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The first meetings, the big book was mere pages, guidelines to live life without drinking. Then through the years it got bigger. It's stupid in my opinion. Being
not an alcoholic is unattainable. Imagine saying after being offered a drink,
no I am an alcoholic. Your nothing but an alcoholic. That is attempted to be drilled into your head. Cult-like. I have said, naw, if I have a couple of drinks
I feel like keeping drinking if I do, not no I am an alcoholic. Like rock bottom
is a common catch phrase, it's like saying 'you are rock bottom' your entire life.
Many people have not drank for years, but they are just scumbags. Saying they are alcoholics seems to be an excuse for their not moving forward. Maybe they get a job, whatever, but same people. Some in meetings claim they finished
whatever 2nd 3rd step, only to be bombarded by people with no ambitions in life,
basic losers. No you didn't. People with no perception telling somebody striving forward being told they cannot move forward, saying, you have to start over. OK, start drinking again then. So an hour meeting 20 minutes raking on some guy with some positive direction being beaten down to others level who are berating him. I explained this as a juvie who was railroaded by the system, was expected 2, 3 meetings a week. I explained how this works and wasn't expected to attend meetings after. Compelling explaining that you seek more out of my life other than self-labeling myself as an alcoholic. As in constantly failing myself. The little trinkets, yea whatever. A new AA NA to a lesser extent needs to be reformed,
refined to reflect success of the individual. The saying, if you have one foot in yesterday and one in tomorrow , you are pissing on today. As in on day at a time. One has to look to the past to see a possible future. Like this, Im not going to drink today, how about, I like I am not going to drink for a week, until
such or such events. Until I get an advancement in the company. Not this your are stuck in nowhere.
So why the prizes of have not drank for 30 days. I have met street scumbags I knew, no offence to anybody, but cult like, they show their sober for 90 days etc. I lived in the city, the scientology street book sales people.
I have heard find a meeting you like, keep looking. Things may be different than the chain smokers and coffee jittery delusional mentalities. I don't think total abstinence is a solution, if so then quitting smoking should be part of the equation. Drinking 3 cups of coffee before a meeting, doesn't make sense, let alone,
Oh well, it works if you work it, just don't look for a supportive other, other than your sponsor that you can call at 3 am. Don't seek a future, because you cannot handle a new job, seek higher employment, handle a relationship. You are helpless. People interpret the big book and AA in any way that breaks people down. But doesn't really seek to bring them back up.