Alcohol Discussion

>Get drunk at 12 with friends.
>Instantly feel like this is something i was looking for my whole life, felt like cheat codes and mods to real life. Made boring shitty stressful poor life into real fun.
>Occassionally get drunk for 2 years
>Occassional drinking is complemented with constant drugs, meds, and RC abuse for about another 8 years
>Mental illnesses and social isolation reaches a point where i no longer have any friends at all
>Start to drink daily
>Start to have episodes of getting shitfuck drunk 24/7
>get my first real alcohol withdrawals
>ever since having episodes of getting shitfuck drunk 24/7 for a few weeks then quit, being totally sober for a few weeks, and repeat.
>this cycle is seemingly unstoppable, thinking of suicide every day since 16, my life is like building a sandcastle then destroying it, over and over and over.

>be from Ireland
>everyone mixing energy drinks and vodka from the age of 13/14 or sharing 2l cider bottles
>i dont get into it
>become a stoner instead
>spend years stoning and blurring out
>kick weed and replace it with a few beers to taper me off the weed
>end up smoking again but still drinking too, since I'm a total novice 3 or 4 beers are sloshing me. (bypassed 300ml budweiser piss, straight into the 600ml german wheat beers.)
>pick up quite the crossfading habit to the extent where smoking weed on its own sucks balls and drinking on its own doesn't get me to where I need to go quick enough
>spend two or three years going through college cross faded as fuck, operating on my own time, sleeping into the afternoons etc
>finally kick it and shape up for about four months, lose 25lbs and feeling fitter than I have in years
>the fucking virus hits and everything starts locking down
>start drinking during the first lockdown but manage to keep a lid on it mostly
>have slowly spiralled out of control again since the autumn and winter have began to bite, have edibles, a joint, six cans of ale and a bottle of gin for tonight

>Have the tolerance right off the bat from being the spawn of a sailor and a Welshwoman
>Showed off my love for drink like it was a badge of honor in high school parties
>Been pretty much a raging alcoholic since I was 16
>10 years later still drinking every day
>Wonder why my liver hasn't failed yet
>Completely functional the whole way through (always kept a job, never drove drunk, honestly feel like alcohol has never negatively affected my life)
>Continue this every day until I guess my body decides it has had enough and shuts down

>Have the tolerance right off the bat from being the spawn of a sailor and a Welshwoman

>15
>Buy a handle of local koniak or whatever it's called in english
>Alone home so sip alone all day
>Getting buzzed a bit but first timer so it's more about the act of drinking than getting drunk
>Like down half of it from morning to 6pm until friends call me to come out
>Bring it out, they take only sips but i keep dranking
>Fucking drink the whole thing
>All friends go home except one who wants us to go to the city center like a retard
>He literally fucking drags me through the city center like a retard because he want's a burger
>Buys me burger
>Fast foward keep dranking through highschool
>16 yo Gets piss drunk alone ocasionally
>17 yo alchie-lite, quit summer job to drink erry day, feel like a poet since im young and i can handle it
>18 still in school drinking random nights is normal procedure, friends or without
>19 and 20 neet and drink almost every night sick of this shit

>anxiety

>have my first glass of wine at 15
>it's alright, nothing special
>start getting the taste for wine and beer, daily drinker at 19, but it's just one or two drinks a day
>drink on and off for a few years, get bored of it during my healthier and less lonely periods
>live alone now and have no social life
>drinking daily for the past year
>get lonelier as people die and friends drift away from me
>drinking ramps up significantly as a coping device
>drinking dangerous amounts of vodka until I pass out almost every night
>going to AA meetings now

>Got a high school diploma
>Worked as a mechanic for a few months
>Managed to to get a good test score on the college enterance exam and now im studying electrical engineering
>Still fat but like 20 pounds less

>have a glass of wine once at 13
>never drink again till 18
>get dui at 19
>never drink again till 21
>now 26 and still going

>Early on the police gave me a hard time and I hated alcohol.
>First booze six, first buzz eight, hated that shit
>Liked it at ten a couple times
>Police intimidating me to stop, no more drinks till 15
>Ff
>120lbs and cash a fifth out of a half gallon with friends, begins my alcoholism, love it, get beat and yelled at
>Police called again, I am ok cuz I'm hurt
>Continue drinking, at school and everything
>Get caught drunk and stumbling with pint in locker
>Have to breathalyzer before and after school
>Lasts 24mo sober, begin to drink in secret again moved out to moms and in HS
>No one knows a thing but people that are cool with it
>Begin drinking a six to fifteen pack at night after work but lose my job to alcoholism
>Fast forward to 22, I am now drinking a fifth to a half gallon a night, in and out of rehab and ward
>Finally kick it after an intervention and have only two beers a day
>Ff now
>Falling off the wagon again but no liquor
>Every drunken moment I am grateful I'm allowed to

>Have the tolerance right off the bat from being the spawn of a sailor and a Welshwoman