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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated July 26)

always fucking broke

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- Fri, 07 Jun 2019 17:46:42 EST BItmAATh No.529762
File: 1559944002032.gif -(9725B / 9.50KB, 200x200) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. always fucking broke
tired of being hungry and alone all the time
goddamnit guess i'll get a second job
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Caroline Gicklebock - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 13:35:12 EST 8lHs4ugJ No.530057 Reply
>>530056
Bro just grow your own weed all you need. Kratom is pretty cheap and it works amazingly for me. I get like 500 grams for around 60 bucks. You can maybe get an addy script or a benzo or something. Just drink a lot of coffee or something. Beer is pretty cheap too I used to get yvingling bottles of beer like 13 bucks a 24 or 30 pack or something.
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Angus Worthingford - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 14:09:55 EST wJWwXGAC No.530076 Reply
>>529977
I repeatedly launch ships in 0xuniverse and then sell planets I find for internet moneys... and collect airdrops on /biz/... I make about $3k a month and am building up digital assets at the same time in crypto and other cryptogames that I play on another tab. I feel like I live in Jetsons world, just press button repeatedly... get moneys...

MAN LIVES HUMBLE DREAM LIFE 2019 EBOY ALPHA

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- Wed, 26 Jun 2019 03:08:15 EST giP7Of1w No.530013
File: 1561532895997.jpg -(44830B / 43.78KB, 720x960) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. MAN LIVES HUMBLE DREAM LIFE 2019 EBOY ALPHA
>P 1 OF 2
>Be me
>be 27>
>Good looking, gym at least every other day, personal luxury apartment gym shared with few people, fast alternate day and can work out infiinite times fasted
>27 yo, cripping anxiet disorder - monthly payments from the government, never had to work a minimum wage job and likely never will
>Have by far and large gotten better from diet and exercise tier newfound confidence, raw vegan diet with one - two cheat days per week, saving the maximum amount of my check via spending no more than ~$10 every other day when i eat
>Two side hustles that pay an average of ~100 per month
>Thanks again to the government, finally qualify for food stamps, will be getting roughly ~200 to fund my coming juice fast and ~200 every month for who knows how long for a food budget
>Total food and monthly surplus together added to take away money from hustling part time equates to ~500 to spend on literally whatever per month
>Biggest problem in life is wrecked credit score thanks to money owed from a family member and myself for an AT&T debt, oh and an addiction to cold brew coffee - which has the added beenefit of not negatively impacting my dental health - but doesnt cause sleep deprivation thanks to free benadryl from the doctor and provides an only minimal very much controlled anxiety thanks to my strict dietary rules
>Meet two young men who want to rent my apartment with me, currently paying ~600 for a half of a master bedroom, shared bathroom, have 2 other dudes in the living room + 1 other dude in the private room, we each pay ~6 each, private room guy pays ~12
~when new roommates offer to cover 4/5 of the total rent in exchange for them getting the master br and master bath to themselves, and i get the private room for the same as what i pay for a semi-private-at-best-shared-space, l feel all the envy for the man who currently rents the private room dissipate into the ether
~hysterically imploding in eboy
~now only have to follow up with the two men, if the plan with them falls through, then as an ABSOLUTE FINAL OPTION, i wont have it any worse than sharing a space with someone else for half the cost of living in the state i currently reside in
~anxiety disorder is genuinely crippling, although i am extrremely spoiled and am free to pursue higher education, also on the governments dime, for free, with private bedroom, shared actual living room - not cramped occupied living room bedroom, private bathroom included as there are two to my particular apartment
>apartment complex is actually a luxury property, located in the crime free part of the richest city in america
>apartment requires at least one resident to have a guarantor who makes ~100,000 k annually, thankfully have a smart and wealthy dad
>relationship with dad great, simple and to the point, but otherwise is a state of emotionally endless abuse w father frequently screaming at me and making demands and me not living up to his expectations
>Regardless my dad is very generous and takes me on multiple relaxing trips to see my grandma per month
>Since i am already definitively crazy, i also enjoy a very deep and permanently loving, selfish entitlement by being spoiled in a medley of ways in my life, grandfathers death didnt phase me, still talk to him in my head everyday
>one sister, who is bisexual, lliberal and uptight - has gotten on my case about not working before, but reverts fast to caring, humble, innocent young girl time after time
~sent wrong texts meant for best friend to her today, with homophobic abusive joke insults hurled at best friend, instead totality of the texts went to my ssister due to a simple google voice phone glitch
~sister happens to not even waste of breath being upset, proceeds to essentially ignore the entire problem, admit she is busy due to her high frequency work schedule
~not a problem in the world, i sit and i gloat over a California private bedroom and bathroom for ~600 a month, great new roommates who are doing very well financially., are mexican, 420 friendly, have to wait only til august to begin enjoying this, when we will all sign the lease
>Two vatos are a bit slow on getting back to me, but otherwise perfect friends and main one i talked with ( as i toured them both throughout my residence and introduced them to many ameniities) happens to teach boxing
>Great, active, wealthy roommates spoiling me, sister putting up with me no…
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Charlotte Chunninghood - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 20:52:20 EST bX01q69v No.530031 Reply
>>530013
>>530013
>>530013
>>530013

>> vegan diet with one - two cheat days per week
>>Two side hustles that pay an average of ~100 per month
>>cold brew coffee... free benadryl
>>ghetto facets of my life
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Scourge of the West - Thu, 27 Jun 2019 03:07:17 EST SnZZ66OV No.530036 Reply
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>apartment complex is actually a luxury property, located in the crime free part of the richest city in america
>apartment requires at least one resident to have a guarantor who makes ~100,000 k annually, thankfully have a smart and wealthy dad

I stopped reading there. At first I thought you sounded like you were full of shit. Then I got to the above quotes and I knew you were full of shit.

>An apartment complex is actually luxury complex. Because in America apartment can be luxury. Just like American sitcom Friends.
>If you live in "the richest city in america" you wouldn't even mention that your luxury property is crime free. Us rich entitled Americans in our luxury apartments don't even mention crime.

Oh and the words you use. All wrong.

crime free part of the richest city >>>nice neighborhood
requires at least one resident >>>person that lives there
have a guarantor >>>cosigner
~100,000 k annually >>>100g a year
smart and wealthy dad >>>rich parents

So from the words you do use I'm guessing you come from a place that speaks English as a secondary language because you were a colony at some point. Normally that would be Indian because 20% of all people are Indian. But there's a lot of Africanase crossover language so my money is on South Africa. So I'd say cool fantasy bro but it's not. Keep watching those Friends reruns.
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Angus Worthingford - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 14:04:46 EST wJWwXGAC No.530075 Reply
>>530074
You're wasting your fingers on that spoiled teetotaler who will never listen to advice or have a real life. They exist to be ripped off by dealers who could use the money, nothinf more.

Terrified of venting feelings to crush

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- Sat, 18 May 2019 22:11:03 EST 2zv7wmvM No.529451
File: 1558231863949.png -(493822B / 482.25KB, 720x630) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Terrified of venting feelings to crush
>be me, late 20s fuckwit kind of lost in life goals but successful enough for what I am
>have chick that has been my friend for coming close to 10 years
>honestly she's basically one of my two best friends
>unfortunately she lives overseas now
>had feelings for her for most of this time, never really could do anything cause she's always in relationships
>she's finally single and I have the chance to say something
>she's excited to be single and going through a sort of self-realization period of life
>want to say something but also want her to better herself and better know herself
>want to say something but terrified of fucking up our friendship
>want to say something but know it's just going to be rejection because I'm just a brother figure probably
>want to say something but we're at different roads in life now where I don't know if I could even be with her even if she wanted me
>been unable to really sleep because I wake up with my brain thinking about it
>maybe 24 hours of total sleep over the last 8 days

I'm so fucked up about just telling her. I feel pathetic for being like this as I near my 30s, but here I am.

I adore her. Talking to her feels natural and requires no effort. Calls with her make me feel at ease, and when I'm in a shit mood she just makes me feel better. I'm always interested in her opinion and am able to talk to her about things I can't even tell my other closest friend. Even when she says something that makes me want to claw my eyes out, I don't feel that way for long.

I know the answer is basically just tell her and face the potential rejection or don't and deal with it, but fuck. The fear of ruining a friendship is so severe to me.

Been doing a lot of drinking tonight because of this.
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Fucking Boggleshaw - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 05:20:16 EST dZnLdogk No.530068 Reply
>>530063
Maybe you just pick the wrong ones. You know how to actually initiate a relationship so you have an in. If you CANNOT get the better ones then maybe look at why? Or just continue being you and accept that's the price you pay. Relationships are probably the highest order want for most people but not a need.
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William Bickleludging - Sat, 29 Jun 2019 09:54:24 EST 2dpbGRKS No.530071 Reply
>>530063
this was a faliure from the start bro
meet more women irl, yes they will leave you eventually, everything is temporary
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Cornelius Greenshaw - Sun, 30 Jun 2019 07:16:29 EST dZnLdogk No.530094 Reply
>>530071
>NOT IF I DIE ON THEIR COUCH FIRST
Worked for my dad.

suicide safety

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- Fri, 21 Jun 2019 00:18:48 EST syDN5d68 No.529934
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Why do they give you guides on suicide safety like if you're feeling safe, remove the guns and sharp objects from your house.

don't make any fucking sense
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George Pedgehood - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 08:55:04 EST 07Vg7xvy No.529997 Reply
IT’S ALL A CONSPIRACY.

THEYS TRYIN TO GET YOU TO GIVE YER GUNS AWAYYYY.
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Jarvis Norringwug - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 05:17:28 EST d4fOgvZr No.530051 Reply
>>529942
You might as well say you don't think guns cause suicide.
It's not like bottles of Jim Beam and Glocks are parading around, stealing people's money and fucking their wives, and surprise surprise, that's not what people are claiming either.
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Caroline Gicklebock - Fri, 28 Jun 2019 11:26:39 EST 8lHs4ugJ No.530055 Reply
>>529934
They only care about drugs. Don't know why. Every single hot tip line is about drugs. Every poster about safety I see is for drugs. They only don't want blacks to have guns that's the only time they go after it.

fucking tired

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- Wed, 26 Jun 2019 11:54:13 EST q/2IPlbf No.530018
File: 1561564453696.jpg -(5339B / 5.21KB, 294x172) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. fucking tired
>always tired as fuck feeling
>need 12 hours of sleep or I feel like fucking shit
>eyes are completely black blue and red undereneat my entire eye lid going to my cheek
>always look sick dying dead pale and zombie like with cancer
>eyes sting and burn all day long as soon as I open my eyes
>bottom eye lid feels stinging and burning from being so tired
>if I get less than 12 hours of sleep I feel like fucking dog shit
>as soon as I wake up just roll over and try and go back to sleep no matter how long I slept
>always feels like I slept 2 hours
>my 7 hours of sleep is like a normal person getting 2 hours of sleep after doing 2 all nighters in a row
>get fresh air exercise diet fresh air sun and dont touch anything unhealthy drink tons of water no cigarettes
>get sick and headaches all day
>eyes always feel tired
>need to sleep 12 hours a day plus lay down for 4 hours 2 times a day and spend the rest of the day relaxing with 2 hours of having energy
>my eyes sting and burn 24/7 even when they're closed
>i am constantly tired it feels like im running on like 20% energy
>my eyes fucking STING underneath my eyelids like burning and shit and its completely black
>my bottom eye lid is like completely red blue black and purple going all the way to my cheek as far as it can literally always stinging and burning
>feel like shit any time i get out of bed
>i tried coffee and caffeine it will make me feel like 10-20% better and i even try chugging
>i tried going months and months without caffeine and it didnt help so trust me its not the caffeine
>I ALWAyS have to sleep 12 hours or try to and 11 hours is like the best for me
>ive tried sleeping 6 hours 7 hours 8 everything and that didnt work either so its not too much

I live in a really old shitty house and thats the only thing i can think of but I dont think ive ever seen anyone just completely look and feel like garbage and death just because they live in a shitty old house i dont think it should be this bad. For some reason without any fans or anything in my room it feels a lot worse but if i run the air conditioner on cooling mode I feel some of the symptoms go away and it feels a little better

for some reason the weidest thing about it that I cant figure out is alcohol completely solves it. like i need to drink a shit load and it only works a few hours before i crash but alcohol solves everything. my anxiety goes away my eye bags go away i feel awake i can actaully walk run play sports talk to people go out and i lose all my shitty feelings if i drink like 6 or 7 beers at least. Like i normally cant even take a selfie i look like shit my hairs a mess my eye bags are fucking huge i feel fucking tired i just want everything to be over with if i drink alcohol im like taking selfies my hair looks good my eye bags go away im like dancing around happy as fuck i go out and talk to people i do shit im like 100x more physically active.

if anyone reads all of this shit thank you. and before anyone says it I eat healthy, i go outside every day, moderate amounts of sunshine, fresh air, always get fresh air in my room, i ride my bike and walk, i eat vegetables and fruit every day, i always have water next to me and im drinking it. im worried my fucking water pipes are made of lead or some shit
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Eliza Channingwell - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 18:48:37 EST K974Ph6X No.530029 Reply
You probably have sleep apnea. Do a sleep study.

child abuse coverups

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- Mon, 24 Jun 2019 09:01:56 EST 3Xyqz7mz No.529980
File: 1561381316563.jpg -(147215B / 143.76KB, 960x500) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. child abuse coverups
>mom claims to have homeschooled me, basically was just doing drugs with some doctor who fucked her over later
>sister was also victim of abuse, but received lavish bribes from my mom (condo, cars, trips to Hawaii and Europe) long after the fact and always discredits my claims, talked shit about me to everybody at the art school she never used her degree from
>mom has pathological hatred towards men in a psychotic way, would often verbalize abuse me for being a man using sexually charged language, hit me, etc. I think it is rooted in previous sex work where she was abused and is transference towards the male gender but that's her problem, not mine, now.
>dad became pathologically depressed, had several heart attacks and became invalid and simple after these events
>because I wouldn't deny reality, denied any financial support (probably better to cut them out of my life anyway)
>classic scapegoat scenario with youngest child in dysfunctional family. despite being a 11-14 year old throughout this, receive bizarre blame for many events
>e.g, once punched mother while she was choking my sister, this story becomes me being "physically abusive"
>sister is now enthusiastic and psychotic, talks shit about me online
>mother still makes claim she "home schooled" me when the reality was she just used me for farm labor and did drugs with a pedophile doctor for about a year before my father divorced her and took me away
>father became invalid and simple from several heart attacks, depression during all of this, basically gives up on life
>spend the last two years of my teenage life taking care of him, cleaning up our apartment and working at diners/fast food as dish washer and short order cook
>thankfully my friends and community were very nice and gave me a quality education to make up for the time I had to spend enduring trauma instead of focusing on studying

And now today, I have to deal with lies about reality that I can prove aren't true as I meet people they've talked to first who know a bullshit story about my life. To top it off, when I've tried several times to pursue things individually online, they recruit "white knights" and flying monkeys to proactively attack me for some reason. I've tried to move on and avoid them, went "no contact" at the advice of a therapist for a while, but the problem pursues me.

It bothers me that reality is denied. You can prove reality is one way or the other, but people with social influence and money can mislead you faster than you can possibly respond to if you are a broke criminal who wasn't raised right and used drugs too long to cope with your depression and shitty life.

I'm trying to fight back but I need an unstoppable plan. I'm thinking of writing a song about it, but it has to be both catchy and also communicate clearly reality and what happened. I don't want them to react too strongly (i.e, destroy their lives) but I want them to back down, learn their lesson, grow up, leave me alone, as well as communicate to any third party the truth instantly and undeniably. Is this a crazy way to handle it or is there a better way?
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Graham Honeyfield - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 13:42:47 EST EONu1vEK No.530005 Reply
>>530000
I just want them to leave me alone and, you know, stop lying about me.
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Sophie Haddlenedge - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 15:07:46 EST JCATCBbz No.530024 Reply
>>530005
I think you're gonna be better off swallowing your pride and vanishing. Based on what you've said, these people seem utterly unswayable. I don't think they'll ever change and that's fine, some people don't change. Realize that it isn't your job to try to change anyone. People generally only change due to intrinsic desire not external circumstances. It's like addicts. At some level you care about these people, I think. Just dust yourself off and set out somewhere new maybe. I think it's either that or live with their deranged campaigning against you, knowing the truth yourself ought to be enough to keep you steady. You don't need their approval at all, that's why you shouldn't give a dick about what they do. Just do you. Good luck though I can't say it sounds easy.
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Oliver Crullerwater - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 15:16:18 EST dZnLdogk No.530025 Reply
>>529988
No, I am not sure how far you fled? If it was across town and
>when I've tried several times to pursue things individually online
Because if you "fled" did the above and were 3 miles away then no you're missing the point.

If these were separate and you were out of day to day life with anyone they know then fine. That's what I wanted to confirm. Which you've not done.

my parents ruined my life (YES its their fault, NO its not mine)

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- Sun, 23 Jun 2019 14:55:42 EST ZvKR6upj No.529957
File: 1561316142247.jpg -(232280B / 226.84KB, 1300x957) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. my parents ruined my life (YES its their fault, NO its not mine)
my parents fucking ruined my life and i wanna kill them I WANNA FUCKING KILL THEM

>trapped in shitty small town
>nothing to do
>nothing in my town but like 2 empty roads
>everyone here is in agonizing poverty
>everyone is mean and hostile
>the weather is always cold as fucking shit cant even go outside
>literally nothing to do no stores nowhere to go nothing around no one to do anything with
>cant even get a hobby because there's literally no one to do it with or any stores around
>everyone here just goes to work comes home sleeps does nothing
>if you want to go to a concert or something you have drive 6 hours one way, get a motel, spend 2 whole days driving, plan everything months ahead, spend 100s of dollars
>closest town is 2 hours away nothing but one mall and nothing to do
>closest major city is 7 hours away and everyones too poor to go
>no girls around just crazy mountain men hillbillies that only want to hang out with their cousins
>no beaches, concerts. amusement parks, get togethers, events, things to do, anything to see, attractions, anything to go
>literally the only thing is hiking and fishing and im not retarded so i dont want to do that
>nothing to do around at all
>literally nothing
>20-40 miles away from small villages with nothing in them
>nothing but shitty fucking FOREST FUCKING VILLAGES FUCKING VILLAGES
>all these fucking VILLAGES have fucking one main road in them with like 5 stores and a bunch of 2 story fucking buildings
>graduating was FUCKING 20 people
>my town has fucking NOTHING
>only people in my town are legit psych center hearing voices fucking scizohprenics
>always bitchy sarcastic rude as fuck snippy all the fucking time
>cut them off
>basically just sit in my room alone for months now
>poor as fuck
>born literally rural African poor
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Oliver Huzzlespear - Wed, 26 Jun 2019 11:59:27 EST 2tz018tx No.530020 Reply
>>529984

But maaaaaan it was GOD that literally forced him to take all those xanax and then go drive a car and get pulled over

Sad about the loss of a toxic relationship

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- Thu, 20 Jun 2019 16:29:06 EST vPXIYoJk No.529928
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So, two days ago, i had a discussion with my "ex", which is to say we weren't seriously dating athought she made it confusing to me.

She would sometimes break up over some weirds meltdowns with me, complain about everything wrong with me, be what it was, like if i acted too introvert one day in a vacation the beggining of the year, she complained that she feared i would act like this always, no matter how much i changed, its like she always simplified my actions toward the worst example possible, as if i had notes that ranged from 8 to 80, but in her mind, it was always gonna be a 8.

Then after a few days, she would miss me, call me to see her, we would have sex, and she would act as if we were serious again, even through its not been said, act really clingy for some time and repeat the process of "im no good, im bad, i don't really love you that much..."

She would constantly bring her ex up, like a idealized person who she wanted but couldn't have anymore, and always make me feel down like a lesser man.

most of her complaints about me was like a never ending hunger, she would make me feel bad about being overweight, when i lost weight she started complaining about my teeth, i fixed my teeth with braces, and she started complaining about me not growing facial hair, i would grow facial hair... i would never be perfect, she would compliment me for some time for changing then it would be another complaint.

Since we werent on something serious, she would tell me there was no problem in seeing other people for me, she wouldn't be jealous, except that if i started talking with anyone in a different way, she would melt down, get angry and make me stop talking with that person.

All the relationship i felt less, like everything i went that was bad, was just drama, every bad thing that happened to her was totattly justified as if only her problems mattered, it was always like this, i stoped talking about my problems cause it was like they weren't really problems.

On the last day, she told me she loved me as in caring for me, but didn't feel like she ever loved me in a romantic way, just liked staying with me and having sex with me, i felt like some kind of toy, she said if she broke up she would miss me again and end up calling me back, so i said we shouldnt be talking anymore for this to happen, since i felt i deserved someone who loved me the same way, so i blocked her.

Its the second day, i feel like utter shit, its like i feel scared, even through there isn't going to be anyone screaming constantly at me, making me feel bad and pressuring me to change, its like im now fucked up in the sense of not feeling worthy of anyone, like if i don't try to get her back i will end up alone forever, its like the stuff she said to me really makes me doubt myself now, its like utter shit.

I hate to admit that i stalked her facebook profile with another account already, and its like she is showing as hard as possible that she is single if it makes sense, giving that "im trying to look okay" vibe, as much as i hate it, i know she will probably just find some guy who orbits her and fuck him, she did that one time we "broke up for some weeks", and i feel like this justifies how expendable and not lovable i was, like i can just be exchanged.

I hate because everything makes me feel bad, like she made me fell less, now i can't feel anything else, and im scared i'll never feel enough, never find anyone, never get better, i just don't know how to deal with this bad dependency she gave me.
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Molly Dollerket - Sat, 22 Jun 2019 23:13:25 EST AMqxJpL6 No.529955 Reply
Im in the exact same situation at the moment
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Archie Blackbanks - Mon, 24 Jun 2019 16:53:30 EST vPXIYoJk No.529989 Reply
>>529932
Thanks for this, i didn't answer at the time cause i wasn't really that motivated to it, but it definitely helped me to read this.
Im overall feeling a lot better on general, you realize that those kinds of relationships drain a lot of your energy, you spend it all just being anxious, this weekend i was able to go smoke weed with friends, go to a pagan ritual out of pure curiosity (im not pagan nor believe that stuff, but im always curious about that reenactment stuff and it was fun), and spend a evening talking with one of my best friends who i didn't see for months.

Its not perfect, i do feel like i miss her still, i get this stupid sad feeling of "it looks like it was so easy for her to get away from me", didnt stalk her anymore tho since that won't help me get better, and i have this stupid feeling of "im not gonna be good enough for anyone to love me".

But those are overall fleeting feelings, they come and go now, i feel and leave them, they aren't as overpowering and bad as they were at first.
>>529955
I wish you the best and the strength to go through it too man.
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Phoebe Duvingville - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 15:52:30 EST vPXIYoJk No.530006 Reply
Just came back to tell, i did the same mistake again, stalked her, she seemed fine with some love interest already, i didnt feel bad as in jealously, i felt bad that i was angry, like angry at her because it seemed like she never cared about me and told lies, but mostly, angry at myself, for being so stupid as believing her, giving all my feelings to her, getting vulnerable to someone who screwed me so much, and worse, staying even after a lot of the abuse.

ended up messaging her on whats, told her that if she never felt really deeply in love, to delet that pic with me, since its not anything really significative, blocked her before she read it and gonna leave it as that.

Decide on doing the totally healthy not insane act of burning all the gifts she made in the beggining at the good phase, burned the drawing i did with her.

I honestly hope this was my first and only hard meltdown, but i got admit, it was liberating to burn all that stuff.

shit cat

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- Tue, 25 Jun 2019 10:30:11 EST M/Z3iIVQ No.530001
File: 5.jpg -(80085B / 78.21KB, 666x69) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. shit cat
what do i do if my mom has a shit cat? i want to get rid of it or anything ANYTHING this thing by itself is making my life a living hell i just want to stop on its head so bad and be done with it and throw it over in the neighbors lawn or something

>have shit cat
>literally the shittiest cat ever
>LITERALLY THE SHITTIEST CAT
>constantly runs around
>destroys furniture
>scratching and clawing the shit out of it
>shits EVERYWHERE
>shits right next to the litterbox
>literally shit 3 inches from the litter box
>parents just walk over the shit dont care
>I have to do everything for this stupid cat and I DONT EVEN WANT IT
>if my fucking parents dont wanna clean up its shit then they must not care if it comes up missing
>it pukes EVERYWHERE
>every fucking week i wake up to a new puke pile on a carpet
>TODAY ITS 2 FUCKING PUKE PILES
>it just shits everywhere
>literally there is shit ON THE STAIRS
>ON THE GOD DAMN STAIRS THERE IS JUST A GIANT PILE OF SHIT
>shits on the furniture
>literally anywhere you never know where you gonna find dried cat shit
>non stop fucking pukes
>makes that god damn puking coughin up a furball noise every 7 minutes
>literally every time its inside and i leave my room i just hear HNNG..HNNG..HNNG..HNNG..HNNG..HNNG..HNNG..HNNG for hours straight
>IT ALWAYS MAKING THIS GOD DAMN NOISE
>its ugly as shit pure black greasy looking cat covered in fucking scars all over deformed

like im not wrong in just getting rid of it and not saying anything right? like if they cared about their shit cat in the first place they would clean it up its fucking gross messes and shit. i dont even want it around and i have to do everything literally and as soon as i clean up one pile of shit there's another one. there is literally not ONE day where i wake up and theres not a pile of shit. LTIERALLY EVERY DAY I WAKE UP I KNOW IM GOING TO SEE ONE. 365 shits a year literally. clean the litter box, let it air out outside, fresh litter. SHITS RIGHT NEXT TO IT.

i had a rage out and told my parents im going to get rid of it so i really need to find a way to make it look like i didnt do it. if im going to be the only one cleaning up this dumb fucking retards shit then i dont see why the fuck they should even keep it if they just do nothing while it shits all over the house
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Sidney Nickleman - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 11:29:27 EST 67JhVSUT No.530002 Reply
So ruralfag, you get banned from here for spamming your shitty threads and your solution is to change your IP and come back here and spam another one of your retarded threads? Well at least you seem to be putting a little more effort into your trolling in these last few than your past threads.
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Scourge of the West - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 12:02:26 EST SnZZ66OV No.530003 Reply
Read first line.
>get rid of cat
Every line after.
>get rid of cat

It's not rocket science. It will either find someone who loves it or get run over by a bus. It's a cat.
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Priscilla Buvingfuck - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 12:18:14 EST kAEKpfyQ No.530004 Reply
Every time the cat poops, just move the poop somewhere your parents use a lot, like in their bedroom or on their favorite armchair. Don't clean it up, just move it. This will either train your parents to start picking up the poop or they will get rid of it.

Got fired from McDonald's for accidentally threatening to kill everyone

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- Sat, 27 Apr 2019 21:43:10 EST HIPgnEp+ No.529024
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Well guys, for the hundredth time in my adult life, I have fucked up.

The day before this I had a pretty bad seizure which I can sort of attribute to my complete lack of good judgement. I'm still feeling kind of fatigued from that.

About a week or so ago (idk, it's been a blur), someone at work said I looked like I could be a school shooter. A very shitty thing to say to someone, for sure. In response, I said, "Hell yeah, better yet, I could shoot up a McDonald's!". People seemed to think that was kind of funny, but looking back on it it was just nervous laughter and I was reading the room wrong (my enthusiasm just fucked me over again)... So since everyone thought it was funny, I just rolled with it. I said something like "It'll be the great McDonald's shooting of 2019!!". Everyone started asking, "Are you serious?" and I saying no. Then, someone said, "Yeah, I don't think he would do something like that...". I couldn't resist, and said "Yeah, you don't think."

Well the next day everyone avoided eye contact with me. I realized it was a very fucking dumb thing to say but I didn't think anyone actually took me seriously. A coworker pulled me to the side and asked if I had said that, and I just said, yes, in response to someone actually saying I would shoot up a school. She seemed ok with that answer and I went about my day. The day by normally, aside from the fact that most people wouldn't speak to me. I left an hour early because I wasn't feeling good (had a seizure two days before). Turns out later that day they called the damn cops. Everyone was terrified that I was gonna come in there and kill everyone. No cops came and talked to me at all, they must have just realized it was some kid messing around, but anyway, I got fired

Didn't even know I had gotten fired until a few days after the fact; told one of my managers that I needed a few days off to recover from the seizure so I figured that was the reason they weren't calling me

Nope I got fired and getting fired from a fucking McDonald's for threatening to kill everyone isn't a good thing to put on a resume

Honestly, I only have one job I can put on a resume at this point, and I'm 20, not in school

I broke down crying when my boss told me I was fired, I really loved that job and the people. I can't believe I did something so stupid and I can't believe I left with everyone hating me. My boss seemed sympathetic and said I really should get my mental and physical health together before I work anywhere else. I agree, but I'm too old to still have to be dealing with this shit

So not really sure what to do now. I'm so embarrassed. I've just been smoking weed and playing video games for the past week, not leaving the house for anything. I don't think I've even showered

Life really sucks sometimes :(
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Cyril Blimmlewater - Fri, 21 Jun 2019 02:09:03 EST d4fOgvZr No.529940 Reply
>>529889
Dude you are a full blown turboretard and the way you ended your post almost made me piss myself laughing. The operative word in his post was "disgruntled", and to hammer you over the head (though that probably won't make things easier for you) there is a gradient between satisfied and homicidal, and "disgruntled" sits somewhere on that gradient, possibly not quite next to "homicidal".

I can picture you flailing your arms, shouting that "you never know, man! He's probably a psycho!" as legions of disgruntled people you've called the cops on or otherwise elected to treat as if their social awkwardness or poor mood made them a biochemical weapon lose more and more of their faith in humanity. At least you didn't paint a target on your back by getting them fired.
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Rebecca Nickleworth - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 09:15:37 EST E508VR5x No.529998 Reply
>>529940
you’re a semantics-obsessed bitch.

DISGRUNTLED workers shoot up workplaces ALL THE DAMNED TIME.

I know what I said, you know what he said. OPs firing was justified. Oh noooo someone was being a dick to him so he threatened to shoot up the place BUT ONLY AS A JOKE U GUIIIISE.

There’s no excuse for that kind of shit. His firing was justified.

also a_wizard is a fag
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Awe' !!Bwteoy2D - Tue, 25 Jun 2019 09:50:02 EST l1NmIjLu No.529999 Reply
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>>529998
I don't think it's justified, but if I were OP I would still be willing to make it so.

i may be an egocentric

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- Sun, 23 Jun 2019 06:53:06 EST 2sWwtUKX No.529956
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so thats not good right?
but what do i do about it?
how do i find a balance between what i may be right now and self commiserance?
"what i may be", lmao, i'm still in denial, thats ego talking lemme tell you
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Awe' !!Bwteoy2D - Sun, 23 Jun 2019 17:43:26 EST l1NmIjLu No.529960 Reply
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>>529956
dude we are fucking hillbillies of the internet, dumb it down a notch, will you?
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Simon Becklenuck - Sun, 23 Jun 2019 18:24:02 EST PeWrdLKr No.529963 Reply
>>529960
Nah, you're just too burned out to realise that actually OP is the struggling one. His word salad doesn't even include 100% real words on the ingredient list.

At the end of the day OP ego doesn't mean shit if it doesn't translate to skill and even if it does, other people have to recognise it. If you're living the high life as a worthless sham maybe try to become that good. The great thing about actual competence is you learn how fallible and how incomplete even a master is at all but the most simple of arts. It grounds you.

If you think you are the best shit then the cure is to actually improve as a person and become smart, skilled, perceptive, whatever enough to see just how short you fall. Reality should do the rest.

I kissed a boy when drunk

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- Sat, 15 Jun 2019 22:48:12 EST mx986IvR No.529877
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Gf cheated on me, took her back, still felt like a bag of crap...so...

Girlfriend went to visit friend

Got drunk, hung out with nonbinary friend and played video games, a distant autist girlfriend jelly, posessively jelly told them off and they slept upstairs.

kissed my nonbinary friend after consoling them.

I feel like shit for "cheating".

The half of me wants to love my girlfriend. Be like "there I did something"

My other half says "just let her go, you havent felt that good about anyone since you kissed trap friend"

TL;DR

<Mr.Brightside plays from Walkman>
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Fuck Grimgold - Mon, 24 Jun 2019 13:02:57 EST dZnLdogk No.529981 Reply
>>529979
All three jobs are part time? If you can be stressed about not working and have three jobs that is a bit crazy unless they're a shift each or something.

I am still confused as to how you can be out of money on three jobs unless it's the girlfriend who doesn't work. Therapy might help if you have issues. Both you and your girlfriend want to make sure you actually understand why you cheated and that the problem is resolved though. Just an opinion but I think dashing maniacally from one thing to another without stopping to think might result in more trouble than it solves.

Realizing i don't really like myself that much

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- Wed, 19 Jun 2019 17:18:52 EST PJL4xgV4 No.529923
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So, I woke up one day and realized I am alone and unable to meet new people because...I'm a pretty blank person.
I don't have any real passion, hobbies (i've quit everything i've tried, art, music, writing) or motivation really. I feel my mind is slow. And finally as is tradition, completely unable to start anything romantic. In fact, the closest thing I had to that was a friends-with-benefits situation in my workplace. A tiny office. It was okay. But we're both fucked, for different reasons. I wanted more, she wanted less, came to a point neither of us knows what they wants, and I've placed myself in a place of dependency. and I feel I am no longer sought after. I no longer "shine". Funny, you could say that maybe was the trigger. I can't push this person out of my life, or have the time i need to heal(she's right there.) I forever feel a fuckboy with some sort of heightened friendship to it, and while there is something like that...Well.
I'm not sure i can be friends of anyone to be honest.

Bottomline, I mean if I can't hold myself value, I'll always be alone - the bandaid was(is?) nice though.
I'm already seeking psychiatric help. Not sure if it'll help but whatever.
I workout moderately. Jogs every now and then, a swim. I'm pretty broke.

I'm just trying to figure out what to do. And I don't know what. It's kinda killing me.
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Charlotte Turveydale - Sat, 22 Jun 2019 17:01:37 EST l1NmIjLu No.529954 Reply
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>>529923
you have placed your trust in things that are not worthy of your trust. also you should know that almost everything outside isn't worthy of your trust - your energy, your time, your participation and engagement. Even though you must eat, food isn't trustworthy, water, air, social environments, people around you for the most part although you must still show respect and compassion because you depend on them for your own wellbeing, choices and decisions that don't deliver etc. Only thing left is counting on yourself or if it's real tight just meditation. Because most of us cannot trust our own thoughts so we must still our mind to get a relief from the cage of the thought energy we picked up

this could get me banned on this forum, but self reliance is the solution. Just don't let ego get the better of you, stay humble and respectful.

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/7509935-fasting-by-mevlana-jelaluddin-rumi-1207---1273-english-version
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kqFqG-h3Vgk

How to talk to women who are obviously interested in you

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- Sun, 02 Jun 2019 07:12:02 EST 836iMfNs No.529690
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I am not enthusiastic. I know that is a strange way to open a post but hear me out. I am not enthusiastic enough to have no awareness of body language. I can tell when women are interested in me or whether they are closed off and uninterested. However, I have no idea how to start a conversation with them or even look back at them once I know they are interested. I freeze up, get incredibly anxious and then don't look at them at all. I proceed to avoid interacting with them and flee in terror like a frightened child. How can I coach myself to be more confident? I am not sure whether I have a fear of rejection or more of an impulse to avoid being seen as a creep. I know it is illogical to think I will e seen as a creep if the girl is very obviously open to talking with me, but I cannot help shaking the feeling regardless.
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Molly Pevingbury - Wed, 12 Jun 2019 00:03:17 EST aVoxNjSR No.529832 Reply
>>529751
>However, as soon as I find out they're single (which is rare) I turn into an uncharismatic, distant asshole. I swear I don't even do it on purpose, it's like a reflex.
OP here. Are you me? I have really bad trust issues and was bullied as a child but I'm not sure that I would pin it on that completely. I have a pathological fear of rejection when it comes to relationships. It takes a really unique and beautiful girl, one that I'm afraid I'll miss out on if I don't do anything, to get me to ask someone out. Even then I miss out on opportunities for that all the time.
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Doris Saffingstock - Wed, 12 Jun 2019 10:32:28 EST 1iiQ8ACG No.529837 Reply
>>529751
Same. I didn't get bullied though but I got rejected a lot (not just romantic interests) and didn't know how to deal with it properly. Got depressed but eventually got out of it only to make the exact same mistakes again.
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Samuel Hazzlepack - Sat, 22 Jun 2019 02:44:38 EST aVoxNjSR No.529947 Reply
>>529837
I know that feeling. I have two opposite dispositions from one another at any given time. Coldnessand indifference to anyone but myself or a naive love of life and desire for acceptance that never ends up materializing. There’s no middle ground because I’m either jaded or not jaded, and one inevitably leads me crawling back to the other.

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