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Harm Reduction Notes for the COVID-19 Pandemic

Could somebody identify these pills?

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- Mon, 19 Aug 2019 14:56:22 EST +/uXjRYj No.132620
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Found them, no clue what they are. Pills have nothing printed or written on them. Not sure if this is the right place to post this so sorry in advance.
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Phoebe Dartham - Fri, 03 Jan 2020 21:27:33 EST 2gV3LlZg No.133030 Reply

  1. Clandestine chemists do use blister packets and they do print things onto the packets to imitate a batch number, they do use blister packets and as a matter of fact some own machines that can make several hundred an hour.

2. Anyone can make these packages, anyone, it's a empty blister pack with the right size to fit the capsule and a heat sealer and a ink stamp. You can factory seal these things with a fucking clothing iron.

It's like saying cause something is pressed in a pill it means it's an FDA or similar approved shit but that is not the case, anyone can buy these things. Anyone can press pills and make their own blister packets. Don't think something is legit just cause of it's packaging. That's an easy way to get sold a R.C as a supplement.

Also dipshits it's a pill of Vitamin D2 or Vitamin D3

Methocarbamol value?

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- Tue, 31 Dec 2019 14:24:46 EST 6ojvzhRM No.133026
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Just got a script for robaxin (Methocarbamol) for dislocating my shoulder. I took 4 750mg and am waiting for effects.
It was hard to tell if they were sedative or not because they gave me a pain shot ,put me under with ketamine and i only dosed some of the scrip yesterday right after getting home before bed.
Would mixing it with dxm be safe?
Oliver Shittingfuck - Wed, 01 Jan 2020 13:10:47 EST /3klzowo No.133027 Reply
most people report it to be not really recreational but a powerful muscle relaxant, probably about as useful as something like baclofen, would probably shine more mixing it with other drugs, should be safe


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- Mon, 23 Dec 2019 10:38:29 EST if+NOIB2 No.133012
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Anyone here like nootropics? My morning stack is usually vyvanse, coffee, and 125mg theanine. The vyvanse is something I'm actually prescribed for ADHD, and the theanine has a nice synergistic effect with the coffee. It makes mornings a really nice time to sit and read for a few hours.
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ON 'THE OFF' SMITH - Sun, 29 Dec 2019 22:53:42 EST xo/vQVj1 No.133021 Reply
Let us not forget what is the most popular supplement out now,
cod oil and/or fatty acids gel capsules. These have a wondrous,
powerful effect on your body and are not something the body has
in massive abundance so it's good to keep these with.
Tea_Junkie - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 06:04:26 EST rIwaBlnk No.133024 Reply

I've found that galantamine works wonders for my memory; but it's damn expensive.
Fasoracetam chills you out if you are anxious & I use it to treat my manic depression; though its alleged nootropic properties seem to be negligible at best. Piracetam might help if you have vascular dementia, but otherwise it will just get you kind of high (in sufficient quantities) which, in itself, isn't a bad thing. L-theanine is nice, but I prefer to get it from tea.
Frederick Bluvingnadging - Tue, 31 Dec 2019 08:30:39 EST 0087E+g/ No.133025 Reply
I myself doubt how much of a difference any of the racetams make in a sober, healthy individual, but I can confirm anecdotally that they greatly enhance/improve the cognitive abilities in people who are cognitively impaired from disease, or in my case in particular, drug use.

I've more or less "reversed" the cognitive impairment caused by high dosages of DXM (and I assume this would be the same for any other dissociative NMDA antagonist) using oxiracetam, phenylpiracetam, and aniracetam. Coluracetam didn't seem to be particularly effective in this regard. Haven't tried with fasoracetam, although I'd wager it would be at least somewhat effective. Haven't tried with pramiracetam either, and I've only used it once, so I can't predict one way or another whether it would be effective (although iirc it's proposed mechanism of action would mean it likely would help improve cognition), and I've never used piracetam either but assume it would help. Now that I think about it, I don't remember if I've tried it with noopept either... I think I have, but only in combination with aniracetam, so I can't really comment on it.

In any case, I hesitate to actually say that these "reversed" DXM's cognitive impairment... it would be more accurate to say that it counteracted DXM's cognitive impairing effects. I took it about an hour and a half to two hours after taking 900mg DXM. The DXM was still clearly affecting me, and it did still fuck with my short-term memory a bit, as well as my ability to reason and general awareness; however, I went from being totally socially inept/dysfunctional and otherwise not able to communicate or reason to being able to socially interact just fine... the level of cognitive impairment was somewhat akin to what you'd experience when a bit sleep deprived. Nobody I interacted with could tell I was on DXM at all.

All that said, I had to take exceptionally large doses of the racetams... well, large compared to what I'd normally take. For instance, normally I'd just take 750mg aniracetam, but instead I took 2.2 - 2.9g of it (3 or 4 pills rather than one). I don't remember how much i took of the oxiracetam, it was a looong time ago. I think it was just two pills rather than one. For phenylpiracetam I took 200-300mg, which is 2 to 3 pills. On average, then, I had to take 2 to 3 times the amount I normally would.

Regardless, I can say without a doubt that the racetams improved my cognition while on DXM. That said, as I mentioned before, I do doubt somewhat how much of a difference they really make when somebody otherwise sober, well-rested, and without conditions that result in impaired cognition (like dementia, Alzheimer's, etc.) takes them. I'm inclined to believe they don't really do a whole lot.

Bone hurting juice

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- Sun, 18 Dec 2016 22:41:43 EST DpuTeY/d No.128566
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How many of y'all niggas out there sippin on somathat bone hurtin' juice right now?
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Flan Huffington - Sat, 21 Dec 2019 09:59:44 EST +ozD0o/P No.133009 Reply
I’m having this problem when I take one of those gas station bhj shots (supposed to hurt for like 5 hours) and all my bones above the waist are in agony but below I have zero pain! So I’m walking around town with unhurt, swagger legs and a crippled, convulsing upper body of pure bone hurt. I can see the pity in the eyes of hurt heads knowing I should be writhing on the ground in bone hurting ecstasy. What’s the deal?!

Bump while semi-hurting I guess
ON 'THE OFF' SMITH - Sun, 29 Dec 2019 23:13:03 EST xo/vQVj1 No.133022 Reply
Maybe if you could hurt your spine a little, see about directing that pain to come out in full force on the way to reach your legs.
Barnaby Goodstock - Mon, 30 Dec 2019 19:49:34 EST 2k7+cMNg No.133023 Reply
splash the cash on a little more upmarket BHJ, who knows whats really in those cheap knock offs.


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- Sun, 08 Dec 2019 03:52:48 EST 3Yy3eXRD No.132983
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So how do you guys like kratom?
I'm getting piss tested 3 times a week so I'm taking a ton.
Pic. related. Same bag that's in my pocket.
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Oliver Trotridge - Sun, 15 Dec 2019 03:39:03 EST Fa3wQD/p No.133000 Reply
I've tried taking more but I get nausea with anything over 3g I could probably step up now though that my tolerance is pretty complete. It doesn't seem worth the eventual withdrawal vs how ok it makes me feel currently. The phenibut withdrawal is going to be tougher than kratom though. I've taken something like lorazapam for about a week then stopped suddenly and I noticed phenibut would feel similar to that even after taking it once and stopping for a week. I'm assuming it's going to be fairly bad after 7 days and taking only one day in the middle off.

I still feel virtually no pain from 1/2 teaspoon kratom a day, I have a job that requires a lot of sitting and I have scoliosis so I eventually get a bit of back pain, the small dose of kratom makes it virtually unnoticeable.
Frederick Gooddale - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 20:18:12 EST NY88//7+ No.133002 Reply
Get a standing desk? Despite what other people said I never remember withdrawals from Kratom.. though when I used it heavily I was on other drugs. I take 7g now to start the day. Only problem I ever had with kratom was one day I got blackout drunk on whisky and had been taking shitloads of kratom. I eventually took a shit so painful and large it was probably similar to giving birth. Took like 45 mins to pass it and I knew if I didn't that I was going to get a bowel obstruction and end up in the ER. Terrible experience. Glad to hear it works for you though.
Frederick Gooddale - Mon, 16 Dec 2019 20:19:03 EST NY88//7+ No.133003 Reply
For clarification this was after heavy intoxication. So, the body being dehydrated or whatever.


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- Wed, 28 Aug 2019 18:47:43 EST I05363gQ No.132658
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YOUR DESTROYING YOUR BRAIN CELLS huffing all the shit you niggas huff.

Enjoy self induced retardation for a plebian joke of a high.

This may sound like an attempt to astart a flame war but it's truly harm reduction.

You guys are killing your brains and either dont care (looking at you Crazy fucked tribe) or are just too ignorant and stupified to realize it
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CrazyFolksTribe !owU3wSU682 - Mon, 11 Nov 2019 02:40:47 EST sDWIyc5N No.132903 Reply
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Thanks OP, I never realized that. Lmao
Arron Jolly - Mon, 18 Nov 2019 04:23:41 EST wD5pWP52 No.132939 Reply
>This may sound like an attempt to astart a flame war but it's truly harm reduction.
As if you care op LMAO
Sophie Drobberpare - Thu, 12 Dec 2019 20:13:44 EST sEhZQij6 No.132995 Reply

Did taimapedia take a shit?

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- Tue, 16 Jan 2018 03:16:31 EST zWhjn3mb No.130649
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So I'm compiling a list of potentially recreational items that can bought legally through amazon and have little to no preparation.
Feel free to add to the list and include info.


LSA (ergine) - A precursor to LSD. It's structurally similar but is said to have almost not similarity trip wise. Little visuals with heavy body and mind load.
It can be obtained from hawaiian baby woodrose seeds and morning glory seeds. Be sure they're marked as untreated because you don't want to eat pesticides.

DMT - Dmt is pretty well known at this point, and occurs naturally in a ton of things including our own brains. You can find bulk plants containing this chemical as well as resins for the purpose of ayahuasca or acid-base extractions.
Remember that it's only orally active with an MAOI. Plants containing MAOI's such as syrian rue are found in the "frequently purchased together" category conveniently enough.

Mescaline - Amazon used to sell cactus cuttings but it looks like there are none anymore. You can still find legal mescaline containing cacti including San Pedro and Peruvian Torch on ebay and every other market though.
People generally make a disgusting gloopy reduction tea or acid-base extraction.

Propylhexedrine- A synthetic stimulant and analogue of meth. It can be found in inhalers and nasal decongestants such as benzedrex for it's potent vasoconstricting properties. When abused the high is said to be similar to a strong amphetamine dose.
The tube of decongestant is cracked open and the cotton inside is soaked in water until it dissolves or at least softens up. You can just eat the cotton but it has essential oils and taste like shit. Supposedly also can clog your shit tubes so maybe blend it into a smoothie if you can't wait for it to soak.

DXM - Probably the most well known otc high. I probably don't even need to elaborate on this one, but might as well. It's found in cough syrups. If you're gonna do it, make sure you don't take something with any other active ingredients. NONE. Sugar alcohols are inactive but will also give you horrible stomach issues so unless you want to spend your trip pissing out of your asshole, avoid those too if you can.

N2O - Laughing gas. Super fun, but short lived and can become expensive as shit if you're doing it back to back. It's used to make whipped cream and you can find them in boxes of hundreds... you know... in case you have an industrial sized bakery. You need a whipped cream dispenser or cracker and balloon if you want to squeeze the sweet sweet lung juice out of them though so it's an investment.

Opium - Let me tell you guys a story. Back in the hey days of the wild west web you could actually buy entire poppy pods. These were and still are to a lesser degree used as decorations. You could literally get bags of fucking opium filled pods sent to your house.
Sadly like most once legal drugs it became too popular and people started overdosing and being too blatant. Now you can only find them super expensive and heavily regulated. Even if you do they're sometimes washed out. It's not worth it anymore.
That being said, you can still get unwashed and untreated poppy seeds which aren't psychoactive themselves but if unwashed contain residual amounts of opium from the lining of the pods.
People generally put them in water and shake the shti out of it then drink the water. It's pretty dangerous since you can't gauge the dose, but lol opium nod.
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Emma Fongerstudging - Thu, 28 Nov 2019 01:44:23 EST fyTi8KVj No.132961 Reply
also kratom; 100% legal and you can buy it both online AND in gas stations if thats your thing.
Caroline Brepperson - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 19:23:12 EST NY88//7+ No.132975 Reply
I fucking hate kratom it's never done anything but make me feel sick. I don't know what the hell people are talking about in saying it gets you high and is an opiate and is addictive. Goddamn this is like taking DPH to get high and it's fucking garbo. I've had like 6 different kinds of kratom and now that I can't use actual drugs (getting tested like crazy) I was trying to use this shit again and it just makes me disappointed and nauseous.

combining dph with dxm is like smearing shit on a religious statue. take DXM by itself and don't even think about ever taking dph. you will regret it.
Caroline Paddlelock - Sun, 08 Dec 2019 06:50:15 EST dFGWqEj9 No.132985 Reply
>I fucking hate kratom it's never done anything but make me feel sick
are you on any medications and when you've tried it were you combining it with other drugs, including anything like caffeine?

first few times i tried kratom I just felt weird and kinda sick and didnt like it. tried it again a few years later and it was pretty decent... some of the time. other times it either didn't seem to do anything or just made me feel really off and cold rather than warm like it usually does, and I was start to get pounding headaches and feel generally awful kinda like i had the flu if i continued to take more.

thing is, this was changing not even just on a daily basis, but sometimes on an hourly basis. it would go from feeling decent and like an opioid to feeling nothing like an opioid and just making me feel strange and gross. turns out it's because i take cymbalta, an SNRI, and I also take phenibut daily as well. i also regularly consume large amounts of caffeine.

the biggest culprit for making it not feel like an opioid any more, or even starting to make me feel cold and strange/sick was the cymbalta. caffeine also seemed to prevent it from feeling like an opioid, but didn't make it make me feel strange and cold/sick unless I had just recently taken the cymbalta, in which case it exacerbated the effect greatly. phenibut seemed to have the least effect when it came to making it feel odd, non-opioid, and nauseating. phenibut on its own (several hours or even especially 24ish hours after last taking cymbalta) mostly just seemed to potentiate kratom's opioid-like and depressant effects. it would slightly exacerbate the negative effects of taking cymbalta and then kratomq when just combining those two, or could potentially greatly exacerbate the negative effects if i had taken cymbalta, kratom, and caffeine as well.... which im pretty sure is because phenibut and caffeine interact with each other in a kind of unique synergistic manner that really seems to alter the phenibut experience a lot more than simply adding on caffeine's effects on top of phenibut's effects.

that said, provided i time my dosages of everything correctly, i can still get some pretty powerful opioid-like effects out of kratom, it just took some time to get to knowing what i was doing. it's possible your negative experiences with kratom could be caused by something similar. either way, your experience of kratom isn't representative of most other people's experiences, so you're just gonna have to take our word for it. sucks to suck man

Watch out for atarax

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- Sun, 17 Nov 2019 02:34:20 EST NP9CWDCU No.132933
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It lets people control you, it’s a hit from medical.
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Ian Hollerwedge - Mon, 18 Nov 2019 21:57:34 EST AOT9RdOG No.132943 Reply
i have a bottle of hydroxyzine, it's actually pretty good for a no non-sense sleep aid that genuinely works but isn't recreational, kind of in the same league as Seroquel for me, good if I just need to get to sleep but I don't want to waste a benzo or something, usually just smoking works but I don't smoke all the time anymore
Oliver Pannerwill - Fri, 29 Nov 2019 21:48:38 EST fQCjMkIK No.132965 Reply
Hydroxyzine helped cure me of my panic attacks. Plus it intensifies orgasms in a similar way to dph, though not quite as intense and less heart strain.
Edwin Billingford - Wed, 04 Dec 2019 01:31:07 EST fQCjMkIK No.132974 Reply
Also hydroxyzine helped me overcome my manual breathing issues caused by prior dph abuse.

legal highs/special gold/pure

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- Fri, 29 Nov 2019 02:24:50 EST TzCuHmrC No.132962
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Anyone abused this shit?
I consumed this for almost 2 years and I even got into shooting it up, I've been clean since last year's September but I feel like it has done permanent damage in my brain, I can't focus on anything, I can barely read a book and before I used to be kind of a 'gifted' child, I was in the top of my class and I would win contests with no effort (I know grades don't necessarily mean you're intelligent, but I also used to think very quickly and be good at analyzing shit). Now I can't speak and think very coherently . Please stay away from shit like this, it's evil
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Walter Toothall - Tue, 03 Dec 2019 10:01:07 EST TzCuHmrC No.132972 Reply
yup , mephedrone in the earlier days but they were constantly changing the 'formula'
also interestingly it never made me horny, I'd just feel like running all the time. Psychotic running, of course

League of Legends General

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- Mon, 02 Dec 2019 05:58:06 EST cSoqtiGL No.132967
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I swear it's a drug.
Anyone elses DOC?
Priscilla Drablingspear - Mon, 02 Dec 2019 23:00:12 EST fQCjMkIK No.132968 Reply
Why play LoL when you could just play a game that is actually good?


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- Fri, 18 Oct 2019 14:33:32 EST laQA8X10 No.132855
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Are there any actual real benifits to over doseing on this?
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Kirtaner !Ub4TCdRjOM - Sat, 16 Nov 2019 14:11:00 EST IlhHKAAK No.132928 Reply
Welcome to 420chan, attitudes like this are asked to leave.
Ian Tootlock - Tue, 19 Nov 2019 00:34:52 EST gyrNqsjQ No.132944 Reply
I took a lot of ibuprofen once and it made my hands so swollen that it hurt to move my fingers.


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- Mon, 14 Oct 2019 20:03:43 EST ckPSKxAS No.132841
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is my doctor giving me placebos?
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what the actual fuck - Sat, 23 Nov 2019 09:08:06 EST CDu0lKZO No.132949 Reply
I'd bet that it's illegal in most other countries too, but.....................................................................................................................................................................
how the fuck do you know that OP is from US?
Why do you americans always think that everyone here is from the same damn country. Wtf? Geography calss??? Hello??????
Barnaby Summlefield - Wed, 27 Nov 2019 05:04:25 EST b1i2VEdt No.132959 Reply
Because America is the only country that matters.

checkmate, faggot.


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- Sat, 16 Nov 2019 15:04:51 EST HkirepiJ No.132929
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Any of you guys ever use kanna? Whats the best way to take it and best beginner dose?
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Shit Wedgetork - Sun, 17 Nov 2019 22:21:10 EST vPUd/cPM No.132938 Reply
Kanna is kind of mediocre tbh. It's okay for anti-anxiety, but shit in terms for a recreational drug
Nigel Panningcocke - Mon, 18 Nov 2019 09:27:17 EST HkirepiJ No.132940 Reply
Didnt feel anything too powerful, next time i will try taking .5g chewed.
Archie Changersat - Tue, 19 Nov 2019 22:12:22 EST 2gV3LlZg No.132946 Reply
Kanna is a mild child, you would get higher off Kratom or alot of Kava in my opinion, however Kanna is VERY good for enhancing the effects of Cannabis and is often marketed for it. Best way to take it is by mouth, don't bother trying to snort it.

St johns wort (and other shit in general)

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- Thu, 07 Nov 2019 13:56:15 EST yoNYEDjx No.132890
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I've bought st johns wort but was told/knew there were interactions. Did some "research" I THINK it;s both a ssri and a maoi.

Now here's the thing I take a bunch of other shit and have a bunch of herbs/stuff I haven't even tried yet. The full list is: (shit I take right now, daily) ashwaganda, bacopa, siberian ginseng, ginseng complex, maca (blend of 3), ginko bilboa, sidenote i also take mucuna but im not too sure about it's effects but i did read yesterday it contains n-dmt so any exra info/interactions/experience with this would also help and a bunch of vitamins and stuff like zinc potassium magnesium and some spirulina and chlorella, now for the shit i don't take/ am planning to incorpate to my daily intake: green tea, tulsi (holy basil) gutu kola, astralagus, neem (probs not but still) cordyceps, reishi, and lions mane.

Erowid has been only been of minimal help and the internet in general doesn't have a whole lot of info on the subject of st john wort interactions and other included so I hope there's somebody who is well versed in herbal interactions/dangers that could educate me on the subject before I serotonin syndrome myself (also saw a story on erowid that somebody uses st john wort to deal with the comedown of mdma) or spoonfeed a retard in general before I i break my brain/ overload my nervous system like a fucking spaz

Even if nobody replies to the question at hand it's all good.
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Fucking Gooddock - Sat, 16 Nov 2019 10:02:33 EST yoNYEDjx No.132925 Reply
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19.6 and pretty low activity due spending most of my day at my PC/being sedentary. I would not call myself fit at all due to seeming inability to keep up routines/stick to plans and my endless procrastination. The only achievement/thing I forced myself to do lately is to "meditate" (read: focus/stare at a candle pretty badly and inconsistent) when I get out and am going to bed, and taking a cold shower everyday. I've also been trying to not fap and such but failing in that regard.

The real answer would be to maximize "brain potential" whatever the fuck that means and be at "peak performance" even though I literally do nothing. I hope to break through some kind of wall of my utter lack of persistence regarding all aspects of life and wish to reach a modicum of inner achievement to stop being a retarded piece of shit. I would probably better off just doing some kind of sport or working out but ya know the whole procrastination/persistence thing; I've had the same video up on my browser for a month now, everyday I load it up, but never watch it. I know there's no "ez hack" to life and stuff like this. All in all I hope it helps me to improve myself and make me less retarded.

Ever been able to tell exactly what's wrong with yourself but never do anything with it? Or that you know what you need to change, but you never do. I just seem unable to follow my own advice (that I've given to others aswell), example; I know that stagnation is degradation yet I'm fine with stagnating it seems. It's like I'm fine with slowly sinking in a pit of ever growing negatives and slowly closing doors and I just don't care anymore except that part of my mind that knows that this isn't right, and everytime you resolve yourself to get yourself out of your own mental pit you give up before you ever start because "I can do it later" even when you know there's only now, or "you can't be bothered". It's like being in a house and seeing a small fire start but you can't even give enough fucks to put it out and despite you knowing you'll choke and burn to death and you're fine with it. I feel like I have grown content with feeling like shit internally because it's all I ever knew and have convinced myself that I feel happy/good, ironically this period of my life I have felt the best due to becoming a neet for a year after dropping out of uni after 2 1/2 years and basically giving up due to the required social aspect and forced group work when nobody liked me and I had no friends (as I don't have anyways (and don't maintain relationships)), and having no measuring stick to compare my feelings to except the ignorant bliss of childhood I have no concept what 'happiness' is or what it's supposed to feel like or what it would even 'do for me'. So despite feeling 'good' I seriously suspect that I don't feel good at all and don't even realize it even though I feel 'better' than I ever did. I suspect my situation is akin to improperly lacquered wood where from the outside and even introspectively everything seems good and sound but I am slowly rotting away from the inside unaware (yet I am "aware" but unwilling to do anything). But then again like I said; looking back this is all I seem to know anyways so what the fuck do I really know. Oh and I hope it will grow my brains to it's full potential before I hit 25 and to improve/keep neuroplasticity so I'm not "stuck" and perma-fucked.

Sorry for blogposting and being a dramaqueen/not staying on topic but whatever have a unrelated jpg
Alice Mezzlepid - Sun, 17 Nov 2019 20:42:30 EST f733IYDs No.132935 Reply
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Figure out your education and employment
Get something of a social life
Get a girlfriend, or even just try talking to women if you think it would be helpful (maybe this part is more or less important, idk)
Make sure your diet is okay
Get enough sleep

Etc etc etc, start sorting yourself out, it will take weeks and months and years but its what life is about.

On a more specific note you seem to be concerned that you're stagnating. I think it'd be important to just start whenever/wherever you can, you can bring yourself to order over time, don't think you know everything or can plan any of this very well, you will figure it out in time.

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