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Couldn't focus on anything on last roll - advice?

- Mon, 08 Jan 2018 15:18:48 EST xxlOyJed No.225953
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Hey /MDMA/.

I do Ecstacy once a year on a rave/music event in the Netherlands. It's in February every year, and it's a bit of a tradition for me and my friends.

Last year I had a good time but I experienced some uncomfortable stuff. I couldn't focus on the music at all, even though I had looked forward to seeing the DJs for months. I was stuck in a strange loop where all I could think about was:

>Are my friends having a good time? I hope they're having a good time.
>I shouldn't bother them though, they look like they're having fun dancing.
>I'm almost out of water. I should get some water.
>What time is it? How long until the next DJ starts playing?
>I should probably go pee even though I don't feel like peeing.
>I want a cigarette. Maybe I've smoked too much though?
And every time a wave of pleasure came over me:
>Oh man, this feels good. I hope I don't start coming down anytime soon.

In short, I couldn't focus on the moment and probably looked really weird, just constantly checking my pockets, my watch, my water bottle and chain smoking all the time. Looking bad is not a problem though, not in the Netherlands and certainly not at that specific event. I do feel like it really made my experience much worse, though.

Not to tell you my entire life story, but this may have something to do with it. Last year I was in a pretty bad place, being quite depressed and apathic. I had been unemployed without studying for several months, and my ability to concentrate had degraded. This time around I am in a much better place, though my concentration is still not what it was when I used to study.

About 5 hours before taking the pill last time, I had smoked a large amount of Dutch weed which made me sort of "after-burned" - tired and apathic. This was probably a large part in why I couldn't focus on the moment. This time I won't smoke anything until after the event.

These are the reasons I can think of for my weird experience last time.
Does anyone else have advice for how to avoid getting stuck in thought loops next time I take Ecstasy? Am I just overthinking this?

The pills, by the way, are real MDMA with a little bit of speed, tested at around 200mg. I took ~180mg and refilled with ~60-70mg. I was about 100kg 178cm / 220lbs 5'10.


TL;DR: Couldn't live in the moment last time I took Ecstasy. Any advice for next time?
Beatrice Blommerkodge - Mon, 22 Jan 2018 19:39:18 EST l3w0RcbU No.225978 Reply
Sounds like you were a bit depressed and anxious last time OP, it doesn't sound like the weed did you any good either.

Make sure you have a solid 8 hours of sleep the night before and have a good meal a few hours in advance of rolling and I assume it will be a good as the other times.
Basil Barringwell - Wed, 24 Jan 2018 06:48:55 EST yp3N7MoV No.225981 Reply
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I can only assume that the bean (or beans) kicked in pretty hard and you were dealing with it as best as you could. I am a pretty experienced X taker (in terms of how long and common knowledge) and one year I went to an Excision show and felt like I needed to leave (which is rare for me, usually it's the other way around in my group). It's important to note that I was also peaking off two purple Armanis. For some reason I just couldn't take the music and the lights while I was peaking, but after I went outside and puked a little bit I felt A LOT better and was fine.
Phineas Clayfuck - Sun, 28 Jan 2018 10:44:44 EST JesEW0ZI No.225996 Reply

As a Dutchman who has had these exact symptoms of anxiety and restlessness, not being able to enjoy the moment and overthinking everything, being hyperconscious while using M, I can wholeheartedly recommend taking 1-2 grams of phenibut about 4-5 hours before you pop your pill. Doing this has consistantly resulted in the most amazing rolls (and trips, and stim-sessions, and alcohol binges). Phenibut is honestly a wonderdrug and it mixes perfectly with a lot of other drugs(and legal! you can order it online from many sports and supplement websites). However do be careful, and don't take it more than once a week, because withdrawal symptoms do sometimes occur (depending on the person, some people take it daily without problem) when taken more often than that. Research it and get some.

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