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!GD3wBpep0Y - Sun, 13 Aug 2017 12:14:49 EST d5kHsYag No.518069
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Hi folks,

If you're looking to talk to someone immediately about any problems you have in your life and have nobody close to you, come and speak to us!

Join us on IRC on #qq. Most of us have different time zones but if you stay there, one of us will be there.

Don't be afraid to speak up.
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Basil Clayway - Mon, 03 Aug 2020 21:38:40 EST VAcauGzm No.535572 Reply
>>535571
No I don't really jack off at all.

We watched Evangelion TOGETHER, though.
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Rebecca Girringwut - Thu, 06 Aug 2020 20:09:04 EST mZfblupA No.535630 Reply
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I wrote her a letter. It's really enthusiastic and feels stupid but it's honest and straight from my heart. Feels terrifying to just lay myself out completely like this even though I more or less Know that I won't be rejected.

She has it, but it's in the back of a book so I don't know when she'll read it. It could be next week, it could be next year. Could be never. I'll have to see how things turn out.

GF is controlling?

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- Sun, 09 Aug 2020 20:32:47 EST suOUJIIv No.535666
File: 1597019567157.jpg -(556854B / 543.80KB, 1522x1921) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. GF is controlling?
Last night I told my GF that I wanted to start smoking weed again, and she basically told me I couldn't. I love her more than weed but I don't want to have to pick, and I worry a bit that she's taking too much control of my life.

Backstory is that I had been doing weed for years when we got together but knew she didn't like it. When we moved out after a year or so together I quit completely, but before that I had been struggling with mental health problems (frequently panic attacks and depression) and was using weed as a crutch. Since then I've got a job and moved out with her, my mental health has much improved, though I still live with some anxiety and depression.

The conversation where I said I was thinking about doing weed again was really tense. She seemed really uncomfortable about it and said she didn't want to hang out with me high (I said we didn't have to hang out, she "but I want to hang out"). She asked me why I wanted to start again several times, I just said I liked it and wanted to. It was clear that she really didn't want me to but was struggling to come up with a reason why, or had problems expressing why. Eventually it was clear to me that she would be so upset every time I did do weed that it'd kinda ruin it for me, so I said I wouldn't and to forget about it. I'll be too anxious about her while high to enjoy anything.

Some additional context: we hang out ALL the time with each other and neither of us really know anyone else not online. She's weirdly controlling about certain things. Examples:
-she has asked me to text her during lunch every day,
  • gets very upset with me whenever I work late even though my job requires it frequently,
  • asks me to text a certain way so she doesn't think I'm upset,
  • can be critical when I talk about spending lots of money on stuff (I have plenty of money from my job and as such we don't have to worry about budgeting, she just doesn't trust that it's a good decision generally. It's for stuff on the scale of less than $1k))
  • can be really demanding about food and cleaning even though I'm the only one who cooks and cleans
None of these are too bad though-- I have to work late, sometimes can't text, and usually I'll just buy stuff anyway and she's cool with it as long as I don't mention the price when it comes. Occasionally she'll demand I do/don't do other stuff that makes me a little more uncomfortable, but it's fine. Most of the time I'll just do what she says.

I'll think frequently about breaking up because I want to live my life without worrying about this stuff, but I do love her and really want to make it work. We both struggle with anxiety and depression, and frankly if I were to break up with her I'd worry about her ability to take care of herself, keep her job, find a place she could rent where she wouldn't be miserable, and I'm scared she'd kill herself-- I'd really rather stay together and not do weed. Can I make her more comfortable with weed or is it a lost cause? I don't know how I would even start talking about it again, I can tell she doesn't want to talk about it
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Jarvis Blatherville - Tue, 11 Aug 2020 09:35:40 EST TtXni/Rr No.535694 Reply
>>535685


That's dependence, not codependence, codependence is about addiction and facilitating addiction inadvertently

Dude no one here knows the first thing about basic psychology, take all advice with a grain of salt
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Clara Billingspear - Tue, 11 Aug 2020 12:46:34 EST /q+yn+S5 No.535696 Reply
>>535694
>no one here knows the first thing about basic psychology
How does that make you feel?
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Lydia Duckshit - Tue, 11 Aug 2020 14:21:20 EST m8gMi16v No.535697 Reply
>>535694
It’s not always about addiction, codependency can be about mental health too. as long as one party stays sick and needs to be taken care of.

PTSD?

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- Sun, 09 Aug 2020 23:36:19 EST chJdEY/L No.535669
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It’s been awhile since I’ve been here, but idk where to ask this. So here goes nothing.

Has anybody here been diagnosed with PTSD without feeling they have been through what they feel to be a major traumatic incident?

Idk I’ve been speaking with an online therapist due to the pandemic and she feels quite strongly that I may have PTSD, but like the most trauma I’ve been through is probably having the shit beat out of me and getting kicked out of the house as a kid without clothes for a good 15 mins, or losing all my online friends at age 12?

Kinda asking because while I’m thinking of possibly getting checked out irl, aside from the above, all I’ve got the usual toxic mum and absent father, the whole depressed/anxious formula. I’d like to know if there’s something more that can possibly be helped with, otherwise, if it’s the same shit all over and just more going through shitty therapists, I’d rather just keep going my own way
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Matilda Sandertag - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 03:13:26 EST chJdEY/L No.535673 Reply
>>535670

Thanks for helping clear it up for me. I’m Asian and pretty much everybody I know has been beaten as a child, so I didn’t really think too much about it. I guess there might actually be something here to get checked out then.
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Betsy Blashshaw - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 07:39:01 EST OgJtgsGx No.535676 Reply
>>535673
Yeah man. When parents use force that's what they teach as a coping skill. No matter how wrong you are, you can use force to get through any situation, and if the situation is such where you can't use force, you must seethe. PTSD is your outward expression of the normalization of that attitude, grinded out over years, multiplied by a million other factors that are all in conflict.
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Jarvis Blatherville - Tue, 11 Aug 2020 09:41:16 EST TtXni/Rr No.535695 Reply
You can get PTSD symptoms from lots of different types of trauma, "big" traumas and "small" traumas, your logical mind might know the difference but your body and emotions don't always know the difference and won't always listen to logic

PTSD is very curable nowadays, there are loads of treatments that have been proven to be effective, people go from hiding and crying every time a car backfires or their partner says "hello" when they aren't expecting it, to... you know.. not having any startle reaction at all! Or they go from feeling numb to feeling all the emotions, good and bad, and none too strongly

If you read old books they will tell you there's no help for you, and so many people are into psychoanalysis from 100 years ago as a hobby that this idea gets passed around a lot, but thankfully it's not true any more

Take your time, go easy on yourself, and get help, you deserve to feel better, living with PTSD or non-PTSD trauma symptoms is awful and it's completely unnecessary

If at any point the therapy makes you feel much worse tell the therapist they are going too fast, but a good trauma therapist won't go too fast

I tricked myself into thinking I'm an artist

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- Thu, 06 Aug 2020 23:05:43 EST XXR+yDXG No.535631
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I realized I don't really have anything to say. All my songs are just about some pleasure I've had in the past or one I'm having in the moment, or my desire for one. I thought all I wanted to live for was to create and express and help other people struggling with similar struggles as me but I don't have ANYTHING worthwhile to say, do I? I just wanted the ego satisfaction of thinking I'm so great because I would eventually get some degree of fame or notoriety or appreciation. I just want pleasure. I'm just living for pleasure. I can't give a damn about anything else really. I hardly even care about my loved ones in a real and practical way. I say I love them, and that I'm there for them, but I don't go out of my way to help them. I don't check on them. I've even resented them and hated them at times. I'm not really looking for advice. I just wanted to say it somewhere. I wish I had the balls to kill myself. Because I'm a fucking waste. I'm sorry I failed.
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Sober, bored, isolated and depressed.

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- Sat, 08 Aug 2020 14:22:16 EST 5B0QYsus No.535651
File: 1596910936676.jpg -(58891B / 57.51KB, 1100x762) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Sober, bored, isolated and depressed.
Hey /qq/, I haven't been on here in a while. Well, I'm currently going through dextroamphetamine withdrawal, smoked all of my weed about 5 days ago, have no friends whatsoever (I'm an extreme introvert.), have nowhere to go, and am feeling severely depressed.

I suppose I just would like to have somebody to talk to. I'm feeling so morbid from the amphetamine withdrawal that I've been considering suicide. I don't want to devastate my family however. They are only aware of my substance use to a certain degree and believe I am perfectly happy.

Just drinking coffee now and chain-smoking cigarettes. So, I don't know, how are you doing?
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Phineas Smallgold - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 09:12:40 EST rYm1IvUX No.535655 Reply
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Prets good. No sleep, found out that while it was nice to read some shonen out of curiousity I'm not a baby nor a manbaby. Currently chainsmoking. On the hunt for some horror movies and kind of sad on reading about the otaku fellow they killed in 2008. Horrible crimes notwithstanding, I feel he had some twisted shred of humanity. Uhh got some 5D chess thing for a friend and will be continuing a class tomorrow. They're both mechanical (I had the gift in my head for a while, will be zombified for the class) but nice things are nice.
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Graham Trotshit - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 16:08:16 EST 5B0QYsus No.535684 Reply
>>535654

Yeah, nice guys, OP here, this withdrawal is terrible and my relief has been delayed. Won't have anymore amphetamine for 8 days. Still drinking coffee and chain-smoking.

Just trying to keep this thread alive. >>535654
>>535654
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Walter Clondlelag - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 18:26:51 EST xJBqNGwy No.535686 Reply
>>535684
Class bad. It hot. Me get job? (Hell, I'd be happy with an internship)

How do I do this (and preferably live through it?)

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- Tue, 28 Jul 2020 03:03:58 EST /p7iBRUF No.535476
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I do not know what to do.

I am sick. I have never had a strong body, but about 8 years ago things went downhill quickly - my face literally melted off. I failed out of college because, during midterms, I was completely blinded by the immense quantity of discharge pouring through my eyes. I spent two long years seeking medical assistance, only to be rejected as things grew worse. Every joint in my body became agony, to the point I could stand up and walk maybe one or two days a week. Still I was refused any serious examination. The worst time I remember was when I had been referred to a hospital immunology clinic, where I was accused of having picked up syphilis; I thought this unlikely, but asked to be tested if that was possible. I was refused testing and kicked out of the clinic, with multiple curses about my 'lying' and about how "there is a boy in the next room allergic to dogs waiting for his allergy shots, stop wasting our time". I was never even prescribed NSAIDs for my pain.

I don't know if anyone here knows what pain delirium is, but it is a hell that makes you no longer a living, thinking human. When my pain was bad, the signalling would blind and deafen me - I must imagine the signalling was overloading my brain. I couldn't track time, or remember the day, or where I was, or even what my body looked like or that I was human. All that existed was pain. I would come to, unsure of the day, my throat slick from blood from screaming for hours.

After two long years of this, I determined that I would find a way out of this pain, or I would kill myself - I could not live with the pain any longer. In the time I was conscious and could focus through the pain, I compiled a long list of potential drugs that might help me. I ordered them in order of risk factor - first I tried OTC meds, then cannabis, and so on and so forth. By the time I neared the end of the list, nothing had worked to diminish my pain by more than 1 or 2%, and I had lost hope.

Heroin saved my life. Unlike oxycodone or other weaker agents, it actually diminished my pain. No amount would make it go away, but suddenly I could walk 6 days a week. I found a minimum wage job with my new abilities, leveraging family connections where I knew there was a sympathetic GM. My body deteriorated further with the work, but it was better than the alternative.

When I had the chance, once I had been using long enough to gain entry to the program, I entered a methadone program and completely quit heroin overnight. Methadone was a superior analgesic for my purposes, and its duration didn't hurt either. I enjoyed the lesser cognitive impact of the new medication.

Unfortunately, the sympathetic GM at work left, and was replaced with a person who hated my need to make time for a methadone clinic - clinics here can only legally operate in the morning, and they really wanted my working a 6 AM shift. This brought abuse, and when a neo-nazi manager hired a kid she was friends with, this kid greeted my by punching me before he'd said a word to me, and destroying my car. This same manager was in charge of investigating her friend, and found no fault. I walked. I was unemployed, but at least medicaid was covering my basic treatment. I have been unable to work since - nobody wants to hire someone who will randomly be unable to walk, or so pained they cannot even use a phone or keyboard (I have many long days and nights alone).

I should mention that I live with my parents. They have some wealth, but are barbaric. I have been raped and nearly murdered on various occasions over the years. Once I lost so much blood I faded in and out of consciousness for a week. When I fell into pain, I would be punished for screaming from the pain. I suspect my child abuse had something to do with stressing my body and activating autoimmune problems - there are strong links shown between the two. In any event, I am now completely at their mercy, no car, in the middle of nowhere, no friends around, stuck with them.

I want very badly to leave, but I don't know how. My county is extremely conservative and has basically zero real social services, no shelter, etc. I want to receive disability, but have not yet applied (need a doctor to write things up properly). It doesn't help that my healthcare is micromanaged - I was all but forced to select a doctor chosen by my large extensive family.

Furthermore, I do not trust that I will be all…
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Molly Cluzzlepedge - Sat, 01 Aug 2020 11:04:51 EST TtXni/Rr No.535542 Reply
>>535541
Domestic abuse shelters will take you in, male or female, easier if you are female (demand creating supply) call them and see which ones have spaces
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William Sogglebedge - Sat, 08 Aug 2020 22:11:45 EST Sp0vdWcZ No.535652 Reply
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>>535476

I relate to this a lot, I have physical problems that have torn me down over the years and that term pain delirium is rarely relatable. It really effects your personality, I'm sort of in a blessed situation. I know If I turn to hard painkillers it will take me even farther away than I have gone from myself. I wish you best of luck, it's deeply frustrating and painful to be unheard. Goodluck cowboy
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Edward Supperville - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 13:47:53 EST 5QoCYNA0 No.535683 Reply
>>535476
Go out with a bang man, there will be a next life.
If you're being honest, and only if this is the unbiased truth, burn them and you alive.
In almost all cases I'd advocate life over death.
But with so much pain, the voices of monsters screaming in terror would be the most soothing ending to a deeply depressing symphony.

I just feel suicidal - "Covid" fucked my entire life up

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- Wed, 05 Aug 2020 15:48:40 EST TNkQD65p No.535593
File: 1596656920499.jpg -(628152B / 613.43KB, 1920x961) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I just feel suicidal - "Covid" fucked my entire life up
Some people talk about Covid like it's been nothing "hasnt effected them any" for me it's taken almost everything worth living in this world away.
I'd finally gotten my weight to a fit status after so long through indoor rock climbing and swimming training for almost a year. Visited some family out of state came back into town where I was prior after realizing it was a bust to go out there and try to "help" them and took a month to find a job.
I was working at the best job of my entire life, after spending years doing bullshit linecook work doing hard labor I was finally in a bakery where things made sense. I loved my coworkers, they weren't yelling at me - I had found a place for a decent price that allowed myself and my enthusiastic partner who can't work, a place to stay. When you're fem they always look at you weird when you're the provider and never think there's a reason why - just the judgement that theyre "using you" as if they don't have anything better than money to provide in life...
I finally saved enough to get back into climbing again and it happened.

I expected only to be out of work for maybe a week before I realized how srsbusiness the sheeple took this bullshit. I was out of work. No one in town had any work available for my education... I applied for unemployment but even a month later my stimulus and my unemployment hadn't come through and neither had a job.
I told my roomates what was up when the bills came due and told them I was looking for work and would pay them all back in full but they were resentful.
They started harrassing us, throwing eggs under the doors, making us feel like we needed to get out despite the rent pauses going on in the city.
I found a shit slave job owned by some N Koreans attempting to do some line cook work but being treated like shit the entire time. No breaks, not kindness, no food, serving trash food.

I finally got my check in, luckily, but not so much. They helped until I could find my current job at least.. There was no place for us to go. We had to find something out of state ironically it was cheaper in CA now than in OR because of the migration.... completely opposite in terms of natural beauty of where we were staying prior to be closer to his family. Middle of the desert nothingness suburbia shithole. I'm grateful that I could get a work from home job so I could at least find some way to make money but it is so hollow and empty in meaning - I don't do anything but blow smoke up peoples asses trying to pretend I can get them benefits for helping their bill prices when I know really by first hand experience that if you rent /and/ pay your own electric you're already making way over the income limit.
I've started gaining all of my old weight back. I don't want to walk around at 104 degree weather I don't feel safe leaving at night to go try to exercise "at the park" when I do have the time.

There's nothing open to do - still don't have a vehicle even after trying to "save up" for one by scrounging poverty for 10 years. If you don't have a helping hand up you're just going to be stuck carrying around 3 cases of luggage on a greyhound to try to find a place to live every 5 months when you can't pay your rent because bills and food took priority over rent and when you have all three of those you're spending money on and still only making 10 an hour after working your trade for 8 years you certainly can't "save" to get a vehicle.


I'm just over it
everything

I'm glad I have a job ... so they should tell me I should feel. But I'm tired of playing their game. The capitalist system is broken. I am just trying to hold on to what emotionally valuable possessions I have left but I'm close to just forgetting all about it.
I'm not sure where to go or what to do I just understand that this is not where I saw myself when I was 17. I didn't spend my teenage years locked up in my home because my parents were neglectful assholes to finally escape that, only to be told by daddy government that I can't do anything I've ever wanted to do my entire life because everything is "Shut Down"
I think about all of the elderly and premature deaths this year who will die without being able to do what they wanted in the last moments of their life.
I think about ho…
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Wesley Dartham - Sat, 08 Aug 2020 05:31:35 EST 6hKQAnke No.535645 Reply
>>535642
Why not try and think about positive things instead?
Like how you still have your health, or the fact that you have someone who loves you and cares for you. There are a lot of things you could use to help you elevate your mood, instead of filling your mind with negativity.
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Ebenezer Fuckleketch - Sat, 08 Aug 2020 07:35:53 EST Wv0LJm+H No.535646 Reply
>>535632
>a half mill is literally as much as pneumonia or flu or Heart disease or car crashes
There are those who are upset that their country has 3x modifier on the death rate...they have a valid complaint, don't they? I think the situation is a little more nuanced at this point than people dying of an illness.
But you know 😉 🤭
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Shitting Tootdock - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 10:55:55 EST 3ScQQ4dj No.535682 Reply
sometimes life just forces you to slow down and eat shit, you'll be alright

New relationship and they like being Friends with their ex

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- Sun, 09 Aug 2020 14:48:36 EST 1+Zi0vj4 No.535659
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If you just entered into a new relationship with someone and they are friends with their ex, do you see that as a red flag?
I mentioned that I dislike it and my new partner said "there is no attraction there i always stay friends with them, you have nothing to worry about etc" and sort of acted like I was being unreasonable.
I'm about ready to pack this one in and call it wraps. What do you guys think?
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Nathaniel Goodford - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 20:51:02 EST suOUJIIv No.535667 Reply
Whenever people worry about platonic relationships that their partner has usually the problem is between you and your partner. If you worry about your partner hanging out with someone who they say there's nothing going on with, you have trust problems. This isn't necessarily your fault though, it could mean that there's just not enough love and openness in your relationship. Maybe try talking with them about it? Good luck.
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Phineas Buzzwill - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 22:35:31 EST iA5UXn8f No.535668 Reply
If it makes you uncomfortable then leave. NEITHER of you should be forced to compromise on something like that.

You can always get high and jack off
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Nell Clapperworth - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 08:46:28 EST UCVl/O8b No.535678 Reply
>>535659
>I always stay friends with them
Because that way she can say she's never had a breakup that was her fault.



Does the feeling of wanting to fuck other girls go away?

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- Mon, 27 Jul 2020 10:58:05 EST sxluUyk0 No.535452
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>25 years old
>First real relationship, 2 years now
>Wonderful girlfriend, love her dearly
>Great person to be around
>Chill
>Sex is good
>Everything is great in the relationship

And I still constantly just think about fucking other women. To add to the backstory - I wasn't a virgin before I met her but she is my first relationship. Before this I just wasnt very interested in a relationship, but we just got along so well and she's so great that it developed into one - which I was fine with.

However, I just want to fuck other women and think about it all the time. Its not that I want to BE with other women, and its not that the sex I have with my girlfriend is bad or unfulfilling - im not looking for anything I dont already have - I just want to fuck other women for the variety and for the novelty.

I dont think I'll ever cheat on my girlfriend because I love her totally and I never want to upset her, she'll be totally heartbroken if I ever did, obviously - but there's no getting over that I think about it quite a bit.

Just wish I could have the occasional no strings attached fuck that means nothing, just get it out of my system every now and then.

Does this feeling ever go away?
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Lydia Soddlegold - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 10:04:34 EST qK1Z+uZp No.535656 Reply
>>535626

I'd believe this if I didn't personally know over half the people in those communities are straight up pants on head, foaming from the mouth insane. They're almost all on anti depressants or have some kind of significant mental health issue and are general time bombs, everything is fine until it isn't and when it isn't it fucking ISN'T.

That being said there's a few gems in there and if you're lucky enough to get one you'll probably have a great time.
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Priscilla Shittingdock - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 18:18:19 EST 1SSFeKJF No.535665 Reply
>>535656
I think this applies to most people honestly. I say this as a monogamous guy.

I've friends who've done the poly thing or do it. It lives and dies by the same thing as normal relationships but if you have a complex relationship (as opposed to say mostly centralised but with other things going on) it can end up with many more potential points of failure to ruin everything. I've seen that go wrong. It's possible for people to get marginalised and used as emotional tampons by multiple people if they're really foolish. But it's high risk high reward. You make it work and you have a full support structure and as the joke goes, a D&D group who will turn up regularly.

I'm satisfied with one person and don't have time for more. I see other women who are stunning but at the end of the day I have the energy and emotional availability for one person and one night stands are not as good. You won't learn how to make that person's body and mind respond the way you can with one partner.

I guess I think "I'd smash that person in the hypotheticals" pretty often but I don't think that's unusual. Whether polyamory is the answer depends on a lot of stuff. You are going to end up having to duck crazies and awful people whoever you are and whatever you look for.
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Phineas Mebbleham - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 02:09:31 EST m8gMi16v No.535672 Reply
I had an open relationship for years, it had some bumpy parts but it worked pretty well overall. It served its purpose and both myself and my partner kind of got tired of it around the same time. Naturally kind of burned out. It’s a lot of work. Made us both better at sex and also made us both appreciate each other more, since people are nightmares, generally speaking. We’re monogamous now but it is nice to know we could do it again eventually if we wanted to. We’ve been together 12 years.

I do agree that a lot of people in the poly community seem to be somewhat emotionally unhinged, a lot of borderliney kind of stuff. My partner and I weren’t poly though, just open. Open to fuck buddies w little romance

Full timers Vs. MGH shitboxed union employees

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- Sun, 09 Aug 2020 14:41:49 EST P9+2I5It No.535658
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Full timers are complaining about new hires being afforded MGH style shift pooling...i.e the kind of pooling regular parking lot, chain restaurant and construction guys. You get enough money a week to eat on but you gotta save half a paycheck till next payday to get the big chunk.

And yet they fought for their cushy schedule only to realise after the food; parking lot and setup guys are getting paid equally for what they perceive as piecemeal work.

Minimum guaranteed hours means you might work a 4 and they pay a new guy to finish your 3 but they get a free hour of work by cutting you loose before you get a break. It makes planning your day a sack of crap but I'm used to it being essentially "on call"

If you thought you're cattle now...MGH means that none of us are really making over $17/40hr regardless of ur tenure...

Smmh they should have asked for hire-upping when the water was still sweet.

That's what you get for not unionizong like the shitbox employees...we know they only scoop the bare amount of shit it takes to spread a line and put the precious extra shit back in the box we made for them.
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Asapw0jack - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 15:08:10 EST P9+2I5It No.535662 Reply
>>535658

TL;DR Fulltimers take the assfuck carrot that the PTs and Casuals have been running from for years by unionizing...

Wonder where all their job security went when they basically told upper management to get stuffed when they were hiring upwards.

So thanks to the Fulltimers we have no revolving door and get paid equally to do an equal amount of work and they're upset that PTs can work $17/40 at the expense of basically having to sleep with your phone next to your skull and they're not able to get any time off since they fought for rigid schedules for their cushy white collar life.
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Asapw0jack - Sun, 09 Aug 2020 15:31:15 EST UIs+nGFE No.535663 Reply
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>>535658
As the old saying goes. If you don't want to work what you're given; there's the door, hand your keys to the next guy.

prison

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- Wed, 05 Aug 2020 22:43:25 EST HTfxVBqg No.535614
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I am on probation and left the county without asking for permission from my probation officer, I couldn't get ahold of her and I didn't think it would be a problem because in the past she always said yes to anywhere I wanted to go and would give me travel passes. I was visiting my mom who was in the state because her foster parent died and her stepmother had surgery to remove brain tumors. We were staying with my mom's best friend's daughter who is a heroin and crack addict and is the craziest, most physically ugly, disgusting person I've ever met, the most most undeserving of drawing breath too. I washed all her dishes and cleaned her kitchen and cleaned her turtles 30 or 50 gallon aquarium and babysat him all day for like 2 days. I gave her 20$ for crack, I bought her coffee and bought everyone breakfast and fixed her front door and hammered in some nails and did other simple tasks around the house. I went on a trip to get a chair, I loaded it into a van, brought it into the girl's apartment. I did so much for her. In the morning on my second day there I was told that I was not allowed out in the living room right now and that they're having girl time (my mother and this crackhead). She said come back in 30 minutes, so I reached into my pocket to check the time and she said "dont look at the clock. we're not on a time limit, just come back at 10 [10 o clock was like an hour and 10 minutes away]" so I come back and I pull the curtain open and ask my mom if she can come spend time with me. the girl freaks out again and says dont touch my shit motherfucker get out of my house leave her alone she needs a few hours she doesnt want to spend time with you. my mom was smoking crack with her and said to give her a few more hours. so i went and sat on the back porch babysitting her pet turtle who I took out of the tiny tank he was in trying to escape from all day. I was with this a desert storm veteran pilot who was also not allowed in the living room because he was a man. so i was babysitting her turtle and her company.. we were listening to jimi hendrix and shit. at one point I was crying because I talked to my dead dad's wife and I was just thinking about how I never got to meet my dad. my mom came into the room with the girl to talk to me. asked why I was crying, I told them why. the crackhead freaked out on me told me I had no right to bring up my dad to my mom and I shouldnt talk about him and etc etc. She called a guy over to beat me up but he didn't. Eventually I got thrown out of the apartment by this psycho bitch who I took shit from all day. She threatened to stab me in the neck with a knife and kill me and said she had killed people before. I met strangers on the street who took me into their home and fed me and we hung out, I went back in the evening to get my mom and the crackhead walked up on the sidewalk and started cursing me out and threatening me again. This time I was drunk so I told her to go fuck herself, to make herself useful and suck my dick, and that if she touches me Ill beat the shit out of her. She called the police and said she feared for her life and that I was there threatening to kill her and that I smashed her window with a rock and was terrorizing them. I just left.. so I might have a warrant out. My mom didnt stand up for me (I talked to her) she just walked away as this girl told all these lies to the cops and the police report was filed.


I had to call my p.o. and report the police contact (even though I didnt have physical contact with them a police report was made about me) and she was actually upset that I left without telling her. Now I don't know if I'll be going to jail when I get back home. When I go back to court a month and a half from now I have to explain to the judge what happened. He said if I get one more bad report from probation that I'll be doing state prison time. The first bad report was because people made false claims that I was using drugs, as a result I was put in rehab, took 100 drug tests LC/ms and dipstick, never failed one, I'm in counselling, I started doing volunteer work at a soup kitchen, I'm in college, I'm about to get a job.

I'm not sure now if I'm going to prison or if my felony is going to get reduced anymore, which it was supposed to be before this happened. So my mom fucked my life up. I grew up without my parents, I was given away at age 13 (lived with my singl…
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Shitting Wurringfield - Thu, 06 Aug 2020 07:46:30 EST j4hxtyVz No.535623 Reply
>>535614
You aren't in trouble because you went to see your mom. You're in trouble because you broke the terms of your probation to leave the county and go associate with known drug users and criminals (breaking your probation no doubt), getting drunk (breaking your probation), and getting violent to the point where you had police contact (breaking your probation).

You made an agreement with the court and you wiped your ass with it twice. Go sit in jail.
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Walter Gacklebury - Thu, 06 Aug 2020 10:48:16 EST 1SSFeKJF No.535627 Reply
>>535623
This is harsh but true.

But also OP is in trouble because he went to see his mum. He went out the way to do what he could and she basically just smoked crack and let someone abuse him in her stead.

Whether you go to prison or not reflect on how much of a fuck your mum gives about you before you stick your neck out, make any effort or even answer her calls.

You're a good person, sure, but you're also stupid. Not only did you break your probation in a whole bunch of ways knowingly. But you did it for trash people who didn't appreciate it at all. Were the first people who made the false report were people you could have avoided but spent time around out of duty for someone who didn't appreciate it?

If someone shows you no regard and repeatedly hurts you you then cut them out. You don't attract bad mojo, it's just others will walk away from those people and situations or they don't engage but you let the bad ones in.

Whatever happens you have an opportunity to think about who really appreciates your kindness and who doesn't and how you can see that quicker going forward. You always have to take a bit of a risk with people if you want to find someone good. But it's "you look like a bit of a fool and waste some time on someone" risk, not the sort where you go out knowing full well someone is fucking awful and get threatened by a knife. When you're in jail if therapy is an option take it. You obviously have self esteem issues hence why you're such a doormat and your risk/reward is fucked up because you did some really stupid risky stuff.
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Martin Shakeham - Thu, 06 Aug 2020 11:02:34 EST t38kA1NK No.535628 Reply
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>When you're in jail if therapy is an option take it. You obviously have self esteem issues hence why you're such a doormat and your risk/reward is fucked up because you did some really stupid risky stuff.
Fuck yes this was me at 17.

a mistake

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- Wed, 05 Aug 2020 19:08:44 EST fFX5osX4 No.535605
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I had to do it though

"oh he can't keep his pills arranged"
"love means whatever I say it means"
"he's going to do X"
"why are you such trash"
"you're weak no matter how strong you actually are"
"are you okay"

etc.


but I'm addicted to abuse
I'm addicted to the resulting rage

I love this place but it's not severe enough
I need something far, far more than this

I meant it when I said I don't want to self-destruct over this, but it's not this is it?
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Emma Fandlemure - Thu, 06 Aug 2020 05:41:42 EST dBf5Zy3G No.535620 Reply
Are you okay though? Don't fob this question off. It is usually a genuine expression of concern and a sign of someone giving enough of a shit to ask. It's ok to admit that you're not and that you need someone to ask it.
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Molly Dummlestone - Mon, 10 Aug 2020 22:33:50 EST 6bxvRJh/ No.535691 Reply
The struggle inside my mind rages on, but I know when it's finally over the clarity will be total. No self doubt. No hesistation. No more painstaking appraisals.
It's not entirely clear what happens after that.

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