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!GD3wBpep0Y - Sun, 13 Aug 2017 12:14:49 EST d5kHsYag No.518069
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Hi folks,

If you're looking to talk to someone immediately about any problems you have in your life and have nobody close to you, come and speak to us!

Join us on IRC on #qq. Most of us have different time zones but if you stay there, one of us will be there.

Don't be afraid to speak up.
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William Hicklehut - Wed, 24 Jun 2020 15:20:54 EST qTml9FbR No.535050 Reply
>>534956

This. Ink, paint, or gtfo. Any "mistake" is just a happy accident waiting to be transformed into a new vision, and something to be learned from.
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Lillian Burringhood - Thu, 25 Jun 2020 09:54:07 EST 1SSFeKJF No.535072 Reply
>>535050
But that's not what he said. What he said was
>mistakes mean failure
Though actually what he means is
>I'm wasting your time.
At this point it's more likely he's a trolling than putting this much effort into "Low effort" rebuttals.

He was talking about drawing the owl not fine art. You've let him move the goalposts. Ignore him, stop him drowning out real people and real problems.
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Phyllis Shittingman - Thu, 02 Jul 2020 01:01:13 EST S6WwTyS/ No.535193 Reply
>>518069
I got off work and was tired and took a nap and now I feel guilty, should I feel guilty?

idk what else i want

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- Tue, 14 Jul 2020 01:15:10 EST zLz8KnuE No.535285
File: 1594703710171.gif -(2070B / 2.02KB, 224x224) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. idk what else i want
i am very, very happy. i have a great life, with great friends, pretty solid mental health (my meds have finally begun working) and i don't want for anything at all. but when i'm left on my own to think about things, i get this clawing sense of dread and i have no fucking idea what else i can do to improve my current circumstances. i've come so far with my mental health and i've put myself out there socially and yet it feels like something is missing and i don't know what else to do

How do talk to wamen?

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- Sat, 04 Jul 2020 12:27:42 EST /WTRsasU No.535233
File: 1593880062622.jpg -(85266B / 83.27KB, 900x960) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. How do talk to wamen?
I used to suffer from pretty strong anxiety, to the point that I used a load of different drugs to deal with it (some legal, some not, some prescribed, some not). But After years I got myself mostly sorted out. I've not had anxiety or panic attacks for a couple years now.

But there's one area left that shoots me full of anxiety. Asking a woman out on a date. I lock up and feel deep fear of rejection and embarassment if I just walk up and be like "yo, wanna go to dinner?" I'm not even sure what the correct way to approach this is.

For real, I've had a few girlfriends before, but I was super fucking smashed or high at the time, I also almost melted down even then. AFTER asking them out if they say yes, it's easy for me. The rest is cake. But it's that start point that fucks me up.

It's been a couple years since I tried to even get a girlfriend and I met a beautiful and intelligent woman I work with. She seems interested and friends urge me to ask her out, telling me she's interested. But holy crap my stupid brain just fills me with fear.

I need advice, or techneques rather, that might help me deal with these feelings. I know that largely it's a "just do it" thing, where there's not much I can do aside from just taking the leap. But I'd like to know of any general tips that might help keep me cool calm and collected. I don't have to be some super Lando Calrissian here, just able.

Maybe (no wait, I deffinatly am) I'm over thinking it, maybe I just need to freak out here before I'm ready. But, yeah, well, here it is? Thanks in advance random internet people.
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Ian Worthingfuck - Mon, 13 Jul 2020 12:41:36 EST 09Am+uhg No.535282 Reply
>>535278
Yeah asking someone out is a lot different than harassing them or being a creep toward them all the time

Sorry she said no but im proud of you OP!!
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Nigel Pickwater - Mon, 13 Jul 2020 20:50:12 EST jnas4L6T No.535284 Reply
>>535273

every time you experience this it becomes less of a big deal. ive had my share of "yes" responses and my share of "no" responses, the no's make you chill the fuck out, in my opinion. like "well she might say no, whatever" "oh look she said no, ok then, moving on" idk man thats just what i think

loner autist moving in with normie zoomer girls

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- Wed, 01 Jul 2020 09:18:45 EST 7NEuTW8z No.535178
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just want some advice. i am 25 year old male loner autist with zero social skills, currently trying to move out of parent's for the summer. in the process of trying to secure a sub-let only problem is it's a house of 3 other girls aged 19-23 and one guy.

the girl who is subletting the room wants to meet me this weekend to discuss it.

i am not a creep and my intention is nothing but to leave these people alone and peacefully coexist with them. however my experience with girls this age is (perhaps understandably) that they are uptight, suspicious, and untrusting and do not seem to differentiate between 'awkward' and 'creepy'. what i mean by that is if you are the type that is notably socially awkward and uncomfortable in social situations they tend to think you are hiding something sinister and potential psycho simply because you are not socialised.

any advice on how to make these girls think i have no bad intentions and mean no harm without coming off like some SIMP ?

i just wanna live independently for a bit and all i can remotely afford are these house share type situations. i would just not interact with them but i fear this may be difficult in 5 bedroom house. any advice appreciated thanks.

i'm bisexual and just as socially awkward around guys too but guys tend to be more chilled out and not as paranoid about that kind of thing
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Barnaby Fibblebanks - Sun, 05 Jul 2020 13:20:16 EST LUAyeKAb No.535247 Reply
>>535213
>CBT
the fuck has cock and ball torture ever had to do with anything what the fuck are you a bunch of candyasses
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Cornelius Chettingstit - Mon, 13 Jul 2020 15:23:04 EST ENzLEZVb No.535283 Reply
>>535204
>it's potentially dangerous as it could lead to resentment and anger
Aw shit... what if I'm already there?

Finally got into unemployment and already fucked it up

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- Sat, 11 Jul 2020 14:52:39 EST 7mQGVnhJ No.535275
File: 1594493559887.jpg -(134399B / 131.25KB, 1300x866) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Finally got into unemployment and already fucked it up
I filed in the beginning of May and was only just approved. I started claiming weekly benefits during my time slot today, going all the way back to the week of March 31st, which is when my side job closed down because of COVID.

By the time I got to the week of 4/12 to 4/18, I listed that I didn't do any work, because my primary job is at a school and that was the week of our spring break.

After I hit submit, the system said that because I claimed a week with income followed by a week without, I had to reopen my claim and change something about question #1. I just tried doing that using my PIN and the site said "you could not be authenticated," with the only other option being to exit the application.

Am I fucked? I sent an email to my state's unemployment insurance director with the same information as in this post. I've never had to go through the whole unemployment process, so this is all new and confusing to me. I live in New Jersey, if that's helpful.
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Alice Smallworth - Sat, 11 Jul 2020 19:27:21 EST ehXzQxG7 No.535276 Reply
>>535275
Unemployment is fucked everywhere right now. I applied in March and my status had been "approved - in review" for months. You'll probably be without checks for a while but at this point, who knows?

Might as well watch Evangelion in the meantime to wait it out.
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Clara Creddlefodging - Mon, 13 Jul 2020 11:40:25 EST 7mQGVnhJ No.535281 Reply
>>535276
That blows, sorry to hear. I hope you hear back soon and get your money.

The system let me in this morning to reopen my claim and fix whatever it wanted me to fix. Although I also realized too late that I reported the wrong amount of income for my school job; I listed it as $806 per bi-monthly paycheck, instead of $403 per week, which is what they wanted. I'm double fucked.

Will report back on Wednesday when I correct it on my claim for the week of 4/19 to 4/25 and it gives me another error.

my cat is missing

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- Fri, 15 May 2020 22:52:30 EST MHw4zt7g No.534610
File: 1589597550163.jpg -(38134B / 37.24KB, 528x480) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. my cat is missing
shes my best friend and the best friend i ever had
its been 4 days now
ive done all the things; posters, food/litter outside, cauht someone elses cat in a trap, went around looking, asked people to look for her.
how do i stop my insides from feeling like theyre made of nails
how do i stop screaming and crying
why does the universe make us suffer
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Alice Bickleworth - Fri, 26 Jun 2020 07:15:31 EST O1E8SiQM No.535107 Reply
>>535008
what are you talking about, dogs run away all the time and they are way less likely to come back because dogs are idiots, once they are gone they are gone. a cat can find her way back
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Ernest Dommlestock - Mon, 13 Jul 2020 00:33:04 EST Wn5bXA/F No.535280 Reply
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>>534610
When i was younger the family cat ran away for 3 days and came back preggo.

I’m Cooler Than You Guys

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- Tue, 23 Jun 2020 01:34:59 EST y0iK7Iy7 No.535017
File: 1592890499876.jpg -(44911B / 43.86KB, 640x360) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I’m Cooler Than You Guys
Don’t take it personally if you don’t need to. I live with my father who is an honest man.

My mother married an LAPD thug who isn’t my father. One of the most abusive and uncaring people I’ve met when he doesn’t care about you. A monster at the end of the day.

The worst part is I like him. He’s trash though like the rest of LAPD. Mexican, White,Black,Asian whatever the fuck they call themselves they’re all bastards.

Meanwhile my real father is at risk of death because of me and my problems. If my mother hadn’t married him I would be normal as fuck. I wouldn’t have mental problems at all.

prove me wrong mother fuckers
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Matilda Sammlekot - Sun, 28 Jun 2020 17:39:06 EST ApD5b+Tp No.535162 Reply
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>>535153
Yeah it’s completely unfair. It’s unjust and it’s not right.
I’ve made mistakes but I’ve never killed anyone.
I’ve never raped anyone. And I’ve never harmed anyone.
My life has already ended because of them it’s been over since
I was a kid. Yeah I’ve been to jail before.

I’m a victim of some high level MKULTRA shit.
So happy I did not go to Stanford University.
It would have been worse. So much drama.
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Matilda Sammlekot - Sun, 28 Jun 2020 17:44:30 EST ApD5b+Tp No.535163 Reply
I know that you assholes know I go to two different Colleges.
It’s in the computer it’s a cake walk for you idiots to get that information.
They’re both in a State, Federal, and County database.
I’m using my real name and social. Not two different aliases in addition
to wearing disguises or something.

You guys are just Fucks about everything.
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Cyril Subberfig - Sun, 12 Jul 2020 05:01:55 EST 0bypL0S0 No.535277 Reply
My mom married LA county sheriff who got caught taking a bribe and convicted. Then poisened my mom to death . Got away with it bc she had chemo. Then his new wife "committed suicide" . Though autopsy says otherwise he's being investigated now

References and new jobs

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- Tue, 07 Jul 2020 08:41:32 EST ObhhTE06 No.535257
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Before covid virus I was trying to move into higher paying roles so I was applying for a lot of positions, I used 2 references from my work. I didn't get the first 2 interviews but it was a competitive intake so it wasn't bad, then I finally got a position and lost it because of COVID and then lost ANOTHER job due to the same fucking covid problems etc. ..... I've seen some of the reference forms my supervisors had to fill out, they were fucking extensive and really felt like such a big ask of them. I'm going for my 5th interview this week and I'm going to have to ask my references to fill out a form for a 5th fucking time.... Fuck this shitty practice it's just some relic from the 50s why do I have to do it. Do you think I could arrange something with my interview and explain that I don't want to keep bothering my refs?
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[name redacted] !h55/E7mIo6 - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 10:32:07 EST EZP69gAu No.535267 Reply
>>535257
What were the reference forms asking? I've been on interview panels for two larger corporations and in both companies, we only called references for the person we were going to offer the job, and the next in line, and this was after the decision was made. Even then, the phone calls wouldn't be longer than 10 minutes, basically asking about certain programs they would've had to use in their old job, how they used them, if they could use it well, etc.

Never a paper form though, unless government jobs still do it like >>535258 said
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Simon Gemblenit - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 18:24:21 EST 1SSFeKJF No.535271 Reply
>>535267
I actually work in local government and they don't do it here. However every local government organisation is a separate body and most are not in the same country as me. Largely the ones in my country try to be ahead, or at least on the curve in terms of employment practices.
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Jarvis Famblelock - Thu, 09 Jul 2020 09:44:55 EST cmK+eWz5 No.535272 Reply
>>535271
I've worked in countries that require a retinal scan on entry but still need fingerprints submitted in ink, it makes no difference where you are.

Dealing with past regrets on /psy/

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- Mon, 06 Jul 2020 01:26:41 EST lYwVS2OU No.535250
File: 1594013201063.png -(2234948B / 2.13MB, 1920x1080) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Dealing with past regrets on /psy/
This might be a odd theme, but to clarify, i've been a shitty ex in the past, the manipulative, over controling, anxious and paranoid, i was really stalker after the end of the relationship too.

I think as many people who visit imageboards, i slowly got into this toxic belief women are all liars, bad people and stuff, this wasnt something i thought counsciously but it is something that over years since teenage years of going to 4chan, stuck until my first relationship, and made me a shitty abusive ex, never physically of coruse, just enough that i didnt at the time saw my actions as bad.

After it, i kind knew and learned i was a shitty person at the time, after realizing how mentally abusive i was, i went through a bad breakdown and had to revaluate myself as a person, and weirdly, this has come a lot from doing psychedelics.

My mind before was really neurotic, and worse it had this mentality everyone was gonna fuck me so better if i was ready, this only led me to being a shit person, and doing acid and later ayahuasca, made me realize how this behaviour hurt others, not in a vain sense, but a deep sense, like i was not in tune with other emotions most of my life and was unable therefore to see how bad i was hurting then, it was only on ayahuasca, that i felt something show me how deeply bad i was leading me to a huge purge, that i need to be more counscious of my actions, or else id just move into automatic behaviour, and in case i did, i needed to stop going to more "toxic" places that influenciated me uncounsciously.

Im not bragging or denying responsability, but i feel from the 19 to 25, i changed completely as a person, from those experiences, from maturing and from having a relationship that the person treated me like i treated my first ex, that last relationship funnily lasted much longer than it should cause i deep down felt i deserved it.

I know myself well and do therapy, i know how i changed, but i dont know how do i deal with this past self, to make sense, it creeps in constantly as guilt, if i do psychedelics for instance, i sometimes still can get overwhelmed by reminding how shitty i was, if i have a relationship that is good now, i cant really keep myself there, as in the uncounscious feeling of not deserving something good, for instance i miss my last ex compared to my new, because this girl is everything i could have asked for, and even tho i wouldnt do anything bad for her, i still feel bad just by being with her, as if i needed someone as "bad as me".

Its simply one thing to recognize i was a faulty person cause i was a person in a bad place who had only bad influences after years of solitude, but i dont think this justifies being a shitty person, i dont know basically, how should i redeem myself to my eyes, surely i grew as a person but my errors have been made already, and i cant just do a "christian" oh god forgave me thing to run away, i just wonder how other people who been shitty and realized it deal with it on a honest way, do they seek to make more good than they done bad? Do they just just ignore it until the grave, do they just rationalize it?

I feel i dont feel bad for that if i dont think about it, but if i dont think about it, im not only not getting in contact with this bad aspect of myself, im getting out of contact with all the other parts of me, its like if i have to access the "better of me", i also have to deal with my shadow, for instance, doing psychedelics as a teenager was light and fun, cause there wasnt much of a dark part of myself, or at least my teenager self wouldnt realize there was, doing then now means feeling overwhelming guilt and sorrow.
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Henry Nandlechuck - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 05:22:59 EST TtXni/Rr No.535266 Reply
>>535250

do you still hope on some level you can change or fix the past?
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Lillian Pimmerforth - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 17:36:48 EST s0jfgpr4 No.535269 Reply
>>535250
Psychedelics probably facilitated making you aware of the negative impact of your behavior, but considering you mentioned, "but i feel from the 19 to 25, i changed completely as a person", I'm honestly willing to bet having your frontal lobe almost finish developing and some real world experience probably have a bigger part to do with your improvement than you realize. Especially the fact your brain has mostly finished developing. It helps immensely to have properly functioning tools for processing and perceiving the world, your relationships with others, and planning for the future/realizing the potential future impact of your actions.

I'm not meaning to deny that it was your decision to improve and your recognition of the kind of person you were and how it was wrong, and the effort you put in to change that led to you improving, but considering my own experience and the experiences of friends and relatives, I've got more than a sneaking suspicion that it's brain development that played a surprisingly large factor in everything... because just about everybody I've known with problems has either just flat out not improved (despite being 28-32, I'm 29 for reference), or they improved the most and seemingly kind of out of nowhere around the ages of 23-26.
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Lillian Pimmerforth - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 17:40:30 EST s0jfgpr4 No.535270 Reply
I think the best way to put it is that psys are an excellent tool to shift your perspective and make you open to seeing things differently than you've come to normally see them, and I think that in combination with your brain almost being finished developing in the region that's specifically known for executive function (planning for the future, impulse control, regulating emotional impulses from the amygdala that the teenage brain seems to rely on much more, otherwise being in control of your actions and emotions) and social interaction allowed you to recognize how you were fucking up and also gave you the motivation and desire to take improving your behavior seriously.

The dreaded late in life virginity - suggestions for approaching this in a mature and healthy way?

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- Thu, 02 Jul 2020 11:41:43 EST GkC5zk+y No.535197
File: 1593704503292.jpg -(45956B / 44.88KB, 640x495) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. The dreaded late in life virginity - suggestions for approaching this in a mature and healthy way?
Hello /QQ/,


Recently I found myself in a bit of a quandary. I spent a majority of high school/college as a socially awkward, hallucinogenic drug abusing, loner-type unable to get a girlfriend. I am the only person to blame - I was a drug abusing asocial weirdo so it is no surprise people did not want to be around me. I am now 26 years old with a good career, my own place, and made a lot of progress in forgiving myself and letting go of a lot of self-loathing that plagued me for years.After months of extreme isolation during this lock down (and hitting the internet porn a little too hard) I found myself somewhat fixated on my non-existent romantic life and I have come here to see if there are any suggestions on how I should approach this delicate situation. Sexual repression does not work, just look at the catholic church. I thought quitting porn/fapping would help but it just made me think about sex even more. I know this is silly and its not that big of a deal, but I am caught in a feedback loop of thinking about it and getting nervous about the whole thing which makes me think about it more. I feel like something has to be done so I can move on with my life already.


What I have been considering is the following:

  1. Escorts: Get it all over with in one hour. I am way to focused on the idea of sex, turning a mole hill into a mountain and treating it like the holy grail. Perhaps getting the main event done and out of the way will force me to see its not all its cracked up to be and help with self-confidence around women. I recently contacted an escort but backed out at the last minute due to fear of STDs, an arrest record, getting robbed, etc. it's a lot of things that could go wrong just to satisfy an animalistic desire. I also know this will be an empty experience devoid of any real human connection and I think that is what is at the heart of what I am seeking. Is this what hitting rock bottom feels like?


2. Online dating: A safer bet than escorts, however how will these women react when I tell them I have never even kissed a girl? Other than a girlfriend in middle school I am starting from square one. Am I even capable of intimacy? Surely I will have to tell them this because it will become obvious how inexperienced I am? These are the things swirling around in mind of the late-in-life virgin that have prevented me from going through with any of this. Fear of rejection - how can someone take so much acid and still have a frail little ego? I am an average looking person not really worried about my looks but I am very worried about my social abilities.

3. Work on self-improvement: I am I not ready for this? Am I inviting more trouble into my life? Love is an emotional minefield that I may not be prepared for. Maybe a combination of psychotherapy and increased socialization will help me get over this? I have come to recognize that no manic-pixie-dream girl is going to save me from crippling loneliness and that I have to be the one to step up to solve this. Girls, and people in general, do not want to be around a depressed neurotic.This has played into my increasing loneliness but I find my neuroticism getting worst due to loneliness; again it's another feedback loop. Maybe I need to start working on solving the causes of why women want nothing to do with me which comes down to my own emotional and social problems.


TL;DR: Late in life virgin starting to get a handle on life, TFW no GF, how to start from square one? Obsessing over sex and not realizing the importance of human connection and having someone to confide in - worried I am turning into an Elliot Roger type by fixating on it. Escort vs. online dating vs. therapy to address underlying issues?

I appreciate anyone for reading and any advice, It helped me think about some things just typing this out. I want to stop obsessing over this and just move on. Sex and love was intended to be a beautiful thing (at leas that's what the songs, television programs, and advertisements told me) but right now it just makes me feel sick to my stomach.
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Henry Nandlechuck - Wed, 08 Jul 2020 05:19:55 EST TtXni/Rr No.535265 Reply
>>535197

hang on, you said how you want to solve this but you never said why it's a problem.

I know American Pie and all that shite pretends that this matters, but apart from the shitty rom-com milieu, which unfortunately affects all of us.. what specifically makes this seem like an issue? You mention loneliness, which is agony, and an escort won't solve loneliness and yet she is still on the table.

I like the idea of therapy or counselling to help you build up some self compassion you seem like a good guy, you don't seem like a bitter hateful narcissistic mass shooter who unceasingly blames everyone else for his problems

how to stop sabotaging myself?

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- Sun, 05 Jul 2020 10:16:16 EST 0PGlBOuQ No.535245
File: 1593958576628.jpg -(18738B / 18.30KB, 480x480) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. how to stop sabotaging myself?
I tell myself i wanna be happy. Doesn't everyone wanna be happy? I try to do things that will make me happy, but i sabotage it every time. is this a normal thing? i do benzos and opiods recreationally. i am not dependent on them. i don't know why i continue to do it when i know it is just making my life worse. what do i do to stop myself from ruining my life.
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Barnaby Fibblebanks - Sun, 05 Jul 2020 13:25:24 EST LUAyeKAb No.535248 Reply
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>>535246
Sometimes in Vietnam a foot patrol would get pocketed behind enemy lines in a way where any sort of help would be a miracle short from a massive counter-attacking operation.

Whatever weird ass comment you are trying to say, then say it. "What do you do for other people?" Wow, what an asshole! Fuck this guy.
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Archie Garrystone - Sun, 05 Jul 2020 13:31:23 EST +rYLvVZR No.535249 Reply
>>535248
Great response that discourages use of the board. When do you people leave?
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Nathaniel Shittingstone - Mon, 06 Jul 2020 08:49:39 EST 0PzMAsHd No.535252 Reply
I don't know your exact situation, but I'm guessing you don't have any long term plans.
What do you mean with happy? I'm happy when I'm high, but that's probably not what you mean.
Try to be concrete to yourself what you mean with 'happy' and try to work to that goal.
The reason you do benzos and shit is because you don't really have a drive to reach something; you just wanna be "happy" whatever that is.

Feeling a little strange

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- Tue, 05 May 2020 09:31:57 EST YyoyDpFf No.534483
File: 1588685517054.png -(12228B / 11.94KB, 1360x768) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Feeling a little strange
Hi /qq/, hope y'all are doing okay.

I dunno if anyone here has had a similar experience, or feels the same way but hoping maybe someone could relate or if they had, if things had changed for them eventually.

I'll try not to make this too long but basically I'm in my late 20's and am starting to feel a little like I'm just waiting, constantly. It's hard to explain but I've tried different things to try to find something that made the days feel interesting, and all of it was helpful in some ways I think, but none of it really stuck with me past a few months. I learned an instrument, went to uni to study, started exercising daily and eating well I got very into different religions for a while, joined a church, became a monk, moved cities, moved islands, tried different jobs, made close friends and then tried isolating myself socially.

The problem is that I've tried everything I can think of that even seems vaguely interesting, but I don't really feel a lot about any of it. I don't hate doing it, but I just don't really feel anything in particular. It's like a feeling of just waiting, all the time. . I really just feel like I wish there was an off switch we could pull and it'd be like we never knew anyone. Seeing funerals, dying really affects people and so I don't think something like suicide is the answer but the idea of having to keep doing this for potentially another 30-40 years really doesn't make me happy to be here.

I don't know if any of this makes sense. But if any of you have felt like this before, is there something to do, or to look at that makes life seem worth it? Because if we're here for some reason there has to be something to do or practice that makes it worthwhile.

Sorry for the kind of rant /qq/, I think this comes across a little edgy, but I don't really know how to word feelings like this.
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William Soddledock - Thu, 14 May 2020 10:39:48 EST ySK+6TA1 No.534579 Reply
>>534569
Thanks for the apt TL;DR, can't help but make walls of text on adderall a lot of the time
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Cornelius Nicklebury - Sun, 05 Jul 2020 02:50:11 EST YyoyDpFf No.535242 Reply
>>534484
Thanks for thieadvice. I wonder if this kind of thing is quite common for a lot of people growing into adulthood. I guess for the majority of people in early childhood pretty much everything you do is given to you in neatly segmented blocks, ending daily in set bed times and the like. I might try making more structured plans for daily things I want to do and see if that helps work towards specific things.

>>534486
I did but eventually the necrosis makes all of this hard and you've gotta find other options


>>534568

That's honestly really great you've managed to find a way to invest energy/productivity in a way that's fulfilling. I guess even if you recognise the job itself isn't fulfilling, you can get fulfillment through the amount of effort and energy and time you're putting in as a way of training self-discipline. Maybe not being so important exactly what you're doing specifically, as a way to give yourself focus. I'll take this as advice for trying to at least cultivate focus in the things i am doing day to day.

Thanks /qq/. Still quite unsure if there's anything worth persuing exactly but maybe will look at the advice you hear about focusing on emotions themselves and how you're interacting with things and focus on that aside from starting new study soon. Hope you're all having an okay time wherever you are, remember to stay hydrated.

Mostly Venting

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- Sat, 04 Jul 2020 15:11:43 EST FO3wrxBb No.535237
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I'm stuck in a socially isolated rut.

I'm in grad school and I have no one to talk to who I want to talk to. I've tried talking to people and being supportive but I feel like they think it comes out of nowhere because I tend to be quiet and avoiding of contact most of the time. I just can't change anything and it has me feeling bad.

I don't know if it's my fault for not consistently being better or if there's nothing I could have ever done about it. I don't know if people think I'm some spaz or if they think I'm a cold and aloof robot. Maybe they have no thoughts about me, or it's a mix of different things. They don't know the real me and I haven't had an opportunity to show them and I feel like I can't talk to them. That's not what I want to be and this isn't the life I want to be living forever.

The proper move could be investing in people who are actually supportive and who I can actually talk to. It would feel like a complete social reset though. There's a part of my that wishes that I could involve the people I already know and that I wouldn't have to completely restart my life, but that doesn't feel possible because a tone has already been set and we'll all go our separate ways before things change. Good people are also hard to find and I'm worried that they'd wouldn't trust me because they don't know me and it'd be the same thing all over again.

I don't know. I think I'm just needing to cope and accept it for a little while.
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Isabella Nabblenore - Sat, 04 Jul 2020 20:27:26 EST 1SSFeKJF No.535240 Reply
>>535237
Being supportive is nice. But people don't want supportive from a near stranger. You need to make small talk share hobbies and build familiarity and confidence. If friendship intimacy does not flow from that at least you'll have fun.
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Eugene Gattingspear - Sat, 04 Jul 2020 22:30:01 EST FO3wrxBb No.535241 Reply
>>535240
Fair, and I've done a little bit of that. It just hasn't worked out the way I would have wanted it to evidenced by little things. Also, I've been around them for a couple of years now, and I thought that would have counted for something but I guess not.

I think I've either let time pass by, or maybe there was nothing I could have done. I'll admit that I was too quiet at certain points, or that I might have switched between being too quiet and then all spastic too quickly at certain points. A couple people asked if I was "on the spectrum" so I wonder if they disengage more quickly because of that. It's hard to tell where people are coming from.

Dudes who commit domestic violence are some of the lowest of scum

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- Sun, 28 Jun 2020 22:06:43 EST JWWudQ3H No.535165
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They really need to have their skulls caved in if they have ever caused permanent damage to their partner.
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Doris Tootdock - Sat, 04 Jul 2020 06:06:22 EST rqyO5sU4 No.535226 Reply
>>535222
i see no signs that op is emotionally stunted, what do you think that word means? OP seems very self-aware

The magical fairy race thing is spot on. Maybe we should rename benevolent sexism magical-fairy-race sexism.
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Shit Bardfield - Sat, 04 Jul 2020 08:43:08 EST 9Qgx6n7T No.535228 Reply
>>535169
Make a home cooked bowl of eggs. Make sure she eats them all.

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