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!GD3wBpep0Y - Sun, 13 Aug 2017 12:14:49 EST d5kHsYag No.518069
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Hi folks,

If you're looking to talk to someone immediately about any problems you have in your life and have nobody close to you, come and speak to us!

Join us on IRC on #qq. Most of us have different time zones but if you stay there, one of us will be there.

Don't be afraid to speak up.
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Nathaniel Fudgewater - Wed, 14 Aug 2019 16:51:18 EST 8nEEdvzV No.531022 Reply
Not sure maybe I misunderstood so here's this..

I'd never pretend to a child that God existed because I think that's cruel, same with the afterlife, and the same with the death of family members or others. I think lying to kids about death just creates some kind of cruel, slow torture. They don't understand it immediately anyway.
Fanny Choffingstat - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 05:24:28 EST qTml9FbR No.531093 Reply

>Young child

They hid that shit from me until I was almost thirty. I'm the youngest child of three, and as far as I know my older brother and sister still don't know any of what my parents have told me about their tumultuous past.

They could have told me this stuff when I was a teenager. It's a mistake rying to hide people from the bad parts of life instead of informing them properly. I would have likely avoided making several bad choices when I was younger if I had known my dad wasn't just talking out of his ass. I might have respected his opinion more if I knew he had actually experienced certain things and knew what he was talking about. There was no reference with which to respect his opinion.
Polly Trotstone - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 04:37:42 EST hiKxQg3e No.531149 Reply
That's some Shakespearean-drama tier shit man. Maybe you could fictionalize it and novelize it to get it out, it's unusual enough that people might want to read it.

Questions about girls

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- Sun, 18 Aug 2019 18:28:36 EST tCoF/EHT No.531111
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Second year of college

I don't want to be a virgin forever. How do I approach girls in my class without being creepy? I know I probably shouldn't do it on the first day but I really really want a GF.

And before you ask, I take of myself (180lbs 6ft2in 11% bodyfat) and I have a decent face. But my social skills are dogshit and I just don't know what to say to girls.

also I'm deathly afraid that I'll be hitting on a chick and some white-knight asshole will go all fake woke on me and accuse me of being weird and shit. How do I respond to this hypothetical? How do I have a comeback that isn't cringe?
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Shit Greenwill - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 08:18:15 EST d4fOgvZr No.531130 Reply
>also I'm deathly afraid that I'll be hitting on a chick and some white-knight asshole will go all fake woke on me and accuse me of being weird and shit.

Dude I'm a fat and strange little man and even to me this scenario has literally never happened. If you hit on someone who turns out to have a boyfriend just go "oh I didn't know" and move on. As long as you're not creepily persistent or very crass nobody is going to throw a shitfit over you hitting on someone.
Fanny Duckwill - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 20:49:13 EST iJiVumQQ No.531169 Reply
My whole game centered around being approached by woman. I didnt realize it until I was out of high school but girls had been hitting on me since I was 13. I was 6 ft 3 back then. It's a viable alternative to approaching but it works better in classes and larger social groups than in bars and clubs. The main thing is to try and be sexy and mysterious. Being shy actually helps lol. Dont demonstrate sexual interest in the women. They get confused and want to get to know you. Be their friends after that and keep things non attached and someone will jump your bones before their rivals get to you first. No joke.

OP you're thinking about this all wrong. No offense but you dont learn to juggle by starting with 6 balls. You start with two.

This is clearly not about your virginity because otherwise you'd go to a whore. I recommend that you go see a whore btw. Itll be either great or underwhelming. If its underwhelming then you'll be perfectly prepared for the realities of casual sex lol.

But since it's not about sex it's about romance, connection and mental health. Guy you need friends in general. You need to talk to people. You need therapies. You dont need a committed relationship right now or to even think about non platonic love. Modern day relationships are out of your league for now.

So yeah. Try your best to get some professional help. A nice non judgmental therapist or some CBT for social anxiety would go down nicely. Download workbooks from online even. They are out there.

Join a club and keep going. Talk to people in class about the subjects. Simple building blocks. Stack them bricks son. Add people on Facebook. Message them.

You're only learning the basics here. Preparing for dudes attacking you is pure neuroticism and anxiety. Its akin to the young boy learning to shoot a rifle having a panic attack because he doesn't know how to put down a bear already. It's not realistic.

Go and do the thing. Dont overthink this
Lillian Brookville - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 23:29:15 EST xFBnJEh+ No.531170 Reply
>>Being shy actually helps lol. Dont demonstrate sexual interest in the women
Not true, can verify.
If this worked for you, that's great, but I'd call you an outlier. Generally this isn't a viable strategy if women aren't already approaching you.
And I honestly don't know what would make a woman do this. I mean, I assume it must happen, but I have literally no idea what they're attracted to (in b4 "confidence.")

>Modern day relationships are out of your league for now.
Man, that seems a little harsh. Sure, it'll be harder to find a girlfriend without an existing social network, but one can still get lucky. You don't have to have a social network to get a girlfriend, it just helps.

Also, what? Why does he need professional help? I haven't seen OP say anything that indicates a mental problem or imbalance that would require therapy.

I will second that joining clubs is a good idea, though. But just be ready for a lot of false-starts when it comes to networking. You'll make connections that never go anywhere, drop off, or dead end. That will probably be the majority of your experiences, and only a rare few (if any) will actually stick.

You most likely won't be direct-attacked by anyone, but in a big enough social circle, you should probably be prepared for some jealous fake-woke bro to go all "nice-guy" behind your back if he thinks you're "crossing the line," especially with someone he's interested in.

Irrational lack of fear

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- Mon, 19 Aug 2019 01:53:21 EST hiKxQg3e No.531122
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So, I went through like maybe 3-4 years of unbelievable trauma in childhood, spent a very long time with slow-burn trauma and drug abuse, then had another 2 years of severe trauma and 2 ears of rehab recently in my life, followed by like two years of relatively clean living.

The weird thing is now, I notice I have little to no fear, even when I think it might be helpful. I know that scary people, in fact, people that have hurt me, also had this property, and don't like it, but not sure why it is happening, how to change it or if it's just permanently removed. I try to use this new lack of fear for good, but for example, being unafraid to say something crude or bizarre in a conversation and then realizing it causes fear afterwards is problematic to other people.

On top of that, the entire world feels like emotional cardboard to me.
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Phineas Drarringforth - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 12:58:05 EST ehhnNOgT No.531157 Reply
The problem with stims is that they melt your brain from exitotoxicity and the damage never repairs itself. It's cumulative so if you abuse them for a while you'll do some damage, then if you go back and do more you'll do even more damage. That's probably why your baseline feel different than it did before, you did more damage so things got worse.
Polly Trotstone - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 13:25:09 EST hiKxQg3e No.531158 Reply
No, you weren't listening. I returned to baseline that is different from now after stim abuse. Attributing it to the evils of stimulants is just some sort of dogmatic relic of Christian emotion.
John Chumbletidge - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 20:22:28 EST dSPy0yiU No.531168 Reply
One of the great beauties in life is appreciating your own conscious experience. Know yourself intimately and never lash out in fear. Envy nothing but appreciate everything. Live knowing that your appreciation for your own particular conscious thoughts is what gives life meaning. Do not envy yourself for who you were for others have lost just as you have lost. Be reborn, grieve your loss, awaken into your new universe, and, then, begin to appreciate all the other universes of the people around you. Imagine yours melding with theirs, then let the branches of your galaxy touch arms with another. You might be surprised at the power and depth you possess.

Seen this hot chick

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- Mon, 19 Aug 2019 20:44:44 EST JFC8fXCI No.531139
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I was returning back to my apartment complex and I see this beautiful girl and she smiled and waved at me. Like some kind of idiot I just smiled back and waved and kept on walking. I seen her in my complex so she most likely lives here. I really want to run into this girl again. How should I go about this?
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Hugh Socklenat - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 19:06:03 EST QZOIDGBa No.531161 Reply
Oh, so she probably lives in your complex. I mean, just hang out, do laundry, smoke cigarettes, live your normal life. You'll probably see her again.
Hawk - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 19:21:43 EST qYjSP2GV No.531164 Reply
I usually spend my time inside. I have been sitting outside with my switch from time to time. Trying to see if I see her. If I didnt look up at her with her smiling and waving before I even made eye contact. This wouldn't be running through my mind. It didnt even register till I got in my unit and sat down. Such an idiot.

Noticed recently that I'm too aggressive

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- Sat, 17 Aug 2019 19:20:47 EST dSPy0yiU No.531081
File: 1566084047046.jpg -(35990B / 35.15KB, 732x549) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Noticed recently that I'm too aggressive
I am voluntarily seeking CBT, anger management, and biofeedback. My insurance will only cover two of these and I'm leaning towards CBT and biofeedback. I started noticing that I've become incredibly irritable, to the point that it scares both myself and others. I've developed a hairpin trigger, and now struggle with explosive anger. I become inconsolable and uncontrollable when I'm in this state, and I am incredibly worried because I did not used to be like this.

It feels as if one day, out of the blue, I became incredibly agitated yet unable to pinpoint exactly why. I told my psychiatrist after several incidents of screaming my lungs out, at my girlfriend of all people, that were so out-of-place, overblown, and uncalled for. He switched my medications, but that seems to have not helped much at all.

I can be a bit of a worry wart, but I know myself and my thinking very well, and something very fundamental in my cognition has shifted. I've been asking my girlfriend how I express my anger externally and what I've heard is incredibly disturbing to me.

My impulse control is also extremely bad, and I have been acting erratically. I have long-suffering depression and anxiety which I am taking medications for.

Please, has anyone had experience with anything like, and what has helped you?
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Phineas Drarringforth - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 21:00:47 EST ehhnNOgT No.531141 Reply
Are you on antidepressants? because certain antidepressants will do that to me.
Polly Trotstone - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 23:49:32 EST hiKxQg3e No.531145 Reply
My meds really fucked me up man, I dunno exactly what it was because they tried a whole bunch of different ones, but prescription pharma was a really bad trip for me. I'm not saying that's universal but it's possible.

I think you may want to consider that drugs aren't really the problem and are just a cofactor. What you need to do is study a mental discipline like Buddhism or Sufism and adapt some meditative techniques for your own purposes so you can remain Spock-like when necessary, but don't forget to let it out otherwise you'll sperge out like Nimoy at Sea World.
Basil Fummlehun - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 11:53:45 EST FUZp42nP No.531156 Reply
LOL holy fuck no wonder you've got problems. You say you can't control your anger, yet somehow you go into stressful situations every day in traffic, at the supermarket, at the social security office, but in the end, who are the actual targets of your anger? The people who forgive you. Now, be honest, is this something that's outside of your control really? Are you being honest when you say you're just a passenger in these situations of rage? That someone else is in control when you are screaming vile shit at people who care about you? Don't say yes. I won't believe it, man. Obviously you have control over this as evidenced by the fact that you're a free person walking around and not in jail for flipping off a judge. What your smug attitude disguises is a complete lack of confidence in situations that are outside of your complete control. People who lack confidence lash out and make themselves the center of attention, as you do when you get angry, you say, "See?? I got angry and now they're all doing what I say! Who's in control NOW???" in the end though, you will either develop coping skills and the ability to endure these situations or your whole family will leave you, I promise. I've seen it.

people are not really that terrific and it makes me want to die

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- Fri, 16 Aug 2019 20:01:57 EST LiC8iReQ No.531062
File: 1566000117834.jpg -(48175B / 47.05KB, 720x474) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. people are not really that terrific and it makes me want to die
I have a upper-middle class upbringing, great parents, I am 6'3'' with no medical problems and am physically moderately attractive. I'm a creative person with respect to drawing and writing, and I enjoy quality cinema and am an intellectual enough of a dude to process the meaning behind setpieces and character actions in a film.

Does anyone have these qualities and just... wants to die for some odd reason?

For me there are two contributing factors:
>A) In highschool I fell in love with a woman who I thought was particularly interesting and she pretty much called me a creep and told me to get fucked when I told her. Though I admit to having her cross my mind every 10 minutes I maintain that I am not a creep as I am a pacifist who absolutely wouldn't force my will upon anyone and know very well to keep to myself.

>B) I have absolutely no future. None. I have a prepaid college fund that I am not going to do anything with. The shortest explanation I can come up with is that I do not work well in an authoritarian setting--- me paying to do non-creative writing for someone to grade me for is some seriously absurd shit. Non-creative writing is in itself an oxymoron as writing is an art.

I've been not wanting to really live for the above reasons. Romantic love that is not inspired by economic trade (basically goldigging) is a lie, and winners in this broken psudo-capitalist society being decided by merit are a lie.

I don't know if I am asking for advice, because the advice that I get is that I am every single creep who walked this Earth for still being beat up towards my unrequitted feelings after 8 years. The person who I fell in love with is completely gone from me as the bridge has been burned for several years now, and I feel like the equivalent of a lonely who man whose wife has long since passed.

It's not really that great of a feeling.
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Jarvis Gunnermore - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 19:18:27 EST ka63e54W No.531163 Reply
people like to attempt to posture and dominate others by doing things like "telling them like it is"
however what they fail to realize is that they are tremendously faggy and self-deceiving in doing do
nb of course
Jarvis Gunnermore - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 19:25:19 EST ka63e54W No.531166 Reply
> and the OP is very smug as an (unconsious?) defense mechansim
i'm not the op but you're an effeminate piece of garbage
Sophie Dribbletat - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 19:46:29 EST A33aUZTw No.531167 Reply

I was giving him the benefit of the doubt. I guess he could be smug for the sake of smugness

Mexican Glowfucks

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- Mon, 19 Aug 2019 22:39:55 EST C383G7rM No.531143
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I want to make an electronic game, and paint like Francisco Goya. But I have these Mexican glowfuckers that have been harassing me since 2008. They keep trying to raid my house and won't stop gangstalking me because I download pictures of guns for photoreferences. They've come to every single job I've had and ruined my reputation. Constantly saying things like I do Methamphetamine because I stay up all night. Even though I've never touched that shit in my life.

What do I do, I cant even earn enough money to leave the state in which my family has lived in since 1920 something. I'm going crazy and I can't cope anymore.

BWQQ : bump when QQ

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- Fri, 17 May 2019 02:16:59 EST cSntlhQ8 No.529418
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I searched 5 pages back. Does this board get a bump thread? just vent about feelings and emotions here.

My heroin addict neighbor has been being a bitch to me lately. I can't cuss her out while talking to her, but she has been yelling at me and freaking out. So I'm gonna talk smack about her here. Sorry if this is shit posting.

holy fuck speak of the devil. shes texting me now. i did not even read what she wrote. im gonna delete it. fuck this psycho bitch. she is causing me so much stress. I hope I'm making a thread correctly.
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Jarvis Huzzlewater - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 17:17:20 EST ijNDmQGc No.531078 Reply
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I've been with someone who's special to me for the first time in a very long time. I tried to make this as obvious as possible without flat out saying it but I don't think it got through. I'm going to say it next time, and the anxiety from these few days has me in such a state that I haven't masturbated in 3 full days (that's extremely rare for me)

Guarantee you she doesn't like me back anyway
Phineas Hobbleshaw - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 10:15:18 EST z5mjYXr2 No.531100 Reply
I know how u feel

i wouldve said more but my wrist is broken. hurts 2 type and very hard
Polly Trotstone - Tue, 20 Aug 2019 03:34:40 EST hiKxQg3e No.531148 Reply
Just sort of raw and empty now, but I also feel like there's room to put new stuff in. I feel exhausted, but like the next few nights of sleep will be good, and good things will be coming after that.

Something's Wrong

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- Wed, 14 Aug 2019 09:25:49 EST xFBnJEh+ No.531012
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I'll try to keep this short.
I feel like something's wrong with me. My life is objectively the best it's ever been in terms of ease and security, and yet I feel it's getting harder and harder to get through each day.

I feel like it started around 2 years ago when my girlfriend moved in with me. At first I thought I just needed an adjustment period from living alone my whole adult life, but here we are 2 years later, and if anything, the feeling is getting worse (or at least harder to ignore).

The thing is, I don't really know if it's living with her that's making me feel this way.
I feel the worst when I'm at work. I have such a hard time getting up some mornings, and there are days when I get to my desk and want to just cry.
I pretty much always feel better at home. I just took a week-long trip with my girlfriend, and it was the best time I've had in ages. I enjoyed myself, and I enjoyed being with her. So that means being around her probably isn't the cause, right?

I know I wasn't always happy before my girlfriend. I was lonely and felt like a loser. I had no friends.
And yet, I also feel like I enjoyed myself. I had fun, did things, looked forward to things.
Now whenever I try to engage in one of my previous pastimes, I feel like I'm just going through the motions.
I feel like the weekends are pointless because I'll just be facing down another Monday morning in 48 hours. There used to be a time where I was actually ready to go back to work on Monday, because I had gotten bored from the weekend.
Now I can't remember the last time I felt fully rested even after a 3 day weekend.
I feel like everything is becoming a struggle, and I rarely have anything to look forward to. The only cure I've found is to keep myself so busy that I don't have time to feel bad (but that usually just leads elevated stress, so it's a trade-off).

The other alternative is weed. Before my girlfriend, I would drink a controlled amount to get drunk maybe 1-2 times a week, like Friday/Saturday night.
After she moved in, I was binge-drinking 3-4 times a week, sometimes spending whole days drunk (only on my days off work), and not limiting myself to the controlled amounts I had been before. Eventually it started to backfire though, and I would find myself feeling even worse than I would otherwise the morning after, so the past few months I've started shifting to weed instead.
Weed doesn't have the negative effects alcohol does, but I've gone from using it maybe once every few months to multiple times a week. It's gotten to the point where I've seriously started to consider micro-dosing edibles in the morning just so I won't feel like having a breakdown at my desk.

My gut is telling me I need to change something in my life, but I don't want to leave my girlfriend, and my job is too sweet a gig to give up.
I feel like there's something wrong with me, and I don't know what to do.
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Barnaby Hadgehid - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 02:01:11 EST iJiVumQQ No.531030 Reply
Your life is out of balance and you feel like you lack control of the things you do. Fair enough. That's called being part of the system.

Theres a shift in society. If you were born a generation earlier youd be able to have a more comfortable lifestyle for doing the same shit as you are now, but yeah now the squeeze is on you. Dont get me wrong. Youd get squeezed anyway. Look at your parents. Chances are they've been stressed since before you were born. Yep. Paying all the insurances and bills and upkeeps after rent and doing housework and cleaning. Adult shit is never ending and always seems frivolous.

You get home and on top of unloading the stress of the day you have to do shit with your partner and keep the spice alive. If shes not happy, you'll probably wear it one way or another. Hey, shes stressed too.

Do you want to live your life this way? Really? If so, continue. Dont change a thing.

We all know however that it's not working. The whole damn society knows this subconsciously and its why everyone is freaking the fuck out. The planet is too small to keep up with endless growth and the middle are falling behind into indentured servitude.

Opt out. Fucking buy a caravan and an empty block of land with some bush out of the city. Build a house out of cob and recycled materials. Grow your own food. You'll be able to work 3 days a week if you dont have a mortgage and spend huge amounts of money on shitty mass produced food.

Sounds like a lot of hassle? Well you'll have to do it anyway eventually and if you dont you'll wear a home loan that take 30 years of hard work and diminishing returns to pay off instead of a few years shifting dirt.
Nicholas Trotbanks - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 13:41:28 EST DpEzAaRq No.531133 Reply
Yeah, I remember watching that when it first aired.

I agree I'm self medicating. But also, maybe I'm okay with that, as long as it works?

I'm actually like 2 years away from having my house paid off, so at least I'm on my way to financial freedom.

Maybe the added stressors at home are just overloading me. Like, I never feel recharged anymore. It used to be that a 2 day weekend was enough to recharge and go back at it on Monday. Hell, I even spent my Sundays volunteering.
I haven't volunteered in over 2 years though, because I feel like I'm already overextended as it is.

And with my job... It's an easy-going environment with good pay (it's why I've been able to pay off my mortgage so quickly) but in a way, it's also dead end. I never really had any career aspirations other than "earn money" and "live comfortably," which I'm basically achieving. But maybe I want more than that out of work.
But am I willing to sacrifice the stability and security I have now to go in search of that?
So far I haven't been, because it seems like giving up what I have would be foolish.
Also, I wouldn't even begin to know what I'm actually looking to get out of work that would make it feel "fulfilling" or "worthwhile."

I can see that I'm resorting to weed to more easily accept my current situation because I'm unable or unwilling to change it.

I know lots of people aren't even lucky enough to have this problem of finding fulfillment with their work, and are just struggling to survive.
But how does one go about figuring out what kind of work is meaningful to them?
Even in college, I just haphazardly picked a major based on what seemed vaguely interesting, without having any kind of actual passion for it.
And my current job doesn't even have anything to do with that.

How do people figure out what they want to do for a living?
Cornelius Denderchodging - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 13:53:17 EST EnZaW86f No.531134 Reply
>as long as it works
But it's not, is it? And when it works, you're just white-knuckling it

eh girls and whatever

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- Sun, 18 Aug 2019 08:47:17 EST PJL4xgV4 No.531097
File: 1566132437757.jpg -(36434B / 35.58KB, 540x720) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. eh girls and whatever
So, I know QQ is saturated of relationship/loneliness advice.
Instead I come to you and ask: Are there any good references for a read/watch that you may want to share?

Just some details, if it makes any diference:
I'm a boring weird dude in my late 20's, got """lucky"""(long story), got into a thing with a girl recently for my first time, but it's not going anywhere, i got money coming on a just comfortable amount, i'm not super in shape but i jog on occasion - so, what solutions do i have?
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Molly Blogglefield - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 12:00:25 EST +gpywLGS No.531107 Reply
Nah man work on yourself before you bring someone else in.
Thomas Tillingshit - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 13:42:15 EST 4zShDk+Y No.531109 Reply
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Simply don't be afraid to make the mistakes you will make.
Don't purposely make mistakes, but know that experimenting with
what makes you and her happy is always good.

Be nervous, be anxious, let yourself feel and be honest about your lack of
experience with dating.

You...don't have to be honest about everything... or rather, you don't have to
indulge embarrassing things right away.
Edwin Honeybury - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 12:55:11 EST R+l3Sp/Z No.531132 Reply
you like cats? volunteer at an animal sanctuary for a few months, move to a different sanctuary if that sanctuary doesn't have any hotties.
cat lovers make good life partners

Trying to find a decent drug to use semi-regularly

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- Fri, 02 Aug 2019 08:10:17 EST xtDG3Dq+ No.530745
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In B4 weed or alcohol, I'm tested (specifically) for the 1st and allergic to the 2nd.

I'm trying to find something I can use moderately, maybe once or twice a week that is:
  1. Non-addictive or low habit-forming
  2. Minimal to low risk in terms of physical/mental harm
  3. High lasts 3-8 hours only
  4. Unlocks creativity (not required but would be great)

Basically I have one single day to myself (Monday) where I have 10 hours to paint and draw and lately to get anything out I have to be fucked up while I do it.

Are there options? I'm thinking if there are, it'll be a research chem..

I've been dicking around with h and ketamine on alternating weeks, but I mean... I'd rather not. I tend to prefer psychedelics, but if I do mushrooms or any 2Cs I have a hell of a time sleeping after. M is decent but I hate doing it solo, and I know long-term it affects my mood. Coke is fun but $$$$$$ and really not creative.

I will do anything, definitely will try something new, so I'm looking for recommendations/suggestions. I'd post this in Other but apparently no one lives there.

And this IS a personal issue because I feel so stuck, and.. mentally locked. Painting sober recently feels like a chore instead of feeling freeing, and cleansing like it normally does. I just want to get back some flow for a few months and remember how it feels to create with abandon. Bleh.
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Thomas Bumblestone - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 07:32:30 EST 3KSvCO5g No.531128 Reply
Except most people don't like smoking something that smells like a burning car filled with garbage and corpses regularly.

Try microdoses of mushrooms. You should be able to sleep with the right dose. Obviously it might take some trial and error.

I would even say combo a few different substances in threshold doses, switch it up week to week. If you're careful, which sounds like you might be, you can avoid any addiction or negative physical sides for years this way.
Thomas Bumblestone - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 07:40:51 EST 3KSvCO5g No.531129 Reply
Are you on drugs too? Foxxy/Moxxy are NOT creative, mind-opening substances in the way a lot of the other suggestions are, they're exclusively tactile. But then again OP was painting on fucking heroin so uh

OP is gonna sit down to paint and wind up jerking it for 5 hours straight. Still not a bad way to kill a Monday I guess

what do i do???

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- Fri, 12 Jul 2019 04:27:17 EST DiXkGWFM No.530378
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holy shit why is my hair thinning im only 20 fucking 2, or am I just tweaking? it doesnt look thin at all if i wear it down, but the top is starting to thin too

how the fuck do I stop tbis shit? a number of things make male pattern baldness particularly upsetting to me, idk how I could live with it

How bad does it have to be to get prescribed something for it? What medicines work best to stop this shit? Minoxidil? Finasteride? spironolactone?
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Thomas Brirringbedge - Thu, 15 Aug 2019 17:21:51 EST Je9nm5wp No.531044 Reply
Yeah, I kind of lean towards this. Obviously it wouldn't be as distressing to a guy in nearly the same way, but if they felt 1/10th as upset by it as I do (did! >>531006) I can't blame them for wanting to do everything in their power to correct it.

>I work out every day of the week and stick to a strict diet because I can't deal with the biological reality that my body wants to become fat and my legs want to atrophy because the reality of city living in a prosperous country means sugar is everywhere and leg strength is redundant in a sedentary world.

i would normally suggest Wellbutrin and ECA here but apparently that makes your hair fall out, go figure, but I also support this specifically as well, because as I mentioned in the thread, I've been on extreme, substance assisted cut that I started as soon as I fully realized what I'd eventually have to do in life. Went from 230 to 150 in a matter of less than 6 months. I pushed my body to its limit with cardio to lose fat and weight training to build muscle in its place. I remain completely undaunted as I slowly taper back up my caloric intake to not shock my metabolism while I continue to lose another 10-20lbs and learn to eat like a normal, healthy person while tapering down for the last time on supplements.

All this after YEARS of struggling with weight and eating, because size and weight have become important to me in a way they never were before
Phoebe Brookspear - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 14:00:15 EST h3r+CwCb No.531110 Reply
This thread is fucking wild lmao

I'm now imagining a spec script for Seinfeld where George becomes trans to get rid of his balding

That's actually incredible, congrats, cute hair in the bottom right

I’m so tired and confused

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- Fri, 02 Aug 2019 01:00:15 EST pNgQLU7V No.530733
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So I’m gonna start with my whole sad story and I’ll try to keep myself from going off on too many tangents to keep it short. I’ll put a tl;dr at the bottom because I say short meaning the short version of what I have to say- and I have a lot to say.

I’m not sure where to start, really. I’m bipolar as hell, been dragged from psychologist to psychiatrist to alternative school over and over throughout my child hood as I hid away in my computer. My parents divorced when I was 6 out of nowhere for reasons nobody really ever was honest about. My mom pulled the classic Oedipal complex and kept me away from all the social checks and balances I needed growing up. My dad was hardly around because of his job on top of the divorce. My little brother was effected by the divorce way more drastically and is still stuck in the terrifying state of a mamas boy with BPD.

I hid in video games throughout middle school and then drugs throughout highschool. I kept moving from social group to social group thinking this was what i needed to stop being a loser but I always ended up fucking a lot of people over and disappearing, once again isolating myself into sicker and sicker states. I went from a scrawny white kid playing minecraft to an awkward white kid smoking weed to a pale, tired kid drinking cough syrup before school, a psychotic borderline schizo kid with PTSD, to a jaded 20 year old with no future.

After getting kicked out of my first high school I ended up cutting off all my friends and my life consisted of cough syrup, weed, and driving my dealers around for money and drugs. After a while it was pretty clear that they could take advantage of me so I let myself be dragged around and made a bitch by intimidation and having little care for myself. Got guns stuck up to my head, blah blah blah. I finally wised up and disappeared on them just to end up being manipulated by another sociopath. And then one more.

By the time I finished high school I got PTSD for 4 different reasons. All of my grandparents died, my childhood dog died, my friend died of an overdose, my other dog got cancer, and I had psychosis from a mixture of drugs, trauma, and isolation. I’m still not sure if I’m done with it yet either. Sometimes I hear people screaming when I leave my fan on at night and get flashbacks to a bunch of snuff rape videos i came across when i was 15. Speaking of repressed emotional outbursts relating to female abuse, I somehow ended up with a girlfriend the year after and oooooh shit did this lead to some crazy things.

One guy had been having his friends sexually harrass her all year and I found out one kid tried to rape her the year before. So... I called up a psychopath that I’d promised myself I wouldn’t ever talk to again because it thought id learned my lesson from all the psychos before. But i didnt and called him up because i wanted to power of a crazy violent gang banger on my side. Long story short, someones car got broken into and a shit ton of stuff stolen, someones house has bullet holes in it and is now someone elses, im somehow not in jail by some miracle, the psycho threatened to kill me but then got arrested and locked up for years by another miracle, and now here i am some how alive.

So here I sit; I’m mourning my innocence, my lost loved ones, my childhood, my heart, my wasted potential.. and I’m stuck ruminating on revenge fantasies, terrible decisions that burden me with guilt, terrible things ive said, etc etc etc. I’m crying every night and want to quit my job and move away every day but snap out of it after a coffee and listening to my favorite songs. I flash back to terrible things I’ll never unsee randomly and I am constantly paranoid for myself, my girlfriend, and my loved ones for sometimes realistic reasons and sometimes just because of delusional paranoia. I have no idea how i became what I am but I hate it and wish I could go back. My IQ is ridiculous and I know I have so much potential in me but I feel overwhelemed by life constantly, have no reasonable path to go down, and have no way to go back from some of the things ive done to my reputation in this town.

Tl;dr my childhood was off, the internet and having no friends fucked up my head growing up, I can’t get alone with people, I fucked my head up even worse with reckless drug abuse, got traumatized and abused over and over, suffered psychosis, lost a lot of things I love, embarrassed myself constantly, put myself and everyone I love i…
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Wesley Snodlock - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 11:10:51 EST yUhAjzvV No.531103 Reply
The reason intermittent fasting works isn't because digestion takes so much energy, honestly both of you are just being dum dums right now. The reason IF works so well is because the restriction of carbohydrates (sugars in particular) lowers insulin levels so much.

Having higher levels of insulin effectively prevents people from losing weight and in particular burning fat as an energy source. IF is a sort of "hack" that involves utilizing a comprehensive understanding of how the body and metabolism works in a thoughtful and intelligent manner to produce effective results. As long as you actually know what you're doing and eat the right kinds of foods using IF, you can lose a lot of weight and be quite healthy.
Augustus Tootstone - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 12:49:36 EST ka63e54W No.531108 Reply
no it is you who is the fool


hey dum dum, objective data can always be presented in a way that reflects confirmation bias. look at the studies and you will find conflicting data.
just watch and you'll find the government is eventually going to provide "studies" that veganism is the best diet. they're already doing it in my country, they're already pushing it. do you honestly think that any amount of vegetables fruit or grains will build your body as optimally as red meat? just look at it, look at the two foods without your faggy science and tell me that what they're saying is true.
i'm not talking to you because you obviously have made up your mind without having a legitimate opinion. do you think this is science man vs. the blind zealot? you're just some bored fag with confirmation bias and dunning kruger
i'm talking to the niggas that are too hopeless and feel too bad to even do a daily walk around the block. what do they have to lose? take it one day at a time, stop if it's too much, and shit will happen to you similar to me, like you'll get your sense of smell back, etc. i readjusted to regular food after 5 days and 60-80% of my emotional despair went away permanently. that's why i push it for free.
either way you're trusting something that is outside of your everyday experience. you're jerking yourself off over one of them
science can be good but if it makes you too much of a bitch to try anything, and if you merely let people make up your mind for you then you're a tremendous faggot
>I'm not going to explain why
what an effeminate thing to declare
do you guys think that your body randomly or automatically jumps to consuming your brain? you're a superstitious faggot, your body is intelligent and will enter in a disposition where it will use your fat gut to fuel itself. do you think only calories are contained in there? there's enough objective data in this thread to safely determine that you're a tremendous faggot, though some of you might be rightfully cautious because i'm obviously being hyperbolic. try a 3 day fast and i guarantee you'll feel way different, lighter. shit happened like my sense of smell came back, etc. do you think even 3 days will kill you or do permanent damage? then you're wrong and probably a little bitch, duh.
yes, when you give your digestive organs a chance to just chill then your body can heal itself, just like if you cut your finger. IF is obv better than constantly putting calories in but you won't get to the deeper levels of healing. it's good maintenance though.
regarding derr caveman objection, explain the amazing health benefits that both anecdote and studies attest to. there aren't really studies of hardcore prolonged fasting but that's because people like you are little crab bucket bitches
best way to lose weight is to simply not eat. you're not going to die and being obese is far worse for you but that's become normal so people stop caring
snake diet cole robinson
Hannah Savingshit - Mon, 19 Aug 2019 02:13:59 EST sv4KUxbS No.531123 Reply
>3 day fast
>expecting to see any of the true benefits of fasting before 10 days
He didn't ask for a bitch's input, you know.

You know who you are.

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- Mon, 05 Aug 2019 13:33:02 EST /PzyMrYR No.530804
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I get it. You're probably never going to contact me again. Just know that I cared for you, gave you a place to stay, made you believe in yourself, and helped you get to where you are today. If I was really a bad person, I wouldn't have done any of that. I don't owe it to you to tell you any information about my personal life. You're a dishonest, heartless bitch and I regret ever trusting you. You ruin the lives of everyone you're a part of. You're a shit friend, a shit partner, and a shit mother. You should do the world a favor and successfully kill yourself.
If i ever got to day this to you, I'd regret it to end of my days, but even though i didn't pull the trigger, in my heart i killed you. Live knowing that you deserved to die and that you roped me into your madness. Live knowing that I have to dedicate my life to choosing never to think these things about another. What you were really was that awful, and you didn't let me leave until i became just like you.
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Lillian Serryhick - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 12:41:41 EST rqyRM0ms No.531068 Reply
Does this include self pleasure? Does it include.... Relieving yourself through masturbation?
Thomas Gumbleman - Sat, 17 Aug 2019 12:45:14 EST dSPy0yiU No.531069 Reply
>masturbation puts you on the path to violence and murder
Sidney Worthingwill - Sun, 18 Aug 2019 06:27:48 EST R+l3Sp/Z No.531095 Reply
you aren't looking for help in this post you are just being a dick to someone you aren't over yet.

get over it and move on and stop hating on her while congratulating yourself on being so kind, you both got something out of it, you did it because it was exactly what you wanted to do at the time, and if you were that kind you wouldn't be posting whiney little bitch messages on the internet

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