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Yea, LSD I really do not think will keep one from being a drinker. Nor is AA really workable. i have seen people get reamed saying they got to step whatever. Where the entire hour/whatever was focused on the person lying to himself and everybody there. I know peoples sincerity, in general. I know he likely had not drank in a month, if he jumped up in a short time as that, why the fuck not.
Why demean his self-integrity, sense of self-fulfillment.
Everybody raggin on him for making progress soo darn quick, I imagine he either stayed up all night, feeling bad, or hit the liguor store, and regardless never went back to the group. Most groups have their own personalities.
I guess. This on in particular, drinking or not, hopeless fucks, who were
geared in, I am an alcoholic for life, and will continue to be helplesss hopeless with no future ambitions. Like 'one foot in the past one in tomorrow' you are pissing on today, and the idiotic saying of the past.
To succedd in the twelve step, you have to ack the past by making amends to 'all' you have harmed. Impossible at best. Other, maybe you were the one harmed and never really posed any burden on others. Make itto work, ork, drink, do it all over again.
Aside, the big book, started with a few pages. Not 'the big book's' peoples' insane self broadcasting interpretations and insane rules that seem to
point to no self-determination, self-respect, no gorals other than thos tinkets of 30 days sober. basic nothingness.
Imagine carrying around a whole lotta sober coins. Showing em off. Like medals. Not knocking these groups for those who work these work for them.
But people personalities have or should change for the better. Not stay the same, or be worse. In essence I feel AA keeps many people in a state of feeling stuck as an AA alcoholic. Other interests are kinda frowned upon.
In short I convinced my peoples, that I did not and would not attend AA, and my points were ration, very clear. From you have to go to these meetings, to well, OK.
See what you mean. My point was, I don't have to portray myself as a useless? hopeless? sober drunk my entire life to, stay sober. That ambitiousness is entirely better than ambitions to be a sober alcoholic.
In all, I did fail, over and over. But never really had any ambitions to not stay sober, a year not drinking, no issue.