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im fucking depressed yall

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- Sun, 03 Apr 2022 23:16:22 EST HKAAmqVh No.542543
File: 1649042182317.jpg -(278372B / 271.85KB, 1200x900) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. im fucking depressed yall
fuck
i think about killing myself like, most days
im working out regularly, being as social as i can, trying to get back into hobbies. but nothing fills the void.
everything seems either impossible or meaningless. i dunno why im like this.
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Phyllis Pocklock - Thu, 12 May 2022 03:53:28 EST yLmd3+Ou No.542776 Reply
>>542773
So, you're saying psychology is mostly a sham? (Which isn't too surprising now that I think of it).
And about the struggling part, when does it end?
Not that I'm complaining, I somehow always manage to carry on so far - but it's been around a decade of constant struggle with hardly a few short breaks in between.
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Sophie Brookwill - Thu, 12 May 2022 05:32:18 EST sVg+h/Pu No.542779 Reply
>>542776
>psychology is mostly a sham
Haha because you have to put in work?

I see how you are.
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Sophie Brookwill - Thu, 12 May 2022 05:34:08 EST sVg+h/Pu No.542780 Reply
>>542776
>a few short breaks
The struggle doesn't stop, only you, and when you do, that's where you fuck up.

ouff

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- Mon, 02 May 2022 16:10:18 EST 8MkPxsJn No.542708
File: 1651522218800.jpg -(28277B / 27.61KB, 562x566) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. ouff
I called someone out and I feel terribly unwell.
Not sure if it was necessary, but I thought If I let this behavior slip, I get used to being disrespected and Im not up to getting used to making excuses for others on my expenses and getting used to being disrespected as a sign of maturity or relationship.

Its like I feel ashamed and unwell on behalf of that person. As if it is my fault for ruining an already sensitive relationship with my polite bluntness. Could I not be the bigger person and pretend it never happened? But I had to do it. I just wonder why. Could I just settle that with just myself? Perhaps. Did I wanted a change? Not really. So why?
Im not sure, I thought it would feel better, more relieved. But its just really inconvenient.
I don't know wether I did the right thing. Im feeling terribly ashamed and I wish it would have never happened.

I will try to mend the relationship with kindness and limits. But its feeling a bit strange. Do you know that feeling? Does it fade? I wish it would. I felt so deeply sad it would freeze me during the day, I had to say something. But Im not liking this uncomfortable truth.
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Caroline Fenninghurk - Mon, 09 May 2022 12:43:40 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542747 Reply
how often in your life have you stood up for yourself? are you feeling ashamed and unwell because you made a mistake or because you aren't used to being assertive like this?
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Caroline Fenninghurk - Mon, 09 May 2022 12:44:01 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542748 Reply
how often in your life have you stood up for yourself? are you feeling ashamed and unwell because you made a mistake or because you aren't used to being assertive like this? >>542708
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Samuel Suffingwell - Tue, 10 May 2022 16:27:39 EST S4FuxWZp No.542765 Reply
>>542748
it was a delicate matter in an already delicate relationship. I believe it was appropriately challenging. thank you for asking

unemployed for fucking ever

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- Mon, 09 May 2022 19:11:29 EST bN0YdRRc No.542752
File: 1652137889066.jpg -(38853B / 37.94KB, 750x750) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. unemployed for fucking ever
Just how on Earth does one find a job??
I can't believe how many applications I have written. It's been over 2 years now.. Okay, I always did a bit of freelancing on the side but I am really not cut out for that kind of stress, I am really not the salesman type, I need a full-time job. I don't know where I am going wrong. I have changed my overall CV again and again, and I always change the details to match the position I am applying for. I am sending out about 1-2 application a day.
It's not like I am coming without qualifications or education. But things seem cursed ever since I finished my MA. Granted, Corona happened just a few months after I graduated, but that's not a relevant thing any more and I still can't find employment. I have also held a lot of odd jobs in the past, sales but also rougher stuff, like cleaning, mover, delivery, shop detective and so on, and I am certainly not too snooty for that. Thing is: I am a leg amputee since a few years. It's nothing that anybody notices until I point it out, but that also cuts out physically demanding jobs(Don't tell me about the amazing things you've seen that amputee can do. Chances are I have met more than you have and I can tell you, everyone is different, and everyone is physically limited as a cripple. Some can run, others can barely walk). Driving jobs are also out of the picture since you need a customized car if you're missing a leg and I don't have the money for a customized car. My situation demands that I work with my brain.
I have done it all, get help from anywhere, get feedback on CV and applications, competence mapping and whatever else. I am quite clear on what kind of person I am, and what I am good at, and what I can contribute with. The worst part is that there's actually a lot that I can, and those who know tell me they can't believe that I can't find a job, I can do programming, I speak three languages fluently, and there's a few more languages where I understand basically everything. I am not even ugly, in fact I am getting a lot of attention from girls and I have a bit of a nimbus among my friends for being this guy that always walks home with a fresh phone number after a night out. They're exaggerating but the fact is that women approach me out of the blue when I am at a bar or a party. So being unappealing or bland isn't really the problem, either. I also have actual interests and creative endeavours, put me together with a scientist and I will always have loads of questions, I am very curious and always eager to learn something new. But none of this matters.
A job has become something from the fairy tales, something inaccessible and unreal. I have no clue what's going on. How did you find your job??

Breakup thread

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- Mon, 25 Apr 2022 21:33:02 EST 1+Zi0vj4 No.542665
File: 10.jpg -(80085B / 78.21KB, 666x69) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Breakup thread
Post here if you are going through a breakup or thinking about it.

I kicked my gf of about 7 months out a few weeks ago and am currently going through the breakup. She lied a lot about all kinds of stuff just arbitrarily among other issues and I decided to go through with it.
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Caroline Braffingwere - Mon, 09 May 2022 06:58:03 EST 3CXpLKdR No.542743 Reply
>>542734
>not allowed
You talked about it, what do you mean by this?
>>542735
>I've been here about 10 years
And you don't know the cat planets? I don't believe you.
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Caroline Fenninghurk - Mon, 09 May 2022 07:39:36 EST gE3BAhW2 No.542744 Reply
>>542743
why would I pretend to be a n00b who's only been here 10 years, 10 years ago was like yesterday

literally not allowed to use the word, when I try to use the word it is blocked
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Caroline Braffingwere - Mon, 09 May 2022 07:47:00 EST 3CXpLKdR No.542745 Reply
>>542744
If you can't figure out how to talk about ASD in a positive way without using the word a utistic then I don't know what to say anymore except don't talk about things you don't really know about.

My buddy is having marital strife oh lord

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- Wed, 04 May 2022 19:57:34 EST UAR5cF+0 No.542725
File: 1651708654330.jpg -(43298B / 42.28KB, 564x646) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. My buddy is having marital strife oh lord
Posting this because I'm trying to figure out what to say to him, or how to help. I went to his house the other night, and it took about 15 minutes of periodically knocking and ringing the bell alongside calling his phone to be let in. Apparently, his wife started having a problem with me coming over. Already strikes me as unusual, we've been BFFs forever and his wife ("Sarah") and I have always had good times together. We're in our early 30s, and they got married three or four years ago.

He sits me down and goes, "it would have been shitty if it were tomorrow, or yesterday, or next week..." Then he lays it out for me: over time, she has become incredibly dissatisfied and impossible to keep in a good mood. She will pick fights constantly and provoke, and very rarely is in good spirits. The thing is, they're doing fine - house, dog, off on the weekends, nothing external really dragging them down. I've been on the receiving end of a very verbally abusive relationship with one sided financial rules, so when he kept going I couldn't help but feel the parallels. Sarah won't help out with the housework, and doesn't listen to my mans. He is paying hundreds of dollars more for living expenses, despite making less money. More or less every day, she'll just act like...well, there was some colorful language used.

She doesn't love him, and I can only assume they haven't been banging on account of this and him bringing up the decline of that happening in the past. A couple of years ago, maybe, he told me that "she's not that cool outside of social situations, believe me" and I didn't think anything of it. Now, apparently the way Sarah treats my friend reminds him of her mother (a bad thing in this situation) and he's just having an awful time trying to exist. Like I said, I've been there - a partner that puts a smile on their face in front of everyone else, and behind closed doors tries to pick you apart and make you feel small. Misery loves company, it seems.

Now, when he conferred all of this to me, I was having a bit of a trip and in my high state tried to play the neutral party and advocate for both sides - the staying in the marriage and working things out, and the leaving because people don't change. But after waking up, I knew exactly what I would do if I were him: run. Run, you think this is hell now? What if you have a kid? Anyway, two things stood out - when he said, "I'm over it." and "Now I kind of just have to imagine her as a shitty person to get by." He understands that she isn't willing to change the way she behaves or treats him, and that more time spent here will become the dark place. It's rather soul sucking, and you shouldn't have to feel like not yourself to live with someone. Of course, he's been in the relationship the whole time too, and 100% can be more irritable and prone to anger than your average chill me ~ ~ but, this is something else entirely. You can trust this man with your time, he's the best, but she's tired of his everything. The way I see it, she's lost all respect for him. That's not something you get back or wake up one day to find again.

He's on the cliff and ready to jump, but what of tomorrow? She'll likely get the house, and I'm assuming he'll go damn near broke as a result of the divorce proceedings (but I dunno lol). More importantly, she'll retain the large social circle that they're part of, and he...won't have many people to hang out with. One of our buddies moved to Australia recently, I'm heading out of town soon, he'll just have a very small group of company and his family. It's a lot to lose, but I saw a post here the other day that went "I'll just be candid: I would rather live in a shitty one-bedroom apartment by myself than live with a woman who not only had zero sexual attraction to me, but clearly has a great deal of resentment too."

Just not sure what to tell him. I only know that he's suffering.
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Emma Membletudging - Thu, 05 May 2022 08:38:17 EST dBlTQUB0 No.542727 Reply
>>542725
He needs to put one foot in front of the other and keep on keeping on, as it were. You're doing a good job supporting your friend.
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Graham Sangercocke - Thu, 05 May 2022 09:48:52 EST LnCBmcQk No.542728 Reply
>>542725
Honestly, this sounds like something that a good marriage counselor could probably help with.

Here's the thing about divorce: it's not "he took her money" or "she took his money", it's "they fought over the money so much that the lawyers took most of it". At the very least, counseling can help lead to an amicable divorce that doesn't give everyone's savings to a law firm.
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Nathaniel Drackleville - Fri, 06 May 2022 15:23:03 EST NN03rblh No.542732 Reply
>>542728
This is good advice. I don't think a marriage councilor will save this marriage, but it should hopefully make the divorce less...messy.

I'm in a fucked up looking legal situation and I need to know if I should report this.

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- Thu, 28 Apr 2022 00:31:31 EST UzA2x4Jv No.542677
File: 1651120291003.jpg -(2000729B / 1.91MB, 3120x4160) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I'm in a fucked up looking legal situation and I need to know if I should report this.
I understand that a lot of you who read this will look at me or the situation in a bad or negative light but please if anyone can give me any solid advice especially if you have any sort of experience in anything related to my situation. All it comes down to is that I was worried about someone safety and well-being and wanted to make sure that they were safe and got into a sticky looking situation knowing that it could be a shitstorm but knowing if I chose to walk away and didn't take the chance to help someone when I could then I couldn't live with that.

Long story short I play guitar in parking lots and on the street I saw a girl playing one day and she came up to me absolutely enamored. We talked for a little bit and she opened up like a book and just started venting about all the negative things in their life and how bad her parents teachers authorities everyone treat her. She just vented and poured out so much like thank God someone was listening but Pretty much what she said the main reason she came up to me was because she had thought about trying to find some random older guy to connect with their pay attention because she just felt she had no one in her life but that's when things started getting scary because I'm only 31 I was like how am I a older guy how old are you? And she was a lot younger than she let me to believe or than i perceived her to be she was almost 15, then I guess she saw that I was alarmed and went all in because she wanted to shoot her shot. She offered herself to me like here and now in the bushes kinda shit, and I got panicked, I thought Chris Hansen was gonna jump out of a helicopter with a parachute with the FBI and CIA and say have a seat over there, and after I stuttered out a few lame excuses I got a real deal, a deeper fear, one that ran deeper than me. She told me she decided to talk to me cause I was a.charasmatic street performer that expects people to talk to them, she said she had been thinking about finding some older guy, but I must be the test run. I took a breath and told her no, it's not happening, that wasn't something she had to do to please anyone, and she was worth al helluva lot more than that, I told her how much this scared me.for her sake, because if it wasn't me,.she could run into any sort of fucked up individual, and anything could have happened, I asked her even tho she didn't know me to promise me she wouldn't do that, i had already given her my number and socials like I do to anyone who stops to talk or tip me while I play, and I told her to call me if she needed to talk or needed help, anytime. And I could see in her eyes she had never been told anything like that before, it was so extremely sad because it reminded me of myself as a teen, and having all that happen so fast it was like seeing a toddler In the middle of a busy highway, you don't think, you just do what you think is right.

I tried to talk to her for a little while and long story short to the end her mom got me arrested, not for talking to her, but cause she would find me where I play in town without telling anyone where she went and then it would be on me to get her home, I couldn't just call the cops either she has a distrust of cops, especially the ones in her town, they pretty much all know who she is, but one day she flagged me.down at a library, her mom asked if I knew where she was, I told her she flagged me.down at the library and I didn't want her to follow me so I stayed here, and I asked her what she wanted to do, and she never answered, girl finds out I'm texting her mom when she asked to use my phone and flips out and threatens her, she impulsively did it after I asked her why she did it she snapped out of it and tried to delete it but of course you can't delete a text you sent, next thing you know, cops, I get charges that come with no contact orders as part of bail and will be part of the probation, if I take this plea.

My biggest worry is that she is still stuck in that bullshit, with her mother treating her like a subhuman burden, she even pressed charges on her daughter for using my phone, I just know she in a toxic environment and even if she does have problems the way she's being see and treated and abused are exacerbating the problems, the rare few times I've got to talk to her on the phone I'd always have to remind her to eat or drink or get enough sleep because she was always so stressed and felt so neglected. I've been fighting in my head about reporting this to DSS, when I got my police report I got the name of the head investigator that's working the girl's case at DSS, but I don't want this to be seen as an attempt at revenge for putting me in jail, and I don't want to make the girls situation any worse, but I feel if she still did need help, my testimony is key to proof of how she has been treated, I'm not worried about any legal backlash hitting me, I just want it taken seriously, because I know how fucked it looks and sounds, but when someone has no one and you tell them you have there back no matter what, because you know they need it because no one else would stand up for them? I'm so worried and I have no way of knowing how she's been or how's she being treated or anything, and my last option that I perceive is calling DSS, giving them my side of the story from when we met till jail and ask them to check up on her and collaborate my story with hers and see if she needs help.

Can anyone give me any advice on this? I'd appreciate constructive criticism, but I know I can't stop people from thinking or saying whatever they want, I appreciate it tho.
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Nigel Purringdock - Sat, 30 Apr 2022 21:02:47 EST LnCBmcQk No.542698 Reply
>>542677
This is like five rungs above the pay grade of an internet drug hangout. You need to talk to a lawyer, and you need to tell them everything that you know.
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Ian Lightwater - Mon, 02 May 2022 09:24:06 EST /4hE3Axu No.542705 Reply
>>542677
I tell you and put this thing away in your head: do NOT get a lawyer, OP.

Its a bitch

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- Thu, 28 Apr 2022 03:40:22 EST MjBuayYZ No.542678
File: 1651131622425.jpg -(437838B / 427.58KB, 504x771) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Its a bitch
>Be me
>grew up split between two houses. one middle class and the other poor trap house
>dad comes back from going to get milk after 10 years.
>is a angry homophobic drunk who just degrades me
>cant be around grandmas anymore because he moved in there and she starts acting like him
>was only 15 at the time
>only option of place to live is with mom
>mom is on pills and heroin
>her bf is an abusive asshole
>no running water/power/food/cars/money/anything
>spend years living in the middle of nowhere going insane alone in a room
>was forced to drop out because mom wouldnt drive me anymore and then lost her car
>several police incidents, near death experiences, years of essentially solitary confinement, and a swat team raid later... i find myself to be a 28 year old mental basket case with not a single prayer of a future and so much anxiety that being around people causes me physical pain
>fml when i also realize ive been transgender since i was 9 and just too beaten down and scared to do anything about it
>now i hallucinate when im sober, and live in a single room where ive spent 10 years of my life with atleast 5 of them being consecutive, 2 being in a even worse squat house with actual hobos
>fml when my two shitty parents basically had me grow up in the middle of nowhere and left me for dead
>now i desperately want to live a life, to be myself, but now that im so fucking crazy i have to get ssi because i literally cant even follow conversations, i cant even afford a place to live besides this (slightly better than it was before) shit hole (we have wifi and power, no water, mom somehow screwed over the company for $6,000)
>it took me forever to type this and i dont even know what my point is
have any advice?
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Augustus Clorryfoot - Thu, 28 Apr 2022 17:55:15 EST bvAOhPs2 No.542690 Reply
>was forced to drop out because mom wouldnt drive me anymore and then lost her car
Just out of curiosity and to get your story straight, but couldn't you have just taken a bus?
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Sophie Gaffinghall - Thu, 28 Apr 2022 18:32:49 EST nvNqs9/D No.542692 Reply
>>542689
>shut the fuck up with the job nonsense. its insulting to people like me
Fuck off and go on welfare. I'm trying to help, go be an obnoxious victim elsewhere.
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Jarvis Nicklewill - Thu, 28 Apr 2022 20:19:55 EST MjBuayYZ No.542693 Reply
>>542690
no
>>542692
and im just sick of every single person 100% always saying that dumb shit, so no, fuck you you fucking sheep
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Dealing with gf death

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- Mon, 04 Apr 2022 14:09:41 EST a5mC5E57 No.542548
File: 1649095781718.png -(1743438B / 1.66MB, 1080x1080) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Dealing with gf death
So I think I made a thread about this when it happened, but I will make another one as it pertains to the same issue, just a different aspect.

I will start this off with a little recap. In the beginning of January I got in an argument with my girlfriend. I won't get into any specific details unless pressed, however I will admit that I was yelling at her to an extent that it made her feel uncomfortable enough in her own vehicle that she asked me to leave. I then refused, and she exited the vehicle herself. After exiting the vehicle she supposedly attempted to flag down a truck which then hit her going like 75mph.It was dark, and he apparently couldn't see her (was probably on his cell) She was dead instantly. So I understandably have A LOT of guilt over this situation

I've been dealing with her death in the best way I know how. I have been quitting drinking, I have been trying to clean my life up, and I have genuinely been trying to better myself as a person as a result of what happened.

Now for my concern. I grew up in a very strict Christian home. So I've always believed in God, although I have a little bit different set of beliefs now. I've been struggling with my history in metaphysics, and my current knowledge in it. My Christian upbringing tells me that my girlfriend is in hell. She not only did not believe in the Jesus narrative, she was an atheist that would openly mock it in certain company.
I've studied (and connected with) a lot of Eastern philosophy in my 20's. Ideas like the 'dharma', and individual 'karmic resonance'. Buddhist ideas of attachment being the basis of all suffering. Ideas of reincarnation, and 'The Veil of Maya'. According these modes of thought, and books like "The Tibetan Book of the Dead" given the nature of her life/death it is likely she is battling her own inner demons at the moment (unable to discern them from herself), and will eventually rebirth back on this plain to give it another go.

Neither sound like very fun things to experience. According to what I have gathered she is either being tortured by literal devils awaiting to be cast into the lake of fire, or she is being tortured by her own downfalls in this existence before she gets set up to do another round at this thing we call life.

What do you guys believe? Is my understanding of theology that lack luster, or am I dead on, and things look very bleak for her? Am I completely off base?
I don't really know what I'm looking for here, but I can say typing all that out has actually helped me process some things.
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Emma Ginkintidging - Fri, 22 Apr 2022 11:17:20 EST AtmU8uJ+ No.542652 Reply
>>542548
dude you are the one being tortured right now, being tortured by yourself.

Nobody is "dead on" not one person in history has ever known what happens after we die, no one has ever come back from the dead, everyone, including Holy people, is guessing what death is like based on experiences they've had while alive. Trying to figure out what death is like while alive is like trying to figure out quantum physics using rules you learned in Newtonian physics, it just doesn't apply.
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Hedda Fittingham - Fri, 22 Apr 2022 21:33:01 EST DMPOlzSV No.542653 Reply
>>542650
Of course it does. Isn't that the lesson of Siddhartha?
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Basil Settinglare - Wed, 27 Apr 2022 01:43:06 EST VpPXCGPO No.542668 Reply
OP, an ex-gf of mine died of OD in 2015 and my life was a complete rollercoaster from 2016 up to 2019, when I finally decided to quit fucking around and get to therapy.

Things are better now, I have a job - been employed for the past 2 years - and haven't tried to end my life too in that same time frame. What I feel is you're trying to shun your pain and allocating it to the metaphysical question you've posed. I urge you OP, go to therapy. It is the only way you'll be able to make sense of what has happened to you.

As for the question, I do not believe in a specific hell or something like that. I believe that when your life ends you're sent to a place which is parallel to the acts you have committed in life and also your consciousness general frame. Think of it as an egregore. I have read hindu texts (Gita, Purana), buddhist too and all of them provide us with a general frame of what happens after death.

Why would you do this??

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- Wed, 13 Apr 2022 13:00:06 EST Rplf4NBk No.542592
File: 1649869206674.jpg -(29873B / 29.17KB, 539x552) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Why would you do this??
Please explain the motive here:
>seduce a man
>tell him you love him the most in the whole world
>tell him you cant live without him
>make him promise to never leave u
3 months later
>fuck his best friend
>leave without explanation
>block him when he's asking questions
Was the point to just completely destroy me since the beginning? what the christ is this shit, Ive never done anything to deserve this. Thanks for the 3 best months of my life and then leaving me completely alone and vulnerable, life sucks way more now that I know what happiness felt like.
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Fucking Clallyped - Thu, 14 Apr 2022 08:57:39 EST bvAOhPs2 No.542606 Reply
It's all right Connie!
In the novel I read just the other day, it said that the best way to cure a broken heart is to find a new love!
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Hannah Cobblestock - Fri, 15 Apr 2022 04:39:53 EST i6zcLPTV No.542616 Reply
>>542592
Some people are just shitty like that, probably wasnt even acting on a larger plan, just at-the-moment impulse. But I of course do not know this person so I cannot say.
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Hedda Pennerville - Sat, 23 Apr 2022 09:54:42 EST bvAOhPs2 No.542659 Reply
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Now I took the time to crop the pic.
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- Mon, 28 Mar 2022 15:09:08 EST pVMcPeFI No.542512
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I met this girl a few months ago, she immediately left the country but we've been texting every day since. She came back a few weeks ago and we're doing things together socially, just us. Exchanging gifts based on the text conversation too, personal and thoughtful things. She makes a lot of eye contact, big pupils, sometimes plays with her hair, poses fairly "open" to me.
But the few times I've been clear about my interest, flirting or paying her compliments, she just thanks me and moves the conversation on.

It's possible she just wants to get to know me IRL a bit better first or she's dealing with some trauma of her own, or something else understandable but if not am I just driving myself insane pursuing someone who just wants to be friends?

I'd love to be able to say it's fine and be happy doing friend things with her but it hurts. I'm happier entirely on my own than in this suspense making me more depressed than I've been for a long time.
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Hamilton Clayshaw - Mon, 18 Apr 2022 09:57:45 EST xmvTvxHj No.542639 Reply
>>542602
girl: *makes friend, is happy*
internet sleuth: sounds like a psycho


It seems like she just wants to be friends OP, certainly that's what she wants *right now* and if you can't wait you can't wait, go pretend to be someone else's friend until she'll fuck you instead
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Hamilton Clayshaw - Mon, 18 Apr 2022 10:09:29 EST xmvTvxHj No.542640 Reply
>>542602
I fucking hate this so much. Men and women have both done this to me so it's not because you are a man, it's because you are an asshole. I don't know what happened to you to turn you into an asshole and I don't care.

I try to make friends with people, either gender, and maybe 10% of the time this happens, the person fucking hates me and talks shit about me because they fancied me and I tried to be their friend because I am a human being and I want to have friends with other human beings.

I just want to have a friend and it's not my fault if you are attracted to me and it's not my responsibility to break off the friendship because *you* can't be friends with someone you are attracted to, if you can't be friends that is on you and since it's your fault you can't handle your feelings its your responsibility to break off the friendship without getting angry at me.

All I did was try to make friends. I am not *stringing anyone along* I am very clear that I want to be friends because when you talk about anything flirty I change the subject, like you would with your guy friends (assuming you are monosexual), right? WHAT COULD BE MORE CLEAR. this is a friendship.

TWIRLING HAIR IS NOT FLIRTING IT'S A STIM OR A FIDGET. It's like bouncing your leg.
Women can't control what their pupils do any more than men do.

OTHER PEOPLE ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR ATTRACTION TO THEM. That is your shit, you have to flush it or put it in a bag and carry it around until you can flush it, don't expect me to carry it. I. wanted. to. be. your. friend.

I want to commit suicide but I'm not depressed enough for it

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- Thu, 14 Apr 2022 15:42:30 EST Ul4O1DCD No.542608
File: 1649965350140.png -(25269B / 24.68KB, 540x484) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I want to commit suicide but I'm not depressed enough for it
I've come to the conclusion that killing myself is the best possible thing I can do but the problem is that I'm too serene and not depressed and I can't bring myself to end my life.
I've already undergone all the bad parts of life and haven't seen the good ones. I'm about to hit 30 and I already know that is just going to be the same out of this for the rest of my life so it's better to end it quickly.
I really don't know what to do, I do not want to fight or commit to anything anymore, I'm just so tired of empty promises of a better life that never come true and I know that to really be in condition to kill myself I have to undergo so much pain.
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Wesley Grimspear - Sun, 17 Apr 2022 20:17:22 EST cjnReDjY No.542634 Reply
>>542626
I'm trying to make something out of it but I'm so old and so tired of getting nothing from it.
>>542628
I don't think selling plasma exists in my country
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Lydia Chaffingpock - Mon, 18 Apr 2022 05:50:22 EST cNXvtLxn No.542635 Reply
>>542634
>getting nothing from it.
You don't put effort into life to get stuff, you put in effort to live the life of a person who puts in effort. You are currently not.
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Hamilton Clayshaw - Mon, 18 Apr 2022 09:53:38 EST xmvTvxHj No.542638 Reply
>>542628
I didn't realize it paid so much. That's pretty great.. they aren't allowed to pay people for it in most countries but hey in most countries healthcare is free so it makes sense people would be happy to donate their time and plasma for free

I like jacking off by rubbing my dick in the bed

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- Sun, 16 Jan 2022 18:00:28 EST k9LeR2Rx No.541816
File: 1642374028928.jpg -(155223B / 151.58KB, 1080x1186) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I like jacking off by rubbing my dick in the bed
I don't know if anybody here does it or if it's something only I do, but since I was a teen the only way I would jack off is by rubbing my dick in the bed, couch or other stuff, I've tried jacking off with my hand but it doesn't bring as much pleasure, I'm concerned that by the time I would start having sex more frequently my dick would be useless, any suggestions on how to fix this?
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Martha Honeyhall - Tue, 18 Jan 2022 09:14:51 EST YrX3+HFr No.541844 Reply
everything in moderation

Jail sucks.

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- Sat, 09 Apr 2022 22:28:58 EST BQG9CUTd No.542571
File: 1649557738633.jpg -(1648712B / 1.57MB, 2560x1600) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Jail sucks.
I recently spent around 8 months in my county jail and I got released on probation. This was last month and right at the end of the month shit got fucked up again and now my girl is locked up for drug possession. They were gonna charge her with smuggling but she got lucky and just possession charges. We were coming back from Mexico. I'll be honest I'm a mess without her and I thought I was pretty bad when I was there. Yesterday I don't know why I smoked crack and drank a lot I even let some homeless to stay in my apartment kicked him out already. I have my first probation meeting this coming Wednesday I really hope things start taking a better hat better way. Keep saying I'm going to stop drinking but I don't know why I still do I mean I had to stop doing hard drugs for quite a while but the alcohol it's always good main problem. So today I'm making promise for my girl that I am going to quit drinking I got a job interview tomorrow wish me luck.
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Oliver Sishridge - Wed, 13 Apr 2022 07:25:13 EST PwhOBm/X No.542590 Reply
>>542588
Remember that probation is an agreement between you and the court. Don't be a guy who doesn't do what he agrees to do. You agreed to not use drugs on probation, right?
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Rebecca Crirryfield - Wed, 13 Apr 2022 11:29:00 EST /bGt8QOn No.542591 Reply
>>542588

Write her letters. Tell her how you were clean for her, and now it's hard but that maybe you can make a place that ou two can be happy in together when she's out. Try to build that place, and hard drugs will become your enemy
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George Clummlesitch - Sun, 17 Apr 2022 01:20:55 EST F/J0+W8D No.542629 Reply
>>542571
She's out of jail now. She will probably be put on probation too so now both of us will have to fix our lives and not fuck up. I been doing good so far. Got a job, still have a place to live, got food. And I got her back.

I just can´t

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- Fri, 15 Apr 2022 23:36:50 EST PQvIMjMY No.542624
File: 1650080210376.jpg -(82655B / 80.72KB, 736x739) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I just can´t
I am 33, nearly hanging there, waiting for my 84 mother to die to see if I can do something about my existence or just kill myself. I will be homeless, I am making $800/monthly on a 3rd world country that is as expensive as the US and I work in a call center dealing with 100 per day to feel the quota. Never fully had sex because of sexual abuse trauma as a child, I cannot get a hard on nor can connect with people emotionally. Last gf left me because we couldn´t be intimate. I cannot take therapy, shit is too expensive. I pushed my last friends away on the quarantine and now I am just existing without feeling. I don't think I will ever be happy nor have my own family or a career but I am afraid I don't have the courage to end it and will end as all the crazy people you see asking for change on the gas station, I am starting to see mental health issues when I drink or smoke weed. I am just sad all of the time.
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Clara Duttinglock - Sat, 16 Apr 2022 06:32:16 EST dAvyV+sx No.542627 Reply
>>542624
>I work in a call center
Oof

Focus on changing your life circumstances imo. Fix what you broke over quarantine, stop drinking and doing drugs, and find employment where you aren't bothering people on the phone.
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Hamilton Clayshaw - Mon, 18 Apr 2022 10:17:09 EST xmvTvxHj No.542641 Reply
Do you ever feel safe anywhere?

If the answer is no, I'd really prioritize scraping money together to find a good trauma therapist. My idea is to have that foundation of feeling safe, then you can start worrying about other stuff

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