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BWS by Sophie Cerringchure - Fri, 19 Apr 2013 03:08:25 EST ID:cLmtTVud No.20893 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Bump while sober. Didn't see any thread of this kind in here and thought it could be of some help for those trying to quit.

I'm not quitting but just taking a pause from weed. Haven't really smoked in 10 days (not counting those 4 hits I tooks from a friends spliff at a party while drunk)

>tell your reasons and how long it's been.

I just want weed to be more like a treat and not a everyday normal thing. After the pose I'm gonna lower my smoking to about once or twice a week.

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Edwin Brookham - Fri, 03 May 2013 20:27:22 EST ID:w5ZSMocU No.21333 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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update (hope you guys are doing alright as well) used 40mg of my stim Rx for classes this week. still no opi, had a single pack of cigs (lasted all of a day) ... usually I smoke like crazy but eh not this time, nor did I drink myself stupid, take xanax or hutt stuff my face. after that pack of cigs nothing- just a lot of off-kilter writing
11 days/30
I think weed does increase your imagination but also stunts or inhibits dreams (pretty sure ambien does too) so when they do come back the adjustments your brain made in response (lower levels of a neurotransmitter = greater numbers of receptors is the key in this case I believe) it makes those dreams return with so much greater intensity
that sounds like what I went through the first couple of days too, but the soreness is... odd. definitely worth checking out; /opi/ will probably tell you to come here but this board gets so much less traffic
Charlotte Dorrynat - Fri, 03 May 2013 22:15:44 EST ID:yzRUXwMp No.21335 Ignore Report Quick Reply
trying to take a year off alcohol. I'm sober...

I don't really think 420chan is the best place to hang out, since /detox/ seems to be 80% people asking how to pass drug tests while still using.

circlejerk is a decent place, they have subs like /r/stopdrinking and /r/leaves etc.
Nell Sadgebire - Sun, 05 May 2013 14:20:34 EST ID:DE+ba5Ei No.21359 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Replace old hobbie with new ones. Read good books and watch good movies, hang out with old friends. Work out maybe, even if its just light it will make you feel good.
Snickle Fritz - Sun, 05 May 2013 15:15:06 EST ID:pSZMqeq4 No.21360 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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2 weeks today abstaining from weed. day 2 of no cigarettes. The marijuana was quit so I could find a fucking job (UGH) and the cigarettes were something I've been trying to quit for years. I turn 22 in a couple days which means that I'll have been a smoker for 5 years. I don't need the false temporary relief that comes with a cigarette. Also, a HUGE wake-up call was yesterday morning when I woke up at 6 AM gasping and choking on phlegm, tar, and god knows what the fuck else. That's NEVER happened. I attribute it to the fact of quitting smoking both at the same time. But it really woke me up (literally and figuratively), not being able to breathe. Also , I rather enjoy the freedom from Nicotine, and I actually enjoy the clear-headedness from my T-break! I plan on smoking pot again, but only at the end of the night before bed. And not daily, if possible.
Lydia Crobbleshit - Sun, 05 May 2013 16:45:43 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.21361 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bumpin while sober

What do you guys do to keep your mind off drugs?
I'm trying to quit drinking, weed, and drugs. I'm 18 and still live at home, and whenever i'm home alone all I can think about is taking some liquor or just anything I can get like taking my moms cigs, or looking through cabinets for pills.
I'm depressed and have ADHD so i'm finding it really fucking hard to entertain myself.
Nathaniel Chunnershit - Sun, 05 May 2013 17:29:53 EST ID:+s8fxAZr No.21362 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day three of full blown heroin withdrawl, cold turkey after a year and 2 months of daily use (of opiates in general, heroin mostly for this last month). I spent the last 2 nights kicking and thrashing and swearing and crying on the couch because I couldn't sleep, even with 100 mg of seroquel. My whole body hurts so bad...down to the bones. I'm cold under blankets and it's 70+ degrees out. No alcohol, no clonidine, no benzos...nothing to make it better. It's fucking unbearable.

I seriously want to die. I'm doing this because I need to get my head on straight and start actually accomplishing shit before I lose my girlfriend, my apartment and everything else I even remotely value in life.
Esther Bonnerfod - Fri, 24 May 2013 18:50:41 EST ID:7LkjVvnx No.21635 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Good luck !
Angus Trotbanks - Sun, 26 May 2013 23:46:15 EST ID:dOj06f4W No.21656 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>21229 you'll get over it pretty soon, if you tapper off it's not too bad, you don't get major withdraws, i'm currtley on a sub taper, i got like a week left till i'm done, and i'm kind of excited to be clean haha
Betsy Dimmerstone - Thu, 30 May 2013 17:29:22 EST ID:ebC9vVq0 No.21720 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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And after several failed attempts, I am currently on day 2 of no alcohol. It's a start.
Martin Niggerman - Tue, 04 Jun 2013 17:09:11 EST ID:lPHAo0Pr No.21764 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Trying to find a job. Vigorous exercise and lots of water, fruit and antioxidants for two weeks. I hope I'm clean by now
zach erm I mean dave - Sun, 09 Jun 2013 16:20:15 EST ID:cknYghzh No.21796 Ignore Report Quick Reply
so I'm sober again for lack of decent drugs
but I want to do something with my life other than this
I think that must be the trick, doing something with your life.
Luxinbuts, Fuxinsluts - Thu, 20 Jun 2013 12:14:16 EST ID:ofCtoo95 No.21895 Ignore Report Quick Reply
BWS fosho!

Recovering from years of poly-drug use, mainly concentrated in IV Opiate (heroin, pills, etc) use, hallucinogens, and occasional stimulants.

I have about a week of complete sobriety, though in an essence, it extends far beyond that. I've used MXE or Ketamine 3 times since deciding to make drastic changes in my life (typically one night every 30 days). I have about 10 weeks of abstinence from heroin, and followed suit with /benz/, /weed/, /mdma/, /hooch/, /stim/, and /psy/.

I know it's shiesty to try and boast a sober-length when there has been some drug use, but I am extremely proud of the progress I HAVE made, and seem to continue making. I work two jobs (which I've never done....hell, drugs were my career for the past couple of years), regularly go to the gym (very therapeutic and has helped with my opinions on self-image, and given optimism in attaining desired goals), have taken the time to do some daily reading and meditation and attend 12-step meetings when I have extra time in my day. I think I try to stay attached to Ketamine because it's always been such a peculiar and unpredictable drug, and interesting for my personality. I do notice if it counter-acts my interests in maintaining my current routine, so that's helped me not use it much more frequently.

Anyways, I'm sober today, and I do enjoy the clarity, and I think that's mostly what sobriety is anyway. Unadulterated self, free of influence through substance. Rationality outweighing the irrationality. Getting more and more aware of how much easier it is to attain that without any drug use at all, and how easy it can be just NOT to use drugs. Feelsgoodman
Betsy Sibberhood - Thu, 18 Jul 2013 20:04:30 EST ID:za8LSzvF No.22175 Ignore Report Quick Reply
2 days clean off weed, about a month since my last trip, and 2 months since I rolled.

I'm already feeling much more clear headed than I was, though I'm still very self-conscious and alienated from everything. I've left my old friend group because I was causing so much harm to them....
Basil Bunderchock - Mon, 26 Aug 2013 07:46:10 EST ID:0occxAwH No.22465 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm on day 2 of an indefinite t-break. Just until I feel like smoking again!
I feel like I have become attached to weed and I don't like that. I spend most of my wages on drugs, leaving no money for everything else. I lost a gram of weed the other night on my way home and I was so pissed off at myself for a half hour or so and then I realised...

It's a gram of plant matter. The fuck am I crying about? So I started a t-break. Wish me luck
Dave !N5MvbCntdE - Mon, 26 Aug 2013 17:58:14 EST ID:TEdtJTPN No.22472 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sober today, mostly because I have no weed or other decent drugs.
Apathy is keeping me from seeing a dealer right now
Which I suppose is better than being motivated and strung out,,,
Hannah Charringbanks - Sat, 14 Sep 2013 01:34:55 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22618 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been sober for 4 hours. I realized today how fucking destructive my drug habits are. Over the past 3 years (mostly this past year) I have successfully destroyed every relationship with anyone. The "friends" I have now I have literally never hung out with sober except when waiting for a dealer. 3 years ago I had a ton of friends, some close friends, and even some girlfriends. Now I have no one. Today has been a wake up call that I need to get serious about my efforts to quit and quit everything. Just looking back on my attempts at quitting and I feel like a fucking idiot. I tried to quit weed, started taking Molly and shrooms and drinking more. Tried to quit drinking and smoking weed, I pick up smoking cigs using adderall and taking kratom daily. I need to stop fucking bullshitting myself. No pills, weed, alcohol, legal highs, fucking nothing until I have a life again.
Phineas Devingmere - Sat, 21 Sep 2013 04:09:11 EST ID:jCt5SQwV No.22670 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i know that feel bro . been fighting with this habbit since forever ;/
Frederick Gaggleford - Tue, 24 Sep 2013 13:26:38 EST ID:cz2PBO4e No.22698 Ignore Report Quick Reply
2 days have gone by with no illegal drugs. went to a methadone clinic and they took me in... started me off with 20mg and going to taper down to 10mg.

big wake up call for me now. going back to being sober and living life again. i want out and am not going back!

Walter Moblingbudge - Sat, 28 Sep 2013 18:14:19 EST ID:Cnm0HN7w No.22721 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i smoke rarely compared to most of the people here, mostly because i live in country that is like a cave when it comes to getting decent stuff around here.
its either really low quality weed which almost don't qualify or spice.
times when i can get real weed i treasure as fuck even tho i forget all the trip and nice feels the next day, at least i know i fucking tripped as i wanted to with full immersion and that's the way i smoke my stuff, even spice.
Thomas Nurringford - Sat, 05 Oct 2013 16:04:02 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.22769 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bumping while sober. I'm up to 30 days without weed, and I haven't drank in 21 days.
Now I'm going to quit porn too. Quitting the drink and the smoke was difficult at first difficult but now is pretty easy, porn is going to be a fucking challenge.
Alice Hocklelore - Sat, 05 Oct 2013 17:53:46 EST ID:nD5qla/3 No.22773 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Taking my first step of a 1 month goal from using /dis/.

I need to man up and face the real world for a change.
question dude - Mon, 07 Oct 2013 05:42:54 EST ID:mwO51+pA No.22785 Ignore Report Quick Reply

can you tell me about addiction from /dis/?
Shit Grandfuck - Sun, 13 Oct 2013 20:44:39 EST ID:8CmXIUui No.22830 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 months, Mexico sucks
Edward Donnerford - Sun, 20 Oct 2013 12:05:04 EST ID:nhRPOgxu No.22872 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Hey all, me again.

So, I gave in and failed. i've been back to smoking at the same level I was before.

Every time I fail quitting, I learn something critical about myself, and I feel like I am one step closer to actually quitting.

Here's the thing; the only thing that will help me quit smoking is putting in the effort to quit smoking. I give up too easily. It's just too easy, and when I get started, it's hard to stop.

I have this sense of finality whenever I quit smoking. Then I go against this finalistic mindset and decide to just have one, and then I'm back before I know it.

Sometimes while I'm smoking, I remember how stupid it is, put it out, and go do something else. Whenever I buy a pack, I think I have to smoke it all to avoid wasting and to savor the "last time". It never turns out that way.

I realize that if I really want to quit smoking, I have to search myself further, and evaluate what compels me to smoke so much.

I'm going to try once again soon, and I'll make sure to keep you all posted.

Remember, even if you fail, just get up again. Just keep getting up.

Luxinbuts, Fuxinsluts - Wed, 23 Oct 2013 12:50:24 EST ID:ofCtoo95 No.22886 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Almost 7 months without Opiates, Weed, And other habitual drugs! I do drink alcohol on occasion now (usually only on weekends if at all), and will occasionally eat some shrooms or smoke some DMT, and I've done some Ketamine a few times as well, though I haven't done any /dis/ in about a month. Overall, dramatic improvements.
Esther Blundlelock - Thu, 31 Oct 2013 19:13:14 EST ID:1iob10+o No.22933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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i came back to detox its been 3 weeks no weed 2 weeks for cigs.

guys i know quitting is one of the hardest things to do, you have justified smoking for so long but thats the thing

you GAVE yourself a reason to smoke right?
you need to justify a reason NOT to smoke and keep telling yourself that.!!

remember even if its been a few hours without smoking just think
>damn ive got this far, there's no going back
believe in yourself.

i know you guys can do it. its different for everyone but after i got over the physical stuff i really felt alot better and ive been riding the sober train ever sense.

its all good friends just keep sticking with your plan and never let go of the light. fucking the world WANTS to control you and make you smoke and drink coffee and ect. dont let the world tell you what to do because its YOUR life and it will always be YOUR life and your'e in control guys no one else!

i believe in you guys. pic related
Rebecca Buzzstock - Mon, 04 Nov 2013 13:05:08 EST ID:XtYPGRMd No.22951 Ignore Report Quick Reply
not sober...I drink booze and smoke pot...

lately I drink and every morning after I shit blood like crazy...

dont have health insurance...

how do you become sober when you're always around it?

I feel trapped
Cedric Podgebury - Tue, 05 Nov 2013 18:23:03 EST ID:GjzB2I7e No.22966 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 weeks off the hooch. I used to drink several 40s a week and jack. No hangovers and no trouble is a plus is great, but the boredom and the craving for a buzz is hard to surpass. Been smoking Malboros (started a few months back), but it's less addictive and psychologically damaging to me than alcohol. Going up state to see a friend soon. Should keep my mind occupied at least.
Eugene Buttingfodge - Wed, 20 Nov 2013 12:48:26 EST ID:jVG+KQsU No.23174 Ignore Report Quick Reply
8 weeks. Fuck. It's hard (boredom gets to me). I'm tempted to buy some booze. God, I need that buzz.
Hamilton Wobberchick - Fri, 29 Nov 2013 20:35:30 EST ID:s+CH03R9 No.23344 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I broke my faggot brothers nose for pinching off a bag of weed. When he stole meth from me I sold his TV, iPhone, and punched him in the fucking balls 15 times as he slept. Well he was awake for 14 of them

You damn well can blame them. And should. My tweaker customers know I'll burn their houses down if they try to steal from me. The only thing a junkie understands is force. They've been coddled by mommy their entire life or are sociopaths.

I've been hooked on 540mg of oxy daily and 2g of uncut shard daily, quit both with out stealing when desperate once. Cant afford your habit?

Suck up the fucking wds or start selling dope. Theives need their faces broken in before they learn. The pain you'll inflict on them has to be so far worse than what they will experience from withdrawals or working 20 hours to earn the shit they're taking
Hamilton Wobberchick - Sat, 30 Nov 2013 09:55:33 EST ID:s+CH03R9 No.23359 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You're a pussy who lets people steal from them. Fucking little fuccboi
Clara Simblelen - Sat, 30 Nov 2013 16:38:07 EST ID:swmZz7KO No.23364 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Nobody has stolen from me. What are you talking about?
Phineas Drollystone - Mon, 30 Dec 2013 10:56:55 EST ID:w3TEirrw No.23829 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Ok guys, spice addict for almost three years. I've gone through 3 days of sweating, restlessness, irritability, and horrible cravings. But I woke up this morning feeling awesome. I have finally kicked my.habit!
Henry Fedgewill - Sun, 05 Jan 2014 18:49:13 EST ID:FXYbD5iE No.23865 Ignore Report Quick Reply
First get over this I'm destined to be a drug addict forever bullshit. You are in control of your destiny, stop the self pity spoof and take control of your life. You like to get fucking high? That's your choice and you are the sole source of sovereignty in your life remember that.
Edward Bronkinbat - Wed, 08 Jan 2014 20:22:33 EST ID:opnaJJRh No.23899 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have a question for anyone who has quit before. How long until you start to feel better? I'm getting in emotional fights with my parents where I'm not even feeling any emotion, I honestly feel like killing myself sometimes. But I'm pretty sure it's mostly due to my alcohol and drug problem. I think I will be able to quit if I know it's going to get better, but I need to know some kind of time estimate. Cause I've quit booze for 30 days, but during them I was using Molly and weed more, and the most I've quit everything completely is like 3 days probably cause I just feel like nothing is happening. I mean I just need some kind of time estimate cause "it will get better eventually" just doesn't sink into my head. I just got into a fight with my mom, and I feel fucking terrible, at the end of the argument she left to the store but she's been gone for an hour now. I wish I could cry, but all I feel like doing is drinking. So fuck it, going to get fucking wasted tonight, let this all blow over, and start being sober tomorrow. God dammit, I fucking hate my self.
Walter Niggerlock - Wed, 19 Feb 2014 19:54:13 EST ID:2VGbRANf No.24184 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I've been telling myself to get off pot for years now. I actually just had another "wake up call" the other day about how it's actually been years that I've been smoking weed every day, all day. I don't even know who I really am without the weed. I've had glimpses with minor T-breaks, but I've never been consistent. I really need to be sober for at least a month. So many signs have been pointing towards that path. It's just been strangely difficult to quit smoking weed. It usually takes me 24 hours of no smoke to be mostly over the craving. That 24 hours tends to be my slip-up period. I haven't gone more than a day without smoking in years. When I did, I felt great. But I do realize it's been a long ass time. My brain is gonna be fucked if I don't get my shit together. My life is gonna be fucked. Weed is gentle in a way, but it's deceiving. It effects like every aspect of my existence. In good ways and bad ways. I'm just not even sure who my sober self is, or how it thinks and handles life.

I need some serious motivation or some kind of plan to get off weed. Also, cigarettes. Somehow, tobacco is easier to not smoke because it doesn't get me high. But, I will end up wanting that ONE cigarette. Then it turns into two and three. But the weed. I can't be high all the time. I can't get high once or else I will start smoking like a chimney again. I haven't done shit with my life and I need to do shit with my life and I need to make friends and accomplish shit. Been fed up with this lifestyle, even though it's easy to be lazy and sleep all the time. I fucking love sleeeeep. I don't want to give that up hahaha.

Wish me luck. I'm going to try to quit weed again soon.
Phineas Famblebick - Fri, 21 Feb 2014 20:38:02 EST ID:145tpULG No.24200 Ignore Report Quick Reply
full two days so far. feeling sleepless but otherwise okay.
Charles Fabbleway - Thu, 10 Apr 2014 00:25:58 EST ID:mWDxZ39i No.24558 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Good luck if you are seeking to stay off for a while or especially for ever.
Archie Govingkot - Tue, 22 Apr 2014 23:01:35 EST ID:nDekbm3H No.24651 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober for the past 6 months, save for tonight, because of the mandatory drug test for my college's athletics department (Last one of year was on 4/21).
Hedda Nobblewell - Wed, 23 Apr 2014 01:35:46 EST ID:R0l3JDxy No.24652 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober from weed since the 18th of this month to join the military. It's probably for the best, I knew I'd have to stop some time, it just crept up on me sooner than I thought it would.

Anyone else in a similar situation?
Clara Chorringkun - Wed, 23 Apr 2014 01:46:47 EST ID:SX75Fafl No.24653 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm at about a year and three months sober. I quit because my IV drug habit (primarily heroin, some meth) got way out of control, my friends started dying and I got septic arthritis, which almost killed my ass. Had to move back in with my grandparents. I'm just waiting out my grandparents and parents dying so I can go back down my path of self-destruction and follow it to its logical conclusion guilt-free. Life definitely got better when I got sober, but at this point I'm just living for other people. Maybe I'll find some reason to live other than out of some weird sense obligation. Who knows.
Hugh Wabblebury - Mon, 28 Apr 2014 03:31:54 EST ID:vQ/uiHUe No.24688 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Soon I'll have been completely sober for about four months.
I don't know, while I don't have any desire for weed or cigarettes (at least not that much) I really feel like I want to do more acid?

Should I stick to my guns or make one tiny exception? Or will it be worse for it?
Augustus Pugglewill - Wed, 30 Apr 2014 12:46:51 EST ID:vQ/uiHUe No.24703 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Things are going to be a lot different this summer. I'm sober and I'm staying that way. In order to do that, however, I'm going to have to cut out the temptations and negative influences. That means I'm going to have to cut off a lot of the people I consider family and friends.

There's no easy way to do this, is there? I mean, as much as I keep telling myself "I'm stronger for it, it'll help me in the long run, I'm through trying to cover people's asses from the mistakes they make", it's not going to be easy, or fun, or something I won't regret.

Times are changing. I could face REAL consequences, and although my luck has been fortunate, I've had too many close calls to live like this anymore. I just hope that I'm doing the right thing. That it all makes sense.
Fanny Tootshaw - Fri, 02 May 2014 12:47:05 EST ID:3kO7n5FU No.24709 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I have a job interview on monday and I'm trying to get clean in case they have a drug test. Haven't touched weed for about 5 days. Took a drug test, though. It's still in my system. I might be screwed, but I have a Med Card as a last resort. Not sure how much it would help me, but it's worth a shot.
Isabella Blellylone - Sat, 10 May 2014 14:52:11 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.24761 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Update: FUCK ROLLING I'm not going to ruin my 4 months. I worked hard for this shit.

Lately I've had the craving to do coke or roll face, and luckily I've been able to stop myself from doing so. Sure, it's not heroin, but that is a dangerous thing to say as an addict.

And some people are talking about how much clearer things are when they get off of certain drugs on here for say, a week, or a few days. Get completely clean off of everything for a few months and I promise you that the clarity you're experiencing now is nothing compared to what will come.
Frederick Trothood - Sun, 18 May 2014 03:46:40 EST ID:g/k6nQ/y No.24811 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Used to use every kind of drug under the sun. My favorites were LSD, MDMA, and Ketamine. Was also a smoker of 4 years, and a bordeline alcoholic. Havent touched A THING in over a year. Not sure whether to be happy or sad.
Oliver Blorringtag - Sun, 18 May 2014 15:02:11 EST ID:J7d2/7YJ No.24815 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm on the verge of relapsing right now.
I have to believe that staying sober is the right thing for me. But I just can't. It's just so....strict. I just want to cut loose, but I know I shouldn't go back to that life. I don't want to give up. But I'm on my last legs here.
Nell Climmerstere - Thu, 22 May 2014 08:25:47 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24856 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm sober because it's 7am, trying to make it until work at 2pm
Martha Wusslestock - Fri, 23 May 2014 12:59:57 EST ID:WTHbhoiY No.24870 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I am in the early hours of my third day clean.

I am taking an extended break from weed for a few reasons.

I have been stuck in the mother of all ruts lately. I've been caught in this shitty cycle for too long and it is holding me back.

I want to get a job, save up some money, buy my own car and leave my current town and my mothers house, i have done this before but have always needed to come back, so i have decided that this time im going to do it right and not fuck it up.

I will smoke weed again in the future, once im in a better position with an income, a car of my own and a solid job in the city i plan to move to, also when i can get decent stuff in quantity, rather than paying out the ass for small amounts.
I also think when the time comes i do smoke again, that i do not smoke every day cos it gives me really intense mood swings and derealization/depersonalization if i smoke too often, i just get a bit frazzled.

I really hope i can get out of this town before it sucks me in.
Martha Sezzlemitch - Mon, 26 May 2014 07:39:15 EST ID:+5qoaURd No.24887 Ignore Report Quick Reply
lol amateur try a year
Shitting Dick Nipples - Sat, 31 May 2014 20:14:44 EST ID:Ki/yRRFV No.24933 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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So fucking sober. Just two more days to go.
Thomas Wurringdock - Sat, 31 May 2014 21:48:44 EST ID:uex/VhSa No.24934 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been sober for 2 months because I've just gotten a job that random drug tests. It's really the best job I can find right now and I need a job that will help me survive while I go through audio engineering school. Really wanna smoke buds, but, I'm new to the area and I don't really know where to get decent weed, also don't want to risk losing job. Not even sure how long it will be before I can smoke again :(
Jenny Soddlepodge - Mon, 02 Jun 2014 04:00:43 EST ID:uVYfjinU No.24948 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Its hard the first few days dealing with people and depression, but after awhile you forget what its like to be high. and it gets better. At least for me.

Gotta take a week off cannabis, im just not feeling it anymore, tolerance sucks.

Gotta smoke some fools out next weekend, and after that ima probably take a month off. Its hard to tolerance break when you live in Cali, have a job, and the dispensary is within walking distance.
Captain Blackheart - Tue, 03 Jun 2014 13:22:13 EST ID:iTm0acmG No.24960 Ignore Report Quick Reply
> slightly happier

that's a good thing.
Nell Grimstock - Sat, 14 Jun 2014 17:30:04 EST ID:KmKDdmAu No.25003 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been off weed for a few months now, and things are better this way. Used to smoke every day as a 'crutch', but being sober makes it a lot easier to deal with the shit life throws at you. I also get feelings and perspectives I haven't had for years, and my dreams are back.
Whitey Pocklefoot - Tue, 17 Jun 2014 15:15:27 EST ID:yoGbXEyI No.25021 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's odd seeing you guys bitch about not being able to smoke weed and a stark reminder of the terrible path my life took. I don't think I've really been totally clean since I was 13 years old. Like, I was probably half baked when the twin towers fell. Even when I stop, I'm still smoking cigarettes or using benadryl or something.

I'm starting to wonder if I really do need in patient rehab. It's not like I have a job or my own home to come back to anyway. Shit. Fucking. SUCKS. You keep thinking you're totally in control of shit until you realize you're strapped in and the ride never ends.

I am currently watching like a hawk for my etizolam. I am fucking pissed. I was supposed to be straightened out by now. I was supposed to be making money in a clean apartment by now.

Alcohol has completely fucking ruined my life. Sin has completely ruined my life.

And now here I am, putting off the final steps of cleaning up because I just don't want to deal with the pig sty, and I still keep getting these pangs of helplessness. I used to be or at least feel like a mighty one and now I'm laid low. I haven't even been sober two weeks and that's just booze. I seriously just had to switch back onto cigarettes, thienodiazepines, and Kratom just to be able to fucking function.

I envy you guys, and I regret every contribution I made to making human beings shittier. All the ways I taught people to blackmail, attack each other, I just wanted people I cared about to gain leverage and advantages, and I wanted advantages for myself too. I am now, along with people I know, dregs of society.

I seriously just do not even comprehend what a substance free lifestyle could be like anymore. Son of a bitch this will be. It is going to take me years of therapy just to be a functional human being again. And all this shit happened without shooting heroin or meth.

I look at this mess and just need to tell myself, others have survived worse catastrophes than I can imagine with a stiff upper lip and they came out fine. Just one day at a time.

Sigh....and my pills likely come tomorrow. I am living the shittiest fucking lifestyle at the moment. God, I wish I could just turn back around and tell myself, no, you should've gone to private school, forget about everyone else's problems, learn to deal on your own, and if you need to have a nervous break down do what normal people do and get some jackass sports car when you're 50.
Polly Sadgehood - Sat, 28 Jun 2014 01:25:46 EST ID:Q7ztbCib No.25076 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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pumpin the breaks, on booze and weed
Nigel Dronningdale - Thu, 24 Jul 2014 21:01:39 EST ID:DcG1WBTg No.25222 Ignore Report Quick Reply
6 1/2 months exactly. I turn 21 on Tuesday. I'm totally going to drink. I bid thee farewell, sober friends. It's been fun, but there's no way I'm not drinking. Haven't been drunk since November, btw.
Honestly - Sun, 03 Aug 2014 18:34:21 EST ID:iwE7jOBN No.25266 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Quitting heroin. Quit my shitty register job so i can have a week to kick the smack. MAn fuck this. I fucking regret ever touching opiates. like seriously. This is fucked up. How i feel is FUCKED. I just need to vent. Fuck quitting heroin. Seriously id do anything for a hug from one of you guys who have been through this. ;( the suffering has to end sometime
Graham Gunnerfoot - Wed, 27 Aug 2014 11:23:24 EST ID:yesmudAt No.25393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>5 days without cocaine
I want to punch each and everyone one of you while eating 15 sandwiches while crying because I hear things that aren't really there, oh I'll probably masturbate 20 times after too.
Hannah Gollerhall - Sun, 31 Aug 2014 20:05:50 EST ID:a4zwRu/+ No.25413 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I drank last night but good lord these hangovers just keep getting worse every time, I think it's time to take a break from this shit.

I drink a lot of water when I booze so I don't get the classic hangover, but for whatever reason I can not fucking sleep the next day after I drink no matter how tired/exhausted I am. Feels fucking horrible.
Caroline Focklehood - Mon, 06 Oct 2014 23:35:38 EST ID:J5SlYdyc No.25634 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Been mostly sober for 3 months, minus two beers over the course of two days. Live in a halfway house so gotta be careful or ill get kicked out. They only advocate abstinence, so cant really party too hard or too often. Im enjoying the mental clarity though, and at least im not homeless anymore. Still, to be honest, i really fucking miss drugs sometimes. Oh well, theres more to life, right?

Barnaby Gongerwell - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 18:57:57 EST ID:XiT5xBzg No.25654 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>be an alcoholic
>bad shit happens, can no longer afford alcohol
>take up dph in low doses for the sedation, feels similar to the booze
>tolerance builds
>end up binging on delirium doses every night for the last year
>trying to get off the dph, mental rot from is starting to become prevalent.
>money is better now so I start drinking again to ward off the withdrawals and be able to sleep at night
>stop drinking and start using dph again
>end up mixing the dph with the alcohol
>realize this is really fucking stupid and I need to stop or pic related is going to be me
>been stone cold sober for 2 weeks.
>barely slept, feel like puking every minute of every day, overall feel like hell but every day I feel a microscopic amount better.
Doris Callerbatch - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 20:59:47 EST ID:+i2M5Q9V No.25655 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stick at it brother. If it gets unbearable buy a bag of weed and a throw away spoonpipe to help you feel better.
Ronnie Mund !!JOxBd8yX - Fri, 10 Oct 2014 22:50:39 EST ID:cXZgL7dA No.25658 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You can do it, man. I know how bad alcohol and benzo withdrawal are. Remember the kindling effect and all - each subsequent detox will be more difficult and more dangerous. Let those GABA receptors regulate themselves, and get the benefit of no longer putting neurotoxins in your system. Hell, cardiotoxic, hepatoxic, etc.. If you are not of the anti-psychiatry opinion and mindset, perhaps pursue a good psychiatrist, if you can find one. One who will take time in making diagnoses and not load you up with 5 meds on the first appointment. But, that's a different but related issue. If you have not ever explored Eastern philosophy, maybe check out some books and youtube recordings by Alan Watts (or rather, of his voice). You're probably pretty anhedonic, but it will get better over time, and within a few months you'll find that the cravings get less intense and come less often. I didn't think this was true until I got 2.5 months sober, a practical record in the past 4 years, man. Maybe go to AA meetings, but I understand if it's not your thing. The steps are not my cup of tea, but the social support and liberation can be helpful. Also therapist? And most importantly yourself. If you're interested in Alan Watts I recommend 'The Book'.
Nigel Brillylock - Sat, 11 Oct 2014 23:15:07 EST ID:XiT5xBzg No.25666 Ignore Report Quick Reply

thanks, it may seem like nothing but a few words of encouragement helps tremendously, even over the internet.
Molly Blatherham - Fri, 17 Oct 2014 16:19:51 EST ID:ex+nUvOA No.25712 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>Haven't smoked in over 2 weeks
>Have a drug test tomorrow
Time to go get some asprin and an at home drug test and see if i'm clean or not.
I've passed worse in less than a week without substituting, here goes nothing.
EvilParrot !0pPDXJbIc2 - Sun, 09 Nov 2014 02:32:39 EST ID:NKsArfI/ No.25861 Ignore Report Quick Reply

I've stopped pretty much everything. Most recently and most importantly it's been a week without tobacco/nicotine. Hopefully the urges stop soon. I'm doing it while i'm still young for the obvious health reasons. I feel a lot better and really didn't notice any mood effects.

2 months. I never had a real booze problem, just a social drinker really. I don't really care for it. I'm stopping for a while because I started my smoking habit while drunk.

Over 5 months. Looking for a better job.
Nigger Gapperludging - Wed, 12 Nov 2014 07:24:20 EST ID:ev0cXjgo No.25872 Ignore Report Quick Reply
First night without binge drinking to sleep. Now this is insomnia. It's like I'm on a little too much caffeine all the damn time. Not being hungover though feels great.

I guess it's the best I could ask for considering how bad alcohol withdrawal can get.
Ian Pitthood - Fri, 14 Nov 2014 17:59:29 EST ID:EluQjQpA No.25882 Ignore Report Quick Reply

was bored as fuck last night, started to drink a beer and ended up pouring it out. Seems like I just can't stomach it now, I nearly puked after a few sips.
Angus Pickford - Sat, 15 Nov 2014 02:06:45 EST ID:sA/SPxth No.25883 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Thats good! Keep going man, don't quit!
One thing I've found that helps me is drinking plain unsweetened hot tea. Helps me relax , there are a ton of flavors to try, and many can be beneficial for your body.
Lillian Gebberseck - Wed, 19 Nov 2014 21:32:23 EST ID:gVHqPnlu No.25917 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I fucked up and lost my job due to random drug testing today. I guess it serves as a lesson learned and the wake up call that I've needed. Deleted and blocked every dealer I know and letting go of all of my drug friends. I'm only 23 so I've got to do this while I'm still young.

Quitting: methamphetamine, dilaudid, LSD, xanax, klonopin, pot, alcohol, and nicotine.
Lydia Grandson - Mon, 24 Nov 2014 14:45:37 EST ID:prFkM6iD No.25928 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been sober since some time last week, probably thursday. I have a fucking huge block of high grade hash in my smoking box, but because of having sinusitis I don't want to risk aggravating that shit.
Archie Mullerdat - Tue, 25 Nov 2014 19:41:25 EST ID:UgjryMyl No.25943 Ignore Report Quick Reply

Don't do it, man. Don't do it.
Clara Gorringwadge - Wed, 26 Nov 2014 03:01:31 EST ID:NBK9gsDd No.25947 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I'm sober here. I'm making some chamomile tea, a lot of it. Hopefully that will give me at least some sort of buzz.
Jack Hoffingbury - Sun, 22 Mar 2015 02:29:49 EST ID:yaUr4cjV No.26554 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Angus Bopperlock - Sat, 18 Apr 2015 23:13:57 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.26671 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>6 days
>Trying to quit using
>Tricked myself into thinking that cycling drugs meant I couldn't get addicted
>Was doing loads of Adderall most recently
>Friend asked me to stop because I was getting noticibly "tweaky"
>Last time I did speed was April Fool's Day
>Relapsed with alcohol (my old main drug) on Sunday
>Can't stop thinking about boozing
>Feel completely emasculated and powerless
Fuck /detox/, when am I going to be normal again?
Sidney Fucklebury - Tue, 21 Apr 2015 12:47:01 EST ID:eVng+S/1 No.26684 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Drug abstinence and recovery have a big difference.

I agree with you, you aren't in recovery. It is also possible for a person to be enthusiastic about recovery and not get payed for it and stop relapsing, and I think that your absolute statements about that show some qualities of arrogance.

Sobriety is a part of recovery, but sobriety is not the recovery.
George Bardhall - Thu, 23 Apr 2015 11:45:57 EST ID:KTFISsse No.26686 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Haven't used marijuana, alcohol, or opiates (primarily kratom) in about 10 days.

I stopped with my girlfriend because she needs to pass a drug test for a job, and I'd feel like an asshole for getting fucked up while she's sober.

I have basically no appetite and have lost around 5lb so far.
Eugene Dartworth - Sat, 25 Apr 2015 10:45:15 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.26696 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Sober for 5 months to the day. Finally kicked a long opiate addiction. Plan on staying clean. I honestly never want to fucking touch opiates again. No cravings or anything, these days. Super happy about it.
Ebenezer Blushnen - Thu, 30 Apr 2015 11:31:21 EST ID:4RTLiJtK No.26722 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 1 of quitting amphetamines of different sorts. Feeling like a big pile of shit. BWS.
Thomas Cattingdut - Sat, 02 May 2015 10:07:36 EST ID:50RWNK8n No.26729 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26704 here.
Week 2. Bumping to keep things in perspective.
Shit Werringlot - Wed, 13 May 2015 04:36:57 EST ID:FMIKCDpN No.26806 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'll be honest. I have only stopped because I can't afford to continue. I don't have a job. I get an allowance from my mum every saturday of 100 dollars. Well, I kept asking for "advances" until I was getting the money out on thursdays. Run of the mill excess consumption and perpetuation of a habit. So It's wednesday now and I've sober since sunday. I'm gonna wait until at least friday before I ask for my money. Might as well use this time to lower my tolerance, seeing as my mum will become very concerned if I ask for the money today.

I am considering asking for 30 dollars today, and then really spreading out the gram of MJ I can buy with that, then I can cope way easier until saturday. Sweating is the fucking worst symptom of MJ WD's, at least for me.

Fuck my lack of self control. I am making all the wrong choices.
Frederick Harringmit - Thu, 14 May 2015 09:24:32 EST ID:50RWNK8n No.26807 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26753 here.

Back to week 2. Gonna make it to month 2 this time. I promise you, 420chan.
Sophie Brucklestock - Sat, 23 May 2015 23:54:56 EST ID:T/Zhsa4I No.26843 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Bws. Sober for 2 months now. Did rehab and went to a halfway house and holy shit it sucks. Seriously AA should have a disclamer saying "non chistians need not apply." I would not recomend this route to anyone unless they are devoute christians. All my house mates are born again douche bags who think god is the only way to get sober. The only thing keeping me sober is the drug tests and not wanting to get caught in the cycle of relapsedetox halfway.
Fucking Bublingbick - Thu, 28 May 2015 12:37:03 EST ID:aBNficzK No.26874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Not a usual drug abuser but:
>boy it'd be good to do something
>boy that was horrible I hate doing thing

I just need to not have drugs, probably the only safe choice
Matilda Worringstock - Fri, 29 May 2015 18:31:08 EST ID:ZoNVUJt2 No.26887 Ignore Report Quick Reply
So I'm not sober right now, but I'd like to ask some questions and I don't think this warrants a new thread.
So I'm trying to quit alcohol, I already managed to do so a few times, the longest time being 2 months. But I somehow manage to get addicted again which really fucks up my productivity and my life in general, even though I've been through like 3-4 heavy withdrawals which I somehow manage to get through on my own, which was hell. Even my friends start to notice that when I go out with them I always end up the most drunk (that's why I usually drink alone).
Can anyone give me any advice on how to stay sober/not fall into an alcoholic pattern again? Or should I go see a doctor?
I also finally got my hands on some LSD which arrives next week, which I only got because of some studies that it can help alcoholics get away from alcohol.
This shit really sucks, mostly because I have the motivation to quit everytime I'm drunk, but then I wake up the next morning and the same routine repeats again and again and again, I just feel pathetic.
Pls halp
Beatrice Sobbledock - Sat, 30 May 2015 23:44:28 EST ID:depj/hZK No.26891 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I wish someone would prune those threads.
Fanny Hivingded - Sun, 31 May 2015 00:49:57 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.26892 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Samefag here, sober for a little past 6 months now. Feelin' great about it.
Scarface !VPhztxXZH. - Thu, 04 Jun 2015 12:46:58 EST ID:yvXL4P1F No.26901 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Not much money left (spent everything on drugs), tolerance for DXM is way too high, ran out of MXE and still waiting for an assortment of drugs to arrive. Fuck how long does it take for a package to get through customs? It's been there for days ughhh. I fear I might be looking at a dissociative free weekend (on the upside there will be alcohol).

I'm sweating like crazy, everything is boring, fucking videogames stop being fun. How do sober people do it?
William Davingwill - Fri, 05 Jun 2015 19:03:52 EST ID:V6RMCLle No.26908 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You're setting yourself up for a really bad time if you don't take a long tolerance break from dissociatives soon. I'm currently on one (3 months in, previously was doing 3-meo-pcp about every other day for a year or so) and it sucks, but it gets a little easier as it goes on. Dissociative tolerance makes drinking less fun as well. You sound like you have a higher tolerance than I did and like you are used to getting dissed more often, and you are already paying for that with the chemical imbalance you are likely experiencing. Anyway, feel free to ignore me but I would start a break next time you are running out instead of ordering more. You can only keep increasing the doses so long before it gets too expensive and takes its toll on your body, and the longer you wait for your break, the worse it will feel to stop.
Velveteen !8NBuQ4l6uQ - Sat, 06 Jun 2015 00:07:23 EST ID:TYgBfuGZ No.26910 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Fuck Munderpud - Sun, 07 Jun 2015 03:44:41 EST ID:xMO+OVal No.26911 Ignore Report Quick Reply
After trying weed, alcohol, and deleriants for two or so months, I decided to appreciate life in vanilla mode.
Martin Cemmerstene - Fri, 19 Jun 2015 02:59:07 EST ID:5CWqvYWj No.26986 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26807 here
Barely made it to month 2, but fuck it. Sobriety is not really helping me.

I think the problem is that I did a bunch of drugs when my brain was developing, so now my brain needs these drugs to function. It is an unfortunate reality, but I'm not going to live my life as a shell of my drug-fueled self.

darknet here I come
cursive !M6R0eWkIpk - Sat, 20 Jun 2015 07:25:10 EST ID:hE520zai No.26990 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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>>26951 dawwwww i cant say no to pechitas like that, link has been applicable i just didnt know how to cross link

oh nooooo bump, worth it. the adventure which lead to the spoils i smoke was worth it. goin in the book im sposed to write once i learn how to read.
rammy - Mon, 06 Jul 2015 18:52:28 EST ID:+bkditCy No.27070 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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been off opiates for about 7-8 months now. still have the urge to use, i don't think that's going away. i feel like once you've used something intravenously you're pretty much fucked, craving it forever, but that could just be me.

been smoking weed pretty much everyday since i got out of rehab 8 months ago, but i decided to take a break after i ran out a few days ago. i scraped up what i could out of my bong yesterday but it wasn't enough to get me high, so i dunno if you wanna call today my first or second day clean. i've noticed my opiate cravings getting way worse in just those couple days i've been off weed though. really hoping i can get through a few weeks sober, i miss having fun smoking instead of it being something i have to do constantly.

tl;dr: weed dulled my opiate cravings and now that i'm not smoking i'm feeling them worse than ever
Rebecca Penderdock - Mon, 06 Jul 2015 21:32:06 EST ID:fiJki4mn No.27071 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Keep on it buddy. Good work!
William Miffingtun - Tue, 07 Jul 2015 07:22:46 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.27073 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You're going through the PAWS - post acute withdrawal syndrome. It's hard to say how long you'll have cravings for. Maybe a week, maybe a month, maybe a year, etc.

I'm the guy that posted just before you. We've been sober for about just as long. I had the same issue with weed. I never used opiates intravenously, but I was having really bad cravings like 4 months into sobriety and I turned to weed. At first it was great, until I ran out of it and the cravings were absolutely worse. The problem with turning to weed (or any other drug) is that you're just trading out your old addiction for a new one, since you'll likely be using it with the same frequency and for the same reasons.

My advice is to stay away from drugs for a while. It sounds a lot simpler than it is, but this is honestly what you need. You've already gone through acute withdrawal, so you've been through the worst of it. You just have to remind yourself of that. If you can get through withdrawals as bad as opiates, you can do pretty much anything.

I still have cravings myself, but they used to be a lot worse than they are now. Honestly I don't think I'll ever be completely free of having them. But it's totally manageable now. I can get through the month without having to resort to using anything, and all I really have to contend with is a thought that enters the back of my mind only occasionally and briefly. That's generally where you want to get yourself. Once you're in a place where you're comfortable with how you can quell your cravings without drugs, then I'd say it's OK to get back to smoking. It really just depends though. Definitely don't use it as a crutch. It's a bad idea all around.
Alice Brookville - Mon, 13 Jul 2015 12:59:37 EST ID:Xo14ZENM No.27109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
4 days sober from years of polydrugging to mask my anxiety/depression. Been self medicating with everything under the sun and tried the ssri's which did nothing but give me severe dereslisation and extreme mental fog. I don't want to run from myself anymore and have a long road to travel down but I guess being born anxious/depressed is being born anxious/depressed and I'm going to spend the rest of my life dedicated to developing non-drug strategies to cope with it. Drugs just haven't turned out to be the answer and I wasted most of my youth/ early adulthood figuring that out! I feel so brain dead but I'm happy I've finally seen the light, I just got to remember not to take any easy exits and I have a feeling I'll be normalish one day :)
Eliza Nippertatch - Mon, 13 Jul 2015 16:51:41 EST ID:tFnYyDYi No.27110 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Good luck!
Nigel Sezzleworth - Fri, 24 Jul 2015 01:17:03 EST ID:JPRqntv/ No.27156 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been off weed for about a month and a half cause I'm looking for a job. I may get hired soon fortunately.

I appreciate my friend Tussin keeping me company in these dark time's though. When i allow him to, that is. I make sure his visits are infrequent as possible so he doesn't become boring.

But he visited recently so I'm just going to be straight up sober for quite awhile, or until I'm employed.
Edward Fitzgeraldine - Wed, 05 Aug 2015 08:21:57 EST ID:b67YMKx1 No.27203 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Just decided I'm too impulsive for all this shit, had a real good couple weeks (Been visiting family + friends in my hometown and after 8 months of sobriety (besides weekend drinking) I've leapt straight back into it all, Mandy, Coke, Acid, so much weed, it's been a heavy couple weeks so I've decided to call it all quits, go back to the sober life and try n kick my porn habit whilst I'm at it. Wish me luck guys BWS
Angus Mirringhood - Fri, 14 Aug 2015 09:43:36 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27240 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i've quit a couple of times.. most times didn't last long.
i'm on 1st day now and pain is pretty bad. i got constant yawning coming on now and going to go have a bath..

i got beers i'm drinking atm but i can't down them quick. so long since i've drunk beer. i went through alcoholic stage once when i quit once and ever since then i've never drunk beer. doesn't have same goodness to it, probably because i haven't drunk enough days in a row yet.

but best time i quit i just distracted myself over the pain.... but once i got bored again i just started taking opiates again.. being jobless i do nothing all day, i only ever quit for a job application (and if i got the job as well, but haven't yet) most of these times...
Thomas Fanridge - Sun, 16 Aug 2015 10:34:34 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27246 Ignore Report Quick Reply
day three (well close to four i think, i woke up in afternoon, cant remember) now and pain is really bad.. i thought it would flare up and get worse on 3-5th days, was hoping it wouldn't though.
taking phenibut at night to get to sleep, it's a saviour in how much it helps with the pain. like last night i took some fell asleep, woke up and actually felt normal.

the pain what i'd describe without opiates is like... i can't desribe the feeling, but it's like on opiates/phenibut i have a 'blanket' feeling. like wherever the pain is, it feels like i have more 'volume' or something there like a blanket and that feeling is when i have no pain. without it, it's like that blanket is gone and the pain is really bad.. like i can't do anything without pain. only time is if i have shower, the heat disguises it, but i can still feel how bad it hurts.

anyways, like i said besides that i haven't got anything really bad. stomach ache is gone, just have no appetite but i ate something and feel better hunger wise. just had no energy to cook or even go to shops to buy something.
Barnaby Blishhood - Mon, 17 Aug 2015 08:23:43 EST ID:uQS2XJZF No.27254 Ignore Report Quick Reply
actually after waking up pain just came back. just as bad... i feel like i can't sit or lie down without pain. which happened last time i quit. fucking sucks. drinking beer to try cut pain but it's doing nothing. i didn't wake up in time to go to pharmacy so i'll havfe to go tomorrow
Dr. Mario - Wed, 02 Sep 2015 11:39:20 EST ID:V4GJ3blT No.27316 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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When I had a pill connect during my last two years of college (mostly hydrocodone and oxycodone, but sometimes adderall/ritalin/focalin and benzos) I was really good about sticking to a chipping schedule/general rules of thumb. Now the weird part was I was probably more an a polydrug "addict" back then than I am now (3 years later), but I'm slipping up these days.

The pills were fun, shorter acting, and more expensive than poppy pod tea, and ESPECIALLY poppy seed tea. Spacing out doses to as little as every 5 days seemed to keep tolerance particularly low (especially with 30mg dxm).

But now that I'm out of college and I don't smoke weed everyday or do psychedelics, I've been hitting the poppy seed tea pretty hard. I preach about responsible chipping use on the /opi/ board, but I haven't been sticking with my own mantra this last month. I haven't been using "every day" but looking at my amazon history I've spent over $80 on seeds alone this month.

When I first started just 4oz of top-quality seeds would get me "high". I could take more but that was enough. As the weeks dragged on (new city, new graduate school/part time job, all my old friends gone, etc.) I began using more and more, sometimes two days in a row. tl;dr here I am now where I spent $28 on 5 pounds of decent seeds and I used them up in about 4 days.

This has got to stop, as the euphoria has lessened significantly. I can't drink alcohol or use kava because I have a fucked liver (hepatitis A from India), and I don't want to vape weed more than once a week because I'm trying to make this measly 14g of blue dream last me a year (so far so good, been 4 months and only used about 5g of it).

>Killed the seeds on a Friday night
>none of Saturday, wedding party, got smashed (rare treat)
>feeling sweaty/shitty on Sunday night, rinse the poppy bag for resin to "get well"
It's now Tuesday, nasty shits and mentally fucked but decent enough to function, go to grad classes and work.

>The big thing is not ordering them for a while. I DO want to use them, but responsibly. For now that frankly means none for at least two-three weeks.
>Still feel bad about using 0.5mg etizolam/night to sleep most nights, but that won't be hard to solve.

Sorry for the ramble, but if there's any board that can handle it it's /detox/. Just battle whatever your addiction is day by day, it's the small victories that matter. Just don't waste those victories by going back to your old ways. Any reduction is a step in the right direction.

Good luck.
Eugene Blondletad - Thu, 03 Sep 2015 03:11:40 EST ID:/I75oB6T No.27321 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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So... My DOC is Poppy seed tea. Over the course of a month, I've gotten high 3 times. At the beginning of August I quit for a week. Then used, then went through withdrawal again. Then 8 days of sobriety, then used and went through withdrawal again. Then 8 days later used again and went through withdrawal yet again. Now here I am at 8 days of sobriety again and I want to use but I just keep telling myself that I could have had 30 consecutive days sober instead of 8. I noticed that the last time I got high my wd's werent as bad, but... still not fun. I keep trying to justify using to myself by telling myself that since the last set of withdrawals weren't as bad then if I use now then they will be even less instense. God... This sucks.
Augustus Trotspear - Thu, 03 Sep 2015 07:15:12 EST ID:kRahV1aw No.27323 Ignore Report Quick Reply
unexpected blood test tomorrow. I'm fucked.
Isabella Bibblefone - Fri, 11 Sep 2015 23:07:41 EST ID:LNw/AMtE No.27347 Ignore Report Quick Reply
25 years old, and been "fucking around" with various things for the last decade. Despite being able to live on my own, work and all that, I've decided that I want to enter my 30s and beyond sober. I don't want to grow up into a man with "addiction problems". I think I'm even going to ghost on my current friends, move to another area, or city. Just to feel like I could start fresh.

I guess it just doesn't feel right anymore, i can't enjoy myself when i'm under the influence. I feel like I can't even smoke pot anymore just cause of that reason, even though I have like 2 gs and all the supplies I would need.

2nd day no weed, roughly 3 weeks no cigs, and 2 weeks no alcohol. Chems I've only had problems in my late teens, and most recently last touched during the summer solstice. Wishing the best for anyone trying to get off that shit, regardless what it is, its all rough.

I guess that a better world for us, starts with better choices for ourselves
Phyllis Hubberwater - Tue, 15 Sep 2015 09:13:18 EST ID:q4kgBs/J No.27357 Ignore Report Quick Reply
i'm >>27272 here... got denied for job application that was reason i quit. which i thought would happen, sucks but ah well. i knew there was only a really small chance i'd actually get that job. god damn though that fucking withdrawal pain was horrible. the pain only started to go down at 2 week mark. for those 2 weeks, it was full unbearable back pain. it didn't relent at all in that time. after around 2 weeks it started to fade and by 3 weeks i felt normal, though i still had that pain from waking up etc., which is due to me sitting down all day doing nothing (for reasons in post)
i'm used to it after 2+ years of going through the same process of thinking 'maybe i'll get a job and not be stuck at home doing nothing all day', which is big part of why i took opiates just to not be bored all day and not be sick of not having a job/not having money etc....
though i still haven't taken opiates again, though i've had the urge... at this point though, with this last job which is one of ways to actually get a decent job where i am, in a small town where no place will hire me (even though i know i'm more competent then these people they hire, a couple of 'entry level' job places which only seem to hire if you're female and/or young, because thats 90% of the people working there).
after this job application got denied though i feel like going and buying opiates again. but at the same time know how horrible it will be, and know how opiates left me with no motivation at all to do anything but buy opiates and lie down in that opiate haze all day.

i've pretty much replaced opiates with alcohol/caffeine like i thought i probably would. though sitting around doing nothing all day for months, i'd go crazy without something to ease the boredom. alcohol is more expensive then opiates, but opiates i feel physically worse from because once you get a habit you hit withdrawals as soon as you wake, unlike alcohol which i only drink in afternoon.

/rant over though.. just annoyed about stuff. i'm probably (well most likely) going to take opiates again now anyways. but i guess i quit opiates for a while, even though i just starting drinking alcohol every other day instead.
Priscilla Turveydock - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 09:13:45 EST ID:pwVuWmK0 No.27386 Ignore Report Quick Reply
was. on. the. same. thing. but i. went. down. to. 4mg. from. the. 16mg. . . day. 7. no. sub. and. fuck. things. are. coming. around. gf. has. been. understanding. and. has. been. putting. . up. with. w/d's.
Priscilla Turveydock - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 17:02:36 EST ID:pwVuWmK0 No.27393 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>>27391y. urn.
i. was. ready. to. quit. and. decided. if. i'm. getting. fucked. over. i. speak. my. mind. enjoy. your. addiction. because. honestly. today. i. felt. like. a. real. person. you're. not. ready. to. quit. being. a. junkie. 32mg. wow. i. feel. for. you. have. a. long. road. ahead. of. you. .

Alice Necklefore - Sun, 27 Sep 2015 22:58:06 EST ID:Hiqen32C No.27394 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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I think you missed the dual meaning.
You did miss where I'm down to well below the 16mg/day I'm prescribed, closer to 4-6mg, and I'm saving up. I enjoy what a daily dose of opi, being involved in a 12 step program and therapy from the sub doc, and generally bettering my life. I believe that the way I live, and feeling I get from at least trying live right is what sobriety is about. Living sober is a lot harder for us junkies than simply having our bodies being clean of drugs.
Why. do. you. put. periods. between. each. word.?.
Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Sun, 24 Apr 2016 03:59:34 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28062 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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THC mimics the thrid most common reward molecule. Anandamide. It's no wonder you got it like that!

You're on your way. You'll get high naturally if need be.

No excuses gives no problems. Continue on your path and and you will be free.

Wesley Bupperhood - Sun, 01 May 2016 01:39:49 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28091 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Kicked my opiate addiction about a year and 5 months ago. Keep at it, boys.
Emma Sucklehodge - Sun, 01 May 2016 03:39:49 EST ID:wvqmQvrE No.28092 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Nearly a month. Aside from the obvious I've had some bad experiences partying. It doesn't feel as safe anymore and I've gotten from it all I'm going to get. I was moderating drinking for a long time. But when I got sick after drinking and smoking I decided being healthy is better I don't need tar in my lungs and corrosive alcohol in my system. Feeling cleaner and becoming more responsive to psychic impressions and the will of the Force.
asuka - Sun, 01 May 2016 14:27:30 EST ID:UMi5JxcL No.28093 Ignore Report Quick Reply
got found out a few weeks ago so I've been more or less confined to the house except for trying to get a job, and i'm prescribed clonazepam 1mg twice a day but those ran out yesterday so I'm good and sober. this fuckin' sucks.
Dindu Nutthinwrongus - Mon, 02 May 2016 06:04:55 EST ID:uX0SegiZ No.28097 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I hope you want to get clean. No fun allowed!
Sidney Canderstetch - Mon, 02 May 2016 19:28:29 EST ID:eqg4aZTb No.28098 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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i think i realized that next day dph retardation was the reason my last two jobs failed (i mean I am the reason, but you know what I mean)
so now its just the caffeine and ephedrine habit that ive left unchecked for the past two weeks.

i havent found the will to throw away my ephedrine because i feel like it can be a valuable asset. i f i could only exert some self control...
Jenny Crisslewill - Tue, 03 May 2016 02:05:11 EST ID:0R3mL45S No.28102 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I ODed on heroin about 20 hours ago. Luckily, my gf woke up and found me in time to call an ambulance. Somehow the cops did not notice the bag of heroin sitting next to me and it was there when I got home. It is in the trash now though and I am sober and am going to stay that way for some amount of time
Barnaby Dollyridge - Tue, 03 May 2016 04:47:26 EST ID:/y6OS60r No.28103 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I'm not currently sober, but I'm thinking about taking a break. I'm on heroin right now and have been high 24/7 for like a week, and I realize I can sustain this for too long, mentally or financially.

I'm hoping I can try to taper some with a few points which I set aside for this specific purpose. I'm going to stop taking my scheduled gabapentin and PRN hydroxyzine until I actually get off it so I have a bit extra on hand. I think I'll also take myself down from .2 milligrams of clonidine nightly to .15 so that I can take .25 during the worst of it without fucking up my dosage schedules too badly. I'd smoke weed if I had any, but I don't.

Anyone got any advice for someone who's never been dopesick? I've gone through severe benzo withdrawals, but never opioids in any real way.
asuka - Tue, 03 May 2016 10:37:35 EST ID:UMi5JxcL No.28109 Ignore Report Quick Reply
tbh skipping doses of meds right as you're gonna be getting dopesick sounds like it may not be the best idea, but you know you best so it's your call lmao. and i think it was me not being clear but I was saying that your plan to taper your use sounds good, and should at least help you not get AS dopesick

teal;deer - you got this, you'll be alright even though you went pretty hard, it won't be fun but you'll be fine since you've gone through what most people seem to think is something much worse.
Walter Dallergold - Tue, 10 May 2016 09:16:19 EST ID:/DFw9rn3 No.28143 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 6 of no Heroin. Definitely almost through the acute withdrawals. I'm pretty excited at the prospect of having left over money to you know spend on things other than dope.
Fucking Werringshit - Tue, 10 May 2016 11:07:18 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28144 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Please stick with it. After the acute withdrawals you're still gonna be left feeling tired and not 100% there mentally or physically, at least for a few months, but you're almost past the hardest part. It gets so much easier from here on out.
Graham Tootville - Tue, 17 May 2016 06:11:51 EST ID:3sN8/9tZ No.28167 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Kill me
Jarvis Pugglepot - Tue, 17 May 2016 17:27:14 EST ID:rTRMcI9r No.28168 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Day 15 of a month long, LSD induced, cannabis break. Thus far I have resisted the urge to smoke at; a pro cannabis legalization march (despite being offered countless spliffs I managed to fight the temptation), a house party and while chilling daily with my erry day smoking gf.

Now today I have come down with a cold and I'm struggling hard to resist the urge to harvest my MFLB stem oil to alleviate the symptoms.

Clara Brungerhutch - Tue, 31 May 2016 16:58:56 EST ID:2X6hQIp2 No.28224 Ignore Report Quick Reply
2 months sober. Im trying to go 3 to get all THC out my system see how it feels. but today I had a day off work and could rly do with some hash..I dont want to give in. This feeling at the 2 month mark has been the worst, like I wanna go out and get wrecked. I dont wanna give in to the weakness. I need encouragement RAAAAAGGHH
Fuck Smallridge - Thu, 02 Jun 2016 04:04:57 EST ID:IRfQrC40 No.28233 Ignore Report Quick Reply
That's it. You can channel the energy into other things and get productive.
Oliver Dronkingold - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 00:40:00 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28238 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>but overall I've become pretty satisfied with my non-use and I am starting to get into the flow of my job and find other things to fill my time, It's really nice to experience life this way for a change, without a constant compulsion to "reset" to a familiar, dumbed down state of mind.

Congratulations. You're one of the ones on the right track. It seems you're well beyond realizing that you can't quit unless you really want to, which is hands down the most important thing to realize when trying to get clean.

Although you should probably stop "rewarding" yourself a few times a month. That attitude really is a fast track to backward progress. Though I'm not trying to tell you what to do. I mean, if you can handle it fine, then you can handle it fine. But from experience, when I was trying to get clean, especially within that first year, rewarding myself with getting fucked up on some different drug than the one I was initially trying to quit was just bad news and felt like it slowed my progress immensely. At some point it became really clear to me that I just needed to stay away from it all if I really wanted shit to improve.

Congratulations on coming this far with this though. I wish you the best.
Walter Fuckingbury - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 10:31:33 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28239 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I totally agree with being cautious with what you choose to reward yourself with, just based off of my own personality.

I tried once to reward myself with weed, which obviously went terribly - I had a bad time and I still wanted to smoke the next day. So I stopped doing that.

Even if I have a 3 day weekend and I spend it all playing video games, come the next work day I'm bitter about work and would rather spend all day inside playing games.

On a "heavy" month I probably amount to 10 beers in 1 month, so I'm not really getting fucked up, but you're partly right, it isn't necessarily a productive attitude. There are still many things I need / want to work on in my life. I'm starting to really resent my nicotine usage (I felt like I needed to continue using it as a crutch while quitting everything else, and I think it helped) which is now just costing me money I'm dreaming of spending elsewhere.
Jack Bonkinpidge - Sun, 05 Jun 2016 12:05:40 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28240 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Went on an opi binge Thursday and Friday night. Binged on oxys for 2 days and all in all did 200mg worth of it. I have been taking my maintenance methadone. Just 10mg. So far so good. Before this binge I was only taking my methadone for months straight, after leaving my clinic back in November. I plan on never doing this again. I also smoke weed and intend to quit that too. I would like to spend my money on more important things that actually matter.

Over the past 4 months I have been meditating everyday and reading self help books. It has helped me a lot. I have learned a lot about myself. The person I am now compared to who I was back then, is incomparable. Yes, I have admitted my flaws. But, I still have come a far way in the past few months mentally, physically, and spirituality.
Cyril Finkinspear - Mon, 06 Jun 2016 12:02:40 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28242 Ignore Report Quick Reply
It's been 3 days since my previous opi binge. So far so good. I think I won't have a problem with detoxing. Going to buy some subs so I can come off my maintenance dose and finally be free of this shit
Augustus Crogglefuck - Mon, 06 Jun 2016 17:23:51 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28244 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You can do this. Something which was said to me that I found helpful, is that if you stick with getting clean, you will only have to feel the lows, frustration and depression of addiction once and never again.

There will be bad days, but you'll never have to feel this bad again.
William Follershit - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 18:07:16 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28252 Ignore Report Quick Reply
You can do it bro. It's just takes sheer willpower to stay away from the drugs. Fill your time with occupational things such as work, school and any hobbies you have. Or just walk outside and go out for a run. Those running highs are awesome.

Day 4 of sobriety. Everything is good and I'm starting to appreciate all the small things in my life that I didn't care about before. I'm spending time outside and spending my time with my grandmother. I'm glad I can make her happy and smile. Also, the meditation is going good. I just have to practice to be able to go longer. I can go for 6 minutes at a time. I'm more confident in myself as I just don't care about what some people might think of me. Fuck them because they don't matter. Anyway, I'm just overall becoming a better person with each passing day. I'm still smoking weed. But, I'm able to make my stash last longer since I'm doing things to occupy my time. Feels good to take control of your life and do what you want to do with yourself and always stay on the right path.
Lillian Snodville - Tue, 07 Jun 2016 20:41:33 EST ID:V/v3o9pK No.28253 Ignore Report Quick Reply
what's funny about a lot of people is they'll actively discourage you from getting clean, and even think less of you if you do it. There is definitely a time and place to listen to advice, but most of the time you know what's best for you and your own life.

When I was quitting, I was harassed by my former roommate for almost a month, who said some really mean shit to me, the strangest being "have fun being a drug addict for your entire life". Like, dude, I am trying to quit, not only can you not wish me luck, but you're going to project a lifetime of drug use on me? Why? Wishful thinking I don't accomplish my goals?

Idk point is people are weird as hell. Now that I'm 6 months clean and building better relationships with people who don't use drugs, I'm starting to fall more in line with people who understand and sympathize with my personal goals. Like I tell a drinking buddy about how I'm beginning to put money aside in stocks and bonds, and his response is that I'd be better off gambling my money away, essentially ridiculing the idea while knowing nothing about it. But a colleague who actually has his shit together is willing to give me advice on smart investments. Since he understands my desire to save and invest for my future.

Albeit my colleague is older, and younger like-minded people are far and few between, my point is that the longer you immerse yourself in a particular mindset, the more people you'll meet who actively try and enforce that mindset. Whether it be fellow drug friends, or straight-and-narrow types.
Augustus Nicklespear - Thu, 09 Jun 2016 09:50:21 EST ID:9J+j8fcp No.28257 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 6. I'm really starting to have love for myself and happiness and the utmost confidence that I've never had. Meditation and weed is all I need. But, the feeling I have come over me after meditating is the best feeling in the world. It's better than whatever feelings you get from doing drugs. Better than any other high you can buy. I'm high on life and everything just keeps getting better and better as the days go on. I am truly proud of myself along with my family. They've said they have seen a huge change in me. I'm happy about that too. I use to not care about myself or my life and the fucked up path I was going down. Never cared where I was going to be the future. But, now I am taking control and charge over my life. I will become the person who I'm destined to be. I'm looking forward to seeing how much farther I can go. Fuck yeah!!!
Sidney Duckridge - Fri, 10 Jun 2016 08:26:05 EST ID:9JVdopoE No.28259 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 7. Feeling good like yesterday. Not much to say. But, I feel like me and my grandmother are growing closer like when I was a little kid. I finally see some happiness within her after losing her husband and her oldest son within the past 3 years. Her other son has cancer right now and is going through chemotherapy. I can't stand to see her lose another person that is so close and dear to her heart. I will do everything in my power to make her happy and content. She's been through so much. I will be by her side until her day comes.
Caroline Buzzman - Sun, 12 Jun 2016 10:34:32 EST ID:9JVdopoE No.28265 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 9. Started on suboxone today and I'm feeling great about it. Finally will break free from addiction and will never touch a single pill ever again. I decided against giving up weed. Didn't have it for a couple days and my back pain was horrible without it. I use weed as a natural painkiller and it works just fine. Can't wait to see what lies ahead in the coming days and weeks for me. I know I can do anything as long as I put my mind to it. I've been soul searching 5 months before I started posting here. Tons of meditation and thinking and reflection I had to do to truly realize that I'm a human being just like everyone else and nothing is impossible for me. I will live up to my true potential in every aspect of my life. My goal is to be a better person than who I was yesterday. I will prove all the haters and naysayers wrong who don't think I can do something because it might be "hard" for someone to handle. Well fuck that. I got this shit!!
Matilda Fuffingwidge - Fri, 17 Jun 2016 18:59:18 EST ID:NC/pDYAV No.28274 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 14. So, today makes two weeks since I was on that two day opi binge. Tomorrow will make it a week since I started on suboxone. I can truly say that I'm proud of myself for finally wanting to get off this garbage. I'm doing great with my progress in terms of growing as a person, becoming the strongest version of myself. I went on today to meditating up to 7.5 minutes. The feeling that came over me felt amazing. As the days go by I discover new things about myself. I had some mental cravings for opiates today. But, stuck to my guns and smoked weed so the cravings would go away. I'm gaining willpower and resistance.
Phineas Huvingwater - Tue, 21 Jun 2016 09:04:17 EST ID:WLgYT5IJ No.28285 Ignore Report Quick Reply
reason: my organs are hurting and I have to be able to drink at an upcoming festival
progress: first day done, just have to resist 8 more days
Wesley Sossleston - Wed, 22 Jun 2016 14:06:40 EST ID:ZS7zuThq No.28290 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 19. Having a real shitty day. No withdrawals or anything like that. Just been in a bad mood because my mom is being a bitch. Going to go meditate so I can calm down and clear my mind. Despite what I have done with myself over the past 5 months which has made me a changed person, I've been dealing with some bad situations. This shit that has been going on around here has me stressed and today I just snapped. Sometimes I feel like I'm being held back by my family. Like they say, friends and family can destroy you. Fuck if I'm going to let that happen to me or someone putting me on a guilt trip for that matter. I'm too confident in myself now to not let someone bring me down. I don't care if you're my mother or my family. I won't let them take me down with them. Anyway, going to go meditate now. I know not everyday will be great because of everything I'm having to deal with at the moment. Always going to have good and bad days and I understand that. One more thing; I'm ready to go out into the world on my own and make a life for myself. Whether my family wants to support me or not in what I want to do, I'm going to go for it anyway. You have to always lookout for #1. I realize that now. No matter what happens I will always believe in myself when other people don't. When someone tells me I can't do something, I'm going to prove them wrong. I'll have the last laugh.
Martha Panderham - Fri, 24 Jun 2016 10:34:20 EST ID:pNDXcgbt No.28295 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 21. Been three weeks since I decided to get clean. The progress I've made with my sobriety is something I never thought I could handle or accomplish. I'm truly proud of myself, the person who I'm destined to become. Nothing will ever stop me from achieving my goals in life, no matter how much I get ridicule from others. I have 4 days worth of subs. After next Monday I'll be done with them. I'll be totally clean and will finally be able to live freely without any chains holding you down.
Ernest Handlewell - Mon, 27 Jun 2016 18:16:22 EST ID:twhqKFYN No.28307 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 24. No longer on suboxone. Today is my first day without and I'm fine, Besides the rls. Can't believe it. I actually did it and got clean. Damn this is such an awesome feeling of accomplishment that I haven't felt in a very long time. To those who can't get clean, just look at me. If I can do it you can do it. Believe in yourself, never quit and never give up.
Hedda Surrydock - Mon, 27 Jun 2016 20:59:32 EST ID:eqg4aZTb No.28308 Ignore Report Quick Reply

bump while sober. 26 birthday. trying to stay away from dph. was thinking about going to some meetings but I feel like an outsider and hate them. i get a paycheck this week. ive been thinking about all the rcs I want. fuck.
Emma Lightdock - Thu, 07 Jul 2016 11:26:49 EST ID:kDR0+Ubd No.28338 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 34. I talked to my doctor about raising the dose for one of my meds so I can get off the risperdal. He agreed to let me do it. I really want to try getting off this trash. It's physically affecting me with my Gyno problem. I hope this goes better than last time. Just wishing I will be able to do it.
Molly Clayfoot - Sun, 10 Jul 2016 06:24:55 EST ID:PljZOQ5x No.28342 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Now I've been sober for 7 days and I just started realizing that I haven't had a sober week for a long time.
I will probably try out to go even further, but I don't know.
Feels ok so far.
Barnaby Clayman - Fri, 22 Jul 2016 08:38:23 EST ID:KvQ6BgoE No.28371 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've been having a hard time with life lately. I relapsed and did it again today. I just want to start a new life for myself and I can't do it here in Baltimore. Their are no opportunities here to be had. I've bee living here for three years and everything gets worse by the day. I know I shouldn't be regressing. I'm fucking up. To see you actually read my posts and do truly care about someone's well being that you don't even know makes me happy. I need some support from you guys to keep me sober and straight. You guys can hold me accountable when I fuck up. I know now I have to start over again. But, I'm not physically addicted yet. It needs to stop here and now. Tomorrow I am starting over with being and keeping sober. I still will smoke weed and that's the extent of it. Please help me out guys. I don't want to see myself stuck in a hole like I was for so long.
Esther Wenkinwet - Tue, 26 Jul 2016 16:15:31 EST ID:P5nDMG6i No.28379 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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2 or 3 days now without a drink. Hard to tell because time blurs together so much.
Managed so far to avoid stealing any change or whatnot from my parents to fund a cheap 6 pack. I won't even try to guess what I've taken from them over the last few months (year?) a few bucks at a time. I hate myself for it of course but that just makes me want to drink even more.
I don't know how long I'll make it before the hundredth round of relapse and withdrawal again but I'm aiming until at least after my dr. appt. on Thu. Funnily enough I'd probably make it just fine with a couple weeks of klonopin or the like, but neither of us wanted to risk trading a liquor for a benzo addiction.
The extra fun thing you may already know about withdrawal is that every time it's a bit worse thanks to an effect called kindling (Look it up on wikipedia.). I'm hoping to get a script for a newish drug called acamprosate because it helped greatly in the past with the actual urge to drink but my last dr. only gave me 1 month when the recommendation is 3-12 months on it. It seemed to undo my tolerance too after taking it a few weeks so I'd recommend it for anyone in a similar situation. It didn't even have the slightest side effects for me but you do have to take 6 pills a day and your pharmacy will likely have to special order some. Don't let your doc stick you with disulfuram which only makes you sick as fuck when you drink or naltrexone which doesn't undo the changes in your brain from addiction. (Such as removing tolerance.)
I wish I could go back to the days when I could afford weed. When I was vaping every day I never once felt the urge for anything more than maybe a couple beers on the weekend. Even when I was a dumbass in high school I never once went through a half of vodka in barely over a day. At least it's been months since I've been drinking to that extent but even halfway reasonable amounts give me some degree of withdrawal thanks to that effect I mentioned above.
I don't even know where I was going with this. I just hate my life and need something to do. Maybe I'll save up for the new WoW expansion and try to fall back into the good old MMO addiction.
Clara Cledgechodge - Wed, 27 Jul 2016 23:00:58 EST ID:DyGNpTWz No.28385 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Nothing ever feels like your first time again.
Rebecca Dacklestick - Fri, 12 Aug 2016 18:07:38 EST ID:Pbyc4zJq No.28451 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>How Long It's Been
6 months, 9 days

Started stealing pills and getting myself kicked out of the house for doing so. Moved on to Oxy's at 16, then cocaine held me hostage for years afterwards. Lot of emotional withdrawals and started self-harming before attempting suicide, emotionally abusing my ex. Went to rehab, didn't do anything besides chase women there. Relapsed on crystal meth, got clean in February.

Feels good man.
Charles Dunnernut - Sat, 13 Aug 2016 09:41:26 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28456 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Stick to it. You got this. And you should know that it only gets easier from here on out.
Scarface !z9YmqqBmek - Mon, 29 Aug 2016 04:39:26 EST ID:1rD9ef4L No.28497 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Who else here rehab?
Albert Tillinglock - Thu, 01 Sep 2016 04:01:59 EST ID:LuxnZNU/ No.28506 Ignore Report Quick Reply
As someone that did escape an opiate addiction, gotta say, sober life is good life. Feelin good, boys. And good luck to you, dude.
Therapist (intern tbh) - Fri, 02 Sep 2016 05:56:53 EST ID:0Bm5AboG No.28507 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Day 3 of withdrawals since they announced kratom would be a schedule 1 substance in the usa and i ceased use immediately

i don't smoke pot or do anything else so theres nothing really to relieve the symptoms

going in with my boss to talk with a new client, but can't sleep due to opiate withdrawal symptoms
Hedda Clayham - Sat, 03 Sep 2016 22:39:30 EST ID:Dswgp8IR No.28511 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Basically I got a DUI and I turned 26 at the same time. Turning 26 means no more dad insurance, so it was my last chance to get good treatment before I aged out of my good insurance. Rehab really opened my eyes to a lot of things I was always too scared to think about, as I've never tried to sort out my anxiety with anything other than drugs.

ANYWAYS, I was on suboxone for ~5 years and xanax on and off for 2 years and then everyday for 2 years. I'm ~3 months in off a cold turkey 6-8mg/2yrs xanax, and 16mg suboxone daily habit. Yes, I still feel like shit almost three months later.

I can't shake the feeling of my brain being "excited". I feel pressure all over my head that's hard to describe, almost like the hairs on top of my head are standing up accompanied by frontal sinus pressure in the forehead area. As far as anxiety goes, I'm getting better with most things and have taken suggestions from people in my NA home group (forcing myself to be social, ways to get out of my head). One thing I've always struggled with is the cognitive background noise that comes with anxiety. At one point it was so bad that I could even hear what was being said at meetings because I was so consumed with myself. And at any given time, what you thought of me in a social situation was all that mattered. I would keep my mouth shut for fear that I might say something stupid or something that made you think less of me. I dwell on situations that happen in the past and think about how they could have gone differently. I could go on and on about how anxiety runs my life, but I'm not going to.

I guess thats what I get for taking multiple bars/day for literally years, and then cold turkeying in rehab on phenobarbitol and gabapentin. Gladly I didn't have a seizure this time. I must say the phenobarbitol/gabapentin/remeron combo really took the edge off of the early withdrawal. Still taking gabapentin and remeron before bed.

Other people in recovery I've met whose drug of choice were benzos (very rare) are all absolutely crazy or did go crazy the first few months of abstinence, so I'm grateful that I'm not psychotic or manic at this point. Depression and anxiety are familiar feelings to me, they existed even before I used. I still feel that crushing anxiety every day first thing when I wake up, but it does get a little better each week.

What I want to know is, does anyone here have experience with "clean time" from benzos? If so, what are some things you did to help take the edge off? I'm doing an IOP, so I can't smoke or drink, so I want to hear some alternative suggestions. Has anyone tried cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety?
Thomas Nullyfuck - Mon, 05 Sep 2016 14:16:40 EST ID:O2oCWrRB No.28517 Ignore Report Quick Reply
3 years? Godspeed anon, godspeed.
Polly Honeystock - Mon, 12 Sep 2016 23:40:54 EST ID:FIQmpHxQ No.28533 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Somewhat involuntary detox.

Moved out in the middle of nowhere, no connects, don't know anyone.

Drink occasionally, no more than 48, or 64oz at a time. (2 24, or 32oz)

Used to smoke weed, drink a lot heavier, random things here and there.

Have done random old scripts I've found, and that was the only time I've really been productive.

I really don't wanna get out of bed unless I'm "modulated" or have something.

Been about a year since I've done any heavy anything.

The only thing that would ever really fuck me up from doing a job would be alcohol hangover, or staying up after stimulants and I'd get paranoid.

Cannabis always leveled me out and it was smooth sailing. Thinking about bussing out to a "legal" state.
Fanny Savingmit - Sun, 02 Oct 2016 22:17:07 EST ID:UoWYeeFN No.28598 Ignore Report Quick Reply
>What I want to know is, does anyone here have experience with "clean time" from benzos? If so, what are some things you did to help take the edge off? I'm doing an IOP, so I can't smoke or drink, so I want to hear some alternative suggestions. Has anyone tried cognitive behavioral therapy for anxiety.

It's been more than 2 years since I stopped a years long 3 - 10 mg alprazolam and 20 mg zolpidem /day habit. I didn't quit cold turkey but tapered off using diazepam in a 4 month long period.
Unfortunately, little if anything I know can take the edge off a benzodiazepine withdrawal. A moderate dose of quetiapine was always welcome but It acted as more of a distraction than a cure.

All WD symptoms only disappeared around a year after my last diazepam.
Benzo WD is insanity, I feel for you.
Polly Mimmerhood - Wed, 26 Oct 2016 21:14:06 EST ID:kYRnAj1J No.28645 Ignore Report Quick Reply
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Sober for a whole day so far. Coming off of years of opiate and benzo use, not to mention daily weed smoking, because of probation and the random drug tests that come with it. 6 more months to go, I hope I can find a good source for suboxone for these first few weeks.
Samuel Crallykut - Thu, 10 Nov 2016 19:47:41 EST ID:Eo8uctJM No.28675 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I've gone a few days with almost no weed use. The lady I was working for kept trying to offer me food but I just couldn't eat it. Still waiting for my brain to come back. It probably won't until I do some writing, but I'll probably just keep browsing the Chans and watching tv. I really think that years of heavy weed use and social isolation have permanently lowered my intelligence. I feel like a retard constantly and I can barely string together a sentence. It's like there's just nothing going on up there. God I hope my brain comes back.
Molly Wollylerk - Tue, 27 Dec 2016 16:46:11 EST ID:C7f6INH+ No.28773 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 2 on suboxone.

Everything is good so far. I am getting restless leg syndrome. But, I can handle it. This is nothing compared to having it for two months straight and the symptom was much worse back then when I tried getting off the opiates back in the summer. This time, I am going to succeed no matter how hard it might get. I can do it. I know I can.
Graham Banningcocke - Wed, 28 Dec 2016 10:13:35 EST ID:YB0GTXT1 No.28775 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 3 suboxone

Still have rls. But, it's already starting to dissipate and it happens less and less. Even though it's only been three days, I feel better about life and am excited to become a
Happy and successful person. I plan on losing the rest of this weight after New Years. Can't wait to get on the grind and work my ass off for what I want. The fire inside me has been re-lit and I want to keep that way this time and not fuck up again.

I plan on staying on subs for a month and taper down. Hopefully this ends well with me.
Ebenezer Dodgehork - Thu, 29 Dec 2016 15:18:46 EST ID:YB0GTXT1 No.28776 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 4 on suboxone

Still dealing with rls. I can handle it. Hope this shit goes away eventually after a month goes by. I want to be off this shit within the next month. If I'm not successful with having no side effects after being off the subs then I will hope back on it for a while longer. Either way, I'm getting off the opiates one way or another. Period.
Hedda Blullybotch - Fri, 30 Dec 2016 11:27:44 EST ID:Lz1x0Hg2 No.28778 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 5 suboxone

Feeling alright today. I watched the sun come up and it was awesome. Wish I would've gotten a few good photos. Can't wait for 2017 to come. I am going to keep growing as a person through changes within myself and my life in general. I want to be the best of a person that I can be.
Alice Himmlesan - Fri, 30 Dec 2016 11:41:59 EST ID:Pj/wLQtZ No.28779 Ignore Report Quick Reply
I also threw my straws away that I did oxys with. A small, but one step.
Samuel Forrybury - Sat, 31 Dec 2016 17:55:36 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28784 Ignore Report Quick Reply
thanks for the kind words.

day 6 suboxone

today is the last day of 2016 and i am already pumped for next year. I'm going to make things happen for myself and really focus on my life rather than doing pills and being an addict. i still smoke weed and thats it.

as far as the taper is coming along, tomorrow will make it a week since i started subs. yeah, christmas day i decided to get clean. it was a present from me to me and i couldn't ask for anything else. everyday gets a little bit easier, mentally speaking. hopefully on january 25th (that will make it a month clean) i can get off the subs and be completely fine and NEVER EVER doing another pill again.
Nicholas Greenway - Sat, 31 Dec 2016 22:37:18 EST ID:24X0VdbV No.28785 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Well on this day last year I was really fucked up. Now I'm ending the year on a sober note, though not entirely by choice. Been off the heroin for 3 days, haven't smoked weed in 2. Heroin has just demoralized me so much and I've found myself in the midst of a deep depression, in a strange town. My girlfriend and I went through our apartment today and threw out every single rig, cooker, tourniquet and drug bag that was in our apartment. Pretty adamant about staying off the dope, but fucking hell some weed would be nice about now. Happy new year everyone
Ebenezer Sallergold - Sun, 01 Jan 2017 08:02:13 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28786 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Good luck to both of you. May your year be filled with sobriety and beneficial endeavors.
Ebenezer Sallergold - Sun, 01 Jan 2017 15:41:18 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28787 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Happy new years everyone!

Day 7 suboxone

Today makes one week since being on subs. I know seven days ain't much. But, I'm still proud of myself for sticking with this. So, in one week from now I'll be decreasing the amount of subs I take by half. After those two weeks with doing that I'm going off the subs completely. I know I can get through this.

It's the new year. I have many plans I want to make happen. I'm moving on to bigger and better things.
what !!QJGTUbuf - Tue, 03 Jan 2017 03:53:33 EST ID:6cyt7Swl No.28791 Ignore Report Quick Reply
this sucks and i want my heroin.
David Bremmerstock - Tue, 03 Jan 2017 12:28:45 EST ID:u1c9PbZV No.28792 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Day 9 suboxone

Feeling really good this morning. Really feel happy and fortunate. I'm happy and fortunate that I have a roof over my head, my family and the luxuries that I have the privelage to have and most of all, I'm fortunate to be alive.

My meditation was the best it's ever been. I had nothing but positive vibes and good thoughts running through my head. After I was done and opened my eyes, this feeling came over me. I can't describe it. But, I know it feels good as it's still going through me. SLAYER!

Have a great day everyone! :)
Ebenezer Brullerway - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 10:34:00 EST ID:1ehAVpnM No.28801 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Keep up the good work. I abused kpins for about four years straight and eventually got off the shit. I'm much better off without it. I've been sober from benzos for over three years and I plan on keeping it that way.

Keep plugging dude and you'll achieve your goal by staying clean and sober. Their is always a light at the end of the tunnel and you're almost there.
Hamilton Fanshaw - Thu, 05 Jan 2017 11:09:36 EST ID:innXjHQN No.28802 Ignore Report Quick Reply
thx man, Id been off benzos for a few years too, never did loads tho but quit as soon as I knew I was getting anxious without it. I think I got them cause I knew Id be hungover/bored over the season. Hangovers just lasting a bit longer than I expected.

Maybe if Im sober the Universe will throw good shit my way cause I can be trusted with it.
Fuck Bunford - Fri, 06 Jan 2017 07:42:22 EST ID:PWFwFPYd No.28804 Ignore Report Quick Reply
makes my minor relapse sound minor. Getting high though forced me to seek more out and got ripped off the next day. feelin broke this month, oh and I got court later on this month too, yay. Ironic though the incident happened when Id been stone sober for 2 months.
Charlotte Wesslefack - Fri, 20 Jan 2017 22:38:36 EST ID:j8WMZzHs No.28830 Ignore Report Quick Reply
45 days off herion, meth, benzos, coke, alcohol , and weed. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done but my minds finnally returning and I'm starting to feel great again. For anyone thinking of quiting because you lost your self phisicly and mentally like me - it does get better.
Priscilla Smallspear - Sat, 21 Jan 2017 20:31:18 EST ID:f++Sdu95 No.28845 Ignore Report Quick Reply

You're a strong person. Keep going friend!
Walter Shittingbury - Sat, 28 Jan 2017 14:52:39 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28873 Ignore Report Quick Reply
tomorrow i start on suboxone. going to be a slow taper. will take 2 months before i am clean and off subs. I hope all goes well. I'm a bit enthusiastic about this. after this is all said and done i can focus on making a life for myself and do the things that make me happy.
Eugene Buzzbanks - Sat, 28 Jan 2017 23:07:59 EST ID:pMIIJ3fd No.28874 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Tomorrow I will be 26 months clean from heroin and all other illicit drugs. I still drink from time to time, but rarely get drunk. I visit this site every now and then to remember those times when I was an 18 year old senior in high school shooting heroin and taking cough medicine I stole from the dollar store. I am 23 now and haven't been on this site regularly since I was 18.

Many of my friends have died from heroin. I almost died from heroin. Quit that shit before it's too late.
Angus Cussledock - Sun, 29 Jan 2017 08:45:54 EST ID:gTj147k5 No.28875 Ignore Report Quick Reply
good shit dude! you have come a helluva long way. today is my first day on suboxone. you give me inspiration just by reading that you've been sober for quite a while now; 2 years. what keeps you going? how much has your life changed since you've been sober?
William Billywone - Sun, 29 Jan 2017 13:50:30 EST ID:9UI2BRSD No.28876 Ignore Report Quick Reply
Time to get off the opiates once and for all. I'm back on subs and today is the first day. It'll take me until April to get through my taper. I have high hopes for myself that I can get through this and never touch another pill again. It's time to truly focus on myself and getting my shit together. I have some goals in mind for what I want to accomplish this year. This gives me motivation and inspiration to give all of this my 100% effort.

It's time to get this ball rolling. The sooner I get clean the better off I'll be.

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