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What got me into opis, or benzos/alcohol/drugs in general? I'm guilty of the crime of rummaging through my grandparents' junk drawers one last weekend night , all in pursuit of a better Science grade. I was looking for tape/maybe a stapler for a school project, and inside I found three large, thoroughly "expired" bottles of oxy 5/500s, hydroc 7.5/750s, and either 50mg or 37.5mg (with the APAP) tramadols. The oxy/hydros had something like 60 or 90 pills, and there were even more tramadol, all with no refills. < 10 tablets had been used from each bottle. There were also two bottles of 0.5mg xanax, maybe 60 or 90ct each, with multiple expired (and unfilled) refills.
I hadn't even smoked weed by then. I was 14-15, and had only gotten tipsy a few times. DARE brainwashing was in full swing by then. Other guys on the JV football team were getting into weed/spice (mainly spice tbh), occasionally beer/booze, and often tobacco/dip. Most of that seemed "nasty" and "unhealthy" to me.
As soon as I popped my first hydrocodone (2x7.5mg), I was in love. Somehow I managed to keep the opis to once a month for 3 months in the summer, once around Thanksgiving/Christmas/Easter, once after my Midterms, and once after my Finals/ending school year. Roughly the same goes for the xanax, which I'd only take ~1-1.5mg of when mixed with ~3-3.5 glasses fo wine.
Somehow I made that work without fail for several YEARS before that single stash ran out (such low doses, like 15-20mg hydro, 10-15mg oxy, or 100-200mg tramadol), after which I just dropped them for a year. The xanax were still around though; my grandma had endless refills, never counted/locked her shit up, and never noticed anything.
Then by like 16-17 my grandma once again needed pain killers for some surgery, kept complaining they didn't work, and literally kept throwing ~95-99% full pain killer bottles (hydro 5s, then hydro 10s, then perc 7.5s alongside dilly 2s, and eventually just dilaudid 4s, after which she just complained until the doc switched her to "the strong oxy" AKA 10mg roxy IR without the APAP, and she was placebo'd into loving it LOL), so I scored enough tablets to get a moderate buzz 1-2x/mo for at least another year or two, by which time I was in university.
So yeah, obviously I blame myself for taking them in the beginning, but I frankly don't know how society can truly argue that a 14-15 year old (that was already addicted to gaming, exercise, sex, and porn) had sufficient maturity and critical thinking skills to truly make a "free willed" choice.
By the time I was ~21-22ish, my brain had been adequately primed. Then the wisdom teeth surgery happened (with 2 repeated dry sockets), and I got something crazy like several grams of hydro out of the whole ordeal. I was high twice a month like clockwork for at least ~1.5-2+ years from that.
Then super potent $2-3/lb PST and pods showed up, and the rest is history...
If past me were to be told I'd not only try dope, but that I'd feel absolutely nothing from it at nearly 1g non-IV doses, I'd have never believed you.