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!GD3wBpep0Y - Sun, 13 Aug 2017 12:14:49 EST d5kHsYag No.518069
File: 1502640889138.jpg -(66697B / 65.13KB, 500x383) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. #qq on IRC
Hi folks,

If you're looking to talk to someone immediately about any problems you have in your life and have nobody close to you, come and speak to us!

Join us on IRC on #qq. Most of us have different time zones but if you stay there, one of us will be there.

Don't be afraid to speak up.
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Simon Hunningmene - Fri, 29 Apr 2022 05:15:33 EST T+wkaikL No.542694 Reply
>crying at the super market for no reason

I might have depression but something keeps stopping from taking my medication.
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Doris Surryteck - Mon, 02 May 2022 05:56:07 EST AtmU8uJ+ No.542703 Reply
>>542694

when you say something keeps stopping you from taking the medication.. say more about that? what do you mean?

Unemployed ad aeternum

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- Mon, 09 May 2022 19:07:12 EST bN0YdRRc No.542751
File: 1652137632066.png -(994633B / 971.32KB, 1060x802) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Unemployed ad aeternum
Just how on Earth does one find a job??
I can't believe how many applications I have written. It's been over 2 years now.. Okay, I always did a bit of freelancing on the side but I am really not cut out for that kind of stress, I am really not the salesman type, I need a full-time job. I don't know where I am going wrong. I have changed my overall CV again and again, and I always change the details to match the position I am applying for. I am sending out about 1-2 application a day.
It's not like I am coming without qualifications or education. But things seem cursed ever since I finished my MA. Granted, Corona happened just a few months after I graduated, but that's not a relevant thing any more and I still can't find employment. I have also held a lot of odd jobs in the past, sales but also rougher stuff, like cleaning, mover, delivery, shop detective and so on, and I am certainly not too snooty for that. Thing is: I am a leg amputee since a few years. It's nothing that anybody notices until I point it out, but that also cuts out physically demanding jobs(Don't tell me about the amazing things you've seen that amputee can do. Chances are I have met more than you have and I can tell you, everyone is different, and everyone is physically limited as a cripple. Some can run, others can barely walk). Driving jobs are also out of the picture since you need a customized car if you're missing a leg and I don't have the money for a customized car. My situation demands that I work with my brain.
I have done it all, get help from anywhere, get feedback on CV and applications, competence mapping and whatever else. I am quite clear on what kind of person I am, and what I am good at, and what I can contribute with. The worst part is that there's actually a lot that I can, and those who know tell me they can't believe that I can't find a job, I can do programming, I speak three languages fluently, and there's a few more languages where I understand basically everything. I am not even ugly, in fact I am getting a lot of attention from girls and I have a bit of a nimbus among my friends for being this guy that always walks home with a fresh phone number after a night out. They're exaggerating but the fact is that women approach me out of the blue when I am at a bar or a party. So being unappealing or bland isn't really the problem, either. I also have actual interests and creative endeavours, put me together with a scientist and I will always have loads of questions, I am very curious and always eager to learn something new. But none of this matters.
A job has become something from the fairy tales, something inaccessible and unreal. I have no clue what's going on. How did you find your job??
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Albert Sublingson - Tue, 17 May 2022 10:28:06 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542830 Reply
>>542821
i see i am not the only one the chan is borken for
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Fuck Pashspear - Tue, 17 May 2022 19:18:16 EST LnCBmcQk No.542831 Reply
>>542751
Your primary skills are translation and programming. Those have one thing in common: they both tend to happen in specific places. Yeah, remote work is a thing, but it tends to be a thing that's available -after- you have a career established, which you don't.

Therefore, you have to do something, which, I assume, is probably not very easy with one leg: move. Apply to companies far away, companies that hire lots of programmers and/or translators. The tech hubs like SF, Seattle, Boston etc might be good bets, since big companies are more likely to have an established protocol for managing disabled employees.

It sucks, but if you pull it off, I think you'll wish you'd done it sooner.
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Lillian Gunkinket - Thu, 19 May 2022 09:55:49 EST n2SfxmRz No.542842 Reply
Just speaking from experience, if you're not able to do paid work then try volunteering. I was getting turned down by fast food places at one point when I couldn't find a job forever, so I decided to try volunteering for a bit over the holidays at this not-for-profit place where I'd just sit at a table and show kids who come up how to make kazoos out of a paddlepop stick and a rubber band, real easy shit for like 2-3 hours a day, 2 days a week. When I dumped it on my resume that I volunteered at a not-for-profit, I ended up getting my current IT job the next week (I never studied or worked in IT, I just saw it and thought I might as well email my resume without altering it) and my boss later said that's what they hired me from.

I just don't get it

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- Thu, 09 Dec 2021 23:51:34 EST DMPOlzSV No.541475
File: 1639111894625.png -(429B / 429bytes, 43x16) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I just don't get it
My life owns and I hate it

I abandonned my family because it sucked, and fell into the military. A buddy in armored recon said it'd be a good idea, and I ended up joining the navy instead of the army. It's been very lucrative. Even now I have 60k in savings before hitting 30. But something is missing. I can pay for all my vices, and I have not had wont for money for a few years. Even before that, I was poor, but was able to pay bills with only a loan here and there that I could pay back, though at the time I was eating out of dumpsters and trash cans. What I do for the crown now is basically a mix of internal help desk shit and radio ops crap, but not any of the exciting sigint/infosec stuff.

I used to have hobbies, but lost them. I liked playing with level editors, but "level design is not game dev" and all that. I like to sew, but it's hard to sew whole garments, and just doing repairs loses meaning once you've fixed all your stuff. I used to cook and bake, but when you don't have events to make truffles for and are a single man, there's no sense going all out. I've made fruit wine, but that's just setting stuff in a bucket and drinking it later.


I make literally more money than I can possibly spend. I get drunk every day and still run a surplus. it's not a humble-brag; I just live very cheaply, and being single means I have nothing to spend money on. Really, I sleep in trash and spend my off-hours lamenting.

I drink a lot, and I don't really know what I'm asking for with this post, but surely there is more to life
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Priscilla Fudgelot - Thu, 12 May 2022 23:42:34 EST DMPOlzSV No.542790 Reply
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Y'know, it's seven air-to-air confirmed kills to be an Ace. I've never even participated in a weapons firing in anger, and people act like I'm a murderer when I say I'm military. I'm just a bootleg sysadmin. I'm not even on a ship that has more than some .50 MGs. I'm poised to deploy to europe, and with all this Ukraine shit, I'm sure it'll be a mess, and I can't come back from that clean. Just by participating, it's a mess, and I never wanted any part of it. I never wanted to be in the military. I don't care about the political situation. I'd rather have a small property and cuddle some laying chickens and geese. I don't care about borders. I don't care about language beyond those I speak. For me, deploying is just an excuse for port visits. I don't give a fuck, fuck the whole world.
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Charles Mummleden - Sun, 15 May 2022 00:42:01 EST DMPOlzSV No.542808 Reply
How do I be more aggressive? Every time I'm on the ship self-defence team (QRT) I get the same bad note every time: I'm not aggressive enough. I'm very uncertain when handed a weapon, and don't like opening fire first, it's a legal mess and without direct orders and not being shot at first, it's uneasy to open an engagement even when something is well within the self-defence zone. How do I get the right attitude to send boats down to davy jones once they've closed within a few hundred yards for no good reason other than opening an engagement

What does it mean if a guy asks if your mom was "good looking" when she was younger?

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- Thu, 19 May 2022 06:00:52 EST 5QcwY+ZS No.542837
File: 1652954452318.png -(940169B / 918.13KB, 873x645) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. What does it mean if a guy asks if your mom was "good looking" when she was younger?
I've been seeing this guy for a few months and by chance he happened to meet my parents. After meeting them he asked if my mom (65 y/o) was "as good looking as I was" when she was my age (29). I thought it was a weird question to ask. When I asked him why he asked that he said he was just wondering where I got my good looks from. Not to be a dick or anything but my mom isn't exactly what you would consider a stunner. I was a little scared that he was trying to size up how I would look when I reached that age.

Sometimes I do get the feeling he wants me to be good looking and it might be a deal breaker if I weren't. I mean, he kind of complained that his ex didn't have a very large boobs. He's not even the most good looking guy himself and doesn't dress well or anything. I don't know. He's obviously got a lot of great qualities but this kind of scares me.

Idk, maybe there is a kind of dude out there that really needs their chicks to be hot or they won't be in love or whatever. I mean as of now I'm probably a good 6-8/10 depending on the makeup and clothes but it's not going to get much better from here.

Pic related
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Martha Nommerstotch - Thu, 19 May 2022 06:11:10 EST 7hzT77EE No.542838 Reply
>>542837
They made a compliment and you turned it into an insult. Seek answers inward.
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Emma Crirringfoot - Thu, 19 May 2022 06:15:36 EST 5QcwY+ZS No.542840 Reply
I appreciate that. Thank you.

I hate my job

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- Mon, 22 Nov 2021 18:18:58 EST WmWcDpYP No.541238
File: 1637623138559.jpg -(8367B / 8.17KB, 318x159) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I hate my job
Posted about it before but I'm so fucking sick of this shit

Like on the surface level I just have a shitty environment where I don't feel valued or appreciated at all. This time last year my boss was going to give me more senior responsibilities and a pay raise to go with them because he liked the results I was putting up and what I was getting done. Then in January he got ousted and replaced with this useless fat bitch who is our CEO's toady, and she just sees me as another peon who needs to shut up and do what they're told. I've gotten a ton of flak for going out of my lane to get shit done because apparently I made a senior manager and partner look completely incompetent. Also my current boss seems to completely blow me off and ignore anything I send her unless I literally go into her office to ask her about it, because she's doing things an underling could be doing but our cheapass CEO doesn't want to hire additional people to do. But even shit like "fix my time card" gets ignored so I wind up working late to make up for the 20 fucking minutes it takes for me to clock in.

Deeper than that I hate what my company does. We're a collections firm, I work in the legal compliance department. I fucking hate our clients and there's a lot of doctors I would gladly strangle if given the chance for giving birthng women fentanyl and charging them over a grand for the process (realistically I just hate everyone in the medicine business and would go full pol pot on that money-grubbing industry if given the chance) and sending people bills for shitty heart monitors that don't produce satisfactory results and unpaid gas bills and a million other debts I wish I could just make all disappear.

But even deeper than that I just fucking hate working. I hate having a manager looking over my shoulder, I hate logging my time to meet productivity quotas, I hate this stupid fucking employee monitoring software that tracks my every keystroke and makes the company laptop chug like a fucking fat girl in a swimming pool when I boot it up, I hate the fact that my job feels like a fucking prison. The one thing I tacitly enjoy about the job is how easy it is to fleece the company for what has to be at least four figures after two years just through simple time theft and multiple 15 minute piss breaks (up to seven a day). I admit I have a shit work ethic because I hate working for other people who I don't think pay me enough. The company exists in my mind as a fat bundle of cash for me to loot and I don't give a single solitary fuck about anything else because I don't feel motivated to do so. And this leads to the problems in my home life as I keep butting heads with my parents and my boyfriend over this work ethic and my "fuck everyone else" mentality but quite frankly this company hasn't done shit for me to justify me doing shit for them.

I have no idea where I'm going with this because I just got home and I've had two and a half fingers of whiskey but I honestly hate my fucking job so goddamn much and I hate the fact that there's nowhere I can go as an alternative or anything that would actually make me feel happy or satisfied with my life while still being able to pay rent and maintain my living standard. I hate the fact that I have no power over my own life and I will continue to keep doing shit I hate forever until I either die or lose my shit and do something that lands me in actual prison forever because that is life under capitalism. And I hate the fact that I'm surrounded by people who tell me that this is my fault, that I have a bad mindset and I should just accept the shit that is being forced down my throat all the time as if there's no viable alternative (which there may not be in which case fuck it maybe I should punch my own ticket already) but whatever

I just miss lockdown because ironically enough I felt freer by virtue of not working and having some savings/family support to cover my rent. I was healthier, happier, and more personally fulfilled than I am now. This is not freedom, living in this stupid fucking box that is existence with the only alternative being a body without organs or oblivion

fuck
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William Bonkinville - Sun, 15 May 2022 05:42:34 EST ubFhRWbv No.542809 Reply
>>542804
You aren't doing it because someone told you to. You're doing it because you agreed to that.
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Thomas Honeybanks - Wed, 18 May 2022 23:09:50 EST WmWcDpYP No.542835 Reply
>>542809
I mean that doesn't really mean that much though, it's not like I agreed enthusiastically. It was just a thing I said yes to so I could get paid. It's not like I value my word that much in that scenario.
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Martha Nommerstotch - Thu, 19 May 2022 06:11:50 EST 7hzT77EE No.542839 Reply
>>542835
>that doesn't really mean that much
Then you have a serious character flaw.

I live....again

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- Fri, 25 Mar 2022 10:54:49 EST fSsrvtD1 No.542499
File: 1648220089874.png -(567550B / 554.25KB, 1024x846) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I live....again
I feel like a ghost. I fell really ill in 2015, made a full recovery in 2020, work full time on hard jobs for a year and a half now and I still don't feel normal again.

How long will it take to get my ego back? I feel like I have a hole in my head.
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Albert Hickleham - Fri, 06 May 2022 07:35:59 EST bABJmyHt No.542731 Reply
>>542730
>I'm still in psychological pain.
>
>I also can't seem to find a woman/partner
Fix your issues first before you go into a relationship.
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David Benningshit - Wed, 18 May 2022 13:13:33 EST epQ7e82F No.542834 Reply
I somewhat relate.
I was depressed for long periods of time, and finally I'm managing some more permanent change.
Except one thing:
Whereas before I somewhat enjoyed and actively wanted to be in solitude most of the time.
Now I cannot stand it.
What's worse is that a lot of the distractions I relied upon are now very annoying to me or just feel as a waste of time.
But I can't be productive all the time, especially with my studies taxing my brain so much.
So, even things like practicing guitar, reading or programming - I can't do at will (even though I immensely enjoy said activities).

By the nature of things, I don't have many friends. But I also am bad at making friends - and I'm not going to even touch on relationships.

At times I wish I'd still been more depressed, as I've lost my apathy now.
But I fully realize that it's bad to go back.
I guess I'm just venting at least.

In other news, my MIL sucks.

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- Fri, 25 Mar 2022 18:10:19 EST 2z9ZVzU1 No.542501
File: 1648246219179.png -(718825B / 701.98KB, 1258x899) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. In other news, my MIL sucks.
My MIL and her three dogs has been living with us in our one bedroom for three weeks and I wish she would fucking LEAVE. It was only supposed to be FOR THE NIGHT. I couldn't stand her anyway but having her in the place I pay for is insane and I hate it. My house reeks of dirty dog and piss. She doesn't clean up after herself. She constantly asks you to do things for her. I found one of my spoons on the floor next to a puddle of dog piss. I can't go in my living room because it makes me angry to see the disaster it is now. I wish someone would come and just throw her the fuck out of here. But no one will. I'm stuck with this bipolar fucking idiot and I don't know when she'll leave. FUCK.
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Cedric Crunkinkut - Wed, 13 Apr 2022 15:16:01 EST xmvTvxHj No.542596 Reply
now the only problem is you can never buy your own house
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Sidney Pemmerspear - Fri, 15 Apr 2022 13:47:31 EST G5zjlJZq No.542620 Reply
>>542596
Hahaha, buy a house! That's fucking hilarious! You think I'm a boomer or some bullshit sellout gen x asshole? Nah. I won't even see a real retirement.
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Phoebe Forryridge - Wed, 18 May 2022 13:06:22 EST G5zjlJZq No.542833 Reply
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OP here. She's gone! Moved into a motel with my SIL. Now I just have to get her and her dogs' stench out of my house and survey the damage I'm sure she caused that we'll be on the hook for, but she's gone! Hooray!

PTSD, workplace bullying/violence, revenge

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- Sun, 08 May 2022 13:39:21 EST 1SwLltB2 No.542737
File: 1652031561022.jpg -(16766B / 16.37KB, 474x260) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. PTSD, workplace bullying/violence, revenge
4 years ago I was bullied at my first office job, horrible experience of threatening behavior that didn't help my ptsd (very debilitating) ( also quite a few injuries that limit my ability to fight, i cant fight). 22 year old at the time body builder/mma guy repeatedly intimidated me in the office, kicking my chair as hard as he could, cracking his knuckles in my face, stared me down like he was going to kill me and got in my face and stared me down into silence like if I sad anything to anyone he was going to beat my ass. caught me in a hallway with my new manager and could feel the tension of this guy wanting to hit me. repeated times even after I was moved out of his department he kept stalking me in the building at my desk just grinning like yeah ill fuckin kill you. mind you this was the first month i worked at this job. before having them move me without saying why.

never have felt safe in my city since then, because hes never faced consequences for having a short temper and feels like he can get away with anything. and i know because of that my ptsd and revenge fantasies go from light to so dark. I've looked this guy up and his whole family . I sometimes think of confronting his mother over his behavior, or calling his new job as a manager and warning them anonymously about his behavior. I sometimes think about smashing him in the face with a brick or glass or just getting it over with and shooting him as he stumbles in the city after a late night out as i sit outside his house at 3 a.m. I wonder about getting him in 3rd world shit hole foreign country when he visits family.

Ever since this like prisoner experience im afraid to run into this dude in public because of his like commitment to being a piece of shit.
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Rebecca Gemmlekure - Mon, 16 May 2022 09:40:50 EST 2YQttsQw No.542819 Reply
in all honesty you just sound like youre too much fun to torture. like one could get an easy rise from so much as a maniacal grin

also
>revenge fantasies
lol. typical
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Hannah Bunridge - Mon, 16 May 2022 09:41:26 EST MOSeIdkI No.542820 Reply
in all honesty you just sound like youre too much fun to torture. like one could get an easy rise from so much as a maniacal grin

also
>revenge fantasies
lol. typical
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Fuck Pashspear - Tue, 17 May 2022 19:33:41 EST LnCBmcQk No.542832 Reply
>>542740
i thought i was pretty clear that he needed someone to talk to. also this has always been something i understood to require drugs, although it's definitely true that some drugs will have the opposite effect and you shouldn't use marijuana or any stimulant or psychedelic that isn't MDMA. maybe you can do it slowly sober.

in my case, it was MDMA, but i find it hard to imagine someone having a panic attack while sufficiently liquored up.

>>542742
yeah, i know, i was "very" anti-police back in the '00s. it's only recently, though, that there seems to be some mainstream uptake of the belief that "communities" should "police themselves" or similar ridiculous nonsense. obviously the police are shitty, but they're still better than the alternative.

Parent Drama

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- Mon, 16 May 2022 21:07:29 EST g0L7pTWH No.542825
File: 1652749649469.png -(288807B / 282.04KB, 889x592) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Parent Drama
It's not like I don't get along with my parents, it's just they literally have this totally false idea of who I really am. Being around them depresses me so much, and I feel like whenever they're in my life, it always puts a huge strain financially, emotionally, and who I am as a person. I care, and I hate that I care about them. I then forget that I hate being around them, and try to reconnect, and the same pain happens.

Bla bla bla, IDK, not looking for consolation, I just need better relationships. Thanks for listening. Not to mention my room-mates are kind of living human garbage, but maybe it's me, maybe I'm the living human garbage.
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Albert Sublingson - Tue, 17 May 2022 08:10:14 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542826 Reply
>>542825
practice saying

When you do _____ I feel ____

and just leaving the ball in their court

Another thing you can do is see your parents more often but for much shorter periods, e.g. 5 minutes a day most days instead of a whole hour all together once a month. Most of us find ourselves getting undifferentiated after spending some time with our parents and turning into something else, That way you don't have to cut them off or anything but emotionally and maturity wise you don't get thrown off kilter
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Albert Sublingson - Tue, 17 May 2022 08:23:20 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542827 Reply
>>542826
(you can figure out for *you* what lenght of time you can be with them without becoming undifferentiated. Some people can even do 2 whole days!!! but usually those are people who've had years of therapy ha ha, that's how normal it is to regress around your parents)

Destroyed my life, should I just end it now?

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- Thu, 12 May 2022 13:17:22 EST elrE2zPe No.542783
File: 1652375842213.jpg -(73551B / 71.83KB, 750x920) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Destroyed my life, should I just end it now?
Two months ago, I had a great job in the capital city (I live in one of the shitty Balkan countries, they’re all the same).

Then I had a huge fight with a neighbour over some bullshit, escalated to almost having charges pressed against me. Then I quit my job because I thought I was too good for it and that in a few weeks time I’d find another and a better apartment too.

Now, it’s been two months. No income. Living with my parents in a rural backwater. I have no money. And no car. Even if I did, I have no friends here. All my friends are in the place where I spent the last 14 years. But now I am not there any I already feel them slipping away. They send a message here and there. But nobody has called me to ask how I’m doing or just talk to me.

I am 32. No money, no job, no future whatsoever except sitting in one small room all day long.

I am looking for a new job. But my only qualification is in a very narrow field and I am not qualified for anything else. I do get called after sending my CV a lot, but I never pass the tests and interviews.

From the first day I came back home I knew I was going to die here. I feel it every day. Sometimes it’s so bad I can’t concentrate on anything else but that. I’m not sleeping right. The medication doesn’t really help.

I have no hope and I think everything would be easier if I died. My family isn’t rich and me being here is a drain. There are practically no jobs around here except working in a supermarket. That’s not a solution because the pay is too low. I’d still be a drain on my parents.

And being gay, if I stay here I’ll never again have any chance of a romantic life.

I really think there’s no other way out of this than suicide. I don’t want to be a constant bother to everyone but my mental condition is so bad that’s unavoidable.
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Charlotte Clabberworth - Fri, 13 May 2022 20:19:22 EST DMPOlzSV No.542793 Reply
>>542783
>But my only qualification is in a very narrow field
that's usually a recipe for success
I'm sure there's some country that needs a nuclear basket weaver or wind mill containment officer or whatever.
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Henry Grandfield - Sat, 14 May 2022 13:21:40 EST 5V5rPYC3 No.542802 Reply
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>>542792

Yeah, there are definitely more ways out than suicide. Think about it like this: at least DO something incredible before you make your decision. Sell all of your possessions and use the money to buy supplies to go camping in the wild for several weeks. Of this, I'm serious. What do you have to lose? I guarantee you'll have an existential experience.

i cant stop thinking in the sister of a friend and i have a gf

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- Sun, 15 May 2022 14:24:51 EST ymZjpRO7 No.542814
File: 1652639091140.jpg -(89961B / 87.85KB, 395x395) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. i cant stop thinking in the sister of a friend and i have a gf
So the thing is like this, i have a friend who i recently reunited since some years, we were friends back in school and i already liked his sister (we all did she is honestly very beautiful), we chitchatted via instagram, no firtling or anything since i do really respect him and her, and yesterday he made a party for his birthday, i honestly went really fucking baked and drunk, and didnt even said hi to her, i couldnt, i was shy and scared of fucking it up, so i played stupid. She noticed, she looked at me sometimes.
Around half of the party i kind of got back to my senses, we made eye contact and i was ready to go talk to her, but idk if she chickened out, didnt wanted to talk to me, or just didnt care and went on with her life, the thing is that she went to another side to talk to a dude (idk if its his boyfriend, a friend, honestly idc), so the party ended we exchanged a bye and separated ways.

Now i cant stop fucking thinking about it, and about her, bcs shes not only really fucking beautiful, but we also share a lot of things in common, i know she knew who i was, and i know she would have engaged if we talked.

I also partially did it bcs i recently got back with my gf, and i know that i want to love this girl, and dont want to fuck anything up, but i honestly dont know what to do, i guess it will pass by time, but i also doubt it.

IDK, i just wanted to vent out

shes also a smart hard study leftist holy fuck i want to dominate her and fuck her raw against a wall and call her my little pretty slut i bet she will fucking love it GODDAMN
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Hamilton Bickletudge - Mon, 16 May 2022 06:57:21 EST tGMaY9oH No.542816 Reply
>>542814
>the thing is that she went to another side to talk to a dude
You wouldn't talk to her because you were on all kinds of substances (not a good look in the first place when you're trying to get a normie girl to notice you but anyways) then you got all insecure and took it super personally that she was talking to someone else...

Make friends with more girls. Learn to talk to women. Be real friends with them too. Don't just be the guy who lurks around the girl tree waiting for sex to fall out.

Incredibly low self worth

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- Sat, 14 May 2022 13:45:58 EST zHLfKhAl No.542803
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I have very little to no self worth and have been like this for a very very long time now. Over the past week I seemed to have an epiphany though as to why I am just as fucked up as I am though so let me explain.

I am a 27 year old trans woman who through a mixture of childhood sexual trauma and having a feminist mother who repeatedly told me that would never happen to a little boy has left me a little bit fucked in the head about my sexuality. For awhile now I have had the habit of sleeping around with guys for no real reason other than I feel my only worth is as a sex object.

This escalated recently when one of my hookups went sour and was raped which really sucks. Now I can't sleep around anymore because I am too damaged to have sex with anybody currently. I explained what happened to me to the cis women in my life hoping they would empathize with me and was met with very little support. It was either "I have been raped more than you" or "You can't get pregnant anyway". That's where it actually hit me. I can't get pregnant so there is no actual reason for anyone to empathize with me because me being raped doesn't do any harm to society at large.

Now atleast the women I am friends with online are more supportive and they have been a huge help but it feels like my self worth has been irreparably damaged at this point. In my head I believe that since I cannot get pregnant then my only use to someone is as a sex object. There is no reason for a guy to actually love me because of this, it would be a waste of their time. Not even going to go into how many guys I have dated who have actually dumped or ghosted me to replace me with a cis woman either.

Is there any way out of this hole of self loathing? I feel like I have dug myself a really big hole that I cannot escape from.
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Charles Mummleden - Sat, 14 May 2022 23:23:52 EST DMPOlzSV No.542807 Reply
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Hate to be an asshole about it, especially as a cis man, but sex is just a thing. I got touched in a bike shop, I've had bad sexual experiences otherwise, but you know what? It ain't a thing. There's always more immediate problems to focus on, and solving little problems will build into a greater understanding of the world and how to solve more and more problems. self-worth comes from confidence, and confidence comes from being a problem-solver.

Bad things happen to everybody. Some people get worse than others, but whatever. You can still live on. Learn from bad situations. That's not to say anything was your fault. But at the end of the day, other people fuck around. It could be up to you to let them know the true meaning of "finding out".

>my only use to someone is as a sex object.
Your "use" to others is irrelevant. Life may be about profit, but it's best to get paid for what you were going to do anyway. Whatever it is you're "useful" for is something you should enjoy, want to do, and can do well enough to profit from it. There's no sense reducing yourself to a series of holes. Yes, some people will only see you that way. I'd say "fuck them" but that could be misconstrued. You're not just a piece of ass. I can tell you're hurt, and it's not a good time for you to be pursuing relationships

>Is there any way out of this hole of self loathing?
A hobby that has clear, measurable, tangible results. Sewing, shooting, something like that. Shooting is a great one, it's a good way to take out anger and as ou get more accurate you can feel good about your own improvement. Joining your local Pink Pistols branch would also help with self-defence.

My favorite message board has changed

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- Tue, 03 May 2022 17:05:20 EST 01q7TC5b No.542713
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I can't face coming to my favorite message board anymore. All the best posters stopped posting and the moderation has become so bad that people are afraid to make threads because you can get banned or locked for no reason now. I guess it's not that big of a deal but after being a user for over ten years you can really see the life get sucked out of the place from one single mod. Bad vibes. He doesn't seem willing to listen to any criticism and just rules everyone off who confronts him about his poor modding.
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Charlotte Clabberworth - Fri, 13 May 2022 20:20:24 EST DMPOlzSV No.542794 Reply
go outside
touch cubes

Social media stuff

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- Thu, 12 May 2022 04:31:48 EST a9eQ0vyO No.542777
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I'm going back to UNI for socio-sexual development because I managed to survive a horrible disease, however I don't use social media. Will this hurt me in a way?
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Clara Paffingworth - Thu, 12 May 2022 06:36:07 EST dgIyKtIZ No.542782 Reply
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University is a big place. And you can find out about campus events on Facebook without having an account and posting. Mainstream college events are usually really bland anyway. It won't stop you from doing anything if you don't use social media.

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