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>Your post made me think that It might not be a bad thing though, there must be something good about feeling the sadnessIt definitely doesn't have to be a bad thing. I'm generally okay with feeling negative or unpleasant emotions/feelings anyway, but they really don't bother me at all while tripping. Something about tripping on psychedelics in general (or dissociatives in this case too) makes me more than just totally okay with it, but almost so that I even enjoy them too in a really "the fact i can feel this way or any way at all is beautiful in itself" kind of way that I feel a rather deep, reverent appreciation for.
Psychedelic and dissociative trips for me are a kind of spiritually, emotionally, and existentially holistic kind of experience that reflect the fundamental nature and machinations of the universe and my conscious experience of reality as a whole. Each trip individually as well as all of them collectively are a microcosm of life that reflects the macrocosm of existence, conscious experience, and the human condition. This includes both joy and sorrow and in general is comprised of many polar opposites, which through the course of the experience, eventually become reconciled with one another and form something new and whole in unity, beyond the limitations of our normally dualistic conscious experience. Typically this most poignantly takes the form of ego death, but even on trips where ego death isn't experienced, the dual nature of reality and the human experience becomes whole through the unconditional acceptance and embracement of, as well as appreciation for, the parts of our life experiences we try our utmost to reject, avert our eyes from, distance and shelter ourselves from, and especially run away/escape from; namely, pain, suffering, unpleasantness, discomfort, cognitive dissonance, unease, unpredictability, shame, fear, disdain, lack of control, the unknown, and the other shadowy, darker parts of our reality.
Without these experiences in concert with the more easily celebrated and cherished experiences of joy, love, trust, understanding, etc., no experience is possible. No matter how often, while sober, I wish I didn't feel a certai…
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