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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated June 12 [TaimaTV Update])
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William Pollydock - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 12:10:50 EST ID:GIhHYQNG No.529723
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What drugs can I safely use if I have had a 2 year long depersonalizatikn / derealization period after just a little bit of weed.

Im diagnosed for depression and take meds. Also diagnosed with schizoid PD and schizophrenia (weird combo I know)

I want to make life liveable. I have good experiences with downers like antipsychotics and benzodiazepines and kratom. I want to try MDMA for the feelig of love, GHB to feel libido and lightweight psychedelics that will not induce dpdr. Im also interested in spiritually growing thru psychedelics.

I just want to make life liveable
David Worthingway - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 03:31:48 EST ID:FUQ6wChr No.529771 Ignore Report Reply
>2 year long depersonalization / derealization period after just a little bit of weed
How much is "just a little"? Sounds like your current mental state wouldn't benefit from adding psych's into the mix. Good luck avoiding DPDR on "lightweight" psychedelics...
btw, I also fell for the "psychedelic spiritual growth" meme, stop listening to Joe Rogan.
Augustus Pavingkark - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 07:50:42 EST ID:F86ww+bk No.529775 Ignore Report Reply
Dont have high THC but have CBD bud instead, good for mental and physical health.
Edwin Grandworth - Wed, 12 Jun 2019 10:28:45 EST ID:wt5xRZ38 No.529836 Ignore Report Reply
Sounds like you need to stay the fuck away psychedelics. There is quite some scientific research that weed and other drugs with psychedelic properties can strongly increase the chance of a psychosis happening in people who have a vulnerability for it (schizophrenics etc). And since you already have gotten a 2 year long dpdr from a bit of weed it seems the potential downside is waaaaaay bigger than any possible upside to it.

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Graham Burringbudge - Mon, 29 Apr 2019 08:09:06 EST ID:qSBAVAm/ No.529066
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>lived my entire life (so far) only to find out that I have never been able to socialize because I was an annoying jerk with no manners and just generally unpleasant to be around

I bet that this is 99% of all "autism" cases. My only serenity is that I only found out because I am improving, but I often realize that I have a long way to go before I am completely healed.
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Rebecca Buncocke - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 12:57:52 EST ID:jnas4L6T No.529759 Ignore Report Reply
yeah OP im an asshole too. lots of people say i come off as arrogant or intimidating. im trying to "smile" and "say nice things" more
Hugh Blythewell - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 13:54:56 EST ID:Lny7/LNo No.529761 Ignore Report Reply
I do that as well, it's making my BPD worse because I'm constantly switching between "Nice and helpful to people who approach me" and "Avoiding and cussing at strangers in the middle of a city". In context of OP, I really wish I could go back in time and see what younger me was like because all I remember was being hated throughout school for no reason other than me being a scapegoat for the asshole kids' frustrations. Younger me should've snapped more, would've been healthy for me to grow a spine early back then.
Alice Murdman - Tue, 11 Jun 2019 11:55:08 EST ID:P5cRGqOb No.529830 Ignore Report Reply

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Edward Classleham - Fri, 26 Apr 2019 10:53:51 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.528980
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OK so here's how it is. I have an arrest for graffiti and a claim that I resisted (I didn't but you know how it is, you crack a joke in the squad car out of boredom and that's how it goes if the cop isn't cool). I also have an arrest for drug possession but completed rehab and don't care really.

The big problem is.. I work in a skilled trade that requires work at an office. I know why they won't hire me. I even went into a really nice big tech company and got the full welcoming treatment, but had to stop them and explain about what they'd find on a background check. A lawyer says he can't get it all expunged, but maybe in several years. I've basically given up and think it's a good thing because I'd rather be a musician or fucktard artist anyway, but the problem is, I'm encountering pressure from relatives and other people in my community to pursue professional work, who don't understand why I don't, and I need a quick, dirty way to tell them off that doesn't expose too much vulnerability. I have a means of supporting myself financially. It doesn't make as much as my skilled trade but I don't care about that, freedom is better.

How do I deal with "polite people" who go out of their way to hurt my feelings about not being employed in my previous trade and prevent them from interfering in commercial artistic pursuits?
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Lillian Honeywater - Mon, 29 Apr 2019 14:04:35 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529082 Ignore Report Reply
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Lillian Honeywater - Mon, 29 Apr 2019 14:04:55 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529083 Ignore Report Reply
will do soon
Fuck Sussleket - Tue, 11 Jun 2019 01:35:15 EST ID:q2fK/qtX No.529824 Ignore Report Reply
Does your state allow you to seal your record? I can seal a felony in about 8 more years.
Of course I had a cwaf.

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Jenny Marringtut - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 21:11:06 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529780
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So, basically, if you are banned from most kinds of social media and yet still have beefs that follow you in real life, how can you communicate to people beefing with you that you are aware of their bullshit and effectively send the message that means they need to stop or else without disrupting a bunch of fat nerds who like calarts animation and avatar fagging and get their panties in a bunch about it? Like sending a letter with no return address? Is that too old school? Just drop it in the blue box and dont get caught on camera?
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Jarvis Murdstone - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:40:20 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529802 Ignore Report Reply
Excuse me gentlemen, a disturbed and mentally ill gentleman relayed to be a rather confused story last night but it was apparent from his state that he was in trouble with the law and attempting to avoid detection by the police. In an effort to keep people from the north east comfortable we will speak with the white Canadian newscaster voice.
Jarvis Murdstone - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:41:25 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529803 Ignore Report Reply
San francisco beef is the real san francisco treat and you're lookin at'em
Jarvis Murdstone - Mon, 10 Jun 2019 08:59:16 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529816 Ignore Report Reply
  • Beef is not African-American vernacular. The roots of this term actually originate in white gangs in New York in the 1930s and it was since integrated into the common black dialect.

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Hedda Blackspear - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 17:32:44 EST ID:AssLy90c No.529777
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Hey, been a long time since I've posted on here. I'm very depressed and plan on committing suicide later tonight using difluroethane. It's the most common propellant/hydroflurocarbon used in compressed air aerosol cans.

Basically I'm giving myself sudden sniffer's death syndrome. Now, I'm very concerned. Somebody with decent knowledge, please tell me.

How painful is it? I believe my heart may actually explode. I'm very nervous. Please give me a little more information.

I enjoy the high difluoroethane causes, but will the intoxication still be pleasant at that concentration? Will It numb the pain?

I've read the asphyxiation is very painful. Somebody please help me.
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Jenny Marringtut - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 00:45:33 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529791 Ignore Report Reply
Download hexchat https://hexchat.github.io/downloads.html
Then, connect to any irc network
then type /server irc.420chan.org
then type /join #qq
Good luck and dont fucking die you deserve life and it will get better
This too shall pass nigga
Emma Pittworth - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:16:46 EST ID:4l8RYu1T No.529799 Ignore Report Reply
He should absolutely not kill himself, but fuck off with your pathetic pseudo intellectual atheism shit
Hedda Bedgelock - Mon, 10 Jun 2019 07:59:43 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.529815 Ignore Report Reply
don't kill yourself if you're afraid of some super temporary immediate pain, jesus christ. either do it and get it over with or don't. you're not going to be around long enough to give a fuck about the pain so who cares if it hurts for a minute and a half or not.

if you can't stomach that kind of shit, then quit being an annoying little faggot and quit kidding yourself into believing you're capable of going through with suicide because all you're doing is hurting yourself more and hurting people around you and generally just being disgustingly pathetic.

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Cornelius Blundlestat - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 17:46:42 EST ID:BItmAATh No.529762
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tired of being hungry and alone all the time
goddamnit guess i'll get a second job
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Betsy Dribberpick - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 04:48:45 EST ID:JCATCBbz No.529793 Ignore Report Reply
Maybe your state has unclaimed property in its larders
Jarvis Murdstone - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:42:28 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529804 Ignore Report Reply
make lighter a cracky
buy cheap cigarettes
go to ghetto corner at night and give out said cigarettes and light with said cracky
you now have friends
Hedda Bedgelock - Mon, 10 Jun 2019 07:55:58 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.529814 Ignore Report Reply
what kind of job do you have? if it isn't already a factory job then why would getting a second job instead of just getting a tougher job that pays more seem like a better option? I work for a factory and make enough to live on my own without too much trouble. i don't have tons of spending money and at times get really low, but I'm usually well off enough to be comfortable.

I mean fuck's sake, I only work 4 nights out of the week (44 hours a week) and typically have 3 days off even. Either your spending is way out of control, housing costs something ridiculous in your area, or you're just being too much of a baby to get a job where you have to work hard but actually make some decent money.

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John Senkinmere - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:34:49 EST ID:tehNWUNR No.529800
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Jarvis Murdstone - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 22:38:41 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529801 Ignore Report Reply
aww yea bitch we kickin down the door and smokin crack

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Polly Hucklebitch - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 19:15:54 EST ID:rRCczUYu No.529763
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This food joint opened up down the block from me not too long ago and their halal food is really fucking good, so I eventually became a regular there while getting the same type of order every time which was made by some older guy who I assumed was the owner, if not the manager.

About two months ago he hired some younger woman who look like she's about my age, and for a while when I'd enter the diner I'd notice getting a glance or two from her while I was looking at my phone, which could mean anything right?

After a while she was in the kitchen and started to make order I'd always get, and when she first started doing it she used the same recipe as the older guy and would just normally ask me how much sauce I wanted until just a few weeks ago, and I'd always get a lot of hot sauce on my food. Whatever, right?

A few weeks ago I noticed that whenever I'd walk into the deli, she'd make a b-line straight to the kitchen even while the older guy who used to make my food would be behind the counter. I eventually noticed that she started putting extra ingredients in the food I ordered like diced green peppers, and extra spices that made it legitimately taste better, but it was only when she made the food. When it was the old guy, it was the same stuff I'd always get.

When eventually puts the white and hot sauce on my food, she'd put around the perfect amount of white sauce I'd usually ask for every time while giving a light drizzle of the hot sauce before looking back up at me from the food, waiting for me to ask for her to keep going. This would continue every time I'd go there when she made the food, and I started noticing that she started to give me a slight smile whenever I asked her to put more of the hot sauce, which she'd drizzle before I asked her to keep squirting more on there every time I'd get the same damn order.

At first I thought she was smiling because she thinks I'm trying to be hot shit by getting extra hot sauce as if I think that I have an iron stomach or whatever, but two days ago while she asked I ended up cracking a smile which for some reason made her giggle. I assumed she giggled because we were so used to the routine, but I don't really know because I'm shitty with body language.

Today I went in and the guy ended up making the food, but she lingered around where I was sitting for a while, and really seemed to be taking her time as if she was waiting for me to say something to her. After working retail I knew it was common for the my women co-workers to not take kindly being oogled at or spoken to personally by some creepy ass nigga while they're trying to do their job, and this deli worker/shopkeep could just be a really charming woman who just happens to be a damn good cook.

I want to talk to her but she could just be doing her damn job, and I'm pretty sure that I'm overthinking things but I've had a history of being an oblivious motherfucker before. What do I do about this uneasy feeling, /QQ/?
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Phineas Blackwell - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 04:22:44 EST ID:+s+a5IEh No.529772 Ignore Report Reply
It's accepted in society, he's right.

Doesn't mean they actually do it though. Yeah, if you sit around waiting for a woman to make a move you're going to wait a long time. If you work super hard on yourself, make a load of friends who are ladies and some are single and straight one might make a move every now and then. It happens. Just don't count on it.
John Cobbleridge - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 19:13:59 EST ID:rRCczUYu No.529779 Ignore Report Reply
I tried this by going in today, and I could've triedon her way out since her shift was apparently ending, but this motherfucking self-proclaimed shotokan grandmaster stopped me to go on about some dumb bullshit just to ask me for ten dollars while his lower lip quivered pathetically. As I'm talking to this gi wearing dopehead with medical bands around his wrist, she passed us by on her way home.

It was like a scene out of a bad sitcom, dude. I'll try again next week, but I'm going to make sure that I don't show up every day like a creepy asshole.

I'm 100% going to make sure that our first actual conversation is about how much her additions added to the food. Hopefully the manager has no hard feelings if he hears us. Or starts spitting in my food because of it.

I thought about this, but I have a lit match under my ass when it comes to this sort of shit because like I said before, I was notoriously oblivious and ended up letting a lot of opportunities pass me by. I am going to wait to try talking to her again though at least till next week, or until she gives me more of a hint than eye contact and a giggle.

I appreciate all of your helpful input, anons!
Shitting Hicklemudge - Sun, 09 Jun 2019 10:20:00 EST ID:Y+neydc5 No.529796 Ignore Report Reply
Yeah, in my entire life I've had 2 women flirt with me first. One was a cougar and I was like 15 or 16. The other was just trying to piss someone off who was in present company and didn't actually give a shit about me.

Granted, I'm pretty unattractive and poor. I've seen dudes who women just are attracted to just exist and they practically throw themselves at them.

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Shitting Honeywill - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 06:52:09 EST ID:zcOU3n81 No.529748
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Little bit of a rant here, but I mean, I'll take anything I can get too.

I'm an asian dude living in an asian country, so pretty much living with family is the norm over here. I stay with my mum (59) who's been divorced for awhile now, so it's just me, her and my 2 sisters.

My mum's pretty damn toxic, imo, but nothing intolerable and she doesn't really fuck with our lives, so it wasn't much of an issue.

However, shit hit the fan a few weeks before christmas last year and she got a stroke that hit pretty hard, because she didn't manage her hypertension and it went for awhile before anybody noticed her having a stroke as it was late at night.
She made decent progress in the coming months, from only being able to utter a few syllables and bedridden to now where she can form proper sentences in our mother tongue (mandarin) or short simple english sentences and walk for short distances with a walking aid.

Problem tho is that while I understand this is part of her stroke, her toxic bullshit has been exacerbated by the damage done to her brain. Currently, I'm home all the time to watch over her, alongside a caretaker that we have hired to watch her, but she's just been a complete bitch to the caretaker. She has been consistently been demeaning to her and refused to cooperate with her, as well as picking on all the little things that the caretaker does while expecting her needs to be met without communicating them.

This also happens to be the 2nd caretaker we've hired as the first one wasn't the best and we gave our mum the benefit of doubt whenever she'd talk shit about the first one, but now that we've hired this 2nd caretaker, she's been absolutely lovely yet my mum puts her through constant shit.

Right now I could give less of a fuck of what happens to my mum and if she died in her sleep, I'd honestly be bloody relieved, but as of today, she gave the caretaker a ridiculous verbal ass-whooping into a weeping mess over a goddamned wrinkle on pressed shorts that she didn't talk about nor wanted fixed, alongside completely twisting said caretaker's words (she's not great at english).

So she made a scene and I talked her through her shit, as much as you can with a stroke patient with aphasia, and she seemed to calm down, but she just got back at it again in the evening.

So now, the caretaker's talking about leaving, but I managed to convince her temporarily to stay for the moment as we try to improve things, even though I'm certain it's going to be completely fucked still.

Mum has consistently refused to speak to any counselors or therapists for her mood and refuses to accept her predicament, thinking she'll be magically healed from all her bullshit if she takes her fucking herbal and homeopathic medicine.

I'm at my fucking wit's end, my sisters at this point are still refusing to consider having her put in a nursing home and I highly doubt any of my relatives would be able to deal with her shit over a long term, so I'm stuck as shit, because I quit my work to take care of her before she turned out to be so crazy.

So fuck, I'll take any advice to get through this situation, but otherwise, I'm stuck waiting, for a job acceptance, for me to not weigh her constant bullshit against burning bridges with my family and moving out, for my sisters to crack so they'll send her to a home, or for her to die before she drives everyone around her crazy.

Also, I understand a lot of this is due to her condition, but that knowledge doesn't make going through all this any better or easier.

Thanks for reading this far anyway, if you have.
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Doris Pablingtire - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 20:29:13 EST ID:OdjfxVxG No.529765 Ignore Report Reply
If your sisters dont want her in a home, get another job and let them take care of her

Sorry, i didnt read carefully btw
Doris Pablingtire - Fri, 07 Jun 2019 20:33:03 EST ID:OdjfxVxG No.529766 Ignore Report Reply
Also, if you have a caretaker, why did you have to quit work to take care of her?
Ernest Puppersare - Sat, 08 Jun 2019 05:53:15 EST ID:zcOU3n81 No.529773 Ignore Report Reply

It's alright, I'm working on the job part, but as for my sisters it's quite unlikely since one of them was due to move abroad to stay with husband in Austria and the other has a better career and/or career opportunities than I do. So we're all pretty lost if my mum keeps screwing with the caretaker.

As for the caretaker, well, there was a period of time after she was discharged where I had to train the first caretaker a little, before we decided she wasn't capable of learning how things were done in the house aside from personality issues. So I was pretty much playing the caretaker's role all the while only up until last month, whereby the replacement we got was much more suitable and could function without supervision.

So yeah, thanks for the reply but looking back, it's really more of a rant since I'm just waiting for something to work out for myself, so I can put some distance between me and this whole mess.

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James Turveyforth - Sat, 01 Jun 2019 14:32:05 EST ID:SnMldkwK No.529681
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I really just dont know what to do. Here is my situation in a nutshell:
I am a 27 year old male living at home with a possibly excessively attached mother, my sister, my drug addicted homeless aunt and uncle, six cats, and a dog. I am still stuck here because we live miles from anywhere I could work and noone in the house has a car. Walking is so far its impossible to do daily. I have no money, few possessions, no friends, and after a few bad relationships I have give up on them all together. Mom keeps talking about how she is going to move and we are all going and how that will fix everything but its been 3 years and ive seen very little if any progress in that direction. My question is.. Should I stay and wait or just pack a bag and start walking to see if I can get my own life together? I love my mom and sis, but Im 27 years old and have never even got a foot out the door. Do you think its wrong to abandon them? Due to situations, if I did leave, I would probably never see them again and that weighs heavy on my heart. Ive been thinking about how to handle this for ages and cant come up with anything better than being homeless for awhile. Please help
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Phineas Hirringnodging - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 05:30:10 EST ID:SnMldkwK No.529717 Ignore Report Reply
Did I forget to mention my license is also suspended?

Yeah thanks guys, but I think you've all just confirmed I'm royally fucked
William Fevingbidge - Wed, 05 Jun 2019 07:42:25 EST ID:HI+M0x1X No.529741 Ignore Report Reply

What about some kind of farm work?
Ernest Buzzhall - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 19:27:00 EST ID:kAEKpfyQ No.529752 Ignore Report Reply
How does your family get the money they need to live if no one has a car and you don't live within walking distance of any businesses?

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done - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 02:06:57 EST ID:IIPdlASs No.529744
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Like I swear, all the times I’ve tried I backed out at the last minute like a little bitch like I don’t get it do I have to be drunk or maybe if I take two Benadryls and do it I won’t feel a thing or what
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Hannah Fashshaw - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 03:37:56 EST ID:JCATCBbz No.529746 Ignore Report Reply
>Two pinklets
That's nowhere near enough to end you but sure is enough to make you wish you were dead even moreso. Anyway killing yourself is frightening. At least overtly doing it is. A lot of the folks here enjoy the passive-aggressive suicide route of alcohol and drugs also anime . Don't feel bad about falling. Personally I think regardless of how fucked up you get you're still going to know you're dying right when it happens. Honestly though don't fuck around. You can change things if you want to. A lot of the time there are escape paths you can't see without another set of eyes. At the very least you have this lovely community to rap with. I hope you start wanting to feel better.
Charles Widgewell - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 06:23:32 EST ID:V6inbDPQ No.529747 Ignore Report Reply
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Hes right get high and watch anime instead.
Shit Wibberville - Thu, 06 Jun 2019 11:55:42 EST ID:yUhAjzvV No.529749 Ignore Report Reply
why dont you work up the courage to actually legitimately try and succeed in life and get better? too hard when compared to the option of just offing yourself or what? maybe you're just destined to fail at everything; can't work up the courage to improve and succeed, and can't work up the courage to off yourself either. fuck, you're a mess man.

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Simon Bossleladge - Sun, 28 Apr 2019 19:45:10 EST ID:Qoe2oia4 No.529052
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My girl (monogamous relationship) last night had a make out session with her female best friend, she apparently didn't think that making out with someone was crossing a line... At this point I'm wondering what she hasn't told me. I had a frank conversation with her telling her that I'm really unhappy with the whole situation and am about to break up with her- she was in tears apologizing but part of me thinks that she still feels the make out session wasn't really wrong and that she was justified in doing it as part of connecting with people. That's what I gathered from her apology.

She's also about to go on a 2 month trip with another group of people, leaving in a week. At this point I don't trust her and have pretty much decided I am going to break it off with her for good before she leaves, especially considering the trip and timing of this. The best friend has a boyfriend that apparently is cool with this stuff- I understand but it's not for me. At this point it seems that she has decided unilaterally that she can do whatever she wants short of penetrative sex in the name of making connections and experiences with others, despite agreeing to be monogamous many months ago. This seems like a load of crap to me, pretending not to understand what it means to be exclusive with a partner.

Is there anybody that thinks I should not break it off with her? We have been dating a little over a year now so because of the time I invested I'm taking a day to think about it and ask some random internet strangers...

Also before you suggest it the best friend is not attractive at all so threesome is off the table!
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Basil Tootstock - Sat, 11 May 2019 13:26:45 EST ID:bklJuYCy No.529312 Ignore Report Reply
you obvious incel GOOF
Caroline Smallham - Wed, 05 Jun 2019 01:54:53 EST ID:Tuxc9GLs No.529739 Ignore Report Reply

Thanks for the input everyone. I should have stuck to my guns and just broken up permanently. The night before her trip she went skinny dipping with a 2 guys and a girl that I have met once and she barely knows, now she is gone and I don't trust her at all. Being a fucking idiot I still gave her a ride to the airport and my car broke down so I've been essentially homeless for the past week because of this bullshit driving to another city so she could save a couple hundred bucks for her plane ticket.

She is in a Western european country and apparently can't figure out how to use a phone over there so we only communicate through a facebook message once a day. Essentially, I'm a fucking moron that looked through so many red flags and advice on this thread that told me to do it yet I still gave her more chances that showed she's just a people user that didn't give a fuck about anything.

For the people that commended me for having standards, I didn't, and I should have. Because now I'm an idiot with a "girlfriend" in Europe that I have spent all my savings on repairing my car after driving her to an airport in another city and she won't even talk to me on the phone while I'm couchsurfing and spending what little I have left on a hotel rooms when I can't find a place to stay.
Caroline Smallham - Wed, 05 Jun 2019 02:03:36 EST ID:Tuxc9GLs No.529740 Ignore Report Reply

And more were all people that had good advice I ignored by giving her another chance and now I'm fucked. Thank you everyone, at least I can say I have learned something.

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Martin Gaggleville - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 16:40:06 EST ID:TKorYOiK No.529736
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Yeah so I left town and it was exactly what I needed. I hate life a lot less and I feel less uptight. I was hating on my country on the future and I realized that I don't hate my country I just hate the city I live in. I left before but it's been awhile since I've taken a trip.

I'm experiencing the real behavioral sink problem down here in LaLaland:
>The ethologist John B. Calhoun coined the term "behavioral sink" to describe the collapse in behavior which resulted from overcrowding.

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retarded anxious beta loser faggot - Mon, 03 Jun 2019 23:27:24 EST ID:G1XpjQqa No.529716
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Everyday is a struggle

a struggle of being concerned over whether or not people in my immediate vicinity think I'm weird. a deep self loathing that I am too beta to approach women. a sense of dread of how the fuck I am ever going to get a job, even if I do get a degree. constant angst over all the bad posts I've made on social media and how they're going to come back to haunt me (for example, when I was 12 I had an edgy stormfront phase and uploaded cringe shit to youtube but forgot the password and email to said you tube account).

Although I have anxiety and 'tism issues, I don't like blaming shit on those "disabilities" because honestly I could be doing better... Or not I dunno.

>inb4 have you tried SSRIs

yeah and they're fucking useless. I wish I had some goddamn benzos but my psych won't give me any. He has no problem giving me adderall but asking for even a weak benzo like valium is apparently asking for too fucking much
Eliza Suvingbad - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 08:22:39 EST ID:hiKxQg3e No.529718 Ignore Report Reply
smoke weed drop lucy and go to a rave
Barnaby Grandhood - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 12:10:40 EST ID:2dpbGRKS No.529722 Ignore Report Reply
grow up
no one cares about you that much
Shit Drickleditch - Tue, 04 Jun 2019 14:32:17 EST ID:Nocxtt2B No.529735 Ignore Report Reply
don't know what to say OP but i feel ya and i hope you feel better soon

there is always therapy / counselling but a lot of therapist haven't got a clue about autism and they pathologise harmless autistic traits. like you go in for anxiety and they are like "hey look me in the eye" ...like that's helpful?
so you got to find someone that actually understands that there is nothing wrong with the vast majority of autistic traits, even if there was something wrong, there'd be no way to change it, but for crying out loud there is nothing wrong with using different vocal pitch or looking at someone's hands when you talk to them... they act like i could cure cancer but it would mean nothing because hey, i won't look them in the eye... sorry i made this all about me

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