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420chan is Getting Overhauled - Changelog/Bug Report/Request Thread (Updated July 26)

Need to go to humans again

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- Tue, 14 May 2019 23:31:15 EST IXv7xCjg No.529371
File: 12.jpg -(80085B / 78.21KB, 666x69) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Need to go to humans again
Please tell me when I'm returning to human civilization?

I live in Burbank, CA and everybody around me is a robot except for myself. I often get frightened and terrorized on a casual level.

When am I going to see a nice Doctor lady and recover my skinny body and be happy?
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Martin Simmlenack - Thu, 30 May 2019 08:11:00 EST USUZpST+ No.529651 Reply
no, none of us random strangers on the internet can help you. sorry friend.
Basil Gankinham - Thu, 30 May 2019 09:11:34 EST hiKxQg3e No.529652 Reply
Anon, Burbank isn't so bad. You just need to take a bus with Ray Charles to Long Beach now and then, I think, or just move there. Go find some latinos having a barbecue in a park and have some fun. I actually had this really cool Asian buddy who worked in IT and smoked weed who was from there. Ignore the fuckheads. I lived round Disneyland for a long time, yes, you have to essentially party indoors and hide from the gestapo, but you can make it.

Get you some cheap ass meat from a ranchero carniceria at a Mexican supermarket and hork it down every day.

Does it ever get better

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- Fri, 31 May 2019 11:41:11 EST Eriz6IpE No.529661
File: 1559317271853.jpg -(45328B / 44.27KB, 500x371) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Does it ever get better
I dont know what to do anymore guys, it seems like life just keeps getting worse. First my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer and now my childhood dog has started refusing to eat and is losing alarming amounts of weight and it seems like he doesnt have much more time to live. Im trying to find a place of my own to live as well since being kicked out of my gfs house but have gotten nothing but disappointment as every place i lve gone to look at has fucked me over and rented out to other tenants before being able to fill out applications. My job is grueling and dangerous as sometimes i work in 140 degree attics and have to crawl through disgusting claustraphobic spider filled crawl spaces, all for barely above fast food money. I just feel like life is an endless string of shit and i want out. Any advice is appreciated thanks for letting me vent.
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Basil Brerringback - Fri, 31 May 2019 23:53:18 EST Eriz6IpE No.529674 Reply
I do hvac install/service and solar installs so its not quite as volatile as new construction but ive heard it definately slowed down when the economy crashed in 08. im trying to get out of it before i fuck up my joints too much and crawl through too much rat poison though, hence trying to work for the state.
Sidney Claycocke - Sat, 01 Jun 2019 10:02:12 EST Nocxtt2B No.529679 Reply
normally i'd say that the idea of life as progressing upwards all the time is a myth and it will always have ups and downs and there will always be happy moments and painful losses, but yours has been crap for quite a while so yes, it will get better, absolutely. you have had a string of bad luck, it won't keep going, every now and then somone somewhere in the world throws a coin 50 times and it lands heads 50 times in a row. that's you, that's just what happened.
Basil Febberfoot - Sun, 02 Jun 2019 07:39:39 EST +s+a5IEh No.529691 Reply
Realistic though realistic enough that you can see OP's situation almost definitely will improve.

It don't always progress upwards but at the same time, if you're in a shit situation and put in the right work it almost always improves overall over time. There will be ups and downs. Of course some people can flip a coin and land heads 50 times in a row but at that point there's still half a chance it'll be tails next time. And if there isn't perhaps the coin should be changed. Someone will never ever get that tails but they won't know until they stop tossing the coin.

I prefer to look at it this way though: Do the best you can to wring what you can out of life. There's no way you can justify not making the best attempt you can at life. And actual best not, stupid misdirected effort but an attempt using the best of your knowledge and ability to make the most out of it. Of course you need to work out what you want and how to get it and be prepared to change your mind but it's just hard to justify not fighting.


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- Sun, 26 May 2019 02:19:01 EST hiKxQg3e No.529556
File: 1558851541957.jpg -(89275B / 87.18KB, 700x933) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Insomnia?
So, lately, I have been working late in an entertainment-related vocation. The big issue is, I often find myself drinking coffee and energy drinks and chain smoking to keep up, among with regular stims. I can knock myself out usually with dryl but it hangs over to the next day so I tend to avoid it.

I can drop the hard stims easy. But the caffeine and nicotine are hard. Can /qq/ provide any tips on sleep hygiene for carnies?
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Reuben Giffingdale - Sat, 01 Jun 2019 08:05:14 EST dIFWQvnm No.529678 Reply
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oh wow, it sure is extra summer in here.
like global warming happened and this site was just a warm, moist beach towel waiting to be fucked. but this was no ordinary fuck. this is the fuck of an age.

rip 420chan

I'm getting bullied at work

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- Fri, 10 May 2019 18:26:21 EST Z2Vs3t8e No.529303
File: 1557527181104.jpg -(77156B / 75.35KB, 600x600) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. I'm getting bullied at work
As the description says. I am being bullied at work. It's a pretty much non stop thing from a certain employee. If he doesn't completely ignore me he is trying to find some way to insult me.
A little back story. I work construction. My Dad is my foreman. I understand in this type of environment people banter. Especially to the bosses son. People talk shit. It's mostly friendly. Hell I even do it. We all laugh. This one particular person takes it too far though, and is straight up venomous with it. I've tried standing up for myself. He just knocked my hard hat off my head. I've tried talking to management, and they have talked to him about it, and he will ignore me for a day, or two, but then it's right back to his same old shit.
I'm at the point where I'm completely fed up with it. I want to sneak up behind him when he is not paying attention, and drive my hammer into his temple, or push him off a 40ft roof when he isn't paying attention, and isn't tied off.
I've tried to get him fired. It doesn't work. He's been with the company for over 10 years, and I've only been there about a year, and a half. I want to just ignore it, but I can't anymore. I'm at the point where I literally want to murder this man.

Is there anyway I can talk to this dude man to man, and maybe try to get him to ease up a bit? How would you guys go about this situation?
I realize this is something I'm going to need outside help with, because I've been dealing with it for a very long time now, and I'm literally starting to think about hurting some one. Which I don't want to do.
Any advice would help. I will try to answer questions.
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Archie Bunstock - Sat, 01 Jun 2019 02:01:50 EST 0DOizHVp No.529675 Reply

just pull him aside when your boss and be like, "look bud I didn't want to rip you a new ass but you gotta cut back on it, there's the ribbing but this is just a bit too far man, look I don't think you mean to be a dick but you're going at it with jabs and I'd appreciate it if we can have a healthy and safe work environment."
Archie Bunstock - Sat, 01 Jun 2019 02:04:23 EST 0DOizHVp No.529676 Reply

being the bigger man often requires being the smarter man, and if his dunce rock-filled head doesn't figure it out, just shrug it off, once his peers see he's being a dickmeat to the new guy, they'll shun him.

it's like how women work but a hell of a lot more insecure.

Best cities to run to?

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- Tue, 28 May 2019 17:16:41 EST ecrYFDK0 No.529621
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I got like at least a half dozen felonies, cops got my dealer stash, out on bail with lawyers saying bout some years in prison.

Best city to run to? This shit went down at the oregon cali border so I gotta leave here, start fresh.

I got a few bands, I think about finding migrant farm work or cooking more dmt living life underground on the run.

My first thought is Denver cause it's the hype lately, also thought about Arizona and new Mexico, maybe Florida cause they behind in the Weed game.

But for real, I need more advice. I've been a rainbow family dirty kid hitch hiker for fun but now it's turning into some survival shit. I've been learning different busking instruments, got me a water filter and backpack solar panel, and eating like a maniac to put on weight.

Does anyone else have experience doing this? I worry about shit like what happens if I need a hospital, but I try to be proactive about my health.

I've considered Mexico or Belize, but I know if I got arrested in one of them third world jails I'd be fucked. Maybe it's worth it tho, what with their lower cost of living. I know some Spanish.
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Wesley Bigglewell - Fri, 31 May 2019 01:03:36 EST Lyto4SAa No.529657 Reply
they arent going to extradite over some stupid charge it has to be super serious for them to extradite across the country
Ebenezer Bishbury - Fri, 31 May 2019 09:46:57 EST JCATCBbz No.529660 Reply
Except you're wrong. They don't have to extradite him, all they have to do is communicate information and wham bam it's like he's still living where the offense occurred. Bail jumping is serious enough for that. Drug dealing and twelve felonies is serious enough for that. They don't appreciate assholes like OP. They tend to take it as a personal slight.
Martha Tillingville - Fri, 31 May 2019 17:05:02 EST sVY0CjDe No.529668 Reply
>6+ felonies for drug dealing.
>Fleeing on bail.
>Almost certainly priors.

Oh yeah, they'll spend the 4 pennies worth of gov't money to go after him.


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- Wed, 29 May 2019 00:44:46 EST Y/IBjRot No.529636
File: 1559105086998.jpg -(44068B / 43.04KB, 640x640) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. moving
>27 y/o male
>have lived between 2 suburban communities in the midwest for all but 1 year
>Recently moved to the biggest city in the state (Milwaukee)
>Have been living on my own since I was about 19
>Haven't really done much with my life except be a drunk asshole
>Have never known much about life outside this area

My cousin keeps telling me to move to chicago and work for this mega corporation down there doing manual labor with him. He claims its very easy and I will start at $25 and be making bank by the time I retire. He claimed a guy he knew recently retired after 30 years in his mid 50's and is getting 6k a month pension.

I currently work in landscaping for $15 an hour. It has its moments, but i generally make jack shit and half of the coworkers either don't work or are scummy rednecks.

I'm highly considering gearing my life towards doing this by early next year. I'd commute every day and then move when the lease is up. Its only about 3 hours away from where I grew up but I know only 1 person in the area besides an uncle that I rarely talk to outside of family events a few times a year. My entire life i've only known this area and know almost nothing about chicago, I've been their maybe 15 times when I was younger and would go to shows or parties. I'd basically be leaving my entire life behind, my friends, my family, my brothers, my entire social circle.

It seems appealing because I want to become a new person with no reputation.

I need a fresh start. Has anybody here ever done anything like this, the cities or areas you moved between do not matter. and do you have any pointers?
Scourge of the West - Fri, 31 May 2019 07:26:24 EST hUCy7yd4 No.529659 Reply
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Quit being a pussy. Your cousin is doing you a solid by helping you get out of manual labor and into a cushy desk job making over 30% more. Commute at first. It will make you appreciate the place you get in the city even more.

Opportunities like this should be taken immediately. Your cousin could get fired or rage quit any day. Take the job now. Quit being a pussy and use ths opportunity.

selfish scumbag problems

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- Wed, 29 May 2019 18:29:28 EST Poj5M2Bi No.529645
File: 1559168968643.jpg -(5886142B / 5.61MB, 5184x3456) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. selfish scumbag problems
hey qq

I'm married. My wife and I have been through a lot, but we married young (me 23 her 21) and we've each cheated on each-other. At the end of the day, yeah, we each love the other one and we've made a beautiful life together. When it's good, it's great -- but when it's bad, it's absolute shit. I couldn't ever see myself with anyone else, though.

That was until I met the literal girl of my dreams.

Ever since I was a youngin, I always had these incredibly vivid dreams of this one particular woman. I had the sensation that she was out there in the world, somewhere, and that my dreams were clues on how to find her. Once I got married, I gave up hope that she was out there. I met her at work (we are both nurses) when she changed from one department into mine. We immediately hit it off and the chemistry that we have together is unlike anything I've ever experienced with another person. We are absolutely identical, 100% a carbon copy of the other one. She's six years my senior, but I have never identified as my own age anyways (she initially thought I was her age, if not older).

I found out my wife was cheating on me (99.9% certain) and so I left her for a short while and lived with dream girl. Things were great, we get along wonderfully and we half-started to plan a life together. I eventually ended up back home since my wife might be pregnant, and since there's a lot of complicated tangling in our relationship that would make a clean divorce impossible.

Now that I'm back home, I'm stuck between my two worlds. I want to be with dream girl, I feel that we're FATED to be together (there were a lot of odd circumstances that led to us meeting that cannot be explained otherwise) and I feel that I met my wife only to meet the dream girl (again, a long chain of strange events that I cannot explain any other way that led to me working where I work and doing what I do). I love my wife, but I feel that she may even be happier with the person that she was 99.9% cheating on me with. My wife knows I was with dream girl, and doesn't seem to care too much saying that she's just happy i"m back and that she doesn't want to be with anybody else. As much as I want to be with dream girl, my married life is so comfortable and easy that it would feel like a giant cosmic fuck-up if I left.

So what would you guys do in my circumstance?
David Gibblelock - Thu, 30 May 2019 03:00:16 EST h0psPJz3 No.529649 Reply
Sounds like a tough pill to swallow. You moved out with the woman of your dreams after your wife cheated on you and she might have got pregnant with hopefully your baby so you've gone back to her and are just going to ignore that whole period because apparently you've now fixed the relationship and things have gotten comfortable again. It's bullshit. Easier than sorting your life out.

Look at the language you use. You ended up back at home. You didn't choose to go back? She might be pregnant? Do you want a kid? Are you sure it's yours? Do you want to raise your child on that household?

I just dont know how you could ignore the big red flag that is that you're apparently in love with another woman.

Just dont do it man. The kid wont realize you're not together until he or she is 6 or 8. Go be happy. Take the time and untangle the webs
Albert Murdham - Thu, 30 May 2019 14:03:22 EST Del7dYn8 No.529654 Reply
You sound like a idiot manchild so just do whatever you want. It doesn't matter.

My future gf drinks a lot. How can I help?

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- Wed, 08 May 2019 17:20:28 EST Xt27MPsk No.529281
File: 1557350428711.jpg -(10679B / 10.43KB, 231x250) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. My future gf drinks a lot. How can I help?
She's almost perfect
> Small tits, beautiful and very nice
> Not an immigrant.
> Not a feminist or SJW (although she's a socialist, a light feminist)
> She's very dominant and sadist, and doesn't want to fuck; so we are completely compatible in this aspect.
> She has a career and she is very professional
> She is not self-centered or an egoist.
> She is a former Karate fighter.

>She drinks a lot, and has an ambivalent attitude towards drugs. When she drinks she becomes aggressive and tries to beat me or beat someone. I'm very weak to fight her (I would never, why would I?) or defend her.

How can I help her? I never drink, and I'm not able to handle this situation. Normal people drink, and some normal people drink a lot socially.

Is it ok to have BDSM if she has drunk too much? I could be raping her if she is not able to consent, even if the sexual act was like this (for reference): she squeezing my balls, urinating on me, whipping my ass or slapping my face. (you know, standard sadism/humiliation things).

I once rejected her advances because she couldn't walk straight. She felt bad and threw several punches at me, and then started crying. I felt bad and she felt bad as well. But it looks like if we are going out, it's not unusual for her to become more or less wasted.

The fact that our relationship will follow a modern BDSM dynamic (not a traditional BDSM dynamic), makes it harder for me to try to help her (I'm submissive).

Please advice me something. I wish I could spend my whole life with her, but sometimes I'm afraid of her.
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- Mon, 27 May 2019 14:55:30 EST hiKxQg3e No.529592
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If obsessive people that follow you around but love you are fans, but stalkers that hate you aren't, what are they? Just serial killers or something? Like, why be obsessed with someone you hate but don't personally know? Has anybody ever dealt with a problem like that?

Why would somebody constantly monitor your posts, social media and everything else, possibly even being the suspicious person following you for a few blocks in the city? Is it just some kind of gangstalking/harassment schtick I am enduring?

Example: Person A leaves creepy comments all over one social media site, then similar creepy comments appear from another user on another. Suspected sock puppets show up everywhere, and they never fail to interrupt with something cringey at the moment you are having a good time.

Should I just ignore it or should I like, DOX them and tie their wiener in a knot?
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Doris Nullysork - Wed, 29 May 2019 12:56:36 EST +s+a5IEh No.529642 Reply
You keep flicking between "I don't use social media these guys stalked me over stuff in person" and "the stalking in person stopped it is just social media" and I'm confused. Or are you actually just inconsistent with yourself (and us) about how much you actually use bits of the internet and social media and how this works?

Have you sought much treatment for your PTSD? Your thoughts present as a jumble, not entirely paranoid but you're obviously still very bitter and upset about things which may not even be happening now. It seems to me that you are having trouble processing the now, if you're "playing" with trolls to the point someone can recognise your style cross board then you are not good at this internet thing. I imagine both in real life and on line bad people can tell how vulnerable you are and zoom in to kick you. I'm not sure you're stalked as much as easy pickings for shitheads and actually going out your way to signal that. They tell stories and stuff but I think you're just someone it's easy to justify picking on and so negative people who want an excuse to be shitheads go do that.

I would prioritise therapy/treatment and better understanding and processing your issues. A lot of this is about you. I am not sure we can really help you with these people, or avoid it unless you change your approach to conflict and who you choose to reach out to entirely. Good luck.
Nigel Bittingville - Wed, 29 May 2019 16:15:49 EST hiKxQg3e No.529644 Reply
I AM in therapy, silly, but to be honest, it does nothing.

I thought I was clear about it but I'm stalked in both. The in-person stalking stopped in a definitive way when I changed cities but I still am pretty paranoid when someone follows me. Do you understand that?

I basically can't use a few major social media websites because of harassment though. I don't really find your comment useful, just condescending and pedantic, to be honest. It's okay, I understand if you have contempt for me, just don't try to help me if you do.
Fanny Bardville - Fri, 31 May 2019 14:37:41 EST +s+a5IEh No.529665 Reply
Therapy only works if you engage with it though. If it doesn't work find a new therapist. It won't work if you don't let it. If you don't believe it'll work then it will never work.

People are assholes and you don't deserve this, but you are the only person who can stop it. There's no magic cure just looking at the behaviors you engage in that draw this aggression. Being so twitchy and defensive and projecting negativity doesn't help though. Ironically it actually just scares off people who mean well while aggressors can see you even more clearly. A lot of people engage in maladaptive behavior as a result of trauma. It doesn't make it "your fault" but it's on you to fix. Life isn't fair but it doesn't mean you're powerless.

You are pretty close to drawing my contempt but I've known people who were magnets for shit like you and most of them weren't bad people at all. They just had such a run of luck they were too damaged to not continue creating more misfortune. Of course that probably does make me condescending but the advice is genuine, there's a little bit of "been there" though not to the same extent in it though. Don't mistake me for someone who doesn't know how it is. I am definitely a pedant but that's my job. However I'm offering genuine advice and help. To speak with total honesty: your original ideas were dumb and were liable to blow up in your face, you really think your attempts to dox someone wouldn't result in either total apathy or someone finding you and doxxing you for trying to recruit a personal army? I remember when that shit was more than 5% effective but that's over a decade ago. Ignoring it was the better option but as long as you always see shadows your entire life will be negatively affected.

>trying so hard but not being able to work it out

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- Tue, 28 May 2019 18:18:36 EST Lyy5db9O No.529623
File: 1559081916528.jpg -(3235332B / 3.09MB, 2176x4608) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >trying so hard but not being able to work it out
Been in relationship for almost 10 years, have been trying so hard to get her to be more considerate of my feelings. But she doesnt give a shit and then feels bad when i start to feel bad which makes me in turn feel bad for desiring her affection. Today, i tried to initiate something sexual and although it was without success i was glad that we tried. This is the point were at. I told her i was glad we at least tried and she didnt believe me and started being sad again. I cant do this anymore. Im trying so hard to make this work. How can she not even be visibly glad to see me after we havent seen eachother for a week. I'm always there for her no matter how stressed she is. I cant take this anymore, i just want to feel like i matter for once too again. Ive been neglecting what i want for years and it feels like im throwing the best years of my life away to something that will never stop being toxic no matter how hard i try. Idk I'm ranting, i dont know what to do. I dont want to break up with her, i dont know why, its not like my life will get better without her and its not like i enjoy life or feel good enough to be valuable to someone anyway

Dont know if anyone will/should actually respond to this, just had to vent. Pic random
Martin Bovingford - Tue, 28 May 2019 19:28:38 EST jnas4L6T No.529624 Reply
i got out of a 5 year relationship that was a lot like what you described, and while it was difficult and scary, i flourished and grew and felt like a monumental weight was lifted off me. what you describe is not healthy or positive for either of you and i think you are starting to realize it.

Meeting new people

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- Tue, 28 May 2019 02:16:52 EST Je9nm5wp No.529612
File: 1559024212337.jpg -(64531B / 63.02KB, 750x422) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Meeting new people
When I was in high school, I had a close group of a few friends and stuck it out. Then in college, I was put in a situation where it's almost impossible to fail socially and every one wants to be your friend, especially if you drink and do drugs.

Now I graduated and I moved to a suburb 20 minutes outside of this giant city. Living alone and I'm really socially starved, because I never learned the proper etiquette for meeting people in real life and not at college.

Can you just go to bars/venues by yourself and look for other people by themselves and try to socialize? I don't really care about looking like a loner, I can just never come back to that bar/club again, but is going places alone a thing at all?

I thought I was really done with my aspie stage but I'm just going right back to the way I was. I went from going to parties every weekend and hanging out with a huge group of friends every day to having absolutely no one to talk to.

I'm hoping once I get a job I'll make some friends there but I've never had a job where I hung out with the people I worked with, but maybe that's just cause I never had a reason to try.
William Sinkinfutch - Tue, 28 May 2019 05:07:37 EST beWRfxik No.529614 Reply

Have you tried looking for things like meetup groups? You can find some groups based on your interests and attend their meetings which is a great way to meet people.

As for meeting people at a workplace, it all depends on who works there. You could get lucky and find some cool people at your work or it can go the other way and everyone could be boring or just not what you're looking for. Or you could meet 1 or 2 people that become your friends.

But really check out my meetup suggestion. That was the best way to met new people for me. Especially when you don't know where to start.

Best of luck man. You'll find some people to hang out with.
pl0x !!S5n/dBdH - Tue, 28 May 2019 13:23:03 EST mx986IvR No.529618 Reply

have you ever just tried hanging out at the library?

seriously, just bring your laptop and play a popular game.
Fuck Fobberpotch - Tue, 28 May 2019 14:18:31 EST erBG8XSy No.529619 Reply
i recognise the feels, op. I hate the way society is sometimes because of it. Part of me wants to start a commune or something similar. Just to live in a different way, a way that's more social. Bars and clubs and restaurants aren't for loners. Meetup/tinder/whatever internet-to-meatspace social service starts with admitting that you are a loner which also just sucks. But somehow other people do it without going in to the woods and restarting society all over again. Somehow they just roll on from high-school to university to work without dropping out socially, going from one social situation to the next, forging bonds, having things to talk about. I'm in a situation where I don't always see a way forward and there's definitely no way back. I get stuck and lost too. Half the time I feel too nervous and anxious to even start a conversation because I know I can't hide the fact that I feel pretty shit inside. IF I can't even be ok with myself how can I be ok with others. Meditation helps a little, a little bit of courage can also just go a long way.
If you've got your drinking under control why don't you just find a pub-crawl or something, shits usually fun and there's no pressure to ever see those people again, unless you want, you can even pretend to be someone completely different if you want to...

Heavy depression

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- Tue, 28 May 2019 05:00:13 EST beWRfxik No.529613
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I thought I was over this but apparently not. This time it's worse. Before I didn't even realise how good I had it as I could escape from this feeling and keep it tame but this time around I am now married, have no job, we live with my parents and I am using a low dose of opiates (I buy poppy seeds and make the 'tea') just to get through the day and get basic things done. I am 30 years old and have nothing to show for it.
I don't want to go on medication again (zoloft) but it looks like it may be the only way to stop the suicidal thoughts. I have been trying to acquire some psilocybin mushrooms to micro-dose when I am feeling real bad and therefore somehow rewire my brain into positivity which I know can work and will be much more beneficial than going on long term ssri's with all their shitty side effects but I have had no luck in finding someone.
I want the suicidal thoughts and the negativity to stop. It's killing me. There is no one I can talk to. I feel so alone but before I could manage this with other forms of escapism ( I use to smoke weed and just listen to music and go for a drive then come home and play video games. I could hold down a job back then but not anymore) I can't even look for a job properly as my confidence is so low and my energy is almost non-existant. The low dose of opiates just help me get numb and through the day so I can do things like clean the house and drive my wife to and from work as well as anything else that needs to be done (I do most of the written work for my wife's Advanced accounting diploma which she does as part of her study visa).

I just want it all to end and things to be positive again. I'm struggling more and more each day. Positive affirmations don't work any more. Everything looks so bleak.

I feel like this thread will get drowned out fast as I remember /qq/ being full of people like me or guys that struggle with getting into a relationship with a girl (like that even matters).
Angus Dossleman - Tue, 28 May 2019 12:39:16 EST Lny7/LNo No.529616 Reply
Depending on where you live, you might want to try checking out online headshops like azarius.net or avalonmagicplants.com for your psilocybin needs. Quit the fucking opiates though, like holy shit you're ruining yourself with them. Don't be a fucking idiot and stop the self-pity party too. Stop being a sad sack of shit and pick yourself up. But seriously. QUIT THE FUCKING OPIATES.

If you're really too pathetic to even get a parttime job, consider getting a pet for the loneliness. Kind of sad you even feel that way with your wife and all though. Is that marriage even still in good spirits?
pl0x !!S5n/dBdH - Tue, 28 May 2019 13:20:37 EST mx986IvR No.529617 Reply
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Quit the opiates.

//27 year old boomer. Quit the weed, cigs, drinking. clean cut.

// I live in my parents' basement.

// I got a security guard license.

I have two (albeit part time) jobs as, well...take not so wild guess.

#Comments below

Dude, man to man in the era of Instant Gratification.

Just. go buy a red bull, and pull up your favorite video game.

Listen to me.

Nothing's changed, you're still you, still wise, still kicking the can.

put on some fast ass music and kick it like it's 2005


Listen broheim, you're in a bad place, we all are, it's been like this forever. it's life.
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- Mon, 27 May 2019 07:14:51 EST Oc4NwxLh No.529578
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Archie Fuckingson - Mon, 27 May 2019 14:20:40 EST dxVpQFbW No.529591 Reply
16 is legal in a lot civilised places because there's nothing shifting about teenagers fucking someone around their own age and maturity. If OP is posting here though, there is a very narrow margin between being a kid needing a ban and it being a bit weird.

16 year olds still have a lot of growing up to do emotionally. You're under 21 hopefully so you are still a long way off done, and if you're over 21 you need double down on growing up.

A 16 year old with emotional problems and awful friends is not a good choice. You know it is better to be alone than in a relationship that makes you unhappy and you've considered that from your point of view. Have you done so for this girl? Over time this distress will become resentment and it will be bad for her. If you're really done the longer you wait the worse it is. I mean pick your moment and consider your delivery but we're talking about doing this in a few days not weeks or months.
Augustus Bundlelatch - Mon, 27 May 2019 16:11:57 EST 2sWwtUKX No.529595 Reply

lol i just turned 21, i know this is a north american mostly board, but that creepyness factor isnt really taken in consideration where i live, nor i ever cared about it
>You know it is better to be alone than in a relationship that makes you unhappy and you've considered that from your point of view. Have you done so for this girl? Over time this distress will become resentment and it will be bad for her. If you're really done the longer you wait the worse it is.

yeah, yeah, i understand, i just dont wanna see her get hurt and there seems to be no other way around the fact that this will inevitably happen, one way or the other
i mean, at the end of the day its not a relationship i "chose", it happened organically and we were both very into it, things seemed easier despite her personal problems, but nowadays there's something new to complain about everyday

i hate that she's the one that will have the worst of it
Archie Fuckingson - Mon, 27 May 2019 18:33:39 EST dxVpQFbW No.529600 Reply
I think you're probably over estimating how bad it'll be for her. She'll cope badly because she's young, the fact everything is constant drama shows that. She'll probably be massively distraught and want to die for at least 39 minutes and 24 seconds. But seriously she'll bounce. It's got to happen at some point and you can at least make this as clean and unambiguous as possible, you can show her some respect and decency and space, give her distance, not carry on with other people while it's in clear view for a while and so on.

She will make a massive drama storm but she'll be fine in a few weeks. Everything in her life is drama because she's 16. I suspect when you say "it happened" what happened is she aggressively pursued it to the extent a 16 year who is still in school can with an adult and you just let it happen because it was fun at the time. She wasn't ready for a relationship but you didn't look at her as a possible relationship candidate until it had happened. That's fair enough and I can understand why you were blindsided and didn't see all the teen drama coming with her.

I think you might be a bit immature, because you don't realise how dumb we are at 16, we haven't got the experience and perspective yet. If you don't see it yet, you've not gone that far. In a few years you'll look back at this and her and realise how stupid it all was and also how far we all come.

In time she'll ditch her friend (or the friend will grow up, or ditch her) she'll tell her parents to fuck off and she'll be ready for a serious relationship. It won't be with you, but you'll hopefully also have a better notion of a good choice by then and so you'll both be happy. You both had fun. Maybe learned about about what you want out a relationship and perhaps you even showed her for a brief period what a decent boyfriend is like (which means she's less likely to accept abuse and shit because she knows it doesn't have to be like that). Don't let your short term guilt and squeamishness hurt you both more.

how do i get my neighbors dog taken away holy shit

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- Sat, 25 May 2019 06:08:56 EST +eu7fILs No.529530
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it NEVER STOPS FUCKING BARKING. i want it fucking dead so bad. even if by some miracle they let it inside. fucking hillbillies wake up at 6 am sharp for no reason at all. first they do is make sure their retarded dog goes outside and pisses everyone off.

they know the dog is a loud annoying cock sucker. build the fence right next to the road and every single persons house. they have a backyard they could of done it in but nope. right next to the road. the fucking mutt piece of shit barks all day and night. barks multiple times every hour literally 24/7. dont even bother letting it inside anymore. it can be so cold i see my breath and cant even go outside without 3 layers of clothes. fucking dogs sitting out there all night all day. we have winters with snow up to the roof literally everything frozen solid like the entire shit hole is frozen solid completely ice and mountains of snow. fucking dogs sit out for 10 hours straight.

i cant even go on a fucking walk. without a shit dog fucking freaking the fuck out charging at me. its bitten kids. its killed animals. i have my own cat i have to worry about. it fucking walks through my yard. owners dont give a fuck just walk right through my back yard like they fucking own it. what the fuck dude. they fucking leave it out 24/7. hot sun cold winters freezing cold fucking icebox dont care. it barks at 3 am 7 am 6 am midnight 10 pm 9 pm. all day and night.

is this enough to get them taken away? holy fuck how is this not neglect. i see them sitting outside all night in the freezing fucking cold and bark 24/7. they start at fucking 6 am every day if they're not just out all fucking night and barking at 2 am. my town is completely dead silent not a peep and then this fucking dog is literally 100% of the noise and it never stops and its right next to my window. i tried reporting it a shit load of times the cops came one time barking stopped for 2 weeks and then they just started leaving it out 24/7. can i just write in a complaint every day until they do something until they have like 800 complaints about it? i want to write in letters or something specifically to stay anonymous because if they dont take care of them i have to kill it. i cant deal with this anymore.

and i cant even find the address anywhere on their house so idk what to do i dont see their address i can kinda guess it with google maps and give a description in the house and hope that works
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Augustus Siggleham - Sun, 26 May 2019 06:29:09 EST 138dZzdZ No.529566 Reply
i am with you OP, this should totally be illegal. having a dog always barking or having a house alarm always going off.. but the dog always barking is worse because the dog is suffering immensely.

My dad's solution to this was to go around to the neighbors and say he loved walking dogs and ask if he could possibly walk their dog.. but that only works for a while, the dog is still abandoned most of the day so he'll still cry most of the day, but it will make him a little calmer if he gets regular walks... you don't seem like a dog person, that idea seems like the start of a feel-good movie where you learn to love dogs.

It's different in different countries. I know the RSPCA will go to the house and make sure there is water, the dog is not diseased or starved, and enough space for the dog to turn around and once there is that, unfortunately, the owners can neglect the dog as much as they want

We can't even get emotional abuse recognized as a crime with children, let alone dogs... i bet RSPCA and Social Workers have some awful stories of kids and animals they had to leave in horrible places because it just wasn't legally bad enough
Cedric Fanderfuck - Sun, 26 May 2019 06:49:52 EST +eu7fILs No.529567 Reply
the laws in my town says they cant bark extremely early or extremely late which they do. cant walk around without leashes. which they do but havent seen that in awhile. cant bark for more than 10-20 minutes straight. and the town says that if they get warned enough times its fines and then the dog eventually gets taken away.

and this has to be neglect on top of it. ive had days where i can only stand being outside for an hour or so and freezing yet they sit out all night when i can see my breath and shit and i see them outside in freezing cold winter snow shit for 8 hours straight.

i have videos and shit of them running loose and barking at night. i just want to be able to report it anonymously i dont want to be linked to it at all.
Cornelius Wamblebene - Sun, 26 May 2019 09:11:23 EST jnas4L6T No.529570 Reply
how are your moldy windows OP

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