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Shit op,I'll do you one better. My life had genuinely gotten better since getting off street drugs and getting on fentalogs. Except my supply ran dry, so I've been out for weeks now, first time in 6 years I've run out. But the reality of a situation like running out, and being a extreme heavy opiate user (120mg 4 fibf per day or like 30-40mg of fent per day) isn't that bad, when life is good. I've come down over 2 weeks or so now with a pile or tram and lope and im basically back to normal with very minor symptoms and in down to 1 tram at night and 2 dose of 16mg lope.
The short is that I was a degenerate opi addict, homeless, etc. Got into iv bupe 7 years ago, and sustained for 4 years, went from degenerate to just over min wage job, but got stable, and self educated enough to break into enterprise IT. Switched to fentalogs because subs suck when the cash got better, and now I have my own apt in the best part of town, have a good honest gf that cooks for me, and I got a pup after all the years I couldn't afford one.
My job started as contact work at like 25k with this company, and now I have full employment with benefits and double the income.
Having a stable income and life actually make doing drugs easier. My habit cost like 150 power month, 5 dollars a day for all the opi I could dream off. Just piles of 99% pure 4 fibf hcl, and that coincided with having a family, dog, income, and stability.
And when you have that shit in your life, running out, where I would've spent it all trying to avoid withdrawal, I can now plan, act, and reason what I should do in spite of physical and mental discomfort. I can quit when I have to, when it counts, when it affects those around me. That's something you cannot do in they midst of full on addiction, and I know that first hand.