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As much as I did my best to make sure I didn't describe it incorrectly, it seems that I did anyways haha. I don't assume roles, or pat myself on the back like ,"yeah dude I'm so good at doing drugs haha look at my grassroots hat brah bro do u know about fractals bro," but I see behaviors coming before they happen, I can detect body language, I can see when people are slipping. I understand that I'm still a relative noob and that there are sages far beyond my understanding, but at the same time I'm not going to be modest and say that I don't know shit about shit. Ya know?
Regardless, I've still had multiple people call me things in my original post. So I'm not assuming anything, people around me just made it a "thing," even though I would prefer they didn't..
I make sure to do my best not to come off as condescending, self rightous, ego stricken etc. because I used to in the past, so I understand how important it is to communicate with others in a way that allows them to be open to listening. Simply through my actions and me handling situations well, helping people achieve beautiful break through's, heal, understand/accept themselves it's a reputation I've garnered in my small circle of friends.
As to how I was talking to the girl, she was complaining incessantly for about 10 minutes and to be honest, I was starting to get annoyed so I wanted not only to help her trip harder like she thought she wanted to, but also so that she would stop fucking up the head space.. A little selfish and impatient in retrospect. I basically calmly had a conversation with her like "If you're wanting to have specific experiences like in this movie or that music video it's really gonna hold you back because one of the main themes of psychedelics is learning to surrender," not talking down to her, nothing rude just trying to help her understand things and giving her tools to navigate tripping better. Keep in mind this is someone on like their 3rd trip or something. I put on moving art and boards of canada, she didnt go for that. I told her she'd feel better if she got up, stretched, and got her blood moving she'd feel better, didn't want to do that either. I explained to her the concept of what I call the "acid kinks," that restless, uneasy energy that builds up in the come up that i find stretching, moving, etc. basically completely eradicates. So like, I tried putting on some pretty fuckin bread and butter trippy shit, tried to get her to go from the dark, small bed room to the sunshine living room, but she just wanted to sit there and pout so idk what i was supposed to do. Changed the music for her, asked her if the TV was too much turned it off, did everything i could. I can't trip for you.
I get that I'm not obligated to show anyone "the light," but when I see someone struggling or having a hard time I can't ignore it, man. I don't view myself as this rightous flower of life third eye woke as fuck peladian god, just someone that's been in a headspace slightly more times than some people.