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I have every right in the world to hate them

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- Mon, 26 Aug 2019 17:47:56 EST qSBAVAm/ No.531313
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>both me and my sister had to deal with severe mental issues for years due to our fucktard parents
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Henry Shakeson - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 15:51:54 EST 8fcICm3b No.531425 Reply
Yeah this.
This person seems very, very invested in making sure other people forgive.

Almost like they're specifically searching for forgiveness from someone and are butthurt that they're not getting it.
Eugene Smallcocke - Sat, 31 Aug 2019 21:50:42 EST yUhAjzvV No.531442 Reply
...or they found themselves in OPs shoes and forgiveness is what helped them move past it and they can't see any other way (whether that's right or wrong).

i'm not saying OP should or shouldn't forgive anybody either way, but if you are going to suck at it this bad, then fuck off with your armchair psychology. god you're a twat
Oliver Sozzlemone - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 13:27:23 EST 8D4GRXCN No.531461 Reply
What the fuck? These are objectively mentally healthy behaviors.

cuties and online dating

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- Sun, 01 Sep 2019 13:01:14 EST fHILlDGQ No.531457
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Why do I only match with cuties in online dating? Am I that unattractive?
Oliver Sozzlemone - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 13:23:01 EST 8D4GRXCN No.531458 Reply
In a world
Where every child
Has a high definition camera
In their pocket
You don't post a pic.

Perhaps you can murder yourself.

The Other Guy

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- Fri, 30 Aug 2019 08:26:59 EST m3kxgfQA No.531403
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My GF and I (both 27, more than a year dating) are going on a trip to another nearby city for fun. She has a lot of friends and family in this city, so we'd see them to say hi.

One of her friends is a straight single dude. Normally, I'd be fine whatever, don't be insecure or whatever. But she told me (she brought it up) that she met this dude from a dating app a while back, they went on one date, and HE was the one who said "i don't see sparks flying, we should be friends", and she agreed. He moved to this city that we're going to, and they've still kept in touch on social media talking and stuff as friends.

I didn't care when she first told me about him, I really didn't. It's that they met off of a dating app that gets me. My alarm bells are going off because it's not like he was a childhood friend or even a fucking co-worker or something, they met with the intention to fuck and date,and for whatever reason, it didn't work out - and that's just her side of the story that she told me.

Now I'm considering 1) not agreeing to meet up with this guy with her because i don't want to be a part of any weird masculine-competition thing, 2) agreeing to meet up with this guy and just sucking it up. she did bring this up and tell me without me prying, so at least she's not hiding anything from me? or 3) leaving her completely and not going on the trip cause this is some red flag orbiter shit.

What should I do?
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Walter Sollyhedging - Sat, 31 Aug 2019 11:04:28 EST V6inbDPQ No.531438 Reply
Idk why people tolerate this kind of stuff. I've been there. I was confused and thought I was just being jealous and paranoid and a bad partner.

No fuck it, compromising and walking on glass all the time isn't worth not being alone.
Henry Pupperworth - Sat, 31 Aug 2019 12:50:11 EST DdNmIOmh No.531439 Reply
Yes, you got wrapped up in your own head and lost the ability to cope.
Cyril Mannerdale - Sun, 01 Sep 2019 04:30:18 EST iJiVumQQ No.531454 Reply
You're so sure that your lady will cheat on you for a dude she met on tinder. So much so that your trip away together now has a conspiracy theory. That's funny and also very sad.

Sheesh maybe believe in yourself and your lady a little bit. Why are you in a relationship? Wish fulfillment? You're supposed to work together. Talk to her about it if you're in so much anguish.

Born as a disabled aspie

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- Fri, 19 Jul 2019 01:37:36 EST HhJE3hc8 No.530513
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I am tired sometimes I am not suicidal or homocidal just wish I was born normal.
Sucks to have people look down on you like a piece of poop.
But thats them brakes eh? I just feel down. I attempt to eat healthy and try to stay active. I am not a musclebro but sort of a beefcake. I just cant totally relate to this new generation. Always feel akward even when participating in discussions of topics. Sometimes i think i could just be insane i did seek mental health and they just wanted me to keep taking benzos. Sure the benzos make me forget i am anaspie and i feel like a normal person for 4 hours but its just a crutch. I manage to fight my high anxoety off but still get bouts of it strong as hell.
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Nicholas Handlelock - Wed, 31 Jul 2019 20:05:11 EST loFqoohq No.530707 Reply
Bro I paid for a specially made night guard but since my teeth only touch on the back four teeth it creates way too much pressure on them and basically felt like I was gunna break my teeth from the level of pain I felt after trying to wear it for a couple nights.

Read up that they aren't an effective treatment option if your teeth aren't all sharing the load of the bite evenly.

Ive tried just about everything they have thrown at me.

I also have read that botox injections help with reversing overdeveloped masseter muscles due to bruxism. Since they are being overworked they get so strong and buff that the only way for them to "weaken" or go back to normal is to basically freeze your ability to move them. Little by little muscle atrophy will return your muscles back to their original shape.

Botox is some str8 poison though so be careful wit that shi..

And yeah man being instantly judged and categorized as scum is total bullshit but i've learned to see peoples reactions towards me as a reflection into their soul not as a reflection of my own worth. Its taken a long time and a lot of self hate and depression to get over but it's taught me a big lesson.

Some people are so fucking petty that's enough to classify you as subhuman. And that's just a reflection of their lack of humanity and the darkness and vanity that lies within their soul.

One thing a certain anon told me years ago that has given me a lot of strength was...

Well you may be 20 yrs old (at that time) and this may seem like a tragic event or even the end of the world (end of my dreams of having a family, happy normal life they sell us) but it's only the end of "this one possible world you coulda lived". In 5 or ten years your problems will be minimized you will be in a better position. and time is the great equalizer... eventually everyone will end up with fucked up teeth, fake teeth, crowns, implants, dentures, etc. Your just running a few miles ahead of the pack and falling into pitfalls that that they have no idea what its like or how to get out of.

BUT EVENTUALLY they will be there.. they will suffer.. and even if they don't remember you and how they taunted you... were all human and we have the same problems.

Thats a bad paraphrase but basically in 10-20 yrs it will be meaningless.
Phyllis Dondlekodge - Wed, 31 Jul 2019 22:01:55 EST jnas4L6T No.530710 Reply

yeah inject neurotoxic poison into the muscles you use to chew, should be gravy
Jarvis Horringcheck - Wed, 31 Jul 2019 23:06:10 EST 3A/9rSkO No.530713 Reply
The dose makes the poison, fuckwads. You're on a drug board, you should at least understand that.

Don't know anymore

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- Tue, 11 Dec 2018 22:07:44 EST PMiKxfAC No.528082
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I honestly feel like my heart has turned into ice and it's hard as stone. I have no love for anyone anymore because I feel so disconnected from reality and people. My life has been nothing but a black hell I've been trapped in since I was born. Nothing good has come out of anything I've tried to do for myself to improve upon my life. I don't even know who I am anymore. I become darker and darker as time passes. I don't love my own mother anymore even. I was physically abused for years until I had a nervous breakdown at 16yrs old and was diagnosed with full blown schizophrenia and depression. Things have just gotten worse for me over the years since then. I don't think I'll ever be able to recover from what the abuse did to my heart and mind. I feel so lonely and unwanted. Sometimes I wish I was never born and my mom did have a miscarriage with me like she almost did when she was pregnant with me. Why the fuck am I even here?

You guys are the only people I talk to period since I have no friends. You people are the only ones who I feel I can relate to. Other than that, I have nothing left in my heart except for darkness and hatred. I cant do anything to fix this. I've tried getting help and nothing seems to work.

Can someone help me?
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Martha Gimmlesurk - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 21:07:11 EST N/uJd9MT No.531392 Reply
So have you followed through with any of the things you said you were gonna do in this thread OP?
Cedric Grandfoot - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 00:15:59 EST GRSuotNm No.531394 Reply

  • got clean and sober. It's been 3 months post suboxone taper
  • got some therapists lined up that I have to call tomorrow

After what happened last night and how upset and shitty I felt today I've decided to truly get help for my issues that have been plaguing me for a very long time. I want to be able to get better mentally and emotionally and spiritually so I can move on and start a new chapter on my life full of happiness and success. I've been engulfed in darkness and my demons have been tearing my soul apart for years on end. I'm tired of it and I'm going to do whatever it takes to be the person who I know I can be truly be and show everyone who I truly am when the time comes.

Basically, I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm taking action and go to therapy so I can get well and better 110% no matter how long it takes. I will do everything in my power to turn my life around and walk down a new path. I will start anew and I want to change myself inside and out. Like I said, however long it takes to get better and well I will always be making progress day by day and step by step.

I'm done posting in here. I'll come back in a few months and update you guys on how I'm doing.

Until then, peace.
William Ponninghall - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 14:02:06 EST t1LmLTGr No.531416 Reply
Good stuff, man. Trust the process. Lean into it. Get a treatment plan with exercises and then do the exercises.

Tracking people

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- Tue, 27 Aug 2019 08:22:04 EST 74saW8QK No.531323
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I have very uncommon hobby - I used to track people from my apartment ( 8fl) with binocular or other optic tools. Recently I dpopped my lovely binocular from the balcony.. How can I stop?
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Eliza Sinnerstot - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 11:56:51 EST tLnTz44g No.531378 Reply
Jesus fucking christ.
James Biddlechit - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 06:06:13 EST mDf2bJ5P No.531398 Reply
We appreciate but you should remember that such a tracking is illegal.
David Cleppertodge - Fri, 30 Aug 2019 07:10:36 EST aAk3sE59 No.531401 Reply

Something's Wrong

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- Wed, 14 Aug 2019 09:25:49 EST xFBnJEh+ No.531012
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I'll try to keep this short.
I feel like something's wrong with me. My life is objectively the best it's ever been in terms of ease and security, and yet I feel it's getting harder and harder to get through each day.

I feel like it started around 2 years ago when my girlfriend moved in with me. At first I thought I just needed an adjustment period from living alone my whole adult life, but here we are 2 years later, and if anything, the feeling is getting worse (or at least harder to ignore).

The thing is, I don't really know if it's living with her that's making me feel this way.
I feel the worst when I'm at work. I have such a hard time getting up some mornings, and there are days when I get to my desk and want to just cry.
I pretty much always feel better at home. I just took a week-long trip with my girlfriend, and it was the best time I've had in ages. I enjoyed myself, and I enjoyed being with her. So that means being around her probably isn't the cause, right?

I know I wasn't always happy before my girlfriend. I was lonely and felt like a loser. I had no friends.
And yet, I also feel like I enjoyed myself. I had fun, did things, looked forward to things.
Now whenever I try to engage in one of my previous pastimes, I feel like I'm just going through the motions.
I feel like the weekends are pointless because I'll just be facing down another Monday morning in 48 hours. There used to be a time where I was actually ready to go back to work on Monday, because I had gotten bored from the weekend.
Now I can't remember the last time I felt fully rested even after a 3 day weekend.
I feel like everything is becoming a struggle, and I rarely have anything to look forward to. The only cure I've found is to keep myself so busy that I don't have time to feel bad (but that usually just leads elevated stress, so it's a trade-off).

The other alternative is weed. Before my girlfriend, I would drink a controlled amount to get drunk maybe 1-2 times a week, like Friday/Saturday night.
After she moved in, I was binge-drinking 3-4 times a week, sometimes spending whole days drunk (only on my days off work), and not limiting myself to the controlled amounts I had been before. Eventually it started to backfire though, and I would find myself feeling even worse than I would otherwise the morning after, so the past few months I've started shifting to weed instead.
Weed doesn't have the negative effects alcohol does, but I've gone from using it maybe once every few months to multiple times a week. It's gotten to the point where I've seriously started to consider micro-dosing edibles in the morning just so I won't feel like having a breakdown at my desk.

My gut is telling me I need to change something in my life, but I don't want to leave my girlfriend, and my job is too sweet a gig to give up.
I feel like there's something wrong with me, and I don't know what to do.
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Martin Baffingwit - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 00:07:15 EST xFBnJEh+ No.531363 Reply
This is OP again.
I think I may have figured it out, or at least stumbled on to something.

I was high last night and I had the realization that I'm never able to really relax anymore. Not like I used to.
Sure I can sit on the couch and watch TV, but I can never just... be at total ease. There are things that are now constantly vying for my attention 24 hours a day (my girlfriend and her pets) that I didn't have to deal with when I lived alone.
It's no wonder I want to cry on Monday morning because I feel like I've had 0 respite over the weekend. I can't remember the last time I was able to really relax like I used to. I think I've been using marijuana/alcohol to turn off the noisy part of my brain so I can just be at peace for a couple of hours.

My long term gameplan is to outlive the pets, but what can I do in the meantime?
Eliza Gandlestone - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 11:49:27 EST hiKxQg3e No.531376 Reply
Maybe a change of scenery would do you some good! A road trip is what we used to do when we'd get ennui and cabin fever. It really helps, you can just run around in nature, see new things, make friends to be pen pals later. I highly recommend it.
Eliza Sinnerstot - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 11:58:41 EST tLnTz44g No.531379 Reply
Functional meditation can help you be more present in moments so you don't feel like your participation is so superficial.

What's it called when

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- Tue, 06 Aug 2019 12:01:39 EST hiKxQg3e No.530817
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people claim to be innocent after trying to harm you? For example, when I was a child, there was a kid in my 3rd grade class who would suckerpunch people when they were alone together and then claim he was being bullied. In adulthood, this takes on a grander form, mostly in a manner consistent with "I will blackmail and threaten you" which turns into "Stop blackmailing and threatening me" when I fight back.

Is there a name for this beyond just being a duplicitous asshole in general?
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Henry Fobbersin - Wed, 07 Aug 2019 11:46:59 EST XiHtpV2+ No.530848 Reply
I gave you a nice reply defending you and you're calling me triggered?

Finding your ideal therapist type

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- Thu, 29 Aug 2019 06:30:36 EST hiKxQg3e No.531369
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>younger woman
>stridently feminist, low-key misandrist
>Christian prude
>into new-age concepts like "mindfulness" but materialistic
>bad at keeping secrets, nosy, gossipy, busybody
>Calls you an addict for smoking weed but smokes weed on Sundays
>Keeps a copy of the SCUM manifesto and a dried turd from Melody Beattie's bedpan under her pillow

I went through like three of these when I wasn't under control over my choice of therapist. I had a lot of unsatisfactory therapists, but it was a horrible match. I even had the same therapist as my partner at some point and she just flagrantly violated HIPAA, tried to triangulate my relationship, and talked nothing but shit when she didn't know I could hear or get it through the grapevine.

They put me with a younger gay doc that was better but not perfect for me. I gotta say the worst was an old man who was absolutely completely burnt out and seemed to have nothing but contempt for his patients and staff. I didn't mind the older woman of color I had for a bit, gave good advice, but too spiritual to connect deeply enough to make fundamental progress with essentially a nihilist.

I have a therapist I use but he's not covered by insurance. Thinking of finding one that works for me, but burnt out about going through all the types.

I want somebody who I can talk to issues about and will treat me with more respect than these people, won't flagrantly violate HIPAA with my family, and doesn't try to triangulate my relationships. How do you select your therapist, /qq/?
Eliza Gevingpadging - Thu, 29 Aug 2019 17:01:05 EST Sjfg2Tup No.531388 Reply
Unfortunately it's very hit and miss, and sometimes you don't know how someone clicks with you until you've already spent (wasted??) hours and hundreds of dollars with them.

For the most part, I've been extremely fortunate with therapists with a handful of utter trash ones mixed in. Like the granola mom art therapist that dropped me after I went on a break with my GF and blew a guy. And the old PhD who loved to hear HIMSELF talk and told me I couldn't control my thoughts so don't even bother (what)

Just keep trying. You'll know a good fit when you find them. Sometimes you can talk to the provider, if you're under insurance, and specify guidelines you need to heal - like LGBT friendly, deals with specific types of trauma, uses specific methods, etc.

Good luck!

This is too much

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- Tue, 27 Aug 2019 19:22:14 EST divoaUvf No.531337
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It happened this sunday, and I thought it'd get less worse with time. I used to play with him every single day, he used to greet me every single day when I came back home, he was always in my room by my side, he was my only friend and for 15 years, ever since I was a kid. Now he's dead because I'm fucking stupid. I heard a dog cry, it was so quiet that I only noticed that it was him by the second time, which was around 20 minites later. I looked for him everywhere, I thought that he was stuck outside (sometimes when my mom leaves with her car he escapes to sniff the neighborhood) blocked by the fence and was crying because he wanted me to open the gate and then gave up and went for a walk, so I looked for him in the entire neighborhood, but I forgot to check the fucking pool because I'm a fucking retard.

For how long did he struggle in that pool, waiting for me to pick him up? Just what kind of unbearable pain did he go through because of my insane stupidity? He never bit anyone, never did anything wrong, he didn't deserve this horrible pain, no one deserves this horrible pain. And now the house is empty, I no longer have the only creature that gave me a reason to live by my side, not that I deserve to live after what happened.
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Ernest Grandstone - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 10:45:58 EST +KTYM74/ No.531352 Reply
I agree with the others that it's not your fault. and I know you're not in a place right now to believe us when we say this, because maybe you think we don't want to hurt your feelings etc.
but this is an anonymous message board. believe me, if I thought this was in any way your fault, I'd say it.

15 years is very old age for a dog. my last cat lived about a year too long for her liking. having loved ones taken away suddenly hurts, but seeing them suffer for months while they slowly lose their will to live is a more regretful pain.

because his death is so recent there's nothing any of us can say to take away the pain of his loss. mourn him. mourn him for as long as you need but don't dwell on "what could have been". life's short enough that it won't take too long to be reunited with the dead.
Augustus Sillysan - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 17:03:11 EST kacwUZ9h No.531358 Reply
Not gonna lie, you've got a tough time ahead OP.

I've been there. A few years ago my girlfriend forgot to lock her gate, her dog got out and went missing. We spent hours looking for him, couldn't sleep, made posters, the whole thing, only to find out the next day he'd been run over by a car mid morning after wandering the streets all night.

This won't ever go away, OP. It will get easier to bear with time, but it's a part of you now, and it's going to take a good, long time before you're able to adjust to this new normal.

However, it's okay to forgive yourself. Guilt is only useful insofar as it stops you from making the same mistake again.
You've learned your lesson OP, so it's okay to let go of the guilt.
Ian Clocklegold - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 20:05:48 EST eSN1mlJR No.531362 Reply
I mean it seems like your pool is a death trap. Surely there should be some steps or something that your dog could have rested on. God forbid a kid end up in there.

In need of relationship advice

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- Fri, 23 Aug 2019 17:04:03 EST hEhIvdDq No.531258
File: 1566594243381.jpg -(36998B / 36.13KB, 720x562) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. In need of relationship advice
I've been dating this chick for about 2 months now
She dumped her bf
Well i thought it seemed like everything was going good, she seemed like she was super into me and wanted to spend every day with me
One day last week while we were tripping out on mushrooms I grabbed her phone and checked her texts Because I had a feeling that something shady was going on and I had to see what was up
I went to the texts between her and her ex and like every single text (one of which was sent while I was sitting next to her) said "I love you" "I miss you" and I kinda broke down, grabbed all of my belongings and took off and she eventually convinced me to come back... And within a couple days we kinda worked things out but I feel like she's way more distant and I'm starting to lose feelings like crazy and am starting to get more and more paranoid.
I'm not sure what to do... Help me out
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Hugh Bummerstone - Tue, 27 Aug 2019 11:03:45 EST jTGkEsHU No.531329 Reply
>I like it how no one cares that OP totally violated this womans privacy.
Why do you say that?

And why do you *like* it?
Eugene Chupperbedge - Wed, 28 Aug 2019 00:27:16 EST 8TUkYG+W No.531342 Reply

I appreciate the naive place (that causes lots of people to get needlessly hurt) where you're coming from but the chocolate covered strawberries shit made me laugh my ass off.

OP, this woman is playing the field and clearly has feelings for her ex. You guys were just fucked up enough that you had an opportunity to see something that you weren't meant to.

This is a big red flag, and the right thing to do is run away and cut your mind off from her.

dunce support

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- Mon, 26 Aug 2019 17:02:58 EST VLaW5ukW No.531310
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I guess I fit the standard definition of a dunce. I was put into special classes as a child to intermediary school and in most academic classes I end up performing at the bottom, slow learner etc. Have been diagnosed with ADHD although I do believe the problem is more specific learning disorder or even deficits in working memory. ADHD meds seemed to help at first, but the insomnia they produce outweighs the benefit of taking them (I've dropped the dose so low to prevent insomnia I can't even tell the difference between taking them and not taking them)

I'm now in my mid 20's and it's formed into such a psychological complex for me that often I'm embarrased or display avoidance behaviours in almost every learning environment i'm thrown in that involves a class or group of people.

How do I reframe my attitude so I'm not always shitting on myself when I come last in every race?
Hugh Bummerstone - Tue, 27 Aug 2019 11:09:02 EST jTGkEsHU No.531331 Reply
Get behavioral therapy for your confidence issues. You aren't using the skills you have because your entire life has been focused on overcoming who you are when there's nothing to be overcome. Your existence here is predicated on nothing and you have as much right to a high quality, rich life as anyone else. Don't let their IEPs and their reports and their remediation plans define you and who you are. You probably don't even know what that is because you were never allowed to explore it, you were shoved into special ed where they don't teach you to be anything but a poor fuckup in need of services. Break out of it right away.

large employment gap

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- Fri, 23 Aug 2019 00:04:46 EST 4i3/8z8o No.531228
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Has QQ ever found itself dealing with long-term unemployment/several year resume gaps?
Personally I've dun goofed and found myself having pretty much failed to seek employment 3 years after finishing a bachelor's degree [in software engineering]. The reasons: bad habits from being used to doing shit jobs where employment gaps didn't matter for shit, psychological problems, and then burning out right after finishing said degree and amassing a whopping two months of work using my newly-acquired skillset.
Finally I have found the energy to deal with the problem, but I am pretty much at a loss on what to do. How do I actually deal with the gap? Employers seemed to be offput by a 1 year gap when I scored a handful of interviews a couple of years back. Me being on my early 30s probably didn't help, either. Realistically, am I stuck outside of the regular employment loop and should I simply just go for other avenues (freelancing and competing with indians, self-employment, own business, being a drug mule)?
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George Sumblespear - Tue, 27 Aug 2019 00:44:21 EST J6KyYR1G No.531318 Reply
no. but wouldn't think it's a plus you're a go-getter or and understand how business could work. or shows you're a hard worker
Molly Blullyfoot - Tue, 27 Aug 2019 01:20:37 EST f7KUEZx3 No.531320 Reply
> write you owned a business for a few years that's a bad thing on a resume

Not really. First off, don't list it as a business. In the eyes of the tax code, yes you're a business. On a resume you were self-employed as a single freelancer or whatever.

You completely missed the point of my post.

I've worked jobs recently having scrimped and saved for a while to where if they tell me to do something utterly insane, dangerous, or illegal I tell them to fuck off. Then they try and flex on me by saying they'll write me up or fire me. In the area and field I'm in, threatening legal action means I have to move and start over with new contacts as you'll be blacklisted for threatening legal action against something an employer is doing illegally. It sucks but so are the rules of the trade and life isn't fair and all. But having my own money and wealth and situation secured with no debt, I can sling it right back at them and tell them to jump into a volcano because I quit. Bosses and supervisors hate, and I mean absolutely fucking hate people who don't give a fuck and can't be bossed around.

I've seen dudes who are married, have a shiny 80k dollar truck and 40k boat sitting out in the parking lot at work with 3 kids get just utterly abused and in 2 instances, fucked up on the job because some blowhard cockfaced asswipe needs a powertrip for 10 minutes because their dick is 2" long. It is honestly one of the most sickening things I've seen in life and it happens daily at every place I've worked at. A guy with huge loads of debt to service every month and a wife and kids and all that shit is a good pawn to hold. He has too much to loose and can't afford to lose his job so he can be put through hell and back. To where as any amount of bullshit someone gives me results in me being a brickwall to it. I don't give a fuck because I don't need any job at all. It is like trying to threaten to kill a suicidal person. Like nigga, idgaf, you're doing me a favor asshole. Good job fucktard.

The last thing you want an employer to know at any point is that you don't need their employment. The general hivemind of American citizens is that they should be thankful for having a job. It is in reality a 2 way street if you aren't a consumerist whore. You give them labor/skills for money/benefits. And it is nothing more or less. I've worked on some jobs for less than a week because I show up and the boss is nothing but a lying bullshitter. And his employees were all either feeble drunks, or no-show kids who can't work more than 2-3 days a week without disappearing and no calling. And his bullshit went hand in hand. And I am a very skilled person and am never late or have bullshit that carries into work. I work hard and outperform 95% of the slobs in this country. I'm not trying to talk myself but the bar is just set so fucking low that if you're in any blue-collar field, everyone is nearly a piece of shit or a drunk. Or both. But employers expect this level of underperformance and bullshit by the employees. And the pay and abuse goes hand in hand. You get a guy in the job that works like me and it is just unprecedented outside of higher fields of work. The lower level management schlubs like supervisors and crew leaders want you gone if you have an intelligence because you'll call them out for their laziness and bullshit and upper management will displace them for you. I've seen it time and time again through my 20's. A fuckhead cunt in his 40's playing tough guy who promotes me rapidly the first few months on the job and then when I don't brown nose or bow down to bullshit and sneakiness, I get pushed out as the upper management starts taking notice. I've had performance reviews withheld, bonuses fucked with, pay fucked with, lies about qualifications being redacted and all kinds of shit. I'm not going to sugar coat it, Americans are fucking awful. I expect this is the same elsewhere but I have no experience. Everyone, and I mean everyone with an IQ over probably 103 is a snake and trying to serve themselves. It doesn't matter if you're in a corporation with 1000 employees or a mom-n-pop deal. Everyone is trying to get over on everyone. I'm honest, and brutally so at that. Anything that is bullshit gets called out and it has made a rough life for me. I don't recommend it, I&…
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File: 1566708714526.jpg -(4056074B / 3.87MB, 4656x3492) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Sad.
I feel sad.
I work too much.
I miss my Couch.
I have one day off a week.
I want to finish my flight/train/racing simulator.
I need medication.
I would enjoy more than 7 hours of sleep.
Isabella Clessleman - Sun, 25 Aug 2019 01:36:54 EST 2TrSkpKT No.531282 Reply
>I feel sad.

Don't be

>I work too much.

Work less

>I miss my Couch.

Get couch

>I have one day off a week.

Get two

>I want to finish my flight/train/racing simulator.

Do it

>I need medication.

Get it

>I would enjoy more than 7 hours of sleep.

Angus Seshpadge - Sun, 25 Aug 2019 13:55:31 EST hrWO3Ywm No.531296 Reply
Any way you can make some time to get eight uninterrupted hours of sleep every night?

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