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- Sat, 19 Oct 2019 04:20:40 EST txF9nNlN No.532156
File: 1571473240793.jpg -(578154B / 564.60KB, 750x1183) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Soooo
I was a crazy sad anti social kid until i got out of highschool. I had hardly any experience with girls and never was in a position to learn to actually talk to them and flirt with them. Then I got out of highschool and did all of the self improvement memes like lifting and nofap and going through a short ‘facts and logic’ phase. At this point, I felt pretty alright. Got a cute girlfriend and I’ve had her for a while now. At this point I’m turning a lot of my life around but I’m realizing more and more that a lot of girls find me attractive. Cute ones, too. I’m coming to think if I had any form of confidence growing up I could’ve been a fuck boy and I feel like I missed out :/ I mean I love my girlfriend but sometimes I’ll be getting the eyes from a cute lightskinned girl or this one latina girl at work as I’m just like egoshagakbaveilq. I’m head over heels for my girlfriend but I also really wonder what it would be like to go around fucking different girls. So I don’t want to cheat but I want to fuck other women. Uh????
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Simon Sallerstire - Sat, 19 Oct 2019 06:12:48 EST rM9EOQD/ No.532158 Reply
It's the same advice you give everyone because he's just like everyone else - never satisfied with what he has, never able to accept what he has as enough for him, he's insecure and seeing every aspect of his life in need of constant improvement and since one girl is good, two girls is better.
Name - Sun, 20 Oct 2019 01:52:02 EST Ilywq8MV No.532162 Reply
Easy. You can:

Get over it

Break up with your girlfriend

Cheat on your girlfriend

Cut your dick off
Othsa - Fri, 25 Oct 2019 17:04:35 EST LbPBpo3d No.532193 Reply
Here's I feel my bruh. I will get my dick hard for me.. it's better then giving any opportunity to let someone else take it away from me.


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- Mon, 21 Oct 2019 02:34:42 EST Y/IBjRot No.532167
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Has anybody ever here ever moved to denver from another state?

What was it like? were you successful? Did you stay out their?

I grew up in this small area and have never seen much. went to denver recently and had the time of my life, and I think I could easily start a business out their within 2 years

Has anybody ever done this?
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Martha Drecklesork - Mon, 21 Oct 2019 10:53:05 EST pgN5fKlQ No.532171 Reply
Yeah I've done it a couple times. Save up 6 months of bills and do it.
Martha Ginnersot - Mon, 21 Oct 2019 19:03:38 EST Je9nm5wp No.532172 Reply
that's a lot of frogs
Gudra - Thu, 24 Oct 2019 17:27:22 EST LbPBpo3d No.532187 Reply
I have got to experience a load of places (fourtantly) I will make back to a good countryside outside a small town.

avoiding interested people and random life shit

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- Sat, 19 Oct 2019 00:10:36 EST 1kZxLIuc No.532153
File: 1571458236825.png -(269992B / 263.66KB, 1016x1250) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. avoiding interested people and random life shit
was going to post this on /b/ as a response to a thread but it 404'd and the future sucks now anyways so might as well paste it here. it's been a good 4 years since i was last here, glad to see you guys are still at it!

this (image related since i was responding to op) happened to me many times in my teens, but these are the ones i remember

14, goth chick constantly orbited me. she was a gorgeous redhead. too fucking spaghetti to realize what was going on.

15 in church, we didn't believe in god. was playing psp but i was so nervous because she was cute i just kept focusing on the game. she thought i was uninterested

16, exfriend set me up with this fat chick i had nothing in common with, we made out and stuff but it didnt last a week. i didnt like her.

at 18, second chick was this asian my group of friends hung out with for a couple years now. everybody liked her and hit on her, but she liked me. i was too shy, we walked on the beach one night for about 30min, separating from the group of friends. i think she was going to say something, but i was so silent and nervous i guess she got nervous too. after that point she started losing interest.

at 20, was doing dxm with some chick i had admired for a long time, she tried to blow me but i was too out of it to even feel anything. first sexual contact i've had. i guess all she wanted was a fuck because she never contacted me after. shes grown up into an amazing person and moved out of state. i don't think ill ever try to contact her though.

third chick, 21, first time i took initiative, i already knew she liked me so it was easier, i was older, and on drugs. started a 6 year relationship full of abuse. it destroyed me and im in debt now because of it. burned alot of bridges, but somehow kept the people who matter most to me. really wish i had fallen in love with someone else, i ignored all the red flags because she was my first. she also broke my fucking 420chan shotglass

^during that relationship we had broken up for about 6months. some lesbian in my neighborhood took a liking to me, we did alot of coke and drank together. she kept telling me she liked me but i wouldn't say it back (i didn't). eventually we fucked and never spoke again. she was crazy so it's for the best

30k in debt, absolute rock bottom. got fired from my job for reasons that aren't my fault. grandfather remarried to a younger woman who beats him since he has dementia now. she took control of the company that i worked for and fired me and my entire family. she forced me to go to rehab even though i was clean, she claimed she would pay for it, and that i would have a job when i got back. well guess what now i owe 20k and have no job. she literally told me she would fire my parents if i didnt go and did it anyways. between the betrayal of my own flesh and blood and my ex gf, this really broke me. worst of all im afraid of this coming back to me in the future if i become a pilot (more later)

after that i drank/drugged myself into an 14 day coma(pretty good story if anyone's interested, tldr i thought the surgeon was kojima turning me into a robot and shat myself, i couldn't stay unconscious during the surgery where they removed part of my pancreas so that was fucking terrifying)

here at 28, out of some miracle 2months after the coma i straightened my life again by force, got an amazing job that i enjoy being at every day. but the nights end the same, i come home, play vidya with the old pals on discord (known them for 15+yrs), eat, sleep, repeat. sometimes i go hang out with my old local friends or go racing/drifting or something. i used to be a pilot before all the drugs so i plan on getting back into that. not commercially though, i would like to but the rehab thing scares me. fucking waste of time that place was.

wondering how the hell im going to put myself back out there though. i wish i had the knowledge i have now in my late teens. but im not surrounded by people like i used to be, even still, my old habits of being super shy, the way i try to pretend to be disinterested will always keep warding off people. that hasn't gone away

the only people i hang with are a couple of old friends and theyre all settling down.

the loneliness is creeping up on me, but at the same time that sadness will never hold a candle to the terrors i had to fight back before i almost died. i hope i dont have to live and die alone, bu…
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Simon Sallerstire - Sat, 19 Oct 2019 06:26:50 EST rM9EOQD/ No.532159 Reply
Sounds like you need to focus on yourself.
Nicholas Chuggleseg - Sun, 20 Oct 2019 18:33:26 EST UC/aR6fj No.532166 Reply
We all make mistakes and look back and think "if I only I knew" to be a teenager is to not have a fucking clue.

You want to sit down and work out what you actually want. Then work out how to achieve that. Then do it a bit at a time. There's no workaround to being shy, but you can do things to make it easier. put yourself in an environment where you definitely have something in common with others and you know they're there at least in part for a social aspect. Putting yourself out there is hard but the first thing is to figure out where "there" is.

Then go out and have fun where women you have something in common with. If that fails you're out having fun and that's what matters. Going out on the pull and repeatedly going home empty handed will make you feel worse. Going out and having fun and relaxing will get you more interest.

Most dating sites are a shiftfest for most users. If you have any hobbies which aren't pure sausagefest do those and you'll meet more women by just enjoying yourself.

Lying coworker

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- Fri, 11 Oct 2019 07:34:26 EST vOX+GkbV No.532083
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How would you deal with a sleazy, compulsively lying coworker who wasn't qualified for the job and had difficulty speaking / writing / thinking in English above basic conversational level?
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Samuel Fapperridge - Thu, 17 Oct 2019 03:33:14 EST mkAwBnlI No.532140 Reply
I would try to be kind to that person and speak to them peacefully I would also work on talking to other coworkers to identify what the true situation of the person's abilities were at the work place. I had a co-worker who would be too sexually busy in the work place, like they would flirt and actually touch and it was a bit much. It was far too often, taking place more than should happen. I talked to them and it made somewhat of a difference and there wasn't that much of that behavior afterwards. It gets really tiring after a while when you're in a circumstance like that and it's going on at a higher amount than you want. It is not ideal to be in such circumstances and I would think it probably related to issues the person has experienced earlier on in their life. There's a big picture of what the person is like and it has benefits to think of it when being around the person. Thinking of what's going on for them helps. Thought is not the enemy. lol Using your brain solves issues.
Jist - Thu, 17 Oct 2019 15:09:37 EST LbPBpo3d No.532144 Reply
>I had a co-worker who would be too sexually busy in the work place, like they would flirt and actually touch and it was a bit much
Who won? I bet the girl was too flirty and presumusas. Then tried to flip it on a guy.

Dont feel right unless im in a relationship

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- Sat, 12 Oct 2019 16:51:42 EST lYwVS2OU No.532098
File: 1570913502155.png -(496740B / 485.10KB, 468x599) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Dont feel right unless im in a relationship
I got off a really shitty abusive relationship some months ago, during that time i started a course on a new area that really is exciting and new for me, not only that but that course is letting me do a project for a big company i love, who may approve it, i feel my project is really solid and might work, but either way, after years of trying to get in a area i never really liked, i finally found what i truly love.

I've been closer to friends than ever, not only that, im at a new exciting time i've been making lots of new friends that getting me in new exciting situations, my relationship made me feel alienated from near people since my ex was really controling, and if she didn't like someone, she would guilt trick me into avoiding them, and she didnt like a lot of people.

Im doing boxing, lifting weights and jogging a lot, im probably more healthy now as a 24 years old, than as a 18 years old.

And i've been having sex too, great sex with a girl better than my ex both emotionally and sexually, she is way above my ex in looks too, i don't feel nothing deep for her, and wouldn't want a relationship, but im not "alone" at all at this time.

Yet i envy my ex having a new date, i made the mistake of stalking her today, and found that, even tho the guy looks "worse" than me, and even tho she is both personality wise and looks, worse than my new date, i envy her, as if she got a new stable relationship which i truly didnt, and therefore is better than me, even being in a shitty job she hates still, even tho most of her friends always end up leaving her after truly knowing her.

Its as if she always judged me so harshly, that i wanted to shove my better me in her face, as in "look how much better im doing", but truth is, even tho i am much better, i spend my days doing my stuff and loving it, i still feel sad when i get alone without nothing but time to reflect, i don't know why i create this, but i wish i could just get what i have and be thankful for it, cause i know i was even worse when i was with her, and my life was a cesspool, even tho, i hate this needy feeling, cause i know its what made me endure that shitty relationship for so long, and i hate thinking i might jump into another shitty relationships if the opportunity presents itself, cause i always feel this lack without someone i love.

I just mean, how do i enjoy myself and my life without needing a relationship, without thinking im just validated if im with someone.
Name - Sat, 12 Oct 2019 22:40:38 EST ACArUTNa No.532100 Reply
You're not going to get over all that hurt overnight dude. You've done so much to improve your life and even though it looks good on paper, of course when you revisit your past relationship, you will feel hurt. It was abusive. Toxic.

There is some kind of emotional need that you need to fill, but it's an old one. You wont fill it with another person. You can only fill it yourself. Work out what your issues are and try to prove it wrong.

Of course it is lonely to not be in love right now, but if you dont drive back into that old way of being you might find a better kind of love. One that lifts you up.
David Pirryspear - Wed, 16 Oct 2019 10:32:53 EST qeFUVsc9 No.532139 Reply
I'm kinda in the same boat as you my friend.

Currently am working out how to leave my relationship with minimized harm toward myself.

I've never been single for longer than a month or two since Highschool.
Except when I am in a relationship, I have urges to do things that I should've done while single. Like sleep around. Flirt. Be myself.

I feel so fucking suppressed.
My friends are still my friends but I haven't talked to them in a year now.
How do people think it's okay to control a person so much to this point?
Are they acutely aware of the effects they have on you and your mind?
Or do they just not care?
It's insane.

I got off topic, anyway,
The more aloof you can be with yourself and be comfortable in your skin and know that as long as you love yourself, no one can ever validate you as much as you can validate yourself. It's so much more rewarding. To be able to look in the mirror every morning and tell yourself that you matter and that you're important and that people care about you no matter how far they seem from you.

Everyone is on their own path and you are the path finder. You do not need another''s light to guide your path. The only one who can light your path is yourself.
Speak from the heart and the light will radiate from you.
Be your own lamp.

Issues with ex

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- Mon, 14 Oct 2019 07:58:57 EST Q/MXo8A1 No.532107
File: 1571054337741.png -(23678B / 23.12KB, 633x758) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Issues with ex
Is there any way to fix this?

An old semi long term ex hit me and she is kinda slutty so i didnt really want a relationship or anything. I told her it was sex and i just wanna fool around. And she said yeah whatever you want ill do whatever you want. And i wasnt really affectionate at all she asked if i was sad when we broke up and i told her i wasnt happy or sad. I kept asking her if she really liked me and told her to tell me because she was acting needy and i told her i dont want her to like me because i dont want to date

I acted kind of cold but it was because there was times she texted me, then ghosted me while talking to me, talk to other people and ignore me, and had sex with a lot of people and everything it was just a lot so i really wasnt in love or affectionate.

She said she didnt care it doesnt matter if we dont date. Then later on in the second day i think she was kinda going around it and not really saying no that she doesnt like me and whenever she left we stayed up texting all night and it wasnt really bad except I’m just always emo and pissed off. But not in a mean way just complaining about life.

I was kinda cold and a little mean but not really bad or bullying just say i dont really feel needy or have any feelings and i told her i dont really care about relationships. We cuddled and stuff but i didnt really kiss a lot and i was just acting a little distant and she seemed needy and then i kept asking her if she liked me or not to make sure because i just wanted to know and i might feel weird if she did or just feel bad

Then i think she did have feelings and would just kinda do whatever i asked and come hang out with me whenever i asked. Woke up today and she just was barley answering. And then she said yeah i do have feelings for you this is hard but it didnt sound genuine just more like she wanted to leave and used that an excuse but i wasnt sure and then didn’t text me.

Did i treat her too bad? Or did she just run off with some other dude for a cock or something? She went form like 2 days of if i asked her to come over she just came ot and did whatever i wanted to do and was just super nice and did everything i asked for and even the last day she asked to spend the night but i didnt because i had a headache and wanted to eat really bad. Then i woke up the next day and she didnt even wanna talk after 2 days of acting really affectionate and just doing whatever and just coming over and wanting to text non stop and hang out all day and shit. Like literaly just woke up a whole different person.

Did she just go fuck another dude or something?
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Name - Wed, 16 Oct 2019 00:06:40 EST Ptg5M1K1 No.532135 Reply
She is the same person she has always been. She doesn't know what she wants and theres nothing you can do to make her stay as you cant fix her or give her what she needs.


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- Fri, 11 Oct 2019 21:32:58 EST SaWKafFy No.532090
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Growing up I would never have imagined that I would have so much personal suffering over not being able to get laid or have a girlfriend. All I want is to fuck an attractive female. But years pass and nothing. Everyone can't be getting fucked except me right? There has to be a good amount of guys around my age who are completely dumbfounded as to how they can't get laid, because I definitely am.

To whoever can give me actual advice as to how I can have sex within the next week, I can't do much but I will forever remember you and direct positive spirit energy in your direction.
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Lillian Goodridge - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 20:47:08 EST CmGaMC1v No.532129 Reply
>I'm not OP but I know what OP wants

You sure be way more helpful around here.
Name - Tue, 15 Oct 2019 23:11:58 EST Ptg5M1K1 No.532134 Reply
Let me tell you how this story ends if you keep up the bullshit.

You meet a girl in class or peripheral friend group. Fellow male friend also is interested. You exchange pleasantries. You hang out and talk a bit. You go on a pseudo date and you dont kiss. She hooks up with other dude. You cry and call her a bitch for leading her on. She is like wtf. You are like wtf.

Yes we are talking about love and not sex. And yes, you are cant be in a relationship right now because clearly you're afraid of intimacy and you cant be authentic.

Therapy, whores and fat women are what you need. Dr prescribes this to you.

Oh no that's not the right way to go about things rah rah rah. There is no right way. There is only fucking embarrassing yourself. Hahaha. Embrace.

socializing with low self-esteem

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- Sun, 29 Sep 2019 18:34:05 EST SLZ94LIZ No.531914
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I realize I need at least some people in my life but how do I find them and keep them when I'm socially awkward and sort of just find myself somewhat (and naturally other people too) repugnant. I want a quick fix but I think I know in the back of my brain that something that took years to happen will take years to rectify.
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Esther Chombledock - Tue, 08 Oct 2019 05:06:26 EST egLQ3/pk No.532045 Reply
Also, no problem man. Sorry for the giant walls of text, I got my adderall script again, heh
Reuben Turveyforth - Fri, 11 Oct 2019 13:58:25 EST SLZ94LIZ No.532089 Reply
Thanks again, "cat" ^_^ I understand what you're saying. I'm on no medicines why are you on adderall and how has it affected your life?
Farkis - Mon, 14 Oct 2019 21:37:47 EST LbPBpo3d No.532117 Reply
Dont implement around assholes
They created this system.
There are 16 different personallitys around four letters or words...
Maybe beacuase the whole extrovert introvert went to shit.
So maybe it can be a good thing to define yourself around the things. They say we use to kill gods but honestly there will allways be the sliver tpumge mentallity. Its just a matter in how you go about it.
Talk to some people man just get on some thread site thats a good fit for you best of lu luck.

I hate everybody

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- Sat, 12 Oct 2019 21:42:42 EST FZJGGhl2 No.532099
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I can't stand the area I live in, too many people are either wannabe criminals or religious fundamentalists and lots of them have a hard-on for any kind of authoritarism they can think of, many people working with me are downright incompetent and backstabbing, I'm constantly scared of speaking my mind because I have nothing in common with the people who surround me and I fear I may be fired if I do that.

I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like an alien trapped in this and I couldn't care less about the people I know because they suck, I can't stop thinking they want to fire me for no reason and I'm always anxious and feeling down or angry, I can't even sleep very well lately, I don't know what to do anymore.
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Barnaby Fepperdare - Mon, 14 Oct 2019 07:28:11 EST iU4agb7y No.532106 Reply
I don't consume lots of social media and I don't even have an fb account.
John Crazzledire - Mon, 14 Oct 2019 18:36:38 EST UC/aR6fj No.532116 Reply
Depends on your coworkers.For OP it sounds like they are.

Some offices have real friendship groups. Others don't. I've always been too shy and nerdy to want to join their football games and nights out but some of them alright and in terms of values and stuff they're not my opposites. None are about to backstab me. I have worked places where there's some of that shit in the air though usually the biggest villain is the management.

If I worked in IT I'd probably have people I could invite to my D&D games or whatever.

Social media is another thing that varies. The media you use and how you interact which colour what you get out of it or what you lose to it. On the whole I'd be aware it does more harm than good but some of the messenger/event shit makes coordinating get togethers easier. On the whole if you're using it instead of social interaction you're fucking up, if you're using to arrange it, you're doing okay. If you can avoid it entirely like the old days and still see lots of people then you're doing best of all.

Family does not approve of gf

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- Sun, 29 Sep 2019 11:38:25 EST Cl/CU0lR No.531907
File: 12.jpg -(80085B / 78.21KB, 666x69) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Family does not approve of gf
My entire chinese family (mom.dad.grandma.grandpa) thinks my gf is ugly and think she is not good for me. Its honestly killing me inside and make me think maybe there is some truth in what they r saying idfk. she is the only girl who ever loved me and the time i spent with her in the last two years were honestly some of the happiest time ive been.

I broke up with her a month ago and havent told my fam yet but my grandma just said to me "how could you find such a ugly girl, why dont u just break up." it just hurt so much me to hear that from my family.. i just wanted to rant i guess
Simon Crozzleforth - Mon, 30 Sep 2019 16:42:59 EST JCATCBbz No.531927 Reply
Man that's rough OP. I don't know your family dynamic but honestly if this girl makes you happy, fuck them. They're not the ones with her and honestly it isn't up to them. Why do you want them to approve of your woman? It's up to you to find the right person, regardless of what they think about it.
Jist - Sat, 12 Oct 2019 01:19:08 EST LbPBpo3d No.532095 Reply
They care man. Just know if I was I'm in your situation. Fuck it fam.

How do I cultivate a sense of urgency?

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- Thu, 26 Sep 2019 16:00:44 EST Ii08on6m No.531892
File: 1569528044351.jpg -(93633B / 91.44KB, 864x552) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. How do I cultivate a sense of urgency?
Lately, I have started to realise that I won't be around forever and there are certain things I want to do before it's too late. But I just don't seem to have the hunger.

How do I make myself crave the things I want? Instead of just hoping they will turn up by themselves, how do I devolope a sense of urgency and hunger that turns me into a hunter, so to speak, that goes out and gets what he wants.
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George Gorrymadge - Wed, 09 Oct 2019 16:35:33 EST 1wcPdSrG No.532064 Reply
this, also start working out ridiculously hard and do quality mdma very sparingly with close friends
i went from depressed to motivated in a day
Jist - Sat, 12 Oct 2019 00:29:06 EST LbPBpo3d No.532094 Reply
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Well there's standard of living
Then a good mix of sugar, spice, and somthing nice, the works
Then there's fun fucking short cuts you take when life's putting you in the dirt.
Word from the wise don't duce your equal.

Fear of Intimacy

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- Sat, 05 Oct 2019 04:07:43 EST h9SterRi No.531958
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So, another step taken on the path of trying to unfuck myself: how to describe this shit? where to start? idk i like to write so i hope you like to read.
when i was a kid my parents got divorced. I was about 5 or 6. I stayed with my mum and we moved around, between our two origin countries. For many years I denied that this was in any way troubling for me. All I said was "it's fine" - unfortunately it wasn't just fine and 20+ years later I'm so sick of it being fine. It's not fucking fine at all. My dad is like a ghost to me, my mum showed me a picture of him in his new life he now lives on a remote part of the country, he raises horses apparently. He looked like a fucking ghost, like some one unreal.
He didn't have it easy either. His mum had post natale depression and he was born in the 1950's. That meant that when they found her trying to drown my infant father in the kitchen sink they locked her up. He grew up with his uncle. I never met my biological grandmother, I knew my grandfather's second wife the best out of all my grandparents. The others were all dead before I was old enough to get to know them properly.
Ive said this before: it feels or felt like I was born into the corpse of a family. They all split up and fucked off before I knew what love is. You learn that when you're about 7. Did anything really bad happen to me? no. Do I really have a right to bitch and moan about my situation? I doubt it. I'm sure some of you would have killed to have the life I led. However what I don't have keeps coming back to me. It keeps hurting and i'm getting to a point where I really can't ignore the pain anymore. After I write this I have three more options to continue this work: my sister, a therapist or my friends.

I'm fucking sick of feeling sick. And it is sick. It's depression when it grows. I met a girl about a year and half ago now. Spoiler: it didn't work out. But she taught me alot. I am really greatful for what she showed me, the ride she took me on and I love her for it and I'm pretty sure that I will never live up to her, I will never be as good as she was. I tried to tell her sometime after we fought and split but it 'just didn't work' in the end.
We went to a beach together and ate some mushrooms, they didn't do shit but she told me alot about herself. She used to suffer from an eating disorder and she 'know's that she is chronically depressed'. She said her mother was a narcissist and controlling mothers are often the source of eating disorders like hers. Later we went to a party on another beach, another day, and that's where I really saw it. I realised later I triggered it. She just closed up and went bad, like watching someone on a bad trip without the hallucinations. We had been dancing before but now she went to huddle up in a little ball away from the people. I had to spend hours telling her I would not leave her and eventually we fell asleep somewhere. We didn't bother getting a hostel or something, we just kind of squatted in one of the hostel's gardens.
She told me later that her depressive states are more often triggered when she is (starting out) in a relationship. This was the first girl I had truly been with sexually. She said she had been late to start but I was fucking 25 going on 26. I never explicitly told her at what age I lost my virginity. It was shameful for me but she could probably read between the lines. She said one of the ways she reacted to her condition was by sleeping around alot, after at a certain point she had learned to use her body and downloaded tinder. I had only been with one or two other women.

We shared alot in the short time we were together. We discussed politics, philosophy, spirituality and culture. We were on a beautiful tropical island with little if any care in the world. I didn't quite see her perspective in terms of spirituality, she was a big proponent of yoga and mindfulness, the revolution coming from within. As I had spent university reading critical theory I was more interested in the material, mechanical nature of power. She told me multiple times to face my fear. She laughed at me, said I was so cute, made fun of me for being 'the big, strong, impassive man'. We caressed each other's skin in one of the beach huts and a cat curled up beside us.
In the following months we kept in touch but we physically sep…
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Hamilton Blackstock - Mon, 07 Oct 2019 10:11:11 EST LOrl8mlC No.532026 Reply
just with maths you can figure out that the majority of relationships start and end, and so presumably there was something not good there, not necessarily unhealthy, not necessarily bad.

It's definitely not a fact that most lasting relationships are unhealthy, in fact, quite the opposite. Lasting relationships tend to be happier ones, people in lasting relationships tend to be happier and live longer. If you find someone who supports you in your dreams, no matter how crazy they are, that's a good start, without that nothing can last, although that's not the only thing you need. That's just the biggest thing, according to statistics.

Gottman is a mathematician who swapped to psychology and researching love, his stats are great.

OP. You will never get wisdom on this board, it's a bunch of ordinary people with their thumbs in their arses who don't know anything more than you and, much more importantly, have no idea how to emotionally support someone else. Check out low cost counselling or psychotherapy in your area, if you don't like the first person, or the first 3, just keep swapping till you find a counsellor you click with, then off you go. People here will just be like "durr... well girls are like this and you should do this.., here's what happened to me and isn't at all relevant to you *2000 words* "
Jist - Thu, 10 Oct 2019 21:25:57 EST LbPBpo3d No.532080 Reply
Whats the sang? Mathematically is easier to get to know someone through a friend. Usually when it comes to relation.
I bet it's all a lie faggot.
> , after at a certain point she had learned to use her body and downloaded tinder. I had only been with one or two other women.

I need to tickle a rim ASAP

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- Tue, 08 Oct 2019 05:45:50 EST ram2FZuN No.532046
File: 1570527950083.jpg -(36611B / 35.75KB, 639x495) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I need to tickle a rim ASAP
I'm going to get some sex in a week and a half, and I like this girl and we both said we are not going to sleep with other people since we live a few hours away from eachother.
This slampiggy messaged me last night asking for weed. I am always horny so I stated remenising about some times we hooked up and ended up saying some shit like I'd love to taste her again one day etc.
I can fuck her tonight, what do I do? I really wan't to fuck, I don't think I can wait to see this other girl. The thing is, this slampiggy was fucked a couple days ago, which is cool I think thats hot shes agood girl, but we both dont use protection because of latex alergies so I am really hesitant to fuck. I don't want to catch anything and give it to this new girl.. I will always be worried. What would you do?
Polly Battingstidge - Tue, 08 Oct 2019 07:13:39 EST hsjTltEH No.532048 Reply
Are you a piece of shit or not? You are what you do.
Eliza Porringwater - Thu, 10 Oct 2019 18:34:46 EST Je9nm5wp No.532079 Reply
>Are you a piece of shit or not?

is this rhetorical? I feel like anyone can tell that he is

accidentally came out to my homophobic dad cause i left my room unlocked

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- Sat, 05 Oct 2019 14:43:37 EST Je9nm5wp No.531974
File: 1570301017286.jpg -(3621223B / 3.45MB, 4032x3024) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. accidentally came out to my homophobic dad cause i left my room unlocked
And he saw this poster, i normally lock the door but he apparently saw it bringing me some laundry i left in the basement

Is it even that homoerotic? I cant tell for obvious reasons

He was like "damn you fancy men?!?!?" And i just kinda said yes, i mean every single person but you knows

Then he just walked out

Things are strained and awkward now

What can i do
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George Chissleforth - Wed, 09 Oct 2019 07:11:49 EST yU2gM7RL No.532061 Reply
Can you even have gay sex missionary style? Wouldn't the guy taking it have to bend to take it?
Eliza Porringwater - Thu, 10 Oct 2019 18:32:59 EST Je9nm5wp No.532078 Reply
>just don't expect emotionally stunted and cripplingly insecure 'men' which are in no sense the majority to talk about feelings


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