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Making my HPPD worse, to make my HPPD better

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- Tue, 16 Jun 2020 15:25:19 EST 3ki0wkTl No.372289
File: 1592335519394.jpg -(276599B / 270.12KB, 675x723) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Making my HPPD worse, to make my HPPD better
SO i've had bad hppd most ofm y lfie and didn't know it, i started doing deliriants and got really bad scary badtrip hppd . I have a pet theory that the two types of hppd cancel each other out almost completely./ So im going to spend this summer frying my brain with dis and psy. Wish me luck imma need it,l so good so far i am much more fujnctional.I cna't function fried from deliriants but i can fucnction fried from the other stuffl. Anyone want to tell me to stop before it's too late? There's no coming back from this.
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Frederick Trotville - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 17:11:34 EST 30fe7OZy No.372296 Reply
>>372289
Can't see why this will work. Have you seen any difference with just a single dose of dis or psy lately?
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Archie Pebberwell - Tue, 16 Jun 2020 22:58:31 EST lnDhI+d/ No.372306 Reply
I feel somewhat obligated to say dosing yourself with dissocatives isn't inherently bad, butfrying, by definition, is bad.

u do u tho
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Lillian Dacklewog - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 03:29:59 EST S459ko5n No.372311 Reply
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>>372289
you were literally warned about this if you did even a modicum of research before deciding to eat benadryl like candy
now you suffer through the consequences of ignoring said warnings
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PSYcheDELic - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 04:49:46 EST 3ki0wkTl No.372313 Reply
>>372289
thank you guys' no mo e denabrfyl' this is my life now, i could have bbeen onormal but it's too late yes fry iung is bad but
it's fun
i'm fine
i'm gone
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Jarvis Gangerbadging - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 11:58:15 EST e9cvOVLj No.372316 Reply
>>372289
Your pet theory is wrong. You're just going to wind up worsening your HPPD. HPPD is the result of chronic disinhibition along the visual circuit resulting from the trips you've had. It means that the mind isn't able to hold sharp contrast of the image in your visual field because of this chronic disinihibition leading to persistent bleed-over excitation in localalized clusters of neurons in the visual cortex. This causes "noise" to be added to the signals received from sensory organs, making you see shit like visual snow, wavy or blurry blines, tracers, after images, and other visual artifacts.

You can't fix chronic disinhibition in the visual cortex by doing shit that causes more chronic disinhibition and bleed-over excitation, you're just further disrupting your brain's ability to see shit correctly, potentially over the long-term. The only way for it to correct itself is to stop doing stimulants and especially hallucinogens. Even then, it's likely only to reduce itself somewhat, but will otherwise stay with you for life.
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PSYcheDELic - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 23:13:44 EST 3ki0wkTl No.372324 Reply
>>372316
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND
i'm an artist, i'm a psychonaut, this is my reality now, i want to stay here forever, reality is sad. you are sad. This is my life and i'm going to live it uup til it's over. No more sober. You just jealous. End of thread. I go happy place now.
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PSYcheDELic - Wed, 17 Jun 2020 23:15:52 EST 3ki0wkTl No.372325 Reply
>>372289
Y'all are just jelllybeans. You wish you could be high forever on cloud 9 with me an dnever come down. I will stay here, i will write letters, i will send postcards,, i will send videos, i will send you lots of love, there's lots of love and no more sad, no more mad. mNo violence, no silence, it's heavenly.
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Cornelius Fundledirk - Thu, 18 Jun 2020 04:56:30 EST 30fe7OZy No.372327 Reply
>>372316
isn't it also possible that some of the "artifacts" like snow and whatnot were visible before, just not as pronounced? cause' some of the shit I'm seeing now, like a bit of snow and something like mild tracers, I have a feeling i've seen long before ever trying drugs
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PSYcheDELic - Thu, 18 Jun 2020 05:22:30 EST 3ki0wkTl No.372328 Reply
>>372316
my visual cortex is already fried, no going back, might as well keep the trip sharp.
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Clara Pockson - Fri, 19 Jun 2020 17:12:27 EST m/tp6yR4 No.372341 Reply
It has taken me a moment to realize that all my friends who knew me before dph unequivocally agree that i am every bit the same as i was before my dph use. All my quirks, all my loopy, and i have always been loopy, it seems to be permanent. It all goes back to some very dark repressed memories which explain my loopy and my my ABSOLUTE FIENDING for all things trippy and hallucinogenic. It explains why i only ever seem to be really and truly addicted to psychedelics, deliriants and dissociatives, and it explains why i've seemingly had hppd, once inntermittent flashbacks, now constant and permanent. I seem to have had a tragic psychedelic mishap between the ages of 3-5. Some sugar cubes were left out. I wolfed em down. My mother denies it to no end, says i am silmply mentally ill and need meds. But i know what i am. I think the word might be uh...might be a word that is oft used to describe greasy food, like chicken. But let's not say the F word. But i'm me again, the dph may have spoiled my memory but it was only temporarily, and i seem to be functioning at my original level of tard. I'm bac k guys , i never left. Aslo i've been posting anonymously here n there. HAIIII. Feels so good to know i was never ruined from the dph after all, and all you guys who think you are have hope too. /It was mostly all in my head. The cognitive changes were from the massive shit ton motherlode of acid i ate as a small child. I feel so silly for freaking myself out and for relapsing so many times , thinking i was fucked from the dph, i even was hoping i'd get liver failure and die. Well that's not me anymore, i'm my old upbeat cheerful loopy self and not a damn thing in the world can make me sad. Dph made me numbsad. Dis and psy brought me back. I feel again. I love. I'm alive.



Crossposted from /deli/.

However, my experiment continues. I want to see how far i can go down the rabbit hole of hallucinogen persisting perception disorder
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Jenny Tootdale - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 07:57:56 EST e9cvOVLj No.372346 Reply
>>372327
Yes. The mechanism behind HPPD presumably can occur for other reasons, and taking hallucinogens would then just worsen the effects.
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Fuck Blellyville - Sat, 20 Jun 2020 11:01:59 EST JJRJQ27l No.372347 Reply
>>372346
This. consider the narrative you’re living by isn’t the only way to frame your past and who you are. self destruction is not exploration, stupidity is not bravery. you can be more than this, friend. please reconsider
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Esther Brettingville - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 11:39:10 EST m/tp6yR4 No.372352 Reply
>>372347
This is far from the focus of my life this is just silly funtimes.
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Shitting Wongerhall - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 14:29:42 EST SbwfkfyM No.372353 Reply
>>372352
re-read the post, I didnt say it was the focus of your life, I said its going to destroy you whether you’re paying attention or not. if there is any scrap of humanity in you, know that you are more than this and you ARE hurting yourself and the people you love if you continue on this path. You will become a husk of a human being. Again, I beg you to reconsider. I hope you can hear me in there, friend, the world will be a darker place without your light.
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Esther Brettingville - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 15:00:27 EST m/tp6yR4 No.372354 Reply
>>372353
The idea is to break myself in order to bounce back better than before. I've done this many times before, i' break myself down and pick upthe pieces ,and reassemble.
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Esther Brettingville - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 15:01:39 EST m/tp6yR4 No.372355 Reply
>>372353
I h ave always BEEEN a hhusk of a human being, everyone just seems to think i'm still there somehow.
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Esther Brettingville - Sun, 21 Jun 2020 15:02:33 EST m/tp6yR4 No.372356 Reply
>>372355
My mind can not be destroyed by thius type of substance, as it has already been obliterated before.
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Shitting Blythespear - Thu, 25 Jun 2020 01:35:17 EST 3f13dIi9 No.372372 Reply
> I have a pet theory that the two types of hppd cancel each other out almost completely.

No dawg, that's not how HPPD from serotogenics works. Quit being retarded.

How about you just go back to casual beer and weed and quit frying your brain doing dumb shit when you obviously need a fucking break.
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PSYcheDELic - Tue, 30 Jun 2020 10:40:55 EST jauGazMj No.372412 Reply
>>372289
Whelp, great news, brain shorted out, can take break now. Dirty work is done. Now i bounce back. Feels great.
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Alice Sallerbotch - Wed, 01 Jul 2020 01:17:53 EST R3JzwGtw No.372422 Reply
>>372413

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