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Of course at the end of the day, if I don't care then I don't care you're right, but part of the reason I don't really seem to care is because arguably the majority of the reasons you decided to get "clean"/"sober" on maintenance (which I absolutely agree are very, very valid reasons), such as IV damage, OD potential from dope/street shit, and super high daily cost don't really apply to users who say, maintain on kratom daily, use PST 2-2.5x/week, and perhaps "splurge" and cop a 10 pack of real EU roxies from the darknet that they fent+reagent test before consuming orally say once a month. Because the downsides aren't as severe, there's less disincentive to stay "sober."
Since I'm moving to Vietnam for quite a while sometime early-ish next year, it may actually get to a point where I won't have permanent access to suboxone/subutex anymore, as well as no more dexedrine/adderall. Meanwhile, real traditional opium is quite widespread, particularly in the north of the country e.g. Hanoi. I can't find a lot of information on OTC/UTC recreational pharma drugs in Vietnam though. The biggest reason I don't want to do dope even if it's real fent-free China White is because of the chance of prison. Meanwhile, in places like Laos and northern Vietnam, you can pay to drink poppy pod tea in basically a bar where it's nearly impossible to get arrested because they bribe the local police. They also sell raw opium that you can just swallow and go about your day.
Truth but told, I originally didn't get clean for myself, not even close, and the biggest reason I've managed to stay "sober" from full agonist opioids for so long is because my sub doc tests me so goddamn often and at extremely low levels for opioids, not to mention being around my family so much. Like ultimately I haven't been getting high because I can't conveniently do so without artificial consequences.
A large part of it is the fact I think I attributed too much of my life "problems" to being an addict, vs. mental health issues and a toxic, two way dysfunctional relationship/marriage for so long, not to mention living in a state/country where I wasn't happy. I used for what, 8 years very responsibly until I didn't?
It's comforting that you're concerned. If my only reasonable choice for opioids was street smack and the getting ripped off/adulterants/fent lacing/ODs/theft/legal problems associated with it, then honestly yeah I probably wouldn't do use at all. But if a junkie is gonna junk, then in terms of PST usage, seriously now is the time (traditionally very, very end of the season for peak quality), as it is likely to run out of stock completely of UK seeds pretty much any month now (only one solid UK source is still readily in stock, and they just jacked up prices again last week).
When I went to go get my 1 year keychain from AA/NA, this time I pretty much couldn't relate to 98% of everything everyone was talking about when it comes to reasons why it's bad to be a user.
Has anyone here ever been a hardcore primarily PST addict (maybe pills/dope occasionally on the side) and then switched to methadone? Does methadone even feel any different compared to daily/near daily high dose PST use?
It's possible a Vietnamese doctor might even script morphine IR/XR or methadone in place of suboxone.