, 28 Apr 2014 03:31:54 EST ID:vQ/uiHUe No.24688 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Soon I'll have been completely sober for about four months.
I don't know, while I don't have any desire for weed or cigarettes (at least not that much) I really feel like I want to do more acid?

Should I stick to my guns or make one tiny exception? Or will it be worse for it?
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Augustus Pugglewill - Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:46:51 EST ID:vQ/uiHUe No.24703 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Things are going to be a lot different this summer. I'm sober and I'm staying that way. In order to do that, however, I'm going to have to cut out the temptations and negative influences. That means I'm going to have to cut off a lot of the people I consider family and friends.

There's no easy way to do this, is there? I mean, as much as I keep telling myself "I'm stronger for it, it'll help me in the long run, I'm through trying to cover people's asses from the mistakes they make", it's not going to be easy, or fun, or something I won't regret.

Times are changing. I could face REAL consequences, and although my luck has been fortunate, I've had too many close calls to live like this anymore. I just hope that I'm doing the right thing. That it all makes sense.
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Lillian Pimmerstire - Wed, 30 Apr 2014 17:37:05 EST ID:V9FX2ta/ No.24704 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24691
If you quit the cigs and weed, you can quit the alcohol! I have stopped drinking and I have such more clear thinking. Much quicker and even happier!
Bump because 24 days clean from weed. Drug test in 5 days!! I also have been an everyday drinker for the last 8 months but I drink once a week (when I drink, its only a few beers rather than like 10 which is what I used to do)
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Martha Braddlecocke - Wed, 30 Apr 2014 19:23:38 EST ID:V79PUtPj No.24705 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I quit caffeine last week and I'm 24 hours into quitting cigarettes, which I'm trying to quit this week.
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Edward Clellyfotch - Fri, 02 May 2014 06:15:43 EST ID:w1D4zNAV No.24707 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24705
Godspeed
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Fanny Tootshaw - Fri, 02 May 2014 12:47:05 EST ID:3kO7n5FU No.24709 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
I have a job interview on monday and I'm trying to get clean in case they have a drug test. Haven't touched weed for about 5 days. Took a drug test, though. It's still in my system. I might be screwed, but I have a Med Card as a last resort. Not sure how much it would help me, but it's worth a shot.
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William Bluzzlestere - Mon, 05 May 2014 23:28:24 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.24727 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS
I am quitting alcohol, weed, various other drugs. I've kinky been sober for a few hours so the idea of quitting isn't fully hitting me, but I don't really do anything but drink and do drugs. I don't have any friends or a life outside of drugs, so really idk what life is going to like without them, but fuck I hate my life now. Maybe when I'm not conditioning myself to stay inside and drink I will get the motivation to do something with my life
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Isabella Blellylone - Sat, 10 May 2014 14:34:04 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.24760 Ignore Report Quick Reply
4 months without a drug today. DoC was heroin. I really want to roll today, but the only thing that's stopping me is a possible drug test at my group(post-IOP) on Tuesday.
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Isabella Blellylone - Sat, 10 May 2014 14:52:11 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.24761 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24760
Update: FUCK ROLLING I'm not going to ruin my 4 months. I worked hard for this shit.

Lately I've had the craving to do coke or roll face, and luckily I've been able to stop myself from doing so. Sure, it's not heroin, but that is a dangerous thing to say as an addict.

And some people are talking about how much clearer things are when they get off of certain drugs on here for say, a week, or a few days. Get completely clean off of everything for a few months and I promise you that the clarity you're experiencing now is nothing compared to what will come.
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Matilda Clozzleman - Sun, 11 May 2014 08:20:27 EST ID:7pJ5MoAn No.24766 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24761
good shit man, those urges to do other drugs can be a real son of a bitch but its usually just a replacement for what drug you really want to do.
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Cedric Tillinglock - Sat, 17 May 2014 05:08:41 EST ID:vygJD3Ic No.24806 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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on a break from all drugs because i've been trying to get a job and don't know if i'll be tested or not. weed is mainly what i'm worried about... been clean since may 1st, and smoked infrequently before then, so i should be good now right?

i have an interview next wednesday, wish me luck.

>mfw boring sober life
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Frederick Trothood - Sun, 18 May 2014 03:46:40 EST ID:g/k6nQ/y No.24811 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893

Used to use every kind of drug under the sun. My favorites were LSD, MDMA, and Ketamine. Was also a smoker of 4 years, and a bordeline alcoholic. Havent touched A THING in over a year. Not sure whether to be happy or sad.
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Oliver Blorringtag - Sun, 18 May 2014 15:02:11 EST ID:J7d2/7YJ No.24815 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm on the verge of relapsing right now.
I have to believe that staying sober is the right thing for me. But I just can't. It's just so....strict. I just want to cut loose, but I know I shouldn't go back to that life. I don't want to give up. But I'm on my last legs here.
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Priscilla Dublingback - Tue, 20 May 2014 16:13:40 EST ID:P8FhDZph No.24835 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've decided to quit drinking. After three years of partying, drinking till passing out, drinking alone in my room...i've had enough.

I've been to jail because of a DUI. I've wasted all of my money on beer and alcohol, done stupid shit to my gf, dissapointed my family, skipped important stuff at work, gotten fat, put in risk my health all because of the fucking booze.

The turning point was saturday night. I got STUPID drunk at a club and decided I was superman and could take on 6 bigger, younger guys. Woke up in a hospital with my forehead busted WIDE open. Some idiot smashed a liquor bottle on my forehead, leaving me a scar i'll have to watch every single day of my life reminding me how stupid I was. I have no recolection of this event whatsoever, what I know it's what I've been told.

So fuck it. Fuck alcohol, it's has brought me NOTHING but cons in my life.

I'm super determined on quitting, won't back down on this. Fuck booze.


p.s. not quitting weed tho.
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Nell Climmerstere - Thu, 22 May 2014 08:25:47 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24856 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm sober because it's 7am, trying to make it until work at 2pm
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Nell Dushfet - Thu, 22 May 2014 11:28:35 EST ID:rQisdhRJ No.24859 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 15 of nothing. Choosing to lead a sober life now that I have a college degree due to opiates gripping me by the balls these past few years
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Martha Wusslestock - Fri, 23 May 2014 12:59:57 EST ID:WTHbhoiY No.24870 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I am in the early hours of my third day clean.

I am taking an extended break from weed for a few reasons.

I have been stuck in the mother of all ruts lately. I've been caught in this shitty cycle for too long and it is holding me back.

I want to get a job, save up some money, buy my own car and leave my current town and my mothers house, i have done this before but have always needed to come back, so i have decided that this time im going to do it right and not fuck it up.

I will smoke weed again in the future, once im in a better position with an income, a car of my own and a solid job in the city i plan to move to, also when i can get decent stuff in quantity, rather than paying out the ass for small amounts.
I also think when the time comes i do smoke again, that i do not smoke every day cos it gives me really intense mood swings and derealization/depersonalization if i smoke too often, i just get a bit frazzled.

I really hope i can get out of this town before it sucks me in.
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Sidney Dambleham - Sun, 25 May 2014 09:07:48 EST ID:3ZhCWTKX No.24879 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS for detoxing from about a week of light, but concentrated opiate use. I have a lot of good weed to handle the pain and to get me through taking a number of shits that will be classifiable as paleontology.
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Martha Sezzlemitch - Mon, 26 May 2014 07:39:15 EST ID:+5qoaURd No.24887 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24871
lol amateur try a year
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Charlotte Nucklehudging - Wed, 28 May 2014 22:16:37 EST ID:14qcM8FB No.24910 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24890
how many times have you tested positive on probation? is there a limit to the amount of the times you can fail before they send your ass to jail ?
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Ernest Snodspear - Wed, 28 May 2014 23:20:34 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24914 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Today I am sober, no drugs, no cigs, no caffeine, no alcohol.
Still have a few grams of weed around the house so I probably won't stay sober long.
But I really want to clean up my life and stop being a degenerate.
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Shitting Dick Nipples - Sat, 31 May 2014 20:14:44 EST ID:Ki/yRRFV No.24933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
So fucking sober. Just two more days to go.
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Thomas Wurringdock - Sat, 31 May 2014 21:48:44 EST ID:uex/VhSa No.24934 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been sober for 2 months because I've just gotten a job that random drug tests. It's really the best job I can find right now and I need a job that will help me survive while I go through audio engineering school. Really wanna smoke buds, but, I'm new to the area and I don't really know where to get decent weed, also don't want to risk losing job. Not even sure how long it will be before I can smoke again :(
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Jenny Soddlepodge - Mon, 02 Jun 2014 04:00:43 EST ID:uVYfjinU No.24948 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>24947
Its hard the first few days dealing with people and depression, but after awhile you forget what its like to be high. and it gets better. At least for me.

Gotta take a week off cannabis, im just not feeling it anymore, tolerance sucks.

Gotta smoke some fools out next weekend, and after that ima probably take a month off. Its hard to tolerance break when you live in Cali, have a job, and the dispensary is within walking distance.
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Rebecca Bellyhure - Mon, 02 Jun 2014 16:17:41 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24955 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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So I'm sober, in between things right now, trying to figure out which way is up.
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hello - Tue, 03 Jun 2014 02:05:16 EST ID:ryeaHJeZ No.24956 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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10+ years of pharmaceutical stimulant (ab)use
~5 years of various benzodiazepine (ab)use

The beginning of benzo withdrawal are brutal, severe memory problems, accompanied by a notable lack of social skills (very asperger-esque).

Hell breaks loose at about a month into a simultaneous stimulant and benzo withdrawal. Last attempt to get sober landed me in the psych ward. Had reality unravel from around me, full psychotic episode. They put me back on benzos in the hospital, been back on them since. Got back on stimulants to try and help with chronic anhedonia and apathy. Wasn't effective. Still non-productive and fatigued while on the stimulants. Still anxious on benzos.

Just ran out of both of my scripts today. No refills for a week.

Going to try to eat healthy, work out, and rebuild my social skills over this next week. Might continue the detox after this week is up depending on just how bad the WD is.
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Captain Blackheart - Tue, 03 Jun 2014 13:22:13 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24960 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>24957
> slightly happier

that's a good thing.
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Phineas Dallyford - Fri, 06 Jun 2014 12:08:24 EST ID:LxIMuK+S No.24979 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm thinking about taking a break from smoking just because I can't find a reliable dealer in my town, and I'm tired of dealing with shady shitheads and having to go through middlemen all the time. It's too expensive. I've been smoking all day everyday for the last 5 years with a couple breaks here and there due to not being able to find anything. I'm kind of skeptical about smoking because I already get social anxiety a lot, and I know it is going to be ten times worse when I stop smoking. I'm actually considering seeing a therapist to get control of my mental disorders again without weed, but I didn't like being on the meds that I was given before either, and weed seems to help a lot more. Any tips/suggestions?
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Wesley Grandfield - Tue, 10 Jun 2014 20:50:49 EST ID:+mDSd6XB No.24987 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Week of complete sobriety here from weed. I have weed I can smoke, sitting in a jar in my bedroom, but for some reason haven't smoked it. Part of me wants to get ripped as fuck, part of me doesn't. I honestly don't know. Shit sucks.
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Betsy Shittingfield - Fri, 13 Jun 2014 01:30:23 EST ID:+F8RuPAk No.24998 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
Been in the army for a minute and smoked with my buddies for three days. When I get back from vacation I am once again susceptible to random drug tests. Kinda worried but not too bad.
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Nell Grimstock - Sat, 14 Jun 2014 17:30:04 EST ID:KmKDdmAu No.25003 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been off weed for a few months now, and things are better this way. Used to smoke every day as a 'crutch', but being sober makes it a lot easier to deal with the shit life throws at you. I also get feelings and perspectives I haven't had for years, and my dreams are back.
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Nigel Summlenut - Sun, 15 Jun 2014 08:42:12 EST ID:3Ip1SFbW No.25004 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I haven't taken anything in about a year. Well yeah I smoke weed now and then but no /dis/ or /psy/.
Sometimes I suddenly recall the taste of MXE in incredible detail, the feel of the drip, the "metallic warmth", etc. I still see fractals if I concentrate hard enough, or if I'm out of breath / tired.
Soon. Very soon.
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Whitey Pocklefoot - Tue, 17 Jun 2014 15:15:27 EST ID:yoGbXEyI No.25021 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25009
It's odd seeing you guys bitch about not being able to smoke weed and a stark reminder of the terrible path my life took. I don't think I've really been totally clean since I was 13 years old. Like, I was probably half baked when the twin towers fell. Even when I stop, I'm still smoking cigarettes or using benadryl or something.

I'm starting to wonder if I really do need in patient rehab. It's not like I have a job or my own home to come back to anyway. Shit. Fucking. SUCKS. You keep thinking you're totally in control of shit until you realize you're strapped in and the ride never ends.

I am currently watching like a hawk for my etizolam. I am fucking pissed. I was supposed to be straightened out by now. I was supposed to be making money in a clean apartment by now.

Alcohol has completely fucking ruined my life. Sin has completely ruined my life.

And now here I am, putting off the final steps of cleaning up because I just don't want to deal with the pig sty, and I still keep getting these pangs of helplessness. I used to be or at least feel like a mighty one and now I'm laid low. I haven't even been sober two weeks and that's just booze. I seriously just had to switch back onto cigarettes, thienodiazepines, and Kratom just to be able to fucking function.

I envy you guys, and I regret every contribution I made to making human beings shittier. All the ways I taught people to blackmail, attack each other, I just wanted people I cared about to gain leverage and advantages, and I wanted advantages for myself too. I am now, along with people I know, dregs of society.

I seriously just do not even comprehend what a substance free lifestyle could be like anymore. Son of a bitch this will be. It is going to take me years of therapy just to be a functional human being again. And all this shit happened without shooting heroin or meth.

I look at this mess and just need to tell myself, others have survived worse catastrophes than I can imagine with a stiff upper lip and they came out fine. Just one day at a time.

Sigh....and my pills likely come tomorrow. I am living the shittiest fucking lifestyle at the moment. God, I wish I could just turn back around and tell myself, no, you should've gone to private school, forget about everyone else's problems, learn to deal on your own, and if you need to have a nervous break down do what normal people do and get some jackass sports car when you're 50.
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Polly Sadgehood - Sat, 28 Jun 2014 01:25:46 EST ID:Q7ztbCib No.25076 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>25074
pumpin the breaks, on booze and weed
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Nigger Cocklewater - Sun, 29 Jun 2014 09:33:12 EST ID:BeS1a0lV No.25084 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25021
Don't waste any more time wishing, or contemplating what you could have done in the past. If you have those thoughts, do something else. You must destroy those thoughts.
>others have survived worse catastrophes than I can imagine with a stiff upper lip and they came out fine. Just one day at a time.

That is not a bad mantra to use to help drive out the bad thoughts.
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Charlotte Chuggleteck - Sun, 29 Jun 2014 17:44:11 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.25088 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I just noticed that OP claims to have been sober for 10 days, not counting the spliff he smoked while he was DRUNK

but I'm feeling shitty and finding fault with everything around me, especially myself, though I can't motivate myself to do anything other than avoid drug dealers, who happen to be my friends, so I'm sitting in my room trying to distract myself from dopesickness by witching shitty tv and reading bullshit online, pretending to be happy but it's really not working. it's been a week since I last did heroin, friday night I went to a bar and got shitfaced on 2 beers, which I definitely did not expect to happen, and generally I've been noticing how fucked my life is, no job, a month behind on rent, the apartment is trashed, I can't get it together enough to clean the house or look for work, just trying to not do drugs is taking everything that I've got.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck it gets better
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Cha¼e !8AIqJd0Aos - Fri, 04 Jul 2014 18:37:27 EST ID:CmnAy6XY No.25126 Ignore Report Quick Reply
have been sober from benzo's weed and cigarettes for 3 days :)
the more I keep it up, the more it starts to feels gewd mang!
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Fiend !!1C9jE+w+ - Sat, 05 Jul 2014 20:09:53 EST ID:5j4mfEkH No.25136 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 4 of cannabis abstinence. BWS.
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Fiend !!1C9jE+w+ - Mon, 07 Jul 2014 21:07:44 EST ID:7m0RGf+t No.25154 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25136
Still sober. Goddamn to I want drugs. It's so damn tempting to go buy DXM and some weed. NO! Bad Dog!
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Faggy Wittingchock - Mon, 21 Jul 2014 22:08:29 EST ID:zeJJHVmr No.25210 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Just got a new job and I'm not sure if they test or not. Apparently only like 10% of jobs in Canada do and I've never had to take one before.

Taking the wait and see approach just to be safe.
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Edwin Darthall - Tue, 22 Jul 2014 23:32:38 EST ID:u2CuvBe/ No.25215 Ignore Report Quick Reply
4 days of no weed so far. stopping because no job, constantly broke and wanting a companion who isn't Mary in my life; idk how long this is going to last, hoping for a month but sometimes temptations get the best of us.

thought about dropping cid the day I concluded to stop smoking but felt that was a little counter productive despite last time I did I found weed to be silly.

fuuuccccckkkkkkkkkk I need to get and stay clean so I can get the hell out of this cesspool of a town. nothing here but junkies, poverty and violence. damn sure need to get serious about the job search too. that or just start selling, jk.

BWS and good luck everyone, if you want to be clean you can devote the resources you were getting fucked up to remaining sober
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Wesley Goodbury - Thu, 24 Jul 2014 02:21:15 EST ID:Sb4277lR No.25216 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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BWS

Coming up on 30 days sober from benzos, opis and pot after getting arrested for burglary when i was out of my mind. Probably going to relapse on Kratom tomorrow but that's whatever, i'm not going to start shoplifting and shit like i was when i was on benzos. Been going to court ordered NA meetings and will have to check into a 90 day in-patient program within 3 months or else i get 7 months in the concrete hotel. Sobriety has been, okay so far. I still think about using pretty regularly. My depression is really what's getting to me, i think that once i get back on some proper meds that my obsession, listlessness and general unhappiness will start to calm down and i can start being productive, both spiritually and creatively. Reading keeps me from going crazy, although, much to my regret, i can't bring myself to do any writing, i just feel blank. Any suggestions?
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Nigel Dronningdale - Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:01:39 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.25222 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 1/2 months exactly. I turn 21 on Tuesday. I'm totally going to drink. I bid thee farewell, sober friends. It's been fun, but there's no way I'm not drinking. Haven't been drunk since November, btw.
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Barnaby Dacklecocke - Fri, 25 Jul 2014 21:51:05 EST ID:y7sd2fVj No.25225 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Been smoking weed 4-5 times a day for a year, stopped cold turkey yesterday, feel alright today. Insomnia is there but nothing really that bad, it is weed after all. I'm not craving but I just find sobriety so fucking boring man, holy shit.

Everything in my life is fucking boring. Music, video games, even this game that I picked up and fucking jizzed over and put 15 hours into in like one day because it reminded me of Baldurs Gate. This game is fucking boring now that I'm not smoking and I don't know why. Fuck.
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Phyllis Sassledire - Fri, 01 Aug 2014 03:26:33 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.25248 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Quitting because really bad anxiety, and I got arrested last week. Been sober 2 days.
I can't even go to the store without drinking first, and I've pretty much ditched all my friends because I won't hang out with them unless I know I can get fucked up. I'm seeing a psych now, and I'm on an antidepressant, so I'm going to quit drinking. Hopefully my mind clears up before I start college
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Esther Bundale - Sun, 03 Aug 2014 14:42:16 EST ID:R+O8XB9P No.25264 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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It's now been 3 whole days since I took Lorazepam. I thought it would be good to go off it after 3+ years of my 1-2mg per day prescription, and I didn't mean to do it cold turkey but it's going alright so far, I haven't felt like I needed any or had trouble sleeping.

Strange, really. The last time I really tried to go off was over 2 years ago and I remember it being more difficult than this.
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Honestly - Sun, 03 Aug 2014 18:34:21 EST ID:iwE7jOBN No.25266 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Quitting heroin. Quit my shitty register job so i can have a week to kick the smack. MAn fuck this. I fucking regret ever touching opiates. like seriously. This is fucked up. How i feel is FUCKED. I just need to vent. Fuck quitting heroin. Seriously id do anything for a hug from one of you guys who have been through this. ;( the suffering has to end sometime
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Priscilla Perrylock - Mon, 04 Aug 2014 04:15:34 EST ID:mSdPEOtK No.25268 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25266
Do you think quitting is bearable?

I think feeling like shit for 5 days would kick.
Like feeling like you have the FLU, for 5 days.

Aftermarket feelings may continue for 7 days.

friendly style hugs,

Good luck my friend.
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Charlotte Gambledale - Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:54:11 EST ID:R+O8XB9P No.25330 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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BWS because somebody has to. This is >>25264, and I've been 2 weeks without Loraz, and also my 2 other medications BuSpar and Wellbutrin that I didn't mention. Again, cold turkey is generally a bad idea but it hasn't been bad and I've noticed for one thing that music has improved, like it's more vivid-sounding and it arrests my attention better.

I feel like I'm lucky as shit because I know how difficult this usually is, and if I'm doing something right I'm not sure what. I'll be visiting my psych today to discuss this, I wonder if she'll freak out. She'll tell me to taper probably, but I'm on a roll already, we'll see.
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Angus Sazzleson - Tue, 19 Aug 2014 00:15:16 EST ID:wvioOYmF No.25350 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25346
cope cop, shut up idiot
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Hugh Nittingmotch - Fri, 22 Aug 2014 23:25:15 EST ID:S11LX5CB No.25379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's been 6 months without weed now. Feels good man. I smoked every day for around 2 years.
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Shitting Wimmercocke - Mon, 25 Aug 2014 22:35:09 EST ID:TsTGuRwY No.25387 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I want to take a T-break. I smoke weed almost everyday, and smoke a cig to hide the smell. Lately i'm being very paranoid that the neighbors could see me and rat me out. I started today, I'm feeling quite anxious...
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Graham Gunnerfoot - Wed, 27 Aug 2014 11:23:24 EST ID:yesmudAt No.25393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>5 days without cocaine
I want to punch each and everyone one of you while eating 15 sandwiches while crying because I hear things that aren't really there, oh I'll probably masturbate 20 times after too.
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Shitting Ponningchare - Wed, 27 Aug 2014 13:45:02 EST ID:sReZ3rPT No.25394 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>detox from weed
The fuck this a joke?

Me almost 3 months no booze. Still doing lots of crap lime Stablon Kratom etizolam adrafinil vervaine etc

Which is pretty much quite clearly NO FUCKING GOOD. I detoxed of everything bug wind and cigarettes earlier this year but fell back on the booze so fucking hard I was hospitalized. So now I'm pretty much just like, meh simply avoid booze as first priority. Then comes some very very shitty realizations like, oh holy FUCK I think I might be getting dependent. I'm pretty sure kratom is okay but the Stablon gives me a higher mood boost than hydrocodone (obviously I am abusing the shit at lime 500mg per dose when a normal doze is like 25mg). Ahhhhh yeeahh man it's coming on now holy fuckng shit I'd forgotten how good an opiate can feel. This of course leads to A problem of, well I'm routinely doing fuckloads more m k should

God Idk wtf happened my post ended right there lost consciousness. Fuck that post cut to chase:
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Esther Danningtick - Thu, 28 Aug 2014 07:58:51 EST ID:sReZ3rPT No.25402 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Gdamnit ffs
Tl;Dr
Am trying tiO permanently detox but have been self .educating psychiatric problems other than go to doctor what do

I'm at my wits end cycling between various drugs and episodes. I already go to AA which helps because booze and cigarettes were/are my only hard addictions. But I am having episodes like crazy now. Kratom and etizolam help but I want off everything so then it's just smoking and I can quit that. Hopefully while having stabilized my mood. This is a LOT fucking harder than it looks.

First priority: get doc, taper quit tianeptine, taper quit etizolam, stop doing all other drugs like vervaine or weird shit, be down to kratom after coffee and then taper both kratom and smoking then switch to ecig and pop an eti or benzos at rough patches and then boom I'm fucking done.

Here's the problem: I've been fuckef since forever age 12 first time contemplated suicide. Became pothead and cigarette addict. Things only progression from there. So now I must manage a complete fucking overhaul. I'm trying to figure out how not to trigger myself into deeper edges of sickness. Bipolar what the fuck ever it is has become such an issue it is all consuming to my life.

Say I weren't sick just an addict what kind of mood swings and WD symptoms can I expect to be normal how intense and for how long?
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Esther Danningtick - Thu, 28 Aug 2014 08:41:37 EST ID:sReZ3rPT No.25403 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>> g
wh e have told me that. Unfortunately they neglected to tell me one side effect: where once I was jovial now I fucking hate errybody. My family is falling apart, I realized many of my friends aren't even friends at all, and a majority of people are insufferable dumb hypocrite cunts

My rose tinted glasses are now off so I'm trying not to be a complete son of a bitch to everyone and remind myself yeah I am wrong too. Honest to Godvi just miss pothead me and wish I were like me from a decade ago. All the mood swings and garbage were still there but I wasn't so cynical and jaded yet. Ever since that godaeful relationship and quitting drinking I see something worse: a cold cruel vicious world twisted by lies hypocrisy and self interest with no hope no joy and no point in salvage attempts but just get myself help and healthy so maybe one day I can forget this truth again and believe in bullshit like love and virtue now. Even tiny normal things are "noble". If I am a shining example still then Gods to do us like fucking Sodom.

Seriously for real. I kinda miss swishing that bottle but I know I can never go back because my bubbly happy drunks had already been gone. Even to drink again won't do any good won't even make me feel good let alone see much goodness in others.

Just about the entire human race is so petty and vile it is worthless. The deserve the wars inflicted upon each other.

Faggoys never told me about that part.

You have to power through the sudden realization that people are just complete fucking assholes your so called friends don't care about you the whole world is just out to use you and anything left that has a shred of beauty ought be avoided and hiffrn from reality.

Psychologically THIS is an actually FUCKING hard part. As I sobered I realized where once I could see flrvks of God in everyone now I just see void and blackness. I am trying to snap myself the fuck out of it and remember my own flaws. And to get past how vicious petty and hypocritical people are without a goddamn drink because I assume nothing's FUCKING funny anymore.
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Hannah Gollerhall - Sun, 31 Aug 2014 20:05:50 EST ID:a4zwRu/+ No.25413 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I drank last night but good lord these hangovers just keep getting worse every time, I think it's time to take a break from this shit.

I drink a lot of water when I booze so I don't get the classic hangover, but for whatever reason I can not fucking sleep the next day after I drink no matter how tired/exhausted I am. Feels fucking horrible.
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hello - Mon, 06 Oct 2014 23:24:35 EST ID:H2PlUjmY No.25632 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>put on amphetamines at age 8
>was told repeatedly that i need them
>mom threatens me to stay on pills, and makes sure i take them while i live with her
>fuck it might as well enjoy them
>abuse the fuck out of amphs
>10 years later
>wait fuck i don't actually need them
>too psychologically crippled to tell if the drugs did this to me or if i was always a shitter


a couple months sober here. from all drugs, alcohol, and cigs. been eating a little bit of junk food though. shits rough but i'm gonna ride it out. hopefully things look up eventually.
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Caroline Focklehood - Mon, 06 Oct 2014 23:35:38 EST ID:J5SlYdyc No.25634 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been mostly sober for 3 months, minus two beers over the course of two days. Live in a halfway house so gotta be careful or ill get kicked out. They only advocate abstinence, so cant really party too hard or too often. Im enjoying the mental clarity though, and at least im not homeless anymore. Still, to be honest, i really fucking miss drugs sometimes. Oh well, theres more to life, right?

...right?
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Clara Blathershaw - Wed, 08 Oct 2014 23:28:05 EST ID:K4Pl8CoI No.25647 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25634
Right!
Drugs dull us, there's plenty of time to do drugs when I'm 50 and dying of cancer, for now I am in my prime and want to be out there meeting people, seeing sights, BREATHING CLEAN AIR.
Almost on 1month sober, woohooooo.
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Eliza Druzzlenetch - Thu, 09 Oct 2014 11:07:37 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.25649 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bws, sort of sober for two weeks. I feel like something is missing in my brain, no matter what I'm doing I don't feel satisfied. I hope that goes away.
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Barnaby Gongerwell - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 18:57:57 EST ID:XiT5xBzg No.25654 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>be an alcoholic
>bad shit happens, can no longer afford alcohol
>take up dph in low doses for the sedation, feels similar to the booze
>tolerance builds
>end up binging on delirium doses every night for the last year
>trying to get off the dph, mental rot from is starting to become prevalent.
>money is better now so I start drinking again to ward off the withdrawals and be able to sleep at night
>stop drinking and start using dph again
>end up mixing the dph with the alcohol
>realize this is really fucking stupid and I need to stop or pic related is going to be me
>been stone cold sober for 2 weeks.
>barely slept, feel like puking every minute of every day, overall feel like hell but every day I feel a microscopic amount better.
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Doris Callerbatch - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 20:59:47 EST ID:+i2M5Q9V No.25655 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25654
Stick at it brother. If it gets unbearable buy a bag of weed and a throw away spoonpipe to help you feel better.
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Ronnie Mund !!JOxBd8yX - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 22:50:39 EST ID:cXZgL7dA No.25658 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25654
You can do it, man. I know how bad alcohol and benzo withdrawal are. Remember the kindling effect and all - each subsequent detox will be more difficult and more dangerous. Let those GABA receptors regulate themselves, and get the benefit of no longer putting neurotoxins in your system. Hell, cardiotoxic, hepatoxic, etc.. If you are not of the anti-psychiatry opinion and mindset, perhaps pursue a good psychiatrist, if you can find one. One who will take time in making diagnoses and not load you up with 5 meds on the first appointment. But, that's a different but related issue. If you have not ever explored Eastern philosophy, maybe check out some books and youtube recordings by Alan Watts (or rather, of his voice). You're probably pretty anhedonic, but it will get better over time, and within a few months you'll find that the cravings get less intense and come less often. I didn't think this was true until I got 2.5 months sober, a practical record in the past 4 years, man. Maybe go to AA meetings, but I understand if it's not your thing. The steps are not my cup of tea, but the social support and liberation can be helpful. Also therapist? And most importantly yourself. If you're interested in Alan Watts I recommend 'The Book'.
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Nigel Brillylock - Sat, 11 Oct 2014 23:15:07 EST ID:XiT5xBzg No.25666 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25658
>>25655

thanks, it may seem like nothing but a few words of encouragement helps tremendously, even over the internet.
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David Crillerwater - Sun, 12 Oct 2014 08:32:06 EST ID:7lHCU2vB No.25669 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Taking an indefinite break from weed. I hate being sober.
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Molly Blatherham - Fri, 17 Oct 2014 16:19:51 EST ID:ex+nUvOA No.25712 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Haven't smoked in over 2 weeks
>Have a drug test tomorrow
Time to go get some asprin and an at home drug test and see if i'm clean or not.
I've passed worse in less than a week without substituting, here goes nothing.
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Ronnie Mund !!JOxBd8yX - Fri, 17 Oct 2014 18:51:28 EST ID:cXZgL7dA No.25713 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25712
FYI from what I can see, the usual cutoff level for urine tests is 50 ug/dl or whatever the standard units are. So make sure you check the cutoff on your home test kit. Good luck bro. Hate that feel.
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Matilda Billingway - Sun, 19 Oct 2014 19:49:55 EST ID:K4Pl8CoI No.25722 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25717
Its been 5 weeks as of today here, I have 2 tests, dont wanna waste them but I'm so fucking curious... Maybe next sunday...
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Sidney Bliblingben - Fri, 24 Oct 2014 06:33:41 EST ID:j5gKViIR No.25747 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Get prestigious job
>Drug test/medical exam scheduled for end of October
>Leave methadone program and start withdrawals in detox clinic, end of September
>Released from hospital October 10th
>Cue IV Heroin and Cocaine binge for 10 days
>Three days clean, feeling ridiculously shitty

>Drug test in 8 days


I hope I didn't fuck shit up.
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Nell Hallybury - Sat, 08 Nov 2014 23:35:49 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.25860 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25074
A little bit of an update...

I started drinking on the weekends at the end of July, up until Sep 27th when I got a public drunkenness citation. I've used heroin 4 times since then. This afternoon was hopefully the last time. I can't do this shit anymore. Drugs are no longer fun. They're depressing, a huge waste of money, and I feel worse after each use.

So tomorrow is day 1 (again). I'll be alright Sunday-thursday but it's Friday and Saturday I really gotta look out for. I want no part of this shit anymore. Anyone who's thinking of relapsing, please don't. Just make it through the day without using. It is worth it to stay clean.
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EvilParrot !0pPDXJbIc2 - Sun, 09 Nov 2014 02:32:39 EST ID:NKsArfI/ No.25861 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS

I've stopped pretty much everything. Most recently and most importantly it's been a week without tobacco/nicotine. Hopefully the urges stop soon. I'm doing it while i'm still young for the obvious health reasons. I feel a lot better and really didn't notice any mood effects.

>Alcohol
2 months. I never had a real booze problem, just a social drinker really. I don't really care for it. I'm stopping for a while because I started my smoking habit while drunk.

>Weed
Over 5 months. Looking for a better job.
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Nicholas Hunnerstone - Tue, 11 Nov 2014 02:24:21 EST ID:EluQjQpA No.25863 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25847

Guess I really should try to quit smoking too, I just don't really want to, I legit enjoy the fuck out of the act of smoking itself, just having something lit and watching the smoke swirl through the air, enjoying the taste of the tobacco, the feel of the smoke in my lungs and then going back out...

when I first started to gave me a little mental boost and that nicotine buzz was awesome but I haven't that in years, the only thing it does now is allow me to function at normal capacity. If I quit it would save me a good $300 a month at least.
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Nigger Gapperludging - Wed, 12 Nov 2014 07:24:20 EST ID:ev0cXjgo No.25872 Ignore Report Quick Reply
First night without binge drinking to sleep. Now this is insomnia. It's like I'm on a little too much caffeine all the damn time. Not being hungover though feels great.

I guess it's the best I could ask for considering how bad alcohol withdrawal can get.
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Ian Pitthood - Fri, 14 Nov 2014 17:59:29 EST ID:EluQjQpA No.25882 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25847

was bored as fuck last night, started to drink a beer and ended up pouring it out. Seems like I just can't stomach it now, I nearly puked after a few sips.
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Angus Pickford - Sat, 15 Nov 2014 02:06:45 EST ID:sA/SPxth No.25883 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25882
Thats good! Keep going man, don't quit!
One thing I've found that helps me is drinking plain unsweetened hot tea. Helps me relax , there are a ton of flavors to try, and many can be beneficial for your body.
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Wesley Chemmlehood - Sat, 15 Nov 2014 23:21:09 EST ID:EluQjQpA No.25886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25883

yeah I love tea, it's been too long since I had any. My favorite is just a cold glass of black tea with no sugar or anything else.
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Ebenezer Hashdock - Mon, 17 Nov 2014 02:51:09 EST ID:NS03FOYt No.25898 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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day 3 of no alcohol and weed

its like 2 am here and I don't see myself getting any sleep anytime soon, time is passing by SO FUCKING SLOW
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James Pellysat - Mon, 17 Nov 2014 22:30:39 EST ID:QhfRNEEf No.25905 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25899
>Maybe coming to this website isnt good in discouraging me

Fuck man, this site is terrible for that lol. I've really gotta make myself not read the drug forums and remember all the good times I had. It's so easy to forget all the hangovers and hell-trips.
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Basil Finnerkotch - Mon, 17 Nov 2014 22:58:33 EST ID:w2gDFNWQ No.25906 Ignore Report Quick Reply
took oxy nov 1st. clean since den. I lift and shit so I try not to take drugs too often. I will prolly take oxy this weekend cause im gonna try to ask this guy who hinted at being into drugs do some wit me on friday. Maybe he will trade me some shit for my oxy, that would be rad.
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Lillian Gebberseck - Wed, 19 Nov 2014 21:32:23 EST ID:gVHqPnlu No.25917 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I fucked up and lost my job due to random drug testing today. I guess it serves as a lesson learned and the wake up call that I've needed. Deleted and blocked every dealer I know and letting go of all of my drug friends. I'm only 23 so I've got to do this while I'm still young.

Quitting: methamphetamine, dilaudid, LSD, xanax, klonopin, pot, alcohol, and nicotine.
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Charlotte Clicklewill - Thu, 20 Nov 2014 00:02:01 EST ID:g3nhe1k4 No.25918 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25917

jesus christ dude, that's gonna be rough. It's your life but tapering off would make the whole thing so much easier. I'd get off the hard shit and save the alcohol and nicotine for later, at least that's legal so you can quit whenever it becomes convenient. it's gonna be hard enough without nicotine withdrawal on top of it.
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Ebenezer Clayspear - Thu, 20 Nov 2014 03:45:21 EST ID:2g0jUfFi No.25920 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stopped smoking weed this week. Ive just woken up and its 830am if I was blazing I probably would oversleep til 11. Im getting clean cause Im in my thirties and when I look back in recent years heavy drinking (and drugs) has got me
>strapped down in an ambulance
>beaten up
>fractured jaw
>arrested
When I hit spirits bad things seem to happen, like Im Tyler Durden and my life is Fight Club. I spent the night in a cell and was thinking once this shits over Im gonna get more mandy and party. I didnt and dont want to now. Ive done X off and on since 19 and luckily still have my dopamine receptors intact. I stoppedmoking weed cause I kept getting obsessive over whats going to happen to me and ptsd flashbacks of bad things that have gone down. I also stopped taking diazepam cause I could feel that I was needing it. I am going back to the police station tomorrow after nearly 2 months of horrible limbo on bail. I had a solicitor who told me to say nothing, if it comes to it I dont even know what the stuff is anyway and was blind drunk when I found it. I have no priors and will go see a counselor about my drinking if they want me too. Wish me luck.
Here's to getting a life!
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Lydia Grandson - Mon, 24 Nov 2014 14:45:37 EST ID:prFkM6iD No.25928 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober since some time last week, probably thursday. I have a fucking huge block of high grade hash in my smoking box, but because of having sinusitis I don't want to risk aggravating that shit.
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Archie Mullerdat - Tue, 25 Nov 2014 19:41:25 EST ID:UgjryMyl No.25943 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25934

Don't do it, man. Don't do it.
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Clara Gorringwadge - Wed, 26 Nov 2014 03:01:31 EST ID:NBK9gsDd No.25947 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm sober here. I'm making some chamomile tea, a lot of it. Hopefully that will give me at least some sort of buzz.
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Clara Mivingpatch - Mon, 01 Dec 2014 03:44:39 EST ID:myuS0oRX No.25982 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25981

maybe not all bad, this trip reminded me of why I quit in the first place.
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Fucking Suffinglore - Sun, 18 Jan 2015 23:01:11 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.26285 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>25860

Update. 51 days clean. Last used the day after Thanksgiving. Dealer got arrested 2 days ago with 407 bags of heroin. That means if I ever want to relapse I'll have to drive to Kensington in Philly. Glad that there's another obstacle making it harder to use.
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Jack Hoffingbury - Sun, 22 Mar 2015 02:29:49 EST ID:yaUr4cjV No.26554 Ignore Report Quick Reply
bumpan
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Hamilton Bremmerbet - Wed, 15 Apr 2015 01:46:09 EST ID:madDhd5U No.26661 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26660

To add tho, still blazing and trying to twelve step is almost impossible to do properly

And i do not do it properly, i made it four months total sober, but relapse is just weed for months now

I do plan on going clean again fully once i get through some challenging times

Im not the best example, but i wish everyone doin it another 24
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Angus Bopperlock - Sat, 18 Apr 2015 23:13:57 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.26671 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>6 days
>Trying to quit using
>Tricked myself into thinking that cycling drugs meant I couldn't get addicted
>Was doing loads of Adderall most recently
>Friend asked me to stop because I was getting noticibly "tweaky"
>Last time I did speed was April Fool's Day
>Relapsed with alcohol (my old main drug) on Sunday
>Can't stop thinking about boozing
>Feel completely emasculated and powerless
Fuck /detox/, when am I going to be normal again?
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Serad - Tue, 21 Apr 2015 00:38:46 EST ID:YRzb8dqV No.26681 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893

Sober seven months, 3 days. Went inpatient, then to halfway house and outpatient program. Basically all begrudgingly but not due to any legal issues. Went about three years hard daily drinking and /stim/ popping with no real job besides occasionally sex with older dudes for pay or using my car to help /opi/ junkies with their commute to the hood in exchange for cash or prescription stims (too discriminating to bother with street crap unless it was free).

I still come here because I am not totally all that into it. I don't really consider myself "in recovery" or whatever. Being in south Florida now I see every day what a sham it is. I am not yet at the point of saying "sobriety sucks and y'all know it" at AA/NA meetings but that seems to be what it is. So many of the people enthusiastic about "recovery" are the ones who either have transitioned into getting paid for it (halfway house managers, treatment center employees, etc.) or are unbelievably full of it and will soon be doing whatever again.

I imagine myself getting back to a place where I will therapeutically use Adderall and drink again. Basically is the goal right now, unless something magical happens that makes life seem less fucking miserable and meaningless. That being the case, why "choose life"?

Sobriety sure as hell isn't about those that "want" it. No, they want to be totally happy, content, and fine without having to do drugs all the time. They want to have cake and eat it too.

No, sobriety is about those who "do" it. And I am not talking about no 12 Step rituals and routine. Simpler than that. It is about not picking up your drug. That is fucking it. And that means choosing a state miserable instead of fun.

I guess that is unbearable for some, but I just find it a return to normal.
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Beatrice Crimmleleck - Tue, 21 Apr 2015 02:46:56 EST ID:++JaEN6K No.26683 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Currently sober and browsing erowid. It's so hard to break the habits of planning out your days/nights for "Okay from this hour to this hour I'll be tripping on this substance and then from this hour to this hour I'll be drunk." I just wish I could get back into a normal routine or reading exercising and enjoying life. Working night shift for several years and spending all of your free time in a drug induced stupor really fucks your life up when you decide to wake up. I'll make it through the night and then in the morning avoid buying a pack of ciggarettes or grabbing some beers. I wish cutting people out of your life that enable your addictions was a lot easier than people make it out to be. Fucking lonely sobriety.
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Sidney Fucklebury - Tue, 21 Apr 2015 12:47:01 EST ID:eVng+S/1 No.26684 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26681
Drug abstinence and recovery have a big difference.

I agree with you, you aren't in recovery. It is also possible for a person to be enthusiastic about recovery and not get payed for it and stop relapsing, and I think that your absolute statements about that show some qualities of arrogance.

Sobriety is a part of recovery, but sobriety is not the recovery.
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George Bardhall - Thu, 23 Apr 2015 11:45:57 EST ID:KTFISsse No.26686 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Haven't used marijuana, alcohol, or opiates (primarily kratom) in about 10 days.

I stopped with my girlfriend because she needs to pass a drug test for a job, and I'd feel like an asshole for getting fucked up while she's sober.

I have basically no appetite and have lost around 5lb so far.
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Eugene Dartworth - Sat, 25 Apr 2015 10:45:15 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.26696 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sober for 5 months to the day. Finally kicked a long opiate addiction. Plan on staying clean. I honestly never want to fucking touch opiates again. No cravings or anything, these days. Super happy about it.
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Sophie Brookshit - Sat, 25 Apr 2015 13:52:24 EST ID:ugvp2CnH No.26698 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26696

Happy to hear bro :) stick with it
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Phineas Willyson - Sun, 26 Apr 2015 11:32:45 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.26703 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26698
Definitely. I'm so glad I'm not tied down to a fucking molecule anymore. Not to be chasing a fix anymore. Life has changed for the better since detoxing, dramatically. I hope anyone out there struggling with an opiate addiction who may be reading this ends up doing the same as I did. The high just isn't worth it. Thank you for the kind words, though. It's appreciated.
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Ebenezer Blushnen - Thu, 30 Apr 2015 11:31:21 EST ID:4RTLiJtK No.26722 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
Day 1 of quitting amphetamines of different sorts. Feeling like a big pile of shit. BWS.
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Isabella Ginnerbare - Fri, 01 May 2015 10:30:35 EST ID:7baA+sM+ No.26726 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
>I just want weed to be more like a treat and not a everyday normal thing
>tfw weed starts to only feel like what normal people say a cigarette feels like for them
bumping while sober
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Thomas Cattingdut - Sat, 02 May 2015 10:07:36 EST ID:50RWNK8n No.26729 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26704 here.
Week 2. Bumping to keep things in perspective.
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Henry Fecklecocke - Mon, 04 May 2015 12:53:00 EST ID:V6RMCLle No.26744 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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50 days so far of no /dis/ drugs. Also haven't done tramadol or taken magnesium supplements because they also antagonize nmda. Recently realized alcohol does too so that's out now as much as possible (all my friends drink and I'm too used to drinking to cut it out completely). Trying to take a tolerance break until at least Christmas because I was up to at least 40 mg 3-meo-pcp or at least 100 mg MXE to feel anything, and effects were always either underwhelming or too much (couldn't find a "sweet spot" anymore). I have taken long T breaks before, but that was before I met 3-meo-pcp, which is proving a tad harder to go without.
How do sober people enjoy life? I can't get motivated to do much of anything and have spent the lion's share of this time just lazing around the house. I actually look forward to going to work now just because it passes the time.
Considering getting some pain pills so I can have fun once in a while, but all anybody I know has are muscle relaxers or benzos and they are no fun to me. Also, I think finding other drugs would probably make my psychological state worse and take away any sense of accomplishment from this long break.
Well, 7&1/2 months to go and I can down a couple bottles of robitussin and stare at a lit up Christmas tree. Maybe get my Saturn repaired or replaced in the meantime so I can play Christmas Nights.
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Edward Gacklefield - Sat, 09 May 2015 03:30:25 EST ID:yG4TPHSh No.26770 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i went out tonight, around 1700PST, and had two beers at a place. then went out for one more. my phone battery was dying so i wanted to go home. and for the first time in a while i just felt like that was enough beer. i decided to seize on the rare occasion and didn't order another one and went home. a few hours later, i'm thinking about filling a growler at the brewery before it closes in 40 minutes. somehow i was able to tell myself no again. sometimes it helps if i think "i just have to wait till 11, then they'll be closed and i can't even consider it anymore"

so yeah, a mostly sober friday night

> reasons: money and weight gain. although my pay lets me drink basically endlessly, i still wanna save more.
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Shit Werringlot - Wed, 13 May 2015 04:36:57 EST ID:FMIKCDpN No.26806 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'll be honest. I have only stopped because I can't afford to continue. I don't have a job. I get an allowance from my mum every saturday of 100 dollars. Well, I kept asking for "advances" until I was getting the money out on thursdays. Run of the mill excess consumption and perpetuation of a habit. So It's wednesday now and I've sober since sunday. I'm gonna wait until at least friday before I ask for my money. Might as well use this time to lower my tolerance, seeing as my mum will become very concerned if I ask for the money today.

I am considering asking for 30 dollars today, and then really spreading out the gram of MJ I can buy with that, then I can cope way easier until saturday. Sweating is the fucking worst symptom of MJ WD's, at least for me.

Fuck my lack of self control. I am making all the wrong choices.
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Frederick Harringmit - Thu, 14 May 2015 09:24:32 EST ID:50RWNK8n No.26807 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26753 here.

Back to week 2. Gonna make it to month 2 this time. I promise you, 420chan.
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Martha Fittingfuck - Wed, 20 May 2015 15:52:36 EST ID:7ZlKOi+1 No.26827 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>23899

Three days is not enough to feel benefits from quitting. You need a solid month at least of 24/7 sobriety to really see a difference and positive effect. If you quit one thing and replace with another, you just cloud your mind up with something else. Quit everything completely. I know it's hard but just do it and deal with the feels.

Think about it this way: you have the rest of your life to dedicate to getting wasted, if sober life turns out to be a total bore. There's no rush to get high now, you've got decades ahead of you for it! With that in mind, a month sober doesn't seem so bad, if you know you've got something to fall back on.

Three days, though, is really nothing. I mean, if you're thin, healthy, get exercise, you might feel more clear headed, better lung function, etc, but since you relapse after 3 it's clearly not getting to that point of balancing shit out in your brain. Give it more time. Things will adjust by themselves if you give it some time and have patience.

By getting high or drunk again, you are just postponing this hard work until another day, but one day you will have to face it, so it might as well be now, right?

I can tell you that after 1 solid month without any drugs, I felt like a new person, my mind felt so lively and intelligent, I was starting conversations and laughing with family, felt more emotionally stable, felt a sense of simple happiness without needing a drug to induce it.

It is worth it, it's just hard to get into the swing of things and out of old bad habits.
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Jenny Nopperhall - Sat, 23 May 2015 21:49:04 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.26842 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm 6 months sober again. DO IV Heroin for 3 years, coke whenever I could, alcoholic for 2 years, any other drugs whenever I could. I say again because I've been this far before last year. I relapsed on alcohol, then on dope. I've posted in this thread multiple times since 2013 when it was posted.

I just want to say this: Sobriety is only boring, only depressing, only shitty, if you do nothing to change your life. If you're just abstaining from drugs and nothing else then you're going to hate it. I'm not saying go to AA/NA. I don't go to them, and yet I've managed to change my life for the better. I got rid of negative people, changed my habits, got new hobbies, did better in school, started lifting, got REAL coping mechanisms, got a full time job, and made new friends. This is way better than driving down to Philly every day to get dope.It's way better than getting drunk every night. It's better than a coke binge. It's not better than an acid trip, I'll admit, but I can't do LSD for other reasons.

My point is, if you keep doing the same thing when you try to get clean, or sober, or whatever, you are fucked from the start. I haven't craved once since my last shot in November, because I was finally ready to be done. I've ODd enough times, blacked out enough times, been arrested enough times, spent way too much money, and hurt too many people to continue with the lifestyle. So if you want to lead a happy life without getting drunk or high, you gotta put some effort in it, beyond saying, "Oh, I'll just stop."
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Sophie Brucklestock - Sat, 23 May 2015 23:54:56 EST ID:T/Zhsa4I No.26843 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bws. Sober for 2 months now. Did rehab and went to a halfway house and holy shit it sucks. Seriously AA should have a disclamer saying "non chistians need not apply." I would not recomend this route to anyone unless they are devoute christians. All my house mates are born again douche bags who think god is the only way to get sober. The only thing keeping me sober is the drug tests and not wanting to get caught in the cycle of relapsedetox halfway.
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Poopster - Tue, 26 May 2015 17:11:32 EST ID:MdShRv00 No.26858 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26842

wooo!! good fer you brother!!
sittin here tryin to sage some threads but im only choir boy compahed to U!!
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Fucking Bublingbick - Thu, 28 May 2015 12:37:03 EST ID:aBNficzK No.26874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not a usual drug abuser but:
>boy it'd be good to do something
>boy that was horrible I hate doing thing

I just need to not have drugs, probably the only safe choice
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Matilda Worringstock - Fri, 29 May 2015 18:31:08 EST ID:ZoNVUJt2 No.26887 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So I'm not sober right now, but I'd like to ask some questions and I don't think this warrants a new thread.
So I'm trying to quit alcohol, I already managed to do so a few times, the longest time being 2 months. But I somehow manage to get addicted again which really fucks up my productivity and my life in general, even though I've been through like 3-4 heavy withdrawals which I somehow manage to get through on my own, which was hell. Even my friends start to notice that when I go out with them I always end up the most drunk (that's why I usually drink alone).
Can anyone give me any advice on how to stay sober/not fall into an alcoholic pattern again? Or should I go see a doctor?
I also finally got my hands on some LSD which arrives next week, which I only got because of some studies that it can help alcoholics get away from alcohol.
This shit really sucks, mostly because I have the motivation to quit everytime I'm drunk, but then I wake up the next morning and the same routine repeats again and again and again, I just feel pathetic.
Pls halp
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Beatrice Sobbledock - Sat, 30 May 2015 23:44:28 EST ID:depj/hZK No.26891 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21851
I wish someone would prune those threads.
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Fanny Hivingded - Sun, 31 May 2015 00:49:57 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.26892 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26696
Samefag here, sober for a little past 6 months now. Feelin' great about it.
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Scarface !VPhztxXZH. - Thu, 04 Jun 2015 12:46:58 EST ID:yvXL4P1F No.26901 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Not much money left (spent everything on drugs), tolerance for DXM is way too high, ran out of MXE and still waiting for an assortment of drugs to arrive. Fuck how long does it take for a package to get through customs? It's been there for days ughhh. I fear I might be looking at a dissociative free weekend (on the upside there will be alcohol).

I'm sweating like crazy, everything is boring, fucking videogames stop being fun. How do sober people do it?
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Ernest Widgekidging - Thu, 04 Jun 2015 14:17:08 EST ID:eVng+S/1 No.26902 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26887
6 months sober from alcohol.

It's difficult, and it seems that every 3 months cravings will come really strong for about a week or two, and then it passes. You have to start re structuring your behaviors and your life to something that rewards you better than booze.

Also each time you withdraw from alcohol, the withdrawals will be worse the next time and easier to get off a smaller amount of booze. I've been through 11.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kindling_%28sedative-hypnotic_withdrawal%29

Since becoming sober I've been getting better at managing my funds, doing outdoor stuff, and got into college.

I'm just about 6 months minus one day, and i'll tell you the cravings right now to drink ARE FUCKING INTENSE. It's on my mind at least two or three times everyday, and I know that by the end of the week it'll be over until 9 months hits.

Idk, just stay strong and imagine the things you want out of life and whether or not alcohol hinders those things you want.
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William Davingwill - Fri, 05 Jun 2015 19:03:52 EST ID:V6RMCLle No.26908 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26901
You're setting yourself up for a really bad time if you don't take a long tolerance break from dissociatives soon. I'm currently on one (3 months in, previously was doing 3-meo-pcp about every other day for a year or so) and it sucks, but it gets a little easier as it goes on. Dissociative tolerance makes drinking less fun as well. You sound like you have a higher tolerance than I did and like you are used to getting dissed more often, and you are already paying for that with the chemical imbalance you are likely experiencing. Anyway, feel free to ignore me but I would start a break next time you are running out instead of ordering more. You can only keep increasing the doses so long before it gets too expensive and takes its toll on your body, and the longer you wait for your break, the worse it will feel to stop.
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Velveteen !8NBuQ4l6uQ - Sat, 06 Jun 2015 00:07:23 EST ID:TYgBfuGZ No.26910 Ignore Report Quick Reply
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1pu4O9vzLY
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Fuck Munderpud - Sun, 07 Jun 2015 03:44:41 EST ID:xMO+OVal No.26911 Ignore Report Quick Reply
After trying weed, alcohol, and deleriants for two or so months, I decided to appreciate life in vanilla mode.
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Scarface !VPhztxXZH. - Sun, 07 Jun 2015 08:49:52 EST ID:yvXL4P1F No.26912 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26908
I will take that advice into consideration, have been thinking about a tolerance break for a while now.
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Martin Cemmerstene - Fri, 19 Jun 2015 02:59:07 EST ID:5CWqvYWj No.26986 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26807 here
Barely made it to month 2, but fuck it. Sobriety is not really helping me.

I think the problem is that I did a bunch of drugs when my brain was developing, so now my brain needs these drugs to function. It is an unfortunate reality, but I'm not going to live my life as a shell of my drug-fueled self.

darknet here I come
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cursive !M6R0eWkIpk - Sat, 20 Jun 2015 07:25:10 EST ID:hE520zai No.26990 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26951 dawwwww i cant say no to pechitas like that, link has been applicable i just didnt know how to cross link
>>>/stim/255345

oh nooooo bump, worth it. the adventure which lead to the spoils i smoke was worth it. goin in the book im sposed to write once i learn how to read.
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Charlotte Sicklechan - Sun, 21 Jun 2015 14:42:09 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.26999 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>26842
About to be at 7 months in a few days. BWS
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Jenny Trotcocke - Mon, 22 Jun 2015 04:08:22 EST ID:xToX8wTI No.27000 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I am swinging by here to tell everyone to stay strong if they are trying to stay away from a substance. 2 years ago I went off Clonazepam after taking it for 5 years straight. It took me over a year to feel good again. For the past 6 months I have been living a sober life aside from smoking pot now and then.

Don't give up. I knew pain, but now I see that the pain was letting go. Like trying to pry a toddlers hands off a candy bar with a wrench, so my body and mind tortured me like yours may be torturing you.

Don't count the days, don't count the hours, don't be a slave to a badge you wear that tells you how long since you last fucked up. 1 day, 10 days, or 1000, it is all the same if you have let go in your heart. Someday you will say 'It's over' and your will makes it so. I believe in you.
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Charlotte Sassleded - Fri, 03 Jul 2015 12:09:44 EST ID:EfKezapq No.27060 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
Quit smoking after like 10 tries and I don't know like 5 years of it or more. Also I haven't eaten or slept in like a day but I did drink a bunch of caffeine. Probably going to take some etizolam in a few hours and take a nap and then go grocery shopping and then try to move away from my family.
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Shitting Fuckingbury - Sun, 05 Jul 2015 14:10:02 EST ID:mDz7ycZj No.27068 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm quitting weed for a number of reasons.

I'm trying to get into the IT field and build a career, and weed both dulls my motivation and would sink my ship in a piss test, which nearly every job in the piss poor state of Indiana requires. (Getting the fuck out of here is also an eventual goal)

I've also been stoned all day erreday for the past year or so, and my tolerance is much higher than I'd like, which makes me much less high than I'd like.
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rammy - Mon, 06 Jul 2015 18:52:28 EST ID:+bkditCy No.27070 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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been off opiates for about 7-8 months now. still have the urge to use, i don't think that's going away. i feel like once you've used something intravenously you're pretty much fucked, craving it forever, but that could just be me.

been smoking weed pretty much everyday since i got out of rehab 8 months ago, but i decided to take a break after i ran out a few days ago. i scraped up what i could out of my bong yesterday but it wasn't enough to get me high, so i dunno if you wanna call today my first or second day clean. i've noticed my opiate cravings getting way worse in just those couple days i've been off weed though. really hoping i can get through a few weeks sober, i miss having fun smoking instead of it being something i have to do constantly.

tl;dr: weed dulled my opiate cravings and now that i'm not smoking i'm feeling them worse than ever
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Rebecca Penderdock - Mon, 06 Jul 2015 21:32:06 EST ID:fiJki4mn No.27071 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27069
Keep on it buddy. Good work!
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William Miffingtun - Tue, 07 Jul 2015 07:22:46 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.27073 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27070
You're going through the PAWS - post acute withdrawal syndrome. It's hard to say how long you'll have cravings for. Maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe a year, etc.

I'm the guy that posted just before you. We've been sober for about just as long. I had the same issue with weed. I never used opiates intravenously, but I was having really bad cravings like 4 months into sobriety and I turned to weed. At first it was great, until I ran out of it and the cravings were absolutely worse. The problem with turning to weed (or any other drug) is that you're just trading out your old addiction for a new one, since you'll likely be using it with the same frequency and for the same reasons.

My advice is to stay away from drugs for a while. It sounds a lot simpler than it is, but this is honestly what you need. You've already gone through acute withdrawal, so you've been through the worst of it. You just have to remind yourself of that. If you can get through withdrawals as bad as opiates, you can do pretty much anything.

I still have cravings myself, but they used to be a lot worse than they are now. Honestly I don't think I'll ever be completely free of having them. But it's totally manageable now. I can get through the month without having to resort to using anything, and all I really have to contend with is a thought that enters the back of my mind only occasionally and briefly. That's generally where you want to get yourself. Once you're in a place where you're comfortable with how you can quell your cravings without drugs, then I'd say it's OK to get back to smoking. It really just depends though. Definitely don't use it as a crutch. It's a bad idea all around.
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Alice Brookville - Mon, 13 Jul 2015 12:59:37 EST ID:Xo14ZENM No.27109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
4 days sober from years of polydrugging to mask my anxiety/depression. Been self medicating with everything under the sun and tried the ssri's which did nothing but give me severe dereslisation and extreme mental fog. I don't want to run from myself anymore and have a long road to travel down but I guess being born anxious/depressed is being born anxious/depressed and I'm going to spend the rest of my life dedicated to developing non-drug strategies to cope with it. Drugs just haven't turned out to be the answer and I wasted most of my youth/ early adulthood figuring that out! I feel so brain dead but I'm happy I've finally seen the light, I just got to remember not to take any easy exits and I have a feeling I'll be normalish one day :)
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Eliza Nippertatch - Mon, 13 Jul 2015 16:51:41 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.27110 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>27109
Good luck!
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George Pollybanks - Sat, 18 Jul 2015 14:02:46 EST ID:V6RMCLle No.27136 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Month 4 of no dissociatives at all completed. Month 5 now in progress. Cravings have been substantially less strong and frequent than they were a couple months ago but I would be lying if I said I didn't want some 3-meo-pcp right now more than anything else. Planning on getting some for Christmas if cravings haven't disappeared by then (you can find me further up the thread). I'm sure I seem like a wiener to a lot of people on here for whining about no dissociatives when there's people on here trying to break daily heroin or benzo habits, but hey, they're my favorite and sobriety sucks ass.
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Doris Pocklehood - Tue, 21 Jul 2015 10:25:42 EST ID:ZF2fRR5I No.27143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
Tired of working stupid jobs, all the good jobs in my area drug test, so if I ever want to make more than $11/hr, I have to suck it up and quit green. Sucks because I love green, my favorite of all the drugs, but I guess it's time to grow up.
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Nigel Sezzleworth - Fri, 24 Jul 2015 01:17:03 EST ID:JPRqntv/ No.27156 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been off weed for about a month and a half cause I'm looking for a job. I may get hired soon fortunately.

I appreciate my friend Tussin keeping me company in these dark time's though. When i allow him to, that is. I make sure his visits are infrequent as possible so he doesn't become boring.

But he visited recently so I'm just going to be straight up sober for quite awhile, or until I'm employed.
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Eugene Nisslesine - Sat, 25 Jul 2015 15:32:34 EST ID:PPKDrsuQ No.27161 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 2 of no drinking completed. I was drinking every night on a camping trip as one does but couldn't stop when I got back. I can feel my health going to shit so I'm gonna quit for a while and get it back under control.
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Angus Pockham - Mon, 03 Aug 2015 17:21:49 EST ID:ty/9bM3M No.27191 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>Alcohol

Been sober for about a week or so. I had to quit drinking because I got shitfaced and in a drunken rage I threatened a kid with a machete. Charges could be pretty severe, because the cops are trying to say it was pre-meditated. The most bullshit thing about it is that the jail time for attempted assault with a deadly weapon is lower than possession of a quarter ounce of weed. Fucking America...
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Cigs - Wed, 05 Aug 2015 07:52:24 EST ID:A70anC8X No.27202 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I had exactly this thought process with cigs.
I love having a good smoke, I love the conversations, and I love it with a beer.
I hate the need to have a whole cig schedule throughout the day, and plus it can really make me feel bad in some circomstances.

My input is: Put down rules and keep them, but know yourself if the rule is way too difficult you wont make it, just be smart psychologicaly.

For instance my rules now regarding tobacco are:
  • Always smoke with another person also smoking
  • Never buy cigs

It took time to get there and I can't say to the world "No I don't smoke" but man, I smoked only once this year so far.
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Edward Fitzgeraldine - Wed, 05 Aug 2015 08:21:57 EST ID:b67YMKx1 No.27203 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Just decided I'm too impulsive for all this shit, had a real good couple weeks (Been visiting family + friends in my hometown and after 8 months of sobriety (besides weekend drinking) I've leapt straight back into it all, Mandy, Coke, Acid, so much weed, it's been a heavy couple weeks so I've decided to call it all quits, go back to the sober life and try n kick my porn habit whilst I'm at it. Wish me luck guys BWS
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Faggy Dangerstock - Tue, 11 Aug 2015 04:52:31 EST ID:tE76uFg6 No.27234 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm bored of drugs. I've done it all and at this point i'm just smoking weed to feel normal. I'm not going to let a fucking plant enslave my life so i lost my chains like the good little proletarian i am.
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Lydia Peblingwill - Fri, 14 Aug 2015 01:57:59 EST ID:/I75oB6T No.27239 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>27237
I'm in the same boat as you bro. I had a little bit of a smaller habit (1.0 lb a day) for 3 years. As of this writing I am 5 days sober. Over those 3 years I would say that I prolly had.... a total of 3 weeks clean? I also had the same problem as you with trying to taper. It wasn't until today that I just started feeling a little bit better. Although my intestines haven't figured out how to make solid healthy turds yet, I was able to eat some fried chicken with fries and not shit out that horrible diarrhea that stings my asshole like it's fucking hot lava coming out. I don't know if you've tried to quit before but seeing your post I thought I'd write a little synopsis of what I have experienced within the last 5 days.

The first day was pretty uneventful, just a general lack of energy/motivation really. The second day is when it really hits though. Second day is just blinding pain. Searing, blinding leg pain all day long. 3rd day is hot, stinging, non stop diarrhea. 4th day was constant cold sweats. One second I was sweating because I was so fucking hot, the next I was hugging myself with goose bumps all over my arms from how cold I was. Every 10 minutes I would walk outside in the sun to warm up, and then go back inside my house until I was too cold again. I felt like a fucking reptile. Each night I took 50mgs of Diphenhydramine and a couple shots of vodka to attempt at any sleep. For the second day I had some gabapentin but only enough for the second day. After that it was hot showers and music videos I remembered from being a kid so I could try and get high off nostalgia. So I could try and remember what my life was like before morphine.

I admit 5 days is hardly anything. It's a drop in the bucket really. But at least I'm beginning to feel something that remotely resembles normal and and so to you I say good luck and godspeed.
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Angus Mirringhood - Fri, 14 Aug 2015 09:43:36 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27240 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27239
i've quit a couple of times.. most times didn't last long.
i'm on 1st day now and pain is pretty bad. i got constant yawning coming on now and going to go have a bath..

i got beers i'm drinking atm but i can't down them quick. so long since i've drunk beer. i went through alcoholic stage once when i quit once and ever since then i've never drunk beer. doesn't have same goodness to it, probably because i haven't drunk enough days in a row yet.

but best time i quit i just distracted myself over the pain.... but once i got bored again i just started taking opiates again.. being jobless i do nothing all day, i only ever quit for a job application (and if i got the job as well, but haven't yet) most of these times...
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Thomas Fanridge - Sun, 16 Aug 2015 10:34:34 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27246 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27243
day three (well close to four i think, i woke up in afternoon, cant remember) now and pain is really bad.. i thought it would flare up and get worse on 3-5th days, was hoping it wouldn't though.
taking phenibut at night to get to sleep, it's a saviour in how much it helps with the pain. like last night i took some fell asleep, woke up and actually felt normal.

the pain what i'd describe without opiates is like... i can't desribe the feeling, but it's like on opiates/phenibut i have a 'blanket' feeling. like wherever the pain is, it feels like i have more 'volume' or something there like a blanket and that feeling is when i have no pain. without it, it's like that blanket is gone and the pain is really bad.. like i can't do anything without pain. only time is if i have shower, the heat disguises it, but i can still feel how bad it hurts.

anyways, like i said besides that i haven't got anything really bad. stomach ache is gone, just have no appetite but i ate something and feel better hunger wise. just had no energy to cook or even go to shops to buy something.
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William Grandlock - Sun, 16 Aug 2015 12:02:54 EST ID:/I75oB6T No.27247 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27246
When I'm by myself and I'm wondering how I would describe the pain this is how I usually think about it : In any other scenario, suppose you break your arm, you scrape your shins, get punched in the face, get kicked in the balls, etc... The pain reaches a climax for a few moments and then begins to subside. Pain from opiate withdrawas doesn't reach a climax and doesn't begin to subside. It's just fucking constant. Completely unwavering. Totally unyielding, doesn't fluctuate to let me know that my body is trying to do something to heal itself or anything of that nature. Days, and days of that bullshit before on the 5th or 6th morning it slowly, slowly begins to fade. I can honestly say there is nothing in my life I hate more.
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Barnaby Blishhood - Mon, 17 Aug 2015 08:23:43 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27254 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27252
actually after waking up pain just came back. just as bad... i feel like i can't sit or lie down without pain. which happened last time i quit. fucking sucks. drinking beer to try cut pain but it's doing nothing. i didn't wake up in time to go to pharmacy so i'll havfe to go tomorrow
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Jenny Chabberwill - Tue, 18 Aug 2015 10:56:18 EST ID:OQiys9uA No.27263 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Out of curiosity, would a Bump While Withdrawaling thread be taken well around here?
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Rebecca Fevinglotch - Thu, 20 Aug 2015 16:34:13 EST ID:8L1Lnpeo No.27271 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27270
hey man I feel you.... day 4 of a PST habit... cold flashes and pain in my legs and I only got like two hours of sleep last night, I sure hope I get more tonight

hang in there man... it's worth it 100%, I hope the worst of it it is gone but I know it's definitely not.... we can do it brother :)
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Sophie Pockgold - Thu, 20 Aug 2015 20:24:00 EST ID:8L1Lnpeo No.27274 Ignore Report Quick Reply
things get better man. this morning I was puking and crying and taking painful shits with a really bad pain in my legs but tonight I actually feel a bit better. Cold flashes for me are one of the most prominent symptoms and I fucking hate it so much, even more than the pain I dare say. It's 8:30pm where I'm at, I'm going to try to get some sleep in an hour or two, hopefully I'll be able to..
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Atomic Alice - Mon, 31 Aug 2015 03:12:24 EST ID:QgvqUrnQ No.27306 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
walking down this lonesome road again. Maybe this time it will stick. Honestly I have no right to complain, stims are a walk in the park compared to H. Good luck to you all
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Charlotte Bedgekat - Mon, 31 Aug 2015 11:56:19 EST ID:pEqKuBnR No.27307 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
having liver pain since three days from multiple drug consumption
time to take a break
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Dr. Mario - Wed, 02 Sep 2015 11:39:20 EST ID:V4GJ3blT No.27316 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
When I had a pill connect during my last two years of college (mostly hydrocodone and oxycodone, but sometimes adderall/ritalin/focalin and benzos) I was really good about sticking to a chipping schedule/general rules of thumb. Now the weird part was I was probably more an a polydrug "addict" back then than I am now (3 years later), but I'm slipping up these days.

The pills were fun, shorter acting, and more expensive than poppy pod tea, and ESPECIALLY poppy seed tea. Spacing out doses to as little as every 5 days seemed to keep tolerance particularly low (especially with 30mg dxm).

But now that I'm out of college and I don't smoke weed everyday or do psychedelics, I've been hitting the poppy seed tea pretty hard. I preach about responsible chipping use on the /opi/ board, but I haven't been sticking with my own mantra this last month. I haven't been using "every day" but looking at my amazon history I've spent over $80 on seeds alone this month.

When I first started just 4oz of top-quality seeds would get me "high". I could take more but that was enough. As the weeks dragged on (new city, new graduate school/part time job, all my old friends gone, etc.) I began using more and more, sometimes two days in a row. tl;dr here I am now where I spent $28 on 5 pounds of decent seeds and I used them up in about 4 days.

This has got to stop, as the euphoria has lessened significantly. I can't drink alcohol or use kava because I have a fucked liver (hepatitis A from India), and I don't want to vape weed more than once a week because I'm trying to make this measly 14g of blue dream last me a year (so far so good, been 4 months and only used about 5g of it).

>Killed the seeds on a Friday night
>none of Saturday, wedding party, got smashed (rare treat)
>feeling sweaty/shitty on Sunday night, rinse the poppy bag for resin to "get well"
It's now Tuesday, nasty shits and mentally fucked but decent enough to function, go to grad classes and work.

>The big thing is not ordering them for a while. I DO want to use them, but responsibly. For now that frankly means none for at least two-three weeks.
>Still feel bad about using 0.5mg etizolam/night to sleep most nights, but that won't be hard to solve.

Sorry for the ramble, but if there's any board that can handle it it's /detox/. Just battle whatever your addiction is day by day, it's the small victories that matter. Just don't waste those victories by going back to your old ways. Any reduction is a step in the right direction.

Good luck.
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Eugene Blondletad - Thu, 03 Sep 2015 03:11:40 EST ID:/I75oB6T No.27321 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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So... My DOC is Poppy seed tea. Over the course of a month, I've gotten high 3 times. At the beginning of August I quit for a week. Then used, then went through withdrawal again. Then 8 days of sobriety, then used and went through withdrawal again. Then 8 days later used again and went through withdrawal yet again. Now here I am at 8 days of sobriety again and I want to use but I just keep telling myself that I could have had 30 consecutive days sober instead of 8. I noticed that the last time I got high my wd's werent as bad, but... still not fun. I keep trying to justify using to myself by telling myself that since the last set of withdrawals weren't as bad then if I use now then they will be even less instense. God... This sucks.
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Augustus Trotspear - Thu, 03 Sep 2015 07:15:12 EST ID:kRahV1aw No.27323 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27307
unexpected blood test tomorrow. I'm fucked.
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Matilda Weffingbury - Sat, 05 Sep 2015 02:40:38 EST ID:f7Tdvlku No.27325 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>27324

the feels are too real
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Eliza Clellywog - Sat, 05 Sep 2015 07:25:02 EST ID:czFtb/x+ No.27326 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
Today is day one of my tolerance break from weed. I am not quitting drugs though, as I do have some LSD coming my way and planning on tripping on it.

I just haven't really gotten much out of smoking weed lately, and I think it's time for a break. My wallet will thank me too. I wish you all good luck with your goals.
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Hedda Dartway - Mon, 07 Sep 2015 10:04:07 EST ID:xsto4Ce3 No.27332 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm in medical school, but my drug tests are pre-scheduled roughly 6 months apart. My next weed-vacation is halfway through October.
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Isabella Bibblefone - Fri, 11 Sep 2015 23:07:41 EST ID:LNw/AMtE No.27347 Ignore Report Quick Reply
25 years old, and been "fucking around" with various things for the last decade. Despite being able to live on my own, work and all that, I've decided that I want to enter my 30s and beyond sober. I don't want to grow up into a man with "addiction problems". I think I'm even going to ghost on my current friends, move to another area, or city. Just to feel like I could start fresh.

I guess it just doesn't feel right anymore, i can't enjoy myself when i'm under the influence. I feel like I can't even smoke pot anymore just cause of that reason, even though I have like 2 gs and all the supplies I would need.

2nd day no weed, roughly 3 weeks no cigs, and 2 weeks no alcohol. Chems I've only had problems in my late teens, and most recently last touched during the summer solstice. Wishing the best for anyone trying to get off that shit, regardless what it is, its all rough.

I guess that a better world for us, starts with better choices for ourselves
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Phyllis Hubberwater - Tue, 15 Sep 2015 09:13:18 EST ID:q4kgBs/J No.27357 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i'm >>27272 here... got denied for job application that was reason i quit. which i thought would happen, sucks but ah well. i knew there was only a really small chance i'd actually get that job. god damn though that fucking withdrawal pain was horrible. the pain only started to go down at 2 week mark. for those 2 weeks, it was full unbearable back pain. it didn't relent at all in that time. after around 2 weeks it started to fade and by 3 weeks i felt normal, though i still had that pain from waking up etc., which is due to me sitting down all day doing nothing (for reasons in post)
i'm used to it after 2+ years of going through the same process of thinking 'maybe i'll get a job and not be stuck at home doing nothing all day', which is big part of why i took opiates just to not be bored all day and not be sick of not having a job/not having money etc....
though i still haven't taken opiates again, though i've had the urge... at this point though, with this last job which is one of ways to actually get a decent job where i am, in a small town where no place will hire me (even though i know i'm more competent then these people they hire, a couple of 'entry level' job places which only seem to hire if you're female and/or young, because thats 90% of the people working there).
after this job application got denied though i feel like going and buying opiates again. but at the same time know how horrible it will be, and know how opiates left me with no motivation at all to do anything but buy opiates and lie down in that opiate haze all day.

i've pretty much replaced opiates with alcohol/caffeine like i thought i probably would. though sitting around doing nothing all day for months, i'd go crazy without something to ease the boredom. alcohol is more expensive then opiates, but opiates i feel physically worse from because once you get a habit you hit withdrawals as soon as you wake, unlike alcohol which i only drink in afternoon.

/rant over though.. just annoyed about stuff. i'm probably (well most likely) going to take opiates again now anyways. but i guess i quit opiates for a while, even though i just starting drinking alcohol every other day instead.
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Priscilla Nuzzlekune - Tue, 15 Sep 2015 21:56:08 EST ID:TyjJMZIF No.27358 Ignore Report Quick Reply
No marijuana until retirement (clean since early August, but had a year break before that)
No alcohol unless between semesters on break (clean since early August, never had a drinking problem)
No caffeine or dessert forever (1.5y clean)
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Priscilla Turveydock - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 09:13:45 EST ID:pwVuWmK0 No.27386 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27383m
was. on. the. same. thing. but i. went. down. to. 4mg. from. the. 16mg. . . day. 7. no. sub. and. fuck. things. are. coming. around. gf. has. been. understanding. and. has. been. putting. . up. with. w/d's.
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Priscilla Turveydock - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 17:02:36 EST ID:pwVuWmK0 No.27393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27391y. urn.
i. was. ready. to. quit. and. decided. if. i'm. getting. fucked. over. i. speak. my. mind. enjoy. your. addiction. because. honestly. today. i. felt. like. a. real. person. you're. not. ready. to. quit. being. a. junkie. 32mg. wow. i. feel. for. you. have. a. long. road. ahead. of. you. .

t
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Alice Necklefore - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 22:58:06 EST ID:Hiqen32C No.27394 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>27393
I think you missed the dual meaning.
You did miss where I'm down to well below the 16mg/day I'm prescribed, closer to 4-6mg, and I'm saving up. I enjoy what a daily dose of opi, being involved in a 12 step program and therapy from the sub doc, and generally bettering my life. I believe that the way I live, and feeling I get from at least trying live right is what sobriety is about. Living sober is a lot harder for us junkies than simply having our bodies being clean of drugs.
Why. do. you. put. periods. between. each. word.?.
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Blazer !2VCyAsN/1I - Wed, 30 Sep 2015 07:55:47 EST ID:TMVmCBVH No.27398 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 2 of being sober. I've been strangely more tired and sleepy then when i've been smoking.

Stopping for a while because SMOKEWEEDERRYDAY isnt really working out for me.

I just need to get shit done and being high and comfortable all the time isnt going to achieve that.
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Hugh Fubblemodge - Wed, 07 Oct 2015 19:39:36 EST ID:M5dctOJp No.27430 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27394

my boston terrier just died.

stay happy, pooch.
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Molly Bluzzleham - Tue, 22 Dec 2015 22:07:15 EST ID:eGg9ubqP No.27678 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Taking a tolerance break while my new vaporizer comes in the mail. I thought it would constantly test my willpower but it's mostly just... boring. Which I find to be even worse. BWS
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Wesley Worthinghall - Sat, 23 Apr 2016 02:59:51 EST ID:J85Gy+os No.28056 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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bmup
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Lydia Hummleserk - Sat, 23 Apr 2016 04:56:36 EST ID:Ic9Szau0 No.28057 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Yeah, BWS. So I've been clean for two weeks now, after 8 years of shooting heroin daily. First time in a treatment facility. Feels pretty good, but it's boring and every hour feels like five.
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Lydia Hummleserk - Sat, 23 Apr 2016 05:22:23 EST ID:Ic9Szau0 No.28058 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28057
What's strange is I miss weed the most. I used to smoke every day, but haven't for the last couple of months. Now that I've stopped using heroin the urge to smoke weed is most often stronger than the opioid craving.
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Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Sun, 24 Apr 2016 03:59:34 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28062 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28058
THC mimics the thrid most common reward molecule. Anandamide. It's no wonder you got it like that!

You're on your way. You'll get high naturally if need be.

No excuses gives no problems. Continue on your path and and you will be free.

SLAYER
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Betsy Clullerridge - Sun, 24 Apr 2016 13:55:58 EST ID:3Lnz7UD3 No.28064 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>22769
install those parental block things for porn websites
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Shit Claystone - Mon, 25 Apr 2016 01:13:45 EST ID:Ic9Szau0 No.28065 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28062
Thanks. Actually, I have no intention of quitting weed. It makes me feel good and I like it, and there are no negative consequences like with my opiate addiction.

Feels good to be free from needing that fucking heroin though.
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Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Tue, 26 Apr 2016 04:29:26 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28068 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28065
I won't argue with that. People are where they are on their path. I will and do respect your state of being.

Probably, if I once had a opiate addiction, like, even, artificial opiate addiction, I'd be pretty damn glad I was off that damned train. It may be quite smart to land softly after all after that hellride, or what I guess it would be.

If it can make you relax and meditate on it I wouldn't reccomend anything about it but continue to use it wisely. But just as a note we all know there's a backside of that too, how tiny it may seem at the present. It's a powerful plant.

This morning I asked myself, how in the world some people can be happy even though what kinda shit they're going through, and I realized it was a concious decision, every time. It's just how much enery we need to put into it that's the more or less pragmatic question, or how hellbent we are on taking the painful decision, that weighs us down.

It's painfull to let go of some things. I'm kinda wobbly right now, but I hope my intention to heal up fully will bear fruit. It's just way harder than I thought it would be. Every day is a struggle, and the insights I get are not without resposibility, and it gets heavier and heavier to live untill the moment I give up fully and just get present. I guess there's nothing more to it. Stupid ego.

SLAYER
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Wesley Bupperhood - Sun, 01 May 2016 01:39:49 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28091 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Kicked my opiate addiction about a year and 5 months ago. Keep at it, boys.
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Emma Sucklehodge - Sun, 01 May 2016 03:39:49 EST ID:wvqmQvrE No.28092 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Nearly a month. Aside from the obvious I've had some bad experiences partying. It doesn't feel as safe anymore and I've gotten from it all I'm going to get. I was moderating drinking for a long time. But when I got sick after drinking and smoking I decided being healthy is better I don't need tar in my lungs and corrosive alcohol in my system. Feeling cleaner and becoming more responsive to psychic impressions and the will of the Force.
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asuka - Sun, 01 May 2016 14:27:30 EST ID:UMi5JxcL No.28093 Ignore Report Quick Reply
got found out a few weeks ago so I've been more or less confined to the house except for trying to get a job, and i'm prescribed clonazepam 1mg twice a day but those ran out yesterday so I'm good and sober. this fuckin' sucks.
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Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Mon, 02 May 2016 06:04:55 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28097 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28093
I hope you want to get clean. No fun allowed!
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Sidney Canderstetch - Mon, 02 May 2016 19:28:29 EST ID:eqg4aZTb No.28098 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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i think i realized that next day dph retardation was the reason my last two jobs failed (i mean I am the reason, but you know what I mean)
so now its just the caffeine and ephedrine habit that ive left unchecked for the past two weeks.

i havent found the will to throw away my ephedrine because i feel like it can be a valuable asset. i f i could only exert some self control...
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Jenny Crisslewill - Tue, 03 May 2016 02:05:11 EST ID:0R3mL45S No.28102 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I ODed on heroin about 20 hours ago. Luckily, my gf woke up and found me in time to call an ambulance. Somehow the cops did not notice the bag of heroin sitting next to me and it was there when I got home. It is in the trash now though and I am sober and am going to stay that way for some amount of time
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Barnaby Dollyridge - Tue, 03 May 2016 04:47:26 EST ID:/y6OS60r No.28103 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm not currently sober, but I'm thinking about taking a break. I'm on heroin right now and have been high 24/7 for like a week, and I realize I can sustain this for too long, mentally or financially.

I'm hoping I can try to taper some with a few points which I set aside for this specific purpose. I'm going to stop taking my scheduled gabapentin and PRN hydroxyzine until I actually get off it so I have a bit extra on hand. I think I'll also take myself down from .2 milligrams of clonidine nightly to .15 so that I can take .25 during the worst of it without fucking up my dosage schedules too badly. I'd smoke weed if I had any, but I don't.

Anyone got any advice for someone who's never been dopesick? I've gone through severe benzo withdrawals, but never opioids in any real way.
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asuka - Tue, 03 May 2016 06:31:17 EST ID:UMi5JxcL No.28106 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28103
I only personally know minor benzo withdrawal and like, a hungover feeling from stopping opis after a few day run but if you've done severe benzo w/d you should be able to handle getting dopesick. it'll probably suck but if you taper you should be able to avoid the worst of it. I'm kinda talking out my ass but reading shit from people who have done both, benzos are usually the worse one it seems. good luck either way though, nb4doublepost
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Barnaby Dollyridge - Tue, 03 May 2016 06:51:32 EST ID:/y6OS60r No.28107 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28106
>>28105
I mentioned being dopesick which means opiates, but I should've been a lot clearer. I think I should be fine. I might also go on a small scale DXM trip the night I quit, dissociatives have those weird opioid related effects. I'd need to skip a few Wellbutrin doses for that though.
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asuka - Tue, 03 May 2016 10:37:35 EST ID:UMi5JxcL No.28109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28107
tbh skipping doses of meds right as you're gonna be getting dopesick sounds like it may not be the best idea, but you know you best so it's your call lmao. and i think it was me not being clear but I was saying that your plan to taper your use sounds good, and should at least help you not get AS dopesick

teal;deer - you got this, you'll be alright even though you went pretty hard, it won't be fun but you'll be fine since you've gone through what most people seem to think is something much worse.
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Barnaby Dollyridge - Tue, 03 May 2016 11:14:48 EST ID:/y6OS60r No.28111 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28109
Yeah, I did some more research and I should be fine to keep taking the Wellbutrin as long as I only take an absolutely minuscule amount of DXM, so that's good. I'm honestly not too worried.
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Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Mon, 09 May 2016 03:45:24 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28137 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28102

Congratulations. You DID IT! You're still alive..!

Do you... Want to be someone out of reach, or do you think this is how life is meant to be lived? I'm confused. I can't tell what you'd want from posting that.

Let me try:
How does a life filled with love, peace and warmth instead of fear, pain and suffering sound?

I don't think H does it..
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Walter Dallergold - Tue, 10 May 2016 09:16:19 EST ID:/DFw9rn3 No.28143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 6 of no Heroin. Definitely almost through the acute withdrawals. I'm pretty excited at the prospect of having left over money to you know spend on things other than dope.
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Fucking Werringshit - Tue, 10 May 2016 11:07:18 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28144 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28143
Please stick with it. After the acute withdrawals you're still gonna be left feeling tired and not 100% there mentally or physically, at least for a few months, but you're almost past the hardest part. It gets so much easier from here on out.
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Fuck Sezzlechat - Tue, 10 May 2016 21:03:57 EST ID:/DFw9rn3 No.28146 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28144
Thank you for the support. Yeah I'm aware that I will go through PAWS, going to start exercising more once I get a bit more energy because I heard that helps deal with PAWS immensely. It's just stupid thinking about how many times I've put myself through the full process of cold turkey withdrawal, and each time is worse than the last so this time I really want to make it count.
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Jenny Hillerdock - Tue, 10 May 2016 23:26:56 EST ID:6pupg3GK No.28147 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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taking a break from weed for a while, how long until I stop thinking bad thoughts all time and regain my appetite? At least my dreams have been interesting...

Sorry to you bros trying to get off opiates and shit, I realize how much of a pussy I sound like
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Charlotte Fuckingwell - Sun, 15 May 2016 16:34:19 EST ID:J85Gy+os No.28163 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well now, 6 days without anything. Wish me luck bredren, sending SLAYER to all. Hoping to be able to battle these emotional rollercoasters coming up...
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Graham Tootville - Tue, 17 May 2016 06:11:51 EST ID:3sN8/9tZ No.28167 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Kill me
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Jarvis Pugglepot - Tue, 17 May 2016 17:27:14 EST ID:rTRMcI9r No.28168 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>20893
Day 15 of a month long, LSD induced, cannabis break. Thus far I have resisted the urge to smoke at; a pro cannabis legalization march (despite being offered countless spliffs I managed to fight the temptation), a house party and while chilling daily with my erry day smoking gf.

Now today I have come down with a cold and I'm struggling hard to resist the urge to harvest my MFLB stem oil to alleviate the symptoms.

GIVE ME STRENGTH /detox/
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Jarvis Pammlekurk - Wed, 18 May 2016 02:15:18 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.28170 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I let myself run out of weed about a month ago to work on finals. Now I've moved out of my and all my connects have either dried up or aren't responding. There's ONE dude left who I think can get me weed in the next week or two. Wish me luck, and watch out for detox.
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Jarvis Pammlekurk - Wed, 18 May 2016 02:24:46 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.28171 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28170
>out of my dorm
christ I'm up too late

nb
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George Finningcocke - Tue, 24 May 2016 22:22:19 EST ID:Bwg2cSuO No.28198 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28168

i havent even quit yet, and i wish i was where you are now. imagine that.
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Fuck Neffingworth - Wed, 25 May 2016 09:18:43 EST ID:7EpcHDip No.28202 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 3 with no weed. It's not as bad as I thought it would be. I feel like since I'm done with smoking (or any drugs for that matter) I will be able to concentrate and put all my focus into improving myself as a person and make a life for myself. When I was smoking everyday I had no willpower and drive to do anything since my mind was so foggy from all the smoking i did. To me I'm seeing all of this as a blessing in disguise. I don't want to live my life high all the time and have regrets and always asking myself "what if?" I want to become the strongest version of myself, inside and out.
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Nathaniel Chinnerdock - Sun, 29 May 2016 18:35:43 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28209 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28202
Today has been a week since I quit smoking any weed. It's been hard the past 2 days. Cravings coming from every direction and it is really hard for me to deal with as I've been smoking non stop for over a year all day everyday. I know things will get better since I've lasted this long already. One thing that is good about this is that I can save money.
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Clara Brungerhutch - Tue, 31 May 2016 16:58:56 EST ID:2X6hQIp2 No.28224 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
2 months sober. Im trying to go 3 to get all THC out my system see how it feels. but today I had a day off work and could rly do with some hash..I dont want to give in. This feeling at the 2 month mark has been the worst, like I wanna go out and get wrecked. I dont wanna give in to the weakness. I need encouragement RAAAAAGGHH
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Fuck Smallridge - Thu, 02 Jun 2016 04:04:57 EST ID:IRfQrC40 No.28233 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28229
That's it. You can channel the energy into other things and get productive.
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Oliver Dronkingold - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 00:40:00 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28238 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28229
>but overall I've become pretty satisfied with my non-use and I am starting to get into the flow of my job and find other things to fill my time, It's really nice to experience life this way for a change, without a constant compulsion to "reset" to a familiar, dumbed down state of mind.

Congratulations. You're one of the ones on the right track. It seems you're well beyond realizing that you can't quit unless you really want to, which is hands down the most important thing to realize when trying to get clean.

Although you should probably stop "rewarding" yourself a few times a month. That attitude really is a fast track to backward progress. Though I'm not trying to tell you what to do. I mean, if you can handle it fine, then you can handle it fine. But from experience, when I was trying to get clean, especially within that first year, rewarding myself with getting fucked up on some different drug than the one I was initially trying to quit was just bad news and felt like it slowed my progress immensely. At some point it became really clear to me that I just needed to stay away from it all if I really wanted shit to improve.

Congratulations on coming this far with this though. I wish you the best.
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Walter Fuckingbury - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 10:31:33 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28239 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28238
I totally agree with being cautious with what you choose to reward yourself with, just based off of my own personality.

I tried once to reward myself with weed, which obviously went terribly - I had a bad time and I still wanted to smoke the next day. So I stopped doing that.

Even if I have a 3 day weekend and I spend it all playing video games, come the next work day I'm bitter about work and would rather spend all day inside playing games.

On a "heavy" month I probably amount to 10 beers in 1 month, so I'm not really getting fucked up, but you're partly right, it isn't necessarily a productive attitude. There are still many things I need / want to work on in my life. I'm starting to really resent my nicotine usage (I felt like I needed to continue using it as a crutch while quitting everything else, and I think it helped) which is now just costing me money I'm dreaming of spending elsewhere.
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Jack Bonkinpidge - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 12:05:40 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28240 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28239
Went on an opi binge Thursday and Friday night. Binged on oxys for 2 days and all in all did 200mg worth of it. I have been taking my maintenance methadone. Just 10mg. So far so good. Before this binge I was only taking my methadone for months straight, after leaving my clinic back in November. I plan on never doing this again. I also smoke weed and intend to quit that too. I would like to spend my money on more important things that actually matter.

Over the past 4 months I have been meditating everyday and reading self help books. It has helped me a lot. I have learned a lot about myself. The person I am now compared to who I was back then, is incomparable. Yes, I have admitted my flaws. But, I still have come a far way in the past few months mentally, physically, and spirituality.
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Cyril Finkinspear - Mon, 06 Jun 2016 12:02:40 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28242 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28240
It's been 3 days since my previous opi binge. So far so good. I think I won't have a problem with detoxing. Going to buy some subs so I can come off my maintenance dose and finally be free of this shit
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Augustus Crogglefuck - Mon, 06 Jun 2016 17:23:51 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28244 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28242
You can do this. Something which was said to me that I found helpful, is that if you stick with getting clean, you will only have to feel the lows, frustration and depression of addiction once and never again.

There will be bad days, but you'll never have to feel this bad again.
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Eugene Bardfuck - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 12:18:48 EST ID:U5sMCGtR No.28249 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm pausing my weed use. I'd been thinking about this for some months now (or is it years already) and on these last days I lowered my intake and even found myself sober through large parts of the day. Finally, my weed is gone and I decided I won't get anymore anytime soon. This is my first morning fully sober in god knows how long and so far I'm liking it.

I already have things to take care of, like this very cute pair of puppies, and my goddamn abuse won't let me. I'm so deep in this I'm just unable to organize my time for a couple of days or focus my attention for longer than half an hour. I feel lethargic and useless, my house is filling up with dog shit and piss, my life pours like water through my fingers. I don't even remember how it is to be sober and confident and productive, it's ridiculous. So this is the beginning of a much needed change which, along with other changes like the new puppies and the new computer, are now my very last hope. I've failed in the past to get off the drug abuse, and I gave up on fixing my depression long ago, but life gave me a new chance out of nowhere, sheer undeserved luck, and suddenly I remembered I'm alive and none of the past things matter now.

And I've wondered lately how I could have turned out if I had avoided the drug and the lethargy and all the little things that led down this way, from the beginning. I remember I was a very smart child, full of potential and possibility, and I feel that it's all still there, beneath this sad disguise, waiting for me to give it a chance. I believe I can bloom, like a sunflower, and receive all the energy the world has to give.

So wish me luck and I'll wish the same for everyone who trudges this long path.

Peace and wisdom.
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Hamilton Gonderspear - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 16:16:39 EST ID:VPXl60f8 No.28250 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
Only on .5 mg of c-lam so im pretty much sober
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William Follershit - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 18:07:16 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28252 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28249
You can do it bro. It's just takes sheer willpower to stay away from the drugs. Fill your time with occupational things such as work, school and any hobbies you have. Or just walk outside and go out for a run. Those running highs are awesome.

Day 4 of sobriety. Everything is good and I'm starting to appreciate all the small things in my life that I didn't care about before. I'm spending time outside and spending my time with my grandmother. I'm glad I can make her happy and smile. Also, the meditation is going good. I just have to practice to be able to go longer. I can go for 6 minutes at a time. I'm more confident in myself as I just don't care about what some people might think of me. Fuck them because they don't matter. Anyway, I'm just overall becoming a better person with each passing day. I'm still smoking weed. But, I'm able to make my stash last longer since I'm doing things to occupy my time. Feels good to take control of your life and do what you want to do with yourself and always stay on the right path.
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Lillian Snodville - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 20:41:33 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28252
what's funny about a lot of people is they'll actively discourage you from getting clean, and even think less of you if you do it. There is definitely a time and place to listen to advice, but most of the time you know what's best for you and your own life.

When I was quitting, I was harassed by my former roommate for almost a month, who said some really mean shit to me, the strangest being "have fun being a drug addict for your entire life". Like, dude, I am trying to quit, not only can you not wish me luck, but you're going to project a lifetime of drug use on me? Why? Wishful thinking I don't accomplish my goals?

Idk point is people are weird as hell. Now that I'm 6 months clean and building better relationships with people who don't use drugs, I'm starting to fall more in line with people who understand and sympathize with my personal goals. Like I tell a drinking buddy about how I'm beginning to put money aside in stocks and bonds, and his response is that I'd be better off gambling my money away, essentially ridiculing the idea while knowing nothing about it. But a colleague who actually has his shit together is willing to give me advice on smart investments. Since he understands my desire to save and invest for my future.

Albeit my colleague is older, and younger like-minded people are far and few between, my point is that the longer you immerse yourself in a particular mindset, the more people you'll meet who actively try and enforce that mindset. Whether it be fellow drug friends, or straight-and-narrow types.
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Augustus Nicklespear - Thu, 09 Jun 2016 09:50:21 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28257 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28255
Day 6. I'm really starting to have love for myself and happiness and the utmost confidence that I've never had. Meditation and weed is all I need. But, the feeling I have come over me after meditating is the best feeling in the world. It's better than whatever feelings you get from doing drugs. Better than any other high you can buy. I'm high on life and everything just keeps getting better and better as the days go on. I am truly proud of myself along with my family. They've said they have seen a huge change in me. I'm happy about that too. I use to not care about myself or my life and the fucked up path I was going down. Never cared where I was going to be the future. But, now I am taking control and charge over my life. I will become the person who I'm destined to be. I'm looking forward to seeing how much farther I can go. Fuck yeah!!!
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Sidney Duckridge - Fri, 10 Jun 2016 08:26:05 EST ID:9JVdopoE No.28259 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28257
Day 7. Feeling good like yesterday. Not much to say. But, I feel like me and my grandmother are growing closer like when I was a little kid. I finally see some happiness within her after losing her husband and her oldest son within the past 3 years. Her other son has cancer right now and is going through chemotherapy. I can't stand to see her lose another person that is so close and dear to her heart. I will do everything in my power to make her happy and content. She's been through so much. I will be by her side until her day comes.
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Caroline Buzzman - Sun, 12 Jun 2016 10:34:32 EST ID:9JVdopoE No.28265 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28263
Day 9. Started on suboxone today and I'm feeling great about it. Finally will break free from addiction and will never touch a single pill ever again. I decided against giving up weed. Didn't have it for a couple days and my back pain was horrible without it. I use weed as a natural painkiller and it works just fine. Can't wait to see what lies ahead in the coming days and weeks for me. I know I can do anything as long as I put my mind to it. I've been soul searching 5 months before I started posting here. Tons of meditation and thinking and reflection I had to do to truly realize that I'm a human being just like everyone else and nothing is impossible for me. I will live up to my true potential in every aspect of my life. My goal is to be a better person than who I was yesterday. I will prove all the haters and naysayers wrong who don't think I can do something because it might be "hard" for someone to handle. Well fuck that. I got this shit!!
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Matilda Fuffingwidge - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 18:59:18 EST ID:NC/pDYAV No.28274 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28269
Day 14. So, today makes two weeks since I was on that two day opi binge. Tomorrow will make it a week since I started on suboxone. I can truly say that I'm proud of myself for finally wanting to get off this garbage. I'm doing great with my progress in terms of growing as a person, becoming the strongest version of myself. I went on today to meditating up to 7.5 minutes. The feeling that came over me felt amazing. As the days go by I discover new things about myself. I had some mental cravings for opiates today. But, stuck to my guns and smoked weed so the cravings would go away. I'm gaining willpower and resistance.
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Alice Buvingworth - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 16:13:52 EST ID:2HKPBbAC No.28277 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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sobbberrrr
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Lydia Findersedge - Sat, 18 Jun 2016 17:36:12 EST ID:u9XgKOdc No.28279 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28274
Day 15. Woke up on a good mood. No more rls now which strangely only happened at night. Been spending time with my family today. Went out to eat breakfast this morning and then went to the park so I could be out and be around nature and the sounds of animals and the waves hitting the beach. Truly amazing and beautiful. Now, I'm home chilling waiting for dinner and smoked some weed. Awesome day!
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Phineas Huvingwater - Tue, 21 Jun 2016 09:04:17 EST ID:WLgYT5IJ No.28285 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
reason: my organs are hurting and I have to be able to drink at an upcoming festival
progress: first day done, just have to resist 8 more days
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Cyril Geggletat - Tue, 21 Jun 2016 10:24:22 EST ID:ZS7zuThq No.28286 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28284
Day 18. Woke up a bit depressed. Wasn't in a good mood. Then I made myself think from negative to positive and it worked. After that I meditated and am feeling much better. Decided that I'm done with subs. But, I jumped the gun a bit and got sick After taking 1mg I'm fine. After Saturday I'm done with subs. From now to then I'll be taking the usual 1mg dose. Should be more than enough time to get completely off of them and go on with my life clean and put it all behind me.
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Wesley Sossleston - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 14:06:40 EST ID:ZS7zuThq No.28290 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 19. Having a real shitty day. No withdrawals or anything like that. Just been in a bad mood because my mom is being a bitch. Going to go meditate so I can calm down and clear my mind. Despite what I have done with myself over the past 5 months which has made me a changed person, I've been dealing with some bad situations. This shit that has been going on around here has me stressed and today I just snapped. Sometimes I feel like I'm being held back by my family. Like they say, friends and family can destroy you. Fuck if I'm going to let that happen to me or someone putting me on a guilt trip for that matter. I'm too confident in myself now to not let someone bring me down. I don't care if you're my mother or my family. I won't let them take me down with them. Anyway, going to go meditate now. I know not everyday will be great because of everything I'm having to deal with at the moment. Always going to have good and bad days and I understand that. One more thing; I'm ready to go out into the world on my own and make a life for myself. Whether my family wants to support me or not in what I want to do, I'm going to go for it anyway. You have to always lookout for #1. I realize that now. No matter what happens I will always believe in myself when other people don't. When someone tells me I can't do something, I'm going to prove them wrong. I'll have the last laugh.
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Edward Chubberpadge - Thu, 23 Jun 2016 09:57:38 EST ID:e1Owc7Ie No.28292 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28290
Day 20. Yesterday I sat my mother down and talked to her about why I got so angry and mean with her. I told her the reasons why I'm becoming frustrated. The biggest stressor is moving out of Baltimore. Nothing but bad news. I can only go so far in life with living in a shithole where their are no jobs and no real futures for anyone since this place is overidden with drugs (mainly heroin and opiates) and other crime. Baltimore is the heroin capital of the country so it's no wonder why this city is a pit of shit and always shrouded in darkness per say. But, me and my family are trying to sell our house so we can get out of Baltimore and live somewhere a lot more peaceful and pleasant. Somewhere I can build a life for myself and can seek many life altering opportunities. I want the fuck out of Baltimore.
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Martha Panderham - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 10:34:20 EST ID:pNDXcgbt No.28295 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28292
Day 21. Been three weeks since I decided to get clean. The progress I've made with my sobriety is something I never thought I could handle or accomplish. I'm truly proud of myself, the person who I'm destined to become. Nothing will ever stop me from achieving my goals in life, no matter how much I get ridicule from others. I have 4 days worth of subs. After next Monday I'll be done with them. I'll be totally clean and will finally be able to live freely without any chains holding you down.
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Augustus Foddledale - Sun, 26 Jun 2016 11:19:46 EST ID:fV5Bx69y No.28302 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28298
Day 22. Got only two days to go until I'm completely off the suboxone. Can't wait for Tuesday to come. I'm going to be so excited and happy being clean from all opiates and other drugs besides weed. Looking forward and never going back to who I was.
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Augustus Foddledale - Sun, 26 Jun 2016 11:21:37 EST ID:fV5Bx69y No.28303 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28302
I meant 23 days.
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Ernest Handlewell - Mon, 27 Jun 2016 18:16:22 EST ID:twhqKFYN No.28307 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 24. No longer on suboxone. Today is my first day without and I'm fine, Besides the rls. Can't believe it. I actually did it and got clean. Damn this is such an awesome feeling of accomplishment that I haven't felt in a very long time. To those who can't get clean, just look at me. If I can do it you can do it. Believe in yourself, never quit and never give up.
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Hedda Surrydock - Mon, 27 Jun 2016 20:59:32 EST ID:eqg4aZTb No.28308 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893

bump while sober. 26 birthday. trying to stay away from dph. was thinking about going to some meetings but I feel like an outsider and hate them. i get a paycheck this week. ive been thinking about all the rcs I want. fuck.
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Charlotte Blockledale - Tue, 28 Jun 2016 08:25:47 EST ID:twhqKFYN No.28310 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28307
Day 25. Feeling good today. Meditated and after I was done, I've been sitting here thinking and reflecting on a few things. I have made some bad life choices so far in my life. But, I'll fix the mistakes I can fix and as for the mistakes that can't be fixed, I'll use these life experiences to make myself a better and stronger person. Now that I'm off the opiates I'll now be focused on quitting cigs. For now I'm vaping which is a much healthier choice. I will quit vaping and using nicotine in the future. I got off of opiates and got clean. I can sure as hell conquer on quitting this.
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Lillian Buzzfuck - Fri, 01 Jul 2016 09:31:42 EST ID:xolpJ5Y9 No.28322 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28314
Day 28. So, started tapering down from the risperdal yesterday. Been going good even though this is just the second day. But, I know myself and if I was still the person from back then, I would've let myself get mean and angry with everyone around me. I now am really trying to think before I speak and act. I'm keeping my anger in check. I think I'll be successful with tapering off of this and be alright. Lately, I've been getting a bit into astrology. It's pretty cool and complex. Really peaked my interest and now I'm learning all I can. Been reading my horoscope lately and most of the time it's right and hits the nail on the head for what happens with me in the day. But, I'm not going to let astrology control my emotions or life. It's just something that helps me everyday now.
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Angus Criffingnure - Sat, 02 Jul 2016 15:05:16 EST ID:u9XgKOdc No.28324 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28322
Day 29. I've had some bumps in the road over the past two days with getting tapered off my bi polar medication. But, now everything is fine and I'm going to watch myself before letting my anger get the best of me.
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Eugene Pidgeway - Sun, 03 Jul 2016 12:38:27 EST ID:u9XgKOdc No.28329 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28324
Day 30. Unfortunately I had to go back on risperdal. Getting mad and upset; anger is like poison, I can consume you and kill you on the inside. But, I have another plan that could still get me off risperdal. I'll have to call my doctor and talk to him about it and see what he thinks of my suggestion. Hope he'll okay it. I think he will considering that it took me months to prepare for the taper, mentally. My doctor has been wanting me to taper off it for a while now. As of right now I can't taper off my meds. My anger is too much to handle sometimes. Weed keeps my anger in check and it also helps me with my spirituality. To think and feel with no boundaries is the greatest thing someone could ever have. Anyway, today makes a week since I got off subs. I'm having no cravings, period. Still have rls like a bitch m. But, if rather suffer like this, rather than go back to opiates. I have a lot of willpower now to really try and succeed that keeps my focus solid. Weed helps with my rls.
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Nicholas Greenfield - Mon, 04 Jul 2016 10:34:43 EST ID:u9XgKOdc No.28330 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28329
Day 31. In a great mood today. Was able to meditate for the first time without rls fucking with me. Haven't had such a good meditation session in weeks. Maybe the rls from taking subs is starting to go away? I hope so. This is like torture. But, no way in hell am I going to slip back and fuck up again and then have to start all over. I've come too far to just give up now. That goes for everything else in my life and what I want to achieve. Me and my family are moving out of Baltimore in the next two months. Finally I can get the fuck out of this shit hole and start my life somewhere else, a lot more peaceful and pleasant.
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Ernest Sucklefield - Tue, 05 Jul 2016 08:56:52 EST ID:u9XgKOdc No.28334 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28330
Day 32. In a good and upbeat, positive mood today. Had an even better meditation sesh than yesterday. I've been doing a lot of self reflecting lately. What I've realized is that i want to have my own family someday and carry on my family legacy, in a bright positive light like it never has been shown before. Also, before even finding a significant other, I have to get my life in order. I want to be somebody in this world. When I die I want to be remembered as a good person, for what I did while being alive and living in this world. I am and will continue to progress and find my own way of life through the path I chose to walk down six months ago. I am a better person, a more positive person, who's happiness grows with each passing day. I'm going back to the gym today and losing the rest of this weight. The weight loss has been steadily progressing and I'm okay with it. But, not satisfied. Not even close to where I want to be in a year in terms of my physique. I'll make it a reality just like everything else I want to do. Still have rls. But, it's starting later in the day now. Maybe it's starting to really go away? Hope so.
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Eliza Blackridge - Wed, 06 Jul 2016 12:01:17 EST ID:8sWGTZ0J No.28335 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28334
Day 33. My rls is finally starting to go away. Now, when it comes on it doesn't last as long as it use to. I'm happy about that. Its another sunny day and I'm going to enjoy myself outside, around people and places and nature. I'm starting to get out of the house more often and doing stuff. That has made me happy.
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Emma Lightdock - Thu, 07 Jul 2016 11:26:49 EST ID:kDR0+Ubd No.28338 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28335
Day 34. I talked to my doctor about raising the dose for one of my meds so I can get off the risperdal. He agreed to let me do it. I really want to try getting off this trash. It's physically affecting me with my Gyno problem. I hope this goes better than last time. Just wishing I will be able to do it.
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Sophie Tootdale - Sun, 10 Jul 2016 00:26:00 EST ID:LE+XjVnM No.28341 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Do we have our /altered state/ priorities upside down and inside out?

I had been ultra depressed all day, craving ANY drug that would favorably alter my brain chemistry, even if followed by a crash into worse depression (basically craving, foolishly, to make this vicious circle even worse, but that's the bind a drug user gets himself into, right?) when I finally just decided to sleep, take a nap, that ended up lasting 3hrs and was deep, unconscious, comfy sleep. I just woke up and, looking back, being COMPLETELY unconscious, 100% unaware of the entire universe including my own body and mental world, is like... amazing compared to any drug.

First of all, it helps the brain grow, reform, rebalance itself chemically, all while giving you rest from the consciousness of suffering of existence, and sometimes you get helpful mind-organizing life-lesson giving dreams thrown in too. If you get woken up, no big deal, you can sink right back into nothingness.

Fuck /psy/ and /dis/, their altered states can't compare to my natural nothingness that requires nothing but my bed and darkness.

Being awake is overrated, I'm going to start sleeping every time I feel overwhelming cravings instead of risking staying awake.
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Molly Clayfoot - Sun, 10 Jul 2016 06:24:55 EST ID:PljZOQ5x No.28342 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Now I've been sober for 7 days and I just started realizing that I haven't had a sober week for a long time.
I will probably try out to go even further, but I don't know.
Feels ok so far.
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Lydia Clocklested - Fri, 15 Jul 2016 11:16:57 EST ID:t9B6lRAx No.28355 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've had my last drink about 30 hours prior and I'm struggling to unwrap bonbons.
I stopped because it seemed reasonable.
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Samuel Trotbanks - Sat, 16 Jul 2016 10:58:51 EST ID:RCUoakpo No.28356 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28338
It's been a while since I posted on this thread. I had some set backs over the past week. I slipped up and did hydrocodone and methadone for five days. Today I got ahold of myself and told myself that this is not the right thing to do. I was depressed for a little bit which made me rubber band back into addiction... Well almost. In a way I'm glad this happened because to me it was like a test and I passed by using all my willpower and resistance and everything I went through while getting clean at a methadone clinic for two years. No more opiates. I have affirmed my new self and I'm more confident in myself than ever. Nothing will hold me back anymore.
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Lillian Sallerfoot - Thu, 21 Jul 2016 21:35:22 EST ID:0Z49KSwI No.28370 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28356
>>28360
what happened man?? it always depresses the hell out of me when I see shit like this on this board specifically... not only because of seeing a fellow person in the depths of addiction failing to get out, but also because it sets a bad precedent that I'm sure to follow when I attempt to get clean, sobriety is just so scary to me, hopefully this doesn't dissuade you in getting clean but I was following your posts everyday and now that you've relapsed and then stopped posting again it really fills me with a lot of dismay. for yourself and for me also
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Barnaby Clayman - Fri, 22 Jul 2016 08:38:23 EST ID:KvQ6BgoE No.28371 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28370
I've been having a hard time with life lately. I relapsed and did it again today. I just want to start a new life for myself and I can't do it here in Baltimore. Their are no opportunities here to be had. I've bee living here for three years and everything gets worse by the day. I know I shouldn't be regressing. I'm fucking up. To see you actually read my posts and do truly care about someone's well being that you don't even know makes me happy. I need some support from you guys to keep me sober and straight. You guys can hold me accountable when I fuck up. I know now I have to start over again. But, I'm not physically addicted yet. It needs to stop here and now. Tomorrow I am starting over with being and keeping sober. I still will smoke weed and that's the extent of it. Please help me out guys. I don't want to see myself stuck in a hole like I was for so long.
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Priscilla Claddlewog - Fri, 22 Jul 2016 20:45:13 EST ID:0Z49KSwI No.28372 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28371
Well I'm glad my post had an effect on you and that you're trying to get back clean again. Idk how long you've been using for since your relapse exactly but you probably shouldn't have to go through withdrawals. If you keep going with this one small relapse and make it a big one, things will only get worse, there's absolutely no benefits to continuing getting high except for the temporary euphoria that will quickly diminish as you dose more and more. You're going to be much more unhappy with yourself if you continue going on than if you just quit right now and never look back.

I know it's really hard to do this though and it's way easier said than done.. I'm not trying to punish you or make you feel bad or anything, I'm just saying what /will/ work. Continuing to take drugs will make you more miserable in the end, that's just how it works. I get that you don't like your environment and that sucks but, you're gonna be addicted to drugs no matter where you go, just try not to let the place where you live be too much of a factor in your mind right now. Just take things one at a time, many people move to a place they like to "start a new life" when they get clean. While it may work for some people, I think it's vastly overrated and doesn't help that much in recovery. You can recovery from your drug addiction no matter where you live, if you just put enough effort and will power into it.

Not trying to embarrass you or make you feel bad, I really do wanna see you post here and get better. I hope you don't find my posts to be demeaning or anything, it's not intended like that, I'm an addict just like you and I'm just typing things that from experience I've learned.
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Ian Fuzzlelock - Fri, 22 Jul 2016 21:48:20 EST ID:Ehfb0BpT No.28373 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28372
No dude your good. No offense taken. I'm going to get back to my usual daily routine starting tomorrow and no more opiates after tonight. I'm starting over from day 1 and will put in a bigger effort to stay clean and get my life together. Thank you for the advice and thank you for caring about me to the point where you, someone I don't even know, is helping me get back on track.

Tomorrow is the the first day of the rest of my life. This time I'm going to push myself to stay clean.
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Cedric Passleford - Sat, 23 Jul 2016 18:32:14 EST ID:DyGNpTWz No.28374 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I don't like drinking too much, but I drink because it's legal. If I could, I would smoke every day- no regrets.

I haven't smoked in about 2 months. I'm always on and off because I'm in the nursing program at my university. I am just soo damn stressed out with paperwork and didactic that I feel like I'm losing my mind. At the very least, I would want to smoke a nice joint once a month just to ease through this difficult time.
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Esther Wenkinwet - Tue, 26 Jul 2016 16:15:31 EST ID:P5nDMG6i No.28379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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2 or 3 days now without a drink. Hard to tell because time blurs together so much.
Managed so far to avoid stealing any change or whatnot from my parents to fund a cheap 6 pack. I won't even try to guess what I've taken from them over the last few months (year?) a few bucks at a time. I hate myself for it of course but that just makes me want to drink even more.
I don't know how long I'll make it before the hundredth round of relapse and withdrawal again but I'm aiming until at least after my dr. appt. on Thu. Funnily enough I'd probably make it just fine with a couple weeks of klonopin or the like, but neither of us wanted to risk trading a liquor for a benzo addiction.
The extra fun thing you may already know about withdrawal is that every time it's a bit worse thanks to an effect called kindling (Look it up on wikipedia.). I'm hoping to get a script for a newish drug called acamprosate because it helped greatly in the past with the actual urge to drink but my last dr. only gave me 1 month when the recommendation is 3-12 months on it. It seemed to undo my tolerance too after taking it a few weeks so I'd recommend it for anyone in a similar situation. It didn't even have the slightest side effects for me but you do have to take 6 pills a day and your pharmacy will likely have to special order some. Don't let your doc stick you with disulfuram which only makes you sick as fuck when you drink or naltrexone which doesn't undo the changes in your brain from addiction. (Such as removing tolerance.)
I wish I could go back to the days when I could afford weed. When I was vaping every day I never once felt the urge for anything more than maybe a couple beers on the weekend. Even when I was a dumbass in high school I never once went through a half of vodka in barely over a day. At least it's been months since I've been drinking to that extent but even halfway reasonable amounts give me some degree of withdrawal thanks to that effect I mentioned above.
I don't even know where I was going with this. I just hate my life and need something to do. Maybe I'll save up for the new WoW expansion and try to fall back into the good old MMO addiction.
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Clara Cledgechodge - Wed, 27 Jul 2016 23:00:58 EST ID:DyGNpTWz No.28385 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28381
Nothing ever feels like your first time again.
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Polly Fammletick - Fri, 29 Jul 2016 18:00:41 EST ID:TXGZU4Fq No.28395 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28385
Plis don't break my dreams
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Jenny Wocklemack - Sun, 31 Jul 2016 08:07:30 EST ID:pKHnuX// No.28406 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893

It's been 3 days. My postdoctoral fellowship is running out and I have to find a job. I've got 2 companies pursuing me, and one drug tests.
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Jenny Wocklemack - Sun, 31 Jul 2016 08:21:04 EST ID:pKHnuX// No.28408 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28407

Vast.

Sobriety isn't so bad.
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Rebecca Dacklestick - Fri, 12 Aug 2016 18:07:38 EST ID:Pbyc4zJq No.28451 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How Long It's Been
6 months, 9 days

>Reasons
Started stealing pills and getting myself kicked out of the house for doing so. Moved on to Oxy's at 16, then cocaine held me hostage for years afterwards. Lot of emotional withdrawals and started self-harming before attempting suicide, emotionally abusing my ex. Went to rehab, didn't do anything besides chase women there. Relapsed on crystal meth, got clean in February.

Feels good man.
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Charles Dunnernut - Sat, 13 Aug 2016 09:41:26 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28456 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28451
Stick to it. You got this. And you should know that it only gets easier from here on out.
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Betsy Lightson - Sat, 27 Aug 2016 20:23:45 EST ID:zknjdE7Z No.28489 Ignore Report Quick Reply
havent smoked in nearly 2 weeks, have a job interview this week (2nd interview so i probably landed it).


im going to be happier about being able to smoke again than i will about landing the job honestly. next weekend will be fun.
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Scarface !z9YmqqBmek - Mon, 29 Aug 2016 04:39:26 EST ID:1rD9ef4L No.28497 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Who else here rehab?
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Sophie Blackdale - Wed, 31 Aug 2016 16:16:24 EST ID:PkMK8pgN No.28503 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Day 4 off weed. Wasn't too bad after the first day, and I prescribed myself some alcohol to counteract the desire to smoke. Here's to all you guys trying to kick harder stuff, I'm way too much of a pussy to get addicted to something like H
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Albert Tillinglock - Thu, 01 Sep 2016 04:01:59 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28506 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28503
As someone that did escape an opiate addiction, gotta say, sober life is good life. Feelin good, boys. And good luck to you, dude.
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Therapist (intern tbh) - Fri, 02 Sep 2016 05:56:53 EST ID:0Bm5AboG No.28507 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Day 3 of withdrawals since they announced kratom would be a schedule 1 substance in the usa and i ceased use immediately

i don't smoke pot or do anything else so theres nothing really to relieve the symptoms

going in with my boss to talk with a new client, but can't sleep due to opiate withdrawal symptoms
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James Dallyshaw - Fri, 02 Sep 2016 21:30:35 EST ID:O2oCWrRB No.28509 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28507
How long and frequently were you using? I remember the intensity of Kratom withdrawals surprising me considering how tame an opiate it is. Though was obviously my fault since I'd been doing it 2-4 times a day for a few months...
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Hedda Clayham - Sat, 03 Sep 2016 22:39:30 EST ID:Dswgp8IR No.28511 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Basically I got a DUI and I turned 26 at the same time. Turning 26 means no more dad insurance, so it was my last chance to get good treatment before I aged out of my good insurance. Rehab really opened my eyes to a lot of things I was always too scared to think about, as I've never tried to sort out my anxiety with anything other than drugs.

ANYWAYS, I was on suboxone for ~5 years and xanax on and off for 2 years and then everyday for 2 years. I'm ~3 months in off a cold turkey 6-8mg/2yrs xanax, and 16mg suboxone daily habit. Yes, I still feel like shit almost three months later.

I can't shake the feeling of my brain being "excited". I feel pressure all over my head that's hard to describe, almost like the hairs on top of my head are standing up accompanied by frontal sinus pressure in the forehead area. As far as anxiety goes, I'm getting better with most things and have taken suggestions from people in my NA home group (forcing myself to be social, ways to get out of my head). One thing I've always struggled with is the cognitive background noise that comes with anxiety. At one point it was so bad that I could even hear what was being said at meetings because I was so consumed with myself. And at any given time, what you thought of me in a social situation was all that mattered. I would keep my mouth shut for fear that I might say something stupid or something that made you think less of me. I dwell on situations that happen in the past and think about how they could have gone differently. I could go on and on about how anxiety runs my life, but I'm not going to.

I guess thats what I get for taking multiple bars/day for literally years, and then cold turkeying in rehab on phenobarbitol and gabapentin. Gladly I didn't have a seizure this time. I must say the phenobarbitol/gabapentin/remeron combo really took the edge off of the early withdrawal. Still taking gabapentin and remeron before bed.

Other people in recovery I've met whose drug of choice were benzos (very rare) are all absolutely crazy or did go crazy the first few months of abstinence, so I'm grateful that I'm not psychotic or manic at this point. Depression and anxiety are familiar feelings to me, they existed even before I used. I still feel that crushing anxiety every day first thing when I wake up, but it does get a little better each week.


What I want to know is, does anyone here have experience with "clean time" from benzos? If so, what are some things you did to help take the edge off? I'm doing an IOP, so I can't smoke or drink, so I want to hear some alternative suggestions. Has anyone tried cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety?
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Therapist (intern tbh) - Sun, 04 Sep 2016 05:40:57 EST ID:0Bm5AboG No.28514 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28509

3 years, about 8 times a day, total of 50 grams a day :.../
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Thomas Nullyfuck - Mon, 05 Sep 2016 14:16:40 EST ID:O2oCWrRB No.28517 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28514
3 years? Godspeed anon, godspeed.
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Polly Honeystock - Mon, 12 Sep 2016 23:40:54 EST ID:FIQmpHxQ No.28533 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Somewhat involuntary detox.

Moved out in the middle of nowhere, no connects, don't know anyone.

Drink occasionally, no more than 48, or 64oz at a time. (2 24, or 32oz)

Used to smoke weed, drink a lot heavier, random things here and there.

Have done random old scripts I've found, and that was the only time I've really been productive.

I really don't wanna get out of bed unless I'm "modulated" or have something.

Been about a year since I've done any heavy anything.

The only thing that would ever really fuck me up from doing a job would be alcohol hangover, or staying up after stimulants and I'd get paranoid.

Cannabis always leveled me out and it was smooth sailing. Thinking about bussing out to a "legal" state.
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Ian Honeyham - Sun, 02 Oct 2016 21:24:19 EST ID:O2oCWrRB No.28597 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 weeks sober after 8 years of near daily poly drug abuse. If I pull this off for another two weeks, it'll be the longest I've gone sober since I was 14. Hopefully after a few months my brain fog win;t be as debilitating. been slowly working on getting my concentration to regular person levels, but fuck man, so hard to read a book for more than 10 pages at a time. Better than when I started, but still... I used to read full length novels in a couple of days before I got too deep into this shit. Now I;m too used to instant gratification and zoning out to trash tv I guess. Or a ceiling...

BWS
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Fanny Savingmit - Sun, 02 Oct 2016 22:17:07 EST ID:UoWYeeFN No.28598 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28511
>What I want to know is, does anyone here have experience with "clean time" from benzos? If so, what are some things you did to help take the edge off? I'm doing an IOP, so I can't smoke or drink, so I want to hear some alternative suggestions. Has anyone tried cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety.

It's been more than 2 years since I stopped a years long 3 - 10 mg alprazolam and 20 mg zolpidem /day habit. I didn't quit cold turkey but tapered off using diazepam in a 4 month long period.
Unfortunately, little if anything I know can take the edge off a benzodiazepine withdrawal. A moderate dose of quetiapine was always welcome but It acted as more of a distraction than a cure.

All WD symptoms only disappeared around a year after my last diazepam.
Benzo WD is insanity, I feel for you.
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Jack Hattinggold - Mon, 03 Oct 2016 14:37:51 EST ID:0R3mL45S No.28599 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I just started my weed tolerance break this morning. I have been dabbing up to 1g of shatter a day for the past 6 months, so not being stoned is new to me. My tolerance was getting to the point where I would never get above a 4/10 and my highs lasted about 30-45 minutes
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CrazyFolksTribe !owU3wSU682 - Mon, 17 Oct 2016 04:44:59 EST ID:DqMZU7iL No.28625 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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DICKS
FUCKING
EVERYWHERE
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Angus Doshmod - Wed, 19 Oct 2016 04:39:43 EST ID:/Xva4N0f No.28632 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I ran out of drugs lol

Forced sobriety.
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CrazyFolksTribe !owU3wSU682 - Fri, 21 Oct 2016 04:41:50 EST ID:qLjMD6La No.28635 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>28632
Nice. I'm sober since I made a temporary sobriety pact with a friend, but running out of drugs makes it SO much easier.

>become sober
>suddenly have a lot more time to post on 420chan
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Fucking Bondleburk - Sat, 22 Oct 2016 08:11:39 EST ID:yN5iwZEX No.28636 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28598
DSj<hbvLSFJHBDSVBjikBDSkvJ
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Polly Mimmerhood - Wed, 26 Oct 2016 21:14:06 EST ID:kYRnAj1J No.28645 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Sober for a whole day so far. Coming off of years of opiate and benzo use, not to mention daily weed smoking, because of probation and the random drug tests that come with it. 6 more months to go, I hope I can find a good source for suboxone for these first few weeks.
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Phineas Brookgold - Sun, 30 Oct 2016 23:11:52 EST ID:fjmdqJHc No.28650 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I am dealing with the beginnings of bipolar disorder, and so i decided to stop the weed in order to make the diagnostic process less muddled. 1 week 2 days in. I know that weed can bring out episodes, and i need to keep a relative baseline. As far as stopping weed, all has been going incredibly well. Crazy dreams and shitty sleep, but thats to be expected. Shout out to /detox/ and especially /opi/, i know that you guys can do it!
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Beatrice Draddledock - Wed, 02 Nov 2016 18:04:45 EST ID:+WZkifpz No.28653 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Three days off weed. 5 days off alcohol. I need to do it for my mental health. I just had a mental breakdown and an obsesive compulsive episode wich really scared me.

I miss the days when smoking was the best shit ever and getting drunk was fun. Having said that, my sober self feels everything anew. It's wonderful.
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Cedric Bibberstone - Fri, 04 Nov 2016 06:59:46 EST ID:cqm8eKLz No.28655 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS Day 6 cold turkey benzos.

Only real reason for giving them up was sick of being the only non-sober out of my circle of friends.
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Reuben Summerbark - Mon, 07 Nov 2016 11:24:45 EST ID:O2oCWrRB No.28663 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28659
If your 3 years clean, then assuming you weren't a frequent /psy/ user, you could probably have a trip and think shit through... Might be beneficial. but I'm biased, as psych's always reinforce the idea of sober living to me. Maybe buy a cactus or something?
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Jack Hamblelire - Mon, 07 Nov 2016 19:06:37 EST ID:Xv5UOcOV No.28664 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm so sober, had to move back in with my parents and don't really smoke when they're around. They drink but I'm not into having wine by the glass with old folks.
Ugh, so instead I drink coffee and fap. Weed might be better.
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Samuel Crallykut - Thu, 10 Nov 2016 19:47:41 EST ID:Eo8uctJM No.28675 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
I've gone a few days with almost no weed use. The lady I was working for kept trying to offer me food but I just couldn't eat it. Still waiting for my brain to come back. It probably won't until I do some writing, but I'll probably just keep browsing the Chans and watching tv. I really think that years of heavy weed use and social isolation have permanently lowered my intelligence. I feel like a retard constantly and I can barely string together a sentence. It's like there's just nothing going on up there. God I hope my brain comes back.
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Charles Drirrynire - Sat, 12 Nov 2016 17:05:33 EST ID:SM1mAJrS No.28682 Ignore Report Quick Reply
My reason: a crippling relapse on IV heroin, benzos, and alcohol, nearly drifting over the median and killing myself, nearly overdosing, and dying. I hate what I am and how fast I spiral to my addiction.

Bumping with 10 days sober. 10 days of pain, agony, grief, remorse, and regret. 10 days of rebuilding. Trust, my health, habits, welfare, and wellbeing. Feels good to be feeling good.
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Charles Drirrynire - Sat, 12 Nov 2016 17:05:33 EST ID:SM1mAJrS No.28683 Ignore Report Quick Reply
My reason: a crippling relapse on IV heroin, benzos, and alcohol, nearly drifting over the median and killing myself, nearly overdosing, and dying. I hate what I am and how fast I spiral to my addiction.

Bumping with 10 days sober. 10 days of pain, agony, grief, remorse, and regret. 10 days of rebuilding. Trust, my health, habits, welfare, and wellbeing. Feels good to be feeling good.
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Oliver Buckleshit - Tue, 15 Nov 2016 23:33:48 EST ID:XOpgJVCR No.28690 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28650
3 weeks 3 days in. I am going to ride this for a long time, feels ficking great. I sleep 7 hours now instead of 10, no longer overeat, and I get no anxiety about "proving" that im a functional pothead. Been getting out of the house way more. Still doing GHB once a week and modafinil occasionally but weed was my issue.
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Matilda Brottingkere - Tue, 20 Dec 2016 15:18:26 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28767 Ignore Report Quick Reply
smoked the last bit of my weed. I'm taking a good t-break from weed for a few months so i can get my shit together and get my life in order. this stuff is bad for me now. i feel slow and sluggish, always tired, and fogs up my brain. i feel like a zombie after smoking. its doing more harm than good to me in every aspect of my life. staying away from the ganja is going to be a bit difficult mentally. but, i know after a few days that'll go away. i am going to do what i can to be happy and successful and be the best of a person that i can be. so, tomorrow it begins. i already started dieting today and plan on going to the gym everyday and losing some of this weight. wish me luck guys!

nb
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Gnarly McGoblin - Fri, 23 Dec 2016 05:48:26 EST ID:fTnugunl No.28769 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 6 without alcohol
I try to quit because of my last delirium. It was horrendous.
Yesterday and today my father woke me up after just three hours of sleep.
I'm devastated.
It's almost like this fucker wants me to drink.
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Molly Wollylerk - Tue, 27 Dec 2016 16:46:11 EST ID:C7f6INH+ No.28773 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 2 on suboxone.

Everything is good so far. I am getting restless leg syndrome. But, I can handle it. This is nothing compared to having it for two months straight and the symptom was much worse back then when I tried getting off the opiates back in the summer. This time, I am going to succeed no matter how hard it might get. I can do it. I know I can.
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Skizzlepuss !dO744cvTW. - Tue, 27 Dec 2016 22:57:34 EST ID:E5goLQFH No.28774 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
>dxm: 13 days
>alcohol: 10 days
>weed: 9 days
I had to sober up for IOP and group therapy(which I guess I get to start soon, yippee) because I drank between a 6 pack and a 12 pack of beer every night for a while, and almost had a stroke from the withdrawals. Like father, like son, I guess.
I'm fucking 25, strokes shouldn't even be on my radar for another 30+ years. Or at all, for that matter.
I don't give a fuck about the alcohol now, I just want some damn weed.
Or more of those benzos they gave me in the hospital, those were pretty chill and rad and such.
But I'm in it for the long haul, I gotta start giving a shit about my body and general wellbeing and shit.
SLAYER and good luck to you all, my your ancestors smile on your endeavors.
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Graham Banningcocke - Wed, 28 Dec 2016 10:13:35 EST ID:YB0GTXT1 No.28775 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 3 suboxone

Still have rls. But, it's already starting to dissipate and it happens less and less. Even though it's only been three days, I feel better about life and am excited to become a
Happy and successful person. I plan on losing the rest of this weight after New Years. Can't wait to get on the grind and work my ass off for what I want. The fire inside me has been re-lit and I want to keep that way this time and not fuck up again.

I plan on staying on subs for a month and taper down. Hopefully this ends well with me.
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Ebenezer Dodgehork - Thu, 29 Dec 2016 15:18:46 EST ID:YB0GTXT1 No.28776 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 4 on suboxone

Still dealing with rls. I can handle it. Hope this shit goes away eventually after a month goes by. I want to be off this shit within the next month. If I'm not successful with having no side effects after being off the subs then I will hope back on it for a while longer. Either way, I'm getting off the opiates one way or another. Period.
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Hedda Blullybotch - Fri, 30 Dec 2016 11:27:44 EST ID:Lz1x0Hg2 No.28778 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 5 suboxone

Feeling alright today. I watched the sun come up and it was awesome. Wish I would've gotten a few good photos. Can't wait for 2017 to come. I am going to keep growing as a person through changes within myself and my life in general. I want to be the best of a person that I can be.
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Alice Himmlesan - Fri, 30 Dec 2016 11:41:59 EST ID:Pj/wLQtZ No.28779 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28778
I also threw my straws away that I did oxys with. A small, but one step.
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what !!QJGTUbuf - Sat, 31 Dec 2016 03:58:06 EST ID:6cyt7Swl No.28782 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28778

Hey. I'm proud of you. Keep up the good work!
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Samuel Forrybury - Sat, 31 Dec 2016 17:55:36 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28784 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28782
thanks for the kind words.

day 6 suboxone

today is the last day of 2016 and i am already pumped for next year. I'm going to make things happen for myself and really focus on my life rather than doing pills and being an addict. i still smoke weed and thats it.

as far as the taper is coming along, tomorrow will make it a week since i started subs. yeah, christmas day i decided to get clean. it was a present from me to me and i couldn't ask for anything else. everyday gets a little bit easier, mentally speaking. hopefully on january 25th (that will make it a month clean) i can get off the subs and be completely fine and NEVER EVER doing another pill again.
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Nicholas Greenway - Sat, 31 Dec 2016 22:37:18 EST ID:24X0VdbV No.28785 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well on this day last year I was really fucked up. Now I'm ending the year on a sober note, though not entirely by choice. Been off the heroin for 3 days, haven't smoked weed in 2. Heroin has just demoralized me so much and I've found myself in the midst of a deep depression, in a strange town. My girlfriend and I went through our apartment today and threw out every single rig, cooker, tourniquet and drug bag that was in our apartment. Pretty adamant about staying off the dope, but fucking hell some weed would be nice about now. Happy new year everyone
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Ebenezer Sallergold - Sun, 01 Jan 2017 08:02:13 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28786 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28785
Good luck to both of you. May your year be filled with sobriety and beneficial endeavors.
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Ebenezer Sallergold - Sun, 01 Jan 2017 15:41:18 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28787 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Happy new years everyone!

Day 7 suboxone

Today makes one week since being on subs. I know seven days ain't much. But, I'm still proud of myself for sticking with this. So, in one week from now I'll be decreasing the amount of subs I take by half. After those two weeks with doing that I'm going off the subs completely. I know I can get through this.

It's the new year. I have many plans I want to make happen. I'm moving on to bigger and better things.
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Emma Gabblepurk - Mon, 02 Jan 2017 11:45:32 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28789 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 8 suboxone

Feeling great this morning! I fee so positive and a bit upbeat and happier. I love this feeling. The sense of accomplishment and knowing you are putting in work to change yourself and your life is the best feeling in the world. How I feel about life now and myself, is amazing.

I'm going to start hitting up the gym today. Want to lose the rest of this weight. I know I can do it.

Have a good day everyone!
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what !!QJGTUbuf - Tue, 03 Jan 2017 03:53:33 EST ID:6cyt7Swl No.28791 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>20893
this sucks and i want my heroin.
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David Bremmerstock - Tue, 03 Jan 2017 12:28:45 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28792 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 9 suboxone

Feeling really good this morning. Really feel happy and fortunate. I'm happy and fortunate that I have a roof over my head, my family and the luxuries that I have the privelage to have and most of all, I'm fortunate to be alive.

My meditation was the best it's ever been. I had nothing but positive vibes and good thoughts running through my head. After I was done and opened my eyes, this feeling came over me. I can't describe it. But, I know it feels good as it's still going through me. SLAYER!

Have a great day everyone! :)
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Ebenezer Brullerway - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 10:34:00 EST ID:1ehAVpnM No.28801 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28800
Keep up the good work. I abused kpins for about four years straight and eventually got off the shit. I'm much better off without it. I've been sober from benzos for over three years and I plan on keeping it that way.

Keep plugging dude and you'll achieve your goal by staying clean and sober. Their is always a light at the end of the tunnel and you're almost there.
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Hamilton Fanshaw - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 11:09:36 EST ID:innXjHQN No.28802 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28801
thx man, Id been off benzos for a few years too, never did loads tho but quit as soon as I knew I was getting anxious without it. I think I got them cause I knew Id be hungover/bored over the season. Hangovers just lasting a bit longer than I expected.

Maybe if Im sober the Universe will throw good shit my way cause I can be trusted with it.
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bl00 jay - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 07:15:01 EST ID:r971YO05 No.28803 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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crow bro/hilltop niggaz/clone warz nvr4get

one week or so, no more meth and heroin. no more smoking crack in brand new stolen cars. no more wandering stealing anything i wanted or needed keeping it stashed around town. no more contact with any and all of the interesting people I met along the way, save the ones I know I can get shit from if I want it. slamming shit primarily for 2 years and everything inbetween, satan sent me a message him very self in the form of of half a dozen or more officers of the law. apparently you can't just go into an empty house and claim it but what do you do when the hotels are getting hot as fuck? thank you for not arresting me and carting my ass back east to be raped to death by detroit jolly african-american dicks for many a year to come. thank you for not asking about that suspicious car, you kicked my ass out quick too. when I came back hours later, making a fuckton of noise spraining my wrists because you guys made me leave with nothing, not having my gay ass flaslight. oh yeah dope was still there. big ol bag of meth you all left there, in plain sight. got most of my shit back and got the dope. but im out now. im out out out out
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Fuck Bunford - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 07:42:22 EST ID:PWFwFPYd No.28804 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28803
makes my minor relapse sound minor. Getting high though forced me to seek more out and got ripped off the next day. feelin broke this month, oh and I got court later on this month too, yay. Ironic though the incident happened when Id been stone sober for 2 months.
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Shitting Snodstock - Tue, 10 Jan 2017 20:51:54 EST ID:mIKkxqsT No.28812 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I plan to quit drinking alcohol and cut back quite a bit. In the last two years the longest I went in between drinking was 3 days, and when I drink I drink until I pass out.

The reason I need to quit is because I'm afraid down the road I'll end up really dependent on alcohol and it will ruin my relationships with family, my girlfriend, job, and im in college now so I don't want it to ruin that either.

Currently feeling very bored, with the low hum of anxiety in the back of my mind. I crave alcohol like I'm horny for sex or something. I can't taper off because once I start drinking its very hard to stop.

I hope this week goes well and that my recovery isn't horrible. At least I have weed
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Hamilton Cladgefut - Wed, 18 Jan 2017 10:32:10 EST ID:D7BmddjS No.28821 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I only lasted ten days until I ran out of subs. Sucks that I had to resort to methadone again. Only taking 10mg a day. Buying subs tonight and getting what count I exactly want. Tomorrow I go back on this

Nb
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Charlotte Wesslefack - Fri, 20 Jan 2017 22:38:36 EST ID:j8WMZzHs No.28830 Ignore Report Quick Reply
45 days off herion, meth, benzos, coke, alcohol , and weed. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done but my minds finnally returning and I'm starting to feel great again. For anyone thinking of quiting because you lost your self phisicly and mentally like me - it does get better.
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Priscilla Smallspear - Sat, 21 Jan 2017 20:31:18 EST ID:f++Sdu95 No.28845 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28830

You're a strong person. Keep going friend!
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Cornelius Weggleville - Tue, 24 Jan 2017 22:40:19 EST ID:kZWH91uw No.28867 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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about two months off of benzos, I was abusing rc's and scripted 3mgs of kpins a day. Just now starting to feel normal. I still get crippling anxiety from time to time, But man i never thought things would be better and they are. My thoughts are much clearer, everything is much more vibrant, and dropping acid a few weeks ago was had a huge positive impact, life without benzos is much better. I thought I was never going to feel better even with a slow valium taper I was loosing my mind. just know the withdraws will end eventually folks..
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Walter Shittingbury - Sat, 28 Jan 2017 14:52:39 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28873 Ignore Report Quick Reply
tomorrow i start on suboxone. going to be a slow taper. will take 2 months before i am clean and off subs. I hope all goes well. I'm a bit enthusiastic about this. after this is all said and done i can focus on making a life for myself and do the things that make me happy.
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Eugene Buzzbanks - Sat, 28 Jan 2017 23:07:59 EST ID:pMIIJ3fd No.28874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Tomorrow I will be 26 months clean from heroin and all other illicit drugs. I still drink from time to time, but rarely get drunk. I visit this site every now and then to remember those times when I was an 18 year old senior in high school shooting heroin and taking cough medicine I stole from the dollar store. I am 23 now and haven't been on this site regularly since I was 18.

Many of my friends have died from heroin. I almost died from heroin. Quit that shit before it's too late.
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Angus Cussledock - Sun, 29 Jan 2017 08:45:54 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28875 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>28874
good shit dude! you have come a helluva long way. today is my first day on suboxone. you give me inspiration just by reading that you've been sober for quite a while now; 2 years. what keeps you going? how much has your life changed since you've been sober?
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William Billywone - Sun, 29 Jan 2017 13:50:30 EST ID:9UI2BRSD No.28876 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Time to get off the opiates once and for all. I'm back on subs and today is the first day. It'll take me until April to get through my taper. I have high hopes for myself that I can get through this and never touch another pill again. It's time to truly focus on myself and getting my shit together. I have some goals in mind for what I want to accomplish this year. This gives me motivation and inspiration to give all of this my 100% effort.

It's time to get this ball rolling. The sooner I get clean the better off I'll be.
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Clara Murdfoot - Tue, 31 Jan 2017 10:01:35 EST ID:9UI2BRSD No.28882 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Good morning everyone.

It's been three days since I got on subs. I've been meditating everyday to clear my mind and gain a sense of self. Been meditating for a year now and it's helped me immensely. I feel better than I have in a couple weeks or even a whole year tbh. I do have high hopes for myself and what I set out to achieve in life is what will make me happy. Everything is going good.


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